#but sometimes it isnt enough to actually make it...enjoyable

[swagging-back-to]

im sooooo glad they toned down on the engrish for the ISS and got vas who could at least imitate english words

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

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[harukapologist]

i never noticed your blog title. i am no.2 0109 siblings enjoyer. do you have headcanons for them too? (i am begging, respectfully)

OH MY GOD YIPPIE YIPPIE FINALLY SOMEONE ASKED ME FOR 0109 SIBLINGS HCS.... Ive been waiting for an ask like this for such a long time thank you... AND YAY FELLOW 0109 SIBLINGS ENJOYER worry not i have plenty!!! for both haruka & mikoto and haruka & john

-THEY BOTH LIKE ART!!!! haruka liking art & drawing is a hc of mine that i adore... and mikoto canonically likes art, but feels that he isnt good at it. at first he watches haruka draw and praises him and then one day haruka asks mikoto to draw him something, mikoto is like "oh im not that good of an artist actually..." but then picks up the pen and haruka is MESMERIZED by mikoto's art he's like. Oh my god. Please teach me. You're an amazing artist.... and Mikoto is really surprised because no one ever praised his art like this before. And he already sees Haruka as a great artist so he feels really encouraged to draw again. and they both spend a lot of time drawing together....

-mikoto likes sketching more & is great at it, but haruka likes painting more & is great at it, so sometimes mikoto will sketch something and haruka colors it, and the other way around if they wanna experiment. and they give each other tips (Haruka is very shy to give mikoto tips but mikoto is like " I'd love to hear your opinion on my art, i want to paint more like you!!! youre so good at it!!!" and haruka is just like :D !!!

-remember from the 0105 platonic hc post that, in my post milgram AU, shidou drives haruka home from school. If Haruka doesn't walk with the other 3 prisoners who are in school, Mikoto takes him on his bicycle and drives him to school in the morning before cycling to work!!! i like to imagine sometimes fuuta has morning lectures so he joins them (fuuta is tiny enough that there won't be a space problem i Think but they'll still be kinda squished on each other ahhaha) and the bicycle ride is disastrous because mikoto and fuuta are bickering while haruka is holding onto mikoto for dear life LMAO

-speaking of cycling since mikoto likes to cycle. he teaches haruka!!! haruka is always very scared if he'll fall but mikoto is patient with him, reassures him that the safety gear is there for a reason (Mikoto has no plans of letting haruka get hurt, he always makes sure haruka is wearing safety gear when he's a total beginner) and is encouraging haruka when he makes even the smallest progression!!! like haruka could cycle for 3 seconds and mikoto is like "LET'S GOOOO YOU DID IT IM SO PROUD OF YOU" and goes to high five haruka and hug him

-sometimes the evening or night time makes haruka feel down & scared or have a lot of intrusive thoughts or nightmares, it's been a thing since he was in the real world but its more frequent and harsh in milgram so he goes to mikoto's room with his plush and just lies down next to him while mikoto is doing whatever he's doing. often when haruka does this he will end up falling asleep next to mikoto in his bed and mikoto tucks him in and sleeps next to him and holds haruka if he wants to be held. mikoto really feels protective over haruka especially when he's resting, like anyone could be entering the room and mikotos like " be quiet... haruka is sleeping!" :'3

-speaking of harukas bunny plush, he really REALLY doesnt like anyone touching it without permission (the autistic urge to gatekeep the comfort item) and mikoto understands when he asks haruka if he can touch his plush and haruka just., *shakes head nervously* but soon haruka allows him to and mikoto is delighted that haruka trusts him enough to let him interact with his comfort item!!!!

-haruka really likes mikoto's hair and one day he's like "mikoto-san, I want to dye (well... bleach) my hair too someday" and mikoto gets really excited and they talk about what colors they could dye haruka's hair when they get out of milgram :D

-haruka always "heard" of john but he actually sees john for the first time after mikoto's guilty verdict in t2, and rightfully so hes very scared of him, but when he tries to approach mikoto on his birthday in 2022 (haruka was the first and only person to approach mikoto without bad intent ever since he got the guilty verdict and i cannot stop thinking abt that), he asks mikoto about what's been happening to try and understand and mikoto just. he tries his best to be strong but haruka can see that mikoto himself has no idea what's going on and is close to breaking down. haruka just hugs him gently, gently enough so mikoto can refuse the hug if he wants, but mikoto doesnt. haruka does his best to comfort mikoto from his guilty verdict, even though he doesnt really understand. all he knows is that his friend is a good person and he wants to comfort and understand him the best he can. and then at one point haruka approaches mikoto to try and talk to him and john is fronting!!!

