#fck these ppl honestly

[eldrtchmn]

personal rant incoming

[perfectthewayyouare]

I think i understand what everyone's saying about the idol, and honestly going into it I was just watching for troye sivan, had no idea what it really was about, not heard or seen the discourse online (until now 3 eps in), didn't know who the director even was etc. ... but like, the show is a joke yeah?? its commentary (however bad) about how fucked the music industry is right!? just done through this "it looks sexy but really isn't" lens... the whole time i'm watching it I was under the impression that it's specifically depicting 'the music industry' as this disgusting, abusive, manipulated pile of flaming garbage that it can be, and well, is

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...fuck, is that not what they're doing???? do these ppl actually think they're making a edge cool sexy tv show, 100% seriously, and we're meant to be eating it up like it's the hottest ground breaking show of the year? jesus christ, is that what's happening? i’m honestly confused

[imwritesometimes]

always love the whole "the constitution, when written, didn't make any mention of this so we can just take this right away!" as if the constitution isn't supposed to be a 'living, breathing' document that gets updated and new constitutional rights were and are intended to be added......

[pjackk]

Yup got kicked out of my fwbs house today of all days too be fair i didnt give 1 single fck about him at all he just dick me real good and let me stay at his place for 2 months even tho he didnt want me there at all and im just sick of everybody hating on me for no reason at all and making my life shit epecially on valtenines day where i think i want to feel the luv more then anything even tho i dont even give a shit ab him i just want to feel the luv energiess of the earth #ORGONE toninite and it hurts like fuck bu5 honestly im feeling librated as fck being g away from the haters for the 1st time in my life im suck of the constant abuse from ppl in my life and its time 4 me to finaly pave my own way & live my life my way pic related its all i got left but it means im free 4 my firs3 time in my life away from the pieeces of shit but im low key extremelaly honrey as fuck so text me if u give a shit tonihjt before i hurt. yselfRealy bad since im just extremely dapressed and fucked way to bad right now

[hellastress]

MY EXPERIENCE WITH 12TH SUN SIGN EDITION

ARIES:

* These people are like an alarm clock, loud, annoying and wants you to move ur asss immediately

* if u want a peaceful morning i suggest get away with them

* when they do something they want it done or else they wont finish it, this is why they tend to thrive in competition

* they take everything with passion very aggressive in their endeavor, but honestly i love their dedication, they really are the boss bitxh u dont wanna cross

* my parents are both aries sun and when i tell u that i am always stimulated in our house, i meant that shit

* they don’t wanna be late, they always want things to be hurry! Hurry! Fck this shit, my taurus moon ass is always so stress everytime we have to go somewhere

* They are the life of party! If not, the party is their life, they crave a loud environment

* They initiate first, one thing i love them is they don’t let u have the first step, they are the first step

* I find that even the women who have this placement are so masculine in their own way, some have athlete physics, sharp bones and taller than their actual height

TAURUS:

* ohhhh my ppl, but sometimes u guys move like a fckng turtle, pls can we atleast be considerate to other ppl?

* This ppl don’t care especially if they are hungry, they will eat in front of u and wont dare to share their foods, or anything that gives physical comfort

* when deprive of sleep, they will refuse to talk to anybody and when generally not in the mood, everything will be on fire if they are not 100% okay

* They stand on their business, whatever business they have in life, they are stubborn about it

* But if they are in their best self, u get the most adorable, caring friend, they are so chill, so laid back, i feel at home in their presence

* Lazy!? Tf, one thing i know is they will not initiate if things don’t benefits in the long run, i swear they are the most hardworking i know, they have this one goal direction in life that they don’t want ppl to interfer

* everything must be pleasant, they don’t like it when something is smelly or their spaces is stinky, it ruin the vibe for them

* A taurus won’t be involve to any drama, they will let u which is funny cause ur wasting ur energy

* beautiful ppl, their style are so comfy, most of them love wearing pants with good fabric (silk pants, jogger pants, loose pants)

* I find that men who have this placements are feminine in their own way, angelic face, boyish, they have this gentle vibe with them

GEMINI

* What is “shut up?” I love them they are like my cousin, like i can talk shit with them and they will not take anything personal

* They are sooo creative, i love how their mind works, they are so flexible, adaptable, a true chameleon

