#egg rambles

[eggbem]

Found some underrated Raph expressions

Look at this fanboy 😭 such a sweety!

From Shell in a Cell

[an-eggs-quest]

Ok so. I know what I said about the au intro post but I kinda just wanna. Talk. SO THATS STILL GONNA HAPPEN but this first

[i-am-the-egg-to-rule-all-eggs]

I will not be telling you people my age i'm just kinda curious

[mossyegglette]

The exact millisecond I start to gain some momentum and progress in my career or home life or social life my body just goes to shit and I get fucking sick.

Im so goddamn tired of being unable to make commitments and having to cancel on things last minute ESPECIALLY important work commitments i just want to be normal and do normal things FUCK!

I feel like everybody hates me and thats not even like a crazy intrusive thought its probably the fucking truth because i bail all the time i would hate me too!

Anyway

[sunnysideaeggs]

Why do you, as a targaryenphobe (your words not mine), stan and have a pfp of one of the characters that embodies the worst Targaryen traits?

Ty for asking 🥰 I’m assuming this ask comes from curiosity or a good place, so I’m answering with the best intentions 🫶🏻

First of all: pretty boy with dragon :)✨we’re all entitled to our silly characters

I support TGC (Aegon’s actor) and his work, my pfp is from an interview of him and he wasn’t ‘on character’.

I can like a character because he’s deep and has an interesting story without supporting what he represents.

He isn’t by far the worst Targaryen. Aegon I, Visenya, Rhaenys, Maegor, Daemon, Aegon IV and even Aemond are worse than him. He is a grey character who liked to drink and visit brothels. That’s literally every guy in Westeros. The rest is him fighting for his family and rumors of a perverted fool (literally).

My dislike of Targaryens is rooted in the colonizer, blood supremacist, supporter of slavery, racist hypocrisy and absolutist ideology they practice. I especially dislike Targaryens that buy into that ideology. Aegon is half Valyrian and his claim is based on Andal succession, not Valyrian supremacy in any way.

I also like him because I like House Hightower and Alicent. He’s the first ‘half blooded’ Targaryen king. He shows dislike for Targ traditions (like incest) and does things out of duty instead of entitlement.

I too roast tf out of Aegon when it’s appropriate :)🫶🏻 I am a stan not an apologist. He just happens to have more likable than dislikable traits in my eyes.

His existence sparked the Dance, the conflict that killed dragons and doomed the Targaryen dynasty. Very Targaryenphobic of him if you ask me.

[eggplantusiv]

I'm about to ramble. Scroll past unless you REALLY want to read what I have to say

God leftist slacktivists are fucking annoying as hell. Me when I can't be fucked to think about more than one issue at a time. Christ almighty grow a fucking BRAIN people.

Kamala fucking sucks, I get it! But at least she's not a fucking white supremacist nutjob who wants to see everyone who isn't a rich white man stepped off all rights! He fucking caused an insurrection!

Maybe, just maybe, we can put on our adult pants and realize that throwing a hissy fit about not getting The Perfect Candidate™️ and deciding that you aren't going to vote is like... Childish? And stupid?

I'm not going shit idly by and wait for the mythical Revolution to happen and vote for Kamala because I don't want to see the people I care about suffer and die. And while I do that I'll also still voice that there are people currently suffering and dying in other countries thanks to the actions of the US Government, because I'm capable of caring about more than one thing.

Kamala is by no means The Perfect Candidate, but there never will be one, because humans are imperfect. They're won't ever be a perfect person. Sometimes you have to vote for people who you don't fully agree with. That's the flaw with representative democracy.

[localenbylesbian]

the quene- posts I think are cool, keeps my blog alive while im away from my computer, art or memes

posts i reblog instantly- oh you guys are gonna LOVE this

[eggs-and-creams-of-spoiled-fonts]

TW - Blood Also almost dead dove with mature themes. Its short words ramble that i tried wording as much clean as possible but still visit if you're an adult.

Kunrad x RT Heretic before game events. Not one shot thing just a small paragraph of words

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Kunrad felt the heavy headache. A way to start a day. Bolt pistol beside him with used bullets scattered the ash stains on the sheets and corpses all around more notable the Viscount being around them.

