#first ncis fanfiction

[benedettabeby]

OK OK I DID IT. I wrote something,idk why,idk who wanted it (nobody) but here it comes. Tiva present but not really Tiva (it will make sense I promise). I want to thank you @indestinatus cause her prompt list inspired me to try (even if this story isn't about one of them). Sorry for some english mistakes(I don't speak the language as native) and just sorry if the story doesn't make sense 😅 ok, stop talking now here the story:

MEATBALLS AND PAIN AU CHOCOLAT

Tony was cold. No,not cold,freezing. In addition to the artic temperatures of January,Tony forgot his gloves and scarf at home that morning. He would have given anything to be inside one of the multiples pastry shops sipping on a hot cocoa,one with tiny marshmallow. That was impossible,however,as doing that would mean losing sight of *Littlemeatball* and *LankyRicky*, which were the code names for the two suspects he was following.

It was his professionalism and dedication that was keeping him on that park bench with a red nose that could give Rudolph the reindeer a run for its money and chattering teeth. From that point of view he could see every move of the couple now innocently ice skating,hand in hand, in the middle of the ice rink. The girl,aka Littlemeatball, was the picture of radiance as she laughed to something LankyRicky whispered to her ear. Tony wished he could actually hear what they were talking about but he was too far away so he could only observe their faces mimic and gestures. For example, it was very obvious to his extraordinaire and expert eyes,how LankyRicky was trying to impress the girl by doing some skates tricks he must have practised just for this moment. All the signals were there: cocky smile, muscle flexing,fake humble aura... Tony did it all before(ok maybe he still does). He tried getting close, hiding between the crowd. If he couldn't get close,the data mission was useless,moreover getting closer would assure a faster and more effective intervention if the situation needed it. As he was getting closer,he had to back down when the couple was approaching the ice rink exit. Always laughing the young duo got rid of the skates and headed to the city center,which allowed Tony better camouflage but the same did it to Littlemeatball and LankyRicky. After a ten minutes walk, where DiNozzo was scared he got caught thanks to a shop window reflection and where he had almost lost them when they took a right turn near the McDonald's where a young man playing his guitar created quite a public.

Right now Tony followed the two young partners inside a little café.

"Oh maybe it's finally time for that chocolate!" Tony tought with sheer relief.

While the two sat and started chatting,Tony carefully chose a table that would allow him some control over the situation.

They were planning some sort of a meeting to LankyRicky's beach house,the conversation was starting to get interesting when the waitress rudely interrupted Tony's investigation. Ok,ok,she only asked him his order. But still... now?!

Ordering that hot cocoa resulted in him missing the address of the house and when they decided to meet. Damn. It seemed they were sitting in a comfortable silence now,when suddenly LankyRicky's reached for Littlemeatball's hand across the table. Tony almost fell off his chair trying to see better when his phone rang.

It was the second time someone interrupted him on a key moment.

"Ziva! What? I'm busy" Tony whispered hastily,answering the phone.

"Where are you?" Ziva asked unimpressed

"Uhm. Out"

He was met with a sigh from the other side of the phone

"Tony... Tali sent me a message,she knows you are following her"

Ouch,denial was now the only option

"What? Tali? Following her? I don't even know where she is..."

"She saw you at the park and she is seeing you at the café too"

As she said it,Tony raised his head to glance over the table where the couple was. As she sensed it, Littlemeatball,or better Tali looked right at him before rolling her eyes and turning her attention to her boyfriend.

Tony knew that ninja abilities were hereditary...

"Tony,leave her alone! I know you want to protect her but she's almost 17,she is big and mature enough to create her own life" Ziva's voice reached him through the phone.

Tony knew she was right,but Tali was his little meatball and didn't want to see her getting hurt. He just wanted to be sure nothing bad would happen...

Tali's laughter echoed into the tiny cafè,right before she leaned to kiss the boy's lips. She looked so happy and... in love.It was like Tali aged in front of his eyes.

"Tony...you come home or I need to drag you by the hair on your butt?"

"You're right,there is no need to harm my beautiful butt woman. I'm coming"

"Good boy"

"I know, good boys deserve a prize you know?"

