#can you tell I've been too exposed to the hell that is Twitter?

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What do you think abt taylor swift dating travis kelce and people hating on joe now

Oh my fucking god, I could not give less of a fuck about her dating that guy. I mean, they'd been dating for like what? One week? AND PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET ARE INSANE. Like, I think it's not so bad here in Tumblr, but in TWITTER??? PEOPLE ARE ALREADY CALLING THEM ENDGAME. I'VE SEEN SWIFTIES COMPARE THEM TO RYAN REYNOLDS AND BLAKE LIVELY. MY SISTERS IN CHRIST, THEY JUST STARTED DATING!! CALM THE FUCK DOWN!!! I swear to god I don't know what the hell happened to their brains. Taylor goes to ONE GAME and they're already saying they'll get married !!!! GO TO THERAPY, TOUCH SOME GRASS!!!

Like, sure, you can think they're cute or whatever, that's fine, but to get this invested ??? I swear to god, if I see one more tweet about how "OMG THEY'RE MEANT TO BE" I'm gonna shoot myself in front of them and completely alter the trajectory of their lives.

And don't even get me STARTED on the posts that compare them to Taylor and Joe. They're all like "Look how Travis walks PROUDLY with Taylor in public!! Joe Alwyn was ridiculous!!!" My sweet summer child, Joe was never ashamed of dating Taylor, he just wanted a more private relationship and Taylor agreed!!! She said so MANY TIMES !!! These girls for real be acting like he kept her locked in a basement or something. Did they just magically forget all the songs Taylor wrote about Joe? About how she felt he saved her by running away with her? Taylor was literally at the lowest point of her life and she didn't want to be seen, she didn't want to give the paparazzi anything, and Joe gave her that. Joe helped her a lot, so people acting like he was ashamed of her is so annoying. Sure, eventually the relationship went south and yes, I do believe that Taylor started craving to go out more and show herself more and Joe didn't want that. I'm sure they had many disagreements like that over what they wanted for their lives and their future, and that's why they broke up. Those things happen. Unless Taylor eventually releases songs in which she says he was a monster in disguise and it took her 6 years to realize it (which I doubt will happen), people need to stop hating on Joe Alwyn. I mean, the man didn't want to get married-- Does he deserve to be crucified for that? No. Move on.

Honestly, I feel like a lot of these people just collectively turned 12. It's the only explanation. I mean, you shouldn't get invested in a relationship between real people to begin with, but especially if the couple just started to get to know each other. That's just... strange.

[randomnessunlimited]

LMAOOOO I'm actually Omar from Twitter? and I'm a man? But ok cool i guess??? I'm not here to fight man, haven't really been that active in the fandom for years and I don't even watch the show anymore, hell I don't even know you personally, I just like fanarts on Twitter.

I just dropped by to give a tip since I've had a couple of close friends venting to me in DM about the current shit going on lately. I remember that fic during the pandemic, and i remember reading it multiple times. Being a furry and lurking on the web a lot I've been exposed to nsfw too as a child, I literally used to write porn myself on Fanfiction.net. My problem?

That fic is literally not written by an 11 years old.

Now, AGAIN, I'm not pointing fingers at you dude, and I'm not even saying it's anyone here, so I don't understand why you're so mad. But it's also weird for you to dodge all my questions and instantly shift the blame on my friends on Ao3, completely avoiding all my points and instead focusing only on superficial aspects like the word "Symmetrical".

That fic has been existing WAY before Dolli even joined the tag. And we're not talking about average nsfw art or fics here, we're talking about FULL ON FETISH BDSM, one of the most extreme forms of porn. Now, the person in question wasn't just any curious innocent child naively navigating through a new world of nsfw and kinks and stumbling across Wattpad and being pushed into writing it, like I was. The writer is perfectly aware and has a concerningly deep knowledge of how the world of bdsm works just like an adult.

At the age of just 11 they already know about:

the concept of consent and a safe word (funny, since I thought children could not consent or didn't know the fundamental rules of safe words, I guess the law is wrong)

Orgasm denial (i didn't even know what an orgasm was until I turned 14)

Knew about preparation and lube

knew about 6 different sex toys and how they all work???

Somehow knows what genital whipping is???

Bothers to specify to all the readers that the characters are all aged up and mature (now why tf would a kid worry about that?)

Damn! Apparently this "elementary school child" is more mature and experienced and has a deeper knowledge of sex ED and kinks than HALF OF THE ENTIRE POPULATION by the age of 30! Amazing! (Sarcasm)

Now that's all I'm gonna say: Dolli told me that somehow people have managed to retrieve that entire fic from an old internet archive and download it. It's public for anyone to see, so if you don't believe me you can still read it by yourself there, I can hook you up with a link, it sure doesn't take a genius to tell the author is a grown adult anyway.

Once again, I'm NOT saying it's you, you can blame my friends and insult them all you want, but you and i both know perfectly well that they're not responsible for this fic existing. Feel free to choose to believe what you want, wether you think somehow a hyper mature and experienced and total connoisseur of the bdsm comunity and consent culture grown man is trapped inside an elementary school kid body (impossible) or wether it was actually just an adult behind a fake profile who wrote porn to avoid backlash (shocker, I know!).

Kindest regards, Omar. (furry enthusiast, ex twitter fan and retired nsfw fanfict kid writer)

I’m glad you weren’t exposed to these things at the age of 11, Omar. I wish that was true of all of us.

That being said I do wonder if it was a fake profile after all - some of the screenshots in the document were taken in the year 2020 (not just of content written in 2020, actually TAKEN in the year 2020) and they conveniently deleted their profile the moment I said I could get evidence from it.

[keagan-ashleigh]

I have some new followers so I guess it's time to do another little presentation post 😌

About me

Hi! My name is Keagan, but also Clémentine (my birthname - you can use both, you can call me Clem too). I am currently 34, I live in France (in the south), and I am a graphic designer and illustrator - and hopefully in a couple months aspiring web designer 🤞

I am a proud bisexual & greysexual (I'll often just say "ace").

And I am nonbinary: I think genderfluid - I identify as woman sometimes but many other times this just makes me feel like it's not really me, it doesn't quite fit. I identify sometimes as a woman - I identify with what women experience also, I am a feminist and my experience is one of a woman, and although I don't identify as woman most of the time I feel to be part of it - and most of the time as nothing at all.

