#bc like wow! yeah! hes a bit of a menace!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

okay but the realization that Howdy is actually a little bit of a scoundrel? a scammer even?? was like the BEST part of the update for me!!! his got a bit of spice to him i like that!

idk if it’s just me but it feels like it’s very important that Eddie was the only have like a extra audio thing on his character sheet in the neighborhood besides Wally and the You page?? like that feels significant somehow right??

i just really loved both Howdy and Eddie in these updates they were so great

GOD i know i know he's got some Kick to him! he's got Flavor! i love how he turned the common perception of his character on its side - everyone expected him to be wholesome and helpful and sweet, and then the update came in with the fuckin steel chair-

hmmmm i can see both sides of the beetle on Eddie's bio - the significance, and the possibility of it just being There because most pages had 1-2 bugs, and the audio was about Eddie. but ALSO its so so likely that is Was significant! i honestly thought so as well!

i mean, the beetle is very uhhh, Valentine looking? the prevalent heart shapes, the soft pink-yellow-white coloring, plus its an audio centered on Eddie and Frank. we already know FranklyDear is going to be an established Couple - so i'd agree that the significant is There! and if we lived in an alternate world where we didn't know about FranklyDear, we'd all be losing our collective shit over this and theorizing the hell outta it

[hauntingblue]

Oden is winning the bad bitch competition jesus

[icharchivist]

was having banri thoughts lately just bc like. why not right. and then i suddenly remember u mentioning that some ppl... did not like banri at the start? which is wild to me bc in my mind ive always been ride or die for him. like i love juza so much but i feel like. that doesnt rly oppose liking banris character as well? banri is such fun character drama at the beginning of autumn and then his and itarus dynamic is fun from the start... gosh and the acting in the final bits of the autumn troupe between him and juza! suchhh fun tension. like. idk. it just started making me think like wow. digging thru a3 on my own with mostly the influence of like, just you has probably skewed my opinion of what the common perception of a3 is like. for example in my head winter is the most popular troupe which... it maybe isnt? i feel like recently i saw u mention summer might be the most popular(? this couldve been a dream) and i didnt realize itaru was super popular until like. last month. i mean if i had to pick a character i thought was the most popular i'd pick. misumi.

LKFJDLKFJD god what an ask

yeah i doubt i'm exactly the "common a3 experience" but to be perfectly honest i haven’t really kept tabs on the fandom per se since hh mid-2020 when i started to dig into some tags and saw so much negativity i was just :/ and stopped doing so (the curse to liking rascals </3).

Nowadays my knowledge of the a3 fandom is mostly the people interreacting with me, which already generally means that they vibe with what i post, so it gives me a skewed vision of the fandom like, are we all like that? or are the loud voices that made me go avoid the tag still here yaknow?

More stuff under cut

For Banri, i'll admit i wasn't too hot about him when i started the game, which now i regret so bad because he's my precious little meow meow hands down. He has such a good arc!!!! I know in my case i just had a hard time because i cared for Juza right away and i was still so high on Summer's development i kept comparing Banri to Tenma and going "here's why Tenma is amazing and Banri is cringefail". But it lasted me until a bit before Banri sees the portraits, when he starts to be conflicted, after that i was all, oh wait i like that guy. And then the more content i saw of him the more i loved him and he became my fav Autumn Chara. (so if you want to ramble about him more you’re free to do so because i’m team i adore this guy. please do. you’re so right in what you say of him.)

But so i did expect people to have my experience - hard time in the beginning, then mellowing on him before the end of the Autumn Chapter. And it wasn't the case 😭😭😭😭 At least at the time, the Banri's takes were rancid. Like it was genuinely annoying at a point, you couldn't go anywhere without some Banri bashing fuckery, even after his initial arc, people just. really hated him. My most hated takes were that i saw so many people say Banri would bully Yuki or stuff implying they would have an antagonistic relationship and it's probably why i cling to Into the Night so much, like HELL you're going to twist one of my fav crosstroupe dynamic!!! I legit saw so many things reducing Banri to a menace and a bully, and if not that, talking about how much everyone in the dorm hated him, and it was really driving me insane then.

I remember once making a post about how i was so close to blacklist "Banri" because people didn't filter this bashing with tags so i was just ready to just, not see Banri anymore, but it was breaking my heart. But somehow after this post i got a few people coming back at me about how it annoyed them too and i saw some of those people make their own posts in a more. direct way. and after that i never saw Banri bashing again. My power (< absolutely not, coincidence at best i'm sure).

A lot of Banri bashing i saw back then were from "newcomers" in the sense that it was after the anime aired, and a lot of people were just coming in without knowing about the events. imo i think the events do help giving a better feel to Banri in general so the fact people were fresh from the anime might have skewed things. I remember a friend who was in that case, newcomer and all, only read the main story, didn't like Banri after reading the main story. Then, Main story act 2 came out and while they didn't read the events, they read the main story and they started liking Banri there (because he did develop so much since then)

And as a whole i'd say, by act 2 it must have died out a bit.

There's another chara who gets bashed a lot but. Act 2 stuff 😔. Unfortunately a chara i like a lot so this was my breaking point of "i'm not checking the tags anymore none of you know how to behave". I think it mellowed since then? and i know the chara is popular in the JPN fandom meanwhile.

else i've seen like, Tasuku having very little content from fans and a few people being mean to him when they talked about him, but it was a long time ago and i sure hope it died out. I don't think i'd say he's bashed, more that most folks don't have strong feelings about him and stopped just with a bitter taste over his anger toward Tsumugi in the first winter chap.

Now. About popularity, Winter is DEF NOT the most popular troupe. Pretty sure it plays between Autumn and Summer in term of popularity. That said it's not like any of the troupes are unpopular so any ramblings about each Troupe would be meet with pleased reactions from the fandom, so it is harder to gauge that but yeah.

Troupewise something i noticed is that i think Summer is the most popular in term of GROUP, while Autumn is the most popular in term of Individuals. So a lot of people liked Summer specifically for their dynamic and how each of those charas played out each other more than individually liking each of them, while for Autumn it was, they liked all of them strongly! not specifically for their dynamic, though of course it plays a part, but as individuals. I mention it because i think it was the key difference in rank up in why i think Summer plays were okay to rank up to while Autumn were a nightmare. (that said that can also be "blamed" on "fans gravitate around characters that have elements they have as well" or something which means Autumn fans were more likely to be competitive and stubborn in a way Summer were more mellow.)

Itaru is definitely the most popular character of the whole game, period. It's not even a competition at this point it's so funny. when the EN server was live, anytime Itaru had a rank up card was a bloodbath (< survivor of Kniroun ranking up at 0.2%. Didn't sleep normally for the whole duration of the event it was so much.).

By the end of the server things were dying out a bit but still in general you could get a vague idea of popularity by how wild the rankings could be. For instance the fact Tasuku's ranking was a breeze without even trying was indicative of how he's not that popular.

In general i've noticed, at the time at least, that Winter ranks up were rather easy. I've ranked up for a few of Summer and i didn't see much of a problem otherwise*. Spring was really chill unless Itaru was in rank up. Autumn was THE Bloodbath. There were Autumn Stans organziation all over, the appp SYSTEMATICALLY broke EVERYTIME Autumn was around, it was always much more challenging, so yeah man.

Misumi* is probably the one i'd consider the second most popular character of the game, pretty much.

(*The funny thing is that Misumi got his lead play very early in the server's history, and i know i ranked up for him then and i didn't think it was too hard. In retrospect i'm sure it has more to do with the fact the game didn't have as many people playing it, than it had to do with popularity, so my word on Summer not being a problem is based on weird stats)

A while ago, for the Taiwanese server, there was a special set of cards in term of popularity on this server. Itaru got a SSR, Masumi got a SR, and Misumi got a R.

Masumi is in a weird position because i'd say he's fairly unpopular in the EN server, while he's popular in the JPN and Taiwanese server. Honestly i'm assuming he's especially popular with the teen audience.

AND THE MOST TELLING PART:

The first Cross-troupe's play was involving the most popular character of each troupe, by a poll being made by the JPN server. The leads were Itaru and Banri, then Misumi as a secondary character and Tsumugi as a more support character.

Meaning at the time, this was the order of the 4 most popular characters of the game.

When the mixed troupe event came to the English server, i remember a poll circulating on tumblr and likely twitter as well, trying to see if the EN Server had different favorites. Itaru still came on top, Misumi followed closely afterward. For Autumn, it was Juza and Taichi that were on the top of the Autumn poll, not Banri, and for Winter, i think it was still Tsumugi but Homare was very close behind.

So that was the popularity at least back then, god knows opinions now.

I've seen Homare be extremely popular on tumblr for sure. I have no doubt in Juza's popularity as well.

I saw a lot of Taichi fan going "Taichi is underappreciated" but i saw so many of them i was kinda just thinking "bro i'm pretty sure Taichi is in the popular character squad by now" But i'm also on the other hand as i've once seen a post saying Hisoka was popular and it stunned me a moment going ????? because as a huge Hisoka stan i don't see it???? There's a few devoted fans, and he has a better fanbase in JPN server, but in EN server??? (I'm comparing the last rank up for Hisoka VS the last rank up for Taichi in my mind and i genuinely don't see it for instance) so i also think it's likely i have a "fav blindspot" where i just don't think people are vibing with the charas the way i'm vibing, just. exactly like what i'm talking about with the Taichi stans so.... (that said i also once was tagged in a post that was going "i don't think i've ever seen a Hisoka or Tasuku stan" and a friend just went @ icha come here. Schrodinger Hisoka who's both popular and unpopular depending on who you're asking. And Tasuku IS MY UNDERRATED MEOW MEOW)

I think i recall Tenma being popular for a time, and Yuki is well appreciated by everyone around here. Kazunari has a loud fanbase but i'm pretty sure the seiyuu thing was a huge blow to them and a lot of them got more quiet at the time.

And for what it's worth i do think there's a sizeable portion of the fandom that really like Tsuzuru, but i think it's just, something you get to see a lot when a huge part of the fandom is creatives. And to be completely fair, Clockwork Heart is the one event i had a massive burn out at and didn't pay attention to the rankings at all, so i can't tell if people went really wild about it. And the next Tsuzuru rank up event was literally the last event of the EN server and i'm sure it's not indicative of anything since a lot of folks just didn't want to bother. So unlike the others were i'm using rank up as a gauge of popularity i can't tell how Tsuzuru's might influence his.

SO YEAH that's for what i could pick up BACK THEN, as i remind, i didn't really look deeply into the fandom itself. I'm really good in my corner so it might not actually be indicative of the fandom trends and i'm maybe completely off base.

Then about how, i, personally, don't represent the fandom, unless the fandom changed since then: When i first liveblogged a3, it was when the server was new and no one was on tumblr about it, so i was a little unfiltered from people's opinions. when i came back about a year later to comment on act 2, getting all worked up, and running then into the growing fanbase on this website, is when i started to run into fan takes and everything.

And, let's be clear, i came back because i was crying very hard over Hisoka and Azuma and the full Winter Troupe, and Chikage, so i really came here with my Big Winter Boots only talking about Winter and then Spring.

I ended up getting a feel of what people were talking about a lot at that time, and kinda ended up talking more about what i considered my Underrated Gems.

For instance, i absolutely adore Itaru. I ranked up for him, i've bleed for him, i love the dude. But he's so popular i figured i legit had nothing to say about him that a hundred people wouldn't have been able to say before. So i've mostly didn't really talk about him much despite loving him a LOT because i just didn't think i had anything to say. (now in my current reread i'm doing it so disconnected from what i know of the fandom that i indulged in talking more about how much i like him LMAO)

Meanwhile, there's characters i love that i know the fandom don't talk about much so i end up talking about them more, and it's the case of Tasuku. I wouldn't be surprised Tasuku is really low on most people's popular list. I'm just Not Most People and you're going to hear me ramble about that hunk of a man every few days or so.

I've made my niche in the Winter Troupe appreciation gang and i'm pretty sure by now a lot of other Winter people follow me as a result because i couldn't shut the fuck up, so then my perception of the fanbase gets skewed because i just think of Them ahah.

And there is the fact i adore the rookies, mainly Chikage and Guy, but don't talk about them so much mostly because they came out later in the main story and i've been rereading act 1 so many times instead,,, and didn't talk much about act 2 in case some people managed to save themselves from being spoiled (like you!!)

