#dunno thought you should see this-

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[dykedvonte]

Preston x Danse is the only companion ship I think would actually work because Preston’s inner turmoil is sort of a loss of faith in himself due to the traumatic experiences he’s faced while Danse is looking for something to have faith in and would find the fact that despite the desire to give up Preston held out so long not just for the honor of the Minutemen but because he had some hope.

It would 100% start off as a lotta unhealthy on Danse’s side as I believe he completely lacks the emotional intelligence (due to a combination of factors) to recognize the he’s feelings as anything but a sort of respect for a superior along with leaning too much into Preston as a substitute for the BoS. Preston may not really have a title but he’s like THE Lieutenant of the Minutemen. Realistically he’s the only companion Danse would probably be comfortable taking instructions from especially for how trusted Preston is by the Sole Survivor and his adherence to military standards despite how unstructured the Minutemen are. It would be him waiting for orders, approval, anything from Preston and he thinks it’s just the desire to have the regiment of the BoS again but he also like when Preston compliments him on being useful or resourceful. He likes the stories of Minuteman glory days and he trades the stories of the BoS that don’t hurt to talk about. He likes the familiarity Preston would provide and he’d be oblivious that it’s not just new found loyalty to the Minutemen.

Yet Preston explains it himself that he’s not a natural leader. He’s not an instructor. He helps manage what the General has put in place and he content on doing that. He relays what needs to be done and does major upkeep but I don’t think he’d know what to do with this guy this literally marches up to him and practically begs for a mission that doesn’t exist. Like the formality and respect is nice but he can tell it’s covering something even if Danse doesn’t.

Danse could go to Sturges for the many repair and upkeep assignments he gives him and has the freedom to go straight to the Castle if he really wants a big mission, but he chooses to come to him everytime. He’s aware enough that Danse only trusts him out of all of the Generals confidantes but it would take a bit for him to understand why. If anything Danse should be strategizing with him as equals seeing as he almost got the Minuteme wiped out and Danse was a Paladin for the Brotherhood with many successes under his belt before Preston even led his first scouting mission. It’s like he sees him as some figure of hope, some one who can come in and add stability. Someone with a fresh outlook who can provide a new perspective for him.

It’s like he sees him like he saw/sees the Sole Survivor but that would be crazy because that would also mean… and then oh, it clicks.

The revelation is both flattering and he doesn’t know what to do with it cause how do you address “I know you respect me but is that the only feeling you have for me?” To the guy who like refuses to rest unless you tell him at ease? He has to reevaluate his whole manner of interaction with Danse cause this is a very slippery slope that he’s sliding down and it’s even more perilous due to Danse’s repressed emotions regarding… everything. There’s an equal chance Danse will try to open up as completely shut down and he’s not just concerned about it cause Sole Survivor cares for him but because he has grown to care for the guy too. It’s not like he doesn’t also enjoy Danse’s company and value as a Minuteman member. He’s not a love at first sight guy but he’s played with the idea, anyone would when you’ve spent nights trading stories, historical facts and beers by the fire in a little home you’ve carved for yourself through literal blood, sweat and tears.

I think it’s one of those cases where it’s agonizingly slow to the actual relationship but neither part are anguished about that. If anything happened to soon Danse would be too dependent and Preston not equipped to handle it. It’s a case where I genuinely think they’d bring out the best in each other cause theyd want to figure out what is best for the other and not just apply what they think is the best. It’s the care that Preston would ask Danse what he wants to do and encourage it and at the same time Danse would be incredulous everytime Preston second guesses himself.

Long story short it’s a good ship to me because it’s just two guys with broken confidences and faith in their roles being each other’s hype man and kissin a little about it.

[whoblewboobear]

Staring down that weird feeling of feeling like too much or out of place or annoying if I say too much or say things too loud or too off-putting to be like- WANTED in any given social situation. To try so hard to socialize just to- idk. I’d very much like to stop defaulting to that scared kid that was pushed away or talked over until I got old enough and desperate enough to say any and every rapid fire thought that comes to mind. Like filling space when there’s dead air then wondering if maybe I did the Too Much™️ thing again and A. Scared everyone away or B. Pushed everyone away so it would hurt less when they leave BC of A.

