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seventeendeer · 9 months

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merry almost christmas, remember that holiday movie Klaus that came out some years back with the gorgeous hybrid 2D-3D animation and the revolutionary lighting techniques and the varied and interesting character designs and the beautiful environments and the stellar cinematography, that no one ever talks about or even seems to remember anymore because the writing was so devastatingly 2000's direct-to-dvd disney sequel it somehow dragged the quality of this potential masterpiece down to "just kind of mid"

just watched it again, actually significantly more fun/coherent if you turn it off halfway through and imagine it's all just healthy community building and gay sex from that point on

#deerchatter #they fumbled the character arcs soooo badly i don't know how they managed to fuck it up so hard #these are REALLY simple archetypes these mf'ers were using cake mix and the chocolate cake somehow still has raw egg in the middle #also i feel the need to clarify i do not fucking ship the postman with santa claus #the joke is that the characters have crazy weird chemistry bc these hacks can't write and at least an animated movie about #an old widower gaining back his zest for life after meeting a sassy young twink who looks a bit too much like his dead wife would have #been smth more novel. would've felt like a more natural continuation of the first half of the film anyway #also hi im still waiting until ive recovered to answer rain world asks lol trying not to get pneumonia here don't change the channel #while im talking about gay sex santa claus

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fluffs-n-stuffs · 1 year

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Morty never feared the dive. Not until he learned how it felt to drown.

>>> Next <<< Previous (Destiny Bond; a Pokémon fancomic --- pt.1, pt.2, pt.3, pt.4, pt.5, pt.6, pt.7, pt.8, pt.9, pt.10, pt.11, ???)

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samarecharm · 8 months

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Im lvl 26 w the shujin trio and morgana since ive been grinding w them specifically, and as a result, everyone elses levels are VERY behind. So u can imagine that me using Sophia for the first time ever (and in the second jail no less), and her getting beat up so bad that she said ‘ive taken too much damage :(‘ in the saddest voice imaginable made me wail in AGONY. I am so sorry sophie im bad at the game and ur yoyos are so hard to perfect. Please fucking forgive me…..!!!!

#chattin #strikers liveblog #IM SO SORRY. GIRL !#actually what REALLY happened was #i was too scared to use her bc at the time; they bombarded me with too much information in the beginning #so she seemed too complex to use #but like. i need them to get their master arts so i never have to physically use them again #and like #i have her paired w haru (im weird about exp. im sorry. it consumes me)#and i played as haru while sophia got exp #but um. shes weak to curse (i did not know this)#and slimes are really common here. so theres curse everywhere #she DIED in the first battle and i revived her #and she died AGAIN #so we ended the battle w her dead by mistake and it revived her w 1 hp #and i felt so bad. i didnt have anyone die like that in a regular battle #(i died like 12 times against Bugs before tucking my tail between my legs and running)#(and begrudingly accepting that i cant brute force this fight until waaaaaay later. wack.)#so like im upset she died AND. she had the nerve to say ‘ive taken too much damage :(‘ like GIRL I AM SORRY. SOBBING.#but in better news; i am finished getting harus master arts so now im working on sophias #and playing the game long enough has made it easier to get a grip on her mechanics

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seventh-district · 5 months

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so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr 2.2 #hsr spoilers #hsr leaks #the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am #i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before #but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one #so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days #it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me #but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and #gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it #and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story #not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know #but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game #anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :)#and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream #pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we #i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see-#-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out..#the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!)#i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!?#they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing #Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it #and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet #also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow.#that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!!#not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good #Seven.txt #viddy game stuff

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hauntingblue · 5 months

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Yabushige count your fucking days. I am so mad

