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queerteach · 2 years ago

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is “emailing like a boss” an acceptable technical skill?

#soft skills #job applications #the worst part of adulthood #considering influencing finally #but instead i’m just trying to adopt a cat #@vroomvroomcars

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ulteri0rm0tives · 9 days ago

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Made myself laugh at the little loser Johnny is when I thought about his extra as fuck way he reloads the Malorian... Him all alone sitting in his room practicing and practicing, muttering fuck to himself everytime he drops the fucking thing, accidentally setting it off a few times when it lands wrong, patting himself on the back when he finally gets it right three times in a row for the first time ever, the smug fucking arrogant smirk I knowwww he's giving himself when he finally does, all this just so he can seem super duper cool when he's in front of people, in the middle of an active shootout and bro still gotta make sure he's peacocking 😭

#dudes.. definitely got his priorities thats for sure #AND #i consider this to really be the way he reloaded his shit and not just played up in his memories #considering V also ends up reloading it just like that when they get their hands on it #also makes me think how V could do it so effortlessly despite never exhibiting this habit before and #answering that by thinking about how much of an influence johnnys engram must really be at that point #v knowing immediately how to do the fancy reload like its muscle memory to them because of Johnny #(they're so fucked)#johnny silverhand #cyberpunk 2077 #ult speaking #((hes a loser but hes my little loser....filled w fondeness for this little loser even.... endearing even...))#(((god he cares sm what other ppl think of him huh)))#((***fondness.... one day editing tags on mobile will exist...#or tumblr actually fucking dies finally b4 that ever happens n puts me out of my misery))

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lorebird · 9 months ago

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In which Ford struggles so badly to relate to other people that he wonders if he’s really human at all. The more isolated he becomes, the harder it is to reconcile with his own humanity.

#my art #gravity falls #Stanford pines #ford pines #bill cipher #comic #eye strain #TIME TO DUMP EVERY ONE OF THE 27483949 THOUGHTS IVE HAD INTO THE TAGS BABY #OK!! SO!!!!#I feel like Ford would wonder why he and Stan (being identical twins) aren’t. yk. identical. shouldn’t Stan have polydactyly too?#as a kid he would dream about secretly being nonhuman and being whisked away to a fantastical world full of people like him #finally free of new jersey‚ finally somewhere he belongs #a lot of this disconnect from humanity came from utterly failing at social interactions while others (including stan) navigated them easily #the feeling waned after Stan was kicked out and he didn't have that direct comparison but it never left #then out in the wilderness of gravity falls‚ his isolation and immersion in Weirdness dragged it back up to the forefront #he deserves to have a breakdown over questioning his own nature. as a treat <3 #color symbolism time bc I have a problem and use it at every available moment!!! blue and yellow get more vivid #the further from humanity the subject is #bill is entirely made w pure rgb blue and yellow (+ approximately 2674835 textures/layers/blending modes. I reached 150+ layers. help)#I like the idea that he would appear to ford like pure math considering hes a geometrical motherfucker and how the rest of the mindscape wa #I tried to mostly use trigonometry and related stuff for the Math Greebling. as well as fractals i love you forever fractals #MORE SYMBOLISM:#the grid-ish diamond pattern in all of the mindscape bgs (and elsewhere) is a penrose diagram of spacetime #which shows other universes on the other sides of black holes #SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY EUCLYDIA HEADCANON LATER. IVE DUMPED ENOUGH DUMB HCS IN THESE TAGS ALREADY #BUT I THINK ITS VERY FUN #anyways. fuckt up guys n their egos influencing how they view humanity. bill tells ford hes as human as they come bc he was so easily foole #ford cant reconcile with his humanity bc of a failure to perform in one area #and then the immense guilt and shame over what hes done <3 #I have So many ford characterization thoughts. no man nor god can stop me

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powdermelonkeg · 1 year ago

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Behold, the haunted one.

Design choices:

Skin tone: This is actually Smoke Tone rather than the default options for deep gnomes. I wanted them to look like a deep gnome going through it to most people, but uncanny valley to other deep gnomes because Bhaal made them not quite right. So this skin tone is less vibrant than a natural-born svirfneblin.

