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angelsparkls · 1 year

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all my favorite fics that no one asked for:

* = my absolute favorites

multiple ship fics:

All in the Cards (series)* - (haikyuu) MY FAVORITE FIC OF ALL TIME! although lengthy it is such a good read and has a lot of popular ships! the au is such a cool concept and the plot and characters are thought out so well it’s amazing and should definitely check it out

The Crystal Miracles - (kuroko no basket) based off steven universe but coming from someone who has never watched steven universe the fic was not super dependent on it and was just based around the plot of steven universe (apparently i talked about with my friend who actually watched steven universe) i thought it was cool so definitely recommend! also a bit lengthy but worth it

friends, worlds apart - (haikyuu) it’s mainly bokuaka but there’s other ships so i decided to put this fic here. tbh i don’t remember it too well but i do know it well enough to know that it was really good! it’s a pretty long hogwarts au fic and is based off basic plot points from harry potter but it’s not too similar imo so overall a good read!

Haikyuu:

Death Threats & Wine Bottles - (semishira) domestic semishira. that’s all. it’s cute. there’s nothing to not like about it.

Saltwater Room - (kuroken) i think i read this because of a recommendation and man it was funny. i enjoyed all the fun little bits of kenma and hinata just being friends but also the more serious angsty parts and having the whole conflict with kuroo and kenma’s dream. *sigh* it’s good but lengthy. worth it in my opinion but i like long fics so maybe not your cup of tea

When I Fall In Love - (semishira) i can’t really remember this fic since i read it a long time ago but i do remember liking it! the band au/pianist au concept was cool seeing it with semishira and they are so supportive of each other after they get over their annoyance! it’s not as long as the other long fics i’ve recommended but definitely give it a shot!

Cover My Thoughts In Gold - (bokuaka) some classic soulmate au because they are soulmates so why not have a fic that has them be confirmed soulmates

True Ending - (kuroken) marriage proposal in the best and cutest way possible and one that perfectly fits them 🥺

Cat’s Out of the Bag - (kuroken) it’s just some cute little scenes of kenma as a shapeshifter and kuroo not knowing. it’s quick but so so cute how they interact

Maybe, Probably - (sakuatsu) cute hogwarts au of slytherin atsumu and ravenclaw sakusa. yeah that’s basically it

Rose Gold - (semishira) ROYALTY AU SEMISHIRA AAAAAAA definitely one of my favorite considering that I actually never see a royalty au centered around them

Vibrant - (semishira) im a sucker for soulmate aus but this soulmate au especially was such a cute concept!

A Musical World Thanks To You - (semishira) soulmate au fic but you can hear songs that your soulmate is listening to! it really is such a good concept with semi asking shirabu to be in the talent show with him and perform a song and yk yk big build up to the moment hehe

Dog visits - (kyouhaba) the classic “oh he’s different than i thought what do i do now” and yahaba being soft with kyoutani’s dog is everything and kyoutani not knowing how to deal with yahaba barging into his life 😍

be my honeybee - (kyouhaba) tw: implied/referenced child ab/se if you aren’t comfortable with that please don’t read <3 but it is a good fic and addresses real issues especially with kyoutani not really having anyone to help him until yahaba came around. it’s a bit long and made me cry a little so that’s why it’s good

Curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back - (kyouhaba) everyone has superpower abilities!! i always love aus like this so it’s not a surprise it’s one of my favorites. it also touches on mental health in the form of kyoutani doing too much for people when he doesn’t need to and always sacrificing himself for others even when it makes him unhappy. it’s so good tho if you ever decide to read it because it is a bit long

rewrite the stars - (kuroken) arranged marriage au where kenma and kageyama are going to get married but by the end they realize that they are marrying the wrong people and its so cute seeing kenma come to that realization

Kuroko No Basket:

The Frog in the Well - (midotaka) it has been a while since i read this fic but i do remember laughing about this and just thinking it was overall cute especially with the whole aspect of being a loose retelling of “The Frog-King” and i know two other people who also read this and thought it was cute so there’s that

The Witch in the Tower - (murahimu) this is from the same series and author as the previous knb fic i recommended because this fic is also based around a fairy tale and i found this really cute because they are kinda domestic in this fic since there’s just an adopted child in a tower… anyway

Feels Like Winning - (murahimu) just some soulmate au for them because murasakibara not knowing how to deal with feelings <3

Only with You - (kikasa) a cute fic for this surprisingly underrated ship! it’s not too long but encompasses these idiots’ relationship in this fic perfectly

Claws and paws - (murahimu) this shapeshifter au is so cute because like height difference 😍 and also the whole idea of like himuro being this tiny cat compared for murasakibara is funny to me. it’s kind of long but i enjoyed it!

Other Fandoms:

Boy Problems - (mirio togata x tamaki amajiki) an OG for me it’s actually one of my first bookmarks and it’s a cute little oneshot that reminds me how oblivious and stupid these idiots are

the blind leading the blind - (childe x zhongli) it’s not really focused on relationship but it really touches on the betrayal that childe feels after realizing that zhongli gave his gnosis to signora behind his back and i think this fic is so very cool for creating that scenario and executed it perfectly!

kintsugi - (teru minamoto x akane aoi) oh lord. oh god. this fic actually kinda broke me. it’s a very bittersweet fic that makes me go OMG YAY and then oh oh oh oh /neg but it does end happily. at what cost tho. it’s so so so good tho definitely recommend. a little lengthy but not too bad

Look At Me Like That - (momotarou mikoshiba x aiichirou nitori) THIS FIC SUMS UP THIS SHIP PERFECTLY! ITS SO GOOD! like the whole thingg of ai having unrequited feelings for rin but is now in love with this idiot momo is exactly how i see their relationship and having that tied up in this one fic.

#fanfic recommendation #haikyuu!!#kuroken #bokuaka #semishira #sakuatsu #kyouhaba #kuroko no basket #midotaka #murahimu #kikasa #miritama #zhongchi #terukane #momoai #original posts

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itsclydebitches · 1 year

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Ruby’s angst is a sore point b/c I will always remember her crying over Salem mentioning her mom only to go back to being confrontational and smug to Ironwood and the Ace Ops.

This is why I harp on about tone so much in my recaps. It is crucial to keep things consistent (within reason) because otherwise your audience is going to start doubting the persuasiveness of this characterization. If Ruby breaks down over Summer's death and then immediately shrugs that off, transitioning into smug antagonism, my takeaway is going to be, "Well, I guess she wasn't that broken up about it" and "Well, I guess Ruby lacks the insight and critical thinking skills to realize that turning on her allies is just going to make Salem murdering more people easier."

If Ruby decides to start this battle and confidently expresses the inevitability of her win against Harriet, only to then start begging for them to lay down their weapons after taking a hit, the takeaway is that Ruby back-peddles on a position the moment she's no longer winning.

If Yang rushes to Ruby's side to comfort her while she sobs and then spends a Volume ignoring her equally obvious distress, the takeaway is that Yang is becoming a worse sister, likely because she's putting all her emotional energy into Blake instead.

If Blake was introduced as a no-nonsense activist willing to get up in anyone's face and then shrinks before an angry friend, the takeaway is that she's grown more passive as the series has gone on.

If Weiss loses her entire Kingdom and then spends the first half of the Volume being used purely as the comic relief, the takeaway is that this tragedy hasn't actually hit her very hard and we shouldn't buy into these incredibly brief moments of grief.

If the group says they don't want to run anymore and then the very first fight they come across results in them running away, the takeaway is that these are heroes who talk big, but can't make those promises a reality.

Similarly, if the group hugs and makes the occasional speech about how much they love each other, but then turn around and criticize, become suspicious of, and dismiss Jaune in his ultimate time of need, the takeaway is that their care is hollow and will falter once the going gets tough.

If Ruby spends whole Volumes active bubbly, optimistic, confident, driven, and at times extraordinarily arrogant, but then kills herself after two days of mental health struggles, the takeaway is that RT is willing to use suicide as a cheap spectacle, rather than a real life issue that must be written with care and proper buildup.

If the show pushes a found-family dynamic and then has four members of that family simply stand there while Ruby kills herself... yeah, the takeaway is, "Wow. They didn't care about stopping her much then, huh?"

We know the characters are supposed to love each other. We know that we're supposed to come up with some easy explanation like, "They were in shock!" But if you actually take what's happening on screen - which, you know, is the backbone of analysis - RT continually undermines the core messages of RWBY through badly managed tone and inconsistent characterization. Every scene is a puzzle piece creating a whole and if the pieces don't fit... well, then the picture is nonsensical. It's not the job of the person observing the puzzle to go, "Well, it certainly looks like this is made up primarily of confused colors, textures, and images, but if I just imagine that all these pieces are different from what's actually in front of me, then the puzzle is perfect!"

#rwde #rwby #mymetas #suicide tw

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flowercrowncrip · 7 months

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hi there! i’ve been following your blog for a bit and just wanted to ask as a fellow disabled person— what kind of job do you have, and how do they go about accommodating your needs? i’m trying to find entry-level work i can do from a wheelchair, and it’s been a struggle. any insight to the process would be amazing! no pressure to share any details, of course— whatever you feel comfortable sharing, even if that’s nothing at all. have a lovely day!

Hey!

