I stumbled on this post by @velvet4510 : "If Míriel had lived, would Fëanor still have followed the same dark path?"
I voted "no" because so much of Fëanor was shaped by his abandonment issues.
...pause for a moment as I contemplate Fëanor growing up well-adjusted.
But, let us imagine for a moment a perfect word.
A world where Miriel doesn't die after giving birth to Fëanor and Finwë still gets his large family (The other children of Finwë will maintain their original name for clarity’s sake)
So Miriel does not die, but the birth still leaves her fragile. It takes her a long time to recover and decide that she wants to try again, so much that there is a big age difference between Fëanor and Fingolfin
Which, not that unusual among Elves, I bet it's not uncommon for siblings to have about a century between them.
However, when Fingolfin comes along, Fëanor isn't just of age, he is fully established: he has found his craft, maybe he is not a master yet but at the very least he is well on his way to it.
He definitely panics at the idea of his mother being pregnant again, since he remembers his early years when mother was recovering - how weak and wan she looked, how easily she tired. There are arguments about it, but eventually Miriel puts her foot down and points out that this is her decision, she wouldn’t do it if she did not want to or feel up to it, and that's final.
But, perfect word: Miriel's second pregnancy is much, much, much easier than her first one.
Same for the pregnancies that follow. Her difficult first pregnancy becomes something to tease Fëanor about - within the family only, of course, but still. Imagine that.
Fëanor does not go down the same dark path. That does not mean that there is no dark path, or that it's not somebody else who takes it.
Maybe in this universe Melkor can't get his claws into Fëanor because he simply feels zero resentment for his younger siblings. Why would he?
It's not like his parents do not give him attention and if one of them is busy, he can always count on the other.
Did he get some jealousy pangs? Yes, sure. He is not perfect. But he probably kept them to himself and thoroughly regretted them once he had his own children and got to see parenting from the other side.
But what about Fingolfin, the second son? The one who grows up in the shadow of his oldest brother?
The one who is still doing all the paperwork because Fëanor is off creating and can't be bothered. The one who is taken for granted, the one who will never be considered for Crown Prince because....well, why would he? He is the second born, after all.
And he is Not Fëanor.
But perhaps that doesn’t work, either.
Perhaps in this world, because Fëanor and Fingolfin are similar, they end up being close. Perhaps Fëanor here does appreciate all of Fingolfin's hard work, and since this is Fëanor we are talking about, you know he would not be quiet about it.
Imagine Fëanor taking Maitimo to meet Baby Makalaurë and whispering, "I hope you will grow up to be great friends, like me and your Uncle Nolofinwë."
So Fingolfin is out. What about Finarfin? The third son, the last child, the one overshadowed by both his older brothers?
What about Findis? Or Irimë?
Maybe it's Fëanor who dies trying to defend his masterpieces.
Maybe it's Finwë who, mad with grief, stands before the Valar and swears a terrible oath.
(with many thanks to @wings-of-indigo)
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