#cringefail acquaintance

[fragmentedblade]

Also, Ruan Mei was the one who lent the Phase Flame to Ratio, wasn't she?

[bee8467]

someone asked me my pronouns today and i failed at pretending to be cis… badly

[kingfelix13]

marble hornets oc

i made my own guy :)

picrew links: link 1 link 2

small bio for them:

name: Billy (not william, ew)

age: 19

gender + pronouns: non binary they/them

sexuality + romantic attraction: no label cuz they don't really care

relationships: Alex kralie (acquaintance) jay Merrick (good friend) everyone else they don't really relationship with

location: rosswood Alabama (moved there abroad from Europe to study)

favorite colors: brown and green

occupation: film student/actor

hobby: exploring places, not getting caught by the operator (totally), making ''shitty'' doodles, taking pictures of every animal they see, laying on grass doing nothing, drawing the operator symbol

other info:

cane user

nearsighted (like me :))) )

visits the abandoned locations in marble hornets often

cringefail loser /lh

[theresa-of-liechtenstein]

i briefly talked to my ex-coworker about his visit to [unnamed institution that was my reach program and rejected me for the phd] (he has a foot in the door because my supervisor's husband knows someone) and he was like "she [the professor he met with there] really cares and is like a mom to me, which i need in a PI" and like . what works for him i guess but the thought of me looking to essentially my boss as a parental figure gives me somewhat of an ick. it's giving "this workplace is a family" 😭 and he's lucky in that he's had not just one but TWO positive experiences with research mentors, but tbh inquiring on the positive relationships with faculty i've had it's like. i would never ever see any of them as parental figures. as friends at most (ate honorsprofessor)(tita conductor) or acquaintances (some of the physics professors come to mind) but never as parental figures. and not because my parents are perfect bc they aren't, it's just that... because my school is also my workplace and has been for the past three years it just feels dangerous to think along those lines.

anyway it doesn't matter really, it's not my life, and arguably i have no credence in being critical about his viewpoint given that he has a publication and would be a perfect candidate for the grfp and i am the diversity hire of the mse phd program in that they probably need someone cringefail to even it all out but. kind of unsettling to hear that from his mouth

[lakesbian]

i need toknow what the fuck is happening in rose's brain (or was before blake got eated rather) i may have to undergo the mortifying ordeal of theoryposting publicly and all. which is why people wanted me to liveblog in the first place. anyway. why the fuck did she hug him. what's wrong with her brain. i'm compelled by the idea of like. upper middle class bitchy cutthroat cishet white girl doing a very good job at Continuing The Cycle--not necessarily lying to herself that the way she's behaving is because she's the only good-hearted one here being slighted by everyone else like some of her relatives might be--but believing that the ends justify the means, or perhaps that performing those means to perpetuate those ends is inevitable and/or inescapable on her behalf. she was born into & raised by The Thorburns and not only can't escape but quite possibly has no Desire to escape the perpetuation of the involved cruelties--task set upon her which she will grimly carry out as her grandmother did before her and etc etc.

the interesting wrench here for her is that part of carrying out those tasks means watching someone who is literally [deep inhale] Herself But If She, Due To Different Life Circumstance, Left Home, Experienced Different Traumas, Attained A Deeply Loving Friend Group, And Formed A Personality Based Largely Around Kindness And Fair + Equal Exchange march like a lamb to the sacrificial altar to buy her time. perhaps nudging his course on the way to the altar at times but largely just watching it because he's a really blundering meandering lamb who doesn't like being told what to do very much. (neither, i imagine, does she.) which, like, that's an inherently fascinating dynamic. not just seeing but Knowing the person she could've been if she had only stepped away from the cycles of family cruelty. blake is doomed, bound to die (obligatory: badly) and drag people down with him with very little awareness of the fact and without making anything tangibly better for the next generation. he's bullheaded, and he doesn't read the fucking books, and he's quite frequently impulsive and bad at compromising and prone to horrendous mistakes which harm far more people than just him.

he's also the type of person who can talk at length about how amazing his friends' art is, how much he loves the tattoos he got from one of them. who will lend his own jacket to an acquaintance even when he's in worse shape. who will take on nigh-suicidal tasks not because he Is suicidal (or at least isn't yet, anyway) but just because they needed doing and no one but him was willing.

how do you, as a bitch of a woman trapped in (& willing to function within the trap of) the horrors of your particular family, meet a You who turned out like that, and not hate him at least a little? find him bumbling and annoying and ignorant, resent him for not being the best sacrificial lamb he could be, for being the type of person who ran away from home instead of getting it into a chokehold. but also, how are you not at least a little fascinated by him? the vestige of what could have been will be gone the second the illusion of blake thorburn inevitably shatters and she takes back her rightful place, but for the brief period of time where that illusion is solid, how could she resist the urge to entertain the idea least a little? the idea of a version of her that will put up with a hug purely to make her feel better despite hating touch, the idea of a version of her that naively believes there's a good way out for both of them.

