#delete later perhaps

[surprisearson]

Just saw someone in the Nimona tag complain that they want more tragic and ambiguous media that's more mature for the queer community and honestly? Don't get it. You have the comic. You do not need a one to one adaptation of it. Meanwhile, me? I want a story where I live at the end. I've seen enough of the other version and it's good and sad real and interesting but maybe right now I want a story that says I'm something worth more alive and something that ought to be protected. Yeah, the movie is very simplistic at times but I'm okay with that because its simplistic message is trans people deserve to live as they are and I didn't think I'd see that in this political climate rn. Idk. Frustrating stuff. It sucks when good representation is so low people feel like it has to carry everything for every person. I hope we get to the world where we get the sad and ambiguous and angry trans movies AND the happy and hopeful ones.

[doukeshi-kun]

rant

i feel like quitting tumblr lmao it's been a while since i feel like this

i feel a bit self-conscious idk why. i'd like to think i write for bsd and jjk fandom but i feel like i'm centred around nikolai a little too much (even my current wip is his fics). i do want to write more for other characters especially the jjk men bcs i love gojo sm still. but i feel intimidated somehow. the fandom is something else. and bsd... idk, i just really love to write nikolai. something about his character makes it easy for me to incorporate him into any AU. he is just THAT flexible. i love that dude. but i feel like sometimes i write him too much. yet again, what's the harm of it?

i really do want to write other characters but i just don't have the motivation to do so or the confidence i used to have. of course there is an option to take requests but for the love of God, i don't think i am fit to do request.

but well... i hope i can write more... writers block is horrible. uni is killing me. and my sleep schedule is scheduling. time to sleep tho...

[tarteggs]

burnout so bad i don’t even have any motivation to draw wolfwood

[honey-oak]

My look for today. These lashes are staying on by nothing but hopes, dreams and a prayer. I am wearing entirely too much glitter.

[gh0styyt0astyy]

whats a guy gotta do around here to get wrecked huh !!!!!

[chernychnyi]

a few years ago my mental health got so bad, i had a recurring thought that i would happily join a cult (this is tumblr, so just in case: i know cults are violent and disgusting, that’s precisely the point). genuinely didn’t give a fuck they would only care about me to manipulate, as long as it adds to my life something besides working long hours just to rent a freezing room that i hate. my thinking became growingly magical and superstitious, i was seriously considering stuff i last believed in when i was a little kid, reading books that i’m deadly embarrassed now to name. i’m so lucky i had a place to go back to, a parent that i could rely on until my mental health got better anyways, thinking about the secret history always throws me back to that time

[youssefguedira]

so so so so scared

[sambambucky]

Hi there, question for you: do you filter any tags? What are they, if you don't mind sharing? (even just a yes or no answer is helpful if you don't wish to elaborate)

Just FYI, I'm going around and asking this same question to others in the community (so please don't feel targeted or anything like that), but if you wouldn't mind answering this question, I'd be very curious to know your answer!

If you do answer, please consider tagging your reply "#filtered tags ask" for convenience, and if you're inclined to copy/paste this ask into others' ask boxes, it'd be much appreciated 🙏

cant stop thinking about this.. cant just ignore it.. even tho. im like.. ??????? i filter 80% for spoilers 10% for media im sick of seeing/will never watch & 10% ships i dont like

[lucidrims]

꒰ ͜͡➸ ooc! 

[countthelions]

Thinking a lot of thoughts about minecraft yters and their fandoms and how very, very glad I am for the people I met through my first mcyt group, the friends and the mutuals still on my dash - and how different my life would've been if I had found Hermits and their genuine joy and creativity in a game built on creativity over the visual podcast [if you can even call it something so.... productive] form I had watched instead.

But how grateful I am too for both experiences - to see that joy now, to have that first group experience - cause they both showed me an important side to fandoms and that breadth is really, something kinda special.

And something something,, life is cyclical in ways we never expect and we can only hope the rhyme of the return is kinder than the first notes. And I've gotten very, very lucky with my rhyme, and I wouldn't trade it for anything <3

[elsartzz]

chat it’s gonna be my birthday soon what should I do IM STRESSED

[illputdownmyrootswhenimdead]

one day you’ll look back at your worst years and be able to tell your past self that staying alive was worth it and that you’re very proud of them for sticking around even when it was so, so hard

[klingonhugdungeon]

putting my gender ramblings here because why not

that feeling of wanting to explore and figure things out but not having money, time, or space.

wondering if you made it all up to yourself right up until you get smacked in the face with Gender Feelings

the added fun of never ever having been "cis enough" (fun collection of traits that run in the afab people in my family. the running joke is that coming from a long line of women called "sir" of course it took me a while to figure myself out) even before realizing i probably wasn't cisgendered.

wanting to date but then trying to figure out how to advertise myself in the age of online dating. NB? Girl? Boy? No label at all??? and then just giving up entirely.

being able to feel myself retreating into a well honed performance of femininity because that's the way I've learned to game the system and where i retreat in times of crisis no matter how ill fitting it is

being asked to add pronouns to my email signature at work feeling like a micro aggression. like. fuck. yall want me to out myself or shove myself further in the closet?

just. fuck. i just want it to get easier.

[mxrslvr]

does anybody wanna dip me slowly and jkiss me softly and beg for more when i pull away. please. please. plea—

[yandere-daydreams]

black butler and homestuck are trending on the same day i have to edit my college-necessitated research paper on harry potter. what fucking year even is it anymore.

[stil-lindigo]

" Is it alright to cling to you? To invent meaning where it is absent? I fear my words won’t grow up with me, still scuffing their knees on cement. I can welcome a lie when it's blinding, But I can’t write like a poet while blinking. I can’t draw like an artist without hiding. I can’t live right now without thinking. "

-words, by me.