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anecdochexiv · 3 years ago

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pairing: katsuki bakugou x fem!reader

genre: fluff, smut, angst if you squint

warnings: fwb, cursing, pining, slight depression, drinking, sex talk, virgin talk, slightly sleazy kiri denki and sero, soft bkg, praise kink, dom!bkg, cunnilingus, threesome talk, picture and video taping, vaginal sex, unprotected sex, creampie

wc: 6.8k

summary: bakugou is hopelessly in love with you, so when his friends start talking about you, he realizes he needs to make a move.

author's note: based off of the asks I sent to @kingkatsuki. Linked here and here. Inspired me to write this in the first place 🥺❤.

Bakugou always wakes up before you do, almost two hours to be exact, and just lays there staring at you before he decides to finally get up for the day. Yesterday had sucked for the both of you, and so when you came crying to Bakugou about your date not going well and he felt all tense from all the interviews he did there wasn't any hesitation on either side to just let loose. This relationship had been going on since a little after you both graduated and now at the age of 23, it was hard for you both to see yourselves doing anything else, and maybe that's why all your dates kept failing.

It was strictly friends with benefits and even if you weren't having sex, the two of you would play video games and FaceTime each other when you couldn't sleep. Bakugou was surprisingly quick to accept you in his life and that's part of why he never wants to fuck this up, because without you he believes he'd be alone forever, even when Denki is constantly complaining about all the fangirls that gush over him online. The moment Bakugou realized he loved you was before you even made this arrangement, it was quick and kind of left him stunned.

It was all the way back in your first year, a day where he was unexceptionally grumpy and when he made an off handed comment to Iida, you ended up laughing so hard your face turned red like Eijirou's hair. He wasn't prepared for the sound and then the look on your face and suddenly he thought "Oh shit…" and knew he was fucked. Years later after a hero gala you ended up clinging to him all night and then suddenly you were both in his apartment but before he could think to protest you already had him around your pretty little finger.

You had made it clear that no feelings were involved and Bakugou swore he could feel a piece of himself leaving each time you used him, but if that's what it took then he'd be okay sacrificing himself for it. Most of the time he felt fine after, not really thinking about it too much, but occasionally he would think about all the silly things you do that make you who you are and he'd feel gloomy wishing he could just pour his heart out and it wouldn't be broken anymore.

This morning was one of those mornings and he trudged through his morning routine slower than usual, especially since you were still here. It's not like he didn't enjoy you staying, but it was too domestic for his heart to take and he is already dreading the hangover he'll have tomorrow when he drinks his feelings away later tonight. He ignores the feeling for now and finishes drying his hair before going to the kitchen to make breakfast. Bakugou isn't one for sweets but after how broken he feels he thinks making pancakes will make him feel better, a habit from when he was a kid and would ask his mom to make pancakes on his really rough days.

He's almost done with the pancakes when he hears some movement behind him and turns a little to see you stumbling in and he's thinking of how stunning you are right now.

Your hair is a mess, standing up in parts, drool running down your face a little, his t-shirt is wrinkled from you tossing and turning all night and your eyes are red from you rubbing the grogginess away. This is his favorite sight when it comes to you, but it's also the most painful sight of you. Something so romantic and domestic and intimate about seeing you like this, something you only trust your lover to see, something you find hideous and he finds beautiful. The morning glow of the sun is shining against your skin and he almost thinks he's seeing a goddess in his kitchen and not his best friend.

Bakugou catches himself staring and turns back to the food before you catch him. He knows if you catch him you'll start spewing off apologies of how you look and he can't stand the way his heart pangs each time you say something so awful about yourself. Sometimes he has to ignore you completely so he doesn't spill his heart out all over and make a mess of everything, but then you'll be staring at him expecting an answer to something he didn't hear. The look you have on your face always makes him want to say yes, even though he has no idea if it's a yes or no question or even a question at all.

"G'morning…" You grumble out and yawn and he grunts back to you in reply.

You go into the living room and collapse on his couch, slumping over the arm and he thinks about how painful that position is and you seriously can't be comfortable like that but it's things like this that make him really realize how deeply in love with you he really is. It's painful, rising from his stomach and into his heart and his throat and he thinks any second now he'll be spilling his guts out, vomit or words he has no idea, but it's painful and tears prickle in his eyes for a second before he grunts at himself. He's making two plates and grabbing silverware and syrup before joining you on the couch.

The television is on some cartoon and he has no idea if you're actually watching it or just enjoying the noise and colors. Either way he thinks you look adorable watching the screen as you absent-mindedly take your plate of pancakes and start pouring syrup over them. The morning goes by quietly, neither of you speaking as you eat, and there's something so insanely intimate about the quiet between you two that Bakugou just loves. He's never been good with conversation and prefers the quiet most of the time, but also appreciates when you start spewing off randomly as things come to your mind and you just need to tell someone.

"I give up dating." You blurt out and Bakugou is honestly a little surprised. You'd been oddly quiet this morning, probably thinking about last night and coming to your conclusion. "It's too hard and I don't think I'll find anyone to want me anyway."

Bakugou's head is screaming at him, telling him to just let loose and tell you all the good things about you, but he just glances at you and nods in understanding. Bakugou wants to yell about how much he wants you, how he's never wanted anyone else and doesn't think he ever will, but he wills the thoughts away and brings your empty plates to the kitchen. He rinses them and puts them in the dishwasher, but before he goes back to the living room he takes a second to think rationally about this. If you stop dating people he could theoretically have more time with you, but you won't be as stressed and might call off this relationship. Maybe that's the underlying message anyway, trying to tell him it's not working without hurting his feelings because you know how hard it is for him to open up to people.

No that's ridiculous, he thinks, if you wanted to call it off you would have said so. You weren't the type to play around like that and it's something he really appreciates, especially since he has so much trouble reading people. He goes back into the living room to find you going through his video games, deciding on what game the two of you should play. Seeing you act so casually sets his heart at ease but also on fire at the same time, and Bakugou thinks for a moment if this is what Todoroki feels constantly. He grunts at the thought and slumps into the couch, slightly drawing your attention just to let him know he's there before you go back to searching.

"Snipperclips?" You ask him, holding the game out. He thinks for a second, but he doesn't feel it today.

"No, too cutesy. And too angry." You let out a laugh at that. "But you're supposed to be angry all the time, Katsu." A flush comes across his face from the nickname but he lets out a grunt, slightly upset from your comment.

"What about Mario Party?" You turn to him with a grin, and the sight makes him want to crawl into a hole. Your smile is so bright, so pleasant, and something about it seems so wrong to him whenever you grin at him like that. He doesn't trust himself to reply and just nods slightly. You leap up excitedly and load the game up in a hurry before jumping onto the couch beside Bakugou. The force of the jump sends you catapulting into his lap and you're giggling profusely, suddenly very energetic after eating.

Bakugou chuckles at you, no matter how shitty he feels you always make him feel better, and he's content with seeing you smile like this all the time. You situate yourself on his lap, facing outward toward the television with your legs spread on the outside of his and leaning back into his chest. He leans forward to grab the controllers and relaxes his head onto your shoulder before starting up a game. For the next forty minutes you guys are laughing and giggling like teenagers and by the end of the game it isn't really a surprise when Bakugou wins.

It may not surprise you, he's competitive in everything he does, but nonetheless you turn around to smack him lightly and complain about how he cheated even when you know he didn't.

Suddenly there's a faint ringing coming from Bakugou's bedroom and he politely shoves you off of him to go see who is bothering him right now. He lets out a sigh of relief when he sees the caller is Eijirou, not expecting the redhead to annoy him too much, but answers the phone with an exasperated greeting as usual.

"Hey Bakugou!" Eijirou's cheery voice rings through the phone, and Bakugou feels like he might regret answering the call so early in the morning. "So I know it isn't usually the day we all get together and hang out but Denki and Hanta invited me to go to their place tonight and I just figured I'd invite you!"

Bakugou grunts out, but actually thinks it over. He already planned on getting drunk tonight, hoping that the numbness the alcohol would bring would be enough to distract him from last night and everything that's happened this morning. He supposes that drinking with friends might help him out, and he also knows that if he tells Eijirou no but complains about a hangover tomorrow at work then the redhead will scold him for drinking alone again. Eijirou is waiting for a real response and Bakugou grumbles out a "Fine, whatever." Then he promptly hangs up, hearing the slight excitement in Eijirou's voice.

Eijirou is quick to text him what time they all plan on meeting up and telling him how he's excited that Bakugou is going and not sulking in his room.

"Hey…" He's quick to turn to the voice, wondering what you needed. "I promised the girls I'd meet them for lunch today. So I should probably get going."

Bakugou can't tell if you're just coming up with an excuse to leave, but the idea of you leaving so soon has his heart shattering and also rebuilding itself from the heartbreak you've already caused. You both just stand there and stare at each other before Bakugou understands that you want him to leave the room and give you some privacy to get dressed. He fumbles awkwardly past you and to the living room. It's only a couple minutes before you come back out and start grabbing your things to leave.

He's not sure what to do when you leave, never really knows if he should hug you or just say bye, or maybe tell you to text him later. You beat him to the point before he can make a decision and are reaching over to him to hug him quickly and promising to text him later. He sort of smiles at you and promises to text you back and then just like that you're out the door and he's all alone in his apartment. Bakugou lets out a heavy sigh and collapses onto the couch, feeling utterly exhausted but knows he can't just sleep all day.

He's got a while until he has to leave so he decides to clean up a little and go for a run. Since he's a popular hero he has to disguise himself when he's out, so running is miserable because of how sweaty he is, but it's a normal feeling and he welcomes it. By the time he gets back to his apartment his brain is foggy and his throat is sore from breathing so heavily. The sweat is starting to bother him so he jumps in the shower and spends an embarrassing amount of time just letting the water cascade over his body. After he's out he spends the next couple hours playing video games and reading a new book.

Bakugou likes the quiet and the loneliness, much prefers it over the heartbreak of having someone there who doesn't love you the way you love them. When he's alone and finally away from his thoughts he feels at peace.

