#can't believe i'd totally forgotten about this bit

[capr1pengu1n]

Hi! Hihihi! big fan here!

I am fiending for something mouth watering, torturing, jaw dropping smutty fun with our boy from Assault on Arkham. Female reader please. Maybe she's a nurse working a shift at Arkham or a therapist or care tech? I'm just seeing total domination, daddydom/zaddy type vibes. But feel free to do whatever you feel.

Thank you for your time and consideration!!

Tata~!

Corrupting the young with your uncivil tongue

Summary: While on shift at Arkham Asylum, what should be a routine check on an injured inmate turns into something a whole lot more.

Warnings: 18+ smut, fem reader (no use of y/n), Assault on Arkham!Eddie, dom/sub dynamics, praise and degradation, choking, rough sex, fingering, face fucking

Words: 4.4k

Notes: Thank you so much sweetheart, you're too kind! This gave me an excuse to rewatch his scenes on yt (mgg really is one of the perfect voice actors for him, even with his sometimes dodgy vocal deliveries)

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Being a nurse meant seeing the truly ugly side of Arkham Asylum; the dangerous patients always being one movement away from lashing out at times. You didn't mind your job, in fact it was rather rewarding at times to help those you could, being able to feel as if you were making a difference in this cesspool of a city.

But many of the inmates you knew you couldn't trust, dangerous criminal masterminds who were constantly using Gotham City as a battleground for their many wars with the batman. And you knew deep down that The Riddler was one of those men. But still, he'd been nothing but...kind.

Well, maybe kind is a little bit too strong of a word. But he'd always been one of your better patients, never giving you too much trouble. And you couldn't deny the tiny part of you that lit up when you saw his name on your rota, no matter how much you pushed the feeling down in the crevices of your mind. His snarky smile would always be waiting for you when you administered the pills that he most likely just hid under his tongue, or to patch him up whenever his big mouth got him into trouble.

It seems today was one of those days, as you made your way to the rather empty infirmary and saw Edward laying in bed, flicking through a book without a care with one hand, the other handcuffed to the side. The doctor that saw to him had been rushed off his feet, rumblings of a mass riot causing all of the staff to be more overworked that usual, if that was even possible for a place like this. Still, you stood by his bed and closed the privacy curtain.

"There you are sweetheart, I was beginning to believe i'd been forgotten about. A distressing thought, i'll have you know."

You can't help but laugh softly at his dramatics, as he lowers the book to his side to give you a look at his face. A cut was across his cheek, not overly deep.

"Ah yes, this. Well that'll teach me not to display my mental superiority at dinner time, lest i'm slashed again. I really should have enacted some sort of revenge before one of the idiotic guards blundered in."

"Does it hurt?"

"Nothing more than a scratch, my dear."

There's that smile again, self-satisfied and smug, but with a hint of something else. He adjusts himself so he's sat more upright, watching with sharp eyes as you look through his medical chart, not missing the slight confusion on your features.

"Does anywhere else hurt?"

"If i say my chest, will I get to remove this horrid jumpsuit?"

You flush in spite of yourself, laughing softly at his insinuation which delights him greatly. Placing the chart down, you look back at him as he adjusts himself yet again.

"I see no reason why you'd need to stay, I can call for you to be escorted back to your cell now."

"Yes about that," he starts, looking around in a dramatic manner, "why is there no guard here anyway? Don't tell me they hardly see me as a threat? I'll have you know I-"

Shaking your head, you interrupt him. "No no, there's rumors of a riot starting. Everyone is on high alert. And it seems that there's a mistake on your chart...it says you have a broken leg. I doubt they thought you'd get very far."

The momentary annoyance of being interrupted dissipated when he heard your words, and he lets out a bark of a laugh.

"Oh the ineptitude of these fools truly never fails to amuse me." With a smirk, he tilts his head as he looks at you before continuing. "But i'm sure a girl like you wouldn't have made a mistake like that."

At his praise, you can't help the flush of pride that swirls in your chest despite who he is, as you smile softly. Pleased with the way you respond, he reaches up and gently tugs you closer to the bed by your arm.

"Does it take truly so little to flatter you?" he asks, causing you to look away for a moment before he squeezes your arm. "No. Look at me."

You do as he says, looking at his eyes through his glasses, before nodding a little. "I guess not..."

"Pity." he murmurs, looking at your chest unashamedly. "I'd have thought you'd be used to compliments, looking like that."

You feel the embarrassment and excitement bubble up in you at his words, despite your better judgement, despite the fact that a criminal mastermind is flirting with you and you like it. Forcing yourself to clear your head, you glance away yet again.

"Thank you."

"No problem darling."

Before turning to leave, he coughs slightly to get your attention.

"Hold on a moment. You really think it's a good idea to go out there? You said it yourself, a riot could break out at any moment." he declares, his eyes firmly fixed on yours.

"Well...yes. I could always go with the guards, they'd protect me."

"I could protect you." he says without missing a beat, without blinking. The look of shock must be evident on your face as you look at him.

"Why would you do that?"

"Why do I do anything?" he challenges, the rattle of the handcuff cutting through the room.

"...you do things when they benefit you." you say softly, trying to match his gaze.

"Exactly. Or maybe I want to protect the pretty nurse who always turns a blind eye when I don't swallow my pills."

"I-I don't-"

"Don't lie sweetheart, it doesn't suit you."

Hesitating, you glance down to where his hand is cuffed to the bed. This is a bad idea, an awful idea and you know it. But your apprehension is delicious to him, and he leans in as best he can.

"And you like the idea, don't you? Of The Riddler's protection?"

You swallow audibly, not denying his accusation. "I can't...i'm not Harley Quinn or anything, i'm not gonna go running off with a psycho-"

"Don't call me that." he snaps harshly, his tone serious and even making you flinch a little. Upon realising, he clears his throat a little in an attempt to calm down. "I'm not trying to dump you in a vat of acid to prove your devotion darling. I'm simply saying I could protect you."

Upon being under your gaze yet again, he puts on a smirk. "Besides, I'm not blind. The way you look at me is quite different than the way the other dimwitted orderlies do. It's...refreshing."

You release a breath, shaky and slow as you weigh up your options here. If a riot does break out...he probably could protect you. And it's not like he has any reason to harm you, right? Nodding slightly, you try and come up with some pathetic excuse before he interrupts you.

"What time is it?"

Slightly bewildered by the question, you glance at your small watch and reply, "About 7."

He hums, rolling his neck. "Might be a good idea to get me out of these handcuffs sweetheart."

Frowning, you go to ask him why before the power goes out. The room is plunged into darkness, causing you to jump at the sharp noise of the lights going. Frantically you stumble to try and head backwards before you feel a hand grasp at your waist, and suddenly you're pressed against a man's broad chest.

"Okay, I may have lied about needing your help to get out of the cuffs." Edward murmurs, before laughing smugly.

Panic sets in as you scramble to get away from him, but he only laughs harder and uses both hands to hold you still.

"Oh please stop struggling. You know I could overpower you. But I meant what I said darling, I'll protect you." he coos into your ear, and you can feel the satisfaction radiating from his smile in waves as he lets go of your arm.

"Now, be a good girl and barricade the door when the lights come back on."

"How do you know the light's will-"

With a bang, the lights come back on, and on instinct you follow his instructions. Regardless of the morally dubious actions of the serial killer you've found yourself with, you know how bloody Arkham riots can get, so self preservation wins out as you take a chair and push it against the door. Barricading yourself in with The Riddler.

He watches you carefully, half expecting you to make a run for it, but being slightly relieved when you trail back to him. "Good."

"How did you know when the lights would go off?"

"You're a smart girl darling, figure it out."

He must have known about the riot, hell he might have planned it. But what you couldn't understand was...

"You planned the riot, or at least knew. But why aren't..." you pause, as he steps closer, too close, "why aren't you trying to escape?"