Ziva closed the call with a chuckle:"only if you bring me the pain au Chocolat from where you are. I heard it's the best of Paris"

While he went to pay(and buy a thousand of pain au Chocolat hoping that would calm Ziva and make her forget he actually spied on their daughter), he gave a look at Tali's table only to find it empty. Where was she?

"Richard went to the toilet" his daughter's voice from behind him made him jump

"AAARH. I know I look young but I'm not, you're gonna give me a heart attack"

"Better that than a kick where sun doesn't shine"

"Hey,who educated you?"

"Who educated you?? You believed you were James Bond on a Mission,while following me?"

Tony couldn't help but feel ashamed.

"Little meatball... I'm sorry if I... I just wanted to keep an eye on you,I... I know I'm wrong..."

Tali arched an eyebrow,exactly like Ziva did and Tony had to smile at that.

"Very very wrong " he admitted

"Dad...I know you meant no harm but I'm almost an adult now "

"I know... it's just hard. For a parent "

"It's not like I can't defend myself"

"But what if something happens and..."

"IF something happens" Tali stopped him " and I can't handle it,I'll call you or Ima,easy"

And that hit Tony. When he was Tali's age he would never sound so confident that Senior would be there for him and he was sure Ziva could say the same about Eli. Tali, on the other hand, was so calm,so confident in him and Ziva. He felt a rush of pride, they were not perfect but they were able to be better than their parents.

He must have taken a minute too much thinking about it cause Tali tapped his shoulder

"Sorry,you zoomed out....? Isn't that a little early for senile dementia?"

Tony snorted,she inherited Ziva's and his sassiness.

"Funny,really funny...Tali I'm sorry this won't happen again. You're right,it doesn't matter why I did it"

His daughter surprised him by hugging him

"I know why you did it,how you felt... thank you for that...and for stopping it "

He kissed her hair and she took a step away

"I need to go now,I don't want Ricky seeing you're here. Go away,bye bye. Say thanks to Imaa" and she ran to the table where Ricky was returning from the toilet.

He smiled: she was becoming a woman who had to live her first experiences but it didn't change how she would always be his Little meatball,he hoped Richard will treat her right cause otherwise...otherwise Tali would kick him where sun doesn't shine.

He was about to exit when his phone rang,text from "little Meatball": "buy me pain au Chocolat,pls? :3 you owe me"

He laughed

[television-overload]

heartache

Companion fic to this one I posted earlier this week. Thanks to @indestinatus for suggesting a Ziva pov chapter ♡

[AO3]

-.-.-

She had always had a hard time letting go.

The first time she sent him away, a portion of her heart — whatever she had left to offer that wasn't mangled and torn apart already — went with him. She told herself she could live without him, that she didn't need him to get through this. She watched him go, believing herself to be strong for willingly giving up that which made her feel whole and complete.

What a lie, she had sold herself.

She succeeded at giving up nothing. He never truly left. How could he, when she had a piece of him still with her always? Not for one moment had she faced her troubles alone, like she had intended. Like she thought she needed to.

He had always been the one to hold the broken pieces of her heart together. He came prepared with surgical sutures, needles, and bandages — whatever was needed — not afraid to get his hands dirty.

Now was no different.

In his absence, she learned that the blackened, shriveled bit of her heart that she kept to herself was not so irreparably corroded as she thought. Even from afar, he was responsible for restoring it to life, smoothing over the wounds she had thought would never go away. 

The healing balm came in the form of a tiny, pink, wailing child, born in the heat of summer in the very house where Ziva and her sister had first entered the world.

The sister for whom the child was named.

And so, Tali became the bearer of so many broken hearts. Her mother's, her father's and her aunt's. Perhaps even more than that. The blood pumping in her veins belonged to all those who had come before. Somehow, their hearts seemed almost whole in her hands.

It was selfish of her, to keep them all for herself. Even now, she knew she'd taken something important from Tony. Just how important, she couldn't be sure, skewed as her perception had been those last few days they'd been together.

But she felt it, that unwavering support and faith in her, which she surely didn't deserve.

She'd be safe with him, she reasoned. He would look after her.

