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nasykuching · 3 years

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milkweedman · 2 years

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Had the first of 3 appointments that precede me getting pain management, which was mostly just talking abt the chronic pain and how it affected my life. Usually i would say its pretty bad but after being asked a lot of qualitative questions abt it i have realized its actually like. Real bad.

#which i guess makes me feel a little better abt how incapable of everything ive been recently #my sister has been increasingly shitty about it so ive been having a lot of feelings of like.#wow maybe i am just being a spoiled lazy asshole and maybe my sister is right to roll her eyes when i say #that i need the cast iron to stay on the stove because lifting it up is painful and difficult #and maybe i am just being intentionally difficult by not wanting to do things where i will have to stand #or even just exist outside my house for long periods of time #feel a bit more justified now. plus the lady i talked to was super nice AND told me i should ask my doctor #to renew that gabapentin scrip. i was worried even asking would be considered drug seeking but also it helped so much...#really bad past few weeks on all fronts though #but today i am spending my last $8 on weed and i am gonna sit outside and do some spinning for the rest of the day #and just generally ignore everything shitty #at least thats the plan.#chronic illness

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gamtozu · 2 years

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I'm failing in every single aspect of my life, but I'm finally vegan now, and this is the best decision I've ever made

#i never responded to the editor of the journal that was looking for volunteer translators if you remember the post i made like a month ago?#idk i was super hyped and confident for a moment and was like 'yay even though i won't get paid i will have something to write on my cv'#but no like i don't think i could handle it 4 days a week when also studying #i know it's not a big deal but i'm absolutely not that functional #i also applied for an internship at turkish airlines because all my friends did #and it was only for the 3rd-year students to start working next year #i took the exams last week and i passed the english exam scoring 90 out of 100 #but i failed at the general aptitude test part that was basically math lmao i got a 52 and the passing grade was 60...#i swear you're nothing in this country if you can't do math. 40 questions in 30 mins??? like why are my language skills not enough?#anyway. so i'm basically a failure lmao #but i finally made the BEST decision of my life by going vegan and i'm not gonna fail at that #god i feel so relieved the past few days and i'm sorry if you read until the end...

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patroclusdefencesquad · 3 years

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kinda fucked up how we're conditioned into believing we need to be working every waking second of every day or otherwise we're failing

#like this is my university reading week and i have a couple of assignments due but nothing major #and I've not done much work the last few days #and i had a group call this morning but apart from that I'm not doing anything today #and I'm lying here thinking #fuck i should be working #even though i SHOULDN'T #i COULD but i don't HAVE TO #kinda fucked that we're made to feel guilty for relaxing #el randoms

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nooskadraws · 3 years

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it's a long way to tipperary, it's a long way to go

some sketches of my dnd faun war veteran gunslinger hector whom i love dearly <3

#dungeons and dragons #dnd oc #dnd #i could wax lyrical about this oc for days honestly i love him so much even tho i made him for #a mini dnd campaign that lasted a few weeks #he had more character development in those weeks than any of my other dnd campaigns that lasted over 2 years #mainly thanks to such a good dm and a wonderful party that gave a shit about the other party members ghghfh #so his part of his backstory is that during the war (a fantasy ww1) he designed a plan called operation clover #he hoped the name would bring him luck but it was a disaster and during the battle he was shot in the leg #by the man he loved (another soldier) to get him away from the battlefield and back home #i rolled to see what his trinket would be and i kID YOU NOT it was a dRIED CLOVER IN A JOURNAL #it became so SO important during his journey in the campaign #i love hector tewksbury winthrop with my whole dang heart

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pineapple-frenzy · 4 years

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Ngl, lowkey don't really like how this looks but dammit I spend quite a while on this so I'm posting it anyway

So yeahhhh, movie night with the gaang, they're watching a scary movie tonight

#gaang #zutara #taang #sukka #atla #zuko #katara #toph #aang #suki #sokka #atla modern au #me casually posting this like i haven't been gone for the last few days #i got so busy with online classes that i couldn't even be on tumblr ajshdhhd #i finally have a bit of time now before i have my exams next week alskjshd #anyway modern au cause that's neat #my art

