#but the lack of critical thinking and paying actual attention to the show is unreal from some of you lot

[xhanisai]

ML fandom when Marinette/Ladybug calls Chat Noir by cute nicknames and gets angry and upset when he's hurt and when she laughs at his jokes: *silence* ML fandom when Marinette/Ladybug doesn't reciprocate Chat Noir's romantic feelings in the beginning: SHE IS A HORRIBLE PERSON!!!! SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT HIM!!! SCREEEEEEEE!!!!!

[bandofchimeras]

okay a longish deepdive about PDs & Succession.

CONTAINS SPOILERS

some people leave no space for curiosity. no interest in other's inner worlds and constant projections of self into quieter people's energetic life, leaves those other people exhausted and unable to develop a real desire to get to know more.

I can be like this, at my most defensive and manic.

But being around other people like this for years has worked like sandpaper on me. Because if you both project yourselves at the other person with the same intensity the friction starts to escalate. Or you build on one another until sometimes you start sharing a psychosis. So to keep the peace you can try to be agreeable, validating, and listen as much as you can.

However soon the whole thing drains you and you realize you're being talked at, performed for, that this is not a relationship of equals, you have become an audience to the self-performance of this person, and your criticism or praise is largely irrelevant except insofar as they take it as helpful feedback for self development.

I do suppose this is the kind of person you could describe as a narcissist. But understanding the wounds, anxiety and beliefs at the core of this problem from having been In It for a long time, I don't feel like that label does justice to what is happening in relationship. Personality disorders exist mostly in the presence of other people. In early remission, people with BPD will share in forums how they feel okay now, so long as they are alone. other people trigger the defensive formations of the self that comprise the "disorder."

People who do this often are highly anxious and traumatized. The fear at the core of it is somatic. It is fear of being erased, silenced, destroyed, or fear of one's own power, of the shadow...many things but what runs the whole thing is fear, paranoia, distrust.

That's what struck me most about forums for people w NPD. most threads were talking about trust, of God, of the universe, of other people. The lack of it.

I think the pathologization of these personality formations has had net negative results but also aided us all in understanding a bit more how not to get lost in sick people's dreams and control.

Narcissism & personality disorders aren't scary crazy unreal spectacle things all the time. They're human suffering from spiritual misunderstanding and emotional damage or neglect. In fact I think entitled narcissism comes from neglect of emotional guidance (teaching limits, boundaries, respect, fairness) and wounded/defensive narcissism comes from abuse (berating, controlling, wounding child's self image, emotional manipulation, etc). And so they manifest a bit differently.

But I digress - because narcissistic people aren't just fun blorbo bugs to study under a microscope. A lot of people who do good in the world are still impossible to get to know and love on an intimate level out of glitches and destruction in the formation of their person good.

Succession, as a show, handles the interlinking clusterfuck of dysfunctionality that leads to these disorders by putting the characters psychosexual motivations on full display - it's one of the best written shows I've encountered yet, for character studies. I joked that I was "downloading Roman Roy's personality to become insufferable."

In particular his form of psychopathy compelled me the most because he clearly understands more than many people around him, he's just abnegated his own power to the point he is essentially neutered, castrated, helpless before the will of his father or the almighty dollar. However he still pays attention sometimes, listens. Unlike Kendall's manic depressive swinging that passes through reality entirely into constructed ideas of who he could be and what he could do, Roman knows what they are, what he is, even though he hates himself, and does not actually care about the harm the family causes....or does he? In some way he copes with extreme guilt.

The thing about Kendall that's tragic is he does, sometimes, try so hard. But he's trying. He never does it, not really. He doesn't connect with the lower class people he hangs out with. He thinks he does. But he never stops to check in, to really listen.

That's why he becomes most like his father in the megalomania, the abusive manipulation, the paranoia, the entitlement. He never gets checked all the way. Until, *SPOILER ALERT*

his siblings do it. What a poetic resolve.

My point is, studying the blorbos of the Roy family et al provided me some real insight into my own dysfunctional family, people I know and attract into my life, and gave me much food for thought about yes men, complicity and what it means to have a spine.

Yes men win, in the end, but they have to sell their souls so completely you can almost watch the personhood leave their eyes.

A refusal to intervene or accept responsibility for choices...what the Roy siblings demonstrate over and over no matter how many times they try to make things work, is what happens when the fundamental core of a person is neglected and trampled on. They refuse to take responsibility for themselves, their own personhood and choices.

Kendall blames systems and his family. He ignores his own obligations and failings by trying to take down or own the family legacy. He's a mercenary, out for hire. He wants to care but does not have the mechanism of accountability installed in him. He hides his crimes like a child hiding an ice cream spoon from a controlling parent (and God do I relate).

Roman blames himself, or no one. For him it's all a tragedy and a farce, he is the sharp tongued commentator. He gets what he wants no matter what other people say or do, or tries to. His awareness of how little self respect he carries himself with is...questionable.

Shiv does not show who she blames. She plays as if she is smarter than she is, because she wants respect from men who will never, ever, give it to her. She thinks she can get it. Or tolerate enough to get something. Shiv almost gets it but her controlling and undermining of her brothers is a very older sister undoing. She tries to square with people, her father, Matsson, even Tom. But because she is lying to herself and everyone about what she wants, nothing ever sticks.

Connor gets it right on the nose calling all his siblings love hungry. He knows, he says himself he has learned to survive without love. He knows he and his family are pathetic. He still puts on a show. Maybe he half believes his own show. He fakes everything to the and demonstrate his worth but under that knows it's a lie. Willa, presidency, all of it is a show to get people in his camp, to scrape up some kind of approval in lieu of genuine affection. As his outburst and praise at the gala demonstrates, whether or not he wants anything to do with you depends on your performance/to him/.