#the fucking flash forward. insane #toranaga in the fucking forest... ALL YOU HAVE LEFT IS THAT FUCKING EAGLE!!!!! NO SON NO FRIENDS!!!!#ishido blaming toranaga...... you should seppuku yourself...... shameless....#so all out war now??? no toranaga invasion???? mmm.....#yabushige has lost it.... all that for nothing... oof #oshiba and her kid finishing marikoa poem..... i think i huave covid #HIS SHIP??????#toranaga did this to keep him here knowing he wont stay now that mariko is dead.... i know it #the christians???? mariko???? to keep him here too??#omg fuji.........#toranagas baby is so big ajdhaksj 'i have more sons thanks to you' hello????#OSHIBA TURNED!!! ISHIDO ITS SO OVER!!!!#NO!!! LEAVE FUJI ALONE LET HER BECOME A NUN!!! ANJIN YOU ARE ON THIN ICE #toranaga is sucha bad bitch #i feel like anjin really felt ashamed about his first intent to arrive to japan and that mixed with marikos death... he said fuck it #and then toranaga turns it around and says nah... I am using YOU!! get your pussy up!! get your ships up!!!#'que la muerte le sea leve' thats what me and my friends say when we say goodbye to go to class ajshajanaakak i love this guy #favourite secondary character #this shot is so pretty... with the tree and the sea... the framing....#SEE how toranaga burned his ship!!!! bc he wants to keep him!!! thats his foreign pet!!#he makes him laugh and distracts his enemies ajdhajdjsj.... his jester...#beef squashed with my girlfriends husband 🤝🏻 now we hold respect for each other #that was so good #i said yabushige better count his days and here we are....#i post about someone and they die. 3/3 sobfar #if i reach far enough shogun is about a daimyo and the psychosexual relationship between him and his foreign pet...#he makes me laugh... and the last scene is the anjin laughing while looking at him... okay.....#talking tag #watching shogun #also!!! toranaga wanting to be shogun!!! this man is so complex!!! i hate him!!!

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thatnerdyqueer · 3 months

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something I think about daily is that Ethan Hawke - Ethan Hawke - walked out of an audition crying because he thought it went awfully, and subsequently booked the movie

so. think about that.

#when i first watched the poets in nyc clips i was so shocked to see that bit where hes crying #but i was really glad they showed it bc dps is supposed to normalise expressing your emotions and stuff #and thats a really authentic part of the industry and honestly i felt wayyyyy less alone after it #I had that with a music exam a while back #I walked out crying and then got a high distinction #so to any artists out there #remember that there will be moments like that #where you feel really shitty #but then itll get better #it doesnt last #and sometimes its not even true #sometimes youre being too harsh on yourself #so be kind to yourself :)#dps #dead poets society

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b-blushes · 1 year

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wild to finally be coherent enough suddenly at least for a brief moment this evening and to realise like. hmm i have been waiting on a late delivery for a week. where have i been for that period of time i feel like i time travelled again 😅

#here but not here apparently! by accident haven't really seen my parents either. my mum saw me outside watering the other day #and was like 'it's been a while!' and i was like! has it! 😅#hopefully i am back now but even if it's not for good at least it's for now! i can listen to music which i've not been able to do for a #couple of days because it makes me feel too sick/pain/dizzy/generally unwell so WOOOOO my sounds!!!!!#did some light exercises bc i think i've been off physical therapy for a few days bc i just felt dead but The Deconditioning Fear you know

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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year

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I feel like at least several times a month, I have a random insane revitalization of my love for The Smiths. Not that I ever stop loving them, but I'll listen to some song and then suddenly fall into this pit of just deep, intense love for their music again where I can't stop listening to their music on repeat and watching live performances and looking at pics like AAAAAHHHHHH WHY IS THEIR MUSIC SO GOOOD?????? WHY IS IT PERFECT?????? WHY WERE THEY SO GENDER???????

(songs I am feeling intense brainrot over rn in case you're curious: "I Want The One I Can't Have(live)", "Stretch Out and Wait(live)", "You Just Haven't Earned It Yet Baby", "Some Girls Are Bigger Than Others(demo)", "What She Said", "The Boy With The Thorn in His Side(live)"(p.s. I Want The One I Can't Have is Martian-coded to me, pls listen)(also it reminds me of that movie I watched yesterday)

#i want the one i cant have is playing on repeat in my brain rn and i watched a live performance and i was tearing up. why am i like this #the live versions of their songs are just incredibly good like at an insane level to me #i know the guitar is very complicated bcs my brother is equally obsessed w the smiths and rants to me abt how hard their music is to play #so the fact that their live performances are equal if not better than their studio versions is crazy #and i love the way he sings in live versions AAAAHHHH like just so over the top and dramatic #i absolutely love singing along to music and their songs are perfect bcs i can be as dramatic and loud as i want #and that hes singing perfectly and dramatizing it so much also while dancing along to it on stage??????#their music has an energy to it in every single aspect that no other band will ever be able to reach for me #i spent so much of today just dancing along to their music and singing over the top. i just felt so joyful 🥹🥹🥹🥹#GAAAHHHH sorry i just am really in it rn hahaha #its just crazy to me ig that ive listened to these songs so many times and they still fill me with such emotion #my mom sings and dance along w me tho shes like 'wow youre so energetic today did you hit your head or smth' 😭😭😭#also was losing my mind looking at their pictures today and gahhhhhhhhb such gender envy their gender is unmatched to me #but its so funny every time i get gender envy over smiths era morrissey +#because theres some pics of my dad from that same period of time when he was younger where he literally looks exactly like morrissey #SIR WHY DID I NOT INHERIT YOUR LEVEL OF GENDER???????(my dad was a icon sjdkkd we look alike tbh)#anyways: i feel very joyful and energetic about their music. they just make me so happy and i want to dance around again 🥹#i think this recent lapse into the pit was bcs i listened to the demos/live versions on The Queen is Dead deluxe edition #and im like ....how the fuck are they this fucking good??????#hehehe tho my passion has affected others 🤭#my brother is learning some songs on guitar atm and waxes poetic abt their instrumentals #my dad always listens to their entire discography when he needs background music. and my mom sings and dances w me #sorry this is unhinged i just feel a lot of serotonin bcs their music and i need to infect other people LMAO #maybe i need to make another web weave #catie.rambling.txt