As she packed away Tali's things, hurriedly dressing her in an outfit for the journey, she had the sensation of packing her own heart away as well. How could she protect it when the distance between them grew and grew? Would she be alright on her own, until the day she reached her father's arms and righted at least some of the wrongs that Ziva had done?

She did take pride in the healing that her heart had undergone. It may be scarred and a little faulty still at times, but surely Tony would recognize the progress that had been made. Surely he would know what she meant by sending it to him.

Yours, she wanted to tell him, presenting it to him in person. It's yours, and it always should have been.

In truth, sending her own heart away was the least of her worries. The more terrifying prospect was facing a life without him. The life she'd wished for years ago, characterized by complete solitude.

How had she ever thought that to be the ideal solution to her problems?

Here she was sending him away again, only this time it wasn't her choice. She hadn't known any better before, but she did now. She'd had him with her all this time, a piece of him she'd stolen and kept to herself, guarding it like a precious treasure. But fate had finally caught up to her.

It was time to return to him what was rightfully his.

With each inch that separated her from her Tali, she felt her heart grow cold and weary. It it twisted painfully, a dull thrum desperately pleading that there must be another way.

But how could her heart be there still in her chest when she'd just watched it disappear into the crowd, in the arms of one of the few people on this planet she could trust?

The loss of it left a gaping wound, an unseen flow of blood that no medical doctor could stem.

Someday, she promised herself, putting every last ounce of hope she possessed into the word. Someday, we will be whole again, my love.

Someday soon.

[whoa-myninja]

my whole heart

Summary:

Ziva tells Abby of her feelings for Tony. Inspired by the scene between Tony and Abby in 13x24.

⤷︎ read it here. ♥️

[echoes-of-realities]

Title: and when i'm back in chicago i feel it (another version of me)

Fandom: NCIS: Hawai'i

Relationship: Lucy Tara/Kate Whistler

Rating: General

Word Count: 7,002

Chapters: 1/5

Summary: “This is insane!” Kate blurts, snapping her head around to look at Lucy so quickly her neck must hurt. Her brown eyes are wide and terrified, darting around Lucy’s face, her jaw clenching and unclenching on a loop.

Lucy elects to go for humour to diffuse Kate’s anxiety. “We’re seven hours into a nine hour flight. It’s a little late to get cold feet, don’t ya think?” she asks with a chuckle. She supposes she should probably have expected this. They are travelling over eleven hours to Illinois to meet Kate’s family, which is a much bigger deal than meeting Kate’s FBI team at a BBQ picnic they could make a quick escape back to their apartment if need be. Especially because it’s more than just meeting Kate’s parents, it’s meeting her entire extended family at the annual Whistler-Johnston family reunion.

“It’s not the introducing you to my family part that I’m worried about,” Kate says quickly. “They’ll all adore you, just like I do. It’s just,” she drops her gaze, “The last time I was in Wordsworth was over eight years ago. And that trip didn’t exactly inspire me to ever go back.”

Or: Families and grief are complicated, but Lucy’s love for Kate is quite simple.

[usaonetwothree]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: NCIS (TV 2003) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Anthony DiNozzo, Jethro Gibbs Additional Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, The Gibbs We Deserve, Episode: s13e24 Family First (NCIS), Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Tony Leaves, but for different reasons Series: Part 12 of NCIS Fix-Its Summary:

A different send-off for Tony DiNozzo (sans the canon bombshells) that focuses on his many years as a competent agent, his dedication to NCIS and, most importantly, his friendship with Gibbs. Contains spoilers for 13x24 Family First. No slash, no ships.

[westerngayfairytales]

Chapters: 11/? Fandom: NCIS: Hawai'i Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lucy Tara/Kate Whistler Additional Tags: Smut, Angst, Humor, 1x17, 2x01, Established Relationship, Jealousy, angsty smut, 1x07, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Tennant's slow rise into becoming a deity, 1x14, tenstler brotp, tensler brotp Summary:

Collection of (mostly) unrelated one shots.

Tags for each chapter in the chapter's summary.

