#bunni rambles

[bunnis-monsters]

Okay, here’s the official birthday post!!

Hi I’m Bunni, I’m turning 24 today and I’m very happy to have such great friends and family! My tumblr followers, kofi supporters, and patrons have made my life so much better, and helped support me in times when I really needed it.

I got to visit my best friend this weekend, and didn’t have to worry too much about not writing, because you’re all so patient and kind.

I’m hoping today can be fun and I can have many more birthdays just like it!

Today I wanna eat cake, spend time with my family, and rest as much as possible!

If you’d like some birthday themed stories, I wouldn’t mind writing a few little ones today, so send me an ask!

Note necessary at all, but if you’d like to send me a gift, you can send me a kofi!

[bunniisms]

WALTER. C. DORNEZ HEADCANON DUMP

Blame this headcanon dump on the tremendous support from my friends and my unending obsession with this Old Fart and throwing him down the metaphoric staircases in my brain!

THE C IN HIS NAME ISN'T A MIDDLE NAME. Remind me to talk about it at length later, because it's an entire bullshit that would make this post far, far longer that I've already made it. Instead, the C in Walter's name stands for COURTENAY, the name of the old, old noble family he draws descendants from. Who had historical connections to the art of Vampire Hunting & the Hellsing Family via their connection to the Vatican and support of the late Abraham Van Hellsing.

Walter was the son of a daughter who didn't have the name (or any claim) to pass down beyond her and her late husband's friendship with Arthur Hellsing. As an adult, Walter's reclaimed the title and hyphenated his last name (i.e. Courtenay-Dornez)

TLDR: Walter C. Dornez but the C in his name is a desperate clinging symbol and claim to historic (and almost forgotten) notoriety and a connection to the business he’s attached his whole identity to but never found direct happiness from

WALTER DESCENDS FROM PEERAGE BUT ISN'T DIRECTLY OF ANY IMPORTANCE TO ANY NOBLE FAMILIES

This is sort of canon, but WALTER HAS DEEPLY STAKED HIS SENSE OF IDENTITY AND PERSON-HOOD INTO VAMPIRE-HUNTING and the concept of both his body deteriorating with age, and his gradual sense of being rendered obsolete behind New Operatives and Alucard is the heartbeat in the floorboard driving him to madness. FOR WALTER TO BE BENCHED OR TO BE RETIRED, HE SEES THAT AS THE DEATH OF HIMSELF IN A FAR MORE VISCERAL SENSE

WALTER IS AN OXYMORON OF ARROGANCE AND INSECURITY. Walter struggles with his sense of identity and his place in the world. It's not that he feels useless, but he feels like he has been doomed and damned to forever be third best - unable to move forward - unable to be better, to be wanted by existence (and himself), always envious and wanting for any claim of his own that he can truly sink his teeth into and use as a salve to cover the infected wounds of insecurity that have been with him since he was a child.

HOWEVER, the funny thing with Walter? As much as he feels this way, he is a haughty, arrogant, catty bastard. He views the vast majority of people, human and otherwise, as far, far beneath him, even with his insecurity being what it is. Walter knows he could be MORE, but these other people? It would be a miracle if they even got to his weakest position. Their words have precisely as much weight as the clucking of chickens.

WALTER HIDES THESE TRAITS WITH A JEEVES-LIKE FACADE AND PERSONA OF WARMTH AND HUMILITY. A lot of the time, the Walter seen smiling and bowing, offering his hand and advice, greeting the guests and answering the household's calls with a polite warmth is as superficial as a cardboard mockup - it's an act - the Walter we see walk out and make pot shots to scare Jan and quote his speech back at him. THAT'S THE REAL WALTER. Walter hasn't so much changed that part of him that we saw so much of in Dawn, as much as he's learned to hide it.