So my personal perception of a3 is probably not reflecting the whole a3 fanbase really much. God the amount of times i talked my friends's ears off about Winter, that they kinda just humored me without thinking much about it, until they found out one of the More Popular Chara (Itaru, Tenma and the whole Autumn Troupe mostly) and suddenly they're like *twirls hair* heeyy Icha tell us more about a3. It's genuinely so funny to me.

and again i don't know perhaps i'm full of shit, and it's not like i've kept tabs on the fandom recently either!

But that is at least a bit of what i remember in term of popularity and what i can say is that i shouldn't be taken as an example of the fanbase's views in general.

I'm vibing in my corner, and by experience, it usually meant i ended up talking about more niche things, but since i'm disconnected from the fandom i'm pretty sure i still have opinions that are popular opinions. So who knows! not me!

So yeah that's all i can say about the popularity of the a3 fandom. Def not an indication of it by me.

and it must be funny for you since you only really have me as your fandom gateaway because well. *waves at post* yeah.

The more you know!

[just-jordie-things]

hello! im a new reader but can i just say how much i adore your writing!!! i adore myself some spicy fics once in awhile but reading fluffy and soft stories just does it for me… but uh i accidentally started your latest series “to build a home” chapter 3, without knowing what the plot was about!! but can i just say i absolutely adore it?! gojos just a little baby whiny abt reader not being around like he obviously has a massive crush he just wants to deny it!!! and hes so mean to yu!!>:( poor baby yu was only trying to be considerate and also has a huge heart.. gojos just mean and likes to bully his way to get whatever he wants…like ik gojo has the habit of things going his way!! he gets whatever he wants cause hes a brat abt it otherwise! and i think that applies with reader too? like obviously she’s oblivious (which is something i adore abt your stories bc i absolutely EAT UP the trope of Obsessed and IN LOVE gojo/oblivious and confused reader) and she doesn’t consider the fact tht he might just be in love with her so it drives him Absolutely Up the WALLs!!! id totally love if she keeps hiding her secret of trying to find fushiguro’s kids from gojo and when he does find out (he will bc hes annoying like that) i cant imagine the shock and horror bc ?! im kicking my feet imagining how he’ll react… cause one abt gojo is that he hates not knowing things!!! hes a baby .. and ofc geto and shoko are there too… and theyre roped into this box of secrets between the two and ofc theyre worried abt reader too bc its unlike her to lie… but reader is sentimental and i think she blames herself and puts it on her shoulders that she owes it to fushiguro’s kids(?) even tho she obviously doesnt in any way… i think she has a half mind to take them in and adopt them.. (cue teenagers gojo and reader adopting kids without dating and falling in love sorry not sorry) anyways im super curious where this is gonna go!! bc ik gojo’s totally peeved abt that interaction with yu and reader ( and tho hes an ass for it i was kicking my feet bc gojos so dumb. i totally want to read more of the other students making grabby hands at reader and making her giggle just to spite gojo so bad><<)

also!! in your last kiss to dare?? gojo snippet… in your author’s note you wrote how gojo would kiss geto any day of the week, im curious of youll ever write a poly!stsg with reader? bc i can actually see that happening, theyre both menaces who love each other and it comes with no surprise they have someone to share with who can actually endure them and it shocks everyone around them😭😭🥹like gojo is a menace and everyone thinks geto is nicer.. but no geto is just as evil and cunning!! together they make a wicked duo and poor reader suffers from their neverending schemes🙁

OMG WOW I CANT EVEN EXPLAIN PROPERLY HOW HAPPY THIS MESSAGE MADE ME ?? LIKE FUCK YEAH IM GLAD YOU LOVE IT AS MUCH AS I DO !!!! and you GET it DUDE !!!!!!

gojo is the biggest piece of shit!! he's clingy!! he's immature!! he's possessive and jealous and honestly a bit toxic but he means well he really does <3 he just worries about his girl (hehehe !!) and he does not like her keeping secrets from him. i mean she doesn't like doing it either buuuuut you gotta do what you gotta do when you're suddenly a single mom LMFAO

there's a LOT of tbah still to come. it's a slow burn but i've also got it so loaded with plot that there were times i was almost distracted by the other drama i got carried away with it lmfao but this series is my BABY rn so seeing it get such praise make my heart soar!! <3 i hope you continue to love it !!

ALSO i could be curious and dabble in some poly!satosugu x reader some day! i'll keep it in mind :)

as always thank you for the kudos, and happy happy reading !! <3

[nochiquinn]

campaign 3 episode 32: braeuch

UGH twitch won't let me re-sub with prime until the 29th bc I missed the ONE DAY it was available

I have adhd, this is ableist

liam stop that

I always picture the aunt from coraline chiseling at the taffy bowl

letters is an scp

no dis a ssem ble

I've been making arcane gifs, so: sevika

cyborg ladies >

ah. family trauma.

"it was old" impossibly old. old as balls.

fcg whispers!

WhisperCam

orym

matt using this as an excuse to get a drink

"hold me"

Bad Cop

"we're level 7 and I wanna use it"

the way he paused after "it's been a while"

[sprays fcg with a water bottle] you! have! autonomy!

you are an AUTOMATON it is IN THE NAME kind of

this all hurts

laura inevitably giggling at "pussy"

not looking forward to "dancer is an irredeemable villain" takes

she's just. kind of a not-great person who is also facing probably the most traumatic event of their life? I wouldn't be at my kindest either

fcg :(

"you always do better when you talk" put me in the ground

weird steam-powered giraffe subunit

"you're always asking for more shopping"

somebody in chat said fcg makes the usb device noise when he swaps arm extensions and now it's all I can hear

it is now safe to remove your buzzsaw

travis did not prepare for this information

YES AND, BITCH

(I'm gonna have to hunt that down and make a gif)

"we're fucking at joe's?" "joe wants to fuck me?"

liam

"I didn't mean it like that" "yeah no sure you didn't"

this is how they get taken off twitch

"SAM. what's WRONG WITH YOU."

liam

…so he's rearranging fcg's guts

"only one thing looks purple in the whole world" the fandom trying to connect everything together

WOW

"delilaaaaah, make yourself usefuuuuul you stupid biiiitch"

she did not

sigrun's rune scars

(please read edda-earth)

I got distracted by tiktok (title of my autobiography) (that I didn't finish) (guess why)

the KAREN CULLING

"you cannot say words"

"where the FUCK is aeor"

"unchosen bits" folk pop band name

god time GOD TIME

does fcg become a changebringer cleric bc that would be cool

"guns for tiny monkey hands" is unchosen bits' debut album

"black powder" I miss viktor

love that ashley has a little mister prop now

ashon is that guy who flung the walmart pallet one-handed

is laudna's arm weaker at the elbow or at the shoulder

I have processed Nothing why are we stressed

fearne

they're gonna know

I always feel bad zoning out bc like. this is not much of a reaction post if I don't fucking pay attention to react

…..wooden hats

the faun can detect magic! I didn't know she knew how to do THAT.

cerberus assembly is the new uko'toa (uko'toa)

"everybody knows spartans don't exist!"

"we need someone fast" "and furious" "I could go" "you're neither of those things"

"I've heard people say 'brewch'" "they were wrong"

taliesin why was that so menacing

they are single-handedly going to change the popular pronunciation of the word "brooch"

travis

life is short, do something to a bagel

"first branch of a very big tree" [squints]

"be the best broken thing you can be"

newly refurbished chamber that was once bad

chetney why are you so HORNY

[gayspock]

ok i finally have time im gonna watch part 2 at LAST

problemo number one. ive forgotten girlies' names. i remember starbuck, my friend starbuck. an DFUCKING GAIUS.. + boomer shes cute....

but i dont recall anyone else's NAME-names if you get me. just vibes

and i liked everyone i think smile so its like good vibes

also "jumping" COME ON. COME UP WITH A BETTER NAME. WARP FACTOR PUSSY. STARBUST. HYPERDRIVE. JUMPING? COME ON. NOT EVEN JUMPING AND POPPING? JOP OR KYS

yesss i knew the girlies would be alive. missus president and the son . theres no way they need to milk him for the drama.. APOLLO. i forgot his name. of course they called him apollo.

THE way gaius is just shaking like a tiny fucking puppydog. oh im going to kick him like a football. whilst he hallucinates a beautiful blonde woman in horror.

tyrol yes his name is tyrol. i love him hes my friendies.

woahi want a beautiful lady chip in my brain to torment me. dorito flavour please!

will this wee cunt be a recurring guy. the arms dealer. i think he'd be a funny addition to the girlies.

I ALSO LIKE THE OTHER GIRL. WHATS HER NAME. tyrol's little.... colleage ehrm. CALLY. SAYS GOOGLE. SMILE. shes so cute

AND BILLY. HES JUST FUCKING VIBING ISNT HE. COULD YOU EVEN IMAGINE.... bles- billy now why did you tell her that. im obsessed with you billy. violence. a bit of billy badness

also fucking hell, this is fucking . good heavens. ... sorry i realise im never discussing whats occurring in the episode im just like wow i li- CHILD DEATH. 😐...

anyway as i was saying like i do rlly like this so far HOWEVER both the vibe & the characters, i have to wonder... how many holdover to the main show hmmmm. im sooo curious

"didnt include a soul in programming" then what do you call the brave redditors on the advent of code sub, making the most bjeautiful visualisations

EVERYONE JUST NECKING IT ON

THE WAY GAIUS' EYES BOGGLED LIKE YEAH BILLYS GOT THE RIZZ YEAH HE DOES . THE FUCK YOU LOOKING AT. AND YOU TWO- WHY ARE YOU GETTING SLOPPY WITH THAT KID JUST STOOD THERE. HEAVENS ABOVE.

oh dear OH NOES

OH MISTER ADAMA LOOK OUT

GOOD HEAVENS

SO MUCH FOR THE CHEEKY LITTLE CRIMINAL IT SEEMS HES- oh good heavens well. to narrate the scene its . its like his head is an ikea kit and mister adama is trying to- oh goodness me

catgeroy 5 #girl event from mister adama (bludgeoned a cunt to death)

gaius is beyond a fucking menace im actually kind of crazy for it -the fucking... YOU CANT ATTACK A MAN IN A RUST COLOURED BLAZER, SILLY.

"lee" or "apollo" (VERY transmasc names btw) not telling his dad he was still alive (transmasc activity) is so me

him hugging his dad is so not me though

ALSO THE WAY GAIUS IS LIKE. ,.. THEYRE LIKE "rumour has it youre a genius" WHEN HES ALSO NOT DONE ANYTHING THIS WHOLE TIME LIKE I DONT DOUBT IT BUT ALSO HES JUST HAD THINGS HAPPEN TO HIM. LIKE... HES LIVING LIFE IN CRIT 1S AND NAT 20S.

ALSO THE WAY HES FUCKING . GETTING THIS GUY BC HE CAUGHT HIM GETTING HIS JOLLIES OFF TO A HALLUCINATION. GAG. AND THE WAY HES CONVINCING THESE GUYS IS JUST SAYING WHATEVER THE FUCK

also ONE criticism i have is im not sure how if eel about some of the music. some of it is so out of place its like kinda odd

"and i studIED PUBLIC RELATIONS!"

its such a big mistake to cross a girl in a statement blazer who studied public relations. you are so going to get your comeuppance for this.

i was about to comment on the cussing & i went to go look at tv tropes to see if there was a specific term for it and can i say tv trops are so funny i scrolled past and it said "gordon bennett" was made up for red dwarf and then underneath there's a note thats like"TRUTH IN TELEVISION. THIS IS USED IN THE UK." LIKE HELP PLEASE

anyway obviously #farscapeheads we cant really talk here but help. FRACK. OF ALL FUCKING WORDS. GOOD HEAVENS. WHAT THE FRICKITY FRACK IS GOING ON. THE

SO theyre going to try to... GO TO EARTH. HUH.

the implications of that.... ok

also YAAY FOR SOME KID. WOO. YIPPEE. LOVE IT WHEN THERES JUST SOME KID DICKING ABOUT THE MILITARY OPERATIONS.

bonus pointd when the kid is wearing a turtleneck. so sensible and smart

ALSO LEE. apollo. he seriously dors look like someone took the average tv boytoy from 2004 and got the mean average its so funny

i do love their slaggy little vests. theyre not like the standard ones that are already quite slaggy. its like theyre from plt's clearance sale

HI PUBLIC RELATIONS ARE YOU OKAY

oh my god he was acylon

WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT GAIUS. THE CRITS. THE NATS. PLEASE.

m

MY

MY GIRLY BOOOMERR? YOOOOOOOOOOOO

RIGHT

I KNOW THERE WAS A LOT OF MURDER BUT IM STARTING TO SIDE WITH THE CYLONS I DONT TRUST ANY OF YOU BITCHES WHAT

OKAY END OF EP SMILE i finished the mini series yaaayyyy

[lovenliterature]

