#feel o fick!

[feelo-fick]

PHIOOOOOOO you should tell me about yor littol shadow guy........I think they r silly....and purrhaps my oc Castaway and him share a few characteristics.....

CRAP CRAP I FORGOT TO ANSWER THIS AND I JUST REMEMBERED I AM SO SORRY SHSANDJSJXJ

feelo... first off they use any pronouns! second of all, theyre a very shy type — theyve lived in the woods away from society for very long, until the moomin-crew discovers them

they actually play the flute!! cause im not sure if youve seen the post about my ancient flute alarm but its the only thing that can wake me up, so i decided to include it into his character HAHAHA if castaway plays anything, maybe theyd play together huhu

he doesnt speak much at first (or maybe doesnt speak at all? im unsure), but i have lots of arc ideas for the future if i ever make comics for him!! if you look back at my og post there were a few comic panels showing him lowering the scarf around his neck and her hoodie, with the episode title "Under the Hood" — it signifies a core part of her arc that i have no time to explain JABSHABD

some more fun facts, at some point she sets up shop (well, more like a tiny vendor stall) in the woods where she sells little trinkets and advice for a few cents or a cool rock HAHAHA they store their things in their little bucket for safe keeping and pulls them out when necessary (e.g. they grab a minnow out of it and just start eating it as a snack)

going back to them speaking, if they do end up not speaking, id like to imagine they speak through drawings in a notebook, so its just a game of pictionary whenever theyre around HABSAHHA itd be funny to see people try to piece together what theyre saying as they grow more and more annoyed and the drawings get messier

anyways thats all! id love to hear about your little guy 👀👀 we can ask eachother questions and take turns! (and if you rp... ive been waiting to do a moomins rp for a while huhuhu)

[rwuffles]

☕️ ❛ fictolovigo！ ⚣ fick-tow-luv-ee-go

pt: fictolovigo. fick-tow-luv-ee-go. end pt.

︵︵﹒definition ｜ a label for when one's love for their f/o is so intense it becomes / feels intertwined with their very being.

pt: definition, a label for when one's love for their f/o is so intense it becomes/feels intertwined with their very being. end pt.

☕️ ❛ tags！ ⚣ @angeltism @bpdpets @crossstains @seapupz @wailingclowns @autumnmoon-morrison

[kittencomicslol]

Gyutaro rant because IM LITERALLY IN LOVE WITH GYUTARO SHABANA OH MY GOD

LOOK AT HIM

LOOK HOW FUCKING PERFECT HE IS OH MY GOD IM GOING INSANE JES SO PERFECT WTF

HES SO FUCKING UGHHHH I WANNA HPLD HIM CLOSE AND KISS EVERY ONE O HIS PRETTY BORTH MARKS AND TELL HIM HOW PRETTY AND PERFECT HE IS AND I JUST WANNA UGHHH

I HAVE SO MANY DETAILED LITTLE HEADCANNONS ABOIT HOW HE WOULD PREFER/LIKE TO SNUGGLE AND OR SHPW AFFECTION IM ALWAYYYS THINKING OF HIM ❤️❤️❤️ LIKE WOULD U GUYS WANT TO SEE THEM??? ID LIKE TO SHARE THEM

I WANNA RUN MY HAND ALONG HIS WEIRD SPINE BIT NOT IN A WEIRD WAY ITS JUST COOL AND IT MAKES ME GO

AND THE WAY HIS RIBS

UGH

ME WHEN THE CHARACTERS RIBS ARE VISIBLE UGHHH ITS JUUUUHGHHGGG

I HAVE HIS LITTLE SPOTS MEMORIZED(at least from the front angle, thr back isn’t rlly memorized)

BIT I SWEAR LIKE I GET STREASWD OR UPSET AND I THINK ABOUT HIM LOKE

OH MY GOD CAN WE APPRECIATE THE KNY ACADEMY VER OF HIM??? LIKE I KNOW I CONSTANTLY TALK ABOIT HOW MUCH I FUCKING HATE MOTERCYCLE RIDERS BIT HE IS AN ACCEPTION AND NOW SEEING THEM MAKES ME THINK OF HIM WAAA ❤️❤️❤️

AS SOMEONE WHO DOESNT REALLY GET TO LIKE. EXPERIENCE REGULAR SCHOOL BC OF MY DISABILITY AND BC I DONT RLLY GET ALOT OF PJSYICAL ATTENTIPN IRL THE FICKING ENDLESS SEA OF IDEAS I CAN MAKE IP W MODERN GYU SWOOPS ME OFF MY FEET!!

