#but thats noy how that works so oh well

[ne0nlightzz]

Its 2smt-am and I can't sleep so I did what any reasonable person would do(not)

I changed all my family members ring tones to either the 2k12!TMNT theme song, the invader zim opening theme song, or the Nokia ver of the fnaf theme song. I set them all for dif ppl- well besides my sister, she got the 'mew mew mew mew mew mew mew' 8-bit sounding song cuz I'll never not associate her with cats cuz she's a cat lady-

I need to go tf to sleep cuz this is not what I'm supposed to be doing lolz- also am probs gonna try to work on reqs n all if I'm feeling upto it tmr!

[complete-clownery]

Not me deciding that I wanna figure out how does Macaques dojo work, cuz I couldnt seem to find any ideas of it on the internet lol

Okay so long long LONG rant:

Ik that in canon the whole place looks kinda-- moldy and shit and I get the lot of hc about how Macaque probably doesnt even live there since its in a very industrial outer neighborhood of Megaplois, and also it probably isnt really decorated or looks like someone is living in there at all, but I like to think that he has standards and they put like 272636373 nois cancelation seals on their bedroom so he can sleep camly when he actually can sleep (since in my hc Macaque suffers from insomnia (its a pretty common hc tho, but you get it)) and I think the outer circle of Megaplois is even tho industral and under constructuion on most parts, its probably more quiet than downtown

And I also like to imagine, Macaque even tho if not commited to a place will make it more homy. But looking at my reference pictures, in the dojo there were also a lot of posters and paintings (and in MKAGC Macaque did mention he might have a poster of wukong soooo~~)

For the layout I went after whatever felt right, since I had like 4 pictures to piece together a two-story house with a gallery(??) so its actually just me deciding what I want and where I wanna put it

(Here are the screenshots from lmk s1ep9 I used:)

Okay Okay if you couldnt tell, for some reason im really hyped about this stuff so im going to lead you trough my thougtprocess, when imagining this whole thing, in order from ground level to gallery

1. Ground level:

Ahh yes ground level: the problem child

(Im going to keep it somewhat brief here cuz I wrote a shit ton of explanations for it, but that somehow got deleted which I am super pissed about btw)

So I saw that a lot of hc with Macaques place are mostly that first floor is the dojo and the second floor is the living area, buuut~~ based on the screenshots of the series that doesnt make any sense. My reasoning? Simple really, its bc you can see the ceiling If you are standing in the dojo. This could lead to the conclusion that:

"Okay maybe then there is no second floor just a gallery in there somewhere and thats it".

Sure we can say that, but then you would ignore the fact that you cant see the front door of the building when Macaque slams Mk into a weaponstand.

"Okay then its on the other side of the room that we never got to see in the episode"

I mean maybe sure but to me from an animation point of view it just doesnt make sense, just why would they flipp the camera angle like that (I mean anyone can think whatever they want, everyones opinion is valid, its not like anyone would ever argue me on this one ((or read this whole brainrot trough in the first place lol)))

Haha anyways regardless of anything, let's go back to talking about the first floor, shall we?

Everything is pretty self explenatory: when you come in on the front door youll see a little shoe rack where you can but your shoes, and one stair to seperate the ante-room from the rest of the house

Then theres a long hall that leads to the enterence of the storageroom, the random room and the staircase that leads to the second floor

I couldnt decide on what to put in that big room-- I had no clue -- I was thinking maybe Macaque could let other people rent it for a few days of maybe theres a shop with an owner whos ranting the place from Macaque (I think thats an interasting concept, but I didnt explore any of them) oh well thats that tho

"""somewhat brief""""

Second floor:

This was probably the easiest, since 90% of it is the dojo

But before that when you walk up to the second floor you can see a big boubel door that opens to the dojo, and a normal door that opens to the bathroom, which is strategicly placed there by yours truely. There is big brain logic behind it,, it might be inconvinient for Macaque to walk down the stairs from his bedroom trough the dojo to the bathroom (but also he can just shadow portal there--), but when ocasionally he mentors Mk, he might have to go to the bathroom while hes at Macaques place and I dont think Macaque would apritiate someone stomping trough his personal area, and thats why the bathroom is conviniently placed next to the dojo and not that far from the bathroom I know im a genius (**read everything in the bathroom part with a lot of sarcasm**)

Anyways, we couldnt even see all four of the dojos walls so that was also a 'gamble', but I went with a simple bouble door that I mentioned before and two weapon stands (yes those are weapon stands) and other than that you can see the rest of the room on the screenshots, theres also the staircase and that has some closet underneath it, but thats about it

The gallery (my personal favorit):

Looking at my reference pictures i could see that the dojo took up a lot of space almost taking up the 1/2 of the building, which I think is reasonable and kinda cool, but that means small living area which I think is even cooler (I am a huge fan of small practical spaces, they feel so so cozy)

So Yeah the living space: mostly two rooms that I also illustrated on top of this post, (you probably saw it) with a balkony thingy before the enterence of the rooms, where you can look down and see the entirety of the dojo, good for observing.

When you go in the door (actually havent decided if I want to put a door there or curtains for style but meh who knows who cares), youll enter the small but spacious kitchen. I dont see the Six Eared Macaque as a homecook, more of a fake cooking guy (only making basic foods like eggs or toast, maybe ocasionally pancake), hints there is no built in stove or owen just a portable stove, a kettle and a toaster and a small fridge that has MKs drawing (that he drew for them at the end of season 3) magneted there :]

Other than that theres a sink and an old television, he got from the randomest place ever, maybe he fished it out of the trash idk, but he put it on top of the cabinets (rarely watches anything on it)

On the baseplan you can see that there was supposed to be a small table next to the sink with a chair, but it didn't make it to the final drawing cuz let's be honest: drawing interior in correct perspective without a reference picture is just not my strongest artskill I posess, so I got pissed and put a trashcan in there, Macaque can eat in his bed

Talking about bed, let's move on to the Six Eared Macaques room:

It is very small but pretty comfortable with a small bed but a shit ton of pillows for a good nights sleep, other than that there are a nightstand that has the Lantern on it (I know it sorta got lost/destroyed after defeating LBD but I wanted to put it there) and a drawer.

The nightstand probably doesnt have a lot innit, just some nick-nacks and tissues and maybe snacks, or a book or something, the drawer stores some of his clothes, but since I like to think that Macaque is a fashion icon that wont be able to fit most of their clothes, so maybe he stores them in a pocket dimension of shadows, and only has some esentials there when he needs to get ready quickly.

And we could talk about the posters plastered around the room, but most of them are kinda self-explanatory, but there are the poster of his shadowplaly of the hero and the warrior, some drawing, a "Hang in there babygirl!" Poster with a cat on it hanging in there, a poster of the monkey king (heh), phantom of the opera poster and a-- well--- that ones for my bestie hope she'll notice it, its a spies are forever poster (really fun musical a of spies, go watch it its on youtube), and a drawing he brought( maybe)

And thats about the bedroom

And we are still not done, how are we feeling about that?? Huh?? (You dont have to answert, this shit took me about 2 hours to write :] )

LAST PLACE: the corner of the windows opposit the kitchen and the bedroom. Its just a chill little place with pillows and blankets, where someone can bundle up and enjoy some tea or read a book or brood, whatever the monkey prefers. The special thing about it, is that you cant access the place without knowing how to levitate, fly, jump high, or use portals, not that much of a game changer since more than half of the lmk cast could get up there, but still a bit of a barrier in my opinion

AAAAAND~~~ thats it omg

Hi hello if you read this trough could you please comment or reblog with this: "🐵" cuz I wanna know about the brave soilders who went trough this immense amount of clownery,,, holly mother---

If you read this all 👏👏👏 you are amazing thank you for appreciating my work this much, have an amazing day or night ✨🪲

[breannasfluff]

so like hi there i have a Ravioli hurt/comfort fic plot im not gonna write but i thought youd enjoy it so ima over explain it in your Ask box!

Okay okay okay so A link between worlds right so for this were gonna pretend it was before A links awakening for the ✨Story✨ 

So in A links awakening Links gf is fucking a seagull or a dream or smthn right kinda fucked up, well you see Ravio already kinda lives with Link at this point and there kinda dating but not so Link comes back home from his adventure and Ravio is  so fucking exited and like "Mr. Hero your home! oh in sk glad i was so lonely how did Hylia treat you are you okay do you need something want to lie down? are you injured" But then Links jusy standing in the fuckjng door way like, Shit Ravio did i forgot about him? i mean i fell in love with Marin that's basically replacing him, Marin... i mean fuck she was a dream does that count i still fell i  love with her though thats fuvked up i replaced ravio fuck fuck fuck. 

abd then he fucking passes out

but then after that Link still having a crisis avoids Ravio as much as he can, whichhhhhhhh is not mych considering theu live in the same house, sleep in the same room, and eat the breakfast ravio made together. but he tries. and when Ravio tries to confront Link he is overwhelmed and doesnt know what tk say so he just anounced an impromptu visit to his sister saying he wants to update her on his adventure.

so he leaves and Ravios confused and a little hurt while Link feels like shit and also confused.

He does get to Zelda and she rightfully slaps some sense into Link because wtf are you thinking, your upset yes but he can help you he doesnt have to know everything but atlest tell him hey i dont hate you

so Link dramatically goes running back to his kinda boyfriend who feels like shit and collapsaes at ravios feet gushing out how he loves him and he fell in love with someone else and he feels horible and shes kinda gone anyways she wasn't actually real and link is fucking truamatized from his gf jot actually being real and the  ravio goes and hugs him and they do a cute little communication thing and Ravios like hey fuck ur all good i live you to its fine you fell in love with Marin it fucking sucks shes dead can i help at all??     

and there all cute and cuddly and Link deals with some Truama in a healthy way fir once       

anyways that was much longer then anticipated i just have alot of thoughts about them

im noy gonna write it tho cas thats like  of work and im still only on work 3 for wumptober and my wip list is st like 10 and jts like sir wtf is going on

so yeah hope you like it! uhm have fun ig

Oh boy, yeah, that would be pretty angsty! And a good topic for therapy/couple’s counseling on falling in love and forgetting your boyfriend 😂

[bonesandthebees]

THE SONG U SUGGESTED IS SO INTNESSEFFGW OGKYGOD IM SO SCAREDDD

PHYTHIA WANNABEE OH FUCKFHALDHDPDJFLKSLRNFKNSD

OHMYFUCKINGGODDD

THATS WHERE U PUT MR BEASTSJFKFKLGLGKSKSFLGG

IM CRYIGNKDJSKG BEEEEE

I started reading it thinking "wow what a deep commentary about the glass society and in turn ours-" before realizing it was mr beast 😭

This song DOES fit so well damn wtf

You know, I think it's interesting that rn the pov is The Pythia rather than Wilbur, even tho he's running away from well "being" the Pythia

There's smth to be said here if i were a much smarter person... lmao

Maybe the pressure of everything and being faced with his old name makes him revert back to it

Also I just had to run to catch the bus, 10/10 running music, made me run faster i think LMAO

Oh no

THE LUNGS

OH NO

IS THAT WHAT YHE VISION WAS ABOUT?!?!?! OHMYGOD NOOOO

THE MSUCIDS GETITNG MORE ITNENSE THIS FITS TOO WELL

IS

IS TOMMY GOING TO SUGGEST

IS TOMMY GOING TO SUGGEST HE TAJES HIS BLINFOLD OFF HOLYSHTI OHMGYDO WHAYRJGUVK ISHFPEURKF

IM GONANA SCREAMMMSHFLDKF I CANT DO THIS IM ON A PUBLIC BUS OHFNUCMGNFIFJGOKDR

HOLY FUCKING SHIT OHMUGUPD

THIS IS DEF ONE OF MY FAV CHAPTERS OHKYGOD THIS IS SO GOOD BEE

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

OHMYFUCIJGIGOGOD I CANT DO THSI INCANT DO THIS

Im going to be sick. Im going to be sick IM GOINY-

BEE.