* They can have like 100 hobbies and they will excel at some of them

* They love to argue for no reason just bc they are bored (diabolic)

* This ppl can’t stop moving, if it’s not their hand, their mouth will refuse to shut up, it’s like there’s something that wants to come out

* Their music taste is top tier! They like pop and trendy music

* Very sociable ppl, they know everyone, ur friends from the other block? Oh best believe they know them, the drama in the other room? Yes they know, they don’t attract gossip the gossip are attracted to them haha

* Undeveloped gemini is a pain in the ass, a true menace, they can act careless and bitchy around ppl they don’t find popular or don’t fit the social standard

* They have a fairy look to them, beautiful hand, fair skin, chubby like, they have a bouncy effect whether it’s their hair (most of them have wavy hair) or the way they walk

CANCER

* Emotional who? These ppl won’t care about other ppl if they are not part of their circle, if they don’t consider u as their friend or family, u won’t see the emotional side of cancer

* Most of them are reserved, they like to observe and move side ways, i find it funny every time a cancer enter a room, u won’t feel their presence unless u care enough to notice them

* They don’t like attracting attention especially drama that don’t involve their family or friends

* They are so gentle with everything, the way they talk have a pure intentions to it

* Don’t hurt any animals infront of them u will not like what they will do to u

* Very innocent, child like vibe even if they look mature, u can still feel the youthfulness in their presence

* Literally the “big sis” most of them carry their family’s legacy, either handling the business, taking care the oldies in the family or they are the baby in the family

* A cancer won’t socialize if they don’t feel safe in your presence or the environment they are in, they don’t like speaking to a larger conference

* they thrive when they can connect emotionally with ppl, i love talking to them everytime were alone, they can be the wiser and smartest ppl in the room

* Like a moon, cancer have different shape of sizes, they’re either have a round face, crescent moon face, or have a crab looking body, like long limbs, chubby like body or either skinny with chubby faces, fair skin and average height

* A lot of Cancer men i know have a good relationship with women, some of them can be surrounded by female friends

VIRGO

* Calm the fuck down? Chill, breathe in, breathe out

* These ppl either a clean freak or the disorganized-organized ppl

* Stop moving their things! they want it where they leave it, they don’t like it when u clean their spaces, leave it, u will stress them out

* They overthink to the point they couldn’t sleep, they care about even the tiniest mistake they made today

* The things u barely notice? Oh best believe they will point it out even your insecurities haha sometimes they are unaware of this behavior of them so take it as a way to develop yourself

* They love to talk shit! I swear this is why they love gemini bc they can talk and rant and they will not get tired of that haha

* If a virgo cares enough for you, their act of service is top tier, u don’t have assignment? Okay i will make one, u forgot something, they will not forget it, need something? Yes they have it, they have your back (pls lord give me my own venus virgo)

* These ppl either thrive in school or won’t care but will still pass enough just because they need to

* These mf’s are selective, if u don’t stimulate them or u don’t pass their whatever tf standard, u will not have any access to them, even the food they ate, the things they buy, they are so practical and picky with everyhing they allow in their life and 10 pts for that

* They love to read, they are so random that you can get a 10+ random facts u don’t even ask for

* Everything must have a meaning! A purpose, they have this WHY in their forehead

* If food is the key to a man’s heart, a Hygiene is the key to their heart, long nails? Eww, messy clothes? Eww! Eating like it’s your last meal? Eww! Like everything must be in the ethical standard

* They observe like a hawk, this is why ppl are not comfortable around them, they are not scared to confront or point ur mistake, and it’s annoying tbh having someone to say every shit lmao

* The corporate style look suits them so well, i love seeing them dress so formal, it gives a sophisticated vibes to them

LIBRA

* Keeping up with the kardashian? No, more like keeping up the peace even tho ppl have done walk all over you, kinda bullshit but were keeping the peace right haha!

