Spirit Touched - Chapter 6: Refugee
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Uhhh I actually updated on AO3 like two weeks ago, I just procrastinated putting it up here on Tumblr for some reason. But here it is. Angst, Zuko doing serious soul searching, and Toph continuing to just be the best Toph she can be. Enjoy.
Again, this fic is inspired by @muffinlance‘s fic Salvage and fanart that @agent-jaselin did of it.
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Water sloshed over the rim of the bucket Zuko was carrying. The tribesman Zuko was following stopped to look back at him.
“Nuktuk, if this is too difficult for you, you can go back to your tent and play,” the tribesman said. Zuko scowled. The troops at Chameleon Bay had accepted him with open arms, though they didn’t know his proper age, and as such, tended to talk down to him and refuse to let him help with chores.
“No, I’ve got it,” he insisted. The tribesman shrugged.
“All right, if you say so.” There was a commotion off in the distance. “Huh. I wonder what’s-” Tuluk came running over. “Tuluk, is something going on?”
“Yes. The Chief is handling it, but Nuktuk needs to go back to his tent for now,” Tuluk said.
“What’s happening?” Zuko asked.
“We have a visitor,” Tuluk replied. Zuko frowned.
“What kind of visitor?”
“You’ll find out once things calm down.”
“But-”
“No buts.” Tuluk handed Zuko’s bucket of water to the tribesman, then took Zuko’s hand and led him away. Zuko looked over his shoulder. He couldn’t see much in the chaos, but caught a glimpse of red.
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Zuko didn’t find out what had happened until much later, when Toklo came to his tent to bring him to dinner.
“Something happened earlier. What?” Zuko asked immediately.
“It was crazy, little bro. A Fire Nation soldier walked into camp and asked to join our side.”
“Who?”
“That’s the craziest part! General Iroh! The Dragon of the West!” Toklo shook his head. “Can you believe it?”
“Yes. Uncle said he would meet up with me again,” Zuko said matter-of-factly. Toklo facepalmed.
“That’s right! He’s your uncle! Okay, it’s a bit less crazy now. But how did he know where we were?” He paused. “What do you mean, he said he would meet up with you?”
“When Hakoda and Kustaa took me to see a healer, Uncle spotted us. He asked to come aboard the Akhlut. The Chief turned him down, but at told Uncle where we were headed, so that he could meet us,” Zuko rattled off.
“Why didn’t you tell me before?” Toklo demanded.
“I was sick.”
“Fair enough.” Toklo took Zuko’s hand. “Time for dinner!”
“No, I want to see Uncle first,” Zuko said, yanking his hand free of Toklo’s hold.
“I don’t think-” Toklo started. Before he could finish the sentence, Zuko bolted out of the tent. “Hey!”
Zuko made a beeline for the largest tent, which served as a command center. Uncle might not be there, but Hakoda or Bato should be, and they would take him to Uncle. Right? The moment he ducked inside the tent, Zuko’s eyes landed on Uncle.
“Uncle!” Zuko shrieked happily. He ran over to the retired general. Uncle scooped him into a tight embrace.
“Nephew, it is so good to see you again.” Uncle held Zuko at arm’s distance. “You look much healthier now.” Zuko beamed. Uncle set him back on the ground. “This was not the best move to make, however.”
“What?”
“Chief Hakoda informed me before of your cover as a Water Tribe war child. The way you just behaved, while very heartwarming, was not in character for Nuktuk.”
“I don’t care.”
“You should, nephew. Keeping up appearances is very important, particularly in your situation,” Uncle said patiently.
“Luckily, I’m the only other person in the tent,” Hakoda spoke up. Zuko looked over, realizing he was there for the first time.
“Where is Uncle going to stay?” Zuko asked.
“Eventually, with you,” Uncle replied. “Chief Hakoda and I were just discussing our plans.”
“The story we’ll be telling is that General Iroh, devastated by the loss of his nephew, had his eyes opened to the reality of the war. As such, he has arrived at the camp to switch sides and offer his help.”