Thoughts on Midnights

I did write this back when I first listened to Midnights but forgot to post it so some of my thoughts I don't know what I meant any more

Note - first two songs are technically second listen because of the FUCKING DAILY MAIL

1 - Lavender Haze

Really liked the vibe from the off

Not her usual style and I LOVE it

Definitely one to dance to

Really evocative of clubbing nights, that drunken time

No room for anything between one night stand/lifelong commitment (I oop v much my mindset but works for me I guess)

Acc the perfect song for this exact moment, need something to distract and also remind me not to care

“Damned if I do give a damn what people say” - Nice twist on damned if I do damned if I don't and so true

Lyric vid - cool - weird sauna vibes though and also a bit elaborate/distracting

Like the background surrounding the phrase lavender haze - also feels inherently queer to me given lavender scare/lavender menace and it’s nice to have a positive spin on that

Fave lyric: “I’ve been under scrutiny/you handled it beautifully"

2 - Maroon

"roommates cheap ass screw top rosé" - lolll relatable in like a oh fuck we're gonna be hungover and this is a disaster but also we're young and fuck it is its awful at least its cheap

Love love the vibe the tune everything

Love the red shades idea it’s so cute and beautiful

The depth in her voice on “how the hell did we lose sight of us again”

Lyric video: Like the skyline but text hard to read

Red imagery cool but again distracting

Fave lyric: “carnations you had thought were roses” or “that’s a real fucking legacy”

3 - Anti-Hero

upbeat contrast I like it

Fuck I need this song forever these rhymes are BEAUTIFUL

"It’s me hi I’m the problem it’s me" - wow this is so painful and raw

"Too big to hang out" - ow accurate 

"Directly at the sun but never in the mirror" - so so painful but so true, being able to commit to the self destruction but not being able to look at yourself

Also the emphasis on how much work it is for people to love you when you destroy it 

"Covert narcissism disguised as altruism" - genius line, clever and sonically satisfying

Only the young vibes

Fan of the sofa/scale imagery

Heavy music video but works better bc quite a dynamic and fast paced song

Fave lyric: "when my depression works the graveyard shift and all the people I've ghosted stand there in the room"

4 - Snow On The Beach

don’t love the initial bells kinda opening, interesting

Might grow on me though

Lyrics are hitting okay

"I’d never seen someone lit from within" - inner beauty, glowing

"It’s fine to fake it til you make it til you do" also again just what I needed to hear

(Maybe bold the lines I needed today haha)

Fave lyric: "time can’t stop me quite like you did"

5 - You’re On Your Own Kid

like the tempo and general vibe so far

"Sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes" - beautiful juxtaposition - the dousing vs the destruction

"Starved my body" so true, as much as you try to hurt yourself to please others all you'll accomplish is breaking yourself

"Blood soaked gown" - so evocative and hurts

Okay this is a heavy fave the further through we get 

"Yeah you can face this" - lovely lovely song progression

Fave lyric: "I touch my phone as if it's your face"

6 - Midnight Rain

WEIRD start but on second listen really really like it

Feels a bit like something from 1989 but can’t figure out what but that vibe

Love the distortiony rain vibe

“I broke his heart cuz he was nice”

“I wanted that pain” - such a theme of the album so far, self destruction and the self awareness behind it too

“All of me changed” - such a conflict in relationships when one of you is comfy and happy and one of you is slowly changing and being comfy isn’t enough

Comfy isn’t always love, isn’t always compatible 

Love love the lyric vid, such a nice visualiser and goes really well w the distortion

Fave lyric: "He wanted a bride, I was making my own name"

7 - Question…?

"Can I ask you a question" - oh ow that’s always so so loaded and so painful

"It’s just a question" - ooooooh I love that hands up run away from responsibility 

Bridge is so cool 

" Does it feel like everything's just like/second best after that meteor strike?" - Meteor strike!! So cute and wow ow

"I'm sure that's what’s suitable/and right" wow no holds barred saying everything you wanna say to an ex or a friend when they’re in the wrong relationship

Fave lyric: "don’t remember who I was/before you painted all my nights/a colour I've searched for since" or "fuckin' politics and gender roles"

8 - Vigilante Shit

Ready for it vibes

"You did some bad things but I’m the worst of them" - WOW

"Dressing for revenge" - oh my god ultimate breakup vibe

Crazy ex girlfriend vibes

No body no crime vibes

"He was doing lines and crossing all of mine" - twist of meaning love love love it

Fave lyric: "Don't get sad, get even"

9 - Bejeweled

vibe of "You wear the same jewels that I gave you" from my tears ricochet

"Putting someone first only works if you're in their top five" - oof this hits DEEP, value yourself and value others but don't value them significantly higher than they do you

Also mirrorball vibes

Love the chorus vibe

"Diamonds gotta shine" (gives me vibe of another t swift song but idk which, folklore/evermore I think)

Fave lyric: "Did all the extra credit, then got graded on a curve"

10- Labyrinth 

"I’ll be getting over you my whole life" - very first love, you never lose the love you have even if its not the same

"If it rises fast/it can’t last" - oop my relationships but also v much cam relationships 

Also doesn’t necessarily feel like just falling in love with a person but could be with a place or unhealthy thing

V heavy on distortion but the harmonies oh man

The repeated breaks are so clever, like this thing was made to break

When her voice goes deep that’s when it hits hardest

Fave lyric: "You would break your back to make me break a smile"

11 - Karma

Love the vibe

V revenge and dancy and a fuck you vibe

"Karmas a relaxing thought" - such a vibe when you've objectively been wronged

Love all of the diff descriptions

Love the bridge 

Love the reframing of karma as her boyfriend when they’ve often been referred to like that and it’s like a constant of her music it’s so interesting 

Fave lyric: "don’t you know that cash ain’t the only price"

12 - Sweet Nothing

love love the opening feels like it should be listened to by the fire w hot choc w rain outside

Sweet nothing vs sweet nothings (WOW THIS IS SO MUCH WORSE POST YOU'RE LOSING ME)

Too soft for all of it oh my god

This world hurts and that’s okay it’s allowed to I love the vulnerability 

Fave lyric: "I wrote a poem/You say "What a mind"/This happens all the time"

13 - Mastermind

 Like the vibe

Very cxg again

Love it when she flips accusations on their head and runs w them

"Born to be the pawn" - Probably meant to be read as her being forced to be the pawn but in my mind it's her happily playing the role just so she can be underestimated

"I’m the liquor in our cocktails" - I'm the fun and the spice in the relationship and maybe the danger, and maybe a little too much of me can turn these things sour

"No one wanted to play with me as a little kid/So I've been scheming like a criminal ever since" - love it, THEY pushed me to this and now I'm blamed? But I only try so hard because I want to be loved

Love the chorus

Fave lyric: "And the touch of a hand lit the fuse/Of a chain reaction of countermoves"

14 - The Great War

like the vibe so far

Surviving something and promising to be better after but there’ll always be another thing

"My knuckles were bruised like violets" - they were bruised but in a laudable way so view them as flowers, view them as romantic because it has to have been worth something

Also the support throughout and then growing about (note: no idea wtf I meant by this one ngl)

Love the vibe of bridge etc

"Soldier down on that icy ground/Looked up at me with honour and truth/Broken and blue" - he's on the ground and broen and blue, her injuries are on her fists so more active - interesting juxtaposition

"That was the night I nearly lost you" - such good subversion of expectation (loving the great war)

"Poppy in my hair" - Love the way she sings this line

"It was war it wasn’t fair" - subversion of all's fair in love and war but also things can be forgiven, it was war, it was never going to be fair and we shouldn't hold ourselves to peacetime standards

Fave lyric - "diesel is desire you were playing with fire"

15 - Bigger Than The Whole Sky

Love the vibe and emotion

"All over now" - sounds beautiful 

"You were more than just a short time" - you were worth something, your legacy lasts beyond the short time you were mine

Beautiful heartbreak song

Like the instrumental

Butterfly effect idea

"Did some force take you because I didn't pray" - lack of appreciation leading to leaving

Ashes motif again

Trying to say goodbye but not Acc over it

"What could've been, would've been, should've been you" - nice vibe, the heartbreak of never seeing someone growing into the person you saw them becoming

Fave lyric: "Every single thing I touch becomes sick with sadness"

16 - Paris

V bop freshers energy

Opening of lyric video good rest bit busy and on the nose

if u keep it just yours

Alcohol refs the whole atmosphere of being fucked out of your mind but drunk on love and in the love bubble

Fave lyric: "Cheap wine, make believe it's champagne"

17 - High Infidelity

Mario bros vibe lol

"Put in your headphones and burn my city" - the music as erasure and healing but also writing idea

"The slowest way is never loving them enough" - not meeting someone's needs is the slowest and saddest way to lose them, they're begging you but you can't be what they need

"He brought me back to life" - the idea of the infidelity as a way out

"Picket fence is sharp as knives" - the idea of the 2.5 kids dream as destructive and a dream u can’t reach

"Freeloading/I didn’t know you were keeping count" - the idea of love as transactional and when you start doing stuff for reciprocity you’ve fucked it

Depth of voice in "april 29th" lends significance and just sounds so nice

"Regret me" to "regret meeting me" - idea that it was always leading here

Fave lyric: "Do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes"

18 - Glitch

First note sounds like smth from speak now

But anticlimactic following high infidelity

Underwhelming

It's chill enough though

"Go back to wanting dudes who give nothing"

Fave lyric: "I'm fastening myself to you with a stitch"

19 - Would’ve Could’ve Should’ve

"Pain was heaven" - masochism of feeling anything and being in a relationship bc you must be an adult now even though it's brutal and painful

"Memories feel like weapons" - a breakup turns all memories sour and abusive partners can also twist anything to be a weapon

Love the lyricism

"Never whispered about this" - blaming herself, but I'm reading it as they could have never whispered about this (Would've probably found somethign else)

"Saved me from boredom" - the hindsight seeing the toxicity of something that felt like adulthood and safety but in reality left a trail of hurt

"Now that I’m grown I’m scared of ghosts" the lasting effect of young relationships

Ignorance is bliss

"I regret you all the time" - legacy still not gone

Fave lyric: "Damn sure never would’ve danced with the devil at 19" and "Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first"

20 - Dear Reader

The direct address is fun

Being told explicitly what to read into things

Telling us to find another hero while showcasing unhealthy coping mechanisms ("fourth drink in my hand")

Fave lyric: "If it feels like a trap/You're already in one"

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

in honor of her majesty the sass queen, the royal handful,  crown-bearer of the centre of attention, the one and only harry e. styles

of the instinctively camp jealous arrogant song of a bitch kind 

shames the npr staff and audience for not going hard enough to his music

yells at a fan for throwing their phone on stage and then having him go get it, talks to them like a teacher for the whole bit

this old tweet

sassing an american conservative by echoing the words she used to try to insult him

this fucking look he gives liam when liam tells him he’s taken his seatbelt holder (gif cred to op)

yelling at senior citizens for not picking his album as their bingo prize. look at his hand fucking throwing the situation over his shoulder like they can all go to hell for picking swiss chocolates

shamelessly cheats bc he knows he can get away with it

slaps james cordon’s ass for no reason at all

yeah slam that box shut like it wronged you

after kendall says her siblings are good parents he just says “okay... okay” at the audience. the self-satisfied grin after the laughs he gets too. 

then he addresses the audience again before he has to down the cod sperm bc he knows he’s got them eating out of his hand

“oh wow”... *knock knock knock on the snl monologue piano*

“that’s why the show’s not good anymore...” 

why did that sound like a threat

*dances does jazz fingers and thrusts with a straight face and one hand on the piano like the camp princess we know and love*

and no this isn’t fame getting to his head. he’s always been like this. 

the LOOK he gives this woman who is teaching him !! (yeah ofc she sasses him but that’s exactly what he deserves)

the huFF that follows his famous line and no that was definitely not his kitchen

jealous annoying twat wasting food just to make sure someone else doesn’t feed his man. absolutely stone-faced afterwards too with then the slightest hint of a grin bc i bet he was pleased with himself too

just interrupting a legitimate interview. letting that app repeat itself over and over. and everyone stops and waits till he’s done bc it’s harry and he knows they will and he even gets a hearty laugh out of all of them bc of course he does and obviously i’d laugh too and just look at louis

petulant child

this post with wonderful gifs illustrating what an actual menace he is

just these

mhm.

yeah

i mean sure give interviewers a hard time if their questions suck but do you have to do it in the most centre-of-attention way possible?

sassing a fan again probably

endlessly impatient with liam

like you’re kidding me right

you’d think he hates fans

we won’t let this die

right think that’s enough for now

[bansheeoftheforest]

AU where Henry Jekyll is an absolute cryptid (not literally, but like he acts like one) and it was super prominent in college before he became Repressed². The Lodgers tell horror stories about the cryptid that breaks into the Society, climbs past windows, creeps along the rafters, and Utterson and Lanyon just.. look at each other. Very exasperated yet very fond. Because they remember when Henry climbed into the window of Utterson's dorm room because he realized they were hanging out and he wanted to join. They screamed in terror and panic because it was the THIRD FLOOR, Jekyll, you could have DIED, also that was TERRIFYING you looked like a GIANT SPIDER or some sort of scrawny DEMON, Robert almost FAINTED.