* Libra’s are sociable butterfly in a silent mode, u can see them everywhere surrounded by ppl and they are not loud about it

* These ppl would rather sacrifice their mental health than confront a person because they love to keep a harmonious relationship

* Libra’s can be a cheater or enabler they said, but these ppl tend to stay longer in a relationship whether it’s about friendship, because they have already attached some aspects of their life to these ppl that they can’t imagine having to fall apart with them

* These ppl love listening to classical music, a friend of mine has a playlist with just a bunch of classical music, it calms them

* A good ppl in general, imagine those kids who have complete set of stationary, lunch box, good style, someone who smell nice, yeah that’s a libra

* Pleasant in all aspects, they have an artistic keen in them, whether it’s about their style, their writing, their house, everything must catch the eyes, this is why i find them gravitate towards virgo’s sharp eyes

* They love white and blue, pastel in general, them liking colors that’s not too warm nor too cool

* They love justice, they love fairness, they are all about balance but when it comes to their personal life everything is opposite and i can’t blame them bc were humans and life is full of shit

* There’s nothing a libra’s like is when someone act like a decent human being, ppl who have decorum/manners, ppl who take care of themselves, ppl who are stable in life

* They have this vibe of a statue you can see in museum, calm yet head turner

[inkstainedhandswithrings]

Tbb Season 2 SPOILERS below cut

OKAY, OKAY, OKAY, OKAY

Ik I'm like a day late to the party, but that was a JOURNEY. Here are ALL my thoughts that no one asked for :)

FIRST OF ALL, TECH. MY BOY. MY LOVE. (do not watch ep 2 a day before ur period if ur a tech girly. just don't. especially if u want ur make up to stay in tact. that was so rough yall)

me @ tech the entirety of episode 2: honey baby sweetie, pls sit down. sit down, pls. pls honey pLS I AM BEGGING SIT. DOWN.

Also @ all my fellow tech girlies, I hate to make it worse, but I don't think Tech passed out from exhaustion, I think he passed out from pain. because he broke his femor. HIS FRICKIN FEMOR, LIKE,,, THAT'S ONE OF THE MOST PAINFUL BREAKS AND THIS MAN IS WALKING AROUND

TECH SIT UR ASS DOWN, BE HUMBLE FOR FCKS SAKE

AAAAAAAHHHHH

anyway, now that that's outta the way

love that echo is willing and ready to rejoin the fight

love that Hunter recognises that a warzone is no place for a child (would be the first star wars character EVER I think)

I think it's gonna lead to a lot of conflict which I'm excited for tbh. Would love to see them emotionally maturing and realising that maybe they can't stick together. Maybe Hunter and Echo grew in different directions, and Echo needs to go back into the fight, while Hunter needs to take care of his ad'ika. Its okay to walk different paths in life and I would love to see them learning that.

Would be interesting to see where Wrecker and Tech land in that split. honestly, to early on to tell, I think.

Also, where is Crosshair, is he alright, is he okay?

Realising while writing this that I am still THOROUGHLY on my Tech bs, so more Tech from here on out lol :)

did he ever make it off that landing platform? when will we see him?

LOVED Wrecker btw. Seeing him pull a Tech and throwing a weapon together in the middle of a blast zone was just *chefs kiss*

Honestly, the only person that kinda sorta underwhelmed me is Hunter, but we got a lot of growth from him in the last season. I think that now that his relationship with Omega is cemented we finally get to see some more of the others and I'm ready for it. Just hope his character trait for the entire season doesn't stay "worried dad, yells at all his coworkers (BROTHERS), because they are getting his child into a dangerous situation (which is in fact inaccurate. they are just in a dangerous situation. with his child. anyway, I didn't like him yelling at Tech that one time that's all I'm saying)"

MY BOY DIDN'T EVEN REALISE PHEE WAS FLRITING WITH HIM IM---

YEA THAT'S MY BOY RIGHT THERE

(also, phee's name is pronounced like mine phie and it tripped me up for a good minute. anyways, kudos to her for picking out tech from the line up, she clearly has a good eye)

me @ tech when he fixes the data thing for his new friendo: YEA THAT'S MY BOY

also me @ tech when he didn't realise omega was missing: that too, is my boy :') (bc if there's anything I can relate to it's hyper focus)

Also, did yall notice that Hunter never found out Tech's wounded? they're on comms twice after his injury, once to tell them abt radio silence and once to tell them they're back online and transmitting coordinates. both times Tech levels out his voice when talking to Hunter, when he sounded like he's in pain before and after, which I find VERY interesting. Is Tech scared to show weakness to Hunter? Where would that come from? What happend there?

final thought for the night: ECHOS FACE WHEN CID CALLED HIM KILLJOY?? honey sweetie sugar-cubey, I know it hurts when ppl tell u harsh truths but you've seemed tense for A WHILE, DO U NEED A HUG OR SOMETHING?