-so this is like harukas first time actually interacting with john. hes like Oh no. i came to talk to my friend but now hes in the Scary state (he doesnt know yet what DID is) what do i do im scared. but he actually tries totalk to john. and john is surprised that haruka, although scared of him, actually tries to talk to him and understand him. john tries to calm himself to not scare haruka further and they have a long talk, mainly haruka trying to understand john. they get closer after this

-at one point john just asks. hey why are you still trying to approach me. I'm scaring everyone off and ruining your friend's life you should be scared of me. you should be viewing me like a monster. but haruka out of everyone understands what it feels like, being viewed as a monster for a mental condition. its why he's in milgram after all. and he realizes just how similar him and john are and hes like "..uh uuh. nobody should be viewed as evil for being mentally distressed right?" and him and john both start to see some positives in themselves, haruka because "hey if my friend is a good person even though he gets scary (when john fronts) maybe i can be a good person too." and john for a similar reason because "hey if this kid here has allegedly committed a murder too but can still be so nice (probably the only nice person to john) maybe i can still have a chance to Not ruin mikoto's life"

-ohmy gosh im so sorry I spoke too much righ t aaaa.... so sorry... but john feels protective of both mikoto and haruka after this. 0109 siblings are the realest ever and i have more abt haruka and john but ill stop here hehe I hope you like these!!!

[kosmicdream]

im confident enough to post FFAK, which has anal prolapse, but i dont post the true drama....... my opinions about manga. *dramatic music* sometimes i kinda want to do some reviews.. its mostly me complaining.. it makes me sound so bitter like "do you like anything kosmic!" and..yes ! i do!!! okay!! i like a lot of things. once in a while, i dip my toes into a popular series to try to see if we are a good fit. Series like: Beastars, Dorohedoro, Dungeon meshi,ect.. and i kind. well. I dont like any of them LMAO. I mean, Ok, i actually really was into Beastars for a time, but after the fight with the bear guy (its been a few years sorry) and that story arc concluded.. it just spiraled to laughable levels and did not recover. I was genuinely laughing at it at times bc it kind of felt like a desperate scramble with the like. loopholes and power upgrades.. But I was invested for a time, it had a charm to me! I also loved the art and im curious about the authors next series about santa (partly because i too, am writing a story about santa). Dorohedoro has a great visual style, fun characters, i enjoyed reading but it also kinda didnt ...land for me beyond that, which is a shame. I feel like it is a series that "should" have clicked with me. And its like, not offensive to me but.. I'll forget that ive read the whole thing. I like STUFF in it. but thats not enough for me anymore. If i had read it when i was younger tho, it might have been a diff story. idk. My most unpopular opinion of all is that... I hated Dungeon Meshi.. Sure its ..pretty! cute designs. but i found it SO painfully boring and it actually was a struggle to finish. in the end, it felt like a waste of time.. SHOCKING take i know. That is the darling of everyones heart and i like, understand WHY its popular. .. but for me, i was not fed by anything. i am unfed and starved and going to eat elsewhere oh, and i.. as a person who has read a lot of fighting mangas.. I have tried to read chainsaw man, but i dont know if I can. I did finish Fire Punch. I'm surprised to say: i kinda liked it but it took a long time to force myself to read thru it. I honestly hated many aspects of Fujimoto's storytelling/character acting that i didn't think my opinion on it would change, but I'm a little more open to it now. I dont think i could ever super be into it or whatever, but i did find genuine enjoyment in aspects of fire punch. I did not really like look back. I haven't read his other one shot(s)? Where am i going with all this..I guess im giving some unrequested reviews after all...oops... a lot of this is spurred by how houseki no kuni is one of my most fav series, not only visually/characters/story/ect.. but i cant lie.... the ending... was kind of a flop for me... gorgeous and poetic ig sure but.. AUGH! it isnt what i wanted. maybe it'll be one of those "it'll grow on me" endings but thats mostly me having to go thru the 5 stages of personal grief and gaslight myself into it, but as the like actual honest first-reaction feeling it kinda lost me. I think it did not work when i felt the confrontation btwn phos/cinnabar wasn't the one i wanted to see. i will say tho, while im dissapointed, its not like a DEEP one or anything. I know its a miracle to even get to an ending.. i guess my take away feeling from it was like "everything fit together too well, too planned" but didnt feel planned, emotionally. I wasn't sold on it. Anyway, im here to speak my truth and my hot takes which, i honestly dont even want to have that one about HnK but its the real feeling i have for it.. Once again Utena's ending just has made all these other issues i have with various stories more obvious LOL

[starmaiden777]

.....im tired

Link to the article

Makes me think that there are so many better ways to spread your message then shocking people in a public space and causing a panic... and getting yourself arrested. Of course sometimes there isnt a choice... but this isnt one of those cases.

This group needs to stop. There are so many more better ways to promote your cause.... that being said it's white activism at it's finest. But it only proves to infuriate me more rather than support these people.