like i think perhaps she hates his ass because his ass is, from her perspective, a dumb and cringefail miserable little sacrificial lamb who is going to be a BITCH to play along with until whenever he kicks the bucket. and she is fully aware that she is lying her ass off because she has 0 desire to intervene in the process of this alternate-her marching himself to the altar for her. but also she mayhaps. occasionally. just a little. gets lost in the sauce of that game of pretend where she's pretending she actually respects him as an equal or has real investment in him not dying badly. is this anything. are we going anywhere with this. like literally what If you met an alternate version of you and that alternate version of you is dumb and stupid and unsustainable and totally fucked but also nicey. you would totally Strongly Dislike their ass but also Genuinely find yourself compelled to wring a moment of real affection or connection out of them before they explode. anyway blake has next to none of these complexes about her and thus no hypothetical weird psychosexual obsession with her. but rose? yeah you can get a hypothetical weird psychosexual obsession with blake out of rose.

[colgatebluemintygel]

Mr. “I’m very well acquainted with London’s singles actually” thinks he’s sooooo suave when he’s actually using shoelace belts and wearing socks and sandals and putting sugar in pasta and (I love him so bad) (he actually is suave ) (it defies all laws of nature) (I understand completely)

ROFLLLLLL yes... yes exactly... he is the world's biggest loser .... trying sooooo hard to make s think he is cool and sexy . and yet !!! little does he know he's got s wrapped around his finger when he's at his most cringefail. he could be falling down a flight of stairs, limbs flailing in every direction, and sirius would still be watching on w hearteyes like sigh... he's sooooo.... sooo... so..... oh. you alright, moons? do you need a hand?? *tucks hair behind ear

[revivemyreverie]

giggles may i ask for the marcoritas trios and maybe yumeno their opinions on cringefail mort in turn 🤭

ON THE WAY!!!

🌊.

“As much as I appreciate Mort’s… eagerness to praise me wherever I go, he has certainly become something closer to a thorn in my side than an ally. All this talk about me resembling a fae I have no clue about annoys me beyond belief. Not to mention the times he’s barged in when Redd and I were discussing classwork. 

Still, I have yet a reason to truly dismiss him. I’ve learned quite a few things about humans and pasttimes they like to indulge in from him. As long as Mort has good ideas on things that can make me happy, he’s allowed to stick around. 

🧙.

Hehehe, Mort may be older than me, but that’s not a reason to not try to befriend him! Still, I don’t think we can even be considered acquaintances. I’ve tried talking to the guy, but the only way I can get him to talk is if I bring up childish things like unicorns. One time, I took a book about zebras and swapped the cover with one on faes and handed it to him. Not even an hour later he’s read the whole thing just to see if anything on Centuries popped up! 

Outside of that though… Mort’s a total downer. Sometimes, if you tilt your head the right way, he resembles a cat that looks like it’s been left in the rain! 

🐂.

That insufferable prick from the 1st year group? Don’t make me laugh. All Mort does is clutch onto Kaiser’s sleeve and proclaim him to be greater than all of us students. And who cares if I want the dorm leader’s title? It’s either me or whoever finds Kaiser first during the Hunt anyways. I’m just taking early steps to ensuring I get what was supposed to be mine. 

If anything, that idiot should go grow a backbone. Or if he just wants to continue moping around and say he can’t, then he should at least get off my ass for having a goal, unlike him. 

🐭.

HACHACHACHA! My opinion on that loser?! If not for his weirdo obsession with Kaiser, then its Mort’s strange facts on a dead race that are why he’s a total loner. Hm, I guess I can’t say his knowledge is too creepy, though. It provided some good data for my history paper~!

But seriously, I don’t know how Kaiser can put up with that guy daily. Everyday its “centurie” this and “fae” that, shouldn't he have other hobbies outside of being a freak?

[featherglum]

Silly transformers ocs that came to me in a dream (except I heavily altered the designs and lore from the original vision)

In the dream, I was browsing a website similar to artfight and saw a transformers oc named Priest ( @sonia-aquamarineson 's oc Gusty was on there too, but he was called Herring. This has no bearing on the rest of the lore, it was just funny). Priest's original design was a bit different from the current one and looked more like this:

(Made with this picrew and edited a bit to be more accurate. I didn't draw him because I wanted to get his design down ASAP before forgetting everything + I wasn't very confident in drawing tf characters yet.)

