#feeling confident abt something is so nice for a change honestly

[fluentisonus]

got the sewing job :)

[misosick]

dirty little secret - let me know that i've done wrong | bang chan

pairing: bang chan x reader, ??? x reader genre: uni!au, predebut/idol!au, manager!reader, slow burn chapter warnings: an actual argument, scheming!skz word count: 1k-ish

author notes: hohohohohohoh redemption arc time??? is it too soon to tell????? what's next??? find out in the next chapter dropping in abt 2 hours lol. as always feedback is appreciated but not necessary~

taglist: @idunnomanmynamewastaken @freyaniobe @jellyglly (send me an ask if you would like to be added!)

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“Hey…” Bang Chan spoke to you softly for the first time since you started at JYP. It’s not even malicious, and it throws you off. He sounds like he’s realised he’s done something wrong, but you can’t figure out why he’s come to find you. He fights the urge to wipe the stray tears falling from your face as you move to do it yourself.

“What do you want, Bang Chan? You usually can’t wait for me to leave.” You cringe a bit at how harsh it sounded. At least you could blame it on the alcohol in the morning, right?

“What you said, you didn’t mean it right? When you said you moved because of me? That you thought I didn’t want you in my life? That we were a waste of time? You didn’t mean that right?” He searches your face for some kind of confirmation of his statements, that you were at least lying a little bit. It’s false hope, he knows it’s false hope, but it’s all he has at this point.

“You heard me, Bang Chan. I’ve never lied in my life, you know that. Or, at least, you knew that. I’m not sure what you know about me now. Not a lot, it seems.” You retort. It feels weird being the snarky one in comparison to him, but you’re still not sure what he’s doing in here.

“Stop calling me Bang Chan. You never called me Bang Chan. You know me Y/N, why are you acting so strange? Like you’ve never met me?”

“Because I don’t know who you are! I just met you! You’ve been treating me like the shit on the bottom of your shoe for the last two months and you expect me to go back to being best fucking mates with you?! Have a rest, you’re the one who ended things because you were too immature to deal with your shit, and clearly you haven’t fucking changed. Get out of my kitchen before I do someth-“

“Y/N stop!” your hushed rant is cut off by a pair of hands gripping your shoulders. Before you can even register what’s going on, Bang Chan has already replaced the distance between you, as he paces the kitchen trying to think about what to say next. Honestly, you feel a little bad, but you can’t let up on your façade now.

“Look, I’m sorry. I fucked up. Big time. I realise that now. I also fucked up when you started working with us. I shouldn’t have been so rude to you. The boys have been giving me shit about it as well, they think you’re great and I jus– can we start over?” You watch him rub the bridge of his nose before sticking his hand out in truce. You look at his face, checking for any hidden intent, and shake his hand.

“I’m Y/N, it’s nice to meet you.”

“Nice to meet you, Y/N, I’m Chan.”

The weeks following that night feel like a fever dream. You can’t remember the last time Chan commented on your management skills, or on your character. He’s even asked you to preview some new music to be released as part of the SKZ-PLAYER project. You hate to say it, but you can see yourself becoming friends with him again; not to the point of calling him Chris again, but Chan works for now. The rest of the members have noticed how the atmosphere between the two of you has softened, and they certainly have their theories as to what happened in the kitchen.

Not having to walk on eggshells around Chan is making it easier to get close with the rest of the boys, especially Felix and Jisung. The three of you in a room together is a disaster waiting to happen, yet somehow it never strikes. You easily consider Felix one of your best friends and perhaps even a confidant of sorts. Felix hasn’t been made privy to your history with Chan yet, but you did consider it once after a particularly raucous board games night. You were about to do it until you were distracted by Minho and Seungmin chasing each other around the dorm after a particularly difficult game of Catan (Fun Fact: Minho is a sore loser).

Jisung, on the other hand… he is attractive, and after getting to know him, you’ve begun to become even more attracted to his personality. He was kind, caring, very extroverted, just a great person to be around. You certainly wouldn’t ever consider going there with him, especially not with your current occupation as his manager, but you can’t deny he’s someone you want to be around all the time. It doesn’t help that his hugs are amazing, and that you get at least one a day. You want to get closer to him, but someone keeps interrupting your conversations. Apparently, the leader needs the manager’s approval for a lot, and apparently that required spending hours upon hours with him in either your office or his studio.

“Seriously, they’ve spent every single night in Y/N’s office or the studio for the last two weeks. You can’t convince me something isn’t happening there!” Jeongin exclaims to the members after Chan fails to follow them back to the dorm, yet again, in favour of ‘going over a few things’ with you. The rest of the members nod in agreement, making comments about other things they’ve seen.

“I know, have you seen how Chan hyung looks at me every time I try talk to Y/N? Then, he suddenly needs her for something and whisks her away. I was telling her about Kingdom, I couldn’t even brag about our Pray performance!” Throwing his arms up in the air and his body back against the couch, Jisung huffs loudly. He’s just trying to make a friend, what’s wrong with that?

“Look, it’s obvious they have a thing for each other, which is surprising considering Chan hyung wanted to rip her head off for the first two months she worked here but I digress. We need a plan to get them to confess to each other. I think first we talk to them separately, then force them to see each other outside of work. Unless anyone has any better ideas?” Minho gestures wildly to drive the point home. The silent nodding gives Minho the green light to explain his plan.

“Felix, you’re close with Y/N, right? Maybe you could take her out for coffee or something and talk to her about it, while we talk to Chan hyung back here. If she gets suspicious, just say that the rest of us are busy and nominated you to treat her for all their hard work. It checks out, other groups do it for their managers all the time.” Minho explains further, while the members just nod along.

“Sounds good to me, hyung. When should I ask Y/N?” Felix already has his phone in hand, ready to text you at the drop of a hat.

“Wednesday at practice, she’s with Chan hyung right now, he can’t know. Right now, I’m hungry, anyone else hungry? My treat!”

[myersesque]

UM UM UM fav npmd song?

OH GOD HARDEST QUESTION YOU COULD'VE ASKED. i am notoriously indecisive and there is not a single skip in this whole tracklist BUT ALAS. I WILL TRY

ummm um um uh. i'm gonna have mercy on myself and make it a tie. i'm allowing myself a tie

nerdy prudes must die - i love a good villain song. the reveal of max's new costume/makeup (STUNNING btw, especially considering how stressful it must be do to makeup whilst a show is actively going on - doing a costume change between acts is nerve-wracking enough), will branner's endless charisma and stage presence (literally devastated he's new to starkid bc i need more of him NOW), and his and jon matteson's fucking gorgeous vocals... both the chorus and the "who will pray for me?" section are CONSTANTLY looping in my head. absolutely 500% deserving of title track status.

as cool as i think i am + reprise / if i loved you - i'm counting all 3 of these as one bc i honestly can't decide between them, and i love them all for the same reasons. acaitia is such a well-done establishing song for peter's worldview - both his perception of himself (and how that shifts and skews more positive as he psychs himself up) and his perception of steph (the "smarter than she thinks she is" line always gets me - he thinks so highly of her and is so respectful of her even this early on when they're still bickering, and it sets the foundations for how strong their relationship ends up becoming). it's also just really nice to have a nerd character as a protagonist who has some confidence and, whilst steph liking him certainly helps with that, his sense of self-worth isn't inherently tied to her, it's inherently tied to himself and how he lets himself exist (he's as cool as he thinks he is - if he allows himself to think he's cool, then he's cool - which also has an interesting sort of parallel to max's sue sylvester "you are what i say you are" philosophy). then of course the reprise is absolutely devastating (i have absolutely no shame in saying i was openly sobbing) and serves as such a good example of how things have changed throughout the story, especially in terms of his sense of identity and relationship with steph. then ofc if i loved you is just... SUCH a fun song about their dynamic, and how they both clearly adore each other but aren't willing to admit that until forced. "not saying what we mean, except we literally are, just backwards" is one of my fav kinds of song (also - it reminds me a bit of i could do without you from calamity jane, if that's anything).

the summoning - villain song, horrifically catchy, and the lords in black having their moment. the distorted background vocals, the childish way the lords present themselves contrasted with the heaviness of their song and the darkness of their lyrics ("stephanie has got a gun, tra-la-la-la, how fun!" - they're DELIGHTING in their suffering)... it's just really fuckin good. i also don't super mind the dialogue interrupting it since it's part of the pacing, and the lords breaking into song in the middle of a serious discussion feels very on brand for them

honourary mentions include literal monster (for similar reasons to as cool as i think i am, but for max's character instead - also, again, villain song) and hatchet town (i ADORE hatchetfield's ensemble-heavy songs, and i think this one sorta encapsulates the whole vibe of the series). i also have soft spots for dirty girl and go go nighthawks, but that's in more of a "this is REALLY fun" way than a "i have deep opinions abt these songs" way. obviously just for once is also devastating and a beautiful song that serves as a great demonstration of lauren lopez's skills but i'm trying not to say "every single song, actually"

...i realise i just listed 90% of the tracklist but i justified most of it??? so hopefully u at least got SOMETHING from this answer idk

[badnikbreaker]

What are your ships for your muses? Obviously you like sonamy (good taste op) but anything else?

thank u for the vote of confidence sfjkhgdlfsd. it's sort of a funny question, because i'm famously easy to ship with — acquaintances really are encouraged to forceship with me whenever they want, you will have a 99.9% success rate as long as we're not being weird abt ages. i love romance! let's make it work!! so even if i don't actively ship something, there's a pretty good chance i can and will 100% get behind it once / if i start writing it. also, i sometimes feel like making a ship preference clear signals to others that you're likely to forceship, and i never want anybody to think "ah shit i know rain ships our muses they'll probably be weird." i won't!

still, here goes —

going down the muse list — for amy, i obviously love sonamy. they're cute, i think their relationship is really sweet and unique and lovely. i also really love blazamy and jewelamy! i don't know that i actively ship knuxamy or silvamy in the sense that i'm never going out of my way to find them, but i've written both in the past and really enjoyed it! especially with all three of em getting close over the course of the war. amy just deserves all the love!!