I’m a youth support worker with a local queer organisation. The main parts of my job are helping to run youth groups and providing 121 mentoring. I also go into schools to provide training and am part of a sexual health scheme for young people.

Accommodating my disability has been a learning curve for everyone (including me!) but everyone has been incredibly open to making things work smoothly.

One of the big things they’ve done is made structural changes to the main building I work at so that I can use the bathroom and get through the doors more easily. They also worked with me to arrange the furniture in a way that works best for me. When working in different venues (like youth centres or if we go on a trip) my manager always prioritises accessibility. It’s not perfect and there’s one youth group venue I can’t fully access but changing that venue is a huge priority. Unfortunately we’ve hit a few walls with finding a suitable venue but I’ve been kept fully up to date on how many places we’ve looked into so I know it’s not from lack of trying on the organisation’s part.

We also share jobs in the team in a way that makes most sense. For example I have set things when setting up a youth group that we know I can do reliably so those have become my jobs. With 121 support if a young person requests it over video call I get priority so that I can work from home, and if someone requests support in their home then it’s assigned to someone else because most houses aren’t wheelchair accessible. And if we’re working at a pride event or similar that doesn’t have a changing places toilet I can use or has other access issues then it’s not a problem if I need to go home early – it’s fully understood that it’s not my fault but the fault of whatever event we’re at for not being accessible.

Work has also done a DBS (criminal record) check for one of my PAs so that I can have support during youth groups.

My boss also knows what access requirements I have and we share the job of liaising with schools or other venues between us so it’s not as much extra work for me.

But I think the main thing is that they’re coming at it all with the right attitude. Asking for help is seen as a positive skill, there’s a genuine desire to learn and improve as an organisation which extends to accessibility and diversity which means the conversations around accessibility are constant and ongoing. There’s been several times where I’ve said that something isn’t as accessible as it could be or I’ve pointed out that something someone has said is ableist (including to the founders of the organisation) and I’ve always been thanked for doing so. I’m extremely privileged to have found an organisation like this that wants to be accommodating because it’s the right thing to do rather than just doing what they have to do by law.

That’s what I can think of off the top of my head, but there’s probably more I haven’t thought of.

I’m very open to other questions so feel free to ask me anything else if there’s anything else you want to know!

#echo answers asks #echo has a job

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tiffanylamps · 2 years

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Han Joo Won: the 'I don't like touching people' boy and his manhandling victim.

Hi! I am here once again to give you a Beyond Evil analysis/meta-commentary. This time we are discussing Joo Won's whole touch deal... (and briefly discussing Dong Sik's, as well).

This show has a very big thing about hands and touching (women's fingertips are literally cut off) and they decided to have one of its main characters are issues with touch and chooses to avoid it. Who then proceeds to... well... we all know.

This is an excerpt from the essay I mentioned in this post. So, if it reads as being a bit little unfinished that's because it is meant to be a part of a larger piece.

I will also prefix that this post doesn't really delve into Joo Won's mental health or family history. It's just a commentary on how he treats Dong Sik differently from other people.

[I advise not taking shots every time you read the word "touch"... you'll end up in hospital]

[29/06/22 Note: This post has been edited and improved.]

[A continuation from a separate paragraph.]

As physical touch is something that can be taken away, for a character like Joo Won who struggles with giving and receiving it, it is important that there are only two characters that Joo Won will actively choose to touch throughout the show; as in, he chooses to touch them more than once.

Those two characters are Kwon Hyuk and Lee Dong Sik.

Joo Won touches Dong Sik (in the beginning) due to surges of uncontrollable anger, feelings of upset, or frustration. Other people have the capacity to upset, frustrate, and anger Joo Won but he doesn’t get physical with them in the same way. Almost like he doesn’t want to be in their personal space.

This is deemed as an unusual characteristic, considering Joo Won's preference for avoidance. The show's creators highlight that this is not a signifier of Joo Won being a hypocrite or a liar, but instead, it portrays that Joo Won either cannot control his emotions and/or actions around Dong Sik, or he doesn't want to.

Joo Won treats Dong Sik (physically) from everyone else in his life. We are given a direct comparison to show us the difference in which Joo Won treats Dong Sik. That is shown through Joo Won's relationship with Kwon Hyuk. Dong Sik and Hyuk are the only people (that I remember) receiving physical contact from Joo Won that was affectionate.

However, the intensity with which he touches them is the main difference. For Hyuk, Joo Won would pat his shoulder quickly to show his thanks and appreciation. It is friendly, platonic, emotionally stunted and a little sterile but affectionate, nonetheless.

(It took me so long to find that gif)

Compared to Dong Sik, well… In the most simplistic terms, Joo Won manhandles Dong Sik.

Within South Korean media, it is not uncommon for male characters to display their frustration by manhandling another male.

Stranger

Vincenzo

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Are some examples. However, the frequency in which Joo Won does this is what makes him stand out.

Dong Sik also manhandles male characters when he has lost his temper (Club man, Han Joo Won, the guy he may have killed). For a character as multi-faceted as Dong Sik, it would have been easy for the show to make Dong Sik a touchy-feely man, as it would have fitted within his archetype: bouncy, loud, maybe the village gay, vibrant... tactile. But they didn't; Dong Sik isn't very physical at all. There are three occasions (or reasons) in which Dong Sik is tactile:

Moments of extreme anger: always toward men and always because the male is acting in an unacceptable way (The club man, punching Joo Won in the face, maybe killing that other guy)

Moment of extreme stress: trying to save Sang Yeob's life

Moments of affection: offering comfort to his mother and Joo Won.

Unlike, the two times he reacted negatively to Joo Won touching him (the first time Joo Won touched him and when Joo Won handcuffed them together), Dong Sik tends to not have that much of a reaction to being touched. Having said that, there is one time I can think of when Dong Sik is touched by another male and he has an immediate negative reaction. In episode 3, Jung Je pulls on Dong Sik's arm to stop him from walking and Dong Sik (notably angry) yanks his arm away.

So, despite the fact that Dong Sik's characterisation could have easily made him a tactile person, they chose not to do that. I believe they did this to show that despite how (initially) antagonistic Joo Won was, Dong Sik never had that much of an issue with the younger man touching him. If he did, he would do more about it, as proven by the scene with Jung Je.

[Side note: Dong Sik was beaten up by the police when he was twenty. So, I do think there is something to say about how he reacts to Joo Won being aggressive with him. Dong Sik has a side of him that can be aggressive and when pushed, he can become physically violent (beating up the man he might have killed and choking Lee Chang Jin are two examples), which suggests that Dong Sik is not a passive man. However, those instances were when he was the aggressor. When he is on the receiving end of aggression, especially if it is Joo Won as the aggressor, he becomes placid and almost like a rag-doll. Due to his history, it would suggest that this is a trauma response, his way of trying to keep Joo Won from actually hitting him. BUT, but, but, but that doesn't explain this-

The amounts of times Dong Sik does shit like this ^

Despite his history of being assaulted and Joo Won's continual aggressive behaviour, Dong Sik sure doesn't have a problem being in Joo Won's personal space. He might not actively choose to touch Joo Won but he does get in his personal space. I think it's partially because he wants to intimidate and aggravate him with his ambiguous sexuality and because he enjoys it. His way of dealing with Joo Won's aggression is kind of like: what?? are you going to punch me or kiss me? make your mind up, I'm waiting... He's an interesting, complicated, slutty man... ]

But like many other characters within South Korean media, especially in the crime genre, Dong Sik's acts of physically touching other characters are sporadical. He'll do it once (perhaps twice to a certain character) and that’ll be it. [from my personal knowledge] Han Joo Won is not like other mainstream male characters in South Korean media (within the crime genre), he’s (despite his mysophobia/mental health) a very tactile person and will go out of his way to be physical with Dong Sik.

Joo Won is the (one of two) main character in a show that is within the crime/murder/mystery genres. He is not a love interest in an obvious romance show. He is not showing his anger for reasons of jealousy, protection, or peacocking and yet, he still finds a way to physically touch Dong Sik. The older man is not his rival in his romantic life or at work, he is his suspect turned ally. He is a man Joo Won (at one point in time) seems to loathe... and yet, from the beginning, he finds any excuse to be in his personal space. Joo Won doesn't do this with any other character.

What is telling about Joo Won’s interest in only touching Dong Sik, is that as their relationship develops, his touches diversify:

Grabbing Dong Sik’s clothes: to prevent him from moving (episode 3-16)

Grabbing Dong Sik’s clothes: to pull him closer/emphasise his point or his feelings (episode 3-16)

Holding onto Dong Sik even when Dong Sik is doing something else (checking his phone: episode 6)

4 specific examples that stand out to me:

Cradling Dong Sik’s crying body whilst holding hands with him (episode 10)

Angrily holding onto Dong Sik’s clothes, pulling him closer and looking at his lips (episode 14??)

A soft (absent-minded) brush of his hand (episode 15)

Clutching Dong Sik’s hands and crying into them (episode 16)

(This show has a lot of hands in it and that’s so beautiful)

Here's a quick visual example/summary of the progression:

The first time Joo Won touches Dong Sik [Disclaimer: I'm discounting the ep1 hand pat because ep3 was the first time he is the initiatator]

The last

Joo Won's tactile nature with Hyuk displays his philia/storge* love for him. Whereas, the way Joo Won touches Dong Sik shows his eros/ludus "love"/interest/repressed feelings for the older man. It is passionate, angry, confused, uncontrollable, desperate, and lustful. But then it becomes: repressed, affectionate, desperate, passionate, lustful, caring, absent-minded, and natural.