It's all ratings, baby, especially for the males of the Roy family. For the women it's proximity to power.

Anyways Kendall does call his father out as a grandoise psychopathic narcissist so there's that. But my point is that personality disorders are disorders of relationship, and individualizing Logan Roy's particular "pathogen" as Gerri calls it, distracts from the larger picture, the picture*SPOILER* Ewan tries at the funeral to convey with grace:

"my brother brought out a meanness in men."

The meanness is already there, in all of us. Ewan admits it's in him, too, but he still tries. Some people stop trying.

That part hit me hard. Because I think over the show you can track when Kendall stops trying. He almost gets it, that "the poison drips down" - it's not trickle down economics, it's a IV drip of toxins being fed into the veins of ATN viewers.

My thesis here is not very mindblowing: American political culture disorders our personalities. It is built off personality disorders.

No one in this show or in it's real life counterparts, are really happy. The only happy moments we see with the Roys...maybe "a meal fit for a king"? Goofing around together. Even in that, they are still being cruel, but their target is a shared outer target.

I loved those scenes, brief as they were, where the siblings were a united front against the big bad world, with their plans and their cool sunglasses and planes - you almost root for them. Almost. And then - the truth breaks it all to pieces, again.

The truth of who they are: not serious people.

Serious people, they think, watching their father do shit, do shit. Serious people own stuff and lord it over others. They don't remember the work their father did put in, the soul he sacrificed, to get to the top, they don't connect the dots of all the people working for them silently in the background at all times, how those people make the world go round, even if they feel like THEY do.

Being a serious person, finding joy, is accessible to every human being in the right context - the context to discover a purpose, a love, a passion - to stop merely taking and believe something good can come out of your self. The show is a tragedy not because wahhh poor rich people, it's a tragedy because it reflects a deep contortion in our own shredded social fabric.

I could say so much more but I have to go pack and make a tart and do laundry. If you read this to the end, thanks for stickin with it!

[americandreambarbie]

⟡ the 5 roots of suffering & how to use astrology to overcome them ⟡

“Ignorance, egoism, attachment, hatred, and clinging to bodily life are the five obstacles.” (From Swami Satchidananda’s Yoga Sutras, 2.2)

Each of these 5 roots of human suffering correlates directly to the immature/unhealthy expression of a planet/planets in the solar system. Knowing this will help you to understand the cause of these experiences, and how to transcend them.  

1) Avidya: Most commonly translated as ignorance, the first obstacle on the road to liberation has to do with not seeing things as they really are, and being disconnected from the Truth. Anytime you are unable to be with the present moment, the unfolding of life as it is, you are experiencing avidya. More often than not, people are not fully engaged in the present moment because they are experiencing one of the other kleshas, which Patanjali lays out in the subsequent sutras. 

The first root of suffering is related to Mercury, the planet of knowledge, intellect, communication & curiosity. Lack of introspection and disregulation of Mercury things (thought loops, mismanaged anxiety, neglecting manifestations and gratitude practices, poor communication with self and others) will bring about avidya. It/s also related to the Sun since the Sun is our identity and how we see ourselves in the world. If we are out of touch with our individual truth, we will be out of touch with the universal truths as we are all microcosms of the universe. Look at where these planets fall in your chart. Do your research about the world and about yourself. Find your own unique ways to express these placements’ energies in healthier ways to transcend avidya.

2) Asmita: Asmita is the ego, and it becomes an affliction when you relate more to what you think you are, rather than who you actually are. Labeling yourself, judging yourself or others as they relate to you, or identifying with the “storymaker” are types of asmita, and they cause an unfortunate, but common, disconnect from universal consciousness. If it occurs to you that almost all of your thoughts are about you and your stories, you would be right. Nevertheless, you can see that asmita is a type of avidya.

This root of suffering is more related to the Ascendant than the sun. We tend to grow into our sun signs with time, while our ascendant is a more pure, and unrefined expression of our raw energy. The Ascendant is the vehicle we navigate the world in, and if we identify with the vehicle more than the driver, we run into trouble. Venus is also related to this root. Venus shows us how we are in relationships with others, and the standards we hold them to based on our personal values and biases. An unhealthy expression of Venus will lead us to ego troubles in terms of how we see ourselves in relation to the people around us. Finally, Mars shows us how we experience anger, and informs us if we are the type to take certain things personally, or to get caught up in petty grudges and squabbles. All of these are forms of asmita and they are caused by not keeping the ego in check. Remember that how others behave toward us is a reflection of their own insecurities and conditioning, it has nothing to do with us. And we are all so much more than what we feel like we are.

3) Raga: Raga means attachment, or clinging. Raga is the desire to repeat enjoyable experiences, to have more of what is pleasurable. The problem with this is that actually having more will never fill a person up; suffering is inevitable.

This sounds a lot like Jupiter, doesn't it? Jupiter is all about bigger, harder, stronger, MORE...which isn’t bad in and of itself. The suffering arises when whatever activity Jupiter is enjoying starts to gain control over you in the form of addictions and unhelpful habits. Addictions are chemical reactions, so do yourself a favor and become a chemist so you can set yourself free from raga. Pay attention to how your body responds to people/things/experiences you feel attached to. Especially your gut, not so much your mind in these cases as it is more easily manipulated by chemical reactions. Use things, don’t let things use you. Seek to live a life of balance in all areas.

4) Dvesa: The flipside of the coin is dvesa, or aversion. Dvesa is the desire to avoid experiences that are uncomfortable or bring displeasure. Raga and dvesa are about either clinging to or resisting what is, rather than simply being with it. Pushing away or resisting the moment is dvesa.

