#c: kenny ackerman

[scarletskiesinthepaths]

Levi’s Childhood: “Bad Boy”, The Underground, Kuchel, and Kenny—What Are the Implications?

Content Warning: Discussion of rape, sexual abuse, and sex trafficking

“Bad Boy” makes it even more explicitly clear that the Underground was no place for a child. From the “Bad Boy” panels alone, it is evident that Levi likely had constant people preying on him at all times—especially before he awakened his Ackerman powers. All these men Levi encounters here had no issue beating a child to (near) death or selling him into sexual slavery. Similar to the way it is portrayed in the “A Choice with No Regrets” storyline, the Underground is also described by Levi as “hopelessly dirty” with “rotten air”. 

It is significant to note here that Levi was well-known for being a prostitute’s son; all of those men were aware of Levi’s relation to Kuchel, even before Levi himself made it clear. They wanted to traffic him for that reason. In terms of speculation, it is very believable and even highly probable that Levi experienced sexual assault and rape before he awakened. Having grown up in a brothel with his mom, and now further seeing how common sex trafficking in the Underground was and also Levi’s infamy for being a prostitute’s son—there is no doubt that Levi was exposed to extreme levels of sexual violence regularly, whether it be him being witness to it, him experiencing the direct threat of it such as in “Bad Boy,” or him experiencing the actual act. The trauma of this is impossible to overstate. It seems the most likely, however, that Levi has had direct personal experience with the act itself, as men would have likely continued visiting “Olympia” after she died (and before Kenny appeared), and upon discovering she was no longer a viable option to have sex with, some of those men would have set their sights on Levi, who was a helpless child in the process of starving to death. 

The men in “Bad Boy” spoke about Levi as if he was born strictly to live a life of sexual slavery, referring to him as a “whore’s child” and discussing how they’d be able to profit from making him do the same job as his mother, saying he may have “inherited her talents”. Levi had probably heard this sort of language used in his presence before. As such, it would not be surprising if Levi had learned to expect this sort of treatment, as if he was placed in the world solely to suffer. Levi would have sought out a reason for this—why must he constantly be subjected to suffering? Is it because there is something wrong with him? If that’s the case, what specifically is wrong with him? It is important to consider as well that Levi’s entire sense of identity at this point was wrapped up in being the son of a prostitute and being raised by a serial killer, who may or may not have been his father. 

The violence Levi was subjected to in “Bad Boy,” such as having his head repeatedly smashed against the ground with a fist, would have most certainly resulted in his death, or at the very least, permanent brain damage, had Levi’s powers not awakened in that moment. However, what’s notable to me during all of this is the absence of Kenny’s presence. This indicates that Kenny would leave Levi alone in the Underground for significant enough periods of time that Levi still had the opportunity to find himself in situations of extreme danger, situations such that would have resulted in his death. Given what we know about Levi’s childhood from Kenny’s recollection of it in the main series, Kenny would subject Levi to fights against fully grown men in order to develop Levi’s combat skills and likely prompt his awakening. It is also clear in these “Bad Boy” panels that Levi already knew how to fight, given the way he initially tried to protect himself from being beaten by all those men. He was, however, helpless in protecting himself, given the deep disadvantage he had from being a child, as well as being faced against multiple opponents. Levi’s combat skills after his awakening also demonstrated he already had significant training. The responsible thing for an adult in Kenny’s position would have been to, not teach Levi how to fight, but remove him from the environment that necessitated that knowledge in the first place.

Needless to say, this practice was cruel and immensely abusive. The amount of psychological damage and self-worth issues this would undoubtedly cause Levi are immeasurable. It was Kenny’s responsibility to protect Levi’s childhood innocence, but it is because of Kenny’s actions (and inactions) that Levi was placed in a position of having to kill multiple men as a young child. Kenny may have saved Levi from the imminent death of starvation, but his abuse and abandonment ultimately caused Levi more harm than good in the long-run; he taught and exposed Levi to a life of violence. Indeed, Kenny wanted Levi to be a force for violence. That is all he ever modeled for Levi and desired from him, even though he had the capability of sparing Levi from such experiences. However, it speaks to Levi’s innate goodness that he still loved Kenny after all he was made to suffer by him and even forgave Kenny by the end.

The awakening of Levi’s powers demonstrated to Levi the idea that he was an agent of destruction and a monster. Recall back to the moment during the “Uprising” arc when a man accuses Levi of being such and Levi simply responds, “Maybe I am”. Levi’s awakening was described by Levi as a form of dissociation, as if he was not fully aware of what he was doing. Consider his words here: “I didn’t think it was strange that something had happened to me at the time. The pain in my head disappeared and I felt calm, as if my head was submerged in water. And the idea of what to do came to mind. But I just followed the instinct and acted accordingly.” And yet, Levi likely blames himself for the brutality of which he killed his attackers, despite acting in self-defense and having no other recourse. It was an answer to his question: what is wrong with him? He must be a monster. Being forced into such a situation as a child would instill this view in Levi that he was born into his life only to bring suffering to others. That is why he suffers in turn.

This perception of an inner monstrosity in Levi is furthered by what the man in the glasses tells him directly after this: “Stop doing things that will make your mother in heaven sad!” Levi’s impression of Kuchel, his mother, was the one thing that brought him comfort in his life. He remembered her “elegant” posture. With these man’s words, even that one comfort was lost to Levi. Now the thought of his mother would instead be associated with the idea that she would view him as bad—that she would have seen his “murderous” actions and would cast judgment on him. This is completely incorrect, of course. The only reason Levi even awakened his strength was because he was protecting his mom’s image from the cruel words the men were speaking against her. Levi was severely beaten to near death, all because he loved his mom essentially. Think of the tragedy of that; Levi was directly punished for loving someone. This further demonstrates that innate goodness in Levi—how he continues to love and care about others, despite the immense suffering it’s brought him over and over. To further the tragedy of all this, it is evident that Levi still views his mother with fondness, in spite of the belief that she would hate him. Levi purposely seeks out the brothel in which he grew up with her, undoubtedly filled with countless awful and traumatic memories, in order to feel closer to her presence.

After Levi’s awakening, Levi soon after finds himself in yet another fight, and it is this moment that Levi watches as Kenny walks away and abandons him forever. Levi thought Kenny wanted him to become strong. He thought his strength would earn him Kenny’s acceptance, but instead, he was met with his rejection. If Kenny still didn’t love him even after becoming strong, that once again proved to Levi that there was something deeply wrong with him. Similar to the way Levi would come to associate his strength as the thing responsible for making him a “killer” and ruining his mother’s perception of him, Levi would likely form the association that his physical strength led directly to Kenny abandoning him. Moreover, what was the purpose of his strength? Levi did not want to use it to bring suffering to others. 

Levi discovered on his own that his strength could be used to help others—to protect. This is incredibly significant because Levi was literally taught the opposite his whole life: that it made him a monster, that its only purpose was for saving himself and bringing death and destruction—he was taught even that that’s something he should desire. Somehow, despite all that, Levi still found a way to use his strength for the benefit of others. Although, this highlights a further tragedy in Levi. As demonstrated earlier, Levi was taught that it was the normal state of the world, the status quo, for him to be abused; he learned that this treatment of him was, not only happening because it was something he was somehow meant for, but also happening because he was some abnormal monster. Levi desiring to use his strength for others does not negate Levi’s own negative perception of himself. All of the events in Levi’s childhood taught Levi that he had no worth, and that is indeed the way we see Levi treat himself throughout the entire series. 

Levi never once defends himself against people’s cruel words against him. Think back to the way Mikasa said it was Levi’s fault that they had lost Eren in the “Female Titan” arc directly after Levi had lost his entire squad; think of the way Levi accepts Dieter’s words against him and Erwin about being “devoid of humanity” in the aftermath of the Female Titan’s attack; think of how Levi accepts the negative way the people of Trost and the merchants were speaking against him; and as mentioned earlier, think of the way Levi accepts being called a monster during “Uprising”. Levi directly refers to himself as “abnormal” as well during that same arc. There are countless more examples of this. Levi fights during the Battle of Heaven and Earth, despite being grievously injured already. It is because of this that he ultimately ends up in a wheelchair. Levi fights for other people to the complete detriment of himself. That is pure selflessness. Levi treats himself as completely devoid of worth, despite seeing so much worth in others. As such, Levi dedicates everything he has, even if it would result in severe damage to himself; he views himself as expendable. It is clear too that Levi views himself as unclean from all the blood he has on his hands and all the filth he was surrounded by growing up. It was his “dirty” hands after all that killed all those men and led to his mom’s teacup breaking at the end of "Bad Boy"; a sign of his inner badness. 

[worldhell-archiving]

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ @ausdauer ⤸ *Stamps on Kenny's foot and runs away*

❝ HELL! -- that hurt like a son of a bitch! ain't kind to go stompin on your elders! ❞ ever one for the dramatics. as if it hadn't been a simple case of sucking through his teeth. he might be wearing sturdy boots, but she sure put a lot of effort into that kick; who was he to spoil the fun.

❝ runnin' off already? ain't that no way to greet someone! ❞

and he's already on the chase. kenny obviously didn't teach that boy enough if this were how his friends were behaving. ❝ aww, c'mon! stick around n' I'll show you how yer supposed to say hi to someone! ❞

[mayajadewrites]

I Wish I Hated You (Levi Ackerman x Reader)

story summary: You don't do second chances. Especially after you gave your heart to Levi Ackerman, and he decided to throw it away so the next person has to repair the damage. Will Levi put his ego aside and finally admit his feelings for you are far deeper than you imagined? Or is a second chance out of the question?

ao3

C H A P T E R E I G H T : T O M O R R O W

WARNING: explicit scenes in this chapter!! let me know what you think :)

Levi lead you into his living room that you were all too familiar with. His expression was... blank. You couldn't tell if he was sad, mad, or anything in between.

You sit on the couch opposite to the chair he's sitting in. "Levi, I-"

"You should know this," Levi looks down. "I'm not the best at... well, talking. My mother is someone who was... so special to me." 

"Levi." You press your hand on top of his. "I'm here to listen." 

Levi sighs as he sits back in his chair. "My mother and I grew up poor. Like, dirt poor." Levi started talking. It feels like it's been forever since you and him had an actual conversation instead of just arguing. "We were couch surfing and squatting in abandoned houses. Then, she got sick. We don't know what it was since we couldn't afford to go to a doctor. We couldn't even afford food. I was starving every day. Dreaming of bread." Levi looks down. "One day, she wouldn't even attempt to get out of bed. Or even talk to me. I remember her telling me about her brother, my uncle, and I had his phone number written down. I begged the corner store to let me use their phone, and thankfully they let me."

Your heart sinks thinking of how lonely Levi felt. How he was lacking basic needs.

"I called Kenny and he came and stayed with my mother during her last moments. I stood on the other side of her with my hand in hers. I remember her saying, 'Kenny, please take care of my Levi.' The pressure I was feeling from her hand suddenly just... disappeared. My mother's body was still there, but her soul was gone." 

Tears start to well up in your eyes. Levi's eyes were glued to the floor as he spoke, his deep voice cracking when he spoke of the final moments with his mother.

"Then I went and lived with Kenny. Which... wasn't the best either. He fed me, but he wanted me to learn to fend for myself. I would cause fights in school and Kenny had to beg them to let me stay." Levi cleared his throat. "He didn't know how to be a parent. I don't blame him. His sister died and left behind me. My father, who the hell knows who he is - Kenny felt he had no choice. But he did have a choice. He could've just-"

"Levi, he could not just leave you."

"He could've."

"But he didn't. You're his nephew, I'm sure he saw you and saw some of himself."

"Well, when I turned 18, he left. He told me I was an adult now and I had to figure life out. I was being... well, to put it lightly, a delinquent when I met Erwin. He's a tall, well kept man and I wanted to steal from him. He looked like he had money so he was the perfect target. For whatever reason, he wanted to be my friend. He's been in my life ever since." Levi finally looked at you. "He opened his home to me. He fed me. He taught me the ways of being a business man."

You didn't know how deep Erwin and Levi's friendship was. They're bonded brothers.

His mother left, Kenny left - no wonder he likes to leave. Must be an Ackerman thing. 

You stared into Levi's eyes - watching the storm brew. Your heart sank as you explored his face, your feelings for him resurfacing.

"Now you know why I am the way I am." Levi put his hands on his knees. "I don't blame you if you want to leave."

"Levi." You walk over to his chair, slowly sitting on his lap. "Do you want me to leave?" You gently wrap your arms around him. 

"I think you want to -"

"Answer my question." You grab his chin, pulling his face towards you. "Do you want me to leave?"

"No." Levi shook his head. "I never want you to leave." 

You felt like there was life brought back to you. The piece of your heart that broke off when you left Levi mended back to you. 

"We have to start over then." You caress his face gently. You wanted to just hold him during this vulnerable moment. "Like, we're going on dates. Almost like we were never together." 

"Hm?" Levi tilted his head. "But we did date... for 2 years."

"Levi. Do you want to make this work or no?" 

"I do." 

"Then we're starting over. I don't want us to jump back into this and make the same mistakes." 

Levi nods, letting his hand rest on your thigh. "Are you sure you don't want to leave? I'm giving you an out." 

"Levi Ackerman." Theres attitude in your voice. "If I wanted to leave, I would. I have before - remember?" 

"I'm sorry I made you leave."

"Shhh." You pull Levi into your chest, letting him lean on you. You felt his eyelashes flutter on your skin as he closed his eyes. His breath is slow and you know he's listening to your heartbeat. He's always loved cuddling in your chest and feeling your beating heart. Levi starts to bury his face in your breasts, his hands traveling up to your waist.

"Hey," You giggle as Levi grabs your left breast with his large hand. "Levi, this isn't the right time to be-"

"Sh." Levi demanded. His fingers pulled your shirt over your head, revealing your plump breasts. They bounced as they were released from the captivity of your shirt and Levi is mesmerized. He brought his lips to your right tit, sucking on your skin roughly as he squeezed the other. You throw your head back at the contact. Levi has always loved your chest and he likes to take his time there when he can.

"This isn't a part of starting over." You breathe.

"We can start over tomorrow." Levi mumbled as he unclipped your bra without looking. His mouth attached to your nipple, sucking it gently. You feel the wetness in your pants already as Levi sucks, bites, and licks all over your tits. 

Levi sits you on the chair, his large hands trailing down your upper body to the buttons of your jeans. He's on his knees now as he pulls your pants off, throwing them across the room. "My favorites." Levi hums at the sight of your black lace panties. "Too bad they're coming off." Levi almost rips the panties off of you, revealing your soaked pussy. 

He marvels for a moment, watching your arousal leak from you. You throw your head back as your core starts to throb. "Levi-" He cuts you off by inserting his tongue inside you. You gasp as you feel his tongue exploring your pussy, finding your clit soon after. Levi wraps his hands around your thighs as he devours you, his lips squelching against your core. 

Levi wraps his lips around your clit, sucking gently as he inserts two fingers into you. You bury your hands in his hair, pushing his face farther into you. You felt him smile as you pulled on his hair, something he's always loved. He pumped his fingers in and out of you quickly while his mouth was solely focused on your clit.

"I could eat this pussy all day." Levi hummed, the vibration from his words only adding to your pleasure. "This pretty little pussy."

"Levi." You moan, wrapping your legs around him as your toes begin to curl.

"I love when you moan my name." His fingers started to pump faster as your walls began to pulsate. "Can you come on my fingers, princess?" 