One display is relaxed, not easily given and platonic (Hyuk). The other is intense and is not platonic in the slightest (Dong Sik). Further proving how differently Joo Won views and treats Dong Sik.

*the seven kinds of love defined by the Ancient Greeks.

Joo Won is… hilarious and so obvious.

In the beginning, he thinks that Dong Sik is either a serial killer or at least complicit in multiple women’s brutal murders and yet, he’s popping around his house, whispering in his ear, getting in his personal space- he doesn’t fear Dong Sik.

Dong Sik’s person doesn’t set off his mysophobia, he does, however, cause Joo Won to have anxiety responses to their interactions. (This is also triggered because of other things going on with Joo Won’s mental health/ the stressful nature of the situation.)

A quick summary of the different ways Joo Won's able to touch others:

Moments of stress or extreme anger: always toward men and always because the male is acting in an unacceptable way (Dong Sik, the group he beats up in ep5//kind of, Kang Jin Mook) Moment of extreme stress: trying to save Nam Sang Bae's life Moments of affection: Dong Sik (I don't need to elaborate). For work: Joo Won is capable of touching people for work. As shown by his interactions with those who are mentally unwell: Bang Ho Cheol, the boy from episode 2, Jung Je.

If it's for work, he can do it. But does he want to? No. This further proves that there are only two people he actually wants to touch: Hyuk and Dong Sik.

Notably, he never touches any of the female characters, either.

What I’m trying to say is: that Dong Sik from the get-go is a special case in Joo Won’s life and I think that further supports Joo Won’s queer coding.

(^ what they said)

So, as we have established how Joo Won treats Dong Sik differently, we now must ask: why?

Anyway, thank you for reading this short excerpt from that essay I mentioned. I had a whole bit analysing Joo Won's mysophobia and his potential OCD/ASD and how that affects his actions. But I've decided not to include it because it lacks direction and doesn't do his character justice. Not to say that this entry does, but it has something to say, even if it the obvious and only small.

I hope this was entertaining to read. It's a mess but... yeah... I'm not going to do anything about that.

Once again, if you want to add to the conversation/share your own thoughts in any way, please feel free to do so. I love talking about this show and its layers, and would be more than happy to do so with you lovely lot!

Bye!

#beyond evil #jtbc beyond evil #beyond evil analysis #han juwon #han joo won #lee dongsik #jwds #beyond evil meta commentary

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hangingslothcentral · 1 year

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happy trans day of visibility! I know it's rough out there right now, especially for those of us who have other marginalised identities as well as trans and/or nonbinary-ness, because so often it seems like the news is either full of vitriol against us or going out of its way to frame our pain, discomfort, suffering and death as the only things that matter, leaving next to no room for the real joy which can be a part of the trans experience. so I want to tell you this:

in January someone important to me started using the right pronouns for me for the first time after years of really struggling to get my pronouns right. we've spoken about it before and whilst he understood what I was telling him in principle, he couldn't really follow through on it because it just didn't compute in his head. it was not an act of malice but a failure to conceptualise, and i didn't force the issue as much as i could have because i didn't want to (which is a totally valid choice).

i have, however, written several long coming out letters which this person has read, had many long, difficult conversations with them, tried my best to provide educational resources, and generally pointed out when their language or choices further marginalised people like me. none of this had a measurable impact on the way they talked about me.

last year, in April, I started taking testosterone and it's had this massively positive impact on my life. I'm happier, less anxious, and more comfortable in my skin. the change is really, really dramatic, though it's come on slowly. it's hard to fully articulate the difference this has made because it's so big but also so subtle. it's like existing just became incrementally easier and easier.

I'm happier and it bleeds into every facet of my life. I'm making healthier choices, I'm easier to talk to, and it's a far cry from the absolute rock bottom I hit several years back which this person bore witness to and which coincided with when i first came out. and it was just me being happier which made him understand what my identity meant, and which ultimately got him to the place where he uses the right name and pronouns for me.

i'm incredibly lucky to have had the access to medical transition that I have had. what should be the bare minimum of care is extremely hard for so many people to access, and it's so often down to the luck of where you're born, your ethnicity and your level of general health, and none of that is fair or right.

access to medical transition hasn't just changed my own life for the better, it's helped the people around me see me more clearly, and the joy I so obviously experience as a result has helped them completely reframe their views not just of me, but of the entire trans community.

(i do also wanna say that I know it's not going to be the case for everyone that they'll be able access medical transition at all and that even if they do it's not a magical trump card which will suddenly make everyone who's not accepting of your identity come around to seeing you as you really are.)

absolutely it's important that we hold people to account for the harm they do to trans people. it's important to remember the names of the people we lose every year to systemic failures preventing access to trans health care and as a direct result of a failure to empathetically educate the public about what trans and nonbinary identities are. there is a need to outline in detail all the ways we're being let down and how this harms not just us but everyone around us, and to outline how these problems are only more difficult for trans and nonbinary folks who also have any skin colour besides white, or who are disabled, or mentally ill, or in poverty, or any number of other factors which make it harder for them to move through the world.

but! trans and nonbinary joy is also desperately, desperately important. it can be a beacon of light to those of us in dark places who have forgotten that joy is even a possibility. it can give hope to children whose families turn against them and let them down. and it can also change the world. i know this because i've seen it happen in this very small way, where one person's views were reshaped by nothing more than me living my life and being happy in my own skin.

last of all, know that you are loved, whether you're out or not, whether you're happy or not, whether people see you for who you are or not. you are loved.

#trans day of visibility #tdov 2023 #tdov

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dufferpuffer · 6 days

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Just read your reply to my reply...

And i really understand where you are coming from.

Actually, a few days back i was reflecting as to why this particular character has struck a cord with me when i just move away from characters I do not like and don't sit around thinking about them...

But with Lupin I often try to avoid him...

One reason is for the obvious that I am not interested in his fanon version.

But even if I read metas like yours Or good story with him being complex, I turn them off and look the other way.

I see myself reflected in him too much. With his illness and his own struggle with accepting it and unable of finding a better way to live a considerably and comparably healthy life. His avoidance. His single-minded ness.

My own struggle with my ADHD and depression, make me look selfish in other peoplE's eyes. Like I don't care. When truth is far from it, sometimes your own problems, big Or small, wraps around your head making you unable to look around and make room for people to see you and accept and in turn make them seen too.

Reading you talk about him makes me feel seen in a way. But i am not ready to read a story about him because for me fan fiction is a way of escaping the troubles of real life where the protagonist gets a happy ending but i know that realistically an absolute happy ending is not in bag for remus if we are being honest.

So, at a stage in my life where I struggle to make life work with a disease that is pulling me down, I don't find solace in reading about him. His canon self makes me uncomfortable in truth.

You are like a strong person who accept that he has issues and you deal with your issues by discovering the life and struggles of him as a character...

I am in terms total opposite to you on this. I avoid him like my life depends on it. This is the first time i have admitted to even myself as to why canon lupin is a no go to me.

I dunno if its about 'being strong'. Just being different. I think it's strong to dislike something - and be able to take the time to think about why - and thus understand yourself better as a person. That's what fiction is for, right? Thinking about yourself + others. Sometimes you relate with a character, sometimes you don't... and sometimes you really don't want to. Sometimes you learn from their lessons, and sometimes their lessons just hurt. 'realistically an absolute happy ending is not in bag for remus if we are being honest.' ...yeah, you're right. Remus story isn't happy. Its a tragedy, from start to finish, where he makes mistakes the whole way through - and has his chance for happiness ripped out from under him by dying young. That can be damn painful when you relate to parts of it.

I hope things get easier for you, with your work/health. I don't wish you a 'cure', or a 'full recovery' - those things are really nice, but sometimes are unreachable. I wish you some more important things: Comfort, time away from pain so you can rest. Stability, where you can trust the world won't collapse around you. Understanding from others, support - so you don't feel alone. Some good distractions, like hearty and happy fanfic ;) ...And maybe some chocolate. A werewolf told me it helps.

#hp #personal #mental health #<3 you anon

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bengiyo · 1 year

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The Warp Effect Ep 9 Stray Thoughts

Last time, we solved the current issues for Army and Kat. Kat teased a relationship with Jean, and now I need it. Kat also made me think about I May Destroy You all week, so there's that, too. Army and Joe learned how to be intimate in a way both could enjoy with Alex's help (clearly the most comfortable straight man). Kim is pregnant, but it seems like she doesn't want to keep it; Ice is excited to become a dad. Also, Nim and Bew broke up because Bew is going to America and is jealous of Mollie.

We're jumping right in to Jedi and Rose, who seem good about checking in when they go out. Unfortunately for Rose, Jedi clearly has an STD he's been avoiding dealing with.

Kinda interesting that the image for Jedi and Rose was witnessed by Alex, whereas in the others it feels like some other camera captured the image.

Oh, I do like Army leading with their HIV status. If Jedi is out there being unsafe, there's many debilitating things he could pick up and give to Rose. She has every right to be furious with him.