HOLFYCUKHIGODIDKPAOEFODPIDFOJFLDHFOFHSOFBDKFBDOFBFKGKFLF

THIS WAS NOY HOW I EXPECTED THE FIRST EYE CONTACR IN YEARS TO GO NOOO PHFJJGUDOS OHKYGOD I CANT I CANT IM GOING TO DIE OHMYGOS I AM GOIGN TO GET A HEART ATATCK AN DPERISH OHMGOD

HES WILBUR AGAIN

WHO THE FU--

OHMYGOD

THEYRE BACK ALREADY?@?$,%*=[*=%

God i can imagien how fucking smug u wrre writing this chaptehrffojgkgjfydofus

I LOVE HIM

THEY MADE IT BACK?!?! NOT WHAT I WAS EXPECTING TBH BUT I'LL TAKE, ILL FUCKING TAKE IT OHMYGOD

U DIDNT KILL HIM WILBUR ISTG ITS OKAY OUT OF EVERYONE FOR U TO LOOK IN YHE EYE HE WAS RHE 2ND BEST

I say 2nd best bc phil is pretty much dating death so- DHFKD

Im goingnto cry

THE UNDERWORLD

HES STILL WILBUR

I dont even know how i wanna react, idk if i wanna keysmash, scream, swear, or cry ohmygod

:( ive been waiting for this moment but also FUCKKK tbis is painful im gonna cry on this bus i can feel it sgfjfnf

I love tommy so much ohjygod

Glass tommy mvp :( i lvoe him hes so sweet:(*

And now during this emotional conversation i switch songs

Embarrassingly enough by boyscott is such a good song to listen to while reading emotional scenes in fics

FUCKK I DIDNT FINISH BEFORE CLASS oh well time to read in class amen, im almost done anyway

OOOHBH GOD THIS MIGUTVE BEEN A MISTAKE I WANNA CRY AT THEIR HUG OHHHHMJGODJDJFJDKD

Ohmygod

Tommy:(

Ohmygor

Ohmgydo

I am not okay

I am not okay

Ooooooohhhh my gosh:((((((

WHERE'S THEIR DAD, WHERE'S PHIL, HE'LL KNOW HOW TO FIX THIS, SURELY

Ooohmygod

ITS NOT THEIR FAULT!!!

Though, them not telling phil and tech about the vision is, but i dont think it would've changed anything ooohmygoodness my heart hurts:(

Bee blz how could u

(This was a fucking amazing chapter though holyshit, this is gonna be one of those scenes i reread over and over again ohmygoddd)

very glad you guys are all liking the song. it's such intense chase scene vibes and I think the electronic beats really makes it perfect for the glass universe. there was another song from the same movie soundtrack I debated listening to but then I tried to write to it and was like hmm no container park is a better track instead

well the mr beast moment is supposed to be an example of the dystopian capitalist hellscape that exists in the glass universe, and dystopian settings are meant to be exaggerated versions of the society we currently live in to point out the flaws so yeah it is commentary lol. I have a lot of feelings regarding mr beast and the contrast between the philanthropic work he does while simultaneously exploiting people's financial struggles for entertainment but that's a discussion for another day

LMAO not listening to the song while running to the bus 😭

I am so sorry for your heart rate very glad it invoked the right emotions though :) I was very smug writing this entire chapter

phil is out having a business meeting he'll get to deal with this mess in the morning

I'm so happy to hear you enjoyed!! I struggled a lot writing this bc I hate writing action scenes as you know, so I kept second guessing if the pace was good or not the entire damn time but I'm pretty happy with how it turned out in the end

[solardick]

I doubt im getting back to normality” any time soon. Oh, Sightly loathing. You are a something to see. It’s being built up again. I suspect another crisis. Im losing count. The jupiter in aqua is an awefull piece of shit as my brother would say. On the positive side of abuse and harrasment. And placement. And despair. Hig ols steliem of demons. Is what the centaurs are. Playing this horrorscope to a T. Destruction. And glee. Glee? Yeah glee. Its the most consistent thing inknow from others. Its just there. And yet not one person. Noy one person had come forward other than yo gleem a peice of info. Like y’all fo here. Looking for something? I got plenty.

Anyway. I was thinking. a or the other way of writting it. And, o, e, c. Probably a dead end. Maybe not. Blind fool. O fool, the E fool and the high priestess. There it is again. And something new. We got two pillars. An innocemt fool amd a “guilty fool. And the Oo death card. Whichbis neat being a card that uses the letters on the card to speak it own play. Its a passage of time. And a glimpse of the future amd the fear ewith death on thr consequences if it isnt speaking something else also. The distant and the present.

The more convinced i become that this card is wuite magical indeed. And a right slection. Whoch was waiting to be plugged in. Wasn’t my choice. Just the body. The things that come to when one is in solitary.

The marseille fool. The current E-fool. Is a negative figure. I preffer the negative figure. It just nakes more sense. Symbolically. I mean you can try and bend the rules all yah want. So that it fixed as a projection. Cant use waites fool. For that. The blind fool is best. Spwaks the same message and then some. Without all the fancy excesorries. They played the marseeille fool on me. Didn’t really fit cause their wrong but. They dont listen

Know what. Im gonna talk openly about my love for jesus. To everyone around me. Would you kiss jesus with the mouth?! Jesus. Come, here. This guy wants a kiss. Yeah thats what inthought shut the fuck yp. The current list of demons” are called pests. Pestilence. Bzz bzz. Go be by myself. They make sure they fallowed me around and rub in how much they enjoy being cunts.

Well lets put the crusofix back on. Since that is my life. And watch all these cunts give me a hard time. Hey look the weather report id wrong. Its usually spot on to thr minute. But not today its raining out. Not cloudy.

Just because i believe in god doesnt mean i have to be polite about. Hlaf the world is busy sucking eachother off, createing single peramt families and being cunts anyway.

The term cocksukr is poli numerous or however its called. If its been seperated into its original

Teo words. Its literally all in the eye of the beholder. People eat cocks all the time. And to be called a sucker. Means what? Point made.

Oh shit! Its a dove. Good. Doves are good. God agrees with me. The problem

With eating a bird. Requires destruction of natural resources.

Alright. Do an std screening and if thats negative get a rectal cancer screening. If i have to wear a diaper for the rest of my life. Im backing out.

Moral of my life. Dont be an incompetant retard and have children.

n dit turns out god was right when the crows warnes mw agaisnt nate on the day he said we would be working together. He’s just another fucktard that wnjoys fucken with people. Though its weird how he mostly just specificcalt warned me about him. Pudgy batman and the neurotic troll too. To anlesser degree and the others.. not muchnof anything. Odd. Probably because the others dont try and hide it.

After this grouo of people messing with me i womder who the next group will be.

Place after place year after year. Since childhood. Born in hell.

Anyway god. Thanks for looking out for me. In this world full of narcissists. Taken joy in ruining my life. But i dont need it. You’re wasting your time. All life is is other people hurting me. Its all its ever been. Father’s a narsicist. He always showed me elation when talking about having the upoer handover someone. The smiles he used to gove me instead of giving me guidance. Like you used to say about Tony’s father. “I used to use as a punchign bag” said it multiple times when a smile on his face. All life is is this. After 30 years. Of constant upgeaval. I dont want to be alive anymore. Sont waste your time on me. Im not surviving much longer.

Inwish i was a narsicist peice of shit too. Maybe id have a life and be a degwbweate fucktard to the rest of humanity toi and have a sens eof acconomishment. Like lak these others. Ive been beaten since i was 13. Dead since i was 13. They’re never going to stop. I dint know what life is not being fucked with. Its always been this way. An dinknow that theyre never going to stop. They take oleasure in it. Over 30 years mu entire life is other people hirting me. So i doesnt matter what i do. Im stuck her essrroinded by criminal assholes. How have been taling my existance since birth. So just go away. And stop trying to help me. I need them gone. Or your efforts are useless they laugh and mock you god. Leave me be. And let me die. I dont want yiur help anymore. Im not allowed to be myself. Surrounded by all these fucken cocksukrs.

I thought about going to go see for soem help for my psychosocial issues. But then i realized that these faucktards have been engeneering me to be this way. Somits pointless cause its not really me. Its them. I wish there was a lesson for me to learn in allnof this. But theres not.after this many years. Theres notheing to learn. Thats isn’t isnt actually the real world. Its a torutee chamber i was born in. And have been a target in sinve birth. Theres nothign to take away from it.

I have a life sentence of being fucked woth foe other reason then being born. Im hoing to start leaving my door unlocked so, y’all can vome in freely and drug up my food again. And do whatever sicknand twisted y’all want to do to me. 39 and i still dont know what havign a sense of securoty feels like. Womder what it feels like being libed and having someone hows got your back. I womder what it feels like not havign an environemnt animinical to uour well being. I wimder what it feels like being a narcissi t peice of shot. Womder whatn it feels like feelig. Rightious while destroying and slowly killing soemones life. Wonder what it feels like havign responsibility for someone else life. Womder what it feels like beign there and supporting someone you know isn’t fucking with uou. Winder ehat life would be like not being raised by enemies. Wo

We what its like not being an object of ridicule. Womder what its like havign i sider i formation on my own life. The world had been plotting agaisnt me sonce i was a child. I wish there was soemthign to learn in life. But, theees not. Ive already learnt wverything 30 years ago. I have a teachers personality. And everyone treats me like im a in now at all bettwr than thou charecter. Its easier to lear. While you teach. To bad being a study means you never learn anything. Eomder what its like not being serroundd by criminals. Havign people, shoving dick and drugs in your face everyday. Been that way since choldhood. Its never going to change.

Hey its my birthday tomorow. Wonder what sick twosted bs their going to gove me. My retarded invred family will

Probably send me money. Ugh. More cash to donate to charity supposed.

[happiiest]

😷

[lavender-z-love]

Huening Kai X Black.FemReader

Eternally

Genre: Suggestive, Fluff, Romantic, Flirty, Idol Boyfriend.

Contains: Suggestive topics, Mentions of alcohol/hangover, potential spelling errors.

Word Count: 630

The sweet aroma of breakfast roaming the halls of your home.

Light snores make their way out of your room, where you sweet boyfriend rested.

Silly Kai, you sighed both of you still being young. Despite Kai's facial features maturing, he still had a soft side to him.

You wouldn't change it for the world. Once you were done with the breakfast you'd made for your boyfriend, you gather up everything and head back to his side.

"Kai, sweetheart.."

Your fingers find their way tangled once more between his brown locks. So cute! You thought to yourself. He started to shift around a bit, even turning away from you.

Giggling you lean over him, following his face.

"Still sleep?"

Kai hummed as the corners of his mouth began to rise. Clearly showing he wasn't sleep, rather just messing with you.

"Teddy Bear, you're not sleep, so get up or no more kisses."

Kai's chocolate eyes open,"Im awake!"

"Thats what I thought! Now here-."

You held the plate up in front of him,"I made you some breakfast Kai."

The enduring look in Kai's eyes so blatant- he removed the plate from your hand, setting it on the night stand before grasping your arm.

He pulled you towards him, before pushing you down leaving you beneath him.

"Hyuka, baby. Does your head noy hurt?" Kai winced a bit,"Just a little."

"Really? Well, for someone who was drunk last night. You're doing pretty well this morning."

"Is that so? Do I get a prize?!"

His smile beamed with excitement and joy.

"Hyuka, I made you breakfast. Of anything I should punish you for being bad last night!"

Kai's expression changed to one revealing his confusion.

"Last night? What happened last night?"

You opened your mouth to talk, then you realized you were embarrassed to say what he did.

Though you worked your way up to,"Hyu..You were- how should I put it? Very much..Ready for take off."

"Take..off?"

Kai would soon realize what you'd ment by that. Meaning that he admitted to wanting to love you all night.

"A-Ah, I..did that to you?"

He lowered himself onto you, pressing his head on your chest.

"Just a little Kai, It wasn't that bad."

"Oh! Thats great-"

You interrupted him with a smile on your face,"That is until I had to bathe you!"

You thought back to it, Hyuka thowing flirty advances towards you. Him attempting to give you a lap dance- not only that.

There was more- Kai ended up slipping and falling in the shower, the thud was so loud it alerted the neighbors. He sung, he threw things, even tried to eat the soap you provided to him.

Kai sat before you as you listed the things he had done. Kai scratched the back of his head with a wryly smile.

"You were bad last night baby..."

"W-Well..Uh I won't do it next time? Haha!"

Kai nervously laughed, and you smiled shaking your head. "Now then",You continued crawling off the edge of the bed,"Do you need anything, my lovely Teddy Bear?"

"No..Let me do something for you."

"Sure Hyuka, just..Lets take care of that headache first!" You'd reach into the dresser for a pain killer, once in hand you give them to Kai.

"Baby, eat your breakfast before it gets cold." Kai, now extending his hand out to you, asks,"Please, share it with me?"

"Darling I made that breakfast for you."

"I know and, I love you. Thank you..but please. I feel bad for how I acted last night."