Hair color: Silvery gray, just a shade darker than normal with some dusty highlights. Same reason as skin tone.

Eyes: Obsidian 2, same reason as skin and hair, but this one sticks out the most; deep gnomes can have silver eyes, but can they have ones that look like you're blotting out the sun in them? I think not.

Hairstyle: You know, there are surprisingly few hairstyles that are both longer than chin length AND unkempt. Someone, at some point, is going to have to teach them how to comb it.

Eye Shadow: Helps with reducing glare on their poor Underdark-suited eyes.

Facepaint/tattoo: Guerrilla! Fits the whole shadowy murderer thing they've got going.

Earrings: You can't see them due to hairstyle, but Durge has Midnight Tears: IE, the bird skull earrings. They're hummingbird skulls that Durge killed themselves.

Scar: Got that one fresh from Orin just before lobotomy. Fun fact, if you cut someone across the bridge of the nose, it makes them violently ill!

#saving the drawing for after the final round is done #but here they are!#hi gale here is your basket case i hope you like them #bg3 #crowdsourced durge #i think the freckles happened due to bhaal's influence too #like. normal deep gnomes don't freckle. but this guy? skin absolutely does Not Work Right for svirfneblin #for the rest: i do think i nailed androgyny pretty well all things considered #also i am either dyeing these monk clothes better colors or ditching them entirely

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illegiblewords · 10 months ago

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Cenric Asher

#final fantasy xiv #final fantasy xiv screenshots #final fantasy 14 #ffxiv #arcadion #ff14 #There's an arcadion glamour challenge and I'm having a lot of fun with it!#Basically futuristic (either high tech or sweet or Mad Max-ish) + some kind of creature influencing design #I needed to do a cactuar lmao I would not know peace if I didn't do it #Have another I've done already but trying to figure out what else I might do #Have considered behemoth or tonberry or moogle or spriggan or chocobo #there's also some insanely cool pvp gear that could be woven in tbh

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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YOU MAKE THAT POST AND DON'T SHARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON EVERYONE'S OPINION ON SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG???

I MEAN IT'S SUCH A NICHE FUCKING TOPIC LMAO I DIDN'T THINK ANYONE WOULD CARE

but anyway here's the Egregiously Simplified version of Everyone Is Forced To Play Ten Routes Of Shadow The Hedgehog And Has To Give Their Opinion Afterwards

#snap chats #i already hear someone going 'the fuck you mean mine is number one shadow the hedgehog defender' YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME #at first i do think he'd be like 'what the fuck' but then going through all of shadows routes. or at least ten to get the final story #and seeing the constant betrayal and inability to trust others he faced yet still ultimately persevering due to his promise to maria #i think bro would be moved.. just a little.. would he think shadow a bit headassed for that considering what the humans did to him #Of Course but also its evident that shadows clearly taking things into his own hands now- as righteous of a mission as it is #despite the persistent attempted influence by everyone around him. shadows a complicated TRAGEDY he'd be moved #mine's artsy like that..... gotta go before i get shot ive said insane things before but this one'll take the cake me thinks #im not explaining everyone else mine's just felt like the one i NEEDED to explain lest i look more insane than usual #06 daigo's purely a Shadow Angst enjoyer. he understands shadow and he's wallowing in the misery of his backstory #majima's weird to categorize cause he definitely can be like Lmao The Fuck and/or just play the game chaotically #and then the aspects of identity come in and on the outside he'll be like 'bro its not that deep' but on the inside its like #Damn He Just Like Me Fr. i think. idk i dont study majima leave me alone im not making ANOTHER One Chara Exclusive category #i said i wouldnt explain anyone else and here i am explaining shut UP im gonna go eat #im not looking at this anymore bye #FORCING myself to leave cause i really will just end up typing essays on bitches perceiving shadow LMAOO

