#but i was rly hoping to make it to that event so i could cheer myself up and make some good good queer connections

[agayconcept]

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[year2000electronics]

Tumblr's being weird and won't let me find the Dark Moon rewrite post. I think there was one where you explained the story behind it, at least?

I JUST HAVENT MADE A FULL POST ON IT IM SORRYYYY but i can do bullet points of what’s going down

- so basically this kinda comes from a place of me like. liking dark moon but wishing it had more Characters. so it started with making boss ghosts and then kinda escalated

- so the plot is luigi is looking for e gadd after he went missing in a place near the mansion called evershade valley, unfortunately along the way we see a flash of lightning, a scream, and then cut to darkness

- it fades back in and it’s revealed that luigi is now... a GHOST!! oh no! (this would be the main ‘gimmick’ of the game like how mansion 3 had gooigi as a big selling point)

- he realizes he’s in a lab and he’s been captured by a ghost researcher named professor evershade who said his ghostly dna seemed different somehow so he wanted to see more

- luigi explains the situation and asks if he can help him contact e gadd but all lines to him are dead- evershade theorizes that he must have been taken by the same spectre that turned luigi into a ghost, and luigi immediately goes ‘KING BOO....’ bc who else does he have beef with.

- evershade suggests that if they defeat the four rulers of the nearby mansions they can assemble the dark moon, an artifact that will make sure no ghost will be able to cause their own mischief again

- luigi agrees, and in the meantime evershade says he can try to work on a way to see if he can change luigi back from a ghost

- he uses the same teleportation device e gadd does in dark moon to get luigi in and out of evershades lab, and luigi usually winds up in the small garden which leads to the four mansions

- (meta talk here- the multiple mansion exploring and evershades appearance are meant to kinda trick the player into thinking that it’s a ‘different character same purpose’ scenario, like how both goombario and goombella are tattling goombas)

- (you also get access to regular luigi after clearing one or two rooms in the first mansion- this serves as a bit of a tutorial segment for ghost luigis abilities and how youll be able to switch between ghost luigi and regular luigi to accomplish different tasks)

- ghost luigi probably has the power of a portrait ghost himself, so would have abilities such as the ability to scare other ghosts into fleeing a room or scaring them into doing stuff for him (which would serve as both a puzzle solution and a short-term solution for any segments where you may be stuck as ghost luigi), there are also other abilities like passing through walls (but most new rooms will be VERY dark so it would be hard to suss out details), spectral wind, etc. regular luigi is the one able to catch ghosts though, and regular and ghost forms will often interact in puzzles like a slightly less co-op based luigi and gooigi system

- the first mansion, gloomy manor, is a pretty standard mansion, it’s very old and filled w cobwebs. the boss is a spider-themed ghost, madame moufette. she says the mansions been lost to time and now only the spiders and ghosts live there

- the second mansion, haunted towers, is... actually only a one floor lobby. it’s only when you take the elevator that you realize the entire building is underground and it leads you to a literal icy bunker where an arctic ghost, macready, has spent ages under the bunker and is convinced that a light wielding beast is hunting him down

- the third mansion, treacherous mansion, is a house of illusion, led by a chess-playing ghost named rook. there are stuff like portals, tv static, living suits of armour, the like. rook’s message to luigi is that not everything is as it seems in evershade valley

- luigi comes back from treacherous mansion and gives evershade the third piece of the dark moon, which is when evershade reveals he had the fourth piece of the dark moon all along- and. here’s where things get fucky wucky i’m so sorry

- evershade lifts his goggles and takes off his hat and reveals that HE’S luigi from the future. after the events of mansion 1, luigi eventually decided to become an apprentice to e gadd and became a full time ghost researcher. things don’t seem so different at first but unfortunately e gadd game-overs and so luigi is left all on his own. which is a bummer. with his mentor gone luigi throws himself into his work, neglecting going on adventures with mario to a point that he just stops getting invited... (took mario a VERY long time to stop asking though. make no mistake) over time he becomes a bit of a recluse and his curious and observant nature kinda becomes a hunger for knowledge... he wants to know just what the strange and unusual is and what makes it tick. he also starts using professor evershade as a pen name bc ‘dr mario’ gets people asking about his research for the wrong reasons. though not only does he become more curious but he gets very very bored. ghosts are just poltergeists, tricksters... they’re nothing without a leader. luigi tries to bring back king boo, he invents all sorts of things to try- but the one thing the professor did that he didn’t was invent that damn portrait machine (which has rusted and broken with time- it’s been like, 20-25 years at this point).

- basically, what starts out as ‘i need to bring king boo back so i can have a proper rogues gallery of ghosts to study’ turns into ‘i need to bring king boo back but why would i even defeat him? this is great for paranormal studies’ so yeah. now evershade would like to see the ghost world at its fullest power

- he time travelled back to the past to try and convince e gadd to free king boo (yes he made a time machine hashtag smart) but e gadd fights back, destroying the portrait machine he built. evershade is Angry about this and decides if he won’t help him... perhaps someone else will. his ‘time machine’ is actually a large building that affects all of evershade valley, so it, how it was 20 years into the future, was brought into the past. his backup plan was to trap luigi in evershade valley by turning him into a ghost and making him collect the dark moon shards that he had always wanted but couldn’t get (his ghost researching skills are fine but his ghost hunting skills are out of shape. he could have done that in the first place but he kinda wanted to see his old mentor again.)

- the dark moon itself is an artifact split into four parts bc its effect on ghosts is too much to stand, even for ghosts- it’d give whoever owns it absolute power over the paranormal world and its residents, so the four mansion ghosts have taken it upon themselves to protect them (evershades original plan also involved teaming up with king boo to defeat the ghosts and take the dark moon for themselves)

- (actually, the fourth mansion ghost is polterpup! the dark moon piece WAS in his collar but a certain evershade stole it after the doggy lets his guard down around luigi

- evershade, using the dark moons power, casts a blacklight into king boos painting and finally frees him, offering him ultimate power and ruling over ghosts if they work together as a team. king boo finds this hashtag funny so he’s like ok

- then, luigi gets teleported out of the lab before he can try and stop them. polterpup points him towards where evershades lab has been all along- the fourth and final mansion, old clockworks

- in there luigi finds e gadd being held hostage, where he reveals evershade was trying to threaten him into freeing king boo

- as ghost luigi you also experience side effects of the dark moon in this final dungeon, like controller inputs not working or luigi needing to stop and wrestle off a headache

- so yea... final boss is basically king boo fighting you and evershade cheering him on and you need to counter king boos attacks so that they hit the dark moon and destroy it

- luigi sucks up king boo.... LOL

- evershade is defeated and he doesn’t even have an evil monologue he just kinda stares at luigi unimpressed like ‘really? this is the route you’re taking’ and luigi silently just kinda grabs onto e gadd and whatever toads are in this game. and neither of them say anything

- somewhere in old clockworks a clock goes off, and all the rest of them do too (the one time you hear every clock in sync). fade to white and e gadd and luigi wake up in an empty field where a construction worker asks if they’re ok. pan out to reveal evershade is gone and there’s apparently a construction crew hoping to build four brand new buildings here in this valley

UM THATS IT LOL.... it’s rly overcomplicated i know. i’m sorry.

[shingia]

hey first i just wanted to say that i really love ur writing and ur page i’ve been reading it a lot and i just really like ur writing style! i was wondering if you could do hc’s for the boys comforting a s/o with depression? i’ve been really struggling lately :/ and if possible could you maybe do kenma, hinata and suga? or any one of them or the others! they don’t have to be long if u don’t want, thank u so much♥️♥️

𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐬/𝐨 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐝𝐞𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧

ok uh storytime real quick : i just spent about twenty minutes crying in my bathroom and i was about to keep doing that in my bed because what else would i do?:) and just as i was getting to the part where i start aggressively hating all my work here : THIS MESSAGE ? yeah no i started ugly crying 🤧 (happy tears dw)

i rly hope these hcs will bring you as much comfort as you brought me, because whew i am 🎶🎸emotional tonite🎸🎶. anyways i’ll stop talking now : thanks again, i love you and here’s a forehead kiss for you <33

warnings : mention of depression

⇀ 𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐦𝐚 

• kenma wants to be for you who kuroo has been for him, and he’s probably the most attentive of the three because of the similarities with his social anxiety

• for example, he has developed a sixth sense that lets him know when a wave of sadness isn’t far ; and if you’re in public then he’ll have absolutely no problem with ditching everyone to take you away, focusing on you and only you

• honestly he doesn’t even need to talk to make you feel better, his presence alone is already really comforting

• kenma also refuses to sleep before you, because he doesn’t want you to be alone with your thoughts while he’s sound asleep and, therefore, useless

• kenma’s cuddles are usually passive but comfort cuddles ? much more active. back strokes, tight hugs, or just talking about your feelings, telling you about his day…

• oh and also : ♪ shouuulder kisses ♪

• when cuddling, his cats are never far, usually nestling against you to take a nap - they’re almost as soothing as him

• he probably has two or three comfort video games and he’ll offer you to play with him if he senses you need to clear your mind

• this might sound weird but kenma ‘respects’ your tears? like, he’s not the kind of guy that will immediately try to wipe them away, he knows the benefits of a good cry - and he’d prefer to let your body express itself rather than try to repress it

• i feel like he’d buy you little plants to put in your room, that way you have something to care for and it might be a motivation to get out of bed in the morning (bonus point if one of them is named kenma)

⇀ 𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐚

• hinata is terrified at the thought that he might not know how to properly comfort you, but trust me : he’s really good at it

• just listening to him talk makes it seem like absolutely nothing in this world is impossible. he’s like the embodiment of hope

• i think we can all agree on the fact that his bed is probably really plain and, let’s just say it, boring ; except for the fluffy blanket he bought for you (poor natsu probably thought it was for her)

• and you’re always comfortably swathed in this blanket every time you watch a movie together ; he loves to hold you like a burrito (probably buys himself another one because he really wants to burrito with you is that a verb?)

• he heard that making you list five things you like about yourself could help, and if you don’t know what to say then he’ll gladly do it for you until you start to come up with things of your own

• but hinata doesn’t stop at five things. he’ll list dozens and dozens because complimenting is second nature for him

• so yeah overall expect many many words of encouragement. you’re one of his greatest prides and he wants you to know it

• as cheerful and energetic hinata can be, he also knows when to get serious and just sit down and listen to you opening up about how you feel

• and if you start crying, he’ll have you scrunch your knees up to your chest, hold your whole body at once and rock you in his arms slowly. he likes to think of himself as some kind of human shield

⇀ 𝐬𝐮𝐠𝐚

• he tries to get you out in the fresh every two days or so, even if it’s only for a few minutes spent sitting in front of your place or his, he’s just glad that he could get some fresh air into your lungs

• he makes you promise to call him or at least text if you need to talk at anytime of day or night

• and if you ever do call him in the middle of the night, he will sound perfectly awake and fresh as a daisy. you’re not and will never be a bother for him

• also, he always ALWAYS calls you after practice, especially if school work makes it impossible for him to physically check on you

• suga tries to create little events you can look forward too. nothing elaborate, maybe just text you that he’ll cook you your favorite meal for dinner, and then show up holding three grocery bags full of your fav snacks and drinks

• he celebrates every single one of your accomplishments : you studied for a test even if you didn’t feel like it ? he’s proud of you ; you tidied up your bedroom ? he’s also proud of you

• overall suga really wants you to feel safe with him, he wants you to know that you’ll never ever be judged. and that’s why he probably opens up about his own struggles too, to let you know that it’s ok to be vulnerable

• on days where you really don’t feel like going out of bed, he’s ready to spend hours repeating you the most reassuring and comforting words until you’re ready to move to the kitchen and drink some water/eat something or just stretch your legs for a bit

• and if he manages to get a few smiles or even chuckles out of you, then he’ll be the happiest man

@catwithangerissues

[mirakeul]

make miracles at mirakeul’s !!!

welcome, dear @ugh-tsumu​, thank you for supporting mirakeul’s! your match will be right with you! just step this way, and you’re good to go! pardon me for the long wait, we hope you enjoy your date ! [reader uses she/her]

matchup masterlist || event details [event status ; closed]

her shoes scratched through the hardwood floor of the cafe she was meeting her partner in. the employees greeted her as she settled on a booth just near the entrance. she opted to sketch for a bit, waiting. her fingers drummed on the paper, drawing her partner for the nth time that day. 

"y/n," she looked up, seeing kuroo tetsurou, her partner. "have you been waiting long? practice just finished."

"oh, no." she said. "i just got here. let's order?"

they went and ordered some coffee and a few pastries. their cafe dates have become a regular occurrence after kuroo's volleyball practices and y/n's after school activities just so they could talk and catch up on their day and honestly, kuroo loves it.

"how was your day?" he asked. "you had that art presentation, right? tell me about it."

y/n beamed, immediately talking about her day. kuroo's eyes focused on her, occasionally offering some quips if y/n asked. he smirked as his eyes traveled to y/n's sketchbook to which she noticed. she quickly closed it, out of the prying eyes of her partner.

"why can't i see it?" his eyes were teasing as he held his hand out. 

"it's not finished, i'll let you see then." she huffed. he laughed, then nodded in defeat.

then, he looked at his phone, it was almost 7 p.m. "y/n, come on. i'll walk you home."

she smiled, tucking the notebook in her bag as she sipped on the last of her coffee. his hand found hers, interlacing their fingers as they walked, the echoes of their voices leaving a gentle lull in the night.

reblogs are greatly appreciated ! keep reading for a personal letter !

letter from you ;

Biancs !!! May I join your event? Also, cheers to us for finally feeling better! ;D

Okay, so ummm I'm Hikbi c: I go by she/her, I'm a Sagittarius and ISTP. I consider myself an introvert and an extrovert with the right people. I like art, anime, any shades of pink, and animals. I dislike tight spaces and complete darkness.

I guess it's important for me to have an s/o who is funny and who understands my humor. And also someone who is confident? To compensate with my shyness. Please run wild on which school they come from and such (and you don't have to be biased w my husbandos).

I do not have an ideal date in mind but one thing I like to do with people I love is to talk to them for hours (be it after school, at the mall, or at the ride home, etc.). Idk if this helps but I don't like arcade dates because I easily get bored and I also don't like adventure/out of town trips for a date because I easily get tired.