You sighed, holding back the urge from rolling your eyes,"Alright Darling." Once hand in hand, Kai tugs at you, pulling you into his arms and into a hug.

You smiled glancing up at him, and him glancing down at you. "Y/n.."

"Yes?"

"I love you..eternally."

Supposed to be a mini-sequal to my first Huening Story ♡ Hope its okay! Happy mothers day!

Written May 8th

[blu-eh]

ok its 12:30 am but i watched raya and the last dragon for the second time today and there are still some parts that like. i just Dont Understand so my Thoughts (tm) about the movie under the cut. spoilers, obviously

- firstly: sword lesbians. thats all

- disney is too much of a coward to make them actual lesbians so they went the queer baiting route instead. i see you disney. we all see you. 

- honestly, watching the movie, the dragon designs did not bother me as much as i thought they would. like, i very much think they could have been better but at the same time...they were not horrible. so that was cool. i rlly liked the scene where sisu was swimming. compared to moana though, some of the water animation was weird like characters should’ve appeared wet when they werent but...water is hard to animate so 

-animation was on point oh my god. it was a really visually beautiful movie. i thought the dragon designs clashed with the human design but it wasnt like, the worst. 

-it was a COOL world. i wouldve loved to learn more about it

-captain boun was my favorite character and i adore him. i would adopt him

-found family. nice

-the asian culture was SO cool. loved that. i love the things they incorporated 

-that scene with raya, boun, and sisu on the boat where they put the flowers in the water was SO good. i loved that

-also loved the scene where sisu reveals her dragon form, like, can we say...... iconic

-but there were plot holes/things i did not understand oh my god and i cant tell if this is a cultural thing or if the movie didnt explain it well or if i just missed things but:

-like what IS the plague (i forgot the name)???? WHY does it feed on humans?? where did it come from?? “born from human discord” is cool and all but that explains. nothing. is it feeding on them?? is it even alive?? like what is the purpose? the end goal? why is it there? why does it hate water??????? if its bred by human discord, then WHY did it not show up during the literal 500 years of Actual War that happened. did the gem keep it away??? if so, why did it return???? they have been fighting a Lot Longer than that single night

-literally why did the dragons not come back the first time. i dont understand. what made it any different the second time with weaker magic??

-does this magic ball have a two time limit like...why did the magic fade. because it was cracked??? why would it start fading at that exact moment and not like, over the six years that it was cracked before. why did it still work when simple put back together like a puzzle. how did it crack so perfectly??

-i have a feeling a lot of the answers to my questions will be “magic” and idk how to feel about that

-GOING BACK TO THE WATER THING.....does sisu have powers??? the movie obviously implied she was a water dragon but we saw maybe ONE scene where she used these powers and it was literally never explained. you couldve had a cool story arc about sisu coming into her powers or having an inferiority complex because her siblings have powers but she doesn’t (which could tie in to why it was such a big deal that they trusted her) but like....we dont see that at all and im still confused on that aspect 

- nine main characters (raya, boun, tong, noi, the three monkeys, sisu, and namaari) is a LOT to balance. i had to google everyones name just now besides boun & raya because i literally could not keep up with a cast that big. like, they were fine main characters but a couple of them just felt...flat (ie tong & noi & the monkey things. im not even sure why the monkeys were there). its a struggle too because a couple of them didnt even show up until more than half way through the movie so.

- the movie was very heavy handed on the theme of “trust” which like, yes, good theme but honestly if someone backstabbed me not once but TWICE.....i would not trust them. ALMOST THREE TIMES. plus, like trust almost got sisu killed in talon so.....idk what the purpose of that scene was??? it seemed very much the opposite of the theme.....but also there is such a huge differences between trusting your brothers and sisters (in sisu’s case) vs. trusting someone who (see: previous trust) had resulted in the “death” of your dad AND friend...like that is fundamentally different. i think the theme couldve explored “learning to trust AFTER FORGIVENESS” like there was a very weak redemption arc. idk

-what even was the fang’s leader’s plan??? “we wont give raya a choice but we will get sisu” like firstly, sisu is a dragon. she is not going anywhere unless she wants two. secondly: why?????????? and third: they literally never explain what this plan was. there is no way this woman knew that raya was just going to show up and offer her daughter a chance at redemption (which she fails. miserably. i literally dont think its raya’s fault at all for her reaction with the crossbow like......see: betrayal history and literally hunting raya down for a couple months (years?)

- WHY DID THE STONE PEOPLE FREEZE IN THAT SPECIFIC POSITION. we have LITERALLY everyone turn to stone in the same position with the cupped hands yet tong and noi and boun and namaari all just...didnt freeze in that position. i dont understand why some people were turned to stone in a specific position and some werent

-why did the water disappear after sisu “died”??? like did she truly die and the water just left because she died?? that would mean that dragons have the power to revive other dragons, but at the same time, don’t they only have a single magical power??? how does this work

-going back on the single magical power thing: HOW could all the dragons do the little flying thing??? i was under the impression that sisu could only do that AFTER she got the power from her rain brother but those other dragons were able to do it just fine. is this just a dragon thing??? can they all do this?? does this count as a single power??

-there was one point in the movie where all the dragons jumping down the cliff looked like worms on strings and i had to pause the movie because i was laughing so hard

- this wouldve been a really cool series instead of a two hour movie but i feel like they tried to fit too much into a short time frame

-i did not care for the soundtrack imo :( it was pretty disappointing 

-OVERALL i think its a FINE movie like its good and you should see it and support movies with asian casts and culture because the cultural aspect was REALLY COOL. i am just extra critical because its a disney movie but like.......i feel like disney had the funding and the team to make this movie great but didnt want to take the risk in case they lost money on it so there are a lot of things that just felt....incomplete

[cosmosrival]

👀 Does Kama like to peg Ash? 👀

u know what... ? u know what ?

KamAsh headcanons (AND NSFW HEADCANONS) time!!!!!! i don’t care anymore i had fun writing the kama*master ones 

so have these !!!!! might also become a character analysis and trivia because i cannot stay consistent when im talking about them !!!!

reminder bfore i start: ITS FINAL ASCENSION KAMA. NOT THE OTHERS. 

ok we’re good now

i think kama tops by default in every relationship they’re in, but their true strength resides in the fact that they are vers. and i believe that ash is ALSO vers. because flustered kama is a luxury and super cute and delicious and BECAUSE YOU WOULDNT LET YOUR GOD OF LOVE TOP YOU ???? ARE YOU SURE ??? YOU WOULDNT LET URSELF BE PAMPERED BY UR GOD ? ARE U REALLY SURE ?

ash is very cute because he’s gap moe, his respect for parvati shows that he’s not just a rage machine and can very much think normally like ur regular gold hearted delinquent anime boy !!!! god i Love him... anyway, i think he respects kama enough to look out for them and worship them like a proper God!! i believe that ash would call kama things like ‘your divinity’, ‘your grace’ (and if u have some jp knowledge, i think he’d add “-sama” to their name) because they... are god? (i think arjuna and karna also call them like this !! polite mahabharatan warriors are good boys)

since ash never married in the epic, i like to think that it’s because he was very much focused on his duty and ALSO because his participation in the war was out of loyalty towards king dhritarashtra and hastinapur so he was... perhaps planning on getting married once the war Ends ??? HE WAS OUT THERE FIGHTING !!!!!!! but we all know what happened to him (sheds a tear) 

anyway i think he’d be a bit of a masochist. (the room falls silent and you all look at me)

SORRY THAT WAS VERY HARDCORE ALL OF A SUDDEN but hear me out, FIRST OF ALL this man was able to endure an immortality curse until lord krishna eventually decided to free him so he’d join the throne and SECOND OF ALL, in his interlude he speaks of looking for ways to repent because he regrets what he’s done. and since we’re kinky over here, i’m gonna throw gentle femdom in the mix bc i think it fits them and its cute. especially because kama is literally the best person he could apologize to. and the only person who’d make his repentance pleasurable (because its their mcfreakin talent !!!!!) even if it technically wasnt his fault, i think his need to atone would just... overpower that and he’ll want to do anything kama wants, just to earn a crumb of forgiveness (without being desperate about it because... HES GOT AN EGO STILL, COME ON)

i like to think that he’s tried to apologize properly before... in a tense moment when they’re both more calm and alone. but kama stopped him because it’d just make things worse. if kama loses the need to have a grudge, will they even be useful as a servant anymore ? would they forgive themself for being so lenient ? forgiving their murderer’s protégé when they havent even had proper revenge ? kamadeva might have been a benevolent god before, but now they’re a lot more malicious (mara...) and this pointless anger would just make them look like an idiot (because servant shiva doesnt exist (YET?)). and i think ashwatthama would understand. 

so he won’t say the words “i’m sorry” because it’d just hurt them. 

THO WILL HE STOP LOOKING OUT FOR THEM AND SPOILING THEM ? no he will not

kama would find him interesting because he’s perfect bullying fodder but as i said before, it doesn’t work on ash. HE’S A WARRIOR ??? A CURSED IMMORTAL ? DO U THINK THAT PETTY PRANKS LIKE THE ONES KAMA DOES WOULD AFFECT HIM ? “are you bored ?” he asks while they’re trying to surprise him from behind and jumpscare him, without even turning to face them. kama groans in defeat.

SEDUCTION DOESNT WORK ON HIM EITHER AND THATS SO FUNNY but thats where it becomes subtle, he grows attached to them because they’ve gotten used to eachother’s presence (and strength in battle... small things like that). love can be born out of simple things!! blatant bimbo seduction doesn’t work on him but when he comes to wake kama up, and they’re too lazy to get up or float and groggily order him to lean forward so they can hold onto his shoulders so he’ll lift them up when he straightens himself is...

he’d find it cute. they’re cute. when they reach the cafeteria it’s still quite early and he already knows what they like to eat and get their plate ready for them while they’re waking up and yawning. god... they’re cute... its so subtle and cute...

......ok time to be horny !!! (TOMATOES GET FLUNG AT ME)

i think that they’d reach this stage after a while, when kama just gives up on bothering him cuz he’s annoyingly strong (and ganesha is more fun to bother anyway) and since they’re around eachother very often, kama would grow comfortable around him. same for ashwatthaman ! they’re very nice to be around when they’re calm and just chillin. 

the only teasing kama hasn’t tried on him is being openly horny and come onto him, asking him things about himself. and ash revealing that he’s never done these sorts of things before (HES A LIL MAD CUZ ITS EMBARRASSING ... DAMN... !!!), i think it’d give kama ideas. I MLAUGHING TYPING THIS BC I DIDNT THINK OF HOW THEY’D COAX HIM INTO GETTING NAUGHTY YET AND IT SOUNDS LIKE A BAD PORN INTRO AHHHHHHHHHHH

ok yeah like i said i didnt think of the coaxing yet but knowing ash, kama could turn it into a competition and make fun of him a little and he’s ready to go. arrogant dummy. 

he’s polite but his arrogance is a charm point because he’ll def want to prove himself to the god of carnal love. imagine kama’s reaction when he actually outfucks them.

HONESTLY ? I BELIEVE HIS WARRIOR STAMINA WOULD JUST BE INCREASED ONCE HE BECAME A SERVANT. AND KAMA WAS NEVER A WARRIOR theyre a lavish and lazy god.

BUT THEIR EGO IS WOUNDED and their shocked reaction is cute and ash wants to keep holding them for a little longer

their sessions genuinely feel like hatefucking at first since they’re both weirdly competitive like that but then, guilt hits and kama feels like an idiot because they just came onto someone thats supposedly their enemy??? and they’re a bit distant in the aftermath, they almost... look a little shy. 

ashwatthaman isnt beating himself over it as much as they are tho. it felt good, he got to see a new side of them he never thought he’d get to see so intimately and... he outfucked God :) SO HE IS PROUD. but looking at them lying there, breathless and looking all sad worries him. so i can see him leaning forward and spooning them, holding their hand and kissing their fingers and it’s such a soft gesture, kama stutters and asks “Where.. where did you learn to do that.” and seeing their reaction, Ash blushes as well and explains that he saw his father kiss his mom’s hand once???? AND ITS... SUCH A CUTE AND OBVIOUS REASON. kama feels dumb for asking but it makes them chuckle. 

and i think seeing someone who constantly looks so tired and depressed, have a genuine little chuckle would melt ash right there. i think he’ll want to see more. 

