#don’t yell at me for this i’m sad

[harrylovesspaezle]

hear me out.. ed was literally ‘dead’ for DAYS in the gravy basket.. izzy could still come back in the same way (i’m in denial)

[serialbxwl]

some closing doodles of bill and ted </3

[phoenixmetaphor]

Day 4 - Real-life Captain America

[the-abyss-of-fandoms]

Me upon hearing the end credits song: 🎵Don’t ever look back! Don’t ever look back! 🎵

[spineless-lobster]

Okay lads I hate (and I mean hate) to be the bearer of bad news here but like… if the captain wasn’t lying and barry in fact was real then… barry died guys :(

The captain, wandering the halls of button house calling out for his loyal friend. A friend who helped him through thick and thin—when the war started, when havers left, when the looming dread of war became too much. Eventually the whole unit starts searching for him, rummaging through bushes and scouting the nearby forest. Even the sweet promise of treats could not beckon the dog from his hiding spot.

Finally, the captain returns to his office. Under his desk he finds the small fluffy body curled in on itself. Lost in a deep slumber.

“Ah, barry, there you are!” He smiled with relief, placing a comforting hand on his companion.

The captain’s heart drops. He’s cold to the touch.

“Barry?” He asks, pleads, quietly. “Come on, wake up old boy.” A lump formed in his throat, the captain struggled to swallow as tears pricked his eyes.

The little dog’s body lay still under his fingers. His soft breathing had escaped his lungs for a while now.

And so the captain sat there, cradling the small creature in his arms. His fur was made wet with tears. Minutes, or perhaps hours passed. It didn’t matter anymore. It was strange, his time spent with barry seemed so short. From the day he brought him home to this moment felt like it went by in the blink of an eye, now time passed so slowly as he quietly sobbed behind his desk.

He tearfully breaks the news to the unit, and they all agree to give him a proper soldier’s burial. Taking the two shabby rifles and limited ammunition they had, a ceremony was held in the garden. The captain slowly laid his dog into the hole. Watching helplessly as he left the warm embrace of his arms into the cold, wet earth.

“He was very special to me.”

More words were said, but his clouded mind could not keep its grip on the reality before him.

Finally, the two-gun salute was fired and flowers were placed on top of him. A blanket of pale petals.

The captain alone buried him. Silent tears ran down his damp cheeks as each shovel of dirt obscured his only friend. Saying goodbye never got easier, despite the captain becoming used to it.

[whoredmode]

god another thing about the reboot is that i wish the NPCs actually said like. interesting stuff. one of the best parts about the first two games is that the NPCs say some really fascinating lines, often adding to the lore of other characters or to stilwater itself. in the reboot, i’ve heard a few isolated lines that were at most sorta funny, but nothing that’s really……adding to the experience? nothing that’s making me ask questions about the larger scope of things.

inb4 anyone says anything i will be the first to say this could totally just be a case of me being unlucky when it comes to NPC dialogue (and in that case i’d be curious to hear what lines you’ve heard), and i’d also argue they saved this type of stuff specifically for the ventures and side hustles, but it’s a little disappointing. like it’s so exciting to just walk around in sr1/sr2 and hear dialogue that makes you ask a million questions in your head. stuff that makes you realize the connections between the characters and the setting and the general public.

[katierosefun]

one day i won’t start crying the second i leave my college friends to board a train! today is not that day!

[kindlythevoid]

Barbie (and Ken) Spoilers Ahead!!

So anyway, in case you haven’t noticed, I was Really Excited for Ken in this movie. I have a lot of love for SO’s who are himbos and drink their Respect Women juice and love their girlfriend/wife A Lot. I was so, so very excited to see Barbie and Ken in this movie.

Now, before I continue, let me just say this is not necessarily a criticism of the movie. I loved the movie! It made me cry on no less than three separate occasions! I can understand every decision that was made and I was here for it the entire movie.

My issue is not with Barbie. My issue is with my disappointment in Ken.

Again, this is not a criticism. Ryan Gosling? An amazing Beach Ken! I loved seeing all of the numerous Kens Ken-ing around (and Allan!!)!! They were all great actors and I think they pulled it off tremendously.

But I gotta get this off my chest. When Ken found out about the patriarchy? I was crushed. I wasn’t expecting this to be a rom-com; I knew what I was getting myself into, but I was so excited to see a live-action Barbie and Ken. Ryan Gosling, imo, was a better Ken than Ken was in my eyes. I was so deeply disappointed that my guy Ken decided to run back and introduce the patriarchy.

And, like, I know that’s the point. I know that’s the catalyst for the rest of the movie. I know everyone gets their comeuppance and they all learn to be better people and he goes off to find out who Ken is just like Barbie goes off to find out who Barbara Handler is.

But maybe I was kind of hoping to see some wholesome Barbie + Ken. Honestly, it really was kind of revolutionary to see Barbie admit that she liked Ken more as a friend and that, no, she didn’t want to kiss Ken even when he was her boyfriend. I thought that was amazing and beautiful and what I’d been waiting for for years now. But I guess I also… wasn’t expecting to see it in this. I guess my first thought when they didn’t kiss was “oh she’s ace!” and not “oh they’re on different levels of a relationship and she doesn’t love him as much as Ken loves her.” In this instance, I was really excited to see them in an ace established relationship.