The Scenery isn't normal even in the context of it being usual espionage missions of Theodora's 'whispers of quick termination' literally.

What even is more bregugdlingly sour under his throat, is he did it with the man with heavy long red locks just casually using his lhos sticks with a heavy amesac in the early morning. The man on the balcony turns their head smirking his eyes devoid of pity on their view seeing kunrad now Bare, wounded and bloodied only using the sheets as bondages and its even obvious intentional they did it badly making him lost blood.

"Good morning, My little Serpe. Have good night sleep?"

"If you mean by being stabbed and get smothered by you by my target and you. I indeed get a very light sleep. Vincenzio truly you are helpful"

Kunrad said sarcastically as he tried to move. His body sings of pain straight on his buttocks and wounds. Kunrad dares not to say 'Sore'.

The Man on the balcony Vicenzio, gave wicked grin and chuckled, Entertained and Feeling Good of constant pain he can see his Cousin tried to hide.

"Your praise doesn't meet your eyes cousin. I remembered your enjoying our 'once in a lifetime event' espionage mission on the bed. In God Emperors name i remember you enjoying our little play with the viscount "

Kunrad sneered as he tried now getting his outer garments to dress.

"I dont recall Using a Bolt pistol as a toy fun on bed."

Kunrad recalls the recent night as he moves his hand and expressed disgust, But Vincenzio knows the way the Master of Whispers sway their hips and carrassed on their bottom that even in pain. The cute 'Serpe' of his enjoy their special nightly session with Viscount as a bonus.

Vicenzio hopes, whatever Afterlife the Viscount goes suffer but also enjoy their last moments of making them feel what Vicenzio feels.

And that's the feeling of the taste of power of Overwhelming a unique specimen that is his Cousin sharing the same blood the wench he in his core hates.

[eggloaf4041]

I have bad news. You’re on the worm list… may god have mercy on your soul

[socalled-egg]

Writers for big companies: okay so for this movie we’re going to have a badass smokeshow lead man who’s a cool and mysterious loner and says one liners

Every gay person ever: if this movie doesn’t have at least one wet-cat-of-a-man character I’m gonna fucking riot

[eggbem]

How brutal. How devastating. How utterly tragic it is that the only way to honor his Sensei's last wish is by sentencing him to death again.

Casey wouldn't do it if it didn't mean saving the world. But both times, Leo has left him no choice but to give him up.

[an-eggs-quest]

It’s difficult to think about Jack because of how much yet how little we’re given about him. He’s the only child of Doey that has a canonical appearance, voice, and in some aspects personality prior to his untimely transition.

Once again- this is all rambles so just hear me out. If you have any other thoughts let me know!

Both in game and in the fandom he’s often just seen as the pure one. He’s childish, silly, and experiences his emotions very strongly. But I think there’s just a little more to be explored with that!

I have a headcanon that the Jack side of Doey is just a little more unhinged compared to the others. He’s the youngest and he’s the one who’s been in dough the longest. Doey watched Susan and George die by his own hands. He lived through the HOJ, was tortured by playtime employees, and experienced the horrors of playtime. That shit does things to you. as well adjusted as Doey is.

Jack is younger than the other boys, more impressionable so to speak. If he, now Doey, was raised in a hostile environment where consumption of human flesh and hunting for food was the norm, it’s not irrational to assume he’s used to this and finds ways to make it fun. His intro in game for example: he completely demolished and devoured a toy in front of the player and cracked a joke about it.

A lot of this spawned from Micheal Kovach’s description of Jack as Doey’s “innocent” side. In his innocence he takes horrific moments such as that as just another Tuesday. He giggles as he slaughters pianosaurus. Now, it’s also fair to assume that the other boys had an influence here, which I can agree with! Doey (in my interpretation) is much more one mashed up being instead of three distinct ones so who knows where one boy ends and where the other begins (although it can be clear at certain points). But! I still think it’s fun to think about.

Even as Doey, Jack is still young and childlike but that doesn’t mean he’s a baby ya know? He’s been through his own traumas and complex emotions, even if he can’t fully understand them. I just think it’s fun to think about those implications on his mind, even if it really isn’t his anymore. He still experiences emotions very strongly. He still knows what’s going on around him. He has had the same experiences as the other two boys over the last decade. He should show that more. I think

[sapphicalchemist]

I'm sorry. they put take me to church on Crowley's playlist. And I'm expected to be NORMAL ABOUT THIS?

