#but I CAN keep you in mind and be sad | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

cametotheshowinsd · 11 months

Photo

Who would you be sad with? And who would you deal with when they were sad? Grey skies every day for months, would you still stay?

328 notes · View notes

bumblingbabooshka · 2 months

Text

Tom & B'Elanna give off closeted gay vibes in that I think if you asked them to describe their ideal woman and man they would respectively describe a swimsuit model (bonus: who's Not Like Other Girls) and the lead in some sort of romantic novel. Nothing even close to a real person. The most generic you can get about straight romantic and sexual attraction.

#B'Elanna would say that OR she'd just name some incredibly basic things that make you sad when you hear them #I can 1000% see a canon scene where B'Elanna is upset about random ensign guy not meeting her standards for a date #and everyone's of course of course of course like 'well YOUR standards aaare a little high B'Elanna' ha ha ha and B'Elanna's like #(she's upset but trying to work to take her mind off it) 'Is it SO hard to find a guy who-' then proceeds to list off basic things #the writers think women want and it's all soft romantic things and Tom's like (bc this is ostensibly a romance scene between them)#'B'Elanna are you serious?' (What???) 'If you went out with a guy like that you'd eat him alive. You need a guy who can keep up with #your-' (I swear to God if you say my temper.) '-Passion.' <- his hands are held defensively in the air and his tone is sarcastic. B'Elanna #is pointing a space wrench or something at him. she quickly pulls away. frustrated and embarrassed.#and everyone's like wow this a very good romantic scene we did that really well I think.#in reality the scene was B'Elanna being upset - Tom making fun of her and ignoring the fact that she's a romantic but in the writer's minds #its Tom being romantic and charming and signaling that he's interested in her

55 notes · View notes

volivolition · 9 days

Text

suggestion do you have... any wants? like obviously you do but like? suggestion my guy my ourple boy. both the easiest and hardest to write. you need a skill to say something to move conversation along but it doesn't fit any skill in particular? about 80% of the time you can have suggestion say it and it will make sense. but like actually characterizing him... how do i define you dude... what makes your character tick... urgh. i dont get you yet. im trying to understand but you are difficult.

#chemi chats #there are some skills that i just dont understand yet and that just means i have to work on their character study chapter #im reading his bio and i think suggestion is a good manipulator and it's instinctive and he tries not to feel bad about it?#he's clever!! charming!! friends with savvy and drama. planting seeds in the mind and coaxing them to grow towards him like he's the sun.#a crude oil reservoir lying beneath a carefully laid flower bed. taps into the roots. the plants don't know any better than to drink.#he's great at sensing what makes people tick and uses that to his advantage. he needs goals to look forward to so he knows how to best #pull the strings to get them there. otherwise he's a bit aimless. he likes being useful. and since influencing others is helpful #he just keeps doing it? because it's what he's good at. and he tries to convince himself its fun and cool and just cuz hes charming and #it's his role as a skill and manipulation isnt thaaaat bad because it's helpful to them after all... but he does feel bad sometimes.#oh im listening to his voice lines and i just got to ''brother you should have put me in front of a firing squad'' and im sad about him now #but what do you want for short term little guy?? probably for people to like him. he likes chatting with people. i bet he'd like genuine #conversations with no strings attached but there's always some part of him filing information and tidbits away that he can't turn off #subconsciously figuring out things he can hold over them or how he can nudge them into thinking someth-/wait.../ no. no he's just talking.#he's /supposed/ to just be talking stop analyzing them stop falling back into that just have a normal conversation!! but he can't help it..#hm. this is all really helpful for his chapter. he and empathy are very alike but also different. very interesting...#task: swept up #okay good talk everyone i think i understand him a little better now lmao?? still gotta figure him out some more hes not fully there but ye #also i think he goes by whatever pronoun you think he'd use. just ''oh what do /you/ think i am hm?? what /would/ i use; do you think?? :)'#funny fella. i love you.