His lore was very inconsistent. A picture on his page implied that his alt mode was a speaker, but the first line of his description said it was a set of silverware. But that was contradicted too at the end where it said he was "a book with pages as brittle as his trust". There was also a mention of how someone cursed him and since then he just stayed at home.

There were also these 3 pictures that were, (allegedly) related to his backstory:

(Some nun looking with disapproval, Priest's human version looking sad or scared and finally, a weird Christmas tree with a face [what])

So yeah. Priest's backstory was pretty nonsensical, but thankfully after sharing the dream with Sonia (because Gusty was there briefly) we were both so normal about the guy that we decided to make his lore make sense.

Basically:

Pine was a cringefail scientist fed up with having his lab at some abandoned, rusty old base next to a junkyard in the middle of nowhere and wanted the other cons to finally respect him. So when his inventions weren't impressive enough, he had a different plan

He was going to kidnap some autobot and then contact their friends with a typical "grr hand over the secret info or your friend will die >:-[" message. But here's the twist! Before that, he would put a bomb inside the bot's chassis, which would activate when they leave the base. So even if the friends showed up to heroically rescue their bestie, they would still die anyway! Yippee!!

He managed to catch an unsuspecting bot, which happened to be Priest, and all seemed to be going well...

.. Until it turned out Priest was about as respected by the autobots as Pine was by the decepticons. When contacted, Priest's acquaintances couldn't care less about him possibly dying. They didn't seem too keen on heroically rescuing him, but didn't hand over the information Pine wanted, either.

Pine wasn't sure what to do. Sure, the bomb was already there, just waiting to be detonated. But on the other hand... was it really worth it? What's the point of this kind of murder when no one is watching?! When there's no one the lament the loss of their loved one?! And as much as he hated to admit it, he felt some sympathy for Priest, who was as much of a loser as he was.

Pine was like "ok, kidnapping's over, your murder is cancelled. Lemme take that bomb out of your chassis real quick. Then you can go wherever you want and forget this ever happened. Sorry for wasting your time". And yeah he took that bomb out but there was another problem.

Priest didn't really have anywhere to go and didn't want to come back to the autobots, considering how little they cared about him.

And so, he ended up staying with Pine and joining the decepticons (which had little to do with the actual ideology and more with wanting their partnership to look less suspicious). Priest spends his days helping Pine with his inventions and digging through the junkyard for any interesting devices he could use as an alt mode (since there isn't much else to do there, really). As such, he changes his alt mode very often and it's a bit hard to keep up with sometimes. However, one form he often comes back to is an arcade machine (which is the design pictured in his ref!)

Also don't ask how an arcade machine ended up in space. This is a ridiculous little story about a pathetic pine tree robot and and a guy named Priest. And it was based on a dream. Weirdness is unavoidable here.

Oh that was long. If you're still reading say. Uh. Idk just say something.

And shoutout to @sonia-aquamarineson yet again for helping me figure out the lore and her contributions to Pine's design!!

If anyone has questions about them, my asks are always open

[lulu-bin]

Oh ho ho, you thought no one would notice your post, but i did!

Of course the monkeys paw curls a finger so i will ask for either deputy beagle or chris haversam headcanons (theyre both minor quest characters from new vegas that i am utterly in love with) (please i need more content for them)

Beagle is my cringefail favorite,

Deputy Beagle Headcanons

He thinks he has rizz, he does not. He gets by on just being pretty and thinks it's because he's good at flirting.

Definition of a himbo. Beagle's heart is in the right place but his brain is nowhere to be found.

Flirts with any pretty guy or girl he comes across, though he has more experience with women.

Very lazy, hates waking up before 11am

Likes his coffee with a little bit of cream

Is not a fan of Ruby Nash's radscorpion casserole but pretends he likes it to be polite.

Collects playing cards and has a sizable collection.

Sucks at playing caravan (who doesn't tho?)

Has been to Goodsprings a few times and is pretty well acquainted with Chet

Was practically raised by his older sister, and was very upset by her death. Beagle blames himself for not doing more.

Deeply insecure but too cowardly to do a thing about it or try and better himself.

[stuffedsand]

Wahey milgram oc time my silly guya

013 - Shiratori Masaki

My boy

- 20

- prisoner number 013 (I slapped them into base milgram cuz I don't wanna make a whole new cast)

- to quote my own character notes: cringefail specimen of a man.

-- fun name thing! His first name means "true, hope" hehe

UNDERCOVER

"Under, oh so aware of all that you say

This makes me sick, so please, go away"

Votes (fabricated lmao)

T1 - INNOCENT

T2 - GUILTY

Songs of Prisoners

+T1 – what…what are you talking about?

