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toughpaperround · 1 year

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Happy Sigh

Shadowhunter BTS/rewatch podcast with Kat McNamara & Dom Sherwood. Enjoying the podcast series yup yup. Harry's visit gave me joy. All the crew interviews - great fun, happy memories. But HEY! Matt's visit is so heartwarming 💕💕

#emotions are nothing but a distraction #matt daddario #shadowhunters #sh cast #dom sherwood #kat mcnamara #banter #return to the shadows #podcast rec

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year

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ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

#quick vent Look Away Nothing To See Here #i just needed to place my emotions somewhere before i really started to spiral #texts from cherished friends should not cause nausea-level anxiety! and yet!#here i am! running away from the ever-present miasma of guilt and stress!#you know a few months ago i was like 'im going to be better about responding im going to do better'#i Immediately started doing Worse!#i think i stressed myself out too much #pretty much every relationship i have ends up completely deteriorating due to my own insecurities and guilt and fucked up brain <3 #ah yes and how could i forget the Commitment Issues and Emotional Block #mentally i am banging my head into a wall #but its fine Its Fine #i mean its not. its really not. but sometimes it seems like the harder i try the harder i fail #which is something i should be used to by now!#okay so it looks like i Am Indeed spiraling so #i am going to go... list some good things in this world and uhhh #well i dont have the car this weekend so cant go for a drive and some boba. um.#i need to organize my room table Yes that sounds distracting and falsely productive #not gonna tag this with anything actually.#love treating tumblr like my personal diary #ah yes its just me. my personal feelings. and the couple thousand people that follow me.#perhaps i will also buy something online with one of the gift cards i found the other day #buttons from michaels!!! i need buttons! i will go do that!#with the knowledge that i have unopened messages to respond to looming in the back of my mind like a noose! yippee yahoo!!!#gonna... turn of replies/rbs just this once since its just a Vent #i just needed to get it Out yk? not looking for anything other than relieving pressure on my brain #ok it looks like i cant turn of replies for individual posts #just... pretend you didnt see this for both our sakes <3 #look away look away

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longagoitwastuesday · 1 month

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I have learnt things about Geto that I wish I could unlearn

#I think I'm getting about the same amount of spoilers as a few weeks ago except now I understand them #But like. I expected so much of him #Seeing gifs of that one scene in which Gojo gets distracted because of Geto almost made me watch this a year ago #Geto was actually my favourite character in that one JJK fanfic I read that I mention so often even if he had literally one scene #I know so much of the emotional turmoil and conflict in JJK and Gojo in particular depends on him #And you're telling me he's Thanos?#I learnt a few days ago that everything pretty much happens in one year. That there's one year between Geto's death and Gojo's #I thought it would be like ten years. Ten years of the act haunting him #But no? So it's not a broken teenager who has these ideas and is killed by another teenager to stop him?#It's a what? ~30yo man saying Light levels of stupidity? Even worse perhaps?#Goodness I hope this is not so. I hope this is better written than what I am seeing #Because goddammit I can't do it. It would kinda ruin every emotional scene from then on?#That one scene I was so looking forwards about patting Gojo's back or whatever. The one in which Gojo gets distracted. It just. I don't know #I won't be able to be moved if Geto doesn't work xD #I was fearing I wasn't going to like him a lot because my expectations were big but oh my god please not like this #This is way worse than I expected. Someone tell me he actually makes sense. What's the point of this whole political play #in which no one is fully wrong and no one is totally right otherwise? What is the point of the haunting. This feels just idiotic xD #And I don't care about the traumas and all that. That works for the teen not the ~30yo man #It would have worked if Gojo would have killed him like 1-2 years after everything not like a few months ago. Last winter #After like ten years a 30yo man should have realised this plan sucks.#Even if it's utilitarian. Who is going to make clothes? Buildings? Streets and railways? Bread??? Go have a talk with Nanami please #We have been told there are not a lot of jujutsu sorcerers. How are you going to fulfill all those needs out of nothing?#And even if it were little by little so the needs could be getting fulfilled little by little too #If you decimate humans won't that cause more curses? I guess he's thinking on the long run but still this plan seems like a mess #I hope it makes more sense than it's looking it will make because of my god this would truly be the last nail on the coffin xD #I am being more and more tempted to get to Utahime and then just drop this. This is breaking my heart xD #It could be soooo good and it always almost is #And then. AND THEN. Abfksbfndbfkan #Jen pick me up. Come solve this. I am scared xD #I talk too much