Thank you, Biancs ! And if I wrote something wrong, do not hesitate to dm me.

letter from me ; 

hi hikbi! thank you for always supporting me huhu ily always! hope you like this and sana nabigyan ko nang hustisya to HAHAHJKHASDJKHA LUV U MWA also, gusto q sabihin na nahirapan aq slight dito HAHAHJAJLKDHKAJS FEEL Q NGA DI SOBRANG OKAY NITO HUHU PERO AYON FEEL KO BAGAY KAYO NI KUROO dahil na rin sa mga hinahanap mo sa isang s/o and yon wala ako masyado naisingit about humor kasi wala rin akong ano ngayon HAHAHAHAH [also,,,,, im sorry for writing this in filipino HAHAHKAJHDKA it kinda just happened and im lazy to translate] i love you always, salamat! I RLY HOPE U LIKE THIS HUHU AKJSFHKJAH

[roll-da-credits]

Seeing your event made me rly wonder.... What IF Shirstorizawa had won, what would've happened???? Like, who'd win between Ushijima and Atsumu???? What would literally everyone in Karasuno feel???? 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔

Shiratorizawa + Winning Prefectural Spring Qualifiers Karasuno + Losing Prefectural Spring Qualifiers

Join my event!

(before we start lmao I haven't finished s4 so... I won't be doing anything Inarizaki haha....)

It was painful.

Everyone who watched it, fans of Shiratorizawa, fans of Karasuno, neutral watchers, all who watched the match felt the pain and sadness Karasuno went through.

With Karasuno team's heads hung low, they sat sulking on the bench. Hinata clenched his fists, holding back the tears, realizing he won't be able to meet Nekoma in the Nationals.

Every one around can feel Kageyama's anger radiating off of him. A small part of him wanted to blame everyone around him, blame himself, hate everyone around him, hate himself. At least that's what he would've done if he was still in middle school. Though on look towards his captain made him realize his pain was incomparable to Daichi's.

Daichi held in his breath, trying to stay strong for his team, he was the captain, after all, he had to be the pillar of hope for everyone around him. But how could he stay strong when his final year at playing volleyball with a team he loved dearly was ripped away from him, ripped away from all the third years.

Even Nishinoya and Tanaka were uncharacteristically quiet, they stayed silent. Unable to crack their normal jokes.

Yachi and Kiyoko desperately tried to tend to whatever the teammates needed, they understood their pain better than anyone else. They've seen the teamwork their hardest and yet to have such a loss must've been agonizing to them.

All of them felt the shame and anger of a loss once again. It hurt more this time that this loss had ended the hope of many of their fans. Hope that rose up when they had won against Aoba Johsai.

"Come on shittykawa," Iwaizumi spoke to Oikawa still seated, mouth agape.

"That was a close game," he spoke.

Iwaizumi nodded and let his gaze wander towards the sulking Karasuno.

"A terribly close game," Iwaizumi ended the conversation, urging Oikawa to leave.

Oikawa pushed up his glasses before nodding and leaving the area without a single comment. He didn't know if he would've felt more annoyed if Karasuno won against someone he couldn't beat, to be brutally honest.

Blissfully unaware of the sulking on the other side of the court, Shiratorizawa cheered. Whilst they had expected to win, the match was closer than it had ever been for a really long time. It felt like a slap of reality to their face, making them realize they won't be the volleyball powerhouses forever.

Their supporters cheered for them as the team drank water and rejuvenated themselves. As always, Tendou seemed the most cheerful and energetic. Humming to himself as he walked over towards Ushijima.

He stopped his humming when he saw Ushijima spaced out, looking at nothing, with his hand holding a bottle and sitting down. The weirdest thing was, Ushijima had a smile on his face. A wide grin-like smile.

Tendou quirked his head slightly to the side, "Wakatoshi kun!"

Ushijima's head snapped towards Tendou's direction and looked at him with a puzzled look.

"You're smiling!!!" Tendou pointed out.

At this Ushijima's eyebrows furrowed as he slowly realized he was actually smiling.

"I guess I am," Ushijima spoke.

Tendou stared at him for a moment, slightly confused, but decided not to do anything about it. He simply shrugged and went back to the rest of the team to chat around.

Ushijima still sat in silence, finally understanding why he was smiling. He hasn't felt the rush of a match for a while. The feeling of finding a rival, the feeling of actually being scared for whether or not he'd win the game.

He understood, Hinata, from the dirt, was worth more than he could ever imagine.

So, he abruptly stood and walked towards the other side of the court. Uncaring about his coaches yells for him to go back, nor his teammates' confused looks.

When he reached Karasuno's area, all of them turned their heads at him. Even Coach Ukai, who was trying to cheer up the team stood in silence, looking at him.

"What do you think you're doing huh?!" Tanaka yelled defensively when Ushijima walked over towards Hinata.

The taller man looked at Hinata with his usual stoic expression. Hinata tried his best to obviously look unphased, though he'd be lying if Ushijima didn't threaten him slightly.

"You did well," was all he said before turning his heel and walked away.

The team, unmistakably, was left speechless. A look of bewilderment was shared amongst the team. Even as Ushijima came back to his own team, everyone there who heard what he said looked confused.

"Why did you do that Wakatoshi kun?" Tendou was first to speak out, confused at his friend's uncharacteristic behavior.

"He played well," was all the explanation Ushijima would give him.

Hinata stilled when he heard those words. It wasn't like he was looking for appreciation from the Ace, and yet those words had an effect on him. An effect he didn't think would motivate him so.

As everyone else around him began walking to leave the area, he looked back at Ushijima one last time. He may have lost this time, but he'll make sure he'll make it to Nationals next year.

Right, tbh this was a bit hard to write lmfao, but I really like the practice. I've never really written anything that didn't have a reader in it unless it was my original story or with my oc's, so this was a new thing for me. Not that I didn't like it, I think its really good practice for me and I really hope you enjoyed it!!!

[icharchivist]

hiii icha!!! a very quick ask tonight (my time) lol. I’ve emerged from the cave of exams only to have… well I still have more exams. but I did take some time to chill and go thru the blazing beachside passion event! i was soooo hype when I realized it was gonna be muku juza centric like FUCK YEAH!!! we did not get nearly enough of that in the main autumn troupe story and like I get why but I’m rly glad they’re delivering here. side note I was rly glad masumi was not a part of this event lol bc it meant that the beach episode was like. normal. ummm but let’s see. I flinched at the shirtless sprites bc I was like guys. that’s hot oil. ur gonna get burned. think it may be bc today I like made enough stir fry to feed 10 people dinner lol. overall I thought this event was real sweet tho! muku as a prince and juza as his knight was a very good pairing—feel like muku specifically would appreciate that kinda setting, yknow? as always tho I have so many Feelings abt juza and this event just made me have more Feelings… he is so <3 like something abt juza makes me want to pat his head I think. like even the way when he’s like not opening up abt why he’s uncomfy with muku and tasuku is like “you trying to start a fight with us with that glare?” I was like jumping out of my seat yelling like “tasuku!!! that’s juza’s UPSET face!!!!” I feel like that’s a really common problem with juza through like so often he is feeling like. Sad or Shy or something like it and ppl interpret it as him being scary which is like. man I get why he’s so reluctant to open up yknow? and I wonder if that’s specifically why juza might gravitate to acting, out of all things—if he’s scary and intense without meaning to… well, acting is all abt projecting certain feelings emotions ideas forth right? it’s all an art of making the audience perceive u in the right way. which is something that I think juza doesn’t quite feel in his day to day life so I like to think acting helps him in that regard… hm. honestly I think I have more Thoughts About Juza than thoughts abt this event in specific lol? tasuku being so blunt with him made me smile tho, it feels like very in character that after being literally forced into a time loop so that the only way out was to reconcile with tsumugi he’d be kinda blunt abt conflict resolution right? speaking of juza I really love his casual sprite like so much bc the posing is just very. it gives this sense of cool aloofness but when u look at it u can also interpret it as him being shy and reserved and I think it like communicates that duality well? hm yeah. muku and juza were cute tho. i think it’s interesting how they both feel the other is like “too cool” for them so they feel inadequate when the communicate with each other… it’s rly interesting bc like it’s not really one person’s fault there i think? anddd closing notes I thought the mention of kyuchan/ku was nice—clearly the story’s prepping for kumon in act 2, AND like I feel with the “citronia” at the end of clockwork heart runaway royalty citron is pretty much confirmed but I’m still so happy that my small theory from Alex in wonderland is shaping up to be correct with like the “for muku’s sake, I had to play the role of a king! it was so unpleasant.” like yesssss. yesss that’s what I want! i also wish since kazunari’s nickname for tasuku is localized as “tax” they could make a joke abt him being a taxi. since he does get roped into this beach trip bc he has a car and can drive lmao. also citron saying smthing was a catwalk and being corrected to cakewalk genuinely shook me bc I thought catwalk was correct… that’s all!

HELLO FRIEND!!! it's so good to see you again

First of all, good luck through your exams, i hope you can manage through it and have a good time still :( and i especially hope you manage to find some time to rest. I am cheering for you so hard o7

Second, you have a TIMING, i was litterally talking about this event to a friend just yesterday evening. I woke up to your ask and i was puzzled for one minute like "wait WHO did i talk about this event TO yesterday" it's incredible.

BUT YEAH FUCK YEAH BLAZING BEACHSIDE PASSION! With how much you love Juza this one must have been a little pearl.

putting under cut bc it's getting long enough as it is DLKJFDLKJF

"I flinched at the shirtless sprites bc I was like guys. that’s hot oil. ur gonna get burned." fun fact, it actually happens in SR!Omi's backstage ( [Omi's House is Now Open!] - "Incident at Omi's House" if you're reading on the Archive). He gets burnt because of the oil and Izumi has to take care of him while he keeps brushing his own pain off, it's very Omi like. (speaking of backstage if you have time/energy for it, Citron's R for this event, [A Chilling Watermelon Split] - "Thrilling Watermelon Split" , is a SIGHT. I love when Citron gets murdery.)

So really you're right and they should all know better, especially you Omi, but i guess the fact it's Omi "i don't take care of myself" Fushimi monitoring the whole group may have added some issues on the careless department.

Anyway the event was great and i agree with you so much! honestly, the play made me cRY. I think it's peak Tasuku to basically talk about processing your emotions via acting and yknow what, it's helping Juza plenty, so good for him, and the play itself was just so soft. The setting of Muku as prince and Juza as the knight was so good and represent them both so well.

AND YEAH HELP, so, when i first read this event i didn't care much for Tasuku so during that scene i was just "wtf is your problem dude", but now that i Understand:tm: him i'm just, oh yeah the guy is just super blunt because he gotta expose what the main misunderstanding is and hope the person in front of him is going to at least do something to clear it if he is to help through it. Learning from Winter! in a way. But me gushing about Tasuku aside (me?? about /winter/???? This is so out of character), i agree that still it's just that It's How Juza is TwT like, Tasuku has no reason to know that he doesn't specifically hang out with him, but like. That's the issue poor Juza's facial expression get misinterpreted all the time!! Tho i think it's really a feat that we, as the audience, can now interpret Juza so well in comparaison. He's just trying so hard TwT

"and I wonder if that’s specifically why juza might gravitate to acting, out of all things—if he’s scary and intense without meaning to… well, acting is all abt projecting certain feelings emotions ideas forth right? it’s all an art of making the audience perceive u in the right way. which is something that I think juza doesn’t quite feel in his day to day life so I like to think acting helps him in that regard…" yes yes yes completely yes, it's about Juza reclaiming how people perceive him, while also learning how to make himself clearer, and, like, i don't think he expected it but it also means people are more used to his actual bodylanguage from working with him which means that it's not just about how he can work through it but how other people are doing the effort to understand him too. It's really so good.

The Tasuku's mention lmao yes this is exactly it. Man has been caught into One (1) Timeloop and just decided to not let building resentment happen again god bless this mass of muscles.

Also agreed on Juza's sprite i really love the dynamic of this one and you're really right about the duality.

and yeah i'm all with you, i really like the Muku and Juza dynamic and the way they both inspire each other and also intimidate each other? Honestly i can't blame Muku for the way he misinterpreted Juza because i feel like his Rejection reaction is just off the charts and he himself has a hard time really figuring out Juza's bodylanguage since he basically go back to thinking he's at fault there (and tbh i feel like, the fact as cousins it's likely Muku always saw Juza with Kumon there was a contrast in personality that made Muku think it was a Him Problem rather than a Juza problem), and i can't blame Juza for struggling to explain himself especially with how people just generally interpret him. But i'm just so happy they both managed to discuss it finally and that they're able to see how much they misunderstood and how much they care for each other.

Also YEAH the Kumon's build was honestly so soft. I genuinely love how the rookies are built up in act 1, i remember getting so excited when this event first came out.

FOR CITRON YES YES YES, god I LOVE Citron in this event. Like i talked about Tasuku because of course but i genuinely think Citron is doing so much like. Like!!! Citron is always going the extra mile for Muku in general, you feel that he's extremely protective of him and that he'd be willing to do anything for this kid. The fact he got really upset at being casted as a King in Alex in Wonderland, yet now is most likely the one who prompted the scenario because he knows how much being a Prince matter to Muku and you know what. If Muku wants royalty, Citron is going to give him the best one he can give him, no matter his own feelings about it. It's genuinely sweet. idk there's just something about the way Citron doesn't even complain and probably just prompt it because he is so invested in making the situation better that just makes me soft. (Citron/Tasuku being driving force about solving a misunderstanding situation tho. muah.) But yeah of course i won't say much about Citron's arc but :3c i do love how the build up is consistant there and honestly it makes it very rewarding when you catch on to it early, which you did which is great :3c

YOU'rE SO RIGHT ABOUT THE TAX NICKNAME… between being the taxi for everyone AND the fact he's constantly carrying Hisoka around, Tasuku should embrace the nickname. "Yo "Taxi" isn't writen on my forhead" while he's carrying Hisoka on his back would be a hilarious situation for everyone else to go "well. actually." and him realizing he's doomed either way.

OH YEAH OMG THE CATWALK TOO i also thought it was catwalk, weirdly enough? like, in French went we say something was easy we do say stuff like "it was a piece of cake" so i understood the idea of cakewalk in a way, but i didn't really see where the walk came from dLFKJDF meanwhile the idea of Citron managing his way through a catwalk in an "easy" way felt so Citron that i didn't question it. Like, yeah of course being on a catwalk is a piece of cake for Citron, have you SEEN Him?? the guy looks like he belongs anywhere that could put his beauty forward. But now that i think about it for normal people Catwalk probably come with more stress than Citron probably implied. Still, cakewalk…

I remember really loving this event, i loved the Muku and Juza arc and i loved the Citron bits, and upon reread i really loved the Tasuku ones too. He acts so grumpy the whole time like he didn't want to be dragged into it but he still gives his everything for everyone around him and that's genuinely soft. I also remember getting soft that he keeps track of the silly things Citron says (there's a scene just before they leave Mankai where Citron is being overdramatic, and Tasuku rolls his eyes, but then Citron refers to it again later by saying something completely different and Tasuku is just "didn't you say it was /that/ instead". King of "i'm dealing with Arisugawa everyday, i will keep of your silliness against my will i'm programmed to do that now".)