Bakugou is no longer feeling peace.

Hanging out with Eijirou, Denki, and Hanta had been going well, the group of them playing video games and drinking. They were even doing a couple drinking challenges, but now Bakugou wishes he didn't come. He really wishes he could just get up and leave the conversation.

"I've always wondered what Uraraka is like. I actually tried asking her out, but she was always around Midoriya so it was hard." Denki is blurting out.

"Yeah, man. She's kind of uptight, I'd really enjoy hearing her moan like a bitch in heat." Hanta is laughing out and taking a swig of his beer before nudging Eijirou's side. Eijirou's face is almost as red as his hair, from the alcohol and the conversation itself. "What about you Ei? Any girls you wanted to lay?"

Bakugou can see the gears turning in his head, something he did when they'd study, and knows Eijirou is debating whether or not he should say what's on his mind. Denki and Hanta know Eijirou isn't innocent, but Bakugou knows how dark the redhead can get.

"Uhm…" Eijirou is nervous and turns to Bakugou for help but is greeted with a very pissed off look. He knows what the other is going to say, something the two have talked about before, and maybe he thinks it'll help Bakugou get in the conversation, but is worried it'll piss him off. Eijirou isn't the type to keep things to himself, especially when he's drunk, so he turns towards the other two and blurts out how hot he thinks you are.

Bakugou is narrowing his eyes at Eijirou, knowing he probably pissed him off on purpose, something he's done multiple times before, but he's also drunk and Bakugou wills himself to not be that mad. He can't get possessive of you when you aren't even his, especially not in front of Hanta and Denki.

"I like to stare at the photos on her Instagram a lot, the ones that show off her top half the most. She's got a great set of tits!" He's giggling and squirming a little on the couch. Bakugou doesn't miss the way the other two groan out at this. He feels possessive even though he shouldn't and takes a big gulp of his drink, willing himself to feel any other emotion.

He decides to cover it up with his usual smug grin, and he realizes how he really should be smug about this. It wasn't a secret that Bakugou had been the only guy you'd been with, you admitted that the day after you two first fucked, and he immediately apologized for being so rough with you at the loss of your virginity but you quickly shoved it down his throat. Saying things about how you really didn't mind, didn't really remember much, and how you would've told him to stop if it had been that bad. Still, he felt bad and desperately wishes to make it up to you one day, but knows if he ever went soft on you then you'd probably run away because you didn't like him that way.

"Her tits are nice but have you seen her ass?" Hanta is groaning and Bakugou can see the way the other three are starting to sport erections at the lewd conversation. "And whenever she wears dresses I can see where her ass meets her thighs! I'd love to squeeze them."

Bakugou is thinking of last night, how soft your ass and thighs are, the way they wrap around him so nicely, and he can feel himself starting to get turned on. He's thinking of the time you called him stressed out over the new merch line you were making and how he went to your place to help relieve that tension. The thought of how tight your thighs squeezed his head has his dick beginning to pulse and he has to readjust himself before the others see.

"She must be really tight don't you think?" Denki is blurting out, kind of loudly, and has this wild expression on his face from pure ecstasy. Denki would get with any girl that was willing, but the amount of times he went after a virgin fan was ridiculous and had earned him the nickname of 'Virgin Killer' amongst his friends.

"She's gotta be a virgin, I know she goes on dates but she says they all end horribly. God…" He's groaning and throwing his head back. "I'd kill to be the first in that little pussy."

Hanta is groaning along with him. "If she is a virgin, imagine how wet she'd get. Virgins are so sensitive you know." Denki is giving him that wild look before speaking again.

"She's gotta be a total slut though. A couple weeks ago at a conference for a mission she bent over and flashed her panties at me." He's giggling a little and reminiscing about the memory. "Probably heard of how good I am but is too scared to ask." He laughs loudly this time, and the sound actually pisses Bakugou off more than anything.

The three start arguing over who you'd rather fuck, but Bakugou isn't paying attention. His thoughts are occupied on you, this entire relationship, and all his feelings for you. He's angry that you aren't his, even after all he's claimed of you, and hearing other guys talk about you this way makes him regret not saying anything. If you reject him and stop the relationship then so be it, but he's tired of loving you with all he has and not being given the same in return.

"What about you Bakugou?" Eijirou is turned to him and Bakugou doesn't know what he's supposed to be replying to but his words are rushing out before he can really think.

"She's mine." It's a low growl, possessive, and downright mean. "I've already fucked her for years now, none of you losers have a chance!" Shock crosses their faces for a second but then they all start laughing at him, and Bakugou can't help the confusion on his face.

"Yeah right! Man Bakugou you're so funny!" Denki is clutching Hanta and almost falling into his lap. The other boy is laughing so hard he's struggling to breathe and Eijirou is laughing with a slight hint of sadness. He's probably thinking the blonde has lost his mind, because if you two had been fucking he's sure Bakugou would've spilled the beans long ago. Bakugou growls at them and when Eijirou puts his hand on him in comfort he loses his cool. He starts yelling at them on how he'll prove it and leaves the apartment before any of them can respond or piss him off further.

He doesn't know what to do now. He wants to go to your apartment and ravage you to prove that you're his but he's tired of bouncing around his feelings and wants to actually claim you as his.

Bakugou goes home and falls asleep angry at the world.

It's been an entire week since Bakugou lost his cool on his friends and has been ignoring them since. His phone is blown up with messages and calls but he has no energy to reply. At work he doesn't interact with them except in a professional manner, and they're honestly getting really worried about him.

You haven't been hearing anything from Bakugou either and ask Eijirou about it just to hear that they all got in a fight of sorts and he's been ignoring everyone. Eijirou won't tell you what happened but convinces you to go check up on him at his apartment. The moment you knock on the door your nerves are racked really high. He might not answer but if he does he might just tell you to fuck off and leave you alone.

It takes a long moment and when you turn to leave, the door is being thrown open and you're being pulled inside so quickly your head starts spinning. You take a second to adjust and see Bakugou collapse back onto the couch, and really get a good look at him.

He looks miserable, the worst you've ever seen, and you almost wonder if you're truly looking at Bakugou. Your heart pangs when you realize he let you in, literally and figuratively, and decide to press on and see if he'll talk to you about it. Bakugou doesn't let people in, and when he does it's difficult. He's not straightforward and says things so nonchalant that it takes a second to register what he's really said. You have to be gentle with him and really take it slow if he'll open up to you, so you take it slow and decide to ask about what's bothering him after taking care of his well-being.

"Have you eaten or drank anything today, Kats?" All you get in reply is a grunt, but his face gives him away. His face slightly moves in embarrassment, and you realize he probably hasn't eaten or drank much at all since the fight. Whatever happened must be really bothering him because he always makes sure to take care of himself. "I'll go make you something okay?"

You go to the kitchen and easily find what you're looking for. You've been here so many times it's almost as easy as your own kitchen, and then you realize your kitchen is very similar in layout, something you must have done without noticing. The silverware is in the same drawer, the pots and pans stuck in a cupboard near the stove, bowls and cups in a cupboard above the sink, and a small pantry full of cereal, soup, and other canned goods. You move across the kitchen quickly and in only a couple minutes you're bringing him a glass of water and chicken noodle soup.

Bakugou glances at it when you set it down but doesn't make an effort to move until you're pulling at him and moving him to sit up. It takes a while and Bakugou slightly smiles at your struggle, but it doesn't cheer him up any. When you finally have him sitting up you're quick to sit down next to him and he slumps his weight into you, his neck is buried into your neck and his arms are pulling you close by the waist. "You gotta eat Kats." You murmur quietly. "Can you do that for me please?"

He nods slightly and turns his head a little so that you can bring the spoon up to his mouth. As you feed him you can get a good look at his face, it's red and puffy, clearly he's been crying quite a bit. There are bags under his eyes from a lack of sleep, and you try to ignore the slight smell of his breath and just his body in general. After he's done eating and drinking the water you pull him into your chest and rub his head. The comfort causes him to rub his face across your chest and he's pulling you onto his lap haphazardly. Your legs are over his, your top half facing him, and your bottom half at an angle slightly towards him.

You both sit in silence, you rubbing his head and him nuzzling into your chest. He brings his head up and kisses your neck softly, a blush creeping across your face, and you pull back slightly to look at him. His eyes are wet, filled with tears, and his bottom lip is slightly trembling. He lifts his right hand and grabs the back of your neck before pulling you into the softest kiss you two have ever shared. You've kissed during sex, but not anytime else and certainly nothing this soft. The feeling makes your heart shatter and tears start to well up in your eyes. Both of your hands move to his jaw and he's moving you to lay you softly on your back with him on top.

"I love you." It's so soft you barely hear it and you're pulling away to look at him fully. His eyes are welling up with tears and he looks like he's about to burst any second now. You give him a soft smile and lean up to kiss him softly. "I love you too Katsu."

He collapses onto you and the tears are flowing down his cheeks onto your neck and his body is being racked by sobs. "How… How long?" He chokes out with a hiccup. Your heart slightly breaks as you realize he's probably felt the same this whole time. "Since I first met you." You speak honestly, no longer wanting to hold it in. Your words rack another sob out of him and he's clutching you tightly. "I didn't think you'd ever reciprocate the feelings so I never said anything about it."

He laughs a little. "Dumbass." He lifts up and crashes his lips onto yours and you can feel how much care and love he really has for you. You feel all the heartache you've both felt this entire time and a couple tears flow down your cheeks. Bakugou starts kissing along your jaw and down your neck. "I love you…" He whispers into the air as he lifts you a little to pull your shirt off of you. "Gotta treat you right, make up for it all." He kisses along your collarbone and your chest.

Bakugou grabs you and carries you to his bedroom, kissing you the whole time and both of your hearts feel so full. He sets you down gently and unclasps your bra, pulling it off gently before ghosting over your chest and muttering out praises of how gorgeous you look. The way he looks at you, his words and how they sound, it's all so much and your heart is beating so rapidly you think it might burst out of your chest any second now.