Due to the supernatural, I'll forgive this not-doctor and actual doctor disclosing patient information to others.

See-ew is wearing a Space Force shirt.

I don't think I had considered much which doctors trans women would visit about their sexual health depending on what paths they chose to pursue for gender confirmation.

Nim is pregnant, and Army's desire to be involved is giving me Queer as Folk vibes.

Okay, the excited little gay wiggle Fluke Pusit did for Army's mirth about becoming a father was good. He's talented, and treating this character seriously.

Good of Alex to cap off that conversation by reminding Nim that it's her choice and all of the men present support her. Alex is intriguing as a character, because he's still basically 18.

Very uncomfortable about pregnant Kim having alcohol and hanging out around smokers.

Chaladee and Phuwin are pretty good together. She's got to convey a lot of different feelings here, and Phuwin is responding in character as Ice really well. Managing an unwanted pregnancy when the non-pregnant partner wants it is not simple, and I like the way they're grounding Kim's reluctance. It's especially notable because we go back to the movie set, and Kim is clearly thriving here.

Yes, I am here for Mollie getting to loom.

Joong is very attractive, and I prefer when he has to bring more energy to his acting. GMMTV seems obsessed with making him play quieter and cool characters.

Babies are not a punishment for mistakes. It's also (currently) legal to get an abortion at this stage. I know the show is setting up this conversation to hammer home the point, and I'm going to reiterate it.

Oh, Jean. Also glad that we're acknowledging that any medical procedure can be scary, and few of us want to face that alone.

It was a very good choice to follow that scene with Ice talking to Alex. Despite their fraught relationship, Alex is still his brother, and he's a specialist on women's health issues. Alex steers Ice away from making the issue about him.

The timing of much of this is good. I like Army a lot here. He shares that he's actually excited at the prospect of becoming a parent, is willing to do it with Nim, and assures her he'll still respect her choice.

Interesting development! Jedi insists that he only has sex with Rose.

Joe and Army can't have one big moment without someone rolling up and immediately reaching for their phone. Goddamn. Y'all need to leave people the fuck alone. Joe isn't ready to be out, and he's going to blame Army for this because he came to the school.

The homoeroticism of laying on the floor after exerting yourselves together. We stay winning.

Placing Jan where her eyes would sparkle when she looked at Silvy was a gorgeous choice.

Jojo said, but what if the whole show was second chance romances??

I like that Nim and Mollie solved their own problem after others helped them with unrelated problems. It's a gentle message about how caring helps beyond the initial instance.

Is dressing like a flight attendant related in any way to what Captain did to Kat?

Another interesting development! Kat says Rose also insists she doesn't have sex with other people.

Alex thinking he possibly gave HPV to Kat was funny.

Newwie is actually pretty good in this role.

Oh, the mirror is a nice choice in the reconciliation between Jedi and Rose. They can finally face each other properly and clearly. They wanted to try being open, but realized it wasn't what they actually wanted. Still, I am invested in the answer about where they got infected.

I like how many scenes do double-duty in this show. We see Kat back on the wagon while also learning that Tony isn't a player.

Viruses are so annoying. I like the way this plotline with Jedi and Rose wrapped.

And look at Ice also coming through.

Jean looks so good.

So many problems next week! Liu is being harassed at work. Mollie is mad at Nim. Joe is being shoved deeper into the closet. Kat and Jean come to some big moment about Alex. Goddamn.

#the warp effect #thai drama #Ben watches

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paperbagsandwich · 1 month

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omgosh whatvis Ros' fav anime? Does she have a fav genre?

Oh bless thats so sweet, they must love eachother so heckin much it makes me feel mushy they are so cute!!! Sorry if this is an odd question but does ros have autism? (Does she stim over things she gets excited about?)

Dawww thats adorable!!!!

Nausicaä and the valley of the wind (also known as warriors of the wind), its a very beautiful film !!

i enjoy animal crossing as well! Stardew valley is (imo) a fun and simple game, you just farm crops,look after animals and befriended/romance the townspeople, id highly recommended it (i also enjoy playing it with other people).

im sure all the players are going to heckin love that design!! (If you ever share it outside of the campaign id love to see it, i bet it looks amazing!!) I also just love making ocs for other people it makes me happy plus I love doing fun lil design challenges with friends basically everyone using the same inspiration to make thir own design to see how others interpret things differently its v fun to do, using 3 emojis for one design, a mood board, aesthetics and more. I also enjoy redesigning cartoon characters its a fun exercise!

Oh! If you are sure! The baker loves forest animals and the colour green, her baked goods normally resemble lil cute animals like mice and squirrels. Her fav colour is a deep green and she decorates with lil cute ornaments and music boxes (enesco mice music boxs are the inspo for that). She was scared and startled to see his partly transformed werewolf form near the bakery, but she saw he was shaking and just really wanted to help him, she could still recognize him and thought he was weird and a lil bit of a prick but also funny because she barely talked to him before (again how he was raised made him really shit at communicating with people) but that didn't change the fact she wanted to help. She lets him live with her as long as he helps around the house/apartment. But she also nursed him back to health and comforted him because he was in a ton of pain when transforming. She also helps him with his self confidence because he hates how he looks now (going from a pretty boy twig to big monster man). She thinks he's handsome and actually they get along well because they both love books. She warms up really fast to his personality when she realises he's actually very sweet and most of his issues was because he just didn't know how to interact with people that weren't rich. He fell in love with her from seeing her interact with other people and the rare occasions hed go into the bakery (his " friend " group didn't like the idea of him going and made sure he'd eat small and pricy things) his favourite thing to buy was a chocolate chip cookie, he find them very comforting. He thinks shes extremely pretty and sweet, his heart races whenever he sees her. In his fully transformed state if he wishes to go outside he has to wear a hoodie she made him (to accommodate his size and features). He doesn't like leaving the house much especially without her, he gets very excited when she comes home from work and he lays her on top of him if she is cold (hes very warm like a heating pad) and he likes comforting her and holding her close. He checks her ingredients for her and keeps the house clean when she's away. She is really thankful for it since she forgets easily. When they go outside together he is very protective and a lil posessive, not liking others looking at her. She doesn't mind (she finds it attractive) plus she loves going on picnics with him. With his speech being rough and not full scentances (he still thinks in them he just doesn't know how to express it in his fully tansformed state) he worries that she will get upset with him but she never does and understands him very easily. (His speech is very much like big mac from mlp). She realises she has fallen in love with him when she leans against him after he comforts her after a hard day at work. She kisses his cheek to let him know. Both of them are very easily flustered. She covers her face when she blushes and he looks away (his tail wagging like crazy unable hide how happy he is).

Sorry if non of the makes any sense (i struggle to explain things a lot!) Please let me know if you want to know more!! (About any of the ideas)

Thank you!! Im just being honest and i care about people. If you are busy you should take as much time you need and if you are upset but don't want to talk id give you time, but if you wanted to talk I'd listen, its the least anyone can do. You are human no one should expect more from you than you can give that includes yourself. Take the time you need and focus on yourself because you deserve to be the best and happiest you, you can be!

Roslyn's top favorite would be Kiki's delivery service. She would mostly watch slice of life type animes but she also loves magical girl type of genres too.

Hmmm, I don't really know much about autism so I don't think Ros would be on the spectrum. I mean she does little stims and even clap her hands when she's very excited about something but, yeah, I'm not fully in the know about it.

I wouldn't mind making some of my characters be on the spectrum, but I would have to look into first so I don't accidentally get things completely wrong and offended anyone. The last thing I want to do is bullshit and call it a day.

OOOH, I wanna check the film out!! 😭😭

Also, maybe when I have time, I'll probably check out Stardew but I can't make any promises. 😭

It's most likely gonna be a while before I actually get to post them, but I'll definitely post the characters when they get to them.

OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH, I never tried the mood boards and the three emojis thing before!! I sorta just combine characters I like and make them the exact opposite of what I got it from.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWW AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH, I LOVE THAT!!!!

I suck at questions, but who was the first to admit they had feelings for the other? Was it spoken or was it like one of those moments where the just knew they loved each other and no words were needed because everything kinda spoke for themselves?

And also, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH, you're just too incredibly sweet, honestly, you are a blessing!!! I love your patience and I truly appreciate you in my inbox!!!!!

#NonFat Ask #NonFat #Anon #This really gives me something to think about!!!#just thank you!!!#I also always thought of Darnell possibly being on the spectrum...

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these-detestable-hands · 4 months

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Hell yea! You hath summoneth me with this! You know what will happen, right?

Asks Galore Attack!

1, 10, 12, 18, 21 (I already know the answer is yes, but it's the elaboration that tends to be more interesting and revealing. Ex: what do you consider as "spiritual" in the first place? Do you see a difference between your understanding of the spiritual with those around you?), 23, 24, 34

Have fun!

Oh no how horrible, the anticipated Lyndis attack! Hi Lyn nice seeing you here :3

1. What are 3 things you'd say shaped you into who you are?

Probably my fire emblem hyperfixation and the aftermath. I played 3h, then made an instagram because of it and met a community of people who liked fire emblem, then I made several friends, got better at drawing and eventually took up 3 new hobbies! The friends I've made as a direct result of fire emblem (that includes my octopath friends! This blog wouldn't exist without fe3h!) are all wonderful and amazing and I love them AND YOU LYN!!!!

