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i just finished dark heir
#me foaming at the mouth during the last chapters: HE IS! FUCKING! SAVING YOU!#i am huddled around will kempen hissing like a mama cat none of these fuckers are allowed to look at him#dark rise#okay but like. cyrian at literally every moment in the book you see will anticipating things and making connections#that you never make. doing things like a leader & being fucking smart and strategic. and your dumb ass really thought.#hm. must mean i shouldnt listen to him about the magic staff that can literally stop the end of the world. must be evil.#me: [screams into the abyss]#i know i cant expect characters to react like readers and they DID all react like i knew they would but god it was so infuriating!!!!!#and heart breaking! god!!!! god!!!!! will reliving his mother's initial betrayal over and over and OVER again#and thinking about all the little moments we get where the novel tells us: if these 'evil' characters had just been accepted#instead of tossed aside maybe they wouldnt have fallen. if they had been protected instead of killed maybe they would have#become protectors instead of killers. maybe if will's mom hadn't tried to butcher him for the sin of his own birth#he wouldn't have been so scared to tell people he lied to them.#anyway im not normal about will kempen and if book 3 doesnt give me his friends fucking accepting him i'll kill someone#me looking directly at visander: i dont care how charming you are i'll murder your ass about it#i read this book in like 5 hrs im being very normal about it
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I enjoy any reverse age fic that keeps Anakin realistically dark (and dramatic - I am an eViL SItH!!!) while also letting twink Obi-Wan be like, nope, Jedi live and Palpatine dies, those are the rules for fucking me <3
its very important to me that anakin thinks and acts like he's the most powerful person in the whole galaxy but then his soaking wet pathetic chihuahua of a padawan actually holds both of their leashes yeah
padawan obi-wan is like kill your master for me it would make me happy for a millisecond and anakin does the math and is like. perfect ok will do immediately. is there anyone i can kill for you that would make you happy for a whole minute? maybe thirty whole seconds? just let me know. i'll do it. i'll do it so fast.
#asks#obikin#throat fic au#also i do love it when their relationship tends towards fucked up but sorta equal#in this last fic anakin obviously doesnt want to share obi-wan with anyone#reason no. 1 why melida/daan ends the way it does and reason no2 why the jedi order has to go#but obi-wan doesn't want to share anakin with anyone either#not amidala not palpatine#so his deal is look i'll leave the order so im just yours#but you can't have someone you respect more#(palpatine)#so why dont you kill him dead for me or you tell the jedi everything they need to know to kill him dead#and then we can just go be weird about each other somewhere else
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I just don't get what you would have against telling bigots to kill themselves
I'm going to genuinely lay it out for u with the assumption that this is genuine.
I will also note that my original post says NOTHING about bigotry? It seems like people inject the concept of bigotry into discussions about online interaction and disagreement a lot in order to be like "but what if my opponent DESERVES to be verbally harassed" and I'm generally unimpressed by this because my position isn't actually informed by determining which people "deserve" harassment.
1. If someone is genuinely a bigot then my interactions with them on line will not change that. What I can change is my reaction and whether I allow them access to me.
2. I simply block those people.
3. People who react to seeing viewpoints they perceive as bigoted (I will be real here, lots of people online have a very loose metric for "does this actually cause harm") by immediately lashing out with suicide baiting are similarly not people I wish to have access to me. To me this speaks to a desire to use public speech and social interaction to inflate one's own ego or as a stress relief valve; it feels good to attack people we see as espousing harmful viewpoints. It feels good to feel justified in attacking. It feels good to get to "write off" your suicide baiting when you file your morality taxes ;)
3. I simply block these people as well :)
#if you get excited about being justified in being vicious in your interactions i dont wish to know you. basically.#i dont think that speaks to being in a place in your head and in your life where we will get alongm#in general i find it a little weird that someone could read that post#thats like i block people who are really vicious to strangers online#and have your biggest reaction be like well why do you have a problem with me telling a bad person to kys#like..m#why do u need me to approve of u telling a stranger to kill themselves ? u know?#u do not. like go ahead. i will block u if i see it. thats just information man
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Saw a Reddit post about a cis woman infantilizing trans men, and this is why I think cis women are THE most annoying version of transphobia in the world. Like yeah a cis man will tell you "kys tranny" but he's not very well going to take the time to psychologically torture you for the heck of it by treating you like you are exactly [three] years old.
