#but yeah anyway!! ty for the ask :DD

[emulation-0]

wAIT OR RITSU KAGEYAMA if you’re in a mp100 mood lol sorry for two asks feel free to ignore whichever or both wjbskwmslshdhwb

blirbos feelings (i love giving✨options✨and forgot to option in the first ask also lowkey sleepy but not sleepy tehe <3)

wait you know what (sorry am sleepy and just had a blorbo breakdown lol) what blorbo(s) are you having immense feelings about lately? who has consumed your mind?

ahh dw ab two asks :)) i hope u dont mind its a little silly

[factual-fantasy]

23 asks! Thank you!! :}} 🎀

what

Originally I added the bandages to mirror my real hands being covered in Band-Aids when I made my sona. :0 (It was due to cat scratches and dry skin don't worry-)

Now they represent my "artist hands".... and my still really dry skin XDD

Oh yeah absolutely. His crab arm is so heavy that if he falls into the water he'll sink 😬 he cant move it fast enough to help him swim to the surface.. good thing Blue Beauty is always nearby! <XD

It also takes a lot of energy to move and he deals with sore back/shoulder muscles a lot. The way the crab arm formed, its like all the muscles in his back are used to lift and operate it. When he walks around he kind'a uses it as a crutch or a third leg. His legs each take a step and then his crab arm lifts forward and clunks on the ground.

"tap tap.. CLUNK. tap tap.. CLUNK."

Despite all this though, Louis still really likes his new arm and isn't bothered much by all the hardships it brings :)

@neo-metalscottic

Thank you so much!!! :DD I'm hoping I get over this soon 🥺

As for Grim's eyes, I mention that coloring mistake in the tags of this post. It was simply a matter of me misremembering what Gengar looks like :// But I'm thinking I'll keep his white eyes anyways. He looks a lot more friendly that way :}}

THEY HAVE SPARKS?? THEY'RE INDIVIDUALS?? I thought they were just mindless clones! Man.. That makes things in the show even darker-- <XDD

And ohhh, yeah I can see it. I wonder why they decided to add him of all characters? He does have cool shades tho XDD

@holly-opal

Yeah, that's the idea. <:/ I have yet to plan out how she died tho-

@glitchhayden418

There she is!! :DD She looks great!! :}}

And thank you, I'm hoping I get well soon too 🙂💔

She never has to stop! I've decided that my characters can eat as much as they want, whenever they want, however they want, and suffer absolutely no consequences what so ever.

Cici just seems to be taking advantage of this ability more than the others <XDD

@artblock200322022

:DD Thank you!! I'm so glad you like my interpretation of the Octonauts! :}}

@possibly-astraeus

Oof. Always disappointing to hear people finding me through stolen artwork..

But yeah, you're at the source now! :} Just remember, if you find my artwork anywhere else other than here? Its stolen ://

@shallow-isles

I simply misremembered what Gengar looks like and colored his eyes wrong :/// (I talk about it in the tags of this post) But I think I'll keep them white. He just looks so friendly and soft with white eyes.. 🥺

As for Sylveon, I like to think that tying his ribbons around others like that is his way of giving them a hug :}} Since Grim is so r o u n d, there's not many places the ribbons can comfortably tie and not be in Grim's way. His ears are the perfect spot! :}

@tallchest13-blog

THANK YOU! :D WOULD YOU BE UPSET IF I GAVE THIS TEA TO CICI THO? SHE REALLY WANTS TO TRY IT :((

@aishutoon

Ohh! They look so round and cozy!! :333

@yourstrulylightstar283 (Referencing this post)

Thank you! :}}}

@circadiananomaly (24k post in question)

Thank you! I'm hoping this is all over soon as well. :'(((

@candyglumboy

Like, my Pokémon Violet team? :0 There will not be any new members no.. you can only have 6 Pokémon in your party at a time!

...Then again there's Patty.. the Hoppip that Anastasia replaced.. I miss her.. 🥺💔💔💔

I hope I feel good too.. 😔😔😔

@graminos

:DD Thank you! I'm glad you like them!! :}}}}

(Post in question)

Me reading this ask ksjnakjn 🥺🥺💞💞💞 that was all basically on point!! :DDD

@youlikwjazz004

I'm afraid I have absolutely no idea how to explain that :'(( 💔💔

The very best I can explain my art process is; "I just.. draw it. And if it doesn't feel right, I just draw it differently until it does feel right." Its all down to muscle memory and drawing what "feels" right. I don't think I'm able to explain that-- 😭😭😭 I'm very sorry! <:'(((

@askladyinwhiteandfam

Woah! What a critter! :00 ✨✨It looks great! :DD

@square-the-cyan-idiot542

WAAAHGG THANK YIU!!!- Oh crap you ok tho--

@littlelightfish (Post in question)

:DD Thank you! I'm so glad you like him!! :}}}

@beryl-shade

He'd be amazed! :00

[molathesunfish]

here is my silly!! He's like. my babygirl. he's so wet n pathetic to me (He's actually smart asf but shh he's my babygirl) he's also canonically bi and has a boyfriend and he means everything to me (Take ur time :DD ty for drawing my silly <333)

heyyyy:3 i really did take a while huh:P

usually when i draw a new character it takes some time to get the hang of the design hehe. i'm not familiar with the source material tho so i didnt come up with anything really fun to put him in lol just sticking to the ref (and the way i usually draw isnt particularly close to the official artstyle either,,,oooo) plus ive been kinda busy:P

Yeah it really will be a regular thing where i answer an ask with 5000 more words than necessary i think anyway i hope u like these<3

[squidsandthings]

BIOLOGY???!!?!??!??!?

i have never not ever seen someone on tumblr with biology listed in their interests as a fellow biology enthusiast i demand to know more tell me more please

what kind of biology specifically?? or just in general?? is it like WOAH BIOLOGY or just haha yeah biology is cool ig (because if you can’t tell already i am very much the former biology is so awesome i am not okay)

it’s entomology for me, more specifically moths, like. aaaaa a a aaaaa a aaaaa i lovmnv them… moths….. i lovembe motjs…..

so yes SPILL BIOLOGY INFO PLEASE !! AND/OR ANYTJING ELSE YOU’D LIKE TO RANT ABOUT !! I DO NOT CARE I JUST LIKE RANTING WITH SILLY PEOPLE ON THIS SILLY SITE !!!

HIHI TY SO MUCH FOR THE ASK :DD

I love biology so much. Definitely a 'WOAH BIOLOGY' more than a "it's kinda cool ig" lol. The more I learn about biology and different fields in biology the more I fall in love with it. I just think learning the ways in which life, like, works (for lack of better phrasing) I dunno it's just so cool to learn about, and think about. All the little things that go into life.

I've always had a particular fascination with human biology. And specifically Anatomy and Physiology. As a like 1st or 2nd grader my mom got me a book which was basically very simplified anatomy and physiology and It became my personality till I started middle school. I think it's so neat to learn about something and that thing be something that's happening within you right now. One of my favorite things in my biology classes is doing labs/dissections because it's so cool to feel and touch and see the things which are actively keeping you alive. Also I'm a big fan of dendritic cells (my favorite cell <3).

I would say my interest in biology has definitely broadened in recent times. Recently I've been learning more about Ornithology. I'm trying starting bird watching and I generally think birds fucking cool as hell. I actually started learning more about Ornithology because I really like pigeons. And I wanted to learn more about birds in general, so I started watching yt videos about them and googling and now I can say that I think probably too much about Birds.

Interestingly marine biology used to be interest of mine, but it's never been my main love when it comes to biology. Which is funny since most of my online accounts are related to squid.

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ANYWAY THIS IS ALL BESIDES THE POINT.

the point being this gives me and excuse to talk about my true love in life...the immune system and specifically dendritic cells. I. am. so. normal. about these antigen presenting baddies. I fuckin love them. The immune system has always been the most interesting system to me as someone who spent most of their childhood in a battle to the death with their immune system. So anyway lemme tell you about my favorite cell in the human body: Dendritic Cells/DC's

(pls note i'm by no means and expert and while I like to talk about this stuff I might get stuff wrong. I just think its all neat, but my research is mostly googling and the occasional book I find on the topic, so take all of this with a grain of salt)

So the immune system. It's pretty cool. Helps keep you alive and stuff. Roughly speaking there's two sorta categories in your immune system. Your innate and your adaptive immune system.

Innate: I like to think of the innate immune system like a safety net. Generalized, Broad, but it does what it's trying to do well. It's your first line of defense. Your skin and mucous membranes are part of this, but so are cells like macrophages which can eat pathogens. Its focused on blocking and destroying, but sometimes this doesn't work and the pathogen works too fast or goes undected for too long. Then you need something more specialized to help out.

Adaptive: This is the special ops of ur immune system. They target pathogens directly by identifying them and using that to target them. Since it needs to take the time to identify the pathogen tho, it's slower, which is why the fast but generalized innate response is also important. This part of ur immune system is also why vaccines work. Certain cells in this part of ur immune system have the ability to basically remember these past infections. So next time you get sick the adaptive response can kick in right away.

So where do dendritic cells fit into this???

IM SO GLAD YOU ASKED. So, Dendritic cells are actually kinda both part of the innate an adaptive response. How? Well, I'll tell you.

So dendritic cells hang out across ur body and act like immune system watchtowers. So when a pathogen comes strolling in looking to cause trouble ur innate immune response is going to (usually) start giving it some pushback. With things like Macrophages (that eat pathogens). But as I mentioned before the innate response while fast, is nonspecific. The adaptive response is what can target pathogens directly. But how does the adaptive response even get started? Does the innate response have something to like go tell the adaptive response "Hey this is what we're dealing with wake up and go fight it"? YES. And that's the dendritic cell.