You nod silently as you feel the high quickly approaching. Your chest feels tight as the world begins to fade away, leaving only you and Levi. His tongue lapped your dripping arousal as you reached your high. Levi doesn't stop though, he keeps sucking on your clit until he wants to be done. You came on his fingers, his mouth - practically his entire face.

"Levi, I need you inside of me." You whine.

"You want my cock inside of you, my princess?"

"God, yes." You nod. Levi's mouth leaves your pussy and he picks you up and lays you on the couch gently. His shirt is off quickly, along with his belt and pants.

You watch his cock spring out of his pants. Every time you see it, you're mesmerized.

"Are you sure?"

"We'll start over tomorrow." You nod a Levi's arms are on either side of you. You feel the tip of his cock at your slit, easily sliding in due to your arousal. Levi lets out a husky moan as he feels your gummy walls wrapping around his cock.

"You were made for me." Levi starts thrusting into you. "This pussy fits me so perfectly."

"Baby, it's all yours." You stare into Levi's eyes. He presses his lips to yours roughly, leaving sloppy kisses as he thrusts inside you faster. You wrap your arms around his neck as he watches his length disappear inside of you, stretching your walls. You'll never get used to his size, no matter how many times you fuck.

"Princess, I need you to come again. Before me." Levi grunted as he slammed into you. He attaches his lips to the side of your neck, biting and sucking until your skin is purple. He then brings his fingers to your clit, rubbing it gently. 

You throw your head back, feeling your walls pulsate once again. Levi's thrusts start to become uneven as he feels you grip him, which means he's close.

"I'm not coming before you." Levi rubs circles on your clit. Your toes curl as Levi is almost overstimulating you - but that high comes back. 

"Levi." You practically yell as the hardest high of your life hits you. You see stars as Levi slams into you again and again. 

"Where should I come?" Levi whispered.

"Inside." You whisper in his ear, which causes him to lose all the control he had left. He coats your insides with him as he comes, gripping your hips tightly. Levi fills you up with his cum and somehow there is still more. 

Levi pulled out slowly and you whine at the now void. He pulls his pants on and grabbing a towel from his hallway closet and helping you clean up.

"So... tomorrow?"

"Tomorrow." You press your lips to his gently, letting your worries melt away.

[jayteacups]

I always think about how Levi would react to affection the first time. Imagine: he isn’t really used to it since his Mom died early and Kenny didn’t really give him any loving affection.

He must be so confused the first time some hugs him, kisses his cheek or forehead or simple leans into him 🥺🥺

Gentle Touches

In which Levi experiences affection for the first time. 

Pairing: Levi Ackerman x GN!Reader

Genre and tags: SFW, fluff, newly established relationship, experiencing non-sexual physical intimacy for the first time (sobs), only soft sweet tenderness here folks, ACWNR spoilers, okay fine it’s not just fluff there’s emotional hurt/comfort towards the end because i have NO self control

Word count: 3.4k 

A/N: Hellooo!! Combining these two asks since they're very similar! This was just going to be bulletpoints but oh my god. I seriously lack self control. Essentially my thoughts on this are that he’d be kinda surprised at first, like it would take him pretty off guard. And he might tense up or jolt slightly, because most physical contact he’s had is either fleeting or is somewhat violent, but after a moment, he’ll realise his instincts are wrong, and slowly lean into the touch. It started out fluffy but then veered into the emotional H/C side of things because I wanted to see what would happen and my fingers just... whizzed away at the keyboard lol. Still not 100% happy with it but honestly it is what it is 😂 Enjoy the fic!! 

i. Holding hands

You and Levi haven’t been dating for particularly long, only a couple of weeks or so. To say that the two of you are taking it slow is an understatement; though Levi hadn’t said it outright, you can tell that this was his first romantic endeavour in a while, if the awkward roundabout confession on his end had been anything to go by. As such, you’re more than happy to go slowly for his sake. Yet you hadn’t quite anticipated just how slowly things would go. 

The last several days have been a little… odd. Though you find yourself relieved to know that the man you’ve been harbouring feelings for months reciprocates them in every way possible, a new concern has settled into the back of your mind. You know he’s not a particularly outwardly affectionate person in general, but not once has he made a move to even hold your hand behind closed doors. The two of you have spent every night since the confession up late in his office, talking about anything and everything over a steaming pot of tea, curled up on the sofa, bodies millimetres apart yet never touching. 

Tonight, however, everything changes. 

You’re sitting to his left, having drained your cup of tea. Levi’s left hand lies at his side, as his right hand precariously holds his own cup. The two of you have fallen into a comfortable lull in the conversation where there is nothing else to talk about, but the silence allows you to bask in each other’s presence. Your mind whirs - his hand is so close. Would it be too forward of you to reach out and take it? Your own heart beats furiously all of a sudden; perhaps you shouldn’t. Perhaps physical affection just isn’t how he shows love, and you’re more than okay with it, but you can’t quash your curiosity…

Before you can think it over any further, your pinky finger grazes his own, and curls around it. 

A soft, simple touch. A featherlight sensation so brief that nobody else would pay it any mind, but your Captain instead freezes on the spot. You hear his breath hitch, shoulders hiking up to his ears, head snapping towards you. His eyes are uncharacteristically wide, and he swallows, eyes flicking downwards to your joined pinkies. 

“Did I startle you?” You venture softly. The last thing you want to do is to make him uncomfortable, and you fear you may have done just that. Beginning to loosen your pinky finger from his, you continue, “it’s okay, I know physical touch isn’t everyone’s thing…” 

Levi, however, gives a minute shake of his head. His finger curls around yours tightly. “No.” He blurts out. “I-it’s fine.” His face glows a warm pink. He closes his eyes for a moment, delicate, long lashes brushing against soft cheeks. He takes in a slow breath, as if gearing himself up for a daunting mission. You would not be surprised if Levi truly did find intimacy more intimidating than a pack of abnormal titans. “It’s fine,” he repeats, more softer than the last. 

The corners of your lips twitch upwards. “I’m glad,” you murmur, but Levi isn’t yet done talking. 

“It’s just… I don’t know how to do this.” The words stumble out of his mouth, the task of admitting how new this territory is to him being all too difficult. Levi’s eyes flick back up to look at you for a moment. They’re red-rimmed, the flesh under them bruised and dark. Has he been losing sleep over this? Agonising over how to move forward, never thinking he’d ever get this far? Swallowing the lump in your throat, you tilt your head. Your free hand yearns to cup his cheek, but you decide against it. Baby steps. 

“That’s okay. We can figure it out together,” you whisper hoarsely, unhooking your pinky from his, letting your fingertips gently trail across the back of his hand. His brow rises a little in confusion, looking a little lost at your ministrations. 

His breath is shaky once again, and his hand trembles under your gentle touch. Slowly, you tease open a gap between his palm and the surface of the sofa seat, slipping your hand underneath his. The calluses of his palms scrape against yours comfortingly; yes, his hands may be rough, marred by a life of fighting, but you can’t think of another pair of hands you feel safer in. Carefully, your fingers interlock with his.

“I figured you’d want to go slowly,” you say, gazing into his eyes, “but… would you like more of this?”

Hesitantly, he nods. His hand tightens around yours. His gaze and voice is finally steady as he says, “I would.” 

You smile, squeezing his hand. Levi’s eyes soften, and you swear you could see the ghost of a smile on his face, too.  

ii. Pecks on the cheek and leaning in

You’d hardly gotten to see Levi all day. Your schedules often conflicted during the weekdays; the Special Ops Squad followed a longer, much more intense training regimen compared to the rest of the Corps, and his position as Captain demanded further time dedicated to paperwork. Meanwhile, holding the position of Squad Leader runs you ragged, too, especially working with the horses and the carts, since your squad rides in the centre column of the formation, towards the front vanguard. As such, when the two of you try to meet up to spend a little more time together, you’re often exhausted. 

Stifling a yawn, you gently knock on Levi’s door. 

“Come in,” you hear him say gruffly, voice dripping with exhaustion. “The chamomile is almost ready.” 

“Looks like I came just in time,” you coo, closing the door behind you and admiring the sight of Levi’s back as he waits for the tea. “Smells good, too.” 

“Of course it does. I made it,” he says to disguise how flustered he gets under any sort of compliment from you, but there’s no hiding the tips of his ears that flush a bright pink. You grin sleepily, trudging up towards him. Only a couple of candles are still lit in his office, and the warm, weary orange glow makes him look soft, gentle. A stark contrast to his persona on the battlefield. You think nothing of it as you sleepily sigh, hook an arm around his trim waist and lean against his side, resting your head atop his shoulder. But almost immediately, you feel his muscles tense underneath your touch, and you’re wide awake once more. Crap - it hadn’t been that long since he’d finally gotten used to just merely holding hands, what on earth were you thinking? 

But no sooner did you begin to pull away did Levi’s hand pin your hand to where it had rested on his waist. 

He clears his throat. “Sorry,” he gets out awkwardly, fumbling to explain himself. “I didn’t… you can lean on me,” he settles on saying, voice getting quieter and quieter, “you can do it whenever you like. Tired or not. It makes me feel…”

It makes me feel wanted.

It doesn’t look like he’s going to finish the sentence, but you hear him loud and clear. “Then I’ll lean on you, so that you’ll never have to doubt that I trust you. And you can lean on me too.” Not just literally, like right now. You hope that one day he can lean on you in all senses of the phrase, but you’ll know it’ll take time. 

Right now, though, you’re content. You lower your head to rest against his shoulder again, but tense up upon hearing him take in a deep breath. “You okay?”

He finds your hand–he’d gotten a little more confident with hand-holding over the past few weeks–and squeezes. “I’m fine. Quit worrying.” 

The night passes by in a blur as you enjoy your tea, slowly unwinding, slowly opening up to one another. You lean against Levi once more as he walks you back to your room, and you make a comment about chivalry living on with him. Perhaps you had hallucinated it, but you could have sworn Levi had chuckled at that comment. 

“Alright, you need to go to sleep. Now,” he insists, as the two of you approach your own private quarters. 

Yawning, you nod. “Promise me you’ll get some sleep, too.” Perhaps it is because you are feeling sleepy that you do not hesitate this time to reach out and cup his cheek, thumb lightly rubbing the bruising underneath his eye. “Please, get some rest.” 

His skin is smooth and very warm underneath your hand. Levi looks like a deer in headlights, and in your sleepy haze, you think to yourself, how adorable. 

You reach forward, and plant a light peck on his cheek. “Thank you for letting me lean on you, Lev. Sweet dreams.” Smiling, you enter your room, and you’re out like a light the moment your head hits the pillow. 

If you’d been a little more awake, perhaps you might have noticed the small gasp that had escaped your partner at the cheek kiss, or the way his fingers shyly brushed the spot where your lips had met his skin. 

Several evenings later, you offer to rub his stiff shoulders after noticing him wincing at his desk. Levi thanks you with a shy peck on the cheek, and he barely stifles his smile when you beam with joy. 

iii. Hugs & cuddles

“Have you seen Levi today?” You ask, leaning against the doorway to Hange’s office. It’s about as far as you’re willing to venture into the absolute pigsty that is their workspace - Levi’s cleanfreak tendencies must have rubbed off on you. 

Hange shakes their head, lifting their goggles up onto the top of their head. “He’s not in his office?”

“I’ve looked in his quarters, Erwin’s office, the kitchen, the mess hall, the ODM storage shed, the post room, the library, the stables, pretty much everywhere…” you shake your head with a sigh. “Hell, I’ve wandered down every corridor there is in this place and he’s not cleaning, either.” You know for a fact Levi’s still in the barracks - outside, a storm rages. The worst you’ve seen in months. There’s no way he would’ve gone out in this weather. “I’m sure it’s nothing, but… I’m worried.” 

Lightning strikes outside, washing Hange’s office with a furious white light for a split second. Their brows furrow as realisation strikes them. “It’s the storm,” they mutter to themself, eyes widening in realisation. You tilt your head. What is it that they know? 

Hange straightens up, smoothing back stray hairs. “Crap. I didn’t even notice how bad the weather was today… I think he’s in the storage basement. The one where he keeps all his cleaning supplies in.” 

Why on earth would he be in there? But you don’t question it. Hange has known Levi for longer than you have; you trust them wholeheartedly. “Thank you so much, I’ll go find him.” 

Their eyes flicker between you and their half-finished designs on their desk. Clearly, they are torn between coming with you to find Levi, and working on the project designs that they have to submit for approval in a matter of days. The blueprints resemble a large titan trap, with dozens of ropes and hooks. 

“Work on the project, Hange. It looks important. I’ll check on Levi, okay?”

Exhaling, they nod and grasp your shoulder, giving it a gentle squeeze in thanks. Not that you needed permission, but when you and Levi first started dating, Hange had been amongst the first to discover your relationship (beaten only by Erwin, for nothing ever went unnoticed by him), and had taken it upon themself to… interrogate you, so to speak. They’d only wanted the best for their friend, and their approval meant the world to you. 

You descend the steps and reach the basement cupboard in almost no time at all. The door handle is cold against your fingertips, and you slowly release it, choosing not to turn it at all. 

“Levi?” You knock gently on the wooden door. “Are you in there? It’s me.”

Pressing your ears to the door, you hear a slight rustling, which immediately fades. 

Your voice softens. “Could you let me in, darling?”

More shuffling. You lean back as Levi unlocks the door from the inside, and opens the door ever so slightly. “What,” he says. His voice sounds hoarse, as if it is the first time he’d spoken all day. 

“I was looking for you,” you say, as Levi’s fingers curl around the edge of the door and open it further, just enough for you to slip in. He closes and locks it almost immediately after you enter, plunging the basement into complete darkness. What is he doing in here without a candle? Questions lie heavy on the tip of your tongue, but you swallow them. You can hear Levi shuffling back to where he’d been before he’d answered the door. Following the rustling sounds, you carefully feel your way past the boxes of supplies and lower yourself to sit next to him. 

Here, you can’t hear much other than the sounds of Levi’s breathing. The sounds of soldiers going about their daily lives are all but silenced, as are the noises of the storm. 

It’s starting to make a little more sense why Levi took shelter down here. 

There’s something comforting about the quiet. Hesitant to shatter the silence that Levi is trying to find comfort in, you move slowly, ever-so slowly. Your hand makes its way around his shoulders, and tenderly tugs him in your direction so that your sides are pressed up against each other. His head finds its way onto your shoulder, his shaky breath tickling the base of your neck. Levi pauses, then melts into you, leaning into you with a small sigh. Your free hand grasps his trembling hand, and you raise his knuckles to your lips, pressing a gentle kiss onto them.

Dampness trickles into the crook of your neck. 

Oh. “C’mere,” you mumble, reaching to envelop the man with your arms. Levi, in turn, slips an arm around your middle and buries his face into the crook of your neck. Curling into your warmth, your partner sobs, and every fibre of your being burns with heartache at his distress. You hold him tight as he trembles against you, swallowing the lump in your throat that threatens to choke you. When was the last time somebody had held him like this? Held him the way he deserved to be held, like he was loved? You don’t know exactly what has him so upset - it seems far deeper than just a simple dislike of thunderstorms - but what you do know is that it has been too long since the last time he had ever received comfort.

This world had been far too cruel to him. 

Your hands rub circles into his heaving back, before they wander upwards, fingers scratching at his undercut, slowly carding through his hair. A whimper escapes him at that, but it seems to calm him, so you continue your gentle ministrations. 