“Like the best of lies, it contains some truth,” Uncle said, nodding. “I won’t be allowed to be around you until Chief Hakoda’s men trust me. So I am very glad you sought me out on your own.”
“Toklo told me you were here.”
“Toklo would be…?”
“My friend.”
“Ah.” Uncle’s face creased with a broad, warm smile. “What a wonderful thing you hear you say. You should go find this friend of yours and have dinner with him.”
“But-” Zuko started.
“Don’t worry,” Hakoda said. “General Iroh will be here for a while.”
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“You’re very articulate for your age, Nuktuk,” gushed one of the Southern tribesmen that Zuko had yet to know by name. Zuko smiled politely. He bowed.
“Thank you,” he said. The tribesman chuckled and ruffled his hair.
“Keep up your firebending practice, kiddo. Who knows, maybe you’ll be the first Water Tribe firebending Master.” Zuko’s smile became more forced. He didn’t mean to be caught firebending, but Uncle had begun to teach him firebending again, and someone had witnessed one of the lessons. Since then, tribesmen approached him near constantly, curious about the firebending Water Tribe toddler.
“You should probably get back to work, Kenai,” Panuk said. Ah, the man’s name was Kenai. “Otherwise, you’ll get your ass beat for slacking.”
“Watch your language around the kid!” Kenai said in shock. Panuk laughed. He gave Zuko an affectionate noogie.
“The kid spent months on a ship. He knows just about every swear under the sun,” Panuk said. Kenai shook his head disapprovingly.
“Geez. Well, see you later, Nuktuk. And you too, Panuk.” Kenai walked away, whistling. Zuko smirked at Panuk.
“You’re an afterthought,” he teased. Panuk laughed.
“Only because Kenai’s a big brother. He can’t resist cute little kids.”
“That explains why he felt the need to talk to me,” Zuko said thoughtfully. “I thought word had spread about me.”
“Oh, it definitely has. There’s no one who doesn’t know who you are.” Panuk poked Zuko playfully. Zuko slapped the hand away, laughing.
“Wait…you guys have a kid here?” a voice said. The hairs on the back of Zuko’s neck rose. That voice… He turned his head ever so slightly. His eyes widened. It was him.
“Huh, I guess someone doesn’t know who you are,” Panuk remarked, looking as well. He frowned. “He must be new.”
“Sokka,” Zuko ground out. Panuk’s head whipped around to stare at Zuko.
“That’s the Chief’s son?” he asked. Zuko nodded, his jaw clenched. “I see it now. They look pretty similar.”
“Why is he here?” Zuko snarled.
“Probably because, like I said, he’s the Chief’s son,” Panuk drawled. “I wonder if the Avatar’s with him.”
“That’s Nuktuk,” Hakoda informed Sokka. They were far enough away that there was no chance Sokka could recognize Zuko, but Zuko’s heart still pounded in his chest. His fingers twitched. He couldn’t decide whether he wanted to run at Sokka or away from him. “We found him in a destroyed village on our way out of the South Pole. He’s been with us ever since.”
“Really? He’s just a kid! How old is he, two?”
“Four,” Hakoda said calmly. Panuk reached for Zuko’s hand.
“I think it’s time to take you somewhere else, little warrior.” The moment his hand touched Zuko’s, he let out a soft yelp of pain. “What was that about?” Zuko looked up at Panuk.
“What?”
“You burned me, squirt.”
“Oh. Whoops.” Zuko resumed glaring at Sokka, who was still arguing with Hakoda.
“Wh- you’d take a four-year-old on your ship, but not your own son? Who, I’ll remind you, was a lot older than four when you left?”
“Sokka…” Hakoda’s voice was weary. “You don’t want to be in that kid’s boots. He’s seen things no child should ever see.”
“Oh, you think I haven’t? I traveled with the Avatar!” Sokka’s shouts were beginning to attract attention. Zuko could feel the control he’d worked so hard to cultivate slipping; droplets of flame fell off his fingers, lighting the grass on fire.