In the end i don't have much to say about Omi and Kazu despite loving the fact Omi is probably the one Juza has more reasons to be comfortable around so he can open up more easily (and that i do love that it follows up on the two of them becoming biker buddies like man. Omi i hope you live it well.), and Kazu is mostly here for the hype squad and driving Tasuku more crazy in the car with Citron and Muku but we love that about him.

This event was really good and the feelies were incredible.

Thank you once again for being back at it on my inbox <3 it's always a pleasure to see your rambles and impression on stuff, i love the things you catch and focus on! And i love thinking back about my sweet sons, they're all so great.

A pleasure to see you, and good luck with your exams still :3c

Take care!

[lotrfics]

IMAGINE: Getting married to Legolas during the quest

Pairing: Legolas x Elf Reader

Requested: Yes (Could you do a Legolas fluff where maybe the reader is an elf too and they were suppose to get married but then Thranduil sends them on to the council meeting and they do on the quest so they cancel it, and in the middle of the quest they realise they might not come back and decide to get married? Also maybe Aragorn could officiate the wedding bc he got the training for it like u could add them being like "since when can you officiate weddings" anyway I thought this could b rly cute fluff 🥺) -Anonymous

Summary: You and Legolas knew you should’ve gotten married before the Council of Elrond occurred. After a couple of unfortunate events, you both decide to get married with only a few trusted spectators.

A/N: Because anon never specified the reader’s gender, this is gender neutral. Also, I either truly suck at writing Legolas or weddings, or I just need more confidence, or have another movie marathon, even if I just had one yesterday.

The King of Mirkwood, also known as Thranduil, or Legolas’ father, had sent you and Legolas to attend some secret council meeting that was being held in Rivendell. As a result, your wedding had to be postponed, but as elves, you were both patient and it didn’t matter to either of you. Turns out, the meeting happened to be a discussion of the One Ring being discovered.

After some arguments, a hobbit volunteered to take the ring to Mordor. Gandalf was the first to assist him. You recalled a random ranger who turned out to be Aragorn, Isildur’s heir, stand up. “If by my life or death, I can protect you, I will.” He told him. “You have my sword.”

You and Legolas glanced at each other. There was no way you were going to let him go to Mordor with a small number of companions, so you both took it upon yourselves to help Frodo. “And you have our bows.” Legolas told him as you both stepped forward to the hobbit.

“And my axe!” Gimli the dwarf declared after Legolas, making you and Legolas give each other an uncomfortable glance, not happy that a dwarf who just broke their axe was coming with them. There was an awkward silence, and the man from Gondor stepped forward.

“You carry the fates of us all, little one,” he spoke, “if this is the will of the council, then Gondor will see it done.” Suddenly, you heard someone yelp and you turned to see another hobbit run to Frodo. You all assume it’s his friend.

“Mr. Frodo is not going anywhere without me.” Sam declared, arms crossed. “It is nearly impossible to separate you, even when he is summoned to a secret council and you are not.” Elrond responded.

Two more hobbits glance at each other. “Hey! We’re coming too!” One said, and they ran over to Frodo and Sam. “You need people of intelligence to go on this quest... mission... thing!” Another said, pausing at some words. His friend gave him a look. “Well that rules you out, Pip.” He scoffed.

Pip nodded for a quick second, but when the meaning of his friend’s words came to him, Pip glared at him. Elrond looked at the new group. “Ten companions... So be it. You shall be, the Fellowship of the Ring.”

“Great! Where are we going?” Pip asked excitedly. All of you were now staring at him.

That night, Legolas wrote a letter to his father about the new quest you two have volunteered to go on, that you won’t be returning anytime soon.

-

“I would have followed you... my brother... my captain... my king...” Boromir confessed to Aragorn, then passed away. Frodo and Sam ran away, Merry and Pippin got kidnapped, Gandalf fell, and Boromir just died, so now there were only four of you left.

Legolas saw you looking down at the ground. He intertwined your fingers together, making you look at him. “What now?” You asked, more to yourself than to Legolas. “I wish I knew. Just don’t lose hope. I will protect you, no matter what.” He tried to reassure you, rubbing your back. It worked a little. You two made eye contact and you gave a single nod at him.

You were either starting to slightly regret going on this quest, or you regretted not getting married much more sooner. It was more likely the latter than the former of the two. You weren’t stupid, you knew this quest was dangerous, but you had a tendency to brush things off. Boromir’s death made you realize there was a higher chance of death than making out alive. He could handle himself very well, yet he still died, so you were started to get paranoid, no one was truly safe.

Getting married during a quest is not someone’s ideal wedding, but you have been thinking about that option lately. The problem was, there was nobody there to officiate the wedding. You and Legolas can’t just say your vows to each other and kiss, that’s not how it works. The one who does the long speech must be there, so it seems like you could only wish to make it out alive if you want to get married already.

-

Yeah, you were definitely getting married in Rohan after Helm’s Deep. Another thing had happened: Aragorn fell off the cliff. Luckily, he made it out alive, but still, you had pulled Legolas aside, and told him of your seemingly wacky idea to get married during the quest. To your surprise, he had agreed.

“Do not be embarrassed, my love, it’s truly not a terrible suggestion if you consider what we are going to at the moment,” chuckled Legolas, and you remembered grinning like an idiot. Then you remembered the problem: no one was there to marry you two together. He had encouraged you to not be afraid to ask Theoden if he knew anyone that could help in Rohan 

Before you could ask Theoden, you and Legolas were talking about your plans to Aragorn and Gimli, but before you two could finish, Aragorn suddenly interrupted you both. “And who will officiate the wedding?” He asked and cocked an eyebrow. You paused for a second, before answering him. “We were actually about to get to that, and that’s the problem, no one will.”

Aragorn nodded. “I could marry you guys together.” He revealed, making you and Legolas look up at him. “Since when were you able to officiate weddings?” You asked in disbelief. If it was true, you would be glad someone would be able to help you both.

But Aragorn was not laughing as you expected, he still looked serious. “I have lived long enough to witness rangers marry each other. And usually, I would be the one marrying them. I am not making it up.” He told you both.

You broke into a wide smile, then pulled Legolas into a tight hug, startling him at first, but he hugged you back, just as happy as you were. “Did you hear that? Aragorn’s going to marry us together!” You whispered in his ear even though you already knew he heard him loud and clear.

-

You and Legolas got married after finding Merry and Pippin in Isengard, and also after Theoden’s speech about everyone who died fighting in Helm’s Deep. Because it wasn’t a normal wedding, there weren’t many people. It took place outside, because people were already partying in the castle.

There was Gandalf, Gimli, Merry and Pippin, Theoden, Eomer, and Eowyn watching. And of course, Aragorn making the speech, even though you and Legolas were too busy looking into each other’s eyes, so you didn’t hear anything he was saying.

“Do you, Legolas, take (Y/N) as your husband/wife?” Aragorn had asked the famous question, while looking at Legolas, which had caught both of your attentions.

“I do.” Legolas said happily. 

Aragorn nodded then turned to you. “And do you, (Y/N), take Legolas as your husband?” 

“I do.” You said, and grinned at Legolas.

Aragorn nodded one more time. “You may now kiss.” He didn’t even need to finish the sentence, as soon as he started speaking, Legolas cupped your face with his hands and pulled you in for a kiss. Gimli, Merry, and Pippin were all cheering, Gandalf only smiled, and Theoden, Eomer, and Eowyn were clapping. 

After you had pulled away, Legolas gave you a smirk before tugging on your hand. He began walking away, leading to wherever he wants to spend time alone with you, and you followed, playfully waving at everyone, and saw the puzzled look on their faces, making you laugh.

[almostnugget]

Christmas

Alex Mercer & Friends

Christmas isn’t Alex’s favorite holiday, but he wants to make this Christmas one to remember. So he will — with the help of a cute ghost skater, of course.

Warnings: Holiday Cheer, Mentions of Luke Running Away, Mentions of Reggie’s Parents Fighting, Breaking & Entering

A/N: originally wrote this as part of a fic exchange with some friends! it’s rly just some found family fluff with willex thrown in for good measure. also, posting this as a way of coming back lmao, hi again

Christmas wasn’t Alex’s favorite holiday. In fact, he wasn’t really sure what holiday was his favorite—if he even had one. Holidays could just be kind of stressful sometimes, but he also knew that at the end of the day, it was always just about spending time with the people you love. He liked that part.

Alex, however, knew his bandmates—save for Julie—didn’t like Christmas. He couldn’t blame them for it, either. Luke ran away from his parents around Christmastime, something he never really got over despite what he said. Reggie probably liked the idea of Christmas more than he did the actual holiday. His parents fought constantly and it always got worse in December.

Needless to say, Christmas was an odd time of year for all of them. However, Alex didn’t want it to be.

The boys were pretty much as a dead as a doornail, but they had a second chance and they had Julie now. When the holiday season began to approach, Alex knew his friends might just try to keep their heads down and avoid it all. He didn’t want to do that. After dying, they deserved a break and he was going to make sure they got it.

“Wait, we can’t just…” Alex trailed off as he looked toward the store that he and Willie were stood outside of. He looked over his shoulders at the empty street.

It was late at night, the lamps along the sidewalk lighting up the avenue in golden hues. Garlands strung around just emphasized the time of year.

“That’s stealing,” Alex whispered, earning a laugh from Willie.

“You know we’re dead, right?” Willie responded, nudging the taller boy in the side. Alex grimaced a little, looking back at the store. The lights were off, indicating that it was pretty much close. “You wanna get them gifts, don’t you?”

“Well, yeah, but…” He trailed off, unsure of where he was heading in the first place. It wasn’t like ghosts could get jobs, not that he knew of anyway.

Willie clapped him on the shoulder as Alex shot him a wary glance. As usual, his nerves were on end but the way Willie smiled at him seemed to help.

“Besides, I don’t think this place will miss anything,” Willie added, looking back toward the shop. Capitalism, ya know? Alex took a breath, steadying himself, when he felt Willie’s hand slip into his just like it had back at the museum. Could ghosts get butterflies? “Ready?”

“Yeah,” Alex breathed. With a nod, Willie tugged him into the store. The whole situation felt wildly illegal, but Willie seemed calmer about it. “I have…no idea what to get.”

Shelves were lined with items and Alex was painfully aware that he hadn’t had a plan to begin with. He had an idea, a feeling more like it.

“Dude,” Willie chuckled. “C’mon, we’ll look around.” Their hands still intertwined, Willie began to lead Alex through the store. “What about the girl in your band? Julie? Are we getting something for her too?”

“Yeah, yeah, ‘course,” he replied quickly. “This is for her too. I—I want it to be special.” Alex cleared his throat, worried that didn’t sound right. “I just mean…It’s our first Christmas altogether, after everything. So, I just thought…” he trailed off, nervously trying to avoid Willie’s gaze. He sounded too sentimental, didn’t he? This was weird, wasn’t it?

Willie just smiled, giving him a nod. “Then we’ll find her something too.”

Alex didn’t have to breathe a sigh of relief to feel the subtle weight lift off his shoulders as Willie continued to walk further into the store with him.

“Stall them?” Julie repeated, arching a brow as she looked at Alex over the kitchen counter. “How am I supposed to do that? Why am I supposed to do that?”

Alex fumbled for words, knowing the request sounded strange—all things considered. He hadn’t really told her what he was doing, he was trying to keep it a secret.

“Just for a few hours,” he added, looking at Julie almost imploringly. She sighed a little, shoulders falling. It was increasingly hard to say ‘No’ to any of the boys.

“Okay, okay, I’ll see what I can do,” Julie sighed, noticing the way Alex seemed to light up at her agreement. She was fairly certain she saw a little bit of anxiety leave his ghost body as well. “Can you at least tell me what this is for?”

“It’s…complicated.”

“I think, as your accomplice, I should know,” she hummed, leaning across the counter a little to look at Alex with eyes that were feigning innocence.

He couldn’t help but laugh a little at the notion. “It’s not— You’re not—” He cut himself off, just shaking his head. Stuffing his hands into the pocket of his sweatshirt, he stood up straight. “It’s a surprise.”

“Ooo.”

“Willie and I just need time to set it up and—“

Julie straightened up, a smile overtaking her features. “Willie?” she repeated, waggling her eyebrows slightly. Alex felt his entire face heat up—which shouldn’t have even been possible, why was being a ghost so confusing?

“I need his help, that’s all,” Alex tried to assure her. Julie nodded, tapping her fingers against the counter.

“It’s okay, Alex. You seem happy,” she explained with a shrug before taking a step back. “I’ll try and stall the guys, I guess?”

“Please.” Julie nodded, beginning to move past him. “Oh, wait! Uh—” Alex began to sputter, Julie turning back with furrowed brows. “Where do you keep your decorations?”

Alex didn’t remember wrapping presents being this hard. In his opinion, he was an excellent gift wrapper. Now, he was just sort of rolling his chosen items in decorative paper and wrapping tape around it.

“Is this where you want the lights?”

Alex looked up from his disorganized work station to see Willie standing on a chair, string lights in his hands. He gave a quick nod.

“Yeah, that’ll be fine,” he exhaled shakily. His nerves were getting the best of him again. It felt like he didn’t have enough time or that he wasn’t doing enough somehow. He wanted this event to be perfect, but what if it wasn’t?

“Alex, hey,” Willie called, tone considerably softer as he hopped down from his chair. “Are you alright?” He sounded sincere as he took a seat beside Alex on the couch.

“No, yeah, I’m fine,” Alex tried to say. He ran a hand through his hair, staring at the mess on the coffee table. Finally biting out a sigh, he turned to face the boy beside him. “I meant what I said. I want this to be special.”

Alex wondered if there was a way to possibly convey what he felt. Christmas wasn’t even that important to him, but the notion of what it meant did.

“This is our first Christmas together,” he began, Willie’s eyes watching him carefully. “Luke and Reggie, they— It’s not their favorite holiday, but we still always spent it together, you know? Even with our rhythm guitarist, Bobby. Now we’re dead. And I just—” Alex let out another sigh, shoulders falling. “I want it to be okay. Because we still have each other. We…deserve this.”

There was silence, Alex’s eyes flickering up to meet Willie’s. Willie reached out, hand setting on Alex’s knee. “Then let’s make this a good Christmas, alright?” Willie suggested with a small quirk of his lips. Alex returned the faint smile, his heart feeling marginally lighter as he watched Willie get back to his feet. Willie glanced at the table. “Why do you wrap like that?”

“It’s— The tape, it’s—!”

