#from a longer video I finished on YT ^^

[sikiova]

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Be careful with the horns :D

[triple--a--threat]

oh so N/ghetsis is basically empgold but even more so? *twirls hair* please i would like to know more

[otomiyaa]

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(literally how I named the image, couldn't think of something else)

Hi guys :') To my followers and tumblr friends, I'm really sorry if my sudden disappearance scared or upset you. It wasn't quite... planned. And today was a busy day and I needed some time to consider what I wanted to do.

Short version of the story:

My tumblr account got terminated for copyright infringement. A certain Mr. Green got me in unlucky trouble (ref 1, 2).

I won't get it back, or try to get it back. It's gone.

Needed a moment to consider 2 options: ask Mia to extend my dramatic farewell letter and stay gone, or make a new blog.

Not planning to post new writing here. I won't be using words like 'never' or 'forever' because I'm a known clown with things like this, but the intention is to no longer post fics. I will finish Tickletober on AO3 and then take a break from writing. So yes, I cancel the swiftscribbles event too, sorry!

When I opened my laptop, I could see my old blog in its final hour lmao (I found out about the loss on my phone). So that's what the snap is from on a fitting grave. It was fun while it lasted!

Long version of the story:

Losing my blog(s): My Tumblr account with main blog + sideblogs got terminated overnight, it was quite the surprise! I've either been reported or tracked by bots. The posts are a bunch of numbered URLs I can't open, but the message is clear: for including anime content, genshin impact or media from other sources (whether it's videos, screenshots, official art, gifs or even fanwork) you technically can get a strike. Upon googling the claimer I quickly found this first, and knew it was a lost cause. Although it feels shitty and unlucky, I am in no place to appeal. It's like when I used to make AMVs in the past, you never knew whether a song or even anime footage was going to give your YT account a copyright strike or even a ban, it was a gamble. I have lost YT accounts before, and now I lost the Tumblr one. With 7+ years of tickle trash content and a bunch of sideblogs. But oh well, moving on!

Starting a new blog: It was a serious consideration whether this was my ultimate chance to do what I've always said I wanted to do eventually - quit my blog. My first thought was to ask Mia to share my explanation and literal goodbye with you guys, and stick to my chaos of a Twitter account to indulge in fandom stuff. But then I thought of how happy Tumblr made me, even without the fic writing, but just.. reblogging things, getting random asks, shouting about life and of course, about tickles. I decided to make a new blog after all, but also decided the following:

The 7K+ milestone swiftscribbles event is cancelled, for which I apologize! The follower milestone, together with the motivation to write the fics, and even the asks with the requests I got, all died with my former blog.

I will see how long I can survive without posting a new fic or drabble. A loose headcanon or two might fly around sometime. And if necessary, a link to a new fic on AO3.

Tickletober? Hell yes I'll finish it, I would cringe in bed for 49 days at least if I would stop. I just won't post the fics here, but on AO3.

Reposting/reblogging my old works? Undecided at the moment but I'm tired and lazy. I don't feel too upset since most of my fics are still on AO3 at least and not completely gone.

Anyways, I'll see what happens and how long I can enjoy this nerfed version of blogging.

Surprisingly I'm not upset about losing my other blog, there were a lot of memories but it was also very cringe. I'm gonna be just as cringe here, but at least I feel cleansed.

For those who choose to follow me again, thank you, but please know that there won't be much original content coming from me, for now!:)

[danrifics]

Would you feel comfortable sharing the social media information of the company you work for? Maybe we can help get more engagement so that it makes more money and you can get a raise, cause making minimum wage with a master’s degree in this economy is nuts you deserve a more livable wage

the place i need the most engagement is youtube cos the criteria to meet monetisation is insane like i have to get 3 million views on yt shorts in 90 days or get 3,000 watch hours on longer videos 😭

so if you guys wanna support me this is the channel like subscribing and watching the videos start to finish helps me out the most long videos there’s only 3 right now but there’s plenty of shorts you guys can watch (start from the fizzy worms on shorts and work back up cos that’s when i started doing it)

we also have an instagram and a tiktok but the tiktok has 11k followers so it’s not as important and the insta we won’t monetise but it’s all under the same company name and logo if you do wanna check things out there