Edit, I forgot the pronouns : she/they (elle/iel or ael in french); I don't have preferences, but I've been called "she" all my life and very rarely experienced being addressed with "they" so I'd really like people to use it more. 😊

Also I am disabled: I am autistic - not diagnosed yet but I have just started the process of getting it diagnosed. I also have dyscalculia, and chronic pain (my squeleton is sliiightly crooked, not much but enough to cause me immense pain 🥲 - in knees, back, and hips) - I also have generalised anxiety disorder and depression. And I am short-sighted and I have tinnitus, and a couple other things.

I have been touched by a bitch of a fairy at birth I tell you 😂

I am very open about all of this so if you happen to need someone to talk to about those subjects, I'm here, I can't provide answers but I can share my experiences.

About my blog(s)

I have a blog for my art here: @keagan--ashleigh ; both are me, I've just put an extra dash as to not confuse people when they see 2 usernames interacting with them 😅

I have been on this blue hell since 2012, at first I had an aesthetic blog but it very quickly became a social justice blog, and I created a side blog (this one) for fandoms, at first mainly spn, then BBC Sherlock, and although I kept the title and decorum it returned to its multifandom/multisubjects state.

I also talk about other subjects occasionally, it's not a one-subject blog, I often blog & reblog funny stuff, social justice, etc.

I occasionally post in french but I have associated Tumblr with english strongly - I will maybe introduce a bit more of french in here idk.

I usually liveblogs Eurovision, the past years I have been doing that on Twitter bc it's hard to livetweet and liveblog at the same time but if twitter goes down I'll come back here lmao. And on twitter I also sometimes livetweet Top Chef in french but I might to that in here as well if I can't on Twitter idk - is there an audience for that here idk 😅

Most of my french specific stuff where on twitter, like I said I have associated tumblr with english and international stuff, and I don't know how I'll gonna get my french internet experience back in tumblr, we'll see but maybe you'll see more of my french specific stuff in the future, or I'll make a third side blog idk yet.

Worth to note I have a tagging system on both my blogs - and I tag the spoilers (unless for some reason I forget).

I often vent in the tags - it was, in this regard, better when ops couldn't see the tags in their notifications :o) I feel exposed now 😭

My ask box is always open.

About fandoms and opinions

My fandoms are: BBC Sherlock, Supernatural, Marvel, Our Flag Means Death, What We Do In The Shadows, Good Omens, Doctor Who, etc

My favorite ships: johnlock, destiel, Aziraphale & Crowley, lokius, nandermo, gentlebeard, 13th & Yaz, etc

About opinions and discourses:

I am a ship and let ship kind of person but that doesn't mean I approve of everything. I will never use the terms proshipper/anti because those words have been bastardised and the definition changes everytime I see it show up - so it's better if I just tell you what I like and don't like: I do not like incest ships, I do not like pedo ships, I am not against the fact of writing about those things but I don't like them being romanticised and glorified even. And no I don't think "it's ok because it's fiction" - whether it be fanwork or else what is written or shown in fiction has an impact on the real world, always, in a positive or negative way.

I will not engage in discourses about that though because it is tiring and useless.

I will not engage in ageist discourses either because - yes I think it's stupid to say fun has an end for people when they reach 30 but time will prove ageist people wrong and it's just sound stupid to me to have fights with literal kids over this. I'd rather enjoy my shit in my corner and not bother or be bothered by any of this.

I see a lot of ageism and condescendance from older people as well and I don't like that, being young doesn't mean people's inputs and opionions are wrong. About the fact joy must end at 30, yes, but cutting the discussions short (on various subjects) with "young people are so prude now / they don't enjoy anything/ yadda yadda"... no. No let's not do that. Times are changing and maybe some things we thought were ok then are not ok now and before we shut them up I think maybe we should listen and question what we think is true, let's not become the boomers of this generation ok, let's keep our minds open and be critical of ourselves first, we might at worst expand our worldview. And of course it goes both ways. Respect goes both ways.

At large, I will mostly enjoy my stuff and not engage with negativity, i do not have the mental health to deal with that, if people are wrong let them be wrong in their corners. Not saying I will never engage in any sort of argument but I'd rather stay away from most (especially those 2 I mentioned). I will never stop criticise mofftiss and Sherlock s4 though 😂

I also do not like ship hate.

I am uncomfortable with shipping real people but I am not against it of course do as you please as long as you don't overstep & be rude with the real people you're shipping.

And also, if I see someone implying a real person is "queerbaiting" because they appear queer & bully them into coming out I will virtually slap you in the head, ok, real people don't queerbait, period.

Last thing: I stand with the L, the G, the B, the T, the A, and all the other letters of that beautiful acronym so if you don't include trans people and ace people: please begone. :)

And also I try to be inclusive, I will not overstep and speak above other communities but I will try my very best to listen and forward those people's voices. I will not engage in discussions/arguments I am not meant to be a part of. I will try my best to take my part in making bigots feel unwelcome.

This blog, and all my accounts here and elsewhere are meant to be safe spaces for LGBTQIAP+, POC, disabled people, etc.

About me (again) - hobbies & creation

I happen to make fanarts, and I write fanfics and ficlets, I also do fanplaylists. Writing is one of my hobbies beside drawing, I also do photography, and I have recently started sculpting too. I love creating stuff so I often make little things, like I can sew, craft stuff, I do bullet journaling, etc.

Like I said I'm a professional artist, you'll find all the infos on my other blog but basically : I draw fantasy art, mostly women and feminine people.

I love science (astronomy and astrophysics in particular), arts, cats (I have 4), animals in general, I love music (I have eclectic tastes, I like rock, metal, classic, pop, jazz, etc...), I love to read & watch movies and shows (also eclectic but I love SFFF and horror the most).

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Voilà, I guess it covers the basis of who I am and what this blog is. Welcome and I hope you enjoy the ride (if you don't it's ok, just don't be rude). 🥰

[olderthannetfic]

all the talk of what brings on antis and dogpilling reminds me of the only time i've ever witnessed it happen in real time, on stan twt naturally

an army made a joke at the expanse of one of the members being insert-flaw-i'm-still-afraid-to-repeat-now lol and people decided they were a secret anti trying to infiltrate army spaces on purpose, which is apparently a thing?

their group of friends joined in like 'everybody calm down this is a joke and yes x is flawed lol which is fine actually let this be a moment to reflect on how it's important we treat the boys as humans and not put them on pedestals etc!'

at this point there were call out tweets against them encouraging everyone to block/report them en masse retweeted by literally everyone i followed like it spread lightning fast to every corner of the fandom, from people who had clearly never even been in the vicinity of the same social circles and who didn't hesitate one single second to maybe give the benefit of the doubt to people who had been actively producing imo very good content for years?