[cosmicdream222]

im literally kicking myself in the foot for not doing something more worthwhile with my existance... i never knew of manifesting until recent years and while society likes to say its never too late sometimes it feels like that is it too late cause to learn any skill you have to have already learnt the techniques then have good practice abilities on top of it, like you cant just waltz into a sport for instance and take a gold medal you have to do it step by step but to do that again im fucking regretting so much rn cant i just bash my head into a wall and slowly die? or music for instance cant just pick an instrument and be good at it right off the bat again shouldve just fucking picked something and stuck with it

also i never had the likes of tiktok or anything internet for entertainment when i was a kid so in a way it shouldve been perfect chance to really do smth but as always situations got in the way and im regretting existing a lot rn. like why so many ppl so good at their niches or whatever it is they choose to do and theres so much more available now than there was back then but i cant seem to pick a single damned thing that i could realistically do at my age and still feel accomplished bc id just end up feeling behind or regretting not doing it sooner

sorry for ranting abt myself there just if only there was time machine or a literal realistic way of shifting to another damned reality cause this aint it like why im wasting so much of it doing fck all? it should be shameful honestly but like at the same time its kind of impossible with current economy being so crappy

for instance if u want to own a business (which i would do if i could even afford one with my own money but then u got to ha e the job and the know how on running it) seriously my ancestors had so many more things that were successful in their lives and some did have businesses bc shops were affordable back then, education used to be affordable too and housing etc etc. id be more inclinced to then have a family of my own if that were the case but it is not soooooooooooooo then its like even if you want a bog standard job it can still take months just to get something basic. i once did manage to manifest a free bus ride and my teacher not coming to college for a few days but thats abt it. other than that lifes kinda average sadly its not the 1950s and elvis is still dead asf.............. not fair

the other thing that puzzles me and sorry for making this so long but if we are supposed to have had past lives a) why havent we known about it before now and b) how come some celebs dont reincarnate or do the celebs that pass away just get a free pass to heaven and decide to stay put? (in which case i wont blame them but its also not fair that i have to still exist... or fail to exist i should say)

My dude, I understand where you’re coming from and I have been where you are. But you say you wish there was a way to travel back in time or shift realities - there IS a way to shift realities, travel back in time, and live whatever kind of life you want. Seriously. That is the whole reason I created this blog!! So please read through all the information I’ve collected instead of just complaining ok? 😭

All of that stuff you mentioned about your current reality is an illusion. Time is an illusion. It does not matter what you’ve done in the past. The economy does not matter. Your present circumstances do not matter. Past lives only exist if you believe they do.

Look around tumblr at void, loa and shifting success stories. I have shared many of my favorites. People in very difficult circumstances have regularly completely change their lives overnight, wake up in new houses, shift to alternate realities, change their genders, change their ages, bring people back from the dead, to say the very least.

None of it matters because we live in the literal matrix - a VR simulation - and you can have anything you want NOW.

[slashtakemylife]

I am BACK rambling about Peggy's character because DAMN, even Bucky of all ppl managed to fck over her character and it only took one scene.

I dislike any interpretation of Peggy as evil or even secretly a nazi, that's a no, just NO.

Cap 2 made us well aware on how deep the Hydra infiltration was in SHIELD via Fury, he trusted Pierce, he even said he would've taken a bullet for him and Pierce confidently said he knew.

Fury, while shady sometimes, is irrevocably a hero and a good spy, the same would've naturally applied to other characters such as Howard and Peggy.

That should've been end of discussion, period but of course the What If 1988 Peter Quill episode happened and just in one scene, it got fcked over.

Now I honestly don't take What If to heart but it is technically canon realities and possibilities and technically they are the same core characters but in different circumstances that just happened to make one different choice or react to what that reality throws at them so what we see in there is easy to interpolate to the MCU timeline.