Of feeling like I need to be useful or smart or talented or pretty or SOMETHING worthwhile so people want me around. I can just be but then it’s like just being has never been enough for anyone to like- stay. Or care. Running is always a mistake bc it’s like riiiight.. no one noticed you ran, babe. You’re not even at the top of their list people to want around. And just feel so low about it that I talk myself into feeling miserable again.

I’m happy, ive been so much happier lately and i dont take it for granted bc it’s so rare that things go okay or that there’s a sense of peace for a moment. I’m creating again and im less hard on myself about it. I have hobbies again, I’m making friends. And still I’m like seeing the other foot start to drop in real time bc it’s like. You’re in, but are you? That constant nagging voice that sounds so much like my own going “lonely again? Good you deserve it”

[paimt]

woag. vibeo game?

(very rough still)

(but now theres more colours)

[bibiana112]

Game of Life - JubyPhonic ; Vane Lily - My Eternity ; GHOST - Hyperdontia ; Lukewarm - Penelope Scott ; "How The Internet Changed Found Footage Horror" by Pim' Crypt on YouTube ; Zero Win Game by kayzero

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[nat-20s]

you actually can tell a fair amount about a person by their favorite disney princess especially if it's mulan. Like oh are you bisexual? And/or trans? did somebody hear the line "somehow I cannot hide who I am, though I've tried" and need to sit down for a bit?

[phontao]

it's drown-in-wips friday today

[the-admin-behind-the-slaughter]

contemplating whether or not i should hc afton as part asian

[knockknockitsnickels]

Man I got kinda complicated feelings on how some ppl talk about Shane. I'm not gonna begrudge anyone for disliking him (I actually kinda hated him at first too) but the way some ppl talk about him does not sit right with me. But also I get not liking the whole "I can fix him" thing (even though that's not personally the read I had on his story, but also I was never into him romantically so that probably affects how I see it).

[cro-dinoo]

ok so ive been thinking about the what the fuck is isma a tree now??

and ive got a possible theory? at least it works with my hcs

i personally hc that isma is a mosskin (that was part of a group exiled from greenpath by the unn cult because they dared say pk is a higher being, but this is irrelevant for my reasoning)

also considering lore tablets it looks like mosskin are plant that unn gave life through her essence/will/dream/whatever you get

The greater mind once dreamed of leaf and cast these caverns so.

In every bush and every vine the mind of Unn reveals itself to us.

then for whatever reason (may be the radiance vs pk crisis or anything else) unn just- got away/ignored her mosskin, which doesnt go unnoticed by them

Hidden Unn, we need you now.

We grow tired away from you.

Our leaves are falling.

so now that unn ghosted (heh) everyone and everything, i think therere two possible outcomes for the mosskin

1) losing w/e strenght unn used to make them alive (ie they turn back into the unmoving-kind-of plants)

2) getting infected by radi (ie they can stay as moving-kind-of plants but theyre puppets to the infection)

therefore, i end up saying that isma may have got the first option and now shes a tree

[unlockthestars]

Trying to write out all my thoughts and feelings about Adam and his character arc isn't working because my brain apparently isn't working right now. But I may be reblogging some things that are....a bit more critical than I usually do (because I think his character and the WF in general were handled pretty poorly, personally, especially as any sort of allegory, but that's a whole 'nother topic), so if you don't want to see that, I'll have some sort of tag for you to block.

[spartalabouche]

i feel like i have so many thoughts about the way people treat positive self harm imagery (not including people who encourage/fetishize it) but i have no idea how to put them into words. so im just here

[xavieremix]

okay so the tags on that last post got me feeling those melon collies so i'm just gonna. tagdump in here. slightly sensitive topics? so uh. scroll down (or press J to jump to next post). or read my thoughts like the morning paper. sorry. cheers.

[blueshykitsune-blog]

Why is my name like hardly ever accepted???

(Looking at lists of names and alternative spellings too.)

Like my name isn't common only because of the way you spell it. Otherwise it's pretty common honestly.

Not common enough that you could guess it. But common enough that a full on school and other places haslve the name (not same spelling though). And it is a unisex name so yeah. I'm not sure about like anything with the way I spell it as well... there's hardly any information on it I guess.

I won't say what my name is. Go ahead and guess! I actually wanna know what people might think my name is.

[freshwaterecosystemenjoyer]

wuh woh bed time, wondering if my friends still like me as a person or if they miss the niche i fulfilled in their lives by playing video games with them and if im inheritly worthless now that i dont interact with them as often