#diary.

[butch-corvid]

my gf was driving us back from the renfaire and it was this dark isolated country road at 10PM and she just pulled over and said “you know no one would hear you scream here” and then patted her tits meaningfully so i would go suck on them and i. i. i.

[capshino]

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in one week, it will be 100 days since I last hurt my body. It feels surreal. The thought "i am in recovery" came into my mind recently and it felt a little scary but also good.

Yesterday was also the one year anniversary of the largest scar on my arm that i got sutured. It's still a little itchy and it's still a little tender when pressed and pulled on too hard. It's still pink and raised. It's strange to think it was so long ago. It's like its always been there, and yet like it happened yesterday.

Urges and obsessive thoughts have been manageable and surprisingly minimal. Only occasionally will I feel the need to cut so strongly that I consider acting. I'm a little ashamed that I still browse pictures and videos online every once in a while, but it feels positive that it's only occasionally now instead of every day. That probably helps too.

I'll keep going.

[ifyouneedmewhistle]

postmarked roscommon, michigan, 1945.

[euthanizeher]

we give so much power to our thoughts when they really are just nothing. they hold no power over us (unless we want them to). and it's funny now, because in retrospect we stress over them and let them dictate how we feel on the daily. i think that is why so many teachers suggest we get into the habit of only observing but not reacting.

[ghostichor]

watching over the garden wall cramped in a room with a bunch of people i don’t know i’m normal i’m normal

[diabolical--angel]

ouch. i keep falling in love with people who can't see me beyond their own projections, and i'm so transparent and honest, which makes it all such a head fuck when it happens over and over again. i be liek "hi this is me this is everything i am and everyhting i like!!" and they be like "i don't know u" / "no thats not u let me tell u who u really are" and then use my trauma against me. fuckkk its been like 6 seperate people within the past 5 years (also ima hoe but thats another story) my heart is broken < / 3

[sideralfemme]

+ Diady Log; 18

Hello!

Ever since last time I installed Myfitnesspal and started counting calories of sorts. I’m not being too harsh and am avoiding counting drinking calories cause i’m still struggling with daily water intake so I rather just drink anything and try to stay hydrated than try to fix myself on water only. I discovered i rather drink my calories than eat them. Since I started I already lost 4 kg!! I’m so happy to be back on 74kg, every week i lose around half a kilogram so even though it’s a slow process it’s still taking effect. 

Let’s see how far I can go. So far my goal is to reach 68 kg again. 

Till next time!

[rose-thorns-and-purple-horns]

Gonna resume being @theblackandbluedrake's personal bully now that I'm back on here~💜

[badbeaut]

[effen-draws]

A small comic about Palestine I created to appeal to more passive family and friends

Anyways if you have the money I urge you to donate to Ibraheem Hadi, a Palestinian who contacted me and whom I promised to highlight in relation to this comic:

Otherwise there is always a need for eSims to keep Gazans connected

[butch-corvid]

dumb little cockshy bitch, she whispered in my ear while she humped my tits. we had both smoked earlier, and she kissed me in a rush of euphoria. it’s just what dykes do. we can just make out a little bit. I’m a woman, aren’t I? you don’t have to touch it. but as we got closer, her kisses hungrier, her hands reaching under my shirt to twist my nipples, I found our bodies were pressed together. I could feel her cock, hard and insistent against my thigh. when I tried to pull away (“no, stop, you promised, I don’t like dick, I’m a lesbian”), she just said me too and pushed me on my back. i couldn’t stop her from grinding against me, essentially trying to fuck me through my boxers. when had she pulled her cock out? I couldn’t even resist, she was smothering me, holding me down, grinding that thing against my cunt. which was, to my horror, starting to soak my boxers.

I can feel how wet you are, slut. you really wanna try telling me you’re cock repulsed again?

my whimper was cut off when she forced two of her long fingers into my mouth. you know what I think? she thrust them deeper. I think you’re just shy. cockshy, you know? you need a little bit of…correcting. she pulled my boxers down. I jumped, enough to almost throw her off me. she laughed. lighten up, sweet thing. did you think I was going to rape you? I froze under her, heart pounding while she rubbed the tip of her cock against mine. against my will, my cock twitched. oh my god, you like that don’t you? you want me to rape you? is that it? is that why you keep making a fuss about my dick? god, all you dykes are the same.

“please don’t. please don’t fuck me. not inside please.” maybe it was just the drugs, but I was starting to tear up in shame at my arousal. her cock was so much bigger than mine, so much harder and thicker and needier, throbbing against my cunt. when she moved away, my wetness left a string of moisture between us.

to my surprise, she nodded, only to move up to straddle my chest. with one hand, she grabbed my tits like they were her personal property. with the other, she slapped her cock against my face. when I spluttered in shock, she rubbed the head against my parted lips, even as they twisted in revulsion. her pre stayed on my mouth, and I instinctively licked it up. do I taste like a woman? I nodded and she smiled. good boy. here’s what’s going to happen. I won’t fuck you yet. I won’t put my cock inside you until you beg for it on camera. we’re just gonna stay right here while I jerk off. consider it training. or exposure therapy. go on, spit on it. unless you want me to get the lube from somewhere else. her fingers rubbed my clit, slowly. a threat. I spat, and she took her time slicking her cock, no more than an inch from my lips, before wiping her hand clean on my face.

she moved her hands to my tits, pressing them together so she could slide her cock between them. i tried to dissociate, to block out the sensation, but every time my nipples were touched a jolt of sensation placed me back in my body. I didn’t even notice I was leaning down, lips parted, quietly pleading for more. with a laugh, she grabbed my hair, holding my head still while she rubbed her dick all over my face. I felt disgusting. my cunt ached. she slapped my face again. tongue out, dyke. her cock felt so warm, the leaking tip pressed against my tongue. you don’t deserve to suck it yet, bitch. so just hold still and let me use you. she jerked off on my tongue while drool pooled in my mouth and dripped down my face, smearing my tits with saliva. occasionally, she would hump my tits more, or reach behind her to feel my soaked cunt.

I felt drunk, delirious, craving nothing more than her cock in my mouth. she let me swirl my tongue around the tip, explore just a little bit while she jerked off into my mouth. and then, with a smug smile, she yanked me back by the hair, just to hear my desperate whine. see? just a bit shy. I did a good job of breaking you in, I think. agree with me. and get ready for your reward

“yes yes yes please yes” I murmured, trying to get closer with my tongue stuck out. I couldn’t even be ashamed of how I looked. she held me firm, pumping her cock faster.

some lesbians struggle with this part, but you’ve been learning quickly. soon I’ll be able to show you what real lesbian sex looks like. poor thing, only fooling around with cuntgirls. barely even women, you know? because they can’t. do. this.” with a groan, she came on my tongue, on my face, on my tits. and finally, finally, she shoved her cock into my mouth and rode out the last of her orgasm by grabbing my head and using my throat like a fleshlight. when she was done, she got dressed.

“my turn?” I cocked my head, spreading my legs to reveal my puffy wet cunt. i couldn’t remember the last time I was so desperate. she giggled.

oh you’re cute. try asking me that again after you’ve had a real woman’s cock in you.

[capshino]

aiming for 2 months, been wildly swinging between strength to keep going and urges to give up, but i wont give up

[gorjee-art]

a comic about cuddles

[euthanizeher]

uummfff trying to decide on a faceclaim for my dr is conflicting LOL, yet sooo fun.

[ghostichor]

gonna try to take a break from tumblr for a while … let’s see how it goes lol

[die-rosastrasse]

Various stars & moon details from my gouache paintings 🌙✨