And basically, just for ONE Bucky CAMEO they decided to fuck over both Peggy's and Howard's character by having Peggy not only recognize Bucky with his full mask and eye paint, something not even Steve could do, but to also recognize that they knew or there where rumors that Bucky was alive and was the winter soldier and evidently did nothing.

This all for the quickest representation of the winter soldier saga with Bucky getting out of his programming merely by hearing Steve's name when in the movie and other iterations he needed much more, he fought Steve directly and I believe in the comics Steve had to use a cosmic cube to bring his memories back.

Fck even in the same episode Bucky is shown without his mask, Marvel's writers could've easily deleted the first scene and have Peggy and Howard recognize him when he took it off.

Which also why did he take it off? He's russia's biggest secret and he just showed his face to a bunch of americans, one being their direct enemies (SHIELD).

And furthermore, that episode wasn't even about him! It was about Peter Quill and an '80s rendition of the Avengers, Bucky's Winter Soldier subplot wasn't really necessary, they just wanted a very popular character to be in there..

Did I like seeing him? Absolutely

In fact I just watched that episode because of him, I went crazy when he showed up on the trailer.

What really bothers me is that for some time I've seen criticism of other people towards Peggy's character due to Hydra's infiltration on SHIELD and how they had Bucky under their noses but for me those were easy to swat since they were theories with no substance or any evidence other than implications and even the movie provides better evidence against it but in one line, one scene, they manage to hand over just the slightest hint of it and of course you know haters are going to pull it hard.

And they could've easily solved it if they showed they recognized Bucky when he took off his mask later in the episode.

I enjoyed that episode, I did, but I don't take it seriously, there's a lot of evident inconsistencies and you can tell it's rushed.

Firstly on why Bucky was handed over so easily, again he's the russian's biggest weapon and secret, it would've made more sense for him to be sent secretly and the team crossing paths with Bucky when he inevitably tried to murder Peter and being put to light by Peter himself instead of being neatly handed over to a bunch of americans

And how he was able to neatly and quickly reset to being Bucky or some sort of Bucky just by Steve's name alone, it doesn't make sense so naturally I don't take that episode to heart much but it is technically canon and furthermore it does taint Peggy's image a little, just before she's about to be made one of the biggest stars of What If!

I know Captain Carter and Peggy Carter from that episode are different but for fcks sake they are technically the same person but different realities and they smudged her character just to have a Bucky cameo, like seriously???? REALLY?!?!?

I don't know, maybe I'm just rambling but I do feel that yet again another male character has a say on Peggy's character.

[eleni-cherie]

ok nobody's gonna see or care this but I'm gonna rant bc I am sick of my life and maybe someone can relate: so long story short, I'm a 27 year old graphic designer who was working 2 years at a big e-commerce shop until the new asshole supervisor didn't want to continue my contract that expired bc of his hurt ego bc I (along w pretty much everyone else bc he liked to pick fights w ppl from all departments bc he got into everyone's business) dared to argue w him BC HE KEPT CHANGING HIS MIND EVERY TWO MINS AND KEPT CONTRADICTING HIMSELF ALL THE TIME. so I lost my job last October and ever since I'm unemployed. I live in germany (Berlin) so I get unemployment money, but it only lasts for a year and it's already the end of July and I still can't manage finding a job although I've probably applied to 90 jobs by now of which only about 10-15 turned into job interviews - or the new trend "getting to know you meetings". of which only 1 invited me for a 2nd interview. now I get there's sadly so many designers, the job market is kinda oversaturated and for one job probably 20-30 ppl apply. but then sometimes this isn't even the problem. I had an interview for what seemed to be my dream job so I was super excited for this but then when I met the two guys doing it, they were very underwhelming. I mean little to no reaction to what I was telling them about myself and at the end they only asked 3 quite superficial questions. that's it. meanwhile others for companies I'm less suitable for, ask me like 20. then there's this other case, where they give you tasks and I don't mind tasks but one time I'd have needed the whole creative suit for them and like - hello? I'm unemployed and don't have the extra money to spend 60 euros every month on Adobe? I only an old Photoshop Version and that's it. then another time they gave me tasks that were only 40% graphic design related (but very vague descriptions/no real info) and 60% marketing/copyright related and like sorry, but I only have basic marketing knowledge and I'm not a fcking ad writer? there's this trend nowadays, they say they want a graphic designer but what they really want is a graphic designer / marketing expert / social media manager / copywriter / photographer / editor / etc. but still w only a graphic designer salary, so they don't have to pay five different ppl. like FCK YOU!