You reach forward and tug at his shirt and he glances up at your face before lifting it off of himself. Your hands immediately trace his chest and up his shoulders into his hair, playfully tugging it and receiving a slight moan out of him. He gently pushes you to lay on your back and hovers over on top of you, locking your lips again. His hands cup your breasts gently and trace his thumbs over your nipples, causing you to sigh into his mouth, effectively causing his hips to rut forward into yours. You pull his hair at the feeling of his hard erection pressing against you and now he's moaning into your mouth, louder than he usually is.

"Love ya s' much." He's drawling out, mouth full of spit and eyes still wet. Your chest is aching from his confession and you can feel how wet you are, jeans and panties sticking to you. "Please…" You beg out, "Please make love to me, Katsu." A smile crosses his face and a sob slightly racks his body before he's nodding and scooting down the bed.

His lips trail along your body as he makes his way down. Along your breasts, taking a nipple in his mouth and causing you to arch, before kissing along your stomach. Bakugou sends a smirk up to you as his fingers rest over the button of your jeans and he slowly starts taking them off of you. Once they're off his hands are squeezing your thighs and a curse leaves his lips.

"Fuck… So pretty, even had Sero wishing he could squeeze these the way I do." The words throw you off, why would he say something like that at a time like this? "What? Katsu, what do you mean?"

He sends you a smirk, more devilish and possessive, more familiar than the soft Bakugou before. A low chuckle leaves his lips before he leans up to whisper in your ear. "They all want to fuck your pretty little angel cunt, but guess what princess?" He pauses to look at your face before continuing. "This is all mine." A low growl, something so possessive it almost scares you, leaves his lips as he grips your waist tight and a whimper leaves your lips.

"All yours, Kats." You whimper out and his head spins at the feeling of finally claiming you. His head dips to your neck to leave marks and his hand comes down to your cunt and plays with you on the outside of your panties. You wrap your arms around his shoulders and claw at him, grunts coming from his lips, and moans start falling from your lips. It's so romantic and the desire is thick between you two, the feeling has you rutting your hips up into his hand and your back is arching slightly. Each time his tongue laps at your skin after sucking harshly a shiver runs through your body and forces a moan out.

He leans back to look at his work, admiring the red marks coating your neck, before he leans back down and bites harshly, with a mutter of "Mine…" You let out a strangled moan and a whine of his name before he pulls back to look at you in your eyes.

"Baby." He stops rubbing you and grips your waist, holding eye contact, and mutters words you never thought you'd be so excited to hear. "Can I show them how you're mine? Wanna prove it to them that this is all mine." The thrill of showing off your body like that, the thrill of showing his claim over you, it causes you to gush a little and you whimper at him with a nod. Your heart is beating with admiration with the fact that he asked you for permission first and made sure you were okay with it.

"Gonna show Ei those pretty tits he talked about." He traces his fingers along your nipples and smirks when they get harder. "Gotta show Sero these thick thighs wrapped around me and the way your ass jiggles when I spank you." He giggles a little with a slight smack against your thigh and you giggle in return. His hands grab the hem of your panties and pull them off slowly, his eyes dilate at the sight of your slick sticking to your panties, and a gasp escapes his mouth at how pretty you are. "I'll show Kaminari how tight this pussy really is when it's wrapped around my cock."

You whine out at that and he sends a smirk up at you. "You like the idea of that, huh?" He giggles at the frantic nod you give him and his cock pulses when you start whining for him to touch you. Bakugou leans up and pecks your lips with a promise that he'll take care of you and make you feel better than he ever has.

Then he leans back and reaches for his phone that was sitting on his nightstand to open up his camera. He turns his phone sideways and takes a picture of your chest, shows it to you first, then sends it to his groupchat with the other guys. He doesn't wait for a reply before he's scooting down the bed to spread your legs and take a picture of your pretty cunt, then another with his thumb spreading you open, and again showing it to you before sending it. For now he puts it off to the side and leans back over you to kiss your neck and chest again.

"Wonder what they'll say baby." He chuckles darkly before nibbling on your ear a little. He starts to trail down your body, not wasting much time before settling his face between your thighs and you squirm when he lets his breath ghost over you. "Katsu…" You whine out and his eyes glance up at you with a smirk. "Yeah?" He says cockily, and you squirm again, lifting your hips up into his face but he grabs your hips and pushes you to the bed.

"Be patient baby. Gotta take care of you the right way." His face gets closer and he licks up your slit agonizingly slow before flicking your clit and chuckling at your whine. "Sound s'good when you're desperate baby." A moan escapes his lips. "Taste good when you're dripping like this."

Then he's opening his mouth and pressing his tongue flat against you, dragging it up and down slowly before sucking harshly at your clit. Bakugou has always been good at eating pussy, but it wasn't something you indulged in because it felt very intimate for some reason. With the way he's licking and sucking at your cunt right now, it feels like he's pouring all of his emotions into it and you can already feel the tightness in your lower belly.

"Ka… Kats…" You whine out, not ready to let go. He just looks up at you and silently understands that you're ready to take him, not wanting to waste any time, and he's quick to take his pants and boxers off. As soon as he's back between your legs and coating himself in your slick you're whining out and rutting your hips to get him to hurry up. "Gotta be patient." He chuckles out and grips your waist.

Once he's rubbed himself fully he's lining up and looking into your eyes for confirmation, which you eagerly give him. The stretch is slightly painful, so familiar, and almost suffocating. No matter how many times you take Bakugou, the stretch is always overwhelming and you start to sob before he's leaning down to kiss your cheek and rub a thumb along your clit.

"Feel s'good baby." His voice is thick. "Such a perfect little cunt." He then groans out and feels your walls clamp down on him before easing up again. Once he's bottomed out he leans back and just stares at you for a second before grabbing his phone again.

You see it before he really registers the feeling, the look of pure annoyance that crosses his features. A growl leaves his lips and he mutters something about them not believing it's you and even though he's mad you can't help but giggle a little. He glares at you for a second before a grin, a very menacing look he reserves for villains, is crossing his features and he's laughing out before asking if he can record you. The sincerity of his voice doesn't match his face, but it's very Bakugou and you smile at him lovingly before nodding a quick yes.

For now he sets the phone down and focuses back on you, and the feeling of him being inside of you. "Gonna move now." Then he's pulling back slowly, hands on your waist, and eyes trained on where you're conjoined. A guttural groan leaves his throat and he leans his head back before thrusting back inside your tight heat. "Fuck…" He mutters, and your walls flutter around him at the sound. Bakugou sets a slow pace, fucking you open for him, and you feel the air leave your lungs each time he bottoms out.

One of his hands reaches for his phone to pull up the camera while the other reaches down to rub at your clit again. "Legs up." He demands and you whine before following along. "Gonna record you now." You nod eagerly at him and moan a little before he hits the button.

The phone is pointed at your crotch, capturing the way your walls grip him as he pulls out and pushes back in, and the way his thumb flicks across your clit. The thought of other people seeing you like this has you gushing a little, caught on camera, and you whine out. "Katsu… Please baby." He glances up at you before focusing on his phone again. "Please what?" He chuckles darkly. "Use your words baby."

You groan out and move your hips, but he's quick to grab them and settle you down. "Gotta tell me what you want or else I can't help you out." There's a grin across his face and you whine again before replying. "Faster. I need it, Kats." He's quick to retort, hips thrusting in a little rough before settling at a slow pace again. "You need it, huh?" He laughs, a genuine laugh, and you whimper at him.

Bakugou still gives you what you ask for but picks the pace up slowly, thumb matching his thrusts. You moan out loudly when he sets a good pace and he groans when your walls flutter around him more and more. He angles the camera a little and starts speaking. "Fluttering around my cock like crazy baby. Bet Sero couldn't make you feel this way, huh?" He pauses, and you understand he genuinely wants a reply. "Only you, Kats."

"Kaminari couldn't make you gush like this could he?" A whine leaves your lips before you almost shout out a no. "Ei couldn't even fit, such a tight cunt." He chuckles darkly at the way you flutter at the thought. "Bet you'd love to be stuffed with his cock though. Right baby?" The camera doesn't miss the way you gush in reply and you whine out a protest, but the thought of the two taking you was always intriguing.

Bakugou stops the recording and sends it before setting it down again. He starts to pick up the pace and leans down to kiss along your chest and neck, reveling in the way you whimper and groan out for him. He keeps muttering praises and every one sends a tingle through your body before your walls flutter and gush around him. You've never heard him be so soft before and hearing it now makes your heart pang with how much you love hearing it. The love is thick in the air along with arousal and it feels almost suffocating. Tears prickle at your eyes from everything you feel, all the pleasure from his cock and fingers, all the love from his heart to yours, and you're quickly reaching your high before you know it.

Bakugou leans back a little to look at your face and is overcome with how pretty you look absolutely wrecked like this. He's seen your face contorted in pleasure so many times before, but this is the one he wants to commit to memory forever, the pure love and lust overcoming your face. You're both choking out sobs, the pleasure building rapidly and before you know it, the tension is snapping.

Your legs shake, your vision blurs, and you let out a silent scream because of how much pleasure you feel, nothing like ever before. It doesn't take long before Bakugou follows behind, his own body shaking slightly and he bites down on your neck as he fills you up. It takes a little before you both come down from your high and Bakugou slowly pulls out before giving you a gentle kiss and getting up to go get a towel.

You still feel lightheaded, thoughts swimming all around you and when Bakugou comes back into the room to clean you up you're reaching up and whining for him to lay down. He's giggling at you, scolding you about cleaning up, before he gets some clothes for you both. It's sensitive to move so he helps the best he can and lays you both down on the bed. Sleep is easily overcoming you, but before you fall asleep you can hear Bakugou laugh a little before speaking.

"Looks like there's no doubt you're mine anymore." A gentle kiss is laid on your head and then you're falling asleep to the sound of him breathing next to you.