He chuckles, lifting his hand to cup your chin. "Oh you naive girl. You think I orchestrated this just to escape? Perhaps I was wrong about you, or perhaps you're just too modest."

Observing the look of realisation on your face, he strokes his thumb along your cheekbone. "You can't taste it until you undress it, what am I?"

You can't deny the hitch in your breath at his, albeit cheesy riddle, which causes him to laugh more. "The answer isn't what you're probably thinking, but it's still an apt description of what I want to do to you."

What he wants to do to you. That's all you can hear rattling away in your brain as you let him stroke your cheek, down to the side of your neck.

"And trust me my dear, I want to do a lot of things to you."

"Like what?" you ask, the words spitting out without processing, but he smirks anyway.

"You want me to tell you? Tell you how much I want to dominate you completely? Have you completely at my mercy, as this whole asylum tears itself apart from the inside on my orders?"

You couldn't suppress the small whimper that escapes your lips even if you tried, as you nod your head. Instead, he moves his hand to wrap around your throat, slender fingers gently squeezing.

"How about I show you?" he rasps out, before slamming his lips against yours. It's all consuming, the way he keeps you still with his grip as his tongue forces it's way into your mouth. He explores every inch, reveling in the small moans he swallows as he uses his other hand to grab your hips, pulling you against him so you can feel the bulge straining against the garish orange jumpsuit.

"Get on your knees." he growls out against your lips, and you drop obediently. "Good girl, you're learning your place."

Not deterred by his condescending words, you gaze up at him as his fingers fiddle with the zipper of his jumpsuit, freeing himself after a moment. Your eyes immediately dart to his hard cock, watching as he pumps himself a few times and gently rests it on your cheek.

"A man can get certain...urges in a place like this. A lesser man would have probably resorted to his own hand to achieve momentary gratification, but I knew...I knew if I waited, victory would be all the more sweet."

He taps his cock on your lips, and you open and let your tongue gently run along the head. Gritting his teeth, he grabs a fistful of your hair and pulls, keeping you still and not allowing you the privilege of tasting him just yet.

"Ask me nicely. Tell me you've wanted me the same way." he demands.

"I've wanted you." you reply, staring up and giving him the most pleading expression you can muster. "I've always been attracted to you, I've always wanted you Edward."

He groans quietly, running his cock along your lips once again, humming appreciatively as you seem to have learnt your lesson in keeping your tongue to yourself.

"I do love you saying my name. But I think a different word is in order, after all, i'm here protecting you."

You know he's desperate for validation, desperate to feel superior and in control, but god you want to give it to him so badly.

"I've always wanted you sir." you ammend.

"That or 'master' will do." he smirks down at you, before tapping his dick against your lips deliberately. Getting the hint, you open up and let him push your head. Luckily he gives you the grace to not shove his whole length down your throat, pushing you halfway before letting you set the pace. You get to work immediately, bobbing your head as you suck, blinking up at him to observe his reactions.

You can't deny he looks stunning, his frown and brow lines relaxing as he lets you service him, his eyes fluttering closed for a moment to truly indulge in your wet mouth. He'd been in Arkham a few weeks now, and if what he said about relieving himself was true, it really had been a while since he felt such carnal pleasure.

As he opens his eyes again, he looks down at you once more, stroking your hair as you moan softly around his cock. While he certainly isn't going to admit it, he's relieved you were so eager to get on your knees for him, happy he got the signals right, happy he wouldn't have to admit that his lust was unrequited, what's he thinking, he's the riddler! Any woman would be lucky to have him, he's a specimen -

His thoughts are stopped when you push further, taking him deeper into your throat before pulling away for breath, taking him in your soft hand and jerking him. He let's out a slightly higher pitched noise, before growling and gripping your hair with both hands.

"Arms behind your back dear, let's see if I was right to choose you."

You do what he instructs, taking a deep breath before he pushes his cock into your willing mouth. This time he doesn't hold back, holding you in place as he thrusts shallowly into your mouth, before pushing deeper. Suppressing the urge to gag, you moan brokenly around him as your fingernails dig into your own arms, willing against your body's natural instinct to put your hands on his thighs and push against him. Instead you behave, letting him fuck your mouth and take his pleasure from you.

The look on your face has him getting close rather quick for his liking, but he's way too desperate to care. Glazed eyes, spit covered lips and chin from where his cock is pushing out your saliva, he thinks you look gorgeous. His one hand remains in your hair as his other grips your jaw.

"So good for me...fuck, almost makes me wish I hadn't had those idiots cut power to the cameras in here. Seeing my favourite nurse choking on my cock..."

He moans softly, cock pulsing as he gets nearer his climax. Rhythm faltering, he desperately ruts into your throat, wanting to cum so badly it almost hurts. All the while he's mumbling and muttering how slutty you are, how much this is usually beneath him, how good your mouth feels until-

"I'm gonna cum, you're gonna, shit, swallow it...swallow it all." he demands, before his hips still as he pumps his cum down your throat. Choking, you do your best to swallow all he gives you before he releases the death grip on your hair. You pull away and gasp shallowly for oxygen.

"What do you say?" he says condescendingly, although you don't miss the laboured breathing that betrays his excitement.

"Thank you." you start, but the firm tap on your cheek gives you the incentive to rephrase, "Thank you sir."

"Better. You know how few people can say they've had the privilege of The Riddler fucking their face?"

Despite how fucked up morally you know it is, you can't help but feel slight pride at his words, knowing that it's you who he chose to sleep with. He tugs you up by the arm, before humming and squishing your cheeks together, tilting your face from side to side as he appraises you.

"How about you lay on the bed." he says, and despite the phrasing, you can infer from his tone that he's not asking. So you do, hearing the cheap infirmary bed creak as you lay down. Outside you can vaguely hear noises, yells and chants mostly, but you try your best to tune it out as Edward makes quick work of ridding you of your nurse uniform. He gives a wolf whistle, smirking shamelessly.

"Not bad at all." he mumbles, which you assume is quite high praise for him, as he gropes your tits roughly. "I knew I wasn't wrong to have been taken by your looks. It's a bonus you have half a brain in there somewhere."

Feeling a little mean, he gives one of your breasts a sharp slap, grinning as you flinch and squirm. He repeats the motion, and again for a third time on the other one, before soothingly massaging the tender skin.

Before long, he can't resist parting your legs to get a good view of your dripping cunt, needy and pulsing after being treated so roughly by him.

"Oh poor thing." he coos, the falseness of his sympathy only adding to your arousal. "Do you need master's help?"

You can only nod pitifully, as he brings his fingers to your clit and circles slowly, as if observing the consequences of his actions. At your hips jerking, he uses his other hand to pin you firmly to the bed, the structure squeaking under the weight. He continues to play with your clit, alternating his pace and rhythm to keep you on edge, never quite allowing you to reach the peak of the satisfaction he could bestow upon you.

"Such a needy hole, look at it. It's just begging to be filled, isn't it?" he asks, to which you nod again. In response, he slaps your cunt harshly. "If i wanted to talk to myself, i'd have simply jerked off in the safety of my isolated cell. Speak."

"Yes, yes I want to be filled." You say quickly, embarrassment fading away to let the desperation uncurl its claws in your mind. Seemingly satisfied, he slowly pushes two fingers into your pussy, barely suppressing the groan at how wet and hot you feel.

Starting to pump his digits, he curls them to press into your g spot, watching as you tense and make soft moans at the sensation. His other hand wraps around your neck, smirking at your wanton desperation.

"So quick and eager to have a criminal's fingers inside of you. And a nurse at that, don't you have a duty of care?" he taunts sadistically, languishing in your shame and embarrassment as he keeps fucking you harshly with his fingers. You try and shake your head, but you can't with how he's choking you ever so slightly; a reminder that your life is in the hands of one of Gotham's most feared supervillians. And your cunt has never been wetter.

