#catch you for realsies right now

[letsquestjess]

PLEASEEE older hunter smut, ANY scenario.

Hello! Thank you for the request 💜

I’m still getting the hang of writing smut, but this was a great opportunity for practise. I hope you like it! 😊

Push and Pull (Hunter x F!Reader)

Summary: After spending the evening teasing Hunter with your outfit, he shows his appreciation when you return home.

Word count: 1.2K

Warnings: Smut. PiV. Unprotected sex (wrap it in realsies). Blindfold. Hair pulling. 18+ and MDNI!

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Laughter echoed through the tranquil bedroom as Hunter shoved the door open, pulling you in with him, your lips still locked with his and a smirk forming. 

“You think you are so funny,” you giggled, crumpling his already creased shirt in your fists with enough force to strain the buttons. If you didn’t find him so irresistibly attractive in it, you would have tugged harder, longing to reveal the skin beneath. 

“You’re the one laughing,” Hunter taunted. He captured you in a kiss again, arms snaking to the small of your back to draw your hips flush against his. 

Ever since you had returned from the festival, he had latched himself to you, lavishing open-mouthed pecks wherever he could get and hitching up the hem of your dress to whisper his fingertips up your thighs. Unable to resist any longer, he had guided you towards the bedroom, breaking out a few truly awful puns to make you giggle all the while. 

His hands explored, tracing the graceful lines and contours of your outfit. You had worn it with the express purpose of provoking his lust for you, fully aware of how this particular dress, with the split up the side and the way it hugged you, got him riled. All evening and into the night you had thrown him tactile looks, playing the innocent when he responded with discreet touches and promises of what awaited you upon your return home. 

Now that you were home, he seemed more intent on savouring the taste and feel of you. But you were eager, desperate for him to be inside you after inadvertently strengthening the prospect for yourself in your amorous games with him. 

“Enough teasing, Hunter,” you pleaded, unbuttoning his shirt and sliding it down his arms. Traces of black and grey hair poked from his chest, tickling your fingertips as you eased them down to the softness of his tummy. You loved the sensation of him beneath your palm, the body that had been nourished and taken care of over the years. Sometimes, you would catch him stealing glances at himself in the mirror, as if trying to reconcile with the person he had become since arriving on Pabu. Each time, you would embrace him from behind, planting kisses on his back and shoulders, soothing his insecurities and caressing away any doubts. 

“You’ve already had your hands under my dress and I want you.” Your words came out whined, but they seemed to have the desired effect on Hunter. He dipped a little to scoop you up and gently placed you down on the bed.

Items of clothing found their way onto the floor as you both crawled towards the pillows, succumbing to fervent kisses and the hungry desire consuming you. As you nibbled at his bottom lip, you swore you heard a low growl rumble in his chest. 

Both completely naked and inching closer to the plush cushions, you encouraged him to sit with his back against the headboard and straddled his hips. His cock twitched against his stomach, pre-cum beading on the tip, and wet and wanting, you aligned yourself. On any other night, you’d have lapped at him, slid your tongue along his length, bringing him to the brink of bliss until he was mewling or snatching your wrists to take you in any way he wished. But you needed him more than you wanted to tease him. 

Right before you were about to lower yourself onto him, a mischievous notion flashed into your thoughts. With intense concentration, you bit your lip and manoeuvred your fingers under his khaki bandana, wriggling it down to cover his eyes. “Is that comfortable for you, love?” you uttered sensually, unravelling a twist in the fabric. 

He answered by sliding the tip of his cock inside you. Your palm met the wall behind him as you braced yourself and breathed a small whimper. 

Inch by inch, he sunk into your inviting heat, pausing at every slight quiver as you stretched around him. He had a profound understanding of your body, the way it communicated and held him, and clung to him in the throes of passion. Each shift, he interpreted with pinpoint accuracy, whether you wanted to speed up or slow, whether you desired gentler care or for him to be a little rougher. For now, it welcomed him home. 

With his encouragement, you started moving, slowly at first, lifting your hips and plunging back down. Your core ablaze, you quickened your pace, feeling a thin layer of sweat forming on your skin. While the heat of the Pabu sun was overwhelming at times, the warmth of his body intertwined with yours was so intoxicating you wished you could bottle it up and save it for the days you were forced to be apart. 

A loud groan slipped past your open lips and you bent over your love, foreheads squeezed together as the pleasure within you intensified. Hunter responded with heavy breaths of his own, hands grasping your hips and helping your synchronised lifts and falls. 

“So good,” he panted. “You… you feel amazing.” 

His touch and the feeling of him filling you stole any words of admiration you wanted to speak. All you could do was whimper and press your chest against his, matching his stimulating pace. 

You pressed your lips to the lines on his face, kissing up the path of years until you reached the wrinkles by his eyes. Your fingers grazed his nape, and you tugged at the thinner wisps at the root.

He thrust up into you and shuddered. You repeated the action and his hips chased yours with heightened fervour. You held on with as stable a grip as you could muster, urging him to take what he needed, what you both craved.  

“It’s not too much, is it?” you breathed, the tip of his cock brushing your sweet spot. You sensed him tensing and loosened your constraint a little. 

He shook his head, throat bobbing as he swallowed and unclenched his jaw to release a guttural groan. “Perfect,” he managed to get out, tilting to encourage you to tighten your grasp on him.

“And the blindfold?”

“I’m… I’m good.” 

Based the groaned panting between his words, he was deliciously close to his peak, and so were you. His pleasure met yours with each touch, and he reached between your bodies to stimulate you clit with his thumb. 

You threw your head back, drenched in sweat and chasing every thrill he graced you with. With a few more thrusts, his hips came to a halt, his seed spreading across your walls as they squeezed him. As your climax merged with his, you gave a slight tug on his hair. 

Each breath was a mixture of push and pull as you clasped onto the lingering sensation of him inside you for a little longer. 

Shifting backwards, you readjusted his bandana until it was snug on his forehead once more. His lips curved into a loving smile, captivated by the blissful haze in your eyes. 

“There she is,” he said. 

“Who would that be?” you asked in a teasing tone. 

Hunter swept the damp strands of hair away from your face and cradled your cheeks, his thumbs tracing your features. He tenderly tilted your head closer to press his lips to your forehead, and with a relaxed exhale, whispered, “my love.” 

[theladyofshalott1989]

Tag nine people you want to get to know better!

Thank you @crushribbons, @myokk, and @espressoristretto-patronum for tagging me! I've gotta say, everyone has great taste in music and movies. And don't worry y'all, as an SEO in my day job, I would know...Google may not be watching your searches, but I am ;) (I don't judge though.)

LAST SONG? I would be lying if I didn't say Hozier's "Nobody's Soldier" (I definitely haven't been listening to it on repeat all morning...nope.)

FAVOURITE COLOR? Green. Always. <3

CURRENTLY WATCHING? My husband and I are catching up on "The Bear." It took us two whole freaking years to finish season 1 because it was too stressful. But it's an amazing show, so I'm glad we're finally getting around to it!

LAST MOVIE? Deadpool & Wolverine. Hilarious, as expected.

SWEET/SPICY/SAVORY? Savory. ALL THE SAVORY. Please and thank you.

RELATIONSHIP STATUS? Married for...uh...awhile. LMAO.

CURRENT OBSESSION? Besides Hogwarts: Legacy? Oh, who am I kidding? It's only Hogwarts: Legacy right now.

LAST THING YOU GOOGLED? I'm writing a Christmas one-shot for posting later this year and I was doing research on what Scottish people would call Santa in the early 1900s. Turns out it was "Father Christmas." (You're welcome. LOL.)

No pressure tagging (no pressure, for realsies): @dom1re @traceyc-uk @choccy-milky @a-usernamelol @honeybadgerdontcare394 @endless-starlight-legacy @morelikeravenbore @ravenwind-75 @karajluce

[jujumin-translates]

Event | Xmas PARK CARNIVAL | EP: Christmas is Just Around the Corner

Izumi: Ah, Sakuya-kun and Banri-kun, you’re finally back. Now everyone’s here.

Banri: Sorry for makin’ ya wait.

Sakuya: We got you a chocolate drink, Muku-kun.

Muku: Thank you! Uwaah, it smells so good and looks so delicious…!

Banri: Whoa, there’s a lot of stuff on the table.

Banri: Roast chicken, meat pies, cakes… did y’all buy all of this…?

Tasuku: No, nothing like that. Some of the staff prepared it for us.

Izumi: It looks like they all went out of their way to get everything ready for us.

Sakuya: Seems like it! Thank you so much for preparing this all.

Sasaki: No, no, it’s nothing! Think of it as a thank you for all of your help this time.

Sasaki: We’ll be doing a few more performances of the show tomorrow, and we look forward to continuing to work with you.

Izumi: Likewise.

Guy: Shall we take a moment to have a toast then?

Tenma: Yeah. Plus I’m hungry.

Masumi: Here, a drink for you, Director.

Izumi: Thanks. Well then, good work on opening day, guys! Cheers!

Sakuya: Good work, everyone. Cheers!

Banri: Cheers.

Tenma: Mh, this meat pie is really good.

Muku: Uwaah, this chocolate drink is so sweet and yummy…!

Guy: This over here utilizes spices well and is delicious.

*Phone rings*

Masumi: …Who’s phone is ringing?

Muku: Sorry, that’s mine! …Ah! Kazu-kun and the others are video-calling me!

Tenma: It’s around noon in Japan right now, isn’t it?

Tasuku: Yeah, that sounds about right.

Muku: Hi, Kazu-kun!

Kazunari: “Ah, good work today, Mukkun~! How are things over there?”

Muku: The opening day of the show went really well, and we’re having a Christmas party right now!

Kazunari: “For realsies!? That’s like totes awesome!”

Kazunari: “We miss you lots over here, Mukkun~.”

Citron: “Ooh, are you video-calling Muku and the others?”

Sakuya: Citron-san!

Citron: “I am missing you very much too, Sakuya. You have been gone forever and ever, uwaahh!”

Citron: “Tsuzuru also misses Masumi so much that he’s been sobbing for days.”

Masumi: Yeah, that’s a complete lie.

Sakuya: Fufu, we’re bringing lots of souvenirs back for you guys, so please wait a bit longer for them!

Citron: “Yaay~! Thank you, I’ll be a good boy and wait then ♪ Do your best with the show, Director, and everyone!”

Izumi: Yeah, thanks!

Kazunari: “BTDubs, TsumuTsumu and Azu went out for tea together since Tax and GuyGuy aren’t here.”

Tasuku: They do that whether we’re there or not.

Guy: Well, that’s okay then.

Kazunari: “Ah, Yukki and Hyodle, c’mere for a sec! We’re talking to the guys in America right now.”

Kazunari: “Here, aren’t you missing TenTen so much too, Yukki?”

Yuki: “Hah? I’m doing great. I can actually focus on my work for once.”

Tenma: Hey, what the hell…!

Yuki: “...What was with that reaction? Do you actually want me to say I miss you? Gross.”

Banri: He’s not gonna admit it~.

Tenma: It’s not funny!

Juza: “...Muku, it’s cold over there, ain’t it? Make sure you don’t catch a cold.”

Muku: Yeah, thanks, Ju-chan!

Izumi: (Muku-kun and Juza-kun’s conversation is heartwarming as usual…)

Banri: Ugh, why do I have to look at his face over the phone?

Juza: “Haah? You’re the one who looked in the first place.”

Banri: You’re the one who came into my view without me askin’.

Sakuya: Ahwah, Banri-kun, Juza-kun, calm down.

Banri: You better not have made a mess on my side of the room just ‘cause I wasn’t there. I ain’t forgivin’ ya if I find candy wrappers ‘n shit all over the place.

Juza: “Stop draggin’ everyone over there down with ya.”

Banri: The fuck…!?

Tasuku: Ugh, here they go…

Masumi: Even across the ocean, they’re still the same.

Muku: Awahhwah…!

Izumi: How about you hang up now, Muku-kun!

Guy: That would be for the best.

Muku: R-Right! Bye, everyone!

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[thebookofeibon]

a sweeter alternative

Rating: T Chapters: 1/1 Words: 6868 Fandom: Ensemble Stars Ships: ReiKao Relevant "tags": blood time. uh sex mentions and allusions i don't write it though i'm not at that comfort level yet.