+T2 – no…you-you’re lying!

Voice trailer (t1)

Oh uh… Shiratori Masaki, that's my name. 20, uni student. Uhh what else … oh, sorry if I forget anything, i, ah, my memory has never been any good

If I'm being honest…I don't know what the hell you're talking about! No one around me has died recently. At least…not as far as I can recall…

*Takai? Takai! Wake up! This isn't funny..!*

Voice trailer (t2)

Hi, Es-kun, how have you been? Ah, Shiratori Masaki. You didn't forget our deal, right?

*Shut up! I don't want to listen to you and your stupid problems anymore!*

Personality

-- a timid yet stubborn man. It is very difficult to change his opinions on things. Polite, but very quick to turn defensive if blame is turned on him.

He can be a prick at times.

Extra notes

-- a man with really bad memory loss. During T1 interro, he makes a deal that he'll take MILGRAM seriously if Es can tell him who his victim is. And he has to believe it

-- not mentioned but his memory loss is a trauma response. Dead bodies are traumatic I don't think that's a contraversial take

-- the indirect murderer of the pair

Full body:

Please note -- his ugly fucking shoes were not an accident he has a horrible fashion sense

014 - Akabane Kazuko

The She

-23

-prisoner number 014

-based off one of my multifandom ocs (and my favourite of the 2)

--fun name thing! Her name means "gentle/kind/harmonious child". 子 is also(apparantly) male specific. I have fun reasons for that

UNDERCOVER

(pardon the artstyle change this was done on my tablet instead of my computer and was. Rushed💀)

Under, I don't care if I'm in the right or wrong

Songs of prisoners

Full of malice, we will waltz to our doom

Votes (edit)

T1 - guilty

T2 - (?)

+t1 – let's get on with it, shall we?

+T2 – ...you're not very good at this.

T1 – voice trailer

Hello. I am Akabane Kazuko. 24. A pleasure to make your acquaintance, Warden.

I am interested in how all this will play out. But nothing will really change the impact of our actions. Remember that, Warden

* My final act… will take your breath away! *

T2 – voice trailer

Good day, Warden. Kazuko, you remember, yes? Seems your choices have caused quite the ruckus.

* You…You know what you've done! I'll make you pay for it!*

Personality

-- a calm and gentle woman. A showman at heart, she is elegant and loves performing magic tricks.

-- some are unsettled by her, but she does her best to be kind and friendly to those she speaks to

Extra notes:

-- Magician coded :)

-- because I can fabricate fan theories, es assumed they killed 2 people in trial one. They have only killed one.

-- the direct murderer of the pair

Full body: (outdated a lil, I changed her vibe. Design still stands)

Please note -- bowling alley socks

Interro qns (please give me some interro questions tho I'm very bad at thinking any up)

Also note: interros are formatted as

--

Question

Kazuko

Masaki

--

Cuz I wrote this when I labelled Kazuko as 001 and Masaki as 002. I'm changing it to reflect their new numbers but editing on Tumblr mobile sucks so I'm not changing the order </3

Q)Tell us your family structure

014 — mother, self, brother,

...it's just me now

013 — parents, me and my twin, Shiratori Takai.

Q)Is there people you hate?

014 — hypocrites.

Don't become one, warden

013 — people who always depend on you

Q)Which prisoner is the most similar to you?

014 – yuzuriha kotoko.

013 – hm...

Probably kayano. He looks like he doesn't know why he's here, too

Q)What was your murder weapon?

014 — what a bold question

It was a bottle.

013 — haha, I'll humour you for this one

Hmmmm...... My words, maybe? I've been told i have quite a sharp tongue

Q)What was your family like?

014 — kind, resilient. They were wonderful. I

loved them

013 — they're ok.

Which prisoner do you get along with the least?

014 — mr mukuhara. Nothing against him, he just reminds me of someone.

013 — …Kusunoki. No reason, but I do wish she'd stop trying to talk to me. It's annoying.

Q)How has your experience been within MILGRAM ?

014 — quite good, considering we're all in here for murder.

013 — uh… good? I still don't believe you saying we're all murderers.

Q)Do you have regrets?

014 — yes. I should have done something sooner

013 — no? I did argue with my brother recently, but it was nothing, really. I'll apologize and everything will be fine

Q)Is there a verdict you hope for?

014) all I hope for is your honest judgement. I want to see how you choose to judge

013) Well, since I don't think I've done anything… I'd hope to be forgiven, of course.

Who was your victim to you?

014) nothing.