Willie chuckled, shaking his head as he went back to continue decorating. Alex let out his own laughter, realizing the gift-wrapping was definitely the least of his worries and best case scenario? The guys would be too elated to even notice.

When Julie, Luke, and Reggie returned to the garage—Luke and Reggie actually walking in since they were with Julie—the chatter among them quickly ceased.

The studio was decorated with tinsel and string lights, the occasional garland thrown around for posterity. A two-foot tall tree sat atop the coffee table, mini ornaments dangling from its thin branches. Gift boxes—horrendously wrapped—were scattered around it.

Julie also noticed the distinct scent of gingerbread, even though there were no cookies. Her next assumption was a candle, but she couldn’t see one—which worried her a little because if it was hidden, things might catch fire, but Alex was stood in the center of the studio looking somewhere between nervous and excited so she let it go.

“Surprise…?” Alex announced weakly, gingerly waving his hands.

“Alex? What is all this?” Luke asked, brows furrowed. His expression was hard to read and it only worried Alex further. Reggie was glancing around in awe, so Alex hoped that was a positive thing.

“This was your surprise?” Julie wondered, eyes wide and the ghost of a smile creeping along her face.

“When did it become Christmas?!” Reggie suddenly blurted, looking absolutely and completely bewildered. Ghosts really had no sense of time.

Willie nudged Alex in the side, offering him an encouraging smile. “Do you wanna open your gifts?” Alex questioned, gaze quickly flickering between his friends.

“You got us presents?!” Reggie nearly cried, looking so genuinely stunned that Alex began to once again wonder how he was the emotional one. Luke raised an eyebrow, not saying anything yet.

Julie smiled towards Alex, balancing on the balls of her feet a little. Her brows then furrowed. “Wait…is Willie here?”

“He is,” Alex replied, a little deflated at the fact Julie couldn’t see him. “He helped with the decorations.” He cleared his throat before the silence could fully settle. “So? Gifts?”

His bandmates headed toward the couch, varying degrees of excitement to their stride. Julie wasn’t necessarily excited, but she walked a little lighter now with a smile pulling at her lips. Reggie looked like a kid in a candy store. Luke, though, seemed as if he was still thinking it all over.

Alex hastily went to hand out the gifts to their rightful owners. Reggie tore into his gift immediately.

“Alex!” He gasped excitedly. Tossing the paper aside, he held up the two pairs of socks in his hands. One was adorned with cute dogs, the other with cute cats. He instantly began to kick off his shoes to replace the socks already on his feet.

“Reg, no,” Luke started, shaking his head and trying to take the socks away. “No one wants to see your feet—”

“Open your own gift!” Reggie exclaimed, batting Luke’s hands away. They began mildly roughhousing, Luke trying to snatch the socks, as Julie attempted to ignore them and open her own gift.

“It’s a planner,” Alex stated as Julie unearthed the set of notebooks. “And a journal! I couldn’t really decide which you’d like better, so I thought you’d just like both?”

Julie smiled fondly, opening the planner to note the cute positive quotes that accompanied each day. “Alex, this is so nice. Thank you,” she replied, glancing up at him.

Alex returned the look, feeling better with his gift choice now. He gave a glance towards Willie, Willie smiling slightly in return. When a pair of socks flew across the room, Reggie scrambling after them, Alex looked back toward Luke.

Luke sighed a little, beginning to unwrap it. Pulling out a hoodie, Luke turned it over in his hands as Alex noticed the slight quirk of his lips. Whatever apprehension he had began to fall away.

“Sweet,” Luke exhaled, deciding he was particularly fond of the clothes. He looked up at Alex. “Thanks man, really.”

“Oh, you’re gonna actually wear something with sleeves?” Reggie remarked from across the studio, clearly a little upset about the fact his new socks had been thrown from the couch.

“What’s that supposed to mean?!” The others in the garage glanced toward Luke’s very exposed arms. “Hey!”

“Wear sleeves and maybe we wouldn’t have to say anything,” Julie mused, continuing to thumb through her newfound planner.

Chuckling, Alex put his hands in the pockets of his denim jacket as he watched his friends interact. Suddenly, Julie turned her attention to him.

“So, why all this?”

“Oh, uh,” Alex stammered, looking between his bandmates. “It’s our first Christmas together, so I thought that…I just wanted it to be good. We’re all together, and that’s the point.”

Julie smiled softly, looking over at the boys. Reggie stopped focusing on his newfound socks to look at Alex, practically beaming. “I did say you guys were my family. And I meant it!” He remarked, definitely leaning into this newfound twist on the holiday. It wasn’t perfect, but none of them were either.

Alex shifted his attention to Luke. “It is good, Alex,” he admitted, Alex breaking into a smile. “Seriously. Though, you really can’t wrap, huh?”

“The tape!” Alex shot back. “And the scissors, it was just—”

“You were bested by tape?” Reggie asked, brows furrowing as he looked at Alex. “Dude.”

“Just enjoy your gifts!” Alex huffed, before realizing the problem. He whirled around to face Willie. “I forgot to get you a gift! I’m so sorry, I completely forgot I didn’t even—”

“Alex, it’s fine,” Willie chuckled, reaching out to set his hands on the taller boy’s shoulders. “Really.”

Brushing past him, Willie moved towards the door as Alex followed. “I’m still so sorry. I should’ve gotten you something or even—”

“Alex,” Willie said, effectively hushing him. Alex stopped before he could evolve into full-blown rambling. A smile tugged at Willie’s lips. “I spent practically the entire day with you. I think that qualifies as a gift.”

“Oh.”

“Are you talking to Willie?” Julie suddenly cut in, the pair glancing over at them. She even managed to catch Luke and Reggie’s attention.

“Yeah,” Alex responded, nodding toward the ghost in front of him—even if Julie couldn’t see him.

Julie smiled suddenly. “Well…” She trailed off, eyes flickering upward at the plant hung above the door before she looked back to her planner.

Alex glanced back at Willie, any adequate response dying in his throat. The knowing smile on Willie’s face seemed to tell Alex that he had done this, which only flustered the drummer further.

“What were you saying about getting me a gift?” Willie asked, a trace of mischief lacing his tone. Alex stammered for a response, before letting out a nervous chuckle.

Alex ducked his head, connecting his lips to Willie’s in a kiss that felt all too short afterward. It was short, but ultimately sweet and it brought all of Alex’s nerves back in an instant—though this was entirely different.

“I’ll see you later, Hotdog,” Willie said with a smile after they broke apart. Alex couldn’t even properly say goodbye as Willie left, his brain practically short circuiting.

Luke let out a whistle that snapped Alex out of his thoughts. “Guess it is a pretty good Christmas,” Reggie teased, arms crossed over his chest as Alex failed to hide the bashful smile on his face.

Christmas wasn’t his favorite holiday, but he still definitely enjoyed it.

[steamingramyun]

perfect ; xmh.

summary ➷

you’re getting ready for a date you don’t really want to go on. luckily, minghao, your college sweetheart, is always there to cheer you on. 

pairing ➷

xu minghao x fem reader feat. jeon wonwoo

genre ➷

oneshot, angst, fluff

just a little.... bit of sadness. 

word count ➷

3696 words

alternative universe ➷

non-idol au, college sweethearts.

warnings ➷

major character death, illusions, and memories due to grief.

author’s note ➷

i read something like this a while ago, about someone holding on to their ex’s memory and i decided to write it for minghao since anon wanted a sad!minghao fic.. this one rly hit me in the feels when i wrote it like i kid u not i was crying in my pants at 3am in the morning. anyway, i hope you enjoy. 

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[7 november 2019; 1 year after]

“isn’t this like, too much? i don’t know maybe it’s too seductive or something, maybe i look like i’m trying too hard? do i?” you said nervously, turning to your side and pulling the hem of your dress down as you looked in the mirror. the light blue sundress came to just above your knee, exposing your legs. it had been an impulse buy on a shopping trip your friends had dragged you out on to “get some sun”. kind of ironic that you’d ended up with a sundress of all things. you’d paired the sleeveless dress with a pair of white tennis shoes, simple gold studs on your ears to match the gold anklet that curled around your right leg. 

“is it really too showy? it’s the first date anyway, maybe it’s too much right..” you bit your lip, letting out a deep breath and surveying your reflection. you turned towards the boy perched on your bed, who was looking up at you with a smile on your face. “well? is it?”

“you’re going out for lunch, right? you look perfect, baobei, like always,” he replied, almond-shaped eyes studying your outfit. “and you’re wearing the anklet i got you. definitely a winner.”

“i never take it off, hao-ah,” you touch the piece of jewelry gingerly, the charms smooth on your fingers. you stop at the infinity sign charm, sighing with a sad smile. 

[12 december 2017; 11 months before]

“it’s an infinity sign, i put it there because i wanted you to know that i’ll be by your side for an infinite number of days,” minghao said shyly, blushing as you looked at him from across the couch. “wow, is this xu minghao being cheesy? where’s my camera i need to record this,”

it had been a lazy night in for the two of you, but minghao had come home and surprised you with a beautiful gold anklet with all your favourite things on it. you loved it, of course, but your boyfriend really wasn’t one for cheesy gifts or anything cheesy for that matter. if you weren’t lying on the couch with your feet in his lap, you’d have pinched his cheeks for how cute he was being. 

“shut up, y/n,” he pouted, a deep red blush continuing to creep up his cheeks at your comment. you only grinned wider. “oh my gosh hao, you’re blushing, you cheesy hoe,”

instead of a pout this time, though, you got a mischievous grin from your boyfriend as he began tickling your feet. you yelped, giggling uncontrollably and jerking your feet away from him although it proved useless once he’d moved up and begun attacking your side and neck. you’d never laughed more in your life than you had that night. 

“still. you always look perfect,” he said in his usual calm, matter-of-fact tone, leaning back against the pillows, “well i mean unless you’re covered in purple cupcake frosting,”

his too-long bangs fell into his eyes as he burst into a new fit of laughter. you almost instinctively told him to shut up and get his bangs trimmed, but bit back as a smile formed on your face. his bangs were always too long, and you always loved seeing him smile. even if it was about an unfortunate event involving your niece’s school bake sale and the frosting that you’d made for the cupcakes. “we don’t talk about that. it was one time,”

“sure we don’t. but remember our first date? you showed up in a denim jacket even though it was like, boiling outside,” he teased, pushing his bangs out of his face and adjusting the blanket around his legs. “i could tell you were dying, your cheeks were flushed. but it was cute so i didn’t say anything,”

you wrinkled your nose at him, crossing your arms. “i only wanted to impress you! i was going on a date with a dance major, y’all are overly fashionable and put together for no good reason! i was pressured. but then of course you went and showed up in just a plain t-shirt and jeans and ended up looking like a mf GOD.”

you pouted at him through the mirror, watching him shake his head and pat the spot on the bed next to him. you plop down on it readily, letting out a big sigh. “i’m nervous, what if he hates me once we're on the date itself. like he’s cute but it’s kind of weird that we met at grief support group.. plus it's even weirder that we’re going to the theme park after lunch, right?”

for a few moments, minghao didn’t reply. the theme park was somewhere special for the two of you and had been a fortnightly affair back when you were in your second semester of college because of how close it was to your school. you hadn’t been there for nearly a year though since it had been too much of a hassle and too tiring to go for him after he'd gotten sick. “i think you should just go and have fun, babe,”

“but hao - he’s not you-”

“don’t say that,” minghao interrupted, his tone going serious as he looked at you with piercing eyes. minghao always had a sort of finality and sureness about what he said, and you met his gaze nervously before he continued. “you’re beautiful. you were perfect for me and if this guy doesn’t see you the way i did then i think he’s an idiot. so stop second-guessing yourself and just have fun.”

“but-“ you hesitate for a moment, but his eyes don’t leave yours and you end up giving in to him, sighing in defeat. “fine, okay,”

you get off the bed and go into the bathroom, finishing up your makeup and instinctively brushing pale red eyeshadow onto your eyelids, it'd always been minghao's favourite colour on you. 

finishing your hair in a ponytail, you walk out with a wide grin on your face but look down only to see your ex-boyfriend asleep, his chest rising and falling rhythmically with each breath. your smile fell a little as you watched him, memories of the past you both had shared still fresh in your head. 

you were still undeniably in love with him, sith the way his slightly-too-long hair fell in his face in the mornings when you both woke up, with the way his eyes crinkled up and disappeared when he smiled too wide, with how he'd always spend too much time choosing an outfit in the mornings for dance practice and asking you if it was dancer-y enough, with his intense passion for everything he did and loved. you loved how the two of you used to go on spontaneous dates, to the beach near your campus at 2 in the morning or to the convenience store when you were craving ramen and ice cream. you loved how easy, how effortless being in love with minghao had been, even when it had gotten tough on the two of you in the last months when his situation had taken a toll on the both of you. all you wanted was him, everything about him, and it was all you'd have ever needed in life. but clearly that wasn't the way the universe willed it to be for you. 

if you were being honest, you didn't even know why you were going on this date. but everyone was forcing it on you, they'd been forcing it on you for over a month. your friends sent you tinder profiles and screenshots of eligible classmates' instagram accounts. they all felt it was time for you to find someone new- it had been almost a year, after all. but you'd been asked out by wonwoo two days ago at the support group, and the two of you had actually been getting along quite well. as an added bonus, he was an economics major at your school so the two of you had been getting quite close over the past few weeks, spending time studying together and eating lunch together in between classes. but somehow.. you still felt hesitant. 

"hao! i'm ready," you call, waking minghao from his short nap. "and i'm twenty minutes early."

he blinked at you tiredly, smiling at how pretty you looked before shooting you a mischievous grin. "you always were too early," 

his light teasing made you want to push him as he mischievously pulled the blankets all the way up until only his eyes and the top of his head were exposed, eyes crinkling at the corners as he giggled once more. you went for it but then hesitated, watching him as he calmed down and pushed the blankets down again.

“hao…” you said softly, looking down at him.

he opened one cat-like eye at you, intrigued and attentive. “yes, baobei?”

“i think- i think i still love you,” you admitted shamefully, tears filling your eyes and trickling down your cheek as you clasped your hands tightly, knuckles turning white from the force, "and i don't know if i'm ready to let go of you just yet."

shaking his head, he sat up before meeting your eyes and smiling sadly at you with an odd sort of familiar fondness. "i love you too, Y/N, i always will. but don’t cry for me anymore, okay? you can move on too, i want you to be happy. don't cry for me anymore.”

you don't know what to say, silently staring into space but eventually turning back into the bathroom to fix your make-up. you finished it, walking back out only to be greeted by minghao's proud smile. "you look beautiful. like always," 

even if you had no make-up on, or were wearing the world's most horrifying pair of patterned pants, minghao always thought you were beautiful. and he always told you so, no matter what.