by that point it was maybe 6 hours since the first tweet uttering the flaw accusation, and the friendgroup had all locked/changed usernames unlinked their other media etc because they had received hundreds of hate messages telling them to kill themselves among other niceties, and the call outs circulating kept getting updated with the new usernames for a little while (!!!!!!) like literally mocking them for trying to hide and gleefully exposing them for Punishment

anyway sorry for the novel but even if it had nothing to do with me i'm still lowkey traumatized by the story of how 8 months after joining i kind of not so accidentally quit twitter by way of unfollowing my entire TL in one go bc they all turned out to be idiots/cowards, and afterwards i just couldn't be in a space where everyone was okay with facilitating something like that happening by using anti tactics

like it's been a couple years now and i still can't believe this happened to very outspoken softcore badwrong writers who engaged heavily in pro shipping discourse, they really got (temporarily) run off the platform by accusations of being anti i'm

so my point was, genuinely i believe even in a situation where it's v statistically unlikely you could still randomly get dogpiled on, the best thing you can probably do to protect yourself is just to react fast and do everything you can to remove yourself from the situation completely if it ever happens to you. and the bigger a fandom the more insane and potentially dangerous it is. and also twt is : Hell.

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Twitter is garbage, and this is why.

Stupidass teenagers hoping sempai will notice them will always engage in this kind of behavior. Plenty of people old enough to know better will too. But on a site with decent site architecture, they wouldn't be able to go viral like this.

Also, idol fandoms are notorious for melting down when their faves are described as anything less than flawless.

[thevindicativevordan]

On Kong Kenan/Super-Man

It should've been him. He should've been the Superman of 5G/Future State/right now not Jon, and he should be the one getting an HBO Max series not Val. Hell he should be getting a movie!

God this dude is literally the best legacy character Superman has ever gotten, wholly his own person with his own lore and status quo while still building on the idea of "Superman". I am so pissed at DC for essentially just dropping him after his ongoing ended, what the hell Lee? You keep trying to make the Wildstorm characters happen, I need you to get my man Yang another Kenan book.

Have to admit I was a bit nervous at first about whether or not Kenan would be a worthwhile character. Yang's New 52 Superman run had been a disappointment to me overall, with only the the arc where Superman has underground wrestling matches against forgotten gods really sticking with me. Now he was introducing a brand new Superman? Didn't feel like he had "earned" that yet. But from the first issue I was hooked on this new character.

Kenan was unlike any other member of the Superfamily. He wasn't kind or sweet, he was an asshole! He was a bully! He was fantastic! Right from the start Kenan was set up to undergo a very different kind of character journey than the other members of the Superfamily. Empathy, humility, respect for people weaker than himself, these are all traits most heroes wearing the S-shield already posses by the time they first don the crest, but not Kenan.

Like all bullies he was even a bit of a coward himself at first, trying to bail on the experiment meant to give him Superman's powers right as it begins. After "saving" Lixin (the kid he bullies and steals lunch from every day) from Blue Condor he demands all the money Lixin has on him as payment. He's not courageous or selfless either at the start, Kenan is as much of an opposite of Superman as you can get short of being Bizarro. Learning the appeal of these traits formed the basis for his growth over the course of his series.

Seeing Yang bring in a lot of recognizable "Superman" elements in the series, but with a twist, was also great. Kenan is the one who bullies "Luo Lixin" rather than the traditional Clark/Lex friendship of Pre-Crisis and Birthright. Initially Kenan develops a crush on intrepid reporter for Primetime Shanghai, Laney Lan, but she dismisses him as too young and Kenan eventually ends up pursuing Avery Ho (Flash) instead. Baxi the Bat-Man of China has a similar relationship with Kenan as the traditional Superman/Batman in terms of being vitriolic best buds, however Baxi is the one who has the most respect for authority while Kenan is the rebel. Kenan is a part of the "Justice League of China" which does not meet with the approval of the already established Chinese superheroes, the Great Ten. That contrasts nicely with the good relationship the Justice Society and Justice League have, as well as seeing Yang lampshade the "Chinese copy" trope and incorporate that into his storytelling.

One of the funniest differences is how Kenan chooses to immediately reveal his identity as Super-Man to the world by taking off the compliance visor he was forced to wear, contrasting with Clark's choice to hide his identity. He was so eager to impress people that he never gave any thought to the danger he could put himself or his family in by revealing his identity until it was too late, something Clark is well aware of and has taken great pains to keep his identity secret. Was a missed opportunity for DC to have Kenan comment on Clark copying him for once when he outed himself under Bendis.

But one of the most poignant differences between Clark and Kenan is the gulf in separation between their relationship with their parents. Clark has a loving relationship with Ma and Pa Kent, trying to live up to their lessons as best he can. In contrast Kenan's mom was believed to have died in an airplane crash when he was just a child, and he never really knew her. His father was distant from him after that and the two weren't really close despite Kenan's attempts to impress him. So Kenan lacks that strong connection while still clearly loving both of them.

Pa Kent's death is one of the most tragic examples of Clark's love for his parents, and I've always been a fan of takes where Clark promises his father to fight for the powerless on Pa's deathbed. Kenan gets a similar scene at the start of his career, his dad "dies" (after being exposed as Flying General Dragon, a pro-democracy "supervillain" from the Chinese authorities perspective) and wants Kenan to promise he'll fight for Truth, Justice, and Democracy. But because Kenan's dad never really bonded with him, Kenan doesn't know what those mean, and can only promise that he never wants to see people die, something his father takes comfort in at least. In classic comic book fashion it's revealed that Dr. Omen, Kenan's "boss" and the one who gave him his powers, saved Kenan's father, because she is Kenan's mother! Kenan's relationship with his parents forms a lot of the crux of his character arc, and seeing how Yang utilizes the classic Superman concept of family kept the storytelling exciting.

Yang's brilliant exploration of the concept of "Superman" through the prism of Chinese culture was a great way to differentiate Kenan as well.

I absolutely freaking love how he tied to the concept of Qi to the S-shield in particular. Connecting the shape of the shield with the way Kenan has acquired his powers along the path of the Bagua (eight trigrams used in Taoism that represent the fundamental principles of reality), with his octagon S-shield outline representing all eight principles together, was mindblowing! So was the idea of restricting Kenan's access to his powers unless he was actually acting in a Superman manner, that tied his character growth to his power growth in an entertaining manner. There were so many characters and concepts that meshed Chinese and DC lore together, like how Emperor Super-Man was Kenan's "Doomsday", they even recreated that iconic dual kill shot! The Chinese Wonder Woman Peng Deilan, being based on the Chinese Legend of the White Snake! There was even some Korean mythology referenced with the Aqua-Man member of the JLC "Dragonson".