This is pure 100% Saturn shit right here. The eternal critic & naysayer of the skies, Saturn means well (really!!!) but leads many people into self-doubt, irrational fears, and overthinking (especially when aspecting Mercury). These things over time create a life full of boredom, limitation, regrets, and unrealized potential. Take risks, make them calculated, but take risks. Don’t let that nagging voice in the back of your head run the show - don’t worry we all have one. But the people who actually achieve their goals and live their dreams don’t take that voice too seriously.

5) Abhinivesa: Finally, abhinivesa is described as the fear of death, but is really another type of clinging—clinging to one’s life and identity. As the Buddhist teacher and author Michael Stone puts it, “Abhinivesa is not the fear of the death of the body per se, but the fear of letting go of the story of ‘me.’” A person might fear that releasing an aversion or attachment to something might result in the dissolution of the person’s identity.

Now we’ve made it to the outer planets: the ones that transcend individual identity, connect us to the collective, and guide us back home to Source. Uranus rules the collective, and all things sudden & unknown. Neptune rules illusions, and their eventual dissolution. Yes, reality and what you consider life are included in those illusions. And the baddest motherfucker of them all, queen mother Pluto rules death, rebirth, and all other forms of radical transformation. AKA, the inevitable. We have much less control over these planets’ energies than we do with the personal planets. All things outer planet related boil down to faith, surrender, and acceptance. Faith that everything that happens to us is for our greatest good on a soul level. Surrendering to the present moment, surrendering the need for control, surrendering all attachments and the ego on the metaphorical cross. And finally, acceptance of what you truly are underneath it all: omnipotent eternal light.

  Credits: I took the definitions of the 5 roots of suffering from Karson McGinley at chopra.com, but the correlations to astrology are all my words. ⟡

[scnnyfm-old]

chicago’s very own sunshine ‘sunny’ carmichael has been spotted on madison avenue driving a bmw 3 series , welcome ! your resemblance to dua lipa is unreal . according to tmz , you just had your twenty-third birthday bash . your chance of surviving new york is uncertain because you’re sensitive , but being altrustic might help you . i think being a cancer explains that . 3 things that would paint a better picture of you would be the scent of bubblegum, an abundance of house plants, and freshly baked cookies . ( cis female + she/her ) 

helloooooo ghouls, goblins, and everything in between. it’s ya girl aneesa or whatever fun nickname you wanna call me, and this is my child sunny! you can reach me via ims or catch me on discord at 𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐬𝐚 🦋☀#5408

* && 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐬

full name — sunshine carhmichael

nicknames — sunny (preferred name actually)

birthday — july 15

height  — 5′ 8″

age  — twenty-three (23)

pronouns — she/her/hers

occupation(s) — singer, record executive, fashion/cosmetics brand ceo, fashion designer, reality show star, & model

languages spoken — english (barely)

orientation — bisexual

* && 𝐛𝐢𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐲

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑶𝑹𝒀 𝑺𝑶 𝑭𝑨𝑹...

sunshine hawthorne grew up in the foster care system, according to the letter her mother left her, she was just a teenager with strict religious parents who threw her out the minute they learned of her pregnancy, and sunshine’s father was nowhere to be seen, and giving sunshine up was easier than living on the streets trying to fend for herself and a child

SEXUAL & PSYCHICAL ABUSE TW growing up in the foster care system was a lot, she bounced from family to family, and the things that happened were unspeakable. sometimes the abuse was physical, emotional, or sexual and it just caused a lot of deep personal trauma for herself that was never resolved

this caused her to become reserved, stuck up for the underdog even if it was at her own expense, just intrinsically unselfish, has always been the mom friend to a fault

she was 10 when she got adopted into an extremely wealthy family, like i’m talking top ten wealthiest families in the states, and suddenly sunny hawthorne became sunny carmichael 

so let’s take a minute to talk about the carmichael’s 

they originate from old money, i’m talking so far back it’s unclear whether or not the money they have was obtained legally or not, this caused her parents to be a little reckless w their spending

her father: sebastian carmichael is the one who inherited the wealth from his father, who inherited it from his father, and the cycle continues, he was addicted to gambling add that to the fact that he was a serial cheater and you have an extremely poor father figure

ALCOHOL & DRUGS TW her mother: davina carmichael was a drug dependent alcoholic who spent all of husband’s money to makeup for the fact that he was cheating on her, started her own billion dollar company from scratch, plans on ‘giving it’ to sunny

the carmichaels were very problematic and all of their scandals were extremely public, in fact the only reason they adopted sunny in the first place was so that they could appear more well-rounded then they were

after that would come give siblings, and it fell upon sunny to take care of all of them, so from a young age she acted extremely mature, learned to fend for herself, and still managed to have a soul flourishing with tender spots

sunny was a gifted kid, not academically, she struggled A LOT, she had trouble paying attention, couldn’t read as well as the other kids. she got teased a lot for being ‘dumb’ and honestly hated it, it’s one of her biggest insecurities to this day. but what she lacked academically she made up for artistically, she was musically inclined, and it was clear that she loved to draw (apparent from all the doodles in the margins of her notebooks)

her family capitalized on this as if she were some sideshow attraction, come see our daughter! look how good she is at painting and doodling! pay us money! and although it made her feel like some trophy the could polish and show off, and this messed up sunshine even more because she knew deep down they didn’t love her

in high school she was the bubbly ditzy popular girl, chewed on enough bubblegum to finance a new mercedes, and just was that stereotypical girl ripped straight out of an early 00′s movie

was on the cheerleading team because again i tell you she was just living her best teen life! having an amazing time! vibing!

