It's part of my animation WIP, these are key frames for one of scenes included therein. Sadly, I don't have much time to actually animate so just drawing key frames at school has to do for now.
My song of the day is K. by Cigarettes After Sex. I'm really into this soft type of music these days. I've really been loving Suki Waterhouse too. Just the right amount of sad where it feels artsy and not clinically depressed. Because I'm really more of the latter.
I'm currently re-reading Twilight because it's my comfort book and I am very anxious these days. I even got a tshirt with the New Moon poster on it. I kind of don't know my limits when I have an obsession because I also got a pin with Bella and Edward on it, and the physical copies of the books... In my defense, I've loved this stupid franchise since I was maybe 16. I remember when I first read the books. I was sick one summer and it was literally the only thing I had. The books were my older cousin's and I wasn't technically allowed to read them because they were "scary". But I got my hands on them and all I read after that, for years on end, was vampire fiction only. Which is funny because I'm extremely squeamish and even passed out while watching Breaking Dawn when they made corpse-Bella drink blood. This was my wake-up call for a while...
I kinda jump from one topic to another but nobody will read this so it doesn't realle matter....right?
The ED is def not going in the right direction but that's more of a result of the anxiety and not the other way around. I wish I had the ED that makes you look like a tortured atrist but instead I have the one that makes you FAT .*gasp* I know it sounds twisted to wish for an ED but knowung how I grew up I was never gonna be okay. I could've at least gotten a chance to look the part. Now I look strong and healthy but bang my had against the wall anytime I binge. Can I even use those words on Tumblr? Will I be banned after just a day on the app? I hope not, it feels good to share with the void.
So all in all...I feel ugly, my body is a prison, I have a meltdown twice a day and anytime I have to put on my outside clothes. I keep bying smaller sizes in hopes that I will get my shit together. But it reallly doesn't seem likely today. The all or nothing mindset is really doing a number on me... Anyways! Off I go back to my lonely life!
Mangaido is a fantastic website with an easy to read and use format!, Tumblr will still be the place for weekly updates but to read the chapters in one package you can go here where everything is much better organized!
Sometimes I worry small art blogs I follow think I'm a stalker for liking and reblogging their art regularly, even when they're not posting anything, but I really just like their art and don't know how else to give encouragement so they don't stop trying and sharing their work.