So Dendritic cells are innate immune response cells which engulf pathogens and present them on the outside of their cell membrane. Once they've done that they can actually inform the immune response against those pathogens.

How do they do this?

Why T and B cells ofc!

So once the dendritic cell has got all the details on the pathogen it travels to ur lymph tissue and activates the adaptive immune cells there. Informing the immune response based on the antigen it's presenting.

These funky antigen presenting cells are responsible for bridging the gap between your immune responses and also help in maintaining ur immune system's memory.

alright maybe you don't see how cool they are. I get it. lemme give you an example of why they're SO important. :D

I'm going to be discussing HIV. As many people know HIV attacks the immune system. Most notably through T-Cells, but also through Dendritic Cells.

You see when the HIV virus enters the body Dendritic cells are going to usually be one of the first immune cells it interacts with. Normally the Dendritic cell would take down virus and start an adaptive immune response, however the HIV virus has a way to take over Dendritic cells using their ability to travel to cell to quickly infect the adaptive immune cells the Dendritic cell normally actives. This allows the virus to more quickly decimate an immune system. The Dendritic Cells being compromised decimating much of the adaptive immune response.

Does that example kinda highlight my point?

I hope so.

But yeah these bad boy are fucking awesome and more people should be aware of them. I think they're rad.

Hope that wasn't too long of a rant...

ty again for the ask and giving me an excuse to talk about my favorite cell. :D

[linabirb]

1, 2, 3, 5, and 18 for Dazai, Makima, Reo, Bachira and Yuno. :D Ooh, you're into Kakegurui too! :DD The same questions for Kirari and Yumeko.

hi aurora!! ty for asking! (sorry for a late reply, i was busy ><)

"Why do you like or dislike this character?"

dazai:

LITERALLY JUST THISCHJSJKSKSKD he's everywhere. every single time there's an anime guy with fluffy brown hair and brown eyes you just KNOW someone in the comments is gonna be like "omg he looks like dazai" no he doesn't.

also.. idk i just got tired of him. i did think he's funny when i first got into bsd (i was 13-14 so you didn't have to do much for me to think you're funny) but now everything about his behavior is so. ugh. it's like okay!! you're a walking red flag!! not in a fun way!!

i still think he's a well-written character though. just not my type.

makima: i can just say that i'm into dominant women honestly her design is so cool!! i have her plushie right next to me rn. she's staring into my soul. she's a really cool and well-written character and i don't know, there's just something about her that still makes you (me.) trust her even though you know she's the villain here. also i really love characters who do horrible, horrible things but they believe that there is no other way and they believe they're doing the right thing. something about her is also weirdly comforting to me but we're not gonna unpack that right now that moment in the manga when she said that denji can just rely on her and he doesn't have to do anything. that felt personal to me. also the fact that in the end she just needed a hug and needed someone to love her.. idk, it's probably cheesy, but i found it heartbreaking.

reo: HE'S JUST LIKE ME FR!!! it's pretty much impossible for me to talk about reo without oversharing stuff so i'm just gonna say that. well. i know what it's like to be a sheltered kid who doesn't even know what they want from life but when they finally start to realize what they probably want, they get hit with that "nah don't do that" and also his relationship with nagi is so... HHHHHHH been there. done that. know what it's like. i was literally going "BABY NO. NO DON'T DO THAT IT'S ONLY GONNA HURT YOU MORE" even though i do like this ship djdksks. anyway yeah his character is very realistic, it was so painful for me to read the part where nagi was like "nvm i need you actually" and he said that exactly when reo started to move on...

bachira: i actually didn't like him that much at first because i'm usually not a fan of characters who.. like. have this "weird and goofy" kind of personality, i just find them kinda exhausting, but bachira's character actually turned out to be much deeper than i expected and i find him very relatable as well. also most of the time he felt like the most normal character to me HSJSJKAKDK

yuno: SHE IS SO. *falls on the floor and starts sobbing* i'm not usually a fan of characters who are like.. very fun and cheerful on the outside, but they're actually suffering (and i have. so many ocs like that. ironic, isn't it) because most of the time it's either written kinda poorly, doesn't feel relatable, or the fandom just boils their character down to that one trait, but yuno's character felt very refreshing to me, because her t1 personality already felt kinda fake and even es mentioned that she doesn't have to pretend around them and when yuno really does stop pretending, like. it's so cool because at the same time she changed a lot, but you know that she actually hasn't changed at all and she's always been like that. there always were signs that yuno is actually colder (haha get it) than she acts so it isn't surprising for her to act this way in t2 and it doesn't feel too drastic. also her wanting to be seen as an adult and wanting people to stop coming up with sympathetic motives for her is so.. it's so good.

kirari: hmmm i actually don't really have a strong opinion about her! she's cool! but i like her design a lot! her hairstyle, her eyes, her iconic lipstick, she's so pretty!

yumeko: YUMEKO JABAMI THE WOMAN THAT YOU AREEEEE... the crush i had on this girl when i was younger was so. shsdjasksksk. i know i just said i don't really like "weird" characters but yumeko is so unhinged, it's so fun to watch! i really like kakegurui exactly because of how it just. lets women do wild things and be in the center of attention and all. i like how at the same time it's hinted that her character is much deeper than it seems, but also she just REALLY likes gambling!

"Favorite canon thing about this character?"

dazai: probably not really a "canon" thing but i think his bsd wan design is cute :3

makima: SHE'S SUCH A GOOD MANIPULATOR IT DRIVES ME INSANE /pos

reo: i'll just put this here.

bachira: HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS MOM IS SO. 🥹🥹🥹🥺🥺🥺🥺

yuno: her answers to the interrogation questions are always so funny like you just know the girl is gonna deliver. "can you speak other languages?" "i can't speak english!" <- written in english. "can you tell us about your family-" "I ALREADY TOLD YOU I DON'T HAVE A FATHER"

kirari: that one scene with her and sayaka falling from that tower has changed me as a person forever

yumeko: she takes gambling so seriously, it's both cute and terrifying jdkdksks her relationship with midari is so funny 😭😭

"Least favorite canon thing about this character?"

dazai: his. uh. his personality in general jskslals SORRY IF HE WAS REAL I WOULD'VE PUNCHED HIM IN THE FACE ALREADY

makima: hmm don't think i have one

reo: it's like. at the same time it's basically my fav canon thing but sometimes i'm like "dude. please let nagi go. i promise you're gonna be fine. he's gonna be fine. guys. guys please"

bachira: don't really have one! good for you king

yuno: m-maybe the abortion reveal was too early?.. it's like, at the same time it fits her character, but i really feel like it was a bit rushed. (well if it really is true and it doesn't turn out that her murder actually was different) also GIRL WHO SAYS "uhh yeah that's probably murder". PROBABLY???

kirari: at the same time i like her "way too powerful student council president" status, but sometimes it feels like. too extra for me jdkdlsls

yumeko: sometimes i forget that her main motivation is to play a game with kirari, but then i remember and kinda.. get disappointed.. like girl what about simply having fun and vibing. her character does NOT need a goal!! she's perfect WITHOUT any motivation!!

"What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?"

my brain goes empty when it comes to music I'M SORRYDJDKSDLDL

"How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?"

dazai: not really "admire", but i think his dynamic with atsushi is cute.

makima: .. i don't remember her interacting with anyone except denji and some other characters HSJSKSLSL

reo: .. again DOES HE EVEN HAVE ANY IMPORTANT DYNAMICS WITH OTHER CHARACTERS. NOT COUNTING NAGI.

bachira: his relationship with nagi and isagi is neat :)

yuno: her relationship with kazui.. much to think about..

kirari: her relationship with sayaka! i don't ship them but i think their dynamic is really interesting.

yumeko: i'm going to say something controversial but. i think her dynamic with suzui is actually kinda cute?? again i don't ship them but it's. it's wholesome :)

[bitethetablet]

i accidentally unfollowed you while trying to send this. anyways i wanted to ask if i can put your au!aimsey "dude can" drawing in my pinned post with credit (like an @/your user? i don't know what you'd like for credit) i just think it's a really good image

yeah sure go for it!! just put my username, ty!! :DD

[karlsjackbox]

anything | p!irl!sbi x brazilian!gn!reader

May i ask for a brazilian reader with sbi ? Platonic, like, I'm brazilian and stuff isn't looking too good here, and i needed a pick me up if that's okay! If you feel like that's too heavy, maybe a brazilian reader who's insecure about their accent? Also may i be the ✨ anon? I was the one who complimented your pronouns before jdnwndnw

ofc u can be the ✨ anon :DD ty for the pronoun complement again >.< i tried my hardest with this but sorry if i mess anything up D: i made it irl! where ur a little older than tommy , age not rlly specified , and u met sbi thru tommy !! <3 also can i ask ur prns ? i dont want to misgender u <3

also this is fucking awful im sorry i needed 2 post >.<

> summary: reader is feeling insecure about their accent, sbi picks up quickly and tries to help them!

> type: hurt/comfort

> warnings: swears i think ? self doubt

> irl!

> word count: 531

sitting at their desk, y/n pulled their knees to their chest with a sigh. they rested their forehead against the top of their knees, angrily chewing on their lip to pull their thoughts away from the day. discord notifications rang through their headphones, which were discarded on top of the desk the night before. the noise was enough to make y/n slam their hands onto the desk, opening discord to see tommy spamming one of the many group chats.

tommy: y/n

tommy: y/n

tommy: y/n

tommy: y/n

y/n: dude what the fuck do u want.

tommy: rela x dude!!!

tommy: join vc plz

tommy: plz

Ph1lza: Tommy leave them alone

tommy: no

sigh puffing from y/n's chest, they pulled the headphones over their ears. opening the vc and taking a deep breath in, y/n joined at was met with tommy and wilbur bickering.