[urfavslav]

repost from my old account lawl, gn reader mention. stoner reader mention. I luv toasty <33 kis kis

toast is slavic. half croatian, ¼ russian, ¼ polish

late breakfast consists of coffee & eggs + toast

can't cook :( he can make toast and a basic soup. has always wanted to cook, but never learned. once you moved in w him, he really wanted to learn and eventually did ! cooks a lotta foreign meals.

although he learns to cook he's frankly really good at baking

always wakes up past noon

coffee. he can have up to 3+ a day and loves using a moka pot

late night laundromat + diner date <3

was raised catholic, now he's an athiest

stoner, prefers edibles but will take a few hits if you roll a joint.while he's easy to get flustered, while high he has no defense. it's so easy

(stoner!reader) he will get u a pipe or bong for ur b-day if u like em

nightowl dared him to dye his hair. started liking it and it stuck. has regular appointments for touch ups + sensitive skin, he only uses nivea

made a funky rave sound effect for a random moment in his adventure game

loves nutella on toast. (traveled back home 2 europe once and got it on crepes) also thinks italian nutella tastes different then the other nutellas of the world

makes comments abt how pretty u r

kisses ur eyelids before you sleep and mumbles something aboutt 'thankful for bein able to see u another day + always asks for kisses (has never forgotten)

loves ur kisses . relishes in ur lips gracing his skin whether it's his cheek, forehead, lips, shoulder, wrist, etc.

sleeps w background noise when he sleeps. (cars, recorded eurovision or yt video essay) loves sleeping with the window open for fresh air ! also gets sleepy when u play with his hair n scratch his scalp

loves when you try to recreate his accents, he teaches u a few words <3 likes listening to you read and will read to u in his mother tongue

terms of endearment in his mother tongue <33333

drapes himself over you when his social battery is drained

if he had a dog, he'd have a poodle or golden doodle

back pain, from horrible posture and other experiences buut lemme explain: if he went in to the office and lets say someone has to show him papers. he definitely has to bend down a bit and I can say with my while heart he can forget he's standing while he's doing something and will 'adjust' his posture and its horrible. sleeps with a heating pad and keeps ibuprofen on him

the type to follow through w something, even if he has to stay a tad longer at work to finish a few papers so be it.

likes taking the train or metro, or bus. he enjoys seeing the scenery while traveling

also love visiting France and eu countries that border the mediterranean

only anime/cartoom he's watched is cowboy bebop

sends xyx toys n catnip for cat <3 also a cat person !! and tends to look over strays near his apartment complex

loves when you take care of his hair; whether it's simply undoing his braid and combing it out or washing it and following up with a deep conditioner

hates slippers but likes wearing socks inside the house

★ all works belong to @urfavslav , do not repost on anywhere else with or without credit, do not plagiarise. thank you !

[starified-lizzy]

I figured I should redo my intro to my blog-

ELLO >:DDDD

Name’s Lizzy! Or Star! I really don’t give a fuck which you use!

Here’s my pronouns card! https://en.pronouns.page/@starified_lizzy

I draw shit for FANDOMS

I write shit for FANDOMS

I got OCS whom I LOVE and ADORE.

“Can I draw fanart of your fics?” My sibling in Christ, we are married. /pos

“Can I draw fanart of your fanart(like DTIYS)?” My sibling in Christ. /pos

“Can I draw fanart of your OCs?” CHRIST. /pos

RAHHHHHH (it’s really fucking early I shouldn’t be doing this now ;-;)

Here’s a list of my socials, it is very limited because I hate the “standard” socials like Twitter and Insta and stuff like that. So it’s more like- fanfic sites, and any other blogs I own for you guys to check out >.>

My AO3

My Art Fight

My YouTube

My TikTok (basically dead at this point, I only ever like/favorite things on it, but I might start up again with my FNF au instead)

My Pinterest

My Spotify because sure

My FNF au blog

My demonpocalypse blog ([possibly] forever retired due to a severe issue in the community it was for)

Blog for food/recipes I want to try because MMMMMMMMMMM FOOOOD

Wow that’s actually not limited like I thought- hot damn I need to touch some grass.