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Iroh, while relaxing in the tent he shared with Zuko, heard bickering outside. Curious, he exited the tent. He took in the scene. Panuk and Zuko stood nearby, Zuko staring at something and Panuk stomping on smoking grass. Small flames were dancing around Zuko’s fingers, his good eye squinting in a glare to match his bad one. It didn’t take a genius to figure out the cause of Zuko’s irritation. Some distance away, but growing closer, were the people he had heard bickering: Chief Hakoda and Sokka, the Water Tribe boy that had accompanied the Avatar.
The Water Tribe boy who, in his first encounter with Zuko, had hit him in the head with a boomerang.
“It’s wonderful to see a familiar face,” Iroh said warmly, walking over to Sokka and Hakoda. Behind him, he could hear Panuk finally ushering Zuko away, out of sight of the chief’s son. Sokka stared at him.
“Hang on, you’re that one guy!” he said, eloquently. Iroh smiled.
“Yes, I am.”
“What are you doing at a Water Tribe camp?”
“After what happened at the North Pole, I could no longer stand by and allow my nation’s war to continue,” Iroh said simply. Sokka crossed his arms.
“Really,” he said flatly. “After everything the Fire Nation’s done, killing a fish was what made you realize they were evil?” Something in his voice quivered a bit, like he didn’t believe the loss of the Moon Spirit was as minimal as he was trying to make it sound. Iroh bowed his head slightly.
“Yes. I spent some time traveling the Earth Kingdom and eventually came to join this encampment, with the blessing of none other than your father,” Iroh said. His words were technically true, but left out important details. The kind of lying Iroh preferred to do.
“You trusted him, Dad?” Sokka asked. Chief Hakoda nodded. “Why?”
“People I trust spoke for him,” Chief Hakoda said simply.
“Like who?”
“Master Pakku of the Northern Water Tribe, for one.”
“Wait.” Sokka stared at Iroh. “You know Master Sourpuss?” Iroh chuckled. Sourpuss was certainly an apt description for his old friend.
“Yes. I have for some time.”
“How?”
“That’s a rather long story, and not important,” Iroh said smoothly. “Let me guess, you, your friends, and the Avatar have arrived at Ba Sing Se?”
“Yeah…”
“Would you be so kind as to allow me to walk with you? I would like to hear the wonderful stories of your adventures.” Sokka looked uncertain, but after a moment, nodded.
“Sure. But you better not be sending information back to the Fire Lord!” Sokka snapped. Hakoda rolled his eyes. Iroh merely smiled and nodded.
“Of course.”
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Bato found Zuko wandering around the camp, peering into tents with a confused expression.
“Are you looking for something, little warrior?” he asked. Zuko looked up at him, brow furrowed.
“Where’s Uncle?”
“He went with Sokka and Aang to Ba Sing Se,” Bato replied. Zuko crossed his arms.
“Stupid Avatar. He’s my uncle,” Zuko muttered. Bato covered his mouth, poorly smothering a snicker at the firebender’s immature behavior. Zuko stomped his foot. “Don’t laugh!”
“Relax. Come on, it’s time for your nap, anyways.” Bato took Zuko’s hand and led him back to the tent Zuko shared with Iroh. Toklo was already there, looking for Zuko.
“Where’d you run off to, little brother?” Toklo teased.
“I was looking for Uncle,” Zuko mumbled. He let out a small yawn.
“When Iroh gets back, I’ll send him your way,” Bato promised. Zuko nodded. Toklo led him into the tent for his nap.
Zuko was still napping when chaos erupted at the encampment. Bato and Hakoda were in the midst of going over battle plans, only for Katara to burst in the head tent. The excitement Hakoda felt at seeing his daughter was quickly subdued when Sokka came in close behind, carrying the unnervingly still body of the Avatar.
“What…happened?” Hakoda croaked, staring at Aang.
“Lightning,” huffed a short girl, who, judging by her milky eyes, was blind. Katara laid Aang on the ground and held glowing water over his body. Her forehead was drenched in sweat, her hands shaking. Sokka didn’t seem to be doing much better. “The Fire Princess struck Aang with lightning.” A man in extravagant, expensive clothes poked his head into the tent curiously.
“What should I do?” he asked. The short girl huffed again.