This kind of activism only inspires copycats, and people looking for a thrill, or people who actually wish to cause actual harm to things within the public eye, specifically things that are well loved or spoken or documented of.

And even if these pieces are replicas put out to protect the originals... this is such a waste of passion that could be redirected in other ways. The museums have already gone to lengths to keep their collections safe... they don't need protesters using them as their focal point. I said it once and i will say it again. Im so tired of people using the shock factor to get their way.

Especially with the digital age and promoting your voice on platforms bigger than yourself. It has been proven that having a positive impact will far outpace a negative impact with charities and organizations. But no. Once again, important topics and environmental emergencies are just written down to shock and awe.

I'll say this now, of course I care about the cause. I have little care for the organizations who keep doing this however. Yeah sure they hit where the money seems to be going... but are you really going to put it down to oil and oil paints? Really? How ingenious. Note the heavy sarcasm there.

I can't help but feel that this is just the excuse private collectors look for with art. They will argue that these pieces arent as safe as they could be in private collections. Which is bullshit because while a fair amount of people do tend to take care of private collections, they will just as often face neglect and destruction.

That's aside from the fact that they would be ON PRIVATE display. Unavailable to the public. Museums are for the purpose of public enjoyment and education. Not to mention inspiration. And before you say, well I could just look the painting up on the internet, yeah you could, but have you actually gone to a museum and compared a digital photo to a physical work of art?

You don't get the detail. You don't get the understanding of just what strokes were put to canvas or wood. There is something different of the clarity, and the vibrance, and rhe depth of color that you just can't quite capture on film without some form of enhancement.

You won't quite understand the time and effort and life that was put into the mastery behind these pieces of art.

So many masters pieces have been lost throughout the annals of time, likely never to be seen again.

We are VERY fortunate to have funders support their local or favorite museums. Fortunate to have passionate people who dedicate their life's work to preserving the quality of the art and restoring it if needs be.

These are masters pieces that are rich in history and time. And now it's not enough for regular museum security to do their jobs and protect and keep the reputations of these museums. Idk if theyre getting bought off or just... whatever... Personally I would rather keep a more optimistic view of people, especially when it is likely they have this job to put food on their table and keep themselves warm. But it happens. And now security will tighten, which means regulations will tighten, which means more restrictions from a public museum, which means a restriction on entertainment and education, which when you think about it, we all know who will get hit first from that.

So yeah. I support the idea of shutting down big polluting oil rigs. And i would gladly support these orgs if they weren't already shady as hell. But like said before. White privelaged stupid activism. There are so many better ways to promote yourself. Especially in the digital age.

Im just glad that they werent permanently damaged, because there has been so much history of intentional damage and theft in the art community. And then people come in boasting how they are experts in their field and ruin a piece further. Sorry... i was one of the people who actually cared about my art history class in high school.

Feel free to add anything below. And correct me if I am wrong. But if you do, please, be kind to other people. I don't want wars waging in my comments. I doubt this will circulate much but... here's to wishful thinking.

[s0lar-ch3ri]

fixing the pinned post (actually making it usable)

alright, since my normal one isnt usable mostly, its going bye bye (you can see what it was supposed to look like here if your interested)

hey there, im the sapphic bigender slut running this blog! i use any pronouns, though i prefer he/her. idk why but i feel like im the "me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic" meme if it applied both ways (adhd up in here too wooooooooo)

what to expect: once very blue moon an art post, a lot of jrwi rambles and comedy, some crazy theories, but lots of reblogs. i do try to do like a post that i wrote a day but with school, scroll qand reblog is the life lol

-i mostly use parenthesises and shit instead of tone tags (if needed, ill use them both)

-misspells i keep if theyre funny enough, but if unreadbale ill clarify (example: unreadable)

-the words with gender are gender neutral here. ill say girlie and my homeboy because its fun to ruin the gender concept

fandoms i post about now: scrolling back youd probs find some of my toh posts, but ive been more so on a riptide and mythborne grind. i do sometimes post on scu though! i also got my own characters lol

dni list: honestly anything for drama. of course no pedos and racsists and all that cause ill beat you on sight, just dont be a dick lol

-for asks, dont ask too personal shit or anything thatd fall under the dni list

-since im being kinda general with it, heres some specific ones for dni: those people who made weird sexualities (i mean like fucking figdetsexual and shit), politics (i may reblog on political stuff, im just spreading the message), things like that

if you wanna share more on interests, i have a card with some of my current interests and a couple places to find me maybe

asks are heavily encouraged and if you like any of my art, credit me if you get inspired and shit (dont trace please and if for whatever reason ai wants to use my art: no.)

now for what tags i use:

#jrwi by non-jrwi enjoyer = im talking to my non just roll with it friend on just roll with it