HERES A LIST OF FANDOMS IM EITHER CURRENTLY IN, OR HAVE RETIRED FROM (Also CCs):

Retired-

DSMP (and MCYT as a whole for the most part), dude our community is in *shambles*. I’m so glad I left when I did, but at the same time O W.

ATLA. Technically I’m still in this fandom, but I only really get back into it/brainrot about it if I get a reminder, otherwise I kinda forget about it

FNAF. Same with ATLA, still technically in it, but I gotta be reminded it exists sometimes.

BATIM. Ditto

Wings of Fire. Ditto

Undertale. Ditto. Lizzy, my main persona, was actually an OC created from Undertale, who just ended up becoming her own person, and then ended up being associated with mine and my friend’s Minecraft au instead.

Onto CCs I no longer watch:

Any of the DSMP ppl, with very few exceptions

Jacksepticeye. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll still watch a video of his if it pops up and spikes my interest, but I don’t actively seek his content out anymore.

Any of the old Minecrafters. Like DanTDM, Stampy, Tiny Turtle & Little Lizard. Hell, I don’t even think any of the ones I listed even do YT at all anymore. I’ll still watch their old videos tho.

Current-

FNF. I really could give less of a fuck if y’all think it’s “bad” or “for kids (it’s not, I promise you)”. The music slaps, and quite a few mods are really well made, so eat my ass.

Day of Dragons. The dragons are cool. I don’t care about any drama in the community. I’m here for the cool fucking dragons.

The Isle. Once again, I don’t care about any drama in the community. I’m here for the cool ass dinosaurs because you can customize your own skins and they just look and sound cool (Dilo, Herarra, and Ptera are my faves)

Lethal Company. Do it for the Company.

RainWorld. Scugs and Scups. Need I say more?

Hollow Knight. Sorta falling out of this one, but until I beat the entire game (P5) I am not finished.

Minecraft. Technically in “the fandom”, but not really attached to a specific YTer or anything like that anymore. I just like the game.

CCs I still watch:

Astral Spiff. Sprog is a good gamer.

Smii7y and his friends like Grizzy, Droid, Puffer, Blarg, etc.

Jack Manifold. I only watch his You Laugh You Loose and Ghost Sighting Compilation videos. I don’t even know if he still does Minecraft anymore.

8-BitRyan. While he doesn’t swear in his videos, it’s kinda a breath of fresh air. Plus his edits are quite funny.

Markiplier. Yes. Just… yes…

IGP. His content is just interesting. The way he freaks out over shit is funny as hell. Does he do content with IcyCaress anymore? Their banter was funny, but idk if something happened, cuz I just don’t see much stuff with Icy in it anymore.

As of right now, that’s all I can think of. It’s nice to meet you!

[stressedlawsecretary]

Today's Focus

09.17.24 - Oh man in some ways it was harder getting out of bed today than it was yesterday. I want sleep so badly I'm not even sure coffee can fix it. That isn't to say I'm sleep deprived; I'm pedantic about getting at least 7-8 hrs per night. I'm just a sleepy bitch.

Work - I left nothing for myself except working on those old wallet charges so that's what I'm going to be doing today, along with any requests that come in, especially for mailings.

Background Noise - In the office so binging YT. I'm almost through the 'under an hr' videos I've been working on, so after that it's all the podcasts that are over an hr long. I think I did 30 whole videos yesterday; like I said I wasn't going to match the number from over the weekend but I did well. I'm trying to match that number today but since they're longer videos I doubt that's going to happen.

Study - Tuesday is article reading day, and I am sure going to do a lot of that. Partly because yesterday I picked up a timeline of the Jefferson-Hemings controversy, and read about a dozen (12) of the historical articles associated with that so I want to finish that timeline/those articles. I did also finish complaint 02340 (on voting & the policy changes to the post office circa 2020) and started the complaint against Rensselaer County regarding early voting.

Extras - Tuesday, but I cleaned the bathroom yesterday and I'm otherwise caught up on chores; dinner is stuffed bell peppers so it'll be mostly fast and easy. I start my rewatch of Kamen Rider W today, and then season 19 of Who's Line Is It Anyway? I'm chipping away at a mini essay today but it's slow-going because I'm not sure how to word it.