He just.. was one of those guys who jumped fences and climbed trees and buildings and mixed up unholy caffeine concoctions and chugged them. All the feral and wild animals around campus befriended him and brought him trinkets. Utterson and Lanyon just inherently think of Jekyll as this unruly creature and they don't tell anyone but they try not to laugh when people talk about seeing a strange figure at night.

WhAT DO YOU MEAN AU THIS IS CANON.

I just... I fucking love this. Feral!Henry is just Henry bit a teensy less aware of wtf he is doing and yet it's just. Henry. Exactly what Henry does pretty much all the time. Henry away on a business trip or something so Lanyon and Utterson spend the late, stormy evening coddled up in front of the fireplace in one of the parlors together with the other Lodgers. A Lodger peeps up if anyone has seen the cryptid lately. The Lodgers all rushing to tell stories of when they last saw it and what it did, it's terrifying shiny eyes and inhumane hiss. Utterson and Lanyon just... Look at each other, asks them to expand on the cryptid. A Lodger explains that they have been haunted by a strange creature lately-- one that crawls through vents and steals food from the kitchens, climbs on rafters and is just a general menace to them but is also incredibly horrifying. Utterson and Lanyon just lookg at each other discreetly while sipping on their tea like... Oh wow... Oh no... I wonder what that creature could be... How horrifying... cough cough.

I also love the thought of Utterson and Lanyon trying to catch Henry in the act bc they already know his shenanigans. The Lodgers scoff like "Yeah, good luck, we have tried everything" and they just... Sit and wait outside the kitchen, takes exactly ten minutes until Henry comes prowling. They tackle him and Henry looks like an offended cat throwing a tantrum and pouting. Doesn't even have to be him being Feral specifically, just doing feral things and I just... Yes pls <3

[ruffboijuliaburnsides]

Marked with first words spoken type of Soulmate AU

mwahahah yes good This is.  More than five points. I got a little carried away. (added a readmore bc.. yeah)

1) Geralt has two sentences on him, and neither of them are useful.  On the inside of his wrist is a single, small, cramped word: “Sorry.”  Over his heart is, larger and loopier: “Did you kill that?”  Neither of them are particularly helpful, as he hears them over and over again.  

By the time he’s been on the Path for a decade or so, tipping into his 30s, he stops thinking about it, stops hoping, because there’s no way to know, especially when everyone who says them is scared of him and he wouldn’t want to inflict himself on anyone. He’s a witcher. He’s a monster. No one wants to be a witcher’s soulmate.  

Anyway, it’s likely they’ll both live and die before he does. one might fully live and die before the other is even born.  Neither of them deserve to deal with the horror of being a witcher’s soulmate. He just has to bury that part of himself that hopes hopes hopes that maybe he can be worth loving.

2) When he’s 42, he’s passing through Vengerberg and a little girl with a twisted spine crashes into him as he leads Roach through the streets.  He catches her shoulders instinctively to keep her from falling.  

“Watch yourself,” he rumbles.  

“Sorry,” she whispers, and she won’t look up at him, she’s scared of him - large and strange and menacing - but she looks over her shoulder at the slightly older children clustered a few yards away who’d clearly been bullying her, and she seems to be equally scared of them.  

Geralt hums, then says, “I’ll walk you home.”  It’s not far, and it may not help, but at least she got a reprieve. He’s forgotten the incident entirely by the time he finishes his next contract.

3) When he’s 67, he’s somewhere in Kerack, waiting for the Earl of wherever he is to come and verify the sack of vodyanoi heads Geralt had, from the creatures that had been raiding the coastal area near the Earl’s keep.  He’s not quite surprised by the approach of the little boy, but he’s surprised by his lack of fear.  He couldn’t be more than five or six, probably, dressed in simple but well-made clothes, and before Geralt can really process what’s happening, he’s opening the sack and looking down at the decapitated heads of terrifying fish creatures that had been attacking and raiding the docks. 

“Wow,” he whispers, appearing to be both fascinated and grossed out.  He turns wide blue eyes up at Geralt and asks, “Did you kill that?”  

“I did,” Geralt answers, awkward and uncomfortable and a little confused that this child is so close to both him and dead monster heads and doesn’t smell even a little bit of fear. 

“Wow!” the boy repeats, a grin spreading on his face, and then a woman comes in and makes a strangled, panicked noise and races forward to grab the boy and pull him back from Geralt (naturally, of course, rightly so). 

“Lord Julian, you can’t run off like that!” she hisses, dragging him off and scolding him, and Geralt is struck by the fact that the little boy looks back at him and his sack of heads longingly until he’s out of sight.  He’s forgotten the incident by the time he crosses the border out of Kerack.

4) His wish to the djinn doesn’t really do much of anything.  He makes it but he didn’t think it through. All that happens after he makes it is that he and Yen are drawn to each other in a way that even soulmates couldn’t do.  Only physically. It changes nothing about their emotions or how attracted they are to each other.  

Geralt doesn’t know this.  Geralt feels guilty.  He feels guilty that both Yen and Jaskier have soulmates that he almost hopes they don’t find. He feels guilty for loving them both instead of just one of them. He feels guilty for loving them at all. He knows the words below Jaskier’s collarbone that say simply “I did.”, the sharp lines of “Watch yourself.” that curl along Yennefer’s ribs like a challenge. 

He doesn’t know about the tiny script on the nape of Jaskier’s neck, just along his hairline, hidden by his hair, that says “Be still, bard.” or the curling words cut by scars and glamoured away on Yen’s wrist that say “Please, please.” Perhaps it would make sense if he did.  Perhaps it would make sense if they all did.

5) After the dragon hunt, everyone is taut and tense and Borch Three Jackdaws tells Yennefer she’ll never regain her womb, but that she’s seeking something else entirely.  They all are. And if they share their words, perhaps they’ll all find what they’re looking for. Geralt grimaces. Yennefer rolls her eyes. Jaskier sits frowning thoughtfully as Borch and Tea and Vea walk away, because his trade is in words, how could he not already share them?  

Except he’s smart.  You share your thoughts.  You share your feelings.  You don’t share your words, unless... “I have two marks,” he says after a few minutes, causing Geralt and Yen to stop needling each other to near anger again and look at him in tandem, baffled. “Borch said share your words.  Not use your words or share your thoughts.  There’s only one time words are talked about like that.  I have two marks.” 

And Geralt says “No you don’t” and Yen’s like “Oh, you’ve seen that much of him, then?” and Jaskier just firmly plows forward and holds his hair up and turns his back to these terrifying people on the top of a mountain and there it is.

6) And Geralt’s like “well that seems a common thing to say” but it’s only been six years, and the entirety of that first night is burned into Yennefer’s memory for a number of reasons, but she remembers sending Geralt out of the room so she could heal Jaskier, and he was thrashing, in pain, and she’d told him sharply “Be still, bard!” and Jaskier had just been pleading, wheezing and barely able to speak but he was pleading, “Please, please,” and she curses softly and she’s not so stupid as to think they are soulmates unless some other things are true, so she whirls Jaskier around.  

“Had you ever met a witcher before you and Geralt met and you wrote that ridiculous song?” and he’s confused, but manages to stammer out that he thinks maybe once?  When he was really little? He knows an old man came and killed some giant fish and brought the bits in a bag but his nanny wouldn’t let him talk to him even though he really really wanted to. 

She knows who Julian Alfred Pankratz is, of course she does, she made a point to know once she found out that was his full name, and she turns on Geralt and asks if he’d ever done a job for the Earl of Lettenhove and Geralt’s like “..maybe, I don’t know where that is?” and she snaps “Kerack” and he frowns and he remembers the vodyanoi and the little boy with wide blue eyes and not a hint of fear, and Yen’s seen both of their marks, now, saw Geralt’s so many times and saw Jaskier’s second one once.  

“’Did you kill that?’ ‘I did.’” she recites. “The sort of thing a curious little boy named Julian might ask a white-haired adult who looked like an old man to him.”  

And she remembers being young, and she never properly looked at the kind man with the rough voice who’d walked her home, but he’d had a chestnut horse and white hair and dark leather armor, and she presses a hand to her ribs because she hadn’t thought of it in so long and she grabs Geralt’s wrist even though it can’t be seen. “’Watch yourself.’ ‘Sorry.’ And then you walked me home.” 

Then she removes the glamour from her own wrist and shows Jaskier.  “’Be still, bard.’ ‘Please, please’ and then I had to make you sleep, because you were in too much pain and I couldn’t heal you if you weren’t still.”

7) And part of her hates it, and she leaves them staring in shock at her and stalks down the hill and portals away and doesn’t see either of them for three weeks, but she knows now.  She knows.  And they’re left standing there in shocked silence and finally Jaskier lets out a long breath and says, “Well, I guess it makes sense why I love you so much.” and Geralt just stares at him now, because Jaskier believes this?  And loves him? 

And Geralt takes a while to convince, but eventually Yen comes back and declares they’re going to take a trip to the coast and figure themselves out, she has just the place, and they spend three months living in a large coastal manor that neither man asks where she got it, and they have their own rooms, but within a few weeks, there were more and more nights when one or the other of them would sleep in Geralt’s room.

And finally two months in Geralt wakes up alone for the first time, and he worries, and their rooms are both cold and empty, but he gets downstairs and there they still are on the far-too-comfortable sofa by the dying fire, Jaskier sprawled on his back and Yen curled on his chest, and Geralt feels like his heart might burst, and thinks maybe they’re right, and they really are soulmates after all.

8) And then they go to Cintra and rescue Ciri and live happily ever fucking after. 

[softspiderling]

put in love and don’t give up | t.h.

Summary: honestly, you never pegged Tom for the kind of guy that ghosts people, but here you are. Ghosted.

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Song I listened to while writing: Harder by Jax Jones feat. Bebe Rexha

Author’s Note: it’s been a hot minute since I last posted a fic and bc @afangirlwashere made me feel bad for not posting shit, I’m back on my update schedule for now. This is somewhat based on a dream I’ve had about tom I hope you enjoy it!!

Warnings: angst, I guess? Also cursing probably

Word Count: 2,4k

gif is not mine!

It’s not like Tom owes you anything.

You went out for a couple of dates and apparently it just wasn’t working out for him. Even though you had thought that the dates were pretty great; you’re interested in the same things, your goals in life are similar and you’re just- on the same wavelength. Or that’s what you had thought.

YOU: Trying to take care of the mess that is my flat but instead I’m on my couch procrastinating by watching a bunch of YouTube videos.

YOU: Someone should take away my phone.

The timestamp on the text tells you that it’s been a whole two weeks since he read it. At first you thought he was busy and he’d text you back when he got the time, but you never received any reply. You had thought about double texting him, maybe he hadn’t replied because the text you had sent didn’t involve a question that’d get him to reply, but if Tom had wanted to keep texting you, he would have found an answer that kept the conversation right? So you fought the urge to send another text, but that didn’t stop you from staring at the texts every now and then when you had the time.

You even tried calling him, but that was just as fruitless; for a minute, you were worried that something had happened to him, but later that day Tom had posted a story from him and Sam at a pub. So he was fine, it’s just you that seemed to have been the problem.

But that’s fine.

You can handle rejection, that’s something you had to get used to when it came to dating in your twenties, but you never would have pegged Tom as a person who would ghost someone instead of just outright telling you that he doesn’t like you as much as you like him. But you really thought he did, with the way he was smiling at you and the interest he had showed in your degree.

It sounds cheesy but you thought he was different. Even though his job kind of scared you off at first, you couldn’t help yourself but fall for the sweet and down to earth guy he still managed to be despite his fame.