[20 september 2018; 3 months before.]

you'd been working on your essay for the past hour or so, sitting in the padded chair next to minghao's bed as you waited for him to wake up. you were halfway through your third point when you'd heard the sheets shift next to you. 

"y/n.. you're still here? you have class tomorrow, baobei, go back to your dorm and get some real sleep, please, the visitor's chairs are very uncomfortable," he said tiredly, eyes half open and hand squeezing yours gently. you tried not to show how worried you were about how cold his hand felt in yours. 

"i- it's okay, at least here i can look like a mess without the nurses judging me, right? if i go back to school i'll have to do my makeup to look decent," you said quickly, not wanting to leave his side yet. you did look like a mess, your hair in a bun, still wearing your clothes from the dance practice you'd run from and lipstick cracking because of the dry hospital air. it probably wouldve been a good idea to go home, but you couldnt bring yourself to do it. you watched as he frowned slightly, obviously not wanting you to waste your time or cause you to lose precious sleep and rest by making you stay with him. 

"you still look beautiful, baobei, you'll always look beautiful to me. but you'll be more grateful if you go back and get some real sleep okay? i'm not going anywhere anytime soon," he joked, gesturing to himself and the iv needle poking out from his elbow. "so go back, get some rest, and come here even more beautiful for me,"

and so you'd gone home that day, but returned every day after you classes. minghao'd stopped going to his two months before.

you smiled at him as confidently as you could, tightening your ponytail and grabbing your handbag. "i guess i'm ready, huh?" 

minghao nodded in affirmation at you, pulling back the covers to reveal the black cotton dance pants he always wore to practice but had also taken to wearing to bed because they were so comfortable. he slipped his feet into the slippers you still kept around for him under your bed, standing up and going out of your room and to the downstairs part of your apartment. 

you quickly followed his figure down, butterflies of anxiety filling your stomach and chest. when you got downstairs, minghao was on the couch, bottom half covered with one of your many extra blankets and a book in his hand, reading intently like you'd always see him when you got back from school.

[15 october 2018; 50 days before.]

"good evening, baby," you called to your boyfriend who was in his usual spot on the couch, a cup of tea on the table and a book in his hand. he looked exhausted, skin slightly pale and cold, a stark contrast from the healthy glow you remembered from months ago. "how do you feel?" 

"tired," he said softly, leaning into your neck as you came to sit with him, "and a little sick, but better now that you're back here," 

you felt bad, ever since minghao had started treatments you'd always tried to be back early so you could go with him. but that particular day you had a dance class to teach at night and couldn't make it, so your friend jun had offered to go with minghao instead. you felt guilty because you knew how sick treatments made minghao feel, but you also knew he was far too stubborn to let the bad feelings show if it meant compromising your own routine and activities. that night the two of you had just cuddled on the couch, falling asleep together to harry potter and the goblet of fire playing in the background. 

"babe? i'm still nervous. i can't shake it," you approached, sitting down on the other couch and lacing up your shoes. this time he really didn't reply at all, only shaking his head and looking up at you meaningfully. you know what he would've said, he'd told you everything earlier. 

"i'll come visit you later, okay?" you promised, standing up and slipping your wallet and phone into your handbag. he waved you off, "no need, i'll be fine."

you sighed. he'd always been the one to pay you visits when you needed them the most, though. 

[6 april 2018; 8 months before.]

you ran your hand through your hair again, gently massaging your scalp in attempt to relieve the gnawing headache that had been plaguing you for the past two hours. finals season was absolutely brutal, and you couldn't tell how long you'd been studying but you were far from sanity and could barely digest any more information. 

a knock on your door pulled you from your desk, and you nearly melted with relief when you saw a smiling minghao holding a takeaway tupperware of noodles and a box of fruits for you. "i heard someone was being killed by the exam monster," 

he'd calmed you down that night, making sure you finished all your food and rubbing your shoulders with traditional medicated oils to relieve the tension in your head and neck. the next day, you'd done the exam with a clear head and passed with flying colours. 

you couldn't do the same for minghao now, but the least you could do was pay him a visit like you knew he would have done for you. even if it was after a date. 

putting his book down, he gave you the same stern look as he had earlier. "baobei, you know you can let me go right? you don't have to keep holding on like this. you're strong, i know you can. maybe you'll be happier when you do,"

"no. i don't want to," you retorted quickly, snapping a little. he did nothing but sigh in response. "then i guess you're going to be late for your date,"

you looked over to the clock and nodded, slinging your handbag over your shoulder and looking at him expectantly. "well? you're coming too, right?" 

he sighed again, but rose from the couch anyway and slipped on his pair of dance shoes you kept in the shoe cabinet next to the door. you walked out of your apartment together, taking the elevator down and walking out onto the almost-empty street of your campus- it was the new year season and everyone had gone home to their families, but you were a foreign student and wonwoo lived too far away from campus to go home. 

"i hope wonwoo's nice.. from what interaction we've had he seems pretty chill," you chimed, trying to break the tension that was growing between minghao and you. 

"i think he'll be great," minghao replied quickly, "and i'm sure the two of you will make a great couple, i know he'll make you happy," 

you pulled a smile onto your face, but it was far from genuine. minghao could tell. of course he could tell, he'd been with you for years. but as much as he knew you didn't want to be on this date, he knew it'd be good for you to try some chance at love again. 

the two of you finally arrived in front of the small café you'd agreed to meet wonwoo at, but instead of going in you stopped at the entrance hesitantly. "hao? i can't go, i just can't."

"y/n, this is for the best okay? you like wonwoo, from what you said i know he likes you too," minghao sighed, "this is why i shouldn't have come, how many times do i have to tell you to let go?" 

"i know, but i just-" you say desperately, but you don't know what to say anymore. you know he's right, you know everyone is right by telling you to move on. 

"i can't keep being here for you, baobei,"

"i love you minghao,"

silence. another deep sigh. 

"i know you do," 

a pause. silence. more tension. and then, finally, "y/n, i need to go,"

you panicked immediately, head shooting up in shock as you begged him to stay. "what? no, no no no, minghao you can't go anywhere, you have to stay here with me, you have to stay with me," 

you reached for his wrist but he was too fast for you, pulling away before your fingers could touch his skin.

"minghao you can't leave me, please,"

"i have to go,"

"you can't, i need you!" 

but he didn't reply. there were tears in your eyes, tears that were hot with anger and pain and grief and guilt all at the same time. tears threatening to spill down your cheeks, but he didn't reply even then, only walking further away from you. 

"minghao, please. minghao you cant leave me again!" you said helplessly, your voice raised, drawing attention to yourself. you felt the concerned gazes of passers-by on you as you panickedly looked around for minghao's tall figure, but he was nowhere to be seen. he was gone. 

"hao, i can't do this without you," you whispered helplessly to the air. "i need you to be in my infinity," 

"you can. you can and you will. you're everything anyone could ever want,, y/n you're perfect," you hear minghao's soft voice echo in your head. you freeze, letting a single tear fall and trickle down your cheek. "you're perfect no matter what," 

you shook your head again, denying it. "i can't let you go, i can't,"

but then you could've sworn you felt his hand in yours, warm and full of life again. the same hand you'd held through thick and thin that had grown colder and paler but was now back to the state it had been in when you'd first met. the hand that had kept you strong for years. 

"you can. and you will be happy for years and years to come and then we will meet again. i promise," you rubbed the tear from your cheek, listening to his voice for the last time in your head. you knew he was right, you knew he was right just like all of your friends. you'd spent months avoiding people because you'd thought that you had all you needed at home, that the memory of a love you'd lost was always going to be enough for you. but he was gone, he'd become a star in your night sky and it finally became real to you that he wasn't there anymore, and it was high time that you move forward with your life. 

you could see his smile in your head, the smile you'd woken up to on countless mornings and fallen asleep to on countless nights. you thought you'd be lost without him, to guide you, relying on a memory to get you through the pain. but as you looked through the window of the café and saw wonwoo smiling at you, sitting at a table for two with two cups of iced coffee in front of him, you knew it was okay. 

minghao wasn't here anymore. but it was okay. 

"i'll see you soon, hao-hao," you whispered with finality as you walked into the café and waved at wonwoo. xu minghao had been the best thing that had ever happened to you. and you knew it would take a while, but for him, you had to try to learn to be happy with someone else. 

so you take your seat from across wonwoo, and smile brightly at him. "hey, wonwoo, sorry to keep you waiting so long,"

"no, it's fine, i heard from soonyoung that today's actually a difficult day for you,, not a very first date question but it's your ex-boyfriend's birthday isn't it? the one you come to support group for,"

"it is, but i figured he'd want me to have fun today instead of wasting it alone at home feeling sad," you pause for a second, "he passed away a year ago, actually. he, um, got sick when we were in our junior year of college together," 

wonwoo smiled and nodded at you, listening to what you had to say. "i'm glad you decided to finally take a chance, y/n," 

"yeah," you smiled back, sipping on your coffee with newfound lightness on your shoulders. "yeah, me too, wonwoo,"

[pl-dubois]

Just... Happy - Nolan Patrick

A/N: hoooooooly shit hi!! i’m finally back with another fic lmao took me long enough. realistically, i should’ve posted this fic (when was the stadium series??)  a month ago but i didn’t so i’m doing it now! this was really fun to write and i think it’s rly cute and i hope you guys do too! feedback and comments are always welcome!! Word Count: 2022

Glancing at the clock, you saw it was already 8pm and groaned loudly to yourself.  You were supposed to be at home, watching the start of the Stadium Series game that your boyfriend and his team had been excited about since it was announced.  But instead you were here, stuck behind some car that was going even slower than they needed in order to teach you a lesson about being impatient.  All you wanted to do was curl up on your couch, watch the game, and not move until Nolan got home.  You pressed down on the gas pedal a little harder, trying to send a message to the driver you were following to hurry the fuck up.  Fortunately, you were only about 5 minutes from home, but unfortunately, the car in front of you made the journey feel like an eternity.  At this rate, you hoped you would only miss the anthem and starting lineups, not puck drop.

As if your day couldn’t get any worse, the vehicle you were following decided it was a great idea to slow down even further to piss you off more than you already were.  It was bad enough that you had to work, but that was just the icing on the cake.  Letting out an angry shout, you hit your steering wheel and quickly managed to regain your composure after taking a few deep breaths, but even the thought of work alone made you beyond angry.  It was the reason that you weren’t able to see Nolan play in person tonight.  You had tried to take the day off weeks ago, even argued with your boss about it when he denied your request, but eventually had to give up the fight at the threat of losing your job.  

The car in front of you slowed to turn and you sighed in relief, finally being able to speed just a little to ensure you got home in time.  Soon enough, you were pulling into your building’s parking garage and your next few minutes went by in a blur.  One minute you were getting out of your car about to sprint up to your apartment, and the next you were settled on your couch in more comfortable clothes with the game on.

You knew it was going to be a good eventful game from the moment you sat down.  However, when the first of many scrums broke out early in the first, you got up to pour yourself a glass of wine; it was the Flyers and the Pens, you were going to need to do a little self-medication.  After sitting back down, you then proceeded to experience a rollercoaster of emotions as the game progressed:  booing whenever the Penguins scored, cheering when your boys scored, almost spilling your wine when you gasped and covered your mouth in shock and worry when Nolan got hit, shouting “That was hot, Nols,” at your TV when your boyfriend delivered the retaliation check back, and disappointment when you thought the boys couldn’t get the lead back.  

Fortunately, you were wrong.

You were on your third glass of wine, and had finished just about half of it, when Jake came in hot and tied the game.  This time, when you jumped up to cheer, your wine went with you.

“Fuck!” you exclaimed, your excitement getting cut short.  Running to grab paper towels, you mumbled to yourself,  “Oh my God, please don’t set in the floor, please not the floor.”  Thankfully, you got to the spill before the red stained the hardwood and managed to clean up the mess before the break for overtime had ended, which meant you could be stressed out while watching the game again.  Both teams had played well, and both teams had been very aggressive, but now it was down to the wire.  You thought you were on edge when you started biting your nails as overtime began, but when Nolan took to the ice, your increasing heart rate told you otherwise.  Your eyes were glued to the TV screen with rapt attention, hope and nervous energy filling your body.  And then, just like that, the game was over.

“CAPTAIN CLUTCH!!!” you jumped up, laughing and shrieking with joy.  “Oh my God, and Nolan with the primary assist!”  You sighed, relieved, and flopped back onto the couch with another laugh.  You had to go out to meet the boys now, there was no doubt about it.  

You stuck around for the first bit of the post game, but ultimately gave up, knowing you’d hear all about it from the boys anyway.  Sending TK a quick text inquiring about after game plans, you changed out of your lounge clothes and did a little bit of light makeup.  After putting in a request for an Uber, the buzzing of your phone told you that Teeks had gotten back to you.  Laughing at his ridiculous use of emojis, you slipped on your shoes and went down to wait for your driver.

You arrived at the address TK had sent you in good spirits.  Thanking your driver, you made your way inside the crowded venue looking for your boys.  The smell of alcohol and sweat was almost overpowering and you had already lost count of how many people bumped into you just as you tried to make your way away from the entrance.  You scanned the crowd for a bit, looking for any familiar faces, until finally Travis and Ivan fell into your line of sight.  Silently thanking the amount of wine already in your system, you braved the mass of people to make your way over to the pair.  Sidling up to Teeks, you grinned at Ivan and raised your voice above the blaring music.  “Did I miss anything big?”

“Y/N!” Travis exclaimed, turning and wrapping you up in a giant hug.  “You’re here!”

“I am!” you laughed, worming away to give Ivan a quick hello hug as well.  “Sorry I couldn’t be there in person, guys.”

“Uh no, don’t even,” TK waved you off, letting arm rest on your shoulders, “you’re here now and that’s all that matters.”

“Okay, okay fine,” you laughed, glancing around.  “Wait, have you guys seen Nolan?”

The only response you got was Ivan pointing behind you with a smile.  Turning around, you met the gaze of your boyfriend who was quickly making his way over to you.  You met him halfway and with a huge grin, he pulled you into his arms in a hug that caused your feet to lift off the ground.  He spun you just a little, and you laughed and poked him in the back as best you could.  “Nolie, put me down!”

Your request was granted, but as soon as you were back on the floor, Nolan’s large frame bent over yours and captured your lips in a breathtaking, passionate kiss.  You felt the sounds of the venue fade away as you were lost in the feeling of Nolan and Nolan alone.  You pulled him ever closer, threading your fingers through the soft hair at the nape of his neck, the familiar taste and smell of him causing you to finally relax after a stress filled day.

