#buck is struggling

[diazsdimples]

Buck followed Bobby into the kitchen and began to run the water, watching as suds appeared from the small amount of detergent he’d squeezed.  He started washing the dishes, scrubbing away at them until he felt Bobby’s hand on his shoulder.

“I wanted to check how you were doing, kid” Bobby said, his voice gentle.

Buck set down the plate he was scrubbing and let out a sigh. “Honestly, Bobby, I’m not sure. All my emotions about this, they’ve been so confusing.”

“Confusing how?” Bobby asked.

“Confusing because I don’t know how to feel about it all. I’m sad she’s dead because I loved her once, but I’m angry because now I need to explain to Aidan who she was and what she did, but I’m also guilty for being angry at her because she was sick, and it’s all so fucked up Bobby!” Buck voice broke and he hung his head, arms still resting inside the sink.

“Hey, it’s okay, Buck, it’s okay” Bobby grabbed Buck’s shoulder and spun him around, pulling him into a tight hug. Buck clung to his shirt as he sobbed, and Bobby couldn’t have cared less about the way the fabric became uncomfortably cold against his skin. He held Buck as his body shuddered with the release of all his pent-up emotions, rocking them gently from side to side. “You’re okay, Buck, you’re strong”.

“I just feel so stupid, Bobby. Why can’t my brain produce a rational thought about this?”

Bobby chuckled. “Grief isn’t rational, Buck. It takes you for a ride and shows you what really matters. Like your sons and your partner. Aidan, Christopher, and Eddie aren’t going anywhere, Buck. Nor are Athena and I, or Hen, or Chim, or Maddie. We’ve all got you and we’re all here to support you through this.”

Buck sniffled and pulled back to wipe his eyes. “What should I do about Ellen?” he asked, his voice quiet.

Bobby shrugged. “That’s entirely up to you and Eddie, Buck. But if it were me, I’d probably let her in. She doesn’t have to be here every week. Just, you know, send her a photo every so often. Invite her to his birthday. Small things that would mean the world to her but won’t be too much of a burden for you.”

“That doesn’t seem too bad” Buck agreed. “I don’t know why but I suddenly had visions of her turning up on my doorstep and demanding custody of him.” He laughed at this and wiped his eyes again. “It sounds so stupid, but I really thought Taylor might have given her instructions to take Aidan, just to fuck with me”.

“Considering the hell she put you through, it doesn’t sound at all stupid. A little dramatic, sure, but not stupid.” Bobby put a hand on Buck’s shoulder. “Talk about it with Eddie. That man loves you and your son more than anything in this world and I know he’d bend over backwards to help you. We all would”.

Buck sniffed. “I appreciate you being here for me, Bobby.”

Bobby smiled and patted his shoulder. “Anytime, Buck. You’re a good kid and I hate to see you hurting like this.”

“I’ll be okay.”

“I know you will. But, I think it would be a good idea to see Dr. Copeland again. Maybe she’ll help you sort through some of these feelings.”

Buck let out a small laugh as he returned to scrubbing the dishes. “Did Eddie make you say that? Don’t worry, I’ve already got an appointment scheduled. I’m going to see her next week.”

“Good” Bobby replied “because I don’t want a repeat of Eddie’s breakdown, got it? I can’t lose another valuable firefighter.”

“Yeah, I know. I’ll see her regularly, I promise”.

And Bobby knew he would.

[mythtakens]

9-1-1 + a thesis on love

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I personally think it is categorically hilarious that Buck is seemingly gonna rock up to his sisters wedding with a boyfriend having not told his parents of this development in his life.

It is peak trolling payback to drop that bomb on them in an environment where they have to play nice after all they’ve done to him. This is baby box the revenge and I am here for it

[buckera]

the way the cast just loves Lou/Tommy 🥰

[lover-of-mine]

Buddie Countdown to Season 7:

34 days.

[oatflatwhite]

masters of the air + text posts (5/?)