16 notes · View notes

lottiemilfews · 10 months

Text

simone kessell as belle james in pine gap (2018) - episode 3 (2/2)

#simone kessell #simonekesselledit #pine gap #i just know that these will look bad on mobile bc of the lighting etc so.. but whatever #theyre fine on desktop just trust me bro #dkjgfdgdgg well anyways i am ho.rny out of my mind............ the first one? KEEP YOUR TONGUE WHERE I CANT SEE IT #GOD i am so obsessed with the way she moves her lips #but also that husband can suck it WHY would you make her sad !! die #my post #*m.gif

50 notes · View notes

corfisers · 5 months

Text

i really need to finish this one day

#one of my fave ideas but i keep getting stuck or starting over. third time's the charm hopefully #anyways. posting it as an excuse to rant because i'm losing my mind over this rn for no reason #incoherent but i just need to Talk or my brain won't shut up #you ever think about how fucked up it is that aoi feels guilty over what happened. i do. i think about her a lot #he can't even look at me. we aren't even blood related but he still had to go to jail because of me. i still love him #in reality none of it is her fault. it shouldn't be about doumeki in the first place. baby girl you were 15 when it happened.#you can say that yashiro is cruel in his dismissiveness (on the surface) of doumeki's trauma but you can see where he's coming from #you got a glimpse of what your sister was going through? of what i went through? and now you're sooo guilty over it? and who does it help?#doumeki's so focused on his own feelings that he ignored aoi when they were living together. “saves” her by pure chance #proceeds to focus on his guilt and ignore her again. if yashiro didn't get involved she'd be sitting in the rain for god knows how long #yet she still loves and to some degree idolizes him #yashiro and aoi both saying that doumeki isn't the type of person to be a yakuza too. doumeki's good doumeki's better than that #and then ch 24 happens. where yashiro says that he's going to throw up and doumeki's response is “i probably won't stop even if you do”#“guess i am like my father after all” and yashiro still goes “you're not. you're pure and im the problem”#(touches doumeki's face. rare gentle gesture. he's gentle afterwards too before leaving. man.)#he's not cruel enough to repeat what he said in the earlier conversation and he doesn't actually believe it anyway #but i wish yashiro was cruel there. it shouldn't have been about doumeki and his feelings. again.#something about yashiro throwing a knife at another person and it flying back at him huh #for all the talk about how doumeki supposedly romanticizes yashiro it really is the other way around. always has been #which is a whole other conversation but yeah. everything about aoi and yashiro in relation to doumeki makes me so fucking sad #but this is also what i mean when i say that aoi doesn't haunt the narrative per se but still has this weird presence?#she's in the parallels. she's in the brief but important mentions. she's in the “your sister was lucky she had you”.#wips tag

23 notes · View notes

finncakes · 11 months

Note

Do you feel like Ashton and Orym are avoiding speaking to each other? I've seen a few others mention it and it feels like they have plenty of opportunities to talk but don't

OH YEAH ABSOLUTELY.

i feel like ever since their talk in ep 40 there's been smth off between them versus before. extremely long rambling under the cut i am so sorry these two change my brain chemistry

personally i think on orym's side he doesn't like someone who's able to read him this well. i think it's esp interesting cause ashton in ep 40 said "i know you're not okay." rather than asking if orym was okay, feel like that makes orym uncomfortable. someone not evening giving him a chance to continuing putting on his strong exterior. probably last person able to read past his bullshit was well...will, derrig or his mother.

ashton i think seems afraid of how easily they open up to orym. just like ashton sees through orym's, orym sees through ashton's bullshit. they've almost started to say things to orym & just abruptly cut off (and it's killing me!!! ashton i am shaking you by the shoulders what were you gonna say!!!). they want to be ready to talk to him but they aren't cause once they start i don't think they'll be able to keep everything in. knowing how much this group is players who embody their character nearly 24/7 (i do it too agfgh), i was esp sad seeing ashton after the battle. look like they were holding back fuckin tears man (orym too).

both of them are feeling small and lost and i think once they do talk? it'll be big for them internally because they read eachother so well and are a lot more similar than they originally thought. ESP seeing even slivers of how orym copes with things this awful. seems like ash & him cope more similarly than i would've figured. also makes me worried for those 6 years orym was lost for....girl what happened...

in general i think their talk in ep 40 made all their similairties and abilities to just see straight through eachother more apparent to them both. and that's sorta scary for both of them, hence why they're just avoiding it. easier to ignore it than sit down and talk to someone who you know will see a very vulnerable version of you whether you like it or not.