#•doche's work•#bakugou x reader #bnha x reader #sadness cw #sadness tw #alcohol cw #alcohol tw #d.bnha #d.bakugou

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bnha-more-like-bnh-gay · 3 years ago

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*slides in on heelies* When Todoroki found out what bkg did to Midoriya, he lured bkg out of the dorms to fight. He used his fire this time.

Y E S ! ! !

Thank you so much for this, this is going to be a relatively long post, so I am apologize!

TW: @bu$e

Todoroki never liked bakugou and mudoriya’s interactions. They always seemed so hauntingly familiar to him. When he learned why, he was furious.

He would sigh thinking about how it all started. They had just been studying

Todoroki had asked Midoriya his thoughts on one of the questions, only to find that the other boy had fallen asleep

Todoroki was happy that Midoriya was finally getting some sleep. He always over exerted and over extended himself. Helping their classmates, excessive training, trying to help anything that was breathing.

Or not breathing. Todoroki had caught Midoriya spending a number of hours tending to UA’s gardens and talking to the flowers there. Sunshine incarnate. An angel.

Anyway, he was happy that Midoriya was finally getting some rest. Until, that is, he started having a nightmare.

Todoroki is no stranger to nightmares, but he was still hesitant as to how he should help Midoriya

He tried to help talk the other boy through his nightmare, but when it became apparent that that wasn’t going to work. He shook Midoriya awake, and asked if he wanted to talk about his nightmare

Midoriya ended up talking about how he didn’t get his quirk until the entrance exam, and how Bakugou and his cronies bullied and @bu$ed him for over a decade.

Todoroki was metaphorically, and quite literally, fuming. How could someone hurt sunshine incarnate? Midoriya was the most selfless and kind person Todoroki had ever met, how could Bakugou hurt him to the point of having PTSD?

He felt guilty that he hadn’t done anything before. He had seen how uncomfortable Midoriya had been around bakugou, and he had done nothing?! What kind of a friend was he??

Midoriya had shown him some of the scars Bakugou had given him, and ah yes; that was red he was seeing.

They talk for the next few hours, Midoriya spilling his entire life story. Todoroki offers encouragement and support (he is doing better than he thinks he is)

The next day Todoroki is very robotic. He’s reverted to the way he acted at the beginning of the school year. The main difference, is how protective he is of Midoriya throughout the day.

What’s worse, is that he got paired up to spar with Bakugou.

It does not go well. Todoroki acts a second before the timer starts and freezes bakugou entirely.

Bakugou reacts the exact way you would expect: screaming that it wasn’t a fair fight, and that Todoroki wasn’t using his all, and how he’s better than Todoroki, and will be the #1 hero, etc.

Midoriya is worried for both of them, and tries to smooth things over. Todoroki is just kind of numb right then. Midoriya had been through so much, and was still just trying to help everyone. To mediate the situation and make everyone happy. Todoroki was numb but also in awe at how strong and incredible Midoriya was.

Bakugou did not take it that way. Instead, he says that Deku is looking down on him, and how he needs to, “shut up and mind his own business, useless deku”

That’s the last straw for Todoroki. He snaps and starts yelling at Bakugou. Telling him that if he wants to be a hero, he should stop acting like a villain.

Aizawa breaks up the brewing fight, but later that night Bakugou runs into Todoroki in the courtyard; asking, “what the hell is your problem, icy hot?!”

Todoroki says that bakugou had wanted him to use his full power earlier, well; here he goes.

Property is destroyed. Aizawa is not payed enough. Todoroki and Bakugou both get suspended. Midoriya is frustrated. Todoroki feels guilty.

If he exploded, and used his fire to hurt someone when he was angry, what he that much better than his father? He tormented himself for a majority of the night.

Later that night, Midoriya goes to Todoroki’s room to ask, “hey, what the hell was that about?”

Todoroki tells him more about his father, his “training” methods, and the boys find that their stories are quite similar. He tells him how he felt guilty, but how he wanted to protect Midoriya. How important izuku’s safety and happiness was.

Izuku softens at that, saying that Todoroki was nothing like his father. That he was using his fire for good, to try and help Izuku. That they could bring endeavor down in 24 hours. 24 hours and Todoroki could be safe.

Todoroki says that they could bring bakugou down as well. They could tell Aizawa what he’s done, and he could be expelled, or at the least be moved to a different class!

Izuku says that he would feel too guilty, because Kacchan has people who consider him a friend, and that aren’t just cronies. But Todoroki disagrees. He’s seen the uncomfortable looks sero, Mina, and kaminari have given Bakugou. Sometimes even Kirishima.

Todoroki finds that Uraraka already knows about bakugou, hence why she is also so protective of Izuku when it comes to Bakugou. Tsu, Shinsou, Tokoyami, and Momo had suspected something similar as well. He ends up asking them to help him try and move Bakugou to another class at least, if not have him expelled.

How far they pushed was mainly determined on Izuku, but his safety and well-being came before his moral code. Especially since the fight, bakugou had been even more violent. The Kiricrew started to separate themselves from him, not that Bakugou payed much mind to it.

In the end, they got Izuku to agree and tell Aizawa about Bakugou. He explained his whole past: getting his quirk the day of the entrance exam, the constant bullying and @bu$e, his scars, etc.

Aizawa was horrified that he hadn’t noticed. Guilty that he had pushed them to work together so much because he thought it was simply a childhood feud.

Mic and Midnight were stricken: they had let one of the most determined and hardworking students suffer for months, and didn’t think much of it at all.

Bakugou was expelled, and class A had a lot less tension.

Izuku was still waiting for the go ahead to destroy endeavor. Todoroki wasn’t exactly silent about hating his father, but he hadn’t gone into much detail white those other than Midoriya and a few members of the Izucrew.

After break one time, Todoroki came back with excessive bruises, burns, and a fractured arm. Now it was Izuku’s turn to snap.

He patched Todoroki up, and told him that they had to tell Aizawa about this. That they had enough evidence to get Shouto out of endeavors “care.” And Shouto finally agreed to it.

For the second time that month, Aizawa found himself sitting in his office with two of his most prominent problem children.

After explaining everything, izuku showed them Aizawa and Shouto all the evidence he had against endeavor, and how he had even put together a fifteen pages paper on, “why Endeavor is a villain.”

Todoroki may or may not be in love, that is pending.

Aizawa wanted a raise.

In the end, Shouto got adopted by Midnight (do you guys want me to write an essay on why she’d be a great parent? Because I will👀)

I hope you liked this!!!! I l o v e d this prompt 😭😭👏🙌 you are 10000% correct. Also, huzzah for heelies!👀

#bnha #mha #anti bakugou katsuki #anti endeavor #shoto todoroki #izuku midoriya #midoriya izuku protection squad #Todoroki and Uraraka lead the deku protection squad #izucrew #tododeku #pre tododeku #bnha aizawa #dadzawa #midnight #mom midnight #I will make that a tag wenches

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kiriluvbot · 3 years ago

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NO ONE ASKED BUT IM HERE TO SUPPLY ANYWAY!

sero hanta headcanons for the soul

- asexual, pan-romantic!

- uses they/he pronouns (didn’t know they could have different pronouns until he met tokoyami, and they spent their entire first year having a crisis over it)

- i know it’s old and overused but this kid is a hufflepuff, through and through

- CHILD OF APHRODITE. i take no criticism.

- a heartthrob among his entire grade, not just class A, but B as well, and the general course, and the business course,, AND the support course. everyone loves sero hanta.

- a natural charmer but is literally not aware that they make everyone within a 400 meter radius of them swoon

- until kaminari tells him in their second year. homie. youre fucking hot. and mina says, use it to your advantage. SO HE DOES.

- third year sero hanta is a force to be reckoned with, let me tell you. using their charm along with their natural ability to just. Befriend anyone (including a brick WALL tbh) to get his way. they get their way, they Know Everything. everyone knows his name by the time he graduates.

- The Older Sibling friend. not quite the mom friend or even the dad friend, but the older sibling. he’s a constant source of comfort and dependability among his class, but theyre also an agent of chaos that likes to cause problems On Purpose just to see what’ll happen. they never get caught being the instigator tho. no one can ever catch him.

- likes to watch aforementioned chaos from the sidelines. a mediator and an excellent negotiator. keeps his friends (cough, bakugo) from murdering each other or other people (cough, monoma)

- i like to think he’s the eldest child with two or three younger sisters and maybe a baby brother. their parents divorced right before sero started high school, and he and his siblings live with their mom. she’s a real lovely lady.

- since he’s the eldest, he kinda knows how to take care of people. sick people, sad people, hungry people. they can read and understand people really well if they really matter to him.

- most of the time there’s just wii music in their head tho

- they weren’t super great at prioritizing themselves/taking care of themselves when he first moved in to the dorms, but with time and help from his friends, they keep getting better at it

- sero gets his looks from his dad and his attitude from his mother. again, i imagine she’s a real lovely lady.

- their love language is physical touch! with so many younger siblings and his natural Eldest Sibling Vibe, it’s only natural for him to be super cuddly and affectionate!

- while it may not be their love language, sero also probably really likes spending quality time with his friends. they like going out, they like being loud and having a blast, but the kid also wouldn’t mind sitting in his room with his friends in silence while everyone did their own individual thing.

- the kind of person that sleeps with one pillow only and one blanket only

- probably runs warm, kicks off the blanket in the summer time. either sleeps on his back stretched out like a starfish or curled into themselves like a baby. no in between.

- has a pair of underwear they call their “lucky underwear” and it’s just a pair with spider-man’s face as the pattern.

- the kid does not have regular chairs in his dorm. it’s bean bags or the floor, man.

- they also have a hammock . i’ve seen this repeating trope in every single fic i’ve ever read

- keeps a stash of snacks in his room! but it’s a trade system. kaminari gets m&ms for cheek kisses, kirishima gets beef jerky for his most rib crushing hug, and todoroki gets gummy worms if he shares his manga.

- has led lights that are connected to his speaker and changes color every time a song changes

- has only three playlists. only three.

