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one thing about me is that i just don’t open the door ever if i don’t know the person
#this person is like#going around the neighborhood and ig trying to sell something#he’s knocking on my door#i came and checked thru the window who it was#he SAW me#and i literally just walked away like#nope#not answering#i didn’t even bother to tell him i’m not interested#i’m just not answering sorry#i have read too many horror stories of ppl getting kidnapped just from answering the door#like#u can sell ur shit to someone else i’m staying ALIVE thanks#i also just realized i could’ve checked thru the cameras#but the point is i literally never answer the door even if the ppl are aware i’m home bc idc y’all don’t need to speak to me#i’m in my own home leave me alone#bother me when i’m outside
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Every time people act like it’s a civil war of competition inside Mercedes, and they’re trying to screw one driver over, I’m gonna print this out and wave it in their faces-
They’re a team, and they aren’t trying to one up each other with stupid posturing - they’re working TOGETHER
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#this goes for BOTH sets of fans#I have seen the dumbest one upping every week and I’m so over it#they’re trying their hardest- it bothers me I think because it implies both of them are shitty petty people#and I really don’t think they are outside of dumb grumpy comments#anyway- I don’t want this to be a think- this quote from Lewis is just important to me#they’re still not trying to snip snap at each other- they’ll fight when they can win#Lewis is abnormal about George#George is abnormal about Lewis
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being at work is a constant reminder that i am autistic
#i never think I’m THAT noticeably different until I’m around my coworkers#just the way people talk to me. they get that little voice to them sometimes like how adults talk to kids#with a lot of my coworkers it’s gotten better like they’re not mean and they don’t ignore me as much anymore which is great! yippee!#but you can definitely still tell that I’m kind of separate#very rarely do people go out of their way to talk to me personally and that’s kind of one of the biggest things for me#i get so excited when people come to me for help or ask me a question#it’s just that gentle exclusion that gets to you lol#especially because I’m so social#but I don’t really know how to socialize with them#I just say stuff and hope it interests them or try to join the conversation and they just kind of do that soft amused laugh and not respond#or the snort#and just the way I talk becomes so much more obviously. delayed I think#just my tone of speech and the way I form my sentences is very apparent when I’m in a good mood and not like. freaking out#it doesn’t bother me so much as when I’m trying to make friends and I kind of get pushed aside#feels like I’m back in school sometimes#seeing everyone hang out without me outside of work sometimes sucks#nat20.txt
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The way this has literally applied to every member of the batfam at some point and still does for most of them el oh el
#only difference is patrol during the day#and ‘oracle wannabe friends’#which a lot of batfam members have always had contacts and info brokers outside the oracle#but also woooow Duke doesn’t trust the cop or his daughter 😨#which I don’t want Duke having cop contacts at all but maybe that’s too black of me#like all the batfam members were teammates/mentees to Batman#even Steph who’s not rlly part of it is still included when u say batfam and seen as a main member#when tims parents were alive he was absolutely still batfam#and no that abandonment shit was made up#and even tho he patrols at day he very much still shows up for a bunch of night shit bc dc doesn’t wanna explore day Gotham lmaoooo#anyways maybe I’m terrible but I always thought smth terrible Is supposed to happen to Jay to fuel his story#SORRDY when I look at Jay all I see is anime mom with the side ponytail#It didn’t occur to me that maybe they just wanna slowly phase Duke out till someone on here said it 😭#uhm the fic is good tho no hate#like this authors note bothers me bc it exemplifies the double standards between Duke and literally everyone else#and how the issue of everyone being well established and years into their journey with Batman#is never taken into consideration. like Duke has been working with Bruce for awhile but he’s not at the yelling fights fuck u dad I’m runnin#away point yet lmaooo it’s just been 2-3 years yall#bc nobody wants to fucking write for him but I digress#anyways I do appreciate the fic again no hate#just nobody said this when tim was first starting out el oh el
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i love my cat more than anything but why is he such a bullyyyyy
#anytime his sister does something he slightly doesn’t like he gets violent with her#she’s incredibly shy and doesn’t really like humans#so it’s rare she actually comes up to me for pets + attention#but then he just starts attacking her because he wants all the attention for himself and she runs off#jokes on him though cause then he doesn’t get any attention anyway cause i’m mad at him#whenever he does something she doesn’t like she just sits there and accepts it#like a few months ago#generally he has like a few favorite spots he likes to sleep in when no one’s around#and he’ll rotate through them#spend a few weeks always sleeping in *incert location here*#and then choose a new spot and sleep there for a few weeks#but she only has one specific spot she likes#occasionally she’ll sleep somewhere else#but if you’re looking for her chances are she’ll be in that one spot#well one time a little bit ago#he decided that his sleeping spot of choice was going to be HER spot#so he just stole it from her for a few weeks#and i’d see him sleeping in there and her awkwardly sitting outside of it#clearly wanting her spot back but not doing anything about it#she doesn’t seem TOO bothered by his bullying#(at least as far as I can tell)#but still it makes me sad for her#so anyway i hope yall liked reading about the drama between my cats#cat tag#op
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i dont say this to be rude at all but have some of y’all considered that the reason slash writers keep our stuff on ao3/tumblr is because we want to separate the content we’re creating from the actual people we’re writing about and talking about our work on public platforms where 5sos can see them was never our intention? there’s a legitimate reason I’m not talking about my fics on twitter or instagram (because they’re pretty much the only social media 5sos actively use) so can you guys please respect that decision and not openly publicize my work in places I didn’t originally intend it to be?
