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iiizuru · 2 years
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Making ANOTHER meme
Cant get myself to want to finish the original one lmao
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narwhalandchill · 5 months
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how are we feeling about this project amber update
assuming this is in relation to childe bc who the fuck else JWDJWJKDJKW anon im so sorry if not. also so so sorry for how out of hand this got. i am simply unwell about him.
But! Well. there certainly are thoughts
(obviously 4.6 datamine of arle SQ and her voicelines; This Will Not Spoil Anything Abt The Main SQ Plot, i only discuss the relevant parts. also some p Heavy negativity towards fanon ooc at the start youve been warned dont @ me)
(i mean i didnt even read anything of the SQ but The scene w childe so idek the main plot of the quest rly either lmao. tho go at ur own risk if u wanna check the dialogue out; its the 2nd quest log but it does hint at the greater story)
TLDR: how i feel abt his appearance in a vaccuum? quite solid despite the briefness, actually. accounting for the way fanon is 100% likely going to be reading into this and turning it into the Lets Infantilize Ajax Even More 2024 championship? conflicted.
in other words; a certified labyrinth warriors moment - theyve expanded on childes character in a very interesting and quite a compelling way and while i Do like the potential in what im seeing from hoyos end theyve also done it so that its going to be misinterpreted to hell and back by fanon so i kinda have an immediate jaded love-hate moment going on JJWJDKJDKJWJDWKJ
its literally just labyrinth warriors flashbacks - that event has some of my ALL TIME favorite insights into who ajax is and how he views the world and himself but when the event came out all everyone cared abt was to warp it into baby boy stuck in scawwy paper boy dungeon dehumanizes himself by calling himself a weapon and doesnt love himself he is such a sad trauma meowkitten 🥺🥺so yeah
bc like lets look at this properly for a bit; okay he went back to fontaine to look for skirk still somewhat injured and waa waa my 286 month infant baby cannot Make decisions like that!!!!!11! which is to say. i am tired of him getting this shit every time.
is it smart of him to get on the move immediately with just the bare minimum of rest? no. do i like that hes straining himself before proper recovery? not particularly no. do i feel the particular need to psychoanalyze this grown man and feared warrior whos 100% survived Way Worse in Way More Extreme Situations for it? hell fucking no.
while not at all the course of action a medical professional would approve of. from childes POV its perfectly logical hes priorizing going back for skirk when its literally the FIRST TIME shes showed up in like. a Decade. when hes been looking for her all this time are you kidding me 😭😭😭 but fanon must keep fanoning for their widdle baby girl so what does a hater like me know
anyway. seething and venting over im gonna try to avoid bringing up how much i hate this kinda infantilization of ajax now im sorry for bringing it up so much on ur innocent ask anon KJWDJKWKJDJDKWJKD. neutral discussion moment. i Promise
so it seems that theyre going for the pulcinella-is-shady-about-ajax (and prolly his family) angle for good and like. personally for me as long as the only real source of that claim was scara (a cynical edgelord who doesnt believe in non-exploitative human relationships, mind you) i was rather skeptical towards just instantly drawing that conclusion, but well. with the scene in arles AQ it appears to be sth theyre building towards
i actually really fucking loved that scene bc while theres outsider perspectives (scara obvi; and even arles line for him has that vibe. and ppl still take that shit face value 💀💀) and a lot of fandom assuming childes like. completely clueless and naive and ignorant towards the potential risks involved with trusting pulcinella. this is actually a very clever demonstration of quite the opposite? and showcasing how despite his aversion towards schemes and lies hes still intelligent and knows the kind of people hes dealing with when it comes to his fellow harbingers
like. childe has a negative opinion of arle based on what pulcinella has told him about her because at face value many of her deeds are in heavy conflict with his values of loyalty and family. and because he does not have the further context behind her actions and what the HotH under her is really like. Obviously hed hold a very hostile and wary view towards arlecchino
(ESPECIALLY when with all this biased intel hes still going to run into kids from the house!!! and then hes going wtf? these are good kids. what the hell is that knave doing with them??? blink twice if you need help i will start a civil war for yall like thats how he is with kids!!!!)
so YES. pulcinella has given him if not false then at least misleading intel based on the political tension between himself and arlecchino and the wider HotH. and childes taken that at face value! sure! he is close with pulcinella of course he would!
BUT. THEN. he returns to fontaine and seeks arlecchinos help looking for skirk. and observes her behavior and modus operandi for himself as well as the kids. does he go "nah she must be just hiding the crazy evil shit i would never distrust pulcinella" and leave it at that when reality doesnt completely match his expectations?
NO. because when offered the opportunity through the traveler asking about the HotH childe immediately capitalizes on the opportunity to prod for answers and see if pulcinella is lying to him!!!!
and hes so fucking smart with the way he does it too???? i LOVE his intelligence. the entire thing is so simple yet elegant; it Completely relies on his reputation as the kinda gullible harbinger whod Never scheme or hide Anything to indirectly affirm or deny his suspicions. he doesnt Need to Pretend to care about the possibility of arle betraying the kids bc he genuinely does!! and when she pushes back against the accusation he doesnt Need to fake admitting to her that well, actually, its all just rumors so he could be completely wrong. and so on. like he navigates the entire thing so effortlessly. and whats the end result?
childe has Confirmation of pulcinellas possible ulterior motives in action AND that arlecchino is a much more reliable ally than he initially assumed. all the while appearing as just The Straightforward 11th. like obviously id need to hear it voiced first to be sure but in text it v much gives the impression hes almost kinda just. playing up the threats towards arle and being "dumb" on Purpose?? to get the answers he wanted out of arle without appearing like hes fishing for anything particular. and i just hhhhhhhhhhh
i love when he does this so muchhhh!!!!!! 😭😭 he doesnt need to become some machiavellian schemer to be able to strategize !!!!!! he avoids scheming bc he Dislikes it not bc hes incapable of it like this has Always been the case Since Liyue AQ and i love whenever they show that side of himm . my Beloved
so anyway. while i do still think the like "pulcinella is bad and has his family hostage" is still kind of a generic plotline and i hope the writing regarding the whole thing wont ultimately turn out to be sth That simplified and black and white. its p clear theyre doing Something with pulcinellas motivations and as they are. im Really glad theyre letting it show that childes not just some completely passive party being manipulated in this all. he Is thinking abt this stuff and his position among the harbingers. ig we shall see where it goes - not the greatest fan of the concept still, but canon text supports it becoming a thing way more than when it was just scaras word we had for it. hope theyll surprise me positively w how they go about it!