1: One last time (had she known). 1x17. Rated M. 2: The other one in which someone else is in Ernie's chair. 2x01. Rated G. 3: Palpitations. Post 1x22. Pre-2x01. Rated T to be safe. 4: Summer. Post 1x22. Rated G. 5: You're embarrassed by me. Rated G. 6: The Russo factor. Rated T. 7: Tide. Rated M. 8: Nightfall. Rated G. 9: Silver moon's sparkling. Rated G. 10: Fealty. Rated G. 11: Classic maneuver. Rated T.

It took me a beat, but am finally posting a brand new one-shot. Slightly AU this one. I hope it’s a fun one for you guys.

[ihatethenciswritingteam]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: NCIS Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Ziva David/Anthony DiNozzo, Ziva David & Anthony DiNozzo Characters: Ziva David, Anthony DiNozzo Additional Tags: tony has a moment in his slumber, dreaming of ziva post 13x24, she is still "dead" at this time, inspired by beach baby by bon iver, not in lyrics, just in vibes, and the theme of waiting for love to return, ziva is prophetic in a dream, pre season 17, when ziva said tony tracked her down to cairo and found her, also the picture frame from paris, And A Reunion, but the dream sequence is the most important part Summary:

A couple of days after learning of Ziva's death, Tony has a dream that completely changes his perspective on love, parenting, and grief.

“Wherever you are, I am with you, and I love you as before.”

- Zinaida Nikolaevna Gippius, tr. by Simon Karlinsky, from "Like Before,"

WHAAAAAT? MY FIRST TIVA FIC??????????

tags: @indestinatus @mrsmungus @benedettabeby @tptfd @zvdvdlvr @television-overload @tiva2023vibes @corneliastan13 @thatcaithness @readermadds @noveljoys @living-in-unreality @bulletproof-eyes @imperiumwife (if I left you out it was unintentional. I’m sorry!)

[loudlooks]

Day 1 - Pumpkin spice latte

A/N: Don't mind me, just feeding the neurotic need to do a 30 day writing challenge for all seasons, it's only been bothering me for, you know what, I don't even remember how many years it's been since I fail-finished the summer challenge. The original thought behind the winter challenge was to churn out and post a new story for 30 consecutive days, even if the quality wasn't great, in an attempt to improve my writing. I have since completely given up on improving my writing, forgotten what little I knew about writing, and basically just want to get this over with so I can stop thinking about it.

Editing will be abysmal.

Tag for blocking/following purposes: 30 days of fall

Prompt: Pumpkin spice latte

Vaguely set in season 3 I guess.

Word count: 497

"Pumpkin spice latte, please."

Tony eyed her with suspicion. "Who are you, and what have you done to my partner?"

Ziva shot him a confused look, before focusing on the wide variety of fall themed muffins and cupcakes.

He leaned in closer. "Since when does our local ninja assassin order pumpkin spiced anything?"

"Since Abby bought me one after I helped her with something," she said matter-of-factly.

"Hmm, should've know nothing good could come from a goth mad scientist and a Mossad spy working together."

"What do you have against pumpkin spice?"

"It's...girly, what did you help Abby with?"

"You had a pumpkin spice latte yesterday."

"I am very confident in my manhood."

Ziva looked him up and down slowly.

He held up a finger to silence her. "You, Abby, tell me."

"She wanted my help reconstructing a murder."

The barista placed her drink on the counter, she ignored his wide-eyed look, and grabbed the latte with a smile of gratitude.

They walked out of the coffee shop, and were greeted with a pleasantly warm breeze for the time of year. Ziva looked up at him gleefully. "She  even made fake blood, the consistency was perfect, it wasn't body temperature, unfortunately."

Tony stopped in his tracks, and she followed suit looking up at him questioningly, before taking a sip from her latte and humming in approval.

"Everyone at the office is going to call you the pumpkin spice assassin, you know that right?" He asked with a grin.

Ziva narrowed her eyes. "And why would they do that?"

"Because I have given every new hire of the past five years a nickname that stuck like glue." He grinned widely.

Ziva chuckled. "And how many of them were Mossad assassins, with a brand new friend in forensics?"

His grin faltered, and she patted him on the cheek. "Good decision."

Ziva took another sip, and they continued their walk. A moment later, she angled her head towards him. "Agent donut?"

Tony nodded and chuckled.

"Not very original, from what I understand that is a well-known stereotype."