After what felt like an eternity, you finally pulled away from each other.  The kiss itself left you lightheaded and you had to steady yourself by clinging to your chuckling boyfriend.  Looking up again, you met Nolan’s eyes as he grinned down at you.

“Hi there,” he said, giving you a light squeeze where his hands were resting on your hips.

“Hey, handsome,” you beamed in return, sliding your hands across his shoulders and letting them rest on his chest.  “Someone’s in a good mood.  Wonder why that is.”

His only response to your words was a laugh and an even bigger smile.  Momentarily forgetting you were in a public space, you reached up to caress Nolan’s cheek and raised yourself up onto your tiptoes to return the loving kiss he had greeted you with earlier.

But just as Nolan had pulled your body flush against his and deepened the kiss, you heard someone clear their throat behind you.

“Okay, lovebirds.  I definitely think that’s enough,” Travis laughed as Nolan quickly pulled away and straightened up.  You felt your face go hot; you already knew that the flush in your cheeks mirrored his own.

“Sorry,” Nolan smiled sheepishly over your shoulder at his friends behind you, tucking a strand of hair behind his ear.  Taking a small step backward, to put a little distance between the two of you, he met your gaze once again.  Even in the low lighting, he was absolutely stunning.

“I’m really glad you decided to come out,” he said, just loud enough for you to hear. “I missed you tonight.”

“I missed you to, Nol,” you frowned, remembering once again that you hadn’t gotten to see him play in person. “I’m so sorry I couldn’t make it…”

He was quick to wave off your apology.  “Don’t even worry about it.  You’re here with me now.”  Looking down at you, his eyes were filled with so much love and adoration, you could’ve melted right where you stood.  You just nodded in response with a small smile before leaning up to press your lips to his once again, briefly but sweetly.  

“Congrats, baby,” you murmured when you broke apart, fingers playing with the ends of his hair.  “You deserved this.”

With a laugh and a fond shake of his head, your boyfriend all but swept you up in yet another electrifying kiss.  The way he moved his mouth against yours was intoxicating, but the alcohol already in your system was definitely playing a part in that as well.  As Nolan broke the kiss gently, he let his forehead rest against your own.

You let your eyes flutter closed as you just enjoyed the feeling of his warmth near you, sighing softly.

“You okay?” came Nolan’s voice, tinged with just a hint of worry.

“Yeah,” you opened your eyes again with a smile to meet his bright blue ones.  “Just… Really, really happy.”

“I love you so much,” he smiled softly, tracing light circles into your hips with his thumbs.  “I’m so lucky to have you.”

Before you had a chance to respond, Nolan suddenly straightened up and declared in realization,  “That’s it!  You’re my good luck charm!  You were watching, and we won.”

“Nol, I always watch your games,” you giggled at his dramatics.

“Well, yeah.  But this is different!”

Letting out a full laugh, you playfully gave him a little shove.  “Yeah, okay, Patrick.”  You glanced around you looking for the friends that had been teasing you earlier, but were now nowhere to be seen.  

“I think we grossed Teeks and Ivan out,” you joked with a grin, taking Nolan’s hand and giving it a small squeeze.  “Shall we go find them?”

“Oh definitely,” he smiled in return, pressing a light kiss into your hair before leading you into the throng of people in attempt to locate the rest of his team.  The way he was being more open and smiley than usually made you wonder if he had gotten ahold of some alcohol, though the adrenaline of coming off of such a big win played a part as well. You knew the carefree, more laid-back side of Nolan from when the two of you were alone at home.  His mood tonight was infectious; a smile had never left either of your faces and it made you beyond happy to see him like that.   Gazing up at him, your heart was overflowing with love and you thought the butterflies in your stomach were going to somehow escape from you.  Even after being together for some time, you still felt the same way as you did at the beginning of your relationship.  Being with Nolan was easy; he loved you unconditionally and you loved him right back.  No matter what, you knew he’d be right by your side and you couldn’t be luckier to have found someone who understood and treated you as well as Nolan did.

[felassan]

hi! I'm in the Glasgow area and the atmosphere last night was buzzing and it felt amazing to see all the pro-indy people in Buchanan Street singing flower of Scotland, but I'm genuinely terrified incase in this next referendum we still don't get independence and we basically become north England - 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 (ps hi! I'm the anon from a few months back that was talking about the lack of Scots on Tumblr! :) )

hello friend!! v sorry for my late/slow reply, these last few days in the run-up have been pretty crazy.. I remember!! & I hope you’ve been well. cut for length.

I went to the rally outside Holyrood in Edinburgh last night. the atmosphere was similarly buzzin and it was amazin to see - everyone so united and upbeat in the face of everything, singing and chanting and listening to speakers and cheering and stuff, despite the inherent sadness and sombre tone of the occasion and date. + all the folk at these events are so friendly and welcoming.. I’m happy to hear it was the same at the Glasgow event, and am glad you went to one to support! I saw some footage of Glasgow’s on social media and it looked so nice and lovely! our events rly are in such a stark contrast to the atmospheres and environments found at pro-Brexit/Unionist ones.. rly wish I could have split myself into multiple bits so I could have attended multiple events cuz there were others I’d have loved to taken in as well :’) I had Trouble deciding which one to go to lol. Alyn Smith is some kinda superhuman btw and somehow managed to rep at Edinburgh, Glasgow and Stirling..!!

I’m really happy also that Holyrood voted in favor of indyref2. tell you a secret though, I’m real scared as well. I super empathize with you there, those feelings and fears r so valid. won’t lie to you, I can’t think of a scarier idea than that right now. the thought keeps me up at night sometimes and thinking about the scenario makes me feel like I’m gonna cry. [idc if this sounds dumb to folk readin] the morning of the indyref1 result back in 2014 is the worst, most rotten and distraught and frustrated that I’ve ever felt except for after a literal, traumatic bereavement. I don’t wanna feel like that ever again.

I won’t say, it doesn’t bear thinking about. wish I had some profound thoughts to share on the subject, this has just turned into a ramble.. it’s a very real possibility. and Brexit - not over, readers, since we have now entered an 11 month transition period and they still have to hash out all the details like trade deals - brings more uncertainty. but we’ve come so far from where support for indy hovered in the late 70s at around 15-20%. Brexit is a double-edged sword for the Union because increasingly it is a motivator for No Scots to switch their views to Yes. we need to take heart, help and connect with each other, re-(re?)-double our efforts, and keep fighting. support in the most recent poll had edged up to 51%. support is at 58% among the under 65s. we need to keep making the case for it, keep having those conversations with people, keep engaging with non-voters and the apathetic and the poorly-informed and the undecided, being positive and informative but realistic, stay united in the movement and not fragment from in-fighting, and keep supporting the only vehicle which can feasibly deliver it for us in this political lifetime (that’s the SNP) - with membership, donations, at votes, on social media, with boots on the ground at events and w/ things like leafletting and campaigning. I suppose in this way, fear is a good motivator. we need to make sure that when indyref2 comes, the support base is solid and there and enough to take it over the line. whether indyref2 is this year or next year or in 10 years (and make no mistake, I wanted independence like Yesterday), it needs to be ironclad.

just today, Scotland’s largest union Unison overwhelmingly agreed that the powers should be transferred to Scotland to enable indyref2 at a time determined by Holyrood. the next indy vote will most likely include the previously disenfranchised population subsets of 16 and 17 year olds and EU nationals - these groups largely would support Yes. Westminister don’t want to grant indyref2 in part because they’re scared. indy is now the only way for us back to the EU, and we rejected leaving the EU at 62%. seen a poll the other day that said that now, around 71% (or maybe even it was 73? can’t quite remember) of Scots think Brexit is a bad idea. Brexit is a horrendous omnishables but it advances the cause for Scottish independence. let the UK fall on its own sword, it wasn’t interested in innumerable compromise suggestions or in damage mitigation measures, or in listening when ScotGov tried to explain repeatedly why Brexit is bad for Scotland. the political chasm between England and Scotland continues to widen. meanwhile the continent are expressing support and solidarity with Scotland. the light is on, we just need to follow it back! maybe it’s Cope but I have to believe that indyref2 will come and that yes will prevail this time given the massive change in material circumstances that has taken place. we know what we think is best and what we want for our country, where we want to be, and what are values are. we just need to secure it. believed in indy all my life and am never going to give up on it. keep the heid. 💙

[sotorubio]

hey so I can only talk for myself here but I think the important difference is that since druck s5 began, a lot has changed. They stepped up their game, not only character and storywise but also they included more poc and queer rep, so for me the new gen is more woke (in a good way). They even addressed (white) performative activism in s6, which was actually surprising because Noora was literally the definition of one and 99% of nooras from the remakes were too. And now Lou is stealing tampos and posting it on insta and we shouldn't say that it is a bad influence? Sure she isn't eViL or anything, she had flaws like everyone else.

I get where you are coming from and I partly agree. Other characters (mostly white, skinny +/- mlm) are getting cut some slacks while other's don’t, but I still don’t agree with Lou's action at all and I hope that they will not try to act like this type of performative activism is cool (i actually was super irritated when she just...stuck her gum on the wall for no reason???)

hmmm so i understand what u mean n i agree in some ways but i think the best way to answer this is to point out that when i make posts abt lou & the reactions she receives i'm mostly doing it bc of the second point that u also brought up: that other characters get away w it/are even admired for it while she gets hate for the same (or even less bad/extreme) things. so the intention behind my posts isn't rly to try n uplift lou or cheer her on, more so just to point out the clear double standards & bias within the fandom itself. bc i absolutely do agree w u that the events of the last clips shouldn't be portrayed as cool or as actual meaningful activism.

i assume u sent this after seeing the post abt lou vs evak? bc i did also make other posts abt it last night n in one of the tags i did also say that i think the filming & knocking stuff over was annoying. i don't like that she did that/the writers made her do that n i agree it's very performative (in the very literal sense of the word, since she was in front of a camera on purpose) n it makes lou seem irritating to me too. however i don't think there was anything wrong w her stealing. if she had just stolen the tampons for herself n not made a performance abt it for social media & not come up w some self-glorifying nickname for it, it wouldn't be a staple of white feminism rly, it'd just be stealing which i'm not against.

so that was kind of the point of my post. i was trying to point out the vast difference in the way a fat gnc woman is treated as opposed to two skinny guys even tho the illegality of the guys' actions was far far more severe. that particular post was solely abt the double standard in the reactions to illegality, not the morals behind it, bc there were a lot of ppl claiming that what was wrong w lou's actions, the "bad influence", was the stealing itself.

if i were to make a post abt just lou's behavior i would agree w u. the additional stuff like filming n turning herself into a hero was shitty n fair to criticize or reasons to make ppl dislike her. however, even then i don't agree that it can be classified as bad influence. is it good influence? no, ismail shouldn't be learning that white feminist rhetoric from her. but that doesn't automatically mean it's bad influence either. ismail isn't new to being a bystander in stealing. last season they just let their white best friend steal a living animal n then pushed that responsibility on someone they had never even rly spoken to (who was, additionally, a woc so.)

i think it's fair to criticize lou as a character. "she's very much like the instas", "she thinks she's being cool but is just being performative", "she should not get praise for this" but it's a whole other thing to imply that she's a bad influence on our poor ismail who's just So InNoCeNt n PuRe. could she be considered bad company, considering the way she's been written? yes. but bad influence? no. bc there's nothing to influence since ismail is already like That n has done the same / worse things before even meeting her. she's not making ismail worse, she's barely matching ismail's energy. which is like the bottom line of my point. portraying & seeing a fat gnc girl as smth that's influencing ismail in a bad way is horrible, when canonically nothing they've done so far has been worse than things ismail is already used to = they cannot be influenced by this

so. yeah i agree w ur point abt lou's actions themselves being wrong n i think this piece of writing should be criticized instead of seen as progressive & meaningful. but that's not rly what i was talking abt in my own posts. so this feels like an argument against a point i wasn't even trying to make. which i don't blame u for, i think this is an important topic to bring up anyway n i know my posts can be easy to misunderstand smfkdlfjd but yeah my posts weren't supposed to be defending lou, i was just saying we should acknowledge the fatphobia & misogyny that makes ppl criticize her for things they let other characters do. criticizing her for things that we'd criticize other characters for as well is ofc alright. for example in the way ppl are acknowledging the white feminism now bc that was done in s6 as well.

[thestudyfeels]

hello there! this is part three of the get your shit together series! note: this article is a bit philosophical and wisdom-y, bc lmao i’m writing this thing at a way-too-late o’ clock so I’m going to shout at y'all and try to hammer this (good) shit into your heads the hard way. I apologize in advance, friend.

The Harsh Reality

I want you to do a reality check right now. C'mon, do it. How much did you get done today? Did you procrastinate yet again? 99% chances are that you did and that you failed to complete your to-do list. yet again. hey, don’t go away just yet. I’m just showing you what’s popping in your lives right now. And holy moly, you are wasting your life. That’s the harsh reality. I don’t know how else to break it to you, but yeah, you are wasting your life. As for feeling offended, you should. if you are, I can tell you that it’s working. I’m going to do magic here, just wait. alright, I want you to take a look, a deep look, into this picture. this is the number of weeks an average 90 year old has in his/her life. The number of years you too have, take or give a few more. And as Tim Urban said in his TedTalk, there aren’t really that many boxes! specially since we have used quite of them! now most probably you are shrugging this off by thinking “yo taylor, there are still quite a few left.  and to be accurate, we still have more that half of those boxes left. Chill dude.” and hey, you are not wrong. But here’s a different view towards it. Do you think you’ll be able to work your best when you are old and your bones are dying and you can literally hear a pop sound when you stretch everyday? you won’t. And even if you think you will, (I’ll pray for your bones, mate #rip) you wouldn’t want to. Wouldn’t you want to use the later years in your life to enjoy the fruits of your hard work? most likely, you would. So if that’s the case, I’m here to tell you that time is running out. Seriously. you don’t have enough of it.

Why Are You Doing This?

the biggest reason why people waste their time is because we haven’t learn how precious it is. We don’t understand that our life is super short. That humans are mortal and one day or another, we won’t be there anymore. We don’t understand that we only have a few decades to become the person we aspire to be, to live the dreams we’ve have had since forever. We believe if we don’t do our work today, it’s ok because we have tomorrow. And if not tomorrow, hey next year sounds great.

Every single thing takes a hell lot of time. An person sleeps for an average of 7 hours a day. That’s 49 hours a week. And 210 hours a month. And that’s 2520 hours a year. So, you sleep for more than 105 days straight in a year. Thus, you sleep for an approx of a complete year in four years of your life. Isn’t that a LOT of time? And that’s not all. We humans waste our time on a lot of other things and I only took the example of sleep, which is absolutely necessary. I didn’t even consider the other unnecessary things we spend our time on like cough, tumblr-ing, watching netflix etc. That’s why, it’s time that you learn to value your time more than anything else. Because your “real life” that comes after subtracting all the necessary and unnecessary things that you do, is really really short. and I’m not joking, I promise.