then briefly for the rest uhh
also loved arle and childe just shittalking the rest of the harbingers it was amazing. i wasnt expecting this kinda dynamic between them at all but its great lmao. also i wanna see childe hang out w the HotH kids
as for project stuzha; so we dont really get anything solid on it other than being summoned back to snezhnaya for it is apparently a Big Deal. but still very interested. let my man have his endgame significance Trust
childes appearance was obviously v brief ultimately but that was clear from his leaked linecount to begin with - i am pretty satisfied with what they seem to have done w him. like its not The Best but also i wasnt expecting his lore to get some massive expansion in another harbingers SQ . the worst i feared was that it was just going to be a flashback of arle returning his vision which did Not happen so massive W. i am super hyped to hear this scene voice acted proper and happy to see him again, i really hope he gets to appear at least once more in an interlude or dains quest or something before going on hiatus again but idk if thats too much to ask LKKWJDJWDJWD
also: i am never changing my namecard after this patch drops. oh my godddddddd its So Fucking Beautiful 😭😭😭😭
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But. Yeah. lots of good stuff. unfortunately lots of it will get misinterpreted and fanon will get obnoxious about it. but i still love getting to see him again and i am speedrunning that namecard day fucking one mutuals and/or followers in EU please add me (UID 711090267) ill need coop buddies for the world bosses
thank youuuuuuu for the ask i hope this monstrosity of a monologue doesnt scare u off 💀💀💀
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stanlunter · 4 months
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Characters that I think are actually straight even tho a lot of people consider them as queer:
Bc I have the whole hour before Pride Month and I'm bored, lol
Rainer. Well, he didn't show to have feelings for any male characters (and no, I don't think he likes Bertholomulo, he litterally ships him with Annie), only to Historia, plus he just doesn't give me this vibes, so yeah
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Bojack main five. All of them have shown interest only to the opposite gender, so there are no reasons for them to be anything rather than straight. The only exception can be Mr Peanutbutter with his interest in Bojack bc of which I don't mind people hc him as bi, but I think it was just a platonic admiration, nothing more. Also hc any of them as aro or ace (except Todd, obviously) doesn't make sense either, since we know damn well that all of them are very romantic and almost all of them are very sexual
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Howleen. I can see her being bi, but I personally don't think she's actually interested in women. She was shown to have interest in men, but women? Just no. Twyls is her bestie, not a gf. I don't mind headcanons ofc, but I just don't see it
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Denji. I mean, this guy is obsessed with women and never shown interest in men, he's straight as a line, sorry
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Rika & Momoe. I really don't know where it even comes from, but a lot of people hc Rika as lesbian, while she's pretty much canon straight. She litterally says "I wish you was a boy" line and you still don't get it?
What about Momoe... This one confuses me even more. For some reason the whole fandom thinks Momoe is barely canon bi/trans, I have to fully desagree with this, cuz it basically goes against her whole arc
No, she wasn't in love with her friend that killed herself. That basically was the point that her friend killed herself bc Momoe didn't like her back (at least I read it this way). In fact, Momoe litterally was sad bc only women were attracted to her bc they thought she waa a boy. While she wanted a man to find her attracted. So it makes no sense for her to like girls.
Trans think is mb arguble, but I interpritate her story as an experience of being gender nonconforming: she doesn't look like a gender she is. I don't see any trans allegories here, especially considering the fact that we have a canon trans character there, Im pretty sure, if the creators wanted Momoe to be trans, they would say she is. Also the fact that she could get in this "magical world" , since only afab can go there (considering the fact that Kaoru, as a transman, got there)
Shinji & Kaoru. Yes, this one is super objectionable. Tbh, I can see him being bi, as everybody thinks he is. However, I do like another explanation of his character arc and his relationship with Kaoru, bc It's just much more interesting than him just being bisexual
Well, in the way I see it, Shinji is straight and basically can be only attracted to girls, however, Kaoru is the only person that showed "love" to Shinji and who "cared" about him. While everyone else were rejecting and just using him, Kaoru is the first person who said Shinji he loves him and the only one that basically didn't want anything from him. Who could give Shinji unconditional love he can't get from others. And I really do not think that Shinji loved him "back" in romantic way. Imo, he didn't love him at all, but since Kaoru was the only one who gave Shinji at least some love, Shinji had no other choice than take this love anyways. Just bc it was the only way for him to feel loved in general. And to me this idea reveales Shinji's character much better than just "he's bisexual, that's why he hang out with Kaoru" and "Kaoru exists only for lgbt rep" (also have to add that It's only about original anime, not rebuilds, bc I basically haven't watched it and mb It's different there)
What about Kaoru? Kaoru isn't a human to have feelings or love. In reality he doesn't care about Shinji, he just pretended to love him only to find out what love for humans is. So ofc I don't think he's straight either. He just doesn't have feelings bc he's not a human and not even a person. He's just an angel who pretended to be a boy to know humans better
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Ramona (from the movie). I thought this one is basically canon, but for some reason some people still think she's bi. Yes, she had relationship with another girl, but she has litterally said that she was just "a little bi-curious" - which literally means that she's straight and just wanted to have this experience and that she's not wlw in any way, unlike Roxie. Imo, headcanoning movie Ramona is bi is kinda even biphobic, since it sounds exactly like this stereotype that bi girls only play with girls and always chose men anyways
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Higuchi. This take isn't as strong, but I just personally don't see her as wlw. She's obsessed with Ryunosuke and has never shown any sign of being interested in Gin, so yeah, I think she's just straight and gives me these vibes tbh
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Annie & Hitch. Again, both girls that have shown interest only to men. Annie loves Armin, and, even tho I don't like Aruani, It's litterally canon and even has some build up. And Hitch talks only about men as well. Also I really love her relationship with Marlo and their love was really so important. Yeah, both of them could be bisexual, but I just don't see this. The only hc Im really against is any of them being lesbian, bc it just doesn't make sense
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Lute. I mean, she's litterally homophobic and It's basically canon. And she didn't show any signs of being closest gay/bi anyways and Imo she loves Adam. Idk why would she be anything besides homophobic straight. Like, I can see Adam being bi, but Lute? Nah
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And yeah, if anyone thinks me seing some characters as straights makes me homophobic, I advise you to use your brain or smth. Anyways, that's just my vision which I'm not trying to impose on anyone, lol
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vamossainz55 · 1 year
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So glad we’re in agreement on the parents topic! 😄
I think those people who hold what Carlos’ parents do against him are mostly the same group of people who hate Carlos on principle, nitpicking everything he does or says 🤷‍♀️ I imagine they want to be bullies in real life but are too afraid of consequences so they resort to social media to live out their mean girl fantasies online where you can say anything without any repercussions (unless you’re a celeb I guess). It’s the sad reality we live in. He gets hate when he’s realistic in interviews about ferrari’s results which somehow means he doesn’t have a champion mentality, but when he says he wants to win - he’s totally delusional. Like, pick a struggle, people haha. Or like drama the other day, that he hasn’t been a Ferrari fan since birth therefore isn’t as worthy of support as Charles. Just all these stupid things that make my head explode every time I see it. Why would anyone waste their time posting obsessively about someone they don’t like? I will never understand.