013) eh? Warden, I don't know. We made a deal remember? You tell me!

What is your father like?

014) i dont consider him my father.

013) uh…he’s my dad. What more do you want me to say, really...

What do you think of the prisoner paired with you?

014) Shiratori? Not much opinion. I do wonder what he's done to be here, though.

013) Ms Kazuko..? Shes intimidating, if I'm being honest. Not scary, just...intimidating

[frankensteined]

31 Days of Dragon Age (Day 2)

missed day 1 so i'll just jam both prompts into this post

Introduce your Hero of Ferelden & Favorite Origins romance

Oct 01 - Introduce your Hero of Ferelden

i don't have any images currently because my origins playthroughs all took place on the ps3 or a PC that i no longer have, but a rundown of my main three HoF incoming: neira mahariel - DW rogue with the ranger spec.

she was actually my second playthrough, after i used my first one to acquaint myself with the game and its lore before i dove into the roleplaying aspect of it. neira started out as your typically distrustful dalish elf, who resisted becoming a grey warden every step of the way. she didn't care if she was tainted and slated to die, she did not want to leave her clan, and she resented duncan for dragging her away from them. ultimately, she fell in love with zevran, though not until well after she'd gotten closure and properly grieved for her first love, tamlen. neira's seriousness mingled well with zev's more playful approach to the horrors of life, and that created a healthy bubble for them to be vulnerable and supportive with one another. ultimately, left anora to rule ferelden on her own, since alistair didn't want to become king and neira didn't want him to have to give up "his clan" (the wardens), but did convince him to undergo the dark ritual with morrigan. has since disappeared with zevran in search of a cure for the calling and according to the experts (my headcanon), they're doing just fine now, thanks.

syrill amell - mage (obviously) with the spirit healer spec.

he was a smartass, irreverent brat at the circle, but in that way that people still liked him, even when he was getting on their nerves. vain and prideful, he was also totally the type of mage that a demon would have loooooved to get ahold of...if not for the fact that syrill was also a gigantic nerd and studied frequently to avoid falling into the pitfalls of becoming an abomination. jowan was his buddy, in a "sidekick" sense, and it definitely annoyed syrill that jowan went and did...All Of That behind his back, but he still did what it took to free him and keep him safe when the opportunity arose. truly hated being in the circle (though not to the 'escapist' degree of anders), and truly, truly hated the templars, so he jumped at the chance to leave when duncan rolled in (ignoring all the blood everywhere and all that). he and alistair did not get along at all, but he fell all over himself to impress morrigan the second that he met her. somehow, his cringefail attempts at charm and his really nice hair won her over, and they fell in love. he spared loghain, not wanting to risk losing someone who knew what they were doing when it came to big battles, and alistair stormed off, never to be seen by syrill again. oops. post-game, he actually grew up quite a bit as the warden commander, but he never let go of his love for morrigan, often wondering about her and the child they supposedly had together. come witch hunt, he went with her without hesitating, and instantly loved their son the second that he met him. lived with his family for years in the crossroads, became a Certified Fun Dad, and only left them to try to cure the calling. as far as i'm concerned, he's currently hovering over kieran's shoulder while morrigan is away, not ready to see his baby boy (read: a 20 year old man) move out on his own.

vaye brosca - DW rogue with the assassin spec.

Hardened Criminal with a heart of gold. we love that trope, right? vaye's another warden who didn't want to leave her home, but her sister's pleading ultimately prompted her to do so. everything that vaye did was for rica's sake anyways, so she left, and was a fish out of water every step of the way since then. her go-to response to most problems was Knife, which her companions needed to break her of that habit really quickly (or, in zevran's case, teach her how to wield it with a little more grace). every single awkward, socially-inept dialogue choice was put to good use with this character, but somehow that ended up making her blisteringly honest and very capable of cutting through the bullshit in order to tell when she was being manipulated. ironically, fell in love with leliana because she was able to see through her layers and they found common ground with their bloodied pasts. quickly became the squishiest of romances, and vaye really loved gifting her the nug (something from her home that leliana didn't yet understand), and the flowers (something from leliana's home, that vaye didn't yet understand). since vaye understood that "king = power = safety", she nudged alistair to marry anora and rule jointly, and when she was named paragon, she was happy to see her sister elevated to nobility so that she could marry king bhelen and also enjoy that much safety. is currently living in a villa on the waking sea, surrounded by nugs, waiting for when leliana can come home.