“Could someone entertain the Earth King?” she asked, turning her sightless eyes in the direction of Hakoda and Bato.
“…Earth King?” Hakoda and Bato said simultaneously.
“Kids, what happened?” Hakoda repeated.
“I told you, lightning.”
“I need more information than that.”
“After I’ve stabilized Aang, we can talk, Dad, but right now, I need to focus,” Katara snapped. Hakoda bit back an instinct to scold her for her tone. She was under an immense amount of stress; it was more than understandable she’d be on edge. Sokka got up from where he was crouching at Aang’s side.
“I can explain. It’s better if we leave the tent while Katara heals Aang. Toph, stay here.” The blind girl, apparently named Toph, nodded. Sokka, Hakoda, and Bato left the tent.
“What in the world is that thing?” Bato asked, staring at the strange creature before them.
“It’s a bear,” Sokka answered.
“Platypus-bear?”
“No, just a bear. Weird, I know.” Sokka sighed. “He’s the Earth King’s best friend or something like that, so the bear came with us when Ba Sing Se fell.”
“Ba Sing Se fell?” Hakoda asked in an undertone. Sokka’s head drooped.
“Yeah. Princess Azula staged a coup. We got out with the Earth King and his bear, but during the fight, Aang was struck by lightning.”
“What about Iroh?” Bato pried. Sokka slumped further.
“He was taken prisoner. We had the one good firebender in the world on our side, and we let him get caught.”
“I’m sure Iroh isn’t the only good firebender,” Hakoda said, resting a hand on Sokka’s shoulder. His gaze fell on Zuko and Iroh’s tent, where the toddler was, presumably, still fast asleep.
“I don’t know, Dad. It really seems like he is.” Sokka rubbed his eyes, drawing Hakoda’s attention to just how tired his son seemed. Hakoda yearned to just tell Sokka to go to bed. But if Ba Sing Se had truly fallen, they had no time to waste. They needed to abandon the encampment and set sail immediately. Hakoda squeezed Sokka’s shoulder.
“Stay here with your sister. Bato, spread the word that we need to leave now. I’ll take care of Nuktuk.” Bato’s eyes widened.
“The kid is not going to be happy.”
“That’s why I’ll be breaking the news to him.” Hakoda squeezed Sokka’s shoulder one more time and set off for Zuko and Iroh’s tent.
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The tent didn’t burn down. But only barely. Zuko’s initial, destructive meltdown upon hearing what had happened to Iroh exhausted him so much that he passed out soon after. It was easy enough to smuggle the sleeping toddler aboard the Akhlut without Hakoda’s children or his children’s friends noticing. Keeping up the secrecy was far more difficult.
“Why won’t you let them see you?” Hakoda asked. Weary from stress, his voice came out harsher than he intended. Zuko flinched slightly. “I’m sorry, Zuko, I didn’t mean to say it that way. But you know they won’t recognize you, right?”
“They might,” Zuko mumbled. “I can’t risk it. I’ll be humiliated.”
“…Fine. But you’ll have to ask Toklo or Panuk to help you move around the ship without being seen. I’m busy.” The Akhlut, though beloved, would need to be abandoned. There were too many Fire Navy ships now. As such, they had plans to take a Fire Nation ship themselves. Hakoda had been working on those very plans when Zuko entered his cabin, wanting attention.
Of course he wants attention, his life has been upheaved and he’s lost his uncle again. Hakoda pinched the bridge of his nose and took a calming breath. He could hear Kya’s voice, scolding him for not explaining why he was saying “no” to a toddler. Young children will cooperate more if they have an explanation. Zuko is no exception. Explain things to him.
“Once we’ve captured a new ship, I might be able to spend some more time with you. At the very least, you won’t have to hide. I imagine we can find you your own room.” Hakoda forced a smile. “Would you like that?”
“Maybe,” Zuko mumbled. He cocked his head curiously. “We’re capturing a ship?”
“You aren’t. But the rest of us are. The Fire Nation is sending their Navy to Ba Sing Se, to prevent any early uprisings. The Akhlut stands out. It’s best if we blend in.” Zuko nodded slowly. “I understand if you feel uncomfortable with this, but it’s our only option.” Zuko nodded again.