But you aren't the only one affected. Edward was never the type of man to be able to go multiple rounds, and age didn't exactly help that fact. But whether it was being in the Asylum, his abstaining from self pleasure, or just you, he was hard as a rock again and itching to know what your pussy might be like around him.

"Please..." you start to beg, slightly dazed from the onslaught of sensations.

"Please what, hm? Please stop? Please fuck me? Oh please I want to be fucked by the greatest intellectual this city has ever known?"

You can hardly digest the intense self importance he's displaying as you nod again as best you can. "Please fuck me sir."

"Getting better, but say it louder. More conviction. I'm not an easy man to please." he threatens, moving his fingers faster, practically bullying the inside of your pussy as he releases the grip on your neck, allowing merciful oxygen to grace your airways.

"Please sir, please fuck me. Please make me yours, your slut. Please." you beg between moans, body tensing.

"I will." he assures you, pulling his fingers out and bringing them to his face to observe your fluids, "but you should know, you became my slut when you so willingly got on your knees for me."

He grabs your hips and pulls you towards him as he kneels firmly on the bed, grabbing a pillow and stuffing it under you. You almost voiced your thanks at the action, before he rubs the head of his cock on your sensitive clit.

"Once more, for good luck."

What an asshole, he doesn't even believe in luck, you think to yourself, but the stimulation on your core was leaving your breathless and needy, so you indulge him.

"Please fuck me master, I need you. I need The Riddler."

Playing into his ego, his persona, almost always works (not that you know that, opting for an educated guess instead) and he rewards you by sinking into your pussy, moaning uncharacteristically higher pitched. Once he bottoms out inside of you, he takes a moment to really take in the scene in front of him, before grabbing hold of your hips and starting to move.

You moan, the fingering causing your cunt to already be sensitive and on fire with urgency as he starts to fuck you. He bends over you, taking his glasses off and placing them at your side before starting to move his hips faster, determined to rid you of any other thought but him.

"That's it, fuck, go dumb on my cock for me." he encourages, as your eyes glaze over. "My dumb little nurse, so willing to spread her legs."

Not being able to deny his accusation, you simply hold on to his arms for dear life as he picks up the pace even more, thrusting into you and watching your cunt soak his cock in your wetness.

"Making such a goddamn mess." he grunts, leaning down and slapping your clit for the sake of it.

You whine at that, body jerking in response as he chokes out a small chuckle. Soothing it, he rubs circles with his thumb in time with his thrusts, content with the noises of pleasure that fall from your lips. Outside, the noise of the riot were obvious now, and he uses it to his advantage.

"What if someone were to see? Would they think i forced myself on you? Or would they see you for what you truly are? A whore who wanted one of her patients to fuck her." he demeans you, and all you can do is attempt to shake your head.

He tuts, leaning so his breath tickles your lips. "I told you, lying doesn't suit you sweetheart."

Perhaps you were a whore, for wanting a man like Edward to make you feel something, but you can't hope to deny that what he's making you feel is good, so damn good.

"I'm a whore." you mumble quietly, before he groans. He feels your walls tightening around him, can feel the way your body is tensing as you near release.

"Say it properly, and i'll let you cum all over The Riddler's cock. How about that?" he says it like he's giving you a gift, something so unbelievable that you should be grateful he even considered it. But either way, you give in.

"I'm a whore, i'm your whore sir." you manage to get out between punishing thrusts, nails digging into the meat of his biceps. "I'm The Riddler's whore."

He moans, slamming into you with conviction. "You're damn right you are."

You're unsure if that meant you had permission to cum, but between his thrusts and his thumb playing with your clit, you knew you couldn't stop it as you cum hard around him. Your back arches, giving him a hell of a sight as he chases his own orgasm brutally.

"Yes that's it, take it. Take what i give you...take my cum, god you're so lucky. So privileged, so-"

He cuts himself off with a groan, mumbling your name as he buries himself completely inside of you as he finishes. You squirm softly at the warmth of the sensation, but not being able to go anywhere due to the death grip he has on your thighs; you're most certainly going to have bruises.

After a few blissful moments, he pulls out, admiring how your cunt flutters around nothing before his cum slowly leaks from your used hole. He gently reaches down and collects some on the tip of his finger, before pushing it back inside, laughing at your overstimulated gasp.

"There. Now wasn't that more enjoyable than running to the guards for help."

Giving him a sweaty nod, he climbs off of you and fixes him jumpsuit, before rolling his shoulders and standing up. You force yourself to sit up a little, watching as he smirks.

"I'm a little ahead of schedule, I confess I was foreseeing a little more convincing on my part for you to let me bed you." he says, uncharacteristically self deprecating, now matter how slight.

"Ahead of schedule for what?" you ask, before your answer is revealed when he picks up an empty chair and smashes the window.

"Oh sweetheart, while I did want to fuck you, did you really think i'd not pass up the opportunity for escape? I think my sabbatical has reached it's conclusion." he announces, walking over and grabbing your wrist to look at your watch. "The morons should have neutralised the guard post by now, if they actually listened to what I had to say."

At your hesitance, he smirks as he lets go of your wrist and leans down to give you a lingering kiss. "Perhaps i'll visit you again, you certainly made quite the impression on me."

At a loss for words, you stutter out a quick "okay" before he turns and begins to climb out the window. Not before turning for one last look at you.

"I really should have left a mark, people need to know you're mine now. Get changed sweetheart, in my estimations you have about ten minutes."

With that, he's gone, and you're left on the bed, cum dripping from your cunt and sweat slowly evaporating from your naked skin. Still, you suppose, he did protect you from the riot.

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(perhaps one day I will include a daddy kink in my writing, but alas I fear today is not that day)

[stargirlofthecentury]

in light of the rwrb movie releasing and everyone sharing their opinions, i just thought i'd share mine real quick.

i loved this movie with my whole heart.

i totally get the readers who are upset at certain scenes being cut, along with some things being changed. i get being attached to something that you hold very dearly to you and seeing it be altered which might be a bit disappointing at first. but honestly. this movie was the cheesy queer romcom that we needed.

don't get me wrong, i live for in-depth internal monologs and borderline poetry, but i also think it's more than ok for movies to just be sweet and simple. and with saying that, this movie wasn't that sweet and simple. it talked about quite a few very important issues, which i so so appreciate, all while keeping that lovesick romcom feeling to it.

i feel like nowadays many romance shows and films have a sort of aggressiveness to them. like they don't fully show the depth of gentle, loving relationships and that's a main reason why so many people seem to have forgotten what love really is. so they see movies like this and call them cringe or just hate on them in general. and i think this film will show young queer people everywhere that it's ok to want a soft relationship and that they're seen. if the prince and first son can do it, so can you.

although things were changed a bit, i believe this movie will be a comfort for many. plus, you can't fit every line from a 400-something page book in a 2 hour film, even if some things were cut out. and it's ok to spice things up a bit by adding different lines.

(like the rawness of the "i won't trade one prison for another" line? wow)

and sure it was sort of fast paced, but that's to be expected. no adaption is going to be page-to-page perfect. that's why we have our imaginations. (and nick and taylor blew the no chemistry allegations out of the water, so we didn't even have to worry about that.)

i know some people watch things specifically to critique them, but i focus more on how the movies and series make me feel. and this movie. this movie was pure happiness for me.

all in all, this is my new comfort movie, and i hope the same for many others. like i said, every opinion on this is completely valid, but i just wanted to share my viewpoint.

(and who knows, maybe amazon will be kind enough to put out the directors cut.)

[marveloustimestwo]

So my teeth hurts for some reason and I can't stop thinking about what if the reader in platonic yandere vampire nat au after turning their teeth starts to hurt like baby's teeth when they start to grow and instead of teeth with reader it's fangs lol I want to request your headcanon on it and how will nay handle reader when she is grumpy and in pain literally ALL the time

Sorry about your teeth, Noni. Hopefully, they've gotten better by now. Thanks for sending something in!

