#deconstructing

[junico]

judith nicolussi. casa gialla. gouache & found paper on packaging cardboard (14 x 19 cm). 2025

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Tiktok comment I saw today that gutted me completely: 

“We were just kids. The weight of everyone else’s eternity should’ve never been on our shoulders.”

[shjack180]

The christian god, gaslighting king of anything good is because of him but anything bad is because of you

[descisco]

anyone that can offer you eternal peace, love, and joy, and say that you’re made in their holy image, but then turn right around and say that you’re actually vile, evil, and deserving of eternal torture or separation from them, ESPECIALLY if you don’t obey them….is probably lying about one or the other. maybe even both.

[ivvann]

Winry sketches

I love women in stem 😔❤️

[fairiencarnate]

Sorry lady I don't open the door for people who aren't faeries or goblin folk, take your religious material elsewhere

[nakedpastor]

The kind of love I was taught about in the church was conditional. You only got the best if you were the best. You had to give 100% of your heart and hold nothing back. When I thought I had, I was told it wasn't good enough... that I was either sinful anyway or that I was intentionally hiding something or I was unaware of some deep secret sin that I was harbouring in my deceitfully wicked heart. No candy for me! Do you know what I'm talking about?see less

[painted-kneecaps]

i love hearing people’s christian summer camp stories because nothing remotely normal ever happens at christian summer camps

at mine we had this thing called “The Tribulation Game”. what in the fresh hell is that, you ask ?? well, at any point during the week, (including, according to camp lore, at least one time when everyone was sleeping) air raid sirens would go off. this always took place at night, after worship services, but nobody knew what day, and most of us spent the entire week in anticipation of this event.

after the air raid sirens went off, you would have to find a group of people to play the game with. don’t have a group?? that’s fine, here’s 4 other random 14 year olds who have no idea what’s going on. once you had your group, you were given clues to solve, and the way you solved them was through elaborate mini games all themed around bible verses and the apocalypse. one year we had to sacrifice one of our teammates to the antichrist and he was like ??? in hell for the rest of the game. one time a bunch of cosplayers dressed up in really horrific horsemen of the apocalypse costumes and basically turned the chapel into the dark lord’s throne room. one time there were a bunch of people dressed as “lepers” walking around, and if they touched you you were disqualified. anyways.

basically, the first seven teams to solve all their clues, get all the pieces they needed and get back to the main field were the winners. however, this was in the middle of the summer in the deep south, in the middle of the night, and keep in mind that they didn’t tell us when this game was going to occur. this camp also did themed dress up nights. can you see where this is going?

if you guessed, possibly, that i had to play this game, in the pitch black, 100 degree desert while wearing a full length polyester renaissance gown and corset combo, you would be correct.

imagine roughly 200 dehydrated, sleep deprived, paranoid high schoolers hyped up on sugar, caffeine and religious guilt sprinting through the darkness in FULL RENAISSANCE GARB, screaming bible verses at each other while LARPing the end of the world.

absolutely surreal experience. it was the highlight of the week. even now, knowing “oh yeah that was most likely a cult” i can still look at my “Trib Game Winner” badge with pride because you know what !!! i EARNED that shit !!!! i went to literal (cosplay) hell and back for that bad boy goddammit

anyways. christian camps amirite folks

[moltenglory-writes]

Same As It Ever Was

in rich temples full of acolytes

with coffers of treasure locked away

in dungeons deeper than bank vaults

and guards at the doors

one must buy tapers from the vendors

must buy doves or goats or lambs from them

prayers and sacrifices will cost you

but change your money at the tables first

yes, those tables

they've been repaired, not by him, he's gone.

ancient greed does not acknowledge itself

it knows only how to consume again

tipped tables & lashed whips are temporary

messages though...

messages about love & hope & community

the first last; the sick healed; the hungry fed

why make the temples for thanksgiving

& then stand between the people thanking?

They never change without force

because they speak only one language

that of violence

and the only sacrifice we can make now

is of ourselves, and he taught that lesson too.

[junico]

judith nicolussi. strange view. found paper & gouache on book page. 2024

[pumpkinfreak]

Rambling about: The Horror of Faith

This going to be a long one.

I was raised in The Church of Christ. Now, these are Protestant institutions that shun the idea of denominationalism. So a COC (Church of Christ) disagrees with every organized sect of Christianity that you’re probably familiar with.

Lutheranism, Baptist, Assembly of God, Mormonism,Presbyterian

Every single organization proclaiming the word of god is wrong. A COC believes that the only way to worship god properly is to be exactly like the New Testament churches that are described in the bible.

To simplify what I’m trying to explain let me say this. A good COC believes that the Bible is the true, infallible, inerrant, inspired word of god. It does not use instruments in its worship service. It does not allow women to hold positions of leadership. It does not allow infant baptism. It teaches that baptism is absolutely necessary for salvation and must be done on a willing adult or anyone old enough to understand sin. If a COC teaches anything that is not in agreement with god’s word it is a false church.

Homosexuality, abortion, premarital sex, dancing, drinking/ voluntary intoxication that is not medically necessary, a person cannot divorce and remarry except for infidelity. All of this has no excuses in a good COC.