“Can I…stay in here?” he asked. Hakoda stifled a sigh.
He’s a lonely child. He’s always been. Hakoda nodded.
“If you stay quiet, yes.” Zuko beamed. He walked over to Hakoda and climbed onto the chief’s lap. As Hakoda worked on the plans, Zuko occasionally piped up with a comment about Fire Navy ships. The intermittent inputs became further and further apart. When it had been some time since Zuko last spoke, Hakoda looked down at his lap.
The former Fire Nation Prince had fallen asleep, lulled by the late hour, gentle swaying of the boat, and Hakoda’s body heat.
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They were having another awkwardly silent meal when Toph finally said something she’d had on her mind the minute they all boarded a metal ship, allowing her to “see” again.
“What’s the deal with the kid?” she asked. Hakoda casually set his chopsticks down. To someone who could see, no doubt he appeared untroubled. But to someone who could see, he was nervous. The chief’s heartrate had sped up immediately.
“There are a lot of children on board,” Hakoda said calmly. “Namely, the three of you and Aang.”
“No, there’s someone here even younger than us,” Toph said. “They’re running around on the deck right now.” Katara rose from her seat, presumably to glance out the window that opened onto the deck.
“Toph’s right,” Katara said.
“No need to sound so surprised,” Toph grumbled, pretending to be offended.
“I wasn’t-” Katara huffed. She sat back down. “That looked like a little boy, younger than some of the kids were when we left the village.” Hakoda sighed.
“I was hoping to keep him hidden from you.”
“Why?” Katara asked.
“You shouldn’t be distracted from your current mission.”
Lie.
“Not to mention, he’s rather shy.”
Truth.
“What’s his name?” Toph asked.
“Nuktuk.”
Lie.
“We found him in a mostly destroyed village as we were leaving the South Pole.”
Lie.
“Wait, that’s the kid that I saw in camp that one day,” Sokka said suddenly.
“Yes.”
Truth.
“How old is he?” Katara asked.
“Four,” Hakoda replied. Toph’s eyes widened slightly. That hadn’t felt like a full lie nor a full truth. She settled her expression to be neutral again. “Please don’t seek him out. I know you might want to spend time with him, particularly you, Katara, but like I said, he’s shy. And he’s going through some things.”
“Like what?” Toph asked. She picked up her chopsticks.
“Well, he lost his uncle during the fall of Ba Sing Se. He’s been very upset about it.”
“Poor thing,” Katara murmured. Toph picked at her food idly.
Truth.
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The ocean was boring for a blind earthbender. Toph didn’t spend any time on deck if she could avoid it. Not when sudden gusts of wind might try to blow her away. Their only airbender was out of commission, so it wouldn’t be easy to bring her back.
At the casual reminder of Aang’s state, Toph felt a twinge of sadness. She shook it off, refocusing on her mission. There was a toddler on this ship using a fake name and a fake backstory. Sure, it wasn’t as fun to investigate as the mysteries of Ba Sing Se, but it was better than staring at water she couldn’t see.
Toph made her way belowdeck, past the mess hall and infirmary, finally coming to a stop outside of a small cabin. Inside the room, sitting cross-legged on the floor, was “Nuktuk”. She opened the door. The boy sprang to his feet instantly. A wave of heat washed over Toph. She cocked her head curiously, recognizing the sensation as that of fire.
“That’s why the chief doesn’t want anyone to know about you,” she said calmly. “You’re a firebender.” The boy’s heartrate doubled.
“How- you- but you’re blind!” he finally squeaked. Toph entered the room and closed the door behind her.
“Yeah, but I can still probably see better than you, Sparky.” The boy let out another squeak of protest at the nickname. “Who are you, really?”
“I’m- I’m Nuktuk.”
Lie.
“Who are you?” the boy asked. Toph sat on the floor, her feet flush against the metal so she could keep track of the kid’s heartbeat.