(screencaps credit @itstheheebiejeebies <3)

[andavs]

I know it's still early in how much of their relationships we've seen and we're only halfway through the season, but at least right now it kind of feels like both Buck and Eddie are split between two relationships.

So far Buck has physical intimacy with Tommy, but emotional intimacy with Eddie. Tommy got the (sober) hugs and kisses, but Eddie was the one at his side throughout the stresses of searching for Chimney, and supporting him while he supported Maddie.

And Eddie has the physical intimacy with Marisol but the emotional intimacy with Buck, even several months into their relationship. Marisol was right there with Eddie when he found out Chris was talking to a bunch of girls, but (as far as we were shown or told) he waited to talk it over with Buck. He went to Buck about his Catholic guilt, but we never saw him address it with Marisol, who would probably have some experience with that.

If it's being done intentionally, then that could make for a really interesting storyline about like...I don't know if emotional infidelity is exactly right, but something like that.

But it could also be the realities of having a limited amount of screentime per episode and prioritizing popular main character dynamics, in which case if Buck and Eddie don't end up together, all of their romantic relationships might just feel a little surface level to some degree. If they pull back on the emotional Buck and Eddie scenes, then they're cutting back on a core relationship of the show. But if they have those emotional talks and support with each other, we won't see that emotional growth with their partners.

[yakdee]

But, I’ll take your body and your heart. LOVE IN THE AIR (2022), dir. Ne Neti Suwanjinda

[watchyourbuck]

wip wednesday ☆

tagged by @tizniz @diazheartsbuckley @honestlydarkprincess @jesuisici33 and @cal-daisies-and-briars thank you all! 🩷

okay so in the spirits of getting my writing beans back, im gonna share a snippy from the divorced!buddie au that's already over 11k but im currently rewriting and adding so !!! id love some feedback bc im on chapter two and i feel stuck

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Silence wasn’t uncomfortable, never had it been. Most of the time they communicated without words, even after the divorce. Even when they couldn’t stand to look at each other. Chris’ well being pulled them back together. Still, this silence, this look… it made Buck hurt. “Please,” he whispered, watching Eddie’s face go through the seven stages of grief. They couldn’t do this, not right now. “Fuck me, please. Just—,” he said, his voice threatening to break. “Just fuck me. Please?”

Eddie’s eyes traveled all the way down his features, stopping on his lips. His other hand came up to cup Buck’s face, pulling him down as he nodded.

Buck got the message. He closed his own eyes, kissing Eddie like it was the last time. He guessed he could never really know when that would be true.

Eddie walked them back to the bedroom, a little gentler this time, leading Buck by the belt loops. As soon as they walked inside, he turned to look at the layout, huffing out a positive sound when he realized most things were the same. Buck pretended not to notice, chasing after Eddie’s lips.

The last time they had kissed in this exact room, Buck had already lost him.

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[sentient-cloud]

Glenn refs Glenn refs. In the nick of time. Kind of embarrassing to tag him as a wizard101 oc. Oh that’s your wizard who’s saving the sprial and getting so traumatized doing it? Umm. Here’s my Deer he works a desk job in Sky City and h*lds h*nds with Buck Gordon 🤗 Anyway go on Glenn, keep trying to make photomancy happen. I believe in you.

[buddiesmutslut]

My grandpa is flipping through channels in the other room & I heard “-rla is LA’s finest h-” before he flipped to the next channel & I INSTANTLY recognized it as 911. I can literally picture that scene in my head bc I’ve screamed about it so many times 😂

[mustasekittens]

congratulations christopher!

self indulgent near-future in which when christopher graduates high school buck n eddie take hiim to hawaii to celebrate and they all have a nice vacation over here. friend n i were brainrotting it a bit and we decided buck definitely hyperfixated on hawaii and stuff (history, nature, geography, mythology, etc)

[disasterbuck]

Make me write purple hearts swirl for me 😆

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Hiii! Sorry it took me a while to get to this, but here it is!! I hope you enjoy! 🥰

💜💜💜 - I wanna hold your hand

"You look like you're three seconds from passing out," Buck said as he locked the door.