AND FROM THAT POINT ON, i think kama would also get used to this... intimacy they start to share. when he wraps his arms around them he always hugs them in this protective way, as if he wanted to shield them from something. and when he holds them like that, they always feel the need to wrap their legs around his waist, hide their face against his neck and Allow him to cuddle them.

they both have an ego u know aha. so if u openly ask them about eachother, they’ll get embarrassed and shut u down. IT’S... IT’S NOT LIKE THAT (sweats)

it is. it is like That. 

ANYWAY THEYRE BOTH VERY VERSATILE and ash is pretty much into everything kama could teach him about. like i said earlier, he’s also fine with being manhandled, mostly the feeling of kama’s nails gently pressing against his skin, or being bit. i think he’d be into getting a lil feral.

a mutual once said that sexually liberated ashwatthama is hot as hell and i feel it in my bones.... kama coming onto him after a particularily short mission that got ash angry but not enough to let out some steam --> they get pounded into the mattress and they live for it because riling him up when he’s like that is actually really fun.

OBSESSED WITH THE BOTH OF THEM SLOWLY SEEING IT AS A GAME AFTER A WHILE... 

OH ash bottoming is also very cute. his first times would be awkward but kama is a pro at this anyways and i’m finally going to answer ur ask: YEAH HE GETS PEGGED !!!!! he finds out how excited he gets when kama calls him a good boy !!! and he never knew that he was into these sorts of things but holy shit it feels nice.

when kama gives him his first blowjob he almost loses his mind

what i really love about kama is that they can see how tense he gets, even if he’s having a great time, and i know they’d teach him how to relax. EVEN WHEN THEY’RE RIDING HIM, they’ll massage his pecs and his shoulders, set the pace and squeeze down on him just to hear him moan. stare at his surprised little face because he didn’t know he could make THAT kind of nois e ? ? ? ? ?

HE’S EMBARRASSED but he doesn’t want them to stop

OH YEAH i wanna come back on the whole masochist thing (I GET SNIPED), him getting repentance and being punished through sex is both very liberating and hot as hell, especially when it’s kama. ashwatthaman moaning ‘your divinity’ like it’s a prayer is also hot as hell !!!!!!! IDK i just think that they can both get very intense, and also last a while, until they’re thoroughly SPENT.

...and leave room for softness. kama gently brushing his wet hair behind his ear, leaving him breathless and a little shy. they then lean in to kiss him and he immediately melts into their touch. but then they bite his lip. and he ... he Likes it but he could almost pout.

time to get a little angsty (i lock gazes with you) i think that after a long while of sharing such a relationship, ash would almost say The Forbidden Words in a daze. and kama deeply kisses him so he stays quiet. and they’re just staring at eachother, until kama tells him that he’s not allowed to say it. and if he does, it’ll almost be a betrayal towards shiva AND themself. they’ve grown impossibly close but neither of them can say Those Words because they both feel like they’ll break something.

also bc they both have huge egos.

but i think that deep down they really want to say them. 

another variant of this is kama wanting to make him admit it, have him say Those Words. but because of his blessing and respect towards lord shiva, he cannot. both because of the guilt and that it’d end up feeling like a lie, even if his touches, his kisses and the way he looks at kama screams otherwise.

BUT REE WHAT ARE THE FORBIDDEN WORDS

"I Won't Say (I'm in Love)" Hercules (1997).

is this enough of a clue ;;);)););;;))))))) HAAHA

THEY HAVE SO MANY LAYERS TO THEM ITS UNREAL

anyway shower sex hot !! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i also think that them mutually jerking eachother off is hot as all hell and ONCE AGAIN, flustered ash who doesn’t know what he’s doing (at first) is cute !!!! cute !!

ashwatthaman LEARNING from kama is also a big fave. they’re abt to bathe in kama’s luxurious bathtub they had master buy for them and they’re removing their earrings and he silently leans forward and bites their ear and suddenly their face is red. god. huge dummy god of love. i love them soooo much its unreal

THEIR DYNAMIC IS BASICALLY.. I WONT SAY IM IN LOVE but still look at eachother like they’re newlyweds everytime they get intimate and (sheds a tear) i think theyre super married

GOOD GOD .......BODY WORSHIP IS SOMETHING THEYRE BOTH HEAVILY INTO ALSO. both giving and receiving, even if kama is a lot less obvious about it and a lot more smug.

oh, i think ash would be the loudest between the two !! THIS ONE WAS OBVIOUS. hearing him like that would also coax kama into making more noise as well so its win-win 

ok to be honest i think i should draw porn of them being soft like... THERES DETAILS I HAVE IN MIND THAT ARE IMPOSSIBLE TO WRITE DOWN IN THE HEADCANON FORMAT and i’m too nervous about writing fics (looks away) but i have things to draw.

ANYWAY I THINK THIS GOT VERY LONG ????????? SO IM GONNA STOP HERE. IF U MADE IT THIS FAR: THANK U FOR LISTENING TO MY BRAINWORM !!!! 

[if-the-crown-fits-translate-it]

Discord pt 50

[Date: 25/02, 6.59 PM - 25/02, 07.51 PM GMT]

[‘Puppet’ from the Ib OST is playing in the VC.]

fetch: “:)”

Prince: “Oh! Crown said this was a good song! He says it reminds him of being a kid again! Don't you guys think so?

:)”

fetch: “YOU RE R I GHT PR INCE ! TH IS JS A VE R Y G OOD S ONG .” [You’re right Prince! This is a very good song.]

Prince: “I like it! It makes me feel all happy inside :)”

fetch: “TH OUG H ITS A L ITT LE F AST ER TH AN WH AT I U SUALL Y L IS TE N TO . N IG HT COR E HA AHA AHA .” [Though it’s a little faster than what I usually listen to. Nightcore haahaaha.]

Prince: “It is a little fast, but it's very nice :D”

Prince: “It makes me kinda sleepy :) How about you, fetch? :)”

fetch: “I GU ESS A L I TT LE HA HAA . B UT I GOT PL ENTY OF SL EE P LAS T N IGH T!” [I guess a little hahaa. But I got plenty of sleep last night!]

IM SO ENE ER GIZED AND R E ADY FO R THE D A Y” [I’m so energized and ready for the day]

donti: “Isn’t too much sleep a little bad for someone?”

Prince: “I don't think so :) It's nice to sleep. You don't have to think about all the things that might be stressing you out :)”

fetch: “I AG REE PR INC E . SL EE P IS NNI CE B UT D OGS CA NT S LE EP ALL D A Y ! THAT S A CAT TH ING TO DO L OL” [I agree, Prince. Sleep is nice but dogs can’t sleep all day! That’s a cat thing to do lol]

[‘No One in Sight’ from the Ib OST starts playing on loop]

fetch: “N OT AS G OOD AS THE LA ST ONE B UT S TILL A BOP” [Not as good as the last one but still a bop]

Prince: “Oh! This one is nice, too! Relaxing, like you’re outside listening to the breeze~”

Prince: “I can put on the other one again! :D”

[fetch: “ HM . TH ANF YOU PR INCE BU T I LIKE VA RIE TY SOM E TIME S :)” [Hm. Thank you, Prince, but I like variety sometimes]]

Prince: “Oh, ok :)”

fetch: “IM H APP Y TO SEE C R OWN ANS W E RIN G T H IN GS! YO U M UST BE H APPY T O O” [I’m happy to see Crown answering things! You must be happy too]

[donti: How had your day been so far Prince, while you’re here? This music really gets me in a convering mood.]

Prince: “It's been great! everything is fine :)“

fetch: “TH AT S GOO D :D” [That’s good :D]

[donti: Thats nice to know! How’s everyone in the court doing?”]

Prince: “Everyone is doing well :D i miss Knight, though... He hasn't been around in a while.”

fetch: “AW SADGE D: I H OPE Y OU F IND Y OUR KN IG HT BUD D Y SOON !” [Aw Sadge D: I hope you find your Knight buddy soon!]

[donti: Oh no! did something happen? Do you know where he is?

Prince: “No... He just... Went away one day... Crown said he'll find him for us and bring him home again, though, so it's ok! :)“

fetch: “AW HA HA HA H OW N ICE OF. H IM :) :) :)” [Aw hahaha how nice of. him]

[‘BGM008′ from the Ib OST starts playing]

[Povas: “Where did you last see knight?”]

Prince: “Um...Here, I think :)”

fetch: “O H G OOD SON G [Oh good song]

TH IS MAK ES THE FUN NY PIA NO T INK Y NOIS E” [This makes the funny piano tinky noise]

Prince: “I like the tinky noise too! :D”

Povas: “Why is it giving me a sense of dread?”

fetch: “I DK WHA T YOU M EAN BY D R EAD :/ ? IT S OUND S F INE TO M E !” [Idk what you mean by dread :/? It sounds fine to me!]

Prince: “Yeah! I think it's lovely! :)”

Povas: “It might just be me”

fetch: “PR OBAB LY Y OU LOL :D” [Probably you lol :D]

[donti: “Hm, change of music aside, whatcha been up to?”]

Prince: “Not much has been happening :) I just like to listen to music here. You can't be sad if there's nothing to make you upset, you know? :)”

[fetch [responding to donti]: “WH O ME ? OR PR INC E ?” [Who, me? Or Prince?]

donti: “Either or! I care about both of you :D”

fetch: “OH IM D OI NG GR E AT :D APP A RE NT LY M I SS E D D INN E R LA S T N IGHT SO M ONA (G OOD GO OD F RIEND MO NA) L EFT OUT A BR EA KF AS T FOR M E TO M UN CH WHI LE SHE WE NT TO W O RK” [Oh I’m doing great :D Apparently missed dinner last night so Mona (good good friend Mona) left out a breakfast for me to munch while she went to work]

[fetch: “HAV E BEEN VE RY TH IRST Y SO D RINK ING W AT ER” [Have been very thirsty so drinking water]]

Prince: “That's good! Drink plenty of water and eat plenty of food and get plenty of sleep! Crown would want you at your best :D”

fetch: “Y E AH :) TO AST WITH RO SE PET AL J AM M M  AND GO OD C E R EAL” [Yeah :) toast with rose petal jammm and good cereal]

[‘The Little Doll's Dream’ from the Ib OST starts playing]

fetch: “OO OO O GUITAR R R [ooooo guitarrr]

I LI KE GU IT AR” [I like guitar]

[donti: Prince, you have a very wide range of music in here! Where did you find so many songs?”]

Prince: “Oh, i just like to listen to a lot of things! These songs are from a game called Ib! You should play it :)“

[fetch: “IT I S A VER Y F UN G AME ! GARRY IS MY F AVOR I TE CH AR ACTER” [It is a very fun game! Garry is my favorite character]]

Prince: “Garry is my favorite, too! he's so nice! :D”

Bea (she/her): “I've heard of that game before. What's it about?”

[fetch: “A G IRL GO ES TO AN A RT ME USE UM AND THE N SHI T GE TS F UCKED LOL PAI NTINS COM E TO L IFE N S H JT” [A girl goes to an art museum and then shit gets fucked lol]]

Prince: “I guess... But i'd describe it a little differently...”

[”Inquiry” from the Ib OST starts playing]

fetch: “I M EAN AIN T THAT WH AT HAP PENS LOL” [I mean ain’t that what happens lol]

Prince: “A girl named Ib goes to an art exhibit and ends up in finding herself inside a painting! She meets a nice man named Garry and they have to make their way out together! There's lots of different endings and lots of puzzles! :)”

fetch: “MY DE S C RI PT ION W AS BE T TER LOL” [My description was better lol]

donti: “Oh! So its not a horror game?”

Prince: “It can be a little scary sometimes, but it's not terrible :)”

fetch: “ANYW AY NIC E B OPS IM GONNA GO EA T THE R ES T OF THE ROSE PETAL JAM :) Y UM BY E G UYS DONT FOR GET TO AS K CR OW N TH IN GS” [Anyway nice bops I’m gonna go eat the rest of the Rose Petal Jam :) Yum bye guys don’t forget to ask Crown things]

[donti: Alright! What other games do you play?]

Prince: “Lots of games! I like Skyrim, Overwatch, Undertale and Minecraft the most, though! :D”

[donti: “thats awesome! I like Minecraft too! I also play Pokemon and some rhythm games :D”]

Prince: “Ooh, what's your favorite Pokemon? i like Mimikyu and Ditto the most! :)”

donti: “Gengar and Joltik! the Mareep line is also pretty cool!”

Prince: “Oh, I have to get going! Crown's asking to see me :)

Bye bye! :D”

[queenieloveswriting]

FLOURESCENT ADOLESCENT

CHAPTER ONE:INRERROGATIVES

INTERROGATIVES

[ˌɪntəˈrɒɡətɪv]NOUNinterrogatives (plural noun)

a word used in questions, such as how or what.