Oct 02 - Favorite Origins romance

Actual Love Of My Life, Zevran Arainai

on my aforementioned tester first playthrough, i made a city elf and romanced alistair and went around flirting with whoever i could, just to get a sense of what sorts of characters i was dealing with. the inevitable "time to choose" conversation with zevran, though, really surprised me and gave me serious enough pause that it decided my first "real playthrough"'s romance for me right away. i was struck by how zevran, who'd been such a flirty, casual guy in this department up until then, was making it very clear that he didn't want to hurt alistair with any continued dalliances, given how much the other guy was clearly falling. he was sincere and respectful, and didn't even lose approval when i opted to have my tester warden break things off between them, and that kind of care and maturity really won me over.

fastforward to my neira playthrough, and that sincerity and deep, terrified love really, really solidified itself as an rpg favourite for me. you really feel the progression from "for fun" and "for life" with this relationship. it has its silly moments ("is there something in your tent that needs...assassinating?" or the dirty antivan poetry that he tells you just to make you laugh), and it has its truly moving moments (the earring scene, especially if you ask him if he's proposing, his farewell scene at the game before the final battle). and in the end, he stays with your warden through everything. yes, his DA2 appearance was fully bugged on import so i never actually saw him acknowledge the romance to isabela, and yes, i'm still bummed that he's the only origins romance that didn't get an appearance in inquisition, but a romanced zevran is still stated to be traveling with the warden in their letter, so he's still with them, after all these years, keeping them safe and helping to save their life. again. all because they spared his at a time when he didn't care if he lost it.

there's something really lovely about your pc being a character's first love, but there's something even lovelier, to me, about them being a character's last love, and the zevran romance is exactly that. it's still my number one of the series, no matter how much more content some of the others have in comparison.

[ardenrosegarden]

Since I had to answer this, I'm making you answer this: rank the Lancasterlings in order of your interest. 😈

oh nooo you can't do this to me 😭 it's hard 😭

Probably Humphrey lmao. He's got so many fun things going on with him: survivor's guilt, younger sibling idolizing his one of his older brothers only to unhealthily project that onto said brothers' son, super divorced™, tragic ending on and on and etc. It's fun to compare the way I was introduced to him (via Shakespeare plays) where he was mostly sweet and well-meaning verses irl Home Fry who is, to borrow academic language, kind of a messy bitch. It's a fun contradiction that's fun to play around with, honestly! Also, given my own interest area, I think he deserves props for being a last standing youngest brother royal uncle who didn't give into the darkness and disappear his nephew.

John. He's been somewhat a pet of mine since I first saw my first production of Henry IV. I just think he's neat :) I feel like you can also have a lot of fun with the irl guy, (which we often do 😂 ) There's also some accusations of him being kind of cringefail from the French perspective which is fun

Philippa! She makes me wish I was more acquainted with Sweden's situation in the 1400's, since it seems like she left behind a good amount of documentation to learn more about her :')

Blanche. I wish we knew more about her... I also wish she could've killed Ludwig with hammers.

Thomas. There's such open expanse when it comes to him, but I feel like there's quite of bit of ...not really knowing what to do with him I guess? Even with Billy Shakes, he shows up to say a few lines in Henry 4 and then dip 😭 But I think he's a fun additional mirror to hold up to Hal to examine how they're similar and different :')

Henry V. Legitimately interesting! Dad issues, guilt complexes up to here, surrogate dad/eldest daughter-son. I feel though, given his status as an English king, it doesn't really matter if I contribute to any interest in him myself, even though I do think he's a fun squeaky toy, given that generally he'll always be first to get it anyway ¯_(ツ)_/¯

[jay-j-otter]

hey hey, do you mind sharing your akiyama headcanons? just saw ur tags talking abt how theyre dark and im very interested!!!! your fem ryuaki fuels me in ways i cannot describe and i havent even played dead souls FHKGJG and your tanimuras have my whole entire heart!!!

Oh wow first of all THANK YOU for the ask!! It's been only couple days since I've discovered I've had them disabled all this time so I'm very happy I noticed it before you found my blog (,:

I've already complained a bit on twt that when I've started to write down ryuaki headcanons, it prompted me to make a 35+ pages google doc with meta on both of them 😅 It pushed me to write more fun drafts tho, so all is well, but it won't fit in this post for sure ahbfght

But ofc, I will share a little about Shun specifically. (TW for implied SA)

Akiyama... I have complicated feelings about him, because on the one hand, he got betrayed by his closest people, lost all the standing in society and lived as a homeless person for a long time, and that's a big trauma to have. But on the other... He's got back up by a miracle, and now he's trying to recreate the miracle for others. He assumes the role of a judge for other people while himself being too young, too flawed, having black and white morals.

(In Y4 I downright despised Akiyama when he refused a loan to an abused woman on the basis that she didn't want to apply for sex work, but in the same substory gave some cringefail guy 4 chances to complete the test just because it was amusing.)