ONE OF WALTER'S LOVE LANGUAGES IS TRANSPARENCY. Walter has developed such a false crust of subservience and humility and comically stereotypical butler-like deference. You know you've sunk deeper into his person when he begins lifting the act in more intimate settings. Walter might seem to get sharper and cattier, a little more mean-girl-esc with his judgement and quips, but that's Walter! If you took him for a sweet old man, you bought the charade, hook, and sinker. THIS is the real Walter, THIS is what goes on inside his mind's palace. Either embrace it or take the check and go! Haha

UNLIKE THE HOUSE OF COURTENAY'S CATHOLIC ORIGINS, WALTER IS ANGLICAN and sparsely practicing, making sure to attend major Church Functions alongside the Household (such as Integra) but not making much of a habit of attending the small chapel inside the Hellsing Estate

WALTER HAS FOURTH NERVE PALSY, caused during The Dawn Arc after he sustained a massive skull fracture and very nearly died

YES, HE DOES BLAME ALUCARD FOR THE INCIDENT THAT CAUSED THIS, they were assigned to a mission together, flushing out operatives in Warsaw together, and yet, they became separated. Alucard's bloodlust or showboating slowed him down, and Walter was left alone to fend on his own. While successful for a while, Walter was a child, a lone child, and his enemies had no mercy. By the time Alucard dragged his carcass back to Hellsing, there was little to be done. But, despite rescuing him after, Walter never forgave Alucard for the part he feels Alucard played. His blame is partially misplaced, but it still burns hot, and the paranoia festering in the back of his mind forever wonders whether it was delayed by accident or if he orchestrated it all to stunt his abilities and prevent him from surpassing Alucard? (it's absolutely NOT that Walter, I can promise you)

WALTER HAS A SMALL HABIT OF ALWAYS LEANING/COCKING HIS HEAD SLIGHTLY TO THE RIGHT SIDE TO COMPENSATE FOR THE DAMAGE TO HIS EYE AND VISION

RE: THE MONOCLE, it's not there for the aesthetics of a Victorian nobleman, though that's not to say Walter doesn't carefully cultivate his image. Walter's monocle is a prescription medical device; it helps correct issues with his depth perception and acquired short-sightedness caused by his palsy (especially with reading). Additionally, it's been a wonder how ptosis symptoms in his right eye that've stemmed from the palsy have been eased with the monocle supporting that side of his face.

WALTER ALSO HAS PERIPHERAL HYPER-MOBILITY SPECTRUM DISORDER most notably impacting his hands, wrists and fingers, but more broadly affecting his ankles and feet too. In recent years, Walter's found that the symptoms have been worsening and spread to his knees, too, but he's never spoken openly about this and resents it greatly. The records from Hellsing-pocket Doctors making note of the degeneration of his condition have always been burned, almost as though destroying them could silence the truth in some way.

THE PURPOSE OF THE GLOVES, while Butlers wearing gloves is a tale as old as time, Walter wears them not to uphold old traditions of cleanliness and not smudging things - but rather to hide the slight but noticeable gaps at the center of each of his fingertips where he ejects the monofilament from, which is unfortunately essential when facing the public. He removes them the second he gets behind closed doors and happily does that.

WALTER HAS A COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS DISABILITIES, BUT THEN AGAIN, HE HAS A COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP WITH EVERYTHING

WALTER RE: THE WIRES AND THEIR IMPACT ON HIS BODY, the designs of the Late Hellsing and Seward, while innovative, were... imperfect. Flawed even. Walter REFUSES to come to terms with it, but the wires, despite their impeccable qualities, have been degrading his body MORE than gradually. They are the single leading reason for his Hyper-Mobility Spectrum Disorder; they have been EATING at the cartilage and connective tissue in his limbs and making his gradual decline far quicker than had ever been previously believed.

WALTER GOT HIS WIRES IN AN OPERATION AT TEN. It was a deeply invasive affair that left Walter bedridden for months. Directed by Seward and Hellsing loyalists and conducted by the last design of the Late Abraham Van Hellsing and his mentee Seward. WALTER CONSENTED AT THE TIME, IN FACT, HE WAS EAGER ABOUT IT AND THE PROMISE. Walter wanted the prestige, the power, to feel purpose and drive and to have something that was his, that defined him, and the miserable life he'd been gifted that was always at the mouth of the river, leaving him looking up at the source and the promise he had been born outside of and dreaming. HOWEVER, IT WAS STILL SKETCHY AF AFFAIR, AND AS THE WORD OF GOD, IT WAS, WITHOUT A DOUBT, AN INCIDENT OF ADULTS EXPLOITING THE LACK OF KNOWLEDGE, INNOCENCE AND EAGERNESS OF A CHILD FOR PERSONAL BENEFIT.