Yang also managed to do a Superman Blue/Superman Red story with Super-Man Yin/Super-Man Yang!

Shameful that it took me a while to realize what Gene Yang was doing but once I caught on I was touched. You can tell how much Yang loved Superman and his mythology, and how he was excited to incorporate as much from Clark as he could, while still using it in a way that was solidly Kenan's. And not just Superman's mythology, but the history and lore of the entire DC Universe. I-Ching got to be brought in, fleshed out, and used as Kenan's mentor! The "Yellow Peril" villain from Detective Comics #1, the comic DC gets its name from was brought in and revamped as I-Ching's twin brother All-Yang! Hats off to Yang for taking a racist caricature and attempting to make him into something more.

This series was a beautiful attempt by Gene Yang to build a space for Asian heroes and villains where they could be more than stereotypes, Kenan himself being a defiant mold-breaker in every regard as the complete opposite of most Asian characters in Western media (a jock, a bully, loves his dad but not on great terms with him, a powerhouse as a hero, etc). So much thought and hard work was poured into this by Yang and his team of artist collaborators.

Especially the costumes, man Kenan had so many great looks. From his starting outfit (which is my favorite Superman variant not worn by Clark himself), to the one with the Yin/Yang shield he acquired later on, to his Super-Man Yin & Super-Man Yang outfits, Kenan looked damn cool. Part of me is bummed they didn't go with the Chinese character shield they toyed around with, but I loved how Yang used the "s-shield" as a plot point, so I'm not too broken up over it.

All that great work Yang did to build that space up has been more or less forgotten sadly. It was nice to see Kenan in the DC Asian Month Celebration issue. Avery is going to be in Justice Incarnate at least (unsurprising considering she was created by Williamson). So fucking bummed that Superman Family Adventures cartoon didn't happen, they were going to have Kenan and John Henry Irons in it! Would've been a dream come true for me to see Irons in animation again, and Kenan making the jump to outside media! Maybe that would've encouraged DC to let Yang keep writing New Super-Man, or at least encouraged them to use him elsewhere instead of allowing him fall into Limbo.

Unfortunately I'm not sure what the future holds for Kenan. Jon is being pushed as Clark's replacement in the comics, with DC keeping all the other contenders such as Kon benched. Calvin is leading the Justice Incarnate team likely due to the upcoming Coates reboot that will make Clark black. Val will probably get something once Taylor leaves Jon's book or once they officially announce the HBO Max show is happening. So where does that leave Kenan, my new favorite PoC legacy hero? Currently my only hope is that Yang is working on something for DC involving him. Yang left Batman/Superman, where I was hoping to see a Baxi/Kenan team up, to go work on "exciting other opportunities" per his Twitter. So fingers crossed that there's something in the works for Kenan!

One day I hope he gets his day in the sun again.

[anonymous-swiftie]

If you are on twitter, please retweet this:

https://twitter.com/ASwiftie00/status/1334245577933148164?s=19

Dear #Swifties,

I'm new on tumblr, and I really don't know how to use it.

I know you are the best supporters of the music industry and I'm here to ask your help.

I'm fighting with a crippling depression, that due this covid situation just got worse.

I'm at my lowest, I truly don't know if I will make it through this time.

I always dreamed to talk to Taylor, since I was a teenager. She is the only one that make me feel like I do fit in this world.

I've created this account because I know she is very active here, and I'm trying to reach her with this part of my story.

You can read everything below.

I didn't write any personal information because I don't want this to be seen by my family or somebody that can recognise me.

I don't want upset anyone.

I know that everyone hope to meet or chat with her, and so you are probably wondering why you have to share this here.

You're totally right, maybe it's a stupid idea to ask you this, but I haven't anything left in my pocket to fight this situation, and you're my only hope right now.

Thank you.

#taylor #swift

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Dear Taylor,

I keep writing and deleting this, over and over again.

I feel so dumb to write my personal story here, but this truly is my last chance to feel better and try to overcome this giant monster called depression.

I genuinly don't know if I can make it through this year. It's the worst period of my entire life and i don't even know if it's worth living this hell anymore.

I know you have millions of supporters (that probably write you every single day, and they are all better fans than I am, that's for sure) but I know that you proved, time after time, to be so down to earth and to use your time to read your fans messages.. so, in this moment, I'm just trying to share a part of my story with you.

You are the one that make feel understood, since I was like 13teen.

I'm so sorry if my English isn't very good but I'll do my best.

I'm not very active on social media , because I'm very shy when I have to talk about myself.. but If this could work, I must do it.

I will try to send a letter, If I can find the strength to mark this feeling on paper.

**IF I'M WRITING TO SOMEBODY FROM HER STAFF, PLEASE JUST LET THIS MESSAGE REACH TAYLOR**

I'll try now to resume, because I don't want to bother you too much.

This has been a crazy year so far, and the all the time I spent by myself during the lockdown didn't help at all.

This situation brought me back to childhood.

I spent a lot of my days back and forth in hospitals, due to my allergies.

I had to wear a mask all the time I wanted to go outside to avoid severe allergic reaction (that's why this Covid thing awakened some hurting memories)

I didn't have real friends back then, 'cause I've spent most of the summers at home, watching other kids playing around, from my window, or from the windows of my classroom.

It was so hard to make new friends, because the only thing that other kids saw was my mask.

I was the masked kid.

I was the strange kid.

I couldn't play with them.

Everytime I tried to play with them, the only thing I heard was "oh you are ill , I don't wanna be like you so stay away".

This situation made me start to write things in my personal diary.

I wrote small sentences, as a kid, and that was the only thing I could do alone inside an empty classroom during all summer.

This situation continued  for many years.

I wasn't the cool kid before, I wasn't the cool guy after.

The only things that let me enjoy those days were writing and listening to your songs.

I started to listen to your music thanks to my English teacher. She was a fan of folk and country music and she gave me a pic in which you were singing near a lake (I still have that photo somewhere, I strongly remember the white banner with your name written in red on it) and told me to listen to the cd she gave me that day.

I immediately fell in love (I think I still have a crush on you, I'm sorry).

I loved your album. I loved your voice. I loved the lyrics.

I remember having a "test" in school: each one of the class had to write their favourite lyrics and let the others guess the song.

If the someone guessed It, We could play the cd.

I chose Love Story and I translated it in Italian.

The class guessed the song, and I played it.