I think also one very specific thing my mom would do had a huge impact on me. Sometime in the early 2000s, she read an article in a magazine that said you always have to cultivate your kids' hobbies. She did that and I'm extremely artistic as a result. She always got me the supplies I needed and loved seeing my art. I never would've been able to start sewing or papermache if she didn't support all my art so passionately. My siblings too, she got my brothers loads of instruments and I hear them play everyday.

Last one is probably just being very mentally ill and autistic. Since kindergarten, I've always been acutely aware that I was extremely different from everyone else. It was only when I got my autism diagnosis that I actually figured out why I struggled with making friends.

10. Would you say you're an emotional person?

Yep! To a bad extent! It's fine when I smile and laugh over the smallest things but not so much when I cried for an entire hour because of the first scene with Svarog in tristrat or when I lash out at people. I show my emotions a lot I think.

12. What's some good advice you want to share?

When writing, tilt the screen downwards and write. Don't care about the quality or typos or grammatical or formatting errors, you can correct it later but you need something to correct first. I'm not old enough to have good life advice other than the thing in the last question.

18. Do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

Yes to both! I don't know the full lore of my denomination but I believe upset or evil spirits can get stuck on earth with the purpose of making others fall to sin.

As for aliens, we have such a big universe so it's a bit difficult for me to believe aliens have never existed. Even if they're currently extinct or do not exist, I do believe life could evolve and exist on other planets at some point, but it doesn't necessarily have to be right now.

21. Are you a spiritual person?

Haha EXTREMELY funny that you ask this because I do not actually feel comfortable going in depth about the deep lore of my denomination online. Not upset you asked but yeah, unfortunately will not be answering this one.

23. Say 3 things about someone you hate.

I don't really hate this person anymore but used to.

1. He'd threaten to kill himself whenever he was upset.

2. Made constant sex jokes.

3. Dumped all his mental health issues on me and called me insane when I asked if I could talk about my intrusive thoughts because he was scared I would hurt him.

He was extremely selfish and treated me and his other friends like crap. Idk where he is now, last I checked he has a big friend group and is doing better mentally. I'm happy for him because he hurt himself a lot and I'd rather he improve and become a better person than be unhappy forever, but I'm still a bit upset about the things he did to me because I still haven't fully recovered. But again, I don't hate him. It's unhealthy to hate people, it just weighs you down and I have much better things to spend my time and energy on than actively disliking someone I haven't talked to in a year.

24. What's one thing you're proud of yourself for?

I haven't done self harm in almost a year. First anniversary is on the 15th. I've thought about it a lot but I've managed to not give in and here we are! Whenever I thought about doing self harm, I would remind myself that the reason hurting yourself is considered a sin because God loves us and does not want us to be in pain. If the urges were especially bad, I would pray and then listen to music until I felt better. This has worked really well and I'm doing much better than January last year. January last year was one of the worst months of my life so I'm very very happy and proud to be doing better.

34. Any pet peeves?

People who promote revenge or say that it's okay to not forgive someone. I understand how that may seem like a good idea in the moment, but you only hurt yourself by doing it.

"I hated my mean grandma so I vandalized her grave" cool, do you think she cares that much? She's probably in the afterlife chilling with her parents or other dead loved ones.

If your grandmother was abusive, you won't find comfort by dishonoring her. Yes, it is true you'll feel better in the moment, but it's not a good plan in the long run. You'll just be up late at night, unable to sleep because you're just angry. Please, just see a therapist and talk about how sad your grandma made you. It's so much healthier to just acknowledge grandma sucked and to MOVE ON!!! Baby stop wasting energy spraying silly string on her grave or burning the stuff you inherited from her, go to a friend and cry about how much she sucked then play video games together.

Abusive grandma is just one example but it could be anything really.

My brother is a casual berserk fan and due to his poor media literacy skills, he's pro revenge. I need to get him to read the count of Monte Cristo so he'll realize he's wrong.

#Asks #Kafkaoftherubble #Ask games

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eternalwritess · 2 months

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Thank you for doing a matchup trade with me <3 here's my matchup!

FANDOM: I would like a ADULT MALE MATCHUP for hazbin hotel, I don't wanna be matched with angel dust or husk (I have no problem but I don't see myself being romantic partners with them) and since I’ve been matched with Lucifer and alastor a lot of times I would like a different character for this one please : ) also no Valentino… please…

ABOUT ME: My name is Jaxrel! People call me "Jax" for short. also use other names like Himawari, Rin, etc, He/Him (They/Them is acceptable), I'm a Trans Man who's pansexual and I've been diagnosed with mental illness and disorders that I do not wish sharing ATM.

Personality(+ Notes): I'm a ENTP Ravenclaw, 5w4, Extroverted. I'm a very chill and intelligent person, I'm very polite and sweet! at first awkward, shy and distant when meeting people, extremely independent, when comfortable I talk about a lot of stuff for hours, loud talker, emotions come off as sarcastic or silly (due to autism), confident, straightforward (I have a urge to correct someone of faulty information), uses "big" words, good sense of humor, playful, entertaining, optimistic, mischievous, curious(l'm nosy and I love gossip), i can be a rule breaker(sometimes don't mean to), dad/ tharapist friend, when | go out | bring water bottles, first aid kit, chapsticks) just in case, chill but some people would say I have some "repressed anger issues, get a reallyyy overractive Brain, tend to get deep and philosophical when I'm left on my own for to long, I can be verbally aggressive when prevoked. If this helps more the characters I kin a lot are: Victor Nikiforov (Yuri On Ice), Tei (Nameless), Cutthroat (Akudama Drive, Except the Bloodlust cutthroat has.), Ranpo Edogawa (Bungo Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungo Stray Dogs), Space Ishtar (Fate), Okita Souji (Fate), Langa Hasegawa (Sk8 The Infinity), Sherlock Holmes (TGAA), Zack (Final Fantasy 7), Vash The Stampede (Trigun), Roy Mustang (Fullmetal Alchemist), Otonashi Yuzuru (Angel Beats), Karma Akabane (Assassination Classroom), Vanitas (Study Case of Vanitas), Zoe Hange (AOT), Shinoa Hiragi (Seraph of The End) + more

things I love about myself: when someone is going through anything or needs help with anything they will call me before anyone else, i have an ugly laugh so guaranteed if i laugh someone else will as well, how much i love animals if i see a stray around my house i will adopt it immediately, if i see a stranger crying in public my eyes will not leave them alone until i get the courage to walk up to them and ask whats wrong, i am very confrontational i will always stand up for whats right no matter how scary the situation may be, how greedy i am for money but when i love someone i will spend the world on them, how excited i get for little things like when someone buys me redbull, monster, cherry pepsi or chocolate pretzels/strawberries my day cant be ruined, how in touch i am with being grateful if someone helps me in anyway or does something in general to benefit me i will never forget it, dont take people for granted, ive been told anytime someone hangs out with me that being with me feels safe and peaceful, pay attention to the little things, how even though i dont care about plushies i have been given some and i make sure to kiss them all goodnight in case they are actually real and see what happens, if i know someone is having a hard mental health day i will clean for them/ get them icecream and be patient till they are ready to talk about it, without fail a quiet person will always be loud with me, i am the type of person who just wants people i love to be happy even if its not with me, i will always choose them i dont say i love you until i mean it i will celebrate the people i love, i am very observant if i see that someone wants something i will get it for them no matter what, i will make it my mission to compliment a stranger that looks like they are having a hard time so their day is a little better, how i say i love kids even though if they can be annoying i will protect them with my life and im so gentle with them, I am not ashamed of what i love like anime for example even though when I was teased for it when I was little i never once hid that i loved it even if i dont like a song that someone shows me i will be hyper while listening to it so they dont feel small and embarrassed around me, how soft i become when someone holds my hand, I love psychical affection a lot so it's not a problem for me, i love how hardworking i am, whether its how much i love actually working or just getting out of bed knowing how hard my mind is fighting i love how i have gotten up despite how challenging it is to, i am an emotional person but i will always cry for a sad scene in a movie, if i love someone, they'll be seen.