I SO APPRECIATE THE RARITY(or honestly it’s getting more common >_<) OF WHEN HE SHOWS UP IN OR IS PRESENT IN MY DREAMS BC GAHHHH!!!! MY WIFE!!

HES MT FAV I LOVE HIM MY FAV FAV FAV MY LOVEE

Haters will say it’s not true but I just know if he was real he would love me(this is a joke if he was real I know this man would not like me) BUT I CAN DREAM I CAN DREAM I CAN DREAM

This is so me and him coded tbh

I love him I love him I LOVE HIM 🗣️🗣️🗣️ RAHHH NORMALIZE BEING IN LOVE WITH AND BEING HAPPY ABOIT AND BEING HYPERFIXATIED FICTIONAL CHARACTERS BC GUHHH IS SO NICE GOOD FEELING YES THUMBS UP HOORAY!!!

[nevercrowned]

4 3 2 fuck you

listen up yall this shit is ironic striders beats r best suited to trolls hooked on phonics

karkalicious definition makes terezi loco she wants to know the secrets that she cant taste in my photo dyin just to know the flagour i aint doin her no favours no reason y i tease her flush just comes and goes like seadons im jarkalicious so delicious no i dont do kismesis and if you read any fanfics all that shit is fictious i blow kisses mwa dont matter if were just moirails trolls be libiing down the veil for a chance to fill a pail so delicious super sweet so delicious fuckin g adorabloodthirdty so delicious even egbert wants a puece of me im karkalicious l l l l like candy candy karkalicious def karkalicious def goddammit doc scarych stop fucking around with my mic karkaklicous definition makes the shippers crayz neoetss always squealin cutesy pet names like karkitiy im the k to the a r k the a the t and the majority of paireingd had better include me im karkalicious so deliciiosu my body stays viscious all the highblodis ceeling nervous cause im doijng some fitness zahhaks my witness bet that ahip curls neoewtsa ntail and hell be needing all the towels cause imma make him sweat pails so delciiosu suepr sweet so dleicious fuckjgn adorabloodthirdty so delciiosud even egbergg want s a piece of me im karkaliicous now you nooksuckers hold the fuck yp check it iut baby baby baby if you really want me homey get some oatience maybe then youll get a taste i’ll bd tastu taysy ill be laced with lacy its so tasty tasty itll nake you crazy t to the a to the s t e y fucking tasty t to the a to the stey fucking tasty d to the e to the l i c i o u s to the d to the e to the to the ill just soell it out for you all the time i turn around trolls gather round always sniffing at me wanna guess the colour of my blood i just wanna say it now i aint tryna round up any drama little fucker i just dont want you to know and i gueds im ocming off as just a little insecure although i keep on repeatingn how the secrets fuckkng awesome but im tryna tell its a secret i just dont want to tell terezi says i smell delicious so dleicious no i dont do kismesis and if you read any fanfics all that shit is ficitious i blow kisses mwa dont matter if we’re ejust moirails trolls be lining down the vail for a chance to fill a pail my body stays vicious zahhaks feeling nervous cos i got down to business nepeteas my witness meow ill evern let her first ship sail just watch that kiytne be the first in line to fill a pail so delicious ERIDAN SEEEEEE so deliicous YOU CAN TRUST MEEEEEE so deliicous ILL HELP YOU BEEE IM KARKAICIIUS L L LIKE CANDU CANDY Its so delicius ay ay ay ayyy so deliccious ay ay ay ayyyy so delicous ay ay ay ayyyy im karkalicious SHE SAYS MY BLOOD IS LIKE CANDY CANDY T to the a to the stey fucking tastu t to the e to the s t e y fucking tatsy d to the e to the l i c i o u s t to the a to the s te y fucking tasty t to tje a to the to the to the to the d to the e to the e l c i o u s to the d to the e to the e l c i o u s to the d to the e to the e l c i o u s to the d to the e to the now wiat just a mitherfuckign second do j seriously have to spell this shit out untik the end of the ficking song i mean whoever even wrote the original never had access to spellcheck i guess because t a s t e y does nawt spell tasty!!! was this fergie douchemuffin illiterate or something what do you mean human rap artists are the only ones brave enough to something something call it music what even is will smith doing he doesnt thtrow down sick fires anymore fuck this dhit i quit

GO FUCK YOURSELF

[froggyart]

The intro blog was long overdue

So I have just been aware that I am a introvert off and on the internet so this is a get to know me....