[simon-eriksson]

Tell us your secret! What’s your process for making such gorgeous gifs?

hi!! first of all thank you SO much for the compliment 🫶🏻🫶🏻 it means the world to me that you guys like the things i do!

Now for the process: How i make the basic gif

I get my source material from the best quality i can! (1080p or 2160p if im lucky) I wouldn't say that this is a *must do* and that you can't gif things of lower quality and make it look good bc that would be a lie! But the more pixels the better!

I choose the scenes trim them down and select on photoshop -> archive -> import -> video to frames

When I have the frames (the amount of frames truly varies if you have more than 90 frames you would probably need to make your gif more small in terms of size, or with less light/colors, etc) i set the time of the frames to 0,05 (if it's a really short gif i put it at 0,1 or sometimes if it's a really short gif at 0,2 - usually if i want to use it in an edit and i need to make it last longer to have multiple gifs of the same time-)

Then I convert to the frames to timeline and select all the layers of the gif and convert them to smart object

MOST IMPORTANT PART: It doesn't matter if your gif is 1million pixels or 2 the sharpen is and will always be your best friend and it is a little tricky at the start but once you find the way you like it it would be the love of your life! I will give you my sharpening adjustments: I select the smart object i have and then I go to filters-> sharpening -> smart sharpen Here i go with amount: 500 and reduce noise: 0,5 or 0,3 (the first one really works with lower quality things and yt videos!). Then I duplicate the smart object with the filter and change the sharpening to 60px and 10, and to finish it of this one I reduce the opacity to 60% or 70%

Then here comes my fav part that is coloring and making your gifs feel alive! I use curves and base all the rest in this adjustment layer. I usually take the thing in letter D and place it in a lighter place so then the curves make the gif brighter and changes the colors (for the color part if you have a gif that the predominant color is more to the warm colors then this tool will make the blue curve more prominent and the other way around). I usually don't like my gifs to be in the red side, specially the red that comes with warm lighting like with candles so when i click on the lighter part of the gif that it's on the res hue it will bring my blues and greens more prominent than the red one. Then I just play around with the curves. The RGB curve is for all lights, where the H is signally is the lighter part of the gifs, the I is the like kind of all lights combined, and the J is the dark parts (shadows and those things).

Then I add a Brightness and Contrast adjustment layer and I put the contrast to 100%.

And then I make colors pop out with selective color (This also helps when you make a dark gif v light to play with the black parts to prevent their pixels to show, by adding % to the black, this also helps with the size of the archive, it usually brings it down that it's important sometimes bc tumblr has a limit of 10mb :/) and if it is not enough I use Hue and Saturation!

And last but not list I export the gif (export-> save for web) and the configuration where it says usually diffusion by default i change it to pattern! And then I save it! C'est Fini!

That's the most basic thing I do, specially when I need yo make quick gifs! But I do tend to add more things if I have the time, or it's a more complex gif. But this is how I made the last riverdale ones!

[cozymochi]

🌻 >:)

IM FOUND ONE OF THESE MEMES IN MY DRAFts! Im gonna rank my experiences in the major fandoms i’ve engaged with.

🩵 YUGIOH! - Second longest running fascination. Upside!! Made life long friends. DOWNSIDE!! Was my first go at online engagement and in those 10 years so much happened that I still can’t help but feel a little sour. …Though ygo back in the day wasn’t good at tag comments, so I didn’t even know those were a thing for years until I branched out. 5/10. But grows to a 7/10 because i’ve settled into a niche area with so few people that it’s now a silly little club. 💕

🧡 Dragon Ball/Z - GENUINE CHAOS. Started off slow but intensified hard cuz get who got involved while Super was airing??? (I didn’t watch it lol), so the discourse and fighting was at an all time high. I have no idea how I even survived this in retrospect. My slight association with people netted me troll asks and my liking of Yamcha also set me up for those. …and frequent art reposting, and quite a few bizarre interactions. Pretty sure my art and edits have circulated more in latin america than I even know. This was also pre-tumblr purge so the amount of nsfw that got thrown my way is… something. That said!! Made also really good friends 💕 and DB/Z probably desensitized me to longer form discussions. 5/10 for insanity, but 8/10 for good reception and VERY PEAK and generous humans.