With a sigh, you exit out of the text chain and pull up your grocery list, eyes scanning the items in your cart. You’re only missing the milk and butter.

Pushing the cart towards the dairy section, you slide your phone back into the pocket of your jacket and keep your eyes open for your brand of milk, when raucous laughter pulls your attention to the corner where the dairy section meets the frozen section.

Curiously you lean over to find the source of the noise, only to see two familiar looking boys.

Harry, one of Tom’s younger brothers and Tuwaine, one of his best friends joking around next to their carts. You had gotten to know them when Tom invited you out for drinks with them. Another reason that confused you as to why he would introduce you to his brothers and friends if he wasn’t that into you.

“Hey guys,” you greet them, lifting your hand to wave at them awkwardly. Harry’s head perks up when he hears your voice and he smiles goofily at you, while Tuwaine returns the wave as they take a few steps towards you, their sides constantly colliding as if they are unable to walk straight.  

“Hey Y/N,” Harry says, stuffing his hands into his pockets, rocking back and forth on his heel of his feet. “Doing the weekly shopping?”

You nod and gesture towards your cart and its content. “Yeah, uh, just the basic stuff,” you said, narrowing your eyes when you glance into their carts.

“And you’re shopping for a party…?”

“What?” Tuwaine furrows his brows and turns back to look into his cart before turning back to you with a grin.

“No, it’s our basic stuff.”

“Christ,” you wince. “I really hope you’re going to the dentist regularly. I am pretty sure this amount of popsicles isn’t healthy.”

The boys shrug with laughter. “How have you been?” Harry wants to know and you give him a gentle smile.

“Fine. University’s keeping me busy. How are you guys?” you ask, hesitating. “How’s Tom?”

Tuwaine clears his throat awkwardly and Harry jabs his friend in the ribs with a glare. Your cheeks color; their awkwardness and embarrassment confirmed your fear.

So Tom is really ghosting you.

“We’re good. And Tom- he’s busy, working all the time, you know how he is,” Harry says, stumbling over his words.

“Do I though?”

The gentleness in your voice catch the boys off guard and Tuwaine rubs the back of his neck, pressing his lips together in a thin line.

Wow, what on earth moved you to even approach them? This is probably the most awkward situation you’ve ever put yourself into.

“Tom’s being an idiot,” he finally offers. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”

You grimace, appreciating his words but it still stings. But doesn’t rejection always sting? But that’s the thing, isn’t it? Tom didn’t even give you the courtesy of a rejection he just straight up started ignoring you.

Waving it off, you smile crookedly at him.

“It’s fine. He’s fine.”

You gesticulate wildly with your hands, to show them how fine it is. Judging by their expressions, it certainly doesn’t seem to convince them. Stilling your hands, you exhale softly.

“I’m not mad or anything,” you then sigh, defeated. “I’m just a little bit disappointed. But I’ll get over it, you guys don’t need to worry about it or anything.”

You thrum your palms against the handle of the cart, smacking your lips together. “Well, this has been enough awkwardness for today. Uhm, I’ll see you guys around?”

Leaving the question hanging in the air, you shoot them a tentative smile; their chorused “Bye Y/N!”s make you sigh. As you turn around the corner, you hear them squabbling and you strain your ears to find out, what it is about.

“Congrats Tuwaine, this was probably the most uncomfortable situation I’ve ever had.”

“What are you looking at me for? It’s not my fault! If it’s anyone’s, it’s Tom’s!”

There’s a pause and you can hear someone sigh.

Then:

“I know it is. He’s just scared, you know how important his privacy is to him. Maybe Harrison can talk to him when he gets back. But I get it though, he’s-“

You almost bump your cart into an old lady, too busy trying to eavesdrop their conversation.

“Young lady!” The lady sends you a menacing glare and you apologize half-heartedly, too distracted by what you’ve just heard.

What was Harry talking about? What did he mean when he said that Tom was scared? You’re confused, you thought you had a clear picture of why he had stopped texting you. Lost in thoughts, you make your way to the check out, and put your groceries on the counter to get rung up.

By the time you get home you still haven’t figured out what it was that Tom is scared of and you almost break your brain trying to think of a logical explanation.

As you’re lying in bed that night, you come to the conclusion that you might never find out what Harry was talking about and see no point in obsessing over something that you are unable to change, so you push the matter in the far back of your mind, hoping that you would soon forget about it. But that is easier said than done, right?

Over the weekend you try your hardest to forget about the encounter with Harry and Tuwaine, stopping your brain from trying to find a solution to Tom’s problem you know nothing about and it’s harder than you thought it would be.

Even your readings for your business class seem to be offering basically no distraction whatsoever, which is why you find yourself at a small café down the street Sunday afternoon. With the sunlight filtering through the window, throwing the busy café in a shade of warm orange, you sit by the window with your text marker, scanning your assigned readings and occasionally marking a passage or two.

“I’m sorry, Miss?”

You look up from your text, your vision a little blurry before finally recognizing the barista standing in front of you with a sheepish smile.

“We’re closing in five minutes,” she tells you and your eyes widen as you take in your surroundings. You’ve been so engrossed in the article you’ve been reading, you hadn’t realized how late it has gotten: the lights have long been turned on in the café and you’ve noticed that all the chairs and tables have been cleared except of the one you’re currently occupying.

“Oh my god, I’m so sorry!” you apologize and scramble your documents together, stuffing them in your bag.

“It’s no problem, really,” the barista gives you a warm smile. “Have a nice evening.”

You shoulder your bag and send her a small wave as you headed through the door.

“Thanks! You too!”

The darkness from outside catches you by surprise and you pull your cardigan tighter around your chest, starting your walk back home. Hearing your stomach grumble, you’re reminded of the lack of food your day has brought and while you turn the corner to your flat, you try to come up with a quick meal with the ingredients you know you have at home.

Rummaging in your bag for your keys as you get closer to your building door, you finally manage to grasp the small fluffy key chain from the depth of your bag and lift your head. That’s when you see Tom sitting on the steps that lead up to the door.

You still and he jumps up, dusting off his pants. He looks tired, the denim jacket was slung tightly around his torso and you’re pressing your lips together before slowly taking a few steps towards him.

“Hey,” you greet him wearily. “What are you doing here?”

Tom rubs the back of his neck. “Hi Y/N. I, uh-“ he gestures towards the steps he’s just been sitting on. “I’ve been waiting for you uh, here. Been here for a while actually. “

“Oh. Why didn’t you call?”

He ducks his hand and his hands disappear into the pockets of his denim jacket. “Wasn’t sure if you’d pick up.”

You look at him with an unreadable expression and the keys dangle from your hand as you unlock the door, keeping it open with the heel of your shoe.

“Do you want to come in?” you ask, and he nods before following you inside and to your flat. He’s uncharacteristically quiet as you close your door behind you and take off your shoes, before moving to your couch, immediately taking refuge under your fluffy blanket.

Tom on the other hand looks like he’s out of place as he stands in the middle of the room, his eyes darting around.

The tension between you two is palpable and even though you know it’s his turn to speak, you’re aware that he’s fighting to bring his thoughts into words.

“You know you didn’t have to come all this way to do this, right?” you finally say, clasping your hands together.

“To do what?”

“I got the hints, Tom and I also rant into Harry and Tuwaine the other day. You’re here to let me down easy,” you say, pulling your knees close to your torso and he gapes at you, slowly moving to sit on the couch, though the distance between you is still there.

“What? No! That’s not why I’m here, why-“ He breaks off, pinching the bridge of his nose in annoyance. “What did they tell you?”

You shrug. “That I didn’t do anything wrong and that you’re an idiot?”

“Well, I am an idiot,” Tom admits. “But not for the reason you think, I promise Y/N.”

“So you’re not here to break things off with me?”

He shakes his head and carefully reaches out to touch your hand which is resting on top of your knee. Your pinkie twitches and you eye his fingers inching slowly towards yours, but you don’t move your hand away. Tom takes your hand in his and looks at, his brows furrowed.

“I’m sorry I ignored you,” he says quietly. “It just… It’s so hard dating someone when you work in the movie industry. The media has no respect for your privacy and I really didn’t want to put you in harm’s way, especially with all the people who are weirdly insisting on me and Z being a couple-.”  

You didn’t realize that he felt this way. Even though you knew that he was struggling with all the attention, you thought he could handle it well, but apparently he’s an even better actor than you thought he was.

“I was so conflicted. I like you so much and I thought if I’d push you away, you’d move on. But when Harry told me how lovely you were being, still asking how I was doing even though I was being a jerk to you I realized how childish I was being. That I needed to be honest with you and let you decide for yourself if I am worth it or not.”

Tom chews on his lower lip as his voice quiets down and you squeeze his hand, giving him a soft smile.

“You’re right. You should have been honest with me,” you say. “Even though I am just a basic civilian-“

He snorts out a laugh and you grin at him.

“I can imagine how hard it can be in your line of work. But Tom, I’ve already been thinking of this since our first date. It’s not like I’m going completely blind into this. And you’re worth it, okay? Even if you’re an asshole who ignored me for two weeks.”

He ducks his head sheepishly and you shake your head fondly, moving your legs so he can come closer before he leans in to give you a quick kiss. You barely have the time to react and your cheeks redden, before the two of you lean in for another kiss.

Pulling away, Tom lets out a soft sigh and leans his forehead against yours.

“Thanks for giving me a second chance, Y/N. My brothers would have kicked my butt for losing someone as great as you.”

You shrug with your shoulders, a pleased smile on your face. So you did leave a good impression on Harry, despite your initial awkwardness.

“And you would have deserved it,” you point out and he grins, looping his arms around your waist.

“Trust me, I know.”

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[thewaterisblackwithvenom]

My initial impression of Kieran was that he was an anxious, weak nerved kiss-up. I mean he doesn’t make any attempt to fight back when Arthur captures him, even if he stands there and does nothing. Dude’s got a gun. Makes zero attempt to go for it. My initial thoughts was he was too cowardly to even fight back, when in reality Arthur was running for him with a lasso. His hands are literally full. Who Arthur is doesn’t really matter; he doesn’t have a weapon drawn and is clearly trying to take him alive. Unless he’s a massively terrible shot, he could’ve easily shot Arthur. Clearly he’s more afraid of what Colm will due to him than just dying(which makes sense, especially with how he went out : )))) ), so it really would’ve been in his best interest to die trying to kill Arthur instead of being captured, most likely killed, and most likely tortured beforehand. Far as I can figure, reasons for just surrendering would’ve been

Fear (logical, but with his biggest fear being whatever Colm would do to him, doesn’t seem as likely, even if he was straight up panicking)

Pacifism (not saying he’s a pacifist, but he’s definitely not a fighter by nature, despite his will to live) 

Once he’s captured, he holds out for about a month in sh*t conditions. He breaks once they turn their violent attention to him, but even then he still tried to hold out. The only reason I can think of why he wouldn’t just talk is fear of what Colm would do to him if he made it out alive. If he was scared that the Van Der Lindes would kill him after he talked, he could’ve stayed quiet longer, I guess, though really who could hold out when you’re being threatened with castration lmao.

After the fact, I expect my initial impression to be right. It wasn’t. I mean, I was 100% right about him being a genuinely nice person, not exactly cut out for outlaw life, and not a rat or weaselly person. Things I were wrong about were his general demeanor. 

He’s a naturally positive and friendly person. Despite being constantly picked on and flat out threatened, he’ll even greet Sadie(who is probably most likely to kill him in the beginning, let’s be honest) with a level of confidence I didn’t expect. He doesn’t slink around her with his head down, but is 100% aware that she hates him, and I’ve never heard him try to change that. He’ll greet her, but goes out of his way to let her know that “I’m here and realize that you hate me so I’m giving you space”. Anyone else who calls him “O’Driscoll”, he’ll get upset and correct them. Sadie straight up tells him to die and he doesn’t say boo. I love that he is aware of her pain and doesn’t try to change her feelings about him just so he can sleep better at night. He plays the long game; respecting her boundaries, and not giving her any other reasons to hate him, hoping that someday she’ll maybe at least not despise him for just being connected to her enemies in the past. He could b*tch and moan about how he had nothing to do with Jake’s murder; he wasn’t there, he didn’t pull the trigger, and he didn’t want that to happen. He really is innocent. But he leaves that and her the f*ck alone, the only contact he initiates is just general politeness. She makes real threats, and he has ever reason to believe her, but he still has the balls to not cower around her. If anyone else in the gang makes any kind of “O’Driscoll” comment, he gets genuinely irritated and corrects them, even if it’s hopeless. Not just the women, who(save for Sadie and Mrs. Grimshaw) aren’t a threat. But he’ll get upset and snap back at Arthur and Javier that he’s not an O’Driscoll. I don’t believe for a second that Kieran thinks he could beat either of them in a fight. He’s not a fighter, and he’s also not stupid. He’s survived about half his life being beaten around. The reason he’s survived could be luck, but also him knowing how far he can press his luck with very dangerous people. I used to find it amusing in the beginning when he’d snap back, because like. Lmao, you really wanna get upset with Arthur? Seriously? Dude. Don’t go there.