#not my usual content = might be more serious, just something i dont normally talk about (example: something that happened to me)

#silli promo = im probs promoing my fics or smth

#cheri's insane again = theories >:)

[d0d0-b0i]

(SPOILER FILLED) alrighty, time for some more cohesive thoughts on prime for me (since my last one was written directly after finishing it and now its had time to sit in my brain) (long post btw, i ramble @w@)

overall, i very much enjoyed it! the animation had me positively salivating over the fact that its /actually/ using animation techniques and not just. moving characters from A to B without the time for proper stylization. the overall plot was enjoyable and i am excited to see what the rest of the season will offer.

the fact that it is only one-third of the whole season also makes me a lot more forgiving about certain flaws i found at first, like only showing three worlds and not giving the characters a lot of time to breathe. theres the very high likelihood that such a thing actually will happen, and we might even see more places and worlds, which is an exciting thought! nonetheless, going in i did not know this as i was sleep deprived and had forgotten how many episodes the season has, so i felt a little bit salty, ngl.

Devon Mack does a very good job as sonic, and it makes me feel warm inside hearing his portrayal! every actor does a great job honestly, and it truly feels like they all understand the respective character they voice act(especially considering they have to acclimate the character /and/ voice for each new world. very talented!). the eggman voice actor could use some rerecords at times honestly;; but he does a good enough job that i only notice it sometimes; and he is fun to listen to regardless, and is just a subjective thought of mine.

the different universes also intrigue me! :D i really enjoyed the first one the jungle one was interesting and had beautiful flora models, but it is with this one that a problem of mine arises (but ill get to that later). the waterworld was also interesting, but kind of boring worldwise, since its just. water. (i get that its a pirate world and thats fine! i just cant give a good description of my feelings besides just. water. yknow?)

ive seen that a lot of people think rouge shouldve been the captain in the third world and. honestly. yeah. i think we might get to see why later on? but idk. i hope they have a reason that makes sense as to why she isnt, like if the worlds stick around and dont fuse back, shed be the next captain? weh! (i do love knuckles in a captains outfit though, so bonus points for that!)

now. i only have a few “criticisms”, and although some can be attributed to not being intended for me(and i will therefore not include cus. duh), there is one thing i just cannot let slip by.

(CRITIQUE START) the issue i have is that it feels so empty. new yolk (i refuse the yoke) is populated, but later episodes only really reuse the same five models roughly multiple times and i think had at most like 30? of them at the same time, and obviously could not have had more due to budget and such (which is understandable, but that still doesnt mean i cant point it out).

the jungle episodes! THE JUNGLE EPISODES?? ONLY HAD 5?? CHARACTERS MINUS SONIC (froggy counts) AT ALL TIMES?? and even the flashbacks only show those, probably so as not to imply death but like. come on. not even a few background characters at all? am i meant to believe they will all die out anyway simply by being the last people on this earth? im sorry i just cant get over this. you can make sean mcloughlin, mr jacksepticeye, get a cameo and his own personal character model, BUT CANNOT EVEN FILL A JUNGLE WITH PEOPLE?? did i miss something? if theyd shown even /one/ bg character once in a single frame in the flashbacks, id forgive it but i. cannot. im sorry. im nitpicking but come on! this is like the only issue i have. you only have 11 of the original characters in the first place (sonic. tails. knuckles. amy. rouge. big. froggy. shadow. eggman. orbot. cubot.), and then half of them are pretty much gone most of the time.

i just. its so empty? DO NOT GET ME WRONG I HATE WHEN THAT HAPPENS. I DEEPLY ENJOY THIS SHOW! I LOVE THE CHARACTERS WEVE GOTTEN TO SEE !!! THAT DOES NOT MEAN I CANNOT COMPLAIN ABOUT SOMETHING I HAD TROUBLE PROCESSING. if its gonna be a show about sonic and his friendships. where the fuck are the rest of them? is all we’re gonna get homages to their characters? (jungle knuckles was just sticks. come on now. just put her in shes already canon to the mainline games now) sega, if youre going to make a show about his friendships, why wont you let his friends be there? why can you only license 11 of your characters to the show? please make me eat my words.

and yeah you could say that the reasons others arent there (in-canon, not because of legal issues) is because they werent hit close-up with the prism shatter, but neither was big? he was shown to be down by the hills when it exploded, and i dont know if that counts considering that orbot and cubot arent even in any episode besides the first one, and they werent visible in the blast, i do not know what the blast radius would be to affect anything else. eugh. idk man. this is like the ONE issue i have, and its so small it feels meaningless. yeah yeah the budget the tight grip on characters yadda yadda i get the reasons behind it but it still affects the endgoal and i should be allowed to point it out.                                                                                                                     (CRITIQUE OVER)

that being said. i am in love with the character designs! especially a big fan of sonics gloves and shoes in the pirate world. i fuck w/ that very much <3

anyway, thats it. show good. binge it if possible! we need netflix to know that we like this. and maybe theyll realize that one episode per week for this show would be perfect (im looking at you episode recaps)