Who is Maria Genovese? 

Maria Genovese, offspring of the world-renowned Italian-born gang leader, Vito Genovese. She is able to finesse better than her father and is told she can wield and overpower people like her separated mother.

What is Maria Genovese?  

Maria is an energetic and powerful daughter kept in a small yet developed package. Being 5′2 she is often underestimated and overlooked as a woman to other ‘leaders’. She obviously showed them what a 5′2 woman could to. At 17 Maria is ranked in the top ten fighters of nine other men, who are considered her chosen family. The Genovese's chosen family consisted of 4 father-son duos and you, the only father daughter duo. Lucky Luciano and his son Ricky; Luca Russo and his son Stefano; Giovanni Romano and his son Marco, who was your age as well as Antonio de loci’s son Matteo. These pairings a knows as the mafia.

When is Maria Genovese(born)?

Born on the 12th of November Maria is a Scorpio. Apt for her character, she is stubborn and determined to achieve her goals.

Where is Maria Genovese?

Maria was born in Italy, specifically Florence. However when Maria was six she spent five years in North Carolina with her grandparents, after her father sent her away because it got to dangerous and being young, people would use you as leverage to get things from your father. Being with your grandparents ensured safety. At 13 you were officially told about your dads work and started training everyday ,noticing how good you were physically and mentally, your dad slowly started taking you places for ‘work ’eventually signing you up for online school so you were with him more as working with him would put you under a target too. For the five years you were with your grandparents you had made four very close friends, remembering them from hazy memories of a younger self and polaroid's taken by your grandparents. Three boys and one girl playing in the sand of a dimly lit beach. ’were are going to miss you please visit’ was smudged  on the back of one of the polaroid's signed ‘ kiara ,john b, pope and jj. Smiling at the photo you chucked it in your duffel bag and went down to meet your dad and the rest of your family to visit a place you spent most of your child hood .

Where is Maria Genovese going?

you and nine other men are on your way to visit the place you spent 5 years of your life. The Outer banks .Why are you moving?. After having your last mission failed and one of your own betray you your dad decided its best to keep small with people you can trust. You’ve found small gangs that are selling in NC and that's going to fund your living in the Outer Banks. Your going to stay with your grandparents but your dad and the rest of the guys have got a house on the other side of the islands being the only one that was nice enough. You’d be safe with your grandparent you pops being a ex-member and grandma being his wife knows her shit .You hope to rekindle your friendship with the four children who gave you a childhood seeing as your grandma lived next door to the fluffy haired boy, john b.

walking of the docks a wave of nostalgia passes over you as you take in your surroundings .Spotting a pair of eyes burn into you your met with your grandparents who engulfed you in a suffocating hug soon joined by your father.

“nanna popa è così bello rivederti“ you cried

“ oh tesoro ci siamo mancati così tanto erano così eccitati che il vostro soggiorno con noi“they praised before walking of talk privately to your father 

when they came back you said goodbye to your father saying you'd meet tomorrow for lunch. Sweetie do you remember your friends from when you were younger "she asked and you nodded “yeah nanna I was actually hoping you knew if they knew I was coming or if they even remember me or if they wanted to be my friend still or-”you rambled as she cut you of “Yes sweetie calm down bambino I told them and they actually want to meet you again I kept in touch with them and the boys deliver me groceries every week and the girl sometimes brings round soups from her restaurant” she praised.my grandma always loved kiara. When do I get too meet them again nana do you still live next to them "she nodded “yes sweetie I told them and they want you to over straight after you get settled Bella”

“they want to meet me tonight? "you asked more to yourself than your nana

“yes amore, tonight ,the blonde hasn't stopped talking about it”

AND THATS A WRAP ON MY FIRST PUBLISHED CHAPTER thankyou for reading and saraaaa thanks for helping check out her stuff @sguymon21​ its amazing...... let me know if you liked it and message me i wanna make some friendsss.....love you bubbles <3

[ltjlily17]

Oh, can we call it a night?

What’s the most played song on your iPod? I don’t iPod anymore these days, but theres a site that will aggregate your Spotify listening, and the song I’ve listened to the most all time on Spotify is In Your Atmosphere by John Mayer. What is one quality you admire most in others? People who know what they want to do with themselves. What would you do with a million dollars? Invest it, maybe? Buy a new car. Start a non-profit that will save the world. Or just a small part of it. What’s your favorite song to dance to? All of them. What would your ideal birthday party be like?

No idea.This year I went to my favorite pizza place with a couple of friends, my mom and husband. Was pretty good.

If you could be reincarnated into anything you wanted, what would it be? I’m not sure I believe in any of that. What talent would you like to have? I wish I was ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC at something. I’m good at most things, and can get by, but I’m not outstanding at any singular thing.  Are you ticklish? Nah. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleep? 3 days or so. I basically had the flu and felt like I was dying. Not like the real flu either, theres this illness you get when your body hasn’t slept in too long. What New Year’s resolutions did you make? None. What are three songs that mean the most to you? Mayonaise by the Smashing Pumpkins, Wonderful Tonight by Eric Clapton and Bornand Raised by John Mayer. Someone else used these italics and I’m just running with it.

Who is the one person you miss the most? No one? What do you think of your parents? They are flawed people. I make the best out of my relationship with my mom, but I’m just not sure I want to bother with my dad. What is one thing you would do to make the world better? Instill a sense of community. People would be so much better off if we all gave a shit about the other people we are on this planet with. What is your favorite kind of sandwich? Hot, cheesy, some kind of sauce. Other than that, I’m flexible. If you had a puppy, what would you name it? I got a puppy 2 years ago and his name is Finn. We wanted a Star Wars name and Supreme Leader was the runner up name. If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do? I can’t think of anything I’d wanna see. What people do behind closed doors is their business lol. How much cash do you have on you right now? None. I’m in pjs, but beyond that, I rarely use cash. What do you think makes you attractive to other people? Humor or personality? Would more money make you happier? I don’t know. We have a comfortable amount now, minus paying for healthcare. Steve may have a job offer that would cover the healthcare, but would I be happy not working? Would I just turn into a loser slug? What is one of your favorite memories as a child? I really don’t know. My parents pretty much screamed and threw things all the time until my dad moved out. Then they played horrible games with me in the middle. There’s a lot of stuff I don’t even remember about being a child. I’d say the good stuff started happening when I was a teen and could seek refuge in my friends and their stable houses. I had one friend in particular, Andrew, whose mom and dad were super nice and he had a fun little sister- every time I was over there, which was VERY often, it was like a slice of the good life. What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever had to do in your life? This was on another survey and I didn’t know how to answer it. I think once it’s done I just move on, I’m really a dweller. How do you measure intelligence? Unsure. I guess you just get a feeling for someones intelligence as you’re interacting with them.

What cartoons do you watch? None at the moment. I did just get Disney+, so that may change, but there aren’t really any cartoons I’m planning on watching. Have you ever used drugs? Nope. If you were a Skittle, what flavor would it be? The purple one. Sleeper hit. How would you describe your style? Hmmm. Casual indie bohemian with a side of lazy fat person. If you had to spend $1,000 in one hour, how would you spend it? The internet. Generally, my money goes to clothes or Halloween decorations. I really wanna buy some regular decor for the house though, so maybe that. What’s your favorite smell and why? I don’t have one. Something not flowery or overbearing. Something fresh and natural. Where do you buy your clothes? Anthropologie, ModCloth, Target, Gap, Old Navy, Loft. What’s your favorite kind of cake? Birthday cake? Funfetti? Does intelligent life exist elsewhere in the universe? I have absolutely no idea. I used to think that it was just statistically impossible that there wasn’t, but fuck I don’t even know how any of this got here, so I no longer have an opinion. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be? MilkBar birthday cake. Are you into tattoos? I guess so? I like the art of them, I follow a lot of tattoo people on instagram and keep up with their work. I just got my first tattoo a week ago and I’m 35, so it’s not like something I do a lot, ha ha. Do you like photography? I do. I have illusions that I’m a photographer sometimes. I should be currently editing a wedding right now, but here I am. I’m just not sure I’ll ever be the kind of photographer I’d like to be, so I don’t know what I wanna do with it going forward. If you were a holiday, which one would you be? Halloween 100% Do you have any siblings? Nope. If you were to get a tattoo, what would it be of? I just got one. It’s a bat pusheen. I really wanted a bat of some sort and pusheen is my favorite so I just went for it. I always thought my bat tattoo would be a little more dark, but it is what it is lol. What’s the biggest celebrity you’ve ever seen in real life? I hid behind a dumpster when I was like 14 and 3 of the Backstreet Noys walked right by me, ha ha. I have some photos with me and the guys from Good Charlotte from when I was a wee teenybopper. How many pushups can you do? Absolutely zero. What person in history do you admire most? None? I don’t think I admire anyone. These surveys are quickly informing me that I don’t believe in anything or look up to anyone. Am I inert? Who is your favorite actor? I don’t have one. Ha ha, see above. I like most of the stuff Chris Pratt is in. Robery Downey Jr as Iron Man is iconic, but I’ve never seen any of his other movies. I like Adam Driver in Girls and Star Wars. What is the most daring thing that you have done in public? Spoke. Have you ever lied about your age? I don’t think I’ve ever had cause to. Have you ever cried while watching a movie? If so, what movie? For sure. Everything makes me tear up in my old age. Last movie was probably Endgame, though. Are you afraid of anything that most people are not afraid of? Not like huge, life changing fears, but I’m always afraid a bug will get caught in my hair and I can’t touch drains because they freak me out. Where do you see yourself five years from now? I’ve never been one to make plans. Hopefully happy with more direction. What is your favorite candy? Fun Dip, Nerds, Starburst. Have you ever watched someone struggle with addiction? Not someone suer close, but there are lots of auxillary people I know that have and do. Who do you look up to for your style? No one in particular. I see things on the internet I like and try to incorporate that, but its always varied sources. Who is your favorite sports team? I don’t follow sports. How often do you drink alcohol? Once every two weeks? Even then, its usually just one drink with dinner. I don’t much care about drinking. It seems like a lot of work to fill myself up with something I don’t really like the taste of just so I can potentially feel bad later.  What is your life in three words? Evolving yet bland. If you could be anything in the world, what would you be? I knew that, I’d be working towards it. Would you have a pet dragon? If so what color would it be? Sure. Whatever color dragon is fine with me. What’s your favorite sport? The only one I even kind of pretend to care about is baseball. Do you believe that homeless people are dangerous? No.  If you could be skinny and miserable or fat and happy, which would you be? I’d always pick happy. If your life flashed before you, what do you wish you would have done? Hmmm, I don’t know. I don’t have like any huge regret at the moment so probably just wish I’d have enjoyed myself more. If you were to invent something, what would it be? Hopefully something that makes the world better. Some kind of climate change related thing?  Who would you like to get to know better? This wholesaler real estate guy that has been selling us properties. Maybe if we knew him better, he would give us better deals, lol. Have you ever had a near-death experience? Near drowning when I was seven. Do you fear death? Yep.  What is the strangest food you ever ate? Hmmm. I like food with interesting combinations. Like smelly cheese or beet pesto or something, but I’m not on board with weird meat and I don’t eat seafood. Do you think you’re cool? Nah. What reality show would you like to be on? None. I don’t watch any of them. The only show like that I ever watched was the Osbournes, ah aha. What’s your favorite thing to order at a Chinese food restaurant? Whatever is gluten free. Ususally no choices for me at most chinese places. PF Changs has pad thai and general tsos I can have and another place nearby has general tsos too, but thats about it.

