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revenantghost · 1 year

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This damn thing is way out of print and often goes for $200 second-hand for a 100-page artbook, but! To keep you from having to flip through incomplete uploads on hentai sites, and to save you from minuscule and questionably seeded torrents for files you might not know how to open, you should absolutely NOT check out this Google Drive I made of some ridiculously high-quality .png scans of the '98 Trigun artbook. Absolutely don't spread it around to anyone interested and keep it from getting lost ever again.

#Trigun #Trigun 98 #Nightow #Yasuhiro Nightow #Because there are some BANGER illustrations by him #This took too much time while my insomnia began creeping up on me lmao #But leave me a tip if you'd like but more than anything I want to preserve this stuff #I'm gonna try and keep this up for as long as I can #But take it and save it and spread it #Enjoy it!!!!!!!#The depression is kicking my ass and I wanted to be and do something productive #So now you all get to benefit lol #Anyway #Someday I want to own it because I love books #But who knows #So I get to hoard the files now

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princehoneytea · 4 months

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if youre ever wondering where i am. im not dead i just have severe chronic fatigue and am probably asleep. if anyones got fatigue disorder management tips i would luv to hear them TToTT

#i have 2 disorders tht come with chronic fatigue it kicks my ass real bad.#it sucks when the chronic fatigue makes you unable to do things you like #and then you get depressed because of that which ALSO makes you unable to do things you like #horrible cycle that results in me doing FUCKALL!!!!!#prince talks

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turrondeluxe · 1 year

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are you alive :(

#yeah dw #i sometimes disappear online for a while because of depression kicking my ass but i always bounce back #at least it wasn't like back in summer where i disappeared for like 3 months lmao (i live in the southern hemisphere)#ask

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lixenn · 4 days

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Last night in Sweden.

Just maybe finished packing, I can't really fully judge because I still need to put in my PJ's and bad stuff.

And I need to pack my backpack too but I think I will do that tomorrow.

I hope I will be able to close my suitcase 😭 there's too much stuff. I didn't even need half the shirts I brought OTL

Anyways tomorrow ten hours of travel again (please kill me)

#lix travels #also i decided not to do a blog thing for the trip #because PMS kicked my ass so hard the last few days #i spend most of the time super depressed and grumpy #so the writing would be mostly venting and sad stuff and i cannot be bothered #i will write smut instead 🫡

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teplejtrouba · 9 months

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i have managed to actually do a hobby for the first time in months. yippee

#executive dysfunction and depression are kicking my ass #like severely. i am apathetic about everything and so so tired. things that brought me the most joy are no longer available to me #like. i love you so much you are so important to me but i no longer have the ability to care or do anything about it #things i love the most are behind a glass door that i can't unlock. or break.#sewing and embroidery especially are like. things i very much love and aspire to do but they are SO time and energy consuming #i don't have the patience #i stayed up till 4 am listening to lenka králová's interviews with trans people and it made me a little hopeful #currently transition doesn't really feel possible and i kind of just want to die so. hearing from others who made it was important #i also appreciated the comments #because a lot of them are from cis people. who didn't really know things about trans people but are learning thanks to lenkas channel #and after hearing a bit about our lifes their reaction is usually to applaud the strength we have. to be ourselves #and it's heartwarming to read. that there are people who learn. and can empathise in some way. that not everyone hates us #'you only have one life and no one else is going to live it for you. so you better be yourself' or something along that was in one of them #most of the comments under every video are just people saying how beautiful Lenka looks and yeah. true #i love her

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asummersday · 1 year

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hey! i'm not dead!! :D

So, here’s the thing. Leo never really realized how many things were casually phrased as orders until he got cursed. Turns out, it’s a lot more than he originally thought.

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ryuusei-niu · 3 days

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I hate peanuts and. My cake taste all as frickin peanuts. Idk if it have peanut butter or something but like, why. Why would you put peanut on a birthday cake for your son

#i fucking hate it here #i fucking hate this #and i cant say a thing or don't eat it because cakes are so expensive #but if you're gonna buy a cake at least see if your son like the ingredients #mom i told you a million times that i hate peanuts #how can you forgot about that #depression is kicking my ass

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cloudcountry · 5 months

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guys im so sorry depression and evil thoughts have been kicking my ass again and ive come to the realization that i will always have to live with them. not fun but i am going to sleep now so hopefully i feel better in the morning.

#if you guys are going through the same thing this time of year #because i know it's a tough part #you're not alone #this is a safe space for you #i know im very vocal about my emotions even though i don't have to be #but it's because it's so important to talk about it #i just have to get through finals and i'll be okay again #but right now im not and i think it's alright to admit that #anyways. i'll stop saying all the things i can't say irl on here #and let you guys know that i love you #depression might be kicking my ass but it's only left me with bruises #those heal so i'll be alright #auburn's rambles <3 #tw depression #tw mental health

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ghostlyheart · 3 months

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If your mental illness is a barrier between you and the things you're passionate about I love you!!! If you have to take time off, go at a slower pace than others, or find a different path altogether, it will be okay. Healing and surviving is it's own work. You won't always feel lost.