Again, I’m not talking about all Charles fans of course, just those hardcore stans that dedicate their socials to Carlos hate more than to supporting their fav. I like to believe that in a couple of years they’ll look back on what they were doing and be ashamed and learn to never do it again to anyone, celeb or not.
I also want to say that I’m sad that Carlos barely posts on social media himself but at the same time I hope it means he doesn’t see all this stuff, because when this kind of animosity is directed towards you over the silliest things, I think it’s harder to get over it in a way, because you can’t explain it logically to yourself…
so so glad we are in agreement about the parents thing too, i feel like so many people lose touch of reality and forget that theyre humans who have family, friends, that arent a full representation of them 😫.
you might get me introuble w the whole charles thing but… i agree. some (not all at all) are very questionable. i do think they actively as you mentioned spend more time talking abt carlos then their fav which ? why 😭 (ive mainly seen it on f1twt tbh). like the online hate is ridiculous- i also recently realised its really reserved online? i had this perspective that so many of the tifosi disliked carlos but the whole monza weekend he was so so loved. i was so surprised until i realised its literally a problem that mainly exists online 💀.
but im gonna be honest as well, charles as well gets quite a bit of hate. after monza i saw it increase a bit, which i do not stand for and i think overall that those people online should take their heads out of their ass and focus on bringing their favorite driver up than tearing another one down. you can support your favorite driver without rooting for the downfall of another. can your driver only be good/better if the other driver is shitty? is that the image you want? i also agree anon, they’re probably repressed irl and need to release negativity through comments.
i really miss how active carlos was on social media, im sad that i missed his mclaren era and just posting for fun. ofc we get the occasional post here and there but the vibe is really different. but yeah- at the end of the day it might be better that he doesnt see the hate but at the same time i dont think it changes much bc hed still be online… just not posting as often. im just kind of sad we see less of his personality more than anything else ):
anyways this ended up soooo long hehe. hope it wasnt too much but waa i love these types of discussions
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restinpeacesensei · 2 years
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@ironpaladont
#that line about being with people who love and care #feel that so much #im so happy akoya has them in his life #being yourself can be so scary its so much easier to be anyone else #im glad he can be who he is with them #your art is so gorgeous sensei! #that pic of akoya with all the cracks in him #it makes me feel so sad #but the ending gives me so much hope 
waaa rai thank you so much for your thoughtful comments omg!!! 🥺🥺 that line is so important to me, im so happy you were able to feel for it;;; \T~~~T/ it really is what makes the difference in feeling like it’s okay to say what you want and feel ;;~~~;;
being yourself is incredibly scary oTL....  i wanted to be someone else when i was younger bc i felt like i would be looked down on or embarrassed for being myself, but over time i found it was harder to try to be someone else. it’s okay, i think, not to show your whole self to everyone, but to show only as much as is comfortable in each situation... it’s okay to have multiple selves or sides of yourself if that’s easier. we deserve to be comfortable first before showing who we are
thank you so much for being glad for akoya that he can be himself with his friends, that’s so sweet of you waa!! 🥺 i hope you also always have people you feel comfortable being yourself around!! \T---T/ uwaaa it’s so sweet of you to still call me sensei im so happy you would call this gorgeous 😭😭💖 thank you so much for thinking about it so deeply and appreciating it so much!!! \;;/////;//
it means so much to me that the pic of akoya with all the cracks in him makes you feel so sad!! ;;___;; that image is filled with so much that i wanted to express, and it makes me feel so healed and touched that you felt that when you saw it T~~~T but im also so happy that the ending gives you so much hope!!! \;;~~~;;/ that means so much to me bc i have just recently begun to see there’s a way to be myself without living in so much fear, and im so happy i was able to convey that hope to someone else!!! \T~~~T/
thank you so much for such a precious and heartfelt comment rai omg!! 🥺🥺💖 akoya wishes you a christmas with everyone you’re most comfortable with, you’re welcome to come celebrate with him wearing whatever you want to wear!! \>/////</ merry christmas!!
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missmalaysia · 3 years
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there r these pics luq n i took n theyre lovely but its contradictorily from one of the loneliest days of my life
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I've officially hit a new low. it would be funny if it wasn't so embarrassingly pathetic
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heyitsyn · 4 years
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'Siri Am I Having a Stroke?’ Sofia the First
Soulmate!Daichi x Reader Soulmate!Tendou x Reader
a/n: lmao, yall finna know what kind of soulmate au this
when your soulmate gets hurt, you kinda get hurt too
the music your soulmate listens to or constantly sings is always playing in your head
request:  Can I request a daichi, tendou, and aone soulmate au headcanon 🤲🏽😩 they're my faves, I wanted to add some more but there could be a limit? I'll request again next time ^^
a/n: sorry anon but ill only do daichi and tendou bc im not very familiar with aone :( but theres not really a limit so go ahead!!
requests open!!
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so anyways
for most of your life, you thought you didnt even have a soulmate
there were no scars, no bruises,
nothing
this other half of yours was completely silent and you really thought that youd die forever
but, you
you were a wild chile and you were the type to go playing outside w your brothers and get a lot of cuts
maybe that was why you thought you didnt have a soulmate bc when your soulmate does get hurt, you wouldnt see it since youd think it was one of your own
now, daichi
he worried for you
new scars and bruises would appear on his arms overnight and he fussed over the fact that you would constantly getting hurt
were you in a toxic environment?
were these intentional?
but he would try and heal them, thinking that it would heal you too bc he didnt want you to be hurt
uwu daichi luv
he would even kiss them better bc his mom told him that kisses help them heal faster
then,
during middle school, daichi found his love for volleyball
he started training and being more active and that caused him a lot of bruises and pain
meanwhile w you,
youve mellowed out a bit
so when you entered middle school,
you were actually ecstatic to find that you had a soulmate bc you would find bruises on your hands and arms
you found out the afternoon of the first day of middle school
daichi was in the gym, practicing during lunch, and he hit a spike that bruised his fingers and he received a really powerful ball
you were sitting in class, completely bored out of your mind so you just doodled on your paper
then you flinched at the sudden pain and saw the formation of the beautiful mix of blue, purple,green, bruise
yall are in different schools btw
you shrieked and stood up, cutting off your teacher and surprising everyone in the room
‘my soulmate!’
they were like, ‘okay and?’
the entire day, you admired the colors, not even minding the hurt bc this was it!!