I loved lo mein and crab rangoon in my former life, though. Are you happy with your life? For the most part. If you could name your own planet, what would you call it? I’d need some plantary details before coming up with a name. If you could live another 200 years. What would you hope to see? People learning that we need to work together. Would you rather be hot or cold? Well, I’m cold like 90% of the time and that sucks, but at least you can do something about it and layer up and get blankets and such- if you’re hot, you’re just stuck. How would you rate yourself? What am I rating here? I’m like a 0 at makeup skills, but like an 11 if you need someone to pick you up in an emergency. 10 at playlist making. 1 at doing the dishes. Would you ever move to a different country in an attempt to start over? Maybe not to “start over”, but I would definitely consider a dream job in another country if all the details worked out. If you could be a character from any book, who would you be? No idea. I read a lot of Stephen King and none of those characters are alright.  Do you prefer taking baths or showers? I’d love to take a bath, but I’m a little big for the tub. Do you still collect toys from Happy Meals? Nope. I never ate happy meals even as a kid, so I never did. What’s the most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done? I drove two states over for a sandwich once. It was like a 15 hour round trip. In your opinion what is the greatest challenge the world faces today? People being willing to fuck over every one else if they think it will benefit them in any tiny, miniscule way. You are destroying everything by being an asshole and letting the people that really have all the money get away with it. Do you like dogs or cats better? I was 100% cat until I got a dog 2 years ago. I’m mostly dog at this point. Don’t tell my cat. What have you achieved that you once thought was impossible? Hmm, I don’t know. I’m a lot better off than my parents were. I just kind of thought the constant worrying about the car breaking down or the bills being paid was grown up life, so its nice to get here and know that I worked hard to not have those problems. If an ex texted you out of the blue, how would you respond? I don’t think I would. I’ve been with Steven for a decade, so theres def nothing that needs to be said to anyone that far back. Do you have a favorite poet? I don’t. I really like some poems I’ve read randomly in my internet travels, but I’ve never really been able to sit down and read a book of poetry. What have you tried to quit, but weren’t able to? Eating too much food? Would you rather go on a shopping spree with $200 or put it in the bank? I’d rather go shopping. I might save it, though. What was the last rumor that you heard? No idea. I don’t really have rumors around me at this point in my life. My friends aren’t like that and I’m not working anywhere at the moment. What country star would you most like to meet and why? I don’t really know who any of them are. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes. One of them happened when I was like 15 and it pinched a nerve in my neck and half of my left hand went numb. My mom didn’t believe me for a really long time that there was something wrong until she watched me try to pick up a glass of milk with my left hand and it just fell to the floor. Are you an organ donor? Yes! What is the most dangerous thing you have ever done? Unsure. I’m fairly adventurous, but I don’t do super dangerous things. I guess just trespassing in old abandoned buildings when I was younger could have been dangerous. What is the meaning of life? Moments of joy. For you and others. What word do you like the sound of? Nothing in particular jumps out to me. Isn’t Cellar Door supposed to be lovely? What’s your favorite ice cream flavor? Hmmm. I don’t know. Its more about the brand I think. I usually get Jeni’s or the other fancy ice cream brand when I get the chance. 

I always get the cake flavored froyo, though.  Do you prefer cupcakes or muffins? Cupcakes. Are you an athlete? Ha ha, no. What did the last text message on your phone say? From my brother in law. He’s doing the work on the house we just bought, getting it ready for a renter. He wants more money, lol. What is the funniest movie you’ve seen in your whole entire lifetime? Man, I don’t know. I think maybe Grandma’s Boy was the funniest I had seen at the time. I usually don’t even like movies like that. What’s the worst nightmare you’ve ever had? I had this dream when I was a kid that I left the scissors out and they flew up and cut my moms fingers off and the whole dream was dark and black and white because it was night, but at the end, she picked up the phone (landline, because cell phones weren’t a thing then) and the only color was the green light coming from the phone that illuminated the numbers and she was trying to dial 911 with her fingers that weren’t there. 

I probably had that dream close to 30 years ago now and it’s still clear in my mind. 

What do you know how to cook? Lots of things. I’m especially good at carbonara or alfredo. What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had, and what was it from? I fell down the stairs and broke several bones, severely sprained both ankles and ended up getting surgery to fix the cartilage in one ankle. What’s your favorite amusement park ride? Any that my fat ass can fit on. What do you wish you were doing right now? Well i’m doing this instead of things I should be doing. Who are your musical influences? I don’t play music, so I’m not really influenced? What was your favorite band or musician when you were 12? The Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson and the Back Street Boys, ha ha. What’s the best pick-up line that’s ever been tried on you? I don’t think anyone has ever given me one. How many drinks can you handle? I don’t really know at this point. Getting older changes things. I know that if I have one drink and then stop, I get a headache, lol. What was the longest phone conversation you’ve ever had? Hours and hours. Like 7 or 8 probably? Back in my day you could only talk to boys on the phone because we didn’t have cell phones or text messaging and you only had dial up internet. What’s your favorite candle scent? I got one from Anthropologie called Riviera that was my favorite candle scent ever. I bought two, but they are sold out now and I am very sad.

[duboisvu]

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ViciousSae has joined the chat

TreDubois: hi

ViciousSae: hey boo

ViciousSae: hru

TreDubois: i'm well and you?

ViciousSae: im good

ViciousSae: do u remember me?

TreDubois: you seem full of energy

TreDubois: karrinah?

ViciousSae: i ma XD

ViciousSae: no

ViciousSae: XD u forgot me

ViciousSae: well i have pics of us maybe u will remember

ViciousSae: do u wanna see them?

TreDubois: ok

TreDubois: in your album?

ViciousSae: no

ViciousSae: its save on my pc

ViciousSae: let me get them

TreDubois: ok..where you gonna post them?

ViciousSaeViciousSae Add Friend: on my private page

ViciousSae: hold on

ViciousSae: [Link]

ViciousSae: thats them

ViciousSae: look

TreDubois: i don't follow links

TreDubois: that's how you get hacked

ViciousSae: oh its a imvu page

TreDubois: so...how abou this. you can either submit them to my tumblr

TreDubois: or

TreDubois: post them on your feed and I'll check them out

TreDubois: you can also tag me on twitter

TreDubois: or upload them to your album and I'll check it out

TreDuboisTreDubois : it's hacking season and I don't remember you

ViciousSae: oh my bf will get made if i post a pic of me and another boy

ViciousSae: thats why i send it like that

TreDubois: are we have sex or something?

ViciousSae: yes

ViciousSae: XD thats why i cant post them

TreDubois: you got tumblr, or kik?

TreDubois: i just got on MeWe

ViciousSae: nope

ViciousSae: i only play imvu

TreDubois: no instagram?

TreDubois: you sure it was me?

ViciousSae: yes it was u

TreDubois: so what's up little mama?

TreDubois: you got a bf now?

ViciousSae: yes

TreDubois: cool!

ViciousSae: thats why i cant post the sex pics

ViciousSae: he will get mad at me

TreDubois: oh well

TreDubois: did I do a good job?

ViciousSae: ofc u did XD

ViciousSae: i wont of invite u back today if u wasnt

TreDubois: so you want another go?

TreDubois: how old are you?

ViciousSae: im 1

ViciousSae: 18

ViciousSae: XD

TreDubois: so you were 17 when we banged?

ViciousSae: yes

TreDubois: well here's the deal. i have a strict no minors rule so that's impossible. also, I don't deal with people under 25...so again...not believable

ViciousSae: wym?

TreDubois: it means we didn't bang

ViciousSae: well the pics say otherwise

ViciousSae: XD

TreDubois: you'd have to post them for me to believe you, and you're not doing that so i feel like you're trying to game me

ViciousSae: i told u i cant post them

ViciousSae: ughhh

TreDubois: i'm sorry. so we'll just have to start over as friends

ViciousSae: yep

TreDubois: how's school going?

ViciousSae: im not in school

ViciousSae: im working

ViciousSae: z

ViciousSae: wow u relly did forget me

TreDubois: no college?

TreDubois: it had to have been a long time

ViciousSae: yeah im in college but im working too

ViciousSae: college is fine ig

TreDubois: i'm surprised you have no albums

TreDubois: that's strange

ViciousSae: yeah i dont post

TreDubois: you don't save anywhere either

ViciousSae: nope

TreDubois: well i'm sorry but I can't click the link. i've been hacked once before and no more for me

ViciousSae: oh well its a imvu page and its oki

TreDubois: ok

TreDubois: so what you up to?

ViciousSae: just chilling

ViciousSae: and you?

TreDubois: decorating a room

ViciousSae: nice

TreDubois: yep

TreDubois: you got any kids?

ViciousSae: yes

TreDubois: sweet how many?

ViciousSae: irl u mean?

TreDubois: nope on the Vu

ViciousSae: oh i have 2

TreDubois: nice!

ViciousSae: yep

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri has joined the chat

TreDubois: So Sae..this is my wife Capri

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Helloo

TreDubois: i figured you two should meet

ViciousSae: hey

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Hru?

ViciousSae: im good and you?

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Doing wel, heard quite a bit about u lol

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Well*

TreDubois: lol

TreDubois: you did?

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Oh yea

ViciousSae: u did o_o

ViciousSae: XD

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Ur the talk of the town today lol

TreDubois: hehe

TreDubois: this is a nice room!

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: It is!

ViciousSae: ty

TreDubois: is your bf online?

TreDubois: i'd like to meet him

ViciousSae: hes offline atm

ViciousSae: ill invite u when hes online

ViciousSae: ill love for u too meet him

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Can't wait!

TreDubois: cool!

TreDubois: that would be awesome

ViciousSae: yee

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Hm, I suppose we should just cut straight to the point..pictures huh? Lol

TreDubois: noi

TreDubois: chill

TreDubois: omg no

ViciousSae: XD

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Lol

TreDubois: bahahhahaha!

TreDubois: there are no pictures

TreDubois: lol

ViciousSae: i dont want your bf to get in trouble

ViciousSae: lol

TreDubois: first..husband

TreDubois: second..no trouble

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Lmao he's not the one in trouble from wha I've heard

ViciousSae: roght forgot

TreDubois: if it happened it was before her

ViciousSae: oh ur married now

TreDubois: lol

ViciousSae: nice

TreDubois: so...no trouble

TreDubois: lol

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: lol exactly

ViciousSae: lol

TreDubois: we're all friendly here

TreDubois: geez...the pregnancy hormone

TreDubois: hormones...

ViciousSae: brb

TreDubois: eat a snickers would you

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Lol oop wha can I say?

TreDubois: lol

TreDubois: tyt

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Tyt

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: And no snickers lol

TreDubois: oop

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: -grabs pickles-

TreDubois: i see draws on the floor

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Ohh snap

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Did we interrupt? Lol

TreDubois: i was invited here

TreDubois: lol

TreDubois: i have no clue

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: -facepalms- crap, duh lmao

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Oo pizza

ViciousSae: back

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Wb

TreDubois: wb!

ViciousSae: ty

ViciousSae: i have not put anything up here yet

ViciousSae: ty

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Yw

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: -grabs pizza box- u mind if I have a slice or three Sae?

ViciousSae: sure

TreDubois: i feel your decorating pains trust me

TreDubois: lolo

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Lol same here, hate decorating unlike this guy

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: -eats some pizza- are there any pineapples here by chance?

ViciousSae: lol

TreDubois: ewww

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Lol so no pineapples?

TreDubois: pineapples

TreDubois: yuck

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Shut it Dubois! lol they're amazing

ViciousSae: z\

TreDubois: gross

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Hater

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: -sticks tongue out-

TreDubois: oop

TreDubois: sorry if i'm boring you

TreDubois: lol

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: -packs a to-go box- I'll have to head out now, it was nice meeting you Sae!

TreDubois: ok

Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: See ya on messenger hun

TreDubois: ttyl!

TreDubois: ok

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Guest_hottiegotswagcapri: Ttyl!