although her parents could give her anything they wanted and were decent enough to pay the bills for her and her siblings, she wanted to provide for herself, not have to depend on her parents for anything

she got into modeling! and although t took her a while to find her footing eventually she did, and it was a great time! but eventually parents got jealous and made her quit modeling altogether, because god forbid that she get more attention than they did

eventually (and to everyone’s surprise lmao) she went to college, and somehow got accepted into an ivy league....for art! not as surprising, but her family lied and said she went to business school bc of course they did

she went to harvard and majored in visual arts, she got her degree, and got her her happy ass out of there, mostly stayed focused on her studies, occasional party here and there

she was extremely worried about her siblings and she immediately went back home to them, surprisingly they were in one piece, not surprisingly they were being raised by nannies

she applied her visual arts degree and started designing clothes, then modeling said clothes, because although her parents had enough money to get her company off the ground, she wanted to do it by herself

and she did! finally bringing a decent name to the carmichael family!

was a guest judge on a bunch of modeling/runway shows, occasionally starred in her family’s reality tv show against her will, and was so dynamic she would be offered her own, and of course she jumped at the opportunity! 

her mother tried handing off the company to her, and she declined! instead she opened up her own company selling her designs and was very hands on in learned to make cosmetics, and her company has been doing extremely well so far, it’s set to surpass her family’s company in a couple of years

as if she didn’t have enough on her plate she wanted to pursue her singing career, ended up having a whirlwind romance w a singer that she collaborated with, they were pretty serious and talked about being engaged, but eventually things fizzled out

said romance inspired a lot of her music, and encouraged her to keep going with her music career, she even worked her way up to the title of executive of their label, she’s on top of the world

she’s come a long way from the shy girl from foster care who afraid of her own shadow, but she’s lost none of her softness!

still extremely charitable and even started multiple charities all ranging from helping fund the foster care system to providing more funding for no kill shelters (she’s a vegan!) all of her charities are nation wide and oh boy does she have a lot on her plate

has....literally no time for anything else....still tries to prove to herself that she’s definitely not stressed and has so much free time! sdflksj tries to party and have fun, but mostly craves staying inside and takes baths with scented candles and just watches the same romcom over and over again 

* && 𝐬𝐞𝐜𝐫𝐞𝐭

....okay so maybe it’s not completely believable that she got into an ivy league with her own merit, after all she’s not the sharpest tool in the shed and spoiler alert she didn’t

her parents bribed an admissions counselor to let their daughter in their visual arts program, they even donated enough money to renovate the art museum 

all of this happened without sunny’s knowledge and she continues to live in blissful ignorance about the whole thing

* && 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲

zodiac — cancer rising, cancer sun, & scorpio moon

alignment — lawful good

mbti — infp-t

enneagram — type 2 ( the helper )

temperament — phlegmatic

house — hufflepuff

positive traits — ( + ) altruistic , committed , conceptual , curious , courteous , determined , generous , humble , inventive , imaginative , loyal , loving , organized , passionate , playful , reliable , selfless , supportive , thoughtful , and trustworthy

negative traits — ( - ) anxious , cautious , compulsive , critical , disorganized , dogmatic ,, hyperactive , indifferent , insecure , impulsive , logical , oblivious , pedantic , protective , and resilient

* && 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬

please don’t feel limited by this list because i have a brain the size of a walnut and this is all i can think of these are almost all ripped off ryker’s intro bc i’m not creative

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑭𝑨𝑴𝑰𝑳𝑰𝑨𝑳....

family friends  maternal or paternal cousins

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑨𝑵𝑻𝑰𝑪...

past crush  current crush  flirtationship except she prolly doesn’t realize bc head empty  unrequited love ( on either side )  fwbs  will they? won’t they?  someone her friends are trying to set her up with  forbidden love of some kind idk maybe not  exes on good terms  exes on bad terms  first love high school or college romances  summer romance  childhood crush friends to lovers  pr relationship somebody who leads her on 

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑷𝑳𝑨𝑻𝑶𝑵𝑰𝑪...

BEST FRIEND / ROOMMATE PLOT BASED ON NEW GIRL OR FRIENDS PLS I WILL GIVE YOU MY EVERYTHING  best friends  confidants  ride or die sibling like friends  close friends  neighbors??  enemies to friends  reunited childhood friends drunk / party friends  someone she’s a good influence on  bad influence  unlikely friends  secret friends, aka friends who do not hang around in the public eye as their family or friends may not get along  #married....just they argue and love each other like a married couple

‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎‏‏‎ ‎ 𝑵𝑬𝑮𝑨𝑻𝑰𝑽𝑬...

enemies  former best friends  frenemies

[fanfictionconnectionwordpress]

What if the RFA + Minor Trio turned into the opposite gender? ;)

***Okey dokey, let’s swap the sexes. I’m going to make it more of a storyline thing rather than doing a typical ‘genderswap’ situation. Each character is on route and has received a chain mail email that they will be changed into the opposite sex for 24 hours if they don’t forward the email swiftly, followed by it actually occurring. All except Vanderwood who is myversion of Vanderwood as seen in my VanderwoodBackstory Fanfiction. ~Let’s Connect! FFC***

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Jaehee:

It’s a lot like living in a nightmare.

She calls in sick to work, the one and only time she’s ever done that, causing Jumin to send someone to her house to drop off her work.

At least that gives her something to do so she doesn’t have to focus on the fact that her normally huge boobs are nowhere to be seen or how difficult it is to use the restroom.

The relief that washes over her when things return to normal is unreal.