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p2ii · 1 year

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I feel like there's something to be said about the way fandom will treat characters who's trauma they can personally relate to Vs characters who they cant

#like obviously fandom has a thing against unpalatable victims regardless of where their trauma is from #but like #people tend to be way more understanding and compassionate to trauma that they can personally relate to or comprehend #in narutos case:#naruto struggled academically and was bullied as a child. he was alone and neglected on an emotional/domestic level #people can relate to aspects of his character despite the fantasy stuff of being a human sacrifice and part of the military and tend to car #alot more about his struggles #on the other hand the uchiha are discriminated against. sasuke is the sole survivor of ethnic cleansing/genocide. that is not something mos #people could even fathom the pain and trauma of. i mean its fucking /genocide/. and ontop of that he was essentially mind raped by his #brother. the person who he loved the most who betrayed him #and is still expected to function in a society that provides no support and continues to objectify him for his clans desirable traits #i feel like atla is also a good example #people can relate to and sympathize with the parental abuse and inadequacy/anger issues zuko deals with. and are forgiving when it comes to #his redeption arc #but when you take a character like jet. who has trauma in loosing his entire village/community and taking on a caretaker role to other #war orphans. thats not exactly a regual occurrence the average person can personally understand. his trauma is directly related to the war #and so despite him doing WAYY less shitty things than zuko. his is still demonized by the narrative. killed off and then mocked #and the fandom largely saw nothing wrong with this outcome #hama is in a similar bag but she also has the whole 'exploding apartments of pregnant women' distraction tactics added onto her #cause just showing colonialism and forced assimilation and fucking SLAVERY is bad on its own isnt enough ig #psii.txt #slavery mention #genocide mention #rape mention

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calciumcryptid · 2 months

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While watching This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans, I keep getting distracted during the JJMethas/MethasJJ parts. There is a certain angle that makes it look like Methas' actor Benz is smirking. I think it has to do with his facial structure and the ways the light hits him and the shadows cast, so whenever JJ is yelling at him and Methas is supposedly just taking it it keeps looking like Methas is constantly smirking and in turn makes me think he is nothing but aroused by JJ rather than angry or upset or any other emotion I think we are supposed to believe he is feeling.

EDIT: I see some people misunderstanding this so I thought I tried to make it clearer. I am aware the purpose of Methas and JJ's interactions is no one has spoken to Methas this way before and therefore Methas is blindsided/amused/aroused by JJ. I'm saying the way the shadows hit Benz face (to me) makes it look like he is smirking all the time, even in scenes/moments where his character Methas should not be smirking both realistically and narratively.

#like he is probably is aroused but i dont think that is the primary emotion he is supposed to display #this is nothing against benz attractive man #but man the way the shadows make it look like his mouth is constantly quirked up on one side #it could also be his resting face i have a resting smirk too so i wouldnt be surprised #but it is very funny and very distracting #this love doesn't have long beans

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thereareeyesinsidethetrees · 5 months

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last post for the night i swear

the real tragic part about the whole science fair incident is that perpetual motion is impossible to achieve

ford’s machine would have never worked, regardless of whether or not stan had interacted with it

(warning i accidentally wrote an approximately 30-tag dive into ford’s character in the tags don’t click see more if you don’t want to read that)