When his sobs begin to subside, you feel him begin to pull away. Offering no resistance, you let Levi sit up properly. Still, you can’t see him, but the rustling tells you he is fumbling to put his meticulous appearance back together: re-tying his crumpled cravat, running his hands through his messy hair, tucking his shirt in, furiously wiping away any and all evidence of his tears from ruddied cheeks. 

You can feel his apology already lingering at the top of his tongue and quickly say, “you don’t have anything to be sorry about.” Exactly what it is you’re referring to you aren’t quite sure - his break in composure, or whatever it is about thunderstorms that had made him so upset he’d needed to flee to a cleaning cupboard six feet below the ground. 

The rustling pauses. “You don’t know that,” Levi responds tersely. “Don’t waste your time.” 

“Any time spent with you is not time wasted,” you counter. “When I said you can lean on me, all those weeks ago… I meant it. And the offer stands, always. You’re allowed to let yourself have this.”

This is apparently the wrong thing to say, as Levi clicks his tongue, and seethes, “am I? Am I allowed that?” He scrambles to his feet and marches towards the door, and you move to do the same. 

“Yes, of course you are!” You exclaim as Levi begins to turn the handle. 

He’s still fighting to keep his voice even as he says, “this conversation is over.” 

“What… no, it’s not.” It’s already more than clear from the last few minutes that this just happens to be a bad day for him, but you still don’t know why. “You don’t even have to tell me what’s wrong, just… don’t try to push me away. I’m here for you.” 

The door creaks open, throwing a sliver of golden light into the dark room. It cuts a striking silhouette of his profile, and you can see the half-dried tears glinting off his cheeks. His fist clenches around the door handle, muscles tensed, clearly yearning to flee so that he wouldn’t have to say anything, and you swallow. 

But he doesn’t throw the door open and head up the stairs like you expected him to. No, instead, Levi closes his eyes and shuts the door again, plunging the two of you back into darkness. 

“There was a thunderstorm that day.”

Your hand reaches out into the pitch black, and caresses his warm cheek. 

“I… we were on a mission, me and the two people I considered family, to kill Erwin and steal some documents for a nobleman. All in exchange for surface citizenship. It rained on an expedition, and I thought this was it, the perfect moment to separate from them, make my move and get them the peaceful lives on the surface that they deserved.” 

You propel forward before either of you could say another word. You don’t need to hear the rest of the story, not when you know exactly how it ends. Hugging him tight once more, you fail to blink away the tears in your eyes. 

Is there any point in saying it, that it isn’t his fault? You know that Levi had joined the Scouts a year before you transferred in from the Garrison, so a fair amount of time must have passed; but survivor’s guilt shows no mercy, only strengthening her vice-like grip as time passes. Your partner likes to live by the motto of ‘no regrets’, but you both know it is much, much easier said than done.

Futile as it may be, though, you say it anyway. Cupping his face and stroking his soft cheeks with your thumbs, you whisper whatever words of comfort springs to mind in the moment.

It isn’t your fault. 

I know the world has wounded you, and it has made you feel like you are deserving of nothing, but I don’t have the words to tell you just how wrong that is. 

If there is anybody on this wretched earth that deserves to be loved it is you. And maybe you aren’t used to the idea of being held and loved, maybe you didn’t think that any of this was in the cards for you, but please. Let me.

He leans his head into your touch, and kisses the palm of your hand. “Thank you,” he murmurs. “For… for all of this.”

Drawing him into your arms, you peck his cheek. “Why thank me for something you deserve? You are loved, you are not alone, and I never want you to doubt that even for a second.” 

Burying his face into the crook of your neck, Levi nods. “Okay.” He chokes on his words, composure threatening to break once more, but this time–this time, you know that he’s not going to pull away from you the moment he stops shedding tears. “Can we just… stay in here a little longer?” 

Hearing his voice so quiet, so filled with uncertainty… it breaks your heart over and over. 

Kissing the top of his head, you reply, “anything for you.” 

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Masterlist

[levmada]

First off, I would like to say I thoroughly enjoy your Levi posts, especially the ones where you break down his character, very insightful ❤

I've been stalking your tags a bit, and I noticed you mentioned Levi incorporating his mother into his wardrobe can you elaborate on this?

And secondly, you've likened Levi to Joel from TLOU, but for some reason I'm stuck on the dynamic of Levi losing two fingers vs how Ellie lost hers, and the aftermath, the mental gut-punch with losing something that is part of what makes them feel "useful". (I'm a masochist lol)

Thank you!!

awweeeee thank you so much!! :D

haha yes about the wardrobe part, either you mean the crossdressing post, or the kid levi in canon post😭😭😭?and there's quite the steep difference in theme.

to summarize for anyone else, 1: it's plainly obvious to me that Kenny first came upon Levi while he wore his mother's dress (or one of), and throughout his childhood, he cut it into a shirt (and speculatively, later keeps it with him as a handkerchief/his cravat).

2: I hc that Levi enjoys crossdressing with some resemblances to his mother because of, basically, the positive associations (similar to tea). for example, the perfume she used to wear.

there's not much to say that i can think of that i haven't already said🤔Kuchel was Levi's WORLD. she - would have - taught him the value of humanity and how to be kind, even though she didn't know what he'd go on to do. she was the foundation for the hero he'd go on to be. Levi's childhood is the antithesis of happiness (lol), but his mother was the closest thing to pure joy. it's just a fact.

similar to tea-drinking (as suggested in canon so far...), i don't see why cherishing memories of Kuchel would stop at that + there's the psychological implications.

as far as that goes, Kuchel died at what is the brain is soaking up info and experiences like a sponge. + the comparison is valid that Kuchel was heaven to Levi whereas he (and she) lived inside hell, so he as a child would latch on to her in common (ie, keeping her dress) and anomalous ways (ie, crossdressing as an adult (((w/ her as the primary influence for this behavior)))).

reminders of her are a source of comfort, tldr.

OMGGGG i've never thought of this!!!!

haha i've actually made a post on the symbolism around levi losing his fingers😅....and another post.... but to cut to the chase, levi's fixation on violence as pointless, unending (literally unending, bc zeke was healing as he cut him...), cruelty was his downfall + so was his selfishness when he chose armin while fully believing that erwin was the key to saving humanity.

his injuries were his punishment, but they didn't... destroy a priceless part of him like ellie's injury. he could still fight. in fact, if it weren't for levi's special way of holding one sword backwards, he would've had a much harder time.

but without her two fingers, ellie can't play guitar anymore. so her and joel's song won't ever ring out the same; that last connection she still had to him is ruined. also, what led to it, ellie succumbing to thoughtless, cold, cruel violence was her downfall in the world of the last of us, where one's humanity, so to speak, is the greatest refuge. in that fight, in the end, ellie tells abby to "just take him", referring literally to lev, but figuratively to joel. but along with that, ellie took away her own connection to joel herself.

so in the end of that, ellie loses everything, reconciles with her feelings towards joel, and - assumably - moves on. it's bittersweet... and she loses loses joel... but it's peace.

it's different for levi. yes cruelty that went against what His Person would want was his downfall like her, but he didn't lose everything. he almost did: his miraculous survival was out of his hands; if he wasn't an ackerman, he'd be dead. and dying would've been breaking his promise to erwin. levi's injury is a punishment of the highest order, and the establishment of his last chance to "keep his connection" to erwin, if you think of it in terms of how ellie's and levi's situations are related.

they both have their ups and downs :')

[klm-zoflorr]

Incorrect quotes..... Parthogenesis

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Eren: This revenge shit is very unrewarding it turns out. I have lost all my friends and am devoid of the sweet sweet burn of anger now that I've accomplished my goal. Everybody hates me. I'm not allowed less than 50 meters from a government building. Help.

Armin: I TOLD YOU SO!

Eren: Well, good for you!

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Commander Magath: *driving down the road*

Hange, driving up the same road: *yelling out the window as she passes him* PIG!

Commander Magath: *yelling back at Hange* BITCH!

Commander Magath: *rounding next curb, he crashes into a hug pig in the middle of the road and dies*

Ymir Fritz, watching on: Ah, if men would just listen

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Sasha: "sex" literally isn't real. "ohhh i just had sex" you "had" sex? where did it go? did it grow legs and run away?? idiot

Marcoco: Stop saying sex when what you mean is gender!!

Connie: I had gender with your mom

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Mikasa: Are you sure this is legal?

Annie: Why, are you taping this?

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Hange: God I do not like a single thing about you

Zeke: Tell me more

Hange: This isn't sexting

Zeke: It's better than sexting tbh

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*Mikasa getting ready for her date with Eren*

Levi: Tell him if he breaks your heart, I'll nail gun his.

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Eren: Your future self is talking shit about you right now.

Annie: Joke's on her. I'll ruin her fucking life.

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Jean: Connie, Sasha! How could you possibly have gotten into this much trouble in one day?!

Connie: It... It didn't take us the whole day...

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Hange: The bad news is you've lost a lot of blood

Sasha: What's the good news?

Hange: Well we've found most of it!

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Grisha: *Calling the doctor* My wife is going into labor what do I do I have forgotten all of my medical training

Doctor on the other end of the call: Is this her first child?

Grisha: No this is her husband

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Kuchel: You are so incredibly full of issues, you should do something about it! Go see a shrink, I don't know!

Kenny Ackerman: Oh yes!

Kenny: I've always been a big fan of head shrinking!

Kuchel: That's not-... That's not what it means...

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Falco: Why is "dark" spelled with a K and not a C?

Zofia: Why not?

Falco: Because you can't "C" in the dark...

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Kenny, at the therapist: Well, that is disappointing

Therapist: What is?

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Levi, at Mikasa's funeral: I need a moment with her... Alone. Please.

Everyone: Of course. *They leave*

Levi, leaning over Mikasa′s coffin: Okay, listen here you little shit. I'm not fooled by your cadaver palor and unnatural stillness. I know you’re not dead.

Mikasa: Yeah, no shit.

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Connie: Me and Annie, we get along fine in my beat up honda civic. We just don't have room to disagree.

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Sasha: It's been hard not having Ymir around. I never thought I'd miss being waterboarded so much.

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*Annie and Porco on their first day as coast guards*

Boss: 7 people died on your watch today

Annie, looking off into the distance: Yes but the coast is fine

Porco:

Boss:

Porco: They were all very mean and refused to tip. So, we just threw them back in the water.

Annie: Also you only found seven. We killed a lot more.

Porco: Yeah, but you didn't have to mention that tho

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Therapist: Kenny, you have a problem verbalising your emotions

Kenny: Can't say I'm surprised

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Hange: Love the train so much.... ...... I sit... ..... It goes........ ........ We arrive!!!!!

Connie: I understand that, but it still doesn't explain why we get to carry all the rails in 40 degree* weather while you sit in the shade and drink a monster energy on the rocks

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Carla: Can I have a private talk with you?

Grisha: Sure, as long as it’s not about tampons, because I just don’t understand them.

Hannes, wearing tampons as earplugs: How? It's so obvious what they're used for!

Carla: I asked for a PRIVATE talk with him!

Grisha: Oh, you just can't separate me and Hannes. We're a package deal!

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Eren: Don't you think you're being a little dramatic about me letting your cactus die?

Floch: Dramatic? Perhaps a little.

Floch: Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to look out the window with a grimly satisfied expression.

Floch: I paid this skywriter a lot of money to write “Eren likes pineapple on pizza” in the clouds.

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Levi: The sexual tension between me and self-destruction

Kenny: Nothing has sexual tension with you, kid

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Eren: You can diffuse any situation by saying, "are we about to kiss, right now?"

Historia: Eren, not only is that completely false and a ridiculous concept, but it's also not appropriate at all, we are at your trial for global genocide for fuck's sake-

Eren, leaning towards her: Are we about to kiss, right now?

Historia:

Historia, beet red: Nevermind.

Gabi: Can we PLEASE find another judge for this?!

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Jean: I've got a joke for you. What's "Ereh" short for?

Armin: What for?

Jean: He's got little legs

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Annie: Im a lesbiab

Annie: Lesbiam

Annie: Less bien

Mikasa: Its okay take ur time

Annie: Girls

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Mikasa: Annie and me buried the hatchet, figured you could try doing the same?

Ymir: I don't bury hatchets

Ymir: I sharpen them.

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Eren: I don't like being an adult

Carla: Yup I told you

Eren: You remember how you told me you put me in this world and you can take me out?

Eren: Take me out.

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Mikasa: So, you want to be the Sun in my life?

Jean: Yes.

Mikasa: Good, then stay 92,935,700 miles away from me

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Mikasa: Eren, stop! This isn't you, you've gone mad with power!

Eren: Well of course I have.

Eren: Have you ever tried going mad without power?

Eren: It's boring.

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Ymir: Before you embark on a journey of revenge, dig two graves. One for your foe, one for yourself.

Zeke: What a stupid fucking quote. I'm killing way more than two people idiot

Eren: Don't even bury them. Let them rot.

Zeke: Plus it's not like I'm gonna bury myself anyways? Why would I provide free cleaning labor like that

Eren: Maybe you're supposed to die in the grave?

Zeke: I'm not gonna dig myself a grave so someone can push me in and I can die as the biggest idiot that ever walked this Earth

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Udo, watching Gabi: If you were religious, that would be straight-to-hell behavior...

Gabi, putting scorpions in Zeke's dresser after he called her a shitty little kid: I don't believe in heaven or hell, but I do believe in Revenge

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Armin, about Eren: If karma doesn't hit you real quick, I fucking will.

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Falco: You know how in greek myths the people that die tragically sometimes get placed among the stars by the gods?

Colt: Yeah?

Falco: Call that a constellation prize.

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Sasha, taking care of Reiner after he got injured: It's okay Braus, stay calm, stay calm

Reiner: My name isn't Braus, it's Braun

Sasha: I know, I'm talking to myself.

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*Pieck sliding $5 to the zookeeper*

Pieck: Maybe one of those penguins ends up in my car?

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Historia: Fun fact: Blueberries are the only fruit named after a color

Armin: Starfruit

Historia: So close! That's a shape <33

Mikasa: Orange

Historia: Try again! <3 The color orange is named after the fruit.

Connie: Grape! "Gra" for gray! 🍇🤲😊

Historia:

Jean: You also forgot blackberries

Sasha: You idiot, black isn't a color.

Gabi: What about raspberries

Ymir: Green beans?

Falco: Lemons!! ♥️🥰☺️

Reiner: Wait aren't berries not fruit?

Historia: You all are so fucking stupid.

Zeke: What about dragon fruit

Historia: I am going to stone you

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Mikasa: Are oranges named orange because oranges are orange or is orange called orange because oranges are orange?

Connie: Which came first, the orange or the orange?

Historia: Orange was first used to refer to the fruit 1280 years ago but was not used as a color until around 1000 years ago.

Eren: What was the color called before then?

Sasha: There was no color, duh! Everything was black and white!

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Hitch: "I'm kind of in a weird mental place right now" I say, as if there are times when I am not in a weird mental place

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Erwin, bleary eyed at 7am: Why are you opening all the windows?

Levi: We have to let air in

Erwin: But it's raining!

Levi: You're not made out of sugar, are you?!

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*Eren getting into Mikasa's car*

Eren: Let's go

Mikasa: Uh... Uh... Hi? Nice to see you too?

*Armin getting into the backseat*

Armin: Wait, she's our Uber driver?

Mikasa: Uber driver? I thought we were going on a date, Eren!