“You know what? I’ll tell you the truth if you tell me the truth,” she said. “That seems like a fair trade to me.” The boy wavered. After a moment, he sat across from her. The heat faded, presumably because he had put out whatever flames he’d created.
“How’d you know I lied?” he asked quietly.
“That’s for me to know, not you.”
“Hmph.”
“What’s your real name?” Toph asked again.
“…I can’t tell you.”
“Can’t or don’t want to?”
“The- the second one.”
Truth.
“I’ll tell you the truth now. I’m Toph. Why don’t you want to tell me your real name?”
“Then you’ll know who I am. And that’s embarrassing. Also…you wouldn’t like me.”
Truth.
“All right. Since you told the truth again, here’s another from me. I knew you lied because I’m an earthbender.” The boy huffed quietly, like he didn’t believe her. “Why wouldn’t I like you if I knew who you were? I already figured out that you were a firebender, and I’m not exactly trying to attack you or anything.” The boy stayed silent, but fidgeted slightly. The temperature in the room rose.
All right, touchy subject. Moving on.
“The Chief said you lost your uncle when Ba Sing Se fell.”
“…Yeah.”
“Was he in the city or something? How’d you know you lost him?”
“People- people saw it happen. And they told other people. And the other people told me.”
“Who? The only people that I know of who were able to escape to the camp were the people on Appa. Appa is-”
“I know who Appa is,” the boy groused.
Truth.
“Well, like I said, only the people on Appa made it to the camp. And none of us would have known some random firebender’s uncle.” Something clicked into place. “Unless…” The boy’s heartrate, which had slowed somewhat, picked up again. “Was your uncle Iroh?”
“No!” the boy blurted out immediately.
Lie.
“Iroh said he had a nephew,” Toph said, thinking out loud. The boy’s heart sped even faster. “I never met his nephew, but Katara and Sokka and Aang did. Apparently, he chased them around the world for a long time, before he disappeared without a trace. The only problem is, they said he was sixteen. How old are you?”
“Four.”
Again, that weird “not a full lie, not a full truth” thing. But the boy seemed to think it was more of a lie than the Chief did. Not to mention, Toph hadn’t met a lot of children, but she felt like someone who was actually four wouldn’t be more eloquent than Sokka.
“…Zuko?” Toph asked quietly. The boy sprung to his feet, his heart beating so fast, Toph was surprised he didn’t keel over then and there.
“How- you-” he spluttered.
“So you are Zuko,” Toph said. The boy – Zuko – stayed standing. “Spirits, what happened to you, if you’re-” Toph made a vague gesture in Zuko’s direction. “-this?”
“You answered it,” Zuko said. He sat down again. “Spirits.” A scowl shone through his irritated tone.
“Spirits turned you into a little kid?”
“Yes.”
“Huh. That stinks,” Toph said casually. Zuko let out a soft snort.
“It does.” He fidgeted. “You- you can’t tell anyone about it, okay? I’ll die if that Water Tribe boy finds out what I’ve been reduced to.”
Truth. Man, he is really embarrassed by this.
“Why are you so embarrassed?” Toph asked. “I mean, you didn’t do it. The spirits did it.”
“It’s still- it’s-” Zuko was spluttering again. “You’re what, ten?”
“Twelve.”
“Does the Water Tribe boy treat you like a kid, even though you’re younger than him?”
“No.” Toph grinned viciously. “He knows I’d kick his ass.”
“I don’t have that luxury. He might be a non-bender, but I’m…” Zuko cleared his throat. “I don’t have access to my full abilities currently, and I’m much smaller than usual. Both the Water Tribe children would harass me for it, but the boy would never let me live it down.”
“I getcha.” Toph got up. “No worries, Sparky, your secret’s safe with me.”
“…Really?” Zuko asked. Toph nodded.
“I get it. I’ve been treated like shit for things I can’t control. I’m not about doing that to others.”
“I’ve heard you teasing your teammates,” Zuko said doubtfully.
“Yeah, over things they can control, like their terrible jokes. You can’t control what the spirits did to you. You don’t deserve to be messed with for it. Especially since you seem like a nice enough kid.”
Zuko spluttered again.
Toph grinned.