anyway!! good night everyone ❤️‍🩹

#it’s also tragic because ford didn’t know #the impossibility of perpetual motion was discovered far before that point and yet he didn’t know #i mean. ‘he’s actually just so arrogant that he thought he could break the laws of physics’ doesn’t make any sense #his reaction to the situation really didn’t match that interpretation as far as i can tell #i don’t think it’s just a ‘oh no! my dream school (that i was essentially shoved into pursuing)!’ type deal #here’s what i’m thinking:#fact one- stan and ford were seemingly already drifting apart by this point in time. this is important to note #fact two- it’s really emphasized to him that he’s smart. that’s all they say about him really- that’s he’s a genius #fact three- filbrick does not even care enough about stanford to say his name. he calls ford his ‘ticket out of this dump’#these last two points were likely heavily emphasized to him throughout his childhood #filbrick found out ford was smart and thought stan wasn’t. so ford became his plan to make money #ford is heavily bullied for his weirdness. his hands and his interests. being smart could ‘make up’ for this in his mind #he wants to leave. he outright states this- he doesn’t feel like he belongs and he wants to go somewhere he does (his own bermuda triangle)#so what essentially happened- i believe- is that ford internalized all these things #that his weirdness is bad and that he makes up for it by being smart and that he’s meant to make his family money-#-and that he wants out #his machine fails. this is a slap in the face to him. perpetual motion is impossible?#but why didn’t he know that? he’s supposed to be smart isn’t he? if he isn’t smart then what the hell is he?#what redeeming qualities does he have? how is he supposed to help his family now? he’s a failure isn’t he?#he spots a familiar bag. stan was here. suddenly he has an excuse- a reason to believe it wasn’t his fault #(and there’s really nothing to be at fault for but he doesn’t think that)#it’s easier to blame it on stan because of how distant they’ve grown. he can’t read stan as easily #and his reaction is suspicious- did he actually sabotage the project? is it…actually not ford’s fault at all?#they don’t speak to each other again for another decade #stan because he’s afraid of rejection #ford because he doesn’t want to face his own insecurities and emotions about everything #it’s easier to pretend that he wants to be famous and isn’t just doing it to make it his father money #and it’s easier to distract himself with things he loves than to feel all the guilt and hurt and frustration #and that. is perfect for bill to use to manipulate him #that’s my thoughts anyway. sorry for the rant was not expecting that to happen

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sailforvalinor · 8 months

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…well, turns out changing to a Jo pfp is fitting in more ways than one.

#yeah turns out I’m going to be having a Jo and Laurie on the Hill moment. hopefully not to such a dramatic degree but #I went out with The Boy yesterday and I was dreading it so much #and it was fine but then at the end he asked if we could make it official that we were dating #and I asked him to give me a little bit of time to think (which he was super sweet about he did literally nothing wrong)#but yeah I just came to the conclusion within ten seconds of leaving the restaurant that it wasn’t going to work. like I felt nothing when #he asked me that question. and I wanted this to work so bad! it makes so much sense on paper but I’m just not feeling it #and I talked to my dad about it and he said that because the part of the brain that processes emotions is not connected to the part that #processes language aren’t connected that people who are married struggle to put into words why they married their spouse #so if I can’t put into words why I don’t want to date this guy it’s perfectly valid #and I suppose he’s right I just feel terrible about it. like how often do you find a guy this courteous and genuinely good? and like I #think maybe part of what’s bothering me was that there was almost no romance to this. like never at any point did he tell me that he even #liked me. it was just ‘hey we’ve hung out a few times now should we say we’re dating?’ and I’m not trying to rag on him he’s probably just #shy but it rang a little like a business proposition to me #but ugh. now I have to call (because I’m not going to do it over text) and break this poor boy’s heart #it’s a really good thing I have the play and my novel to distract me otherwise I’d be a mess #anyway prayers would be appreciated

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cuteniarose · 2 months

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Making memes instead of crying because I went to Ghazan’s school of coping with depression

(Context, because apparently not everyone is aware of the intricacies of the multiverse of madness @katkastrofa and I created together:

In my main fic verse, SotRL, Bolin will end up really close friends with Midori, Mingzan’s daughter, to the point that they begin considering each other siblings. Ghazan’s rather fond of the kid, who treats him as literally the coolest man in existence and begs to learn lavabending from him, and Bolin REALLY needs a positive father figure in his life, and Midori is already his sister, so… one thing leads to another, Ghazan is Bolin’s dad now. And Ming-Hua is a lot more neutral on Bolin but she sees how much her partner and daughter like having him around, so eventually warms up too. She’s not the most maternal with him, probably calls him ‘son boy’ the way people on here do with kittens [because that is HILARIOUS to me. fucking sue me if you don’t like it], but she likes him well enough. Of course, this all raises the question of Mako, who happens to be… not on the best of terms with this family, Ming-Hua in particular, especially after Book 3…)

#P’Li is a bit warmer (I’ll see myself out) with him bc he’s the last link she has to her mother. but Ming-Hua is unswayable 😂#oh yeah mako and bolin are P’Li’s nephews. Naoki was her cousin. another fun trivia tidbit #idk I suddenly remembered this meme at about 6 a.m. thought of this and laughed uncontrollably for a good 10 minutes #and knew I had to make it. of course then my day got offset by a huge crying fit because I got emotional over some tiny thing. again #this stress is gonna kill me one day #and as I was recovering from yet another onslaught of tears I suddenly thought of this again #and made it to distract myself #so… yeah #target audience of ONE no one else will understand the sheer hilarity #hi Kat <3 #tumblr is gonna nerf the quality of this so badly I can already tell. oh well. nothing I can do #I can. however. talk about how unfairly attractive ming-hua is in that picture #look I may be aroace now but my love for ming-hua is eternal thank you very much 😁#Kat and Nia and their multiverse of madness

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invinciblerodent · 5 months

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[Shadowheart: I've squandered too much time already. I want to be with you. Now and always. Do you want the same?]