“You know how he uses it in place of blood?” Kaoru kept his eyes on Rei, catching Adonis’s nod in the corner on his eye. “Well the past couple of months, it hasn’t been doing the job.” “Huh? What do you mean past couple of months?” Koga eyed Rei. “He’s been drinking twice the amount he usually does, he’s been drinking different brands, and he’s still slow as if he’s low on energy.”

i'll add squidgeworld link when i post to there

for now u can read under the cut!

i suppose i can start putting my notes here in the mean time. uhhh this one's been in the works since october, just chipping away at it here and there. idr what the inspo was i think i just wanted to address the vampire thing.

his vampirism works how i want it to work bc it's a disability and i am also disabled and that's that. idc that vampirism isn't real

this is in my little series i had on ao3 where they live together in an apartment and i don't know the timeline for realsies i'm making shit up. this is actually the first one in the series to not have a pinocchioP title and it's bc. i couldn't find one. what can i say he doesn't have any vampire songs. the vocaloid vampire song also didn't fit but it was the working title of this.

i'll also make a page for this series on this blog since. gestures to no longer using ao3

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“Rei-kun.”

“Mmm.”

“Don’t ‘mmm’ me, you heard exactly what I just said.”

Rei doesn’t answer, entirely pissing Kaoru off. “You have had two large containers of tomato juice this week and you’re still falling asleep in random places. It’s not working the way it used to.” Rei’s grip on his pillow grows tighter as he really pushes the limits his face can go into it. “It’s 8pm, and I’ve been trying to wake you up for almost two hours.” He walked over to the bed to take the pillow, only to find Rei’s resistance to be much stronger than it should be. “This. Has been happening. For two months!!!” He tugged at the pillow with all of his might, though he really couldn’t get anywhere with it. “You need blood!” A final tug that still resulted in nothing causes Kaoru to let go, huffing as he caught his breath. “I don’t pretend to know your condition, but I fear that staying strictly with tomato juice isn’t going to work anymore!”

Rei stayed with his head buried in the pillow, only letting out a groan in response.

“You’re acting like a child.”

Rei mumbled a response into the pillow, completely inaudible.

“I can’t hear you.” A beat. Two. “You are impossible.” He huffed, walking with a little too much force out of the room.

Only when he was sure Kaoru was out of sight did Rei lift his head to look out into the living room. He frowned, eyebrows scrunched together in…it’s not anger, it’s not disappointment, dismay?

He didn’t really want to accept that Kaoru was right. Rei has known for a few months now that something was wrong with his juice intake, but he’d hoped that it wasn’t obvious, and it hasn’t really been to the kids. But Kaoru? Of course he’d figure out, it was dumb to even entertain the idea that the man he lives with and sleeps next to wouldn’t notice something was wrong. He laid his head sideways on the pillow, still looking out into the hallway. He was still tired.

He even tried changing brands, thinking maybe his default brand was the problem, but after trying all the ones available on the market, something else that Kaoru for sure would’ve noticed, he also began to come to the same conclusion.

This vampire does need blood to survive.

He began questioning family members after the first month, especially those he knew took alternatives for blood. But he didn’t receive answers he liked.

“Yeah, it stopped being viable after I turned 25, like its good when I’m in a pinch but I don’t rely on it anymore”

“I stopped relying solely on tomato juice when puberty hit, it’s still my primary source but I do need actual blood every other month to be at top shape.”

“There’s no alternative that’ll provide you accurately with the amount of iron our bodies need. As an idol, I’m surprised you’ve made it this long before realizing the faults in your juice alternative.”

Rei’s brought out of his head by the sound of a loud “clink” on the bedside table and he looks up to spot Kaoru, placing a full glass of tomato juice on the bedside table.

“Decided to show your face after all?” Kaoru teased, ruffling Rei’s bed head.

“You just said the juice isn’t working.” Rei grumbled, eyeing the damned glass. He hates this brand, he’s learned. Too sugary for his tastes.

“Well, you have a whole thing still and you’re fighting this theory so it's the best I can do.” He shrugged and walked out again.

Rei watched him with a scowl. “Come back here.”

Kaoru turned his head back pensively. “Hmmm? Does his wicked highness finally see fit to have my offering?” He turned around with a grin and a bow.

“What’s wrong with me just wanting to have you near?” He didn’t let up on his scowl. “Senior year you would be appalled by this behavior.”

“Hmmm? Why are you so caught up with how senior year me would feel? This is nothing! What senior year me would be devastated by is the amount of time we spend making out. Or how much sex we’ve had.” Kaoru smiled as he walked back into the bedroom. “Seriously Rei-kun! My one time of being pissed off at you for biting me has been waaaaay overshadowed by how many times you have given me head in the last, what? Four years? Since that whole ordeal.”

Rei buried his face again by the end of Kaoru’s ramble, burning red ears all that’s visible of his immodesty. He was right, technically speaking. High school Kaoru is at this point a different person than his current partner, that Kaoru would faint if he even knew they lived together.

“Honestly, Rei-kun?” Kaoru was next to his ear suddenly, causing Rei to jump and look over to catch the smug grin spreading across his tan skin. “I think it’d be suuuper hot if you took my blood during sex.”

“Gross, did talking about my mouth get you horny?” Rei pushed Kaoru’s face away and reburied his own.

“Hmmm? You act like you’ve never thought about it~.” He can hear the grin he still has. Hands grasp at his shoulders and begin to rub. “Like you don’t linger when giving me hickeys, or when you can’t help yourself and still bite slightly too hard.” He pressed harder into the knot Rei had there, the vampire letting out a moan.

“You almost sound like you want me to feed on you for your pleasure more than my well being.” He grumbled into his pillow.

“I can bring up non-sexual examples too~” Another tight push against Rei’s shoulder has the vampire letting out a small whimper. “Whenever we cuddle, you always nuzzle into my neck at least once. In fact, it’s more rare that you don’t immediately bury your face into my neck. I’m always thinking, wow, I feel super vulnerable with how close his mouth is to my neck!”

Rei whined into his pillow, half in embarrassment, half in pleasure from the massage. He turned his head so he wasn’t talking into it anymore. “Really? Always?”

Kaoru laughed. “So you don’t even do it on purpose?”

“No!”

“When I wear my turtlenecks, sometimes I catch you staring at my neck when I move in a way that exposes more skin.”

“Kaoru-kun, this is embarrassing me. I’m going to cry. Do you want me to cry?” He pouted, holding back a whine when Kaoru removed his hands from him. “Why do you hate me? What did I ever do to you?”

“Not drink my blood.” The pillow Rei had been attached to this whole time quickly left his hands and collided with Kaoru’s face.

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It was a bad day from the minute Rei woke up, but they had an important media interview today so he really pushed himself to get out of bed and face the day.

Honestly? It’s been a bad week for the vampire. With no real reason for his energy to be completely depleted, he understood what it meant. He really didn’t want to admit it though, he really didn’t want to have to rely on blood.

“Hey, Rei-kun.” Kaoru nudged at him on the couch, gaining only a groan from the vampire. “I know you’re tired, let’s try and get some food in you before we have to go.” Rei opened his eyes at that, already concerned.

“What time is it?”

“Really? It’s only been 20 minutes since you woke up.”

“…Really?” He almost wanted to cry at that, it’s felt like an hour.

Kaoru frowned at him. “Seriously…I know it’s an off day for you but even that’s a little concerning. Come on, let’s go eat.”

They stopped at a diner nearby that Kaoru likes, ordering something small each with some coffee. Coffee doesn’t usually work on Rei unless he’s really lucky, but it’s the thought that counts here.

“Oi-hey! No falling asleep.” Kaoru tapped on Rei’s plate with his fork to make noise, startling Rei from what he supposed was dozing. “Finish eating, maybe that’ll keep you awake.”

He stared down at his half-eaten omelette with a frown, picking up his fork again. Every little bit helps.

“We’re here, wake up.” Kaoru nudges Rei awake again. The cab had come to a stop and Kaoru was in the middle of paying her. Rei seemed to be only capable of frowning today, mainly at himself. Kaoru glanced to him, offering a smile as he started to push Rei out the door.

“This is the fourth time in the last two hours he’s fallen asleep.” Kaoru sighed. “I know I shouldn’t complain, it’s out of his control, but it’s really frustrating today.” Rei blinked his eyes open, watching Kaoru and Koga talk in the waiting room outside of the recording studio.

“Maybe once he gets talking he’ll stay awake.” Adonis shrugged beside Rei on the couch. “Oh, good morning Sakuma-san.” He smiled at him, and Rei couldn’t help but return the smile.

Kaoru sighed again, much more audibly than before. He dug into his bag and pulled out a juicebox, tossing it to Rei. “Please, this is just an hour and a half, Rei-kun.”

Rei fumbled to catch the juicebox, but he did nonetheless, and he carefully detached the straw and stuck it into the top. “I’m sorry, you know I’m not usually this bad…” He sipped slowly on the box.

“The weather’s kinda whack right now, more than usual, s’probably what’s affecting you.” Koga crossed his arms. “Plus the thing you were complainin’ about the other day with your juice.” He gestured at him with his chin.

“Yeah…” Rei deflated a bit into the couch, feeling everyone’s eyes on him.

“What’s wrong with your juice?” Adonis tilted his head.

“You know how he uses it in place of blood?” Kaoru kept his eyes on Rei, catching Adonis’s nod in the corner on his eye. “Well the past couple of months, it hasn’t been doing the job.”

“Huh? What do you mean past couple of months?” Koga eyed Rei.

“He’s been drinking twice the amount he usually does, he’s been drinking different brands, and he’s still slow as if he’s low on energy.” Rei tried to shrink down as much as he could in the couch, trying to avoid eye contact. It’s embarrassing. Kaoru tutted. “You are so annoying sometimes.”

“Then…are you saying he needs blood?” Adonis tilted his head.

“Exactly. And he’s refusing to take any.”

Koga clicked his tongue, then finally brought his eyes off Rei to look at Kaoru again. “We can’t really force him.”

Kaoru kept his eyes on his partner however. “…No, I suppose not.”

“UNDEAD?” A woman’s voice called out, breaking the tension. “We’re ready to get you guys set up.”

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Rare, these days, for Rei to turn down showering with Kaoru when they got home, and with how his health has been, he really should’ve taken the opportunity to share the shower with him. But he wanted time alone to think.

He’d really been trying to ignore it, not even out of pride really. He’s grown accustomed to admitting when he needs help. He has friends willing to accommodate his needs and he couldn’t be more grateful for them because of it.

It’s not pride, it’s…arrogance. That’s it. The refusal to admit that he’s wrong. It’s been several months now, at this point the tomato juice hasn’t been helping longer than it has this year. It’s at least worth a try now to take blood, no matter how little he actually wants to do it.

It partly has to do with Kaoru’s refusal that Easter, the fear of hurting him always at the back of his mind, but a lot does have to do with how he just doesn’t want to drink blood. He’s trying so hard to be human, he’s doing everything he can to be human. Drinking blood is not a human activity!

And he hates the taste of it!!! That’s why he settled with tomato juice, because it actually tastes good!!! Why should he have to do something he can’t even-

“Your turn.” Kaoru walked past Rei brooding on the couch and ruffled his hair, drawing him out of his thoughts for the moment. He looked up, lifting his head out of his hands, just when had he slouched over? He probably looked just as crazed as he felt. “Don’t think too hard in there, you might overheat.” Kaoru smiled.

Rei huffed a laugh, relaxing his shoulders a bit. “Yeah, of course.” He stood up with a few joint cracks and began to walk up the bathroom-

“I’m serious though. Try to sit while you’re in there, and leave the door unlocked, okay?” Kaoru dropped his smile. Ah, alright.

“Mm, of course.”

The shower was nice, he supposed, though it would be quicker to stand, sitting at least gave him time to think again. He really could just ask. It doesn’t need to have some special occasion. Though it’s kind of embarrassing at this point to admit defeat, after being urged to do this from family and friends for so long now. And again, sometimes just the smell of blood was enough to upset his stomach, thinking about the smell is even-

A trail of blood running down the drain with the water appears and it startles him, jumping back a bit to try and locate where the bleeding is coming from, knocking some bottles down in the process. He lifted a hand to his face and sighed as he drew it back. A nosebleed. Okay, sure, this might as well happen.

The bathroom door opened a crack. “You alright?” Right. The noise.

“Yea-” A cough, “Yeah I’m fine- Nosebleed.” He breathed in, head going light. “Could you come turn the water off, dear.” He lifted a hand to his head. A vampire who can’t even look at blood, how inane.