#like i love that people talk about fics#but i dont know how to explain that i dont want 5sos to be exposed to my content#and i get talking about it and being vague like 'oh i like this story' but#the second u start dropping names and actual scenes it gets really uncomfortable for me#I certainly don’t want to speak for all slash writers but#I know many of us are on tumblr for a reason#and that’s because this is a safe space to discuss things#and people should not be bringing our stuff outside of this please#please be careful when dropping full names of fics on twitter and ao3 author names and such#on a platform that 5sos can see#like I don’t want to say ‘don’t talk abt the fic!!’ but I do want to ask y’all to be a little more careful when you do#I’m not inherently bothered by people talking about fic on twitter#but if you’re dropping the phrase ‘scene 14 my fave lashton fic’ I need you to Stop doing that and I’m dead serious#uhm also kind of a weird side note but why r u guys talking abt fics on public platforms that authors aren’t on#like can u just. talk to us?#I don’t. really enjoy going on twitter and seeing people talk abt me without talking To me#especially if those people aren’t leaving comments or anything?#just kind of sad to see fic being turned into an consumer culture instead of what it should be#which is sharing stories and getting to talk to people abt it#ok sorry if this is too negative byeee#and I’m not saying this on twitter bc im scared of it hehe#and I just kind of want to say it sigh#I’m not gonna Stop people from doing it#bc I don’t want to dm people on twitter and go ‘stop being publicly nice to me pls’#but it’s just. smthn to be aware abt#if u have twitter and also tumblr
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I like to think that if my tumblr pals came to my house, they’d have a good time
#random post#I don’t mean that as in ‘yea woo let’s party and get fucked up’ like no lol#I just mean. our house is a place where people get along#there’s no expectations here. wanna sit and talk? we can hang out and talk about whatever#wanna play a game? chances are a few other people do to#need to get away for a bit and maybe take a nap? we’ve got plenty of beds take your pick. we’ll make sure no one bothers you#hungry or thirsty? help yourself don’t be shy. we can always get more#like we had ppl over on Saturday and it was so FUN like ppl would talk all together and then different conversations would split off of that#we would go outside then back in. we had food and some ppl had alcohol#we were laughing SO hard about funny shit (like discovering that my sisters bf worked on the gas meter at grandpas but didn’t SAY ANYTHING#ABOUT IT LMFAO) my cousin brought his gf to meet everyone and she just fit in perfectly and so obviously had an obsession for animals#her and my sister were like sudden bffs it was hilarious. my brother and younger cousin ate at 2:40 and slept upstairs till 6:00#and all we did was turn of the light and put on a fan for em lol. crack up at how comfortable they were#me and my lil sister were walking up and down the driveway talking and looking at the stars. the nap duo were pointing out constellations#when most everyone left it was my household and my sister and her bf. she played uno flip and incoherent with me (usually no one does lol)#and we laughed very hard at all of the adult cards. one of the hints she gave for sidechicks was ‘sad used to have a lot of these’ and#I immediately got it. it was fun. we blasted music from the 2000’s and ate bread#I slept for 11 hours that night lmao and I was tired the next day but I wouldn’t have changed it. I like them lots#it’s days like that that make me think I’m more extroverted than introverted. just because I don’t always know what to say doesn’t mean#I don’t like to talk yn? anyways I’m writing a novel in the tags but I don’t care <3 I just love us and I wish#other people were able to have love and fun times often#I hope this doesn’t sound like me bragging about my home life. trust me I know it’s not some shining light in the darkness or whatever#but it’s something. and I don’t mind sharing my love with other people
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So I’ve been trying to pick up more romance books/movies as research for my own writing, as well as expending my horizons in general, and I’m starting to reach the conclusion that I am in fact not just a hater, a lot of romance is not well written.