#asks #anon #liam i am BEGGING you to see the motherfucker right infront of orym #you went insane for essek & his similarities to caleb pls do the same for my punk rock #also been losing my mind at the FACES ashton keeps making when orym talks they look so sad for him #i have an inkling ashton was gonna talk to orym before bor'dor ended up doing so #tal was doing that Thing he does before he wants to do rp where he like rapidly looks at matt and the person he wants to rp with #girl calm down it's ok #but YEAH they're driving me insane TALK TO EACHOTHER U COWARDS #WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? REALIZING YOU CAN BE VULNERABLE WITH EACHOTHER? MAYBE HAVING FEELINGS?#COWARDS !!!#also saw someone say ashton might be feeling a lil hurt seeing orym go talk to all these other people after they offered their shoulder #i can very much see that

50 notes · View notes

bl00dw1tch · 1 year

Text

God. God. God. Holy fucking shit i love Avatar so fucking much

#horse.txt #im being so real right now it breaks my goddamn heart that so many people hate it on principle and go into it waiting to be disappointed #like. god. seriously? how do so few people seem to see the shit im seeing? how do people not GET its RIGHT THERE???#idk man im like. high and the hd release is out so it feels like Christmas but this shit has been on my mind and its at like a precipice #its one thing when ppl just aren't into it but the absolute LOATHING and DISDAIN people harbour for these movies is just. baffling #i cant understand it #i hate statistics. why did it have to pan out this way #how can anybody hate this production literally decades in the making? the fucking DEFINITION of a Passion Project?#the labour and love and inventive GENIUS that has gone into these films--and #you know what? the writing ISN'T that fucking awful. its not perfect because no movie is ever fucking perfect and sometimes you #have to give a script and characters breathing room. room to make mistakes!!! because this fucking obsession with #'characters dont have to be realistic!' is BULLSHIT. and NO saying that does not conflict with the idea that Characters=/=real ppl in #discourse!the ideas can fucking coexist! having realistic characters is GOOD its fucking GOOD when theyre stupid and do shit you dont like!#because thats what REAL PEOPLE DO thats what makes them fucking COMPELLING thats what youre SUPPOSED to let draw you in!!!!!!#but noooo no no no no keep repeating your smurf pocahontas jokes and roll your eyes at anyone who does like it like theyre stupid #because you can't be assed to give something a chance just because everyone Else is calling it stupid #and you dont want them to roll their eyes at /you/#i know this is dumb to be so heated about but im just. im sad man. im happy im having a great day!! but im sad #about how few people i can share it with yk..???

41 notes · View notes

jacksprostate · 2 months

Note

dunno what that users on about... people on tumblr put way too much attention on the unnecessary

GOOD LUCK ON NOT FRYING YOUR BRAIN BOSS 🫡🫡

- SUPERFAN ANON BACK AT IT AGAIN

Eh I was a little annoyed but ultimately I just kind of feel bad for that person, it takes a lot of shit being fucked up for you to be a wholeass grown adult arguing to the death on tumblr + believing in a sort of catholic 'suffering means I'm moral' thing as a way to make yourself feel better about what feels unchangeably cruel about your life. It's why I was like, no I'm not gonna continue this. Not healthy for either of us.