#im sorry but cis women are so much more likely to be really fucking weird to trans people#i cannot stand them#tw suibaiting#mentioned#transphobes#infantilization#transandrophobia#bite kill maim#look im not a misogynist BUT i dont trust women for shit#they are literally taught never to talk straight at people which results in some of the most convoluted psychological warfare ever#also on one side there's transphobic misogynists on the other side there's terfs#and very few women i've met cis OR trans have been normal about trans men and transmasculine people#even the tumblr trans community is chock full of either trans women telling us we're oppressing them and also us being hated doesn't matter#and spouting transandrophobic bullshit#but the cis women 'allies' who are like 'i know trans guys i have a trans friend who most definitely isnt scared to tell me off for my#fucked up behaviour'#the thing is this is very much how women bully other women so actually#newsflash#transmascs are not 'tme' and literally all fucking trans people are endangered by transmisogyny#some of you gals just have a superiority complex about it bc you want to have someone to look down on#almost every man I've met who is not old as hell or a borderline nazi is just. normal about it.#if a woman is too interested in your transness? run for the fucking hills#no she most probably won't physically attack you but she will try her damnedest to psychologically ruin you#not sorry if i come off as an asshole#these people are WAY too comfortable making us uncomfortable#i have had it up to here#if anyone tries to infantilize me for any reason i will scare them till they beg ME to leave them alone#idk how other people tolerate it but i sure as hell won't#and i am absolutely not above hitting a woman if she's touching me against my will#you want to baby me and constantly touch me and shit you are getting slapped into sunday
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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i love you animal symbolism
#like obviously i’m the dog motif guy but literally any animal symbolism is sooooo#like mq animal symbolism >>>#sharks and mice and wolves and butterflies#what that says about you — not just what you get but what you wanted to get#i’m a shark and i’m going to take you down. he smells blood in the water he’s gonna kill my pig and there’s nothing i can do#because i’m soft i’m a kid again im a mouse and im loyal and humble and a real team player! and that’s what will be my downfall#but it’s also what’s going to save me#why would a mouse choose foam over a delicious cookie? i don’t know. why would he? why would i?#i just got a little upset when you said i wasn’t a lion. you’re nothing without me#lions hunt in packs they’re sthe leaders. but i’m telling you that you dont get a pack you dont get someone to lean on and you will always#be alone.#then succession animal symbolism is like: youre a scorpion and i’m a snake and we are going to die at each others hands#it’s already written. we know the ending#im a dog and i’m mean and sharp and vicious#i’m a dog and i’m loyal and trusting#i’m a dog and i need to be kicked and i beg you to kick me because it’s all i know#you come for me with love?#lock me in a cage and feed me dog food (or chocolate cake but who knows) and i’ll never eat again#send me away until everyone knows their place#beat me with a slipper in gstaad for ordering lobster because it’s rude to order the most expensive thing on the menu when you’re not payin#because dogs don’t get a sliver platter they get a bowl of dog food in a cold wire cage#they get the scraps and they thank you for it#so you come for me with love?#you come in here guns ablazing to find they’ve turned to fucking sausages and you come for me with love?#jeez that’s a lot of tags#mythic quest#mq#succession#succession hbo
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Asshole Things Ambrose Has Said/Done #8: Describe Cyrus' relationship with Malistaire as "odd" then sends a child, essentially a stranger to Cyrus, with no business with being involved in their family issues, to extract information out of Cyrus on how to kill his brother (a grieving man)
#ambrose: can you go manipulate a man who's had to see his brother suffer insanity and grief and loss into telling us how to kill him? for me#hey ambrose i have an idea. why dont YOU go do that.#why dont YOU interrogate cyrus. the man that you distrust incorrectly. by the way. on how to hunt down and kill his brother. hm.#hey ambrose why dont YOU figure out malistaire's weaknesses#no lets not comfort the man grieving the loss of his sister in law and his brother. naw.#also using a stranger to be impartial to your feelings and loss is so dirty????? ☹️#if i was dealing with severe family issues and worrying for my lived ones 24/7-#and someone whom ive never met bursts into my house. sent by another person. tried to ask me how to kill my loved one#cyrus was an asshole dont get me wrong but yknow. he had a good reason to be one#like malistaire is my least favorite villain but still. he went through so much. and cyrus too#and ambrose HAD THE GALL.#'hey lets not support the guy who works for mw and instead secretly susoect him of Crimes because of his brother'#ambrose sent us not to go comfort cyrus. but to EXTRACT INFORMATION FROM HIM#SHUT UP SHUT UP JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP.#breathes. anyways hi :)#i refuse to shut up about the wizard being a kid by the way. sorry!#wizard101#wiz101#w101#text posts
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the thing about Hawkeye and Margaret is that they’re very protective of each other but it’s in the way where like. for all Hawkeye’s claims of cowardice he would get between someone and Margaret if he felt he had to, and he’d probably be shaking like a leaf the entire time, but he’d do it. and then there’s Margaret who will break a bottle on someone’s head and Hawkeye would have to actively haul her off