and thing is, in my desperation I even applied to random jobs (which said "No experience needed" in the description) like vendor or barrista. even in a copyshop where I thought I should fit in bc of my knowledge of print products, but either no response at all or I "lacked sale experience". bc Idk how it's in other countries but here you need a certificate for anything. even for a shop vendor you need a 3 year long apprenticeship. for a moment I contemplated going freelance or self-employed but a) I got no fcking clue how and what I have to do and b) taxes and insurance system in Germany is insane, I read an article and was overwhelmed.

So yeah, I'm getting fed up and sad and mad mostly also very anxious about my fcking future bc it honestly seems like I'll end up just moving back to my parents at this point. idk what to do anymore. I try and try and try, but nothing happens and I'm just done. the pressure is overwhelming and the sad thing is, I purposely decided not to visit my relatives/my grandparents this summer (the live in greece) thinking I "might find a job" and even if not, I don't have the extra money for plane tickets! they're extremely overpriced. and it's sad bc whenever I talk to my grandparents they say they miss me and how they're worried about me being unemployed. and my grandparents aren't the youngest anymore either (83 and 89) and I haven't seen then in a year, so that only saddens me more on top of feeling like an overall loser.

[ginnsbaker]

I'm honestly so glad you just updated today. I was drunk as fck last night because I went to a friend's bar to celebrate halloween. I would've definitely bawled my eyes out more than usual if there's still alcohol in my system. I still cried enough tears tho, damn you 😩. I'm still hangover so I'm still extra sensitive. Still, sober or not, ISS part 2 HURTS.

I'm experiencing a LOT negative emotions rn and I honestly don't know how to deal with it. Vision angers me so much. He's literally a personified annoying pest you can't get rid of. I can't even put into words on what I feel about Wanda. All of this are too much.

Great writing from you, as always. You definitely know how to hurt all of us 😔. Thanks for this. You have all my love even if your writing hurts me majority of the time 🥰🫶.

-🦄

Halloween party! That's awesome! I just watched Young Sheldon all night like what old ppl do these days lol

Yeah, I know how must it hurt. To be the "reader" in the story and have an unobstructed view of how the cheating takes place. I guess when someone cheats on you, that's really how it goes down. They will do all sort of things real couples do... they will do with them what they do with you. And that really hurts. So thank you for even reading this series.

To anyone else having a negative reaction, blame the anon who requested it. IM KIDDING! love u anon

It's a veeeeryyyy looooong weekend no? Enjoy it!

[merrysithmas]

Do you think OBK broke canon by obi leaving tattooine? also, do you think canon should be flexible to allow these kinds of epic stories to exist? personally, i don't see what's wrong with it when OBK didn't subtract from the main SW story at large, it added to it in my opinion

no i do not think it broke canon at all. he did stay, live, and meditate on Tatooine, finding inner peace for 20 years, finding his answers and learning from Qui gon. nowhere did it say he never left, temporarily, here and there, for any particular reason like any other citizen. i like to think he spent about 95% of time there, only leaving for concerns about Luke, Leia, or Vader (therefore sticking hardest to his characterization). that's perfectly reasonable.

and yes, i 100% agree canon should be flexible to allow this. it's a fan-centric problem honestly. some people are so rigid they leave NO room for a franchise to grow AT ALL and strangle it to death. Star Wars fans are notoriously like this. it's like the people who claim (if youre in the USA) that the Constitution can never ever change -- like, times change. more stories should and can be told. 100%. it's immature and honestly limiting and boring to think otherwise.

if it sticks to the characterization and overall timeline, we should absolutely get further stories.

i look forward to MANY more stories like OWK with our favs. frankly - i think they can push the envelope even more with surprises (like Vader and Obi-wan unexpectedly having to fight a third enemy in the middle of a duel .. like in the RotS concept art! before they turn their backs on one another again etc).

the one thing i 100% do not support is adding to "canon" by giving characters who do not have a traditionally cishet romance in original media a cringeworthy cishet romance for the transparent sake of hetero-ing them up for popular consumption. example Jughead from Riverdale (an aro ace character), spock from Star Trek (in canon his wife is T'Pring but they part ways and he never has another romance for many reasons), Bucky Barnes (a fan favorite of queer fans who are the whole reason he became popular).