[jasoncimino]

Christian A. Avila

 Christian A. Avila (562) 528 4560 Transitional Home 1820 7th. Street Long Beach, CA 90813 He Works as a server at Harbor House Sunset, .CAl PRACTICED HYPNOSIS ON ME WHILE I WAS A SLEEP WITHOUT MY KNOWLEDGE AND WITHOUT MY CONSENT.  HE WOULD PLAY WITH HIMSELF ALMOST EVERY NIGHT.  THE FIRST NIGHT HE GOT ME GOING AND WHEN I GAVE UP ON PERSUING THE SITUATION AND STARTED TO GO TO SLEEP.  I HEARD HIM SAY AAAAWAA. I HAD PROMISED HIM EARLIER THAT NIGHT I WOULD NEVER GET IN HIS BED WITH HIM UNLESS HE PUT ME THERE. I WANTED HIM TO KNOW HE WAS SAFE WITH ME. I THOUGHT STILL MAYBE HE WAS JUST DREAMING SO I TRIED TO IGNORE IT. ONE NIGHT I WOKE UP AND I HEARD SOMETHING. HE WAS SAYING LOOK JASON. TO DARK I COULD NOT SEE. I THOUGHT MAYBE THAT WAS A TEST. ONE NIGHT WE WERE TALKING AND AFTER I BROUGHT IT UP TO HIM. HE SPOKE TO ME AS IF I WAS LYING OR I WAS TRIPPING. I WAS REALLY ANGRY, I STAYED CALM. I TOLD HIM MAYBE IT WAS THE GUYS NEXT DOOR PLAYING. HE CONTINUED TO DENIE IT AND TO KEEP ON DOING IT. I DID NOT KNOW WHAT HE WANTED. HE SAID HE WAS NOT GAY, MAYBE HE WAS AFRAID TO COME, OR JUST LIKED TO BE WATCHED. FIRST I TOOK PICTURES TO SEE IF HIS EYES WERE OPEN. THE PICTURE ABOVE. MY THOUGHT ONLY, THAT HAS GOT TO BE A POSE. THATS A GREAT PICTURE I SHOULD JAVE CHARGED. THAT DIDNT WORK. I FELT GOOFY SO I SENT HIM COPIES OF THE 2 PICTURES I TOOK AND THE ONES HE KNEW I TOOK RIGHT AWAY . HE DID NOT SEEM TO MIND THEN ASK ME TO TAKE PICTURES OF HIS TATTOOS ON HIS LEGS. I AM THE FUNNY FLIRTY TYPE BUT I DO IT JUST AS FUN NOT TO BE TAKEN ANYMORE THAN FACE VALUE. I BARTENDED IN A GAY CLUB FOR 13 YEAR I ONLY WENT OUT WITH 2 PEOPLE AND 1 GUY I DATED FOR 5 YEARS. CHRISTIAN WAS VERY ACCEPTING. I SHARED MY GOINGS ON WITH 5 OF MY COWORKERS LOUIE, KATIE, ARVETTA, GWEN, AND CHARLOTTE. I KNEW HE WAS TRYING SOMETHING BUT I DIDNT KNOW WHAT.  I WOKE HIM UP A COUPLE OF TIMES AND HE LOOKED OR SOUNDED LIKE HE HAD NO CLUE. MY LIKE FOR CHRISTIAN MOVED UP FAST. I REMEMBER STATING TO KATIE. HOW I COULD NOT GET HIM OUT OF MY MIND. I EVEN PULLED OVER TWICE THINKING I SAW HIM SKATE BOARDING HOME. NEITHER TIME IT WAS HIM. SO I DECIDED TO RECORD. FIRST JUST VOICE. FIRST THE RECORDINGS SAID THINGS LIKE I WANT YOU I NEED YOU I LOVE YOU OVER AND OVER SUBLIMINAL. I DIDNT THINK IT WAS HIM. PLUGGED MY PHONE INTO THE CAR RADIO THE ONLY SYSTEM I HAD. NOW I COULD HEAR.  THEN I DECIDED TO LEAVE THE RECORDING ON A OLD PHONE THEN LEFT FOR WORK. I HEAR WHAT I THINK IS THE SUBLIMINAL HYPNOSIS. I COULD ALSO HEAR ARGUMENT, SAM WAS SLAMIN HIS DOMINO GAME WITH ANOTHER GUEST. CHRISTIAN WAS ARGUING THAT I WAS CONSTANTLY STARING AT HIM AND HITTING ON HIM AND WOULD NOT STOP THAT I EVEN TRYED TO GET IN BED WITH HIM. NOW HE WAS AFRAID THAT I WAS GOING TO RAPE HIM OR SOMETHING. BEACH TIME I LISTEN HE WAS LIKE A TOTALLY DIFFERENT PERSON. HE WAS VERY RUDE AND AS IF I HAD DONE SOMETHING BAD TO HIM. VERY NARCISTIC. IT WAS THE MIDDLE OF THE SUMMER WE BOTH USUALLY JUST WORE SHORTS. HE WAS ACTING LIKE I WAS CHECKING HIM OUT, WHEN I MADE THE POINT NOT TOO. RECORDINGS WERE CHANGING TO "I HATE YOU I DONT WANT YOU I DONT LOVE YOU." THEN ABOUT THE 10th OF OCT. I FEEL ASLEEP AROUND 12 AND WOKE UP 3.15AM. I HAD PROMISED TO GIVE GWENS CO WORKERS HUSBAND A RIDE TO WORK. I AWOKE QUICKLY AND LOST. I HAD LEFT MY RECORDER ON TO SEE IF I COULD PICK UP SOMETHING.  I STARTED TO LISTEN TO IT AFTER I DROPPED HIM OFF. THE RECORDINGS WERE IN A WHISPERS. "JASON LET ME IN ITS ME LET ME IN." I GOT UP AND LET THE PERSON IN. HE STARTED SAYING THINGS IN RYTHEME WITH MY BREATHING THEN I STARTED TO REPEAT BACK TO HIM. THEN ANOTHER GUY CAME IN AND SAID HOWS HE DOING. THE OTHER GUY SAID I AM JUST STARTING BOTH WERE WHISPERING SO I DONT KNOW WHO THEY ARE.  "I HATE YOU CHRISTIAN I DONT NEED YOU I DONT WANT YOU I HATE YOU I RAPE YOU." COUPLE OF THINGS I FOUGHT HIM ON BUT HE KEPT ON REPEATING IT WORD BY WORD WITH MY BREATHING UNTIL I REPEATED IT BACK.  WHEN I HEARD THIS I WAS SCARED. IT WAS ME AND I LISTENED TO IT DIRECTLY AFTER I DROPPED THIS HIT OFF. THIS HAD JUST HAPPENED AND I HAD NO CLUE. OTHER GUYS HAD MOVED OUT AND THERE WERE 4 MORE NEW ONES THAT HAD MOVED IN. ALMOST EVERY NIGHT CHRISTIAN STARTED AND I DECIDE TO FIGURE OUT ONCE AGAIN WHAT HE WANTED. I WOULD TALK TO HIM NORMAL AT FIRST. ONE TIME I HAD THE LIGHT ON AND DO HIS SEX IN HIS DREAM THING. JUST MORE DESCREATLY. ONE TIME I SAID "YOU REMIND OF THAT BOY WHO GOT MICHEAL JACKSON IN TROUBLE." HE SMILED AND ROLLED OVER. HE'S PLAYING. I KNEW HE QMQAS AWAKE , MAYBE HE LIKED PEOPLE TO WATCH HIM THATS ALL. I WAS LIKE THAT HARMLESS AND HE WAS KINDA CUTE. HE GOT MORE AGRESSIVE AS WELL AS ME TALKING TO HIM. I PLAYED SUMMISIVE I PLAY DOMINATE I PLAY DIRTY THEN I TALKED TO HIM DIRTY. ONE NIGHT I DID GET AGGERVATED AND AT ONE I SAID " I SAID I COME OVER AND SLIDE INTO BED WITH YOU AND INSTEAD OF SEX I AM JUST GOING TO POUND THE HELL OUT OF,YOU, IF YOU KEEP TEASING ME. I THINK THAT WAS THE NIGHT AFTER I MASTERBATED. THEN I FELT BAD SO I TOLD HIM. THE TRUTH IS I DON'T FIGHT, IF I WERE TO COME OVER AND START HITTING ME I WOULD STAND THERE AND LET YOU HIT ME. IF I FALL DOWN I WILL STAND BACK UP. I WOUNT LEAVE. I DON'T HIT PEOPLE. UNLESS YOU KILL ME. I WON'T RUN AND I WON'T STAND DOWN I WILL KEEP COMING BACK UNTIL WE PART WAYS PROPERLY. HE STILL KEPT DOING IT. SOME GUYS HIS AGE LIKE OLDER GUYS MY LAST BOYFRIEND LOOKED ALOT LIKE HIM HE WAS 25. SO THE WHOLE TIME HE INSTAGETED ME, PRETENDING TO BE A SLEEP AND I THOUGHT HE LIKE THE DIRTY TALK BECAUSE HE WOULD ALWAYS JACK OFF I THOUGHT I WAS HOOKING HIM UP. SO NOW I'M TALKING DIRTY TO HIM, I KNOW HE IS A WAKE AND I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT HE IS SAYING THAT WHY I AM RECORDING. ONE NIGHT, I TOLD HIM HOW TO PLAY WITH HIS BUTTHOLE HE SEEM IT. HE WOULD NEVER COME TO MY BED THEN FINALLY ONE NIGHT HE TOLD TO COME OVER I TOLD HIM NO THAT WAS THE NIGHT HE GOT UP IN DOGGY STYLE, PULLED HIS SHORTS DOWN TO THE BED. BAREASSED LOOKED AT ME AND SAID PLEASE TAKE ME, JASON WOULD YOU PLEASE TAKE MY ASS. I SAID NO, I NEVER WANTED ANYONE MORE THAN THAT MOMENT. IT WAS FAKE. HE WANTED ME TO COME OVER LIKE HE WANTED TO FIND MY POT. JUST TO GET RID OF ME HIS WAY. HE WANT ME TO PAY. HE SOUNDED UPSET LIKE* WHAT DID YOU SAY." " SAID I NO." I DIDNT UNLESS I WAS SURE HE WANTED TOO. IF I FOUND OUT LATTER IT WAS DUE TO INFLUENCE, I WOULD NOY HAVE FORGAVE MYSELF. WHEN I KNOW WERE BOTH AWAKE AND WE CAN LOOK AT EACH OTHER FACE TO FACE OK THEN. THAT WAS THAT. NEXT NIGHT SAME THING. BUT THIS TIME HE GOT UP ON ALL FOURS PULLED DOWN HIS UNDERWARE AND SAID TAKE ME JASON PLEASE TAKE ME. I SAID TO HIM AFTER THAT LISTEN LET'S DO THIS RIGHT YOUR OFF TONIGHT I BE HOME AT 10. WE CAN LOOK AND KNOW WE BOTH CONSENT TO THIS AND GET THIS OUT OF OUR SYSTEM. I WAS ACTUALLY EXCITED AND NERVOUS I GOT A PINT OF SO CO WENT IN THE HOUSE THINKING HE S NOT GOING TO BE THERE I OPENED THE DOOR MY NERVOUS CAME CALM HES HERE. I WENT TO TAKE A SHOWER I WAS BUZZED I NEED MY RAZOR FROM OUR ROOM I OPEN THE BATHROOM DOOR. IT HAD BEEN LESS THAN 5 MINS HE WAS GONE. I HUNG OUT A WHILE I WAS REALLY HURT, NOTHING SAID JUST GONE. I WENT OUT AND GOT SO DRUNK THAT NIGHT AND WAS JUST GOING TO LAUNDRY. I GOT SO WASTED MY FRIEND DROVE ME HOME AND TOOK A CAB HOME. IT WAS SO COLD AND ALL MY LAUNDRY WAS IN THE CAR I HAD NO BEDING. AS I OPENED THE DOOR I THOUGT I WOULD JUST HOP IN CHRISTIAN BED JUST TO WARM UP, THEN GET MY STUFF. I DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO BE THERE. I FELT WEIRD ABOUT GETTING IN HIS BED. IF IT WAS THE OTHER WAY AROUND I WOULD CARE. I WENT OVER TO SIT OVER GOT HALF WAY DOWN, OH MY GOD HOPPED OUT AND SAID I M SORRY CHRISTIAN I AM FREEZING. DO YOU HAVE AN EXTRA BLANKET I CAN BORROW. I KNEW HE HAD HIS OLD ONE UNDER THE BED AND HE SAID NO.THE CRAZY PART I WANTED TO. I HEARD EVERYTHING HE WAS TRAING ME TO DO WAS NOW ONLY TO HURT ME, EMBRASS ME AND TO MAKE ME TRY TO RAPE HIM AND MAKE ME A PERVERTED OLD MAN SO HE COULD SEND ME TO JAIL AND TREAT ME LIKE AN OUT CAST. BECAUSE HE WANTED NO ONE TO BELIVE HE WOULD FO ANYTHING I AM SAYING.. I AM JUST SAYING ALL THESE THINGS BECAUSE HE WOULD HAVE SEX WITH ME. HE ALMOST WON. LET'S LOOK A HONESTLY I HEARD THINGS ABOUT RAPE, HATE JASON. THE ARGUMENT DOWN STAIRS. I THOUGHT IF I WENT TO HIM I WOULD BE ARRESTED. I LEFT THE RECORDER ON AGAIN BEFORE I WENT TO WORK WHEN I GOT HOME I HAD RECORDED AN ARGUEMENT DOWN STAIRS CHRISTIAN WAS COMPLAINING ABOUT ME TO CHARLES. SAM WAS PLAYING DOMINOS WITH SOMEONE. CHRISTISN WAS SAYING THINGS ABOUT ME. ASKING WHY HE HAD TO STAY  STAY IN THE ROOM. CHARLES SAID I THOUGHT YOU COULD HANDLE IT. HE SAID I THOUGHT I COULD BUT HES DRIVING ME CRAZY KEEPING ME UP ALL NIGHT. HE IS STARING AT ME ALL NIGHT.CHARLES SAID I AM GOING TO KEEP YOU TO TOGETHER AND LET YOU WORK IT IF NOT ILL MOVE YOU INTO ANOTHER ROOM. HE SAID I DONT WANT TO MOVE TO ANOTHER ROOM. JASON WAS THERE FIRST. I MENTION THIS BECAUSE THE OTHER ROOMS WOULD HAVE 3 TO 4 PEOPLE IN THEM. AND HE WOULD NOT HAVE ANY WAY TO PRACTISE ON ANYONE.HE SAID WAIT HE HAS POT RAN UP TO OUR ROOM WENT THROUGH MY STUFF. I HAD RETURN TO THE JACKET THAT I FOUND IT IN. I THINK HE FOUND THE PHONE RECORDING. HE WAS IN THE ROOM SAYING TO HIMSELF YOU SET ME UP YOU NEW THEY WOULD BELIEVE ME. I GOING TO KILL YOU.  