#death of a sovereign

[vox-anglosphere]

Some touching moments following the Queen's death one year ago

[notaplaceofhonour]

I was raised in the People of Destiny cult (later renamed, and more well-known as, Sovereign Grace Ministries, now Sovereign Grace Churches).

The valorization of martyrdom and The End Times was so ubiquitous it was ambient noise. We stood in the church lobby theorizing about who the antichrist would be, we argued about whether Jesus would rapture us all before, after, or during the Tribulation Period where Satan would be given free reign over the earth. There was a strong Christian Zionist fixation on Israel as the final battleground and capital of the coming Messianic Age. But the one thing we were all certain of was is that we were in the End Times, that we were not of this world and couldn’t get too attached to our lives here.

We were raised to believe our sin nature made us undeserving of life, that we deserved death and eternal conscious torture.

My parents read us the Jesus Freaks books (a series by Christian Rap group DC Talk about martyrs). I spent “devotional time” reading Fox’s Book of Martyrs. We had guest speakers from Voice of the Martyrs, their pamphlets were often stocked in our church’s information center. We grew up with our dad listening to right wing talk radio and making us listen to songs about how the Godless atheists were outlawing Christianity in America, that we could all become martyrs soon.

The group’s theology was damaging & traumatic in a lot of other ways that contributed to the suicidality I have continued to struggle with for the rest of my life. For a long time I did not believe I would live past 20. There are times when the idea of giving my death meaning by using public suicide to make a political statement has appealed to me.

So now, seeing so many social media posts glorifying the suicide of a US Airman this week, I have been furious. Reading his social media posts, I recognize so much about the way I was raised in his all-or-nothing, black-or-white mindset, the valorization of death-seeking & martyrdom, and the apocalyptic fire-and-brimstone imagery of self-immolation. The moment I saw people I followed celebrating his self-immolation, I said to myself “this feels like a cult”

So when I learned he was raised in a cult too, nothing could have made more sense to me. His political orientation may have changed, but his mindset did not—it was no less extreme or cult-like.

I’ve talked about so many of the reasons this response from the broader left scares me, including how it’s laundering that airman’s antisemitic beliefs, but I cannot think of anything that would hit me in a more personal place than this specific response to this specific situation has.

When I see the images, I think: that could have been me. That scares me, and what scares me more is that so many prominent people are overwhelmingly sending the message to people like me that there is nothing else we can do that would have a more meaningful impact than killing ourselves for the cause.

I do not believe that. I will not even entertain it. And having to see his death over and over and over again, to argue against people who are treating this like an intellectual/moral exercise or a valid debate we all have to consider has been immensely triggering and fills me with a rage I rarely feel. It’s unconscionable that we are even putting self-harm on the table, and that pushing back against that is somehow controversial.

There is hope. Our lives do have meaning. There are far more effective means of fighting injustice. And the world is a better place for having you in it. Don’t fall into believing this is a way to give life purpose.

[gideonisms]

the gidianthe conversation at the end of htn if gideon and harrow had sex in the pool scene: I'd kill for her I'd die for her I'd fuck her I DID fuck her. I'd do anything she needed, anything at all, before she even knew she needed it, and I mean ANYTHING. have I mentioned that I fucked h-

[pycth]

Can’t wait for my babygirl Hush

[capitalisticveins]

Yall need to know that the only other mf voiced by Erik that was alive during the Cacophony is Brachium.

And Hush says before he was turned into Hush, he knew Vega when he was a daemon, before Vega started calling himself a demon, which means Hush’s old self knew Vega before and during the Cacophony, but not after, which is when the group of Serenity Daemons sealed themself in the River of Death to keep the Sovereigns contained.

TL;DR: I think Brachium is Hush 🫢

[androgynouspenguinexpert]

another blake because he's my favourite for psychoanalysis reasons <3

[free-boundsoul]

It's been awhile since I did this so how about a very rough wip of the Drove?

[poibynt]

The earlier HTTYD books occasionally refer to Hiccup as 'the last great viking hero' which is already a bit melancholy but grows even more so with the context of the later books. I doubt viking society as it was known and understood just totally imploded into dust during Hiccup's lifetime, it's even implied in his old man monologues that that doesn't happen. But it does imply that the end of the viking age, the death of the viking world and way of life is rapidly approaching. Just as the dragon time is over, and the dragons are slowly, slowly leaving as Hiccup grows up and old, the Viking time ends and they too slowy, slowly, die out. I wonder if Hiccup saw this coming decline and thought it was because the vikings couldn't live without dragons, economically and spiritually. How awful, to lose the thing you fought to save and sent away and then your culture year after year.

[wiirocku]

Isaiah 25:8 (NLT) - He will swallow up death forever!    The Sovereign LORD will wipe away all tears. He will remove forever all insults and mockery    against His land and people.    The LORD has spoken!

[nyxi-pixie]

was listening to where our blue is once more and every time i hear it im thrust instantly back into stsg hell lawd i will never escape

[fanyeline]

nobody kill me for my edgy clem pilled take BUT

i keep thinking about clementine kesh & i don’t think anyone really cared enough or tried hard enough to “fix” her, aka teach her aka literally just care about her. the CLOSEST she got to someone giving a shit about her was SI & Gur. 

SI could never allow himself to lose his street cred w the rest of the crew/millenium break to really care abt her the way that he needed to + he had to justify caring abt her to himself with his whole “you are a means to an end” and “i’m using you.”

and gur, as far as i remember, had his little chess matches with her where he tried to give her his little lessons w his little metaphors & i don’t think he ever really tried to reach her. not really. not in a way that would have counted.

SI gave up on her, and Gur threw that in her fucking face the first opportunity he got. let’s be honest! they ALL wanted to wash their hands of her & call it a day. 

but u reap what u sow tbh & this is exactly why we have the witch in glass now & it’s exactly why gur is stuck advising her from beyond the grave.

[vox-anglosphere]

Just hours after the Queen's passing, the sky told us where she was

[bubblergoespop]

i talk about not being allowed to be happy and all but in truth i am eating this shit up just as much as i would have if it truly was just a silly lil coffee date. i love narrative, i love angst, i love suffering. as long as nothing too drastic happens, i’m happy and i’m thriving.

[ortofosforico]

Additional extra protection for ep. 4 and 5

For the holy trinity

[gonguji]

... genshin impact, if visions come from heavenly principles, does this mean there are no new electro visions because ei unalived herself?

[aspiringxfires]

lucheni is the funniest and most sane character in this fucking musical aside from like . maybe sophie and even calling her sane is a stretch to be honest.