ava really only has one meaningful ship, which is sonava, tho i'm definitely open to others! i think they're fun / have the possibility of being really fun.

yes i like sonelise leave me ALONE sonic is her manic pixie dream hedgehog!!! ROUGE CAN HAVE A HUMAN GIRLFRIEND AND THATS FINE BUT WHEN SONIC ——

whispangle for both tangle and whisper — i mean, they're basically canon. i also really like whispilver and blazangle, though!

shipping surge is a nightmare conceptually but i gotta admit i am a fan of surgeamy, tho i think surge would have a LOT of complexes abt if ames just likes her because she's "another sonic." honestly, surge just needs someone who connects with her and treats her like a person. i'm also kind of into surgesonic conceptually; very unhealthy, but lots of space for fun there? i don't have actual Thoughts abt them aside from like. lmao sonadow but with a heaping helping of 'i have been programmed to give a shit about absolutely nothing except you and hurting you.'

kit developing a tiny 'u are literally the first person in my whole life to be nice to me' crush on tails? who knows, perhaps more likely than u think. i think i do prefer that bond platonically but who knows that could change, either way i do care a lot abt them as besties.

molly x living a long and happy life.

sonia and....fucking knuckles I GUESS??? i think the way sonia would interact with a knuckles who is not a short king dork would be funny. oh and mindy. bartleby im sorry but ur not on the list sonia just gaslit herself into liking you.

rouge! shadouge is important 2 me whether it's platonically or romantically but i do like them romantically. sorry that sonic battle lays it on SO thick and fundamentally rewrote baby me's brain chemistry. i also rly rly like her and wave. thief gfs. AND ROUGE AND TOPAZ OBVIOUSLY. rouge is rly hard to ship tho and def the muse that takes the most plotting

sucre was initially made to ship with sonic when i created her at age 10 or whatever so sonsucre remains. amy, too. god amy would be so good for him.

[trashblackrainbow]

i saw your aot take and i agree with the lesson you take abt not hating anyone, it but i gotta ask, since it's not really a "fact" that eren is historia's baby daddy, why would you want that to be the case or how would that even change anything if he was? what purpose would that serve, esp given how he never thinks abt his supposed baby mama and kid, never brings it up once not even to armin, and admits he likes another girl? and the kids actually daddy gets to be a normal dude who isnt a mass murder? i just cant see how ppl could want that so badly when it doesnt really seem like who her baby daddy is serves the purpose of the narrative at all. i also cant see historia and eren being intimate with each other after her telling him abt his genocide... he looks disinterested about her upset feelings and she looks scared tbh. i dont think eren needs to procreate with anyone. that's why i'd like to know from your perspective why him being the dad would be so important to you when it's all abt historia's choice. it seems people just wanted eren to have sex

I get what you’re saying and I respect that and agree with you thinking canonically.

Honestly I just think they would make a great pair, even since they were kids they always sympathized with each other and I just liked them in a relationship way. A little headcanon for me. I don’t actually know how rooted the fandom is into this idea since I’m new to the AOT universe.

Being more detailed about what goes on in my head with this thing not knowing what anyone else thinks about this:

I’m a firm believer Eren had a close relationship with his mom and because of that he always wanted to have his own family. So him having a kid with Historia is his way of achieving that. His little way of saying look I was here and I have descendants. But this is not something he could do with Mikasa because she’s too precious in his eyes for carrying a mass murderer’s baby. I never thought about it in a way of Eren having sex before sacrificing himself, I don’t care about that in particular.

Obviously it is Historia’s choice so maybe I just don’t like her having a baby and a family with someone who bullied her even if it was so long ago. Since we know her past wasn’t the best and I love her I just can’t stand someone who hurt her now sharing a bed with her. I’m confident Eren would treat her right and would care for her. If him being with Mikasa wasn’t an actual thing and Eren lived or whatever, I would wish for him to be with a caring and nice person, Historia specifically.

Believe me I love Eren with Mikasa and I got to ship them even tho in the beginning I thought it was a bit odd because they were almost like siblings since they shared a childhood home and all. I love how honest and vulnerable he was about his feelings for her, we don’t see that everyday.

The reason I’m putting these thoughts out there is because I’m rewatching AOT and I plan on reading the manga soon to get my thoughts more clear about everything in the story. I feel like I never watched it because just now realize so many things and it’s just crazy the amount of parallels and foreshadowings.

A bit long but I hope you’re satisfied with the answer. If you want to talk more about this I’m happy to do so. 🤍

[truthundressing]

Hiii, me again! Sorry to get back to you a bit late I got distracted over dinner with friends!! And definitely not too much to ask I’m always happy to answer!

Anyways, I don’t actually have a favorite thing to cook unfortunately! I don’t really cook atm which is a shame cause I really want to but I get nervous and have to have very specific instructions or else I’ll feel like I’m doing it wrong! Plus I feel quite inadequate/stupid doing it cause a friend of mine cooks and I don’t want them to say anything about it. But ideally I’d like to cook way more often maybe when I’m like home alone so if I mess up I’m the only witness to it.

My dream place to live would probably be somewhere with some land, beautiful landscapes a nice town but not like a city. I think I’d like to stay where I was born to be close to family but afterwards I’m not too sure! Maybe somewhere where it snows!

The last dream I had and remembered was last night, I dreamed my friend was late to work while we were hanging out but didn’t do anything about it just had a little freak out then stayed to hang out.

As for my favorite book I dont think I have one. I think about the books I’ve read recently and none of them really scream my favorite. If that changes I’ll let you know!

Now for some more questions: do you have a dream car? If so, what is it? Do you have a favorite scent/candle? If so, what? What’s something you used to be embarrassed about but no longer are? (If you’re okay answering of course!) last one for now, is there and albums art work you enjoy the most/think is really well done? I’m sorry this is so long, I know it can be a bit much to have in an ask and on a blog so if you rather answer in like a tags post that’s alright! -🤍🤍🤍

hi again !!! no worries i fell asleep anyway zkdjsjsk

awh yayy thats good to know!! i loved reading through ur answers ty 🥰 <33

Dream car: i dont think i have one really :/ i have my license but i only drive when i visit home so im not really that confident of a driver and dont really see myself owning one in the future, like I'd much prefer to use public transport.

Favourite scent/candle: probably mulled wine, especially once it hits autumn/winter bc it feels so festive and home-y

Something i used to be embarrassed about: SO MUCH!! my god i was just a walking ball of anxiety like my whole teenageehood. I think something im specifically not embarassed about anymore is like being barefaced, i used to use makeup to cover up my acne and face moles like every day during school but i simply do nawt care anymore <3 and its starting to become something i kinda like abt myself😊

Album art work: oooh this is such a good question ummm one i love is the cover art for 'You could have it so much better by Franz Ferdinand'

no worries abt being long btw idm at all!!! and i like having these all in one place under ur tag so its honestly conpletely fine🥰

[onemorningapricot]

Day 25 - 24.9.22

Today, I woke up at 9:39am. Yesterday, I was so stressed about missing attendance and breaking my 100% streak but today I couldn't care less. That is, in the morning; now the stress is slowly simmering back up. So, I woke up, joined the webinar event and it was, as expected, a total slob show. It was supposed to be a 10:00-12:00 event but it ended at 10:40. All of a sudden too. I was flustered and tbh kinda pissed. The event promised "industry expertS" and it was one guy who barely made any sense. As usual, just a scam, as with everything here. I had my Yakult and then breakfast and then just streamed shows one after each other for the rest of the day. I don't know if I was relaxed watching them though. The stress is always bubbling behind me but I didn't care; I mean I can take a break, right? I'm 19, a 2nd year uni student, I work long hours with no breaks and I even use up my breaks studying. I can, can't I? I'm not sure. With my time calculator, all my non-class studying barely adds up to 24 hours a week and I haven't even reached that for the past 2 weeks. I don't know what to think of myself now. I think I'm being very irresponsible now under the facade of having everything together. That I'm only fooling myself by pretending I'm busy when I'm not. I mean the numbers obviously tell otherwise but then why do I always feel so tired. Am I in fact, not actually physically tired but instead emotionally tired? I think that's the most probable answer. It's nice to have a space where I can honestly display my thoughts without having to force, fix it into a box made for others to judge.

I cleaned my room a bit too today. I'll finish it when I'm done writing this too. I think that's one good thing. I also took a shower, did my hair and prayed. Three other good things I did today. I had two ice creams though. I suppose that can be forgiven. I have an interview at 9:20pm. I'm not looking forward to that. I don't know much about my future so I'm not sure on what I should be focusing on and what I should let go. I also need to learn how to not get stressed by small things. I've realised I do that way too much. All in all, I've really changed so much as a person over the past year and coming down here has really made me do that, both in a good and bad way. I've reflected the most I've ever had on myself and learned what I look like at my worst. I suppose, in some twisted way, that is a positive. Typing out that word was hard. Positive. This feels so strange. My hand feels heavy and my fingers prickle because of that word. I feel sad. It's been long since i thought of something positive...

I watched a bunch of shows today: Blind, The Golden Spoon, Seasons of Blossom and 반야. The last really shook my heart. For the first time in my life, I cried so loud and heavily. I never realised I had never done that before. What a word: 반야. A profound realisation. Not that I care abt Buddhism in any way, I feel so profoundly shook by this word. I don't why I cried so much either. Well, I never seem to know why I cry these day anyways, but still. I felt weird even though I myself am the one crying. I don't what that movie meant to me but I feel so fundamentally moved. Something in there really resonated with me. I don't what it is but something did.

Since my last post

There are three things I've realised.

You can only achieve in life, if you do more. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LSN7jaOL1VA

I, too, am staring to live a "normal" life.