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Seven:

This is amazing! His boobs look even better than he’d imagined them, not that he wants to be a woman exactly, but it’s going to be amazing for his crossdressing for a day…or technically not crossdressing…considering

He tries everything on in his closet, taking so many pictures with his whole photo stand and remote set up.

Tricking the others in the chatroom with his pictures will be even more fun now.

Could he…manage to trick Vanderwood? The agent is due to arrive any second to make him work, so Seven puts on the most provocative dress he can and poses as sexily as possible by the door saying, ‘Hello, Madam~’ as soon as the brunet enters.

Being chased around by Vandy and his taser only teaches Seven why women wear such tight bras when exercising.

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Jumin:

He is absolutely surprised and mesmerized that it actually worked. He’s read some occult books before simply for the purpose of research, but perhaps its more plausible than he believed?

Jumin goes to work like usual, everyone around him so confused as he commands Jaehee to launch an immediate research project on the phenomenon.

No one can decide if he is crazy or if they are. How does a man show up as a woman the next day?

He is not sure whether he is disappointed or relieved when the symptoms wear off, as he had thought about researching some things that only female bodies could experience, but since it was only a 24 hours situation, he needed to finish his work first anyway.

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Zen:

He’s actually always wondered what he would look like as a woman.~

Clearly he would be the most beautiful woman ever in existence, and as he looks in the mirror, hot mama, yes he is.

He’s actually turning himself on, or so he thinks because it feels a little different than normal.

So. Many. Selfies.

Zen just can’t get enough of himself.

By the end of the day…there’s just one thing left to test out.

Haven’t you always wondered what certain things feel like for the opposite sex? ;3

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Yoosung:

He honestly almost sends the email, gullible baby, but then Seven calls him, and as soon as he hangs up the phone…OH NO IT’S COME TRUE!

Yoosung proceeds to forward the email to everyone and their cousin hoping that it will reverse the side effects more immediately, but that doesn’t work.

24 hours…he can do this for 24 hours.

There’s a permanent blush on his face, and he keeps thinking about taking a look at his bare body, just a peek, and then proceeding to get wildly flustered.

He has to change his voice tone for LOLOL when he logs in to distract himself.

It is a mercy for him when the 24 hours are up.

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Saeran:

He doesn’t like this at all. Somehow his idiot brother has to be responsible.

Should he go to the Savior for help or try to deal with this on his own?

The best course of action is clearly to hack the email and sender as much as he possibly can, and since it’s a chain mail, there’s a lot of senders to backtrack through to find the original.

His back starts to hurt ridiculously badly after a while of being in his chair and he realizes…the extra front weight is straining his back.

Saeran works for the entire 24 hours and past that, finally finding the original sender and grabbing his jacket, triumphantly pushing away from his computer so he can go to the magic shop and make them reverse this curse immediately…only to realize…his breasts are gone.

No point In going now other than to punish…His eyes fall on his computer screen, evidence of Seven searching the chatroom firewall again for a security breach popping up on the screen.

A smile grows on his face…on second thought…why not curse someone else?

-

Vanderwood:

Not real. Not happening. The supernatural is bullshit.

Instead of paying any attention to what has happened to himself and the lack of control he has, considering the way his body just morphed, Vanderwood decides to do the one thing that makes him feel like he has control over his life

Immediately, he launches into cleaning his house from top to bottom, not stopping until he can see his reflection in the tiles of his kitchen floor and then pausing…

Oh good…it must have been a total of 24 hours because he has returned to normal.

-

V:

He’s always found the female body beautiful and intriguing but that didn’t mean he wanted to experience it firsthand.

Still, he spends a great deal of time looking himself over in the mirror, considering the art that he could make.

Is it possible to be your own muse? Of course it is, plenty of artists did that…

He only had a few short hours to do this!

V starts to take a load different photographs of himself, which he will later use in an exhibit that becomes critically acclaimed.

People ask the question of why he’d turn himself into a woman in a photograph, and he states it as ‘Because women are desirable in more ways than one,’ which earns him a following as a women’s advocate.

Well done, V.

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The United States of Delusion

I don’t even know what to say today y'all.

There has been just a massive amount of mind-boggling nonsense inundating us for the past week that I can’t feel anything other than overwhelmed. I’m overwhelmed by the outrageous comments the president has made. I’m overwhelmed by the bold-faced LIES that he has spewed; overwhelmed by the hypocrisy of every single thing he has done and said.

I knew this was coming. I knew it when I cast my ballot for a woman I didn’t think was the best choice but wasn’t an absolute psychopath. I knew it when y'all told us to give him a chance because even though he hadn’t taken office, his hateful rhetoric had already changed the tone of our nation. To be honest, I’ve know it every single time the carrot has opened his mouth. I knew this was coming and I am STILL blown away.

And of course, I’m blown away by this clown. His presidency literally exceeds my comprehension. But what blows me away even more than his bullshit, is the lack of outrage from those of you who voted for him.

Y'all. This. Dude. Lied. To. You.

Not that this a new thing for him. He lied multiple times on the campaign trail (“lock her up” is still ringing particularly loud) and has continued to lie since he was elected. It literally is the most unreal sort of lying I’ve ever seen. It’s bold-faced and its over INSANE things. Like, who actually lies about doing/saying something they are well documented to have done/said? Seriously? WHO DOES THAT?

We’ve had politicians who lie before. That is not at all new, in fact its basically a requirement. But every single time we’ve caught them in a lie, they have to make a big public apology (which you wont accept) and then we hold it against them and call them a liar for the rest of their career. Example: Bill Clinton was not impeached because he had an affair. Bill Clinton was impeached because he LIED about having the affair. Which in comparison to the lies our new fearless leader is spewing, seem like child’s play. I won’t even begin to discuss the ridiculousness of that entire process (especially Trump’s use of it to undermine Bill’s wife and her run for president) but the hypocrisy is, once-again, mind blowing.