"tommy shut up. tommy shut up. tommy shut up." wilbur repeated, voice loud and barely powering over tommy.

"i'm just saying that we are like brothers and you are a liar!" tommy yelled back, quickly getting reprimanded by his mother. "hullloooo." techno finally greeted y/n, breaking the argument.

"Y/N!!" tommy and wilbur yelled at the same time, causing another mini-fight about them being like brothers.

"hi mate," phil chuckled, water bottle clicking. "anyway. how are you y/n?" he prodded carefully, keyboard clicking through y/n's headphones. y/n let out a shaky sigh, trying to fight off the days heaviness on their shoulders.

"nothing, just some school stuff that sucked." y/n lied easily, rubbing their temples. "y/nnnnnn, will you play some minecraft with me?" tommy questioned, starting to type as well.

"i don't know tommy, i have a lot of work and --"

"PLEASEEEEEE!" he begged loudly, mic glitching. wincing, y/n rolled their eyes and sighed.

"alright. get onto hypixel."

soon, tommy, y/n, techo and wilbur were all on hypixel. phil narrated in the background as tommy screen shared, the group laughing as tommy and wilbur continuously fell on every game they played.

"y/n? can i steal you for a sec?" wilbur asked, pulling y/n into a different vc. "what's up wil?" y/n asked, fingers wrapping around their water bottle to soothe their vocal chords.

"are you.. okay? we all noticed you were kinda quiet at the beginning of the call and we wanted to make sure you were okay." wilbur asked, carefully dodging words. y/n froze, eyebrows furrowing.

"yeah, i guess." y/n spoke up after a moment. "just.. is my accent like, annoying? be completely honest, please. i trust you."

wilbur let out a scoff, shuffling in his office chair. "y/n, your accent is far from annoying. trust me. i happen to rather like your accent, much preferred over mine or maybe even tommy's. its on a nice level like philza minecrafts, definitely better than that bloke technoblade." he teased, y/n letting out a small grin.

"i think your accent is lovely, y/n. why don't we get back to the call, yeah?" wilbur asked, y/n humming in agreement.

"of course. thank you, wilbur."

[everybodyscupoftea]

the breakup

pike jj x reader (ft. cody, tyler, and zach)

the long awaited moment :)

warnings: cursing, light editing

Seeing one of his best friends thriving with a guy, a guy who’d fully replaced him in her life, really fucking hurt JJ. He was sitting in his room one afternoon, door shut, listening to the whole group of them bickering over what movie to watch. Brooke was sitting at his desk, typing something on her laptop, JJ couldn’t remember what, and he couldn’t help but notice that when Brooke was over, he had to keep his door shut.

He wasn’t sure if it was something he did intentionally or just reflexively. He knew Brooke wasn’t welcome, hell, Brooke knew she wasn’t welcome. The damage had been done and there was no replacing the bitterness the others felt toward her.

JJ wasn’t an idiot, he saw how fucked up the way Brooke treated his friends was. He noticed her cruel remarks behind her friends’ backs, and it made him wonder exactly what she said when he wasn’t around. 

It hadn’t always been like that, at first, Brooke was sweet, wanting to meet his friends and get along with them. They were standoffish first, and maybe that’s the reason JJ was hesitant to give it up. Technically, he had the moral high ground here.

Plus, Brooke was an excellent distraction. She was attractive, she liked him, and she was always willing to hang out, great for helping him avoid addressing his true feelings and why he felt so hurt about Zach.

He really thought it would get better after the talk he had with her. She crashed their anniversary, and that was admittedly not his best move, but they talked it out and she agreed to be less confrontational and more friendly. Which backfired the second the boys found out he was still dating her. They’d been pissed.

JJ often thought about Cody’s hissed, “You finally realize how she treats us but refuse to break up with her, I see where your priorities really lie.” It didn’t seem fair. Why should he be miserable and alone just because they didn’t like the girl he was dating.

What he was failing to realize, or maybe he had deep down but was avoiding it, was that he’d get his friends back, he wouldn’t be alone. Sure they’d make him grovel, and he’d probably have to pay for a lot of lunches and dinners before they fully forgave him, but he’d never be alone.

Until he realized that, though, he would. JJ would never really get his friends back as long as Brooke was involved, and if Brooke wasn’t out of the picture soon, he’d really damage the relationship beyond repair. Tyler words echoed frequently, “If you choose Brooke over your best friends, the ones here for you since day one, you’re not the guy I thought you were.”

-

Zach was getting ready to head to the fieldhouse, zipping up his team jacket in your room before he had to head out, and he gently suggested, “Maybe you should invite JJ to the game.” 

Immediately you were shaking your head, “Absolutely not, this game is important to you, I know pro scouts are going to be there. I don’t want to ruin it.”

He smiled softly, “I just want you to be happy.”

“And I want you to be supported without distraction. Cody, Tyler, and I will be there, front row, cheering you on.”

Zach bent down to kiss your forehead, “Fine, but the scouts aren’t even there for me, I’m not a senior yet.”

“But they’ll notice you, I’m sure of that.”

With a shrug, he inhaled deeply, “Maybe, but it’s not my place yet.”

Shoving him gently toward the door, you waved, a proud smile on your face, “Knock ‘em dead, tiger.”

“Love you,” he answered, wiggling his fingers in a wave goodbye.

“Love you more,” you responded, not letting him get the last word as the door swung shut behind him.

When it was finally time for you to head to the field, you were pretty sure you were more nervous than Zach was. Rubbing your thighs in an anxious gesture, you sighed, ready for the game to be over.

Tyler grabbed both of your hands, stopping you and catching your attention. He squeezed them with a smile, “Zach will be fine.”

“I know, I’m not sure why I’m so nervous.”

“Because you want him to succeed. That’s love, bitch.”

You snorted, “Yeah, I suppose it is.”

“Now, stop stressing, How many times has he told you you’re his good luck charm?”

“Many.”

“Mhmm. And you’re here, so everything will be fine.”

And Tyler was right of course, Zach played an excellent game, one of his best of the season. You were bouncing up and down, waiting for him to finish showering and find you in the parking lot. Cody and Tyler had driven, but you wanted to ride back with Zach.

He grinned widely when he saw you waiting by his truck and sped up. You ran the last few steps when he got close, launching yourself into his arms. Zach’s happy laugh made you smile as he spun you around a few times before setting you down.

“Holy shit, Zach. You were on fire today.”

He blushed, “Well, what can I say, I was trying to impress my favorite girl in the stands.”

Rolling your eyes, you tugged him down by his jacket to kiss him. Zach immediately returned the kiss, and when you broke away, you whispered, “Cheesy,” to him with a soft smile.

“Only for you.”

-

Cody and Tyler got back to the dorm and were a little shocked to see JJ sitting at his desk, door wide open. Thankfully Brooke was nowhere in sight. He glanced up to see them standing there and took in their Duke baseball sweatshirts, a dark look crossing his face.

“So, baseball fans now, huh?”

“Gotta support our bro,” Tyler answered, unfazed.

“Thought you liked basketball.”

He shrugged, “I’m multifaceted. I know you wouldn’t understand.”

JJ huffed indignantly, “At least I’m not bending over backwards for a dude I barely know.”

“You barely know him, sure, but we’re friends with him.”

“He’ll drop you so fast if he goes pro. And that’s even if he’s good enough to go pro, which I doubt.”

Cody and Tyler weren’t fully aware of Zach’s situation and the lack of real support he received from his family, but they’d noticed you make a point to remind him how well he’s doing and how good he is. It didn’t sit well with them that a guy who’d never played baseball competitively in his life was criticizing their friend.

“Have you ever seen him play?” Tyler asked incredulously, “he’s so good so you can fuck off with that nonsense.”

JJ rolled his eyes, “Bias.”

And this time Zach wasn’t there. Tyler felt the rage running through him at JJ’s dismissal and before Cody realized what was happening, he was striding across the room. JJ’s eyes widened and he started to back away, but it was too late.

Tyler swung, landing a solid hit right on his mouth, busting his lip instantly. JJ’s hand flew to his shirt, pulling it over his bleeding lip. Tyler was breathing heavily, hand still clenched by his side in case he needed to hit again.

“Keep his name out of your fucking mouth, Maybank,” and then he was gone.

Cody stared wide eyed at JJ before turning and running to their room to shut the door. Tyler was pacing, running a hand repeatedly through his hair, and he looked up when Cody locked the door. He smiled, “How’d that feel.”

“Really good,” Tyler admitted, “very cathartic. You should try.”

Cody snorted, “I’ll let you handle the hitting, Rocky. I’d probably break my knuckles.”

Tyler laughed and the tension broke. He sniffed and sat on his bed, “Should we sent it in the groupchat or keep it to ourselves.”

“I’m willing to take this one to the grave if you are.”

Spitting in his hand, Cody offered it to Tyler. In turn, Tyler spit in his hand and they shook. No one would ever know.

-

Except you knew immediately when you saw JJ’s busted lip. Your eyebrows shot up and you glanced at the two boys who were smiling innocently and shook your head, “I won’t ask.”

“Thanks,” Tyler responded, “but trust me, you would’ve hit him too.”

Which you quickly interpreted that he’d said something insulting about either you or Zach. Exhaling once, you nodded, “Fine, I’m not here for him anyway, I’m here to remind the two of you about the baseball party we’re leaving for in ten minutes that you clearly forgot about.”

“Oh fuck,” Cody winced, “that’s tonight?”

“It is, you guys still coming?”