He stands up for himself, and is confident enough in himself to be as bold as to say to Arthur’s face, that he’s not a bad person, and that’ll he’ll warm to him eventually. That also caught me off guard, because I was under the general assumption “god this kid is me. anxious af, doesn’t like people, just likes horses”. I projected far too much lmao, because despite him feeling more comfortable with horses, he’s pretty outgoing, in a confident way. If people are just indifferent to him, he has no problem going out of his way to greet people with confidence. When he’s being bullied, he’s ballsy enough to stand up for himself, and when people are genuinely nice to him, he’ll show signs of being flustered/anxious, likely due to the fact he probably has very little experience with kindness. Whatever kindness he experienced outside family was most likely fake and extremely conditional. He never made any comments about having relationships of any kind with anyone. His life has been about survival. He knows how to not press his luck with the wrong people, knows basic social manners(how to be friendly without being overbearing, how to give people space, and even when he helped Molly out of the stagecoach), but I feel like he has the least experience in healthy relationships. Relationships where someone is actually nice to him. That’s also why I’m 1,000% peeved that we didn’t really get to befriend him. Watching him come out of his shell more was so nice. Save for his massive guilt about Jack(which wasn’t even his fault anyway), he was finally starting to feel like he belonged there. Sh*t hurts man.

I think the thing that caught me most off guard was his level of confidence that you really get to see in his fishing side mission.

Arthur says that he’s(Arthur) not that great a fisherman, and Kieran, not missing a beat, comes back with “But I am! *laughs* I’ll teach you something.”, all of which happens seconds after Kieran is done straight up mocking Arthur’s teasing of him. If I hadn’t spent 5,000 years wandering around camp, and getting to see everyone’s personalities that you’d miss if you flew through story mode, that mission would’ve made my head spin. If your impression of Kieran is “soft scared horse boy”, there’s so much that happens in like, a minute that’d throw you off.

Arthur asks Kieran if he’s going fishing

Kieran, likely caught off guard by someone going out of their way to interact with him in a non-hostile way, says yes

Arthur, incapable of just being nice to him follows up with a threatening tone “... or running back to Colm O’Driscoll?”, bc f*ck this guy actually knowing I’m starting to warm up to him, I have to be a Big Tough Outlaw bc I am a Bad Man

Kieran, irritated and a bit nervous now, snaps back that of course he’s not 

Arthur responds by bumping his fist against Kieran’s shoulder/chest, gives an amused chuckle, and responds with “pffft, I’m just joking w/ u lol relax”  (I love this interaction because it really shows, at least to me, that Arthur is genuinely starting to like Kieran. instead of continuing along the lines of “watch yourself”, his tone and body language gestures that “I don’t mean it, I’m just messing with you”. Even if he’s still being an *ss, it’s not like his previous interactions. The playful physical contact, non-menacing laugh, and “I’m just kidding w/ u” comment are all friendly gestures. He wouldn’t do any of those if he actually didn’t like Kieran. Arthur’s not a touchy-feely “I’ll fake like I’m your friend so I can slit your throat later” kind of person)

Kieran’s nervousness instantly melts away and he responds with “wow. ur so funny. hah hah. rlly had me goin there. ur hilaaaaarious.” he’s 100% done and just rolls his eyes at this point.

Arthur just goes “shut up”, and I love the way he says it this time bc he’s more like. Offended/irritated that he’s being sassed instead of actually meaning “shut up or else”. He’s all “>:((( shut up brat” and it’s cute lmao. 

Not two seconds after Arthur tells Kieran to shut up, he absolutely doesn’t and invites him fishing. Like, a genuine “hey wanna go fishing?” and not like, a “desperate for your approval, please give me more opportunities to prove myself to you”.

Arthur says he’s not a great fisherman, and Kieran responds with “Yeah but I am!”, laughs, and says he can teach Arthur something.  I found this part super fascinating, because as someone with severe anxiety, my response would’ve been totally different. I’m confident in a few areas; I know what I’m good at, and what I’d be semi-competent at teaching people, but if someone-- especially someone higher on the social ladder than I am-- said that they weren’t good at something, that I was really good at, I always try and downplay things so as not to make the other person feel like they’re lesser than me. I like to think my art skills are decent, so if that kind of situation came up “I’m not a great artist”, my response would be more like “Heh neither am I, but I know some tricks that have made things a lot easier. I can show them to you!” Kieran straight up told Arthur Morgan that he’s a great fisherman, and could teach Arthur something. Former O’Driscoll, teaching Dutch’s right hand man something. That was a cocky move, even if it’s true. I love that he has the confidence to flat out say that without even backpedaling. Kid knows his worth and isn’t afraid to just blurt it out.

Arthur responds with a friendly “Sure”. Not like an “yeah alright fine”, but more like how he responds to people who considers friends. Come to think of it, other than certain instances where Kieran pushes his luck here, Arthur is friendlier/less hostile and grumpy with Kieran than he is with Sean lmao. Granted, Sean is uhhh, overbearing and obnoxious, but Arthur sees him as a younger sibling, not an ex-O’Driscoll. 

On their way to the beach, Kieran brings up past vs present. “who would’ve thought we’d be going fishing together when it wasn’t that long ago that I was tied up on the back of your horse begging for mercy?” He says it with such a light hearted tone like it wasn’t even a big deal. He could’ve died from dehydration/starvation/the cold, and he’s literally like “isn’t life funny?” Don’t know whether to be impressed that it didn’t leave him with serious trauma and resentment or said that maybe he doesn’t see it as that big a deal because he’s had worse. Either way, the way he says it is interesting to me.

Ofc Arthur has to remind him “how do you know I’m not dragging you away from camp to kill you?” bc again, can’t let this kid know I’m actually starting to like him. He Must Know that I am a Big Bad Threat.  “..because I saved your life”  “ya and every day I don’t kill you I’m saving yours” “you don’t mean that” “yes I do I am Serious so shut it” Kieran knows Arthur well enough that while the threat is still a touch unnerving, he has the guts to point out that he doesn’t mean it. he knows Arthur well at this point, and despite the slight possibility he might actually mean that, he choses to believe it’s just Arthur being... Arthur.

Throughout the trip, Kieran opens up about camp life and his past, and in general Arthur doesn’t have anything that nice to say. Arthur’s genuinely a nice person, but I wouldn’t call him “soft”, so that doesn't’ surprise me. Despite this, he’s not exactly mean to Kieran like he used to be. He’s not remotely sympathetic, but at the same time he wouldn’t be for really anyone else, either. Maybe the women bc women, but. However, towards the end, when Kieran talks about losing his family and being on his own since then, Arthur does comment along the lines of “well, look at it this way, you’ll never be alone again”. I could be misinterpreting it, but I think that’s Arthur’s way of saying “you’re one of us now”. Can’t really say anything nice to him or show sympathy, but “you’ll never be alone again” could’ve been his way of trying to comfort him in an offhand sort of way.

Not what Arthur meant, but I couldn’t help but laugh when Kieran was like “do you think Dutch trusts me now?” me and Arthur both laughed, sad thing is I laughed bc I’m like “yo Dutch don’t even trust Arthur lmaooo, shoot for something actually obtainable Kieran”

This is already five pages longer than I intended it to be lmao, but literally my entire point is that my impression of Kieran had been that he was a soft, nervy person with low self confidence. The way I see it, all the evidence proves that he’s a lot more than a lot of people give him credit for. 

He is a sweetheart by nature; I really don’t think there’s a mean bone in his body. He’ll stick up for himself and get irritated, but I can’t think of a single instance where he did or said anything mean-spirited. He’s helpful for the sake of being helpful, and is grateful for any actual kindness shown to him. He grows to genuinely care about the gang’s overall well being, and goes so far as to flat out state he’d give his life for Jack’s if he could, despite Jack being a brat to him in the beginning. But despite the fact that he’s a kind hearted individual, he will stand up for himself, and if the follower glitch dialog is accurate, he will engage in combat if he has to. A lot of his dialog is pretty snarky too, which I thought was interesting. I thought he’d be a lot more jumpy and nervous during a shootout, but again I was wrong.  To me all evidence points to his anxiety/nervousness all being circumstantial. It really only presents itself when his safety is actively being threatened, and in foreign situations(people going out of their way to be friendly to him; catches him off guard). So yeah, I think you could technically call him an anxious person and it be somewhat accurate, but he’s not anxious like people today are. His anxiety isn’t “across a broad range of circumstances”, as are anxiety disorders. I think it’s more accurate to say that Kieran is a pretty self confident, moderately outgoing person with a bright personality, despite the sh*t he’s been and still going through. And that’s what I love about him.

I started out feeling bad for him, with a touch of amusement, just for the fact that I really did pity him. He just seemed like such an unfortunate person. I felt really bad having to bring him in, because my general impression was that he’s really not meant for the outlaw life and was probably a nice person. Hated having to bring him in, but having read his bio before playing the game, I was at least relived that his position as part of the gang meant that me bringing him in wasn’t going to result in having to be the cause of his demise. Him being tied up for weeks made me feel really bad since I couldn’t do sh*t to help him out any, because Arthur didn’t give a damn. Poor thing didn’t even have shelter when it rained in 40℉ weather, and didn’t even have his coat on. Once he was free to move around, I was a bit surprised at how confident he was in greeting Arthur. Save for Tilly, in my game, Kieran greets Arthur more than anyone else in camp. Always bright and cheery. Seeing as how I spent most of my time in camp on the outskirts doing chores(see also: avoiding Dutch lmao), running into Kieran a lot was unavoidable, especially because Arthur’s morning routine is cooking breakfast by the campfire. Eeeevery morning, there’s Kieran. Literally can tell what hour it is by where Kieran is and what he’s doing, and vice versa. If it’s 2pm, I know exactly where Kieran is. With how much time I spent at camp, it didn’t take any time at all before I was very familiar with him. I never had any negative feelings or suspicion towards him, but other than our shared fondness for horses, I had no real reason to like him(pity isn’t exactly a reason to like someone after all). But I grew fond of him so quickly ever since dragging him down from Colter, especially after he saved Arthur. He was brave enough to stick up for himself, brave enough to risk his life saving Arthur, and brave enough to state that he’s “one of you now”. He does more than his fair share of chores every day, stays out of everyone’s way, and remains bright and friendly despite his sh*t circumstances. Oh and he loves horses. Those are the reasons I grew attached to him, and still am. I thought he was just 1889 me, but now I realize he’s a lot of what I wish I was. I love his confidence, despite the fact that he has no one backing him up. Ever. I have supportive people backing me, and yet if someone says sh*t to my face it’s going to make me seriously question my worth. Kieran Duffy fights back anxiety, plants his feet and defends himself. I’m f*cking proud of that boy.

Oh my GOD this is embarrassingly long lmao, but I f*cking love Kieran Duffy with all my heart and I feel like so many overlook how strong he actually is. He’s not an ~anxious soft boy~. He’s sweet, and kind, hard working and self reliant, open and honest, confident and snarky, and is just overall such a lovable, wonderful person. He’s not a weak little snitch, nor a skittish people-pleaser. He wants to be liked for who he is, and while he’s always trying to prove himself, he plays the long game and lets that happen naturally. He’s not a boot licker like Micah. I hate that a lot of the gang gave him such constant sh*t, and that despite the fact no one liked him, Micah was treated like “one of the gang”, when he said so much sh*t. Motherf*cker made comments about throwing out the women since they were “dead weight who you can’t even f*ck”, and older “less useful” members like Uncle and Swanson. Meanwhile Kieran works himself to death on a daily basis, but all the Big Men of camp pretty much hold his past over him constantly, despite the fact that he didn’t have a choice, and wasn’t even really part of the gang. It’s just really sh*tty and I hate it lmao.

I’m going to shut up now and pray to GOD this doesn’t make it into the tags or so help me I’ll tag it later lmao. 

[beachbabywrites]

Dynamic Duo // A Kara Danvers imagine

Valentine’s Request 18/?