#sfa #i also have a tendency to debate people on a relatively soft level for myself #but it ends up feeling very charged for others #partially because I talk a whole lot #but also because especially on here #there's so much encouragement of assuming the worst of people who even vaguely disagree with you #highly defensive reading etc #it's really sad #something I had to actively teach myself not to do as much too #tumblr is bad for your growing brain lol. terrible habits #taking a step back and realizing shit 1. is not that important 2. the other person is a person not the embodiment of stupidity or evil #3. you almost certainly have tons of shared ground and both people are taking positions they feel are the most beneficial to those they care #about. idk once you really work on keeping that in mind it all just seems way less intense and all a bit dumb #i usually try to avoid arguing with people for this reason but my initial second response was a little hopeful maybe we could have like. a #cool little discussion #and then i saw the 2nd post and i was like ohhhhhhhh its like this #mm.#anyway #yeah people generally arent your enemy and you can have disagreements over pretty huge things but it doesnt mean theyre evil or literally #satan or whatever #and when you realize all that polarization is a lie #idk stuff like this is just such small hotcakes #thats also what made me stop. that person seemed like desperately way more invested and i sort of just felt bad #rambling now.........#anyway i should've just not engaged and it's a reminder for next time. i love discussing stuff with people but this platform does not #usually house people fully capable of that #also thank you i am indeed trying not to fry my brain #honestly even just limiting myself to making comments instead of aimlessly reblogging stuff has helped me engage with this better #f fc is the only thing ill rb... even then i must have comments via tags.. etc #little rules for myself. its a good idea i think

6 notes · View notes

terrorbirb · 4 months

Text

:((((((((( boss didn't buy me lunch like they normally do on people's last day. Commence absolute minimal effort to finish out this job.

#totes bro #he like. forgot. its not exactly targeted #just emblematic of how they take me for granted #IDK! i just think i shouldn't have to office manage my going away lunch #if he doesn't take me to dinner i will block his number upon exit so he cannot ask me any question ever #its an office joke how much i enjoy free food #absolute minimal effort from this second on #this doesnt count as one of those things that therapy would be like 'dont assume people can read your mind and say how you feel'#1. because i don't have a different relationship to him than literally every other coworker #2. he's my boss and not like someone i care about on a personal level #:((((((((((((((#not to keep bringing this up but im the only person they didnt get a wedding gift either #i. don't. care. if its usually my job to arrange this partially and remind my bosses #am i supposed to arrange my wedding gift and going away lunch because i do office managing?#i dont even have my bowl to eat my sad frozen bag of peas because i left it accidentally #i on some level knew this would be the case

8 notes · View notes

elegyofthemoon · 5 months

Text

also to anyone who plays honkai, does anyone have other translations of the game? aside from the official?

i feel like i talked about this with a friend, but the translations just. don't line up with what's being said a lot of the time and it's slightly driving me insane x - x

#like!!! i can understand bits and pieces but its not enough to understand whats fully being said #but i just know that some of the things being said do not line up with the subtitles and i want to gnaw on something when it happens #idk....#cuz like this one line in ch 11 ex where himekos in kianas flashbacks (i am crying)#himeko asks kiana whats on her mind and she says something like 'tell mama what youre thinking about'#but she doesnt!!! say that in the official dub!!!!! she just says 'tell your teacher' !!!!!!!! WHY #it is very cute though how much kiana looks to st freya cast as her family its so ; - ; i feel so bad #also the voiceacting is absolutely killing it in ch 11 ex its amaziiiing #like!! kiana was saying she was angry towards fu hua but not because of betrayal and more because she realizes she was helpless towards fat #YOU CAN HEAR THAT IN HOW SAD AND JUST ABSOLUTELY DEJECTED KIANA SOUNDS..... its amaziiiiing i love it #at least to me !#it was weird when i saw kiana get angry at fu hua because while she did look angry #her voice kinda sounds otherwise #but anyways #snow plays hi3 #just asking !! because im sure theres probably bounds of translations!! but i just dont know whats like. A Good Trusted One #so i trust. whoever plays honkai aPPARENTLY THERES A FEW OF YOU HIIIIII!!!!!!#im shaking all your hands im sorry im kind of new and probably like absolutely blissfully ignorant but i am shaking your hands #i wish there was a way to keep tabs of who Does bc then i can annoy cOUGHS #kidding! i wouldnt lmao

7 notes · View notes

sanremengoni · 7 months

Text

.