Tony shook his head, trying to contain his laughter. "Not the food, he got shot in the butt." He laughed out loud.

Ziva looked at him with annoyance. "What is so funny about-"

He grabbed her arm, now wheezing with laughter. "No, he," he swallowed hard and tried to regain some composure, "he had to sit on one of those inflatable donut cushions for a month. Sometimes, it would make a farting sound when he moved, which is exactly what happened when we were all in MTAC updating the SecNav on a terrorist cell that had been caught buying big piles of manure to make explosives."

Ziva snorted as the scene played out in her mind. "That is funny." She looked at him pointedly, the corners of her mouth twitching. "If you are twelve."

He chuckled again, seeing right through her facade. "Looks like we're both twelve on the inside, then, Ziva."

[wyked-ao3]

Wyked's intro

Hey, I'm wyked (wicked) been on Tumblr a while now and finally got around to my intro

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The pirate king of deaths redemption

The pirate's cursed god series

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Additional information that will update frequently probably

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Zelda (it's more link than Zelda but whatever lol) I have played (wind waker , orca of time, twilight princess, and a little of skyward sword)

Elder scrolls (Skyrim is my favorite)

Devil may cry 2-3

Red steel

Assassin's creed (can't wait for the new one…although I'm still not sure about upgrading from the PS3 lol)

↪My movie/series fandoms

Merlin, Twilight, Supernatural, Lucifer, Grimm,Once upon a time, Stargate (all), Primeval, Criminal minds, NCIS, Star trek, Harry Potter, Hannibal, Marvel, Harley Quinn, Shadow hunters, Arrow, How to train your dragons (all), Troll hunters (they ripped my heart out) Avatar the last Airbender, Avatar (blue), Jurassic world, Jurassic park, Dragon prince, The last of us?(Not the biggest fan of it but I do read the fic's and wrote for ot occasionally, Lost, Charmed (original), Originals (didn't finish it….I'm a softie okay), and to be honest I'm forgetting some… may edit as I remember or hit a phase where they are my favorite show again….

↪Anime fandom's…..some I'm only in due to my sister but it still counts…..

Black Butler

Heavens official blessing

Skum villain D

emon king academy

Welcome to demon school iruma (I love this)

Fairytail

↪My Never seen but I could probably convince you otherwise do to my sister's rambling list that will update as I remember names

Inuyasha

↪My interest

Herbs,plants,trees, mushrooms, nature (I can keep going) animals,fish,corals and aquatic plants, invertebrates, mythology, pirates, knights, druids,shamans, hanfu, feudal era, history involving any of the above.. writing, gardening, wood carving and burning, sketching although I think you get more detail with wood burning……I can keep listing but most of that will not be covered here so I will stop now but feel free to drop in my inbox to chat

I will add more eventually here

↪My mutuals original story recommendation list

My favorite western, time loop horror romance by @tragedycoded I can not recommend this enough it got me hooked on a western.

If you like gay pirates, kidnapping, drama and found family that will keep you on your toes then check out @the-golden-comet 's story (read the warning)

↪My mutuals fanfiction recommendation list (it will change as I think of some I added the recommendations last minute so oops)

If you are into sarcastic lovable OC's and mandalorians from star wars check out @lillybaaaka 's work

she also has a fem Harry Potter/startrek crossover that I'm in love with lol highly recommend it, it's more startrek then Harry Potter

if you are into the bat family you should check out @gods-graveyard 's work

if you like bananafish fanfiction then check out @gioiaalbanoart she has several amazing ones but my favorite so far is this one

if you are a Zelda fan who ships Ganon and Link then I highly recommend you check out @the-golden-comet just make sure to read the warnings

[aceofwhump]

Do you have any gifs of these tropes?

One of my FAVORITE caretaker tropes is when the caretaker steps in front of whumpee to protect them. Not face to face but like if the whumper is in front of both of them, so the caretaker moves in front of whumpee to get them out of view of whumper, take the first hit, etc.

Or even if it’s not fully in front of whumpee. Like if someone threatened whumpee so caretaker takes a step forward, not in front of whumpee to shield them, but in a ‘say that again’ way. As a threat towards whumper.