Names and pronouns:

Name: You can call me Kermit, or Felix (but I would prefer you call me Kermit)

Pronouns: I am trans (FTM) and my pronouns are He/Him

Hyperfixations:

We all know I like Kuroshitsuji but I also like...

Old Fairy tales (like Snow White)

DC (sometimes Marvel)

Victorian Era/Medieval Times °O°

Old movies and cartoons (Rubber hose cartoons like Betty Boop)

Animal Crossing

Pokémon

Scooby-Doo

Monster High

(I just haven't really been focusing on them because of Black Butler)

I do intend to focus on these in the future if I ever have nothing to draw cuz I sometimes run out ideas of Black Butler (like the horrible fanart of Grelle, Wolf, And Sebs *gag*)

DNI:

People who ship Sebaciel (let's just get that out of the way)

Transphobes/Homophobes/Racist/Xenophobes/Fatphobes (which I have not interacted with, and let's keep it that way) proshippers/comshippers/lolicons/pd-files...

*SIGH*

So basically if you are all these things please kindly fick von and don't interact other than that everyone else is welcome°U°

What you can expect from me...

I do art, that means fanart, my own art, sometimes reblogs of art , and or fanfictions (if I feel comfortable sharing it:)

Starting from today going on I shall focus on other things other than Kuro (and if I don't stick to my word then may the devil drag me down)

Also this blog is 17+ so if you are under the age of 17 I don't post risky stuff, but there might be slight gore or coarse language, maybe sometimes implied things

for example this:

Also I have one another blog if you want to see what happens on that side of my brain that isn't just hyperfixations

ghostlyblog

I usually would just post comics that I make there so, yeh

This is Matts(MC from a comic of mine, and the pfp of the blog)

Also feel free to interact with me by asking me questions and stuff my asks are open to anything involving questions about random things or my AUs, OCs, HCs, or just questions about certain interests feel free to ask away....

pls I need interaction

[moonlit-stay]

(ATE Edition)

This is me writing out my thoughts of each song as I'm listening to them.

Feel free to ignore this😂

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MOUNTAINS thoughts:

OH FUCK

I AM SO EXCITED

PH FMY FICK

SHZJJSHWBWSJDKJXBDJEJDJDUXHRBRJJSJDJDJDHSHS

THIS SONG IS FUCKING EVERYTHING TO ME

THISBHAS ME WANTIMG TO CATAPULT MYSELF INTO A FUCKING WALL

HYUNJIN'S VERSE?????? HELLO?????

ARE WE FUCKING KIDDINGGGGGGGG

I'VE BEEN SO EXCITED FOR THIS SONG SINCE THE UNVEIL TRACK BUT OH MY FUCK. NOTHING COULD'VE PREPARED ME FOR THSI

O AM MANICALLY SCREAMING BRO

Chk Chk Boom thoughts:

THE FUCKING MUSIC VIDEO??????? ARE YOU FUCKING INSANE

HAN'S OPENING VERSE IS THE MOST INSANE SHIT IBHAVE EVER HEARD

ZEND FUCKING HELP

(S)CREAMING BROBWHAT THE FUCKKKKKKKK

THEY HAVE FUCKING RYAN REYNOLDS AND HUGH JACKMAN IN THEIR FUCKING MUSIC VIDEO. WHO THE FUCK BESIDES THEM HAD EVER??????

CAN WE SAY MAKIMG FUCKING HISTORY???????

I WILL BLOW MY VOCAL CORDS RIGHT NOW. I DO NOT CARE.

THE FITS??????? PURPLE BIN????

FUCKKKKKKKKKKK

JJAM thoughts:

AHHHHHHHSJDJDIEHEHDY OH NY GOD

THE SCREECH THAT FUCKING LEFT ME

OH MY FUCING GOD

GOD'S MENU, SUPER BOWL, JJAM

MY FAVORITE MUSICAL FAMILY

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

"GODDAMN" ??????????