[chronicowboy]

buck's realtor gets so pissed off by his pickiness that she sits him down on the stoop of his newest rejection and tells him to list everything that would make up his perfect house and buck of course describes eddie's house right down to the natural light and squishy corner. and the realtor goes okay so i might have a place for you it's a house but it's still in your price range because well honestly it's got a history that's made it pretty hard to sell. and buck like heaves a sigh and says i'll see it anyway because atp he just needs to find a place and maddie and chim live in a very nice murder house there's no reason he couldn't too. anyway she drives him over there but the neighbourhood is getting very familiar and suddenly they're turning onto south bedford street and for a moment buck's terrified eddie's selling his place and moving back to el paso but then the realtor is stopping outside of meth lab jim's and buck is tripping out of the car and the realtor is stammering her way through an explanation of the history until buck goes oh it's okay i know about the methlab fire my station was the one to put it out and he sees the dollar signs flashing in her eyes before he has a real look around and it's perfect really if he ignores the jim of it all. looks just like eddie's place and if he can't have eddie's place, which he can't because it was never his to begin with, surely something this close is the next best thing. so he puts in an application and gets accepted worryingly fast and tells eddie all about it and gets really shifty with the details and absolutely does not let eddie help him move in. and then he's spending his first night there eating takeout in the middle of the living room floor and it's not. it's not home. and he's realising that maybe it was never really the house at all. and of course he can't fall asleep there keeps thinking about any of jim's methlab buddies sneaking in looking for a fix and so he runs down the street and lets himself into eddie's and passes out on the couch. he'll deal with it all in the morning. he's home now.

[crimsonamber9999]

:|| I wanted to write now abt 6.4 here now that I can like- say something- I admittingly thought the story was going to portray Lahabrea as a father who seemed..rather cold? esp with Athena and Erich. But now that I genuinely know the full story, I have a much deeper appreciation for Lahabrea in that he did care for his own son. As for Athena...her story hits close to home to me especially, which I've seen echoed around a lot. It's why I was glad at the end when she continued to berate Erich at the end at being useless, he says to her, 'And who made me this way?' to me, it really was...personal. To me, it sort of felt like a coming moment for Erich, regaining his sense of self and his voice again, after a parent needlessly took it away

[mewguca]

I'll put this here too I guess. this primarily concerns Vanilla

Something I feel like I don't see discussed very often in this fandom is how moon being a woman is integral to her character. The way she conducts herself, the way she speaks... it all screams "female social conditioning" and especially "eldest daughter syndrome" to me. Don't be rude, always be nurturing and kind, be patient, be supportive, be selfless, don't express aggression or negative opinions...

...None of us really miss the times when their cities were populated. Imagine having skin parasites that also ask for advice and have opinions...

I'm sorry, that was disrespectful. They were our parents after all.

- Pale Green Exterior Pearl

I've seen some people take her "skin parasites" comment as uncharacteristic and unfounded hatred instead of something extremely telling about how her "parents" have treated and conditioned her. The use of "parents" is very purposeful here, I feel. Her immediate retraction and apology evoke the image of a daughter who had a poor relationship / was mistreated by her parents and is left with conflicting and complicated emotions she can't process. She resents them, but she also feels indebted to them, and perhaps her acknowledgement of them as "parents" may imply affection, as well. Regardless, since she cannot process these emotions (and feels it is wrong of her to hold them to begin with), she represses them. She retracts her comment and apologizes for being disrespectful.

That's probably all she's ever known how to do. All she's ever been allowed to do. Moon seems very conscientious about behaving "politely." Don't get me wrong, Moon clearly values kindness and hope; those are core to her character. She doesn't like being angry, and it doesn't usually benefit her or help anyone.

...It's useless to be angry at an animal following its instincts. Once, a single neuron meant nothing to me...

...I'm still angry at you, but it is good to have someone to talk to after all this time. The scavengers aren't exactly good listeners. They do bring me things though, occasionally...

