Yesterday I saw an ADHD specialist for the first time in my life. Within minutes of talking she told me I have absolutely typical ADHD problems and that it's a shame I wasn't here 10 years ago, but it's good that I'm here now.
It's uh. Weird. Knowing that the insurmountable issues I've dealt with my entire life were very treatable this whole time. So many things I failed at and paths that are permanently blocked to me now. And even though the specialist was fully certain and assured me that she sees many cases just like mine and that medication helps people a lot and she really wanted me to know that she sees a good prognosis for me, I now have this terrible fear that she was actually wrong and this hope will be taken away from me and my issues are actually just something there's no solution for.
If all goes as expected I'll have the diagnosis in mid-August and start medication then. It seems unbearably long to wait. Idk how to deal with this.
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When you’re post-divorce, broke, and putting yourself back on the market before anyone’s told you that’s not an option anymore.
Idea from @currymuttonpizza referenced from this picture of Webern
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"It's hard for me to know where circumstances end and depression begins. It is true that I've been going through an objectively hard time...but it's also true that I've been through harder times...without feeling this much despair. But when I'm in a state of depression, which I have been for quite a while, it's really hard for me to analyze what is and is not really real because everything great feels illusory and everything terrible feels utterly true."--John Green
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find the word challenge
rules: share snippets of your work containing each of the words the previous poster selected for you (optional addition: if you can't find the word in your WIPs, or you simply don't have any WIPs, you can just write a sentence around the word)
thanks @the-likesofus for the tag!! very excited to see how many of these words I've used...
my words are: quiet, hold, cover, first, together, and small. unsurprisingly, my fake dating au (currently sitting at almost 30k words like it has been for the past few months...) has all of these words multiple times lol <3
quiet
Buck’s phone rings, and he pulls it out of his pocket, his hands shaking when he reads Bobby’s contact name. He answers before he can even register it. “Pops?” His voice is quiet and terrified.
hold
Hearing footsteps from his spot on the couch, Buck tenses as Nathan comes up the stairs. It’s been so long, but Buck can still recognize the man’s footfalls. He lets out a breath he’d been subconsciously holding when Nathan finally appears and moves towards one of the armchairs across from him instead of the couch.
cover
“Jurassic Park!” Chris yells, and Buck has to cover his ears against the sound, the kid’s excitement causing him to be louder than usual. “Please, Dad, I know it’s kind of scary, but they just put it back on Netflix, and I’ve seen it before! Plus, I’m ten now, I won’t have nightmares!”
first
“I don’t want you to get hurt again,” Eddie says, meeting Buck’s gaze. His eyes are soft and despite his words, they shine with support, and Buck thinks—not for the first time—how lucky he is to have a best friend like Eddie.
together
Nathan’s study abroad had been nearly over when Buck brought up the idea of him going to Los Angeles to fight fires and help people. Nate had just nodded before taking Buck’s hand and kissing him, saying he’d buy the plane tickets in the morning. Buck had assumed they’d be going back together to be together.
small
Eddie glares at Chim when he insists on playing with the station’s small Hildy gadget that they keep in the kitchen. They mostly use it to play music, but Chimney takes the opportunity to ask her a bunch of questions throughout the day and only stops when Eddie threatens to run her over with a fire truck after Chimney starts asking her questions about the 118 themselves.
words for people I tag: home, care, love, make, and dream
no pressure tagging @mooshkat @jacksadventuresinwriting @ty-in-bedlam @lilbuddie <3
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Do you have any vent fics?
if you mean out of my published stuff or things i plan to publish, no none of them are vent fics
don't get me wrong, ive written several vent fics. but i don't publish them because it feels just. wrong? i guess? (<that just applies for how i feel about me posting them, not posted vent fics in general)
venting through writing is a great way to maintain how you're feeling so i highly encourage people to do so. plus you get to put your favs through situations and that's always fun
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yall i know i havent been super active on here recently but life is just getting a tad difficult these days and so i havent had time/energy to dedicate to my blog unfortunately :/
i do still check my notes multiple times a day and i do scroll my dash every so often, but my dash is kinda dead and i havent been seeing much to reblog, so my queue has run out, but i am still here im just kind of lurking instead
so if you reblog my posts with funny/interesting tags or send me messages/asks i will see it and will do my best to respond accordingly!!! i miss spending ungodly amounts of time on here but it just isn't feasible right now so i hope you all understand. hopefully i will get back in the swing of things soon 💙💙
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