Warning: Yandere themes, infantilization, mentions of kidnapping and being turned against your will, and kinda body horror? Reader's growing her teeth in and there's some description of it, though not too graphic.

Nat already truly believes that you're her child. Like, you're just an overgrown child to her, especially with how angry you can be.

After turning you, there were things she expected to happen. Now, you truly were just a newborn to her. You would be so curious about how everything worked.

The immortality, the new speed, strength, and agility that would have you stumbling and breaking things like a fawn learning how to walk.

She would never explicitly tell you, but she finds it very funny and cute. The fact that you can see her hiding smiles and stifling her giggles, however, is enough to make you a bit irritated.

Since she's been alive so long, though, there are some things Natasha has simply forgotten about.

The first and most obvious thing was the growth of your fangs.

In this universe, I'd like to think that vampires have retractable fangs to make them look more human, and therefore more friendly and better predators.

So you can imagine the pain of having four entirely new teeth grow in, while also having them grow in alongside the already existing teeth.

You'd be miserable constantly, always in pain because of these stupid ass teeth that you probably didn't even expect/want, and then you see the motherfucker that gave you these teeth trying to hide a smile.

Yeah, I'd be pissed.

It doesn't help that Natasha will not take your anger seriously. This is just another thing proving to her that you're her baby, her little cutie.

You're just lashing out because of the pain. It's expected, all children go through this.

It's totally not also because you might've been turned against your will, or you might've been kidnapped and held against your will. It's totally not because she's being really (both intentionally and unintentionally) condescending.

Yeah, it's absolutely just because of the pain and not anything else.

But don't worry, the pain will stop soon. Your teeth will grow in and then you'll finally be ready for the next stage of your very long life.

[toomuchracket]

ok the idea of dad george is sooo cute to me so here’s a blurb idea haha feel free to ignore! george’s daughter is a young teen and sneaks out to her high with her friends… he catches her when she comes home… he’s stern and he does ground her or something but he’s loving at the end

dad!george tmr debut i've prayed for times like these. anyway.

thinking she's maybe like 15? and she's doing that thing teenagers do where they just go out for an evening and wander around the town, settling down in the park or the woods for a bit before traipsing back home in time for the streetlights coming on. and the weed smoking is a totally impromptu thing, i think - your daughter's smart enough that she would have taken water and chewing gum and perfume with her to try and disguise the smell before coming home if it was a planned thing, because she KNOWS she's in for a bollocking from you and george if you catch her. so she comes home and tries to sneak away to shower before anyone catches her, but she's intercepted by george coming out of the living room just as she's heading upstairs; he sees her giggling to herself and then clocks the weed smell and figures out what's happened IMMEDIATELY. your daughter's tall for her age as it is and stands five stairs up, but her dad is still far taller and lowkey kinda terrifying - he folds his arms and raises his eyebrows, composed but clearly angry, and says "kitchen. now. we need to have a chat". so they go, standing on opposite sides of the room just staring at each other in dead silence, until george breaks it like "so where were you?", and your daughter sheepishly admits she was in the woods with her friends. and that's when george raises his voice - he's like "you're fifteen. we haven't discussed getting high like we have getting drunk. do you KNOW how dangerous it is to do drugs when you're unprepared and unaware of the side effects and not in a safe place? anything could have happened to you. i can't believe you would be so reckless". and she's standing there head down high wearing off like "i know. i'm sorry, dad", and george softens slightly and like lifts her head so he can look at her eyes. i think he hugs her like "i just wish you would have asked me about it before doing it. just trying to keep you safe, munchkin", and she's like "i know, i would have said if it'd actually been a planned thing". george kisses her head and goes "christ, i'd forgotten how badly the smell lingers in your hair", and they both laugh, and then he makes a joke like "quite impressed you managed to actually get high on your first go, though. do you know what you were smoking, and where it was from?". and she does, and tells him what strain and who rolled and whose sister sells it and gave it to them (george is mildly impressed that his daughter's weed guy is in fact a girl), and george is like "ok, well, at least you know all that. you're still grounded, though, for doing it without discussing it with me and your mum first". your daughter's eyes go wide like "mum's going to go MENTAL at me oh god", and george is like "she'll try to, but i'll remind her that she did the exact same thing when she was your age and she'll shut up lol" - your kid is like "WHAT omg i knew you smoked when you were young, dad, but mum?? i thought mum was a nerd", and george laughs like "yeah, you have cool parents, kid. but i'll tell her when she gets home, and also that i've grounded you for a week already so there's no need for her to shout at you". your daughter hugs him like "thanks, dad" and george is like "we do need to have a chat about safety and getting high, though. next time me and mum have a smoke, you can join in and we'll discuss it then"; your daughter giggles like "isn't the grounding punishment enough lol?", and george flicks her on the nose like "oi! less of that, or i'll invite matty - that actually WOULD be a punishment, he's a fucking nightmare when he's high", and your daughter winces like "yeah, i can imagine" lmfao. and then there's another hug, before george is like "have the munchies kicked in yet? i'll make you toast if you want. but wash your hair first please i think i'm getting passive high from the smell" lol <3

[aita-blorbos]

WIBTA for pretending to forget what my girlfriend told me and leave it inthe past?

I (M, mid 20's) have a very difficult relationship with my late father. He's a bit infamous in the neighborhood because he killed several people (my mom left him just after I was born but I look like him and still have his last name because in my country we can't change last names soooo) and everyone is judging me after him, always thinking I'm going to start killing people or something.

I've been on a road trip with a bunch of people, including my sister, and my boss' daughter S (F, 16? at the beginning of the road trip but now she's an adult) who's now become my girlfriend. When we came back, my boss was glad to see his daughter (turns out she'd left without telling him?? i mean i knew that but I'd forgotten) but gave me the stink eye. Then, as we were preparing for a big project at work, my direct superior disappeared, got abducted or something, and since we had this big project incoming, everyone expected that a temporary (at least) replacement would be named. I honestly thought it would be me, because even if I don't have the management experience required blah blah blah at least i'd gone on this road trip and taht was more experience than I needed you know? Plus managing my girlfriend is like lol she's high maintenance.

But he didn't pick anyone to replace the guy and basically said team leaders would share the duties, as if they had nothing else to do! Meanwhile I'm here, with no "team leader" duties to fill my days, and I could have done it! But back to my problem.

At the very beginning of the work project, a drifter came around and told a guy (early 20's, H) from another company we're exceptionally working with that the work was too dangerous and she wanted him to go home with her (turns out she's his estranged mother??) and when the guy refused, she outed him in front of everyone as my stinky father's son! The guy had cheated on my mom??? And now I've got a half-brother! (he's got a sister too but honestly i don't know her much)

Anyway the group project went well, I bonded with my brother H (despite my girlfriend being so URGH annoying about it i'm sure she's only suspicious of him because he looks like my dad but then what does she think of me??? does she not realize how it makes me feel???) and when it stopped, we promised to stay in contact. We've been seeing each other for a while now.

Recently, there was an attempted murder on another company's boss, and my brother was one of the main suspects but he told me he was innocent, and i'm sure they only suspect him because, again, our dad. Which is so unfair. My girlfriend has been pushing for me to not trust him blindly but what does she know about being always judged after one's father????

There was a new team leader appointed recently, that's a guy who's been trying to get with my girlfriend as if my life hadn't been going bad enough lately, and like not only is this guy chosen as team leader instead of me, who's had all that road trip + big project experience, but he's trying to be with my girl yk.

Then, my girlfriend's twin sister told her dad (our boss) that she had had a vision of me protecting our company, and her dad appointed me at the post that i wanted!!!! So it was going well! She also told her sister that she totally saw us as a perfect couple and my girlfriend went back to me, which is also what i wanted!!!