MORE KINS: hiyori tomoe (enstars), yoosung kim (mystic messenger), jumin han (mystic messenger), hanako (tbhk), felix kranken (twf), albedo (genshin impact), shoya ishida (a silent voice), tom (eddsworld). eridan (homestuck), karkat (homestuck), shu itsuki (enstars), miyamura izumi (horimiya), micheal afton (FNAF), lolbit (FNAF), mangle (FNAF), natsume sakasaki (enstars), sora harukawa (enstars), urumi akamaki (alice in borderland), V (mystic messenger), hagumi kitazawa (bandori), matsubara kanon (bandori), shinji ikari (neon genesis evangelion), minami kotobuki (oshi no ko), lain iwakura (serial experiments lain), hajime hinata (danganronpa), k-angel (needy streamer overdose) and more hehe

Looks: Half Polish and Vietnamese and Half Middle Eastern(Iraqi)/Filipino, I'm very skinny like just flat, I have hazel eyes and some slight flecks of amber and blue, I have upturned eyes but they seem like they are almond shaped but they aren't too noticeable, I think I have a heart shaped face but from different angles it looks more diamond shaped(?), I'm approximately 5'8, I have a dimple only on my chin, I have dyed black hair, I also have bangs too, my clothing style tends to stretch widely from comfy to... a lot like this! I wear gyaru (hime gal, himekaji, agejo, gyaruo, rokku, manba, banba, kogal, tsuyome, and kigurumi), goth (trad goth, romantic goth, mall goth, cyber goth, and victorian goth), scenemo/emo (ofc), & vkei ouji and lolita, I can also pull off a kpop idol look, i also wear a lot of cool dresses and suits, I also wear Y2K and I also dress in alternative clothing a LOT, I wear a lot of other harajuku styles such as, jirai kei, decora and more so on.

hobbies: gaming, anthropology, pathology, theology, zoology, music, dancing, filmmaking, art (drawing, painting, pottery, digital art, etc), learning different instruments/languages, cosplaying, skateboarding, tabletop RPG's, taking pictures of things that I think are pretty, collecting figurines/stuffed animals and puppetry, science/history, soccer(football)/volleyball/ basketball and swimming, cooking/baking, art is definitely my main hobby I dedicate a lot of time to it, I can play 5 instruments which is the piano, cello, koto and bass/electric guitar, I know 6 languages and I'm learning more right now (which are hindi, chinese, vietnamese and taglong if your interested).

Likes: Chocolate, Strawberries, Iced Coffee and Boba Tea, Anime/ Manga, Music, Food, Winning in arguments online or irl, Reading, Cats, Sharks, Animals in general, Cold/or Rainy Weather, Shopping, Playing Tabletop RPG's, Abstract or Romance movies, Kdrama(pretty much any asian dramas), Spicy or Sweet Food, Ramen.

Dislikes: Loud Noises, Slow Walkers and hot weather.

Love Languages: pretty much all of them, LOL. (giving). gift giving, words of affirmation & physical touch (receiving)

Thank you so much! Have a good day!

𝕐𝕠𝕦 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕓𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕕 𝕨𝕚𝕥𝕙…

𝓢𝓲𝓻 𝓟𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓾𝓼!

You were most likely the second resident at the hazbin hotel (who actually wanted to be redeemed... sorry angel dust-)

He was probably crying and or scared that he wasn't doing enough and you walked up to him and started talking

You got him to open up about his fears of most likely not working hard enough to be redeemed or being enough to be redeemed

"Thank you ssso much missster"

You were slightly awkward but he didn't care and just took it as you being shy

As you two got to know each other you became good friends. He loved hearing your rambles and your latest interests sometimes even begging you to talk about them just because he wanted to hear you

He doesn't mind you correcting him. In fact he encourages it. He wants to make sure he's not getting anything wrong and you help him in that sense.

You and him get up to all kinds of mischief when no ones looking and sometimes you even help him with his latest invention of sorts just to surprises or even maybe slightly terrify the gang

"Thisss onesss gonna be huge!"

He adores your curiosity and will always encourage it sense he himself is curious about most things

He loves the fact that you bring things like water bottles and medical kits wherever you go because he gets hurt a lot and would probably do the same at times

You both also probably help out the group a lot and do a lot of volunteer-ish activities together

He also just adores your laugh in general and will do whatever to make you laugh because he thinks its beautiful

You probably really get along with the egg bois as well

He also loves pets with all his heart so you would both probably (most likely) get some kind of pet

Keekee loves you and Sir Pentious a lot. So you both play with her constantly

"Itsss a kitty!!"

He's give you gifts every now and then. Most likely things that he ended up creating

He also loves the fact that you're confident. Honestly you might have to be confident enough for the both of you as he might back off a little but you always stand up for him and teacher him to stand up for yourself

He loves the fact that you don't hide what you like and that you're a very honest person. He feels like he can really talk and open up to you

He doesn't feel like a joke around you and he loves that you don't make him feel that way

You buy gifts for him often most likely soft things like plushies or such and it makes his day 10x better <3

He is very much a physical affection type of person so he'll always hold your hand, hug you, and or just touch your shoulder in general. He likes touch because it makes him feel like he's doing something right

"Can I have a hug my dear?"

You both watch a lot of movies together and commonly have movie marathons

He loves how emotional you are during a movie and will tend to get emotional with you

He also cries during movies so you both most likely cuddle when something sad is happening

He'll lean on your shoulder if he gets really sad and will start curling himself around you to get comfortable

*sniffles* " I don't think I'm very happy right now dear..." :(

He loves seeing you dress up and will tend to try and dress up with you but might fail a few times before actually getting a style down right

He loves playing video games with you even though he might not understand some of the mechanics all that much he's still willing <3

He loves hearing you rant about anthropology, pathology, theology, and zoology as he always loves to learn and as of currently you are his main source of learning

He'll also awkwardly ask you to play an instrument for him while he's working or thinking. Or when you're practicing he'll go in the room and start working on something as he loves hearing you play

He isn't much for skateboarding but he likes seeing you do all kinds of tricks or just watching you skateboard and making sure that you don't get hurt whilst doing so

"Watch out for that bump!"

He also likes running into your room and looking at all the things that you've collected over the years.

He'll try to find new things for you to add to your collections or sometimes even make something himself for you to add

He'll watch all of your films no matter what they are or what they're about. he might have trouble understanding some but nonetheless he'll applaud and get excited most likely bowing down to you.

He'll also want to show the other members of the hotel

"We mussst sshow thisss to them!"

He loves and I mean absolutely loves baking with you. In fact that how he asked you out. He wanted to bake with you

It was just some simple cookies but the whole time he was blushing and tripping over his tail and trying to keep it together

Not to mention his fact began blushing too when you laughed causing him to brighten up and laugh also

He always watches you draw or paint or just create art in general. He watches you add the colors like you're creating something out of thin air and with such diligence that sometimes you think that he zoned out into the art

You teach him how to draw every now and then too and how to paint and the first time he spilled paint all over himself and he was so embarrassed but you cheered him right up

Sometimes you'll speak a different language to him and he'll ask you to teach him but he might forget every now and then...

"What doesss that mean again my dear?"

He's not a big sucker for spicy food... but he is one for sweets

Sometimes he'll take you to a bakery just so you both can get something sweet to eat and if you're too busy? Thats fine he'll bring you something back anyways

Also if you're too stressed he'll most likely try to get or bake something sweet for you to enjoy and make your day as once again he loves seeing you smile and be happy

You'll try to get him to eat something spicy every now and then but he denies it and tells you that he's all good

"Itss jussst too hot my dear"

You both listen to music daily and sometimes blast it around the hotel

You both are always the first to pick the music and you like it that way. Although you do take suggestions from the others... but not Angel Dust because he wanted you to play a rather... inappropriate song

You both are the sweetest couple in hell (after chaggie ofc we love them <3) and when he died you were wrecked and couldn't sleep for a while

Everyone tried comforting you but you found yourself just going through his old inventions instead and taking some solace in that

Overall you're both very wholesome and make for an amazing couple and don't worry about being separated as you'll soon be redeemed with him <3

#hazbin #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel matchup #hazbin hotel matchups #match up #matchups #matchup #hazbin hotel match up #hazbin hotel match ups #sir pentious #sir pentious hazbin #sir pentious hazbin hotel

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poppyandzena · 5 months

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(To preface, this isn't meant to be argumentative. I just wanted to share my 2¢; apologies if someone's already brought this up.)

I do think the "prime time television" thing is kinda missing the point. Watershed is done with mostly young children in mind; I don't think anyone actually believes that your average teenager isn't up past 8-9pm, or that they aren't watching stuff like Adult Swim or whatever (granted teens watch streaming more than actual cable TV these days - but my point stands). It isn't really an open secret or something anyone (besides some Christian conservative parents) makes a big deal about. It's... pretty normal teenager stuff?

The issue is that there's a significant difference between a teenager watching Rick & Morty or shounen anime, etc. on their own accord, and seeing suggestive content in those shows.... and what Poppy is doing. Sure, the level of risqueness in that art likely isn't worse than anything most teens have already seen on TV, but the source it's coming is what matters here. In this case, teens are being shown suggestive content by an adult (in her 40s, no less) who they're in direct contact with, who isn't a trusted guardian/teacher, and it's being done in an intimate/interpersonal setting. Not to mention, the art being of Poppy's own sona(s) adds an additional "personal" element to it.

For example, I definitely watched stuff like Family Guy, Austin Powers, and Adult Swim anime when I was 13 (and younger tbh). The suggestive stuff didn't harm or bother me, I had no problem laughing at the jokes (that I understood), and some shows were even a safe way to explore the topic. But... I would go to school the next day and still feel immensely uncomfortable being surrounded by my classmates making sexual jokes/comments - and those were my peers. I won't get started on how interactions with certain adults (online & irl) who made these kind of comments made me feel.

My point is, different contexts and situations can definitely alter what's comfortable and appropriate for a teenager. Like a teen seeing a sex scene in a movie is one thing, but their 40y/o neighbor sharing their personal Playboy collection with them is a whole other - yknow?

On top of that, Poppy just posts this stuff an area of the server that's supposedly designated as "SFW", where people don't expect to see suggestive content. She doesn't even have the courtesy to put a spoiler over the images. This effectively removes any option for members to "manage what content they want to view", short of just... leaving the server? Is this what she wants? At best, this seems really thoughtless towards all server members - including adults that may have valid reasons to want to avoid that stuff too.