Confidence in oneself, makes the person. Ji Changwook & 서지훈

I really enjoyed watching 당신이 소원을 말하면 this past month. Ji Changwook's acting was really on point and so real, it really moved me. Like his screams were so honest, there could be no better way to express that anger and helplessness. Terribly sad it's ending this week. Little Women started off good and then shifted into terribly foolish but I'm still willing to skip through it. Blind seems lowkey interesting so I'm still gonna keep watching it, though I doesn't seem too profound/worth my time. Seasons of Blossom: super invested in Ha Min's story; wish the other timeline didn't exist; quite disturbs my watching tbh. The Golden Spoon is a drop. One Dollar Lawyer seems like a good recap read. Love in Contract? just need to know what the ML's job is and I think that interest too will fade of soon.

So yeah. That's my summary. See you in my next post :)

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[almadelsur]

I'm just thinking about Frank as bestfriend's dad doing nasty things to me🥲I'm going to cry

okay but nonnie this- this is the one I’ve been waiting for. Y’all don’t understand how much I think abt shit like this and dads bsf! Frank just do things to me honestly (mainly because of the age gap between myself and jonny b but shhh) 🤤

So let’s just real quick age lil Lisa Castle wayyyyy up and just picture for a moment that Frank and Maria had her v v v v young let’s say around 17, so that the age gap isn’t too creepy :’) and that Frank and Maria were separated before she died so y’know it makes sense. !! 18+ Below !!

You didn’t grow up in New York so you didn’t get to meet Lisa, and by default Frank, until you were on the cusp of 20. As soon as you and Lisa met though, you became inseparable, always together, always laughing, instant best friends. You were way edgier than her, it would have been far too easy to assume that it had simply been due to the 2 year age gap between you but in reality you had something inside you that you couldn’t quite comprehend, something twisted and hungry. It didn’t put you in Maria’s best books, her preconceptions of you as an older bad influence for her daughter were set in stone before she even met you.

You first met Frank during Lisa’s 18th birthday gathering, and although you would have never admitted it to yourself back then, something inside you had been itching to meet him ever since you accidentally swiped on a family photo when Lisa was showing you whatever meme she had been raving about on her phone. Lisa was the spitting image of her mother, hardly any Castle features had developed on her face, so when you saw the picture you couldn’t help but stare. “Who’s that?” You’d asked her to which she responded in that same blatantly obvious tone she’d often take with you “That’s my dad”. Always the confident force of nature and certainly one to speak your truth you looked at the girl and without missing a beat shrugged out a “Lis I would legitimately fuck your dad.” The sentence had come off jokingly, yet despite the playful half-disgusted laughter that ensued and the slap on your arm that you had received, there had been nothing but truth behind your words.

But back to your first meeting. The second you extended your hand for him to shake, you felt something in you change. The way he held your eye contact as he shook your hand awoke something in you that half-scared you with a deliciously curious fright. “It’s nice to finally meet you, mister Castle.” It takes Frank a moment longer than intended to let go of your hand, he doesn’t know if it’s the way you nibble down on your lip after you adress him or the way that every thing about you just screams trouble like a big red neon sign above your head, but your words hit him with an imense sexual charge. His face gives nothing away, just his usual half frown accompanied by a gruff “You too, Lisa never stops talking about you.” When he finally drops your hand, you slowly push yourself past him, your shoulder brushing against his toned chest as you walk further indoors. “All good things I hope” you murmur to him before leaving him by the door, watching you walk away with a dizzy head from your intoxicating demeanour and fruity perfume. Throughout the rest of the day, Frank struggles to take his eyes off of you, he watches you from across the room as you laugh along with that skinny college freshman that Lisa had invited. You grip onto your cherry soda as you feign interest in the freshman’s story and when you bring that damn straw up to your needy mouth, he cant help but feel bad for the kid who clearly thinks he’s succeeding in his efforts to impress you. You’d eat the kid whole for breakfast and not give it a second thought, Frank thinks. You need someone who can handle you, someone like him. Frank would be able to keep you in line, take everything you’re offering without faltering and give you what you crave in the darkest parts of yourself that not even you knew about yet. He’d be able to teach you, he figures. Perceptive as ever, he sees the depth of your character before you’re even fully aware of it yet. He reads people, that’s his thing. And you? Shit he has you figured out right then and there. Behind your eyes is an animalistic desire you’re yet to let loose. He’d let you claw, bite and pounce whilst taming you with his thrusts. Something in him just knows that he’d be able to sedate you with his cock. Frank drowns his train of though with the rest of his beer, he has to force himself out of the room untrusting of his own lust. Later on that night, when he’s alone and safe to think freely within the confines of his room, he lets his mind wander back to you. The way you had smelled, the way your cherry stained lips had played around the tip of that straw, mister Castle. It wasn’t long before Frank had his cock in his hand pretending it was something better, pretending it was you. 

The next morning he feels so guilty and sick that he can’t even look at his own daughter in the eyes. What would Lisa say if she knew what he’d been thinking about her best friend, what would you? Unbeknownst to Frank you had spent your evening doing the exact same thing he had. Moaning out at the thought of that unforgiving gaze staring down at you as he rips out orgasm after orgasm out of you. 

As time goes by, you begin to think Frank actively dislikes you, you wander if you had crossed the line with him that first time. He keeps his distance whenever you’re around and hardly ever looks at you in the eyes whenever he does miraculously speak to you. He sets this dynamic pretty early on and whilst you despise the thought of things being that way, you accept it. Frank calls the shots and you follow, back then you didn’t realise how the meaning behind those words would change. Until one night. 

Okay !! So I actually have a part 2 to this that I’m close to finishing but I got so impatient that I just had to post this !! Also big thank you to @theshamsandherzahraat for being an angel and giving me advice on this <3 And as always:

Send me your Frank Castle asks, concepts and thoughts!!

[bakugoulvr420]

comforting bakugou

OMG IM SO SORRY sometimes i leave requests unposted on draft form because i feel unsatisfied and think abt returning to them later once motivation flows in and i end up forgetting a lot of the times. im really sorry about this!!!

despite bakugou seeming like an egotistical son of a poop with his confidence over the roof, it’s honestly all just a play :(

even when he talks to midoriya about how he’s able to beat him despite midoriya possessing ofa is actually him reflecting his fear/insecurity of midoriya winning against him in the future

or whenever he makes fun of someone for not knowing something, it’s him not wanting to show that side of him where he actually doesnt know anything

so yeah, bakugou is actually a very insecure person and i feel like he’d open up to you mostly because he knows that you wouldnt leave him or judge him about his weaknesses

sometimes he’d go “fuck it up” whenever he experiences slumps during his training since he’s always trying to discover new techniques for his quirk

im sure that he has broken down a couple of times whenever his arm would begin hurting due to the pressure of his blasts

whenever his mood would worsen due to his insecurities, he’d go to bed much earlier. not because he wants to sleep but because he just wants to get away from everything

he’d just be staring at the ceiling with a frown on his face because he knows that sulking wont help him improve or fix things so then he begins feeling angry at himself for being unproductive

bakugou definitely needs you next to him to remind him that its okay to fail sometimes and its okay to take a moment to breathe properly

most of the times you’d cling onto his arm or hug him from the back if he’s lost in his thoughts and itd surprise him everytime

“how are you feeling?”

“what are you doing?”

“dont change the subject- i know there is something wrong. lets talk about it please?”

of course he’d refuse to talk at all and reassure you that he’s fine or just tired but you’d always break his shell because cmon. youre not some ordinary person- youre his s/o and that says a lot already

if things flow out nicely, he’d begin venting to you, sometimes (rarely) releasing the built up tears in his eyes

bakugou doesnt want advice. he has the solution to all of his problems but he needs a reminder to reassure him that he’s doing the right thing in the right pace. he just wants someone to talk to about whatever and share all of his feelings with no filter

[realcube]

CELEBRATING YOUR BIRTHDAY 

characters ♡ bokuto, tendō, matsukawa & suna

tw ♡ gn! reader, timeskip! bokuto (all sfw tho), swearing, reader wears makeup (matsukawa), swearing, mentions of death & food 

cred ♡ thanks to anon for this request <3

KŌTARŌ BOKUTO

♡ he was literally counting down the days to your birthday, he even took the day off practise to celebrate it with you so imagine his surprise when the special day finally rolls around and he wakes up to an empty bed

♡ at first, he thought that perhaps you were just around the house somewhere but nope, the place was completely empty and even worse, all signs pointed to his theory that you had gone to work/school on your birthday 

♡ outraged. he was absolutely outraged. 

♡ firstly, he tried calling you but you wouldn’t pick up, even after his many attempts so his next resort to call your place of work/school reception 

♡ obviously he managed to get a hold of you then-

♡ he was originally gonna yell about how you lied to him about taking the day off on your birthday but there was no way he could be angry at you — almost ever — so instead, he made the quick decision of telling you to have a nice day before hanging up 

♡ you were kinda pissed that he wasted your time like that but how could you stay mad at him? he’s fkn adorable! he blew you audible kisses over the phone for good luck!

♡ you laboured your way through the day, putting in great effort yet through it all, the only thing on your mind was how much you wanted to just pass out on the couch with bokuto as soon as you got home. you weren’t even sure if you had the energy to change into your pjyamas.

♡ however, when you finally did arrive home, there was no need to put yourself through the onerous task of changing clothes as the first thing you were greeted by when you stepped foot in your own home was a chorus of cheers of ‘surprise!’ followed by people spilling out into the foyer from the kitchen and living room 

♡ then there was bokuto, the loudest of them all leading the crowd, blowing into the party horn while dashing up to, throwing his arms around your shoulders to pull you into a tight hug, ‘happy birthday, sweetie!’