!!!!
your soulmate was real!!!
but daichi was worried that you were also going through the same pain and soreness from practice
and you were
after the shock and happiness of knowing you in fact do have a soulmate,
youve started getting annoyed
was this what he felt whenever you injured yourself during your younger years?
bc this waas annoying
you were constantly fatigued, tired, sore
even the mere action of getting up in the morning sucked and you actually fell down the stairs due to the soreness of your legs and you dropped your chopsticks due to the hurt in your fingers
youve concluded that your soulmate was either an athlete or in a toxic environment
during the walk to school, you raised your arms and watched a new bruise forming
it was a truly beautiful sight but the stiffness and hurt weighed it down
this was your only form of communication with your soulmate and you were sad bc you wanted to be there for him and help heal his bruises and scars
one of your friends suggested a crazy thought of hurting yourself to write a small message which you instantly turned down bc thats too crazy and you will not do that
as the years went on, you were starting to get more worried each day that you wont be meeting your soulmate soon
for almost 6 years, youve wandered over to every athletic club in your school or nearby schools to find if there was even a person who had the same bruises as you
ngl, some lied just bc they wanted you as their soulmate uwu
one of your classmates in seijoh, iwaizumi hajime, has understood your dilemma since he was one of the ones youve expressed this concern to
youve been classmates for 3 years and youve always been coincidentally sat next to each other so youre close
i really cant resist my mans
‘y/n, i really think your soulmate is a volleyball player’
you rolled your eyes as you continued taking out your bento
‘iwa, ive checked your team, multiple times, and none of them are my soulmate! ive even checked other schools too since my brothers have connections there. but still nothing’
he felt bad for you, truly
he already found his when yall started high school, almost immediately, and you were so jealous
‘but those bruises on your arm can only be from volleyball. the way its placed, its like receiving an intense ball while the fingers might be because he spikes the ball’
you sighed before leaning your chin on your hand
‘okay, great buddha iwa-chan. enlighten me as to why you think so’
his eye twitched at the ridiculous nickname
‘y/n, im a volleyball player. ive been playing since i was like 6 and im the ace. i have those same exact bruises’
‘WHAT! IWA-CHAN ARE YOU MY SOULMATE?!’
‘YOU IDIOT I ALREADY HAVE MINE!’
but you mulled it over for a few days
yea, it would make sense, right?
but it still doesnt add up that youve literally visited every single club around with the help of being iwa’s friend and going to their matches
however,
due to karasuno not having practice matches w seijoh or not advancing far enough to play against them, youve never really interacted with that team
besides, the times they actually played against each other, youve been busy due to having to do interships, part time jobs, and studying since it was your last year of high school
it was during the second interhigh that iwa finally got you to go watch them play
‘come on, y/n. shittykawa misses you and matsun and maki keep demanding your support’
‘iwa, what-’
so you found yourself at the stands, just watching the games until seijoh actually plays
then you saw the team, known as karasuno, enter the gym to start their warm-ups
your heart started beating really fast and you were kinda freaking out bc what was happening
‘siri am i having a stroke?’
daichi was feeling the same thing
he thought it was just the adrenaline of playing a game but in all of his years of play8ing volleyball, he hasnt felt this intense beating of his heart
he even had to lean on suga for support bc it felt like his heart was going to jump out of his chest
‘daichi, you okay?’
suga worriedly asked and placed a hand on his forehead to check his temp
daisuga rights yall
he didnt want to worry the team so he nodded, just waving it off
he was captain so he shouldnt worry the others
oikawa and iwa entered the stands and were confused as to why you were looking around with wide eyes like an owl
fukurodani vibes
‘y/n-chan, what’s wrong?’
oikawa asked and you looked at them, surprised and shocked
they were lowkey freaked out bc what was happening
‘oikawa-san, my heart-’
you mumbled and pointed to your chest
his smile wobbled bc you just started at him and it was starting to scare him a bit
since oikawa hasnt found his soulmate yet, he wasnt familiar with the feeling of being in the same vicinity as his other half
but iwa did
and he was smiling
‘you owe me so much, y/n’
‘IWA! I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO DIE!’
karasuno was going against johzenji and daichi wasnt exactly in his best game
to others, he looked like he was doing great but he wasnt feeling good and the beat of his heart was still very fast
this distraction caused him and tanaka to collide and everything went to hell
the entire time, your arms were crying and you were just sweating from the pain but you were also sweating w the possibility of your soulmate being either in johzenji or karasuno
but that was answered when daichi got hurt and you just collapsed, also falling unconscious
iwa, who returned from getting drinks, ran to your slumped form and oikawa, who was focused on the match and didnt notice, shrieked at your unconscious form
‘y/n? y/n, wake up’
everyone in the stands stared at your unconscious form and they started talking, eventually catching the attention of the karasuno team
suga, who was fussing over daichi, heard that a girl also fell unconscious
omg what if
oikawa was grinning at the sight of your bruised cheek bc you finally found your soulmate so you would shut up about it
iwa carried you to the nurse and you actually woke up as he placed you on the bed, conviently beside the karasuno captain
‘w-what-’
but he only smiled
‘congratulations, y/n’
bih what
congratulations for what
the nurse went over from beside daichi and she giggled at the meeting of soulmates
you sat up, wincing at the pain in your tooth
‘ow’
that caught daichi’s attention and he stared at you and your arms before looking at his
they were the exact same
‘i think,,,, i think we’re soulmates’
that made you quickly look at him and noticed the big bruise on his face that was like copy paste on you
‘oh god!’
you cowered and had your hands over your mouth in surprise
he froze, starting to feel insecure that he wasnt what you wanted
‘is something wrong-’
‘you’re HOT!!’
you shrieked unconsciously and when you finally realized it, you hurriedly pulled the blanket over your form
lmao gurl noooooo
daichi started laughing and he thought you were cute
straightforward
but cute
‘oi, come on. i want to see your pretty face’
yes police officer. this is the man who stole my uwus
you peaked your head out from your blanket cocoon and he smiled softly
‘i’m sawamura daichi, by the way. 3rd year’
‘l-l/n y/n. same y-year’
‘so? you expected me to be this?’
you shook your head
‘i mean, iwa told me you could be a volleyball player. but i didnt expect the universe to like me enough to give me a greek god as my soulmate’
im disowning y/n yall
he turned flustered and looked away to hide his blush
‘youre not too bad yourself, you know. youre actually more beautiful than i thought’
‘sir! dont say that to me i be catching feelings way too fast for that!’
i-i cannot w you
he laughed out loud before wincing, causing you to wince too
‘but are you okay, though? i mean,, it must hurt’
but you shook your head
‘i should be asking you that. does it hurt as much as it looks?’