Kaoru opened the door further and walked in, opening the curtain on the side closer to the valve to shut it off. “Are you alright?” He asked again.

“A bit lightheaded is all, mind getting me some tissues?” He did his best to keep his head tilted downward until Kaoru pulled the curtain back, sitting on his knees, with a few tissues in hand. Instead of letting Rei take them from him, he instead reached in himself to block the nostril the blood was coming from.

“I told you not to think too hard.” Kaoru laughed, using his other hand to cradle Rei’s head. Rei leaned into his touch instinctively, doing his best to keep his head lowered. “It’s hot in here too, were you trying to instigate a nosebleed?” 

Rei glowered at him, taking a deep breath in. It was a joke, he understands, and Kaoru simply chuckled at the stare. He pulled the tissue away momentarily to assess the bleed, then quickly repositioned it to a cleaner area to hold against the nostril again. Rei sighed, his health was never going to be easy, was it?

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Rei lie on his back on the bed, shirtless as he didn’t want to risk staining any shirts, fingers interlocked over his chest as he stared up at the ceiling, wad of tissue paper plugged up his nose to get the remaining blood taken care of. Kaoru entered the room after a few more minutes, bringing with him some tart slices that he had bought earlier that day.

“I got one for both of us~! Recovering from a shower nosebleed seems fitting time to eat it!” He smiled and sat on the edge of the bed. “Usually eating in bed is against our rules but what’s the harm in bending this once?” He set the plate down on his lap and patted the spot next to him. “Come, sit.”

“…I…” Rei squinted with tightly knit brows, not looking away from the ceiling.

“Hm?” Kaoru was already picking up his slice to eat.

Rei stayed silent a moment before finally shifting his gaze to Kaoru. It softened when he saw how content he was with the bite he’d taken, a small smile stretching across the blond’s lips that he probably didn’t even notice he had. He opened his mouth again, then closed it when nothing came out and turned back to the ceiling.

Kaoru’s head tilted. “Babe, I’m not a mind reader, and if I was, your’s would be impossible anyways.”

“…” Rei turned his head completely away, embarrassed just a little. “I need blood.” It was quiet, small, not meant to leave this one piece of furniture. He refused to look in Kaoru’s direction. He could already feel his gaze on him and he wasn’t really keen on the teasing that would follow.

But there wasn’t a verbal response, he heard some movement, likely Kaoru setting the plate down, then felt the bed move as slowly his light was obstructed. Kaoru’s hand landed next to his head and he frowned, still refusing to look up at him.

“You open yourself up to me and yet refuse to look at me? You wound me, Rei-kun.” Kaoru sighed. Using the hand on the opposite side of Rei’s face, he lifted Rei’s chin to face him upwards, smiling a little at the blush covering his cheeks, then frowned when Rei still focused his gaze on the wall. With a huff, he pulled his waist up further onto the bed and placed his legs on either side of the vampire, sitting down onto his stomach. “What’s a guy got to do to get even a glance, huh?” He scowled as he watched Rei’s gaze shift not towards him, but upwards to further avoid looking at Kaoru.

Rei’s hands fidget on his chest, unlocking themselves to tap idly without thought. Kaoru clicked his tongue watching them, evidence that Rei isn’t entirely spaced out from the moment. In one swift motion, they’re taken from their place on his chest and pinned above his head, taking Rei off guard enough to finally look back at him with wide eyes.

“There we go~ All I had to do was surprise you!” Kaoru grinned, releasing his grip on Rei’s hands to lean in and place a kiss on his lips. “I don’t like being ignored, you know~” To punctuate, he pulled the tissue out of Rei’s nose, only taking a moment to examine how fresh the blood on it was before tossing it to the floor.

Rei watched the tissue fall to the floor with a frown. “Gross.” He couldn’t help but laugh, though, when Kaoru tried to go in for another kiss. “Hold on, hold on.” He placed a hand in front of his face to catch Kaoru’s, laughing when Kaoru still tried to push through. “Down boy!” He jokingly raised his voice.

Kaoru grinned. “Down?” The glint in his eye was mischievous. Rei sighed as Kaoru took the hand placed against his face and laced his fingers with it. “Easy command~” He followed through and started to kiss down Rei’s neck, hovering when Rei’s laugh bubbled out.

“You’re going to agitate my nosebleed, then I’m going to get blood all over the bed.” He squeezed Kaoru’s hand, using his other to slide into his blond hair.

“Oh you’ll be fine.” Kaoru hummed as he trailed further down. “We have tissues in here if it comes back.” He paused at Rei’s collarbone, glancing up at him. “It doesn’t help when you’re encouraging me, either.” He smiled, free hand aimlessly wandering Rei’s chest. Rei grinned down at him, then gripped his hair and pulled back with enough force to pull him away. “Ah!” Kaoru laughed. “Hey!”

“As much as I’d like to continue,” Rei let go of his hair to dramatically drape his arm across his forehead and closed his eyes, “I am oh-so tired from losing blood-”

“Then take some of mine.” Kaoru narrowed his eyes playfully.

Rei opened his eyes to peek down to him again. “Aside from the tart, have you eaten recently?”

Kaoru blinked, then looked up in thought. “Uhh…”

Rei clicked his tongue with a smile. “No blood drinking tonight then, dear.” He lifted his arm off his head to cup Kaoru’s cheek. “Thank you for the offer, though.”

“Come on, we’re in bed, it’s not like I’m going to go on stage right after.” Kaoru pouted.

“No, you’re still wanting to fool around though, which is still quite a rigorous activity, don’t you think?” Rei’s thumb brushed against Kaoru’s lips, which only prompted the blond to open them and take the digit into his mouth. “Kaoru-kun.”

“We can always stop if it gets too much~?” Kaoru leaned down again to be just in front of Rei’s lips. “I can be the one resting?” He lowered his voice as he lowered himself to brush lips.

Rei ran over the options in his head, subconsciously wetting his lips. Their hands let go of each other, Rei’s landing on Kaoru’s thigh and Kaoru’s coming to Rei’s face to tip him far enough to close the distance.

He still wasn’t keen on the idea of drinking blood, thinking about the taste is almost enough to make him pull away from the warmth of Kaoru’s mouth in disgust. He could feasibly take only a little bit, work himself up slowly to drinking more over time. He slowly pushed himself to sit up, Kaoru taking the hint to help ease the transfer of positions. They parted from each other temporarily to allow Kaoru to lie down and Rei to climb on top of him, then came back to each other as quickly as possible. Rei shuffled his hips further down on Kaoru so he could trail down his neck with ease.

Were they not idols, in some other universe, Rei would love to mark Kaoru up as much as possible, he hesitated in one spot on his neck and debated if it was too high up to cover with a turtleneck before deciding it was. He moved lower before taking the skin in his lips. Not biting, not here. A sigh leaves Kaoru’s mouth as Rei’s hand travels up underneath his shirt. Makeup would definitely need to be used to cover this one, but it won’t be as noticeable.

“A bit high up, don’t you think?” Kaoru carded his fingers through Rei’s hair.

Rei took a moment longer before pulling away, using both hands now to pull Kaoru’s shirt up, which Kaoru obliged and lifted his arms to remove the article. “I just wanted to do that one.” Once the shirt was removed, he moved back to where he was and traveled further, pausing once again in a spot, but this time to try and gauge where to bite. “I’ll only take a little…I’m not exactly…fond of the taste.” He hovered around a general area around Kaoru’s neck and collarbone.

“Alright, fair enough.”

“Don’t be offended if I don’t like it.”

“You’re still human, I think it’s rather normal to dislike the taste of blood.”

The reassurance was nice, it was almost the push that Rei needed to dive in. He checked the pulse in one spot and took a deep breath in before pressing his lips to the spot, then lightly placed his fangs against it. It’s not like he hasn’t bitten Kaoru before, or drawn his blood from a bite either, but those were different. Those were just bites to bite, this is fairly common practice in any couple. This bite was different, this is…

Kaoru’s fingers slowly brushed through Rei’s hair and it almost made Rei laugh. Why is the guy getting blood taken from him in such a monstrous way more relaxed about this than the one taking the blood?

No, he can’t be anxious about this when he’s already poised to strike. With another deep breath taken through his nose, he bites down, incisors piercing through Kaoru’s unblemished skin. Kaoru lets out a grunt at the bite, fingers gripping somewhat tighter into Rei’s hair. It takes everything in Rei to stay biting and let the blood into his mouth.

It wasn’t as bad as he had been dreading, not necessarily good either, but he isn’t immediately repelled by the taste and texture. It tasted like blood, that’s for sure, but perhaps it’s the thought that it’s Kaoru’s blood that has Rei thinking that it has something unique to it, a sweetness that Koga and Adonis’s blood didn’t have. The indifference didn't last for much longer, however, as the texture on his tongue began to become too much for him to handle and he released Kaoru, licking the puncture wounds as he had been taught in the past.

He pulled away completely to look Kaoru in the eyes once he was sure the blood wouldn’t flow too much more. Kaoru looked at him with a smile, eyes only slightly distant. “Are you alright?” Rei broke the silence first.

“I am, I think if you had gone any longer I would’ve had a problem, though.” He chuckled. “Are you alright?”

Rei nodded, returning Kaoru’s smile. “I am…I’m sorry, I should’ve stopped sooner, I spaced out.”

“I thought you didn’t like the taste?” Kaoru clasped his hands together to rest on his chest, mirroring Rei’s earlier pose.

“I…didn’t really. But it tasted different than I thought it would.” Rei huffed, averting his gaze. “I was distracted by that thought for a moment longer than I should’ve been.”

Kaoru chuckled. “Perhaps the necessity of it is what changed your thought process?”

“Perhaps.”

“Rei-kun.” He unlaced his fingers and slid his hands to Rei’s thighs, Rei’s gaze coming back to him. Kaoru’s smile widened, eyes squinting. “Ready to resume where we were?”

Rei blinked, then grinned back at him. “Wasting no time at all, are you?”

Kaoru’s hands traveled up Rei’s thighs to his hips. “What can I say? You’re like, glowing right now, and it’s kinda hot.”

Rei chuckled, then leaned back down to kiss him.

Kaoru doesn’t tell him that he still has blood on his chin, and when Rei’s nosebleed does come back a few minutes later, it covers up the prior blood when it leaks onto Kaoru’s face mid-kiss, making Kaoru laugh. They absolutely have to clean the sheets after this.

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It’s immediately apparent the next day at practice that Rei was feeling better. He was more energetic, more aware, more talkative. Koga and Adonis didn’t comment on it until Kaoru entered the practice room late after leaving his badly scheduled photoshoot and changed to a t-shirt, revealing just enough of his neck that the bite marks are visible.

Koga almost growled at him. “Why do you need to wear a collar that loose?”

He grinned. “It’s easier to practice choreography in loose clothing, isn’t it? Besides, don’t I usually wear shirts like this to practice?” He started his warm up stretches, eyeing Koga.

“So you let Sakuma-san take your blood?” Adonis chimed in to try to break up the tension.

“Mhm~ Though it’s more like he let himself take my blood.” He switched to a new stretch as he talked.

“That’s good.” Adonis smiled and looked over to Rei. “You seem a lot better.”

Rei returned the smile and began to start talking when Koga cut him off.

“Should Hakaze-san even be at practice today then?” He said it almost accusatory, pointing with his thumb over to him.

“He didn’t take a lot.”

“Mm, as Kaoru-kun says, I only took a small amount to ease myself into drinking blood. As you know, I don’t like the taste.” Rei nodded. “But yes, even that small amount did make me feel much better than I have in a while.”

“What made you decide to do it finally?” Adonis had shifted onto the floor to help Kaoru with his last stretches.

Rei hummed, closing his eyes in thought. “I am tired of feeling so weak. Kaoru-kun had me sit in the shower last night because he was worried I’d faint standing up and hurt myself. Then when I was in there, I got a nosebleed that usually wouldn’t be a problem, but since I’ve been this way, it nearly knocked me out.” He opened his eyes. “I need to do what is best for my body, I suppose.”

Adonis nodded. “I understand, I’m glad you feel better then, even if it requires doing something you don’t like. It’s like taking a medication with a bad taste.”

“Exactly, Adonis-kun.” Rei smiled.

Kaoru stood up with one last stretch. “And with Rei-kun feeling better, we should get on our practice, hm?”

“Agh, yeah we need to catch you up.” Koga groaned. “Alright. We’re moving on then.”