♡ a light gasp escaped your lips at the sudden hoots, and the unfamiliar — and frankly uncomfortable — sight of many friends swarm towards you had you on edge but when you felt bokuto wrap you in his warm embrace, you knew you were home

♡ he held you close until you were forced apart by many guests tearing you away to personally wish you a happy birthday

♡ now that the initial shock had died down, you noticed that there wasn’t as many people present as you thought, it was a humble gathering of all your closest friends 

♡ there was a massive pile of bright-colored gifts lying on the stairs, and it was hard not to immediately acknowledge them as the sheer mass and number of the presents scattered across the steps prevented anyone from being able to go upstairs

♡ the following day, you were made aware of the fact 90% of those presents were addressed from ‘your best ace husband ;)’ which was pretty straight-forward considering you only have one husband; kiyoomi sakusa. 

♡ jokes, you married bokuto but sakusa was also at the party. he originally just wanted to drop off his gift then leave but bokuto persuaded him to stay, though he seemed to be regretting it now as almost everyone at the party now shared an unspoken goal to slam sakusa’s face into one of the cupcakes that decorated the circumference of your cake

♡ speaking of the cake, bokuto remembered what type of cake was your favorite from the wedding planning and he was so chuffed with himself. in fact, he was so confident in his cake picking ability that he ordered a massive 3-tier monster of a dessert 

♡ neither of you would be able to finish it before it goes bad so you ended up cutting it up into pieces  and sending each guest away with a little goody-bag with a slice of cake inside lmao 

♡ once you had finished your goodbyes and everyone had filed out of your home, you flopped onto the couch and let out a deep sigh of relief. well, it was only a sigh for a few moment as it became a wheeze when bokuto laid down on top of you 

♡ ‘happy birthday, (y/n). i’m sorry if i tired you out.’ he hummed, fiddling with your fingers as his lips curled into a shaky smile

♡ ‘i’m a bit sleepy but i had an amazing time. thank you so much, kō.’

♡ bokuto smiled, his heavy lid falling shut as he finally rested his neck, being able to fall asleep comfortably now that you’ve told him that you had fun

SATORI TENDŌ

♡ unlike bokuto, he’ll actually mention your birthday a few weeks prior to the celebration so he can plan the perfect date :3

♡ ‘so do you wanna go to the aquarium or the theme park? because i know we’ve went to the park before but they remodelled it apparently. plus, maybe the aquarium is a bit underwhelming for such a special day, but it’s up to yo--’

♡ ‘we won’t really get to spend much time in either. if you consider the time school finishes, the train ride and the time the aquarium and park closes so maybe we could just chill at my house instead.’

♡ tendō deadpanned for a moment, the most unamused look taking over his features until he suddenly burst out laughing, cackling as if you just told the joke of the century, ‘seriously, (y/n)? you’re gonna go to school on your birthday.’

♡ ‘yes, of course.’ you replied in all seriousness, resulting in tendō awkwardly beginning to stifle his chuckles.

♡ he frowned, slumping back into the seat beside you, ‘c’mon, it’s your birthday, though! you deserve the day off.’

♡ you shook your head, kindly declining his suggestion, ‘i have a test on that day.’

♡ ‘all the more reason to ditch!’

♡ now it was your turn to deadpan

♡ tendō tossed his head back while letting out a sigh  of defeat, draping his arm around your shoulder to lovingly pull you to his chest, ‘alright, then. whatever you want, dear.’

♡ you smiled, glad that you didn’t need to disagree with him any longer — and you were even happier on the day. even though you insisted that he keeps things small on your birthday, he still managed to find a way to make things extra asf by getting you a massive plush that was about half the size of your stature and a hamper of homemade chocolates ><

ISSEI MATSUKAWA 

♡ honestly, he’s never been the best at giving gifts but he tries extra hard for you 

♡ like if you off-handedly say that you are cold during class, he’ll buy you a bunch of new jackets, jumpers and gloves

♡ or if you say you need more mascara, he’ll buy you exact same one you usually wear 

♡ he’s observant enough to notice and remember the exact shade and brands of all your cosmetic products but he’s not observant enough to pick up on the subtle hints you drop as to what you want for your birthday 

♡ you can never guess what he’s gonna get you and that adds to your anticipation for the day 

♡ if your birthday is on a school day, he’ll bring in a batch of homemade cupcakes (which hanamaki helped him with) and stick a candle in one of them for you to blow out 

♡ he offers you one but they are all pretty stale- just smile and nod while your teeth feel like they are being shattered trying to bite down on the cupcake 

♡ it might set off the fire alarm but oh well, just count that as another present

♡ oikawa will probably get you something like a bouquet and try flirt with you so at that point, matsukawa and hanamaki begin using the cupcakes as weapons 

♡ they are a two for one deal so you’re going to be spending the day with both of them tailing you like lost puppies

platonic RINTARŌ SUNA

♡ (requester specified) your birthday is on the same day as his so ofc he’s going to be a little salty abt it 

♡ you both created a game to see who receives the most birthday wishes and whoever won gets ¥1500 from the loser’s birthday money

♡ for the past few years, he’s usually been the winner by just a few but this year, you made it a point to befriend all him teammates in order to ensure victory 

♡ having to pretend to be friendly with atsumu — who wasn’t very good at hiding his massive crush —was definitely a challenge but you powered through 

♡ in fact, you may have played the role too well as both the miya twins gave you a gift 

♡ osamu gave both you and suna a plastic bag filled with some food he made and water bottles

♡ as for atsumu, his gift to you was a massive hamper filled with an assortment of many different luxury confectionary which didn’t look cheap at all but it didn’t feel appropriate to question the price so you simply took it from him with a bright smile

♡ of course, suna was excited (and very hungry) as he expected the same gift but he was more than disappointed when all he received was a bag of chips and a slap on the back

♡ he goes out of his way to tell every teacher it’s your birthday in hopes that they’ll make the class sing happy birthday to you 

♡ but it pisses him off to no end when you add that it’s his birthday too so he ends up getting roped into your misery 

♡ also your thumbs are going to be sore at night swiping through all the various candid pics that suna took of you throughout the day (in less than flattering poses) which he uplaoded to almost all of his social media stories with stupid ass captions 

♡ but dw bc he’ll eventually post a nice photo of you with a sweet message

♡ ‘happy birthday to @(y/n) . i would die for you, bitch (even though you annoy the hell out of me every single day 🤠).’ 

[harrywritingsbyme]

could write abt Harry eating y/n out?

Eating Out

A/N: Please exscuse the title and ending...this was written as right I was coming out of a major spell of writers block. I rlly hope this isn’t horrible and you guys like it…it’s crazy filthy too🥺. Enjoy🙃

The simple thought of Harry having his head buried in-between your legs always sent him into a tailspin. He always wanted to be be right between your thighs, continuously lapping his tongue up and down your folds. Pleasuring you was always Harry’s top priority. So being right between your thighs where he could feel and hear you falling apart from his tongue was definitely his favorite place to be. You could have been on your back, on all fours (or flat on your stomach), or right on top of Harry’s face. As long as his mouth was on your center, Harry could’ve cared less about what position you were in. All he focused on was making sure that you had one of the best, most earth-shattering, toe curling orgasms of your life. And you could honestly say that each time was better than the rest.

Now even though it didn’t matter to Harry what position you were in when he ate you out, each of them had their benefits.

You being on all fours meant that Harry had access to all of you. Your were completely spread for him and he could push his tongue anywhere he wanted. He was able to lick you completely from front to back. He had the opportunity to start off sucking on your sensitive and swollen clit and end off swirling his tongue around your ass. He got to lick and push his tongue against both of your holes and push at least a finger into both of them as well. He also got to watch as your upper body and sometimes your entire body just collapsed against the bed, simply from the way he was moving his mouth, and sometimes his fingers against you. When you were lying completely flat against the bed with your legs spread, Harry loved not only how you pushed yourself back against his mouth, but also how your pushed your bare clit against the sheets. This allowed him to really see how desperate you were. Sometimes you’d be full on humping the bed and his mouth, trying your hardest to cum. Seeing you do this only fueled him to dig into you even more. He’d tightly wrap his arms around your soft thighs, grab onto the thick and supple flesh of your ass, and pull it apart before fully going in on you. You’d feel his tongue skillfully move against you. He’d go all the way up to your ass, burying his face there for a while, and go all the way down to your pussy, pushing his tongue in and out of your folds, prodding at your weepy hole. He’d feel you trying to move against him but he’s got you locked in right against his mouth. And when you came, which it never took long for you with Harry, every drop of your delicious liquid would flow right onto Harry’s tongue.

You being right on top of Harry’s face had it’s benefits as well. You were always up for a challenge, and Harry enjoyed challenging you in the bedroom. The challenges ranged from, not cumming until he said so, to taking all of his cock into your second hole (which was a challenge you still weren’t able to complete, even after a few “practice sessions”). Having you ride Harry’s face was a definite challenge for you. Even though Harry had told you countless times that you weren’t going to suffocate him if you just relaxed completely against his face, you were still constantly lifting yourself up from him. That is, until he’d just yank you down and tightly grip onto you so you couldn’t move. He had to do this just about every time you rode his face, resulting in you having to worry about something else. Harry’s mouth felt so good against you that it was extremely difficult to hold yourself up. As he was moving his mouth against your delectable pussy, sometimes Harry would tilt his head back a bit and open his eyes to watch you holding onto the headboard for dear life. To make things even worse, Harry would start to moan against you at how good you tasted. The vibrations would go straight to your clit, and make it 10 times harder to keep yourself up. Even though Harry loved this, it wasn’t his favorite part. His favorite part would have to be making you feel so good that you completely fall apart on top of him. It’s like the bubble inside of you just bursts. Causing all off your juices to just flow out of you like a river and right down into his mouth.  