But then our boss got assaulted and left for dead (he got better) by a guy who was identified and killed upon arrest and it was my brother, so it's a bit awkward with my girlfriend because now she's going to believe that she was right all along. So i'm going to pretend we're just a perfect couple (which we are!) that always got along and never quarreled, so she doesn't feel stupid or anything.

Would I be the AH if I put her stupid accusations to rest and never talked about it again? It feels like the best honestly

[rphelperblog]

Hayley Marshall Kenner Quote RP Meme

inspired by @badasshybridqueen​ @paststories​

I'd rather rip your mother's head off.“

“Why are you trying to fix your family when it���s clear so much of it is broken.”

You are all class.“

Oh, I still think you're a bitch. I've just grown to like that about you.”

Remind me to annihilate your brother once you're healthy.“

You want to help me? Help my people.“

All knocked up and nowhere to go.“

"Make art. Use your voice. Have adventures. And have at least one totally epic love. And be every bit of yourself."

“Who the hell are you?”

“I love you. I always have loved you.”

“i’m here as a mom.”

“He died loving me despite it.”

“I realized I wasn’t just protecting myself.”

“Everything I do is for her.”

“Too bad, i forgive you.”

“That’s what family does, we fight for eachother.”

“I never knew that I could love something so much. It’s scary like it migt kill me.”

“If i died and someone through a part, I would be so pissed.”

“Want to say that again and see what happened?”

“Just tell me who you want me to kill.”

“Or maybe I stopped running.”

“She can go home.”

“In your paranoid mind, no one can be trusted.”

“Don’t you get it. your the threat.”

“Let me check his calender- wait, not his wife.”

“I have claws.”

“Don’t make promises you can’t keep,”

“Fight back.”

“I will make them suffer for this.”

“But you will be forgotten.”

“I feel like we are connected somehow.”

“You guys done? This mucho stuff is cute and all but don’t make me come kick both your asses.”

“Ew, no never.”

"And I want to make you a promise, three things that you will have that I never did. A safe home, someone to tell you that they love you every single day, and someone to fight for you no matter what."

I'm sorry that it takes me being in danger for you to even talk to me.“

Just for once, would you please trust me that I say I will do something and it will get done?“

“you want more?”

“my pleasure.”

“I have tried to play nice. But the last month of pregnancy is all hormones and mood swings. so unless you want me to snap your arm like a twig, I suggest that you tell me what is going on.”

Hey there, witch bitch.“

“I know you were just using me as a way of saving your people, but try it again and I will kill you.”

You will not take my baby. I will kill all of you.”

Have I mentioned that I've had a rotten couple of months?“

Well, every good story needs a wicked witch. It'll be all the more satisfying when we melt her.“

"And you have hit your complaint quota for the day. Congrats, ou Are officially the worst."

"I want you to know that I didn't marry you for all of those people. I married you for me."

Awesome. Then we can do that thing where you lock me in the tower, I escape, there's drama, and then you two both realize that I'm capable of taking care of myself.”

They want a seat at the table, and if they don't get one, I can guarantee that you'll all regret it.“

If we can't all learn to get along, if our families can't create some sort of community, then what's the point? Kill each other and get it over with.“

Over the years I've had my share of friends, enemies, lovers, losses and triumphs. With time they all begin to run together. But you will find the real moments are vibrant. The rest just fades away. Your pain will fade.“

I saw the way you looked at me before and the way you look at me now. I was a mother, now I'm a monster. Things are different now. You can't tell me that they're not.“

I'm gonna go find our daughter.”

So you're having weird, retro sex dreams. Get over it. I'm staying.”

You will not believe the crap day that I'm having.”

[lunarmote]

An observation, I said out loud. Friends who meet in Uni drift apart.

By their own doing, my acquaintance finished for me. We were at a coffee shop in 2018. The autumn air was chilly, an omen to the mass pandemonium that would arise next year. But that afternoon seemed to give us all the time in the world to get a little philosophical.

If you want to up with someone, she continued. There's always something that you could be doing that you aren't. If only you dedicated 10 minutes to calling them. If only you thought a little bit harder about their birthday. If you were dedicated to making things happen you would. Most people just don't put in the effort.

As a child who never lived in the same city for more than a year, I knew this kind of pain intimately, the fatalistic pain of forgetting and being forgotten. It's a pain which unlocks the magical ability to jump out of the present and always to the total timeline of patterns which you can never affect. When every scene starts and ends the same, and coalesces into a mass of half-touched milestones, you wonder what lesson there is to be had.

Painful, but worthwhile

Within 10 mins I knew I would love this film.

The opening had an air of tragedy, despite the foolhardy innocence of the boys and their juvenile sexual posturing. I think my own experiences spoiled me. I'd seen too many scenes like this to not know where it would go.

And when things go south and are executed so sensitively by the Cuarón, you can't help admire them.

Things stood out to me:

The question of inevitability. Was it all going to end one day anyway? Did it take an unexpected roadtrip to release that tension toward each other? Was it inevitable that this release prevent them from ever being friends again?

When Tenoch and Julio's bitter feelings are finally unearthed, the friendship unravels with a destructive, unstoppable force. The things they choose to reveal seem to come from the foulest parts of themselves. They did not seem spontaneous. They attack each other with a sort of ferocity that can only be seen as each boy's lack of ability to understand and regulate his own feelings. It seemed that they were each hoping for something more, but there was no scaffolding in place, no inkling of what that could even look like.

And Luisa, the grown woman on the trip with them. I could see nothing positive of her intentions at first. I saw her as an opportunist whose personal tragedy got in the way of rightful action. But having replayed clips of this movie close to 20 times now, including the culminating fight in the car, I believe there she possesses a kind of spiritual knowledge and intuition for closeness, and tried to bring the best out of the boys.

Such an evocative and thoughtful film. So hard to forget.

[walkingstackofbooks]

DS9 5x06 Trials and Tribble-ations thoughts (I’m re-watching, so beware spoilers for future episodes!) [12 Sept ‘23]

My housemates asked me if I was okay when I found out this was the next episode because I yelled so excitedly XD

[HAH - just had a good fit of the giggles looking at the script, and seeing that the investigations people are "Dulmur and Lucsly" - I'd totally missed the anagrams there that without the spellings!]

Darvinis a very good spy, I would totally believe he was human.

Julian and Miles reassuring Worf how he smells XD

"Find someone else. I have my own ways of torturing Worf" XD

The light TOS theme playing as the Enterprise appears. Perfect. My love for this is so strong.

I love how much disdain the temporal investigators have for James T Kirk. 🤣

"I'm a doctor, not a historian." Ohhh the love they have for old Trek <3

Why is Dax in red, though?

I love everything about this episode... Aside from Julian's hair 😅

"Isn't that a medical tricorder?" "Yes, yes it is. I'm a doctor." Well that wasn't actually why he was confused, Julian XD

Julian is so bad at lying, I can't, I love him.

I forgot that Worf would hate tribbles. Incredible, I love it.

And Odo is so amused by this. 😆 "This? A mortal enemy of the Klingon Empire?" Amazing.

"Sisko to Defiant..." but his badge isn't a communicator! XD I am so fond of him, look at his lil 'silly me' laugh as he gets the flip communicator out.

"But if we went we might run into Koloth." "Exactly." Sisko knows you too well, Dax.

"Watley. That was my great-grandmother's name..." I'd forgotten how funny Julian was about this XD

"Not him. Spock." "Let's go!" Again, Sisko knows the trouble Jadzia could cause too well XD

Julian and Miles' outrage at Odo having sat at the bar for three hours 🤣 they are such a fun duo to watch

"Those are Klingons?" Hehehe. Everyone turning to look at Worf

Good move panning to Worf twitching at the insult to the Enterprise!