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As spring began rolling in, it became harder for Kaoru to cover up the bite marks on his neck, and they weren’t exactly keen on flaunting their relationship so publicly since they’re idols, so problem solving began. Because of Rei’s vampirism, he was able wean himself off of taking from Kaoru as often as he was—which was only every other week, changing it to every three weeks—and was able to play off his new fatigue as a sun problem, which wasn’t entirely a lie either. Supplementing it with tomato juice offered some extra relief, even if it wasn’t as good as blood.

Thankfully, there are other places to get the best blood flow that also weren’t dangerous for Kaoru. In a pinch, Rei could go for the inner elbow as if he was a doctor, though it’s not easy to bite there. If he’s well aware of what clothing Kaoru will be wearing for the next week and a half, Rei can go for practically any spot that’s likely to be mostly covered.

But the best area that is a catch all for privacy and decency, they found, was the thigh, which unless for some reason Kaoru wanted to wear more revealing swimwear, was completely hidden. Unfortunately, this required proper planning ahead, as it wasn’t something they could do last minute in a public place by sneaking away for a few moments.

“I suppose it was only a matter of time before we had to start planning our sex lives out.” Kaoru laughed as Rei dragged him to the bedroom.

Rei snorted in response. “It doesn’t have to end with sex every time, dear. We watched a movie after the last time.” He lightly pushed Kaoru to sit on the bed. “Besides, we’re not completely scheduling that out, this would be an outlier.” He lowered himself to his knees and scooted towards Kaoru’s legs.

“I suppose you’re right.” Kaoru grinned down as Rei unbuttons his pants. Rei looked up at him as he slid the jeans down. “You’re so pretty.”

Rei hummed, slipping his fingers into Kaoru’s waistband. “I’m beginning to think all this is just a means for you to get off instead of a means of me getting energy.” He slid his underwear down, revealing both thighs, one of which was still very bruised from the last feed. He heard Kaoru laugh above him.

With his own teasing remark and the bruised leg in sight, Rei hesitated as he really took in the severity of the situation again. He rested his hands on the inside of Kaoru’s thighs as he sat back on the balls of his feet with a frown. A minute passed and then there’s a hand on his chin, tilting his head to eye level. He looked past Kaoru, unable to meet his eyes all of a sudden.

“This is for you, babe.” Kaoru moved his head to try and catch Rei’s gaze. “I’m playing it up a bit, I’m sorry if it came out serious.” He smiled.

Rei still avoided looking him in the eye, staring at his forehead instead, then looked back down to his bruised leg. “Perhaps we should bump the frequency down to once a month…” He mumbled. “Or drop it entirely for the summer…”

Kaoru frowned. “It’s your life, if that’s what you want to do, we can. I’m just concerned about your energy levels if we were to drop this entirely, you’ve been much more active since we started doing this.”

He couldn’t fight the claim, this is the most awake he’s been since before the war, it’s kind of nice, all things considered. The bruises are turning green as they get closer to healing. “I don’t know.” It was hard for him to admit, he’s so accustomed to having to know everything.

Kaoru watched him for a moment, then sighed, sitting up. “Come here.” He held his arms open. “Let’s rest today, then. We have no other responsibilities until tomorrow afternoon.” Rei stood up, wrapped his arms around Kaoru, and immediately shifted all of his weight on him, causing them both to fall back on the bed. “Whoa!” He laughed, patting Rei’s back. “Hold on hold on my pants are still down-“

“Just kick them off.” Rei mumbled into the crook of Kaoru’s neck.

“Not when you still have pants on! The sensory problems I’ll have are chilling to think of!”

“Then take mine off.”

Kaoru laughed. “Fine!”

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As the weather cooled down again, Rei permitted himself to go back to two feedings a month, as Kaoru had begun to wear higher collars again. There was something about feeding from his neck that Rei didn’t have problems with like he had with the legs. Perhaps it was the cliche of it, or the intimacy, or the way it looks when he’s done.

It was frustrating to him how much he clearly needed the blood, life could never be simple for him. He pulled away from Kaoru with hesitation, watching the blood trickle down his collarbone for a moment. Kaoru’s hand in his hair ran through his curls lightly. It was the intimacy, he decided, that drew him more to the neck than anywhere else.

“Still find blood gross?” Kaoru whispered, not so much for privacy as they sat alone in the meeting room, waiting for their juniors, but more so from the lack of energy after having given it to Rei.

Rei licked at the wound, peppering light kisses around it. “A bit.” He murmured back.

“You’re not fooling me, you know. Perhaps you just like my blood~ I’m your exception now~.” With his other arm available now, he pat Rei’s back.

Rei chuckled and sat back, looking down at Kaoru’s face. “I didn’t take too much, did I?” He brushed some of Kaoru’s hair out of his face.

“I didn’t eat necessarily well today is all, no worries.” He let his arms fall to Rei’s thighs.

Rei idly fixed Kaoru’s collar to cover the bite, mainly to make sure it’s coverable. “And you let me drink from you? Bad Kaoru-kun.”

Kaoru opened his mouth to speak when the meeting room door opened, Rei quickly threw himself down next to Kaoru on the off chance it wasn't Koga and Adonis coming in. Koga paused at the door at the sound of Rei hitting the couch quite heavily.

“Should I be concerned?” He eyed them, watching Rei sigh.

“No, I was just being safe.” Rei smiled.

“You have blood on your chin, it wouldn’t have worked.” Koga sighed as he walked in, followed by Adonis, whose eyes widened at the sight. Rei bristled and lifted his sleeve to wipe at it, lightly slapping Kaoru’s arm.

“I wanted to see how far into the meeting we’d get before you noticed.” Kaoru grinned. “Thought it’d be funny.”

Adonis sat down across from them. “I fear it wouldn’t have lasted very long.”

Koga closed the door before sitting beside Adonis. “You two are disgusting.”

“You say that yet you haven’t complained about Rei not being active recently, so you have to pick~” Kaoru shot him a very cheeky grin.

“What is this, a game? I have 0 control over you freaks.” Koga scoffed. “You know, when you stopped flirting with girls I was glad because it made you less annoying, then you immediately began flirting with Sakuma-san-“ He squinted. “And you just dropped the honorific! Shameless!”

Kaoru cackled at his response, throwing his head back as his chest shook for a moment.

“Oh my, you did drop the honorific.” Rei smiled, a hand coming up to his face to try and hide his smile.

“Both of you! Disgusting!”

Adonis smiled, letting out a small chuckle before speaking. “As fun as this interaction is, we do need to discuss funding.”

Rei beamed. “Yes yes.” He clapped his hands twice. “Serious mode everyone!”

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Adonis and Kaoru left the booth to go to the bathroom while they waited for their food to arrive, leaving Koga and Rei sitting across from each other. Rei hummed a song he had been fine-tuning for the last week while watching the direction of the bathroom. He faded out his humming as he glanced to Koga, feeling the other’s gaze piercing through him. “What’s on your mind, Koga-kun?”

Koga bristled for a second before sighing softly. “Are you happy? With drinking blood?” He frowned. crossing his arms.

Rei blinked, turning so he could look properly at his friend. “What do you mean?”

He slanted his lips as he thought of an answer. “You hate blood. Is it worth the energy?”

Rei thought for a moment, humming softly as he did. “I wonder the same thing, sometimes.” Is what he comes up with. “It’s different, having all this energy again.”

Koga huffed. “I don’t really think that answers the question.”

Rei closed his eyes, picturing the image of blood running down Kaoru’s neck. A year ago it would’ve made him queasy to think about drinking it, but now he felt indifferent towards it. “I guess I just don’t have an answer. It’s complicated.”

Koga was quiet, glancing to the bathroom’s direction again. “If the two of you weren’t dating, would you still do it?”

That was something that hadn’t really occurred to him. Would he? He can’t even imagine another reality where he was in this situation and he wasn’t in a loving relationship with Kaoru. He thought then about the possibility of it being Keito, or Wataru, maybe even Shu or Kanata. In each scenario, he could see it happening so long as they loved each other. “Hm…” But then again, would Keito be willing? The other oddballs would be different for sure, each one of them would have a different relationship to the act of blood drinking that just aren’t the same. “No. I think I’m only okay with it because of our relationship.”

Koga hummed. “Okay.”

“Any other questions?” Rei watched him as Koga tapped his fingers against his opposite arm. “You’re still curious, I can tell.”

“…Hakaze-san is fine with it?”

Rei laughed. “He was begging me to drink his blood, actually.”

Koga’s lips twitched almost into a smile before he caught himself. “Okay. That’s all I wanted to know.”

Rei opened his mouth to respond, only to close it as Adonis sat back down next to Koga and Kaoru next to him.

“Still no food?” Kaoru sighed. “I’m sooo hungry.”

“You went to piss, there’s no way the food would’ve come out in such a short amount of time.” Koga barked, uncrossing his arms.

“A man can hope! You’re hungry too, right, Adonis-kun?” Kaoru looked to Adonis pleadingly.

Adonis blinked, then raised his hands in defiance. “I am, but he’s right, we weren’t gone long enough.”

Rei smiled, watching the three of them bicker. It was strange to think about how distant the four of them were during school, he couldn’t imagine a world where they went their separate ways after graduation. The possibility of that was so real at one point, but now he’s sure only death would separate them, both as a unit and as friends, and these days, Rei didn’t feel that impending doom as hard as he once did.

“Rei, I can feel you thinking.” Kaoru nudged him out of thoughts. “Anything of note?” He smiled.

Rei hesitated to answer, then shook his head. “Just having my regular old man musings~ Pay me no mind, Kaoru.” Even though he had practically been waiting to drop the honorific since graduation, it still felt strange coming out of his mouth.

“Hmmm, I’ll have to pick your mind later then~” Kaoru glanced at the others, grinning when Koga made a disgusted face at them. He opened his mouth to say something more before the waiter finally came with their food. “Oh sweet!”

Rei kept his eyes on Kaoru, only glancing up at the waiter to give him a smile as his food was handed over.

Yeah, there’s no one else he would ever consider relying on for this. The only reality he cares about is this one.

“Are you not hungry, Sakuma-san?” Adonis didn’t necessarily sound concerned though, he surely understood Rei’s hesitance. He looked over to Adonis, then shook his head.

“My apologies, I was still caught up in my thoughts.” He put his hands together, said his thanks, and picked up his chopsticks, catching Koga shake his head at him out of the corner of his eye.

No other reality would be better than this one.

[satorisoup]

hello, sweetie ‹𝟹 :)

it's been a tough few days, but I'm almost 100% recovered so i’m back *o*

fr was a very beautiful story which made the ending even sadder, but 10/10, you're did amazing job!

the whole world of demon slayer is precious to me, that's why i suffer a lot with it. and i get upset when i see people talking badly about a character 😔

no, i didn’t! i don’t know where to watch that version 😭

i think throughout haikyu you grow fond of all the teams at some point and get sad when they lose, at least that's what happened to me 😢 | i love bokuto and akaashi interactions 🤭 bokuto is such a baby while akaashi is so sassy and sarcastic 🤭 the big baby gets teased all the time and doesn't even know 🤭

i'm so sorry to know that </3 i only had dogs, they are all died already too and i promised to myself to never get another pet anymore and here i am being a new fresh cat mom🥹. a golden retriever needs a lot of attention because they are big babies. you know hinata and bokuto? yeah, they need to be take care of 😭 if you have time for them you should go for it, if not think twice because they really need attention.

you deserve all the love 🤍🤍

thank God! the hot weather can really make you sick if you don’t take care of yourself 😭! it is summer here too and it’s been so hot this week, i barely slept last night 🫠

thank you sm ‹𝟹 i am feeling better now, just dealing with the summer weather now lol which i really dislike the high heat but it is what it is 🤸‍♀️| i hope you’re doing fine and happy ‹𝟹

you’re an angel :’). it’s been so hard for me to catch up with everyone and everything, some people really don’t understand how hard it can be to be active when you’re double the sick and get mad about it, so im really happy you understand 😭!

i am doing ok, i’m already on vacation now, so now that i’m back i’m going to catching up with the stories 👀! how about you? are you okay? drinking enough water and feeling good? how’s summer so far? do you enjoy this season? hope you’re happy and healthy, sweetie ‹𝟹 🫂

UWAHHH hai hai ma love !! ouh, how i have missed you !! (つω`｡) please forgive me for tha late response !! </3 m’ sho sorry !! T^T

SOBSOB m’ hoping you are definitely recovered by now, and that you are doing better than ever my sweets !! being sick definitely isn’t fun :,<