YOU KNOW IT'S GOOD WHEN YOU'RE PULLING THE MOST DISGUSTED FACES KNOWN TO MANKIND

I CANNOT GRASP THE FACT THAT THIS IS REAL

NO FUCKING WAY THEY PUT "I KNOW YOU KNOW LEE KNOW" I AM LOSING IT

I WILL BE THROWING INSANE ASS TO THIS SONG HOLY SHIT

I Like It thoughts:

IM NOT READY

OH SHIT

THE GASP I GASPED

JESUS CHROST

OH MY HOD

HAN AMD HYUNJIN'S VERSE????? GOOD LORD???

CHRISTOPHER????

CAN'T LIE, I'D THROW ASS TOBTJIS TOO

Runners thoughts:

AHHH OH SHIT

OH FUCK

IBWAS NOT EXPECTING THAT

THROWING ASS AS I TYPE BRO

THIS IS SO FUCKING GOOD OG MY GSO

I WILL HOLD YOUR HAND WHAT THE FUCK

I LOVE THIS SO MUCH

twilight thoughts:

OH SHIT

THOS IS ALREADY SO GODDAMN BEAUTIFUL

GODDAMN I'M VIBIN

This actually reminds me of one of their performances (one of my ALL time favorite performances, actually)

Is there any sound they CAN'T do? My GOD

This song REALLY makes me wanna dance in the rain for some reason? It just makes sense in my brain??

Stray Kids thoughts:

I'M SCARED

AM I ABOUT TO SOB????

I'M NOT READY

SHIT UP I ALREADY HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES AND IM NOT EVEN 30 SECONDS IN

I have tears streaming down my face.

My eight loves, you've come so, so far

I cannot put into words how proud I am of my boys.

The music video for this song will fucking break me. Nothing will prepare me for that.

Chk Chk Boom (Festival Ver.) thoughts:

I saw "festival version" and screamed

I NEED TO SEE THEM PERFORM THIS AT AN AWARD SHOW OR FESTIVAL ASAP

OH MY FUCK

DHAKING ASS AS I TYEP

O HHUGH MY FUCOSJ GOD

HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO NOT ZHAKE ASS????? WHATVTHE FUCK

THIS IS FUCKING INSSNE

JESUS GUCKING CHRIST

Final thoughts:

OH MY FUCK, WHERE DO I START

Okay, so, years ago I decided that whenever they make a comeback I would stream nothing but the album, all day, every day, until after promotions. Over time, the duration of me streaming the album has just gotten longer.

WITH THIS ALBUM?? I'M NEVER LEAVING. WHAT THE FUCK.

I WILL BE SHAKING ASS TO NOTHING BUT THIS ALBUM UNTIL AT LEAST SEPTEMBER

All bullshit aside, I am so incredibly proud of these eight and how far they've come. I am so unbelievably proud to be a STAY, and I cannot wait to continue to support them on this insane journey of theirs.

Nothing but success and unconditional love to my 4th Gen leaders and kings <8

[ungalossimp]

Ungalo thoughts :

non-verbal headcanons + f/o thoughts

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✧･ I've been semi non-verbal for a while now (autism burnout + trauma response + social anxiety goes brrr). Which means I can't bring myself to talk to anyone, even if I really want to. It even happens when I'm alone.

The words / sentences form in my mind but then I freeze. The words rush in my mind but I can't talk, so it "piles up" in an overwhelming way. It's not only exhausting to talk, it can also feel terrifying - I feel a lot of pressure. I also struggle a lot to maintain eye contact during those moments.

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When things get difficult I imagine Ungalo hugging me / being with me, and it helps a lot. I bet he would understand and help me as much as he can :3

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✧･ He wouldn't force me to talk / get annoyed, and he'd know I can still listen to him - in fact I could hear him talk about his hyperfixation for hours (>ω<✧) ❣

He'd bark at people that try to push me around / get snappy at me because they think that someone being non-verbal gives them the authorization to lash out their frustration at said person. He'd probably bite too at some point x3

(He has the personnality of an overprotective enraged chihuahua with the bite of a crocodile hxhhfcy 🥺)

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✧･ Actually I headcanon that he too can be non verbal. For him it can be triggered by withdrawals / depression / overstimulation, but it also can happen when he's feeling comfy and at peace ; he doesn't feel the need to "mask" by forcing himself to talk.

Finding the words to describe & express his emotions can be a chore, so he's glad he doesn't *have* to do it with me like he does with a lot of people.