The three of them standing up and Odo groaning "What are you doing?" xD

Julian fighting and then going "owww", what is he like? 😆

"I lied to Captain Kirk." You sure did, Miles!

How did Jadzia do that calculation?!!

"He had the hands of a surgeon." Sisko is so done XD

Kirk's "This is my chicken sandwich and coffee . I want these things off the ship. I don't care if it takes every man we've got, I want them off the ship." always gets to me. He sounds more than simply vexed, and with his Tarsus backstory it just makes me Feel.

I love the implication with these shots that Sisko and Dax are throwing the stray tribbles out if the storage unit onto Kirk.

The tribble exploding is hilarious. Sorry, tribble.

"And that's when you returned to the present?" "Well... not exactly." Awww I love this bit. Sisko is so lovely.

"However I don't think there was any harm done. Probably would have done the same thing myself." The other agent looks so shocked and disappointed in his colleague XD

Hehehe I do not remember that ending with Quark's being full of tribbles!

Excellent, very, very excellent. I love this episode with my whole heart, guys.

[dilfdoctordoom]

As much as it might sound crazy I believe James really has no clue how tragic Gamora's death was. None. Honestly if you look at it there's a main character death hierarchy. At the very top is Yondu who got a thoughtful arc, died heroically, had a funeral and James makes sure he's not forgotten by having him in the holiday special and a moment in vol 3. There's Groot who sacrificed himself for the team and got the loving we are Groot moment. That's pretty much it but little Groot does get to live with the guardians, especially Rocket. Actually I'm convinced part of the reason we have a Groot 2.0 is because he's mostly seen as an extention of Rocket's story and happiness. Then there's Gamora who died at the hands of her abuser so her soul could be traded for a dumb stone they could have thought up a million different ways to bring into the story. After that she got nothing.

The other issue is James is so invested in Peter's letting go arc and how it involves that Gamora shouldn't be in his life he doesn't want to show she was important to the whole family or have her build new relationships with anyone. That's why they don't talk about missing her and Gamora is such a non entity to most of them. If she can't be in Peter's life she can't be a guardian because he's certainly not taking that title or the family from Peter. She's the one who loses out. All of this demonstrates a total lack of empathy for Gamora and zero understanding that her individual story had meaning.

Plus it's ridiculous how it never comes up that maybe if the family had talked about Gamora being dead in a serious way, gave her a memorial of some kind and shared the loss, Peter could have begun to process everything better and in healthier ways. Denying a tragedy doesn't help. Knowing that Gamora was safe somewhere instead of missing with no clue if she was okay would have helped too. James sets up all these extremes and then presents it as if mourning Gamora is wrong rather than how dismissing her life and death was not the way to handle it.

Alll of this!

I've got a lot of issues with how Gamora was ultimately handled (like how 2018 Gamora gets reduced to a disposable black girlfriend) and I don't believe every bit of it was intentional, but intent doesn't equal impact and the reality is, the impact is rooted in racism and sexism and that very much needs to be discussed.

I'd say the past week really confirmed that; the fandom reacted so viciously to the mere concept of this and the idea that male characters benefited from female characters (specifically, the ones played by non-white actresses) getting horrifically shafted.

I don't think Gunn is great at empathizing with his female cast and Guardians really, truly cements that idea. All of them are failed on some level and it's always to elevate a man. I don't believe for a second that he gets what happened to Gamora; that she was fridged for the benefit of her abuser.

I don't think the Russos did, either, because inventing a fridging cliff is just.... so bizarre even in concept.

Gamora's always the one that loses out to men's apathy. I want her to return at some point, Zoe Saldana is utterly captivating in the role, but I don't want her back if there are only men behind the camera. Her past 3 appearances have proved, over and over again, that a female voice is needed. A single woman in the writing room of any of these films would've been able to point out all the issues present.

[lonelier-version-of-you]

I wanted to have my Casualty thoughts up by Sunday, so I'll type them out now! I think this has taken me long enough, haha.

So, I thought that overall, last week's ep was pretty good. Obviously, I felt Faith dragged it down, but I always feel she drags an ep down, so yeah. I also felt there wasn't enough Jacob but, again, I think I say that any week he's not the focus, lol. I love him a lot, okay?

I also thought the episode was a lot better than I'd assumed it would be, though I hope the show slows down on putting Jodie in traumatic situations after this - I feel like they've already put her through a lot without touching on how it's impacted her. It would be interesting to get some storylines about that now, instead of having even more things happen.

Regardless, the Max and Jodie stuff was very good! Anna Chell was as brilliant as ever, and I think this is Nigel Harman's best performance as Max yet. Not that he hasn't been great in other eps/storylines, but I thought he was particularly fantastic in this one. Max's worry and fear for Jodie felt so believeable, and it was wonderful seeing him be so caring for her - hopefully this can lead to them becoming closer and her realising that he does care, even if he might not be the best at showing it. The moment with her seeing him at his bedside was lovely.

Also, it seems we're getting more hints at Max having a mysterious past. I'm still very interested by that and I can't wait to see what comes of it, and how Jodie will react.

Cam standing up to Ryan was great, and I was cheering for him - at least until he brought up Ryan's fling with Jodie... I do like Cam, and I can totally get why he'd be upset and frustrated about Ryan and Jodie having a thing, given that he's considered Ryan a friend and he's in love with Jodie. But at the same time: it takes two to tango, Cam, and Jodie made that decision as much as Ryan did, she can do what she wants. I felt it was a bit possessive of Cam to talk about her in that way. Again, it makes me think of how Arthur was with Chantelle on Holby, and particularly how he told Chantelle she must have subconscious feelings for him because she kissed him once (or something like that, I don't remember the line atm).

But Arthur grew from that and moved on as a character, and I think/hope Cam will too. So this isn't a criticism of the ep or even of Cam as a character, only of Cam as a person.

I hate Faith Cadogan as much as ever, and a breakup for her and Iain can't come soon enough for me. The way she was manipulating him was so upsetting to me. I can't stand her. I don't want to say and won't say any more about this, I'm trying not to think about her too much.

Jaye Jacobs' acting when Donna got the phone call was great. She conveyed how scared Donna was for the safety of her coworkers so well. Jaye Jacobs is such a good actress in general, I can't wait for Donna to get a big storyline eventually.

Also, speaking of Donna, Dylan's reaction to how they wouldn't be driving to work together anymore was so cute. Their friendship is perfection.

I would've liked more patient storylines in the ep. I was also confused by how the patient storyline with Iain was handled - it was such a serious topic, but I felt like it was forgotten about after the first half. :/ I suppose at least Jacob got some screentime out of it. And oh well, next week we get an ep that seems to be almost entirely focused on patients, so I'm excited for that!

Paige and Sah kissed! I wonder where this will lead. I'm assuming it will turn into a love triangle with Teddy, Paige, and Sah, but I think it would be awesome for it to become a polyamory storyline. I don't want to get my hopes up too high though, because there have been other times I've hoped for/seen potential for a polyam relationship in the Holbyverse and felt sad when it didn't happen. (Ethan/Matthew/Fenisha comes to mind. I thought that was going to be a polyam storyline, but it wasn't.)

And now, like, everyone knows that Max is Jodie's father! I'm glad they had that happen in this ep, because I think if it had carried on longer it would've felt too long. I'm very excited to see how Jodie and Max cope with other people knowing, that could be very interesting.

Next week, we get the NHS anniversary ep! That looks great. And we'll get to see Eli from Holby again!! I'm so happy about that, I love Eli.