#A lot of modern romances just take for granted#That the two leads are going to get together#So they don’t bother making them worth rooting for#As individuals or as a couple#Why do they like each other?#Why are they better together than single?#Who are they outside the grand gestures and declarations?#Outside of a checklist of popular trope scenarios?#and because of the guaranteed endgame#I can’t get behind the will they/won’t they conflict#There’s no tension during the story#And no catharsis at the end#I’m not even talking about stories ‘subverting expectations’ or whatever#I can enjoy a ride even when i know where it’s going#These stories don’t give me a reason to care#So the ride isn’t fun#Don’t get me wrong#i’m still a hater#But my reasons have come into clearer focus#the uphill battle that is figuring out how to write romance for Naive Melody continues#writing is hard
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i’m gonna be sooo honest here rn…
#sometimes I come on here and I think everyone hates me#like I’m so paranoid about it dksjsjsjjs#and yes I know… what a self absorbed thing to say bc why would people care enough to hate me right#but idk why that’s my default!!!#it’s always in ghe back of my mind like ‘oh I bet they find me annoying gotta tone myself down’#AJDNSJSJAJ IDEK#I’m so deeply insecure when it comes to fandom#that’s why I keep mostly to myself#like I’ll talk nonstop on my blog don’t get me wrong#and I’ll answer asks and all that but#idk!!!! i feel like I bother people a lot hahaha#it’s just a weird paranoia I have#I’m sure I’m not the only one#idk why I said all this I guess sometimes I gotta vent in the tags you know#i also feel…#and this isn’t directed at ANYONE at all in particular so pls#it’s just smth I’ve noticed#things are very clicque-y on tumblr and I just feel like an outsider#which is no big deal lmao like it’s not deep at all this is just an app#but yeah#OH MY GOD I JUST READ OVER THESE TAGS AND IT IS LITERALT WORD VOMIT JONE OF IT MAKES SENSE SISJXJSISJ#gonna delete this probably soon jeidjeiskaks
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almost got blown off of my bike several times today
#it’s so fucking windy rn#like I’m not kidding throughout the day there were multiple times where a gust hit me so strong I had to lean and could feel my bike about#to fall over#I can hear the wind outside rn even#and when I left my room earlier it was blowing so much that it caught my curtains and got them stuck in the door#crazy.#went to the gym and didn’t even bother trying to ride back just walked it#feeling like dorothy out here#connor’s stuff#hate that whenever I type connor’s the only suggested tag is that damn succession ep
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my dad being clearly in a mood that only he knows the reason for and then my grandmother asking him if he’s mad at her and crying I’m going to BED
#mhm yes life is worth living#literally nothing even happened we fed the cats then took Ellie#out and then he was just mad and I knew he was cause he didn’t come inside#right away and I’m like?? we gotta let the cats out why is he outside.#then he comes in stomping around and huffing like ok. what#why she would even say anything to him when he’s mad like that idk she’s so annoying#I wouldn’t even be around him for 3 weeks cause I couldn’t handle it#and I told him how anxious it made me and he’s like well I didn’t realize it bothered you that much I’ll stop#well it took you like a weeek to be annoying again ok#fact that we will still have to deal with her after we move#from here is so not stressing me out and torturing me every hour or anything#I mean that’s what it is if she wasn’t here he wouldn’t be mad
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i’m not trying to live in bitterness or anything but i’m just saying that it would be cool if the people on here who referred to me as a friend actually saw me as a human being and not a hot take generator who only exists to agree with your fandom opinions. that’s cool i guess i’ll try to remember that next time you all say you care about me on my birthday it’s fake. whatever as if more than three people will read about this post or even know why i’ve been upset :/
#oh and because no one can actually be bothered to go one step outside their space to find out anything#and you won’t just click on my blog and scroll like five posts back where i said this yesterday#i’m upset because someone very close to me died three days ago and i am a little sick of coming on here to be reminded that people only like#me when i’m agreeable and hate the same things they do and like the same things they do#beth.txt#like yeah i’m posting about the character you think is lame. because she has meant a lot to me during one of the worst periods of my life#all you did was tell me you only value my opinions when they’re bitter and unpopular and align with yours#that’s not about one person. many people on here have explicitly told me they ‘love my hot takes’ translation: see above