this is because ALL characters that are not given straight up cishet partners on film USUALLY VERY MUCH gain a huge following from LGBTQ fans. we pretty much make them popular and iconic. this clearly because we can relate to at least someone who is in someway conceivably like us. even if it is never shown because of homophobia or queerphobia of any kind. it's disappointing and gross when a company marches all over that to please a cishet status quo and also, nearly always, obliterates what made the character intriguing in the first place.

so like if they tried to give an established Jedi character like Obi-wan a cishet romance i'd be disgusted. he's a jedi, he is a hermit, he lives a spiritual life, his canon female LI was Satine who died and he refused to even be with her (because of his principles!), his obvious preoccupation with Anakin/Luke/Leia/Vader etc. it doesn't fit based on his creed, personality, history, and what the fans want. so that would be an example of smth i'd find useless and disrespectful to canon - and pure status quo cishet pandering. TCW did it very respectfully by making him have a distant past as a padawan with someone he refused to be with and she refused to be with him in return based on their beliefs - they went their separate ways. very nicely done. it never muddled with his characterization and could be argued to have helped it along.

so there's many, many ways to respectfully add to canon - just look at all the James Bond movies for one - and ways to fck it up. but mostly it's a good idea if ppl are caring about it as Chow & co were.

[rinwanderung]

Hoped to be back normal by now but clearly it isn't

fck it

Maybe just bcs i didnt get a proper pills and didnt go out for a walk a few days i guess

It is so weird when i turn my head i mean ma sideprofile

So worried bcs i have a lesson and a plan w ma friend tomorrow afternoon will i go back to normal by then? Well i dont think so but lets give it a try by walking out

Currently feeling it is not good to be indoor even if i plan to do sth special here which is a lie

U should take a shower first whatever it cost speitually and just FCKING GO OUT

U would never find sth u wanted in ur room if u dont go out at least 3 hours and u already know that huh? Avoiding this makes me gradually exhausted for nearly infinite times

I heard that writing sth right after waking up helpss finding out ur pure and unaffected thinking about urself so i did it today

Surely i feel bad about maself for not going out to do sth productive and makes me happy

Even if i lay on ma bed trying to avoid my reality and what others do, the IDEA im fcking lazy and others arent and im the only one who is not capable of doing sth right in the right time just endlessy fcking follow me 24/7

And I feel so frustrated exhuasted sad ashamed everytime i do (i mean 24/7) And then i get blank and zoned out to avoid this miserable feelings about maself and ma mind run away to the safe places fulled of ppl whom i think doing worse than me bcs it makes me feel better and able to maself separated from the terrible thinkings, but this last short which makes me repeat it all over again every day and every hours

Well avoiding ma responsibility for ma life and what ive done in it doesn't give me any clue and I already know that. Another problem is i dont have any courage to escape from this awful cycle

No words needed at this point honestly.

YOU made urself reach HERE

Then just do

Do not think, just DO

That's the start

[my-bipolar-journal]

27th June 2023

I can never have her read this

Letter to tamana

I miss u sometimes. Like I am doing well.. I don't regret leaving the group. I don't wanna rejoin...I hv found a few friends. They are good. I have trisha for the female bestie thing but I hate that I forgot why I didn't share things with ppl why I had secrets...ion regret telling them to u..u were gr8...its just now I have frnds but Ion hv a frnd. I mean usually when I get out of groups it's like easy it's always easy I hv had so many frnd groups but I never had smONE I'd started telling everything to. I m out here being vulnerable coz I feel like it'll give me closure from our frndship. I never lied when I said u made me believe in female frndships... I hv frnds I hv known since nursery but I never shared shit about my life with any1 until I git scolded by u for not sharing shit with u... it's ok ...n when I say it's ok it's not for u it's for myself...just reassuring myself that it's gonna be ok...tbh ion even miss tanav as much as i miss you....I just miss having someone to send

Cute dresses to

And someone to talk about all the guys i talk with knowing they won't judge me. I honestly was my most vulnerable self with u n it's hard not having u when I have a gud news or I m feeling like evaporating again