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snickerdoodlles · 2 years

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the thing is it’s not that im trying to forgive the friends and family that hurt them in favor of a happy ending

it’s that i want Pat and Pran to stand together and their friends and family choose to apologize and to become better people for them over choosing to hold onto their bitterness and pettiness. i want them to see the cost of their negativity and choose Pat and Pran over their egos, whether or not the two of them accept them back

#bad buddy #i was crying it into my keyboard all last week and i WILL get that monster finished in the next few days even if it kills me #it’s just #for me. ive always wanted to be enough that someone would choose me over their ignorance #that even if they had hurt me #they realized that harm and apologized and chose to grow beyond it instead of disappearing from my life entirely #because sometimes the person that hurt you is also someone you deeply love and #it’s a mess. it hurts. it hurts SO much #but it hurts even more when they decide you’re not enough to keep #it hurts to keep them it hurts to lose them it just HURTS #and id just. rly rly RLY love for the people in their lives to choose them #i don’t want pat and pran to wind up losing *everything* just because they chose love #i want them to choose love and i want the people they care about to choose their love for them over their petty bullshit #its not about sides #it’s not about proving a point #it’s about a choice to apologize and to grow and try to be better for someone you care for #instead of clinging to bitterness and ego and harm to someone they care about #it’d be understandable if Pat and Pran chose to leave people behind but I want it to be THEIR choice #and I want these characters to choose love over hatred in the end regardless

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ragingdumpsterfire · 2 years

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The Sun King

#I’ve been sick over the last few days #and it’s been a busy week #and my spoons are basically non existent #all of this to say #so I’ve been falling behind in art #and I’ve felt even worse about that #so I got this little sketch of gorgeous Avad done #and it’s not great but it’s art and that’s what matters #anyway #my brain is a mess right now #horizon zero dawn #Avad #art #artists on tumblr #my art #artblr #sketchbook

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kalofi · 3 years

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you change between such wildly different interests seemingly so often and its inspiring

pls its so exhausting. i’m having a blast tho

#just since i’ve got to college it’s been tokyorev jjk csm haikyuu squid game komi can’t communicate inside job and now regular show #i also have relapsed into bnha a little bit but i am NOT posting about it i’m just reading fics n shit.#also i’m embarrassed to admit but i was contemplating rewatching voltron. i couldn’t bring myself to do it tho #i’ve only watched the first two seasons anyway i got bored so i never finished it and i heard the ending sucks too so it’s not even #worth it to go back and finish. i have read a few fics tho ngl these writers r talented #anyway. that’s all i can think of for now some of my #interests r super intense for like a week then i’m over it some last for longer but i just can’t #seem to find anything that really grabs my attention for an extended period of time #i thought it’d b haikyuu but i’ve taken like a month break from watching it now. not that it’s bad i just stopped watching #i do that a lot i still need to finish yu yu hakusho and hxh and one piece #anyway as i was saying interests like bnha and jjba had me in their grasp for like YEARS #bnha was probably 2016-2019 or so. jjba was like 2019/2020-early 2021 #but now there’s just. small interspersed interests rather than one large over arching one #well i’ve spoken enough. goodbye.#OH. i also binge watched metal family in a day that was cool #kalofi’s asks

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eijiroukiriot · 2 years

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have a quick late-night translation of a krbk comic that warms my heart! the art is very cute on its own but most of this comic is in the writing so i wanted to share it with you guys!

this is an entry in krbk twitter's weekly theme-drawing challenge, and for tanabata, the theme was "wishes"!

sero: wow, that's a lot of wishing slips

ashido: so pretty!

kaminari: ooh, here's kirishima's (slip: i wish for...soon... -kirishima eijirou)

set one: "i wish for bakugou to get his provisional license soon -kirishima eijirou"

"i wish for this guy to not end up having to retake his tests again -bakugou katsuki"

set two: "i wish for bakugou to stay safe -kirishima"

"you too -bakugou"

set three: "i wanna be with bakugou forever!! -eijirou"

"tell me that again in two years -katsuki"

kaminari: A PROPOSAL?!

(the end- but kirishima and bakugou only show up in one panel so here's a bonus)

bkg: ?