Or when caretaker puts their arm out. To push whumpee behind them or to stop them from going towards whumper. ITS SO GOOD!!!

Especially if the caretaker is an older brother protecting their little brother. 😌😩

That is one of my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE TROPES!!!! EVER!!!!! I love when it happens especially in fanfiction and I die every time. I do have a few gif examples for you too! Please enjoy the following:

Doctor Who - Donna stepping in front of 10 in "The Runaway Bride"

National Treasure Edge of History- 1x10 Owen in front of Tasha

Our Flag Means Death - 1x09 Teach in front of Stede

Merlin 2x04 when Arthur pulls Merlin behind him

Hawkeye 1x04 Clint stepping in front of Kate

Inkheart Dustfinger steps in front of Farid

Superman & Lois 2x02

Agents of Shield 1x07 and 3x09

Lucifer 3x24 when Chloe steps in front of Lucifer

NCIS 1x20

The Magicians Margo and Eliot

The Umbrella Academy

Lost in Space 1x06

[crazycurly-77]

Like an old married couple - pt. 1 (Chapters 1 - 10)

Since there are 20 Chapters in this story, I will summon the links of the chapters 1 - 10 in this post. And since it seems to be impossible to post all of the 20 chapters in one post, I will put the chapters 11 - 20 in another post.

At the moment I've posted 12 of the 20 chapters, so stay tuned.

Chapter 1:

Chapter 2:

Chapter 3:

Chapter 4:

Chapter 5:

Chapter 6:

Chapter 7:

Chapter 8:

Chapter 9:

Chapter 10:

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[stephjw]

This is the greatest labour of love of my life

A fanfiction detailing all the scenes that aired off screen and that I've always wanted to see onscreen:

Ziva writing in the office she rented from Odette

Tony and Ziva ending up sleeping in the same bed during their trip to Paris

Tony and Ziva's first kiss

The morning after the night when they conceived Tali

What happened to Ziva while she was pregnant with Tali (how she mended the relationship with Orli, how Tali learned to recognize Ima and Abba in the picture, them buying the necklace Tali wanted for Ima)

What happened to Ziva when she went deep undercover to run away from Sahar

Tony looking for Ziva and all three of them reuniting in Cairo

Her trip to Paraguay

Reading Morgan Burke's mother last words to Morgan Burke's captor

Tony, Ziva and Tali finally reuniting in Paris

These and many more are the scenes I've always wanted to see on screen. I have worked 5 years on this fanfiction so that it could be the most incredible fanfiction ever written on Tony and Ziva's love story

Now it's time I shared it with you all :)

Thanks to all those who have helped me when I had writer's block or when I had to make sense of it all ;)

P.S. I know Tony can't set foot in France but hey, they're filming the new spin-off in Europe so I set their reunification in Paris anyway. Just go with it :)

[television-overload]

heartstrings

This was going to be a two sentence fic that popped in my head but ended up being this instead...

[Ao3]

-.-.-

Seeing her there — a living, breathing part of himself smiling enigmatically up at him — was revelatory in ways he'd never expected.

He wondered how, for years, his heart had been completely missing, absent from his chest, and he hadn't noticed — first nestled in the womb of his partner, his best friend, the love of his life, and now walking around on her own two feet.

Of course, he'd known a piece of his heart was gone. It had belonged to her in part for many years, but she took full ownership of it somewhere between him knocking on her door, and the moment he left her behind on the tarmac.

Did she know? Was she aware that she carried more than that portion he'd knowingly given her? That instead of guarding the rest of it carefully, he'd left his entire heart in her possession, forgotten like a wallet or a set of keys?

If this small child fell and scraped her knee, did she know it was him who would be bruised? When she smothered her daughter with hugs and kisses, did she feel his presence there, too? Who was it that she saw when she looked at this daughter of theirs?

He had been there. All along, he had been there.

Now, at least, he had an explanation for the emptiness he'd felt.

He never knew it was possible to watch your own heart walk into a room apart from your body. He wasn't prepared for the strange hollowness that would flare in his chest, the phantom pain of something that was no longer part of him. The utter vulnerability of not being in control.