As another personal example, I'm asexual and experience periods of sex repulsion. Of course I'm ultimately responsible for what content I see, but I would hope that if I were in a Discord server that claims to center around mental health, that I could safely stick to the "SFW" channels when I don't want to see sexual/risque content. And this is just one of several reasons why an adult may not want to see suggestive content that doesn't boil down to "puritanical BS".

If Poppy wants her server to be a place with no areas that are off-limits to suggestive content, that's fine and all. But she shouldn't mislead people into believing otherwise and should absolutely not be allowing minors to join if that's the case.

You're right. A child who stumbles upon Saw or a Playboy lacks the insidious implications that an adult exposing minors to pornographic content has. An adult has POWER. Poppy in those screencaps is arguing about if the minors even have a RIGHT to feel uncomfortable in her space. Those minors are now going to believe that it's okay for adults to show that content to them, to even go further. If Poppy is so comfortable showing sexual content and talking about her sexual exploits, then a child isn't going to see the red flags when another adult does the same thing towards them.

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merbear25 · 3 months

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Thank you for doing a matchup trade with me <3 here’s my matchup!

FANDOM: I would like a ADULT MALE MATCHUP for hazbin hotel, helluva boss and jujustu kaisen please! the characters i don’t want is like adam but I don’t wanna be matched with angel dust or husk (I have no problem but I don’t see myself being romantic partners with them) and for JJK the characters i don’t want is gojo, nanami and geto (i love them but I want to be matched with different characters)

ABOUT ME: My name is Jaxrel! People call me "Jax" for short. also use other names like Himawari, Rin, etc, He/Him (They/Them is acceptable), I'm a Trans Man who's pansexual and l've been diagnosed with mental illness and disorders that I do not wish sharing ATM.

Personality(+ Notes): I'm a ENTP Ravenclaw, 5w4, Extroverted. I'm a very chill and intelligent person I'm very polite and sweet! at first awkward, shy and distant when meeting people, extremely independent, when comfortable I talk about a lot of stuff for hours, loud talker, emotions come off as sarcastic or silly (due to autism), confident, straightforward (I have a urge to correct someone of faulty information), uses "big" words, good sense of humor, playful, entertaining, optimistic, mischievous, curious(l'm nosy and I love gossip), i can be a rule breaker(sometimes don't mean to), dad/ tharapist friend, when I go out I bring water bottles, first aid kit, chapstick(s) just in case, chill but some people would say I have some "repressed anger issues, I get a realllyyy overractive Brain, I tend to get deep and philosophical when l'm left on my own for to long, I can be verbally aggressive when prevoked. If this helps more the characters I kin a lot are: Victor Nikiforov (Yuri On Ice), Tei (Nameless), Cutthroat (Akudama Drive, Except the Bloodlust cutthroat has.), Ranpo Edogawa (Bungo Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungo Stray Dogs), Space Ishtar (Fate), Okita Souji (Fate), Langa Hasegawa (Sk8 The Infinity), Sherlock Holmes (TGAA), Zack (Final Fantasy 7), Vash The Stampede (Trigun), Roy Mustang (Fullmetal Alchemist), Otonashi Yuzuru (Angel Beats), Karma Akabane (Assassination Classroom), Vanitas (Study Case of Vanitas), Zoe Hange (AOT), Shinoa Hiiragi (Seraph of The End) + more

things I love about myself: when someone is going through anything or needs help with anything they will call me before anyone else, i have an ugly laugh so guaranteed if i laugh someone else will as well, how much i love animals if i see a stray around my house i will adopt it immediately, if i see a stranger crying in public my eyes will not leave them alone until i get the courage to walk up to them and ask whats wrong, i am very confrontational i will always stand up for whats right no matter how scary the situation may be, how greedy i am for money but when i love someone i will spend the world on them, how excited i get for little things like when someone buys me redbull, monster, cherry pepsi or chocolate pretzels/strawberries my day cant be ruined, how in touch i am with being grateful if someone helps me in anyway or does something in general to benefit me i will never forget it, dont take people for granted, ive been told anytime someone hangs out with me that being with me feels safe and peaceful, I pay attention to the little things, how even though i dont care about plushies i have been given some and i make sure to kiss them all goodnight in case they are actually real and see what happens, if i know someone is having a hard mental health day i will clean for them/ get them icecream and be patient till they are ready to talk about it, without fail a quiet person will always be loud with me, i am the type of person who just wants people i love to be happy even if its not with me, i will always choose them i dont say i love you until i mean it i will celebrate the people i love, i am very observant if i see that someone wants something i will get it for them no matter what, i will make it my mission to compliment a stranger that looks like they are having a hard time so their day is a little better, how i say i love kids even though if they can be annoying i will protect them with my life and im so gentle with them, I am not ashamed of what i love like anime for example even though when I was teased for it when I was little i never once hid that i loved it, even if i dont like a song that someone shows me i will be hyper while listening to it so they dont feel small and embarrassed around me, how soft i become when someone holds my hand, I love psychical affection a lot so it’s not a problem for me, i love how hardworking i am, whether its how much i love actually working or just getting out of bed knowing how hard my mind is fighting i love how i have gotten up everyday for the past 12 years despite how challenging it is to, i am an emotional person but i will always cry for a sad scene in a movie, if i love someone, they’ll be seen.

MORE KINS: hiyori tomoe (enstars), yoosung kim (mystic messenger), jumin han (mystic messenger), hanako (tbhk), felix kranken (twf), albedo (genshin impact), shoya ishida (a silent voice), tom (eddsworld), eridan (homestuck), karkat (homestuck), shu itsuki (enstars),miyamura izumi (horimiya), micheal afton (FNAF), lolbit (FNAF), mangle (FNAF), natsume sakasaki (enstars), sora harukawa (enstars), urumi akamaki (alice in borderland), V (mystic messenger), hagumi kitazawa (bandori), matsubara kanon (bandori), shinji ikari (neon genesis evangelion), minami kotobuki (oshi no ko), lain iwakura (serial experiments lain), hajime hinata (danganronpa), k-angel (needy streamer overdose) and more 😃

hobbies: gaming, anthropology, pathology, theology, zoology, music, dancing, filmmaking, art (drawing, painting, pottery, digital art, etc), learning different instruments/languages, cosplaying, skateboarding, tabletop RPG’s, taking pictures of things that I think are pretty, collecting figurines/stuffed animals and puppetry, science/history, soccer(football)/volleyball/basketball and swimming, cooking/baking, art is definitely my main hobby I dedicate a lot of time to it, I can play 5 instruments which is the piano, cello, koto and bass/electric guitar, I know 6 languages and I’m learning more right now.

Dislikes: Loud Noises, Slow Walkers, People who don't know when to close their mouths when chewing and hot weather.

Love Languages: physical touch, acts of service & words of affirmation (giving). gift giving, words of affirmation & physical touch (receiving).

Thank you so much! Have a good day!

Hello, lovely! I went with my gut with these, so I hope you like them!

For Helluva Boss I match you with...

Fizzarolli would adore how caring and sincere you are.

He's a pretty emotional person, even if he tries to hide it and act tough so he doesn't make others worry. You'd quickly become his shoulder to cry on and he'd be more than willing to offer you the same support.

He'd adore the variety in your style as he also has one that stands out from the crowd. Your styles may be a bit different from each other's, but they'd compliment the other's nicely.

Would absolutely share your love of animals. This may become a problem in the future though... Since you'd both be more than willing to adopt any animal with a sad face, you'd quickly be raising your own farm.

Whenever you have any hot gossip, he'd be the first one waiting to hear about it. He'd most likely have a lot to add to it. Nothing would be ill-intentioned, though. You don't seem like the type of person to spread gossip in a way that would ruin someone's reputation, and Fizz would be the same way! Everything would be kept between the two of you.

All in all, the two of you would be attached at the hip, two peas in a pod!

For Hazbin Hotel I match you with...

I see him being similar to Fizzarolli in a lot of ways, which would explain why I've matched you with both of them!

He's also the type of person who cares deeply about those close to him. He'd do anything he can to protect the ones he loves, so he was happy to meet someone who is just as loyal as he is.

Since you seem more of the sentimental type, you both would have your own hoard of gifts you've received. He'd custom make a rubby ducky just for you! Of course, you'd add it to your army of plushies, which would warm his heart knowing how much you loved it.

Some of your hobbies would match his, as well. He'd love to set time aside to make puppets or cook/bake together. I see one of his love languages as being quality time, so he'd absolutely love the opportunity to bond with you.

Seeing as you are also a musician, he'd adore playing music with you. Being able to share the gift of song with someone you care about is very special, especially to him.

The two of you would be like kindered spirits!

For JJK I match you with...

Yuuji is a very sweet and caring person, just like you!

He's never been the type to take people for granted, so it'd become easy for him to like you. Your genuine kindness would help your relationship flourish, which Yuuji would cherish forever.

Since he's very protective, he'd be more than willing to help you whenever you need it. You seem like the type of person who's willing to put others before themselves, so he'd be happy to be the one to put you first.

Your love of animals would be infectious. However, I can't see him being as quick to take them home as you are. That being said, he'd love to take you to animal cafes, giving you a chance to shower the animals with love, but when leaving, you'd know they were being well-taken care of.