[seongminiz]

🧁 anon here, again, pls don’t feel pressure to entertain me but i thought there may be a 🤏🏻 small chance you’d be interested in my current unhinged thoughts.. thinking about how hyeongjun always has to have his way, gets mad when he’s not in control which of course makes him a very bratty sub but as i am claiming the made up title of president of the dom! swaying/leaning hyeongjun fanclub i’m trying to push the agenda that reader is always easily able to rile him up and he gets so mean when he’s mad </3 and that’s where my brain stops working rn but i will continue to think on ways that jjunie would be into punishing reader cuz i’ve got nothing better to do thank u :)

YES I AM VERY INTERESTED ACTUALLY LETS GO DOM!HYEONGJUN NATION‼️‼️‼️‼️

u r so right tbh ,, he gets riled up over every little thing n its so easy to get him to be mean to u , to the point sometimes he doesn't even realize you're doing it on purpose bc hes too focused on putting u in your place :(

ik i say this in all of my jjuni posts but hes the #1 dacryphilia enjoyer in vity like he will make u cry thats his ultimate goal no matter how hes punishing you.

with that said, his go-to way for punishing u when you're acting bratty is for sure edging. be it with his hands (side note, hyeongjuns hands r sooo ★_★), his mouth, a vibrator... or more than one of those at the same time, he won't be satisfied until he has you begging and in tears, apologizing for being a brat and promising you won't do it again (u definitely will)

if you're lucky n hyeongjun likes ur apology enough , maybe he'll even let u suck his dick after hes done edging u ! isnt he just so nice ? but u wont get to have him inside of u any time soon , hes someone who holds grudges pretty easily :3

[cowederevived]

Hi Kaede! I just wanted to say that I really love your gens, and I’m sorry if you haven’t felt appreciated enough by the community. Your gens are fantastic and I love them!

Would it be okay to get some mikan giving a “check-up?” if not, perfectly fine too. I just hope you realise there’s a whole group of people that adore you even if we don’t say it out loud!

thank you for the message, you do not realize how releaving those are. So trully thank you. the main issue this blog always had is that the whole concept kinda fumbles because I need the comunity to actually send me stuff, and most of the mindsets are way too... lets just say uncarring. another issue that will always be one is the fact that since you guys dont gen (except like @makoto-naegi-stud-and-friends also known as best boi who do have a bit of experience and @toofasttoocool albeit he prefer to use lora heavy free methods so different systems) meaning that when I get a breakdown or find a new system, or even sometime master it I'm met with no reaction, because for people that only get results it changes nothing. Basically My possibilities always increase, and I always love to generate more creative stuff because thats like the major positive point of ai gen in my opinion, way more than just "ehehe porn" (even if I do love myself mega booba) is to allow people with no drawing skill / time, or that just dont have the body / brain too access to ways to use their creativity to create, instead of just having ideas stuck in their head unable to take form. HOWEVER people kinda ... dont really care about possibilities, I love to do simple stuff #KnightGirlsMyBeloved but If someone wants like, asuna from sao with big boobs, they dont really care about the creativity or possibilities, hence why 95% of ai porn on r34 or Pixiv is super repetitive and boring, and use the same performant models and just have lora changes. 2) I insist, thank you however "mikan giving a “check-up?”" isnt an ask. its a sentence. read my pinned post, Give me minimum detail, something like an expression, a context, a body type, a pose, a background. because otherwise I'll just send u a link toward a cute existing mikan fanart. it can be very basic and normal, but details make the asks and fun. As a reminder, while its 100% my decision (and I think @makoto-naegi-stud-and-friends will understand what I mean) I'm paying for this shit, so yeah wasting it on asks that are 5 words long ? not really an enjoyable experience.

[cogbreath]

vent below idk what image to give to make it worth your while have geeked up spongebob sparkle

7 in the goddamn morning that family is YELLING YELLING. and by that i mean my. but i dont want to really be a part of it. not like they treat me like one anyway. really. except my mom. but when shit like this goes down im basically invisible. maybe its for the better that way. but i dunno. having to see that shit go down. really effects me still. i can enjoy watching nasty fights on reality tv and shit but this stuff isnt enjoyable. cuz like. well i live with these people and shit. whatever. point is. starts making some alters really freak out. i dont even really disagree with the ones who start feeling violent about it. if killing an abuser didnt land u in prison 4 life basically i dont think we'd even be dealing with this shit. probably cruel to say. but really whats cruel is someone who does this shit to people for 20 odd years. can i blame them at all for thinking that when we r like a caged animal who cant fidn a way out i really cant

itsnfine dont worey i wont let things come to that point. but ifnsomehow they do i guess my point that well you all know i tried ans you all know that the fucker had it coming and i will try to figure out how to fit a phone up my hole in prison ans i'll keep blogging as long as none of yall snitch