SO ANYWAYS.

I’ve posted a nice article on my facebook page choked full of the lies Donald Trump has spewed in the past week vs. the facts that actually happened here in the real world. Seriously, this blows my mind that these are things being debated. Read it or don’t, but I promise there is actual evidence that contradicts the crap the president has tried to make into facts. But that, again isn’t really the point of all this.

What we need to talk about right now, is the state of my country.

Because I am not entirely sure what is happening or who’s country this is anymore. If I’ve seen anything in the past week, it’s that Donald Trump is very well set on making this HIS country and he doesn’t give a flying fuck what he has to do or who he has to throw under the bus to get there.

And I don’t know why there are so many of my fellow citizens who voted for him who are not scared or downright pissed about this. Because y'all are the ones who trusted him. You chose to put your faith in a man and in the span of a week he has completely overhauled your country. I don’t know if you just don’t understand what all these executive orders mean (to be fair, there have been an exorbitant amount) or just don’t care because somehow they don’t apply to you. Because I’ve defended y'all. I have allowed you to justify your vote for other things but I’m done now. Because I’m not entirely sure there’s anything that man can say or do to make some of you even question him, let alone denounce his actions.

When you have a man in charge of the greatest free nation in the world telling the press what they can and cannot report, you are no longer a part of a free nation. When you have a president silencing SCIENTISTS and evidence-based facts, you no longer live in a safe nation. When you have a president using religion to decide who can and cannot enter our country, you no longer live in America (a nation literally founded by men running away from the nationalized Church of England).

The point is we have entered some sort of insane alternate universe where we call lies alternate facts. A world where we ignore hypocrisy unless its directed against our opponent. A place where we look the other way when something unjust happens that doesn’t apply to us. A nation that doesn’t make any damn sense and pretty much defies every single principle it was founded on.

So I’m gonna talk about hypocrisy for a second because its about damn time we start holding each other accountable.

You DO NOT get to criticize pro-life women at your women’s march. You DO NOT get to yell at people afraid to let in refugees when it took you five years to pay attention to the crisis in Syria. You DO NOT get to remain silent when a SNL writer says horrible things about Baron Trump because of who his father is. You DO NOT get to say Trump is not a “legitimate president”. You DO NOT get to remain silent when protesters destroy property or attack police. You DO NOT get to support the women’s march but stay silent to the Black Lives Matter movement. You DO NOT get to freak out about Republicans racism and make fun of Melania’s broken English. You DO NOT get to criticize the people who felt like they had no choice to vote for Trump when your party nominated a lackluster candidate through some pretty sketchy tactics. You DO NOT get to act like the ACA is affordable for most people or the best option for healthcare for our nation. You DO NOT get to remain silent when Madonna threatens to blow up the white house. You DO NOT get to act like illegal immigrants didn’t break the law.

You DO NOT get to preach to me about how you voted for Trump because he was financially conservative and then not lose your damn mind when he essentially forces you to pay for an utterly useless wall. You DO NOT get to tell me healthcare is too expensive to be a universal right but a billion dollar wall isn’t. You DO NOT get to talk to me about the Democrats ridiculous spending when the GOP wasted $7 million to investigate Hilary in Benghazi TWICE and who knows how much investigating Trump’s newest bullshit voter fraud claim. You DO NOT get to tell me you are pro-life and refuse to allow Syrian refugees into our country. You DO NOT get to say “what would Jesus do” to defend fetuses but not actual, fully formed humans. You DO NOT get to tell me radical Muslims pose more of a threat domestically than mentally ill white guys like Dylan Roof or Adam Lanza. You DO NOT get to get your panties in a wad about how we’ve become a “politically correct” country where you can’t say what you want and not BE UTTERLY TERRIFIED that the president has essentially put a gag order on the EPA, NASA, the National Park Service, etc. You DO NOT get to chant “drain the swamp” at your terrifying rallies and then remain silent when Trump builds a cabinet overflowing with the most under-qualified and swampiest, swamp monsters. You DO NOT get to demand to see President Obama’s birth certificate but not Trump’s tax returns. You DO NOT get to criticize peaceful protests against Trump’s low-class behavior when y'all protested Obama’s election because of his skin color. And you DEFINITELY DO NOT get to say celebrities need to stay out of politics when you fools elected one.

Y'all are afraid of ISIS and don’t understand how banning immigrants from ISIS’ stomping grounds feeds directly into their recruiters hands. How banning people from Muslim predominate countries (but not the most Muslim predominate countries and not the countries who have a history of attacking us) shows all the people who ISIS recruit just how horrible the Americans are. Y'all THREW THE BIGGEST FREAKING FIT EVER about Hilary’s freaking email server (even though most of us don’t even know what the heck a private email server is) and then are silent when Donald Trump’s administration has done the EXACT SAME THING. Y'all were up in arms about the Clinton Foundations international connections but look the other way when your president makes a bullshit executive order to ban Muslims only from countries he is convenient enough not to have financial ties to (and then believe the nonsense that Obama did the same thing in 2011: https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/fact-checker/wp/2017/01/29/trumps-facile-claim-that-his-refugee-policy-is-similar-to-obama-in-2011/?utm_term=.328b3f2a974d). You DO NOT get to highlight a portion of that executive order and claim our president refuses to support countries that oppress the LGBTQ community when he openly supports Putin.