You being on your back had the most benefits out of the three. Mainly because some of them were directly for Harry.  One of them being that as he ate you out, Harry could lay flat against the bed and dig his hips into the bed as he licked into you. Even though Harry’s main focus was pleasuring you whenever his head between your legs, he couldn’t stop his cock from swelling. Hearing your pitiful and needy cries out to him at how good his mouth felt against your cunt along with the delicious taste and smell of your arousal only made him harder. Harry could confidently and honestly say that even though he wasn’t receiving the pleasure directly, there was never a time where he ate you out and didn’t cum. Most of the time, he’d cum heavily against the sheets or in his pants. But other times Harry would be so worked up that he had to and did do something else that was a far better way to get himself off. When he felt his release speeding towards him, he’d quickly pull himself up from between your legs and push them farther apart. He would then proceed to grip his extremely swollen and hard cock in his hand, and before you could even process what was going on, Harry would slam into you. He’d latch onto your hips and send a few hard thrusts into you before releasing his thick and heavy load inside of you, causing your own release to catch right up to you. As he pulls out of you he’d make sure that he leaves his cum all over your pussy, making you a nice and sticky mess before lying back between your legs. He’d attach his mouth right back onto you, languidly lapping up every drop of his cum. He doesn’t stop there though. He also lays his hand against your lower stomach, pressing his lower palm into you. He knows that by doing his, he’s putting pressure on the ever tightening knot in the pit of your stomach and it’ll only make you cum quicker and harder. And just as he predicted, you cum hard against his tongue. As you’re cumming, you weren’t just releasing your fluids, but you were also pushing Harry’s cum that was deep inside of you out, and into his mouth.

Again, Harry’s sole purpose for having his head nestled between your thighs was to pleasure you. But, if he had to find something else that at the end of the day “didn’t matter” but still has it’s benefits, he’d say that the order of events would be one of these things. Harry absolutely loved the taste of your freshly fucked pussy that was filled to the brim with his cum. This didn’t mean that he loved the way you tasted and simply eating you out if he were to do it before he pushed his cock into you any less. In fact, he’d eat you out before and after he fucked you, simply because you tasted that good. He just savored the moment even more if he were eating your peach that had been filled with his cum. Harry was never too tired to push his mouth onto your pussy. You two could have been going at it for hours on end and he’d still bring his mouth directly to your freshly fucked pussy.

Not only was the taste of your freshly fucked, cum filled pussy a treat to his tongue, but your reactions to his mouth being on your oversensitive pussy was a treat to his ears. He got to hear you scream and cry about how sensitive you were. He couldn’t get enough of how your delicious thighs would just clench around his head, only causing his tongue to sink further into you. The way your fingers would wrap tightly around his hair, pulling at the strands from how good you were feeling. When he would begin to tap his fingers on your clit, your hips would begin to thrash against the bed and you’d just let go against his mouth. Not only would you cum, you’d also squirt. Your legs would quake as you completely let go. By the end of it all, you were completely tired out and Harry’s cock would be beyond hard again. The only time you two would venture out into overstimulation would be at night because at the end, one or the both of you would be completely exhausted.

Even though Harry’s cock was hard, he couldn’t fight the sleep that was slowly taking over him, and he could see that you were only holding on by a thread. So he decides to just call it a night. Since the sheets were a little wet, and he didn’t have the energy to change them, he quickly springs into action and scoops your completely limp body into his arms, carrying you both to one of the spare bedrooms. Once you two hit the bed, you’re out for the count. You’re the first to fall asleep, given the fact that Harry still had to push his cock into you. There would never be a night where Harry wouldn’t push his cock into your warm, plushy walls before going to sleep. Once he does that, he wraps an arm around you before drifting off himself.

In this case, Harry didn’t just go to sleep hard. He also woke up hard. Luckily enough for the both of you (mainly Harry though), it wouldn’t take much time after waking up for you guys’ coveted morning sex to begin. It was slow and steady, yet deep and passionate. The both of you were still waking up so your moans were more like sighs of relief mixed with delighted hums. Harry was tightly pressed against you from behind, leaving warm, soft kisses against your neck as he whispered sweet nothings into your ear through his deep, gravely moans. As he pushed his cock into you, you could feel his hand glide up and down your front, every once in a while stopping at your chest to fondle your breasts. It was everything that you and Harry could have possibly wanted when it came to morning sex. Eventually the both of you came, which meant that it was time for Harry’s first meal of the day.

“Tighten up f’me sweet girl, want all of my cum t’stay inside yeh.” Harry mumbles as he slowly pulls his now soft cock out of you. Once he’s fully out, he crawls down to the end of the bed and pushes the covers away. He tugs your body so that you’re on your back, and he pushes your legs apart. He then proceeds to not only clean up your cum filled cunt, but also partake in a very delicious breakfast.

Masterlist

[yunsoh]

alrighty season 3 ep 2 thoughts. this post got ridiculously long so the rest is under a read more:

- literally i love every single time we see akito sleeping in this long and empty room. there’s something very encompassing about how empty it is + how the angle emphasizes it, especially when we can clearly see she’s sharing her bed 

- shigure and tohru’s moments alone are always soo so sweet. their relationship so far is very much one where there’s a lot of affection between them (which ofc makes one of their biggest scenes together during the final act feel especially hurtful even though it’s a side of shigure we’re well aware of by that point -- it’s just something that tohru up until that point hadn’t witnessed, much less been directly confronted with. but i’m getting ahead of myself lmfao moving on)

- actually related to the above love tohru asking “wouldn’t i just be interrogating him?” and “the things kureno told me make me feel like i’m looking into a deep, dark well” just ahh i do love this background progression of shigure and tohru’s relationship and how it reaches a head when they have their talk about kyo later. 

- this is perhaps unintentional but: having this shot of machi noticing yuki + clearly having some new feelings about him overlaid with/directly followed by momiji and tohru, where we still know momiji has an unrequited crush on her. yes it makes me laugh a little but it’s also fitting because at this moment in time yuki does not have a crush on machi in return + sees her only as a friend.

- it’s been mentioned but it bears repeating. why are they not progressing momiji’s height whatsoever lmaooo. funny because yuki and kyo have had gradual changes but they’re really just trying to make this growth spurt reveal super jarring huh. also holy shit he looks TINY next to haru in this shot. next

- the one kid in class asking hana to fuck the priyuki girls up but she’s like “actually i really don’t care” LMAO........ love her

- ugh i really love this moment with yuki.......... i think it’s been a while since we’ve seen the general student population (not just the prince yuki girls) still treat him in a revering way, now also in part because he’s the student council president but definitely still because of his reputation as the prince. this was something that was so deeply ostracizing to him early on in the series, and does still remind him of his loneliness -- but that loneliness isn’t crippling to him anymore, because now he does have friends who like him and who he can have fun with. 

i’m going to write a bigger post on this later probably because this is a really important progression point in how yuki understands himself to exist in his school’s ecosystem + how his self-esteem is still developing.

- additionally i just want to say that this scene isn’t yuki suddenly falling for machi, or really something to be read as mutually romantic between them -- machi i think absolutely has a crush on him at this point (because he is. the only person who is actually nice to her and considers her existence aside from kakeru but moving on) but yuki’s perception of her at this moment is heavily tied to how he thinks of himself as a friend + whether he’s a worthy enough person to befriend. the fact that machi shatters those doubts for him in such an overt way is important.

- anyways machi is rly cute here i loooove that she’s comfortable being more expressive around him even though it’s mostly out of embarrassment LMAO...... she’s learning how to display her feelings and trusts him with that..... cute.

- also of note yuki putting his hand on the top of her head which is like... he’s trying to convey that he feels they have (or are starting to have) a trusting friendship with each other but it’s like. a bit too much for machi to handle omfg. honestly this goes in hand with way back when ayame patted yuki’s head in praise which was clearly something yuki didn’t receive much of as a kid, and i’m assuming machi also rarely if ever received that same sort of praise. what i’m saying is they’re both trying lmaoo

- also as usual shimazaki’s deliveries are spot on yuki is soooo fucking cute in this scene. “what? seriously? they’re even worse than the ones i made” he’s so casual and funny with her it’s so good

- okay the timeskip to sunset makes me laugh it makes it seem like tohru and kyo have just been waiting in that room alone for hourssss

- ugh how sexy would it have been if the brief flashback to kureno + the music overlay had been cut out here. like tohru seeing the birds and then turning to ask kyo what he would think if someone’s curse had been broken would have gotten the message across just as well + i think would have been more emotionally impactful.

- tohru’s expression here though is so good just. ugh. will say this point in hers and kyo’s relationship is just so tasty because he really is her most trusted confidant but she’s also so aware of anything that could be construed as him rejecting her or pushing her away, which now that she’s getting especially wrapped up in the family’s secrets...... it’s a thin line she’s walking w wanting to protect him but not wanting to push him away bc he’s resigned to what will happen

- this visual is so weeeeeird aoghjksd the screen being framed by her bangs. what. why

- hmmmm in general idk if the flower scene hit very well. it felt kind of awkward? kyo and tohru both seemed really stiff which is weird because literally just a minute ago they were animated pretty well tbh

- this post is already so long and i only JUST started the akigure part of the ep....... i’m so sorry

- machi and kyo both handing off white flowers to yuki and tohru respectively and then we’re hit with shigure giving akito a red flower instead. obviously because akito is symbolized by red camellias + to refer back to her memory of shigure giving one to her, but also just basic color symbolism -- white being more indicative of purity and new beginnings, red being something both passionate, evocative, dangerous.

- oh we’re back to the kids. it is not in fact akigure time yet. 

- i loooove this tohru outfit so much she’s so cute in it. also ig it bears mentioning because i didn’t say anything about it last time, but the reboot hinting more directly to the audience that something bad happened to rin, rather than just her disappearing entirely, is def more overt than in the manga. that short scene of ren intercepting rin in the last ep was chronological yes, but in the manga we don’t see that happen until after we know that akito’s been keeping her in the cat’s room. so just by tohru mentioning that she hasn’t seen or heard from rin in a while, we’re clued in that something bad to her must have happened because of ren. which i don’t think is a bad decision honestly -- since ren is set up as the antagonist for this season, it might make viewers assume that ren did something bad to her, only for it to be revealed that it was akito and that akito is still becoming more and more unhinged. but that also ren is unhinged. disasters.