[bettsfic]

A) first of all sorry for misspelling the title there it was late

B) I'm so feral for your ofic it's impossible for me to describe like I rec it to everyone. To me ashtray is a seminal peice of work, I go back and read it regularly. It's hard to explain sure, and asexual masochist who falls in love with their paid dom but it's like the first time I felt understood by a character. I tweeted about Shut up and Kill Me like the first day it came out. Even fucking candy tongue (a bit of a theme with super markets) which I read a some pdf on my phone I remember trying to explain to my coworker bc we were in a reading competition and I felt compelled to spread the gospel. Anyways please continue to write, I will always read what I can of yours.

what I can

my mom texted me and said "i remember when you read from this at a reading" and i'm like uhh?? and she was referring to my very first reading in 2016 where i read the opening of candy tongue, and like on one hand it's so sweet she remembered that, and also i cannot BELIEVE i read the opening of candy tongue OUT LOUD in front of an audience that included my MOTHER. anyway when my mom texted me that i only just then remembered that "insomniac at a supermarket befriends third shift employee" is also the premise of candy tongue, which i had somehow totally forgotten.

(it's interesting the images/concepts that writers accidentally repeat, and in my case i repeat to the point that i forget the details that come from reality. my ex used to work third shift at a grocery store across the street from our apartment, and i'd go visit him in the middle of the night sometimes just to hang out with him or bring him food on his break. for years, even. can't believe i wrote that into multiple things forgetting it actually happened.)

thank you so much for sharing my work with people! that really means a lot to me.

[m3r1m4r5u333]

The silly new series: Earworms on a plane

An announcement to my unfortunate followers! To change it up a bit from always posting about my latest hyperfixation, the tv show 9-1-1, I'll start a new series of posts. (No worries anyone who followed me to see my unhinged 9-1-1 posts! I'll still post that stuff, too. You can't make me stop.) Anyway. I figured, I love music, I am ancient compared to many of you, I am from Finland, my taste in music reflects my ADHD brain (= it's quite random) ... So I feel like it would be fun to share my favorite music with you all! I'll tag and call these song recs Earworms on a plane... Because in my private inner world, the 'earworms' are more like snakes. They're intense. Often I can't hear myself over their hissing.

The reason why I want to share this stuff with you is that so much of the music, of what I love, and find inspiring... is something many of you may never have even heard. So I'd like to educate you all 😉, you know, to fight this common mindset that the Swifts of this world, the super popular artists, are all there is, and that music has "best before" dates. No, there's so much cool stuff in the world of music, and modern pop in english is just the surface ☝️🧐 Hear the roar of this dinosaur 🦖!

So I'll try to focus on reccing the music that I feel is these days forgotten, undiscovered, not that mainstream... You know, the stuff which is likely to slip the spotlights, or maybe already had it's moment, and is now kinda lost. Maybe because it's just too quirky, or old, or foreign or rough to be mainstream. Yep, I'll try to rec some awkward stuff, too. There may not be any autotune 😳 You get the gist. The idea is provide variety, to inspire curiosity, and hopefully... discovery!

I may translate some of it, if it's in finnish - but not always, because I'm lazy and also... because I'm a firm believer in the idea that the language of music is universal. Sometimes it's fun and interesting to not understand the lyrics! Really, trust me if you haven't already explored foreign music - there's a strange magic to be found in listening to music in a language which is totally incomprehensible to you.

And some of the songs I like and share may already be outrageously popular, maybe you're already tired of the stuff, we'll see! I may just share it because I'm hypnotized by it, too. I don't like setting too many limits on myself, so who knows where all of this goes.

My goal, btw, is to rec one random song daily. I don't know what you guys like, who knows, you may not like any of these song recs! But I hope you're curious anyway and check them out, even if it's to promptly cringe away. Let's get started. The song I've been listening to a lot lately has been this song, so I'll just share it.

CMX - Sivu paholaisen päiväkirjasta

The reason why I adore this song... is that it sounds dangerous and that tickles my brain! How cool is that mood! The title of the song, Sivu Paholaisen Päiväkirjasta, translated from finnish, is "A page out of the Devil's diary" and I feel like this really fits the mood of this song rec series 😉 After all, I want to seduce you guys, to check out something new, alien, sometimes maybe even a bit scary! 🤪 So here be dragons!

[keefwho]

October 28 - 2023 Saturday

8:30am

I feel some stress because my thoughts are thinking some funny things. Im trying to distance from them. I'm also trying to be okay feeling bad about them. I guess I'm kinda jealous right now and thats an okay thing to feel, even if it's unfounded. I know I'm not going to act on it or let it control me. Its more likely that I would if I tried to push it away. I always feel jealous when Daisy is at a con because I feel like she's having fun with her better friends, totally forgetting about me. I'm always afraid to admit that at the risk of sounding petty but it's only petty if I act on it. I know it's a silly way to feel but that means there should be an easy way out of it. I know this is a result of the difficulty I have with trust which comes from a low self worth. I get the entire mechanism behind this. I think some more acceptance is in order. If I can just accept this is the truth about myself and be upset about it for a little bit instead of acting like I'm not supposed to be this way.

I know she hasn't forgotten about me the same way I'd never forget about her. She believes in me. And I'm starting to believe in me too. I can learn to move past these kinds of feelings. I can either learn to dispel irrational thoughts like this or detach from them, as long as I'm not doing it as a form of suppression. The first step always seems to be acceptance that they are happening.

9:57am

Maybe writing about my feelings more often here could be a way of accepting them. When I really feel like I'm struggling to get it out there. Usually when I say I'm stunlocked, what I mean is that I can't move past something. I'm stuck in a loop. Right now I'm stuck thinking about what exactly I want to have this talk about and I'm pushing myself to try and figure it out right now. But it's a thing that needs time. I'm also really hungry so that could be it. After breakfast I'm gonna take a break and find something to do like draw or something.

3:22pm

Ugh I HATE feelings. I feel like I need to talk about them constantly or do something about them. A result of suppressing them so much maybe??? All I know is I feel stressed again, I got some things on my mind. Nothing too crazy but it's nagging at me and I'd like to be able to let it go so I can actually do something with myself. I'm tired of ruminating so much.

12:15am

This morning I had breakfast a little late, I just wasn't that hungry. I made rice with a vegetable blend stir fried in and some turkey spam. I had a couple pieces of chocolate with my coffee and did Inktober in David's server. Right after I think I played Legendary Tales and got David to do hardcore with me. He died before I did and actually got kinda upset. It's weird to me how averse people are to hardcore. I think the loss is what makes it more meaningful and I never get that mad when I die, even if it's to a bug. He stopped for a little bit but wanted to try again, then I switched to a new character with a bow this time. I was bad at the bow since I haven't used it before. For some reason playing with him wasn't as fun as I thought. I didn't really feel present or maybe I wasn't sure how to coordinate with him. I forgot that we do talk a little bit but not enough to have unspoken chemistry. I wasn't in the head space I guess to be making an effort to synchronize. It was okay though. I took a break from the server to play Cities Skylines and make lunch. For lunch I made a broccoli pizza in my pan. Lowkey boiling it in just a little water makes it come out real nice, not soggy or anything. After lunch I worked on my avatar while watching MoonMoon play some god awful brutal medieval fighting game demo. It was just extremely brutal but funny to watch. I decided to finish porting my skater girl outfit from my nanachi model to my hyenid. I had tried before but didn't think it was gonna work out. I was wrong and it turned out good. I was halfway through a drink by the time I finished and got on VRchat as soon as it was done. I had no plan, no one was on. I joined a furry world for a little bit but couldn't insert myself anywhere. I joined a random public and had very brief conversation about a cool music video. I asked Daisy about the VR portal and she said it was empty and I just so happened to have someone on my friends list on blue who was in the portal world. After multiple attempts I was able to get in and found that the VR world was pretty empty and the stream was actually loading so I told Daisy and she made it to the portal. It was amazing seeing her there. I've never seen her quite like that, it's like I was in the room with her almost. It wasn't quite like that for her I imagine since I was in my avatar. It gave me some weird perspective on things, in a good way. Goodtimes joined too, he had messaged me earlier today but I didn't know what to say to him. He said he wondered what we'd been up to and coincidentally I've been wondering about him. I was even gonna talk to Daisy about him and Golden Star and how we had this relatively brief group of sorts that I miss. After the portal closed down, Goodtimes took me to a floating island world I'd been to before. We were trying to find 2/4 koroks but we made no progress. Golden Star happened to join too and wasn't totally horny (yet). I got off to finish dinner and play a little more Cities.