After the lunch break I went back to my desk and I saw some bullies that were breaking my cd-album and they started to laugh at me because I loved your music an I loved writing poems.

I was a boy so I was a loser because I enjoyed those things.

That felt terrible, but I continued to love your songs even more .

Those were my inspiration to write and to study english.

I felt so good when I listened to your album and this still happens.

Then I went to a private high-school.

Nothing changed, I still was the nerd guy that always got good grades and I have to say that the first year was quite good, but the second year was the start of the apocalypse.

I choose that school because two girls that I knew from childhood went there.

One of the cool new guys started to spread a fake "news" about me.

He said to everyone that I was the boyfriend of one of the two girls that I mentioned before.

So he was the cool guy and one of the girls believed him and told me to f*** myself.

The other girl was her best friend, so you could imagine by what happened next.

After 14 year spent together, I was nobody.

I didn't have "friends" in that class anymore.

I didn't say hello to anybody for 4 years, and nobody would say anything to me.

Nobody to talked with me.

That's great when you're a teenager.

I hated to wake up every morning.

I had an eating disorder, I lost like 22pounds in less than a month. Got hospitalized twice. I kept vomiting for 3 years, every single morning before school.

During that time I only talked with one of my cousins, who lived like 2 hours by car from me.

He was older than me but he always tried to help.

He knew that I loved to write poems so he started to give me guitar lessons.

I made it through a lot of things thanks to him.

I'm sorry, It's hard for me to write this part of the story.

I still get emotional when I think about this.

On the 10TH of December 2013 (some days after his birthday) we received a phone call from his mother: She warned us that he didn't return home after the last working shift.

I wrote a message to him like 3 hours prior to that phone call.

Never had the opportunity to get a reply again.

This year is the seventh year that he is missing.

That destroyed me.

I felt empty.

I felt like nothing couldn't help me.

I still feel that everytime I care about someone in my life, it will disappear someday.

This have happened several other times.

You know when ignorants say that men don't cry, is real bullshit. Men cry. I cried a lot.

I wrote so many poems , lyrics, thoughts in that period of time, that I destroyed my hands.

That was the only way to close my eyes and let me reach another reality because the real one was way too much for me.

Be a sensible man in this world is somehow a curse.

All these things made me afraid  even to hug someone 'cause I feel I'm too ugly or just to scared to be refused.

I will stop here my story, but there's so much more to tell.

I make it through all of these things and memories because I keep dreaming that one day I could meet you and we could talk together.

Dreaming about the fact I could spend a day with you made me find the power to battle my depression.

I'm 25 now and this year I'm not dreaming anymore.

I was going to start again university, I wanted to get a degree in marketing and have the chance to live in the us.

For years I believed that I would make it and hopefully be part of your marketing team.

I'm so stupid. All these years I kept dreaming to avoid pain.

I wanted to pursue my passion and continue to write lyrics but all I was doing was putting myself in unrealistic realities.

This covid situation made everything clear.

When everyone had someone to facetime (or video call) I was alone.

When everyone had someone asking them "how are you?" I only had myself looking in the mirror saying: "Will I ever feel better?"

I've never been the one for anybody, and I think I'll never be.

I won't be the one among all your fans to realize his dream.

Nobody likes me, and I'm exposing myself once again just because I want the opportunity to smile at something that could happen to me.

I'm tired to smile only for others best moments.

I've always seen the sun through a window.

I want to feel happy.

I want to burn my face with the sun.

I'm so sick of hiding my pain,

sick to cry when I'm alone in my car before going to work,

sick to let my eyes rain on my pillow every night.

I'm sick to say to my mother that I'm fine, just because I don't want to make her feel bad.

It's not her fault.

She is battling with a degenerative autoimmune disease, why I should put other weight on her shoulders?

I didn't give up to my weakness before because I don't want to hurt her.

I always say to her that soon she will feel better, that's why your song It's stuck in my head.

But when she won't be here anymore, how I can go through all of that?

I don't even know if will ever get better for me.

Will this pain ever stop?

Sometimes it's so hard to live and so easy to die.

Hope that my dream to spend some time with you can become true.

Thank you for everything, you gave me the strength to go on for many years.. But this time is so hard to put on my armor and continue this battle.

But is this even worth if thy I try to surround myself with people and I always feel lonely?

D.

@taylorswift @taylornation @jackleopards-thedolphinclub

[thejustmaiden]

I believe one of the reasons why Sunrise did not reveal the mother of the twins is because she's not Rin, but a new character that has yet to be revealed. Do you think Sessrin fans worldwide will be disappointed and drop the show if their ship isn't canon? Because i've seem so many Sessrin fans preaching their ship like it's a religion and throwing the word "canon" everywhere (especially on twitter). I'd love to hear your opinions, they're always so enlightening! Keep up with the good work!

Hey there, nonnie! Thanks for the kind words. 😁

So here's what I think!

Yes, I agree for the most part that a lot of Sessrin shippers like to go and preach their ship is canon. I'm sick and tired of these particular fans instigating drama and harassing others over it when nothing has even been confirmed yet. But say Sessrin does go canon and we look back at this period with the oh so fond memories. haha Would anyone say that their kind of behavior was justified at the time? Does predicting right and "winning" absolve someone of wrongdoing? Hell no, past actions like this should never be acceptable- canon or no canon.

And no, I don't believe this will stop these shippers from tuning in. Based on everything I've heard around, I'd say that in general most Sessrin fans still plan to watch the sequel regardless of their ship going canon.

On the opposite side, I have noticed that almost the majority of antis (including myself) have stated that they would very likely not watch this sequel if they plan to make Sessrin happen. For a lot of us, it's a deal breaker. This is why it would be awful nice of them to just save us all the trouble and tell us who the damn mom is already! Or at least say/imply it's not Rin. Like I prefer not to be dragged along until the very end, thank you very much!

Now don't get me wrong, there are some Sessrin fans out there who would most definitely not take kindly to the idea of someone other than Rin being the mom. I wouldn't really blame them for their frustration either, since none of us should've had to wait as long as we have so far to find out who the mom is. The fanbaiting at this point has reached new heights and has made the wait that much more excruciating. Sunrise's trolling isn't however the only problem.

It worries me that simply voicing an opinion gets you attacked in this fandom these days (proof that fiction does affect real lives on both sides). It doesn't matter how politely you're making an argument, they'll gang up on you anyway. All antis like myself are attempting to do is shine a light on the serious issue that is child grooming by stating that this norm shouldn't be normal anymore. Nobody is telling anyone to stop liking or believing in a ship, so I wish they would stop saying we are.