- “i’m sorry, i’m afraid i do have parents” this rly is just the mid-20s mood isn’t it

- mitsuru fucking hissing at shigure i cannot

- nakamura’s acting during this phone scene is so goooood oh my god. the LOATHING. honestly this alone just makes me crazy abt the insanity that is akito + kureno + shigure like jesus christ. 

- kureno’s pitiful little “nii-san” after shigure obliterates his entire life. there we go

- honestly it’s funny how shigure’s expression looks when akito yells at him for sleeping with ren because for a moment it looks like he has NO idea what she’s talking about but then. nope. he fucked her mom.

- do like the little detail of akito pointing as she tells shigure to get out, but when he leaves he just turns in the opposite direction. like truly he has never followed orders to the t once in his life.

- this shot of ren is so fucking absurd oh my god. pls get ur male gaze directing out of here.

- “i... thought you forgot” man the way this is delivered feels really striking. i think because akito is never caught off guard in a way that surprises her in such a quiet way, or in a way that leaves her plainly vulnerable. like her vitriol towards him has to do with the fact that she feels he’s abandoning the bond they used to have (and ofc they bond they have through the curse), and that memory of him does act as a linchpin. 

- it’s primo bitchy shigure hours. primo akito meltdown hours.

- this shot is soooo foreboding wow. straight up darkness. tho i kind of wish this shot was used instead for the “i want to crush her to a pulp” line, or at the very least that the shot for that line was just framed differently

- god they’re so fucking awful for each other. purely just a disaster duo. shigure taking control of the conversation + dismissing akito’s meltdown and emotional manipulation leaves akito feeling the only way she can have control over him is through seducing him since no other method works. the convo that has with her accusing him of sleeping with a lot of other women + her not knowing how to handle the fact that he slept with ren, and ofc the convo it has with her misogyny and how she views herself. they have this really vitriolic push and pull for control because akito doesn’t know what to do when she loses any control at all, and shigure’s grasping at what little control he can have considering how their power dynamics work with the bond -- walking away when she’s being manipulative, refusing to coddle her. like shigure’s wish for them to be on an equal playing field without the curse is a pipe dream because their relationship is just so, so damaged as is and is so heavily informed by what has already happened between them. takaya why did you have them end up together for realsies why did you--

- what is with the reboot team making akito break down the walls and doors all the time lmfao. bro the structural damage caused by this little 90lb disaster.

- i think i understand why they took it out (like maybe it would have been too overt with how they’ve set up the audience to expect something bad happened to rin after running into ren) but man they really just didn’t adapt one of the most haunting parts of the series huh. like this shot of rin being trapped inside the cat’s room right beside shigure thinking “i’ll be waiting for you” maaaan man!!

- okay addendum: apparently she is in the room. in hindsight i did notice this but it did not register as a person because i thought it was just a glare on the window 😭

[perenlop]

For the PMD questions, 5, 11 and 12? (Unrelated but I love your mobile layout! It looks so nice!)

aw thank you!! oneshot is such a pretty game and i really wanted to use it <3

5. Which Pokemon from Gen 7-8 would you consider potential hero/partner options, outside of the regular Starter Pokemon?

ohhh rockruff is def one... spike chunsoft owes me a Puppy hero after not making lillipup a starter option in gates. yamper and impidimp are ideas too... alolan vulpix too if that counts!

11. Any headcanons that take place after the games that you want to share

dusknoir becomes a world renowned explorer again but for real this time, though this is after he makes amends for what he did under primal dialga. he also gives the sableye a home and acts more paternal towards them

grovyle has a long time figuring out what he wants to do, he had hinged his life on his mission and now he feels confused. im thinking he actually does make a full fledged team with dusknoir and celebi and theyre all famous like dusknoir is :D but itd take a bit! he experiments, trying to see what he likes

the future trio time travels to see rin and nimbus again bc i said so

jay and mimi (psmd hero/partner) play a big part in mega evolution research later on in life (but that is tech a spoiler for something so keeping quiet abt it for now)

mimi learns about mewtwo and actively seeks them out. she jokingly adopts them and calls herself their mom, but the two make a genuine bond and it helps mewtwo integrate into pokemon society more after they isolated themself from it

espurr eventually joins the expedition society once she feels confident enough. she primarily becomes mawile's apprentice in archeology, but is also a formidable member in her own right and eventually steps up as one of the strongest members once mawile retires and espurr evolves into meowstic.

azalea (rescue team hero) befriends gengar after the latter takes a major break from the town post-murky cave. azalea had also not been the greatest human before turning into a pokemon, and she genuinely wanted to help him reform once he showed interest/signs of improvement. leopold (partner) takes a while to come around, but a bond is eventually formed between the 3.

eris (gti hero) is eventually trapped in the pmd world due to the dimension being locked, but he's honestly okay with it. his home life wasn't the best and he really only felt the "but we are FAMILY so i cant leave" obligation to return home before. he's since accepted that it was toxic and was honestly just relieved the lock was put up while he was in the pmd universe instead of the human world. he also either never evolves (bc i can never find a thunder stone in gti) or evolves into alolan raichu while his partner elliot evolves all the way into samurott, and elliot lets him ride around on his back. horse.

12. If you could change one thing about your favourite game(s), what would it be?

the darkrai plot hands down. ive rambled before abt why i hate it but basically my idea would be to either keep darkrai as a postgame villain but leave temporal tower and palkia out of it, or to keep his intervention in the main plot but make him a more impactful character. my ideas include

-making him appear earlier ffs. or at least be mentioned/alluded to multiple times in the main story.

-make him more of a character beyond "i want to rule the world" type. like maybe we do go the "tragic villain" route where he didnt HAVE to end up the way he did. like he was feared and hated due to his influence over nightmares that he cant help, but there was also a time related crisis or a drought or something happening at the lakes and treeshroud forest. so darkrai decides to take the time gears from temporal tower to put in those areas, get the lake guardians to look after them, and fix the anomalies there.

-this gets him adoration and love from the region and he's upheld as a hero. he revels in it and loves the affection.

-unfortunately he wasn't aware of the long term disaster of temporal tower's collapse... he panics at the thought of people hating him again once he learns (probably through dialga telling him or something), but then he has a thought like "wait. what if i LET that happen and i can swoop in and save everyone in the aftermath, dont connect it to the time gears and instead make it out to have been this unforeseeable disaster, and he keeps everyone together and they still love him! so he basically leaves dialga high and dry bc he's rather do that than admit his mistake.

-cresselia then tries to stop him and thats how shes involved. maybe he puts her in a nightmare

-darkrai kinda just. REALLY wants to die on this hill basically, hes desperate to keep the love pokemon have for him now and doesn't want to lose it.

-he probably doesnt interfere with the time travel bc darkrais cant naturally time travel. in fact he has no idea what the future is even like. hes CONVINCED hes gonna be this grand hero in the dark future

-darkrai is also seen or mentioned a lot throughout the story explaining his connection to the time gears.

-ofc hero and partner stop temporal towers collapse and pokemon put two and two together abt the time gears and start to be wary abt darkrai again. he starts to despise them and plots for them to be... "removed" from the world so to speak. so in postgame, where his plot usually takes place, he starts trying to manipulate them like he does in main game. but what hes also trying to do is frame them. he puts nightmares in other pokemons heads about hero and partner, exaggerating their space distortion and saying theyll be the end of the world if they arent eliminated. basically he's trying to do what gengar did. i dont think another witchhunt deal will happen both bc the pokemon do genuinely trust and love them + we wouldnt want to just repeat the first game anyways, but it DOES isolate them just enough to create a divide (that wigglytuff/cresselia eventually fixes up) and make the hero/partner really doubt themselves and basically plants that seed of doubt in everyone. darkrai then gets it in his head to ACTUALLY distort space so that the pokemon blame it on hero and partner, and the stuff w palkia happens as it does ingame. darkrai is exposed again by cresselia (idk if azurill gets a permanent nightmare here? i kinda wanna keep that bc i love that dungeon but idk if its narratively appropriate now) and he runs off to dark crater

-basically the dark crater confrontation happens except darkrai doesnt have a band of pokemon. a boss battle happens and he rants about how the hero and partner ruined everything for him, his backstory is revealed, and he says that he wanted hero and partner to go through what he did. everything would've been fine if they hadnt meddled, if they had just stayed put in their respective timelines and let everything go as planned! they didnt have to ruin him a second time! if they had just let time go, he wouldve kept the respect he had, and he wouldnt be an outcast again! he wouldve kept everyone happy even with the ruined world, it wouldve been fine!

-... and then partner drops the fact that they hadn't heard a whisper of him in the future. it's not to rub it in his face, its a genuine question: "if you were supposed to save everyone... where were you? we were in the future... if you had been there, surely you would've been mentioned?"

-this breaks darkrkai. the fact that his future was just a desperate attempt to cling to a fantasy, it makes him realize just how ridiculous he'd been this whole time. all this time, he had just been hurting the same pokemon he wanted adoration from. this is where he flees, maybe into a dimensional hole (palkia might have made it?) and i'm not sure if he loses his memory here, but it does leave him in a place where he can be recruited and reformed if the player so choses.

[bi-dazai]

okay while we're on the subject of eating healthy and exercising, I want to vent/talk about weight loss. This is gonna be a rly controversial, very personal and extremely long post but I do want to make a point. I'm not going to discuss every fucking nuance of haes or my EDs. But for clarity, know that my eds are complicated and were mostly osfeds - minor anorexia osfed in high school and bed osfed when I was 18-19. after i realised how fat i was the minor anorexia came back and over the pandemic it became full scale anorexia nervosa.