"That's cause I am," Eddie replied, fingers curling into Buck's shirt so he wouldn't fall over.

"Do you want food first or sleep first?" Buck asked, slipping an arm around Eddie's waist to help support him.

Eddie sighed, dropping his head to lean on Buck's shoulder. "Sleep," he said, just as his stomach grumbled loudly.

With a quiet chuckle, Buck took Eddie's bag from his hand and set it on the floor before guiding him over to the couch. Eddie didn't protest, though he wasn't sure that sleeping on the couch was the best idea, and obediently sat when prompted to do so.

"Have a nap," Buck said, gently brushing some hair back from Eddie's forehead – Eddie immediately closed his eyes and tipped his head back, sinking into the sensation. "I'll go whip up some food, and then after we've eaten we can both have a sleep."

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[rosetterer]

evan buckley's guide to getting lost (and found) (aka the IKEA fic) by rosetterer

Summary: The whole section was now filled with a good amount of people but Evan was nowhere to be seen.

With a sigh, he pulled out his phone. He should’ve known this was going to happen.

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Buck wanders off when Tommy goes to get a coffee. Finding him is easier said than done.

LINK: evan buckley's guide to getting lost (and found) - rosetterer - 9-1-1 (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Thank you @half-oz-eddie for the inspiration! Hope you like it ❤️

[giallos]

i'm trying to make up my mind just how i feel

a short little bucktommy video i cooked up

[diazsdimples]

Tease Tidbit Tuesday

Started uni yesterday and had one hell of a therapy session this morning so I decided the only way to heal my battered and bruised soul was to write some more domestic Buckley-Diaz zoo trip. Please enjoy!

Buck and Christopher walk side by side, dodging small clusters of families with screaming children, mothers dragging their little cherubs along on those weird toddler leash things, and exasperated fathers trying to make head or tails of the less-than-helpful map. As they walk, Buck begins to hum the first song that comes to mind, one that’s been stuck in his mind since they left Eddie’s house, actually. Christopher looks up at him, brows knitted in confusion as he clearly doesn’t recognise it, so Bucks starts over, singing softly under his breath. “I want a hippopotamus for Christmas. Only a hippopotamus will do. No crocodiles, or rhinoceroseses, I only like hippopotamuseses!” he sings, finishing with a flourish. He’s not the words best singer, can barely carry a tune if it’s gift-wrapped and handed to him, but the lyrics are appropriate for the occasion, and they have the exact effect he’s looking for: Christopher cringing and whining about how embarrassing he is. “Buck, it’s April. Why are you singing Christmas songs?” Christopher groans, nudging Buck with a pointy elbow. Buck pokes him back, making Christopher wriggle away as he hits a ticklish spot. “I’m putting in my request early. Do you know how long it takes to grow a hippo?” “Eight months.,” Christopher replies instantly, not missing a beat. “Or around 240 days, to be exact.” Buck stares at him, a little shocked at how readily Christopher had this information, before shaking himself and continuing his teasing. “Yeah, exactly. And what’s in 8 months?” Christopher counts on his fingers, murmuring each month under his breath, until he reaches 8, at which point he deflates a small amount. “Oh. Christmas.” “Exactly, Christmas,” Buck replies with a grin, looping an arm around Christopher’s shoulders. “Want me to ask the big guy for one for you, too? Or do you think you dad won’t like that too much?” “Buck!” Christopher groans, shrugging off Buck’s arm, but Buck can see the smile pulling at the pre-teen’s lips. Christopher might like to act like he’s too old to hang out with his dad and Buck, but Buck knows that deep down, Christopher still loves his time with them, if the way Christopher quickly nudges his head against Buck’s tricep is any indication.

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