Armin: I thought this was a guy's night out!

Eren: There's been a change of plans.

Mikasa: You could have just asked?? You didn't have to trick us?

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Porco: I'm not a 🚩 i'm more like a ⚠️ cause I do warn you, you just don't be listening

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Pieck: I'm not a 🚩 I'm a 🏁 cause you winnin' over there

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Hange: I don’t know the first thing about fashion. Pretty much all I can do is look at something and tell you if it’s clothes or not. This titan? Not clothes.

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*Thru the phone*

Erwin: Hey, I need your help, can you come back?

Hange: Uh, I can't, I'm buying clothes.

Erwin: Alright, well hurry up and come back to base.

Hange: I can't find them.

Erwin: What do you mean you can't find them?

Hange: I can't find them, there's only soup.

Erwin: What do you mean there's only soup?

Hange: It means there's only soup!

Erwin: Well then get out of the soup aisle!

Hange: Alright you don't have to shout at me!

*Silence*

Hange: There's more soup!

Erwin: What do you mean there's more soup?

Hange: There's just more soup!

Erwin: Go into the next aisle!

Hange: There's still soup!

Erwin: Where are you right now?

Hange: I'm at soup!

Erwin: What do you mean you're "at soup?"

Hange: I mean I'm at soup!

Erwin: What store are you in?

Hange: I'm at the soup store!

Erwin: Why are you buying clothes at the soup store?!

Hange: Fuck you!

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Zeke: And then we'll be transported to the Paths dimension, and we'll meet Ymir Fritz, that's our long-dead ancestor...

Eren: I can barely tolerate the living, why would I want to commute with the dead?

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Armin: Does necromancy only work on animals? What do you do if you accidentally necromancy a fence and then it starts growing branches?

Armin: WHAT DO YOU DO IF YOU NECROMANCY A BOTTLE OF SHAMPOO AND IT TURNS INTO AN ENTIRE PILE OF LIMES?

Armin: What if I accidentally necromancy a vaccine and then someone gets an armful of very live pathogen?

Armin: WHAT'S THE LIMIT ON DEADNESS? HOW RECENTLY DOES SOMETHING HAVE TO BE DEAD? COULD I NECROMANCY A DINOSAUR FOSSIL? WHAT IF I NECROMANCIED THE GROUND AND THEN DINOSAURS STARTED APPEARING?

Armin: WHAT IF I NECROMANCIED A LIMESTONE WALL AND IT JUST TURNED INTO A PILE OF MOLLUSCS? WHAT IF I MOLLUSCED A BUILDING? A MOUNTAIN?

Annie: Armin.

Annie: are u ok

Armin: NO

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Colt's contributions to meetings: What about the impact on civilian populations? Do we have enough ammunition, provisions in storage to not rely on outside help?

Falco's contributions to meetings: Do you think stars have feelings?

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Grisha: It's been ten year since my beloved son Zeke died...

Zeke: I was never your beloved son! And quit telling people I'm dead!

Grisha: Sometimes it feels like I can still hear his voice...

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Historia: *wearing a shirt reading "cunt era"*

Eren: *wearing a shirt reading "I'm high as fuck and have a gun in my backpack"*

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Grisha: The bad news is that you have a really rare disease

Rod Reiss: Oh, no. What's the good news?

Grisha: Well, you get to name it!

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Eren: What's a good starter vice for someone who wants to get into ruining their life?

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Gabi: Smarties

Yelena: Heroin and mass murder

Levi: You're both at very different ends of the spectrum yet I don't think either of you understood the question

Levi: The real answer is Erwin Smith

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Zeke, getting up in the middle of a meeting: Pieck and I are not longer dating

Pieck: Zeke, that's a horrible way to tell people that we got married

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Zeke: My mother and I spent some quality time together. Got our hands dirty.

Pieck: Gardening?

Zeke: Grave-digging.

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Historia: Food trucks but instead of food, it's therapy and they're called automofeels

Rod Reiss: I know you're my last living descendant but with that kind of suggestions, I feel like I'd be better off picking a manged rat off the street

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Floch: If I didn't know any better, I'd say you're impressed.

Yelena: But you do know better.

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Eren: I wanna be a reverse tooth fairy where I rob people and then scatter human teeth on their bed

Sasha: a dentist

Eren: I don't know what your dentist is doing to you but I think you need to go to the police

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*Pieck is coming back with McDonalds*

Zeke, reaching for his happy meal: Sorry, but there's no "we" in "fries"

Pieck: But there is an "I" *she steals all of his fries*

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Jean: Well, if you're not at least a little bit gay for your friends, then what kind of friend are you?

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Mikasa: The feminine urge to be ominous & terrifying...

Hange: Mood

Mikasa: You are like if a moth was wearing clown shoes.

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Eren: A fun fact about me is i have never forgiven anyone for anything

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Bertholt: Have you ever been told you can be a bit intimidating?

Annie: Yes, every day of my life since kindergarten.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Sasha: Being alive is great because there are so many different great vegetables you can sauté. But then there are also The Horrors

Falco: So true

Falco: Actually no. This is weird.

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Uri Reiss: What is a sex drive where is the sex going does it even have a licence

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Levi, to Erwin: You're gay because you like men

Levi: I'm gay because I hate women just a tiny bit more than I hate men. We are not the same.

Hange: Yaoi vs shounen

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Annie: What’s it like being tall?

Historia: Is it nice?

Armin: Can you reach comfortably for the cupboards?

Reiner: I live in constant fear of the short people, who, in my experience, will climb four chairs, two boxes, a small coffee table, and six oddly placed stools to get what they want.

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Eren: I don't know whether to bail you out, Mikasa, you've been in jail three times.

Zeke: Dad, Eren is cheating.

Grisha: Calm down, son.

Zeke: You are supporting him just because he bought you a hotel on Park Place

Eren: Someone has to take care of him in his old age? Who is going to do it but me? You?

Mikasa: *slyly knocks the Monopoly board off the table😼*

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Reiner: Hey girl ive been yearning for you the normal amount

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Grisha: Great. Here comes the woke mob to cancel me for killing and eating several people.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

The 104th, Hange, Erwin, Levi, Grisha, Carla, Hannes wearing party hats, popping confetti cannons and cheering: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Eren: Uh. Thanks I guess?

Historia: You don't like being celebrated?

Eren: I prefer to be villified, my name invoking fear over a great cloud of darkness...

Carla: Muffins, Overlord?

Eren: Thamk you

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Connie: I like you lets go to hell together

Sasha: Hell? More like HELL P!! Ahah

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Rod Reiss: We need back-up with the military police!! Are you free?

Kenny: No actually, I am very expensive.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Connie: Since when are drapes flammable?

Historia: Since always, Connie! Drapes have ALWAYS BEEN FLAMMABLE!

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Mikasa: I have yet to encounter a problem where a sword didn't factor into the solution at least in some way.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Parental figure: Don't go into the forest, it's full of lemon-stealing whores!

Teenage Hange: Ooh, spooky!

Teenhange: What specific parts of the woods are they in, so I can avoid them extra hard?

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Reiner, in front of Sasha's grave: Rip i was always into you

Sasha, popping out from behind a tree: ? Worst confession ever

Reiner: You're not dead??

Reiner: I lied

Reiner: You are nothing to me

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*Gabi and Falco looking over the bones of Rod Reiss*

Falco: What happened to him?

Historia: Ah well, he tried to outpizza the Hut

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Falco: I heard it's supposed to rain

Colt: Oh, yeah? But look at this sun!

Zeke:

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Pieck: Brr, getting a bit cold, uh?

Gabi: Yeah, it's supposed to rain later

Zeke:

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*Zeke passing through next to Magath adressing the kids*

Commander Magath: We're not gonna do the lesson outside today, it's supposed to rain

Zeke:

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Annie: Galliard, mind helping me set up the tables outside for my mind reading scam?

Porco: Don't start this now, it's supposed to rain this afternoon!

Zeke: I heard it's never going to rain again.

Porco: What is the fucking matter with you

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Pieck: I decided I'm actually not gonna break up with you over your corny jokes, Porco convinced me otherwise.

Zeke: What a re-LEAF. I should get you flowers. I know it STEMS from a place of love, now our relationship can BURGEON out of bounds.

Pieck: I changed my mind.

Zeke: Ok, but Porco avocated for me?? Really?

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Annie: Zeke? What was that message you sent me?

*Shows him the phone, with a garbled texting mess on it that reads as follows: pleusr bereing qi 2 auffce chabi goht pik 🏹. shi went hair glleiteur pin. kiuk houry aim worrded*

Zeke: "Please bring the key to the office back, Gabi is threatening Pieck at gunpoint, she wants her glitter pen back and I seem to be the only one worried about it."

Annie: I read serial killer diaries with better punctuation than this

Zeke: But do you have the keys?

Annie: No.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Annie: What about the bow emoji?

Zeke: They censored the gun on my phone

Annie: No, look there's the little water gun...

Zeke: It doesn't convey the urgency of the situation

Annie: Nothing in your message conveys the urgency of the situation since you need a degree in foreign languages to understand it

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Commander Magath: Do you have any children?

Dina Fritz: Yes, I have one that's just under two.

Commander Magath: I know how many one is

Commander Magath: Is he big enough to man a cannon yet

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Yelena: Blackmail is such an ugly word. I prefer extortion. The X makes it sound cool.

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Reiner: Be myself?? The person who got me into this mess???

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Ymir: Will I find a purpose?

Annie, posing as a fortune teller: No.

Ymir: u didn't do the thing with the cards

Annie: *flips one card, maintaining eye contact* No.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Pieck: *unbuttoning shirt* Oh my god, it's hot as hell in here.

Yelena: Yes, but why are you unbuttoning my shirt?

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Connie: You into cars?

Ymir: Yes, it truly was a masterpiece of a film

Connie: No i mean are you a cars person

Ymir: I'm a human.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Connie: I tried making my own Red Bull with crushed up caffeine pills, twenty-one shots of expresso, carbonated licorice water and gummy vitamins. The doctor said I'm lucky to be alive.

Connie, 24 hours before: I can perceive twenty-three spatial dimensions and am fighting my own soul. I'm winning by the way.

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Levi: i am at a loss for words to describe how absolutely stupid this plan was!

Sasha, narrating: Despite being at a loss for words, the Captain yelled at us for the next thirty minutes.

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*Hange getting ready to go on an expedition in the titan forest*

Hange: If you hear me screaming bloody murder, there's a good chance I'm enjoying myself.

Levi: ...figured that one out

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Mikasa, when Eren leaves for Zeke's side: You're leaving me? I'm coming with you.

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Gabi: What's the difference between Reiner and a magnet?

Gabi: A magnet has a positive side!

Reiner: Ah-Ah. Very funny.

Falco: A magnet would have laughed at this quality joke!

Reiner: I wish I were an household item

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Hange: You know, you look pretty fit yourself. What do you play?

Erwin: Anybody that gets close enough.

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Mr. Xaver: I'm sorry Zeke, your dad was pronounced dead

Zeke: *tearing up*

Zeke: I've been pronouncing it wrong this whole time??!

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Historia: I tried your "salad" thing today, and Ew. I only ate one of those red and white nasty apple things, and I couldn't handle it after.

Pieck: Radishes, Historia

Historia: Mini dirt apples

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Kenny the Boomer, looking at his dead phone: How do we bring this thing back to life? Magic? Live sacrifice? I know a guy in town-

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Floch, lovingly, to Eren: You inspire me to be so much worse

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Floch, interviewing people: What do you want for Christmas?

Annie: Uhhh... for me to be alive

Levi: You know those microfibers cloths they have at big stores?

Historia: I just want Captain Levi to have a great time. Cause, he's been really really sad and angry lately. And you know, that's all I really need, more happiness in the world.

Connie: I'll say I want a big booty hoe, sitting on my face right now. Blrrr!

Sasha: Free weed!

Eren: Uhhhh.... World peace

Mikasa: Dick

Hange: *Pouring everyone a big glass of her special cocktail* Mental stabilityyyy baby!

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Jean: I'd roast you, but my mom says you can't burn trash.

Jean: *moon-walks out of the room*

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Annie: I'm not sure whose twisted idea it was to put hundreds of adolescents in underfunded dilapidated training camps, taught by people whose dreams were crushed years ago, but I admire the sadism.

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Yelena: I've tried some eyeliner, thoughts?

Floch: Sorry but someone already has swag in this enimity and it's ME

Yelena: You? Cool? You are like if a moth was wearing clown shoes.

Floch: Where did you even hear that expression

Yelena: Idk

Floch: Well you look like you could stab someone with these anyways

Yelena: The clown shoes?

Floch: The eyeliner.

Yelena: That's the goal

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Zeke organising a play about his life: Porco, I think you should play the role of my father.

Porco: I don't want to be your father??

Zeke: That's perfect, you already know your lines!

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Marcel: I don’t know why I do the things I do. Never did. I’m a damn mystery to myself. It makes my existence... Exciting, you know. You never know what's gonna happen. Am I going to jail, am I getting a medal for bravery? Am I driving on the highway at three in the morning to ruin my life and everybody in this town's again??

Ymir: Are you gonna get caught, cooked and eaten by a random girl in the woods?? Who the hell knows.

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*Porco, in his jock attire, yelling at the tv*

Bertholt: You're yelling like the players are actually gonna listen to you

Porco: You're in love with a girl who doesn't even know you exist

Bertholt:

Bertholt: Never talk to me again

*Bertholt goes to his room to try and glue back the shattered remains of his ego*

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Historia: I think my dad never loved me.

Zeke: HA! Loser. I always KNEW my dad never loved me.

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Sasha, leaving the Training Corps in s2 to go save her family: There I go side questing again!

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Flight attendant: Is there a doctor on the plane?

Armin: Yes, but I'm not that kind of...

Flight attendant: The pilots are debating the merits of the terminologies of "the dark ages" vs. "late antiquity" vs. "the early middle ages".

Armin: Okay. I'm here.

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Bertholt: Annie... I need to tell you something.

Annie: Alright?

Bertholt: You're hot then you're cold, you're yes then you're no, you're in and you're out, you're up then you're down, you're right when it's wrong, you... I guess what I want to say is you're incredible and I care about you. You're so good... At everything. I deeply admire you. I could get lost in the blue of your eyes, I feel like I'm flying when I look at you. Your hair is a golden crown, which you deserve because you are a queen. Your laugh is rare and dry like an oasis in the desert, it's the only thing in the world that can quench my thirst. What I'm trying to say is... I love you.

Annie: Alright.

Bertholt:

Annie: Thanks. You... Uh... You always fill a room with your presence... Like a stately sequoia tree.

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Sasha: *sees a ghost* omg are you dead

Ghost Gabi: Of corpse

Ghost Gabi: The other ghosts said they'll beat my ass because of this joke. Grave mistake.

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Levi: Oh yes, my uncle is out of town, said something about tying up loose ends?

Uri Reiss:

Kenny: *tying up the ends of a black bag filled with a dead body*

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Falco: Is that a gun in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?

Gabi:

Gabi: I don't think you know what this sentence means

Gabi: But yes, it's a gun.

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Connie: Are you alright?

Historia: I'm fine.

Connie: No, but really?

Historia: I mean yeah i carry around an immense sadness that destroys my will to live more and more everyday but like im fine

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Erwin: I rarely find cocaine jokes funny.

Erwin: But occasionally, an one-liner makes me snort.