#aka affirmations for myself!!! depression is kicking my ass but im going to go write my stupid apology tour emails and go to bed #i have gone from a partial program to an in-patient facility back to a partial and the biggest thing this experience has impressed on me #is that so many people in so many different stages of life are struggling. i have been really touched by what i've heard #and i feel so much empathy and compassion for them. treat yourself with the same grace you give others if you can (it's not easy!!!)#i also recognize how privileged i am that my interactions with the mental health system have been overall positive because it is fucked #in so many ways and i've heard some horror stories. so i dont want it to sound like im treating it lightly #this has not been my hot girl summer 💀 i don't think ive ever felt as ashamed despairing and hopeless as i have over the past few months #but this is also something that is shaping who i am and an experience i will carry and i dont regret that

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gideonisms · 1 year

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Oh temperatures under 100 degrees how I miss you ...

#it is 102 for the next 10 days according to google weather #one of those days it's supposed to reach 104....why me #every july i'm like why is the depression kicking my ass so hard #it's because i'm not outside as much for obvious reasons #don't get me wrong i still go walking most days but i wait until 8:30 pm #i need the sun so bad but she wants to fucking kill me love story of the ages #the other night i was like i need more cardio that must be why i'm so tired #and jogged for a bit and came back nauseous. FINE it is just too hot. i accept it. fine.

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cavity-collector · 1 month

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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit

#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me #i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum #my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation #depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man #theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please #i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good #but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great #i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to #actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die #i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless #i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something #probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so #ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left #ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this #an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways #no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil #because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually don’t believe that i think theyre bad but could be good #idk what im saying anymore #someone shoot me #please im not kidding #just make it stop #tw vent #tw sui #delete later

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ginsoakedgirl80 · 1 year

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this broke me

#Till the End of the Moon #I am not ok #Luo Yunxi #like fuck this Devil God #TTJ's life was a living hell because of the fate Devil God chose for him. Why would TTJ do him the favor and give him his body???#ugh so depressing #kick his ass and destroy the origin of the evil bone yesterday #like my actual disbelief at how cruel this is but what to expect from the Devil God #Like TTJ was fighting the whole nurture vs nature thing but fuck turns out his whole life was fated! that's so horrifying #and now he has to do everything to break out of this fate #episode 34 #Cang Jiumin #excuse my bad quality screenshots #spoiler #that sweet sweet suffering

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journeyman-tier-fibercraft · 2 years

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Finishing my WIPs was just an excuse to cast on all over lace project. Day one always has the most impressive progress.

#knitting #lace rot #knitblr #lace knitting #wip #this wasn't even the all over lace project i wanted to cast on. my brain has been having a Mental Illness Moment recently #i have three other projects lined up and it just went actually what if we knit a hannukah gift in less than a month so ig we're trying that #at least it's pretty. this purple is so intense. hopefully this yarn blocks well (acrylic/nylon blend) so the actual pattern shows.#i don't mind how it looks just kinda textured while scrunkly but the actual pattern is WAYYY nicer #godwilling i'll get more work done on this today. had my covid booster yesterday and it's kicking my ass along with seasonal depression #also if anyone recognizes this pattern i added two additional garter stitches to either end so that's why it's a little funky #also i am actually using stitch markers this time!! only two because i still hate them but #it was nice to know the difference between the edge stitches and the main pattern repeat

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smolpinklady · 7 months

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I am so happy I have not self harmed in weeks

#I’m glad because depression has been kicking my ass lately but I refuse to do it

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chloelouygo · 2 years

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Guess who's trying to actually use their journal again!

I made a page 2 months ago for the week and just never picked it back up again 😔 here's to hoping I can get through this week of writing every day just like I used to 💜

(Quote is from Rare by Waterparks! It's been in my head for weeks now and I love putting lyrics on my pages so I remember what I was listening to at each point in time)

#i posted a few journal pages on here when i started using it in August after depression kicked my ass into stopping for like 4 months #i wrote a diary every day for like 8 years but this year has really kicked me back #if anyone wants to see any of my old weekly spreads i would love to share them!#i started doing it again in like august because i wanted to draw marik and doing it in my journal felt easier than sketching #but then i stopped again #this years journal looks so depressingly empty this time kast year i was counting pages to try to squash the year end into one book #this year theres no way I'll even fill it #sorry im rambling i just feel really sad about how much this year has wrecked my habits lol #my art 💜#ygo #marik #marik ishtar

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ghcstcd · 1 year

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Feeling a bit lost right now, especially when it comes to drawing.

#bummer. Because I do feel better about the ghost band situation #but then again. my depression has been kicking my ass for like two weeks now :'/#and I know the trigger but it's also nothing i can just sweep under the rug

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