WAHHH PWEASE, you flatter me !! >//< i am soso happy dat you enjoyed tha gojo fic !! it’s one of my favorites, i just had to share it with you !! ^_^ THANK YOU SOSO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS !! <3 it means tha WORLD !! >_<

TEEHEE absolutely !! demon slayer is just the bestest anime, i adore it with my whole heart !! <3 i understand, i get sad when i see people talkin’ bad about my favowites too :,< tanjiro n’ genya my beloveds !! how could anyone hate their cuteness ?? T^T

EEEK i believe fruits basket 2001 is available on crunchyroll, but you can watch it on a couple of free websites methinks !! wcofun.net is tha one i use ^_^ it has all tha animes and cartoons ( sub & dub ) dat you could dream of teehee !! >//<

YES !! you are so right !! haikyuu really does leave a big impression :< all of tha teams are just sho interestin’ to learn abouts !! :0 TEEHEE bokuaka interactions are just tha bestest !! i swear i always find myself watching compilations on youtube, they’re just so silly !! >//< poor kou, he’s too busy with volleyball and being tha captain to notice akaashi’s sassiness ehe !! <3

SNIFFLE omigoodness :,< m’ soso sorry that happened to you, losing animals is always incredibly hard to go through </3 i am very happy to know that you are starting your pet journey again with a kitty, that must be so exciting to have a sweet companion !! WAHHH for realsies, they do needs lots & lots of attention ( like kou and shoyo, tha sillies !! :3 ) i definitely would get a cute goldie one day, but i’d have to be out of my moms house before that happens T^T i think my 4 cats might be enough for her as of now </3 a girl can dream !! <3

it really is just too hot !! :,< i had to stay at my grandparents for a while, i might go back soon because my mom is still not turning the air on T^T its up to 100° to 110° outside, and our house doesn’t have much insulation, so it gets really hot !! i can’t wait for summer to be over </3 m’ soso sorry you couldn’t sleep !! please try to stay cool & make sure you’re hydrating ma love !! it’s very important during this sunny season !! :,>

EEEP i am soso glad that you are doin’ better now, ma lovely !! we must push through this heat to make it to autumn and winter teehee !! ^_^ & nunu, i pwomise it’s oki !! i feel the same way a lot of the time, so i completely understand !! always remember to take your time, i don’t mind one bit !! <3

SOBSOB i’ve been doin’ oki !! don’t worry, i pwomise i’ve been hydratin’ !! ouh goodness… i do not like summer one bit i fear T^T i always dread this season !! i was not made for the warm weather </3 i’ve been a bit unmotivated recently, but m’ trying to get back into a better routine !! i’ve really missed bein’ on tumblr more & talkin’ to you ma love !! :< THANK YOU SHOSHO MUCH FOR ASKIN’ !! (^∀^*)

MWUEHE how are you doing lately ma love ?? are things going well for you ?? how was/is your vacation ?? i must know all about it !! :3 m’ sending you the bestest of all tha wishes and huggin’ you shoooo tightly !! MWUUUAH !! <3 🍓

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here my friend, happy to wish us luck on the upcoming episode, on this very normal day where the 911 PR team absolutely did not choose to unleash chaos. Here I was just hoping to enjoy the conclusion of the cruise disaster saga, especially after last week's heartstopping Bathena performance, but nooooo, I won't even get to enjoy 1 millisecond of satisfaction before I'm gnawing my arm off waiting for next week's episode and an explanation for why Buddie are *waves hand nonsensically at stills* THAT.

Anyway, I know I should remember the mantra about getting our hopes up but I can't help it for tonight, the last two episodes have been so incredibly solid and everything I love about 911 that I can't help but raise the bar from where it was (somewhere around the Earth's core) to something at least knee high. So cheers friend, here's hoping any post episode drinking is optional, not necessary 🍷🍷🍷!!!

Not me hitting post limit before 4:30 in the afternoon 🙄. This has been me for HOURS

Sorry I have fandom shit going on Tumblr, and not a lot of actual work to keep me busy. I think the post limit should be at least 500 posts a day. Just let me be unhinged!! I even scheduled some posts out to different days to avoid this but here we are. 🙃 I need 911 and FHJY to not air on back-to-back days for realsies.

I didn't even catch those stills at first since my app is still not working so I can't actually see my dash so I was just chillin in the d20 tag when I suddenly noticed 911 was trending and decided to check what was up and WHOOOOO BOY! What IS all that?! Why are they like this?! They're killing meeeee!

ANYWAY

That mess is for next week. This cruise disaster arc is ABSOLUTELY a veeeeeerrrry close second to the tsunami arc for me. That one edges it out because we got to see more of everyone on the team doing rescues while this one (DESERVEDLY) focused more on Bobby and Athena, but MAN was it gripping television! I laughed, I cried, I legit clapped and cheered when Buck and Eddie showed up to get Bobby and the little boy, I mourned for Wes the security guard, it was all SO, so, so good. And we got badass Bobby on rescue duty!! Athena taking charge and taking NO shit from anyone! We got the firefam being a FAMILY which includes bickering, tattling, gentle ribbing, and having each other's backs because you know each other better than anyone else. I had a GREAT time.

I know we have been pretty good at keeping our expectations down but for right now, I'm felling a little more confident in the show as a whole to deliver good firefam stuff so I'm raising that bar a little bit. As for Buddie, well. I guess we'll see? I'd be lying if I said I was excited about seeing them dating other people AGAIN, no matter if it's supposed to "set the stage" or whatever for Buddie because I just think going the route we SHOULD have had after the shooting. Getting them both keeping their feelings realizations secret from each other and then having a third party confession come out with Chim/Maddie and Hen each getting one side of it and then accidentally cluing each other in has a better feel for me, especially with the delicious flavor of Eddie still having a gf at the moment. But I'm reserving judgement FOR NOW, on how it could ultimately play out for Buddie. It might be fine in the end with how it all comes together, but I'm not going to "settle" for just being happy if Buck comes out and taking whatever relationship we are given instead of the one that's been built up since season 2. But I'm also not throwing in the towel because we don't know where it's going yet. I'm firmly on the "fine but I'm going to complain the whole time" train at the moment with regards to Buck finally dating a man but for some god-forsaken reason it's not Eddie. (At least we lucked the FUCK out and someone else gave AK a job so we don't have to put up with THAT nonsense again.)

For now, I'm going to revel in the show ABSOLUTELY coming back with a bang and feeling like the 911 and firefam we all know and love and have DEEPLY missed. The difference between this arc and that blimp emergency is LAUGHABLE. Bless Tim for coming back and giving us this incredible arc and really showcasing Angela and Peter and the Bathena relationship. I'm excited to see what's next!

[felikatze]

andaron saga screaming

I KNEW BAUD WAS GONNA GET SIGURD'D I FUCKING KNEW IT

like "haha baud is so disorganized that's why jakka is the convoy character

i know what you're doing

i know

also if you dont take the dawncaller mortimer gives you a SILVER SWORD. HEY

also also like. as soon as aylanda says she's pregnant it's like. yeah baud is gonna die

i really didn't expect morty to be the one to do it

logical brain: yeah out of the steel brothers morty really is most suited to be king. he's the only one with any intelligence

emotional brain, sounding a lot like jakka: MORTIMER STEEL YOU ARE A DEAD SON OF A BITCH

it's so fucking funny how i. saw baud's corpse thru the cell. i checked his stats. all zero. "ah yeah cuz he's unconscious right. this is gonna be an escort mission" checks his con. "still 7? theodor can carry him easy then"

aylanda: "my husband is dead"

me: "ah"

and like. it feels SO logical that morty would be the one to betray him. at first i was ragging on samuel in the scene where baud and morty get "captured" cuz i thought it was just sam but

it's entirely logical that when sam came back to house rose to heal theo that morty would catch wind of baud and aylanda. and that morty could use a) baud hurting theo and b) sam's hatred of aylanda to turn ol' sam against baud

cuz it was morty needling baud into taking the throne when all he wanted was to elope. morty's arguments for killing baud makes sense. baud has the most legitimate claim to the throne of andaron since the rebellion. what really sealed his fate was having a kid, cuz it proved he and aylanda are for realsies. everyone fucking hates the lightbringers, everyone fucking hates house steel, but the worst thing about tradition is that it has weight

morty cant kill aylanda and the kid cuz of the whole "only a lightbringer can stop darkness" thing, which he WOULD know about bcuz he's the biggest momma's boy and lady maria was besties with the lightbringers. (didn't he also learn illusion magic from a lightbringer tome?)

on the other hand of course you're on jakka's side here. from the game you know that baud is just a good guy who dreams of a simple life with the people he loves. there's the whole backstory that he was a bit of a scoundrel, a gambler and a player - but falling for aylanda really changed him, made him want to shape up and do right by her. it's a shotgun marriage after 3 months yeah but that's also game limitation you cant build the relationship up for half the game since you gotta keep the plot moving.

so seeing how baud changed and that he was only convinced to take on randall with the argument it would keep his family safe and then he's killed by his brother. augrh.

and jakka's been his right hand through everything. jakka's a piece of shit in a lot of ways but he cares about his crew and he DOES soften up to jaheira and garram throughout the game. all it really took for him to start dismantling his prejudices was actually meeting the people he kept talking shit about and seeing them as. also just people. like he's not all there he still keeps calling jaheira a scalie but he respects her at the very least.

also the convo with ashley where she asks him if baudimon was really a brother to him and he gets so worked up about it. like i dont think he has a crush on baud NOW but he definetly did at some point. but also this convo questioning jakka's feelings right before he finds baud dead AURGH

and jakka's skill being loyalty. When within 2 spaces of Baudimon-

it's a skill that gives him bulk earlygame when jakka really needs it but now it's just. a dead skill slot. it's nothing. it's just gonna sit there. Loyalty. When within 2 spaces of Baudimon-

I had Baud and Jakka on B support and as for any dead character that's just gone now. AURGH.

rip to everyone who took the dawncaller and didnt get zakarias cuz i am THINKING abt his talk with jakka in 12x. how he said jakka's gonna come to a choice soon and jakka said he'd put baud's life over his own. and zakarias tells him it's always easy to choose in your own head but would jakka really? would he put baud over his family? over femke, a character we've never seen and only know through how much jakka loves his sister?

and i think that can still apply and i am betting RIGHT NOW that jakka will have to choose between his friends/family and his desire to avenge baud. it wont be baud's life he puts first, it will be his war brother's ghost. i am saying this now i am speaking it into existence.

Good game moment jakka vowing to kill mortimer really really hurts. morty i trusted you. i'm gonna kill you so fucking dead. if it plunges andaron into a civil war because the entire royal family is dead then so be it.

[yahargulian]

im gonna send you a bunch of these fic asks xgxbdhnxjs SOOO 7, 27, 41, 43, 58, go!

Catch me kicking my feet excitedly hehe here we go!!

7. Post a snippet from a wip.

"Satisfied that, for the moment at least, they were in no immediate danger, Leon let his stance loosen just a touch, the hand hovering over his pistol falling away to his side. He took a deep, steadying breath.  That was his first mistake.  Because the thing that this line of work never prepares you for – never could prepare anyone for, really – is the visceral nature of shit like this. Sure, logically it makes sense that if flesh burns, you’d be able to hear it, smell it. And, it also makes sense that such an experience would be... unpleasant.  But they had just melted a body – a very large body at that – in molten metal.  Unpleasant didn’t quite cut it. " This is also the last thing I wrote for any of my wips! This is one of the two fics I'm actively (slowly) working on - the other one being the key fic, which I've posted a snippet of before - and I'm so excited for them both honestly. This one in particular I'm trying to make like.. As Visceral As Possible. Just go absolutely ham asgjkdhasg it's gonna be fun!

27. What area of writing do you feel strongest in?

I'm trying to figure out how best to word this, but like.. Structuring sentences and things to help get the Vibe across. I've always typed exactly like I talk, even in messages, so I'm always like. Kind of thinking about how to best express myself using not just the words, but also the way the words are gonna be read and, hence, interpreted. Or, well, that's what I think anyway ashgkjadsjg tho I got told recently that I have a distinct voice when it comes to how I type and that it's present in my writing too, so hopefully I'm doing something right! (And I'm still not over it like.. I have a writing voice? Me? For realsies?)