WALTER'S LOVE LANGUAGE IS QUALITY TIME. Walter, while a womanizer, is no adept man in the art of romance - some would call him a tad clumsy, but that's not it, nor would it be right to call him cold or unromantic. Walter is simply... atypical. He doesn't enjoy grand gestures of romance or constant touch - Walter is a man of boundary, and his ideal form of love is the quiet, cat-like sort of co-existing in joy. Can he perform his duties and passions and look over to see someone he is fond of simply existing - caught in their natural environment and at peace WITH him? That's ideal for him.

WALTER IS A SOMMELIER. Read as Wine Snob, not only for his job, but he just really enjoys wine!

WALTER AND BEING A BACHELOR IS A DELIBERATE CHOICE. He's had proposals passed onto him, and thrice, he's declined. He's had his girls and boys, but never committed even to the point of being considered lovers. Walter is simply most at ease on his lonesome, and though it might seem lonesome at the surface, it's ideal for his line of work and his love style.

HE ALSO IS ALLERGIC TO DEEP COMMITMENT BUT SHHHH

WALTER DOES A LOT OF WORK AND TAKES A LOT OF PRIDE IN KEEPING HIS APPEARANCE. Sorry, I KNOW this man wears expensive colognes that he has organized for the seasons, has all his suits and tail coats properly fitted and has a skincare routine. He IS the type, and I love that for him. His toiletry cabinet is more stuffed with product than either Integra or Seras' COMBINED! He will not leave his room until his hair is slicked back and he smells like sandalwood ON GOD.

THOUGH THAT BEING SAID, HE IS LONELY IN THE SENSE THAT HE FEELS DEEPLY ALONE WITHOUT PEERS; he simply doesn't see most other people, most other creatures, as on his level. In that, and his arrogance, he is deeply alone, but it's a cage of his own creation.

HE LOVES INTEGRA LIKE A DAUGHTER, AND I REFUSE TO SEE IT ANY OTHER WAY; he helped raise that girl - a constant, familiar face in the background of her youngest years. He watched her be born in the house, he was one of the first that held her - she was one of few she gave a big smile to as a baby (she was one of few things that ever made him reconsider his decision to never want children), she watched her walk, then run and grow into a girl and then a confident young woman. And when it comes to the betrayal :,)

I could make an ENTIRE post detailing my thoughts about it and how I portray it, but Walter had been turned into a Freak a long, long time ago, and by the time he met Integra (as in, she was born), he was too far gone to be saved, and he knew it. There was a gun to the back of his head - he had the chip, and he could be toast at any moment; he... well, he selfishly did what he needed to do to survive. Sometimes, the awful truth is that both things can co-exist, and a person can be caught between love and survival and still choose survival, even after everything.

I'm 10000% on copium with this. Still, I feel his whole Ebony Darkness Dementia speech to Integra was to VILLAINIZE HIM AND HIS MEMORY IN HER MIND - he spent DECADES selfishly loving her and raising her, and he knows she returned those feelings. They never spoke about it, but he KNEW. She'd ask him his opinions (even when he, as a servant, wasn't entitled to those against the word of his lord), request him to have dinner upstairs with her and attend church functions alongside him, even when she was a grown woman. He was one of the most consistent fatherly figures she had. He became that for her, but he doesn't want her to spend any years agonizing or grieving over another dead father. Telling her he's a mustache-twirling evil that has always plotted her downfall is another selfish lie. Still, he hopes and needs to believe that maybe, maybe, that'll make it easier on her heart to cope with the rug-pull, his defection (and death) and losing yet another dad.