#mash#hawkeye pierce#margaret houlihan#Hawkeye telling Margaret he'd protect her during Bug Out lives in my head rent free#Hawkeye talks a lot about how he's a coward but he isnt!! he's so brave and Margaret brings that out in him a lot#see Bug Out see Comrades in Arms#see CAVE#where he's so scared but he tries to protect her anyways#and then there's Margaret who's like if you hurt my bestie I will hunt you for sport#Margaret when BJ is being meaner than usual: do you want me to kill him#Hawkeye: I dont think you're kidding so im gonna say. no#where's that one Kevin Hart meme of the woman holding him looking mad at someone else#that's Margaret with Hawkeye
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one major difference i have found between service industry work (in my case food service but this is widely applicable to similar jobs) and other public-facing positions is that the job itself is often very similar because people is the same, it's just in service everyone approaches you already thinking they're right and you're a fucking idiot and its their god given right to disrespect you, where in other positions even if they are not nice to you they usually acknowledge that you know more than them on issues pertaining to your job. like the difference in behaviour from people who see you as serving them vs helping them is unreal. i am doing literally the exact same things. customer is always right mentality did irreparable damage to the fabric of society
#good idea generator#i loveee the library front desk everyone is polite and people will just ask you anything#they assume so much knowledge and access to data#ill be like 'just one moment let me look that up in the system' [googles name of school + upcoming events]#also not in a mean way but i never realized until i worked here how little anybody is googling anything#i think its funny and i also love to google things for people so i am perfectly suited to this#and some questions even though they are googleable the issue is more that the person isnt totally sure what theyre asking#but like. the library hours are visible on the home page. and outside the building that you just walked into on a sign#PPL DO NOT READ SIGNS. i knew that from other jobs but good lord people do NOT even GLANCE at signs#ppl would fully walk past like 4 signs about a specific thing and proceed to ask me a q about the thing. after waiting in a line#constantly CONSTANTLY ppl are trying to enter or exit through locked doors. clambering over closed signs to do so#its someones job when the library closes specifically to point out the signs and direct ppl to an open exit#and still often people will get up to the automatic doors and be baffled and confused as to why they dont open#but like even this i dealt w/this at my food service job and it was so frustrating#bc when you had to confront these people they would get MAD AT YOU. furious that they didnt read a sign telling them where to line up#but at the library people are polite and apologetic so you know it's not malice or entitlement ppl are just kind of inattentive#monumental difference tbh i actually love front counter so much people are so fun#and i like it when nobody is actively trying to kill me with their mind while we speak
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"i need to know if this character is an adult or not so i know if i can selfship with them!" ...my dude you clearly are already attracted to them ??? like. gurl theyre FICTIONAL. do whatever the fuck you want god damn.
self ship with them with them aged up. or with an imaginary version of you aged down. or just hc whatever gd age you want for them whether or not it ends up being canon (or its already stated in canon but doesnt match ur view of them). or selfship yourself with them through a character in canon. you can literally just see your fictional other as aging with you. who fucking cares. its fiction. the specifics of the relationship is whatever the hell you make it.
its literally so sad to see people being afraid to just SELF SHIP because they dont know if its potentially ~problematic~ depending on stuff they can easily just rule out of their own view of canon 💀 canon is your sandbox you can tear down the castle and build it anew however to your liking
#im glad that shadow is canonically immortal and hiei has no stated age#bc if people tried to give me shit for being in love with either of them i would fucking kill someone#i fell in love with shadow years ago through shipping him with rouge and i still love him now. he ''ages'' with me#and hiei i technically hc him as nearly a hundred but hes a demon#and i selfship with him through kurama who has also lived for centuries so#i swear you dont have to drop off your fictional crushes from your teen years when you turn an adult. you can just see them as aging with u#just. man. OTL#seeing ppl being like this is so sad fr. this shipping discourse shit is making ppl walk on eggshells over the littlest shit#anti fanpol#like its different for real life bc yea sometimes u cant always tell someones age by looking at them#u can find someone attractive and talk to them and find out theyre too young for you. so you back off#but like. this is fiction. things arent set in stone. the creator can make a time skip for the characters and so can you#and plus. theyre NOT REAL. you wouldnt be harming a REAL PERSON. and its not at all comparable to the suffering and abuse of REAL PEOPLE
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Literally what the fuck
#(fuck you mean part ways what the hell happened between y’all WHY DID THEY UNFOLLOW JORDANS ACCOUNT?????????)#(SOMEONE HELP IM STUCK IN THIS TERRIBLE TIMELINE GET ME OUT OF HERE)#bring me the horizon#bmth#jordan fish#(PLEASE DONT TELL ME THEY HAD A JONA MOMENT BUT TO JORDAN…ILL KILL MYSELF)#its loving bmth hours
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how do i do it though. how do i let go of the bitterness and the hardness when they kept me "okay" for so long? does it come when i finally leave? can it ever?