^ none of yall better act like thats something serious im being a bit funny but honestly i do think this site is pro killing your abuser more than other sites at least on the hypothetical level which helps becuse a lot of you won't disagree with us feeling that way

id love to do it but i wont because i've talked about it and alluded to it more than enough to warrant premeditation charge, and i wouldn't be able to feign innocence to hide it for the rest of my life and id always be paranoid about it so its not worth the mental weight either

i used to worry a lot that he would snap and kill me and mama

i guess it could still happen but i dont feel as scared about it as i used to.

maybe because i feel that im old enough to maybe stop it or at least be really hard to accomplish

this will all mean nothing when i forget about it mostly in a few hours

actually i'll be going to sleep in a few hours

since my schedule is literally the opposite of this family because i need time to myself

hopefully my dreams will be kind to me

i was really upset yesterday because i had a vivid dream where i was being affectionate and romantic with a guy who committed rape on me

woke up super disgusted and went back to sleep until 6 pm about it to get a better dream

does anyone on here care if i call it that if it wasnt violently penetrstive?

to me its a gross criteria plus what are you supposed to call someone who did less that that

whatever

point is i hsted the dream

all my dreams are vivid

many of them are lucid which is lovely

when they arent lucid though sometimes its awful but still its very vivid and all felt as real as life

this isnt really relevant anymore

right now i kind of feel nothing but my tummy hurts a lot

love you guys

[noisytenant]

i played the demo for coffin of andy and leyley. i actually like the worldbuilding and think the story is well-scoped/the nature of the characters being quarantined makes it so that the sometimes annoying RPG trope of "only interactables get flavor text" feels more emblematic of the constriction of their circumstances. i generally like those kinds of light-puzzle-fetch-quest games too, as long as the environment isnt a pain to traverse, which it isnt.

i know im really not the target audience for the central relationship; incest themes do absolutely nothing for me and the character designs are legally classifiable as a type of grain. but i am interested in learning more about how their toxic dynamic formed, and in better grasping their interiority (or willful ignorance of it).

i think in general the core elements were interesting but the writing style is just very alien from the kind of thing i'm into. it seems aware of its own obviousness, but hasn't yet pushed on cartoonishness nor swerved into realism enough to satisfy my sensibilities. i dont know of or relate to people who talk like the characters do, though i know they exist, LOL.

i liked the overworld style. the artist would benefit from learning how to draw anything other than conventionally attractive 20somethings.

i think based on the demo it's really kind of a toss-up if it ends up being anything interesting or if it's just a novelty; i think most likely it's going to be enjoyable with some surprisingly good moments, but mostly just capital C Competent. all the same, i'm curious to play past the demo + see other endings, so that's something.

[friendsamongstars]

TOH update

Watching and Dreaming spoilers

( Hello fellow Matt Tholomule enjoyers

With the ending of TOH and the fact we kind of got a vague but happy ending, I will now be more focusing on Matt being headcanon based!

I'm not making any major changes, just moreso filling in what I think feels best.

This includes him now being friends with Amity in wlw/mlm friendship, in the time between Luz defeating Belos and the time skip we see Matt himself has been more included in hanging out with Gus and friends while working with the rest using what skills he does have.

He and Gus also still continue human studies but it's more a side hobby while Gus teaches it full time. His S tattoo implies he's been told about or shown the human realm enough he liked this and got it permanently on his body.

His friendship with Amity extends to studying and adventuring as well, fully embracing his interests and helping with alot of the new education that will have to be studied and taught to the new students at Hexside. Both of them working alongside Lilith.

I like to think she also enjoys telling Matt how much he's grown and is like his brother. While he has moved away from constantly emulating Steve, he has an 'M' on his apron implying its just a Tholomule thing to have your name/initial on your clothing because that's cool I guess. Lilith is also proud of him for this and supports him and Amity becoming their own people.

Based on this image

It shows Matt hasn't learned much about making things or at least still isn't great at it. Down to the point he still labels what he's made. This is just a funny testament to his skills more in organization than actual building.

As for more personal headcanons, I believe that yellow shirt is his brothers, the sleeves are just cut off. His name is confirmed as 'Matt Tholomule' in the credits and it was confirmed at some point that Steve's last name is also 'Tholomule' so they share a dad and Steve's bio mom simply isnt in the picture for some reason but Matt's is.

The way I write Matt specifically is that he is respectful of his parents and his mother actually taught him painting and pottery skills.

Speaking of pottery, it was and is a way for him to handle his extra energy. He still does it to de-stress and make his own little things for fun. He also paints it and has extensive knowledge in the process, and will share this information with friends.