‘nah, its bearable’
you continued talking about your childhood and you actually clarified that you were just rambunctious when you were younger so you got hurt pretty often
‘i really thought you needed to be saved or something’
you smirked
‘oh? my prince charming? knight-in-shining-armor? knight prince daichi?’
he stared at you, a blush creeping up again
‘are you always this bold?’
you shrugged
‘meh. im friends w oikawa tooru’
‘oh. makes sense’
lmao
you both completely forgot about the fact that his face literally got hurt and his tooth was gone bc you have been talking like two best friends who got separated
but you had to separate at some point too
the beautiful manager entered the clinic and asked if daichi was okay enough
‘yea, im fine. i can go now, i guess’
you nodded sadly
‘okay. bye, daichi’
he furrowed his eyebrows
‘but wait for me later, okay? ill treat you to something after i win this match’
from your bed, you crossed your arm with a smug smile
‘oh? youre confident, captain’
‘of course. ill win bc this victory is for you’
you bashfully smiled and chuckled
‘go hurry and win! i expect that date as soon as possible, captain!’
the deadchi memes are literally scaring the new fans and i feel really bad
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bruh hes so cute for what
for his entire life, he had the sofia the first song stuck in his head
it was maybe bc his soulmate was in love w that show or just in love w the song
but either way, he constantly hears it and thinks about it
meanwhile you,
you constantly heard bye bye bye by nsync
of all things, it had to be a boy band
however, you were lucky bc for years it varied on what song would be playing
but for him, it continued to be sofia the first
this drived him to watch the show and he did see the appeal and soon, he started singing it too
omg its such a bop
you were triggered bc the song then switched over to sofia the first and you were like, ‘does he like it too?’
you would be going around the store, holding your mom’s hand, and singing it out loud, hoping to find your soulmate
but he never seemed to hear it
instead, hearing the song in your voice, instead of the show’s
he thought you had such a beautiful voice
then in elementary school, his bullying started and ngl, he was actually hurt by the words other kids said
he still had his cute smile on and acted like it didnt bother by teasing others but he was still sad
did nobody like him?
was he always going to look like a monster?
would you be revolted if you saw him?
then he heard this song in the radio ‘dear insecurity’ and he just couldnt help but keep listening to it
ofc you noticed and you were sad that he was listening to such sad song
he was insecure and you couldnt do anything about it
then you started looking up motivating songs and you started singing the one that you really liked
‘i see your monsters, i see your pain, tell me your problems, i’ll chase them away’
he heard your voice as he was hiding behind the school building and his tears instantly stopped, hearing a different song but he couldnt help but smile
he knew that song was for him
you were out there somewhere and a complete stranger to him but you were the only person who seemed to care
because under that teasing and cheerful personality, he was still human and he was very insecure about himself
but you were always there to encourage him, your voice instantly chasing all the fears away
when he started playing volleyball, he became famous for his efficient blocks and you could hear him singing different songs, all of them just under a minute
you concluded that they were his own songs
sometimes, you laughed bc they were funny songs and catchy so you would memorize it and sing it back to him
this was your only way of communicating back of forth and you were so lucky that you even got to hear your soulmate’s voice
then high school started, meaning your friends started meeting their soulmates one by one until you were the only one who didnt
your school, karasuno, had no one that had the same voice as your soulmate’s
some people even saw you as an extrovert and a people person since you started conversations with strangers easily but this was just your way of finding your other half
with no luck, you started singing your concerns
in no time, ‘thousand miles’ was playing on loop in tendou’s head and he was already feeling your antsy attitude
in retaliation, he starts singing ‘lucky’ by jason mraz and you always turned red, slightly happy that he was practically calling out to you
so even though you suffered through years being alone, you didnt give up on hope and continued your search
now, youd be asking, ‘why cant you or tendou just sing each other’s location?’
yes, young grasshopper, there is an explanation to that
you and tendou collectively agreed to let fate do its work and just wait for the time it happens bc if its meant to be, its meant to be
besides, tendou likes to tease you and he wants to make you wait for him so that the moment you do meet, it would become more special
in your last year of high school, you ended up helping kiyoko in being manager and you were so proud of these boys for making it to the finals
you were excitedly waving an orange flag in support of your team and you screamed with the others as they entered the court
you and yacchi ended up helping tanaka’s sister, saeko, and was setting up the plan for their cheers so you werent exactly focused on your soulmate
but tendou did keep hearing a fight song in your head
then they walked in
shiratorizawa made their presence known and you turned to look at them but locked eyes at the unique looking player
his red hair glinted against the bright lights of the gym and his smirk curled in such an attractive way that you were leaning forward to get a closer look
tendou noticed a stare at him and he saw your surprised yet flustered look
that eye contact made everything fall deaf in your ears and you just heard silence
no song, no cheer, just absolute silence
but you and tendou are practically the same so you thought for the worse that your soulmate has died bc of the silence
dread filled your stomach and you started singing sofia the first in instinct
your mouth moved with the words and you shut your eyes, trying to calm yourself down
his jaw dropped, hearing the familiar voice and song that correlated with your mouth’s movements
‘there you are, little birdie’
semi turned to tendou and saw him with a smile hes never seen before
it was so soft and genuine that he got a little scared
the entire game, you were all depressed bc it continued to be silent in your head
tendou was just teasing you a little bit and he didnt want to think or sing a song bc he wanted it to be a special cliche reunion after he crushes your team
but his famous song ruined it
it blared in your head and it got 2x bass boosted when he sang it out loud, completely disregarding the fact that everyone was listening
‘you!’
you shrieked and pointed to him
he was your soulmate
and he was alive
not dead
everyone, including all players, looked at confusion between you and him but he just waved at you
‘ill talk to you later, little birdie!’
great, he embarrassed you in front of everyone
but you didnt care bc omg he was your soulmate!!
‘omg universe and fate, you actually like me to give me such a handsome soulmate!’
now, youre actually cheering on both teams
one was your home school the other was your soulmate
however,
there could only be one winner
and that winner was karasuno
you noticed the defeated looks of your soulmate and his teammates and you almost bursted into tears
you quickly maneuvered yourself through the people and found the familiar spiky hair standing at the doorway, looking at the gym with a forlorn expression
the others noticed you there, especially ushijima who gave you a nod and a small smile
‘i trust you’ll take care of him’
you nodded shakily, raising a hand in salute
‘y-yes!’
you approached him and his teary eyes almost made you bolt into his arms but you calmed yourself
instead, you didnt say anything
but you did sing
‘come stop your crying, it will be alright. just take my hand, and hold it tight. i will protect you, from all around you. i will be here, dont you cry.’
tendou looked to his side and saw you there, not looking at him but also looking at the same direction he was previously
‘my name is tendou satori’
despite already hearing his voice, you still turned red and you looked at him, warmth and love present in your eyes
‘and i’m l/n y/n’
‘you have a beautiful voice’
‘and you are beautiful’
that ending for shiratorizawa physically and emotionally and mentally broke me
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eggsmuses-a · 2 years
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uHHHHH FUCK IT *slams desk* Your lawyer blorbos. Hand em over. Asgshshs (Ace Attorney, or alternatively Danganronpa if you'd prefer!)