41. Who’s your favourite character you’ve written?

Leon! And maybe I'm biased, because he is literally just. One of my favourite characters ever, I love him. And also maybe this is influenced by the fact that I hadn't actively written much for a good year or two until I fell into RE fandom all of three months ago. But anyway, I love to burrow my way into his head and poke around and see how he works and take stock of all the emotions and vibes, and then absolutely put him through the wringer ahdjkgahjgsdj It's an expression of love, promise! But a very close second would be Wanderer from Genshin Impact - and for pretty much the same reasons. His whole situation is way, way more complicated than Leon's, but he fascinates me in the same way. There's a lot to consider with them both. A lot of 'what if's and regret and guilt. Trying to do some good for the world. Both stories of a young, bright-eyed and naïve guy who gets thrown into a situation way beyond his control, and comes out of it as one of the only survivors. A situation that kills a part of him.. I think I have a type.

43. Is there a trope or idea that you’d really like to write but haven’t yet?

Soulmates and time loop fic - and these both come to mind immediately because I'm planning to do them both in one go sometime soon! Yippee! I really want to finish a sex pollen fic. Or just anything in that specific kind of trope. I have one wip (in a document titled 'eeby deeby') that's sitting at like 4,000 words and has been for two years now and one day. One day! I will finish it adshgjkh And, not a trope, but I want to write something that's just a little unhinged. Just in general really, not even in a specific circumstance. Sometimes the best way to fully express an emotion in writing is to take it to an extreme, I think

58. Do you have a favourite piece of figurative language you’ve written?

"Through Azar’s hand, the path of Sumeru’s future was cut in cursive." Now like. I am kinda happy with just this as a line, but the context for it is what makes it my favourite. Because this is a wip (that I really need to finish for a friend omg) where one guy kinda gets off to this guy having really good handwriting? There's more to it than that, but something about having this line in this fic - which I wrote based on a joke that got out of hand - just brings me so much joy ahdgjkhgd

[twiafom]

@emerialyncodevenice CATCHING UP ON ECV REPLIIIEESSSSS HELLO‼️‼️ i don't think i have with this one BUT now that i think about it someone else did draw them a little similar to this and i'll have to send it to you!! #LAURARCNATION i'm actually outlining for realsies and very excited to start drawing pages again 💙💜⚔️🔭 the only thing i love more than hijack. my ocs and webcomic

THEY REALLY DO it would be so horrible and tragic if they were separated by franchises...... such a good thing they aren't!! the wedding was so beautiful

yeah 🥹🥹 yeah..... 😭😭. like right now. i have deadlines. i have conventions. i am dying.

ME TOOOOO you know it's always good!!!!

I LOOOOVE TLU AU requires a lot of working and messing around to make the personalities fit to the au bc jack and amalthea are very different people and i have extremely deep thoughts and loyalties to the last unicorn canon especially the book BUT. i will make it work no matter what. it's hijack and it's the last unicorn. i did not fly to another country to watch the 40th anniversary screening to be a quitter when it comes to a hijack au

LONG HAIR JACK >>>>>> and i went over the top with it for real. hijack has everything that's fun to draw for me EXCEPT ridiculously long CLAMP shoujo hair so i will shove that into whatever i can so help me god

thank you!! 😭😭 i tried to mimic the style of colouring the movie uses so less painterly than i usually do, except for the very painted background. i think i can paint the last unicorn backgrounds in my sleep with all of the ones i've done over the years

HAHAHA DON'T WE ALL yes we need to make sure to keep the fandom vocal post the movie's release to convert the new people to the hijack agenda

😁😁😁 i looooved drawing their faces ❤️❤️❤️

OOOOO ECV AU ECV AU ECV AU

OOOOO THIS IS FASCINATING ALREADY and i love hiccup naturally developing powers like this PLUS ties into not only the heart of a chief but the heart of a dragon as well 😁😁

HAHAHA AND THEN BY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HIM JACK STEALS HIS HEART actually now that i say that it would be REALLY COOL if that were how things resolved!! instead of hiccup needing to tie himself to someone like mim or mother nature he and jack end up tying themselves to each other's magic thus choosing to protect and stabilize each other

OOO THIS IS COOL TOO it could even be from stoick's side going back to hiccup the first but over the course of time has stopped appearing in new generations over the course of the dragon war?? and hiccup is the most recent appearance in generations and that could tie into feeling like an outcast even if no one quite knows what it Is about hiccup just that there's Something off....... until he starts training dragons and it becomes much more clear

PLEASE YOU KNOW I LOVE YOUR AUS!!!!!

[doubleddenden]

So I'm a bit late starting dlc because of life, and the fact that I somehow spent 6 ish hours just downloading updates. Update for Violet, update for Home, update for Switch, Update for Violet AND Home. Like bro are you fr

As such I've only gotten an hour of play time so far, and unfortunately I've got stuff to do tomorrow so I can't play until the plumber's ass crack of dawn.

But I can still kinda sorta do first impressions?

1. Game still has very, very noticeable slow downs and pop ins. I guess that's just never getting fixed at this point. Major disappointment

2. That being said, graphics look a tad better

3. New characters are pretty enjoyable so far. Carmine is kind of a mean bitch- I like it. Briar, I'm gonna say, is definitely some secret villain.

4. New music is pretty fun. Like a mix of Paldea and Hisui- there's also some music you can hear when taking selfies that COULD? Be hinting towards a Johto game. Which is weird af because they tell us right out the gate that BBA is in UNOVA. I'm scarexcited and anxious.

5. I made a decision to only bring Pokémon that are around level 60 or under- a bit if a far cry from my dream team I was planning, but probably for the best since things are definitely pretty low ball right now. Think like IoA where Klara uses a level 60 something Venipede? Or Whirlipede? Can't remember.

So I'm gonna catch a whole new team for the most part I guess.

6. I CALLED IT, KITAKAMI IS IN JAPAN AND NOT THE NORTH EAST. Long plane ride, long bus ride, regular Wooper, it's definitely right under Sinnoh somewhere.

7. I just barely scraped the surface, but I'm not a fan of the rail roading. I was really hoping for a tad more freedom going in, but I guess that'll remedy itself when I can finally play for realsies.

I'm definitely looking forward to it. I've seen some stuff and I wanna get to the new stuff already.

As for my current team:

H Typhlosion: Shogun, lv 60. I actually caught and transferred him from my first playthrough of Legends Arceus after I beat the game. The rest of my team is too over powered, and some others are under powered. He fit the bill perfectly and I guess he's my unofficial starter for Kitakami

Furret: Scout, lv 51: Scout is actually a transfer from my 3ds Silver game, so technically she has slight seniority going back to 2017? Ish? But I've been missing my furry friend

Yanma: Racer, lv 54? I think? my first catch in Kitakami. He actually won a couple of battles already. Can't wait to get a Yanmega

H Samurott: Muramasa, lv 91... temporarily. I wanted to bring him as my main starter, but he's a bit too strong, so he's here for the ride until I can catch a blue pokemon and/or water type pokemon (I have this... thing where I'm uncomfortable without either on my team).

On the lookout for Poliwag next. The rest I'm not sure. Gonna try to use new Pokémon I haven't used from here on out

[the-evil-pizza]

catching up on gamesom right now and, like, imagine being Hwang Dong-hyuk. Not only do you have to deal with your child inspiring the complete opposite of your message. Youtubers use it to make money while hurting people for realsies, capitalists make merch out of it and now? even a fucking game about it.

AND YOU GOT PAID SHIT FOR IT

[fardell24b]

20th January 2024 Writings

20th

Excerpt from: On An Alien Beach

“I can teach you,” Barnes offered.

“Are you sure?”

“I wouldn’t ask you if I wasn’t.”

“OK, sure.”

Words: 18

Excerpt from: Spider Quinn

“I’m not getting interviewed,” Gerald said.

“I see that is a bad time,” Ted said.

“Not at all,” Quinn said. “I’m sure Ms. Li just intended for you to interview me about it.”

Ted looked to be in thought for a moment. “That’s true.”

“Right,” Gerald said. It didn’t look like he relaxed, but it didn’t look like he was about to run off either.

“But first we’re talking about field trip ideas,” Quinn said.

“Oh,” Ted said.

“So, grab a map of Lawndale and it’s surrounding areas from somewhere?” Anna asked.

“Good idea, Anna,” Quinn said.

It didn’t take Anna long to find such a map. She pick up several different ones and returned to the table when she saw Gerald staring at Ted with annoyance.

“Thanks,” Quinn said, when Anna passed out the map. “Let’s see. Arboretum, to the southeast. The Zoo, also to the southeast.”

“Forests to the west and east,” Gerald added.

“Reed beds along the Creek to the southeast also,” Anna added.

“And the lake to the south,” Quinn said.

“Although it is the furthest,” Ted said.

“True,” Quinn said.

“And the eastern forests are closer than those on the west.” Anna said.

“That’s because the subdivisions extend further to the west,” Gerald said.

“True,” Anna allowed.

“So, where?” Ted asked.

“I’d say the Zoo,” Quinn said.

“Arboretum,” Ben said. “A controlled environment compared to the forests or the wetlands.”

“Forest,” Gerald said. “On the east.”

“Forest,  but on the west,” Anna said.

“Disagreement,” Ted said as he wrote a note.

“Yes,” Quinn said with a sigh. “I guess I can do a forest, maybe on the west.”

“I guess the west would do then,” Gerald said.

“Oh why, the west?” Ben groused. “It is thicker than the eastern forests.”

“We could go to the east instead if you like,” Quinn said.

 “No, it’s fine,” Ben said.

“Are you sure?” Quinn asked.

“I’ll cope!” Ben said.

‘It doesn’t sound like it,’ Anna realsied. She knew that she was going to be talking to him later.

“So, when will this take place?” Gerald asked.

“Like, I would have liked tomorrow, but the holidays are starting,” Quinn said. “So, it’ll be after the holidays.”

“Good!” Ben said. “I can cope with that.”

“The article will be coming out then, too,” Ted said.

“But we will meet again tomorrow,” Quinn said.

“Sure,” Anna said.

Anna and Ben left first, followed quickly by Gerald.

Quinn sighed a sigh of relief.

“You didn’t think that would go well?” Ted asked.

“Not really. But putting it off until after the holidays will give me extra time to prepare.”

“That makes sense.”

“Anyway, you want to do the interview now, or wait until the morning?” Quinn asked.

“I can do it now if you want?” Ted asked.

“Sure?” Quinn said after a quick look at the time. Whilst she was usually out as SpiderGirl at that time, she was sure Lawndale could cope, even though some people could find themselves in difficult situations.

“Yes.” Ted said. He took out a tape recorder. “Are you OK with being recorded?”

“It’s fine, go ahead,” Quinn said. ‘I’ll tell Mom later, though,’ she thought.

The interview didn’t take long.

“And do you think that this will help Anna, Ben and Gerald ‘reach their potential’ as Principal Li put it?”

“Yes. Like I see that Anna at least is connecting to me in some way, and you saw that Ben was willing to consider going to the forest.”

“True,” Ted considered. “But do you think the break for the Holidays is a good idea?”

“I don’t think there’s much choice. Tomorrow’s the last day.”

“That’s true, but.”

“But we will meet tomorrow, I’ll see how that goes.”

SpiderGirl left the school and immediately saw that Feli was waving at her from the strip mall nearby. She sighed and swung in that direction.

“What’s up?” SpiderGirl asked Feli as she landed.

“Oh, just want to catch up.”

“Are you lonely?”

“A little. My friend has gone home because of his problems,” Feli answered. She didn’t really want to talk about Ben’s hypochondria to the superheroine, so didn’t elaborate.

“I see.”

“And I wanted to talk to you about that project I’m involved in.”

“Go on then,” the superheroine said in a resigned tone.

“Right. We’ve agreed that we will do a field trip in a forest after the Holidays.”

“What’s the problem?”

Words: 735

Total: 753

[prismatranslates-cue]

Airi [Guiding Lost Rabbit] Part 3

Previously: Part 2

Airi: Finally caught you…!

Chisa: Huff…huff…

Yuuki: We…managed to catch up, somehow…

Yuzuha: B-but that sure was tiring…

Airi: You shouldn’t go running off like that, Snowball! You could get hurt!

Airi: …Huh? We’re in front of the station.

Chisa: …Oh, so we are.

Yuuki: Wow. Wonderful…

Airi: I know how to get to the church from here…!

Airi: Were you…guiding us on our way, Snowball…?

Yuzuha: …What a strange creature.