REQUEST: Kara Danvers + Enemies to Lovers + candy heart

A/N: So I’ve come to realize I cannot write enemies to lovers fics for Kara, it’s just impossible ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so I twisted it around a bit. In this fic, the media is doing everything in their power to pit Supergirl and Phoenix (Aka the reader bc I cannot come up with imaginary superhero names for the life of me) against each other even though the two have never publicly associated or worked together. Unbeknownst to the public, Supergirl and Phoenix are in a happy and healthy relationship. This takes place somewhere in the season one/early season two timeline

"Supergirl declares, 'National City only needs ONE HERO!"

"The REAL reason you'll never see Supergirl and Phoenix working together."

"Supergirl threatens to reveal Phoenix's true identity; Phoenix says "stand down!"

"Source says Phoenix will destroy National City before going to Supergirl's aid."

Of course, the headlines were the first thing you saw this morning, they were hard to miss with street vendors yelling at passing crowds trying to sell a copy of the latest gossip magazine. You scoffed, trying not to laugh in the man's face as he pushed the paper towards you. You could tell him then and there just how wrong those sources were but he wouldn't believe you. Why would he? You're no one special to National City. You're just (Y/N) (Y/L/N). So instead of initiating an argument on the sidewalk you went on to work and prayed you made it to your desk before your boss showed up.

You were staring at the clock, counting down the minutes till your lunch break. 15... 14... You answered an email about scheduling your bosses next meeting with the CEO, then answered a personal email regarding dinner plans.

12... Someone's phone rang, you began putting your things in your purse so you could sneak out early. You could hear the car horns outside in the lunch hour rush. You looked up as your coworker approached your desk and handed you a file. She apologized for laying it on you right before lunch, but it was due by 5 tonight. Inside was the research for yet another gossip segment on Supergirl and Phoenix's feud.

9... You agreed happily when your coworker asked if you wanted to grab lunch with her before she left to pick her kids up from school.

Much like every other devastating event that happened in National City, this one happened without warning.

When the first crash was heard, you dropped to your knees on the carpeted floor like everyone had been instructed to do in the past. Glass shattered, you could hear the screeching of breaks and mangled metal. The people on your floor screamed as the windows imploded, sending glass flying across the floor. Two more explosions quickly followed the first one, each one shaking the building more violently than the last.

You stood up slowly after some time had passed after the last blast, looking around the floor at your coworkers. All were fine, nothing too serious, maybe a couple cuts that would need stitches. You placed a hand on the shoulder of the woman who was trying to call her children at school.

"Phone lines are down." Someone hollered across the room and slammed the landline down. "Was it a gas line?"

"Surely not that strong!" Another voice answered.

The power went out and another round of screams pierced the air.

"Go! To the stairwell, come on." You urged them along. You rushed to the window to see what was going on outside when shouts of 'Supergirl!' caught your attention.

"Kara!" You whispered out loud, amazement and terror-striking your heart as she flew through the sky straight towards the pillar of smoke rising just a few blocks away.

"Come on!" Someone shouted behind you so you turned and made your way down the stairs.

You followed the crowd away from the shaky buildings and chaos, helping those who needed it but listening closely to the battle that was happening behind you.

You heard the first cry as you were helping a child find her mother. Kara was in distress but you couldn't just leave these people. You knew she could handle her self, besides you had a bigger responsibility at the time. You couldn't help the small part of you wondered what if?

Within a matter of minutes, dozens of buildings were evacuated, barricades set up to prevent any civilians from running into the mess. Smoke still darkened the sky and burned at your nose. It sounded like the worst of the fight was over, you could hear Kara yelling over the noise, but you couldn't hear a second voice.

Oh great, you sighed to yourself. She's monologuing.

You helped the volunteers passing out shock blankets to those who were injured or just scared, EMTs were rushing around the area. Someone mentioned the museum was in the same area Supergirl and the unnamed villain were fighting. The crowd wondered if there was something in there worth the fight. A man claimed it was Phoenix.

"I saw her with my own eyes, Supergirl tackled her out of the air as the building exploded!"

Everyone saw something different, no one could agree on who it was that Supergirl had encountered. With every yell from Kara's mouth, you became more anxious. More theories began to spread across the street, cops and reporters whispering Kryptonite and 'alien', despite your racing heart and clenched jaw you reminded yourself just how strong she had proven herself to be in the past.

Kara had taken on prisoners from Fort Rozz, she stopped a falling plane, Live Wire and the Red Tornado, the latter was designed specifically to upgrade its fighting skills based on its spars with Supergirl, to use her strongest moves and patterns against her, and these were only in the first couple of months of taking on the hero role. Kara was called super for a reason.

You could hear Alex and her team mobilizing and preparing to rush in as Kara landed the final blows. Your phone buzzed in your pocket, the screen lit up with Alex's name and number and a text asking where you were.

"I'm safe. Is Kara?" The little bubbles on the screen told you Alex was typing and erasing, typing and erasing for what felt like ten minutes before she finally sent back "Kara is safe." But at this point, Kara didn't sound safe.

A menacing voice was taunting her, telling her if she stayed down, if she gave up he would spare the block of her choice. The longer you sat on the stairs to the bank with the unaware crowd the more your muscles ached with an electric need to step in and help, every nerve running up your spine tingling. When you heard a cop whisper to his partner in a broken and panicked voice 'she's losing' you couldn't stay still any longer.

You hopped up, the metallic blanket falling to the steps as you turned and raced the opposite direction, away from Supergirl and the fight.

The dust didn't have time to settle before the alien that had Kara trapped on the ground was turning on you, giving the blonde a chance to jump to her feet.

"Just how many of your kind are on this planet Kara Zor-El?" The alien asked the laughter in his voice was infuriating as you realized just how worn out Kara looked. She stared at you wide-eyed, taking in the red and yellow you were wearing, a hint of pride in her slight smile. "Two Kryptonian heads will be more than enough to atone for the crimes your people have committed against my home."

"I'm not Kryptonian. I will not allow you to commit the same crimes you allege against the Kryptonians to my own people." You countered, hands already burning.

"Phoenix!" Kara shouted, "distract him!" You sent her a glance as she dashed away but did as she asked.

This alien was highly skilled at hand to hand, their punches fast and aiming at all of your weakest points. Face, throat, face, stomach, stomach, face, throat. You were beginning to notice a pattern to his moves and as you stepped to the side in anticipation of his next move, ready to make your own, he took you by surprise with a right hook to the face. You stumbled back before regaining your balance,  a coppery taste on your tongue.

You could see Kara picking up something from the farthest edge of the street, he was preparing to turn his back on you to attack her once again, so you ran at the invader. When your bodies collided the impact knocked both of you back. The force of it knocked the breath out of your body. You forced yourself up, staggering slightly as you put distance between you and the seven foot alien on the ground.

Supergirl was behind him as he stood. He snarled at you in a foreign language before lurching forward. Supergirl grabbed him by the shoulder, pushed him so he was now facing her. She landed punches in quick succession; One, two, three, his fist made loud contact with her face.  Kara glanced over her shoulder and you knew she had a plan. Your heel connected with the aliens back, he fell to his knees.

"Move!" Kara bellowed and before you had much time to do anything, a second blast rang throughout the area, throwing you onto your back once again. As you sat up, dizzied and sore, you noticed the DEO agents rushing in, guns raised and shouting orders at the criminal.

Supergirl rushed up to you, arms extended to help you up.

"I'm okay." You assured her for the third time before she finally quit asking and stepped back. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine, I'm not the one who was just electrocuted." You rolled your eyes but smiled at her. "Wow, we really are a dynamic duo! We should do this more often... Besides the whole- Yeah." Kara stammered out, cheeks bright pink and eyes bright from the thrill of the fight.

You threw your arms around her and whispered, "you scared me Supergirl." Kara quickly wrapped her arms around you tightly. Exhaustion flooded your body and senses. "I've never seen you in action like that." You told her. "You're kinda hot Supergirl."

"Oh, oh geez." Kara laughed nervously and shook her head. "Noo... I'm a- I'm a mess."

You pressed your lips to her's quick, forgetting where and who you were for a moment. You could have stayed there with her like that for hours if it weren't for the sounds of shutters clicking and reporters shouting. Kara jumped back from you, eyes wide as she scanned the crowd, only relaxing when she saw Jimmy was front and center with his camera.

"Our secret is out." She whispered. A moment of panic fell over the two of you as reality set in. "We'll be okay." She decided, not quite sure if she was assuring you or herself.

"You know, someone said I was the one attacking the city." You told her as she watched her sister's team drag the alien away in Kryptonite handcuffs.

"That's funny because, on my way over, I heard that I was the one blowing an entrance into the side of the museum to lure you out of hiding for a final smackdown." Kara jumped back, playfully lifting her fists in a mock spar.

"It worked, I guess." You answered throwing a hand up to block a punch.

The next morning on the way to work the headlines read very differently than they had just the day before, a picture of Supergirl and Phoenix hugging was splashed across the front of each magazine and newspaper.

"SUPER-TRUCE? A timeline of the SvP feud"

"Supergirl retiring? Source says 'She's ready to settle down!"

"The 'dynamic duo' we didn't know we were waiting for"

Your eyes lingered on the last title, the picture of Supergirl's hand resting on Phoenix's back. As you picked up the magazine, you recognized the logo across the top and laughed.

"How much for the CATCO, sir?" You asked reaching for your purse.

[crowned-ladybug]

Cover of Darkness

God titles are still not a Good Thing huh but turns out actually talking English all day is doing Wonders for my failing language skills. It kills my good ideas bc I’m tired as Shit from all the sightseeing, but writing? Going good!

I’m so happy

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OC blog is @menagerie-of-morons

Setting: Rivals AU

Characters: Jackie, Marvin

Ship: Marvin/Jackie

Word count: 2.3k

Warnings: none!

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“Why the Fuck is it so cold?!” Jackie curses to no one but himself, voice hushed as he resorts to talking out loud in his hopelessness, like the walls could hear his frustration and offer him an extra blanket. Which they obivously won’t do, he’s not sure if even Marvin’s magic could make them do that, in all honesty.

Why is it so cold, really? Did the heating break? Does this weird patchwork of a magic house just absorb and distribute heat weirdly and unfairly? Did an ice monster sneak into his room when he wasn’t looking?

The answer is, of course, that with some storms and a cold front rolling in, the temperature has dropped significantly, but he’s still been sleeping in the same clothes and under the same blanket as during a heatwave. He was even foolish enough to leave his window open for a while before going to sleep.

But right now, Jackie doesn’t care about boring things like logic. The only thing he cares about is that he’s Cold and he doesn’t enjoy it one bit.

He runs through his options in his head. He has no idea where the thicker blankets are put away for the summer and he definitely doesn’t feel like going on an expedition at 2 o’clock in the morning. If they’re in the attic, it’s even worse, he doesn’t want to know what the attic is like at night. A warm drink is out of the picture too, it feels like way too much effort right now and it’d only keep him warm for a bit anyway. He last saw the heating pad, which is pretty small anyway, in Anraí’s room, so that’s a no too.

The idea he lands on in the end is a pretty shitty one too, but it’ll have to do – use someone as a space heater. It’s shitty because he doesn’t like waking people up from their comfortable sleep, but…Marvin does owe him one for saving his ass last time they were out on a mission together. He can pay that debt with cuddles.

He wraps his blanket around his shoulders like a cloak and bunches it against his chest from both sides to keep it from dragging on the ground too much. For a moment he considers bringing his pillow too, but decides Marvin’s own giant one and the fact that his head might not wind up on a pillow anyway should suffice. And so, he sets out on his quest for not freezing his toes off while he sleeps.

He hisses through his teeth when his bare feet touch the cold tiles of the corridor outside his room. He tiptoes not because it’d make him any more quiet, but to keep as much of his skin off the tiles as possible. He’d fly, but with how clumsy he is, he’d probably bonk into twenty things on the way and eventually wake the whole house.

He shivers.

He feels like it’s a little excessive, but he can’t really tell his body to just stop doing it. He stills for a moment to let a big one run through him, then moves on.

Marvin’s door is shut but not locked, and this time he gets lucky and the handle doesn’t make any noise. Sometimes it clatters like a menace, and that’d be pretty detrimental to his stealth mission for cuddles right now.

As expected, the room is dark (and the window is closed, sensibly), and Marvin is nothing but a dark lump on the bed. Jackie wouldn’t be able to tell where his head is if it weren’t for his hair splayed out around him, covering most of his pillow and catching the moonlight streaming in from the window.

He wants to run his hands through it.