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agendratum · 1 year ago

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help me decide

which 3racha song to kick out from the polycule from the cassette tape playlist

context: some time ago i bought myself a little nice cassette recorder, cause i wanted to record some tapes with my favorite songs. i did one and since that time it's already been a while, so i'd love to do another one. this time i wanted to record a whole tape of 3racha songs. one tape has two sides, each can contain 30 minutes of sound. so i tried to arrange songs i like into two playlists, here they are

as you might notice side a ended up being 33 minutes long, which won't work. side b is perfect with its 27 minutes, but as per side a's troubled nature, someone has to go. i can kick out one song from side a or i can kick out one from side b and move one from side a to side b. i just need to figure out which one to kick out, and i'm not sure, so

here are the links to these songs on youtube just in case: double knot, placebo, don quixote, 은석이

please help me feed this cassette it's so hungry

#yeah i looked at side a again today and was like nope not kicking out any of those kjals #yes kicking out wow is not an option #i might consider kicking 3 racha out tho just cause it sounds very different from the rest #but idk #and to be honest this poll might not at all influence my final decision but please still help #it's like flipping the coin #if you don't like the result it means you've already made up your mind #mt #chattering #polls

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moodyseal · 1 year ago

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Tfw your father says he's not disappointed but then he lies to your relatives about your grades

#the funniest thing is that i got 26/30 and he said i got 27/30 #like what's even the point 😭#anyway. i think i did great actually considering it was physics and i suck at physics #a solid B #alas this score doesn't influence the final grade at all so i could get even lower than that #or higher!!!#but we're being realistic here #lonely thoughts

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cosmictapestry · 2 years ago

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i think the very most ideal situation in any sandman story is nada like, living in the walls of the narrative. i should be able to Feel her there trying to break in y'know. Everything should revolve around her. i think

#final part of laity's coming along great why do you ask.#the sandman #she's The main character of we divinity considering narrative influence alone #we divinity

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viktortittiforov · 1 year ago

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the 2010s sure were a time in my life

#there's just....... there's just something about that time #it might have something to do with 2011 being the year i started high school and 2019 being the year i finished my BA #and also the last year before the pandemic #I DON'T KNOW I JUST. THINKING BACK ON IT THERE IS THIS MYSTIQUE TO THAT TIME. THIS STRANGE EXCITEMENT #which is most likely a result of me finally beginning to feel like i can shape my own life and who i am and daydreaming abt a better future #and like exploring myself. in 2010 i turned 14 and fully realised i'm bi and throughout the decade #i experimented with a variety of different like...... identifications and imaginations of who i am #some of those were quite consumer identities (e.g. i strove to be and was a very hipster teen) but nevertheless #i don't know dudes like. the pandemic took a lot from me in terms of ability to be excited about what's to come i think #even though my life is pretty good i'd say #but also maybe that's just what it's like to grow into adulthood and get a job etc. SIGH why am i writing an entire fucking essay #abt my 2010s teenagehood nostalgia #like majority of those years also SUCKED because i had zero real irl friends and was really lonely lmfao #it felt like life didn't really start for me yet #and i was constantly waiting to burst into it. maybe that's the mystique. constantly hoping i am on the precipice of smth extraordinary #is nostalgia for one's teenage yrs inevitable? even if you feel like you missed out on most experiences considered quintessentially teenage?#i only started having Teenage Experiences™ when i went to uni lmfao (i.e. early 20s)#but idk it's such a loaded period psychologically and it's horrible and frustrating when you're living it but then you think back on it #and you're like man..... sure was a time huh. wow #but idk my experience could also be influenced by so many other variables #e.g. smartphones and social networks becoming widespread and common #that was also a pretty significant thing that happened #anyway i think i'm abt to run out of tags so. that's it #sry this shoulda gone into my diary probably but i inflicted it on you instead #neptalks