Here’s the thing y'all. We need to figure out just what it is we stand for. Because I really don’t think anyone has any clue anymore. We’ve warped our views and beliefs to fit into certain political parties who have their own conflicting views. Republicans are conservative unless its something they want (like a wall). They want the government to stay out of their wallets but are okay with it in women’s reproductive organs. Democrats want everyone to be respected and then call every single Trump supporter a bigot/racist/oppressor. They want the government to stay out of their reproductive organs but provide them free birth control. These labels are only further examples of the division that has broken our country. We are so divided over words that don’t even represent well-organized ideas.

We’ve got to stop y'all. We have to come back to the ideas we were founded on. We weren’t meant to have a national religion. We weren’t meant to have just two political parties; as if that could possibly represent every single American adequately. We weren’t meant to deny immigrants when the founders themselves were immigrants.

But more than that, we need to be good humans. We need to help those who’s homelands have been destroyed because we refused to get involved until it was too late. We need to speak up about injustice in the world and demand action. We need to be kind and fair and generous and compassionate. We need to acknowledge when those we disagree with do the right thing. We need to call out the people we support when they do the wrong thing. We need to respect our fellow humans no matter who they are because, duh. Seriously, duh.

I say all of that knowing full well that even if all of that happens, we may not be any better off. I know that change is a hard thing for people to do and that a few people have a very difficult time changing the world. I know that President Trump will continue to do whatever he wants to do regardless of who it upsets. I know that most of us are too proud to admit, our “opponent” has some valid points.

But I have to say something and I have to try something. Because I feel SO FREAKING HOPELESS. Even though I have watched amazing things unfold in the past week to counter this monster of a president, I feel defeated.

I don’t know what is going to happen next and I’m truly terrified to find out. I can’t even begin to imagine how those of you are who aren’t a privileged white woman are feeling. I’m sorry for you. I really, really am. I want you to know that I’ve got your back and I will fight for you with every fiber of my being because I am grateful for your existence. And you matter. We, the people are the best part of this country and we are what makes America great. I will defend your right to be treated with respect and dignity no matter what. And I can only hope that enough people will do the same. I hope enough people can be as bold as Judge Ann Donnelly or the 3 million women who marched or John McCain who opposed Trump’s latest executive order.

I guess really all I can do right now is continue to hope. I hope we continue to stand up for each other even if its for people who are totally different than us or people we will never meet. I hope that we can all figure out what really matters is the type of people we are and the values we hold and act on. I hope we can be the type of people who inspire others to overcome hate and can bring the generation behind us into a better, more respectful world.

I know this is all very Mean Girls-esque but I sincerely wish I had a big ass plastic crown to break apart and throw at everyone. Because really, y'all are beautiful and if Cady Heron can figure out how to apologize for being a bitch and try to make amends for it in a two hour film, I think our country can probably get through the next four years without pushing anyone in front of a bus.

(That’s a crappy Mean Girls reference; please don’t push people in front of busses)

-Be kind to one another-

also a friendly reminder this blog is for me and possible future nuggets who I want to remember that their mom was definitely not cool with all this bullshit they’ll have to learn in history class. And also for anyone who feels as shitty as I do and needs some love ✌️️

[deveharrington]

To anon, and you know who you are, lmao - the key to successful sugar babying is ROLE-PLAYING, and knowing how to distinguish your “role” from your real identity.

THEREFORE things become dangerous when one participant (or both) has no genuine identity to revert back into outside of the fantasy. 

Therefore: fantasy becomes reality!!!!!!

Disclaimer: The following are theories and not facts!!!! 

(Thank you for this, anon, I’m grateful for the very interesting topics being brought up in my inbox but I find at times that I cannot post the actual messages because I can’t fully support or even expose some of the language or some of the insinuations. But I’ll try to say my piece if it can do anything to express my gratitude for a well thought out anon message. I’d love to hear any input you have on this, anon!)

[THEORY 1] I considered this kind of arrangement with regards to David’s situation and theoretically I could see David trying to dress it up as something other than sugar babying because he doesn’t want to be held to those responsibilities of having to distinguish between role-play/reality, he doesn’t want to be held to the responsibilities of work/pay, he wants to manipulate the fantasy free of any business demands etc. And obviously to state it as sugar babying outright would make it less romantic. 

Maybe the bottom line is that being straightforward would expose David, expose the rules, expose the intentions, expose the fact that the fantasy doesn’t exist, and make him look bad, and of course these are all unacceptable to him. 

Bottom bottom line: theoretically, if we follow this line of thinking, he would be so unfair here that its unreal. Even if this were proper sugar babying there would be so many injustices (See: Theories 7 and 8) but if it is actual sugar babying behaviour that David is masking with a fantasy or with words then it is not even on the level of straight injustice. Am I making any sense (it makes sense in my head, lmao).

I will post here what theory I think is the closest to David’s situation (Theory 7):

** Maybe they gain more pleasure from the mental manipulation than the actual role-play - IN THIS CASE they have fooled you so beyond fooling that maybe you think the relationship to them is about affection, sex, love, attention, companionship but it is not even about that!!! It is about POWER!!!

For example, it seems that conquering the body is not enough for David here, he has to conquer the mind, even the person’s life trajectory. It’s just something to consider and please remember going forward that these are theories. 

[THEORY 2] I really do not recommend this line of work unless you are very very very STRONG emotionally, mentally, intellectually and very strong in your sense of IDENTITY. You have to know how to detach your emotions, you have to be very smart in reading social cues, you have to be able to stand up for yourself (therefore, know yourself first), you have to be able to barter in a professional/strong way, in fact, you have to be professional period. And who is demonstrating that they are not at all professional or literally have no idea how to be professional (hint: posting images and videos that are clear violations of privacy on social media are not professional… at all)?