- Returning to LTTM who has 4 Neurons left

She displays emotional maturity here by acknowledging and communicating her anger whilst not letting it cloud her judgment. Instead of holding things against the slugcat, she continues talking to them, because she understands that staying mad at them won't help anybody.

I don't think being angrier would help her, and her willingness to forgive and let go of it is a strength. But I believe her emotional repression takes that maturity and strength of character and creates something a little more complicated — a woman who struggles to fully process her negative emotions, especially surrounding people and concepts she is meant to respect. Her core values ride the line between virtue and vice (being willing to forgive and caring for others vs being too passive and repressing her own needs), and her actions are layered and nuanced, just like a real person.

This isn't to say she is against expressions of anger or negative emotions wholesale.

...I could read a bit of Five Pebbles in this neuron before formatting it. His condition has severely deteriorated since last I heard of him. The frustration he feels is profound, and that angst has seeped into every part of him, every neuron.I could read a bit of Five Pebbles in this neuron before formatting it. His condition has severely deteriorated since last I heard of him. The frustration he feels is profound, and that angst has seeped into every part of him, every neuron.

We were supposed to help everyone, you know. Everything. That was our purpose: a great gift to the lesser beings of the world. When facing our inability to do so, we all reacted differently. Many with madness...

even back when we were all more or less connected there were those who reacted to their task with anger. I can only imagine they are angrier now, alone in their cans, left only with their insatiable drive.

- bringing one of FP's neurons to LTTM

She empathizes with the frustration that FP feels in a very literal sense; she's processing his emotions from the neuron. She doesn't judge or rebuke him for this; rather, she explains why he might be frustrated, and that he is likely not alone in feeling this way.

So, it's fine when others express that anger. Just not for Moon. Ironically, the fandom sometimes reinforces this. Moon can get mad at you and refuse to speak to you if you treat her in ways she doesn't want to be treated. (setting and enforcing boundaries) I've seen (some) people say she's being mean or unreasonable here. You're not trying to hurt her, and your actions are quite tame. But these actions cause Moon great distress and make her feel disregarded. Holding her neurons likely inhibits their function, jumping around likely overstimulates her, and interrupting her while she's speaking to you is just plain rude.

But some people still seem shocked by this; they're not used to NPCs setting boundaries with them like they're actual people. And Moon is usually very nice to you! So when she enforces these boundaries, some people get frustrated and confused.

...This ties into the parentification of LTTM, a phenomenon that greatly upsets me.

People expect her to be unconditionally and endlessly loving and patient and supportive, and then when she acts like a normal human being, they get mad. Because they expect her to be their mom.

And yes, she is very caring, supportive, and patient! She's also eloquent and enthusiastic, emotionally repressed, hopeful and kind, someone who struggles to assert herself, someone who enjoys sharing knowledge with others, someone who's careful about the way she conducts herself, someone who speaks fondly of sky-sails in flight during big festivals, etc...

She's very caring towards others. Like a Big Sister. She is Big Sister-coded. Her name is Broadcasts is Big Sis / Big Sister Moon. It could not be more obvious, and yet some people force her into the role of "mother" because on an unconscious level, they can only conceive of women as mothers and wives.

Perhaps that is too biting, but I believe it is true. It does not help that her Counterpart (Five Pebbles) is often infantilized in tandem, but that is a conversation for another time. I should also specify that forcing / expecting eldest daughters to take on a motherly role is a phenomenon widespread across various cultures and not something exclusive to the Rain World Fandom. ((it's a widespread societal issue!))

Regardless, this view of Moon as a mother plays into this idea that she must be unfailingly kind, unconditionally patient, and unfathomably supportive. Moon likely even expects these things of herself. The expectations of a Big Sister are not so different, after all.

And she is trying very, very hard. She is exhausted and irritable, she hardly functions, and she has very few resources to help her. Don't get me wrong, I do think she is an exceptionally kind person, but that is because she wants to be. Her kindness is not the default; it is not owed to you or to be expected of everyone you meet. Looks To The Moon remains kind and hopeful because she is fighting every moment of her life for it to be so.

Unfortunately, her efforts often go unacknowledged and her radical empathy (influenced by her unique circumstances) taken for granted.

People often focus on how it feels to be someone's "Little Brother", to live in their shadow...