- they’re titled, respectively: “u yearning bastard,,” “monch monch”, “for pissing bkg off”

- he still listens to the jonas brothers, lots of big time rush, but also fleetwood mac and abba. frank ocean, lorde,,,, but also. they know every word to both mama mia soundtracks.

- absolutely adores horror + romance movies and not much else

- he tries getting into star wars for kirishima’s sake but he literally cannot keep up with the plot for shit.

- can quote the entirety of the notebook with mina (it infuriates bakugo to no end when those two ask to watch it for the fifth time in a week)

- has never tried an energy drink in their life, absolutely refuses to because caffeine makes him Shake and he hates the feeling

- drinks a lot of tea tho! with momo and todoroki!

- favorite snack is oranges. this kid always has oranges.

- aside from satou and bakugo, sero is probably one of the best cooks in their class

- resident pretty boy. did i mention everyone loves them? seriously. he even has the ever so stoic shouto todoroki pining after him.

- had a huge growth spurt the summer after second year began. it pissed off all their friends because he finally passed 6’ while the others were still stuck at 5’9 or below.

- by graduation, sero reached 6’3, and bakugo was still mad, because bakugo never passed 5’10.

- really grew into himself by the end of high school, finally learning how they wanted to express themselves with his clothing style, hair and *clenches fist* piercings

- started painting his nails the summer before their third year and hasnt stopped

- glorious, curly mullet. bejeweled hair pins. jean jackets and platform docs. piercings all the way up his ears. a nose ring and a smiley. (if you don’t know what a smiley is, i beg you to search it up. it’s the cutest fucking thing i’ve ever seen in my life and i want one so bad)

- ochaco is the one who cuts sero’s hair in third year.

- he got most of his piercings alongside bakugo or kaminari, but when they went to get the nose ring, they’d gone with iida and midoriya. and when he got the smiley, he went with todoroki, who squeezed his hand when the needle went through, even if todoroki wasn’t the one getting pierced.

- one time he and denki shaved their legs and arms and Everything to see if it would make them “more aerodynamic” ( “haha dont u mean /sero/dynamic?” “shut up”)

- strangely flexible. everywhere. it makes shouji shiver and jirou gag. it makes todoroki stare with wide, disbelieving eyes.

- really bad handwriting. like. what the fuck.

- that doesn’t stop them from writing cards for each of his friends for their birthdays, for christmas. it doesn’t stop them from writing letters to todoroki (even if he ended up shredding them and throwing them away after they were finished so no one would ever find them. he wanted to ask bakugo to incinerate them, just to be safe, but they didn’t want bakugo, or anyone else, that he had written love letters to shouto todoroki.)

(....not until after they confessed and finally started dating in their third year.)

- finger guns. unironically.

- is a surprisingly good dancer and a passable singer!!!!!!!!

- sings in the shower. also dances in the shower, but one time they fell and hit the wall connecting his and todoroki’s room, and todoroki thought he might’ve died. came to his door and didn’t bother knocking to check and see if they were alright. sero didn’t dance in the shower for a long time after that.

- his favorite color is yellow, but they also really, really like red.

- doesn’t have a fucking phone case on their phone.

- earbuds falling apart but he just keeps putting more tape over them because they really don’t wanna buy new ones (kirishima bought him a pair for christmas because he didn’t want sero to get electrocuted from broken earbuds. sero ensured him he would likely not get electrocuted just from some earbuds, but took the gift anyway)

- smell checks their clothes like a HEATHEN

- is in love with shouto todoroki.

that’s all :) sero hanta is my number one best boy and i love them dearly.

#bnha #mha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #hanta sero #sero hanta #sero #sero headcanons #mha headcanons #bnha headcanons #sero hanta headcanons #long post #bakusquad

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s1nderella-a · 4 years ago

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boku no hero academia fic recs!

full fic rec list

blackugou widow; wonhaebunny

reincarnated! bakugou-centric | 44,883 words | 8/? chapters

summary:

In one world, Natasha Romanoff takes her final breath, and in another, Bakugou Katsuki takes his first.

Alternatively: Black Widow is reborn as a blonde trash goblin with a whole lot of anger issues. Things go a little differently.

problem child, golden boy; laurenshappenstobemyhusband

dadzawa ft bkg (and a little bit of shinsou) | 4,679 words | 1/1 chapters

summary:

"Katsuki, have you taken your meds today? You know you have to take them with breakfast, go do that."

"Katsuki, I know you haven't been doing your sign language practice. Stop groveling, I'll have Present Mic help you with it."

"Katsuki, it's three in the morning, go to sleep. There's cinnamon tea in the kettle, take some for yourself, then go to bed."

The response was always the same: a grunt, a muttered expletive, and then compliance. The compliance part was what made class 1-A lose their shit every time.

OR: It was common knowledge in the UA dorms that Bakugou Katsuki answered to only one human, and his name was Aizawa Shouta.

summer stars; PitViperOfDoom

tddk + todo whump | 61,213 words | 12/12 chapters

summary:

It's been judged safe to send the students of UA home to their families for the first three weeks of summer, much to the relief of everyone whose name isn't Todoroki Shouto. Luckily, Midoriya has a solution for him, and Midoriya Inko has a lot of love to give.

absolution; argentina

(platonic) bkdk have a talk ft aizawa | 5,870 words | 1/1 chaptwrs

summary:

“W—what did he tell you, sensei?” Midoriya asks, seemingly shrinking in on himself more.

There’s a complicated history between Midoriya and Bakugou that Shouta doesn’t even know how to begin to unpack.

“He told me that he used to torment you, back in middle school.”

In which there are always two sides to the same story, and as Shouta delves further into Midoriya and Bakugou's middle school years, he discovers that they're both victims of a broken society.

we’re on our own, trust me i know; supercrunch

bkdk quirkless bkg au | 20,143 words | 1/1 chapters

summary:

"What if we're not late bloomers?" Deku had asked him once when they were very young. “What if we don’t get our quirks? What if our quirks never come for our whole lives?”

Katsuki hadn't been able to answer, then. All he'd known was that they'd be able to do anything together, even if the hero business tried to spit them out just because they were missing bits and pieces. That was until Deku'd told him the truth, anyway. That he'd been hiding a quirk for ten years and Katsuki had just been stupid and trusting.

He doesn't get into UA. Deku leaves him behind and lives the dream alone. Katsuki picks up modelling and turns out to be surprisingly good at it, and after a while he thinks maybe he can make peace with never becoming a hero. This ain't a bad life, after all. There are stalkers and endless reporters but maybe he can make this work.

For all of six years, anyway. Then he figures out his new neighbour has green eyes and cute freckles. And then, Katsuki thinks, maybe god hates him.

who authorized this?; madhadler

best! chatfic! (read tags for ships cuz there’s a lot) | 52,432 words | 41/? chapters

summary:

Iida makes a group chat for class 1A. It wasn't the best decision.

you know that thing where an orchestra swaps instruments, and like, some of them get it right away, but others have no clue what they're doing? this is that but with quirks, two unwilling participants, and also emotions; sif (rosae)

(platonic) bakumomo quirk swap | 13,894 words | 1/1 chapters

summary:

Momo wasn't sure why it came as such a shock to her and her classmates that nitroglycerin was not, in fact, easy to control. The chemical was defined by it's instability, it's ability to go off under near any circumstances, it's powerful blows.

And yet, Katsuki had always made it look so simple. He soared through the air like it was nothing, switching between bullet-sized blasts and missile levels of firepower like most people switched channels on TV. Momo had found herself jealous of his quirk at times, unable to help wondering what it would be like to have such power at her fingertips.

Good news, she didn't have to wonder anymore. Bad news, it was absolutely terrible.

the house with no doorbell; QuestionableName

(platonic) bkdk apology | 5,192 words | 1/1 chapters

summary:

This is the fucking tipping point. For years, literal years, a whole fucking decade, Katsuki has been nothing but terrible to Deku. A bully. A shitty person. A shitty friend. Katsuki has told Deku to kill himself more times than he can remember, has pushed him around, kicked him in the stomach, blown chunks of flesh clean off. Deku should be staying as far away from him as he can fucking get - should have applied to another hero academy or some shit, just anywhere that wouldn't equal daily interaction with Katsuki. But here he is.

Katsuki feels so much, he knows he does, he just can't say it. He doesn't even know where he would begin.

But apparently his stupid fucking body doesn't agree with him - he has no choice in the matter, his mouth is just opening, and then--

"...How do you put up with me?"

bonus from the tags: “Midoriya wants to be friends again” “Bakugou also wants to be friends again but he’s a little bitch about it”

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(1/?) I'm back with a rant..... I am definitely with that fellow anon about their dislike for bkg. Like I didn't like him for the fact that what he did just was shoved to the side and never talked about to begin with. Then I came into the fandom and I was like "!!??!!??" like people are not only doing what canon has done and forgotten what he did, but now they are literally shipping them together? And thinking he's "soft boi" and he has drastically changed and made up for what he did? Like where

(2/?) Because while yes in some aspects he has changed. He no longer physically attacks Izuku outside of training (besides bk v dk #2 and finals), but that doesn't mean that he's learned right from wrong. He just realizes in bk v dk #1 that Izuku won't put up with his violent outbursts anymore and also sees that he is not the only one to have a powerful quirk in 1-A. Izuku also changes by being able to gain actual friends and not the toxic and abusive one he had with bkg so he breaks away from

(3/?) Bkg and thus Bakugou realizes he can't control Izuku anymore and he also would have back up and seeing as most of the class wanted to be his friend at the beginning he knew if he pulled that shit no more UA whether the class rats him out or Aizawa won't put up with his shit. But Jesus the stans..... like they don't listen to canon because they have their own views on what Bakugou is like. I have written an analysis on him in volume one and got a "cold take" response.... like I put