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jvzebel-x · 1 year

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#so i got a message from my sister telling me something rather tragic had happened in our family #on my mom's side. one of my aunties passed away&my little sister let me know.#she also let me know that my mother is taking it really hard&shed probably really like to hear from me.#&its weird bc any sadness i felt about my aunty dying almost completely evaporated upon it becoming a way to guilt me #into talking to my mother-- like i was not almost dead for a long LONG time&she was actively disowning me bc i wasnt sick the right way #after a lifetime of refusing to believe i was sick AT ALL which directly lead to developing cancer she screamed at me in public #that i was lying about before pretending to drive off a cliff&then refusing to pick up her phone until she called me an hour later #after i had been calling not just her but anyone in our family who could possibly check on her to tell me that i never loved her #&i wouldnt have cared if she died&it would have been my fault.#so like. i dont really give a fuck if shes taking a death in the family poorly? like i dont actually fucking care that this-- like literally #everything else-- needs to center my mother's bad feelings. i just fucking dont lmao.#&im really fucking pissed off that i now have to feel like shit bc i dont feel like i properly feel bad #about my family member dying bc IT BECAME ALL ABOUT MY MOTHER IMMEDIATELY.#i do not fucking UNDERSTAND.#i cannot even put into words how this all makes me feel lmao. why. literally fucking why.#the cherry on top? my aunty died of gastric issues. you know. the family curse that i def didnt get so i got to work thru it all #while being called a liar. you know the type of illness that almost killed ME. that might STILL kill me.#but yeah my mom is sad so i should call&make sure to hold her hand like i always fucking did lets just forget an entire lifetime #&esp the last five years thatll be totally cool.#a tragedy happened in the family so fuck all MY tragedies actually i guess.

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falinscloaca · 9 months

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sooo chainsaw man chapter huh

#chainsaw man spoilers #read it soon as it came out just haven't said anything bc like.#while good! and dramatic and shit! it doesn't leave room to talk really!#my only real 'thought' is that makima might not be able to 'control' people who genuinely love her???? because i'm still flying by the #'barem wasn't being controlled' boat #doesn't necessarily contradict the free will theory or take away from his character too too much #out of ALLL the weapon humans he still stuck out as the least... reverent. i don't mind that he LIKES makima because that #him being like. chainsaw fan number 2 to her. but like also being makima fan number 2 to denji. theres something there sdglkdhhklgsd.#that said it does take away a BIT of his edge for him to still believe makima's 'peace' crap. unless thats just him lying again.#ANWYAYS #back to the 'makima can't control blablabla' thing:#but that makes it wierd that it transfers onto other control devils' ability to control people #maybe its like. both.#like that its both because 'barem's heart belongs to her' and also that barem wasn't under literal control #or. something #also like damn is kishibe just DEAD already? he felt competent at least to run a better operation than public safety currently has.#did fami just fucking kill him. is he out of the buisiness for some fucking reason???#OH ALSO barem being less makima-centric despite still bearing allegience to her could also be due to how flamethrowers are kinda intertwine #conceptually with 'fire' and fire is a really fucking big name #similar armor to pochita. like if a darkthrower existed it would also -while not COMPLETELY deny access like Chainy. would neuter makima's #degree of influence #fallingthrower.....

