Amara does not realise what she is actually doing to Dean though which doesn't make it okay or what's happening to Dean consensual but like. she does not understand humans whatsoever, and all she sees is this desire in Dean that she takes as true and meaningful. it like. isn't.
walk on the wild side - jdm/jackles, a/b/o, class differences, age differences, knotting
all of them are rated E/18+, the underage warning on the series is ONLY for the amara one though!
i have also reopened prompts so if anything tickles your fancy let me know!!
xo ami
p.s. if any of the jdm/jackles or j3 prompters are seeing this please come find me i need you in my life and chances are high i wanna write more pleaseprettypleasewithcherriesontop
deanlisa was stale but y'all are so mad about it you're blind to the truth, deanamara was the single worst relationship in this show, at least they had the decency to let cas reject hannah
every deanamara girl for a cashannah girl out there
i know there ARE cashannahs i've skimmed the tag they're doing some interesting things. but i think the equivalent is probably EARNEST megstiels who are like cas wanted to see meg again that's why he's happy : )
so one thing about me is i'm a gay dean truther except when i'm not so i actually try and think about a version of deanamara that works because i'm in love with stories about falling in love with the physical manifestation of your own destruction. like when i was twelve i read a lot of mercedes lackey books (overall poor decision, not recommended) and in one of them there's a part where one of the characters talks about death as "the shadow lover" and the embodiment of your own death either literally or metaphorically (these were fantasy novels and i can't remember which) appeared to you as your ideal lover. that stuck with me i've been obsessed with it ever since. anyway in canon deanamara is nothing but there is a part of me that wanted it to be good, is what i'm saying. (speaking of gay dean truthing and deanamara, check this out) (and this).
anyway i think a lot about a version of the mark of cain arc that didn't suck ass and one of the elements of it that i've played with a lot in my brain is reworking amara. essentially at the end of season ten dean should spend several episodes all alone. but like, as much as i love watching jensen ackles make pained faces, he can't actually be all alone, he has to have someone to bounce off of or it's not good tv. my pitch is that amara should start appearing to him in the back half of season ten in a hallucifer way. like he starts seeing her, because of the mark. and she serves as a voice for the mark's impulses. this solves the problem of me wanting dean to be all alone at the end of s10 but knowing that would be bad television, and also the problem of amara getting zero foreshadowing and coming completely out of nowhere in the s10 finale, and also the problem of her being both an adult woman who is forcing dean to be in love with her and an infant being creepy as fuck. re: that last point my solution is that the amara hallucination goes away when dean relinquishes the mark. and THEN amara is born as a child. none of the weird we have a connection stuff once she's free of the mark. it becomes about giving care to your inner child or whatever.
anyway in this new version of s10 there's no mention of a romantic or sexual connection between dean and amara because that would simply be gauche, it behooves a writer to let sexual tension speak for itself. but there would be unbearably horny vibes.
Dean being shocked and upset Amara is his biggest darkest desire, but that not being a surprise to Sam is because Dean cannot admit what Amara has done to him to make him have a hold on him, and he's sooooo ashamed of it that he must deny it. Sam is like. no I see and understand that she did make you feel that way but that doesn't make you weak or complicit or anything. It can exist, and I won't be judging you at all for it. Like. It is not something Dean would want or choose, but it is what is happening to him. Sam knows intimately what that feels like. He understands Dean very very well here. It's not him saying Dean like actually would ever choose Amara given a meaningful choice. He just doesn't want Dean to blame himself that Amara took that choice away.
ooh in 11x11 and then 11x13 they want to build the DeanAmara thing soo badly with Mildred's conversation and the shifter turning into Amara's silhouette but it's so difficult to buy into any of it :/ for ME at least