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Annie: We have an issue. Most of your bleeding is internal.

Marcel: Well, isn't that good news?! That's where the blood is supposed to be anyways!

Pieck: I don't think it's in the benefit of humanity as a whole to try to save him...

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Mikasa: I act as if I don't care if people dislike me. But deep down? I secretly enjoy it.

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Yes, do believe good cop/bad cop is the essence of the MikAnnie dynamic

Yes, I know titans aren't supposed to leave bones behind. I'm gonna need you to get allll the way off my back about this!

Yes, I did watch the Wednesday series recently. It's a good show, innit? Full of punchy one-liners!

Yes, this end note is getting entirely too repetitive.

Yes, there's more?

*: 104° F for you eagle people

[momtaku]

Thoughts on character writing

I sincerely hope @greatkittyinthesky doesn’t mind me sharing this reply publicly. It was in response to a post where I mentioned that Isayama is generally good with characters, 

When I read the words “Connie is as well written as Erwin”, I too found it hilarious. I wasn’t on reddit to see the fallout  but I’m pretty sure whomever made that statement was most likely eviscerated in the comments. I’d expect maybe three people would upvote a statement like that and the rest would riot.

But the reply got me thinking about character writing in general and I mentally starting comparing characters in terms of their writing. What makes Erwin better written than Connie? Is Floch a well written character? Is Zeke? How much does me liking a character factor into my assessment. Can I be objective on this? 

I like Connie. He was a good character. He was consistent. Believable. He had a relatable motivation. A clear goal. He contributed to the themes of the manga. He met all the obvious check points.  What hurt Connie was that when it came time to give him conflict, focus and development, it was too late in the story and too inconsequential when compared with the bigger themes. Because of poor timing and the breakneck speed of those chapters, Connie’s apparently willingness to kill a child for his mother sake never felt believable, and that hurt him as a character. If we’re talking S-Tier ranking, Connie gets a C Contrast that with Mikasa. Since her development happened in the first 51 chapters, she peaked a little too early. She also had the disadvantage of being paired with two far more vocal characters so she was thus often seen as the silent third wheel in whatever was going on with Armin and Eren. Still, what we got of Mikasa was good. The development in those first 51 chapters was fantastic. Beyond that she was always consistent and I felt, believable. I’d give her a B.

So that’s been my brain in my quiet moments this week. Floch: C. Levi: S. Zeke: A. Hange: A (although I feel like if Hange had gotten a backstory, they’d be an easy S-tier). Erwin: S. Bert: A. Ymir: S. Historia and Reiner had amazing stories, S-tier when the focus was on them, but then they fizzled to the point that I don’t know how to rank them.

My other lay-awake-at-3am thought this week is that Isayama is right. Bystander was his best chapter and Keith Shadis was a good character turned great because of that. He and Kenny Ackerman are proof that it’s quality over quantity when it comes to writing. 

Anyway, thank you @greatkittyinthesky for the reply. It’s been forever since I’ve written a post that wasn’t in response to an ask. It’s strange to be flinging unsolicited thoughts into the wild but here we are. 

[morgancgaliano]

Cattivi preferiti negli anime:

- Orochimaru, Naruto;

- Sasori, Naruto;

- Madara Uchiha, Naruto;

- Rezo, Slayers;

- Prince Diamond, Sailor Moon

- Nnoitra Gilga, Bleach;

- Muramasa, Bleach;

- Kougi Ginjo, Bleach;

- Cancer Deathmask, Saint Seiya;

- Radamanthys della Viverna, Saint Seiya;

- Pandora, Saint Seiya;

- Hades, Saint Seiya (ogni serie, non fa differenza);

- Ophiuchus Odysseus, Saint Seiya Next Dimension;

- Stain, My Hero Academia;

- Dabi, My Hero Academia;

- Goku Black, Dragonball;

- Kenny Ackerman, Shingeki No Kyojin;

- Annie Leonhardt, Shingeki No Kyojin;

- Lelouch Lamperouge, Code Geass;

- Cornelia Li Britannia, Code Geass;

- Dracula, Hellsing;

- Walter C. Dornez, Hellsing

- Azula, Avatar - The Last airbender;

- Garou, One Punch Man;

- Solf J. Kimblee, Fullmetal Alchemist;

- Lust, Fullmetal Alchemist;

- Greed, Fullmetal Alchemist;

- Seishiro Sakurazukamori, X 1999;

- Zagato, Magic Knight Reyheart;

- Homura Akemi, Puella Magi Madoka Magica;

- Shalltear Bloodfallen, Overlord;

- Gilles de Rais, Fate

- Gilgamesh, Fate

[rouge-variant]

Hey! If it's okay to request this kind of story theme, can I request a canon levi who gaves himself up to be tortured just to protect his 9th month pregnant wife? In instance where they were both kidnapped and Levi surrendered to be tied up by his wrists with chains, shirtless, suspended, beaten- (with the line of "don't touch her and hurt me instead, I surrender!") while his wife is just unconscious but vulnerable? But then as Levi felt he's almost passing out, he was awoken by the cry of his pregnant wife whom is in a phase to give birth at a wrong time and place- luckily his Ackerman strenght and power awakens at the same time so he is able to break free from his chains, fight the bad guys, bring himself and his wife to the hospital. Happy ending please where Levi is already healed and his wife gave birth to healthy twin boys babies making them both very happy and safe, and I hope this is not confusing. Thank You :))

This is by far the longest story I've written. It was quite the interesting idea and I appreciate all the details. I'm pretty sure that I've gotten everything but if I missed something, let me know and I'll fix it immediately. I'm really sorry for the wait, this room way longer to write then I expected. Thanks for your request and I hope you enjoy!!!

Levi Ackerman x Reader: Adding it all Up

Trigger Warning: Due to the nature of this requests, there will be mentions and partial details of; abuse to Levi, pregnancy, childbirth, panic attacks, home invasion, blackmailing. Please keep this in mind while you read.

"Darling, why are you awake?" Levi rolled onto his side to face you. You gave him a tired smile and ran you hand over your stomach.

"Blame the kicking monster. They've been up for the past five minutes and haven't settled down yet" you hummed and he chuckled. He placed his hand next to yours and felt a stronger kick.

"Definitely my kid" he murmured and you playfully smacked the back of his head.

"Who's side are you on?" You huffed and he kisses your hand apologetically.

"Kicks, settle down" he muttered against your bump. Kicks was the nickname Levi dedicated to your growing child. Due to the Ackerman genes that they undoubtedly inherited, they had the same strength as their father and loves to constantly remind you of it.

Neither of you knew the gender. The doctor had found out but you requested to keep it a surprise. Something to look forward to. Unless there was something endangering you or Kicks, you both wanted to have a surprise in store after the delivery. Which was approuching soon.

You were reaching your due date. The baby was to be born anywhere around these next few days. Levi had gotten a leave from work, Erwin sent him away because;

A) Levi has been stressing about you, getting distracted, become to jumpy anytime anyone meantions your name.

B) Erwin doesn't want you to be alone if the baby decides to come when your home alone.

C) Erwin is a close friend to you both and just deemed this as necessary. And defentily not because he knew that he might end up stealing all the baby snuggles so he's giving Levi a bit of a headstart.

"Levi...you're lost in thought again. What's running through that mind of yours?" Your voice rings through his ears and he sits up, wrapping an arm around your back and bringing you as close as he could, minding your bump.

"Nothing important...this still hasn't quite hit me that this is real" he partly lies. Yes it's true that he can't believe that he has you, that he's going to have a family of him own blood, any day now. His other family, while he won't admit it out loud, consists of Hanji, Erwin and his squad. But this....this is something else.

The other thing he didn't meantion, was what also sparked an early leave for him. Thanks to some friends of Erwin's, they received notice of a group from Levi's past coming out to get him. After the events with the Military Police, Historia's crowning and the tragic events following Kenny's appearance again, someone wasn't happy. Threats and blackmailing were part of it and not that he was doubt his abilities but Levi wanted to be as close to you as possible if those thugs attempted anything.

"Are you sure that's all?" You pressed and he hummed.

"Yeah. Now please try and sleep again. Who knows when we'll be able to sleep peacefully once they're born" he helps you lie down again, still keeping you close with him.

"Good point. And I think you talking to them calmed them down" you murmur, holding one of Levi's hands wrapped around below your bump. He kisses your neck and you both mutter 'good night' before falling asleep again. Or at least you did.

Levi stayed awake. Not my choice since it was now past the timeframe where he would be able to sleep, as well as the unsettling feeling building in his gut.

One hour passed and nothing happened.

Two hours passed and still nothing.

Three hours passed and he found himself being separated from you. They intruders held a cloth against your mouth for a few seconds, the sickly sweet smell luring you into a deeper sleep. He must've dosed off at some point, otherwise this wouldn't have happen. But now, he watches helplessly as your wrists and ankles are tied together. They leave you slumped against the wall as two other thugs move closer to you.

Levi had cooperated poorly leading up to you being chained up. He had attended to fight the thugs off but they're were too ma y and he was constantly distracted by your wellbeing to be able to hold them off. So now he's on his knees, his nightshirt reduced to shreads that just barely sit on his fit body. The chains around his wrist are suspended from the support bean on the ceiling.

"Your quarrel is with me, not her"Levi growled but the leader grabbed his chin and forced him to look up.

"Smart boy, but we already know that little Ms. Ackerman is your weakness. You won't talk with having something worth the trade right?" Levi bit his tongue not to talk back. The larger man was right. He wasn't going to talk. Not unless you were at risk. The internal panic was hard to keep hidden. His family, his own family that he was finally going to have could easily perish right here, right now.

So he made a choice, one he knew he wouldn't regret, and lowered his head in submission.

"Don't touch her" he hissed. The large man crouched down to here him better.

"Speak up boy"

"I said don't touch her. Hurt me instead. I surrender" he glared dead in the eyes of the thug who let out a deep chuckle and let his men have their way with Levi.

Punches, kicks, whips and cuts were all handed to Levi. There was a strong smell of iron in your bedroom but Levi took them all with nothing less the occasional gasp or muffled groan of pain.

It was dark when the thugs broke in and now light filtered into the room.

"Alright boys, let's leave this surprise for Ms. Ackerman when she wakes up" the leader stopped his men the minute you started stirring. It was sick that they would make you experience this and Levi wanted to cover his arms and his back to avoid the shock and guilt that would be thrown at you the moment you woke up. But he couldn't. Everything was so heavy. His muscles wouldn't respond to the cry of his mind. He didn't want to be the first thing you saw when you woke up.

"Levi...?" Your voice was so fragile as it slurred. Eyelids slowly fluttering as they focused on him. He lowered his head, unable to see the fear and anxiety on your face as you saw his wounds. The sharp gasp and the muffled cry of his name was enough.

"Darling please don't look" his voice was rough and sore despite him not screaming nor crying all night.

"On the contrary, if you want your "Darling" to remain unharmed, I would tell her to keep watching" the boss's large hand held your head so you had to watch as the other thugs went back to attacking Levi.

"Levi! No please, please fight back. Please! Don't do this! Levi!!" You screamed and sobbed as you watched Levi not move at all, absorbing the attacks and giving up any fight. There wasn't a way out of this, not without you getting hurt so Levi concluded that this was the best option. Your screams hurt more than anything that the men could do to him and he wanted to look at you and lie that everything was going to be ok but he couldn't. The minute he would've looked at you, would've broken him.

The scene in front of you hurt you, it hurt mentally but soon it started hurting physically. Kicks must've sensed something was going on and gave you a firm reminder that they were still there. You groaned in pain and held your swollen bump between your contained wrists. Your eyes flickered away from Levi for a moment as you tried to calm them down.

"Shhh...we're ok baby, we're alright" you cooed quietly but it did nothing to ease the pressure building in your lower stomach. This added to your anxiety and you whimpered Levi's name.

"I'm scared Levi....I need you. You can't leave me. We need you" your sobs were weak now and your voice quivered. As another strong kick of pain hit your lower area, you knew what was happening. Out if all times too.

Your voice was fading for Levi. He barely heard anything but you saying his name. You grew quiet and he strained to see you. His head raised slightly and his eyes fluttered open. No longer slumped against the wall, but hunched over. The leader of the thugs held you so that you were still forced to watch Levi but the growing vein on his arm indicated that he was getting fed up with your whimpers and moans of pain.

"Screw the deal, you're annoying the hell outta me" he sees the thug lift his arm, ready to slap you and everything goes red. All noise is drowned by his hammering heartbeat, his noise only picks up on the smell of fresh iron and he feels nothing but the skin of human touching his hands.

He isn't sure how he ended up here but he was in the process of breaking the leader's arm when your broken cry rings clearly in his ear. You've moved back further, curling up into a ball and shaking in pain. Tears stream your beautiful face as your breathing comes out in choked gasps. You're scared, not of Levi, but of what's to come. Your home is on the outskirts of town, closer to Wall Sina then Wall Rose and you're not sure if Kicks will wait until your safe in a medical facility.

"Levi..." you whimper again and hee's immediately by your side, peppering your skin with little kisses and stroking your hair. His clean hand takes your trembling one, running his thumb over your knuckles. The chains around your body are broken.

"Talk to me, Darling. Look at me, we're ok right" his voice is soft and his strong front is there but his eyes jump to every part of you to ensure that you aren't injured at all. He knows from your crys what's happening with the baby but if you're hurt anywhere else, he won't risk endangering you further.

"J-just the baby. But I th-thought you were going to leave me" you cry again, now clutching his nightshirt. He hums and moves one arm under your legs, frowning when he feels the fabric of your nightdress wet.

"My wa-ater broke. I don't know when" you look up to him and he gives you a small nod and a quick peck on your forehead.

"That's alright. I just want you to count how long is in between each kick ok?" He wraps your arms around his neck and effortlessly rises to his feet, you safely held against him.

The early sun greeted you as he started walking with you into the small town near your home. Shopkeepers were setting up with booths and getting their morning shipments in before customers would be lining up. Most of them were too busy minding their own business, having to fit a busy schedule, so Levi was able to easily to walk through the streets. Your whimpers and groans were becoming more frequent as the time between each pain session or contraction, as you now thought of it, was shorter. This cause more panic to grow in you as you feared that you wouldn't end up making it to the hospital. By foot, you were at least an hour away, even with Levi's fast pace.

"Not so tense Darling, I'll figure this out. I need you to be strong right now. Just like when we're out fighting. I know your scared but we don't want Kicks to know right?" He glanced down at you briefly. Comforting definitely wasn't his strong suit but if he mentioned anything about the baby, your 'mom' mode would activate and help you gather yourself a bit more. Which is exactly what he needed right now.

"Y-yeah..." you nod, biting back another groan.

"Captain Levi!?" Someone ran up to you and you instantly recognized their voice. Alester, one of the soldiers in your sqaud, had seen Levi a block or so ago but didn't see you in his arms until now. His eyes looked down at you and he knew what was happening. He knew you were pregnant when you suddenly disappeared from HQ on "personal leave" since he overheard the conversation between you and Hanji.

Levi was about to open his mouth and tell the young man off but Alester beat him to it.

"My dad's just finished his morning supply round. He'll take you into town" he offered and Levi gave a quick nod, following towards the wagon. He placed you down gently then crawled in and sat ou up against him. Ot wasn't very comfortable but it was better than nothing.