“Absolutely,” Tyler answered, “let me get dressed real quick.”

You sat on his bed while the two of them scrambled to find something acceptable to wear. It took Tyler changing his shirt for the fourth time for you to speak up, “Hey, y’all look fine. Let’s go.”

He rolled his eyes, “If we’re showing up with the prettiest girl at the party, we have to look the part.”

“Oh hush,” you pushed him away, “you looked really good in the first sweater.”

Tyler laughed, “You couldn’t have told me that before I changed four times?”

“Nope, now come on, we’re going to lose Cody if we don’t get moving soon.”

He sighed and pulled the first sweater back on before grabbing a pair of shoes and heading to the door where Cody had been standing for the past 10 minutes. Cody looked up from his phone, “Don’t you look hot, Ty.”

Tyler rolled his eyes, “Shut up.”

Cody reached over to ruffle his hair, Tyler squawking indignantly when he did so, slapping his hand away. You sighed, stepping between them, “Children, let’s go.” 

“You’re driving?” Cody asked as the three of you got on the elevator.

“Yep, my turn to DD.”

“Shotgun,” Tyler called.

“Hey,” Cody protested, “you can’t call it if you can’t even see the car.”

“I can and I did. Fuck you.”

Sighing again, you told Tyler, “We both know that’s not how it works.”

With a shit eating grin, he answered, “I know. I’m messing with him since he fucked up my hair.”

“Hair looks great,” Cody reassured, “as always.”

-

JJ was completely unsure how Brooke managed to pull an invite to a baseball party. They were notoriously exclusive on campus, not letting many people without a direct connection to a player in. But she had.

“How the fuck did you manage this?” he finally muttered as they walked to the door.

She sighed and rolled her eyes, “Don’t you listen to me when I talk? My cousin plays.”

So apparently he didn’t listen to her much. She showed the guy at the door the text from her cousin and they walked right in, music playing loudly through the house. Brooke grabbed his hand and dragged him toward the kitchen, and JJ looked around, not recognizing a single person.

And then Zach came downstairs. JJ’s gut twisted and he looked away, trying to avoid the boy who likely hated him. Brooke noticed and huffed, “Literally he’s so harmless, babe. Remember he stopped Tyler from punching you.”

Which was true. Zach caught his eye and nodded at him in greeting. JJ nodded back and kept moving until they reached the drinks. He drove, so Brooke grabbed a drink and he grabbed a water bottle out of the cooler shoved in the corner.

Brooke gave him a weird look, “Not even one beer?”

“Not really feeling up to a party.”

She rolled her eyes, “Then why the fuck did you come?”

JJ furrowed his eyebrows in confusion, “Because I’m your boyfriend.”

“So you think I need supervision? You don’t trust me?”

“I, no-” he tried to come up with an acceptable answer, “it’s just in case something goes wrong to keep you safe. And I’m always your plus one, figured I could just come to drive.”

With a scoff, she answered, “Could’ve just dropped me off. Now you’re going to keep me from having fun, stick in the mud.”

JJ was a little hurt, but he chose not to answer, not wanting to start yet another fight with her. He nodded and let it go. Brooke rolled her eyes again and JJ couldn’t help but take note that she’d been doing it a lot lately. He wasn’t sure what that meant.

That’s when he saw you, Cody, and Tyler walk through the door, not even needing to show the guy an invite. The player at the door yelled out, “Davis, your girl’s here!” JJ wasn’t sure how he heard over the music, but Zach’s head whipped around and a grin lit up his face.

You waved and made your way to the crowd to kiss him. JJ watched, a weird feeling in his chest, and rubbed over his heart when your group didn’t even look his way. He heard a rushing sound in his ears and went lightheaded. Fuck, he realized, the three of you wanted nothing to do with him.

The startling realization left him cold as Brooke waved at who he assumed was her cousin. He walked over and greeted JJ, “Sup, dude. Nice to meet you. Andy right?”

JJ froze, head whipping over to stare at Brooke. She had gone pale and his jaw dropped, “Nah, dude, I’m JJ.”

The boy’s eyes narrowed and he frowned, “I- my bad. Must’ve gotten you confused with someone else.” Before JJ could respond, he was gone, clearly not ready to face the fallout of his careless words.

Clearing his throat in an attempt to get rid of the knot, JJ turned to Brooke, “Who’s Andy?”

“He’s my partner in geology, you know that.”

“Oh, the boy who flirts with you all the time?”

Her smile looked forced, “That’s the one.”

“Mhmm, and why did your cousin seem to know his name but not mine?”

“I’ve complained about him and his flirting before to my cousin.”

“Right,” JJ wasn’t sure if he should believe her or not, “I think we need to have a talk.” Standing up, he pulled her behind him to the bathroom downstairs. Not wanting to make a scene in the living room.

Brooke’s eyes narrowed, “You’re going to do this right now, embarrass me at this party?”

“Are you cheating on me?” he asked once the door was finally shut.

“No! I’m not that kind of person,” she defended.

JJ scoffed, “Why don’t I believe you right now?”

Hands thrown up, she yelled, “I don’t know, but that’s a you problem.”

“Being cheated on is not a me problem. It’s a you being an asshole problem.”

“JJ,” she said lowly, “I didn’t cheat on you, honestly. I-” she paused, biting her lip, “I thought about it, but nothing happened.”

Blinking a few times to process, JJ managed to croak out a disbelieving, “What?”

Brooke, clearly fed up, scoffed, “Don’t act like that, do you even realize how painful it is to watch your boyfriend pine after a girl who clearly knows him better. God she won’t even give you the time of day that way and you still watch her.”

His eyebrows shot up, “That’s so untrue. I’ve almost ruined those relationships forever because I stood up for you.”

“Thanks for doing the bare minimum,” she said, rolling her eyes.

“No,” he pointed at her, “you don’t get to take the moral high ground when you literally considered cheating on me.”

“But I didn’t!”

“Brooke, you didn’t physically cheat on me, but by considering it, I’d say you did.”

“Come on,” she started, fully turning to face him, “we can work through this.”

“I think,” he paused, trying to stop the shake in his voice, “I think we should break up.”

Brooke shook her head fiercely, “No, no. We’re solid, we can get through this.”

JJ sighed, running a hand through his hair, “Come on, Brooke, the writing’s been on the wall for weeks.”

She couldn’t argue with that. Before she could respond someone was pulling at the doorknob trying to get in. JJ cleared his throat, “Occupied.”

“Hurry up!” a familiar voice yelled, and he heard your giggle.

Brooke’s eyes hardened and she threw the door open, startling you, “Fuck you and fuck your stupid friends.”

You blinked, stunned, and turned to JJ for an explanation. He looked sad and resigned, “Sorry. She’s a little upset.”

Zach caught his eye and looked sympathetic, “Sorry man, I know you liked her.”

Cody’s head swiveled back and forth between him and Zach, “Wait what, what’s going on?”

Your jaw dropped as you put the pieces together, “Holy fuck, you did it?”

“Did what?” Cody whined, tired of being left out.

“I, uh, I broke up with her,” JJ answered, voice a little shaky.

Cody beamed and grabbed him by the shoulders, shaking a little, “Tonight we drink to celebrate!” 

You laughed, leaning back into Zach, “Congrats, Maybank. Knew you could do it.”

Tyler reached out, offering his fist for JJ to bump for the first time in months. JJ did cautiously before stepping fully out of the bathroom, following Cody and Tyler to the kitchen.

He felt light and heavy at the same time, and Brooke was nowhere to be found. For the first time in a while, he felt like he could breathe.

You and Zach joined the three of them soon after and JJ relished the feeling. Turns out he’d really missed you guys.

[mallowstep]

Can I ask for hypokits between Jay & Kestrelflight and Lion & Berry, with Berry and Jay being trans? I find cat genetics really interesting and the fact that you can Just Do It blows my mind

yes, you can. okay: i realize i've never said this publicly, but for Reasons, i only do one set of hypokits/ask (mostly i'd never answer them if i accepted more than one), so i'll do jay&kestrel here, and then kindly ask you to resend the lion/berry ones. ty for ur patience <3

and yes, yes cat genetics are fascinating. i'm planning on...well, not sure when, but i'd like to Expand my alleles and such to include some fun things, so next time i have some free time and can sit down with a pile of resources? yeah.

alright, on topic: jay and kestrel.

here's my jay info from when i last did him, altho i'm changing him carrying cinnamon to him carrying chocolate because it makes more sense, and i won't be able to "force" a full set of options here anyway.

Bb/Dd/Ii/wbwb/Aa/tata/spsp/tbtb/Ll/wsws/o/CC

(he's not tortie so it doesn't matter if he's carrying the kits. when it comes to trans relationships it only Really matters if cats are tortie or mixed between ginger and not ginger. i.e., two grey cats are always going to have kits that are black, brown, cinnamon, or associated dilutes and etc., two ginger cats will always be ginger or cream, etc. that's just a quick genetics comment for u xd.)

and for kestrelflight...

urgh okay so i could handwave and say he has vitiligo (which wow! i've finally learned to spell bc in my head it sounds like "vigil-ato," rhymes with "gelato," because the part of my brain that does letters -> sounds is, scientifically speaking, broken), but i want some variety so...