(4/?) actual quotes and scenes from it and somehow that's a cold take even though it literally happened??? Also I'm fine with ships like that's you not me, but I don't understand where people can ship BKDK because before they date they "talk"? Like yes they need to talk about the shit that happened in middle school, but talking doesn't erase what Bakugou did. Like at all. It would still be a pretty toxic ship because it's obvious Bakugou scarred Izuku with the use of his quirk like those don't

(5/?) Just up and leave because they talk? And basically I got a response that "no no no you don't understand they have chemistry because they are linked and they have most scenes together" like do the shippers know that like 90% of those scenes Bakugou is either beating Izuku up or yelling insults at him? Like how could any abuser/victim relationship be healthy. Then there are the stans that also blame Izuku for overexaggerating because he's the main narrator. Like ah yes because we don't have

(6/?) Scenes from Best Jeanist, Aizawa, All Might, other pro heroes, and other UA students that express their worries over Bakugou's behavior. Then there's the stans that think antis don't want to see him grow, overexaggerate him, or think we hate him because of his past actions, instead of thinking on why would someone hate this character who 1. Never faced any consequences and learned that what he did was wrong. 2. Has yet to apologize to Izuku for all the shit he did to him. 3. Everytime he

(7/?) He grows he then goes back to his old ways and sometimes contradicts what he just did. 4. Some people have been abused and so he reminds them of what their own bully/abuser did and so they cannot like a character like that. Like I have yet to meet an anti who just up and says "I hate Bakugou for no reason" and also antis get yelled at by his stans for "not understanding his character" or are even given death threats and are told that we just spread hate. Sorry for the long rant, I can't

(8/8) I can't stand his stans because they can get quite obnoxious (even putting their love in the anti tag to rile up the antis) and for reasons above and just argh never have stans made me hate a character even more. Because Bakugou isn't like Karma from Ass Class no matter how hard hori tries or how much his stans depict him that way. Because I'm pretty sure if Karma was in MHA Bakugou would have been put in his place the instant Bakugou realized he could harm Izuku and get away with it. 🎤🎤

I definitely think this can all be indications of how important it is to consider the humanity of those you interact with, and how that takes priority over the... dignity??? the perception (I dunno what I’m trying to say) of a fictional character. more often than not, I think bakugou is a shitty person; I think it’s shitty to ship him with his abuse victim (of ten-ish years); I don’t really understand where most people are coming from with their Very Positive feelings towards bakugou, and I will rant and rave about that on my blog for as long as it bother me because that’s my space to do that.

HOWEVER, what’s more important to me than my dislike of bakugou, is the well-being of the people I interact with while talking about his character. I would never send bakustans hate, regardless of how much we disagree with each other; I may get sassy with rude anons, but I never aim to harm anyone because... like, it’s bakugou lmao. he’s not real. so, in that same sense, I wish people were a bit kinder on the other side of things too. you can like bakugou/bakudeku if that’s really what you’re into, but there’s no real reason to be hateful or send death threats to someone just because they disagree with you over a ship/anime character. those things aren’t that important and, like you brought up, plenty of people see the characteristics of those who have hurt them in real life in bakugou, so it’s not always a matter of just fighting over (dis)liking a character for the fuck of it (and I understand that the same can be said for those who do like him. there are understandable qualities that people may identify with, but I think that’s all the more reason to approach and treat those who disagree with you how you want to be treated).

but anyways, ignore my rambling. thank you for sharing your thoughts!

#anti bakugou #anti bakudeku #classicaltrashical #rambling and shit #long post

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mx-bright-sky · 5 years ago

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Why A Hero?

Hello everyone, yesterday I said I “might just fuck around and write a meta about Izuku’s motivations to be a hero” and apparently I’m not the only one who’s thinking about that, because I’ve had two anons about it. So here we are!

Introduction

Now, some people might look at the topic and go “isn’t he a hero just because he wants to help people? It’s as simple as that”.

You’re... half right and half wrong. He is a hero because he wants to help people. But he’s not a hero just because he wants to help people.

With the level of determination Izuku has, it’s not one thing by itself that’s driving him to be a hero; it’s multiple things, stacked up onto each other.

I want to discuss the ones that largely tend to go unnoticed because they’re not said directly by canon, and are more like things that I’ve concluded by thinking of what I know about Izuku and what his past was like.

Point One: The Bullying

Like I said, I’m here writing this because since mentioning I had interest in doing so, I’ve had two anons come and offer their thoughts on the matter. This point is an amalgamation of what they both talked about.

As we know, Izuku was bullied pretty horrendously when he was growing up- and it did leave a lasting effect on him, in more ways than one, even though it’s not directly said that it’s where certain traits come from.

To summarize what the first anon said, reason one for Izuku being a hero is that he knows what it’s like to be terrorized by someone else and feel like you have no power to stop it. He knows what it’s like, and so he wants to help others so that no one ever has to feel the way that he did.

As for the second anon, their point was that the bullying Izuku went through left him unable to trust authority figures, and so he feels like he has to become a hero himself to get things done. During Izuku’s childhood, it’s clear that no teacher or adult with authority stepped in to stop the things that were happening to Izuku, and it could be said that subconsciously, he doesn’t believe he can count on them for help anymore because of it- and who can blame him.

So; the bullying Izuku went through is part of what drives him to want to be a hero so badly, because he wants to help people who are in trouble and he would rather do it himself so that he knows it gets done.

And I have my own point to add that I’m going to put under this one, because it does tie in; another reason is just plain old spite.

When you’re told you can’t do something, there are two internal responses to it that a person can have. They can go, “Oh well, I guess I won’t then” or they can go “Okay sure, I’m gonna try and do this even harder now”

While it’s not the full reason, and while it’s not even the main reason, I feel like saying that it is just a little bit of spite that drives Izuku to be a hero. They all said that he couldn’t, and so he’s gonna prove them wrong.

Of course, this doesn’t really line up with who he is before UA; in the first episode he immediately crumples when Bkg yells at him for trying to get in to UA. It’s more like... an afterwards thing.

During the Heroes versus Villains fight, Izuku specifically makes a point of thinking “About everything I said that day, about not trying to challenge you... I take it all back.”

Bkg isn’t even around to hear this, and Izuku isn’t saying it out loud. This is a purely internal moment.

And I dunno about you, but it does sound a little spiteful to me.

To sum up my own point; Izuku can have just a little spite. As a treat.

I should say; it would be a problem if this were the only thing he had going for him. It’s not though, and I only bring it up because I’m here to look at multiple potential reasons for being a hero, not “the one thing”.

Point Two: All Might

The three things I mentioned are factors of why Izuku is still sticking to it, why he stays determined to be a hero, but thinking about it they can’t be the source of why he wants to be a hero; because those points came out of the bullying he faced, and he faced bullying for... wanting to be a hero despite being quirkless.

So, what was it that got him there in the first place?

The answer is, simply; All Might.

Bear in mind, Izuku is a child at this point, four or five years old (as quirks come in at age four)- he watches heroes all the time and he thinks they’re just the coolest, especially All Might because he’s the biggest and the strongest.

And so he wants to be a hero like them! Because of how cool they are!

Looking at the bnha world, it’s probably just like a kid who says they want to be an astronaut, or maybe an archaeologist, or Whatever It Is The Kid Just Happens To Be Interested In At The Moment.

Then, because of all the points I made in point one, the thought stuck with him until he got to where he is today.

But there’s something particular about Izuku’s idolization of All Might from a young age that sticks out, something that stayed the same throughout his younger life to his life now.

That “something” being... that it’s pretty clear that Midoriya Hisashi, Izuku’s father, is absent. We don’t know why, but that’s not what’s important to the point; just that he is.

Izuku, growing up, was so fixated on All Might because despite not having the personal connection to him yet, he was the closest thing Izuku had to a father figure in his life.

And so his fixation on All Might was carried with him as he grew, and in turn so was his idealization of heroes.

Conclusion

I might later realize more things that could be classified as one of Izuku’s motivations for being a hero, but until then the overall point is this; while on the surface, it seems like Izuku’s just a hero... to be a hero, but when digging deeper, that’s not the case.

And I, for one, find it comforting to think that Izuku, while very selfless, isn’t a hero for only selfless reasons. It shows that he’s a person, with complexities that stack on top of each other; or at least, he has the potential to be.

You wanna talk about “boring hero motivations” maybe look at Mr. “I want to be powerful -> All Might is powerful -> I should be a hero so I can be more powerful than him”.

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tenya · 5 years ago

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So that fish ask implied Izuku and Tenya knew each other before UA, and the ask about the specifics of Tenya's quirk state that his exit points when he was younger were very unpredictable. Did Tenya accidentally warp into Izuku's room when they were younger? (good thing Izuku's a frog or there may have been a minor drowning incident)

it’s a long story, so strap in.

bkg and his fire quirk have an innate advantage over izuku and his frog form quirk, as extreme temperate is basically izuku’s only weakness. in this au, this power imbalance is the basis of bkg’s superiority complex toward izuku, and also the reason why izuku lacks faith in his own abilities.

it’s hard to feel good about yourself (or your quirk) when you’ve been constantly and easily beaten down by someone for your entire life.

one day though, bkg took things too far.

it was the middle of winter and it was cold, cold, cold outside. izuku was appropriately bundled from head to toe so as not to start hibernating on his walk home from school– at least, he was, until bkg and a couple of his cronies stole his jacket from him.

the bullies quickly fled the scene with the jacket in tow, despite izuku begging them to give it back. but they didn’t. and izuku quickly fell asleep…

inko called the police after a few hours of izuku not showing up at home and also not answering his phone. she was frantic as she reported her son missing, as any mother would be. the police assured her that they would find him and bring him home, as any self-respecting officer would do if they had a crying woman on the phone.

tensei was brought in. his ability to warp made him able to cover large areas very quickly and thus find missing persons faster than any other hero… except maybe ragdoll, but she was busy rescuing people in the mountains. or something.

anyway, tensei eventually found izuku. he was curled into a ball underneath a bench on the side of the road. because he was so small and tucked away, tensei had almost missed him. almost.

tensei brought izuku back to the police station where they (slowly, so as not to shock him) warmed him up. eventually he came to and after some gentle prodding, explained what had happened.

bkg was in serious trouble. to be fair, he hadn’t realized just how catastrophic the consequences of stealing izuku’s jacket would be when he had done it. he wasn’t trying to kill the kid, just make him suffer out in the cold for a little while. obviously, the police weren’t too happy to hear that…

getting back to your question though– tensei introduced izuku to tenya. while they were waiting around at the police station, tensei tried to cheer him up by engaging in conversation, and mentioned that he had a little brother about izuku’s age. it was all uphill from there!