Loving Your Life

so now that you know how preciously short your life is, the next important thing is loving it.

why love it?

we only value things we care for or if them are necessary to us. We care for our friends and family bc we love them. We value our phone bc it’s impt to us and we can’t live without it. so unless you love your life, how will you ever value it? you’ll go on living with the flow, never getting the time to try out new things and to live life. Learn to love your life. It’ll change your entire perspective towards it.

ok but how do we do that then?

well, I got you mate. And no lmao, you don’t have to put up cute quotes on your dresser saying things like “yay, you are amazing!! I love you!!.” Those things are great, but loving life isn’t as easy as that. Nothing worth having comes easy. There you go, your quote for the day. But yes, there will be days when you have low self-esteem, and you’ll feel like beating yourself up for the smallest of the things. However if you truly love your life, you will be able to pick yourself up and clean up your own mess without too many pity-parties. well, here’s the only method to love your life, in the real way i.e. not the cheesy one, and it is - living in the present. story time, something I realized on my second last trip was that I never remembered what I had done on trips I had been on before. and in fact the reason wasn’t bc I had a bad memory, bc I had an amazing memory! (ur girl’s killin’ it in history, come tHRU) the reason was not being present at all. I was living on autopilot all throughout the trip, looking forward to what I was going to do next, than enjoying what I was doing now. As a result, I didn’t make any great memories. This time however, I was prepared.

how did I do this? / how do we live in the present?

remind yourself again and again to focus on what’s happening now, forget about what you’ll do in the future.

if reminding doesn’t help, literally tell yourself what you’re doing right now. When I was visiting this museum, I would tell myself - "now you are going to go into this beautiful place. Make some great memories.”

jot down what you did. I used to forget what I did all the time, so I started writing what I was doing including the tiny things that happened and honestly this has helped me so much.

the gratefulness list. every time you feel like you are living in autopilot, remind yourself of a wonderful day you have spent and tell yourself that if you live in autopilot you won’t remember any happy memories (how scary is that, and it has happened to me so trust me, it ain’t fun) & then force yourself not to zone out and come back to the present.

now ofc you are thinking - how does living in the present help you fall in love with your life?

well, it does. Once you start living in the present, you start noticing smol tiny details in the picture which you earlier wouldn’t have noticed. Suddenly, on my fall trip, I could see the tiny flowers near our hotel’s garden which would have passed my notice earlier. I noticed how I didn’t reach for my phone that much, other than to write down the day’s events. And obviously, I remembered laughing over zombie movies with my friends on the trip, I remembered the cheerful smile this woman gave me when I thanked her for helping me, I remembered all the tiny happy memories we had made. bc unless you start enjoying the little things in your life, and start “living”, how would you even expect to live a beautiful life? you need to be grateful and thankful for the happy memories you have made along the way if you want to be able to enjoy the life you live. And ofc unless you love your life, you won’t be able to value it. AND unless you value your life, there’s no question of conquering it.

The Action Plan

so now what? it’s time to realize that the person you love, aka you, is running out of time to become the person you would love to be. won’t you try to help yourself? here’s what to do. roll up your sleeves, use that beautiful mind you have, and mold your dream life out of your present one. it’s gonna take lots of hard work and hustle, but I know you have it in you. leggo.

hello! still there with me? hAH but i rly enjoyed preaching in this post and writing it for you guys bc honestly loving the life you live and living your life in the way you want is truly the best feeling in the world. but yup, I won’t bore you anymore (I will, but that’s in another masterpost, don’t leave me hAHA) so that’s it, it’s a wrap! if you have any questions/suggestions regarding anything I said up there, feel free to send in a message! my other masterposts are here and to request a masterpost, leave your question in my ask box!

I hope you all are well, stay safe and conquer life, you amaze conqueror. much love, Taylor   (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

[quell-tea-salon]

THE IDOLM@STER SideM 3rdLIVE TOUR report - Makuhari Day 2

The group lineup for Day 2: Dramatic Stars, S.E.M, Cafe Parade, Altessimo, and Legenders. (See set list here.)

Suffice to say, this DraSta/SEM/LegeP died and went to heaven. I had an AltessimoP sitting to my left and a SEM-P on the other side; we pretty much took turns dying throughout the 3.5-hour concert LOL. Also today I had a much better seat compared to yesterday’s live-viewing, which allowed me to appreciate the show even more!! For starters, I could actually see the whole screen this time....

Karino Sho was the MC for today; he gave his signature “SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO desu” greeting, and told us that the concept for today’s performances was “Show!” ....Then proceeded to make a pun of it with his name wwww

With all the groups present on stage, the first song was Reason!!, followed by Cafe’s Reversed Masquerade. Lege took the stage for Symphonic Brave, then it was Alte’s turn for Tone’s Destiny. So far all songs that were in yesterday’s set list.

AND THEN

MY DREAMS CAME TRUE

I GOT TO HEAR SEM SING SAYONARA SUMMER HOLIDAY!!!!! SEM! SUMMER! HOLIDAY!!!! HOLY SHIT DEM HIP THRUSTS UGH SENSEI NOT IN FRONT OF YOUR STUDENTS!!! Yoshiki was downright OBSCENE enokiya's singing was shaky as usual and Totto’s dancing is still stiff (so endearing ;w;) but honestly it didn't matter bc IT'S SEMMMMM

And without giving us time to recover DRASTA BURST ONTO THE STAGE FOR MOON NIGHT NO SEI NI SHITE AND I SCREAMED SO LOUD SKSHAKSHSJDBNAJDHSKDJDN THEY GAVE US THE SLY LOOKS AND BEDROOM EYES AND NAUGHTY WINKS AND LIP-LICKING AND "OIDE ♥" IT WAS HORRIBLE I DIED ABOUT 50000 TIMES you could tell they were having the time of their lives performing it too T_T My throat pretty much died since I was making dying whale sounds the entire time lol i tried not to use my voice after that but the set list continued to be amazing so I couldn’t stop myself from screaming cheering and joining in the song calls.....

After allowing us a short break by way of talk time, part 2 kicked off with Kamiya’s solo A Cup of Happiness! His dance routine included the use of a sparkly pink cane >< So cute and stylish....... Halfway through the song Legenders’ Amehiko and Chris joined him on stage with their own white canes and i freaked out omggggggggg this three make such a handsome picture T_T God, Chris’ long legs and fashion model proportions.,.....

The rest of Cafe Parade joined Kamiya on stage for Cafe Parade! (my fav song of theirs!), and after that was Rei-chan’s solo Echoes My Note, and Alte’s first single The 1st Movement. The AlteP next to me was whimpering the entire time ;w;

I lost my shit again when Lege hopped on stage for String of Fate....... I’ve wanted to watch this R18 performance since forever........ Amehiko’s voice is so smooth and gorgeous and deadly, it’s almost hilarious that his seiyuu Kasama-san is a total gentleman who loves cats and has the temperament of a marshmallow T_T However the strongest singer was probably Fuumin, he hit all the notes consistently (and looked beautiful from every angle gdi).

After another talk break, part 3 began with SEM's Infinite Possibilities!!!! Another classic hit from SideM...... Every time Totto unleashed his magnificent vibrato at "koeTEEEEEEE" we'd burst into cheers!!! They used the pink laser guns in the choreography too, so cute ><

Next was Alte’s Never End Opus....... The famed performance that reduces everyone to tears......... My AlteP buddy was sobbing and even I felt my eyes prickle........ Such a beautiful, heart-wrenching song T_____T

Dramatic Nonfiction!!!! This is my 2nd fav song from DraSta after Moon Night and i know i keep repeating myself, but i’m SO happy that i got to hear them perform this live T_______T It’s uncharacteristically moody for DraSta, the dance choreograph is sexy af and IN THE SECOND VERSE THEY HAD A CAMERAMAN WITH THEM ON STAGE AND THEY UNLEASHED /MAXIMUM/ FANSERVICE AT THE CAMERA DURING THEIR SOLO LINES UGHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE DRASTA, JUST KILL ME (THEY KILLED ME) At that moment I was actually grateful to be at a live-viewing instead of the venue 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

Then Cafe Parade hopped on board the the rail trolleys for A La Carte Freedom, throwing rubber balls at the audience like HiJo yesterday. Later they apologised for throwing too hard and hoped that they didn’t hurt anyone wwwwwwwwwww

Another talk break, then Legenders kicked off part 4 with Legacy of Spirit. LegeP represent!!!

Next was Maitaru’s solo This Is It. Singing’s definitely not one of Enokiya’s strong points, but he’s cute and rly fun to watch, even more so when you know what he’s like irl and thus how seriously he takes his work wwwwwww Teru and Saki-chan jumped in as backup dancers, they were both so sexy and cute (srsly Saki-chan was KILLING IT) and i hate Teru for winking at the camera ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; I love watching Shugon dance, he has so much energy in his movements!!!! Truly a Physical idol <333

The next song began with a minute of taiko drums and we were like “Oh???? Who’s this????? Could it be....???” Then SEM appeared on stage in ouendan outfits and we SCREAMED!!!!!! They recited the senseis’ lines cheering on the students from that scene in ep5 and even did the VICTORY! group pose IT WAS SO GOOD T_____T They shed the ouendan gakuran coats for the song (From Teacher to Future!) though haha. During yesterday’s performance Jirou just kinda collapsed onto the stairs in a fit of exhaustion... Today Hazama-sensei sat on the stairs with his face in his hands ;w; Sensei ganbareeeee

DraSta returned to the stage for Arrive To Star. Tbh it’s probably my least fav out of their songs, along the lines of Starlight Celebrate, which i also wasn’t too fond of until recently (it grew on me). But i do know how important this song is for them as a team, and i’m always grateful for DraSta live performances... IMO they truly are one of the strongest teams in SideM vocally, even if Taku doesn’t always do well live.

DraSta remained on stage and SEM joined them to perform a DraSEM version of Ryuusei Parade!!!!! Nothing beats the original DraSEMJupi version (which we got to hear yesterday!) but i love this song to bits and i love DraSEM, plus it’s highly unlikely that we’ll get to hear this rendition anywhere else, so this was truly a performance to remember *____*

Eternal Phantasia!!!!!! I was hoping that they’d perform this today as it wasn’t in yesterday’s set list T______T This majestic, uplifting song was the perfect lead in to the ending sequence - BeyoDori, followed by encore (they changed into 3rdLive coloured T-shirts for this) songs Glorious Ro@d and the SideM staple Drive A Live :D

As the cast made their final exit from the stage, almost everyone made cute poses at the camera.... DraSta were the last group to leave and those ASSHOLES did a SYNCHRONISED BLOW-KISS at us sahjgfdlDGHLsdfghlfSD I WRECKED MY THROAT FROM SCREAMING AND ALMOST CRIED FROM SHOCK, THANKS A LOT!!!!!!!!!

Other stuff:

Totto is an amazing singer and is always in stoic Hazama-sensei mode during performances, but when he talks his endearing awkward side comes out ;w; Usually Enokiya teases him about it and Yoshiki runs damage control, but today Yoshiki just stood back and Totto complained that recently Yoshiki's been giving him the cold shoulder wwww

Speaking of Enokiya, every time it was his turn to talk he’d break character and yell “LET’S PAAAAAAARTTTTYYYYYYYYYYY” (or smth like that) wwwwwwww The first time he did it Yoshiki’s like “who ARE you???” and Enokiya goes “Well it’s hard on me when i have to follow Totto’s awkward talk time” and Yoshiki retorts with “You just made it hard for me too” LOL

When Cafe Parade said that they’d like to see SEM have their turn on the trolleys, SEM asked if they could throw balls as well, and someone suggested that they throw chalk instead since they’re teachers wwwwww Yoshiki tried to shut down the conversation, saying that he has never met a teacher that actually throws chalk at students, but both Totto and Enokiya raised their hands wwwwwwwwwwww

Since yesterday each and every one of Kasama-san’s messages were heart-meltingly lovely and sincere, and today was no different..... In his farewell message he borrowed lines from Amehiko’s marriage proposal from the mobage event, making everyone squeal/sigh... Kasama-san.....

Ama-chan gave us a very sweet message which almost sounded like a marriage proposal “Please stay by my (our) side forever” so Makonyan imitated Ume’s wedding-proposal-on-one-knee pose from yesterday, and Maria mimed biting his glove wwwww

Fu-kun (Shirou) tweeted: “Yesterday Beit proposed to me, but today I was swept away by DraSta” L O L add SEM’s SSH to that and you have: marriage proposal from Beit -> breakup with SEM -> elope with DraSta

Taso shared that due to individual busy schedules DraSta actually couldn’t meet up for rehearsals, so the first time they managed to rehearse as a group was on the day itself of Makuhari Day 1 (yesterday). Taku joked that he was relieved to see Taso still alive www

It’s no surprise that all three members of DraSta are pretty handsy people (they touch each other a lot so you can tell that they’re really close friends ;w;) but today i noticed that Taso always had a hand on Shugon’s shoulder or back whenever Shugon was speaking ;___; cuteee

During his farewell message Taso said that DraSta’s bond as a team had become even stronger while performing together in the concert, and he believes that Kaoru feels the same about Teru and Tsubasa. Shugon, with the biggest grin on his face, put his arm around Taso’s shoulder and pulled him close, going “Aw, you!”, and Taku chipped in with his Tsubasa voice “Kaoru-san, are you feeling shy ^^?” Taso immediately switched into Kaoru mode and retorted “Shut up, it’s your turn to speak! ///” *UGLY CRYING*

Taku seemed to be in good spirits and didn’t appear to have any injuries, but while the camera was zoomed in on him for his farewell speech i noticed that his thumb was bandaged and his microphone had a handle attached to it. I didn’t notice this yesterday, but then again I could only see half the screen from my first-row seat. If my guess is correct, he probably injured his thumb in yesterday’s accident, and the handle was added to the mic to help with his grip. I’m relieved that he wasn’t seriously hurt T_T Rest well, Taku-chan ><

The next concert will be held two weeks later in Miyagi! I’m attending the LV for day 2. In the meantime, I’ll focus on letting my dead throat recover, so I can kill it all over again in two weeks ^^

[dreamerology]

my biggest i love monsta x ever!!!!