Bb/Dd/Ii/wbwb/aa/tata/Spsp/tmtb/Ll/Wsws/o/CC

kestrel could carry cinnamon instead of chocolate but it doesn't matter and it saves me from writing out an extra character. i didn't give him ticked tabby because of tabby breakthrough stuff and trying to support the idea of spots. i'd give him two copies but i want there to be kit variety so.

alright! options:

BB, Bb (black); bb (chocolate)

DD, Dd (not dilute); dd (dilute)

II, Ii (silver); ii (not silver)

wbwb (no wide bands)

Aa (tabby); aa (solid)

tata (not ticked tabby)

Spsp (spotted); spsp (not spotted)

tmtb (mackerel); tbtb (classic)

LL, Ll (short hair); ll (long hair)

Wsws (<50% white); wsws (no white)

o, oo (black)

CC (no albino)

and examples...

k1: lilac smoke she-cat with long fur (bb/dd/Ii/wbwb/aa/tata/spsp/tbtb/ll/wsws/oo/CC)

k2: black silver spotted tabby tom (BB/Dd/II/wbwb/Aa/tata/Spsp/tmtb/Ll/wsws/o/CC)

k3: blue and white she-cat with long fur (Bb/dd/ii/wbwb/aa/tata/Spsp/tbtb/ll/Wsws/oo/CC)

k4: black and white smoke she-cat with long fur (BB/Dd/Ii/wbwb/aa/tata/spsp/tbtb/ll/Wsws/oo/CC)

and example pics...

okay i got distracted because i was pointed to a new resource for cat genetics and ended up buying a book and. well. it's a long story. but y'know. i was hoping for new cat photos but unfortunately it seems not but still. new book! very exciting. do i have time to read it? not really. sigh.

k1: lilac smoke (pretty bb)

k2: black silver spotted tabby

k3: blue bicolour

k4: black bicolour (usually i do prefer coat colours to patterns when it comes to choosing photos but i think we've seen enough black smoke cats that i can be forgiven for my bias of black and white cats)

[avirams]

hi again :D can i ask for mia fey (again yes-) for the ace attorney minievent? let me know if you want me to pick another character!

yes yes ofc,,!!! mias awesome, so you dont have to send in any other characters unless you want to :))

mia is GREAT. shes honestly one of my favourites!! actually everyones my favourite she just is too fkkdkgkf

shes a super capable awesome mentor who has a lot to share. and i especially enjoyed her flashback cases, because it really showed that everyone starts somewhere and that even the strongest people cant handle everything :((

for someone who got killed off so early, she gets a lot of awesome development and i think thats so cool of her!! shes always coming in when we need her the most.

only wishes? i kinda do wish she didnt have to die :(( her death works well for plot and stuff, but i do feel bad for maya and phoenix and everyone. also, intellectually attracted!!! capcom has the WORST habit of leaving us hanging gjdkmgmg im really curious on how she knew lana in law school or whatever???

anyway yeah 10/10 mias the best :DD ty for the ask!!

[luminous-faerie]

45, 50, and 51 :DD (i hope u have a lovely day/evening btw uwu) -kk

ahhhh ty for the ask kk, u too <33

45. least favourite colour?

really bright orange - idk it has weird vibes

50. talk about something you're passionate about

REEEEEEEE here's the marisa coulter talk nobody needs to hear heheheh. ok sO marisa coulter, the "cesspit of moral filth," "pure poisonous toxic malice" and mother of all evil is my favourite character in his dark materials. she's sexy and evil (sort of kills kids but we don't talk about that) uhh and pretty much insane as a good villain should be 😌 skdhskdslshsk in the tv show she's played by ruth wilson skdjskdnjsjdjs and she has the best outfits ever shoutout to the turquoise shirt we saw for like three mins i havent forgotten u and she just *chef's kiss* she is ICONIC and spends like half the time telling men that they are failures lol. also she kills ppl which is v sexy of her. the script writers for s2 really said we're gonna make ruth wilson walk down so many corridors like a girlboss bc shes not in the second book very much lmao. uhmm yEAH so anyways i love marisa coulter and ruth wilson <33

51. what are some of your hobbies?

reading, writing, drawing and playing my guitar :)

ask me questions :))

[awfully-sadistic]

{{ Book Talk: Knight

It’s been a long time since I put anything up here. In the time I haven’t been writing, I’ve read at least... one book on my own. I’m not counting the stories I’m currently reading with Dot (WHICH IS STELLAR BY THE WAY, what I look forward to). I’ve read one book and It was Kay Hooper’s Hold Back the Dark  and I do like them, the Bishop series. But we’re not talking about her books today.

Nope. I’m here to talk about one I randomly picked up because, why... I don’t recall how I got on this author’s page. Kristen Ashley. I think I was looking through the romance genre on the novel site I use and one of her books was called Mystery Man (Dream Man #1). To me, that sounds cliche and all that other stuff. I just wanted to know how many of these Dream Man books there were and then I ran into this.

Lol, why does she not have covers for these books. As you can see, I wasn’t given much. I just clicked on the first book to see if there was a synopsis on what this chick was about. Opening it got me nothing either. There wasn’t even a summary.

So, I started to read a little of it. And, I have no idea. I can’t explain why I couldn’t put it down. I just had to keep reading it. I didn’t even like it. The premise was the average, poor girl gets her Sugar Daddy but he’s mysterious and cool and dangerous and owns a club and she has her girls and... blah, blah, blah. I didn’t like it, the aspects of BDSM seemed forced despite Knight (yeah, that’s this guy’s name. His mom named him Knight because she needed one. That’s what he told Anya, the main chick) being a Dominant. A Daddy Dominant but NOT a Daddy Dominant in the DD/lg sense. He just LIKES being called Daddy. He just likes control. Cue, normal control issues and shit, tragic background, blah blah blah.

Not saying he’s abusing or anything. He takes care of Anya, buys her the world, actually takes care of her friends, demands that she stop wearing her cheap shit, buys her a car, takes care of her building when she didn’t have locks on her door, bought her a new phone that cost a grand. But there’s... just something that I can’t... put my finger on that he’s not attractive.

I think it’s the way he speaks. I don’t mind people cussing at all, whatsoever. It has never really pulled me out of books or even in conversations, except when people do it in weird ways. Try hard or “tough” ways. But the way Knight curses, for how fine he liked to dress himself or present himself and so forth, he seemed like he would have been better speaking refined. Not throwing in a “fucking” EVERY. OTHER. FUCKING. WORD.

It made the dialogue clumsy. Like, you’re trying to be bad, you curse. Knight generously sprinkled his goddamn sentences with swear words like this fucker needed to dump a shitload of salt on it. It wasn’t even flavorful text. It was just... cringy. I cringed every time Knight spoke and that wasn’t due to secondhand embarrassment. Like, I hated to hear him speak in his dialogue. It sounded so try-hard. So immature.

Not from someone who was trying to be a Dominant specializing in control. Simply, control. Let me see... that, I can understand. There were some things I didn’t like but that was my specific flavor. I don’t like STRICTLY controlling Dominants. I hate being told what to do. I can understand some of the shit he was controlling, that it fits in with some parts of the Lifestyle. Some submissives like that and prefer to hand their life over; reminds me of what Dot says. I don’t think I had a problem with him (or rather the author) acting out the BDSM acts or scenes. I thought, for as far as it goes in literature, it... was normal. I mean, what was expected. 

But they never really specified whether Anya was a submissive or a little or a sugar baby. It’s not important but why put the emphasis on this kind of relationship but not be clear about what it was? Was the reader supposed to guess that? I don’t even know what type of Dominant Knight was supposed to be; I mean, there doesn’t need to be a type but again, why put the emphasis on Vivica (one of Anya’s girls) making a big reveal that she was a submissive. Though, that was pretty cute. I like the scenes with Vivica. She had everything in control in her life, was fiercely independent, but she wanted to hand the reigns over at the end of the day and be taken care of. Again, I understand that because it reminds me of Dot. It was actually nice that Knight set her up with one of his Dominant employees (Rasheen or Rashaan or something like that) and it was exactly what Vivica needed; I got more entertainment hearing about Vivica’s bits than Knight and Anya.

Hmm. I think other than the simpleness of this entire plot, taking out the elements of BDSM... it’s... just boring. Knight was kind of hard to follow because I couldn’t take him serious cursing all the time and Anya was... simply Anya. I mean, for a heroine, she was... just a normal young woman trying to get by in life. Poor upbringing, shitty relative who took care of her and she moved out on her own as soon as she was able. She put herself through school and even had a dream of owning her own salon (which Knight eventually gave her) And for a split second, I vaguely remember something else bothering me about their relationship.

Ah yeah, Knight has a temper. I mean, I get tempers. But not when they’re done in the way that Knight has control issues. I think there were a couple of times in the book where he and Anya should have spoken things through instead of the author trying to force more BDSM elements into the scene in order to have steamy sex parts.

...And if I can read through them, they’re not steamy.

I hated that aspect; there should be more talking in the Lifestyle, in relationships, period, but Knight was so adamant on things being done his way even when Anya seemed to have the right idea to be angry; he’d get angry at her for being angry. See, that’s ridiculous. Especially considering the parts where he told her that he would only tell her what was necessary considering his business life. AND WILL ONLY TELL HER THINGS WHEN 1) IT CAME UP WHEN HE WANTED IT TO or 2) WHEN THINGS WERE THROWN IN ANYA’S LAP AND HE HAD NO OTHER CHOICE BUT TO COME CLEAN.

Uh, no. 

Be honest about everything. Even that dirty little business you have on the side so it doesn’t come back and bite you in the ass and potentially ruin the relationship because you’re hiding shit and you should have been honest in the first place.

All because, he said, he didn’t want to spoil her innocence. Miss me with that shit. Fucking completely. I hated his reasoning for keeping Anya out of the loop and she was stupid as fuck for going along with it.