I FREAKED OUT I THINK EVERYTIME HE TRIED TO GET ME IN TROUBLE OR GET ME  KICK OUT HE THOUGHT I WAS SETTING HIM UP WHICH MADE HIM MORE ANGRY. HE JUST WANTED ME OUT BEFORE I COULD TELL ANY ONE WHAT WAS GOING ON. . NEXT DAY I ASKED SAM WHAT HAPPENED HE SAID NOTHING CHRISTIAN SEVERAL MESSAGE WHAT WAS GOING ON IF THERES APROBLEM WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME. WHY DID YOU TRY TO GET ME KICKED OUT. HE GOT HOME REALLY CALM AND SAID NOTHING HAPPENED LAST NIGHT YOUR CRAZY. I SAID I RECORDED YOU. HE WAS PIST. HOW DARE YOU RECORD ME. HE WAS UPSET. VERY COLD WOULD EVEN LISTEN TO THE RECORDING. HE STARTED TO GETTING READY SAID HE WAS MOVING TO ANOTHER ROOM. I WENT UO TO HIM AND SAID. CHRISTIAN I TOLD YOU SOMEONE IS PLAYING BRAINWASH OR HYPNOSIS RECORDINGS. ARE YOU SURE YOU HAVEN'T BEEN SAYING THINGS TO ME AT NIGHT. HE LOOK AT ME AND SAID I WOULD NEVER DO THAT, LOOKING AT ME LIKE I WAS GROSS. THEN HE LAUGHED IN MY FACE AND SAID I WAS DELUSIONAL. HE DIDN'T EVEN GIVE ME S MOMENTS TIME BEFORE HE SHOT ME DOWN AND COULDNT BELIEVE HE TOLD ME I WAS DELUSIONAL . I SAID SOMEBODY IS PLAYING HYPNOTIC RECORDINGS. TELLING YOU TO HATE ME AND I AM HEARING YOU CALLING ME OVER. HE LAUGHED. YOU KNOW WHAT CHRISTIAN YOU HOPPED UP ON ALL FOURS AND PULLED DO YOUR UNDERWARED AND TOLD ME TO TAKE YOU LAST NIGHT THAT'S WHY I AM TELLING YOU. JUST DON'T LISTEN. VERY COLD HE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID I DONT HAVE TIME FOR THIS AND LEFT. LATER THAT NIGHT I MET HIS GIRLFIRIEND IN FRONT OF THE HOUSE SHE CRYING. ASK IF I KNEW WE'RE HE WAS. HE'S MAD AT ME, HE IS PROBALY HANGING OUT IN ONE OF THE OTHER ROOMS. SHE SAID HE HAS MY CAR. HE WASNT OUR ROOM. I TRIED TO CALL HIM THEN SHE GOT A HOLD OF HIM. SHE SAID HE FELL A SLEEP AT HIS MOTHERS AND MISSED WORK. I TOLD HER HE WAS DOING SOME WEIRD THINGS TO ME AND HE WAS MOVING OUT OF THE MY ROOM. HE WAS SAYING HE WAS UPSET BECAUSE I HIT ON HIM. I OFFERED HIM A BJ. I WANTED TO FIGURE OUT WHAT HE WANTED FROM ME EVERY NIGHT. HEHE WAS UPSET BECAUSE HE THOUGHT I HAD BUSTED HIM. 2.30 AM CHARLES HAD TEXT ME ASKING WERE CHRISTIAN AND HIS FRIENDS WERE. I WAS ASLEEP. ABOUT 7 AM I SAW THE TEXT, BY THEN CHISTIAN WAS ASLEEP. I WOKE HIM AND TOLD HIM I SAID YOU WERE HERE. HE GOT SUPER MAD I SAID WHAT. YOUR WELCOME FOR HELPING YOUR GIRLFRIEND LAST NIGHT. I HAD NO CLUE THAT THIS WAS ABOUT ME. HE WAS REALLY UPSET. IT HAD TO BE FROM WHST I RECORDED. HE HAD ME BELIEVE THAT I WAS JUST HEARING THINGS IN THE RECORDING. HE WAS STILL SO MAD. SO TO MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER I TOLD HIM I WAS SORRY FOR RECORDING IN THE ROOM AND THAT I ERASED IT. HE GAVE SMILE THAT SMILE I  NOW KNOW THAT HE THOUGHT HIS HYPNOSIS HAD WORKED. HE SAID YOUR MORE THAN PERFECTLY FINE. I OFFERED HIM A NO AGAIN. HE SAID JASON I TOLD YOU I AM NOT GAY. I PLAYED THE I FEEL SO BAD. I SAID I CAN ASK CHARLES TO MOVE ME INTO TO ANOTHER. HE LAUGHED AND SAID YOUR MORE THAN FINE, DONT EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT I SAID THANK YOU THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE ONLY 2 TIMES I EVER DIRECTLY HIT IN HIM. WHEN I HAD SEEN CHARLES I ASKED IF THERE WAS A PROBLEM. HE SAID NO EXCEPT I TALK TO MUCH. TODD WALKED AWAY. NOBODY WOULD TELL ME. SO I HAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING ON. CHRISTIAN WAS NOW STARTING TO MANIPUL ATE ME THAT SAM AND CHARLES WERE THE BRAIN WASHERS. I HEARD MANY DIFFERENT THINGS HE WAS TRYING TO CONFUSE. IT WAS WORKING. HE WENT MY LAST WEEKEND. THINGS WERE STILL HAPPENING AND GETTING MORE AND MORE EASIER TO HEAR. MY LAST WEEKEND CHRISTIAN HAD LEFT FOR S.F. I NOTICED HE HAD SIGNED OUT A DAY AFTER HE LEFT. THATS WHEN I WAS HIT HARD. ANYTIME I WAS HOME IT WAS LOUD WORK GOING ON AND ALL DAY AND NIGHT THE WHISPERING THREATS OF KILLING ME, GET OUT FAGGOT IT HAD STARTED THE TUESDAY DAY HE LEFT. THIS WAS SUBLIMINAL. DAVID WAS NEXT TO MY DOOR, WHISPERING OPEN THE DOOR SO I CAN COME IN AND KILL YOU. I OPENED THE DOOR NO ONE WAS THERE. HIS ROOM WAS RIGHT NEXT TO MINE. SPEAKING THROUGH THE WINDOW. WERE THE GUYS DOWN STAIRS. HEARD DON NEXT DOOR WALK IN HIS ROOM AND SAY " HI DAVID". ONE NIGHT I WAS RECORDING. NOW THAT PUTS THE TWO GUYS HYPNOTIZING BEING CHRISTIAN AND DAVID THE THE OTHER TWO GUYS DOWNSTAIRS AT THE KICHEN WERE THE TWO LONG SHORE MEN IAM. I KNOW IT WAS THEM BECUSE BY FRIDAY NIGHT I WAS A NERVOUS RECK I TOLD MY SUPPERVIZOR I WAS SHAKINHG AND SHE DIDNT KNOW IF I WAS SERIOUS THROUGH ALL THAT I NEARLY LOST MY JOB AND LOST MY CAR WITH UBER. ANYWAY THEY WERE ANSWERING MY ME. I BEGGED THEM CRYING PLEASE JUST KILLTHE FAGGOT AND GET IT OVER. JUST KILL ME. I PUT MY CAMERA IN THE WINDOW TO TRY AND TAKE PICTURES THEY WENT STILL THREATS OF KILLING ME. I WENT FOR A CIGARETTE. I HEARD THEM ENTER THEIR ROOM.  WHICH WAS RIGHT I WAS OVER THERE WIDOW. THE TALLER ONE SAID I THINK HE WAS CRYING AND THE OTHER ONE SAID "FUCK THAT ASSHOLE HE DESERVES IT, FOR PICKING ON CHRISTIAN." I HAD TEXTED CHARLES AND TOLD HIM TO CALL 911 THAT PEOPLE WERE THREATING TO KILL ME WHEN CHRISTIAN GOT HOME, I SAW A SMILE ON HIS FACE HE SAY DID THEY COME THE ROOM THEY CAN'T KILL YOU IF THEY DON'T COME IN. I WAS TIRED. I HAD TO WORK, CHARLES NEVER CALLED ME. I DIND SEE CHARLES UNTIL WED. CHARLES WAS HELPING WHEN I GOT MY CAR MONEY WASN'T COMING IN AS QUICKLY AS I HAD HOPED. I OWED AS OF 10/27 $1070 I GAVE HIM $145 THEN 9 DAYS LATER 11/5 I GAVE HIM $235. I TOLD HIM I WOULD HAVE MONEY AGAIN UNTIL 19, THAT I MIGHT 7. ON NOV 9 HE CALLS ME TO TELL ME I HAVE TO MOVE OUT OF THE BED ROOM HE NEEDS TENANTS THAT PAY. I CAN STAY IN THE GARAGE WERE WE HAVE THE POOL TABLE FOR EVERYBODY. I CAN MAKE A BEDDING NOT A BED AND MUST BE PUT AWAY AT 6 AM EVERY MOURNING NEVER TOLD ME WHEN I COULD GOT BED I HEARD THEM PLAY UNTIL 2 OR 3 USUALLY NO EARLIER THAN MIDNIGHT. I CAN KEEP MY CLOTHES AND OTHER THING IN CHARLES STORAGE. WHEN I NEED TO GET MY THING I GET THE KEY FROM CHARLES. CHARLES CAN BE REACHED FORM 930 AM TO 930 PM. I BARTEND I GO TO WORK AT 9AM SOMETIME I COME HOME AT 12 AM I COULD GO DAYS WITH OUT BEING ABLE TO GET MY STUFF THERE'S NO BATH ROOM OR KITCHEN. I WOULD HAVE FROZE IN THERE AT NIGHT. I WOULD NOW BE CHARGE $300 A MONTH. I WAS SO LUCKY MY FRIEND LET ME MOVE IN MY OLD ROM TIL I FIND ANOTHER PLACE. I NOW OWE $1100 MONTH I HAVE TO CATCH UP ON. CHARLES NEVER ASKED ME ABOUT WHY I TEXTED HIM TO CALL 911. THE NEXT FEW DAYS CHRISTIAN WAS NON STOP TRYING TO GET ME TO GET IN HIS BED HE WAS LAYING SAY COME OVER AND FUCK ME JASON OVER AND OVER. FOUND OUT LATER I WAS FILMING HIM HE WAS FILMING ME AS HE WAS ACTING AS HE WAS SLEEPING THE HOUSE WERE ALL WATCHING ME LOOKING LIKE I AM STARING AT HIM AND ABOUT TO JUMP IN HIS BED. TWO DAYS WENT BY WHEN CHRISTIAN WAS THERE IT WAS NICE. WHEN I GOT AND CHRISTIAN WOULD LEAVE IT STARTED ALL OVER AGAIN. I AFRAID AS SOON AS I CALL THE POLICE THEY WOULD ALL DENIE IT WAS HAPPENING AND MAKE ME LOOK CRAZY. I LEFT MY PHONE ON MY BED. I FORGOT I HAD GIVEN HIM THE PASSWORD. ON THE WAY I SAW HE HAD ERASED 70% OF MY RECORDINGS. I WANT IT TO BE KNOWN CHRISTIAN IS STILL HARASSING ME TO THIS DAY I JUST TODAY LISTEN TO RECORDING WHERE I WAS SAYING THINGS TO HIS SUBLIMINAL RECORDING.