currently sick i forgot to add this to the last ask but your art, to me, is indicative of the beauty you seenin the world and i think it sso fucking amazing how much you see and appreciate. your brain is gigantic and wrinkled like a pug. u are amazing
advbsghf like a pug 😭 thank u this is so nice. i dont always respond to nice asks bc Im not sure what to say so i just keep them like letters lol but i get very romantic about a lot of stuff (especially when my mental health is being normal) and I'm rly glad that comes across in my art
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i am averaging a bottle of wine a day lately. not really sure what that means. i don't know if therapy is helping. i think i'm aware of my problems; i find myself almost pretending to have moments of revelation to make my therapist feel as though we are making progress. i do not feel as though we are making progress.
taking my medication feels like a herculean effort lately. it gives me acid reflux. i feel like i can feel the medicine getting stuck in my chest and sliding up my veins the wrong way to poison my brain and turn off every good thing in the process of missing the bad ones.
high in the waiting room. staring twitching at a doctor saying, yes, i took some tylenol. pain with no gain - literally. i had to uber home. i have never felt so small. i have never felt so childish. i am fumbling my way blind through each day and i feel as though someone is supposed to be holding my hand. there is nothing but empty air no matter which direction i reach.
i am fine being by myself. if anything i am used to it. but at the same time i am screaming for someone to tap me on my wrist and tell me, best get to bed, love, you've got work tomorrow. here, let me fill up your water. let me get the lights. are you comfortable?
i am clinging to my carefully put together day to day by a thread. i am behind on work. my thoughts feel like they are fighting to swim through mud. my head is a bog where things go to decay. the only things there are rotting and dead.
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Ranking Pepper’s hammocks A-F now that he’s made five of them
First - B - Not a bad start! But why did he put it on top of the pre-built nest. It is literally right there. Overall, good protection and well reinforced just... You didn’t have to make a new one, Pepper
Second - C - No reinforcement, no safety net, out in the middle of the top of the enclosure, extremely visible and see-through, which is great for me because I can see him napping - very cute, but Pepper, your safety and security!
Third - A - The molt hammock! Thick webbing, obscured under moss, easy to overlook and well protected! But he stayed in there for a literal week and scared me >:0
Fourth - D - Made a tiny, very sparse hammock in the cattails for one night and has since abandoned it. Why even bother at that point? He still fit in the first two hammocks!
Fifth - A - The best napping hammock so far! In the opposite corner from the pre-built so not directly on top of an easier solution, closer to the light source in the evening, decently thick and secure, and in a corner so he’s not just hanging out in the direct middle of the enclosure - protected on two sides! Bonus points for having caught a little video of him doing the booty dance construction :)
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