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✧･ The other people he's comfortable being non-verbal with are his brothers :3 - even Donatello ! Turns out Ungalo's big brother likes to and pretend to be a jerk, but he's also very protective of his bros and feels very proud that they can count on him (don't tell him it's not just pride, it's also out of love cause he'll Underworld you - he's such a tsundere)

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More explanations / headcanons on Ungalo being semi non-verbal :

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✧･ For him the words often don't form "correctly" in his mind. Sometimes it goes entirely blank - he doesn't know *what* word describe how he feels, or he can't find the words. In theory he *knows* the words, but as soon as he has to speak it becomes a struggle. He sometimes needs a lot of time to 1) analyse the situation / how he feels 2) find the right words. It's one of the reasons why he loves writing so much - words come more easily, and the whole process of writing offers him more time to think about what he's going to say.

✧･ Sometimes the words that come into his mind won't describe his feelings properly, but they escape too quickly because there is no filter between his mind and his mouth when he *has* to talk. It even goes as far as making him say the contrary of what he's feeling. It's like trying to pass and filter a rushing river through a minuscule faucet.

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✧･ Those two situations / reactions might seem very different, but concerning Ungalo they both are a facet of the same coin.

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✧･ Ungalo venting about being semi-non verbal and "people sucking" (+ him talking about Donatello & being proud :3) :

"It's frustrating as fuck, people want me to find shit to say... And then they get pissed at me when it's not perfect enough ??? Motherfucker, I DIDN'T want to talk in the first place ! I only said something cause you made me feel bad for not speaking.

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And when I'm still not talking they think I'm mad at them so they try to start shit and ficking interrogate me ??? It's like... Fuck, you're not my parole officer, I don't owe ya any explanations. I was just vibbin ! But NOW I'm mad because of you, you stupid shit !!!

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God dammit, this is why I don't like people. Hanging around them suck. Well except you babe. Err... And my siblings too I guess - even Donatello.

He's kind of a a jerk but at least he *gets me*, ya know ? Heh, maybe we get eachother really well cause we're both jerks. Also I know he's doing an effort to be less of a jerk to me Riki & Giogio, cause he loves us. It doesn't come easy for him but he really tries to be nice y'know, and I dunno if it's really workin for now, but at least he's trying and I'm so fucking proud of him.

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Huh... Anyway please don't tell him I said that, cause he's going to kick my butt and I don't want to be burried alive or be stuck in a plane crash or some shit"

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✧･ Usually during those moments we just cuddle and kiss in a bundle of comfy blanket. And we eat sweets while watching cartoons - I like chocolate and Ungalo loves those acid sugary candies that make the mouth feel like it's melting. Ungalo becomes so much more cuddlier, he gets clingy like a little pup.

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✧･ Of course I'm beyond happy to provide all the cuddles he needs. Having a sappy Ungs follow me around is definitely a not a bad experience (◕‿◡✧) ~ ❤️✨.

Coincidentally (/s) , I also happen to make a lot more hot chocolate - which he *loves* - when he follows me to the kitchen.

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✧･ I'm the same as him, when I'm non-verbal I express my affection a lot more physically. But I also get shy out of nowhere, and a lot of things overwhelm me more easilly. It's alright though, Ungalo is patient when it comes to it.

We're holding hands a lot more, and I love to bury my head into the crook of his neck and just... Breathe in (>///<✧) while we chill together. Objectively he doesn't often always smell good, but I like it because it's *his* smell ; it's a huge source of comfort to me (◡‿◡✧) ❣ ✨

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✧･ There are many love languages other than spoken words ; none of the affection we have for eachother will ever be left unexpressed 🥺❤️✨

[feelo-fick]

SO I GAVE INTO THE OCS... i drew me and my friends (@akekae and @cherfirefly cough cough DRAGS YOU INTO THE MOOMIN PI-) as the sibling trio - WE FIT IT SO WELL WEIRDLY LIKE DAMN on another note, i have SO MUCH planned for feel-o and their arc... id write it down but honestly i think itd be better explained visually ((cough cough and did you know cool people send asks about my moomin ocs and share their thoughts and ideas about them incidentally cough cough ahem)) fun fact : feel-o-fick's finnish name, rakk-a-staya, is a play on the words rakastaja (a lover), rakstaja (a rascal), and staja (stay)* *cough oguh im not finnish but i trust google translate a little too much so feel free to bash me finnish people i apologize in advace HSDHAHDS

[n3hmof1sh]

NOW I FEEL BAD BC THEY SAID SMTH AND I GOT ANNOYED LIKE OK CHILL THE FICK OUT THEY DIDNT MEAN ANYTHING THEYRE FINE SHUT THE FUCK IP ASTER

Don't tell yourself to shut up!!! Thats not nice to yourself!! >:o /lh

Bdhzjwjw again, it's okay!! It's not your job or obligation to help someone when you're struggling yourself!! It's perfectly okay!! It's okay to have feelings of your own and it's not selfish to prioritise yourself!!!