The ride took fifteen minutes and was quiet other than the whispered praises Levi gave you for holding out this long. Your hair stuck to your forehead and your body trembled exhaustedly. The only think keeping you going, aside from the adrenaline, was the thought of meeting your baby soon. Levi was feeling the same, his back and arms hurt from earlier and he was drained from the bloodloss but all of that was not inpsortsnt at the moment. You witnessed men attacking Levi only then to go into labor and have the added stress of being nowhere near the hospital for your first birth. You were his priority. You and Kicks.

Upon arrival, Alester ran in to grab a doctor while Levi helped get you out of the wagon. Carrying you the same way as before and following the trail of nurses, setting up for your sudden arrival.

"Take care you two" Alester bid farewell quickly as you were taken to the delivery room and placed on a bed. The plushie texture did little to relieve the pain in your body but it at least made you relax a bit more.

"Captain, we can't have you in here" the doctor spoke up as he tried to push him out gently.

"Why the hell not?" Levi snapped and the doctor flinched a little. He shook his head but held his ground.

"You are not in your best condition. Your wounded and your agressive nature is setting off everyone else in the room" the doctor explained and Levi's jaw clenched. He didn't want to leave you like this. You needed him and he needed to make sure that you would be ok.

"Please sir. The longer I stand here, talking to you, the longer it takes me to help your wife" the doctor's voice was calm and patience, and Levi knew that he had to let this one go.

"You're going to do amazing Darling. I'll be waiting for you outside" he came over quickly, muttering this to you and pressing his forehand against yours. You nod, then he stood up and followed another nurse to tend to his injuries.

Six hours later, he was finally allowed back into the room. It took six hours before he was able to see you, lieing peacefully in the bed and holding a bundle if blankets. That's what he saw from the doorway of the room. He saw you, your tired eyes lighting up upon seeing him and the tip of the blanket containing your child.

"Hi" you greet with a giggle.

"Hey" he greets back, a mixture of excitment and nervousness evident in his eyes.

"Did you want to meet them?" You ask and giggle again as his eyebrows furrowed in confusion. Of course he wanted to meet them, what kind of question is that? But...didn't you already know the gender? Not that he was against that kind of stuff but your behavior set him off. He couldn't see the child because you had pillows to help prop up your tired arms. So once he was right at your side, he was able to see clearly what you had hidden.

In either of your arms, were two black haired, pink faced babies. One was passed out and the other had it's big steel eyes open and looking back at him. Yet another piece of proof that they carried the Ackerman gene.

"Twins, we have twins?" His voice was quiet and he looked at you to confirm.

"Yeah, we have two baby boys" you smiled brightly as tears made your eyes shine. Levi said nothing and instead rested his head against yours again. His family was finally here and it was bigger than he ever thought it would be.

"Thank you" he murdered, kissing your forehand before resting his against it again.

"Thank you for this. For giving me a family" his voice waved a little as he struggled to fight back his emotions. The doctors had left to give you two some room and bond all together.

"I'm so proud of you Darling. You were so strong" he praised you repeatedly as you nuzzled your head into the crook of his neck.

The younger Ackerman who was still awake, watched curiously at you two, eventually catching the eye of his father.

"Did you want to hold one?" You asked slowly, knowing that this was one of the thing Levi told you he was worried about.

"Y-yeah..." he nodded after a few moments of hesitation. He ran out to get one of the nurses to help. He learned quickly and soon enough, he was seated on the bed next to you, holding his youngest son against his chest. Their eyes met and at this point, Levi couldn't hold back his tears anymore. He was overwhelmed with joy of finally meeting his sons. He was relieved that the four of you made it out of the mess form earlier.

"Not so bad right?" you chimed softly and he looked at you and nodded. There you go again, taking care of him over yourself, despite the situations. It made him smile. It's not like you just pushed out two tiny humans a few moments ago or anything. And yet, he's the one who needs the most reassurance.

"They need names. We can't just keep calling them 'Thing One' and 'Thing Two'" you bring up and he looks down in thought. You guys discussed a few names during your pregnancy and he thinks back to them. You had a name that was very important to you that you wanted and he really liked it too. Part of him wanted to use the name of one of his fallen friends but it also brought back too many painful memories so he chose against it.

His head perked up at the sound of your voice and he saw you saying a bunch of different names to the boy in your arms.

"What are you doing?" He chuckled and you looked over.

"Letting him pick his name" you stated, as if it was obvious and went back to it.

Luke - a yawn

Tristan - a sneeze

Emmerson - distracted and drool

Finally you said the name of someone close to you and the baby gave a small toothless smile at you and that's how his name was picked. Levi did the same with the one he was holding and it only two him two attempts to get it. The nicknames chnsged slightly too. Your eldest son was still Kicks because that's what he did when he was excited. And your youngest was Pup. Bscause he was easily distracted, just like when a dog sees a squirrel.

Once they both were fed and asleep, Levi cuddled next to you in bed. You lazily traced little circles on his arms where the bandages were, silently asking how bad the damage was.

"A few scars and bruises, nothing too serious" he muttered. Neither of you talked about the incident other than that, not wanting to ruin the special moment. You leaned more into Levi as you slowly drifted off to sleep.

"I love you so much" Levi muttered and you smiled subconsciously as he stroked your cheek. He looked over to the two craddles.

"And I love you two just as much" he mutters quietly so that it doesn't wake them.

A few days past and Erwin came down to see you two. He got Levi's letter the day the kids were born and launched an investigation into why those people attacked you two and to ensure no one else attempted it again. Once the important things were discussed, he gave all the attention to the twins. He would hold the one you weren't holding at the moment which meant that Levi often read empty handed. He got fed up with it eventually and kicked the tall blond out who laughed at hid friend's antics.

Hanji came to see you guys once you had returned home and gotten the mess cleaned up. They had contained all of their energy and were much calmer around the tiny Ackermans. They were even hesitant to hold them and Levi was the one to persuade them into holding one. They were just too worried about upsetting the babies, though it quickly faded once they held one.

The rest of the sqaud had to wait two month, then Levi let then come and see. They were all over the moon to see two instead of just one. Armin and Sasha were the first to hold them since Levi had an undoubted favoritism to those two. And they were naturals at holding them. Eren and Miaksa were next and they both were a little awkward at first but soon got the hang of it. Connie and Jean were last and Jean had a similar reaction to Hanji. Connie had all the experiment needed and even helped to calm Kicks once he started crying.

The entire time, Levi watch and his heart fluttered with happiness. You had given him the life he never thought he would have. He had a family, one of his own blood and one of all his closest friends. You were there to help calm and guide him when things were uncertain and he couldn't have been grateful. You gave him the world and you felt the same way as you see your two sons playing with the their extended family.

[maxthefryingpan12]

My Starlight…//Levi Ackerman x titan shifter! Reader

Summary: Y/N almost dies protecting what Erwin believes is the best course of action and in what would’ve been their final moments they confessed to Levi that they had feelings for him. Levi saves them and as they’re passed out from exhaustion he remembers the exact moment he started falling and the little intimate moments that they had had behind closed doors.

Warnings: angst with fluff

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Erwin is crazy.

That’s what others are saying.

The government is crazy.

Is what I say.

Erwin would never have someone murdered. Or stage Eren and Historia’s kidnapping. Erwin would never do what they’re accusing him of. But that’s the least of my worries. If Erwin’s plan is to work I need to avoid capture at all costs. Not only is Erwin counting on it, but my siblings, and all of humanity as well.

Eight years ago Erwin brought me and two of my little siblings inside the walls to integrate into human society. He took care of us until we were found a new home. For that I am forever in Erwin’s debt. I trust him with all I am and will be.

As for Levi, my captain, he has proven that I can trust him. It’s been more than once that he’s helped me through an issue. I, like most in my Cadet Core, am 18. But I am not like most of the others, I am a titan shifter. Levi never cared about that, he always made sure that at the end of the day I was safe, alive, and semi-taken care of. A lot of the other cadets think it’s unfair of Levi for him to treat us like this. I think he was more than generous with his treatment.

But then again, that’s just me. I lived outside the walls for the first ten years of my life, my father raised me to slay titans and to be a good soldier, I lived in Trost five years ago, I lived in the same filth that Eren, Mikasa, and Armin did, I’ve been protecting Eren as long as I’ve known him, and I was part of the Cadets that battled for wall Maria. I guess I’m just used to what would be considered “poor treatment”. But other than that Levi has helped me heal some trauma, one night he even helped me finally begin the mourning process over my brother who died twelve years ago.

Levi isn’t a bad guy, he’s just choosing with who he trusts and cares about. I respect that.

Right now I’m waiting for word from the Commander. I sit high in the trees and watch my surroundings diligently.

A snap of a twig caught my attention and my head snapped in it’s direction.

“Cadet! Orders from Erwin.” Hange called.

I jumped down from the branch.

“What are his orders, Section Commander Hange?” I saluted.

“He told me to have you start plan 34-C. Now, prey tell, what is this plan?” Hange asked.

“I’m sorry Commander, Erwin has told me to withhold that information from everyone until it is ongoing.” I replied.

Plan 34-C, code for: Hunt down the perpetrator and bring them to light, or if I have to, kill them. Meaning Erwin is in trouble and he needs me to be the bloodhound. It’s all part of his plan that doesn’t have a plan B.

“I have to go.” I told Hange, running off after Kenny Ackerman.

I found him pretty quickly. For a guy who has all this hype over being hard to beat he sure was easy to find.

“You can either come with me, or I can kill you and deliver your body to the government.” I spoke from the roof.

“Hah! Dainty lil thing like you can’t kill me!” Kenny called back.

“You wanna test that theory?” I put my hands on my swords.

“Heh, sure Sweetheart. I’ll test it.” He zoomed off with his ODM gear.

I smiled and decided the best course of action was to take him to the king’s court without him knowing that it wasn’t his decision.

I went around a building and cut him off, he went the way I wanted him to.

The chase lasted until I shoved Kenny through the window to the king’s court. I rounded and flew in to the room, landing right on top of Kenny as he was trying to get up.

“Y/N! Detain! Not kill!” Erwin barked.

I looked at him and nodded in agreement before pinning Kenny to the ground.

“I knew you didn’t have the heart to kill me.” Kenny said, it was slightly strained from my form pressing into his.

“The only reason you’re alive is because you are of more use to us that way.” I replied.

“Then here, let me egg you on to kill me.” He placed the barrel of his gun to my ribs and pulled the trigger.

Nothing vital, but it hurt like a bitch. I cried out through clenched teeth and held Kenny down harder, digging the heels of my hands into his collarbones.

“Damn, sweetheart, if you look this good in pain I wonder how good you’d look on my—” he cried out in pain as my nails dug into the meat of his shoulders so hard it drew blood.

“I thought you weren’t supposed to kill me!?” Kenny yelled.

“I may not be allowed to kill you, but I can fuck you up with my bare hands.” I hissed.

My ribs and right lung were on fire, stinging pain shooting through my body because of the bullet lodged in my right side.

Right then the doors flew open and a woman said to the room that wall rose had been breached.

No!

My siblings were there. This can’t be real!

One of the nobles said to close the gates and let no refugees enter this wall. I just about kicked his teeth in. I looked at Erwin, he sent me look as if telling me, “it’ll be alright, your siblings are safe.” I was confused but didn’t last long as I was shot once more, I was shot through the heart.

I cried out in pain and my grip tightened on Kenny’s shoulders.

“Y/N!” Erwin yelped, worried.

“I’m fine, Commander.” I reassured him.

A few minutes later I’m pulled off Kenny as my vision starts to go hazy. I was rushed to the hospital wing. I passed out as soon as I was laid on the bed.

Hours of fading in and out of consciousness later and my hazy vision falls on the door swinging open to reveal my higher-ups and some of my fellow cadets.

Levi was unfazed until his eyes fell upon my form struggling to stay awake.

Erwin was smiling until he saw the bullet wound still open.

“Why haven’t they been given medical attention yet?!” Erwin yelled at the nurse.

“They’re healing themself. I can see the titan steam.” She was unfazed.

“I can’t fully heal… the bullets would stay stuck in my body… cause more issues… I’m doing everything I can to stop the bullet in my back from entering my heart…” I explained.

“That’s a lie.” The nurse just left.

Erwin went after her, Levi rushed to my side, Hange went to wash her hands.

“Y/N, how are you feeling?” Levi asked, concern on his face.

“In an immense amount of pain, exhausted, but I’m at peace.” I told him, giving him a small smile.

“All of you go.” Levi barked at my fellow cadets. “Don’t give me that shit, Cadet. You’re not at peace.” Levi began tearing up.

“Yes I am, Captain. This isn’t a bad way to go. But I’d be lying if I said I have to do one more thing before I go…” I replied.

“What do you need?” Levi grabbed my hand.

“I need to tell someone how I feel… I’d be at peace in the afterlife if I would just be able to tell him…” I answered.

Did I mention that I caught feelings for Levi?

“Who? I’ll bring them in.” Levi said, tears threatening to break.

“You, Captain. I love you. I know I shouldn’t, but humor a dying person?” I pleaded.

“I don’t have to humor you, I love you too. And I’ll be damned if I have to live in this world without you again. I’ll be damned if you do see the outside world again.” Tears fell from Levi’s eyes.

“Don’t cry, Captain. We all die one day. Just do me a favor and tell Erwin to take care of my siblings for me.” I smiled at him.

“Say my name. Not ‘Captain’ my real name, please.” He pleaded with me.

“I love you, Levi…” I said weakly, slowly becoming unconscious once more.

“I love you to, My Starlight…” was all I heard before blacking out again.

The nickname reminded me of a poem I found on his desk a few weeks ago.

Darkness.

That’s all I’ve seen for most of my life.

No light.

I could only see myself.

Then I found you.

You lit up the darkness high above me.

You gave the sky beauty.

The darkness was less consuming.

I couldn’t stop staring at the sky.

At the bright lights in the sky,

That broke the darkness.

The bright lights that never faded even if you weren’t around.

Your beauty is the sky,

And the color dusting it your soul.

I couldn’t stop staring at you,

For you are the sky and everything in it.

The stars are your imprint on my soul,

The colors in the sky are your soul revealing itself to me,

The moon is your smile shining light on my dark world,

And the darkness behind the lights is what remains from before.

You never once tried to change me,

You just tried to bring joy to my darkness.

And joy you brought.

I’ve fallen for my starry sky,

I’ve fallen for the light in my darkness,

I’ve fallen for you,

My Starlight.

I woke once more, but I wasn’t in pain. No, I felt relaxed. I felt a hand holding one of mine and a soft weight in my lap. I looked down at my lap and my eyes widened. Levi was holding my hand and sleeping with his head in my lap.

Butterflies erupted in my stomach. My other hand came up to massage his scalp.

Levi stirred from his slumber, opening his eyes and beginning to lift his head.

“I’m sorry, Sir. I didn’t mean to wake you.” I apologized, pulling my hand away.

He stared at me with eyes like he was seeing a ghost. “You’re awake.” His free hand cupped my cheek.

“Yeah, where am I?” I asked the brunette.

“The medical wing in the king’s castle. You’ve been here asleep for the last two days.” Levi responded.

Everything came back to me.

“Did it work? The plan?” I sat up.

“Yes, now rest, Starlight. We need you for another mission.” Levi squeezed my hand.

“Captain…” I was speechless.

“Call me Levi when we’re alone, Starlight.” Levi’s thumb rubbed my cheek.

“A-alright, Levi.” I didn’t know what to say.

“I’m glad you’re alright, Starlight.” He smiled gently at me.