But what about how Moon feels? What about the struggles of being responsible for another person? Of being an example for them and held to higher standards? Of unfailingly devoting your support to them? How she struggled to assert herself, to go against her sibling... How she may feel guilt over both her inaction and her subsequent action... Maybe she should've acted sooner. Maybe she shouldn't have acted at all. Maybe, if she had just been a better Big Sister, none of this would've happened to begin with.

We don't really know how she feels about all that, though. (She probably doesn't, either, haha) It's all just speculation at the end of the day. And I don't want to make it seem like her "Big Sister" role is an entirely negative or oppressive thing. Again, she is kind! She likes teaching others! She's very understanding and caring, and she has a lot of patience and maturity! I just think it's fun to point out these subtler details.

I think viewing Moon as someone who has been socialized as a woman and as a big sister specifically gives a lot of meaningful insight into her character. And it's not something I see discussed a ton in general.

Other Notes I didn't know where to put:

Eldest Daughter Syndrome I cannot re-iterate this enough

I feel like sometimes people make moon assertive or more aggressive to compensate for her suffering. Like, because she's FP Local Group Senior, she has to be authoritative. I think these people focus too much on the "Big" and not enough on the "Sister" aspect. Moon isn't a girlboss, and that's okay! It's okay for her to struggle with things. (But, being fair, you're not hurting anyone by doing this, so do what makes you happy etc etc. I just think it can potentially come from a place of devaluing "weakness" often associated with traditionally feminine traits, and it's good to examine that.)

Furthering the aggression point, I think some people see that Five Pebbles hurt her and think that there needs to be some sort of retribution. That Moon should hate him, resent him, and want to hurt him back. But I feel like forgiveness makes much more sense for Rain World. Moon isn't being unrealistically kind or too much of a pushover by forgiving Pebbles and not holding resentment towards him; she's at peace. She doesn't want to hurt him or hate him, and doing so wouldn't bring her any catharsis. (And he doesn't want to hurt her, either! i could make an entirely different ramble about why I think the Vanilla siblings could and should reconcile but I'll save that for another time ig) uhhhh this isn't entirely gendered something something Care Ethics

LTTM and FP serve as foils in a lot of ways. I think there is an enlightening conversation to be had about how FP explores / presents traditionally masculine traits or a masculine socialization.

The bennies / ancients / whatever seem to place a lot of importance on Obligations. I think Roles were probably important to them. Being a Big Sister likely had a lot of Obligations that came with it.

I get that LTTM and FP are not like explicitly specifically siblings in Vanilla. I do think it is implied, though. They have a unique physical connection and live in very close proximity to one another. There's no flashing "THESE TWO ARE SIBLINGS!!" sign, but the subtext is there, and I prefer to interpret them as such. alternative readings could instead be "all local group iterators are related" or "none of these people are related". do what you want ig

Was any of this even intentional? I'm probably reading a liiiittle too much into things, but I do think this was intentional. She's "Big Sister Moon" in the broadcasts. She could've just had her normal name, but they decided to make her "Big Sister Moon." Vanilla is subtle and largely up to interpretation, but it is very purposeful, I feel. I don't think they named her BSM just for fun, lol. (But maybe I'm wrong!)

I do not want to undermine FP's struggles and equally fascinating character-writing here. There's a whole host of issues I have with how people see FP, but I feel like many people have spoken about this at-length, and most are aware of the common complaints that tend to arise. With LTTM, I feel like people generally really like her, but they don't appreciate / talk about the finer nuances of her character as much. People like her because she's really nice, but there's more to her than that. ((also because it's fun to talk about that's kinda the main reason I made this))

I do actually have some thoughts about DP canon and the relationship between LTTM and FP and her role as Big Sister within that canon ((like how people misinterpret FP's construction as being for LTTM rather than primarily to serve her Citizens with LTTM being alleviated as a bonus)) but to be honest there's so much to read with DP that I don't really want to try and tackle it. Furthermore, DP canon will on multiple occasions either contradict itself or muddy the concepts it's trying to communicate and this makes it a lot harder to work with when it comes to interpretations and readings aha.

im just a random person on the internet so please don't take my word as gospel. feel free to disagree with me or provide your own insights, etc.

thanks for reading. sorry if this is hard to read on light mode