Even in the time skip, I will write him still having chaotic tendencies and being silly mostly with friends and when he's off work not bossing Kikimora around. He can still be fighty sometimes and have a temper but otherwise has mellowed out alot since the start of the show. )

[cainightfics]

hii! excited for new chapter of trotw soon, i know you update slower than most but the wait is always so worth it with how long your chapters are! im curious: how do you find motivation to write so much? youre well known in 2 fandoms that are very small/inactive, so i imagine it might be hard to find motivation sometimes. i also write fic, but i get discouraged easily when i dont get many hits

thanks for the ask! im sorry i update slowly—i wish i could update more frequently, but i have 2 jobs and am also currently a student, so i dont always have a lot of time. i like doing longer chapters because, like you said, it makes the long wait easier to bear for anyone reading, but also because i feel like i plan the plot more carefully this way, if you know what i mean? with longer chapters, i can sort of think of them as episodes, so 1) each chapter progresses the plot, and isn't just fluff and 2) some new milestone is reached relationship wise. like in the last chapter, for instance, it starts with tyrell and elliot in bed, and tyrell internally complaining about how un-affectionate elliot is. then tyrell does a crazy stunt to get elliot to admit he cares about tyrell (ie, threatening to shoot himself in the head, lol), so that the chapter ends with tyrell and elliot in bed, again, but this time, elliot is rattled by what has occurred over the course of the chapter, and actually physically responds when tyrell makes a move on him.

as for motivation... idk, i actually just like writing a lot i guess, lol. i feel like i mentioned this once before on here, so im sorry if im repeating myself, but fanfic gives me something to think about during the boring parts of my day, when im on the bus or washing dishes or whatever. actually, significantly large portions of trotw have been written in my phones notes app during my morning commute.

i dont really care about getting lots of hits and attention for my fics. as long as a few people enjoy reading them, im happy. im very grateful that people take the time to comment and send me asks—seriously, it does make my day sometimes. but just knowing someone is out there reading my fics, maybe before bed after a long day, or during their lunch break at their job they hate, is good enough for me. i grew up on fan culture (ive been on this site since i was 11!) so fanfic has always been really special to me as a reader.

i know its easier said than done, but once you move past worrying about how many kudos/hits/comments you get, writing is way more enjoyable. i think capitalism often demands that we either monetize or quantify our hobbies. part of this has to do with the current climate of entertainment, which i see people often refer to as the "attention economy." getting lots of hits/kudos = success, because enough people cared about your fic to invest their attention into it, when so many other entertainment options are available. to me, this isnt the point of fanfic. i feel like fic is about community. being passionate enough about something that you're inspired to create a derivative work, then share it with others, with no attempts to earn profit or fame involved, is a very special thing these days, when we're made to believe all activities should have the end goal of making money. i think everyone who wants to should write fanfic, even if they think theyre bad at it, or worry that nobody will read it. being creative is always good for you.

anyways, thanks as always for reading my fics! im happy youre enjoying them. and good luck in your own writing, too!

[everythingsinred]

003 narumi

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How I feel about this character: i made a vine comp for ga a while ago and i made fun of narumi a lot in it bc i think hes funny and someone commented "do u hate narumi?" (or smth along those lines). my answer is surprisingly no, i dont. it might seem that way, and my other answers on this post probably wont rly help, but i dont. i think hes fun and interesting and kinda creepy and altogether he makes a really enjoyable character. do i think hes a good person? HELL NO. i do make jokes with zoe about him being stupid bc we like having fun. hes not stupid really; some of his schemes are actually chilling.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: only with misaki-sensei and hes on thin ice for that too. narumi having the human pheromone alice does not translate into him being romantic at all

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: its hard to say bc while i think sometimes its sweet when he has scenes with mikan, i kinda resent that shes really the only student he gives a single shit about. like dude u are a fucking teacher for an entire class of kids, not just your unrequited love's daughter.

My unpopular opinion about this character: older fics that describe narumi as "clearly gay" are rly funny bc hes so toxically heterosexual in canon. the fanfics were right; sometimes canon is a drag. i say this bc i sometimes feel like im the only person in the world who doesnt like romantic narumi and yuka. he should have just been gay and saved me all this trouble smh

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: i think the insidious side of his character is too well-hidden underneath his flamboyant attitude. he let mikan join the academy JUST so he could get to yuka again, knowing full-well that yuka wouldnt have wanted that and that mikan would be targeted. the fact that he says everything with a heart emoji isnt enough to disregard him as a darker character. i wish his darker side had been properly addressed instead of just brushed aside to focus on how QuiRky he is! or even worse, acting like he's always had good intentions and is a really good teacher who looks out for his students (when tbh hes never been)