I think dbz hardened me.

💚 Invader Zim- started off fun (mostly irl with my friendo from days of YGO), but quickly devolved into territory that tested my patience. WHY ON EARTH THIS SERIES’ CONSUMERS had such a huge morality high ground base is beyond me. It’s this fandoms fault I learned about certain modern day online discourse terms and what instilled an irrational posting fear for a year lol. Fun at first and there’s super creative and receptive folk (then those people got kicked out) and left the most insufferable beings imaginable. There’s no in between. Shoutout to all 3 friends made who are still peak. 3/10, if I ever finish any remaining projects or decide to bite the bullet and show completed work, i’m not engaging again. The base just skews somewhere I can’t handle. Which is crazy given the ABOVE contenders have, on paper, done so much more.

dbz hardened me but iz weakened me. Which is probably why i need the formers bootcamp back. Don’t think I’m as fearful now, but i’ll still be salty.

💜 Twisted Wonderland - this is a work in progress experience. Will require further evaluation if all of the above experiences haven’t set my standards. Will stay in my corner. So far it’s 6/10 in vibes (they’re much calmer than the last one), tho I question how much of the interest is from what i do vs. what I did for others. Haven’t shared a ton of opinions yet and god knows lol we don’t want that /s. Still recovering from the former making me wanna just not do much. Baby steps I suppose.

💙 - Sonic The Hedgehog: This is a cheat, I have never interacted with the fandom directly (purely by happenstance, so thankfully no traces exist), but I have been into this since I was a child with no issues. So by default this is the best one. 10/10, didn’t engage, but I do lurk. Though all the stuff I see on tweeter isn’t exactly anything out of the norm for fandoms in general to do, so it weirds me out that people rag on this one for just kinda talking amongst themselves about innocuous things.

“omg this fandom is arguing over QUILL length ughhh can they never be pleased [30 yt videos about this drop]” ngl, this just feels like par for the course junk fandoms do. It really feels no different from DBZ where people go ham about the art style changes and which one is better. Or stupid shit in IZ where they fight about comics vs movie vs show. Like??? The only major difference here is that StH has more people in it (by the millions).

So literally nothing these folk do or say strikes me as anything more serious than what other fandoms already do??? Its just more outsiders see it then churn out content and perpetuate something worse from what’s honestly….pretty tame stuff. Maybe it’s just twitter’s setup given that’s all folk talk about.

[izzy-b-hands]

Feeling slightly better than i have been at this moment (hence being on Tumblr for more than a half second before my body goes 'hm, actually, that's too much. put the phone down or i make u throw up 🥰' as it has been all week since this back pain bullshit began

(more blathering abt this stuff and work and just. general life update as of this week below the cut)

But realised that's probably only bc:

-Housemate (who has been an absolute angel thru all of this and has looked after me better than my own mother ever has tbh), got me some Pedialyte style drinks, and I've made it thru nearly all of one today (a miracle bc the nausea has otherwise been constant even when the pain isn't as bad and has made eating more than like. broth and saltines and gummy edibles basically impossible)

-Im stoned, on a increasing rotation of meds (acetaminophen, ibuprofen, mucinex which it turns out has potential off label use for muscle spasms, as Housemate researched and found out, edibles, magnesium, and now ginger pills to help the nausea) all of which im grateful for but combined leave me feeling less in pain but a bit. idk. blah? brain foggy, more than usual? Tbh it's probably the pain making the brain fog, the pills just can't do anything for that and i don't fault them for that, but for a brain fog example, I've been trying to place an order for some local chocolates to ship to my mum for mother's day, and legit it's taken me ALL WEEK just to get the site open, to the shipping menu, and just today actually putting things in the cart, but I haven't managed to check out yet bc just getting the cart together that made me feel like i needed a nap. This post is the longest thing I've typed in days, and I'm struggling rn to keep going..But i started it, so we're finishing it, back spasm at a level 4 of pain be damned

-and im doing basically nothing aside from stretches (gentle yoga ones i already know the forms for, and some pilates gentle type things i remember from when mum joined that fad lol), using one of our wand vibes on my back (never had done before, they actually do work for that too! kinda fun to find out, just wish i hadn't found out like this!!), laying on a heating pad and wedge pillow, and trying to nap (bc the pain is worse at night so I've somehow been sleeping even worse than i usually tend to)while YT videos and/or the 1973 JCS plays on repeat.