send me a fandom for my blorbos etc ! / accepting
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BOTH BOTH IS GOOD
blorbo : for aa its gotta be apollo NO DOUBTS ABOUT IT . i love him hes me but . lawyer and hes never not been my aa blorbo SJGSGS but close behind him is trucy because GRAMARYE SIBS !!! literally the best javsjagav but i love the entirety of the waa with my whole heart
for danganronpa no doubt about it its shuichi . hes always been my favourite and thats not changing anytime soon i just wish i had the muse to keep writing on @/dctccted right now D:
scrunkly : if trucy does not get to be no 1 blorbo she will rule as THE scrunkly . i think about her a lot . i want to bite zak and so does she
for dr its much harder to decide ... probably jataro ! ive always had a soft spot for him specifically and though i love the woh hes probably got the least troublesome issues than the others that i cant handle ( looking at you kotoko ) hes always been my kid and i want the absolute best for him ... i have so many headcanons for him most of which are based on crack things from disc rps but god ! hes so sweet ! have i ever mentioned how i think jataro sees shuichi as a father figure ??? and shuichi gladly takes that role just to prove hes better than his parents KGANAVAV
scrimblo bimblo : I THINK THAT AURA DESERVES MORE LOVE SHES JUST SO GAY AND TRAGIC SHES PROBABLY TIED VERY CLOSELY FOR POOR LITTLE MEOW MEOW
AND FOR DR ?? HARD CHOICE BETWEEN RYOKO AND YUI BC NOVEL CHARACTERS MY FRICKIN BELOVED !! THEY NEED LOVE AND THERAPY PLS
glup shitto : this is probably really hard for aa to choose but at the same time so easy .... clay terran . clay deserved so much more and i have such STRONG feelings about him and the fact his name is like ?? literally hinting he’d never get to go to space bc irony haha funny ( fuck you btw capcom ) AND LIKE APOLLO IS SO TRAUMATISED AND IT ALL STARTED HERE WITH HIS BEST FRIEND YKNOW ??? LIKE OBVIOUSLY NOT CHRONOLOGICALLY CLAY DIES BEFORE EVERYTHING BUT OHHH MY GOD IMAGINE YOUR ONLY FRIEND DYING ???? AJAGJAGSHS ????
for dr it’s actually hilarious kagsjaga the concept art for udg had swole monokuma . i made swole monokuma my entire personality for a solid month or two because it was EVERYWHERE its hilarious LMAO
poor little meow meow : EDGEWORTH !! EDGEY !!! this man can fit so much angst and unnecessary feelings it is not funny i literally will NOT shut up about him if you get me started . tied behind edgeworth is definitely apollo tho since i love my red men who are sad KSGHSVS and mia . god mia :(
sayaka !! she gets so much trash from everyone for fending herself ?? like yeah she shouldnt have attempted to kill leon but cmon man she didnt want to die out . do you know how hard it is to grow into an idol in japan ???? to make a name for yourself ESPECIALLY at that age ???? cmon man
horse plinko : i hate to say it but apollo ...... but if i had to choose someone i hate ????? both the paynes AND ALSO hickfield and brushel . and aristotle . hate these guys
for dr its definitely nagito , byakuya and kokichi because antags who i hate a love - hate relationship with . assholes . the lot of them LMAO
eeby deeby : literally everyone except apollo who i just mentioned but im willing to be more lenient with byakuya kokichi and nagito . ill send junko instead
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tteokdoroki · 3 years
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Hey bebi how are u today? Just wanted to check in today bc i have been feeling a lil down this week bc of aot bc im tryna reread all of it. Just wanted to share that imma bake some Matcha Brownies, Matcha Cookies, Lemon Cookies and Lemon Brownies bc im trying to open a small baking business while im on a break from college. Btw have a good week!
+ kith kith & hugs from 🫀
hello baby love!! im ok!! just a little tired from exams </3 aot is pretty sad :(( i hope you feel better soon!! waa all those bakes sound so yummy!! especially the matcha brownies!!! ow hope your business goes well love! 🥺‼️
sending u lots of love and kisses <33
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odinbaby · 4 years
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Awe that's so cute! Is it a stray cat?? 🥺 I use to feed a lot of stray cats where I live. They're always so friendly and I get sad that's there's so many but the neighborhood takes care of them in a way. Also, a horror game?! The only horror game ive played is one called the evil within, and kinda it was weird it was good but weird and there was this butcher guy that I couldn't get past for like three years so I gave up ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ Anyways love❤️ I hope you had/have a good day! Take care! ❤️
she is currently, but idk if she was a pet before !! we think she might've been abused, it seems like her whiskers got cut off :( hopefully she wasn't and it was only by accident !!! she's super friendly and lovable 🥺🥺 ahh yeah, it sucks that they don't have homes :((( everytime i see one my big ol dumb heart wants to take them in and care for them,, and tbh if i had time and resources i would !! but it's nice enough that people like your neighborhood take care of them , my neighborhood doesn't like them as much TT
waa ive heard of that game !! never played it jajsjsj but it's funny that u say it was weird but good !!! i want to play more horror games but im a big wuss TT the only ones I can kind of play are multiplayer ones like phasmophobia and even then im a big scaredy cat TTTT yesterday my heart rate went thru the roof and i was even shaking jajaja but i love the genre bc it actually makes me emote (? idk if this is the right word uh) , like ,,, those kinds of media genres i really love ,, ones that make u feel strong emotions ,,,, and horror is one that can evoke rlly sudden and intense emotions ,, like jumpscares u kno ?? ik some people are sensitive to that but it's always peeked my interest , that and things that make u cry hehe
i hope u have/had a good day too !!! take care lovely <33333
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aight. the last jedi thoughts fresh outta the movie theater. spoilers ahead
good things !
it was fun. im glad i went. i even teared up at some parts. fun, entertaining, all that good stuff.