“Good luck turning back into a teenager.” Toph headed for the door. Just as she opened it, Zuko mumbled something, quiet enough that she barely heard.
“Thanks.”
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Running footsteps sounded in the hall. Curious, Zuko cracked open the door to his room and peered out. His eyes widened.
The Avatar was awake.
And judging by his clumsiness, either disoriented from how long he spent asleep or drunk. After the Avatar had stumbled out of Zuko’s view, he closed the door again.
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The door to Zuko’s room slowly creaked open. Zuko jumped to his feet, abandoning the Pai Sho board he was practicing with. The intruder blinked at Zuko owlishly.
“…This isn’t my room.”
“No. It’s mine,” Zuko said firmly. The intruder stepped inside. A shiver ran down Zuko’s spine. It was the Avatar. The Avatar approached Zuko and crouched down, smiling warmly at him.
“I didn’t know there was a kid on this ship.”
“I’m not a kid,” Zuko retorted. The Avatar chuckled. The serious, uncertain demeanor he’d had when entering seemed to have lessened.
Good. It’s weird if he’s not annoyingly upbeat.
“I’m Aang. What’s your name?”
“…Nuktuk.”
“Nuktuk. That’s a really tough name! I bet you’ll be a great Water Tribe warrior someday!” the Avatar said cheerfully. “Why are you on the ship?”
“I…” Zuko looked away. The Avatar let out a soft gasp. Zuko bit back a curse. The shadows in the room must have obscured his scar, only for it to become obvious when he’d turned his head. Surely, the Avatar would figure out who he was.
“Nuktuk, how did you get that scar?” the Avatar asked gently. Zuko looked at him, surprised.
He…doesn’t recognize me?
“A…” Zuko fumbled for a response, then remembered his cover story. “A bad man.”
“A bad man,” the Avatar repeated. Zuko nodded. “Is the bad man why you’re on the ship?” Zuko nodded again. “Is your family on the ship?”
“No. The bad man hurt them.” Zuko shrugged. “I’m alone.” The Avatar sat back, horror etched on his face. Zuko worked furiously to control his own facial expression. But rather than horrified, he felt indignant.
Really? The Avatar’s own people were killed. Is he actually still moved by the tragedies of war, even after witnessing so many? Despite his best attempts to doubt the Avatar’s sincerity, Zuko knew the answer to that question.
The Avatar was deeply affected by every reminder of what war wrought.
“Nuktuk, I���m sorry,” the Avatar said softly. Zuko blinked, startled. “It’s- it’s my fault the bad man hurt you and your family, leaving you all alone. I’m the Avatar. My responsibility is to prevent innocent people from being hurt, especially innocent little kids like you.” The Avatar got to his feet, determination shining in his weary gray eyes. “Don’t worry, I’m going to bring that bad man, and all the other bad men, to justice.”
“Y-you are?” Zuko squeaked.
Is a literal twelve-year-old going to confront my father? The Avatar nodded.
“I am.” The Avatar managed a small smile. “And just so you know…” The Avatar trailed off. He cleared his throat. “I was the only one left, too. We’ve got that in common. And if we’ve got something in common, then we aren’t really alone.” He ruffled Zuko’s hair. “Good night, Nuktuk.” The Avatar left, closing the door gently behind him.
When Panuk checked on Zuko later, to make sure he’d actually gone to bed, the former prince was still staring silently at the door.
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The Avatar’s allies were saying their goodbyes to the crew during the night. It was the best way to avoid detection.
For some reason, Zuko had been brought on deck for the farewell, though he had to be woken up. He stood next to Bato, still bleary from sleep, hiding the scarred side of his face behind the crewman’s leg. Even if they saw his scar, it wasn’t likely he’d be recognized, but he didn’t want to risk it.
Toph punched Toklo and Panuk’s shoulders; she had gotten along well with them. The only other thing she did before boarding the Avatar’s sky bison was look in Zuko’s direction. She nodded silently. Zuko returned the gesture, then held himself still as the Water Tribe girl – Katara – walked over to him. She crouched down to his eye-height and gently stroked his hair.
