#coping that maybe it won’t be
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me when i find out they’re bringing back all the OG Xmen actors from 25 years ago in the next avengers movie:

“DONT GET EXCITED. ITS JUST A CORPORATE PRODUCT RUNNING ON NOSTALGIA BAIT. ITS NOT GOING TO ADD ANYTHING OF VALUE TO THESE CHARACTERS. THEYRE JUST A GIMMICK THATLL SHOW UP FOR 3 SECONDS FOR AUDIENCE APPLAUSE.”
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“BUT JAMES MARSDEN CYCLOPS-“
#i’ve been crashing out on all of my poor friends#for fucking hours#NONE OF THEM UNDERSTAND#I’ve been in a constant state of:#accepting it’ll probably be ass#coping that maybe it won’t be#getting excited#then doubt#RARHGJHHHHH IM GOING FERAL#God if they fumble Cyclops again i will be PISSED#Give that white boy some sauce marvel it’s been 25 years#he’s waited long enough#i realize this post seems pretty negative after reading it again#no shade if ur hyped honest!#i’m just. a lil scared is all#it’s a me thing rlly#i will be so genuinely happy to be proven wrong#like with deadpool last year#I can ramble more if you let me#anyway uhhhh#thoughts from the pit#deadpool#wolverine#deadpool & wolverine#x men#x-men#xmen
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Reading the webtoon and…

Does this imply that Kim Dokja also tried to write a questionnaire for her to fill in since she wouldn’t speak to him, that either he 1) never gave her in the end (especially if he couldn’t find her after she was released) or 2) gave it to her and she STILL refused to answer?
Because that is so so so so awful. It was already bad but if he tried so many ways to get her to speak and she still gave him no response, regardless of her reasoning… isn’t that still directly choosing to cut herself fully out of his life? Why in the hell did she lie for his sake and allow him to visit her if she wanted to never speak to him again?
I know everyone claims Kim Dokja is just like her in sacrificing himself for loved ones, but at least he tries his best to stay with them and to keep them in his life. He still chooses sacrifice, but it’s not because he intends to never return. He always returns (even if much later than planned).
The only time this differs is with 51%, when he STILL tried his best to stay with them - at least as much as he could.
I sometimes like Lee Sookyung, but I am mostly still SO mad at her for completely ignoring her child since he was 8 years old. Especially when he must have looked like shit any number of times from being mistreated and bullied by family, friends, army, employers.
But maybe that’s just the fragment in me being eternally pissed with her. She DOES love him, but like he says in the webtoon in this chapter - maybe such truths are painful enough to be false anyways, because they’re just SUCH bullshit. That’s not how affection should work, if you actually care about someone and want them to be happy.
#RAWWRGHHH I WANT TO SHAKE HER SO MUCH#LOOK AFTER YOUR KID#and if you can’t do that because of circumstances at least ACKNOWLEDGE HIM#yes I do know she cared and it’s just that she mistakenly believes he’s better off this way without her but like#then WHY does she still insert herself back into his life when he’s finally stopped trying to get her to speak?#yes yes others have great analyses on her and their relationship and I usually agree with their logic but it’s still. So. Hard. to like her#but then I remember that this story was the little Dream’s wishful thinking to cope back then on his own#and so maybe in his world Lee Sookyung never ever would speak to him again#he just wished she would so he wrote it down as happening for This older version of him#and that’s somehow worse because like#even in the story where he got her to speak to him again she still won’t speak so he has to force the words out some way (via outer god)#and if that’s true then it’s still just his interpretation of her actions and choices#and not her own since she never told him#so like ARGGHHH#but I like to believe that characters have autonomy despite their respective author’s efforts in documenting them#so she still chose to speak all of this too and he would have accurately interpreted her this way because she controls what she says#even if he (little Dream Kim Dokja) is the one writing it down as wish fulfilment fix-it fic#a fix-it for himself and not just for the other people he loves#😭😭😭#orv#orv spoilers#omniscient reader’s viewpoint#lee sookyung#kim dokja
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qantoine’s coping mechanism to feeling left behind being both self-isolating and becoming possesive of those he cares for is so juicy as a concept . like yeah you go you funky creachure, manifest those complicated and sometimes contradictory emotions