And I feel it often..the wish to evaporate

Ever since the jaspreet shit happened n then the parth shit. But when the yuehvir shit happened staying there became the cause of wanting to evaporate

All I had was u I was never angry at u no matter wat went wrong or whose sides we were on...maybe the group wasn't for me

But I honestly felt like u were made for mw

Now we won't ever get to see each other again

I might be starting college next month and so much has happened in the last months. So many ppl. So many boys. Janvi n Tanish broke up AGAIN but ion hv anyone to tell it to...I was better before I met u....maybe when we used to hate each other before the trip...it was gud. I was with ppl I didn't call my frnds but I never called anyone my frnd other than u

U were new n u got me hooked to having a fckinggg best frnd

U honestly ruined my life

when i got that offer letter today u were the first person i wanted to tell it to

but when u didnt pick up that call i realised i no longer had u

n when we were on that call i realised it was over. i m ok with how it turned out. i'll remember u as the girl who went against the dress code coz i wanted to wear a saree n she didnt want me to be alone.

. ill rmmbr u as someone who wanted us to get the same colleges n go on trips together. i didnt go to rishikesh. i just couldn't with you. Ill rmmbr u as sm1 who got me to sit on a khachar and made vaishnodevi happened. I’ll miss you I can not not miss you, but I am glad I no longer have you

ion care if u ss it or read it out to ppl on a grp call. ion care about them anymore. they have done shit and the fact that they have the odesity to call it a fight instead of a betrayal. i never wanna see their faces again. i dont wanna have to do anything with you i hate you and tanav the most coz you two were someone i really really thought fck it dont rply this is just for u to know n yall to know that it wasnt a fight . a fight was wat we had in 11th coz i reciprocated to it. this was way worse yudhvir is a pc of shit. jaspreet a two faced bitch. Tanav is just pretend yk i was wrong ion wanna rmmbr u as a frnd i wanna hate u for not standing up for me. for screwing me over. for being the worst best frnd i hv ever ever had. for making me hate myself . for chosing parth over me even though i thought i was your best frnd you can nevr be a gud female frdn u dont know female frndships ion ever ever want u back i deleted all your no.s but i went to a grp to call u

ill get rid of every way to contact u again i hope we never cross paths

[cruisinmississippin]

S2 of The Office

N honestly it's kinda annoying tht Pam n Jim is a thing when Pam is clearly w somebody else. Albeit a jerk, but has that ever stopped her from being a hoe n wanting Jim anyhow? NO! n Jim's also OK with that.

Yikes. I mean YEAHH ur kinda rooting for them in a way I guess cause Jim's clearly cuter n wittier, n all around a great guy you'd wanna be around w duh.

It's just cringe because it's also realistic? Its a realistic depiction of budding office romance, tht happens anyway despite ppl being in exclusive relationships. That's all there is, but theyre ofcourse gonna write it into a whole thing that's bigger than the show because it's a show. Guessing it's the whole Rachel n Ross type thing they'll stretch till the end of the season. Typical.

Kevin, Phyllis n Stanley on the other hand are my fav characters so far tho. All of them are CUTE AS FCK in every little 1 of their screen times so I wonder who these characters are based on.

[pfqsewers]

thats it for me man this latest wave of changes bye who the fck is joining this game for niet to think we are getting these boost too fast when honestly the pace of them has actually felt so shit that it's made me quit it takes way too long to get them it shouldn't be a chore it shouldn't feel like we are working THAT hard for them bro boosting uzumi no one gives a fUCK about uzumi stfu remove that shit boost bro remove it

He doesnt even play the site yet thinks its too easy 💀 this site is supposed to be relaxing, not some hell for tryhards instead of adding content so ppl dont leave when they are done, he just slows down their progress 💀

[leclerqued]

Not even gonna answer, just straight up blocked them. if you can't find the difference between supporting a driver and just finding them attractive then fck off, honestly.

I DO support the only black driver on the grid and finding MV0 attractive doesn't mean I think he's a good person bc he's not.

Also kind reminder not to put those ppl on a pedestal because they all have their downsides and none of them are actually paying taxes as they should although they have plenty of fucking money.

Throw whatever the fuck you want at me unless you want to make a real conversation I'm not available