I'm 5'3. The healthy weight range I should be in is in the high 40s-low 50s. I went up to TWICE that by the time I was just nineteen years old. It wasn't fun being fat. I consumed as much fat acceptance, fat activism content as I could, I pretended I was confident and happy even when I was fat. But I wasn't. Because people don't just get obese accidentally. A little overweight, yes. But obese? No. You get obese from depression, from giving up. You don't want to move so you don't. You're sad all the time, and the body positivity circles say eat comfort food, whatever and as much as it makes you feel better!! Do you know what that is? That's encouragement of BED. Do not say that. Because I did that. I ate sugar and junk food, I was still depressed.

I was reading these posts that were claiming fat people shouldn't be weighed at the doctor, that your weight shouldn't count, that BMI is incorrect and doesn't matter, etc etc. There were posts saying that they got "perfect bloodwork" (what even is that? I knew that was wrong, I've had chronic iron deficiency for a decade!) even though they were fat, so they had to be healthy, right? I got shown pictures of obese ballerinas and obese weightlifters blah blah blah. And I grew and grew, and I got to almost 85kg on the fast track to 100kg before reality smacked me in the face and I realised I was shortening my lifespan by decades.

Here's what it was like being obese!

- joint pain, constantly

- could barely walk anywhere without feeling out of breath

- couldn't find any fashionable, good quality clothes (plus size stores either carry unfashionable clothing, or fashionable but cheap quality clothing. I don't like to waste money on cheap clothes)

- more acne than I'd had in years

- oily skin

- more difficulty feeling "full"

- JOINT FUCKING PAIN

- rashes from skin rubbing against skin!

- even larger chest, making me MORE dysphoric

- back pain!!

- snoring - this is not just embarrassing. This is potentially deadly.

- DYSPHORIA

- KNEES. JOINT PAIN.

- DYSPHORIA

this was just things I felt physically, noticeably! The things that my fat was doing on the inside was even worse. Fat isn't just this layer of packing peanuts that appears on top of you. It coats your organs. It gets everywhere. It makes your entire body run worse.

Fat also makes it much more likely for you to not just GET cancer, but it it also makes it harder to FIGHT cancer. Being obese makes almost every single goddamn sickness on the planet worse because when you have THAT MUCH fat tissue the hormones and shit it secretes fucks EVERYTHING up.

Yes there are obese bodybuilders. Yes there are obese ballerinas. Let's talk about those two.

There are plenty of drs and dieticians who have pointed out the obvious - if an obese person was really, actually eating healthily and exercising every day, they would not stay obese forever. Its not magic, it's thermodynamics. CICO done right works for everyone. If you are eating healthy, appropriate portions for weight loss at your TDEE and exercising it would literally be IMPOSSIBLE for you not to lose weight!! Even more the heavier you are because when you exercise you carry around a lot more weight.

Obese weightlifters are still obese. They are not proof you can be obese and healthy. They are still going to die younger if they do not lose weight.

Let's talk about fat ballerinas. The only ones I've seen are trainee ballerinas, not professional ones. And their performance looks impressive at first, until you look closer. You notice their balance is never quite perfect, their control can be amazing and the best ever but they'll still be off. Why? Because fat moves around with your movement, and it displaces your balance and your line of movement. It's simply not possible to do something like ballet dancing as a fat person without risking major injury as well. En pointe is already stupid dangerous for the skinniest ballerina. Going en pointe at anything above 60kg is going to get progressively suckier the heavier you go. And god help your ankles because falling down will always end in a major injury.

I'm so fucking done with "fat acceptance". I'm tired of "body positivity" being a movement about obese middle-upper class white women and not about scars and disabilities etc like it was focused on in the start. I have no problems with Health at Every Size - every person should feel happy to workout, to eat healthy. I have no problem raising issue with people bullying others for their weight as well. That's wrong. But pretending that it's Healthy at Every Size is a fucking lie, and it's one that could've sentenced me to an early death. Healthy at Every Size said I was condemned to joint pain and oily skin and depression and exhaustion for the rest of my life based on cherrypicked sentences from studies that didn't agree with them. That "95% of diets fail" sentence in particular drives me up the wall. You don't need a diet to lose weight, you need healthy CICO, you need to eat below your TDEE, you need to eat healthy, and you need to exercise. All you have to do at first is go on a 10-20 minute walk, whatever pace you like, a few times a week.

You can BE fit, you CAN lose weight! You are not sentenced to having joint pain and an increased risk for cancer and a less effective COVID vaccine for life. You can change your body in incredibly ways. You have no idea what you are capable of.

There's this myth that weight loss takes keto and shakes and diet pills and crash diets etc. It doesn't. All it is is making sure you eat less than your TDEE, eating HEALTHY calories, and getting your heartrate up by exercising at least 175 minutes a week.

The human body is not meant to be obese. There's no such thing as a set point weight. There's CICO, there's nutrition, there's making sure your muscles dont atrophy. Weight loss and fitness isn't some magic thing that youre just born able to do. I was lazy throughout my entire teens. I thought fitness was something the popular girls did. It's not. It's for everyone. and everyone, especially in places with an obesity epidemic such as the US, UK, and Australia, should make use of it. It's a good thing. Walking is one of the best things you can do for your body, and it's incredibly rewarding in every way. Eating healthy and not eating until you feel like you're going to burst is rewarding in every way. And it's not like you can't ever have junk food again, you just have to limit it to a treat, a once or twice per week thing. And honestly, it makes it much more enjoyable that way.

Now I want to talk a little about my anorexia. My weight loss journey came to anorexia. This is because it was an eating disorder I'd had for a long time. I did not see a trainer or dietician, and I consciously decided to push myself too far. I consciously decide to eat less and exercise more when I am starving. This is not something that just happens because someone is eating at 1200cals. It happens because you have an eating disorder which you are born with. Saying people who eat 1200cals of healthy food a day and exercise right are "anorexic" is so fucking insulting to everyone involved. It's ableist and ignorant. 1200cals is also a pretty generous amount for anorexic ppl to eat. That's close to a binge in ED standards, so that should give you a reference for how offbase saying 1200cals is "anorexic" is.

My anorexia is healthy habits pushed into eating disorder territory. I eat healthy, yes, but I don't eat enough. I exercise, yes, but I often push myself too far when I'm already lacking energy. The advice I give people for health is correct, and I'm never going to go around saying "eat less than 1200cals" as weightloss advice. Eat less, sure, but there's a limit. Calorie counting is a good thing to do, tracking your macros and nutrients is good. But I do it too much.

I know what's healthy, a lot of ppl with restrictive and purgative EDs do. People with EDs can give some awesome health advice, we just can't follow it because we have a mental disorder. Believe it or not people with EDs discussing their EDs are not "pro-ana", pointing out that anorexia and people with anorexia are real and not some boogeyman you use to justify not losing weight and eating healthy is not pro-ana. Anorexia existing is not pro-ana and anorexics being anorexic has nothing to do with fatphobia.

this post is a rambling mess but i rly had to get some stuff clear on how I feel abt this stuff because it's getting concerning how much unhealthy shit, and then straight up ableist shit, that the fat acceptance crowd spews out.

A little exercise won't kill you, eating healthy won't kill you. You are not sentenced to ugly plus size fashion and joint pain and being out of breath for the rest of your life. Leave the Healthy at Every Size death cult and join the Health at Every Size movement. Let the doctor take your weight (it IS medically necessary). acknowledge that you are obese and it is affecting your health. It's scary but it can be the start of a new, healthy beginning. It was for me.

Losing 15kg has been the best thing in my life. Sure, the anorexia is there enjoying it for one reason. But the reason I truly enjoy it is because I've discovered what a healthier body feels like. I've discovered the joys of exercise, I've discovered the joys of eating healthy. I can fit nice clothes now. And I'm still overweight! I'm 66kg, that's 4kg away from the barest minimum acceptable healthy bmi. But I feel so so much better. I look better. I have a jawline! Good skin! Energy! It didn't fix me but it sure made me a hell of a lot better.

Please please try and eat healthy, eat an appropriate amount, go for walks. It's so so good, and if you do it right you WILL lose weight. You'll live past 50. You'll get to explore the world in a way you couldn't when going up stairs had you out of breath. You'll fit into that nice skirt you've been looking at. Your skin will clear up. You'll have energy and your mental health will improve.

It's so so fucking worth it to put effort into your health, like I cannot emphasise this enough. Please do it, I wish I could tell myself this when I was binging on junk because the FA crowd told me it was valid to comfort eat until I hurt.

[alotsgonnachange]

Mystic Messenger Saeran’s AE Thoughts (.......And Prayers..) #Spoilerz

Hello, I just finished Saeran’s after ending and I have a lot of things to say and I am going to write it down while I'm still all keyed up about it.

First of all… Please DO NOT ask me how much money I spent to finish this as fast as I did…. I’m grown but my bank account is certainly going to have a good ole fashioned CHUCKLE at this….. It’s been a long quarantine I deserve a lil happiness as a treat methinks!

I have been playing this absolutely insane game since I think 2016? When I first started playing the deep routes had JUST come out I think? And I was just finishing up high school and am now a college grad...lmao

I’ve played all routes at least once except Jaehee but i’ve seen walkthroughs of her route (I’ve heard it makes you hate Jumin and he’s my favorite so um. hehe). V’s and Saeran’s routes I found to be so emotionally intense and just….a lot and I've been waiting a long ass god damn time for this after ending okay…. I would theorize and make up an ending in my head but i’m no writer so it was hard to figure out lol. I’m a Jumin stan mostly but I love everybody and yeah I should probably play that jumin dlc too but I need like a DAY to recover from Saeran’s AE. Enough about me HERE are my thoughts on it overall

Major Saeran AE Spoilers under da cut!

Can we please discuss V showing up to the C+R conference room with basically chloroform and made everybody Pass Out like??? I was alone in my room at like midnight just SCREAMING at my phone???? And the creepy ass CG ???? It’s like that gif of sarah paulson from ahs being like “I put arsenic in the wine….and the pasta”

Anyway I screamed at V a lot during this process!!

Loved RFA being sweet and kind to saeran (before V fucking drugged them…)

This is such common V behavior “I have to do it all myself...there’s no other way..” GIRL SHUT UPPP You do this every route....