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teruthecreator · 1 year

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trying so hard to be normal but i really don’t think i could survive going to the psych ward and i’m rlly like. bothered my siblings are pushing it so hard

#in neg city #they were rlly like ‘we can’t force you’ but then just kept fucking talking about it #even as i’m crying and saying no no i don’t want to go i’m not going i really don’t want to #and like. idk. when ur sister gets sent to the psych ward at a pivotal point in ur childhood #and that subsequent action adds onto the trauma u were already experiencing at that point like idk man! maybe going to the psych ward would #in fact be very very bad!!!#like any time i think abt the psych ward i think abt my sister one day just disappearing from the house. i think about when the doctors #withheld my letters and i thought my sister either hated me or was fucking dead. i think about having to hide all this agony behind polite #smiles while i was also being bullied mercilessly at school and my CHOIR TEACHER WAS DYING OF CANCER #i think abt the car ride when my aunt told me and my brother that she had to go back in #i think of empty houses and missing places at the dinner table and arguments and so many fucking arguments #i cant go into the psych ward i won’t. and it just felt like that’s all they wanted me to do #and then it became well michelle how do u want us to help u? LEAVE ME ALONE #THATS HOW U HELP. YOU LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME FIGURE IT OUT #i get rlly overwhelmed and stressed when too many people are trying to butt their heads in #and i know they mean well but it just feels like they’re both gonna become mom and i’m not talking to mom for THIS EXACT REASON #idk i just don’t think they can help. i get that they’re rlly worried but i can’t let them help i don’t know what they could do #and they wanna talk about this again tomorrow so now i don’t wanna sleep bc i don’t want tomorrow to happen #but i don’t have anything to do bc i’m in such a terrible mood #i rlly wish i wasn’t alive sometimes #clearly i’m putting too much stress on my siblings and mom is probably worried sick but i’ll never kno bc we aren’t talking #i’m just ruining everyone’s life i rlly shouldn’t be on this planet anymore

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greenishghostey · 2 years

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He just looks like a green grapes kinda guy

#and it’s hot #I really dunno why I felt the need to post this #was talking about him getting grapes while in hospital bc not dead and now I’m deciding he only likes green ones #Eddie Munson #headcanons #eddie munson headcanons

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hella1975 · 2 years

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ok you’ve convinced me to watch bsd so where can I watch it? and do I need to read the comics? if so, in what order and where can I read them?

EEK OMG YAY! okay so one thing about me im a little student girlie #ihaventboughtmilkinaweek so i will always consume media the free way lmao. the site i read the bsd manga on is 'bsdmanga.com' which seems very legit but does also do pop ups a lot for me so just make sure you've got an adblock going. if you want to properly buy them though ive seen bsd being sold in almost every waterstones! as for the anime, the sub and dub were both free on crunchyroll AND funimation back when i first started watching it, but not anymore bc everything is awful. the main less-legit site i use for anime is 'animesuge' and that has it there :)

#animesuge has literally never let me down i swear by it but like i said im p sure it's not as official #so again just be sure you've got an adblock!#okay okay back to bsd SO there's 4 seasons (the 4th currently airing!) as well as a spin-off called bsd wan that's more silly/lighthearted #and also two films in the form of dead apple (my favourite anime film of all time) and the beast live action #that i havent watched yet bc my go-to piraters are LETTING ME DOWN #as for the manga it's a tad confusing at first glance so i'll give u a quick rundown bc i promise it's not as intimidating as it seems #like it's a GOOD things that bsd has sooooooo much content like even i havent consumed it all yet im not strong enough #so there's the main manga that's now on chapter 105.5 (a VERY good chapter)#but i started reading where the anime ended (a good halfway through) and havent felt any problem with that #so if u dont want to tackle the entire thing you could do that!#there's also a bunch of light novels that act as prequels and/or is just asagiri writing fanfiction for his own story lmao #like what was beast if not fanfiction come ON #so yeah those are very good also #there's a lot online about what order to watch/read it all in if that bothers you #but honestly you should be fine sticking to the main content (the anime and main manga) and if you like it you can branch out #i watched all the animated content first before i even touched the manga/novels and that worked well for me #i will say i personally found the anime really slow for a while so my rule with reccing bsd is to tell people to at least wait for chuuya #lmfao like once it gets going it GETS GOING and also he is the most character of any media EVER #so just give it a chance!#okay ill stop talking now <3 #bsd #ask

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thestarlightindex · 2 months