Favorite friendship for this character: misaki is his friend, right? and i did think the alice stone galaxy chapter with yuka was cute so ill include her too. i just dont like narumi/yuka romantically

[definitelyuseless]

'are you an optimist a pessimist or a realist' im all off them. except for the realist. is there one in between that doesnt involve being remotely realistic or reasonable? no but really all that positivity lovey dovey love yourself bullshit and all that other olny mildly or completely unrelated bullshit that just also happens to be really insufferable is actual such rubbish and insufferable and intolerable. 'im proud of you' shut the fuck up you dont even know me, like that is so absolutely totally bloody meaningless is that actually meant to make people feel better. and like those pretentious posts that are like romantcaise this, love that yada yada yada. love yourself think positive blah blah blah. theyre so annoying and bullshit and they make me hate evry form of optimism and also, like, 'romanticism.' but actually its like possible to be optimistic about stuff and like yourself and be in a good mood sometimes without being a infferable positively vibes poster (im talking about a picture with writing here not a person on social media but actualy that too) and just being normal about stuff, like naturally you have to feel good aabout yourself and like yoursef at least a bit, even if you also hate yourself. its normal to feel a bit of both, wwhich involves at different times feeling quite strongly about one or the othr. and its possible to be an optinist without being a bloody weirdo, like not wanting to give up and shit is normal human sentiment, just cause you dont go spouting it like a preacher. and thinking things will turn out alright eventually, like people literally counld not survive if they didnt believe that. ptuuing it insocial media posts is completely patronising howwevr. and on a different possible unrelated possible mildy related since theryre both about anoying infufferable people, like 'romanticising' things when people on the internet do it is so fucking annoying and pretentious and cringe. but like you can be like 'pretentious' and shit in a fun way which youd know if you ever read a book, theyre really pretentiosus and thstas pprobably in a good way. and like having emotions and stuff? thats normal humans do that im allowed to have emmotons without being a weirdo, and enjoy things and be annoying and pretentious. and like dramatic that was the workd was looking for. like the romanticism poets movment thing like about the beauty of the natuaral envionment. i mean they were soort of weird. but like being peotic and stuff, when youre relly bored and lifes really boring and you dont have any emotions cause you dont have a life, like feeling emotions by thinking like that is a normal thing you can do that can make you sane and feel a bit of enjoyment even though everythings rubbish

but like the point is why cant people have positive emotons and be normal about it and not annoying and not be like emotions are for annoying middle aged cgristian positivily juice women and teenaged girls who read books about vamipires. why cant emotions be a normal thing that people can be normal about having without it making you a girl or a woman especally a specific sort but also like in genral or a weirdo or a loser or a infuerable pretetious annoying loser. like obviosly im not going to be talking about having emotions and optinimism and stuff in real life or anything, but it can be in my head theres ntohing wrong with that except that imman annoying preetentious insuferable loswr but a dfiferent way from how hteye are like really im nothing like them i may be just as rubbish loser like whatever yeah fair enough but i cant explain why but in personality were nohting alike im not even being supioer except for the bits where i am i mean i did say i was better than them but thats just to me i personally think im better caue i like myself bterret i dont care what they think but the point isnt about being objectivly better its that i dont like them and im not like them even though were all people so we all have the same emotions its how they talk about them thats the point they see things really diferently and im thr normal one

[iamthescalesofjustice]

every january 17th (or rather, every 365 days since the last time this celebration happened, which was originally determined by syncing with whatever the calendar date was the last time they were on a planet with a january that has a length of at least 17 days) is the birthday of ashes o’reilly. 

when aurora is in an inhabited system, everyone may be spread out and busy with their own stuff, so any marking of this event might be cursory and/or sporadic. but when shipboard, generally everyone attends the celebrations that accompany this event. after all, they rarely have anything better to do, and theres an open bar (not that the entire ship isnt essentially open bar at all times anyway, but its the principle of the thing). 

whatever else may or may not happen at a given birthday event, theres one central tradition that defines them. everyone has to gather around a cake with an arbitrarily large number of candles, until the candles are no longer burning. 

only ashes is allowed to blow them out. anyone else who tries is immediately shot to death. 

the cake, of course, is made from an extra special secret recipe, but what we do know is that it contains large amounts of gunpowder, and a key component of the frosting is kerosene. 

(how such a cake gets made in the first place when the chemistry and baking processes known to the conventional sciences of 21st century earth would seem to disqualify it is a mystery. probably the space pirate magic known as ‘when these fuckers are involved the universe itself bends to allow things that are funny, or cool, or make a good story’) 

ashes can be very patient. and sometimes, they even do actually blow the candles out before they burn down enough to get to the cake. but generally speaking, a proper celebration of this sort has plenty of casualties. all in all, it makes for a decently enjoyable few hours for the mechs.