“I thought that part was all a dream…” I whispered quietly.

“It wasn’t, I’m glad Hange was able to get the bullets out in time for your body to go into overdrive and save your life. I’m glad I get to hold your hand and talk to you even if it is one last time.” Levi spoke.

“I’m glad too, Levi…” I replied, tears threatening to spill across my cheeks.

“Don’t cry, I’m here now, Starlight. I’m not going anywhere. I promise.” Levi moved from the chair beside the bed to sitting next to me on the side. He had drawn his hand from my cheek making it feel cold.

“Levi?” I whispered.

“Yes, Starlight?” Levi responded softly.

“What are we now?” I asked softly.

“Well what do you want us to be?” Levi started drawing circles on my hand clasped in his.

“I’d really like to be yours.” I looked deep into his eyes.

“Mine?” He spoke softly, also looking deep into my eyes.

“Yes. Very much so…” I murmured.

Levi smiled. “I’d like that too. Can I kiss you?”

“Please do.” I breathed.

Without any hesitation he pressed his lips gently against mine.

The kiss was soft and sweet. Levi pulled away a few seconds later.

“Was that alright?” Levi asked me.

“Yes. Another?” I requested.

Levi smiled again, “Of course, my love.”

Butterflies erupted in my stomach at the nickname.

Levi leaned back in for another kiss. This time it was slow, romantic. He must’ve been testing the waters before.

His tongue swiped across my bottom lip. Taking the que, I opened my mouth and he slipped his tongue in. The wet muscle explored my mouth and danced with my tongue. My free hand found its way into Levi’s hair.

When we pulled away I was breathless. “I love you, Levi.” I breathed.

“I love you too, Starlight.”

[une-femme-de-lettres]

Underrated characters NSFW Alphabet

I'm in a headcanon mood today, pick a letter and character in the list and send me an ask.

| Characters |

One piece = Monkey D. Garp, Sengoku, Momonga, Shanks, Buggy, Borsalino|Kizaru, Issho|Fujitora, Aramaki|Ryokugyu, Smoker, Izo, Marco, Silvers Rayleigh, Wiper, Charlotte Katakuri, Kaido, Sasaki, King, Sabo, Heat, Wire

Attack on Titan = Kenny Ackerman, Berthold Hoover, Zeke Yeager, Porco Galliard, Eren Kruger, Erwin Smith, Theo Magath, Onyankopon

Fairy Tail = Laxus Dreyar, Gildartz Clive, Bickslow, Gajeel Redfox, Elfman Strauss, Jellal Fernandes

| Letters |

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex) B = Body Part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s) C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person) D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self-explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs) E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?) F = Favorite Position (This goes without saying. Will probably include a visual) G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc) H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc) I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect) J = Jack Off (Masturbation headcanon) K = Kink (One or more of their kinks) L = Location (Favorite places to do the do) M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going) N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs) O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc) P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? Etc) Q = Quickie (Their opinions on puickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc) R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc) S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…) T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?) U = Unfair (how much they like to tease) V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make) W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice) X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words) Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?) Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

[madraleen]

Attack on Titan - Hajime Isayama Vol.13-16: A “there’s still a lot we can do inside... like knitting” commentary.

-Look at the cover of volume 13, all of my darlings on the cover looking badass.

-I read the chapter title “Squad Levi” and I’m just grinning from ear to ear.

-Eren did turn into an indecisive whiner for a bit, you’re right, Jean. You’ve both changed based on your experiences, isn’t it great

-D o m e s t i c i t y, help! Help, this is soft!

-Levi just loooves talking about toilet stuff.

-People get broken in such subtle ways throughout the story. So quietly. It’s not a huge flashy thing, and they’re still them when it comes to big moments, but in the small intimate moments they get more hesitant, more cautious.

-The fact that Hange’s answer “There’s still a lot we can do inside... like knitting” is said in earnest

-Hahaha, is Titan Eren writing with a freakin log?! Lmao, amazing.

-Yes, random person, Levi is smol bean, what about it?!

-The Survey Corps not working hard enough? The disrespect of the randos, ffs.

-I WANT TO READ THE J-POP NIGHTMARE ARC!

-What is this sulky Levi doing on the cover of volume 14

-”We just have to enthrone Historia Reiss as the Queen,” he says. There’s nothing JUST about that, Erwin!!

-The variety of outfits, I love it.

-Wait, Levi ACKERMAN? What’s he to Mikasa?!

-Well. That plan with Reeves went well. *cries in merchantese*

-See Squad Levi and Hange’s people turn into outlaws or sth

-Why do you show me people in hoods, I’m weak for fictional people in hoods.

-Hold up hold up, Kenny is also an Ackerman? Am I misunderstanding something? Am I experiencing a conundrum of Ackermans?

-The scale of everything is getting so big. And I really like the action scenes.

-To be Armin, to have killed your first human, and to have LEVI talking to you about it. True hell. He doesn’t have the manners is what I’m saying!

-Oh wait, he’s not doing too bad tonight. Way to go, Levi.

-When are we getting the juicy Levi backstory?

-”Captain Levi... in the flesh...” That’s right, Marlowe, that’s how I react too whenever Levi appears.

-”It was everyone’s individual choices that brought change to our world.” I’m crying and you can’t stop me.

-The fuck are they doing to Eren. The fuck is he in chains? RELEASE HIM!

-Yeah, no, I hate this the most, unchain Eren now.

-No!! Baby Titan Eren killed his father?!?! I gasped so loud (I assume he was also a Titan, with the whole turn into a Titan and eat a Human Titan so that you can control it?).

-No, I don’t buy the Grisha slander, we need to get to that basement.

-I’m gonna slap Historia so hard.

-Ugh, Baby Eren’s little hand on Grisha’s adult hand as he tries to stop him from injecting him, little baby :((((

-I’m reading this so consistently and intensely that I’m pretty sure when I’m done everything will be a blur.

-I can’t even imagine how angry the Survey Corps must be. I’m livid.

-Asdfsfd, Levi and Mikasa synchronized jump out of the smoke, help.

-Jean killed! Jean killed!

-The audacity to call Squad Levi et al monsters when Kenny’s gang was literally waiting to kill them in ambush!

-Listen to him, Historia, listen to Eren! (For context on how ridiculous I’m being, Eren is currently saying “Mmmff!! Mmmhh!!”)

-Oh, Levi’s Kenny’s nephew then? Mikasa’s cousin?

-I want to smack Historia so hard.

-Hold up hold up, Eren, easy there on the guilt trip. This family has had this damn power for one hundred years, why would FRIEDA change the world, why didn’t they change the damn world earlier, it’s not adding up!

-Thank you, Historia! Like I said!

-The masterful, masterful way that everything in Historia’s life has led to this moment. That every self-empowering interaction between two side characters led to Historia rejecting the serum.

-Shut up with your pseudo-shonen protag bullshit, Eren, you’re not being eaten, it’s bad for everyone if you DON’T keep on living, shut up shut up shut up!

-Historia responded with “Shut up, you stupid crybaby,” and now I love her.

-Yeah, so, fuck what I said, I love Historia. My apologies.

-”You hear me, shirtless wonder?!” Hahaha, J E A N!

[dxonutz]

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note: even though im uncomfortable with sharing some of these, i am never by any means trying to be toxic about it. the only reason i dont want others who do f/o them to interact is because of my own comfort n how much these characters mean to me. that doesnt absolutely mean that i judge others who f/o them outside of myself, i do not go around harrassing those who do, nor do claim to be the only person allowed to like them. you are absolutely allowed to like any character, even from the following list, im just uncomfy specifically with sharing some of them as f/os. please, by all means just have fun ⁠♡

I'll be using this emoji 💌 to symbolize those im not quite comfy with sharing

current main F/O(s):

Kayn, League of Legends 💌

other F/Os: (in no specific order)

Charlotte Katakuri, One Piece 💌

Gyomei Himejima, Demon Slayer 💌

Knives Millions, Trigun Maximum 💌

Livio the Double Fang & Razlo the Trip of Death, Trigun Maximum

Sweet Mask, One Punch Man 💌

Hobart "Hobie" Brown AKA Spider-Punk, (specifically) Across The Spider-Verse 💌

Muriel, The Arcana

Solomon, Obey Me!

Shinji Hirako, Bleach 💌

Hitoya Amaguni, Hypnosis Mic 💌

Walter C. Dornez, Hellsing 💌

Kojiro Sasaki, Record Of Ragnarok 💌

Assassin AKA Kojiro Sasaki, Fate Series 💌

En, Dorohedoro

Kenny Ackerman, Attack On Titan 💌

Captain Boomerang, DC 💌

V, DMC 💌

Juri Han, Street Fighter 💌

Mateo, Dislyte 💌

Faust, Guilty Gear

Dr. Habit, Smile For Me

Wally Darling, Welcome Home 💌

Happy Mask Salesman, LOZ: Majora's Mask

extra note: not every canon character i might post is necessarily an F/O of mine, even if i may have an OC x canon ship with them! i just love making OCs and pairings for them ⁠♡

[meatmechapilot]

Rivaereri Spring 2024 - Day 6: Crime AU

Bonnie and Clyde

“Hands up in the air!” the- masked man shouted as he unloaded a clip into the ceiling of the bank lobby.

Screams rang out as bank patrons scrambled to look for cover all over the place, most ended up huddled against the wall. The bank teller was frozen in fear as the masked man got closer to the counter. She saw that there is an accomplice that is now going around collecting valuables from the bank patrons. They are both armed and the bank teller saw wallets, watches, jewelry and other valuables going into a bag.

“Hand them over,” the first man, who is now right up at the counter and aiming the gun straight at the poor, terrified employee. She saw now that the man with the gun isn’t really that tall, but he has an imposing aura that makes him terrifying all the same. She scrambled to comply with the demands by emptying the bank vault and laying stacks of money on the counter. The gunman’s accomplice is now also at the counter and is scooping the money into his bag with the other valuables.

The two criminals worked perfectly in sync and cleaned out the bank in no time. For a parting gift, the gunman reached into his pocket and pulled out a gas canister and unleashed its contents into the bank. Then they turned heel and left the bank full of people choking and gagging from the noxious gas.

Finally, when they were outside, they hopped into their getaway car and floored it, getting out of the crime scene in record time.

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On the outskirts of the city, inside the criminals' lair, the TV is on with breaking news about the latest high profile bank robbery.

“Hey brat! Turn that infernal TV down!” The older of the two criminals groused, while sorting out the loot from their previous activity.

“Aw, Levi, you don’t want to see our body count?” The younger criminal answered, his voice a little too happy.

“How many times do I have to tell you, Eren?” Levi said, “the gas is way too easy and takes the fun out of killing. It’s much more satisfying to kill people with your bare hands, seeing the life leaving their eyes is a special kind of experience that no poison gas will come close to.”

Eren heard this spiel from Levi countless times, but since he values efficiency, he never really paid much attention. Levi was a serial killer before becoming a bank robber, so Eren supposed that he knew what he was talking about. “I wonder how much our bounty is now.” Eren flipped through the channel until he found the relevant one that gave him the information. “Thirty million dollars for the both of us! It’s increased by five million since the last time!” Eren exclaimed excitedly. He had a goal of bringing their bounty up to one hundred million. “Oh man, how come you are twenty million and I’m only ten million?” He pouted when he saw the individual bounties.

“Because I was a notorious serial killer with a ten million bounty before I even met you.” Levi said impatiently. “And don’t forget, Kenny Ackerman was at fifty million when he died, us two combined aren't even close to him yet.”

Kenny Ackerman was a legend among the criminal underworld and Eren never failed to be star struck when his name came up. In fact, Levi met Eren when the latter was bragging about surpassing Kenny as the most notorious criminal ever, and intervened before he got jumped by a bunch of hardened criminals. Levi then offered to take Eren under his wing, teaching him all there is to know about committing crimes.

Of course, Levi had ulterior motives in saving Eren. The brat was gorgeous with long legs and tanned skin and the most vivid greens eyes Levi had ever seen. He was an exact match for Levi’s type. The best thing about Eren that Levi discovered was he was extremely groomable, and it took less than a year for Levi to train him to his exacting standards for pretty much everything from housework to cooking to being the perfect whore in bed.

Speaking of bed, Eren came over with a perfectly brewed pot of tea and some tea cakes he made himself, a perfect pre bedtime snack. Levi was nowhere near ready to sleep, he’s always a bit heated after one of their heists and Eren understands him perfectly. Neither of them will get much sleep tonight.

The criminal duo ate their snacks in record time and made a beeline for bed, and not a wink of sleep was to be had until dawn.

[mazuwii]

I have another ask 😊 don't have to answer now, I don't want you to be over whelmed. Though thought I have in mind would be how would Erwin, Levi, bertholdt, Reiner, moblit, hange, and Kenny react to finding a maiden who has healing abilities?

Like Katara from the last air bender on how she can use her bending to heal. If you are confused I'd be happy to explain more 🥰

I assume these characters would be injured since Y/n seems so hellbent on hiding these powers.

Erwin:

To me, Erwin seems like the type to hide an injury on purpose, to not drag you behind.

However as his vision blurs with surroundings muffling and buzzing in his ear, he begins to regret not treating that deep stab wound earlier. He didn't even have the time to, the escape was once in a lifetime, he couldn't let you down. After all, he was the one who came up with it. He'd be failing you both.

As you inch further away from his grasp, he reaches further, wanting to call your name, to at least tell you that he loved you before death. Yet all that came out was a quivered whimper.

Meanwhile you weren't sure what the hold up with Erwin was. You weren't sure if your captors knew the trail of your destiny, whether they followed you or not. So why was he taking his sweet time. When you had asked why he ran so slowly, he'd tell you that he was watching out from behind.

Yet, when his limp footsteps had faded, you weren't sure what to be scared about. The possibilities were endless.

"Erwin?" You stuttered, "hey..." you called out, tracing back into the direction you came from, it wasn't far, until you saw the blur of blonde hair on the muddy leaves of the forest.

Your heart dropped to the pit of your stomach, realising he had collapsed. "Erwin!" You sprinted to his body, slipping on some mud and messily kneeling beside him. You gently rolled him onto his back, pupils thinning at how pale his skin had become. Still, you pulled him onto your lap, checking his heart beat and breathing patterns.

It didn't take too long for you to find the suspect of his faint pulse. His dirtied shirt, soaked in his own blood. You could barely think above the loud beating in your head, how long had he been like this?! Why did he hide it from you?! How much blood did he lose?!

"Hey..." you choked back a terrified sob, frantically patting his cheek, "Hey, 'Win, wake up..." upon realising that he was unconscious by now, you decided on the last resort. Something you never thought you'd do again.

Lifting his shirt to reveal the wound on his abdomen, you took out your pocket knife and sliced the inside of your palm, hissing as the blood trickled to his wound, you didn't know if this could do it, but if it could then you'd never disgrace your powers again. You'd be proud of them. You'd do anything, just to bring him back.

Hoping for the best, you massaged the blood in, the texture of his cut slowly smoothing out from underneath your warm palm. Good. It was working. With his skin slowly regaining colour, you could feel a heavy weight float off your chest. You sighed in relief and held his head to the crook of your neck.

"Erwin..." your face lit up at the feeling of his breath fanning your neck, he was okay. You made it in time. Your arms tightened around him, scared that if you let go for a second, he'd succumb to blood loss again.