#babes i actually relate to the frigid angry woman more than im comfortable with but this time there's no prince coming to save her and idk#i was never beautiful but i was and am angry and capable and that's served me well but being angry is exhausting#it's a birthright i can't give to a younger sibling. it doesn't transfer.#i dont inspire devotion. there's no version of this that ends with me waltzing with a true love.#im not the type you launch a thousand ships for.#so what's left?#who am i when i have no one? when ive spent my life making *me* less to make others more? when im nothing but a useful piece of furniture.#i know God loves me! i love Him! but it's not the same. i want *people* to love me. i want to be someone that theyd fight for.#im feeling that 'women have minds and hearts but im so lonely' scene from little women 2019 so much right now.#except im not jo. my family loves me but theyd never do for me what jo's would do for her. theyre also all focused on surviving.#i feel like a military ration. there to be consumed but cast aside the moment something more palatable comes around.#how do i become consumed with joy? how do i let go of the cynicism? its all thats kept me safe! but its choking me too.#its like tony stark in iron man 2. the thing thats kept me alive this far is killing me. i need to find an alternative but its looking like#ill have to synthesize a new element to make it happen and that freaks me out.#ive always been derivative. never an individual. how do i become a trailblazer when my job was always to hold the hand of the one blazing#the trail? how do i become myself happy and free?#because i WANT to be more#i WANT to be more than anger and coldness and a useful idiot. i WANT to be me and be so so happy#but i dont know how to get there#and if someone suggests therapy im shooting you. i dont want to listen to one more person pretend to care about me and tell me#all the things i need to change and spend even longer not learning how to think for myself#i want to be more than this. but i also cant stand the thought of taking up any more space than i do#anyway.#anyone who's read all this thank you and i promise im fine im just in my feelings today lol#im going to work out and get some happy brain chemicals flowing and then ill take a shower and itll all be good.#please dont worry about me! im just having A Moment TM#lilac rambles
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ALL CUSTOMERS BEED TO EXPLODE
#look. see. look at me. when a store is using self checkout and you dont want to use it. ask nicely.#tell the employee oh can i have a cashier please? would you be able to check me out? etc#you dont need to berate them. you dont need to tell them its their job or they arent working or give an attitude.#cause if you do. that employee is going to be withholding the urge to kill you the entire interaction.#and if you thibk they arent working hard enough. tell me why someone who is being paid the bare minimum#the smallest amount of money legally possible#should be working hard#talk tag
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If you’re wondering about the misophonia stuff I’m reblogging: I keep getting this one specific ad from the Crunch candy bars and it’s. It’s so bad. I wear headphones most of the time so it is DIRECTLY in my ears
“Here at… we have a whale [crunch crunch crunch] and it’s making a splash [crunch crunch] so bring the kids or you’ll miss [crunch crunch crunch crunch] this whale [crunch crunch crunchity crunch crunch]..” stfu. Please just stfu
I’m tryna listen to Vore I do not want to hear crunching noises in my ears. Fucking kys you dumbass advertisement
#Vore. the song. I mean the song by sleep token#I do not mean vore as in the kink. I am referring to the SONG#misophonia#grsgshsgshsh /neg#I wanna shoot someone#stab stab stab#I am excessively angry because of a fucking ADVERTISEMENT and it’s so fucking annoying#either someone needs to kill me or I need to kill someone#preferably the person who decided that that ad was a good idea#I wanna strangle them until they pop in a /neg way#can you tell I dont like hearing chewing/crunching/eating noises?#can you?
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It would be great if I could validate my own pain so that I can stop needing bad things to happen to me in a way that I find both intrinsically reprehensible and morally disgusting
#why do i STILL feel like i havent gone through enough??#why do i always need it to be worse#wtf is wrong with me#genuinely don't think i will feel satisfied until someone kills me (perhaps myself)#the way that i will literally fantasize about horrible things happening to me is just. wtf. what the actual fuck. SEEK HELP#i cannot even sum it up by saying 'i think i deserve it' because its *more* than that#i dont *just* deserve it. it feels *right*. it feels correct. everything that doesnt hurt me feels like something i disagree with#when i get 'what i deserve' (horrible painful things) i generally tend to feel real relief from that#relief that i dont feel from anything else#how are you supposed to tell me i dont deserve it then??
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I remember why I don't try and post my art in bigger discord servers anymore LMAO
#ughhh#really fucking disheartening!!!#when you post something#and get like one person that looks at it#and then someone posts something right after you#and the entire server comments it and also tells that person how much they all love them#like idk my art is worse inknow but i wish people would PRETEND to care about me#someone jeff the kill me please im so tored of feeling like shit all the time over stuff like this#i dont even care about venting anymore bc none of those people look at my posts anyway#or care about me lol#so its whatever what fucking ever#i hate it here#monnie rambles
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