I woke up feeling like I was crying to sleep when I wasn't??? And my dream was about Mei from Turning Red riding a snow sleigh. Um There's nothing sad about that??? Lol
Anyway, the warm up sketches. The colors were added in Medibang. It was pretty fun, might do that technique some other time. My body still refused to recover from being bummed out throughout the day so I did house chores instead of commissions. 😅 Will try again tomorrow.
I've seen a few asks and repost of the take flight all brothers au and it got me wondering if you think you might work on it again, I find the idea really cool and I love all of the art you did for it as well
I think the recent asks are a result of me reblogging my old Cody Take Flight art for Cody Day (2/2/24), along with a bunch of my other Cody-centric arts! So it wasn't due to me pushing just that art to hint at something upcoming, unfortunately.
While I don't consider that AU abandoned, I don't see myself working on it in the immediate future. I'm very, VERY bad at working on multiple story projects at the same time, and right now I'm still going full steam ahead on the Prime Override. And while I won't say Take Flight is directionless, and it does have a more serious underlying plot that I was hoping to eventually steer it towards (fully aware that folks who prefer fluffy crack may not like it much), Override is much more focussed, with many goals I'm trying to reach.
Other projects include two Valentine's Day arts that I'm cramming to try to finish before V-Day, a number of other standalone sketches/arts, and of course wary preparation for TBB S3 (all of which u can see WIPs for on my Patreon!). I unfortunately can't do all of these at once!
If there's ever a lull in my inspiration for Override, or I need to take a break, or I suddenly get a spark of inspo, maybe I'll do something then. But for now, i can't promise anything for it at the moment.
went to shul in-person yesterday for the first time - it's a bit of a drive and i was nervous so i've been just attending via livestream, but i really wanted to go for the chanukah service - and i had a really great time, actually. [insert shocked pikachu here] everyone was super welcoming, my rabbi said she was very glad i came, and it felt like community in the way the churches i grew up in as a kid never did. the last time i tried to attend any kind of service was when i went to mass with my partner, and that gave me anxiety/panic attacks from just sitting in the auditorium - nothing like that here, which actually really surprised me. that's an ingrained trauma i have been expecting to continually be working against through the process. instead i was...fine?
a couple different people recognized me from saturday morning torah study group just by my name, which was very funny to me. but it was really good, i was glad i was there, and i can't wait to go again!
some of you will tag every third music post #girl interrupted #femcel #female hysteria #female rage #coquette #dollette and then the post will turn out to be about a known pathetic slobby wet indie boy with a mop of hair
pinterest kuro fans are some of the strangest people i've ever seen in my life, they're literally having full dadbastian and ciel roleplays under an image of stolen fanart, it's wild out there
This was such a fun blast from the past! This character is from a novel I started writing when I was about 12 and spent 5 solid years drafting and revising. I won NaNoWriMo with it once! Eventually I realized that a lot of the basic premises didn't make a lot of sense (to be fair, a twelve year old came up with them) and that was getting in the way of my attempts to improve it. I knew I was too attached to the story to kill the necessary darlings, so I put it in the metaphorical trunk and it's been there for a few years now, waiting for a point when I can return to it and make some big structural changes to the story.
I still think a lot about the characters, who were the most interesting part of it to me, and I hope I do eventually get back to writing their story. This character is the protagonist, and she's a very classic Reluctant Heroine with a good old Tragic Backstory. I've almost forgotten how I used to draw her, but I remembered that I would put her in silver armor and a blue cloak. (This drawing is very Rule of Cool > Things That Make Sense, which is fitting since that's what the novel lived and died on, lol.)