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#lil mini teeny tiny vent bc there’s obviously more pressing shit in the world#but i HATE how I wasn’t formally taught Spanish 😭#like i Can understand it perfectly and read it just fine#but when it comes to speaking and writing? I just don’t know the rules and it SUCKS#like when I’m talking u can excuse some of the shit I say by ‘slang’ and general vernacular right?#but It’s not slang to me that’s what I genuinely think it is bc that’s how I grew up hearing it and was never taught otherwise#like for example if u grew up calling ducks duckies#and u spoke to someone who’s never heard the word duckie#u can bridge the gap by saying “oh that’s how I say duck’#BECAUSE U KNOW WHAT THE REAL WORD IS! U WERE TAUGHT WHAT A DUCKIE IS KNOWN AS BY MOST OTHER PPL!#I don’t have that gap and I HATE IT#and the spanish i grew up speaking is a combo of formal and assimilated Spanish#so like for the longest time I thought lunch was Lonche#and i NEVER learned about almuerzo till my cousins did 💀💀💀#so if I’m having a convo with someone outside my family and I say that shit I’m automatically classified as a no sabo#AND THEYRE RIGHT#it’s not even that deep but it still bothers me#like a LOT#and i don’t blame my parents at all or anyting im just sad#like i wanna find good resources to learn Spanish but i want to learn DOMINICAN Spanish#MY Spanish#I know it sounds dramatic but it’s whatever#oh and you know what SUCKS#there are words in English I don’t know either bc we only ever said them in Spanish in my house and there was never any reason to learn them#and sometimes the two OVERLAP#so it’ll be a word in Spanish my family uses as slang for the official term#and It’s also a word I’ve never heard in English#so I genuinely have to pull up a picture and show ppl what the hell im talking about#in EITHER LANGUAGE#guess who just learned how to say panini maker 😝😝😝
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#i HAVE developed the inability to live with people and idk when it happened#i used to be so different ! my cousin used to stay over for like a week straight and i would enjoy every day!!#and now it’s like#if i have to spend 4+ days in a row with ANYONE outside of my immediate family i start crying in the shower#i need to!!!#get a grip#god i think i just get overstimulated#and i think ‘doing nothing by myself’ time has gotten more and more important for my brain#like tbh i used to dread being alone but now i can kind of make myself enjoy my own company#i don’t mind the routine 5 hour drives i have to make to and from my parents anymore#like they used to bother me but now it’s just some nice chill time to vibe with myself#which is cool!!!!#i’m glad i like me#it is still really hard to self initiate things though#like when i’m alone for too many days in a row i can SO EASILY fall into inaction#it’s 1 day i sleep too late and then the next 3 days i can’t self regulate or self motivate myself to start a task#i AM still working on that one#though i will say it’s gotten better#i know this is a stupid thing to brag about but i started watching abbott elementary (on my own) and now i am actually#almost done with season 1#i have NEVER been able to start or finish a show on my own#i lack the executive function to make myself start things#even things i like and want to do#but!!!!!#i am beginning to do things on my own#ANYWAYS this got lost on me but back to the main point jesus fucking christ i need some time to myself
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i’ve been seeing so many photos lately of mcr members out in the wild and i just cannot even comprehend walking up to a celebrity and asking for a photo and then going about the rest of my day like a normal human being. how does one not fear famous people and how does one act normal after having a verbal conversation with a guy from my chemical romance
#i recently saw a photo of a famous person i am parasocial with a five minute WALK away from where i live#i’d actually been thinking about walking by where the photo was taken around the same time as them because i hadn’t been outside that day#and the only reason i ended up deciding not to was that i’d already showered and didn’t want to feel gross again#when i tell you i have never felt more unsafe in my life.#i’m convinced that me deciding to stay home that day was a prophetic vision from god#also even if i wanted a photo i’d feel SO bad about bothering them even though there’s nothing wrong with asking politely#unless they’re out with family or something#a.txt#mcr
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My dying houseplant and I are chillin in the sun both trying to absorb nutrients we are currently lacking. Bestie activities <3
#I have no idea what kind of plant he even is#I stole him from momma because she was going to put him outside in the cold to put him out of his misery#which is like. I don’t understand why you would do that. It’s a plant.#like just water it and see if it comes back. it literally had some green leaves left.#I think she felt guilty because she forgot about it in a hot dark room and never watered it#anyways#I took him and I watered him and I removed his dead leaves#and guess what?#he’s growing a whole new stem/branch thing 🥰#again I have no idea what kind of plant he is. he just looks like a bunch of sticks in dirt rn#but he has so many new leaves coming out!! and they’re everywhere!#I’m so proud of him#he hasn’t gotten a lot of sunlight but I don’t want to overwhelm him so I’m just bringing him with me for some temporary sun time#I’m drinking coffee and having a chat with him :) he’s such a sweetie#I believe in him#we’re both gonna get through this little buddy#we’re gonna live!!!#I guess it just bothers me that someone would give up on a living thing just because it’s not doing good#especially when it’s an easy fix#like what if we tried believing in the future. what then. what if this plant would florish if we just gave it a chance#anyways. I love him#my post#houseplant updates
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