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burger-goblin · 2 years ago

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#girl help i'm romanticizing a relationship that i was in over a decade ago that left me emotionally bruised and stunted #a very toxic relationship in which i was abused in every way a person can be abused #i always would tell myself that i wouldn't take him back after he would cheat on my and i would be tricked into it because i really thought #that i could change him and he could be better #but i realized much later that the reason i was so easy to win back wasn't just because i was in love with him‚ but also because #i really loved his family. i loved the love they gave me‚ and how-- despite how poor our relationship was-- they were on my side #and always cared for me. even when we weren't together‚ his mom was always checking in on me #he and i reconciled years after our very‚ very messy final breakup and maintained a good friendship #however he started getting radicalized and was leaning further and further right‚ so i distanced myself and removed him from my socials #last year‚ around this time‚ i started having dreams about him over and over‚ so i took it as a sign to reach out to him and check in #turned out that his mom had been hospitalized and it wasnt looking good. i reached out to her as well. thankfully‚ she went home #and he asked me how i was‚ like he wanted to keep in touch‚ and i never replied. i wanted to keep that distance between us #but i would still be near if they needed me‚ and for some reason‚ i just assumed the family knew that #fast forward to now. his mom is gone and it's weighing heavily on me. he's told me he never wants to talk to me again #and that's also weighing on me. i wish i just knew the direct reason why he feels that way #like if it's specifically something i said‚ if it's that i remind him of all the wonderful times we spent together with his mom‚ or #is it because of his new wife #i don't think i was that much on an influence on his life considering how often he used me and cheated on me-- i'm not a threat #like to their marriage. so i'm inclined to think it's because i remind him of his mom #but not knowing for sure is the worst part of this‚ i think. i know he's hurting‚ and he knows i know what it's like to lose a parent #i want to give back to the family that gave me so much‚ but now that he's shut me out‚ i'm not sure how to do that anymore #ah‚ flea. you'd know what to say. i wish you were here to tell me.

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nexus-nebulae · 11 days ago

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suddenly realising that a decent amount of our system's dysfunctions might be due to OCD 😭😭😭

#i dont even know how to explain the thought process im having but i think i found the root of one of our major issues #like. it stems from our start in the tulpa community. the worry that we're 'forcing' or 'puppeting' someone who wants to be independent #we didn't know where the line was in willogenicism of where you stop controlling them and they're fully independent #that idea becoming a dysfunction was fully because we personally misunderstood our own system origins we were never willo #the community we were in was really helpful in helping us figure out that we are an adaptive system not a created one #it felt like 'controlling' them because we were more of a proxy-median sys back then and the lines between us were blurred #now it's easier to see the distinction between everyone's thoughts and actions but back then we were only just aware of being a sys #but it seems to have evolved into a sense of never knowing when a headmate is fully formed and when it's okay to 'influence' their forming #avoiding headmates BECAUSE we're worried about fucking up their formation #but then that in itself fucks up their formation because they have less time in front to solidify fully #how we neglect our own system and fellow headmates out of worry of fucking it up #yeah that might be an ocd symptom #finally breaking that barrier of worrying we're mislabeling our issues as OCD and it's pretty provable we have it now #has had a sudden and huge impact on how much anxiety we're having on a daily basis #like we're all super weirded out right now because this sense of calmness and assuredness in who we are and what we're doing #is. so weird and alien. its like two layers of an art program were misaligned and it looked super chaotic before #and someone just clicked like 3 buttons and realigned it perfectly and the whole image suddenly makes sense and is less eyestraining #our heart palpitations have slowed down too. like that's a Physical indicator our anxiety is hugely reduced #just from having that knowledge of WHY my brain is the way it is and knowing what exactly to ask for help with if i need it #same with figuring out we were autistic it was a whole worldshift that made everything make so much more sense #i felt like so many of my mental issues were a confusing soup of randomness and I'd never find a real diagnosis for any of it #like we were just some mental frankenstein of disparate symptoms that would always be an outlier in a way #just didn't want to spend our life being essentially 'undiagnosable' because we were just too weird and confusing and niche #now it's like. oh. oh shit all these unrelated things are actually related? that makes so much more sense now #connecting all these separately distressing behaviours that were never thought to need comparing before #because it all felt so truly unrelated it didn't even occur but now i see they all come from almost the exact same places #and also finding out recently that a lot of mental conditions I've considered i might have but weren't sure about #are classified as ANXIETY disorders. that makes a ton of sense to me now. i never knew OCD was an anxiety disorder until now #if i had known that sooner i probably would have connected the dots years ago I've KNOWN about my anxiety #i am diagnosed with GAD i knew these issues were anxiety based but OCD makes my behaviours from that anxiety make more sense

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bookalicent · 1 month ago

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writing a substack article about how much i hate most tiktok influencers specifically the ones where they exploit their own lives and other people and their interactions this is truly therapeutic for me idc i love being a hater