The portrayals we put on our screens for our children need to mirror real life to a certain degree, and that would depend on the sensitivity/maturity of the content presented. That's not to say fiction needs to be super realistic and void of imagination- can you imagine how dull that would be? What I mean is that all of us in our respective societies should do a better job at enforcing and placing age-approriate themes into our stories. If you're a fan of this popular "older man falls in love with younger girl when she turns of age" trope, nobody is necessarily faulting you for that. (Judging you, perhaps, but that doesn't mean we don't respect you.) All we're saying is that this type of romantic pairing should be limited to mature audiences, as the grooming implications are too strong to risk exposing young ones to.

We all must accept that there are just some particular relationship dynamics that walk a fine line between what is considered "normal" and what is considered "dangerous." When you really think about it, shouldn't this line that separates the two be bold instead of thin? That's the downside of fiction- it's capable of blurring said line and making harmful images not look so bad when put in a different light. And careful, context matters but only to an extent. So these are the questions we should be asking ourselves: How do we live in a time where sexualizing young girls is still a part of the status quo? Where it's so normalized that too many of us don't even bat an eye? The sad thing is, is that these acts are not only normalized but glorified too.

On that note, I'd say the majority of us antis have good intentions. Nobody is claiming we're perfect, but more times than not our anger and disgust lately has to do with the condescending and ugly attitude of some Sessrin shippers more so than with the actual ship itself. We're also dumbfounded as to why anyone would dare fight us on the subject of child abuse. Why would any sane person want to stop us from fighting to protect children? We all should be on the same side of this issue even if we aren't for the ship. This is bigger than fandoms and shipping, this is about the safety and well-being of our children watching- past, present, and future. That is the most important takeaway! But until we can all acknowledge the real impact fiction has on our kids, making progress won't come easy and it'll be a near impossible ordeal unless we all come together.

Hope that I helped address your concerns, nonnie. Wishing you a beautiful day/evening/night wherever it is you may be!! ✌

P.S. I would never assume to know who the mom is, but if I had to make an educated guess then I'd probably predict it's a new character we have yet to meet too, nonnie!

[bl4cklabyrinth]

Live Report: MY FIRST STORY TOUR 2019 Semi-Final at Kobe World Memorial Hall

Disclaimer: Take note that all of these reports were translated by ear, so there is no assurance of accuracy. Because of this, please do not retranslate my work. I am no Japanese or English native.

I am only reposting the relevant MCs from my Twitter thread for archive purposes. Please check my tweets to read more about my thoughts on the show.

Photo by Takashi Konuma | Taken from MFS’ official Twitter

Setlist

SE

不可逆リプレイス

Black Rail

ブラック・スワン

花-0714-(Re:arrange)

monologue

虚言NEUROSE

KING & ASHLEY

mine

君のいない夜を越えて

終焉レクイエム (Acoustic ver.)

Love Letter (Acoustic ver.)

LET IT DIE (Acoustic ver.)

Band session

無告

Missing You

Weight of my pride (Pay money To my Pain cover)

MONSTER

絶体絶命

ACCIDENT

モノクロエフェクター

REVIVER

With You

Encore

THE OVER (UVERworld cover)

LET IT DIE

ALONE

Story about Weight Loss

Hiro: Anyway, this has no relation (to the acoustic session) whatsoever, but didn’t I get super thin?

Kid’z: You did! Tell us more! You really did lose weight! Nob too!

Hiro: We declared during Hall Tour that we’d lose weight within one month, but we couldn’t do it. We made a promise though, didn’t we? I did my very best, you know?? I seriously gave it all I got!!

Kid’z: I’ve been avoiding carbs for a long time, and even tried diligently apportioning my meals and stuff like that. But before I knew it, I was already eating curry!

Crowd: *laughs*

Fan: How much weight did you lose?

Hiro: I dropped 6 kg.

Crowd: Ohhh! *claps*

Kid’z: That’s a lot!

Hiro: Amazing, right? On the contrary, I’ve always been fat.

Kid’z: No, seriously.

Hiro: I lost weight so that I can get fat again. I want to get fat so I lose weight. When I’ve lost weight, I’ll gain weight again. It’s a never ending cycle.

Kid’z: Don’t leave it as it is!

Hiro: I get told that all the time. I mean, I’m gonna gain weight before METROCK again anyway.

Kid’z: Isn’t METROCK great though?

Hiro: Can I say this? Why do they hold festivals at such a season?

Kid’z: Because (the weather) is cool? I once thought Doraemon was the one singing.

Hiro: Who you calling 123 cm tall?

Kid’z: Nobita-kun.

Hiro: I’m not the blue geezer.

Kid’z: He isn’t a geezer!

Hiro: He’s a geezer, isn’t he?

Crowd: *laughs*

Hiro: Generally, we release a CD around spring or summer. Then we start tour around autumn, right? From the beginning of fall, Hiroki starts losing weight. Little by little. Then, year end starts rolling in. By the end of the year, tour ends, it becomes production season, and eating Hiroki comes out. Hiroki enters hibernation, just like any other large mammal.

Kid’z: You need to stock up, right?

Hiro: Yep, so I can get through winter. Then it becomes spring again. METROCK is waiting for me, but I don’t want stocked-weight-from-hibernation-at-its-max Hiroki to be exposed there! Why do I keep getting told I got fatter or thinner every time?! Leave me alone!!!

Kid’z: But you did your best, right?

Hiro: ...Yep.

Kid’z: Good job.

Crowd: *claps*

Kid’z: How about Nob? How are you doing?

Nob: I lost 5 kg.

Hiro: You lost weight only because you were sick, right?

Kid’z: Because his tonsils were taken out.

Nob: I haven’t gotten my sense of taste back up until now.

Hiro: Don’t let yourself lose one of your most important senses!

Nob: Some time ago I had pickles and it was the best.

Hiro: What an old man.

Story about Poor Kid’z (figuratively and literally)

Kid’z: This story has no relation to anything we’ve talked about so far, but you (Hiro) started an IG account, right? During Hall Tour. Since then, you did a lot of things to me, like that game with the paper cups and the 10,000 yen you put inside one of them, which I played along with having good intentions in mind. I chose the right cup and you gave me the bill, but you revealed that there was 100,000 yen in the other cups.

Hiro: Yep.

Kid’z: ...I tried that with a friend. I was caught. 100,000 yen.

Hiro: Eh?? They made a winning move, huh.

Kid’z: I was like, “Oh no, what should I do?? Should I take it back?” I wanted to be able to fool someone, to get a taste of how it feels! So I started turning the cups around thinking I could do it like you did. When it was time for them to pick, my friend chose a different cup, and in my head I was all, “No no no, not that!!!” and eventually they got it...