[midwestemoismid]

i dont know what is wrong with me ok i just need to rant i know a lot of these words wont make sense im just copy and oasting messages i sent to my friend because im to lazy to type also bad grammer

bro i cant physically exist without pain what the fuck is wrong with me why am i like this oh my fucking god everything is so loud what the fuck why can i hear every single little noise why is everything screaming at me what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what theufjc fufikc fuck fuck fucj fuck why is everything so loud why is everything so loud why what the fucj also dont force yourself to rwply if you dont want to im just ranting because idk what else to do

omfg im gonna claw out my arms and lefs i swear to fucking god why am i always in pain

i hate laying on my back but if i lay on my side i have to keep switching everytime bc it starts to feel wrong and yneven

and anytime something brushes against me on an uneaven wag i freak out and irs so overstimulating

also impulsive thoughts fucking shck

its so bad when im overstimulated to like rn i cant look at things that are uneven ir it just bothers me i cant explain it but wtf

om js severely overstimulated, but im not overwhelmed and im rlly tired but i can sleep bc my brain is hyper and idk what to do or how to explain my deelings

bro i fucking hate impusive thoughts or iust existing because i was on a boat today and i had to close the window because all i could think about was theowinf soemthing important out the window or jumping out thw windoe anns i just couldnt mi dont fucmign know

everytjings so overstimulateding i dont know khow to deel with my problems

it feels like wverythings against me right now and i have the cinstant feeling of dread or if i an going to dies oom pleade i dont want to go please o dont want to fuckig die im scared to go to sleep because what kf i dont wake up ive been fucking forcing myself awake skmetimes because of the dread that im not going to wake up im afraid of death what the fuck is going to happen i dont know whats going on anymore why cant i lige in the moment why id time moving so fast why id everything going on i cant keep uo with everything im not okay rnw im not ok what the tukkf isngoing on on in onj dont know wholw to express my feelings or thoughts so im just typing wverything i tuonk without tmaftially thinking because i dont fucking care rn i jutst doknt knkw what to do im sfared i feel like something is out to get me i feel like imm trapped and alone o feel fucking lsot what is going on i sont fucking knkw im sfated scared who am i because i dont even fucming know am i actually real pr is thos all a dream becausre i dknt wevn fucking knkw at rhis point im so fixking scatd that egeruthing js fake and all these memlries lf existinf is fake im here right now but what jf im jot what if indont fucking know SHIT THE FUCK UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SUIT UP SHIT UP SHUT IL O AHYE THESE THOUGHTS I DKNT WAKNT TO THINKA BOUT DEATH OR WHAT HAPPENS I JUST WANT TO BE FUCMING NORMAL WHAT THE FICK IS WRLNG WITH ME.

also 4 the ppl ik irl/online on here plz dont he worried about me im ok this happens a lot i just need to sleep and calm down and shit ok jm ok these are just my constant tjought (om pretty sure a lot of this is caused by ocd i was told) also i am safe and im not gonna act on any harm against myself or anyone else bc its all impulsive thoughts and ik im not gonnq do anything

[tryingtounderstandbrainheart]

Lite senare

Nu har det blivit typ tio ...? tjejer som jag träffat. Alla har så himla olika personlighet och det blir uppenbart att hitta min tribe inte bara är "några bra". Jag är väldigt perticular och jag tycker jag är öppensinnad men jag dömer och bara, nope, not good enough. Nån där kändes lika kul som färg som torkar och hon bredvid mig hade nåt passivt aggressivt som jag inte alls gillade. Haplo hade intressanta sidor och drag men samtidigt osar det trubbel. Som att jag vill fråga henne känslomässiga saker trots att jag inte känner henne och fråga om hon tyckte att det gick bra o whatnot. Min magkänsla säger att jag kör över henne och dränker lite? Upplevde att hon tyckte meh och fick nog. Va det så? Eller va hon kanske bara trött och frusen? Japp...hellooOOooo trubbel.