Airi: …Yeah. But either way, thanks to Snowball, we’ll make it in time for the Mass.

Airi: Thanks, Snowball!

Yuuki: Whew! Made it safe and sound!

Chisa: Is that your outfit for the choir?

Airi: Yeah. What do you think…?

Yuuki: Looks good! It’s cute!

Yuzuha: I was expecting something lame for a choir outfit, but it’s surprisingly stylish.

Chisa: Yeah. It really suits you.

Airi: Hehe. I‘m glad you think so.

Airi: Well, I should go.

Yuzuha: Go get ‘em! Woo!

Airi: …Right!

Airi leaves.

Yuzuha: Here, they gave us these candles.

Yuuki: Candles? What for?

Chisa: For the Mass. We hold these while listening to the choir sing, and we pray.

Yuuki: Ooh! Now that’s some atmosphere!

Yuzuha: Oh, it’s really dark outside now.

Chisa: The Mass is starting.

Yuzuha: That’s Airi right in the middle, isn’t it?

Chisa: Looks like it. …She seems nervous.

Yuuki: Break a leg, Airi! Woo!!

Chisa: Shhh! Be quiet! The song is starting!

Airi: (...It’s strange.)

Airi: (I’m usually not great with being in front of a crowd like this.)

Airi: (My legs are shaking, just like always. But, somehow…I don’t feel anxious at all.)

Airi: (Maybe it’s because I’m in a church? …And also…)

Airi: (Maybe…because Snowball is here.)

Airi: (I think, right now…I’ll really be able to sing with feeling.)

Yuzuha: Look at Airi’s face. She’s smiling so brightly.

Chisa: …Looks like she’s enjoying herself.

Yuuki: This song is really pretty. Both the sound of the pipe organ, and the sound of Airi’s singing…

Chisa: Between the candlelight and the song, doesn’t it just feel so magical? It’s perfect for a Christmas night.

Later.

Airi: I’m back!

Chisa: You did amazing, Airi.

Airi: Ehehe. Thank you!

Yuuki: What happens now?

Airi: I guess now we pray. Look, the priest is going up.

Yuuki: What are we supposed to pray for?

Yuzuha: Whatever you want to ask for is fine, no?

Chisa: You’re not really meant to be asking for something, but…well, I guess you’re on the right track. What matters is the feeling in your heart, right?

Airi: What’s in my heart…

Priest: Now then, I’d like to invite you all to say a short prayer. Let us offer up the gratitude in our hearts.

Chisa: Come on, close your eyes.

Airi: Right!

Later.

Airi: …It’s over.

Yuuki: What’d you all pray for?

Yuuki: I prayed that we would find Airi’s keychain!

Yuzuha: Oh, what a coincidence. Me too!

Chisa: Huh, both of you too? …I prayed for the same thing.

Airi: You guys…

Yuuki: Wow, we’re so in sync! What about you, Airi?

Airi: I prayed that we would find Snowball’s owner.

Chisa: …That’s very like you, Airi.

Airi: D-do you…really think so?

Yuuki: I’m sure we’ll find them. And your keychain, too.

Airi: But we already spent so long looking…

Yuuki: Come on, it’s Christmas! It’ll definitely work out!

Chisa: What kind of logic is that…?

Yuuki: I mean, Snowball’s here with us, right? I feel like things just have to go right when this lil guy is around!

Airi: …Hehe. I think I get what you mean.

Yuzuha: …Hm? Hey, look outside! Is that snow?

Chisa: Huh?

Airi: …It is! It’s really snowing.

Yuuki: Whoa, for real? For realsies??

Chisa: A white Christmas…I can’t believe it’s really happening.

Airi: Wow…Wah! Snowball?!

Airi: Come back!

Airi chases after Snowball

Rustle

Chisa: It jumped into the poinsettias…?!

Airi: Snowball?! Where’d you go?

Airi: …It’s gone.

Yuzuha: Huh? But we definitely saw it jump in here, right?

Airi: Yeah, we did…hm?

Airi: This…in the poinsettia…it’s my keychain…!

Yuuki: Huh?! For real? You found it? It’s a Christmas miracle!

Chisa: …This is way too much of a coincidence.

Airi: But what about Snowball…?

Chisa: …Huh, looks like your keychain’s a little scratched.

Airi: Oh, you’re right…There’s a bit of dirt on Mr. Rabbit’s right forepaw…

Airi: Right…forepaw?

Yuzuha: …You know, I think Snowball will be just fine. I mean, he’s the one who helped guide us here.

Yuzuha: Maybe he went and found his owner. And…

Yuuki: And?

Yuzuha: …Hehe, don’t worry about it!

Yuuki: Ehh? What is it? Come on, what were you gonna say??

Airi: I see…yeah. Yeah! I’m sure you’re right…!

Chisa: Everything worked out, right Airi?

Airi: Yeah. …Hehe. Thank you, Snowball.

Yuuki: …I don’t get it, you guys!!! Tell me what’s going on!!

Chisa: Come on, the candle lighting is starting. Let’s go outside!

Yuzuha: Candle lighting?

Airi: This church is famous for their candle lighting ceremony. Not that I’ve seen it myself, though.

Yuzuha: Oooh, that sounds nice. Come on, let’s go!

Airi: Yeah!

Airi: Wow…this is amazing…!

Chisa: It’s beautiful…

Yuzuha: A sight like this really captures that Christmas feeling, doesn’t it?

Yuuki: …Today sure was a strange day. So much weird stuff happened.

Airi: Yeah. …But, it was also a really good day.

Chisa: Yeah.

Airi: …You guys!

Yuuki: Hm?

Airi: Thank you for today. …And Merry Christmas!

Notes

According to Google Maps, it’s about 2.1km, or a 26min walk, from the spot in Ueno Park where Snowball seems to run off from (based on the CG) to Akihabara Station.

[ronoken]

So, who wants a publishing story?

No one?

…Tough.

To preface, this was prompted by a post I saw about always making sure you read a contract before signing it. I wholeheartedly agree.

So, I write books. A roundabout result of writing books is I occasionally get to speak at conventions. When I do speak at conventions (which hasn’t been for a year. Thanks, covid), a standard question I get asked is about the benefits of self-publishing versus getting a contract. And yes, I fully realize that everyone’s experience in this is different, and I get that. Here’s mine.

So, several years ago, I wrote a book. I put a solid year into it and did numerous rewrites, edits, etc. with three wonderful editors and boom. Book. Done. And then, like many who are impatient or who don’t want to run the risk of rejection, I self-published my first novel.

And to my great shock, I actually sold some copies.

Quick aside. I’m not famous. At. Fucking. All. Some is not millions. Some is several thousand at best. And that’s over YEARS. I am not widely known and I do not claim to be. At all.

So yeah, like, I didn’t sell a million or anything, but I was moving over 100 copies a month when I was putting in the marketing work. Not too shabby. I was hustling on Twitter, FB marketing, Google ad marketing, working the review sites, doing interviews, everything I could. And it actually worked. I can honestly say the number of copies I moved a month directly correlated with how hard I pushed. And when I pushed, I pushed damn hard. I even got to a point where a reviewer who became an editor for DC would routinely provide public reviews for my books, and I was doing a superhero series. Not gonna lie- it was fucking rad.

Anyway, after a couple years of doing this, putting out a second novel which sold okay, a bunch of novellas, and so on, I received an offer out of the blue to have my work officially picked up. For realsies.

Admittedly, I was over the moon about this. I was being contacted by an unsolicited source! AND THEY HAD MONEY!

Now, my work wasn’t Shakespeare. I knew that. They did, too. They offered me a nice little starting sum. Not a lot, but holy shit it was FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS UP FRONT. One of my editors reads my Tumblr and I don’t think I’ve ever told them how much it was. It was 5k. To start. Not a lot, publishing-wise, but that’s because the work was already done. See, most publishers will give you more, but the catch is it’s considered a down payment for more books in a series. They pay you to write future novels, and then they expect you to pay it back. I already had a shit ton of content out, so I essentially skipped that step. Which tells me that publishers really don’t expect to have to actually pay you much, but that’s another post.

To my editor- sorry I never said the exact amount. It felt weird, but it’s been years, so it’s not as weird? I dunno. That logic train made sense as I was writing this.

So, 5k upfront, and then 50% of all sales thereafter, and they would handle EVERYTHING. Marketing, scheduling tours, covers, putting me in stores, the lot. Considering how much time, money, and effort these things took, this was not a terrible deal, but there was a catch.

My story would officially no longer be mine.

Oh, my name would be on it, and I’d write it, but from there on out, the publishing house would have 100% control over how it was marketed, where it went, and so on. If they wanted to option it, I would have zero say and zero rights, meaning they could take it and do fuck-all, and I would be left with nothing. Per the contract, they could even go so far as to issue me a cease and desist on my own work and hire a new person to take over. I was signing away everything in my universe if I said yes.

So, despite the allure of having things offered to me like a legit marketing team, book tours, and money (such as it was), I said no thank you.

Now, it didn’t hurt that I’d already made 5k in sales by that point. I knew my worth and how to push to keep it that way, if I so chose. Also, it helped that I was in an okay place when that offer came in. I could look at it and say, “well, that sure would be nice, but I don’t need it.” A lot of talented writers aren’t in that space, and the offer of several months rent or money for food as well as REALLY-REAL PUBLISHING can be hella tempting. And I get it, for some folks, the deals work out alright. And for some they don’t. And I sure as Hell am not going to judge. Seriously, I still have vivid nightmares about working 60+ hours a week and not being able to afford baby formula. Hell, if they had offered that to me just one year earlier, I would have been forced to take it. At that stage of life, 5k would have been life changing. I was just starting to hit the OK section of life, and only barely. Money when you need it is fucking awesome, and sometimes, you take what you can get.

But if you are a writer? And you’re in a place where it’s not life and death? Read the damn contract. Every single time. Make good and sure you know what you’re getting into and ask yourself, is it worth it to you? If it is, awesome. Again, not gonna judge, and every situation is different.

In my specific case though, it was choosing a nice bit of cash over something I had slaved for years over. I couldn’t do it. I still can’t. It’s the one property I’ll never let go of because when I wrote it, I didn’t even know if I could write a book. It proved to me that yes, I really could, and that was worth more than I can put into words.

TLDR: Read your contracts. Make choices good for you. Some things are worth more than money.

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you’re the cutest oh my God 😭 i used to be so into art until i studied it in high school and lost ALL interest in it, anytime i try and draw something now i get bored and lose interest :( but otherwise i’m doing great!! it’s currently exam season for our finals so i’m trying to juggle studies and writing on here >.< it’s so hard to avoid procrastinating when i just wanna write and stalk everyone’s pages 😓 many kisses and much love TO YOUU MWAH 🫶🏼

ZEE MA DARLING !! (^∀^*) PLS omigosh FOR REALSIES !! i took art classes for the longest but they always made me lose interest and made me feel bored T^T i enjoy doing art on my own because it opens so many other opportunities for me to learn !! :3 im so sorry you lost interest in it sniff </3 maybe one day you’ll get back into it and find your love for art again !! >_<

EEEK exam season can be such a stressful time !! dont push yourself too hard, always remember to take breaks and focus on whatever you need to at the moment !! HELP pls, procrastinating will be the death of me I SWEAR IT !! T^T

WAHHH i’m soso glad you’re doing well and im wishing you the bestest of luck on your exams & finals zee !! i’m catching your kisses in my hand and blowing them right back to you, MWUUUAH !! :3

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I feel like Dabi would be the type of dude who would bully you incessantly at the LOV and for the life of you you can’t figure out why. He’s always around you and making snarky comments or pulling your hair, trying to catch you messing up on missions. You’re sure he hates you, and you do well to stay out of his way, or sometimes when you feel bold you’ll offer a quip of your own. The bullying increases whenever you talk to other guys at the bar, especially when you make Tomura crack a smile, Dabi’s breathing down your neck the second your leader leaves, calling you terrible names and pushing past your boundaries.

Cw: language, nsfw, noncon, manga spoilers, some angst?

In a perfect world, Touya would not have been abandoned and rejected by his family. In a perfect world, Dabi would not exist, and Touya would be eating dinner with his family right now as he shows his little brother how to properly wield fire to its fullest extent.

But there was no such thing as a perfect world, and therefore Dabi did exist. And Dabi doesn’t care for anyone, or anything.

Or so he tells himself.

“Slut”

“Nothing but eye candy, and shitty eye candy at that”

It’s nothing you haven’t heard before, but it doesn’t make it any easier to ignore him

“What was that all about, huh? The fuck are you and crusty snickering about?”