(He also wonders how Marvin can sleep with the moon shining right on his pillow, no doubt on its way to his face, but that thought is a little less romantic.)

He’d be a fool to hope for a sneaky entrace beyond what he’s managed so far – there’s no way he could worm his way under the blanket and snuggle up without waking Marvin in the process. Maybe if he just wanted to lie down near him he wouldn’t notice the dip in the mattress, but that’d do fuck all for Jackie’s current need for warmth. It however would make for an interesting experiment though to find out how Marvin would react to him having teleported into his bed during the night.

The door slips shut behind him without a sound.

Him sitting on the bed doesn’t wake Marvin. He decides to do this the merciful and polite way anyway, and instead of letting him wake up whenever he accidentally kicks him in the shin trying to get comfortable, he reaches out to shake his shoulder gently.

Then again.

Finally, Marvin stirs, groaning quietly and some of his hair draping over his face as he looks around. His tired, barely open eyes finally find Jackie, and something flashes in them after his brain catches up. He tenses ever so slightly, so subtle Jackie is sure he wouldn’t be able to tell if he didn’t know Marvin like the back of his hand by now. He feels it more than sees it.

“Is everything alright?”

“Yeah,” he smiles, small and reassuring, he hopes. He also hopes the moonlight is bright enough to make his features actually readable. “I was just cold.”

Marvin groans again, this time longer and more dramatic, and rolls back into the position he had been sleeping in. He’s very clearly unhappy with being woken up, now that he knows it wasn’t for an emergency. “And waking me up was your brilliant solution to that, huh?”

Jackie tries to defend himself, though he knows a sleepy Marvin isn’t the best partner for discussions. “Look, I’m tired, I’m not exactly a genius right now!”

“A bastard is what you are,” Marvin mumbles into his pillow.

Jackie scrunches up his nose, pretending to be hurt by that comment. It’s a shame Marvin doesn’t get to see his grimace, truly. “Shut up! I came here to cuddle, not to be insulted.”

“Sure then, go ahead,” Marvin says, voice still slightly slurred from his cheek being pressed into his pillow, but the only movement he makes is a shrug. Jackie’s pretty sure even his eyes are shut at this point.

He bunches up his blanket more on his lap, then starts untangling it and trying to figure out which ends are the shorter ones. He gives Marvin a displeased look as he finally shakes the whole bundle loose and tries to line it up right. “Wow, how cooperative.”

Again, Marvin doesn’t move an inch. “Listen, you got the consent. Doesn’t mean I’m gonna move.”

Jackie just sighs and rolls his eyes. Sometimes Marvin will be complaining and very near begging up a storm, tugging on Jackie until he surrenders himself as a teddy bear to get cuddled and kissed and squished to both their hearts’ content. Other times he’s just a tired, uncooperative lump.

Tonight is, obviously, the latter.

Jackie lies down on the wall side of the bed, kicking Marvin’s blanket out of the way as he goes, not wanting to lie on it and get it stuck and uncomfortable. He needs to get close to get warm anyway. Eventually he manages to worm his way not only under both blankets, but into Marvin’s arms as well.

At least that makes Marvin move finally, curling closer with lazy movements like he’s not even thinking about it, his arm around Jackie settling into a more comfortable position. Jackie stares up at him for a moment, though he doesn’t see much with the moonlight bright behind Marvin’s head, just the messy strands of his hair lit up like a makeshift halo around him. Still, it’s pretty, and maybe even more importantly, familiar.

He stares for a long moment, and he can just about make out Marvin’s closed eyes, lashes dark against his cheeks. Not being seen makes staring a hell of a lot easier.

He feels warmth slowly, lazily creeping under his skin. Not just from the closeness and being under two blankets, no, this is magic, familiar and comforting and belonging to Marvin. An act of concern and protectiveness, stemming from trauma but grown into a comfortable and comforting habit for the both of them.

Jackie inches closer, halting for a moment before he presses his face against Marvin’s neck. It’s warm, it’s sweet and affectionate and just a normal thing that happens during cuddling. He honestly means no malice by it.

So it really surprises him when Marvin tenses and squeaks, jerking away.

“How dare you!” Marvin hisses from a little farther away now, wide eyes gleaming in the moonlight before they narrow accusingly. He’s already worried he woke up the house with his squeaking, so he keeps his voice low, just in case he hasn’t. Jackie doesn’t react, and his tired brain searches hopelessly for whatever he’s done wrong. “Is your face made of ice cubes or something?!”

Oh.

Jackie snorts. “Fuck. I forgot that, I’m sorry.”

“Oh, sure you are. Gremlin,” he sinks back into his pillow where he is, which Jackie is honestly quite unhappy about. What happened to the agreed-upon cuddles? “Horrible gremlin, waking me up at fuck off hours in the morning, sneaking into my bed, freezing my neck…”

“I said I’m sorry!” Jackie laughs, trying his best to be quiet. He’d normally consider cutting off the stream of complaints by shoving his cold hands (he’s very much aware of those) under Marvin’s shirt, but now he’s just tired and cold and wants his cuddles as soon as possible.

“Prove it,” Marvin snaps back without hesitation, because challenge and rivalry are just as much in his blood as being a grumpy bitch in the middle of the night is.

Jackie pushes himself up to one elbow, leaning a little closer, and he sighs. “That is the dumbest fucking response you could’ve come up with for this.”

And before Marvin could try to argue, he closes the remaining distance between them (which is really not that much anyway) and kisses him. Well, at first it’s less of a kiss and more of just him smooshing his face against Marvin’s trying to find his lips, but the effort and the intent are there. It doesn’t take him long to get it right anyway, at least not with Marvin recognising that he’s not just being affectionately headbutted and instead cooperating.

And when one of Jackie’s hands finds the back of his head and combs through his hair, he just about melts.

One of the big pros of a sleepy Marvin: it’s pretty easy to un-grump him, if you know how. And Jackie definitely does.

“Fine,” Marvin breathes once they’re done kissing, which doesn’t take that long anyway. He’s definitely too tired to actually be a good kisser right now, and he can’t just let Jackie do all the work. He keeps his eyes shut, because he wouldn’t be able to see fuck all if he opened them anyway, and nudges his head forward until his forehead presses against Jackie’s. “I’ll forgive you.”

Jackie huffs a laugh, and their noses bump together. “Would you cuddle me then already? ‘Cause I’m still cold.”

“Sure. You can be very convincing when you try.”

Jackie laughs, but doesn’t say anything. He pushes himself up to sit with a parting kiss to Marvin’s forehead, which is awfully nice of him, actually. He makes quick work of arranging the blankets over the two of them again, as Marvin watches him work through tired, squinted eyes.

When he sinks back down, he immediately finds his place in Marvin’s arms. And the familiar warmth is there again.

“I won’t do that again tonight, with your neck, I promise,” he hums, smiling in a way that is very obvious in his voice. “Though I gotta say, you probably warmed up my face pretty well.”

Marvin yawns into his pillow. Jackie can feel the way his whole body tenses and relaxes with it.

“I doubt it,” he mumbles, clearly slipping closer to sleep with every word. “Wasn’t my best work, definitely. Gotta try again tomorrow and see.”

“Wow,” Jackie laughs. Marvin has never been as smooth with words as he seems to think (he’s much better at everything else that goes into flirting, really), but his sleepy stumbling is definitely just a whole new level of dorky. Endearing too though, he’s gotta admit.

He settles comfortably for the night, careful to keep his face away from any skin this time.

“Goodnight.”

The arm around his waist flexes for a moment, tugging him a little closer, as if there’s much closer he can be. Marvin sighs, sleepy. “Goodnight, love.”

Love. That’s not a pet name Jackie hears often. Marvin has more to his words than he likes to admit, and one example of that is how he addresses Jackie. Some terms of endearment are common and casual and not always reserved to romantic relations either with him. Others – sweetheart, love, treasure…they mean a lot more. They’re heavier, full of love and honesty. Vulnerable too, in a way, and that’s something Marvin very rarely allows himself to show.

Jackie’s learned to recognise them long ago.

He smiles, knowing not to mention the word but cherish it anyway. He sinks into a comfortable sleep after not long at all, and he doesn’t feel cold for the rest of the night.

[tobesobri]

hey, i saw you mentioned that joe hasn't changed much from the jonas brothers days (personality or humor wise, i suppose) and i was wondering if you could elaborate on that? back in the day i wasn't into jonas brothers, since they weren't a big thing in my country, but their comeback is slowly sucking me in and lmao just wanted to know what he was like back then xx

okay. sorry this took me SO long. I didn’t know where or what to start with (and i also got distracted watching all these videos again lol). but basically, Joe has always been a menace and by that I mean he’s just always been super fucking weird and goofy and he still is. Like his band DNCE? Weird as shit, but I expected nothing less from him.

A very important thing about joe jonas: they had a poll where fans voted for something (i dont even remember tbh) and basically it got voted for joe to like “shake his tail feathers to single ladies” and he did it:

and here’s some old videos to check out to see him be himself:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hwXhEKGzT4o (4:40-5:00 especially, he like looses his sanity or some shit)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tH84sdcDPs8 (”Dj Danger”, also peep big rob in this one)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4EUCH7oyNk (i still quote this video and no one understands me but he’s really fucking crazy in it “I’m gonna run in traffic... there’s no cars in Oklahoma!”)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnzSgky_AhY (very LQ but it was 2008 lmao) + another one https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iZ6FuELWGYQ

(from the Burnin’ Up music video)

from when they would do livestreams on this streaming website justin.tv (wow rip i forgot that shit existed) he just fucked around like this bc he’s joe you know

like he was/is just kind of the jokester i guess (possibly bc he was in the middle of kevin and nick idk) like in that post i said that, thats LITERALLY how he always behaved. kevin and nick were a little more serious and this dumbass would just push everyone’s buttons but it was always funny. and tbh i blame him for how i am now, always fucking around even in serious situations.

so yeah there’s a little bit about him! I hope that helped! You really took me down memory lane here lmao like i almost cried rip okay this is really long so im wrapping it up here! feel free to message me if you have more questions!!!

[lunarsap]

Here is your chance to bully me lol. Hoya and me for the selfship game <333

I CANT PROMISE THIS WILL BE sweet 🙄

sigh

i feel like you’d meet nahoya doing some dumb shit. you decide to go out with some new friends and go to a bar to loosen up. and you hear this fucker doing some karaoke in the corner drunk off his ENTIRE ASS off beat and everything slurrin his words and shit with toman in there HEAVy whooping and hollering loud as FUCK… but you were tipsy and found it kinda funny, you ask your friends if they wanna go try after they finish up and they agree

after what felt like 30 minutes you finally get up and ask drakens big ass trying to act like a body gaurd even though he’s swayin and giggling

“was up?”

y’all gone be finished soon? we wanna use the mic

he’s look around and ask who’s going next bc they gotta move back to their section and nahoya stands up

“i’ll go, j- just lemme pick a song”

cornball shit but draken would be like i mean if you wanna sing there’s two mics and what could’ve been a duet or sumn tune into a fuckin rap battle (oh yeah i’m envisioning early 2000’s) but i feel like his goofy ass picks OMG THAT FUCKING SONG WITH BOW WOW WND CIERA HAHAH PLEASEEEE THATS SO FUNNY … AHEM anyways

yeah your friends up making their way over there and hype you up and toman is just rooting for whoever is fucking singing at any given moment they’re drunk off their ass

it ends with you being like damn that was pretty good! have a nice night bye 😁👍🏽 and he’s like

w-wait can i get your number? maybe? i don’t know c-can i buy you a drink

you say no to the drink but yes to the number which leads to you both going on an official date about a week later after getting to know each other a bit better

first kiss is one of fake confidence and genuine trial and error. he thinks he knows everything but he sees you not feeling it so he asks you and you both kinda guide each other which i think is sweet

i think the same would go for your first time with each other

he’d be SO fuckin nervous bc he can’t just take word of mouth from mfs who ain’t fucked either and he can’t depend on porn he figured half the moans a lot of them we’re probably exaggerated. i feel like he’d push it off till he couldn’t

you’d eventually ask him if like he didn’t wanna go that far with you or something and you’d get him to admit he didn’t wanna let you down but like i feel like you’d start slow with him and explain communicating the same way you did when your first kissed and you were sure itd be fine, i don’t see it being TOO fumbly or awkward he just is very concerned with making sure you were actually enjoying these festivities

once he feels you tighten up around him though it’s just THSI is the night he’s CONVINCED he could get you to cum at the drop of a dime from there on

ahh virgin nahoya is kinda sweet but then he’s a fucking menace😐 so good luck with that babe