The COC does approve of young Earth Creationist theory.

So I grew up believing all of these things. I believed I was truly blessed to be born not only in a country where I could worship freely,I was in the true Church of god.

Any questions or concerns I had about the legitimacy of the Bible caused me horrible anxiety, because I believed so completely that it was the word of god that doubt must be from the devil, or I must be horrible and evil.

But it was okay because I didn’t need to think about anything, I just needed to trust god and not lean on my own understanding. This is a real argument used on members of any Christian congregation. It appears like a gentle reminder to have faith, but it is really guilt tripping.

So little me tried not to think.

I ignored the logic and morality behind the temptation of Eve, and how god allowing the serpent to tempt her with the full knowledge that she would eat it but was somehow still grieved when she did? How is that free will, how is that the act of a kind and loving god. How can his be upset when he’s the reason something bad happened?

Just trust god.

How can god hate child sacrifice to Moloch, but also command the genocide of multiple people groups. Because of their sin I hear you saying… so the innocent toddlers and infants and pregnant women had to die?

Why would god allow Abel the son who gave him sacrifices he adored to be killed by his brother Cain?

How is it that Lot is a righteous man worth saving, when he is ready to cast his virgin daughters into the streets to be raped by a group of men so his guests are not harmed. If they’re Angels then I don’t think a group of human men will be able to harm them. Unless Lot isn’t a righteous man in which case why is god allowing him to be saved?

If God knows the thoughts and hearts of men? Why on earth would he need to test Abraham with the attempted sacrifice of Issac. Remember he flooded the whole Earth because the thoughts of men were continuously evil.

Just don’t think about it.

The scary part is that this belief system permeates American society, and it only works on faith, on not thinking too hard about it. People want to enact law based on this book and these people are the epitome of circular reasoning.

Thing bad.

Why thing bad?

God said so.

How do you know god said?

God said it…in his book.

How do you know it’s god’s book.

God said so in his book.

[jesusinstilettos]

I want to apologize to the Earth for all the beautiful sunrises and sunsets I didn’t give her credit for because I was attributing it to god. You did that, queen!

[cynosurus]

Considering how gay people are often treated in tv, it's pretty amusing how there seems to be a bit of a thing in cdrama adapted from danmei, where a straight love interest is invented, only to then tragically die.

Of course he can't move on from her and find another woman. Our hero has such profound feelings.

(Then in the next episode the narrative has totally forgotten about her, but at least she can be pointed back to as prooof plausible deniability, I guess?)

[ssunspotted]

A word perhaps for those What ever it is tht happens in those enjoyable shredding videos

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Maddie Zahm Lyrics That Instantly Reduce My Deconstructing Traumatized Brain to Tears

Song - Where Do All the Good Kids Go?

Lyrics that destroy me:  

I was way too young to lead people to the other side. I thought so much about death I couldn’t live my life.

I was always way too young To be that good at growing up. Does anybody really know where all of the good kids go? I was always way too young; now I can’t catch up.

I got drunk the first time at twenty-three; a total black out, I didn’t know when to leave. I hated playing never have I ever, so I hooked up with a random stranger. I can’t tell the difference between fun and danger.

Song - You Might Not Like Her

Lyrics that destroy me: 

If you would’ve told me I’d throw away my purity ring In the middle of an airport my younger self would laugh, would never believe that;  it’s against everything that we stood for.

Someday you’ll kiss a girl and you’ll panic. Some guy will break your heart and you’ll feel manic. Then You’ll learn to let people have their opinions and talk about your traumas and like the body you live in.

Someday you’ll learn to keep your own secrets, say you’re doing okay and really mean it.  You’ll lose your faith a bit and question if she’s you... and for awhile you might not like her,  but I do.

Song - If It’s Not God

Lyrics that destroy me:

When they were wrong I could never keep quiet, I'd search for the truth and had faith that I’d find it, set myself on fire.  Let myself be the liar.

All the Sunday’s I worried I’d disappoint my mom cause I never understood some types of love being wrong. Something inside me was always steering left;  what father picks a few just to leave the rest?

I heard a voice inside my head, they disagreed... so If it wasn’t God, then thank God: it was me.

They called me a sinner when I was a saint hiding in her bedroom praying depression away killing herself for eternal life and losing her interests to be a good wife.

Song - Pocket Bible

Lyrics that destroy me:

Met some guy in my science class.  He was gay; I didn’t get that. Wish I had known it then, ‘cause looking back he could’ve been the best friend I couldn’t have.

Passed out advice, never passed out on drugs, carried around judgment and tried to label it love. Thought I knew how to live exactly right; truth ain’t travel sized.

What’s it gonna take to heal a heartbreak? What happens when you kiss a girl for Christ sake? If I’m getting high am I a mistake? Just a good kid gone bad.

Why’d they start to want me when I lost weight? Why do I feel better when I don’t pray? I must’ve missed a verse that was vital Cause none of this was in my pocket Bible.

[fairiencarnate]

We're supposed to accept "love the sinner, hate the sin" as genuine love. But "love the believer, hate the belief" seems to upset a lot of christians. If you take offense to the latter, think real hard about how you use the former.