I really liked finn and i was telling myself if rose died the movie would automatically be shit and id hate it bc theres no point in introducing her only to kill her off suddenly
rei? poe? good characters. i loved how poe was more concerned abt the lil bot than he was finn and ro s e tho. also liked the purple haired lady! hair goals! scarf goals! hero goals the whole part with her lightspeeding through the enemy ship gave me chills. all silence. that ws the best cinematographic moment in an action movie ive seen in years no fucking joke? i got ch i l ls my dudes 
also, luke. lukes whole fcking “everything you just said was wrong” what a fucking huge mood me too luke...best character best . no wait yoda waas t hbest. fuckin, comin in here lightning bolting that trEe s s t dfgdkfjgnfkjgn i la ugh ed and then i cr ie d
the horse-furry things they rode? i loved that part the part w them destroying the casino place made me smile it was good. the birb creatures with chewie also made me rly happy. babies.
now
bad things
kylo ren? hate him. i felt nothing but annoyance toward him and his entire character and every time rei felt sympathy for him i had to look away.i physically cringed away. nothing felt there. that said, he had good scenes outside of scenes besides with rei! eg his scene with luke! that was GOOD shit.
the weird lockpick codebreaker guy also felt flat. like he was just filling a role? and then nothin  came of it
mmm what else didnt i like
i didnt like how they made rei so sympathetic to kylo? not even just bc i dont like him, but idk it just felt out of nwohere, there was little buildup imo. felt forced and OOC. but i didnt see her in the other movies so idk what shes like outside of this one? heard she was better written in the other ones hm
finn im glad they didnt kill him off i was scared they were going to and i was gonna be fucking pissed off but thankfully no
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the whole part w the mirror images and rei wassss weird i never understood what that was even about? uhhhh it was cool effects i guess.
also kylos actor is shitty s oi rEALLY couldnt enjoy him even if i liked his character just didnt feel good
i dont draw fanart of live action things but if i did? rose would be drawn. love her a lot. also carrie fishers scenes made me sad bc i miss her.
so yeah thats my thoughts on the last jedi. 7/10 as a whole, 9/10 entertainment wise, 5/10 plot if im generous i guess
also 9/10 yoda depiction the only reason hes not 10/10 is bc he wasnt talking backward enough. he did but not ENOUGH obviously he took some literature classes in the ghost world or some shit
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whitmqn · 7 years
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hows it goin 1, 15, 21 and 30 !!!
if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?
- JUST WATCH DEAD POETS SOCIETY !!! THE SYMBOLISM AND STUFF EXPLAINS MY WHOLE LIFE !!! where the wild things are and kill your darling also kind of theres a lot of the more “wow is dax ok” stuff !! read sum walt whitman as well bc im always aspiring 2 his gud ideals and such umm listen 2 pluto by sleeping at last and LOTS of tom rosenthal (esp take your guess, fenn, it won’t be me, all of them dreams, throw the fear omg theres so many just all of his songs) ALSO mika !! the last party by mika althoughh the meaning of the song is v different 2 what it means 2 me tho, read the little prince !!
 five most influential books over your lifetime.
o god 
1. watership down !!! it was my shit as a kid even tho it was kinda dark and depressing but it has a lot of meaning and i feel like it probs shaped my childhood idk if that’s a gud thing tho it was a rlly dark book 4 a kid tbh 
2. jasper jones even tho its only rlly interesting at the start and the end cause it like set my mood for a whole year and made me go “oh yeah books can be atmospheric i forgot”
3. the humans by matt haig !!! oh man this was like one of the books in my tiny reading surge of 2016 and it waas amazing it like made me question everything i know but then also not become super cynical ?? its very gud
4. I KNOW IT PROBS DOESNT COUNT AS A BOOK BUT !! like all of walt whitmans poems i am LIVING by that mans poetry 1!! i swear that guy has founded all of my beliefs and im trying to be like that guy all the time hes amazing
5. uhh even tho i only read the little prince recently it also made me want 2 start rreading HEAPS more and as well as that it made me cry so much and sort of gather my sad thoughts and feel better abt stuff 
would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?
- oo um tbh theyre all good but also all scary and im gonna be rlly hard at choosing between these umm probably hogwarts cause i can be a chill student like i am now?? and also do the whole magic thing i mean itd be fun 
 three songs that you connect with right now.
1. your ex lover is dead by stars !! wow it rlly goes into my brain w/ everything i cant even descirb eit 
2. terrible love by birdy, i liked this song when i was like 13 but i listened 2 it recently and um?? could i like predict the future or smth ?? 
3.  vi er perfekt men verden er ikke det by cezinando YES its norwegian but its just amazing and kinda sad but also inspirational sort of for me at least BUT another one is sober II by lorde cause i only just listened 2 the full album recentlyu and THAT SONG !!! cnnection !!!
thank u so much 4 the ask !!!! xoxoxx sorry i always write heaps in these things 
identity ask
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restinpeacesensei · 5 years
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(inspired by xxxholic art style)
#boueibu#akoya gero#my art#kira-7 !!! AAAA i love that you said akoya looks like a 90's anime character!! im very honored it reminded you of older anime ty!!! >////<#thank you so much for saying hes beautiful with little heart eyes!!! he never tires of such kind words it warms his heart every time!! >///<#theomnipotentfox !!!! omg im so super honored you would think it was a b&w cel from a really old anime aaaa?!!! thank you so much!!! ;;A;;#im really happy that my ink art sometimes reminds people of older anime or manga >////< it's a huge honor thank you so much!!!#j-ellyfish uwaaa im so happy you called him so beautiful thank you so much for saying just what he loves to hear!!! /)/////(\#i love how you noticed he looks a bit sad too..! ty for being so perceptive and including a little sad face! akoya feels understood..!! ;A;#silvormoon yes you noticed the overseas uniform!! i love that uniform ;w; thank you!!#i mainly have the inkoyas wear it bc the black is a nice contrast LOL but him being a bit homesick is a very good idea!! ;;A;;#it can be very lonely being overseas and away from everything youre familiar with;;; ;A;#fortune-maiden !!!! AAAAH I WAS SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU COMMENT!!!! ;;W;; it always fills me with so much happiness to see your name!! >////<#i love how you said it's so beautiful so excitedly that makes me so excited too!!! >////< tysm for complimenting the inking on the jacket!!#im so happy you pointed it out and OMG i love how you said you could visualize it in color?? ;;A;; what an honor thank you!!!! ;;---;;#and i love that you said his expression looks so thoughtful here!!! >////<#also don't worry!!! it took me ages to reply to you too!!! ;;w;; it makes me happy just to know you got my message thank you!!! ;;W;;#so please don't feel bad!! ;;o;;/ thank you so much for your wonderful comments!!!! i love them!!! \;;W;;/#ironpaladont aaaa you called him inkoya too!! ;;w;; yay im so happy you think hes great!! thank you so much!!! ;;w;;#i love how you said he looks a bit melancholy waa thank you for being so perceptive!! ;;-;; im so happy you sensed that subtle feeling;;#and that you said maybe it's from the grey colors im happy you noticed them!! AND TYSM FOR NOTICING HOW LONG HIS EYELASHES ARE#HE HAS BEEN GROWING THEM OUT FOR A LONG TIME HE IS SO HAPPY YOU LIKE THEM!!!! ;;W;;#beauty-egoism !!!!! AAAAAA AKOYA IS SO HAPPY YOU DISCOVERED HIM AGAIN HE LOVES AND MISSES YOU SO MUCH TOO!!!! >/////<#thank you for remembering and loving him again!!! it warms his heart to be remembered!!! \;;---;;/#he will always remember how beautiful and kind you are too!!! wherever you go we know you will be out there being beautiful and strong ;;U;;#thatlittledandere !!!! AAAA i love how you said extraORDINARILY beautiful you sound so fancy and elegant and refined!!! \TuT/#like you are a fine connoisseur of many beautiful things and akoya has met with your approval... we are so EXTRA-ORDINARILY honored!!! ;;u;;#merelatio !!! im so happy you saw birthday kinchan and called him a super cute kinchan you have made him a very happy kinchan!!! TuT#and i love how you called autumnkoya a fluffy fluff akoya so excitedly!!! ;;w;; this is his official classification now!! he is fluffy type!#thank you so much!! i love your comments so much!!! \TuT/
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mywrittendevices · 5 years
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Right now I had such a good day with isreal, we went on the swings drank tequila and talked about life 
He inspires me eery day, he just got back from canada and tomorrow he is going to san diego, he does a lot of road tripping to
he tol me he ghosted the girl he was talking to last year, although he loved her and she finally ended up breaing up with her man he realized how unhealthy it was and didnt want to be a part of it anymore, he said last year waas a bad year. 