Uh.

considering that he's never looked at another person like this before, yeah girl, I feel like it's safe to say that he probably does wanna be your boyfriend

(now, is it a good idea to make a situationship official right when you're quite literally fresh out of an extremely traumatic moment, and are about to head into the next, which is also a good contender for one of the top 3 worst moments of both your lives? maybe not. but, hey, counterpoint? he brought you a flower that one time and has pretty hazel eyes that go all soft and round when he looks at you, so, yknow, why the fuck not I guess.)

#squirrel plays bg3 #oc: petyr wildbrook #hi yes it's a pain day so i'm trying to distract myself by finally going through the end of act 2 #i kind of love how so far i've been through here three times #and i'd sooner leave behind Gale whose main story like... basically hinges on this moment #than Astarion who hates every single minute of all of it and has nothing to do with anything #first time? “idk what to expect; maybe there are locks; i'll need my rogue”#second time? “sorry babe; you're my boyfriend; you kind of signed up for this”#third time? “okay i need my moderately-useless gf; the guy whose rapier i wanna get; aaaaand my emotional support asshole"#“come on ya buncha losers let's fuckin go”

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relicsongmel · 2 months

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Being a music-based synesthete with absolute pitch is wonderful but so frustrating because the vast majority of people have no context for the way I experience music and thus whenever I try to explain it it makes no sense to them. What do you mean you can't tell what color this song is. What do you mean you don't hear a Bb minor chord and feel your body react to it before your brain does. What do you mean you can't feel the warm sunbeams of D major dancing across your face. My world is filled with musical color but even if people think it's cool they will never really see it and it makes me sad

#mel's musings #to say NOTHING of all the melodic and harmonic figures that make me go fucking feral that laypeople have no frame of reference for #all i want is to go into excruciating detail about my favorite chords and progressions and dissonances and how they make me feel #but i have almost no way of doing that without sounding like an absolute lunatic. tragic :'(#it's honestly one of my biggest reservations when it comes to posting more of my musical analysis here #i want to talk about how harmonic language among other things is used to express emotion in video game music #but i genuinely don't know how to do that without speedrunning everyone through semester 1 of my college music theory class #i need to cover my bases in that sense for non-musicians reading. but it'd also be boring for people who've already been through that #plus that excessive explanation would distract from the points i REALLY wanna make #how do i explain modal mixture or secondary dominance to people who don't know functional harmony. truly #and how do i balance the basic stuff with Actual Analysis for my fellow music freaks. because i KNOW y'all are out there too #maybe one day i'll just say fuck it we ball and throw something out there despite my fear of being too technical #but who knows honestly. the adhd is still adhd-ing and the Fog is still Fogging. unfortunately #but anyway uhhh. if you made it this far thanks i guess and if you have feedback i'd love to hear it #music nerd shit

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piplupod · 2 months

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mistakes were made. should not have gone to library today. i will be leaving the house all five days of the week now (plus we went to a waterside on sunday for several hours) and uhm... i feel like i need to go hibernate for several weeks to feel even remotely okay again fhdkdl i am so tired i can barely think enough to string words together in any comprehendable way 🧍<- upset