I also made her aroace, years before I considered that I might be, which is a whole lot of emotions in retrospect. A central part of the story revolved around her relationship with her best friend--the two of them had off-the-charts "i would die for you" "please don't" levels of devotion for each other. I still think about that vibe all the time and wish I could find more of it in platonic relationships in fiction.
will not explain the context but i get mistaken for a trans woman 50% of the time to the point trans coworkers ask how my "transition" is going, but shy away once they realize we're not coming from the same background. I love all my trans sisters, but it is such a broad scope and doesn't ever make womanhood easier become someone else is more grateful for it. Womanhood is either neutral and genetic, or oppressed and social, and I don't know how to live that down. And I don't think my trans coworkers who I go out to coffee with everyday, do either.
if you want to talk about this off anon i'm more than happy to, but i will just say that it feels very weird that you would send this in response to me making a post about trans women helping me feel more comfortable in my gender and who i am
Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.
Activities: Woke up late because I went back to sleep with a headache briefly, then kind of struggled to focus all day ToT
Worked more on the aforementioned tapestry/painting type of thing. I've done the base layer of painting for the main image, now I'm lining in darker outlines. I wanted to finish the center art before getting into the intricate borders. Still haven't translated the text lol..
Made a small bowl and also a little box with a lid out of more avocado pits. Still just with random nail cuticle tool things and kitchen knives, as I don't have proper carving tools.
Finished editing and proofreading the new poll adventure post!! I don't have time to post it tonight because I need to get to sleep early but.. I have it Completely 100% Ready.. finally..
Also washed the clothes I got together yesterday. Called about the bloodwork. Sent an email to a doctor.
Reviewed some writing documents to get back into my game maybe?? (basically, I started working on a visual novel type game a few years ago, decided it was a huge project so kind of put it on the backburner for a while in favor of things that were more easily finishable/tangible. then later on a game website I play (similar to neopets or something, there are collectable little creatures, etc.) there was an opportunity for me to design a pet on site, so I made a smaller shorter visual novel centered around that, where people on the site have to play the game in order to earn the pet, and I have a google form for them to answer a few short questions about it. All of the feedback is quite positive (reached 200 responses a while ago! though still only like 4 comments on the itch.io page lol.. Mandatory Form vs. Optional Comments evil showdown), but sometimes I get commentary that's really enthusiastic and inspires me to start back working on the OTHER bigger game. The small game was kind of like, a proof of concept that was safe because I had a guaranteed audience, that has helped me gain more insight for the larger one.
Anyway, since I've abandoned the Main Large Game for so long, I have to re-read and review/probably rewrite A LOT of things just to pick it back up again as A Thing I'm Actively Working On, so it's another one of those tasks that I do maybe 45 minutes of and then realize it's going to take days and days and get discouraged lol..
Notable sights: Saw two cats in windows. No clovers. It rained a little today but I didn't get to go outside and see it. One of the pieces of asparagus in the fridge was like the size of a carrot, comically overgrown downright ridiculous looking asparagus. Maybe I'll get taller after eating it.
Goals moving forward: Consistent sleep schedule. Focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Plant nasturtiums. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc.
Notable foods: ASPARAGUS AGAIN BABEY.. yeaAAAAGHHH asparagus squad !!!!!!
ohhhhhhhhhhh what I'd give to post my characters on here. I'm so proud of and excited about my little guys but I can't risk them escaping containment because I have big plans for them and it would be embarrassing to unleash that project someday and then have people digging up my personal blog because I was already posting the characters you feel me? BUT,, I want to show you guys so bad. tumblr please add mutuals/followers only post visibility options for me. as a treat. I'm dying squirtle.
Omg I'm so happy I found someone as obsessed with the BJ Deetz universe as I am! Like I can't stop thinking about these FUCKIN TEENAGERS I WANNA SEE THEIR PROM
ahhhh honestly i could talk about Bunny's BJ Deetz AU for hours! I'm a complete simp for Bunny's writing/art tbh and that AU is one of the main reasons I started writing my own fics and actively getting involved in the fandom . I started reading it at a really weird point in my life and i just... genuinely don't know how to describe all the ways that reading it was a comfort to me - i tried to convey this to Bunny but i don't know if I'll ever get the words quite right?