#anyone remember that one fanart of qantoine like . grabbing onto qetoiles and covering his mouth antoine reposted to his insta story .#anyone wonder what was up with that . like he reposted fanarts every now and again but like . that one specifically was such a Choice on hi#part . fantastic fanart btw it occupies space in my brain still#but yeah god . i think qantoine’s self-isolation (+ his secrecy the way he struggled generally to connect with others etc)#was the more obvious Thing he did as a coping mechanism . but damn were those smaller moments of possessiveness interesting#bc you could often just read it as protectiveness instead and well it Was that . but i think it becomes even more interesting if u read it#through a possesive lens . theyre two sides of the same coin anw it just depends on where the limit between the two lies for u#anw i think it manifested itself most obviously with pomme bc a parent-child relationship lends itself to that dynamic more . ough some goo#moments there i’d need to revist their relationship more . ‘je te connais comme si je t’avais créé’ which just has layers of potential#meaning . if you subscribe to the theory that qantoine had a hand in creating the eggs then that adds even More to the potential#possessiveness there . love it#and it manifested with qfrench too i think just in more subtle ways . like idk when there were implications he’d done a Thing to help them#out in some way . like the implication that he had a hand in getting ayp out of prison that one time . or when he was protective of etoiles#during prison . or even moments where he failed to achieve some sort of level of power over them like when bagz and ayp broke into his#secret room and he kept giving bagz the cold shoulder when she was trying to apologise to him 😭 . idk stuff like that . semi petty bitch#energy . but i LOVE the idea of this eldritch dude who’s still figuring out how mortal relationships work kinda just . being too possessive#too controlling . all in the effort to try and keep them in One Piece . and maybe in the end it won’t matter How he keeps them safe as long#as he manages to . he’s old as hell and he’s probably gonna outlive them and theyre all so fragile and small . they won’t see the bigger#picture so he’ll have to make sure he’s manoeuvring them around inside it correctly . <- absolute hc territory in the end there but it’s#very fun to think about :P#jay rambles#antoine daniel#qfrench.posting
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[gesturing wildly] yesterday derapchu said on stream that it was Vi who messaged zam saying he’d like to talk to him after being revived . and the manhunt begins at 4:30 Not at 4:00 when session normally begins. so surely those 30 minutes are allocated to talking with zam right……..
#saph speaks#im coping so hard right now#maybe the joke about me gambling away all my life savings won’t be a joke some time soon
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taking a break from tumblr for a while. might be back, might not
#i’ve gotten to a point where tumblr is a self destructive coping mechanism#maybe someday i’ll be able to. come back here. but maybe i won’t want to
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#I haven’t posted in a while- I’ve changed shifts due to my partner getting a new job so I’m going through a transition rn#but hey is it normal for a cutesy otome game to maybe change your life a little bit?#cheritz really said ‘we matched you with this character who has a back story you can oddly relate to a LOT’#‘he’s also coincidentally a therapist’#‘also he has all the same coping mechanisms you’ve used in your past to cope with stress’#‘watch as he grows and learns to love himself and therefore learn how to better love others! won’t that be fun?’#meanwhile I’ve been having what feels like an out of body experience lol#like oh that’s how people see it when I do those things#hey maybe my hatred for myself really has messed up relationships with people who genuinely care about me#maybe not giving people a chance to get to know the real me is a bad thing actually#also I love him so much lol#tomorrow is my last day of his route and I love it#I’m so sad that it’ll be done but also so glad that I get to see where it ends up
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An ironman is a type of challenge run in fire emblem where you cannot reset or reload saves (or use turnwheel mechanics) no matter what, meaning dead characters are gone for good and missed recruitables, treasure, and villages are also gone. There are some extra frills that can be added for increased challenge such as starting from the beginning if you get a game over, but basically “no resetting for dead units” is all ya need.