Fed up with his continuous antics, you decide to mouth off a little too.

“Oh nothing, just talking about how adorable you and Hawks would make as a couple. And wipe that sneer off your face, it looks like some of your staples fell out of your mouth.”

It’s nothing too snarky, but in a second he’s shoving you in some dark room, forearm pinned against your throat as his hand is lit up with blue flames merely inches away from you, snarling in your face.

“You wanna be funny, bitch? I got jokes of my own too, why dont I show you what happens to dumb little girls who don’t know their fucking place? I think that would be real funny.”

But his hand is stopped from drawing near your wide eyes when you both hear Twice and Toga calling everyone for their next meeting.

He pushes you away from him, giving you a murderous look over his shoulder as he leaves the room, not paying mind to the way you slide down the wall in the dark.

You take extra precaution to try avoiding him for the next few days, not even making eye contact with him when you two get teamed up for tasks. He never mentions the room incident, if anything he acts as if it never happens. It’s like whiplash for you, he tries to weirdly talk to you more but all you offer him is mumbles and hums of agreement.

The conversation is never long, but it starts to be less talk of degrading you and more of begrudging questioning of what you’ve been up to. You never engage, opting to pretend like you never heard him, and strangely enough he leaves it be.

You give him a side eye one day as he joins you at the bar (much to your discontent), downing your glass just to fill another.

He says nothing as he slides into the stool right next to you, and pours a glass of whiskey for himself as well.

It’s awkwardly silent, you’re not sure if you should leave or not, but you’d be damned if you try to initiate small talk with this psycho.

But then, he speaks.

“Is Shigaraki sending you on the mission to get that UA kid?”

His gravely voice rumbles and cracks from his usual lack of use, and he clears his throat after he talks.

“No.”

“Oh.”

This is excruciating, you think to yourself as he mulls over the drink in his hand for a silent minute or two.

Toga calls you over thankfully at the exact same moment, and you breathe out an inaudible sigh of relief as you slip off the stool to join her.

“Wait-“ Dabi grabs your arm and you flinch out of instinct, expecting a slap or a burn to come from him.

He sees your reaction and shakes his head dismissively, letting you go and muttering a “Nevermind”. You don’t ponder over it as you trip over your own feet to join the eccentric blond.

A week passes, and then two. With each day you maneuver your way around him, request to be partnered up with different people in private, and busy yourself in random tasks. Every time you pass him by the bar he lifts his head from whatever he’s doing and tries to maintain eye contact with you, even going so far as to open his mouth to say or ask god-knows-what.

You try to ignore the foreign hopeful glint in his glacial eyes as you walk right past him, ducking your head as you do so.

It drives Dabi crazy.

He can’t handle any more rejection, he thought his family would be the last straw for him to ever want recognition or love validation from again. He wants to talk to you, to hear your voice as it snaps back with witty comebacks of your own that he secretly enjoys so much, even if it means he has to force it out of you with hateful words. He wants to feel your hair underneath his scarred hands, even if he has to mask the soft wanting of you in forms of yanking the strands. He wants nothing more than to see your eyes fill up with no other sight than him and think only of him, even if it means he has to corner you and scare you into submission.

But your silence is something he’s not used to.

Well, to be fair, you weren’t silent completely, but the only sentences he was hearing from you nowadays was when you were speaking to Shigaraki or the other League members.

You were the only idiot who didn’t notice the smoke curling from his nostrils and ears comically when he’d finally see you stop your stoic act just to open up to other men apart from him. Spinner, Twice, and Compress backed off almost immediately from talking to you for too long when they’d see the look on his face as he watched you surrounded by them, but Tomura would merely smirk from behind your shoulders and keep a level gaze with his subordinate, knowing fully well why he was so pissed off.

You began to notice the weird energy at the base soon after the rest of the men would keep curt conversations with you in comparison to your long talks about video games, sex, and life after you would all win the war.

So you thought it would be best to ask the most semi-normal person there that wasn’t fueled with testosterone and aggression.

“I just don’t get it, why are they all being weird? I mean, we all used to talk so much and now they just...try avoiding me. Except for Tomura of course, he’s still normal I guess. But he always has this smirk on his face when I’m with him and I can’t figure out why.”

Toga stops cleaning her blood-laced needle to give you a sly look, all fangs and glinting white.

“And Dabi?”

“What about him?”

She sits back on her haunches and cocks her head at you. “You really don’t know what’s happening here, do ya?”

“No,” you roll your eyes in exasperation. “But I’ll gladly take any theories here, since apparently I’m the only one who doesn’t get it.”

“He likes you.”

You gape at her for a moment and then burst out laughing.

“What? That’s crazy, he doesn’t like me, he hates me!” He can barely stand being in a room with me, all he does is talk shit and harass me.”

The blond curiously licks at a bead of red from the top of the weapon and you cringe when her own tongue rips from the sharp point.

“You say he can’t stand being in a room with you, so then why is it that he’s always there? He might talk shit, but he talks to you out of everyone else right? Regardless of if it’s something mean.”

You’re thoroughly flabbergasted. She had a point, but it was too much to wrap your head around. She cheerfully hums and gets up to flounce around the room, cleaning her already-tidy room up to a T.

“And that little silent treatment act you’re giving him isn’t helping either. I swear, Jin told me Dabi almost burned his mouth off that one day you, him and Spinner were talking about GTA. He totally cornered the poor guy and threatened his life if he didn’t stop talking to you.”

“You’re joking.”

“Am not. He wanted to do the same to Tomura but I figure he wants to keep his job, so he won’t. Doesnt make it any better for him when you’re all chummy with the one person Dabi can’t stand the most, though.”

No wonder your leader was so smug whenever you two were in the same room, your attention solely focused on him.

You run your hands down your face, moaning about the whole situation being fucked. It’s just your luck that you couldn’t take a clue, but to be fair, how could you? Being called worthless and a waste of space wasn’t exactly what you had in mind for flirty banter.

“Soooo what’re you gonna do now? I heard he’s gonna try talking to you for realsies like, tomorrow or something.”

“Tomorrow?” You yelp, jumping up to your feet. “Why didn’t you tell me sooner? I can’t face him!”

“Oops,” she giggles, twirling with outstretched arms around her room and falling down onto her bed.

“Oh god, I can’t do this. I don’t even know if I like him! He’s such an ass, and even when he tries to come off as normal he’s just so..unsettling. I don’t think I’ve ever had a good conversation with him.”

Toga props her elbow up to rest her chin on her hand, frowning in thought.

“Why not just tell him how you feel?”

You snort and fold your arms. “Yeah, because the psycho arsonist is really gonna take the word no well.”

“Hmm.. I see what you mean. Oh well, whatever you choose, I’ll support you!”

And with that she skips out of the room sing songing for Twice to make a clone for her.

You were fucked.

And sure enough, the next day he approaches you, hands stuffed in his pockets and an almost bored look on his face.

“Yo newbie, I gotta talk to you for a second. Come with me”.

You look blearily up at him through eye bags and mussed hair, a direct telling of your sleepless night. Your stomach drops when you hear his words, but you nod your head and take a deep breath, mentally preparing yourself of the speech you practiced till the sun rose.

No one else is bothering you both today, Shigaraki having gone to visit All For One and the rest of the League left to their own devices. It was something you weren’t so comfortable with, but you doubted a hero would come to save you.

He leads you through the short winding hallways, each step of his growing louder and heavier as the space started growing smaller. Finally, he reaches a dimly lit room and stops outside the door, gesturing for you to go in with a casual wave of his patched wrist.

“After you.”

You raise an unsure eyebrow at his uncharacteristic show of consideration, and do as he says. You’re sweating bullets, fists balled so that your nails are digging into your palms, and vision going in and out of focus as your eyes begin to adjust to your surroundings.

A loud bang pulls you out of your stupor, and you whip around at the sound.

Dabi is already staring back at you with lidded eyes, leaning his weight against the door, his arms crossing over each other.

You shift on both feet, picking at your nails nervously.

“So, what did you wanna talk about?”

He says nothing, but just observes you, his head slightly tilted as if you were some abstract art piece.

“Dabi.”

“You got a lot of nerve, y’know that?”

He pushes himself off the wall and advances slowly towards you, hands stuffed in his trench coat pockets.

You immediately back up with raised palms, sputtering indignantly at his offensive movements coming closer and closer. However you thought his ‘confession’ would go, this was most definitely not starting out like how you planned

“Excuse me? What’re you talking about-“

“I know what you’re doing. You think whoring yourself out to ol’ crusty and the rest of the guys here is gonna make everyone forget just how useless you actually are. What the fuck do you even do here? You fuck up half the missions which I have to come bail your ass out of, you constantly put us in jeopardy by being all friendly with everyone, and you can’t even keep your mouth shut when I need to let off a little steam, as I rightfully should.”

In a perfect world, Dabi would be the light of your eyes, the hero of your world. In a perfect world, Dabi would be able to hold your hand in his smooth one and tell you that he wants you so much that it impairs his rational judgement and makes him say things he doesn’t mean. He’d tell you that your presence is like a weight lifted off his chest, your presence means he doesn’t have to think or worry about the outside world, he just wants you all to himself without anyone interfering.

But this is not a perfect world, and Dabi is not a hero, but rather one of the worst villains.

So he does exactly what one does as a villain.

Instead of a loving look that he knows he’s incapable of, Dabi looks down into your horrified gaze as he traps you against the wall between his scarred arms, spewing misplaced venom at you.

“I don’t know what your problem is, but you need to chill out. First you go ballistic on me ‘cause I talked to Tomura for no reason, then you act all weird and quiet as if you’re some decent person, and now you think you can just bring me in here and tell me how worthless I am? Go fuck yourself, seriously.”

You scoff and make your way to push him but stop when he does what he did a couple weeks ago. You hold bated breath as he casually brings an inflamed hand to scratch at his face as if he can’t feel the hellfire emitting from it, and let out a whine of distress as he lowers his head mere inches from yours, lips almost touching.

“Stop talking to the rest of the guys,” he breaths. “Stop smiling, laughing, or going near anyone who isn’t me.”

You wonder if he knows how insane he sounds. He does, but that’s nothing he doesn’t know already. If anything, it solidifies in his mind that if he is to be as bad as the world has made him out to be, then he is acting exactly fit for the role.

“Why?”

“I don’t need to give sluts like you a reason. It should come as easy, right? What’s putting out for one more person?”

Your eyes are brimming with tears now, your stoic facade showing cracks as you sniffle a little bit.

He eats it up and groans watching salty rivers cascade down your cheeks. Suddenly, he feels as though he can no longer hold back anymore, he feels as though if he thinks for one more second he’ll combust.

So, acting on instinct, he surges forward and presses his lips against yours, swallowing your cries of distress and holding your hands above your head in midst of them frantically beating on his chest.

Your lips are so, so soft compared to his and it’s making him sink deeper into this instinctual daze. He puffs against your writhing lips as he thrusts his hot tongue in your mouth.

You try to bite him but when his hands heat up against your skin you resign to your fate and wail, allowing him to pull his hips flush against yours and start humping your thighs.

He draws back and bites your lips, teeth clacking against yours as he does so. You open your terrified eyes and blanch when you see the look on his face.

Lust is clearly drawn everywhere, from his blown pupils to his heaving chest, all the way to his flushed face and wild eyes. He looks as though he’s about to eat you alive and it’s appropriate that you feel like a lamb about to be slaughtered.

“Dabi, wait, please stop-“

But he cuts your pants off again in favor of slamming his hips against yours again and grinding impossibly hard on your legs, the friction of his jeans catching on your clothed cunt and forcing a mewl out of you.

“I’m not gonna stop. I’ve had enough of you teasing. You’re mine now, and if it takes burning our dear leader alive and this whole place down for you to understand that then I’ll fucking do it.”

He thought that terrorizing you would ease the empty feeling in his heart, that continuously berating you would force him to see you as what he always said you were, just another empty headed cunt. He thought that distancing himself from you and focusing on other things would make him forget about the soft feelings he longed to share with you, feelings he thought perished in the fire he was in when he was a young boy .

Even now, there is an ache in his chest as he hears you beg for him to stop, to let you go, that you’re sorry for whatever you did.

But this is not a perfect world, and not everyone gets their way in life.

You should really learn that, because Dabi already has.

And so Dabi will act accordingly to what life has put out before him .