#oohoohoo the self destructive ''well maybe I'll just push myself bc im going to be tired either way'' sure was a bad choice!#''lol who cares anymore im sick of being fatigued and im probably just making it up'' you are a fucking idiot god bless your soul #and yet.... the urge to Make It Worse is still so strong.... gee i sure do love p.mdd!#honest to god im so fucking frustrated w this brain lately #been trying to hide any sharps away from myself because I've just been so wildly careening into self destructive tendencies #and im sick of trying to like. control myself. i am my own keeper and im fucking sick of it gjfkdl #im trying so fucking hard to hold it together and keep myself on the right path but im really just incredibly tired #it feels like im trying to wrestle a knife out of a toddler's hand #and then the toddler cries and tantrums bc they wanted the knife #and i have nothing to give them to distract them. except im also the toddler.#idk how long i can keep this up for bc im ALSO managing other ppls emotions and baggage and shit at the centre #and over text. mainly that one person who i wish would just fucking leave me alone #but her grandma is literally on her deathbed so I can't rly try learning how to be firm rn #bc if i try to be firm i worry i will end up being a dick and i dont want to do that while she's struggling w pre-emptive grief #i don't know !!! im just so goddamn exhausted and struggling #and the world seems very cruel and terrifying and im honestly convinced im never going to find a way to exist peacefully in it #like im always going to be scared and struggle to trust ppl and struggle to socialize and feel safe anywhere #im going to be so honest. i wish i had One friend irl fhfkdl like. i think that would help a lot of my issues #to have someone i care about and respect and who actually cares about AND respects me back #and who i could just. be around. exist in the same vicinity. and not feel so scared and unsafe #a bit of a break from those constant feelings while not being isolated #who i could do activities with ???#thats actually so hard for me to imagine ever having ffhdjlsl its been so many years since I've had any semblance of that #it doesn't feel like im ever going to have that again :') it feels so impossible. pipe dream. unrealistic and unattainable #okay i need to shut up fhdksl sorry for being so insane on here every day jfc #one of these days i hope i will be genuinely stable for like... longer than a day fhfkdl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #self harm mention

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atlasisntdead · 1 year

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I'm super fucking sleep deprived and it's bcz it's That Time Of The Year Again aka trauma time!! Like straight up what do you do when your trigger is...the weather.

#candles help change the smell in the house but I can't leave a candle burning for too long #and if I do it makes my head hurt #sour candy helps ground me and some distractions work temporarily #but nothing fully helps #it's getting bad again I hate it ugh #cptsd #vent #negative #now I gotta work bcz I'm desperate for money but I'm so exhausted that I feel sick #and I keep dissociating #trauma #traumaversary #complex trauma #emotional flashbacks

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girl-bateman · 3 months

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Feeling sick! Like emotionally and whatnot

#😓#no bc i know there is something wrong with me. but christttt what is wrong with me ya know 😩😩😩 ????#i just feel like throwing up and killing something but i have this weird terrified energy within me that prevents me from like ???#doing anything at all atp #ive been doing better this week. ive even been wroting again. but the core emotion and wrongness isnt gone at all #ive just learned how to work around it #but i hate hate hate walking around my own house feeling vaguely scared of nothing #and feeling vaguely angry. and vaguely nauseous and terrified etc etc #like enough !!!!!!!!!#i have no idea how long they're gonna keep me on their therapy waiting list so atp i might go private #bc i feel like im going insane #the depression is honestly manageable bc ive been through it before #but this overhanging wrongness is disturbing me so very deeply that im losing my mind #and i cant sleep !!!!! bc i either cry or i get angry or i get paranoid abt the past #or even worse i try to piece together the past (never ends well)#but whatever ! im going to hamburg the day after tomorrow and i know that will be a nice temporary distraction 👍

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imreallyloveleee · 1 year

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not intentionally trying to spam anyone's dash with my random riverdale thoughts today but by some beautiful happenstance I am both a) on east coast time and b) unemployed on this, the day of its ignominious end, so really, did I even have a choice?

#i have a lot of thoughts! a lot of emotions! and absolutely nothing to distract me!#its a perfect storm #goodbye riverdale

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tokyocyborg · 2 years

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Trista Mateer, Honeybee Poems

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22degreehalo · 7 months

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Hey, anyone wanna see someone react to the trolley problem as though they actually personally lived through it and were traumatised and and are irrationally upset at people talking about it like it's some funny haha meme but it's NOT A JOKE it was my REAL LIFE!!!!!

Just scroll down 👍

#nothing has ever happened to me lmfao i dont. know why im like this #the trolley problem memes sre funny though I like them #just not. any time a person tries to actually seriously answer the question hahahaha #IMPORTANT ADDENDUM: this is MY PROBLEM that I am unfortunately displaying for your viewing #I'm fully aware that I'm being unreasonable!!!!!!#maybe there is some value in humans admitting when they have unreasonable reactions but also stating that no external action is necessary?#like a teaching moment? modeling good behaviour r.e. Big Emotions...?#teacher's having a lie down. saw something on the internet and felt bad. time for distractions then itll be all good.

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