Hiro: That person probably saw my IG post and thought you were an idiot.

Thoughts on Marriage

After Love Letter, Hiro and Kid'z talked about being excited yet nervous to play the next song, since it's been a while since they last played it.

Kid’z: Speaking of which, the person beside me seems to be nervous!!

Nob: *rubbing his palms on his pants*

Kid’z: Can I do a hand check? *touches Nob's palm* It's all sticky!

Hiro: Eh? You're scared of making a miss again? Like in Yokoari? Higedan. Ah! Speaking of which, Satoshi-kun got married! Congratulations!

H&K: *congratulate Nob*

Hiro: Eh? Official?

Kid’z: This is Unofficial.

Hiro: Ah, sorry. Unofficial. He got married, huh... There's been a crazy marriage rush recently... 

Kid’z: Yeah, it's been all over LINE NEWS lately.

Hiro: Right. back number, Higedan, Maple Chogokin.

Kid’z: You're mean for putting Maple Chogokin as last!

Hiro: No no no. *laughs* The marriage rush is insane, right... Right... Insane right... 

Fan: Do you want to get married?

Hiro: ...I don't wanna get married. 

Crowd: Eh???

Hiro: Do you? Someday, I assume. As for me, I don't wanna get married at all. 

Kid’z: *in a teasing tone* Is it because you don't have a partner?

Hiro: *taunting tone* Ha? Ha? Ha? What the hell are you saying, you.

Kid’z: Ah, sorry we had a little quarrel.

Hiro: Let's get a divorce first!

Kid’z: What the hell is this breakup!

Poor Nob

Photo by Takashi Konuma | Taken from Hiro’s IG post

Hiro: Anyway, are we good? You (Nob) still seem nervous. How are his fingers?

Kid’z: They're tender. 

Hiro: If I had to play it in a room like this, I'd be pissed.

Nob: *strums a tune*

Kid’z: It's that song!! It's definitely that song, right? Can you do it, Nob bear? Are you alright? You practiced last night without sleeping.

Kid’z: Give him your support.

Crowd: Cute!! You can do it!!!

Kid’z: The pressure on you is rising, huh.

Hiro: *in an old man voice* You can do it! You can do it! You can do it!

Kid’z: Eh? What was that voice? Father?

Hiro: *taunting tone* Ha? What the hell are you saying. Who you calling father, come home and I'll kill you.

Kid’z: Ah, sorry. Father, I apologize.

Hiro: to Nob You okay? Dududadududa~ (T/N: the intro of LET IT DIE) The last song for the acoustic session. Please listen, LET IT DIE.

Then, Hiro crouched down from his seat and kneeled, looked at Nob closely, and so did Kid’z. Nob stared back, aced the dududadududa intro and everybody clapped for him! However, Nob made a mistake towards the very end, playing the last string of notes twice. When they were walking back to the main stage, Hiro put his arm around Nob and teased in a mocking tone, "Hey, in LET IT DIE, in LET IT DIE, hey, during the acoustic set, hey, I was satisfied with the beginning, but in the middle of the song, hey, you made a mistake, right? Even if you were doing so well." When they got back to the main stage, Nob bowed down in apology.

Weight of my pride MC

Hiro: Your voice has been heard! There were a lot of requests for PTP, and in my heart, PTP is my eternal hero. It shouldn't be just us; so that he can also hear your voices, shout as loud as you can Kobe!!! Next song is called Weight of my pride!

Check out their version of the performance at Saitama Super Arena here:

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モノクロエフェクター MC

Hiro: How are we doing Kobe? I thought everyone in Kobe could handle it, you know? Aren't y'all drinking too much milk tea? Your nipples are gonna become tapioca if you drink too much milk tea, you know? Well, if you're sure you're not drinking too much then you should be able to handle it, so let's all dance together!!

Reviver MC

Hiro: Thank you so much for today! It's been a great day, I'm really grateful. I've always been alone. I've lost so many people I didn't want to lose, and I've let go of things I didn't want to part with many times. I might not be able to change the world with music, but because of music, I met the members, I met all of you, and it made me think that my life was pretty impressive. I want to believe it was my destiny to meet all of you here tonight, so let's keep walking together Kobe!!!

With You MC

Hiro: Thank you so much for today, Kobe!!! After this, the tour will be ending soon. Thinking about it makes me sad, but knowing that you will all be supporting us next year, and the year after that, and the year after that, and even after 10 years makes me feel very grateful. But there's one thing I want to say before today ends: Kobe, I love you!!!

THE OVER MC

Hiro: How was it? MFS' UVERworld. Did I become Hiroki∞? This song was really difficult. The way the lyrics jump, especially during the part before the last chorus.

Kid’z: I didn't learn that note.

Hiro: *emphasizes the difficult enunciation of a line from the song* Unbelievable, I had a hard time remembering it.

Kid’z: The instruments were tough, too. Even Nob was complaining, there were notes he had never seen before.

Hiro: I couldn't match the timing of the lyrics either. I had to enter at an exact time, 3 characters in one second!! If MFS were to do it, we'd go with a lower key.

Kid’z: You say MFS but it's your key, right? Your voice is hella loud you know.

Hiro: It's because if I'm alone, then it's not MFS.

Kid’z: Nah, we were able to match the key, but only you can sing it that high, right? (T/N: They seemed to have raised the key by 2 octaves)

Hiro: You guys thought the cover song was only Weight of my pride, didn't you? You're wrong! We did UVERworld but we received many other requests. There were a lot of PTP songs in the tags. Who else was it... Sheena Ringo, Oral, and King Gnu too.

Kid’z: Weirdly enough, B'z was highly requested too. 

Hiro: It'd be weird if I sang their songs.

Crowd: Sing! Sing! Sing!

Hiro: 萎えぇぇ！萎えぇぇ！萎えぇぇぇぇー (T/N: Nae is Japanese slang that roughly translates to “no” or “ugh” in this context) Wait a minute. Change the song.

Kid’z: *offended tone* Huh?

Hiro: Well then, sing a line that starts with A!

Hiro: You're an Ultra Soul Idiot. Do you know any other song apart from Ultra Soul?

Kid’z: Of course I do! Don't you? All of you? I love them more than anyone else, I'm even in the fanclub! こいよ！！

Kid’z: *sings a B'z line that starts with A*

Hiro: Gi!

Kid’z: Gi? *sings a line that starts with Gi* I told you, I can do anything.

Teru: Yu!