WALTER IS INTEGRA'S MOST ADAMENT APOLOGIST AND DEFENDER; this is another truth of mine I will take to the grave, and Hirano can fight me. It's not Walter's place as a servant to feel that level of protection over his master - even given his place, having watched her grow. Still, something alien takes over his sensibilities when he hears people speak against her brazenly, and he'll stamp it out in his own petty way. He's her dad, your honour!

[kingdomofpink]

Thinking about Thalia's unique stat!! It is something that would be similar to Avery's rage stat in the sense that, it can be "lowered" or "raised" except I'm picturing it more like a progress bar where you start in the middle!

Essentially

Perfect pet!------------You Are Here------------Thalia doesn't want you.

And the choices you make will determine which direction that bar tilts.

AND YOU WOULD THINK!! DISOBEDIENCE WOULD TOSS YOU TO THE RIGHT, BUT!! Only after repeated instances of the SAME disobedience. If you show that you haven't learned your lesson. Thalia allows mistakes, especially ones that have no consequences like an "accident". But CHOOSING to disobey her, or do something she doesn't want you to do. She wants you to realize that you NEED her. Who else could treat you so lovingly, who else could give you the love and the praise and the comfort you want? She KNOWS that most people want those things, but she wants you to NEED *her*. Over anyone else, she wants you to realize that *she* is the best choice.

If you stray from her, seek that intimacy from other people, lash out at her (and don't apologize or regret it) etc, you get the idea, the closer and closer you get to Thalia not wanting to keep you. This will (in almost every case) LOCK YOU OUT OF HER ROMANCE.

On the other hand, if you heel to her consistently, show her thay you want *her* love, *her* affection, the more Thalia prizes you. If you manage to max out that side (Can be lowered by doing things that would get you towards the other one, but would decay slower) You get her most dedicated care! She would pay for you (bailey's debt, buy you things, etc), she would get you a custom collar (shows that she prizes you, that you're special to her), *give up her virginity to you* (Extremely hard, she likes her Angel TF)

Even if you are a bratty type or a hostile type, in general the type that wouldn't be what you picture when you hear "pet", she is fine with brattiness, she thinks its cute, but dont test her patience or she will punish you. Good pets get the most attention, after all.

Violence is also okay! As long as that violence isn't directed towards her! (Unless she asks) Show her you can protect her! She can be charmed that way, but don't assume she can't take care of herself.

Tsunderes are also very cute to her!! She gets enjoyment in making you admit that you like her attention, that you like how she makes you feel. She is persistent!!

And of course the night monster that holds a very special place in her heart always, she loves the obsession, the almost desperation, loves that to him, she is so beautiful he has to have her. It's flattering! She thinks he's very sweet.

So all in all, you can choose to accept her care or you can refuse! She is generally not? A danger to you either way. If you lock yourself out? Dont worry! She doesn't hold grudges. If you get your very own special collar? I feel she gives you a bit more freedom, NOT!! to go to anyone else. But essentially a looser leash.

[bwabys-scenarios]

Reunited is most likely never coming back. I don’t want to keep y’all hanging, and I’m sorry. I did enjoy the series and most of the people who read it were kind and respectful, but still, TO THIS DAY, I’m being harassed over it.

I won’t give the person in my inbox any attention, but I did screenshot what they sent and blocked them. It’s so sad and pathetic that they’re coming after me for a fic I haven’t mentioned in a long time.

This account is pretty inactive and it will probably stay that way for the most part. People have been cruel to me, telling me to hurt myself or threatening me. I shouldn’t have to endure that.

Fixer Upper is still ongoing. It’s a passion project that I adore, but it’s still hard to work on considering all my bad experiences on this account. I’m still being stalked and harassed. Updates on this series will be spread out and sparse.

If you’re reading this and you’re the one that’s harassing me, I don’t hate you, but please leave me be. I want to finish Reunited, but I can’t when all I receive is hate and vitriol any time I even think of continuing it. This series is tainted now, every time I think of it it makes me think of all the nasty things people have said to me.