He's very supportive, and seeing as you're multi-talented, he'd be there to cheer you on. If you ever struggle, he'd help you get back on track. Of course, he'd love to take part in some of the more physically active hobbies with you but would also be just as happy chilling with games.

#matchup exchange #jjk matchups #hazbin hotel matchup #helluva boss matchup #helluva boss #fizzarolli helluva boss #itadori yuuji #jjk #hazbin hotel #lucifer hazbin hotel #x reader

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mylittlecomfortplace · 3 months

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Mistakenly Saving the Villain [Danmei Review]

➺ 4.5/5 🌟

TW: r*pe/ sexual assault, mental health issues, attempted suicide

Before I reached the end, I already decided to give this danmei a solid 4 stars. But the last there or four chapters, that explanation at the end about where everything started? That deserves a 4.5 stars!! Still not quite a 5 stars, but almost!!

I've already read quite a few transmigration novels and most of them didn't bother giving an explanation as to why and how the transmigration happened. I have nothing against those novels because I enjoyed most of them and not that it bothered me, I still liked the flow of the plot regardless. But this novel coming back around at the end, making even the tiniest details make sense is what made me give this another half a star rating!!

I actually want to list some of the things that seemed one thing but in reality, they weren't just that simple. THESE ARE A LITTLE BIT SPOILER-Y:

I was actually not a big fan of love triangles because of so many reasons, and I didn't realize this novel also has one. I thought it was a bit unnecessary, that the plot can still do without it. But it was revealed that the second love interest's existence served an entirely different purpose than just being the love rival, and I loved that so much!

There are a lot of reviews from NU about not wanting to finish this because they said that the MC is too 'stupid'. Song Qingshi is not really stupid as they say, he's actually very smart, but his intelligence is mostly focused on his specific field, especially in medicine. He is more like having a very low EQ, not really good at picking up social cues, very ignorant to the things that doesn't concern his work and he didn't really know how to deal with people. He has social anxiety (and usually stutters when talking to other people, except when talking about his medicines) and that drew the line between him and the outside world. Because of that, he seemed very slow in the head. He's very naive and gullible most of the time. But that part of him actually has an unexpected explanation that those SQS haters didn't get to know because they chose to drop this novel halfway because of the reason that the MC is too 'stupid'.

And for someone with a very low EQ and not good with words, Song Qingshi can sometimes deliver the most beautiful lines:

You once wished me good luck for the night and now, I want to wish you good luck your entire life.

Song Qingshi gently placed his palm on his chest and said gently, "Wuhuan, your heart is sick" Yue Wuhuan bowed his head and asked, "My heart?" His heartbeat was speeding up. His body was burning hot, as if it was calling out to something. Song Qingshi raised his head. "Does it hurt every day?" Yue Wuhuan looked at him for a long time, and finally nodded. "It hurts" Song Qingshi took him into his arms, patted him and comforted him softly, "Don't be afraid. I'll hurt with you"

"Don't give up and don't persuade me to give up either. I have the world's most stubborn heart, even if I hit a wall thousands of times, ten thousands of times, I will never look back. If you really can't bear the pain and despair and decide to abandon this world, then I will accompany you"

Song Qingshi's love for watching the clouds as a hobby. It seemed like something the author would randomly threw as the MC's pastime, especially as a loner, but there's more to it than that.

All the dreams about the phoenix. We all know who that phoenix is, and that there's something important about the dreams, but once the significance of those dreams was revealed, re-reading those dreams makes so much sense.

The ML Yue Wuhuan has an special attachment with different stones, especially the beautiful ones. His hobby of collecting stones is tied to his real identity and after knowing his identity, it revealed why he has a natural affinity with Song Qingshi. And that actually makes my heart so soft!

The MC saying that 'my heart is born for you' to the ML, you might think it's only for romantic appeal? NO!! There's a deeper meaning to that!!

The ML also has a yandere personality that some of the readers didn't really like but just so you know, he's the type of yandere that knows his own boundaries and limitations. He is self-aware. He might be the best yandere that I've read in a while that never forced himself to the MC. And his yandere personality didn't just come out of nowhere either. You might say that his yandere personality comes from his trauma, but him trying to control his possessiveness so that he wouldn't suffocate the MC is also making his mental health issues more severe, hence the stalemate.

There are a lot more, but I won't list all of them. You can pick this up if you want to learn more. Just know that:

This novel certainly has some heavy topics. Trigger warnings are there for a reason. There are chapters that are really hard to read. Fortunately if a chapter gets really heavy with trigger warnings, the translator has this note at the start of that specific chapter that provided a summary of it so you can choose to skip it without losing the importance of that chapter. I personally read the whole chapters so I know how heavy it got sometimes, so proceed with caution if you plan on reading this.

Thinking back about how this novel started, I was surprised how much the plot grew from just a simple transmigration to something much more than that. I never expected all of it to happen just from the first few chapters and I loved where the plot took me.

#danmei #danmei review #danmei review 2024 #books #book review #mistakenly saving the villain #february 2024 review #BL review

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 1 year

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hi, i wanted to get any kind of input or opinion because i think theres something really wrong with me. ive always been obsessed with labels and terms to identify myself, always switching them around and finding a new one regularly to base myself off of. right now at least i have no actual sense of identity and its very possible i could just be reaching because i tend to do that a lot but i dont remember a time where i genuinely had a hold on who i was, aside from when i had a really unhealthy obsession with one singular person for about 2 years. my entire life and mental state revolved around them during that time and to be honest, even though we arent on speaking terms anymore, still seeing them on socials messes me up pretty often.

anyway, the main issue is that i dont really know who i am or who i even want to be. i cant even really keep a name/nickname to go buy for longer than a few months only because i know it inconveniences the people around me (however few there are now). and thats another thing! im really iffy about making connections with people now because a lot about it makes me uncomfortable, like the responsibility and having to deal with another person all the time. i know that sounds really shitty, but i feel like i spent all my love ill ever have on that one person for two years and now that its gone, its never coming back. im still very lonely now but the thought of trying to fix that is really uncomfortable to me. its not that im incapable of making friends, its that after a while ill kind of get tired of them? something about consistency makes me restless and i know its shitty because im a really up and down kind of friend, like recently ive only been talking to people when i feel like it, which is one big reason i dont want to make friends and put people through that.

back to the labels and identity thing. its always kind of been there, but recently the urge to cling to some sort of label or answer for my behavior and thoughts and feelings has been so strong that i almost wish i was genuinely delusional or something. or just that something was seriously wrong with me, just so that i have something new and big to cling to. i know thats bad and unhealthy but i dont know how else to function. ive been thinking recently that i have a lot of narcissistic traits, or at least self centered tendencies. i always operate like im the main character. i always do things with the thought in mind that there will be no negative outcomes for me, and if there so happens to be one, then ill somehow weasel my way out of it. i think that everything will always go well for me, which is weird because it very much has not in the past. a lot of bad things have happened to me, but in a weird fucked up kind of way im glad they did. because now i have some sort of trauma to cling to and roll into my identity. but the flaw in that is that i need a new one every so often. i cycle through different traumas and disorders and sexualities and genders and names and everything that i really, genuinely dont know who i am. and thats why i think somethings wrong with me. because what normal person thinks and operates like this? i dont know if i fully described the reality of my situation, or if im just saying that because i want it to seem worse, but thats about it. sorry for the long ask. i hope you can get around to answering

Hi anon,

I think to some degree its okay to like labels, as they can provide us a sense of structure and being able to name things can give a lot of people comfort. It's also okay to change your identity, as identities are fluid and naturally change over time. You're allowed to change your identity as many times as you want because it's literally yours to dictate, you know?

However, there are many different possibilities as to why you may be experiencing this frequent shift in identity. While I can help explain what these possibilites might be, it is crucial to consult with a mental health professional for an accurate assessment and diagnosis.

One of the possibilities is that you could have some narcissistic tendencies, as from my understanding of NPD, it's about basically trying to regain control of feeling worthless or helpless by constructing a reality of grandiosity that can be incredibly fragile (please correct me if I'm wrong).

Also in the realm of personality disorders, the idea of having "identity disturbance" and "unhealthy obsessions" with someone is characteristic of BPD. Identity disturbance, also sometimes called identity diffusion, is described as an "incoherence, or inconsistency in a person's sense of identity. This could mean that a person's goals, beliefs, and actions are constantly changing. It could also be that the person takes on personality traits of people around them, as they struggle to have and maintain their own identity." Of course, you can experience identity disturbance without BPD, but it's still a common experience among pwBPD.

Another possibility is tired to when you said "i cycle through different traumas and disorders and sexualities and genders and names and everything that i really, genuinely don't know who i am" as it reminded me of how a system might experience their identity, especially if they don't realize they're a system. This is not me saying you're definitely a system, but the possibility of plurality could be something to explore further as well.

Ultimately, this could be something to explore further with the guidance and mediation of a mental health professional such as a therapist, who can work with you to identify more concretely why you may be experiencing these things. They can also help you navigate these feelings and provide guidance tailored to your specific needs.

It's important to practice self-care and be gentle with yourself as you navigate your identity. Please know that it's okay to take your time and embrace the journey of self-discovery. If anyone has any additional insights or suggestions, feel free to add on. Otherwise, I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks

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