He felt unsteady, adrift in a vast and terrifying sea, with the knowledge that something so valuable had been out there, subject to the whims of a cruel world, and he hadn't known. He thanked every star in the sky that she was okay — that despite his ignorance of her existence, she'd made it this far.

He was here now. He would not fail to protect her again. If he could hold her tight to him, pulling her into the gaping chest cavity from which she'd escaped, he would.

But such was the burden of a parent. He wondered how Ziva had coped with it.

The office was as silent as the grave, a vacuum of sound and light. His world had narrowed to the size of a toddler not even three feet tall, with brown, tousled curls and eyes that looked all too familiar. Everything else seemed to fade away.

Then, as if pulled by a string, he found himself drawing near. He knelt before her, reaching toward her slowly and gently, as carefully as one might lift an injured baby bird from the ground.

He could find no words to say, nothing he could voice that would adequately express the maelstrom within. His fingertips brushed her skin, and it was like something snapped into place. Like something long thought lost had been returned.

He could hold himself back no more. His arms encircled her tiny frame, and he brought her to his chest, so small and fragile.

Thump-thump. Thump-thump.

Oh, Ziva, there you are...

He swallowed past a lump in his throat, and held her tighter.

His own heart, he may have given away, but he had received something in return after all. The weight of her necklace felt heavy in his pocket. The weight of the life he was now responsible for, doubly so.

"I'll keep it safe," he promised, listening to the steady thrumming of his daughter's heart. "I won't let anything happen to her."

Thump-thump. Thump-thump.

Thump-thump.

[whoa-myninja]

Chapters: 1/1

Series: All The Things We Never Saw

Fandom: NCIS

Characters: Ziva David, Anthony DiNozzo, Abby Scuito

Relationships: Ziva David/Anthony DiNozzo, Ziva David & Abby Scuito

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Summary:

Ziva tells Abby about her feelings for Tony.

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Inspired by the scene between Tony and Abby in 13x24:

“I know how much Ziva really loved you. And I need you to know it too.”

“I do, I think.”

“Don’t think. Know. I know. She told me.”

[adangerousbond]

Tiva.

A simple word that means nothing to most people, hell, a lot of people probably these days don’t even remember a NCIS with them.

One of the very first ships I ever got into, and it shaped my shipping ever since. It got me into fanfiction back in the day and honestly probably was a driving force behind my love of TV!

It forever made me distrust that ships can turn out okay, and was a longer slow burn than people could imagine now. Even now, I know better than to trust the spin off will do them right.

But, my god, the fact there is going to be a show of just them, all these years later… I just don’t even know where to start.

[uselesstimetraveler]

Man, I love ncis. I think the shows I was first ever obsessed about were csi and ncis. I've loved this show for ages now. Annnd with being an og ncis fan comes the adventure that was following Tiva's story upclose for all those years they were on screen. If I'm being honest, truly honest, even though I always name another couple (that also gave me so much) when asked which is my favorite otp, the real answer has always been Tiva. The way just the thought of those two makes my heart vibrate is... otherworldly.

And I've been active here on tumblr for so many fandoms but never for ncis/tiva. And I don't know why???

I started watching ncis when I was a child and I'm almost 30 now. I'm not an American and I didn't have any friends who liked it when I was a teenager, not even my fandom friends on the bird app, I was literally the only one watching it, dying over tiny Tiva moments alone... so I never posted anything about it. Sometimes I write fanfiction, but my only Tiva fic I wrote just a couple years ago, and I also love to make gifsets but I don't think I've ever made anything ncis related. That frustrates me now, because I just noticed the amount of people here I could've been interacting with.

How come I never thought of checking out the ncis and tiva tags in here??? I remember it being so SO lonely watching and suffering through Ziva's departure alone 'cause there was nobody to talk about it with. A couple seasons after that I dropped ncis for a while, but couldn't stay away for too long and went back to watching it.

I'm still as in love with it as the first day. All other shows that last this long tend to lose intensity and/or quality, but ncis just keeps on giving me life. These days I've been missing Tiva way too much, my heart hurts. I started rewatching the show and wanna be making some tiva content.

(btw, what are all these rumors about them coming back, I'm about to have a heart attack just thinking about it)

Well, I just wanted to kinda introduce myself on here to make up for lost time haha