(next to krbk's "set three" wishes)

"i wish for these two to live happily ever after -(lightning bolt + tape)"

"don't forget to invite me to the wedding! <3"

#so so cute in so many ways but i'll wait a few tags to gush #krbk #translation #okay...the way that their names shorten down as the notes get more intimate.....;-;#AND THE WAY bkg is going along w it #last week i was looking thru really old posts on my main (like. 2014) - not sure exactly what got me there #but as i was looking i kept stumbling on like incoherent asks my friends and i sent each other and posts of inside jokes #and even just like regular posts that my friends replied to #and i got really struck by this feeling that like...the internet is full of proof that love and friendship were here #just like interactions in corners of the internet - teenagers' tumblrs and stuff - showing traces of the friendships behind them #when i used to search my youtube name on twitter i'd always get unrelated tweets from a group of 3 girls who named their friendship 'mesoki #after the first letters of each of their names #and the way they tweeted at each other seemed to imply that their 'mesoki' was a thing of the past and they're not together anymore #or something like that #just like that. artifacts of friendships collecting dust over time #anyway this comic makes me get all those same warm fuzzy feelings #imagine going to a tanabata festival and all over the place there's pairs of notes in the same two sets of handwriting #starting off as your typical wishes and slowly just devolving into..clearly artifacts of two people who love each other having a fun day #gah. so simple and so sweet. i love those boys

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non-binharry · 2 years

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#tags anon #if the person in question is that italian rat who if she had a gun to her head and was given the ultimatum to remain silent #or give one last ''harry is the devil'' themed thinkpiece she really wouldn't be able to help herself #then tragically yes the poor thing thinks hating harry is a radical political stance #thinkpiecing about how louis hates ''greedy fuckers'' in the same week that he rents a yacht is just too funny to me #lmao the SEVERE lack of self awareness #y'all are fighting with a ua who (regardless of how silly i personally think it is) decided to charge those WHO ARE WILLING #to pay a FEW dollars a month for an additional extraneous service #not even their main accounts which they work diligently and tirelessly on FOR FREE #exploitation is not giving people a choice and explicitly laying out what they will receive in that choice #exploitation is taking advantage while removing or limiting all other options #it's so freakish that people can't even seem to differentiate between the two like live in the real world I BEG YOU #you're really going to complain because normal every day people found a way to make a little extra money each month #while updating you on two multimillionaires like get the fuck out of here omfg #a fucking colonist talking about exploitation bitch be serious #lmao *colonizer 😭😭😭 my brain would nawt let me find that word this morning #anyways none of these problems are real

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l-sincline · 2 years

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DAY 3 - BEACH DAY

01 loves the water, only problem? She gets waterlogged if she stays in for too long (bring the rice!) After being dragged out of the water 01 will spend most of her time milling about the beach making sure that the sun isn’t reflecting off of her and blinding anyone. She enjoys a good beach volleyball game (Although, she has been known to pop balls... make sure you under inflate this one, guys) At least once per beach trip she has to beat agents off with a stick- why you may ask? Because they want to try frying an egg on her back in the hot sun, and maybe some bacon too.

#valorant oc week #valorant oc #valorant 01 #heueueueue happy day three #lowkey hen's art for day off last week inspired this one so shout out to hen #anyways yeeeaaaah chibi thing #haven't done one of those in a few years #how subtle is me not wanting to draw the hands and feet #bet you didn't even notice #sinclines art

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alsaurus-loves-dean · 2 years

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#oh yeah had the anatomy scan today and it was all good!#this kid moves a LOT a lot a lot a lot #but the ultrasound machine was……. literally brand new #so like not many people in the world have seen a fetus with such an advanced machine I’m willing to bet #I’m tellin ya…… it’s fucking insane #it’s wild what you can fucking see #I saw his EYES #I could tell exactly what I was looking at at all times #little heart and all the organs and the skeleton #even the placenta is very obviously the placenta i swear this thing was like witchcraft #like last time was 4.5 years ago so you’d think it’s not that different but it IS #because I imagine they weren’t using a LITERALLY BRAND NEW MACHINE last time #like this thing was literally set up the day we had our last scan a few weeks back #it was literally the tech’s first time touching it lmao it took much longer since all the buttons are in different places #she was all apologetic but we were like uhhhh no we are totally cool with extra time #extra time watching our baby with your magical fucking baby viewing machine wtf #and this time he was bigger and more developed obviously so it was like holy shiiiiit

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goldkirk · 2 years

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in a super young headspace-tint-coloring mode right now and I’m very tired of having bad secrets that keep feeling like they need to be told when that whole mode of life is long over and has no chance of ever happening again, so THAT’S some of the stuff I should be able to just chop off forever and not need to worry about keeping any last thread of connection to it. That should be easy to do. It’s just so annoying that it’s not.