I know how  much he cared about her and how strong he must have been to do that, I guess you dont want to do any of those hrd or not fun things, you just do it and eventually the body will follw,, mmy best example of this is running 
I remember when the mile seemed forever, I remember wanting to throw up after only doing 2 miles 
I remember the pain and confusion of missing brad and wishing he wasnt with anyone else, I remember wting to die after I hitmy head. I remember how hard it was to pick up the pieces each and every single time, now Im older and the best part about it is that I realize exactly what this all taught me 
Honestly Im upset that he called this morning to not pick up later, I gues it makes me feel rejected and not good enoough it makes me feel ike he doesnt care or he found someone better 
I let the time pass after he called me but with the calm  of having Isreal near me I knew that if someone wanted to be with you for real an hour wouldnt make a diffrence they would try 
writing everything down makes me feel like Im untanglling all thsese fucked up strings in my mind 
right now I just thought of b texting another girl and he probably likes her and is liing the conversation and thats why he isnt respondng to me 
but like I said with the calm of having a friend there I realized that is someone likes you for real a short conversation or an hour wont stop them fromt alking to you 
I sat in the shower letting the time pass knowing that brad was less likely to talk to me if I let that time pass and I watched that clock go tick tock i had anxiety in that moment knowing what I was doing 
i got out of the shower and decided we could talk 
but for what 
replied that little voice in my head, if you know you get sad and suicidal around him why do you need to stick around for 
I guess I wanted to let him know that Im happy and speaking to him again scares me because when he comes around teh light literally leaves my eyes and my life< i lose hope and everything becomes dark bc Im malways losing the things I love the most, its a painful cycle to be a part of and see myself go through my loved ones have gone through it too 
I realized that if i want to heal I really have to do it away from him as well , I wanted to let him know that I love him but if he loes me too and wants to see me be my best self I would have to do it away from him 
but what is the point in saying all that, we each have different coping mechanisms and him and I clash in so many levels, there were so many times he could have been supportive and he chose to be mean, he triggered me and made me feel disposable, I broke it off because I knew this wasnt good for me 
I have Isreal, I have rorad trips to take, I have strangers to talk to and classes to talk, who am I without the drugs and confusion and boys, trying to keep and please boys and letting them come in and out of my life 
especially when i have so many good things going my way. I have friends a fmaily that loves me ihave good food in my table and a career i want to get going I need to stop doubting myself  
i feel better 
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restinpeacesensei · 6 years
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still a more in-character love ending. (this is a parody of ouran high school host club)
#pls don't take it seriously he stills loves the people who are kind to him very much!!!! ;////;#boueibu#akoya gero#my art#my comic#i drew this the same day i drew the heart full of little akoyas after i got out of the hospital but didnt finish until now LOL#the akoya valentine i did reminded me of this lololol#talisman975 1) your comment made me SUPER happy!!!! thank you so much!!! ;;w;; 2) waaa im so happy you think it fits him LOL!!!! XD#kira-7 waaa thank you so much!! im so happy you think it's cute!! ;;w;; i hope everyone has an ibushi too u///u#animecreator3000 omgggg i want to look at your tags whenever i feel sad or something bc these are the most precious things!!!#thank you so much uwaaa!!! >////< to be compared with a budgie is an honor omg im sure your budgie is ADORABLE and lucky to have you!! ;;w;;#im so happy arima looks like a mom! we need to give him one of those best mom mugs ;u;#i love how you said kin and akoya look so comfy in their bed and so smol and so cute! i feel like they get cuter as you describe them! >///<#tysm for noticing akoyas frilly pillows and the shine in their eyes!! ;;w;; i did put it there to be extra adorable im so happy you said so!#TYSM FOR NOTICING THE PLUSHIE LOL and the thing above the bed is a mobile aaaa im so happy you like them!! ;;w;;#THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH WAAAAAA IM SOOO HAPPPYYYY!!!! >////<#j-ellyfish waa im so happy you suggested a goodnight story yes that would be perfect!! ;;w;; tysm for calling them sweeties omg so cute!! ><#warm herb tea is such a lovely cozy idea as well!! ;;U;; arima would make them feel the comfiest and safest ever TuT#silvormoon the best arimama! ;;u;; and OMG im happy you said you hope they dont fight over the plushie LOL i was thinking that too!!!#i love how you called it a teddy bear but it's an alpaca i mean this nicely like when u see a lizard and say it's a good dog#(even if it wasnt intentional) im happy you noticed akoyas ruffled pillows!! ;u; and OMG yes there are stars to soothe kinchan as he sleeps#i wonder if it glows in the dark like real stars ;O; they could put those sticky glowing stars on the ceiling#kinchan would insist that they replicate actual constellations precisely.....#godtierluigi waaaaa thank you im so glad you liked it!! ;////;#ironpaladont uwaaa thank you for saying arima is a good mama it's so cute ;///; he needs to get one of those best mom mugs or shirts#the bedtime story would be the perfect final touch thank you so much for thinking of it!! ;;w;;#mostlikelytofangirl OMG thank you so much for remembering that comic!!! XD you are right arima is the one perfect for the job!!!#I LOVE THAT YOU NOTICED THE LLAMA/SHEEP/ALPACA LOL it is a reference to alpakoya XD!!!#i love how you said the room is precious and akoya and kin can merge with the pinks and purples omg ;O; they sound like clouds..#mercysorrows waaa im so happy you pointed out kin and akoyas eyes omg!! im so happy theyre adorable and arima is caring tysm!!! ;;3;;
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