You don’t have to like me or my writing, but sending hateful messages isn’t the solution.

Wishing you all peace and love, and all I ask for is basic human respect and decency. Thank you.

[d0llfac3pr1nc3]

all of you are wrong :(( @hwasdollie is mine ♡

[bunniteef]

so whos gonna make me get out of bed and go to the shops bc i clearly cant make myself

[paperbunnies]

I doubt anyone has ever heard of this and I might be talking to an empty void, but does anyone know what happened to ashmimi? (Ashmimi is a sylvanian families/calico critters blogger who created a whole town for her collection + typically posts tutorials on miniatures or reviews of new sylvanian families products) I used to be really into SF back in 2019-2020 and I visited her blog quite often. (not on tumblr, she had her own site) She stopped posting late 2020 and I just assumed she was on hiatus and kind of forgot about it, then later lost interest in SF. Recently though, I’ve gotten back into it again so I decided to visit her website but it’s just gone poof and disappeared. I know it’s likely due to personal reasons and I won’t press into the matter, but I have to admit I’m a bit sad because I loved her posts + tutorials. If there’s an archive or anything then I would really appreciate it if you could share it with me! :)

[bwabys-scenarios]

Here’s mine!

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[bunnivie]

Life has been a uphill battle, I wish I had more friends in my local area because I probably would pay someone to (platonically) take me on a date somewhere to help me just have a bit of mental escape

[bunnis-monsters]

Hi, just got back from the hospital. I didn’t want to scare anyone before I knew if I was okay or not.

Yes, I’m alright. I had a high heart rate and blood pressure so my parents took me to the hospital. Everything was good, they want me to monitor my blood pressure and if it stays elevated then I should take blood pressure medication.

They also think that anxiety may be the reason for my high heart rate and I may need to start taking anxiety meds.

I’m going to be resting for the next few days and focus on my health. I’m so sorry I’ve been sick back to back, it’s been very annoying and scary for me. I hate not being able to write when I want to, and resting is very hard when I’m this antsy. Obviously my anxiety is high, haha, I can’t stand not working and writing.

My EKG was good, blood pressure was just high. So don��t worry I’m alright, just need to monitor and possibly change a few things. My family has a history of high blood pressure and cholesterol, so I’ve been keeping an eye on these things and improving my diet.

It just feels like one thing after another 😅

Anyways!! Thank you all so much for getting me to 20k. I’m trying to look on the bright sides of some things because I get so anxious haha. Doctor said I possibly had a panic attack and ugh. Idk it’s nearly 12 am and I’m feeling blegh.

Gn guys, I’ll keep you all updated

[bunniisms]

Anderson is so so fun to write at the center of romance and heavier stuff, because, on some level, he defaults to a lamb on an alter with big eyes watery with fear but full of trust and I love him being put in that position and in a sense of vulnerability.

Not just because he is a 'big guy on knees goooood' but also because Anderson's only vulnerability to anything comes from his mind. His emotions and his passion are his undoing. His body is self-welding iron and his faith is unbreakable, it's his heart that's the chink in his armor and he KNOWS IT.

[bwabys-scenarios]

I’ve been thinking about moving to AO3 recently. I have seen a lot of my author friends get tired of blatant disrespect and entitlement from readers, along with their works being copied/posted to other platforms without consent.

This is a warning. If you want writers and artists to stay on tumblr, then don’t contribute to the reasons we want to leave. Be better, be the reason we want to stay.

Reblog the posts you love, post nice comments(even if it’s just a few emojis), and always be respectful, because there’s a person behind the screen. We aren’t machines that can endlessly pump out new content for you to consume, we’re people.

Start treating artists and writers like people, or soon we won’t want to share our work publicly anymore.

[d0llfac3pr1nc3]

yaaay ♡ it's my 25th birthdaay! halfway to 50 >~<

[bunniteef]

think i’m gonna put a hole in my throat on a night out. Honestly… stop screaming and smoking so much bunni

[bwabysart]

TRIPLE WHAMMY????

[theoddbun]

and suddenly a vision came to me