Kid’z: Yu? YUME JANAI ARE MO KORE MO SONO TE DE DOA MO AKEMASHOU, SHUKUFUKU GA HOSHII NARA KANASHIMI O SHIRI HITORI DE NAKIMASHOU, SOSHITE KAGAYAKU ULTRA SOUL!

Crowd: HEY!!!

Hiro: Oi, Teruki!! Why did you say "yu"?! You should've let him build up first before making him sing "yu"!! It was too early to make him sing that as the third song!

Kid’z: It felt really good!!

Hiro: Why did you say "yu" so quickly?!

Teru: I just made a mistake.

Hiro: Don't be an airhead!!

Kid’z: I'm really grateful!

Nob’s Redemption Arc

After their UVERworld cover, Hiro asked the audience what they should do next. The crowd started screaming different songs, to which Hiro said "I'm seriously fine with anything." Nob suddenly played the first three notes of LET IT DIE, to which Hiro said, "Ah, from earlier?" Kid'z said, "He made a mistake a while ago, so let's give him another chance." Then Nob started practicing. The crowd screamed, "You can do it!!!" then Nob walked towards the center stage and did a moonwalk. Hiro was all, "You can't do it, you're not Michael Jackson!" then sang a MJ line and howled his signature "Woo!"

Final MC

Hiro: Today was truly an amazing day, thank you all so much. We had such an intense gathering here at Kobe World Memorial Hall. The first Coming Kobe was also held here. We have so, so, so many memories here in this place. Right now, we're still on our way to reaching our dream. From hereon, we don't know if we could make such a big dream come true. We still have a long way there, but we're doing our best every year, making music for everyone and visiting various places as well. Next year, and the year after that, and even after 10 years, it would be nice if we could all make amazing memories together. Thank you so much! We're definitely coming back, Kobe!!

Photo by Takashi Konuma | Taken from Hiro’s IG post

[treadmilltreats]

The anniversary of my freedom

Yesterday was the 7 year anniversary of my freedom and the funny thing is, I didn't even realize the date. I was on Facebook, when my remember when came up, gotta love Facebook's remember when, otherwise we'd never remember anything.

I laughed as I didn't even know or remember the date, I honestly thought it was sometime in September. I probably should have it burnt into my head as this was the date of my freedom. It was as if you've been let out of prison after 24 years, something you never forgot.

But here's the thing, I don't think about it because I've moved on, I made a wonderful, fulfilling life for myself. I am grateful every single day that I am free. For me every day is my anniversary of my freedom. Seriously, at least twice a week on the way home from the gym watching the sunrise, I get so overwhelmed that I literally cry.

I am grateful I am no longer in a verbally abusive marriage. I am grateful for this amazing life I have now, a life I almost gave up on, a life I wanted to end.

A life that I envisioned and fought for, a life that is sometimes is hard as hell but that I wouldn't give up for anything in this world.

I found my self worth through this process, I found that I loved myself once again. I learned that I need to be me, like me or not, I'm still gotta be me.

I lived too many years trying to be someone I wasn't, trying to please someone who would never be happy anyway.

I have to live my true life, be my true self. I found I had strength I thought I lost, I found it through my faith in God.

I found my voice and am blessed to be able to be a voice for others who have none. I found my purpose in writing and being able to expose the lies I was living. To show others it's okay, that it may not be perfect, but that it will get better, if you keep believing and never give up.

I sometimes look back and think about how far I've come, I think about the many nights I cried in my bath with my wine and pills,  wishing it would be over, praying for the strength to leave or to die.

I think about how every night as I went to sleep I would envision the life that I wanted, even down to what my home would look like. A home where I was free, a home filled with peace and love, with laughter and friends and family. I envisioned traveling, I saw everything in my mind as if it was. I envisioned all of this, this life I now have and I am here to tell you you can too!

This is why I went through all I've been through is so that I can be here for you, the ones who are still crying in their tubs, for the ones who hate their lives and can't see a way out. For the ones beaten down, feeling like the lost themselves. This is what my freedom means to me, it means I can give encouragement to others, to say if I did it, so can you, look it can and will happen, just don't give up.

So today my friends, remember this is not just my anniversary, I want it to be your anniversary as well. An anniversary of leaving the things or people that no longer work for you. The anniversary of a new you, a stronger you, a you that loves yourself enough to know your self worth and to demand respect. You can do this, hell, I did it and I am no different than you.

So let's all make this the anniversary of our freedom.

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[treadmilltreats]

Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with men today?

I'm constantly asking myself this question since I've been single for the last five years. Things have changed a lot between the 24 years I was married and now. It seems that all the gentlemen have disappeared and the only thing that is left as a bunch of dirtbags that have no conscious and no couth when it comes to dating a woman.

I don't want to get hate mail so I will say that I know there are great men out there. I have some really great male friends, I also had great male role models growing up. So yes, I do know that great men exist but and here's the but....

But there are definitely way more creepy, crude, and classless men out there then great men.

So here's some things I don't understand and maybe you men out there can give me a reason to why men do these 10 things.

1. Why do you say on your profile that you want a relationship and then the first thing you do when you start to talking to a woman is talk about sex?

2. Why is it as you say you're a "Christian" and yet you asked me during our first conversation if I like to play with myself?

3. Why is it that you want to text and text and text and never meet?

4. Why is it that men are afraid of a strong, independent women?

5. What the fuck is with ghosting? Seriously??

6. If your not feeling it, why not just say so?

7. Why don't you fix the shit that's broken before you bring your broken ass to the next relationship?

8. Why do you think it's okay to come at me and come on to me when I clearly told you I'm not looking for a hook up, especially on the first date?

9. Why can't you do what you say and say what you do? Aka, lying, cheating, being who your not.

10. Why aren't you a gentleman? Please tell me why and when did that go out of style?

Please, please answer these questions that my girlfriends and I constantly wonder about.

Dating in today's world sucks, it really, really sucks.

Besides the whole navigating through all the catfish out there. Btw what the hell is with that? Please get a frigging life! 

When you actually meet someone and that alone is getting slimer and slimmer. Why not just be you, we are too old to be playing games. Be upfront, aka I want a relationship, I want children, I am who I am, why is this so hard?

I write this blog and I am always real, I expose my heart every day to the world, this is me, like it or not, this is me.

Just be the true you, be honest, be real that's what we want to see, that's the person we want to get to know.

So today my friends, please help us out here, also tell me the things about women you would like to know and I will be happy to blog about that as well.

Seriously people we are too old for games, we just want to know what the fuck is wrong with men nowadays?

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