SO many CG’s and I enjoy them a lot

Saeran’s sprite looks a little TOO crisp compared to everyone else but maybe its a glitch??? V next to him is in 480p while saeran is like 1080p

Hearing both Saeran and Saeyoung missing the other brother the whole time??? PAIN. All my homies know is PAIN

BOSS and his V for Vendetta ass guy fawkes mask??? I literally yelled “this game is TERRIBLE!!” several times at my phone

Their dad is so>??????? When he was sitting on the couch with saeyoung in that one CG while simultaneously telling him to kill himself?????????? Maybe chairman han is actually the best dad in this game somehow

When V and Rika were like we’re back together teehee teehee okay pack it up bonnie and clyde ..

When chairman han calls u and says hes jealous of u and saeran…..HUH????? I’m calling HR

When they go to the apartment and see boss and vanderwood and poor saeyoung is sitting there seeing his brother for the first time in years i wanted to D word sooooo bad like PAIN...PAIN….

Can we HAVE A DISCUSSION ABOUT JUMIN HAN BEING THE BEST CHARACTER IN THE GAME AND HE LOST EVERYTHING IN THIS AE……. he just took the blame and moved on jumin what the hell….. I love him so much r we serious? He watched his 2 closest friends betray him in the worst way and found out abt how Rika abused Saeyoung and Saeran???? I felt just AWFUL. Terrible ...Terrible….

Rika’s change in demeanor from Saeran's actual route is certainly a Choice. I find her much more bearable this time around and unfortunately i think I was too nice to her and ended up with a bad end LMFAO

I was happy to see Saeran stand up for himself and become stronger and confident. You go king!

The CG of Yoosung laying in Zen’s lap is everything to me…

HOWEVER YUP I sure did get a bad ending and I was so mad fdsafdskfdhsf ! (I would be happy to clarify how I got the good one the second time.) MAKE SURE To SAVE EARLY in days 2 and 3 bc the branches on day 4 is where the bad end will show up. For me it was the first day 4 chat and then a story mode titled “SAVIOR”.... If you see that RUN FOR THE HILLS!!

I was so mad! But I had saved in day 2 and replayed and MANAGED to get good end

I’m obsessed with everyone calling V and Rika “that psychotic couple” like…..its true its true…

No those two are so toxic… V’s route was torture watching them go on and on about the sun like yo can yall just call each other babe like normal people.

I respect straight people but not V and RIka that shit was just wrong… Straight marriage was a mistake

Oh lord i also FULLY Forgot Rika killed the twins’ mother…. Yeah that scene was um Certainly a lot but it needed to happen eventually

Like it’s good they know but damn that storyline is just so bleak

I think it was satisfying TO A DEGREE….To see Rika understand where she was wrong, why she was wrong, fess up and even APOLOGIZE! I was very surprised.

Saeran and Saeyoung are Certainly twins with the amount that those two self sacrifice in every route MY GOD…..

The scene with Jumin talking to his father and the other scene of him praying oh my god I cannot tell you how happy I was to see him begin to understand and address his own feelings in a route that was not his own. My main problem with Jumin’s route has always been the trapping MC in his penthouse aspect.. This way Jumin understands love and emotions without being overly possessive !!! YAY also loved seeing him be on good terms with his dad who was surprisingly profound

That last Story mode was Really a Lot…. and Strange things occurred which I will get into in just a minute

Jumin becoming a politician is so funny but ngl … i see it.

Yoosung going to france to study pastries ok king I see u! (it made more sense to me than the vet thing anyway)

Lastly Zen FURRY ERA

MY BEEF With the AE

I was happy with how they handled it for the most part. I think Cheritz heard our feedback about V’s after ending and was like okay….let’s try something different

HOWEVER

Saeran…. Sweet kind saeran… IS SO AFFECTIONATE HAHA….

He must have said I love you like 300 times…..very mushy gushy flowery language...and maybe that’s just his personality but for me it was like eating cake with buttercream cake. It means well, but god damn is it sugary and going to cause a stomach ache later.

He was just… SO MUCH! SO forward and ON all the time in his affections. I honestly felt kind of smothered and by day 3 and 4 I was sooooo over all the compliments… King you’ve come a very long way, but ur still putting MC on a pedestal and probably need to see a therapist.

Nextly….Rika and V….. Naw that knock out gas really ...that hurt lol. Coming from “I would do anything to protect RFA” V? Idk like…. EYE felt betrayed reading that. It was just hurtful. I can’t even imagine how the members would have felt as they were passing out. It was just so cruel. I suppose I understand why but like?? Just TERRIBLE

Them being in cahoots with the agency and the prime minister..HUH??? Also too much

V just felt so irresponsible like I do understand that he ended up in a weird web of secrets that’s hard to untangle but he’s so fucking stubborn he’s SO stubborn it makes me insane. Like sir… It seems like in other routes he wanted to try to protect Rika and the RFA.. But in this AE it seems more to me that he was like yeah i’m protecting Rika and That’s It… so fucking hurtful to me. Both of y’all apologize ESPECIALLY to the twins and Jumin..

The forgiveness thing…… Okay so I think some people will not like that Saeran decided to “forgive” the people who hurt him (Rika, V, Saejoong, his mother). I would point out that I actually think this was approached somewhat well. He says at one point that he doesn’t think they’re good or bad, just people. I think he sounded mature and like this was the way for him personally to accomplish his healing process. Would I have loved for Saeran to flip V and Rika off and kick Saejoong off a cliff? Yea I really would. But like…. If that’s what HE needs to do to heal then who am I to judge?

HOWEVER…. Everything Eye just said goes out the window when the scenes at the end with Saejoong come up… I was PERPLEXED. Like why did he HUG his deranged father who just kicked the shit out of him??? Also all the chat options that MC has with him r like blah blah you’re like this because no one loves you were so corny to me LMFAOOOO?

AND WHEN HE WAS IN THE ROOM LATER WITH SAERAN… i’m sorry but if that were me I would have called a nurse to deck his ass. Cool he turned himself in YOU SUCK SOOOO BAD AND I NEVER WANT YOU TO COME NEAR SAEYOUNG AND SAERAN AGAIN THANKS.

*scratches ass* I wish I got to see saeyoung and saeran finally sit down and have that first conversation after a long time and hug CG but the ending was fine I GUESS….. I dont care about ROMANCE I want those boys to be happy brothers together

Anyway that was really emotionally exhausting but I fr think I got it out of my system after literal years… And I can rest in peace knowing the choi twins are happy. THATS ALL I WANTED TO KNOW!!!!

[khamomile-kitty]

FIRST OF ALL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! Okay so I don't know anything abt your OCs, please tell me EVERYTHING. And what are their hobbies, their favorite places, what do they enjoy most in the world?

OH DAMN HAVE I NEVER POSTED ABT THEM HERE?? TIME TO CHANGE THAT

So my first one is Tara, she is of South Asian descent, specifically India, her great-grandparents immigrated to the UK and she lived near the west islands in Scotland. She’s wanted to go to space since she was little, she’s fascinated by that kind of stuff, and she’s studying at a nice college : )

Tara’s hobbies are doodling (just for fun, can be anything from people to plants) and gardening, she has a little windowsill garden of plants and herbs that she tends to carefully. They have names! She also like making star-maps of special occasions, she has one of what the stars looked like the night she was born that she worked very hard on.

Her favorite places is her home, where it was quiet and the air and sky was clearer. (If you’ve ever been to the UK you understand it’s disgusting fjgjjg 😔👊) However she does like the nearest city to her school, with a large library and a cafe close by. It’s a nice, quiet place to read or just vibe. The cafe knows her order when she comes in now hfgjfjgj.

The things she enjoys most in the world? That’s a bit tough lol, but she loves her family and her roommate (they’re close friends), and she is extremely passionate about her goals. She loves being high up and feeling the wind, she just like nature!! all of this makes it seem like she’s super quiet but honestly she’s a strong-willed, sometimes-prickly, confident person!

Other OC is Valeria, she/they are afro latina and lives in America (I haven’t decided where yet 😔) she’s a lot newer than Tara, but I love them so so much. They are v pastel punk, they make their own clothes! They’re less sure than Tara abt what they want to do as a career (they want to do a lot of things, it’s hard to pick) but they’re doing fine w their retail job atm, as fine as you can be in retail hfjggj

Val like sewing, crochet, and painting! They’ve got a spot in her apartment that’s reserved for painting, complete w plastic covering the walls and floor jcjggj. They’re good too, they like bright, abstract art, but they can paint a landscape like bob ross. They can also kick your ass at racing games, they’re the type of person to choose rainbow road bc they know they’ll win hfjfhkgj

I haven’t nailed down where they live yet, but Val likes a lot of places! But if you take them to an art museum you’ll be there all day HFJFG. They also like cafe’s, specifically locally owned ones. Parks are cool too, LOVES to see the dogs!

Val enjoys art, all kinds of art, SO much. It’s just cool! You make things! That’s so beautiful! They love their family and friends, hanging out w ppl they love is the highlight of their week.

And then we have Leon GJKCVJ. He diesnt count as an oc bc he’s based on Leon Kuwata from DR, but I’ve changed so much he’s not really that character anymore either lol. He’s schrodinger's character lmao

Leon’s hobbies are gaming, doodling (he likes markers the best) and writing shitty lyrics to songs he’ll never finish. He’s also a big fan of doing nothing

You’ll never get him to admit it, but he does actually like being outside. He doesnt like getting too hot, or sweaty, or bug-bitten, but he does like the freedom of being in a field and breathing free air. He also likes busy places like cities, he likes the aesthetic. He likes karaoke bars, and he’s been to quite a few mixers! He’s the type of person to invite his whole class at school, for the hell of it.

Leon enjoys freedom, specifically, what he thinks it is. He loves doing what he’s passionate about, whatever it is on a particular day. Despite this, music always remains something he can feel his soul connect to.