#long text post #it's under a readmore cuz it's so long lol #switcheroo #Anonymous

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bkdkink · 6 years ago

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here’s part 2 for the ehhhh stuff

“okay, so dy,” you ask, “if it looks good and plays well, story is excellent and music is perfect, wtf is up your ass about it then?”

so bear with me. what i am about to straight-up complain about rn is by no means anything major or even something that should prevent anyone from ever being apart of the game and its story. these are minor, personal complaints that i want to vent out, and if it so happens that i have people who agree with me then great! if not, then yeah i totally understand because people see the story differently and want different things, as life goes.

long rant ahead, beware.

so the negative about kh3, ill start with the annoying and lead up to the heart-crushing part (yet expected) part first.

The Frozen and Tangled levels were rough. lmao, not skill-wise, no. Just. Tangled was going through the whole damn movie......right? without songs and certain minor characters, but we...went through the whole movie with Rapunzel and it was sooooo awkward to watch the cutscenes....because sora, donald and goofy were just. there. they did nothing to progress the story. they were just....there? eugene died. they witnessed a man DIE. and it was........anticlimatic a little in how they reacted???? like that they dont quite understand death so they were just like awwwwww :/ and then he came back so yeah, but. it was so weird?? with them there???? why were they there??? why this way???? why not make up a whole new story or add to it or something or other??? is it cuz she’s one of the new 7 princesses of light so we had to do a whole thing??? cuz we didn’t for any other princess??? oh besides Frozen.

Frozen was the worst level for me. just the worst. i never liked the movie, so that’s strike one, strike two is i had to re-listen to two of those infamous songs.......because sora had to listen to them. why....when....when was there disney songs shot frame-per-frame.....in KH? and no, ariel in KH2 doesn’t count because that whole WORLD was a MUSICAL WORLD. the only actions you could take was THROUGH muSICcccCCCCC.

my point is that there was too much pandering going on there, also the story was just as nonsensical as it was in the movie. if i never saw it i would have been so confused as to where that brunette dude came from, how he got Elsa, WHY he wanted to kill her---the game (tangled was a tad bit guilty of this too, wtf did Rapunzel start calling Flynn Eugene? i saw the movie so i knew but they didn’t explain that until their world was finished) so....good luck to whoever did watch the movies?? KH assumes you’ve seen both of them, compared to the Carribbean where I never saw the movie but i knew wtf was going on??? also big hero 6, never saw that but could get the gist!!!!

they were just WAY too movie heavy which isn’t the usual for the series, and im sure if they are included in the next game itll be a different experience because the movies are now established, so there hopefully there won’t be any pandering from Frozen’s end too much.

Now......the stuff that is more personal. okay here goes.

KH, from the jump, has somewhat kinda tried to establish a maybe romantic angle between Sora and Kairi. Now, because of how friendship heavy the whole series is and the love friends share....I for one never picked that up until i was reading tvtropes and i was reading up on Kairi being one of the main reasons that Sora and Riku were even beefy in the first game to being with??? the both liked her but she chose Sora or something????? that shit flew so far over my head and no, i wasn’t a child playing the first game for the first time---this was only a couple years ago. i just....did not...pick up romantic interest? i picked up...friend?? because they kept saying....Friend™?

anyway, series goes on, Kairi is known to the fandom as being written mostly out of focus and is never used well enough in the plot. and i agree. they never used her to her potential, and even in KH3, where she is now a keyblade wielder, she still becomes something to save...............even in the very end.........even when she and Sora had their moment of “imma save you this time!” .....no........sora still leaves to go and save her.............so.like.......yay for....growth? kinda....? i just feel bad for her tbh.

that’s one thing. the main, large thing that i did see coming but was disappointed in nonetheless was that several games later of pushing her aside, of focusing much more on the relationship between Sora and Riku with an ENITRE GAME narrowed in on both of them and their journey toGETher---KH3 begins to focus on the romantic angle between Sora and Kairi again. and its obvious enough where NOW yes, even I picked up on it this time around.

and at this point......it just.....came off so forced? they lay it on thiccccccc my dudes. and it feels like it. yes, there are still moments between Riku and Sora, sure, but that is down-played SOOO much compared to fuggin KH:DDD or hell even KH2....

like.........i don’t expect any gay male video game protags from Square Enix, I really dont. but i also dont want some last-minute romance shoved down my throat??? when i was fine with how it was before??? maybe if they still kept the subtly that they had done and with newer games continuing to build off of that, I wouldn’t be so put off by the idea. KH2 did a good job of building it, like when Sora imagined Kairi and him dancing together in halloween town--that was cute af?????? and well integrated????? and could STILL be taken as him just missing a FRIEND or yeah, a potential love interest! but just. jesus. you didn’t care about them being together then, don’t do it now because it comes off a little cheap.

also fuck Riku i guess???? kairi doesn’t give a fuck about Riku at all?/??? is the overall vibe i was getting???lmao aren’t all 3 of them friends??????? no???????? kairi only messes with sora and riku only messes with sora?????? can i get some uhhhhhhhhhhh riku and kairi time too or nah????? we had a moment of them at the beginning of the game i guess and then....that was....kinda it? so fucking disappointing how they write her man. she’s so much more than a love interest and there are moments when that shows, but there’s too many where she just....is only sora-focused?

you want an example of how forced it was that they were switching Sora’s relationship from Riku to Kairi? now don’t quote me on this i could very well be wrong because i never actively listened for bkg music until DDD, but Dearly Beloved? the titular theme song for every single KH menu and emotional scenes? the theme song that DDD later ESTABLISHED in CANON that it was Riku and Sora’s heart song playing together????? a song that plays in some kinda version whenever Sora and Riku are having a moment??????? WELP. i wanna say they still kept it for Sora and Riku for at least one cutscene with them together. at least. i can’t name others, but they at least did it once cuz i remember getting excited about it.

they now played it more frequently whenever Kairi showed up on screen, or when she and Sora were having a moment together.

SORA. and RIKUS song....playing now for SORA and KAIri???? please correct me if im wrong, absolutely tell me if im wrong that im just not observant and it’s always been like that because tbh that’ll make this better for me lol but they just took Riku and went YEET. “Sora is the hero. Sora gets the girl because of course he does. Sora is GOD and fuck yall for not expecting him to have a love interest at the end of this and YES it will be a girl and YES it WILL be the one we keep forgetting about to make his love interest up until now because yall were getting the most wrongest ideas of where this was going so we’ll fix that right up for ya”

i still loved the game. hell, even with the ending like that (”i gotta go save Kairi! again! even though we had a whole thing with the papou fruit about how she was going to save me and protect me this time! and i gotta do it alllll by myself!!! she has a keyblade you say???? she wants to be more useful to me you say???? well FUCK that imma go rescue her because im Sora and i am hero boy!!”) i still had a good time! it really is a good game, please go play it to get all the feels in the world, if this minor stuff is minor for you too, then go play it RIGHT. NOW!!!!!

but yeah. ya girl was disappointed by how forced it was. expected it, but still doesn’t negate how i feel in the end. so now im gonna indulge in soriku art.

Rant over! if you actually read over this and wanna talk about it, feel free to hit me up! let’s rant together. maybe im wrong and too focused on my ship and i have ship glasses on too tight.

#kh #kingdom hearts #sora #riku #kairi #soriku #destiny trio #wayfinder trio #dyrants #kh3 #kingdom hearts 3 #kh3 spoilers #spoilers #kh spoilers

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hua-fei-hua · 4 years ago

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Extra Notes: Rhythm of the Heart Ch. 4

chapter can be read on ao3 or ff.net

i chose girl by jukebox the ghost for the title this time for a couple reasons

first of all, obviously those summary lyrics

“seeing your face in the crowd” (obvious reference to the bit where kirishima stares at bkg when they’re all out on the field)

“and you think that you never really tried / open your heart / open your mind” can be seen as a reference to kirishima’s lowkey backstory (i’m hesitant to call it that bc i don’t really consider it that important and also it doesn’t really get elaborated on in the fic) and it’s like. you know that feeling where you get a new crush and all these ~feelings~ just kinda come back to you in a whoosh and you’re left wondering if the ones you had for the previous one were even real at all? yeah

secondly, idk why, but a long time ago, i came to associate this song w/krbk, and so it felt right to have at least one chapter here titled after it

first thing to address: the lockdown as a setting. i was only in marching band for my junior and senior years of high school, and we really did only have one away game a year. idk what it’s like at other schools, but we were poor, so one (1) away game to one of our two sister schools each year, usually for their homecoming game

the away games for both my junior and senior years were cancelled, although for different reasons

in my senior year, we had a thunderstorm, so like for every lightning flash we saw, we had to postpone the game for half an hour until finally they were just like “fuck this shit we’re cancelling”

in my junior year, we had the lockdown, which was put into effect before the game started, i’m pretty sure

fun fact, i was chatting w/my friends at that school down on the field during the lockdown and they were like, “yeah, we had a lockdown earlier today too. admin, amirite?”

getting back into my personal life stories that i draw inspiration from for the fic, i consider the away game lockdown to be one of the major events in my high school narrative becauuuuuseeee. this is a long story i’m gonna shove it under the cut

so i’m gonna try to make the background info as concise as possible: i liked this guy in middle school, confessed to him, and he started picking on me. we went to separate high schools, and two years after the end of middle school, i declared him my rival in ap chem bc thanks to facebook i knew we were both taking the class at our different schools and i wanted to prove to myself that i could be better than him. he ended up at the high school that later became the away game lockdown setting.