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huh

#just realised #we havent. been able to actually cry in so long #that the guys currently in front are surprised by the feeling of post-cry tear stains on our cheeks #bc they haven't felt it until now #ghost doesn't remember how to cry bc he's a ghost #helios can't really because he's a cat #porter mostly just panics instead of cries #so when we finally have the ability to just sit down and start actually sobbing for a while #everyone is confused by the feeling #i think it's good that we're crying though #better than being dead inside and so depressed i can't feel anything but sick #the only issue is we have no fucking clue why we're crying so damn hard right now #like what's actually wrong that's making us cry #we wanted to cry before anything even happened today it's just been like this since we woke up #i mean. sometimes you just really need a good cry #sometimes you just kinda wake up sad #but. i want to know why. not knowing why frustrates me like i feel like i should know that if it's affecting me like this

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myname-isnia · 7 months

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Suddenly got this really weird off-putting feeling in my chest that I usually get when I’m about to cry over something, but also with some general iffyness thrown into the mix, and for once instead of immediately giving in to it or getting pissed at my mind I tried to figure out where it came from

Turns out I would have been completely justified in getting pissed at my mind because turns out, the cause is that I thought about a fic concept I was really excited about a few months ago that I never ended up writing because I couldn’t get into the flow from the very first sentence. I thought about it for a whole five seconds and now we’re here. Fucking great

#I need the ability to shut my brain off bc it’s always dead set on making me upset #yeah no shit I’m depressed and passively suicidal of course my mind is my worst enemy. but still. very mature thing to get hysterical about #and like. I barely even tried with that fic. I was riding that Astraphobia high back then #and thought I finally managed to achieve what other writers always went on and on about re: enjoying writing #yeah I know. I spent years writing without once enjoying the process or the final result. idk why I kept at it for so long #so I was feeling genuinely unstoppable and when the idea came to me I was super excited about writing it #but then I wasn’t really sure how to start it or how to even go about describing what I wanted to go down #I typed up a few sentences and it all just felt extremely wrong #so instead of acting like the adult I nearly am and like. leaving it to sit for a while as I gathered my thoughts #or trying out a few other approaches or starting with a different scene and filling the rest in later #I just threw a fit over it and abandoned the whole fic #but I still really like the idea and would like to see it realised. and who’ll do that if not me? kat has her own stories to worry about #so every so often I remember that excitement I felt at the prospect of getting to write it #and how quickly it faded when it didn’t feel as effortless as most of astraphobia did #and how that really felt like the greatest betrayal because it seemed as if the spark I spent so long trying to cultivate and light #was just doused with freezing water right in front of me. by my own mind no less #so… I suppose that betrayal will continue to haunt me still. probably until I pull myself together and write that fic #regardless of the pain and tears it will cause. and I know it will. that’s what forcing fics out always feels like #and I’m saying forcing out fics bc the only time I felt like an actual writer was when I wrote Astraphobia #all the other times I was just stubbornly shoving the wrong puzzle pieces together. or forcing square shape into round holes like a toddler #but regardless. I will keep remembering the idea and feeling like shit over failing at it unless it gets written #by me or kat and it shouldn’t be her job to write fics for me bc I’ll throw a fit if she doesn’t #exaggerated. but the point is there. I can’t expect anyone to disarm the triggers in my brain. only I can do that #and if writing that fic will stop me from getting hysterical at the tiniest thought of it. then it seems like I’ll have to see to it #even if it takes a huge mental load. it’ll be worth it in the long run bc I’ll have one less writing-related thing to cry about #I just wish I knew how to go about it better. I have clear ideas about the main part of the fic but the inciting incident + details evade me #I guess I’ll just have to figure it out. I have to stop saying ‘it is what it is’ and continuing to stew in the self hatred #something needs to be done. and in this case the only thing that will remove the trigger is the fic being written #I think part of me always knew that but tried to ignore it and hoped those feeling would fade with time. but of course they didn’t.#so… I guess it’s never been clearer what I have to do. my fate is in my own hands. one trigger less certainly wouldn’t hurt

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gommyworm · 10 months

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#havent felt this kms in a while !!!#hate pmsing bc it absolutely destroys my mood bht goddddddd i cant see a reason to do this anymode #so fucking tired #i wish i had friends !!!!!! like literally ajyone i could see !!!!!#i havent seen anyone in a social context in weeks !!! its just work w my sad fucking team that doesnt even get to see each ofther #and then home w my brkthers who are constantly trying to kill each other !!!#i havent even seen my cousins lol !!!! 2 cousins came up from toronto but theyre all hanging out without me !!#didnt even give me a courtesy invite or anything !!!!!!#like am i really that undesireable to have around ? nobody thinks of me or talks to me unless they need something !#i should just kms fr lol #being alive is so annoying i wish i was dead 👍🏼#disclaimer: i wont actually kms bc im a coward and i have responsibilities but gooooooodddddd i wish #gommywords

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