no offence but if u had told me a year ago that these seven boys would have had this much of an impact on my life and not only that but i still love them as much now as i did on day one (maybe even more) i’d say u were lying. usually my interests come and go in phases and nothing has ever lasted as long as mx???? but i rly truly cannot imagine my life without them at this point. in fact, the 2-3 months at the very beginning of uni where i stopped having time for them and thought i was moving on were the worst of this year (ofc that wasn’t the only reason those months were hard, but feeling like i was falling out of love w mx hurt more than id care to admit). they’ve brought me so much happiness and connected me with so many amazing people and not 2 be cheesy but made me into a better person! like they just continue to have the biggest positive influence in my life and i got the opportunity to meet one of my best friends bc of them, i’ll forever be thankful for them

i know i havent been w mx since the beginnign but!!!! even just seeing shownu grow so much this year has made me sooooo happie!!!!!! i Love how u can just see he’s more comfortable now and seems a lot more at ease……..the fact that hes comfortable enough to host his own solo vlives and no offence but theres not a single thing i dont love abt that man! hes so fucking funny….like its sorta weird humor?? dad humor almost? BUT HES HONESTLY FUNNY WITHOUT EVEN TRYING hes just reached a point where he’s got no filter and will just say whatever and sometimes even the wording will make me laugh dkjfhkjsd the true underrated comedian of the group tbh. hes so selfless too bicht………….i still cant believe he split the money from his solo event w the other members My Heart :-((((((( and when hes on a solo schedule he’s always mentioning the others!!! nd doesnt let anyone forget abt them, they rly are one big family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO HIS SMILE is the cutest shit ive ever seen!!!!! like when he smiles rlllly big nd his eyes crinkle nd he :D and his big “ha ha ha” ,,,,music 2 my ears!!!!!!!! i wish he could be that happy forever. hes the biggest softest teddy bear i just wanna give him a giant hug???

fun fact wonho was the first member i knew abt nd was able to recognize nd such!! my friend who helped me get into mx talked abt him a lot so i grew to love him before i even knew the others!!! actually hes probably still the one i know the most abt bc of her? anyways! angels exist and wonho is living proof of that! his love for mbbs is on a whole other plane of existance???? ive never felt this loved nd appreciated as a fan before nd its all genuine!!!!!. wonho is a monbebebebe first and a monsta second. hes just so full of love….im convinced thats why hes so Large he needs to fit his heart in his body somehow...hes just got so much love to give!!!!!!! he is the most thoughtful and caring person??? like not even towards monbebes and his memebrs but like at the end of mxray when he made sure to buy all the staff and crew little gifts as well, my heart grew 3 sizes for him!!!!!! and im so soo soooooooooooooosososooo proud of him to have some of his songs on the albums this year and not only that but! from zero getting a stage on tv!!!!!! his song!!!! he did that!!!!!! his hard work paid off….i hope he continues to be able to produce more music this year! oh one last thing, i love how? childish he is??? idk if thats the right word but hes always teasing or changing or playing around w the other members and hes always being goofy and laughing and it just makes my heart!!!!! rly happy nd warm

what is there left 2 be said abt minhyuk that i havent already said yet jdfshkjdhf i just! Love Everything abt that boy :-((((((( i love his sunshiney positive personality that never fails to cheer me up, i love how caring he is and how he always makes sure to be there for his members and makes himself open for them, i love his uneven blink, i love how soft his voice is and how it sounds exactly how sunshine looks, i love his fingers go sorta crooked when he makes a peace sign, i love his laugh and how silly he is, i love his thoughtful and serious side, i love how smart he is, i love his toothy smile, i love when hes on stage and he looks so radiant and glowing and u can see how happy he is and how he was truly built to shine, i love his ears, i love how affectionate and loving he is, i love his one (1) dimple, i love how sometimes he just says the weirdest shit…...like i rly wanna understand what hes thinking sometimes, i love how cute he looks wearing hats or how soft he looks in giant sweaters, i love him sooooooo much my heart hurts

can u believe i didn’t used to love kihyun this much? past me was a whole fool! i’ll try to keep this one sorta short too since i’ve already written a love essay for him but! once again i rly do love him w my whole heart!!!!!! absolutely Everything he does is so endearing and i loooove how he cares so much….he rly went and made us our own season's greeting for free nd his photography is rly No Joke! hes so talented nd u can rly see how passionate he is abt it!!!!! it makes me so so happy seeing him talk abt it, like he just lights up its the best thing ive ever seen. i Love his smile!!!! when his face scrunches up and u can see the little dimples on his cheeks and see all his teeth and he laughs and throws his head back or hits whoever’s closest to him or just collapses thats Good Shit!!!!!!!! im so glad he’s happy enough to be able to smile like that!!!!!!! it makes my heart tingle thinking abt him being happy. he rly is the cutest, i love him nd all his beauty marks :D !! nd no offense but hes never had a bad hair colour/style nd thats the tea on that!

chae hyungwon 2018’s lord nd saviour????????? anyways its about Damn Time i write him a love essay :-((((( having both best friends being hyungwon biased ive secretly been converted 2 a whole chaebebe….their love rubbed off on me!!! i love it :D idk where to start...gosh hes seriously so hardworking????? im soooooo so soo so proud of him!!! icb he picked up djing as a hobby nd then made it to a big festival, is on mix and the city and has released not one but two (2) songs only months later!!!!!!!!! we love a talented man!!!!!!! nd his dancing bichksjdfhsdj hes so fluid nd smooth when he dances…...i always find myself watching him first in group practices like there something rly captivating abt him?? please let him show us more of his dancing its So Good. also hes got the nicest voice…...its so deep wtf...but like its So Calming 2 listen to? especially when hes sleepy nd its extra raspy? Good Shit! and when he sings!!!!!!!! bicshjkdfhksdhj hes got one of my fave vocal voices i rly wish he got the lines he deserves :((( hes! So! Cute! jfhsdjfhs he gets embarrassed so easily and always makes the goofiest faces but i love it….he covers his smile sometimes too :-((( i wish he wouldnt its So Bright nd cute nd warm just like he is!!!! hyungwon’s smile is the 8th wonder of the world thats just the facts folks!

mister jooheon……….the true example of the duality of man. i dont understand how he can go from his scaredy cat self to and Actual God,,,blows my mind. i’m pretty sure i’ve said this at least a hundred times but his stage presence is truly Unreal……..its on a whole other level…….ive never seen them live but if i ever do i fear for my life. nd i know once it’s over im only gonna know one (1) man and that man is lee jooheon. but at the same time hes rly The Cutest id trust him w my life???? his eyes are so warm!!!!!! And his Big Smile!!!!!!!!!!! his dimples? deeper than the marianas trench, i wanna build my home in them nd raise my family there. hes such a talented dude!!!! mx don’t have a single bad song thenks jooheon! also for the first couple months i’d alway forget he was one of the youngest? like hes very mature too nd seems very responsible djfhkjsdhfjsd idk how he was the only one 2 be able to keep it together during their first win 2 give the speech…..hes so strong. i love him so much :-( hes so cute nd gentle nd thoughtful...truly the biggest angel who deserves the world!!!!!!!!!!

i think if there's any member i would actually get along best w it would b changkyun. we’re both rly similar from what i can tell...like sorta quiet, but loud around those we’re comfortable with!!! first off hes so funny nd…..weird but like in a good way sdjfhksdjhf sometimes i rly just think he says the first thing that comes to his mind “actually we have a baby” ????? who let him \…..he always makes me laugh reading his fansign notes too omg that being said hes also one of the most serious members at times i feel like. hes just got this rly mature vibe nd he handles things rly well??? idk if that makes sense but Yeah. he’s just someone who’s not rly afraid 2 be themselves, i wish that were me??? ive got so much to learn from them. also icb he literally invented being cute???? he doesn't even have 2 try hes just adorable!!!!!! like his laugh nd smile? The Best!!!!! and when u can see his lil dimples yeahhhhh hes sooo super sweet and cheesy. i looooove how close hes gotten w the other members despite their rough start, they rly are a family nd im glad hes comfortable around them it rly warms my heart!!!!! whenever hes getting showered in love my heart !!!!!!! its what he deserves!

on that note, the one thing i think that has stayed with me more than anything is that one fansign note where ck was asked how he wants to be remembered in the future, when they only occasionally thought abt him and his answer was “that i gave you happiness” and not 2 b a sentimental shit but fuck! i cry every time i think abt that!!!!!!! bc i Know there’s gonna come a day where i don’t think abt them at all! there’s gonna be a day where i won’t think abt them until i see something that jogs my memory and jolts me back to this time and even tho this year has been rough i know i always will remember how much happiness they’ve brought me. i’ll remember how they were able to cheer me up when nothing else worked. i hope one day i’ll be able to feel the Pure Joy i felt when they got their first win….i’ve never felt anything like that before. i cant wait to be able to look back in nostalgia at all the happiness they’ve brought me.

anyways that got real sappy towards the end i gotta blast now bye!

[fictional-scenarios]

Hiya could I get a stardew valley match up? (preferably a bachelor) I’m a shy girl but I can make small talk. I’m quiet in group situations but I talk more when I’m alone w someone. I’m very soft spoken & I get questions like “r u mute?” or “u can talk?” Ppl find me mysterious and secretive. I don’t rly open up unless ppl ask me questions. I’m affectionate & I love affection. I like cuddles, hugs and kisses but I never admit it. I'm lazy so my man has to be fine w skype dates. memes4days (1/3)

I like listening to other ppl’s problems and giving advice. I flirt w friends for fun. I have a talent for making up pick up lines in seconds. Ppl say I’m brave as I stand up for myself and my friends. I’m pretty forgetful. I’m not an insecure person. I blush A LOT. Ppl say I look innocent but once I say something perverted or a curse word their reaction is priceless. I love playing video games. I also like watching other people play games. I stay up watching gaming tournaments. (2/3)

I’m pretty competitive when it comes to video & board games. In multiplayer games I go for healing roles. I have no experience in the romance department. I’ve never had a bf and the most I’ve done is hug a guy & get kabedonned. I’m very shy and blushy around guys. I’m a lil slow in the head but grade wise I get A’s. I like rock, heavy metal, ost’s, kpop & kdrama. I also like anime. I can get into random hobbies for a short amt of time. Eg. sewing or making videos. Thanks in advance

thanks so much for all the details! i hope you like your matchup! also i think this is the first stardew valley request on this blog, so thanks a bunch for that too!

I pair you with Sam!

At first, odds are that Sam may have overlooked you pretty much… Everyday. Your first encounter is likely brought on through Sebastian or Abigail, who happened to invite you to stick with them during a festival or event. He’d ask them who you were and would be pretty shocked to find out that you’ve lived in Pelican town for a while now. He’d feel bad and likely apologize, bluntly stating that he’s never seen you before, and in turn would become interested in your ‘mysterious’ nature. 

From that point on Sam sort of starts to see you everywhere. He sees you out for walks, relaxing at the beach, fishing down on the docks, or just running errands for any of the townspeople. He rarely goes wandering around town but he may just start if it means he has a chance of seeing you. 

He tends to ‘accidentally’ run into you while you’re out and about, exclaiming that he’s surprised to see you even though he’d been looking forward to just waving hello to you all morning. It’s strange- despite his loud and outgoing nature he’s a pretty bashful guy. He’s also blunt and naturally says the first thing that pops into his head, but for you he tries to work ways around directly asking you to hang out or talk. He’ll put requests on the board hoping you’ll come to see him (even if he has to pay), or he’ll try and find things out about you through Sebastian. 

Not being much of a talker isn’t a huge deal to him at all. Plus, if we’re being honest, he’s a bit experienced in the ‘getting to know the silent kid’ department. After all, his closest friend is Sebastian and he’s the most reclusive guy in the entire town. Through the years of hanging out with distant people he’s learned which questions to ask, which to avoid, and the easiest way to get someone to open up to him. He’ll ask you about your family life and what your hobbies are, just basic things that he slowly ends up getting really into hearing about. After a while he may start to get a bit more personal, his questions turning into things such as what you’d like to do with your life when you’re older, or maybe what type of family like you’d like to create.

The two of you would most likely start talking more in depth and more consistently through skype and maybe during chat rooms while playing videogames together. The two of you chat back and forth late into the night, having fun and messing around. Sometimes these calls can get a bit personal depending on where you go with your conversations, and eventually he’d open up to you as well. Sam’s easy to comfort, and while his concerns (such as his father being away) aren’t easily solved, you can cheer him up quickly. Eventually when he feels like you’ve grown comfortable together, he’d invite you to join him on his friday Stardrop Saloon game nights. 

Sam’s big on affection. There’s nothing he loves more than keeping an arm around you or holding you close to him while strolling through town (something he finds himself doing much more often than before). He partly loves PDA because of pride reasons but it’s also because he just… Really adores the feeling of mutual love. When you’re alone, however, much of his affection is a lot more genuine and personal. He’ll give you kisses on the top of your head, run his thumbs over your knuckles, or he’ll let you rest your head on his chest while he keeps an arm wrapped around you tight. You wouldn’t think that someone who’s an avid ‘prankster’ and spends most of his time playing guitar would being so naturally affectionate, but he is. 

Speaking of guitars, he loves to play you songs. He’ll make all sorts of them, the lyrics ranging from silly to very loving. He’ll sing these songs for you while strumming away and while they’re short, they’re usually very heartfelt. At first he was a bit shy at playing for you, instead just opting to giving you notes with his lyrics on it, but eventually he came to have no issue singing just how much you mean to him. 

When he’s so used to you being soft spoken and on the more shyer side, when you do say something lewd, curse, or give a sudden well thought out pickup line he’s one of the people who will have a priceless reaction. He’ll stare at you in awe and think to himself, did you really just do that? You, his blushy, adorable, innocent partner just say that? Another thing that leaves him rather speechless is when you demonstrate your courage, standing up for either him, yourself, or one of your friends. Seeing you being so assertive and giving some asshole what for really turns the tables in his head and leaves him shook as well. He’s got heart eyes for days. 

A lot of your dates are mostly spent behind doors either at his house or at yours. They’re casual and calming, never too fancy unless one of you goes out of your way for a ‘treat yourself’ evening. Sam’s favorite date with you out of them all is (as lame as it is) ordering some nice take out and then spending the evening either watching a show, movie, or playing video games. When you’re both on the same team you’re virtually unstoppable.  He also really loves the nights where you join him on playing Solorian Chronicles with Sebastian, since god knows they both need a healer.

Sam thinks it’s great when you pick up new, nice hobbies! He’ll encourage you, listen to whatever you have to say about it and whatever you’re passionate about. Seeing you light up about things really makes his whole day, and sometimes he even gives learning the hobby a shot. He’s generally terrible at crafts, though. If you ever make him something like a scarf, a drawing, or something else, he’ll keep it forever because it has so much sentimental value to him. Over the years he keeps a shoebox full of things that mean a lot to him, and most of it consists of things you’ve made for him. Sometimes he likes to go through his box and think back to all the fun you two had while also imagining everything you both have yet to do together.