#ashtalks

[henryashtran]

What 2024 looks like

[jamrock41]

to be loved is to be changed.

life of pi, yann martel. the base violence necessary for change, arcane s1e3. the pain scale, eula biss. happy progress day!, arcane s1e4. video analysis. oil and water, arcane s1e8. the goldfinch, donna tartt. the monster you created, arcane s1e9.

[ashmcgivern]

Hi I’ve been absent a lot lately, the whole of 2024 in fact I’m realizing.

On top of just not having the spoons to really share much of what I’m doing, in combination with NDA, social media just exhausts me now. The state of the internet in general. I can’t really mentally handle constantly hearing and seeing how AI seems to be permeating every part of online existence, how every website is one big pool of advertisements, and uh, the state of the world in general. There are too many things for my dumb brain.

So I’m taking a bit of a back seat, or rather I have been I guess. Tumblr is really tbh only social media I spend any time on and even then there’s whispers of Automatic partnering up with Midjourney. If it happens I won’t stay here long that’s for sure.

And where does that leave me then? I have a lot of great friends on Discord I talk to and I’m getting into Twitch more, but I know people here still want to see what I’m up to. I have mutuals I like and artists I want to follow that I don’t necessarily want to abandon. But with the state of things, everyone just seems tired. People are sharing less. Is there really nowhere for artists left?

It’s just kind of depressing tbh. I get more fulfillment being away from social media than being on it, which is a GOOD thing, but it sucks that the time I do spend back here doesn’t feel safe anymore.

All this to say, I wish I had more to share, but I’m tired and feeling recluse, and I’m tired of shifting where my social media presence is at any given time. I’m very close to finishing a BIG project that I’ll finally be able to put online, but there’s a lot of processing I have to do first and these things take TIME.

I only have about one month left at WB (unless they extend me AGAIN which would be the 5th time fjdhdhdh) and maybe a break is what I need. But I dunno. I for sure will be streaming more if nothing else, but idk about my other social media presences. If you see me active on social media again, know that it’s def not because I enjoy it. It’s to get my name and face out there ultimately so I can find work again. Not to mention I’ve begun the process of archiving/moving my art blog to a new location where I can self host because…….. I’m so tired.

Idk!!! Morning thoughts. This is nothing my friends don’t already know but for those who are curious, here it is. I spend a lot of time on tumblr but I do t share a lot because of *broadly gestures*. Hope y’all feel me.

[ashleyinky]

🫵YOU are amazing ❤️💙

OMG POMNIIIHHHHDHHDHDDJJDJD

[ashs-stars]

angel hums that “it’s corn” tiktok sound while doing chores and davey has never been so confused in his life

[flat-ocean-girl]

The baltic sea is so underrated AND FOR WHAT, I love her

[ashhawkburning]

Every time I update Toolset Unlocked I get a step closer to just bundling the files into two separate downloads rather than four (one for the original two, one for the DA2 compatible versions) asdfghjklklsadjdsf

On the other hand that's awkward if a bugfix only involves one file .__.

[espressokiri]

Has anyone read Phantom Tales of The Night? I highly recommend it and it has climbed up to the top of my favourite manga list!

[bittersweet--chaos]

darlin groans "im dying" and there are two main reactions from their (potential) partners

team "yes darlin i know": sam, lovely, milo and jason

and team *freaks out cuz they think darlin's dying*: asher, vincent, david and angel

- :)

I wanna move Angel up to the first team cause I feel like they’d say that and Lovely down the the second one only cause I hc that Lovely worries a lot. They’d take that shit seriously

[henryashtran]

Absolutely devastated that I can’t add this to that It’s May gif

[jamrock41]

the meat paintings are, understandably, the pieces that elicit the most questions. the first is usually, "why meat?" the glib answer is: "you can only paint so many pears." / scott conary, meat paintings.

[ashmcgivern]

Said goodbye to Sandi today. It was time, I’m out of sorts, simultaneously torn asunder and unimaginably relieved. Taking care of a geriatric lizard is a lot of work, but she was worth every ounce of effort. She was a good one, she made it 22 years. That first photo was one of the last I took with her. The others are photos from the past few months.

I don’t know what else to say - I could speak about her for hours, and at the same time there’s not much else to say. It doesn’t feel real and I’ll be adjusting for a long, long time.

[ashleyinky]

22 November ,! Happy birthday to @rosemary-777 and me!!💝💫

:D

[ashs-stars]

Milo Greer

[klanceart]

-If you were a Lance stan during VLD, you are now a Jaskier stan. I don’t make the rules 🤷‍♀️

[alittlestudycorner]

21st June 2021

I had a whole lot of study related things planned to do today but I got my period this morning and I'm having stomach cramps:( They are not that bad, but the first day is always the worst for me and I feel soo uncomfortable all over. How am I supposed to concentrate in this state? T-T It's fine. I'll do something. Will update you'll in the evening hehe! Have a great day!