“It was nice to finally meet you, Nuktuk,” she said sweetly. Zuko looked away, part of him reeling with how tender her voice could be.
Of course, the only other times she’s spoken with me, we weren’t exactly on good terms.
“Don’t worry, we’re going to get the Avatar and help him take down the Fire Lord. You’ll be reunited with your uncle before you know it.”
“…Thanks,” Zuko mumbled into Bato’s leg. Katara’s eyes softened further.
“Katara, come on, stop fussing over the baby,” Sokka shouted from the Avatar’s sky bison. He had made his goodbyes first. Katara stood to her full height and embraced her father.
“Be careful, sweetie,” Hakoda said.
“I’ll do my best.” Katara broke off the hug. “We’ll see you on the Day of Black Sun.” Zuko’s eyes widened.
The solar eclipse? They know about that?
“Yes. Remember what I told you.”
“Take care of each other,” Katara intoned solemnly. Hakoda smiled and stroked Katara’s cheek.
“That’s right.”
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Zuko watched the sky bison fly away, an uncomfortable churning in his gut. Without the constant fear of being discovered by the Water Tribe children in the back of his mind, the enormity of his situation came crashing down upon him.
Things had improved for a while, but now? Now, he was back to square one. No, even worse than square one. Uncle wasn’t captured before. There was at least one holdout in the entire Earth Kingdom before. Zuko could pretend the Avatar was continuing his streak of avoiding real harm before.
None of those were true now.
Zuko slowly sat down on the deck, staring at the metal silently.
“Are you all right?” Hakoda asked. Zuko shrugged. “It’s a yes or no answer.” The boy remained silent. Hakoda sighed. “Well, in that case, why don’t you-”
“We know about the solar eclipse,” Zuko blurted out. The crew, which had begun to resume regular duties after the bison’s departure, froze. Hakoda crouched next to Zuko.
“By ‘we’, you mean…”
“The Fire Nation.” Someone swore softly. “Of course the Fire Nation knows about the solar eclipse! Firebenders have a vested interest in their ability to firebend!”
“Zuko.” Zuko looked up at Hakoda. “Thank you for telling me this.”
“You’re welcome,” Zuko mumbled. Hakoda got to his feet.
“We’ll need to send a bird immediately to our allies. If the Fire Nation knows about the eclipse, they’ll have prepared for it.” Hakoda looked at Zuko. “Right?” Zuko nodded.
“This is going to mess up our plans,” Bato said. Hakoda grinned.
“No, it’s going to make them better.”
“We don’t know what the Fire Nation’s preparations will be like,” Tuluk argued.
“We don’t.” Hakoda looked at Zuko again. “But we’ve got someone on board who does.”
“I don’t know if the kid’s willing to turn against his people,” Aake rumbled. Zuko crossed his arms.
“The kid is right here,” he snapped. Aake raised an eyebrow.
“Are you willing to turn against your people?” he asked. The churning in Zuko’s stomach amplified.
My people. Yue had told him not to turn his back on his people. But if he told the crew how the Fire Nation prepared for the eclipse, he would be doing just that. Although…would I? His people weren’t just the Fire Nation anymore. He’d been helped by all the nations. Even the Avatar had promised to bring justice to those who had hurt him.
Zuko touched his scar.
He thought of the 41st Division, the soldiers sent to their deaths as canon fodder. Surely, ending the war wouldn’t help just the Water Tribes and Earth Kingdom. The people of the Fire Nation were suffering, too.
Zuko’s hand fell from his face. The churning in his stomach quieted. He looked up at Hakoda, his eyes meeting the Chief’s squarely.
“I’m not turning against my people,” he said. “I’m doing my part to end a war that has hurt us all. I’ll tell you everything I know.” A proud smile slowly spread across Hakoda’s face.
“Thank you, son.”
…Son?
“You can tell me in the morning. For now, you should go back to sleep,” Hakoda said. Zuko nodded as tiredness abruptly hit him over the head. He allowed Kustaa to lead him to the infirmary, where his furs were waiting.
The full moon shining down brightened. Just a bit.
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