my rival played trumpet in middle school band, but switched to baritone and orchestra in high school, but what this basically means is that he we had a lot of mutual friends through our schools’ marching bands

he was at the game that night bc homecoming, and when the lockdown hit and i was catching up with old friends when i saw him there.

blah blah blah embarrassing dramatics and messy ~*feelings*~ happened on my end (a freshman whom i’d vaguely told this story to (bc i vaguely told this story to everyone) saw him and was like “is this the guy [you liked in middle school]?” and i was like “YES THIS IS THE BITCH I USED TO LIKE” and ah. *yeets self out the window*)

point is, i shouted at my rival to “fight me”

five times

he said no

also five times.

and blah blah blah i could talk for hours about the look on his face when he said “no” to me and use this beautiful dramatic prose but i’m trying to make fun of myself here so if you wanna know more about this particular story just put it in my askbox and i will spend like an hour talking about it hahaha

anyway, the encounter made me realize that my rival had changed a lot more than i’d expected in our two years since our last parting, and i felt bad for challenging him to a fight after the fact and i wanted to apologize for this the next time the three district bands met up for a performance (bc i knew from experience that he’d be there in the crowd) in two weeks, on the wednesday night the week before thanksgiving break

HOWEVER, in my desire to skip out on more school, i told my mom that it was okay if she booked our flight tickets to taiwan the wednesday before thanksgiving break.

what this MEANS is that after i was done performing in that show, i had to leave for a flight going halfway across the world without getting to do the usual socializing thing the bands were allowed to do after the show

suffice to say, i didn’t get to apologize to my rival that year

and now AAAAALLLLLLLLLL THIS loops RIGHT BACK into my fake dating shebang in that one of the reasons i wanted a fake boyfriend was to give me the courage to face my rival at his school’s winter concert and apologize to him

*kronk voice* aw yeah, it’s all coming together

jokes aside, it’s for that reason that the away game lockdown was important to my personal narrative.

because of that, even though there was a year of time between my away game lockdown and fake dating shebang (versus like two weeks for kiri in this fic), i wanted to make it a part of rhythm’s narrative too

in the end, the lockdown is just a setting for both mine and kiri’s stories

random fun fact, my school was pretty lockdown happy, and so we had at least one lockdown every year for usually boring reasons.

because of that, by the time the away game lockdown happened, my friends and i were all like “lockdown? oh boy! ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ” and that attitude was reflected in the chapter, as i’m sure you guys probably noticed

i was in a phone call with a band kouhai the other day, and i mentioned the away game lockdown and the whole story you just read about, and she was like, “i’m sorry you were off being dramatic and shit that entire night?? i was scared shitless!! i was praying to the moon that night!!!”

she was a freshman at the time, so it’s understandable. i was scared shitless at my first two or three lockdowns too

i was chatting w/my gov teacher a few months ago abt a lockdown they’d recently had at my alma mater, and he told me all the kids started cheering bc “AWWW YEAH, FOUR YEARS IN A ROW!!!”

and my gov teacher was like “pffft, babies. i’m going on five years in a row >:D”

YES I KNOW THIS IS A FAIRLY MORBID SCHOOL CULTURE TO HAVE, BUT I FEEL THE NEED TO CLARIFY THIS CULTURAL CONTEXT

another fun fact (also about lockdowns this entire post is abt lockdowns but that makes sense bc the chapter setting is a lockdown), i took notes in my tiny notebook the entire time the away game lockdown happened, and so that’s why i can say with certainty that the exact reasons that, “this must be done for precautionary reasons. everyone’s doing great; we just want everyone to be as far away from the south entrance as possible” is, verbatim, what was said that night

said by whom, i don’t know bc i didn’t write that particular detail down

hopefully, someday in the near future, this fic will be dated for having kaminari joke about the helicopter and police being there to catch them for pirating anime

basically the second we saw the police helicopter when we were having an away game lockdown, everyone was like “oh no the po-po have found me”

anyway, in my googling to find out how to type out “the po-po” to mean the cops, i found out that “po-po” is specifically southern california slang

i actually couldn’t find any particular standardization of typing it out, and so i just stuck with my previous intuition

fuwa-senpai is a girl that appeared in one panel of the bnha manga as part of class 2-a. she is very pretty and i’ve gotten attached to her already. as mentioned in the fic, i picked her to be the band vp, this is what she looks like~

anyway, my section leader was the one to tell me “put that down; your lives are more important” and “in reality, it’s debatable, but in this situation, we’re legally obligated to say that” when i started putting my bells harness on to go down onto the field, although she didn’t tell me she was just joking.

she also told me to write “[section leader] was the prettiest person i knew” in my tiny notebook if i was taking notes/writing a will so like. idk what else to say abt her man

every time we had a lockdown at school, admin told the teachers jack shit, so the kids would end up updating the teachers via twitter bc we were usually trending locally

and then the next day or a few hours later when everything was over and admin finally issued out an email, we usually found out more via twitter anyway so like.

yes, the cause for lockdown at our away game was also never clarified, but according to twitter, it was also “either a cocaine thing or a stolen vehicle”

“his heels ached despite being out of uniform” i remember sitting on this line for a good several minutes trying to remember if we wore our uniforms to away games

the answer is no we didn’t

honestly, i’m not actually 100% happy with my portrayal of camie in this chapter, probs bc i didn’t really write her dialogue in a way that i feel does her memetic habits justice

i think i made her more outgoing, aggressive, and possibly stubborn than she is in canon

i do know where this change comes from-- i based her and bakugou’s dynamic off one i had w/this one guy i met in sophomore year and had in a couple classes afterwards where i’d perpetually roast him when he blurted out random things during lecture.

essentially, i was fond of this guy bc i roasted him, and he kind of resented me bc i roasted him

i didn’t only roast him though. i gave him credit when it was due o^o

anyway, that’s the dynamic i based the bk//cm one off of for this fic bc i think it’s a pretty fun m/f friendship dynamic

i also really like the line “you’re not my senpai!” because it reminds me of a similar dynamic i saw in eighth grade between two seventh graders who were in a club competition with me. one of them called the other her kouhai, and the guy was like “you’re not my senpai!! i don’t call ANYONE my senpai. i don’t HAVE a senpai” “okay kouhai”

spoiler alert: by the time the competition prep ended, they BOTH called ME senpai c:<

writing the bit abt kiri’s feelings staring at the bk//cm interactions were actually surprisingly hard, but not for the usual “personal reasons/memories” that occasionally crop up w/this fic

it’s more like as the years between now and my last crush continue to go up, it gets harder and harder to remember and describe what it’s like to realize a crush.

i do keep a diary, but i never really described this sort of thing to any satisfying detail, probably because i assumed it would happen again. for the record, as of the drafting of this post (6/8/2020), it’s been over five years since i’ve had a romantic feeling, and i currently identify as grey-aromantic.

this was also kind of the first time i’d really described a crush realization while drawing from my own personal experiences rather than, like, other romances that i’d read in the past

i tend to get slammed in the face with sudden doki-dokis around and constant thoughts of the person in question (which, side note, are the only two criteria i have for defining something as a crush), but i don’t usually focus too much on the romances in my writing, and when i did include it, i wanted to do so in a way that reflected more mainstream writing (reflected in a moonlight kind of way, not a mirror kind of way, if that makes sense)

kind of forgot what i was getting at, but basically i think it was smth along the lines of “it felt really weird giving these sorts of feelings to a fictional character, since i’d never done that with these particular ones before”

i both felt really proud and kind of bad for coming up with the insult versions of the school names

i’d tell you the degrading puns on the names for the high schools in my district, but i also know better than that bc internet anonymity

honestly, the contrast between kiri’s magical “oh my god i think i’m in love with bkg” thing and. what baku is actually doing. is highkey hilarious to me it’s like

“look at him. he’s so beautiful and wonderful and magical”

the guy in question: *trying to wriggle his way out of a headlock while hissing like some sort of weird cat*

“i kind of want to kiss him”

I ACTUALLY WAFFLED ON THIS LINE FOR A GOOD FEW MINUTES BEFORE DECIDING TO JUST GO FOR IT

I WAS LIKE, “IS THIS TOO FORWARD??? IS THIS TOO MUCH????”

BUT THEN AT THE SAME TIME I HAD TO ADMIT TO MYSELF THAT I HAD SIMILAR THOUGHTS WHEN I HAD CRUSHES (HAHA *YEETS SELF OUT OF WINDOW AGAIN*) AND THAT I JUST ACT LIKE A REPRESSED 18TH CENTURY HANDMAID WHEN WRITING FANFICTION, AND SO AS YOU CAN TELL, I DID MANAGE TO TALK MYSELF INTO IT

“dude.” “are you good man?” “your eyes are kind of shiny”

when i had my confrontation w/my rival, these were things my friends said to me bc yeah that was a hella confusing and feelings-y moment

“how are your lungs? are they in pain?” is a reference to the first chapter and its summary

“he didn’t smile, but he also made sure he wasn’t frowning or anything” you know those times where something overwhelming has just happened to you, and it’s both good and bad and you’re so confused, and you kind of want to smile bc that’s what the mood seems to call for, but your muscles just won’t let you? like, it’s so much easier than usual not to be smiling, but you’re also not quite frowning? and you’re kind of zoning out and your face is just doing whatever, man? that’s what i was going for here

most of these notes are just about my lockdown stories. here, have a picture of some of my notes with all the names and stuff redacted!

anyway, next chapter of rhythm will be out the week after next! hope you had fun reading this, and feel free to ask questions in my askbox~~

#hua's vanity #Bb notes: perfect harmony #Bb notes: rhythm of the heart #long post #i've been writing these notes in my head for a few weeks now bc i was thinking of not doing the extra notes thing anymore #but people have told me they actually enjoy reading this stuff when i mentioned i was thinking of stopping so now i'm like :D #bc i really like typing these out!!! it just makes me sad when i feel like no one's reading them :c

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