I just wanted to see how the FE community on Tumblr is with this type of run ^_^ so make sure to smash that reblog button for a larger samp
#mayor talk#fe#fire emblem#polls#i’m planning on doing my first one in birthright as a little taster. i’m already off to a shitty start cuz i got careless#but idk maybe the handicap will push me. <-cope#birthright is like the easiest fe game and i’m not crazy attached to the characters so i think it’ll be a decent start#[no i won’t be doing any skirmishes or dlc maps for grinding i think that would defeat the point]#originally wanted to do revelation but i had a fresh unplayed birthright file and thought might as well#revelation seems very interesting to ironman though. the unit roster is so big…. imagine the calamity that can be inflicted on them
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feeling v down today
#missed my dentist appointment because I was late#and my house is a rubbish tip#and the dishes from two days ago still aren’t done#and I’m starting to think maybe I can’t cope with life and I won’t ever be able to#personal
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Due to circumstances irl me and my friends still won’t be able to finish new getter watch which fuck knows when it’ll be resume now and one of the factors wasn’t even because not everyone could come-like one person was sick but that was it-but because we had a bunch of irl shit happened and I’m just reminded the part of the show we landed on is super fucking angsty and doesn’t get any better and that has probably encapsulated so of my iffy feelings with new despite it being arguably the most best written ova- but I don’t know if I wanna get into a whole rant about it in a post because some people might think I’m reaching even though I’m safer here compared to twit so might keep vague thoughts in the tags below.
#meg text#new getter robo#I know there are shows that done it significantly worse and I’m a angsty mfer#but I sometimes wish end of new didn’t set up “our protag is going to have a mental health spiral mask it and then get sent to the void”#because I think about the fact ryoma literally got ptsd from seeing that fucked up future#and he didn’t tell anyone and then burdened himself with handling a issue that’s just gonna cause more trauma#I know it’s supposed to be up to interpretation if he’s a slave to fate or actually choosing his own path but#as someone who wonders if I’ll ever not have to struggle with mental health it’s kinda triggering#which I know wasn’t the intent and it could just be “it’s 2004 and didn’t age well” but it makes so miffed#cause despite arma where he sees whole ass hallucinations of Michiru at the very least that ends with clarity#and his manga fate is more fucked up but hey at least he got a period of his life away from the getter#but new…. God no wonder I cope about a sequel idea even though I know it won’t happen#it just deserves to end on a not super mentally ill note but maybe I’m just overthinking it
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Instructions unclear, I’m now challenging gravity to a duel
#cristina is silly#wicked movie#defying gravity#guess who just watched the official trailer#so far it looks very very musical!wicked and not book!wicked#maybe this won’t be a trainwreck and the book!wicked stuff will be kept at a minimum#they may have brought back cope/tibbett as the stereotypically theater gays
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I really need to start looking into what’s been causing my psychosis since my fucking toddler years but I have so much shit going on rn I don’t know if I have the energy too. Hhhh
#ramblings#not a vent. I’m more tired than anything#I don’t really want to add to the laundry list of things wrong with me#my TBIs absolutely made things worse but I know I’ve been dealing wjtb this as far back as I can remember#my moneys on paranoid schizophrenia (has been since 2018) but hhhhhh#maybe I can just put this off forever and ever and never have to worry about it <- lying#I just wanna know what’s wrong so I can t try to improve and cope but#that takes effort and energy I won’t have for a long time#I should mention I believe it’s that because of a family history of it as well as. a lot lining up
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thought I was immune to self insert stuff since I haven’t felt the need to do it in the last few years yet here I am, scribbling away at a whole fucking narrative I’ve created. employee 404….
#crow thoughts#maybe delete later#I rlly shouldn’t be nervous or embarrassed because dude I have always been rlly open bout self insert#but idk feels weird now ig. ever since I found out I was aro I was like ‘ohhh I see. this was a coping mech. huh’#and i kinda dropped it for a while. or at least never posted anything specific on it#feels weird. I probably won’t post anything aside from this bout it#I may do a small thing on it but. I won’t tag it >_>#or not post it. very likely I won’t post it#it’s not ship or whatever either just good ol throwing myself into a universe#best case scenario I turn the self insert into an oc. best outcome imo
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i didn’t say goodnight to my parents last night like i usually do and my mum is treating that as if i’ve committed a crime -_-
#the ONE time i don’t do that and it was just because i was so tired yesterday#and because of that she won’t stop asking what’s the matter with me#i mean i feel low most of time but it just depends on how i cope with it from day to day#‘maybe i’m overthinking it but-‘ yeah i think you are!