I get you have someone that takes care of everything with you and about you but what would have happened if Anya couldn’t have taken what Knight did on the side (basically, he handled high end escorts, giving them a place of safety when they worked. I didn’t care he did that shit but wouldn’t it have been easier to fucking come clean with it instead of your rival and ex-partner revealing it to Anya and then her having to come ask you?) It wasn’t just the subject of the secrets he was keeping but that he felt he didn’t have to tell her shit unless he wanted to. That bugs me. But then again, I expect transparency from my partner and not having him tell me about shit when I fucking ask because I FOUND OUT. Why the fuck put someone in that position. If it was a stranger, I don’t think it would be a problem to confront someone. But with my partner? If it was Jeff or even Dot, I had to confront? That shit is hard.

Like, two days later, Knight is coming up to you saying, “If the cops come here, you don’t know anything” and damn straight, I don’t know anything but also why THE FUCK ARE THE COPS KNOCKING ON OUR DOOR. It’s not just Knight’s life anymore since he pulled Anya into this shit. A relationship is not just about you anymore. It’s about two people and you shouldn’t be keeping things from each other. Even if they have nothing to do with your job; if it’s going to leak into your personal life, why the fuck would you hide it? And you can’t say it doesn’t--IT HAS. I READ THE BOOK. THE SHIT YOU DO, KNIGHT, THE STUFF YOU DON’T WANT TO TELL HER ABOUT, YOU TOLD HER ABOUT ANYWAY BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE WERE TELLING HER. SHE FOUND OUT FROM SOMEONE ELSE, WHY WASN’T IT YOU?

That is what’s stupid. That’s so stupid.

Oh man. Anyway, like I do with all the other books I finish reading, I went to Goodreads to see what others were saying. For the most part, I guess this chick has some sort of following. Never heard of her before. I haven’t read a lot of reviews but I’m on this one currently:

“From the blurb and the build-up to this book, I thought I was going to get the baddest, hottest, toughest, giving-the-middle-finger-to-society naughty boy EVER. Perhaps a Tate or Ty on steroids. Instead I got a bloke who biggest claim to badass-ness was his dominance in the bedroom and his control outside of it. Yet if it was only this I had to complain about, and the rest of the story shone, I'd still be a happy little reader. But there was so much here that disappointed me.”

1) The hero smokes!! What is this, the 60s, the 70s?? A habit like that is about as attractive as a nose-picking. Except the nose-picking is healthier.

I don’t care that he smoked; I know some people in our Family do, too. I honestly didn’t think it was too prevalent since Knight smoked in ways that was supposed to make him seem attractive, so basically, it was harmless. He was usually found on his balcony, smoking. *Shrug* Not a big deal, but I guess this chick thought it was. Some other minor things. The hero is a slut. No, truly a real, live slut. And he wears a black turtleneck, which I guess makes sense as it suits the 70s-era cigarette smoking. Also, he should take lessons from Ty and not talk so much during sex.

I have no idea what she means by slut. Knight, I guess, wasn’t a slut. Anya wasn’t one, either. If by slut she meant in the instance where Nick (Knight’s brother) was telling Anya she could have his choice of women who visit his club and then Knight basically confirming that he did, I guess...? But that’s not slut behavior? It’s just usual douche-y fuckboy material. Second, haha, Knight’s appearance made me ???? a lot because I kept thinking of a man in a bucket hat with shaggy hair and some sort of trench coat. I have NO idea where I got this image, but I kept thinking about it every time she described him. LOL. I screwed myself with that. Second, Knight did talk alot. Usual dirty talk; I cringed but then again, I always did whenever Knight opened his mouth.

I don’t know who Ty is, guessing from another book. 2) The insta-love/lust of the hero. With just one surreptitious glance at Anya as he walks into a room, he's smitten.

Actually, I think she’s wrong on this one. It was instant attraction for Anya when she noticed him walk into the penthouse she’s at; there was a big party and she noticed him almost right away. Almost everyone around him, in fact. I guess he was just supposed to be eye-catching and he was mad. It was his penthouse and his brother was throwing a party he didn’t expect. Anya wanted to go home early, her old phone didn’t work, she walked into Knight’s room to use the landline for a cab and then he gets mad at her for being in his room. He actually didn’t notice her until they were out of the penthouse and in the elevator when he actually takes a look at her. And THEN, I guess, decides she was attractive. But at the same time, there was no indication that he felt anything for her because he didn’t show and/or tell. But he did go overboard when taking her home; drove her home instead and then made a walk through to her apartment all the while getting mad that her apartment complex was a trash heap. 3) The nickname. It wouldn't be a Kristen Ashley book without a nickname. This one was Daddy. Enough said.

Like I said before, I have no idea what they were playing at with this. I would get if Anya was a sugar baby since Knight did basically everything for her and paid for all of her shit. Bought her clothes, a car, a salon. But she only ever called him Daddy in the bedroom. Never out of it. 4) The heroine is all legs, tits, ass, and big hair. I’ve only read maybe eight or nine Kristen Ashley books but in each and every one of them we have the same heroine. Physically. I get that it's nice to have women who are shapely, but it’s also nice to mix things up a bit. Can we please have a heroine who is short or I'll settle for medium height. Perhaps one with small breasts. Or one who's boy-shaped (there are women like that) with small ass and hips.

I mean, I haven’t read eight or nine Kristen Ashley books but I’d agree with her on saying Anya was supposed to be all legs, tits, ass, and big hair. I mean, I figured that’s just the usual for romance. I wasn’t too bothered by it but then again, I didn’t read eight or nine Kristen Ashley books and haven’t run into the same protagonist problems. 5) There was very little romance. Besides the fact, Anya looked good, I never got why Knight fell for her. Or what he saw in her to validate the insta-love.

This. Yeah. There wasn’t too much of romance but a lot of lust. Nothing wrong with that but there were times when I sat back all: “Why are you two together?” because it didn’t make sense to me. Knight seemed like a grade A shit stain and Anya was a cardboard cutout of other protagonists, I see. There was no wooing, no sweet words -- except out of Anya. Anya was always the one saying honey or sweetheart and would be tender while Knight would tack on a “baby” at the end of his sentences, sometimes. Oh, and SOMETIMES he would fuck her tenderly.

I also hated the fact that he kept threatening that “this is the end for us if you can’t accept this and what I do” due to his job and the secrets HE CHOSE TO KEEP FROM HER. Like, why can’t she be mad when things came to light? She wasn’t allowed to and even her best friend, Vivica, was all “Whatever he’s into, whatever anyone says about him and if it might be true, just roll with it” like... what the fuck. I don’t know what was dumber but all of it is just dumb. 6) Knight's profession.

Yeah, I said before he’s the owner of a nightclub called Slade and he has a high end escort business. His profession didn’t move me and this might just be the normie crowed crying about it because he was supposed to be “bad” -- I mean, he dealt with shady shit. Again, I didn’t bat an eye at it and he acted the big shot and shit. It was just silly, honestly.

And for some reason, everyone likes quoting this cheesy ass line of his. So, I’ll leave it here for tonight:

"Wars fought over a face like this," he murmured like he was talking to himself, my heart stopped beating and his thumbs moved lightly across my cheeks. "A man would work himself into the ground for it, go down to his knees to beg to keep it, endure torture to protect it, take a bullet for it," his eyes came to mine, "poison his brother to possess a face like this."

And that was my thoughts on Knight by Kristen Ashley.

OH YEAH, I forgot. I was honestly surprised I hadn’t seen anyone else bring this up but Knight didn’t want Anya and him to get married because it was basically too much of a hassle. When Vivica and Rash were going to get married only then did he give in A LITTLE because he thought Anya might be missing out on the experience.

He compromised in the terms of giving her a golden band and then saying he would wear one too. But they were not going to have a wedding. Just a party. And not a big one and basically said that anything celebrating a wedding was out. What the flying fuck, lmao. I get it, you don’t have to have a wedding but what the hell was this???

[chipsandwaffles]

4:52 P.M

Johnny Boy, 4:53 P.M y/n has a secret??? Coolest Guy, 4:53 P.M secret???? You, 4:54 P.M I don’t have a secret yuta is overacting Mountain Man, 4:54 P.M I’M NOT. YOU SAID SOMEONE IN NCT WAS YOUR SOULMATE. WHO IS IT

Or alternatively, NCT 127 find out your soulmate is one of them and they question you about it in your group chat.

Mountain Man, 4:52 P.M Y/N! WHO IS IT

You, 4:52 P.M don’t know what you’re talking about yuta

Mountain Man, 4:52 P.M LIAR.

Johnny Boy, 4:53 P.M y/n has a secret???

Coolest Guy, 4:53 P.M secret????

You, 4:54 P.M I don’t have a secret yuta is overacting

Mountain Man, 4:54 P.M I’M NOT. YOU SAID SOMEONE IN NCT WAS YOUR SOULMATE. WHO IS IT

Yoonoh more like…, 4:54 P.M clearly not you since you’re asking

Johnny Boy, 4:54 P.M …that was doyoung level roasting oh my god

Yoonoh more like…, 4:55 P.M I didn’t want to grab my phone so I stole jaehyun’s

Johnny Boy, 4:55 P.M nice.

Mountain Man, 4:56 P.M maybe it is me you don’t know you dodo bird fuck you you’ve never seen y/n’s mark YOU DON’T KNOW

You, 4:57 P.M ……………..okay but I only told one person that

You, 4:57 P.M MARK LEE YOU RATTED ME OUT

MARK LEE!!, 4:57 P.M You know I can’t keep secrets

Coolest Guy, 4:57 P.M true. you played yourself y/n

You, 4:58 P.M did you guys know I hate all of you?

Yoonoh more like…, 4:58 P.M clearly not since one of us is your soulmate. So then you love at least one of us

You, 4:59 P.M I especially hate you doyoung

Kim Dodumb, 5:00 P.M can we make bets on who it is? I’m betting it’s me

Yoonoh more like…, 5:00 P.M jaehyun get the fuck off my phone.