#in a very coincidental manner i have learned today that one of my dog's brothers has passed away #i don't know exactly when #i know that he had cancer before because they were at the same vet my dog and i see but i know he had recovered after chemo #mind you my dog is 11 years old and it is said that bigger dogs don't usually grow as old #now i know that this isn't really saying much #and all i can do is enjoy the time i have with my dog and take care of him as best as i can #and hope for the best #and i will be okay but #somehow this has left me feeling incredibly weird and sad #especially since this was the only one of his siblings i was able to keep any sort of track on due to the vet situation #idk i just wish dogs lived longer #they should

9 notes · View notes

aphrogeneias · 3 months

Text

i know i promised the first chapter of point of view for next monday but i'm feeling less and less like finishing and posting it, it's becoming a problem

#the rejection will hit too hard when nobody gives a fuck about it i can feel it #i wanna keep it safe in my mind where it's mine and it's not another piece of me that got overlooked and ignored #you know?#i want it to remain a good thing and not something i get sad over like my other series

4 notes · View notes

unnerving-presence · 1 year

Note

I’ve read some things about Jake muller and his mother and I wanna share a small rant: I believe Wesker left his gf not because he was evil, but because he was working for a dangerous corporation. It’s Umbrella we’re talking about 💀 of course he’s gonna want to keep dear people away. Keep in mind, his humanity vanished after he came back to life, so he still cared and loved people despite his exterior. (Or maybe I’m just being delu lelu 🥹)

oh yeah i’m pretty sure that’s canon since he got all frisky w his girl right before/after getting into the military (around 1991 and jake was born in 1992. no exact date but wesker left right around that point. capcom continues to annoy me by only giving the year and not the specific date..)

i don’t think wesker left just because he wanted to be a bad guy. he kind of had to leave to because at that point the military wanted him because they were doing their own illegal bioweapon shit. he then served until 1996 when stars was founded and he then became the captain of alpha team. wesker was a busy fucker.

here’s how i see it. i think his gf understood. he was busy and he was hired by the military to do important shit (pretty sure he never told her cause why would he 😭). then at that point they likely fucked before he left considering when jake was born and him not knowing he actually got her pregnant. she also had to get back to her normal life too, as she was a serbian immigrant living in edonia. they both had shit to do.

i personally think it’s hard for wesker to actually ‘love’ anybody considering he was practically hardwired to simply serve spencer and commit bioterrorism. do i think he loved his girl? yeah sure. if she still loved him after she went back to edonia and taught jake to respect him i think there’s a possibility. i always see it as him taking one partner and not settling for another when he already has them. he’s not gonna fall in love w anybody else LMAO

#he was just an angry bitch after getting rezzed dw #was just on his period #keep in mind throughout the years wesker felt a feeling of anxiety to literally seek out spencer #that was practically wired into his brain #you see wesker and don’t see him as ever having anxiety over anything right?#also wesker feeling like all emotions at once when spencer tells him his origins #i feel bad for him since he seemingly just buries it deep down #he seems to recover fast but we can see he still thinks about it #spencer’s been dead for years and wesker is still trying to prove himself that he doesn’t need spencer to do shit #i’m sorry wesker is just such a sad man who hides his emotions #i just wanna hold him 😭#anyways if he can feel all those emotions and bury them deep i def think it’s possible for him to love #y’all r just haters 🤬

16 notes · View notes

dishsaop · 2 months

Text

a hard part abt using multiple sets of names and pronouns is asking people to change it up a little without

A. implying theyve been doing anything wrong before now (they havent! you do use the names and pronouns theyve been using! but also variety is the spice of life),

B. implying theyd be doing anything wrong in the future if they DIDN'T mix it up (??its fine if they dont, they arent deadnaming or misgendering you so), or

C. having them totally stop using the name/pronouns they were using for you before, bc those are still also the right ones

#on the one hand ive found (w/exceptions) people who know me irl use mel and people who know me online use saf and almost no one uses he/him #which? like i dont even mind like i have no idea how to talk to people abt this without sounding like im sad theyve been doing it this way #but its just that. do u realize u have options. guys.#its also that i know *i* can be bad with using multiple sets of names and pronouns #which can be really shitty of me. i need to get better at asking people how they decline their neopronouns bc more than anything #ive found i dont always know how their personal neopronouns are declined and thats what keeps me defaulting to their #other set of pronouns (like when people use they/xe. theres a few ways to decline xe and i need to remember to ask instead of #only automatically using they. which IS shitty of me)#this was going somewhere. RIGHT #i have three names i use regularly and two sets of pronouns and i GENUINELY DO NOT MIND if you only ever use one of each #but have u heard the word. you can mix it up #m text