[taohs]

Tell me start by saying the, "You're welcome." message was me attempting to be funny about your appreciation post for Balalaika and Tao that you mentioned yesterday. And I know that I can be a cunt sometimes, from what I've been told. But I'm only trying to be funny in my own awkward way just to clarify that. In case anyone misinterpreted that.

And I also know that, a lot of the time, how I explain things to people don't always make since to people. Nothing ever makes sense to anyone who isn't me... So if I say something that might confuses you, then I'll try to reexplaining it in a way that makes sense.

Just as a warning. Should that be a warning? I don't know. But I thought I'd mention that now.

And sometimes but not always, I may end up telling someone more details than what they asked. Like.. I listed the trivia about the Black Lagoon characters, even though you only asked for their ages. So that's my fault on that. That's definitely a warning though.

Some of the ages aren't officially confirmed, but so many of them are. Like I won't say too much about Dutch since that mentions his past. I don't know if he is between the ages 40s and 50s, personally I'm not surprised about his age but I would be kind of a bit surprised if he is older than Balalaika and Chang though. I don't know if that makes sense? I can see him being older than them but not at the same time too. The younger characters ages aren't mentioned. Because of how the abused was for twins, I couldn't imagine Hansel and Gretel being older than 11. But I don't know about Garcia and Fabiola. Garcia seems like a mystery about his age. But, for Fabiola, I can't imagine her being older than 16. I know the 1990s is different timing than now, so I don't know what the youngest age is for working a full time job. That is a reason why I say 16. And besides, she's also short in a lot of ways. As a short person myself, people have mistaken my appearance for being a lot younger than my actual age (which is a good and bad thing for me). But I do believe Garcia is slightly older than the twins, maybe around Fabiola's age but there's a part of me that believe Fabiola is slightly older than Garcia. And for Rock, remember how he was first introduced into the series? His birthdate was listed on his company files that his boss was reading, that is one way fans figured his birthday out.

- 💋

don't worry, i totally understood what you meant! definitely made me smile because i found it humorous and i'm sure nobody else misinterpreted it. and i am not being sarcastic when i say you are definitely appreciated for introducing me to my new mafia wife 😉 no need to apologize either for telling me more, i love learning about all of the characters!!! especially when character trivia is so limited in black lagoon

i see your point about dutch! something about him make him seem really youthful, but he also has a mature feel to him that could put him at the same age with balalaika and chang. hmm, my guess for garcia is somewhere around 12-13, mostly because he still has a bit of a baby voice and his height would be fitting for boys that age, with fabiola being a year or so older than him at best. i suppose we will have to keep waiting for more confirmed information, if the author ever decides to expand on it. it would be fun to visualize some of these characters celebrating their birthday, but for others it probably might have been forgotten by now or seen as unimportant to them

[weidli]

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“This is the only name here I am afraid of’ - pointing to the list - ‘He is, as you know, a paederast. Not that I have anything against paederasty myself - each man must decide for himself where beauty lies and surely the more affection in this world the better - but it is common knowledge that”

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rereading hms surprise and wow stephen really said love is love huh

[coffeecat22]

While Farah was always my favorite character by far, I was also very interested in the golden trio, Rosalind and Andreas as well. Their past, their personalities, the relationships between all of them (and between Sky and his 2 dads) were fascinating to me.

Season 2 didn't really deliver on those fronts; I never let myself forget that the adults were not the focus of the show but I'd say they still had a fair amount of screentime in s1, and what we got of them was very good. S2 was focused on the teens a lot more than s1 imo and it's a pity because the older characters had a lot of potential. Maybe they didn't have enough time to explore them while trying to tell the story, after all 7 episodes isn't much, but I'm still sad about it.

Random thoughts and takeaways after just finishing the season:

Ben: I expected him to do Rosalind's bidding for the sake of his kids but something about the way he alerted her of Saul being at the school felt weird to me. IIRC Roz didn't know that Saul was there at all, could he have gotten in and out without her knowing if it wasn't for Ben? Did Ben help Saul get inside the school just to turn him over to Roz? It felt more like a betrayal than a situation where Ben had no choice but it also seemed like Saul understood 🤷🏻‍♀️ and then Ben left, even though it meant leaving Terra behind with a headmistress he'd been trying to protect her from.

Andreas: he was as much of an asshole as I thought he'd be lol. Dissapointed we didn't see a confrontation between him and Saul. I saw people theorizing Sky would kill his dad in s2, maybe in a fit of rage, maybe to protect Silva, maybe because mind control was involved... they were right for the most part 😂 I didn't feel like much happened between Andreas and Sky before they killed Andreas off. Sky said a couple of times that he was getting somewhere with his dad but all I saw was a proud look ONCE and that was it. Andreas definitely cared for Beatrix, but he seemed to have no interest in Sky. I think he knew the people of Aster Dell were BW but maybe he thought it wouldn't make a difference if he told Saul because he'd still try to stop Roz. Was Bea really from AD? Or did Andreas lie to her about it?

Rosalind: so she was a total zealot trying to start a war with the BW by stealing the Dragon Flame and destroying AD. I liked this Rosalind more than s1 Roz, idk if it was the writing or the actress but it worked better for me. The scene in front of Andreas' grave was interesting and at first I thought she really cared for him but by the end of the scene I had the impression she cared in the way she would for a possesion, something that was of use to her. And was obviously sorry when she lost it before she was done with it, which is how she feels about Bloom. It was a shock to see her die so soon, but I loved that Luna used her death to justify going to war and getting people to agree with it. There's probably more to say about her but after 7 hours of staring at a screen, is all I can remember now

Saul: funnily enough this is how the show disappointed me the most I think? He just didn't feel like an actual character to me. He's the only one of the adults who is still alive and around at the end but he feels almost 2dimensional. He wasn't allowed to react to anything or it felt a bit superficial. I was laughing by the end of the season: 1) no resolution with Andreas, 2) loved the conflict with Sky but it was kind of forgotten after Andreas' death (it would've been nice to see the immediate aftermath of that for Saul and Sky) and the one scene where they discuss it Saul says some things that sounded weird, but I can't explain why, 3) Saul and Farah seemed close in s1 and yet if you told me that s2 Saul didn't know her I'd have believed it. It was hilarious to see that Saul never asked about her, probably thought she was actually on the run, didn't seem slightly concerned that Sebastian might be telling the truth about her death, etc. I love silrah no matter the nature of their relationship so maybe I'm biased? it seems Bloom told him she saw Farah again, yet it didn't seem to affect him at all. He seems unaffected after losing both Andreas and Farah. I guess it was weird to see him like that all season, almost like he was going through the motions.

Farah: I was fully prepared for anything the writers decided to do with her, so I'm not surprised. I thought I might feel sad but it actually felt like a hole opened up in my chest and sucked in all emotions. So I guess it's a good thing in a way but it also feels empty. The way she died just leaves a bitter taste in my mouth, it was really stupid. While I agree that the rules of life and death can't be broken at all or at least not without consequences, this show is not known for making sensible choices in terms of storytelling, but they had to pick this hill to die on 🙄 I'd have happily waited until s3 to bring her back if it meant she could stay but whatever. There's also the possibility that Eve couldn't or didn't want to come back.

I'm kind of mad that they gave us these characters and then took them away like this but I've always enjoyed fanfic and fan theories more than the show itself anyway. This is what I get for getting attached to the adult (side) characters on a show about teenagers 🤦🏻‍♀️