Kim Dodumb, 5:00 P.M get off my phone first

Kim Dodumb, 5:00 P.M done don’t touch my phone again.

You, 5:01 P.M Maybe I was just fucking with mark. He’s easy to tease

Coolest Guy, 5:01 P.M also true.

Mountain Man, 5:01 P.M we all know that’s bullshit. You don’t tease mark you think it’s unethical

You, 5:02 P.M ……..he’s like a puppy okay shut up yuta

Johnny Boy, 5:03 P.M so…… y/n isn’t lying????

Yoonoh more like…, 5:03 P.M Then who is it? Did you tell Mark??

You, 5:04 P.M why would I tell mark I’m not stupid

MARK LEE!!, 5:04 P.M You’re all the worst

Kim Dodumb, 5:05 P.M Let’s make bets on who it is

You, 5:05 P.M let’s not and move on from this conversation

Yoonoh more like…, 5:05 P.M bets sound more fun. I’m betting it’s me

Kim Dodumb, 5:05 P.M why would it be you of all people

Yoonoh more like…, 5:06 P.M well it’s not you

Kim Dodumb, 5:06 P.M wasn’t going to bet on myself anyways??? I’m not stupid

You, 5:06 P.M guys this conversation is stupid come on let’s go back to talking about how our days were how about that?

MARK LEE!!, 5:06 P.M I think it’s ty hyung. y/n didn’t deny it when I asked

Kim Dodumb, 5:06 P.M that was my bet as well

Mountain Man, 5:07 P.M no way no way can’t be him. It’s either me or me

Kim Dodumb, 5:07 P.M we get it yuta. You have a crush on y/n.

Johnny Boy, 5:08 P.M I think it’s Taeil hyung

Coolest Guy, 5:09 P.M aren’t you guys narrowing it down too much? There’s like twenty of us

MARK LEE!!, 5:09 P.M not only is he bad at science but basic math as well…

Coolest Guy, 5:09 P.M says the one who copies off of my homework when we’re not even in the same grade

Yoonoh more like…, 5:09 P.M wrecked lol

You, 5:10 P.M okay see this is why I didn’t want to tell anyone ;;;;;

Kim Dodumb, 5:10 P.M we’d fine out eventually though since it’s one of us

Kim Dodumb, 5:10 P.M Tell us the year he was born and we’ll stop asking about it

You, 5:10 P.M liar that never happens you keep asking questions every time

Coolest Guy, 5:11 P.M Twenty questions let’s go.

You, 5:11 P.M no.

Coolest Guy, 5:11 P.M please? TT_TT

Coolest Guy, 5:12 P.M y/n please….. we just want to know more about our friend

Coolest Guy, 5:15 P.M TTTTTTTTTTTT_TTTTTTTTTTTT

You, 5:15 P.M …..UGH FINE.

You, 5:15 P.M twenty questions go.

Coolest Guy, 5:15 P.M is he older than me?

You, 5:16 P.M yes.

Johnny Boy, 5:16 P.M younger than Taeil hyung?

You, 5:16 P.M yes

Mountain man, 5:16 P.M Is it me?

You, 5:16 P.M no

Yoonoh more like…, 5:17 P.M is he handsome?

You, 5:17 P.M …yes? You’re all handsome though

Mountain Man, 5:18 P.M is he as handsome as me?

You, 5:18 P.M …….more handsome

Mountain Man, 5:19 P.M seriously???

You, 5:19 P.M yep. That’s one of your questions

Kim Dodumb, 5:19 P.M oh thanks yuta we’re going to be fucked in the end because of you

Coolest Guy, 5:19 P.M Is it mark?

You, 5:20 P.M no

MARK LEE!!, 5:20 P.M oh good

You, 5:21 P.M …………I’ll pretend I’m not insulted by that mark

MARK LEE!!, 5:21 P.M no wait I didn’t mean it like that I just. You know.

You, 5:22 P.M ………………….

Johnny Boy, 5:22 P.M digging yourself a hole mark

MARK LEE!!, 5:23 P.M I mean it’s not like I wouldn’t want to be but you’re like my big sib.

You, 5:23 P.M can’t believe mark lee just called me ugly

MARK LEE!!, 5:24 P.M I didn’t say you’re ugly you’re not you’re really pretty I swear

You, 5:24 P.M FORGET IT I’M LEAVING

Coolest Guy, 5:24 P.M TWENTY QUESTIONS ISN’T OVER YOU CAN’T LEAVE TTTTT_TTTTT

You, 5:25 P.M you’re all lucky I like haechan

Coolest Guy, 5:25 P.M :DD

Yoonoh more like…, 5:25 P.M is he a vocal

You, 5:26 P.M …..um. he can sing… but all of you can sing…

Kim Dodumb, 5:26 P.M why are we letting yuta and jaehyun ask questions

You, 5:26 P.M because you’re dumb. Next question

Mountain Man, 5:26 P.M look who’s talking now, dumbfuck

Taeil (aka the c…,, 5:27 P.M what are you guys blowing the group chat up for

You, 5:27 P.M they’re trying to figure out my soulmate. That’s question ten

Kim Dodumb, 5:27 P.M oh my fuck

Winwinnie, 5:27 P.M does he like ice cream????

You, 5:27 P.M yep ^^

Kim Dodumb, 5:28 P.M favorite flavor.

You, 5:28 P.M …that’s too much info. You’d figure it out when I told you what it was.

Kim Dodumb, 5:28 P.M O_O

You, 5:28 P.M still counts as a question

Kim Dodumb, 5:28 P.M you’re ruthless.

Johnny Boy, 5:29 P.M if we figure it out, are you going to talk to them about it?

You, 5:29 P.M nope. I’ll find a new home. In a hole. Far away from him and you guys

Johnny Boy, 5:30 P.M doyoung or taeyong?

You, 5:32 P.M ……………………………………….

Mountain Man, 5:32 P.M WHAT DO YOU MEAN DOYOUNG OR TAEYONG. WHY IS IT BETWEEN THEM

Johnny Boy, 5:33 P.M it’s not haechan, mark, taeil, or you, which leaves winwin, jaehyun, me, doyoung and taeyong

Johnny Boy, 5:33 P.M however, winwin doesn’t have a favorite flavor of ice cream so it’s not him

Johnny Boy, 5:33 P.M …and it’s not me or Jeffrey let’s be real

Johnny Boy, 5:33 P.M thus, taeyong or doyoung

Mountain Man, 5:34 P.M your reasoning is fucking stupid we need more information

Mountain Man, 5:34 P.M Is it winwin?

You, 5:34 P.M no.

Kim Dodumb, 5:35 P.M WE HAVE FIVE QUESTIONS LEFT YUTA STOP ASKING SHIT WHEN JOHNNY WAS CLEARLY RIGHT ABOUT THAT ONE

Mountain Man, 5:35 P.M YOU’RE SOFT FOR JOHNNY FUCK YOU

Coolest Guy, 5:35 P.M is he in 127? is it jaehyun? Is it johnny?

You, 5:35 P.M yes, no, no

Johnny Boy, 5:36 P.M wow how surprising I was right and yuta didn’t believe me

Mountain Man, 5:36 P.M to be fair I’m still shocked that it wasn’t me

Kim Dodumb, 5:36 P.M I can’t believe we just let haechan waste three questions

Johnny Boy, 5:37 P.M we narrowed it down though so let’s consider these last two questions carefully

TY Track, 5:37 P.M where is your mark?

You, 5:37 P.M …somewhere on my body…

Mountain Man, 5:38 P.M someone go take taeyong’s phone away before he ruins this for us and we have to guess forever if it’s between him or doyoung

Taeil (aka the c…,, 5:40 P.M he’s in the bathroom. Locked himself in there again

Mountain Man, 5:40 P.M We’re FUCKED.

Johnny Boy, 5:40 P.M to be fair that was a good question though

Winwinnie, 5:41 P.M we should get ice cream to celebrate finding out who it is

Johnny Boy, 5:41 P.M when we find out

TY Track, 5:42 P.M any of you guys seen Y/N without their shirt on?

You, 5:42 P.M nope. Final question. Sorry guys you suck at guessing

Mountain Man, 5:43 P.M THAT QUESTION WASN’T EVEN FOR YOU

You, 5:43 P.M WELL I ANSWERED IT ANYWAYS. 20 QUESTIONS IS OVER I’M GOING TO CLASS NOW

Taeil (aka the a…,, 5:44 P.M have fun ^^

Mountain Man, 5:44 P.M guys I don’t trust that. y/n is going to run away

TY Track, 5:45 P.M I’ll make sure that doesn’t happen

Yoonoh more like…, 5:45 P.M my phone shut off and I come back to hyung promising to kill y/n what the heck

You, 5:46 P.M If I see any of you on campus I’m going to tell your manager what you did three weeks ago

Coolest Guy, 5:46 P.M y/n is so cool *o*

MARK LEE!!, 5:47 P.M what happened three weeks ago??

Johnny Boy, 5:47 P.M Nothing nothing don’t worry about it mark

Mountain Man, 5:48 P.M yeah don’t worry about it it’s not even that bad

Yoonoh more like…, 5:48 P.M that bad

Taeil (aka the a…,, 5:49 P.M didn’t you guys end up flipping a car

Johnny Boy, 5:49 P.M what part about nothing don’t you guys understand

TY Track, 5:50 P.M we didn’t flip a car

Winwinnie, 5:50 P.M we flipped two cars

Mountain Man, 5:51 P.M at least they were just crash cars anyways

TY Track, 5:51 P.M we still had to pay money for them

Coolest Guy, 5:52 P.M you flipped cars without me????? TT_TT

MARK LEE!!, 5:52 P.M you guys do all the cool stuff without me and donghyuck TT_TT

-

You, 8:07 P.M WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT BEING ON CAMPUS GUYS

Yoonoh more like…, 8:07 P.M which one of us went?

