closed starter for GISELLE ( @overwhlcmed )
location: jackson’s apartment… night time… chilly outside 🙂
˖ ✧ ★ ──────────── IT WAS DIFFICULT TO RECONCILE WITH THE IDEA THAT GISELLE HAD BEEN BACK IN HIS LIFE FOR A LITTLE OVER A YEAR NOW. it simultaneously felt like he had never left, and yet like it had only been a few weeks since she’d approached him in the corridors of her office building and he’d left more scars on her heart. things had changed, drastically, since last christmas, but they also felt exactly the same. the boundary line had shifted– away from the shy glances and soft touches that had constituted an uncertain something before, and instead towards the witty quips and easygoing closeness that defined a comfortable something now– but it was still there. despite the cracks that had formed, allowing them both to see between the bricks of the walls around his heart, they were still standing. the ghosts of the past still haunted them– from stanford to their reconciliation to the apology text message lighting up his phone on his birthday. the guilt stayed firm, keeping him from letting go entirely. it reminded him that no matter how perfect the moments seemed, HE wasn’t. his jagged edges could be covered with cloth for the time being, but it was only a matter of time before he mishandled them and accidentally cut her open in the process.
his resolve was crumbling, though ; the comfort with his solitude was like a long dead civilization. the longer they lived in this blissful false reality they had created, the easier it was for jackson to believe that the ghosts clinging to his shoulders could be shaken off. his past didn’t matter. the person he was, the people they were, didn’t matter. what mattered was this moment– watching giselle as she worked at stringing up a single strand of christmas lights around his kitchen window, his chin resting against his knuckles and the untouched tea now cold on the table in front of him. she hadn’t done much, just the lights and a stocking for dutchess hanging up behind the door ( something giselle insisted on for her, not him ), but it was more than jackson might have relented for anybody else. despite his complaints, looking at it now, they looked nice– though it was more than just the aesthetics. it was a reminder that he wasn’t entirely alone this year, that while last year she had only been comfortable decorating her space, this year things were better. maybe time did heal old wounds. his gaze only shifted away from giselle when duchess came barreling into the room, skittering across the fake tiles after the end of the wires that were dangling around giselle’s legs. it was then that he pulled himself from his half-asleep, dreamy daze and made any effort to move.
shifting from his seat, he picked her up from the floor, before dropping the little white cat onto the kitchen table. she offered him only a meow of protest, before her attention shifted towards hunting a pencil that was hiding in between the piles of books and screws and half-finished coffee mugs. jackson turned his own towards giselle. trying to stifle a yawn, he wrapped his arms around her shoulders, hindering her movement entirely ; then he rested his chin against the crown of her head, and squinted at the new decoration ( probably the first new thing to enter the apartment since he had moved in. ) “ what is it about the sparkly little lights that say ‘ christ ‘ for people ? “ he questioned suddenly, raising one of his hands to gesture towards the lights. there was a sureness now in the way he crossed into her personal space ; although he was still poised to run like a startled animal, it was leaps and bounds from where they had been at this point a year ago : afraid that eyes lingering too long was crossing a boundary that they hadn’t discussed. now the way she leaned back into him felt comfortable, natural. in the quiet of his own apartment, there was no need for warning sirens. he was content to just be with her– no complications needed. “ granted– i’ve never read the bible, but i have a feeling that john, peter, mark and paul would not have included these on their list of birthday decorations for babies. sheep, though ? that was a necessity. “
guys (gn), today has been a lot (A LOT !) and I need to be sappy on the main tag for a moment about how much you all mean 💕
Ima take a page from Jere's book and say that this tumblr has been the best thing to ever happen ❤️🩹 I'm so proud of you and I love you all so much <3 This is the healthiest community I have ever been in, y'all always consider each other, don't jump to conclusions, organise and participate in gift exchanges, try to be respectful and genuinely care for each other and it's clear to see ❤️ And sure there are always things happening, and all of us are different people, but this place continues being so accepting and welcoming, and without any mods too!! Do you understand how rare it is to be respectful on the internet??? There's an anon option and y'all use it to send love messages!!! 😭💕 and thirst messages kekek (and for those who had bad experiences with anons - just lmk, we're always in your corner 🫂)
Also I need a tumblr seating chart so I can quickly see if anyone is absent (lurkers too). Because even if we never interacted, I truly care about you all and I hope you're doing okay, and if not - that things will soon get better 🫂 Stay true, be the way that you are, keep on loving and caring for each other. I hope you'll always have dry socks and loose change in all of your pockets 💕
I felt like drawing the boys just hanging out, because what is the point of living in your boss's huge castle with your new teammates if it's not a slumber party every day
Also I might colour in that last one cause I like how it turned out c:
I love this game and I love people watching in this game, just chilling while others are playing instruments or chatting. I love when you can see them saying goodbye and going home, or taking each other's hands and taking off into the sky. Sky is the best antisocial social game
"- Good job 'Fei, 'Ro's in another space. I totally lost my boyfriend.
- What about you? Not reading the book I gave you?
- Me? Naaah, I'm a streetrat remember? Gotta maintain the reputation."
I made this for the @gundamzine. I just want them to be fine now.