Haplo slängde ut sig skojiga saker och det märktes att hon skrattade åt vissa grejer jag sa men ändå så får jag sådär...fan jag vet inte. Magkänslan säger nej Trots att hon borde funka med mig..? Det vaju hon som hade piercingar och nån cool svart kavaj med grejer på.

Bredvid mig satte sig en derpig tjej i lila vindjacka och ett smile. Stina. Hon var den enda där som inte var typ 1.50 och hon känns sådär jamen vi är ju olika. Men vi skrattade och det var liksom lättsamt på en gång och synkade meningen and harm none, do as you will.

Emma var ett skämt. Hon dränerade min energi och så fort hon pratade kände jag hur jag bara sjönk. Säkert snäll men ufh..! Boring AF. Jenny var lite både och. Hon hade en energi iaf och positiv attyd men fan hon vände fort och hade en sharpness som kändes som kritik typ. Som att som så jag var, var fel. Allt normalt och sött var bra men jag vet inte...nä. Hon skrattade visserligen också lite men...litar inte på henne och nä.

Zana hade tydligen varit på disgusting food museum och ätit insekter och varit i Indonesien och druckit dedär kaffet gjort på poopbönor, som tydligen va såååÅåå gott..! ojaba...japp I like Zana :) hon sa ju det att om jag nånsin söker nån att göra nåt galet så kan man ringa henne. hon va ju så liten så jag hade svårt att tro det men hon är en svart häst tror jag.

Jess var från Chicago och...också sådär jag kände mig inte ok. Som att jag behövde klippa och fixa för att passa. Vi pratade väl lite på tåget hem men... nja. nån avlägsen.

Det är lite som att prova kläder tänker jag. Det ska liksom kännas bekvämt och easy..?

Nästa vecka hoppas jag att träffa Ellinor och imorn är det...Valeria. Jag hoppas verkligen på henne. Vi funkar att prata på nätet, hon gillar old school rock och ville iväg och åka inlines och gå på konserter. Jag fick en aktiv feeling av henne. "bring bathing clothes!" Jag behöver verkligen det. Men det är en sak med nätet och en annan i verkligheten.

uffh. fulla bullar.

Jag har inte ens träffat kitefolket än och har ingen aning om vem de är. Jag försöker att ta mig framåt och göra det jag vill utan att braka samman. Det är en slags "det går alldeles för långsamt" samtidigt som hela bygget knakar och bara...Sakta neeeeer!

Men det är kul med möjligheter . och det är ju lite insane. Det skulle va kul o gå ut lite också. Jag har ju inte ens provat nåt sånt än..! Ajwannaaadäääns.

Men liksom...inte alla smaker samtidigt. Det blir lite insane. Jag hinner ju inte fatta vad choklad smakar innan jag provat päronsviss, mintkrokant och äppelstrudel och...barbiekaramell och ..!

Jag märker också hur mycket jag uppskattar människor i min närhet. Människor kan verkligen vara så himla olika.

Oh well, framåt! :)

[kool-aidgirl]

Dream4

I was in resident Evil.

O fuck so I was playing as Claire I’m re2 but the game was different. It was like brighter in the way where like it was like a lab instead so anyways I was playing as Claire

BUT then my POV changed and I was now Claire and then I turned into myself well not myself but like the person I imagine I am in my daydreams like a persona I think

Anyways so I was just walking around and I make it upstairs and wa surprise the lab was a hidden place under this house, so anyways I make it outside and the house is on top of a hill a really big hill so I have to go right so im walking down and for some reason I’m like I should post about this on instagrams but I didn’t

so I make it to the gate and I go out and guess what I see not a zombie not Mr X not nemusis or whatever the fuck his name is it’s a FUCKING DINOSAUR AND IT WAS A FICKING ZOMBIE TOOOOOO..

and I’m like ok and I run back to the house. And like how I play resident Evil I just sit there looking at the outside but not doing anything.

So stuff does happen but I can’t remember it

So now I find another exit from the lab to a bit closer to the gate but still on the hill. So I go and guess what I’m like still in the mindset of this is a video game it’s not real. And remember atp I’ve died and came back like the actual game but only as Claire so I myself have not died. So I’m looking at this dinosaur and I’m like trying to figure out what kind of dinosaur it is and it sees me and starts running towards me and I’m like I’ll be fine but I’m not so I’m trying to get to the house at the top of the hill trying to not die but I keep stopping to see it and then I make it to not the house but the side of the house and there is a metal ladder with a small like barrier but not really and I thought I was safe but no I wasn’t and I got bit in the arm and I could actually FEEL The pain like and it hurt so fucking BADDDD.