TY Track, 8:08 P.M Mark and haechan are with me and taeil is reading on his bed

Johnny Boy, 8:08 P.M winwin is helping me with Chinese

Yoonoh more like…, 8:09 P.M Yuta is attempting cooking again

TY Track, 8:09 P.M are you stopping him????

Yoonoh more like…, 8:09 P.M I want to see if he can light the kitchen on fire again

Johnny Boy, 8:09 P.M …doyoung went?

TY Track, 8:10 P.M JAEHYUN DO NOT LET HIM COOK YOU KNOW HOW HE GETS

Yoonoh more like…, 8:10 P.M too late.

TY Track, 8:10 P.M why do I smell smoke THERE BETTER NOT BE A FIRE.

Kim Dodumb, 8:11 P.M you guys should call a… firetruck. ;)

Johnny Boy, 8:11 P.M are you with y/n??

TY Track, 8:11 P.M THIS IS NO TIME FOR JOKES YOU DUMB BUNNY

Kim Dodumb, 8:12 P.M there’s a fire extinguisher in the hallway just use that

Kim Dodumb, 8:12 P.M yes, johnny, I’m with Y/N

Johnny Boy, 8:12 P.M …text me now

-

Kim Dodumb, 12:03 A.M This is the third oven this month. Why aren’t we banning yuta from the kitchen?

TY Track, 12:03 A.M better question is, where are you?? It’s midnight you’re supposed to be home

Kim Dodumb, 12:04 A.M …places.

You, 12:05 A.M he’s with me taeyong. He’s safe

TY Track, 12:05 A.M with you??????

Johnny Boy, 12:06 A.M oh right I forgot to tell you taeyong. Doyoung is with y/n

MARK LEE!!, 12:06 A.M should they be together right now? We have a fansign early and those two never stop talking with each other

MARK LEE!!, 12:06 A.M they’ll be up all night

TY Track, 12:07 A.M shouldn’t you be asleep mark lee it’s midnight you had curfew two hours ago

Coolest Guy, 12:07 A.M when do we ACTUALLY go to sleep at ten, hyung?

You, 12:08 A.M haechan go to sleep. You too Mark

Coolest Guy, 12:08 A.M Okay goodnight y/n zzzzzzz

MARK LEE!!, 12:08 A.M goodnight zz

TY Track, 12:08 A.M …how do you do that every time

You, 12:09 A.M It’s a secret.

You, 12:10 A.M doyoung will be back soon, taeyong. I’ll have him back an hour before he has to get ready. Promise.

Kim Dodumb, 12:10 A.M in the meantime we have stuff to do

Yoonoh more like…, 12:10 A.M don’t stay up too late doing… stuff ;))))

Johnny Boy, 12:11 A.M ;)))))

Mountain Man, 12:11 A.M ;)))))

Taeil (aka the c…,, 12:11 A.M ;))))))

You, 12:11 A.M you’re all blocked.

-

Mountain Man, 6:03 A.M I can’t believe y/n thinks doyoung is more handsome than me

TY Track, 6:03 A.M he is

Johnny Boy, 6:03 A.M definitely

You, 6:03 A.M most definitely

Mountain Man, 6:04 A.M I’m going back to japan

TY Track, 6:04 A.M wait how did doyoung figure out it wasn’t me and him instead??

Doyoung :), 6:04 A.M your mark is at your ankle. I’ve seen y/n without shoes

You, 6:04 A.M He took a 50/50 shot hoping it was him

Doyoung :), 6:05 A.M I’m breaking up with you

Yoonoh more like…, 6:05 A.M wrecked lol

[lewiselder]

the prayer

my first post about the trainer happened around October. i wrote that entry on Wednesday, February 22nd. this particular event happened the next day. 

the next day. Thursday, February 23rd. 

I texted a couple people about it - Ian, Dana, Jake. i wasn’t sure what to do with it. i was legitimately worried if i posted about it right away that it might seem like i’m bullshitting. instead i’m taking it as a sign. from, uh, (god?) that making this, uh, (blog?) was a good idea. so thanks, guy who i’m about to roast in detail. 

SO, it was Thursday of last week. i had gotten off work a little early and went to the gym.

yeah...the same fucking gym lol

maybe there’s something to be said about Lifetime Fitnesseses. fitnesseses? fitnesseses. or maybe there’s something to be said about the kind of people who can afford a gym that is at least $70/month. probably the latter. 

but i dye grass. so i’m at the gym, in the beginning sets of squatting. from the corner of my eye i notice a dude near me who looks like he’s trying to get my attention. i do every gym go-ers favorite move - stop what i’m doing, take my sweaty headphones off, and turn to dr distracto. 

doctor distracto MD says to me in a syrupy voice, “Are you using this?” - referencing a bench near my squat rack. 

i say no. 

distracto, DDS then says, “hey man we met in the locker room yesterday.”

one armed handsome hero, “oh yeah, i remember...how’s it going?”

***FLASHBACK***

the night before i was getting my shit out of the locker before going home. a dad and his teenage son were using a locker next to me. i had seen them at the gym a few times before. i mostly recognized them because the teenage son always wore these old adidas crazy quick joints that Tim Duncan and John Wall wore in like 2013. 

^^^these ones. notice how i capitalize Tim Duncan and John Wall but not doctor distracto phd. also notice The Big Fundamental’s face here - not entirely dissimilar to mine whilst conversing with professor distractathon. 

any who. this dad ass dad (aka distracto - keep up) and his son ass son are next to me in the locker room. dad ass dad just kinda slides in my ear DMs with a quick, “i see you here a lot.” 

“yeah, i’m here too much” - my standard response to that comment, which gets a laugh like 65% of the time. 

dad ass dad goes on to introduce himself as will (i think). nice name there, will. he made a couple random comments about idk, the fucking gym or whatever, pretty small talk-y. then we part ways. 

***FLASH FORWARD***

so i’m at the squat rack in the middle of asking will (maybe it was bill?) how it was going after he mentioned we had met last night. then bill (phil?) hits me with what, in my life, is the conversational equivalent of an off ball screen you never see coming (but i kinda always see it coming)

phil (gill?) - gill goes: “so how long have you been dealin’ with that?” - sort of gesturing with his chin at my arm. 

me: “uh kinda a while lol i was born with it.” 

willbillphilgill aka distracto aka dad ass dad, in his slow, southern, lawn chair with a bud light voice goes: “Would you mind if i prayed with you?”

lol uh

i said something like - uh, well i don’t really pray...

dad ass dad kinda cuts me off there and goes: “i’ll lead it”

“okay” i say, interested as to what was about to happen. dad ass dad then clasps my right hand in a kind of like, white guy dap stance. 

so i’m standing there. hand in hand with some middle aged texan. in the middle of a lifetime fitness. at 4pm on a thursday. while his teenage son stands next to us. 

then this motherfucker really begins a prayer. it went something like this. 

Dear God. We ask that you heal Lewis here. May he be healed with all of your grace, mercy, and love. All this we ask of you, Lord. Thank you. Amen. 

qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm

i quickly felt the holy spirit wash over my poor, withered husk of an arm. yes lord!

nah but i did get to smell his fucking meat breath. 

now mind you this is the day after i’ve started a blog to chronicle, oh i don’t know, THIS EXACT SHIT lol. so him and i release our caucasian clasp. i kinda laugh and say thanks. i don’t remember what he said but it wasn’t much. him and his son wander off, presumably to go reconvene with the other missionaries scouring the gym floor for lepers in need. 

ps - i wonder if this guy and the trainer would have a spirited argument about science vs religion? ROBOT ARM! NO - GOD ARM! NO, ROBOT ARM! NO...

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so i stand there. shocked? angry? happy? i was definitely well aware that this was fucking perfect for the project i had just undertaken. so, if nothing else, this blog has already turned what would have been an otherwise unpleasant experience into a (prettygoddamnoffensive) silver lining. big ups to the six, three of which are me in different states of mania, of ya’ll that will read this. srsly. ty. 

so. yuh. the day after i write about that fucking god damn trainer, this happens lol. 

honestly, i was a lot less mad at this guy than i was at the trainer. i really don’t know why. maybe because this dude wasn’t as ready to slice me up, or maybe i was just in a better mood. obv not great that he sees my arm as a disease to an otherwise healthy young man, but.... 

ALSO - gotta address the handicapped elephant in the room which has to be - what exactly did this dude mean/think would happen when he said “heal.” like, is god boutta catch me asleep one day and i just wake up with like 2 regular arms lol??? 2 elbows and 10 fingers and all that bougie shit??? 

man then i’d be just like ya’ll. 

yuck. 

jk - i’ll take one order of elbow pls. 

but anyway. so another instance of austinites being boooooold as fuck. i’m starting to miss the “that ain’t my fucking problem” attitude of St. Louis *swoons* i think a lot of this shit is just more evidence of how dehumanized people with disabilities are. like, son, you wouldn’t go up to some dude with glasses and pray to god for his sight to be restored, would you? but for some reason, every fuckin texan with eyes and a pulse seems to think they have the moral obligation to put their fuckin brisket scoops (hands) on me and offer me their help, advice, and now prayer. 

also, if this is what dads are like, i’m really not missing out on shit. 

so. idk. i guess ball’s in your court @God 

ps if u read this far, i’ll buy you a taco