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I’m turning 30 in June and it’s just like. Why do I still feel like a useless child who is wholly unprepared for anything the world expects of me? I’m not cut out for work, I struggle with so many necessary parts of being an adult, I’m scared of the passage of time and what will happen when my older relatives are gone. I feel so much like I got stuck somewhere and never really progressed and yet here I am about to turn 30 with my life considerably less stable than it was at 20.
#I’m genuinely terrified that I won’t be able to cope when my family are eventually gone.#I hate feeling like a burden to them. I hate knowing that my parents had their lives together by the time they were my age#meanwhile me and my brother are such a fucked up mess#my mum’s family are assholes but when they call us a troublesome can of worms I feel it to be true#I do so much to try to help lessen the fact that neither of us are ready to be adults. Like I cook and try to tidy to take the strain off#but the whole time I feel like a scared kid terrified of the future#And I feel so stupid and useless knowing I wouldn’t cope in most work settings#both physically bc of my stupid joints and mentally/emotionally#Genuinely at times I wish I’d never been born bc it feels like I was a bad omen#my parents were fine until I was born and then things started to slip#maybe they just means they shouldn’t have been parents but it’s too late to undo that now#I’m also pretty certain there’s some neurodivergence involved but what specifically idk#But it’s hard to tell if it’s something specific or if it’s the general effects of childhood trauma#either way I feel constantly like I’m dangling by a rickety rope ladder over a deep bottomless pit and the ropes is fraying
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listen ‘ere boy there is a voice in ur head telling u ur fine and you don’t need to go to therapy tomorrow and that voice is a f u c k i n g liar don’t listen to it boy don’t fuckin’ listen to that rat ass bastard it does NOT have ur best interests at heart
#vent in tags etc etc#aim losing my mind over here#it’s fine#see the thing is I’m so deeply lacking in like. the emotions edition of object permanence. I can have a massively heartbreaking reaction to#smth and then once I’m out of that moment and even slightly distracted it’s like nothing ever happened ??#so like yk I was nearly [radio static noises] over talking to my therapist abt the young csa thing and I’m meant to be starting emdr tomorr#tomorrow* except like for the past two weeks I’ve overall been fine regarding that?? instead it’s the ed and other traumas flaring up so ??#idk how Specific emdr is I honestly don’t know much about it yet but like yk now I’m wondering if I should delay starting that in favour of#talking about the other badtimes tm rearing their heads atm. todays in particular was unexpected it happened this morning and it’s only just#like. hit me and started biting and it’s ?? also dumb cuz like on one hand I’m pretty okay but on the other hand the other half of my brain#is spiralling hysterically to the point where I’m very glad I’m already in bed and like I know [redacted] won’t help but it’s like my brain#is just so lost about how to hold these things and what to do at all so it’s just pulling out the bad coping mechanism and insistently#thrusting it in my lap and waving its arms like it wasn’t even That Bad tm of a situation today but it Was some very specific factors which#are holding hands with Other specific factors and then The Location Of The Events is just#yea okay maybe I will talk to her abt this / these things instead if I can#ah the joys of heavy personal responsibility at a very young age and the severe guilt that gets bred from that and the fantastic experience#of things being so far out of your control and almost destined to fail and the absolute wonder of The Actual Person(s) To Blame Having No#Consequences For Their Actions and ending up feeling like you failed and you’re a complete fraud cuz no good you do will make up for that#one situation and yeah okay I’m gonna go sleep#ugh
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sometimes it’s like why can’t surgery be something i wish on a star for one night and it is granted and i wake up no tits no uterus.
#existential fear i guess of seeing/being friends with trans people who are farther in their medical transition talking about being post op#longer than pre op#and that’s so so beautiful for them#but sometimes i fear ill have known who i was for so long#and idk. not get there fast enough to have the time to enjoy it#i’m good at coping with my body but i remember how good it felt when i started hrt and saw effects#and how much it just. relieved this weight i could’ve never calculated earlier. every day. all the time.#and i know the same will probably happen after the procedures. i’m just worried i won’t get to enjoy that body for very long#maybe i am sometimes saddened by how much of my youth or ‘prime’ will or has been marked by prolonged discomfort and shit#i worry i’ll be sad for more of my life than any other feeling i guess is the main core
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