So now I ‘respawn’ like at a gate not the gate earlier but one at the bottom and for some reason I make a TikTok with the “yes, and?’ song idk and then I get to my home but my home wasn’t my home it was like a cottage and I realize the building I was in was a church and apparently I was working there and that was why I was there and the respawn was the last part I saved Anyways science I’m still in online school irl I guess I still am in this dream because I log into my class and blah blah teacher talking and my cat in that dream was there and idk I’m in class and my camera is on and then I move the camera over to my cat who is not like my cat here the dream cat is orange, anyways then people start talking because of the cat and then someone is like oh you should work at the church that’s behind your house and I’m like right….☺️ and yea dream ends there

[somepancakeonline5377]

I HIOE MY COLD HANDS DIE IN A FIRE PIT WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS I HATE THIS SO MUXHBRAHHHHHH IMEHY JS THIS FUCKING. HOUSE SO FUCJKING COLD I CANNOT FUCKING TALE OT WE LIVE IN TEXSS FOR GODS SAKE IHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCKKKKKKK I HATE THE COLD I HATE THE COLD I HATE THE COLD I HATE THE XOLD I HATE THE CODL O HATE THE COLS I HATE HATE HEATTEEEE THE COLDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDS FUCKUFJCUD DUEGWGAHHHHHH

I am going to COMMOT MURDER IF THIS TOMFOOLERY KEEPS UP I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL SOMETHING AUGHHHA I HATE THE COLD I HATE THE COLD I HATE THE COLD HATEHATHEYAYEHATGETAHTEHATWHATTEHHATEGHHATEEEEEEEEEI WISH TO BURN SITHIN THE FIRES OF HELL AS OF NOW I MUST FEEL THE WARTHM OF HELL NOW I WANT NORMAL FUCKING TEMPATIRE GUVE ME BACK MY 100 DEGREGE WEATHER AT LEAST I CAN STILL FICKING FUNCTION PLEASE I RSTHER SWEAT MY BALLS OF INSTEAD IF BEING A FROZEN POPCHDHDHHDJFJRHRHRHEHFHFJU IM SO PISSED OFFF SO SO SO SO PISSED IFF

[feelo-fick]

Where did feel-o-fick get that stop sign?

dont worry about it.

[fall3n4ngels]

I genuinely feel insane IMMM NOTHING IMM NOT CARED ABOUT NO ONE FUCKCINGVJ CARENONECARES OMFG JO ONE CARES LITERALLY IM HAVING THE WORSY PF WORST THOUGHTS AND I DONT KKOA WHY I CANT JUST GO THROUGH WITH THEM IM JUST THE ONE PEOPLE USE I CANT DO IT ANYMORE I CANT I CANY O CANT I CANT DO IT I CANT DO IT I CANY DO IY ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY HOW I AM SUPPOSED TO FUNCTION OH RIGHT I FUCKI G CANT I NEED SLIT MU WRISYS AND BLEED HAHAHHAHAHAHAHASH MAYBE SOMEONE WOULD ACTUALLY FUCKING START CARING AND SEE THAT IM FUCKED UP BEYONF REPAIR AND I JEED TO BE FUCKING PUT AWAY I DOMT WANT THOS LIFE ANYMORE I NEED TO BE TALEN AWAY FROM EVERYONE IN MY LIFE COMPLETELY ISOLAYED UNTIL I FUCKING DIE I DONT LIKE THOS I CANT DO IT NO PNE FICKING UNDERSTANDS HLW PAINFUL THIS ISSSSSSSSSIICANY FUCKING DP IT IM GOMNA SCEWAM I CANT DO IF

[discordantdissonant]

Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fick you fuck all of you for making us get attached and leaving after you said you wouldnt and especially fuck you for not being abelt o make us hate you I hate this I hate feeling like this and knowing it's never going to fucking leave I hate checking our phone every day and secretly wishing that at least one of the notifications are from you fuck you I want ot hate you so fucking bad

Please you're our stars I'll call you shatever the fuck you want I just want to know that you still think about us or even fucig consider us please