Now, they did a great job of tearing down the “nice guys” and having Barbie reinforce her boundaries on multiple occasions and making Barbie see that you shouldn’t be with someone just because they’re doing x y and z. Paralleled, it was important that Barbie not take Ken for granted and there was an apology and I think it was very healthy that Ken got to cry it out.

Furthermore, I saw the call-out of the one Ken who really did just want to be with his Barbie. I saw the Barbie that really wanted to be with him back. I loved them. I thought it was a great addition as all of the other Kens went on trips to find themselves.

And I know that wasn’t the main point of the movie. I know there are essays that could be written on every part of the movie that Does Not have to do with romantic relationships as well as more in depth points to be made on the romantic relationships that are in this movie. But I personally feel like all of those other points are being made more eloquently elsewhere and that whatever isn’t said there, the Barbie movie said clearly and bluntly. All I know is that in this moment, this is what I’m feeling passionate writing about.

Maybe I just need to watch it again in a different mood. Maybe I need to watch it with a different mindset and I won’t be so devastated, the relationship will be exactly what I’m hoping it would have been, and this is what I’ve been waiting for in media.

But right now I’m just a little sad.

[knowlesian]

sometimes being friends with me is just nodding and smiling while i get intense about self-flagellation and hairshirts and the history of religious ecstasy conveyed through ye olde public bdsm shows in the catholic church 

[hobisexually]

I feel so, so old but also so, so young and it’s starting to freak me out

[sleepdeprivationandcoffee]

If any of you plan on having kids, please for your sake please have a good support system. I mean people who will take kiddo for a few hours so you can sleep/clean/relax without stressing, people who will help with chores and help pick up the slack when you start feeling worn thin, and people who will encourage and remind you that you’re doing great. It’s so so so hard when you can’t get the help you need.

Future parents, please do this for yourself. Please ask for help and build yourself a safety net of people you trust to care for you like you would care for them.

[hexellent]

Whomp whomp Big ol vent under the cut, no need to read m’ just BLEH cuz yknow life and I don’t have a therapist yet lmao.

I am feeling far more anxious and shitty and depressed than usual. And while I know it’s my cycle making things worse than they are, I’m usually able to ignore it for the most part and this time I am very much struggling to do so.

It’s making me feel a lot of things I’m more than aware is not true but it sucks regardless.

On top of this I got a million life struggles that I’m trying to push my way through but it’s really starting to weigh me down and feel a little hopeless. I’m aware this is temporary, but being in this state of mind for well over a year kinda fucking sucks, and I really wish things weren’t so stressful.

Work drains me daily, I don’t get paid enough, everything’s expensive, I’m trying to move somewhere cheaper, etc etc. And I’m constantly worried about my roommate/best friend because she’s also deep in the shits with me but this is her first rodeo being aware of it.

and while I’m usually able to find a little bit of solace here, I fear the timing of said cycle on top of everything else, I worry I’m gonna start projecting all this insecurity and anxiety onto others. Which is in no way fair to them. I’ve done that in the past, years before I realized what my actual issues were, was able to get therapy and the right mix of medications. And I refuse to be that toxic person again and push people away. I cannot make other people responsible for my emotions and demand things like attention or validation from them.

Honesty just writing this feels bait-y and I hate it. But unfortunately I can’t process shit unless I talk about it, even if it’s to the void, cuz my brain fucking sucks and sometimes I need a sounding board or just a way to empty my brain somewhere and feel heard.

ANYWAY TLDR; I’m gonna be hella spotty for a few days I imagine, until this damn depression wave passes. I genuinely can’t get the energy nor motivation to write anything, and while that sucks, I’d rather come back to everyone with a clearer mind and pure intentions rather than seek attention for my own sake. I will likely be lurking and doing small shit but yah. (Plus I have mandatory overtime this weekend and I want to scream djsbdjwk)

Anywho if you read this far thanks for listening to my Big Sads thoughts. I’ll likely be okay in short time. 💜

[teeniestjojokitten]

Anyone else get raised to people please and squash down all your own emotions and never know how to feel them cause you felt like you weren’t allowed to and now you can’t set boundaries and you let people ask too much of you until it all snaps and you break down? Yeah.

Anyway I wanna be pouty and childish and have a tantrum and hide away and kick and whine! I wanna punch my pillow and squeeze a plushie reeeeeeeal tight. Yell into the pillow to get out a good scream and re teach myself it’s okay to have really really really big feelings.

I want a daddy to scoop me up and tell me everything is going to be just fine. I was pushed to be “mature” and be bigger than I was when I was little…. So now I need time to be really small because I didn’t get enough of it. Simple as that. I am soooooooo teeny. The tiniest. And I just need lots of cuddles and love.

[malusienki]

sometimes i wish i hadn’t been so afraid to sign up for band in sixth grade, or that my parents had signed me up for piano sooner etc etc but i know that it would’ve just made moving and getting those activities again more complicated.,, i mean that’s what happened with me and polish school (hence why i joke and say i have a second grade literacy in polish. i only had two years of polish school.)

[navysealt4t]

there is something about the jealousy i get when i look at cishet girls that makes me wanna run full speed into a brick wall