4 notes · View notes

cinnamon-notes · 8 hours

Text

i have been ghosting my friends for idk a month??? and they have been doing the same??? except for when we meet in a workplace cuz somehow our jobs decided to cross over :)

#feeling so bad about it but like i cant bring myself to interact with people right now but i am also constantly sad because i dont interact #with anyone out of work :/ but working makes me socially exhausted & tbh all i wanna do is be depressed with my books & my movies &my tunes #but i also crave affection like i realize i have zero social life and i sometimes schedule some hangout with my friends but it's almost #become like idk a task? something i look at through work eyes. like- i arrange our hangouts the way i arrange work meetings. it's so sad.#i know it is. but still- i cant help it. through all my life ive been missing having a lifelong friend who knows me like the back of their #hands and i know like the back of mine. never had it. cant cry over that. it's passed. i cant invent lifelong friendships that never existed #and i gotta make peace with that. plus- what am i complaining about if im just incapable of keeping any friend for longer than a month???#after the first month- maybe the first couple of months- it all gets boring and dont get me wrong i really love my friends but somehow they #lose interest in me and i lose interest in them and we become just people who know each other and occasionally hang out but like- i've never #had a friend who's there for me when things happen in my life. i've always had friends to tell things to afterwards. like- i know i cant #really pick up the phone and say “hey. im having a bad time. can we take a walk? talk on the phone? can you tell me about your day? can you #just be here for me?“ and i cant even idk just randomly pop up with a ”oh my god i hate him i hate him i hate him it's a whole montague vs #capulet but if romeo and juliet never existed kind of hatred!!“ i just cant vent right away. ive always thought that that's my problem.#and maybe it is. but still- how's come they can vent to me? im always there right away. i do love my people and i show up for them.#sometimes my depression makes it soooo difficult to hang out constantly but if there's one thing that cannot be said about mw is that i dont #care. cuz i do. and maybe that's the problem #and maybe it's just easier for me to care than let others care? idk? but then again- i did try to open up. i did try to let them care. i did #try everything by the book & off the book but still- idk it's always just an “im sorry” never an “i care so much to say more than im sorry”#and yeah it's my problem cuz i am not a constant person im not that steady in what i do. i still dont know if it's because i havent found #yet the people worth doing it or if i am just traumatized (my ex is knocking on this door lol) but- idk it makes me extremely sad!!!#and ive rambled on way too much but i jusg needed to let some things out of my mind cuz i cant understand whats wrong with me and why i #crave true friendships although im hella scared of and bored of and unwilling to nurturing one :)#cinnamon diary

2 notes · View notes

hematomes · 2 years

Text

in my ideal little world we could talk about diluc and kaeya's relationship and how its (probably purposeful) ambiguousity in the base material serves as a great example of the limits of translation and of how the choices translators make can drastically impact the entire story without it delving into a ship war full of death threats, misinformation and ad hominem arguments

#listen i studied translation for 3 years and it's literally one of the most interesting subjects in the world to me #especially when you take culture into account. when you consider how linguistic mechanisms influence said culture #ESPECIALLY when the two cultures are drastically different and therefore some concepts are nearly impossible to grasp in their entirety #and genshin is really interesting in that aspect #because the english translation comes from the japanese translation of the og chinese text #and most of the other western languages come from the english translation #and i wish we could keep in mind how several translations affect the original work #it's sad how we can peacefully talk about lore points and how the english translation missed some key points #but as soon as you mention the very mere idea that kaeya and diluc might not view themselves as brothers #(in the western sense of the word)#without even MENTIONING the possibility of a romantic relationship between them #everyone goes batshit crazy.#i have so many thoughts about them without it necessarily being brotherly or romantic #and so many thoughts abt the process of translation and how complex their relationship is as a whole #but no. it has to be very clearly either romantic or platonic and that's just sad #bc seeing them 'only' as brothers erases a part of the influence cn culture has on them #and seeing them as romantic partners discards the beauty of their relationship as platonic #genshin impact #genshin diluc #genshin kaeya

46 notes · View notes