#i know this is a really frilly and wordy way to describe the pretty simple concept of #memories and information being literally connected pathways physically in your brain that have to be physically chipped away at or #physically added to or built a flyover highway-change ramp between #but whatever let me have this. it’s hard to talk in words sounding very concise and controlled when I’m stuck in one of the youngest several #years of world-perceiving like this #I’m doing fine #it was a good attempt and understandable enough to pass #i am suddenly listening to a nonstop playlist of alt-j without pause and I’ve never been very interested in them before #but now it’s the Only Thing I Should Have On. so for future me #just adding that note so you can put it together in the next batch of dot to dot clues #have fun figuring out whatever pattern or realization you’re in the middle of getting to right now! see you in a couple of months or weeks #i guess #😄#enjoy the new perception of the big real-real world and I hope the newly activated mode #sticks around for at least four days this time up to maybe even a few weeks again like happened last year #that was awesome and I hope it goes that way for you again. maybe that’s even the same breakthrough we worked to back then too #and this is our second activation of it and we’ll get the chance to strengthen the pathway more so it’s even easier to find again #fingers crossed for you future me #have fun! take care of yourself #that was a really big realization whatever it was you just had #and I know you don’t get that sense right now but I promise that’s a true thing and you are under orders to do nice things for your brain #and body and do your very best not to question-overthink your way out of it. see how long you can let it stay this time. don’t run away back #to old nervous system Bucky Barnes programming patterns just yet #love ya thanks for dragging across the last couple steps to get here even though you were so tired #way to go you physically changed your brain again!!!!

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palukoo · 3 years

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debate camp cj my beloved

#cj cregg #tww #my post #my art #i havent posted art in so long ahhh. also watch this look terrible once uploaded. i was working with a weird size since it was GONNA be #a sketch but a few weeks ago me apparently had other plans #i just worked on it for like. 6hrs straight then (which was all the sketching and probably most of the face? idk #i did the hair and shirt in the last couple days and they have been hell don't look too closely at the shirt pls #the hair i actually do like how it turned out even though i complained the whole time #anyways i just think she looks really pretty here :)#at some point i'll finish the amy one cause i think its just hair left but that one was a lot harder bc its no outlines and getting her #nose right was hell. that one has a partial time lapse but i hated it bc my drawing app crashed every two minutes at that point in time for #some reason and it would stop recording when it crashed #also we are now at the stage where i see everything wrong with this one but shhh

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ultraviolencced · 2 years

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the only thing keeping me alive is paul and my cat

#not good today lads #like my pilots tattoos aren’t even doing the trick #i have 0 people irl to talk to or spend time with when i feel this way #can’t go to my sister or mom the only people i interact with daily #i spend all day everyday on the verge of tears #i don’t do anything i can’t work i dropped out of college twice from different schools #the last time i saw anyone i consider a friend was in september when we trespassed on a dairy to spend time with cows #she’s not like a super close friend she’s my best activist friend but vigils kinda stopped and that’s the only time i spent time with other #people and like vigils aren’t fun like being at a slaughterhouse isn’t a fun hangout #we would always smoke weed after which was good but that’s not a thing anymore #i’m just an inconvenience for everyone whether or not they actually say it it’s true #i haven’t been able to give my mom rent since 2020 i don’t have an actual income my ssi application hasn’t been processed even tho i filed #it in 2020 i was able to get food assistance but not cash assistance i have to drive to a doctors office 45 miles from me once a month and #gas is $4 now and i can’t afford that my sister hasn’t payed me for the phone bill which is $60 #the seattle trip was such a horrible idea and i never should have done it #it was so expensive and i should have never thought it was a good idea the rental car was more expensive than it was supposed to be #the hotel should have been $129 and pre paid but it was $280 which took almost all of my money after i paid the phone bill and insurance #the only time i leave the house is to go to the fucking hospital twice a week and every few months a doctors office and for what #like it’s not really doing anything but slow the progression of it but like im still sick nothing will change that there’s no cure #shut the fuck up taylor

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