Be critical of the social media portrait of sugar babying, do not fully believe the still image that cannot capture the movement of reality. Do not believe people who feel the need to constantly drop hints, justify, prove, show off, demonstrate etc. Don’t bother trying to make sense of what they are saying (social media messages are heavily manipulated), but instead try to consider why they are saying these things. 

DO believe that there is a difference between a mature woman who is aware of who they are and an easily swayed young girl with only social media images to inform her and do believe that the difference between these two females is nothing that we can see with our eyes. Again, just be critical of social media depictions of sugar babying. 

[THEORY 3] This is kind of the danger: when the women who are courted for this business are courted solely because they are young. And I’m NOT saying you can’t be young and be smart, or stand up for yourself, or know yourself. I’m also not saying that it is always young, impressionable women who are courted, but theoretically, David’s situation demonstrates that that is the case here. 

[THEORY 4] The issue is that: SOME MEN WILL NOT MAKE THE TERMS CLEAR!!! This is how a man would cheat you in this arrangement: They will not distinguish between the roleplay/persona/mask and their actual self, they will not let you distinguish yourself from your own role-play, or they may not even let you develop yourself in any way (!!!), they will not admit that to them this is all about fantasy, they will not care if your feelings start to get involved (and this would be the kiss of death for the woman’s mental strength), they will just try to cover all of the injustices/red flags by spoiling you/surprising you/overwhelming you or manipulating you emotionally, psychologically etc. 

[THEORY 5] Consider: they also take advantage of your lack of experience by spoiling you or introducing you to new things, they surprise you with new things because when you are so young, basically everything is new to you!!! 

And when you are in a state of surprise, shock, being overwhelmed etc. you are very VULNERABLE!!! You are vulnerable to suggestion, to devotion, to becoming a blind admirer. 

[THEORY 6] But to the older men who have seen it all and done it all, its just a game!!! And IF they do not make the terms clear then it is because they do not want to admit to you that they are manipulating you and gaining pleasure from surprising you, attacking you, bombarding you, and swaying your perspective, shaping your mind, shaping your arguments, shaping your words. 

[THEORY 7] The biggest danger: you lose yourself. When you take on this line of work, AND you cannot distinguish between the role and your true identity, then you must have the strength and honesty to admit that you are the enemy of women.

But usually this is the product of the man’s negligence: Again, I only apply this to when a woman in this line of work becomes unable to distinguish the role play from the reality (and usually this happens due to the man’s manipulations - it is the man’s fault!!!). 

There is no way around it but you are entitled to act however you want to act. You are free to do what you want, but please above all do not lie:

You do the disservice, the regression, you act against women. You perpetuate this idea to men that women ARE objects, actresses, for sale, for validation, that their words have no meaning except to men, that their attention has no meaning except to men, that women cannot sustain themselves etc. etc. This is why I say that you must be very very strong. 

BUT most likely the man is manipulating the situation to lead YOU to start to believe and express these things because the men gain the pleasure from THAT. 

** Maybe they gain more pleasure from the mental manipulation than the actual role-play - IN THIS CASE they have fooled you so beyond fooling that maybe you think the relationship to them is about affection, sex, love, attention, companionship but it is not even about that!!! It is about power!!!

Again, its a fine line. and i’m not saying all women in these arrangements are enemies, just the ones who buy into the regressive messages to please the man, the ones who really actually do rely on the man for everything: including their own identity. This is where things get tricky because if the woman is this weak/lost then they are open to being fooled into thinking they are in a legitimate/fair/good situation. Again, it most likely can be traced back to the man’s negligence and manipulations. 

And if the woman is made victim I don’t want to blame the victim in any way. The responsibility is that of the man if he is dominating the woman’s mind. 

It all comes back to: you have to know the difference between the role-play and the reality. And since the man is older, more in control, has all the resources, then he should be the one to take responsibility. 

[THEORY 8] BUT THERE IS ANOTHER CATCH: Even when the woman is at her most powerful in the sugar babying, there is still a degradation. Even when the terms are made clear to the woman and she understands them and is allowed her own agency and she is acting within her own agency, she is still objectifying the desperate man for money. It is still a dehumanization, an objectification. This woman is now the enemy of humans. 

At its worst, women are degraded and at its best, humans are degraded. And, it is always the woman who enacts the degradation!!!! The male provides the mentality, the woman acts it out!! Recall with David: lack of taking responsibility, lack of wanting to get their own hands dirty. 

There is no situation in which men specifically suffer or are degraded. There is no situation in which the toxic message this kind of situation sends is ever challenged. At best, both parties play along with the message. It is not a line of work of dignity. 

[THEORY 9] Here is another danger: it looks too good to be true, it looks like YOU are the one taking advantage of the male at little to no cost to yourself.

BUT THEN you have to ask: if this game is so easy, why is the man playing it to begin with? 

And here is where stark reality sets in: he is truly inadequate, he cannot relate to people his own age/at his own stage in life (and therefore, you must ask “why?”), he is extremely lonely, he is dysfunctional in real-world healthy relationships, he prefers fantasy to reality...

And the worst possible scenario: he just likes to play games. He is literally playing a game just for the sake of playing. Just playing with no mind to the emotional/mental/personal repercussions of their partner because their partner is just a component of the game like a soccer ball. 

This kind of game is not even a recognizable soccer game with two teams, a clear goal, and someone keeping score. If the situation is unfair, what the man is doing is deliberately making the game unrecognizable, so you cannot even call out which rules are being violated. 

This game looks more like one person on their own just kicking around the soccer ball for fun, playing around according to their own rules, their own time, their own preferences. And who is the player and who is the played in this situation if you have no idea who you are or what you want?