"Y/n..." he hoarsely spoke. "You idiot..." you sniffled, "I thought I lost you." Still cradling his head, you craned your neck to look at him. His brows glistened with sweat, furrowed in confusion as his hand glossed over yours, looking for his wound.

"How...how did you- am I- ...am I dead?"-

"Shhh..." you kissed his sweaty forehead, delicately sweeping his wet bangs back. "I'll explain when we get to the campsite, but now, you have to hold onto me... yeah?"

Despite his dying confusion, he agreed, slowly regaining his composure, holding you closely as you both limped to safety.

Levi

"Y/n!" Hange rushed back in your room, Levi limp in her arms. "He's been poisoned, but it's no use, it's spreading too fast..."

As she gently laid his body onto the spread out futon, you had realised she had bought him in with the intention that you both have your last moment, before he goes.

His eyebrows scrunched up in agony, eyes closed as he subconsciously searched for the reason of his pain. He must be fully unconscious by now, the team couldn't do much. But.. what about Hange?

Was it really that hopeless? You could swear Hange was a mad scientist. You told her sarcastically, only for her to roll her eyes.

"I'm a scientist Y/n, not a doctor."

"Fine..." you sighed, rolling up your sleeves as you realised it's finally time to use something you've sworn to never bring back again. "I'll deal with it. Hange. Get a knife. And quick."

The brunette seemed to panic at your sudden request, struggling to say anything but stutters. "Hurry up! I'm not slicing him open or anything... we don't have much time!" You urged, heart pounding as Levi's eyebrows weakened, his sweat becoming cold.

With the trust that you wouldn't murder your own husband in cold blood, Hange nodded and took off in the speed of light.

Mean while you stroked Levi's cheek in an attempt to get him to wake up without fear. "Honey, if you can hear me, I want you to try and move your hand." You said, one hand holding onto his cold palm.

Just as you feared, he couldn't give you a reply, not even a twitch. The only evidence you had of his moving heart was his heaving chest, soaked in sweat. The only thing you could do now was to use your powers. The ones you've not used since... forever

There was no doubt that you were worried it wouldn't work, after all, it had been such a long time since you've used your healing abilities. Besides, Levi would go insane once he finds out about it.

Hange rushed back in, slipping onto her knees to clumsily hand you the pocket knife.

Without wasting any time, you slice your palm open and squeezed it shut, opening Levi's mouth to let the blood trickle down his throat.

You could swear that in the corner of your eyes, Hange was shitting her pants, you were feeding Levi your blood. Levi... the germaphobe. But you couldn't care less, as long as this saved him, you'd do it.

The atmosphere was heavy with pressure, from the worry that arose due to the horrified expressions both you and Hange made. If this didn't work... no! You couldn't think like that! It will work! Levi will wake up any-

A violent cough broke you out of you silent panic attack. Frantically, you propped your husband up, allowing him to wheeze his lungs out, tears stinging in the corner of his eyes.

Hange hadn't reacted, she stood at the opposite end of the futon with her mouth agape. You wasted no time in pulling Levi into your arms, rubbing his back in soothing circles. "Thank goodness... oh my god..." you mumbled, heart wrenching with what could have happened if you didn't save him in time.

"What's going on?" Levi managed to rasp out. "You we're dying of poison but Y/n slit her hand open and then"-

"Hange shut up!" You yelled, not trying to overwhelm the healing man in your arms. "Not now... later." You sighed, making note to bandage your hand.

Levi somehow didn't care about the commotion or whatever happened, he knew what you did, he could tell by looking at your bloodied palm and the drops of blood staining his tongue. He just wanted to rest. He was tired.

If it wasn't already obvious, you could tell by the sweat on his throat. He was almost completely motionless in your embrace, his chin laid still on your shoulder, his breathing finally calmed to a normal pace.

"First let's get you something to drink, you look pasty." You helped him up, having Hange assist you with the rest.

Bertholdt

"The ambulance were called."

Reiner says. As he strolls towards you and Bertholdt, the mixed colours of red and blue illuminated everyone's skin, the loud sirens giving you more to worry about since it was the most vibrant.

It's around nine PM when Bertholdt was laid onto your lap, his torso resting on your thighs and his long legs draped across the cold concrete floor.

"He's losing too much blood too fast, he won't make it." You gritted your teeth, scared of what people might do to you if they ever found out about the things you could do. Yet at the same time... your significant other's life was on the line.

"Bertholdt keep your eyes open..." your demand came out as a small desperate plead, watching as his tan skin drained of its beautiful natural hue. He nodded weakly with his eyes barely open.

You got Reiner to help you take Bertholdts police gear off, leaving him only in a blue button up shirt, the corner of his rips stained with crimson.

Cold palms unravelled his shirt to the point of the wound. You couldn't believe the speed of the leaking blood, by the time the ambulance arrived, he'd be as good as dead.

Knowing what you had to do next, you told Reiner to turn away.

"What- why?"-

"You have to..."

Conflicted with confusion, Reiner agreed anyway. He thought that maybe you needed some alone time with Bert, to do all that cheesy love confession crap before he falls unconscious.

"Listen, what I'm about to do, it may hurt a bit, but don't worry, the pain won't last that long."

After your sudden words, Bertholdt weakly sprung up, not being able to completely sit up right since he only collapsed back into your hold. "You'll be fine..."

You took a sharp weapon from the gear pockets, slicing your palm of your hand and laying it flat against his wound.

From the corner of your eyes you could see Bertholdt try to fight back, to tell you to stop cutting yourself. He was confused, shocked, in pain from the gunshot that fractured his rib cage. Yet he had lost so much blood all he could do was bat his eyelids slowly, silver eyes having no energy in them.

Your hand began to glow, beams flying into the wound of the raven haired man whom suddenly began whimpering on your lap. "Shhh, this'll all be over soon..." you mumbled into his ear and kissed his temple as an apology for the pain he was about to experience.

"Be good for me and don't move too much, hm?" You added. Slowly, you started feeling your energy drain as the bones began mending themselves from your healing, a strong, blood-covered sharp metal emerging from his open skin. The bullet had finally come out.

"Y/n!" He gasped, beads of sweat trickling down his face.

"I'm almost done..." you cringed at the pity swallowing you up. His weak groans were better than him dying, but you still couldn't help but feel scummy for causing him so much agony while he was awake.

The skin slowly began to smooth out, your thumb caressing the place where his wound was. "There." You sighed in exhaustion.

Meanwhile, Bertholdt desperately panted for air. His eyes were shut tight, as if he couldn't believe he went through that. "You did so well for me." You praised with another kiss planted on his cheek.

Even though he was blushing, his gaze wavered in disbelief, his hands fumbling to his exposed torso. "Where's... what? What did you just do?!" He heaved in an out. "Am I just dreaming or did you just-"

Your stare was kind and understanding, causing him to believe that maybe, you weren't human, he had married an angel after all. "What are you...?"

"Sh, baby the ambulance are here."

You prepared yourself for the questioning, the investigation that may happen. You knew Bertholdt would cover up for you. There's no way he wouldn't.

Reiner

It had nearly been a week when Reiner had been like this. Perhaps he was the same kind and loving person on the inside and just didn't joke around as much. He'd hide his face a majority of the time, whether subconsciously or knowingly.

The scar on his face had made him miserable. It snatched him of any laughter or humour that he'd usually be full of. Sure he'd laugh a few times, but it was huffs of nothingness, his jokes being funny to others but never to himself.

He had gotten it from his side job, while him and Jean were talking on opposite sides of a shelf, Jean hadn't realised he may have pushed a heavy box on the other side too far. And while Reiner was oblivious, staring at a weird cursed image Zeke sent him, the box full of heavy luggage landed straight onto him.

No bad damage had been done, only a large scar that drew from his hair line to his eyebrow. It made him extremely insecure. You could see it every time he was around you, how he'd cover it up with his palm, looking away in embarrassment every time you stared at it.

You never thought a man like him could get like this. It was like a middle aged housewife took over his body.

"Reiner... turn around, I like looking at your face when we cuddle." You told him, rubbing his sides comfortingly.

The blonde was sulking, his huge figure hugging his arms to himself as you spooned him. He seemed so delicate, so fragile. He hummed lightly as a negative response.

"Come on, let me see your handsome face."

This was the last grunt you would take before you rolled him onto his back, your hand sliding up to cradle his cheek. "What's wrong? You've been acting strange for the last few days."

His sad hazel eyes wandered away from yours, avoiding the shame he thought you'd put down on him.

"If this is about the scar"-

"It isn't." He cut you off. Conflicting his response when his cheeks reddened

"Come on, Rein... you're so beautiful with or without it." You said in a pleading tone. Your thumb mindlessly stroked at his cheek, silently panicking at the freckles of tears developing in his eyes.

"It's not that..."

"Then what is it?" You kissed the first drop away.

"My dad... he had a scar exactly like this somewhere on his forehead- and-" he stammered, lips barely maintaining their neutral state. "And mum... she'd would bring it up all the time, she said it was hideous and she couldn't stand looking at his face."

At last his voice cracked and brought his eyes shut, in time for the waterworks to start. You couldn't believe this, Reiner Braun, the man twice your size broke down in shambles due to a facial scarring. Yet again, this wasn't the first time he's had a breakdown. It's normal, you'll take care of him.

Although you were shocked at his sudden weeping, you brought his head to your chest, holding his arms close. "Shh, it'll be okay," you kissed his forehead.

He sniffled and hiccuped, "I-I can't do anything- with- without peopling looking directly at it!" He sobbed. "I want it gone! I just want it gone!"

While his voice muffled against your embrace, you could only think back to something you've been hiding from him. Your healing abilities. But should you really use it now? On something like a scar that didn't really change his face. He was still beautiful Reiner.

You guessed maybe he didn't think so.

Once he calmed down, you slightly broke the hug, holding his arms tight. "Look at me." He obeyed, eyebrows scrunching up in misery. "Listen, I can get rid of it... but you can't be freaked out about it."

Faster than you thought, his facial features softened in shock. But it quickly went back to sadness, "I appreciate it dove." He kissed your cheek, "but I'd rather not wear makeup."

"Hey!- not makeup... I mean I can permanently get rid of it." You held his face gently, "Even-though I'll forever love your face no matter what happens to it." He giggled lowly as you tickled his nose with yours.

"If you really want it, then I'll do it."

"But what will you do? It's impossible to get rid of it."

A smirk decorated your features. You closed your eyes with a cocky huff. "You better not tell anyone, but look what I can do."

His palm fell when you sat up. He was confused as to why you held your hand out, either way, he accepted and followed you into the bathroom where you sat him down on a still in front of the mirror.

In the cabinet there was a sharp eyebrow razor, you grabbed it and went back to staring at him through the mirror.

With a sigh you pet his hair. "Look at you, crying about your face when you're such a beautiful cutie pie." You pinched his cheek, making him close his eyes in a flustered laugh.

"Here, remember not to be shocked, I promise this'll work." He said nothing but observed as you bought the razor to your finger, suddenly cutting it. His eyes grew to the size of saucepans.

"Dove?! Hey!-"

"Shh, it's fine." You chuckled, "you probably think I've lost my mind." His confusion only grew when you brushed his hair back, rubbing your blood into the scar.

"Just close your eyes..." you mumbled, surprised he wasn't squealing and flailing around in fear. If someone did this to you you'd call the hospital in worry that they've gone insane.

It'd only take a few more minutes before you got the tissue from the marble sink, wiping at the blood to reveal baby soft skin.

Once you moved out of his line of sight, his expression twisted into pure surprise, fingers caressing the spot where the scar once was.

"What do you think? I personally like both but-uf!" You yelped when his body engulfed yours into your arms.

With his cheek rubbing at your head, he grinned uncontrollably. "I love you, I love you I love you I love you!" He squealed, "I have no idea what you just did but thank you!"

"It's no problem Rein... but could you ease up a bit? I can't breathe."

Moblit

Between the two of you, one would think that you'd be the one getting injured. But nope, the guy was too busy trying to navigate where you had gone, frustrated and terrified since the sun was starting to set faster.

If it got dark then his hopes of finding you were gone.

With his map scrunched up into a ball of useless information, he turned to face the dim sun, it was now an orange colour, dipping into the darkening sky.

He sighed, she should have never let you go by yourself.

Another minute went by as he thought about you in regret, worrying about whether he'd see you again. Would it lead up to a murder in the woods? What if someone killed you already? What if you were screaming his name, begging him to show up.

Just as he was about to take off in the millionth search for you, a sharp pain injected his ankles, causing him to cry in pain. He snapped his head downwards to see the culprit, finding a hissing snake.

Fuck, what if you got bitten too?!

By the time he collapsed onto the floor the snake had slithered off, dashing away from the harmless man it bit.

"Damn this- ah..." he moaned when a thick blanket of pain coursed through the veins of his feet, quickly pulsating to his legs. That was a venomous snake... wasn't it?!

"Mo!" All of a sudden, the pain didn't matter anymore when he heard your excited yells. Finally, at least he could die peacefully knowing you were alive the entire time.

"There you are! Look! I know exactly how we could build a- oh my god are you okay?!" You sprinted to him, fumbling for the ankle he was clutching onto to reveal two red bite marks.

Complete horror took over your excited expression, turning your gasp into a full throat scream. "That's a venomous bite!" You shrieked, "let me suck it out as an apology for taking so long!"

Moblit hastily hid his bite from you, he knew it would just get you into trouble with poison too. "I'm so sorry baby oh my god!" You cried, hugging him tightly. "I took too long, I'm so sorry!"

"Y/n, it's okay stop yelling before other snakes decide to bite our mouths off."

"I have an idea!" You panted. Moblit was still in pain, sweating excessively at this point. He watched in confusion as you folded your coat and laid him onto his back, using the folded coat as a pillow.

During this point you had panicked so much you didn't think of consequences. Instead you rolled up your sleeve and scratched deep into your wrist. The blood was a lot for a scratch and it was enough for Moblit to just suck on.

You tucked your palm under his head, propping him slightly up. "Suck my blood, it'll help I promise..." he shot you a questioning look. "HURRY JUST DO IT!" You nudged your wrist in his face. Yet... he rejected it again.

"Fucks sake we have no time!" You scolded him. Still, he didn't seem to be budging. So you bought your wrist to your mouth, sucking out enough blood to fill your mouth.

Holding his chin, your lowered your lips onto his. At this point, he was too weak to fight back, and obediently swallowed the blood you were force feeding him.

When you decided it was enough, you let him go. Afterwards wrapping his arm around your neck and carrying him back to the exit. He may be healed but the stress and exhaustion had taken all strength in him.

"Y/n?"

He woke up to the comfort of his own bed, feeling normal again- until you threw yourself on top of him. With a shocked huff, he chuckled at you.

Rubbing your face against him you cried in gratitude, "I THOUGHT YOU WOULD LEAVE ME IN THIS BORING WORLD!"

(Headcannon style)

Kenny:

•Let's say hypothetically Kenny does find out about your healing abilities. The way he'd react is to make sure no one finds out about it, he knows higher ups would want to drug and hurt you to figure out what causes this phenomenon.

•He definitely calls you his angel/healer, he can't help it- even when you're doing something as simple as wrapping a bandaid around his wrist, he'll just say it and you'll shut his mouth.

•Again, Kenny is more the free type so he doesn't really care about what you are, he's more, go with the flow type of man. So anytime you're around him and worried about him hurting himself, he'll genuinely try not to get himself injured. Since he himself is worried about others finding out about your abilities.

Authors note:

This was 4000 words long

[emmysmith]

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