But I've just completed Y5, and it gave me lots of food for thought.

First of all, from what I see, Shun here was written (rewritten?) as a more sympathetic character. For example, now when it's implied that he's gonna make some woman "use her body" for the loan, it means he's sending her to work on the construction site. Well, alright. I'll take the bad taste joke over previous cases.

There's also an important quest when Akiyama meets his former boss, who not only initially fired him on false accusations, which started his downfall, but also married his ex-fiancée. And Akiyama finally admits that at first, he wanted to use his position as a loan shark to be selfish and to get revenge, but got disgusted with himself after seeing some humanity and principles in the former boss.

So, here finally comes self-awareness about his actions. Interesting tidbit.

Another big part of the character building we see now: when he is alone in Osaka, without Hana around, he's a complete mess. His new office is dirty, he barely eats some instant ramen and clearly just uses the place to escape Tokyo and the responsibilities he created himself. If in Y4 we saw him within his element, managing Elise and doing loan business (with a messy table because he's just soooo quirky and lazyyy \s), then in Y5 we get to see a bit of what's inside his head. And it's not pretty.

He's clearly distancing himself - from Hana and his new yakuza friends, because they have their own lives to care about. (Tanimura too mayhaps, but this is a separate friendship that I also like to talk about a lot)

Aaand he escapes to his ugly nook to have his ugly depressive thoughts. Can't let them witness it, can he? They'd lose all the respect for him.

At the same time, he throws himself into helping Haruka with passion, because that's the thing he actually cares about, for the first time in a couple years. (He also provides her with some much-needed parenting about the importance of being selfish, because, being raised by Kiryu, she's entirely too self-sacrificing.)

And suddenly - he's lively and energetic again, he's bouncing off other characters, he risks his life for what he deems right, he's helpful, organizing, charming. He's everywhere.

(But he's also afraid to acknowledge that he's got too close to people again. So he's ready to literally die for them and Haruka's dream, but avoids calling them friends, settling for "acquaintances")

Not much needed to imagine that, after everything settles down, he falls apart again. Because in his head he's never really needed or too important for the people around. They carry on with their life and plans. Such as Eri, Arai, Yasuko. Even Hana got fed up and left at some point, and has been keeping him at an arm's length since. (Good for her, that was unhealthy)

He's not only not that interesting, his trauma is "ugly" (by his self-admission). It's not heroic and it's very mundane. There's no clear villains to blame, like with Majima's torture in Y0.

It's just - waking up is hard. Akiyama can't see the point in much of what he's doing anymore. Money is just paper for him now, they might have bought him the freedom of choice, but somehow it didn't help. Even with all the financial help to struggling people he can't buy healing for himself. Most alive he felt actually was when he lost the money briefly in Y4 - it made him work to get them back again.

Now it gets a bit tricky, hence the TW.

I think that a lot of things about him actually make sense, if while living on the streets, he had it bad enough to the point of selling himself for food. Like, I don't want to make it into torture porn or downplay the traumatic experience of homelessness overall, but something for sure ruined him and his self-perception. That's why he's bouncing between playing a self-righteous entity and hating himself.

Aside from his crippling depression from all this being shunned deep inside and not addressed, there's the attitude about sex work I've mentioned he has in Y4. He is distancing himself from the situation yet again. A little bit of a trick to calm his mind: "If I treat it like every other job, it won't feel as dehumanizing applied to myself". And also: "Well, I was not above doing that! I was not too proud to do it! Why should anyone else be?"

Now, of course he doesn't want to subject his former boss (and, by extension, Eri) to the same hardships. Even though he is, actually, a bit of a cruel person.

So here's Akiyama in Y4-5. Not super pretty and kind of greasy, but nevertheless charming, gallant and crazy smart. Fighting and dancing and singing and networking equally well. VERY annoying, because he considers himself an expert in all things he read about even once (I also hc him eidetic memory, which makes it worse). And with every year getting more secluded and miserable.

That being said, fem ryuaki has slightly different tone even in all-fem AU because of gender expectations. Akiyama's upbringing for example.

I hc his parents seeing him as this very "proper" son, encouraging his risk-taking neurodivergent activity ONLY when it helped to build onto that image. They happily bragged about their son - with prestigious business degree, good banking job and pretty fiancée. But ofc, when it's all came crashing down, they didn't want to hear about him anymore. Nowadays they acknowledge his existance with some disdain, because they care about reputation more then about him or his wealth. And he has some "disgusting jobs, no respectable friends and no wife".

(It's all kinda complicated from both sides, mb I'll get deeper into it in fanfic that I'm writing)

(And forgive me for saying this, but fem Akiyama is more interesting for me to write in this narrative, because she needed to balance fitting "proper little quiet Japanese woman" with her loud banking career, and while she was always openly feminine, she was never proper or quiet "enough". And now she's "not enough" among actual living legends.)

Well, that's all I have to say for now!

I'm always open for further questions and discussions 😊

[alex51324]

You know, there's a gag in one of the Jeeves books by PG Wodehouse where an acquaintance of Bertie's, whom he does not like, decides to get into politics, and forms a group called the Black Shorts. This is a reference to Oswald Mosley and the British Union of Fascists, whose militant arm were the Blackshirts. The joke was that, between them and the Brownshirts led by that German chap with the moustache, all the good shirt colors were taken, so Bertie's acquaintance had to do shorts instead.

This is a gag that has been long thought to have aged poorly.

But now, I don't know. It's kind of...I guess comforting isn't the word, considering how all that turned out, but it's sort of...I can't think of the word, but I feel some kind of way about it, to think about how back then, there were people looking around and going, "this is ridiculous, right? I mean we all see how dumb this is? Don't we?"

Anyway, yeah, Elon is a cringefail loser, and that (unfortunately) does not mean that the danger his actions pose to our democracy isn't real, but I join op in hoping that, if he ends up being more than a footnote in history, the people of the future know that we knew that he's a pathetic loser.

As Elon Musk cements his place in history as a fascist tech overlord and the rest of the world looks at us in horror, I really do want to reiterate what I feel will be lost to the history books

Nearly everyone in america has thought and continues to think that Elon is very cringe.

[misty-wisp]

I would like to hear about Monty shenanigans please :D

okayokayokay!!!! :DDDDD

so um. first off. bit of context about his existence. since hero's a college fellow who seems to be living on campus, he'd probably be dealing with a dormmate of sorts, so i made said dormmate an oc,,, and that's monty, folks

i actually initially wrote monty as an easy way to eventually introduce hero in my fic at an earlier time because it'd be. a pain for that to happen naturally without something else there to move it along. even tho sunny's moved to nearby and hero's college campus is in that city it'd be. pretty difficult for them to meet naturally. lmao

...but i wound up just getting attached to monty so he's my son now. i'm still ofc writing him in the fic i just love him a lot

okay with all that out of the way,,, let's go into his actual character

monty's like. real clumsy. a klutz if you will. don't let him near the kitchen. i already wrote it in the fic but he infamously almost set the whole dorm on fire by trying to microwave a burrito. hero had to take responsibility for it

he's very cringefail. he gets no bitches. this is the good year 1995 though so he needs bitches. but he feels nothing toward the bitches. but. society. it is a painful cycle

monty's a whole fucking nerd(tm), if this story took place in the modern day then he'd be able to explain to you the entire kingdom hearts plot in excruciating detail. or fnaf lore. or metal gear lore. if a media's lore is complicated as hell, give him some coffee and about 20 minutes and he'll figure it out

he likes playing games!! card games, board games, video games, any kind, really. though he's usually stuck playing alone...

they've been roommates for about i think a year? by the time of the game? but monty and hero aren't exactly friends. they haven't talked much throughout that first year. you could barely call them acquaintances. monty doesn't even know about hero's nickname!!! he just calls him henry

they would've started to talk more once hero came back from faraway though. he'd be a bit down given uh. the fact that his friend got hospitalized. so monty would've tried to cheer him up. he prolly suggested visiting sunny in the hospital

and things did get a bit better. until. the truth. you can see how that would've been right here

uhhh there's more but i made this post long enough haha

[tzarrz]

Hello!

For undisclosed reasons (kidding, just didn’t want irl acquaintances to find me) I had to swiftly move blogs, and I now have an account manager!!

They’ll be posting my art and monitoring the account activity for me as well as answering messages in my stead, so this is an art + text updates blog Only! No reblogs or likes from this little fella for now, sorry! I will, however, be sure to tell my manager which accounts to follow :)

I’ll definitely see all the reblogs and comments you leave for me though, don’t worry!!!

Thank you for your understanding & patience!

And we will ‘block & move on’ if need be, I really value the meager amounts of sanity that I have left & my manager’s mental health, so they’re free to block anybody they see fit. Please spend your time and energy on something you love & not something you hate!

For a little background info on me - I’m just a bit of a cringefail awkward little fella looking to make more friends to yell about trimax and tristamp with, because it’s currently the only thing keeping me sane, surviving uni, and absolutely feral at the same time 😔😔

cheers!

treat yourself to something nice, you deserve it 💖