I mention all this bc i work this weekend, and i don't want to have to call out for the first shift tonight. but like. if im struggling just to type this post up (nvm that i have my zine checkin to finish and send in as well, if Nads or anyone else from the group reads this pls know i will make sure i have it done by the due date! it's just been taking. longer, with this back pain mess), keeping my brain on track is difficult rn (as evidenced by...this entire post), and my back is starting to twinge up to a 3-4 overall already bc i let the heating pad turn off, thinking that maybe, just maybe, if I'm feeling okay enough to be on Tumblr then maybe that's a sign this is finally over, and my back is done making life miserable...

then maybe work isn't a great idea. but it scares me every time i have to call in (and I've tried not to unless i absolutely had to, but they're very particular abt ppl basically never calling out, so i know that even if they acknowledged i sounded as sick as i was, that doesn't mean this wouldn't be reason enough to fire me)

I just don't know what to do. i want to work. i want to make money. i also don't want to have to mute my mic bc my back spasms hard enough to make me vomit tho, and that's unfortunately still a very real possibility (spent entirely too much of this week throwing up from the pain tbh!!! not happy abt it, i do not like being sick like that, for any reason!!) The last reason makes me think calling out is the right thing. but. i have a few hours yet, so im gonna see how it goes, acknowledging that i probably do need to call out, whether i like it or not

(if for nothing else, to maybe be recovered for my first set of doubles on Sunday)

[gladoswantscake]

Hey do ya’ll remember that Silent Hill demo I made in SFM and I said that I was going to hopefully finish it by the end of the week�� 

Yeaaahhhh about that😭

Someone had commented on YT if the video ever came out. But now I am determined to finish it. What sucks is that I no longer have the file so I have to start over from scratch and relearn everything 🥺

[blackypanther9]

Answer to my question.

I am telling you all you have to do, BEFORE you can even start making the Gacha Club meme video, which also counts into making it, so that is already time that gets taken from your schedule of making a vid.

Here are the steps.

Making the Characters you need.

Posing them and finding a good background to use.

Making screenshots. (If you remember I said DETAILED and VERY GOOD Video, so you have to make slight movements too)

Finding the song or speech for the meme you wanna make on YouTube.

Download the meme song or speech.

Open your Video making app (mine is Wondershare Filmora).

Add the song or speech of the downloaded meme from YT.

Add all your screenshots.

Cut the screenshots short or stretch them longer to make the characters act more "realistic".

Cut the screeshots so no one can see stuff you don't want anyone to see. (For PC people it is mostly the window of Gacha Club and the taskbar usually you can cut these screenshots in the video making app. I have an effect for that so the pictures don't move around.)

If you want anything to "Glow" in your video, like I did in the Vid "You don't understand my anger !", you will need a paint app. (I use Ibis Paint and Open Canvas 6.)

Look over your work each time to make sure everything fits so far BEFORE you continue cutting and adjusting your things.

To make the screenshots less stuttering and suddenly change, add animation to make it slowly change or move.

To add more dramatic effect or to point out wholesomeness, stretch out the part and add animation to it (Otherwise it looks boring)

After you finished adjusting everything, look over the whole thing again, to make sure everything is in place still, works perfectly, if you missed or forgot something and see if you are happy with the outcome of the video.

if you think it misses something, add what you think is missing (You can always delete it again if you don't like it)

Export it when you are happy with it and want to publish/keep it.

If you want, publish it on YouTube.

For all this stuff, for only 30 seconds, I need almost half to a whole day to finish it. Like I said VERY DETAILED and VERY GOOD Gacha Club meme video. For many of them I need 2 to 3 days to finish them.

The screenshots are mostly the issue. I can show you later what I mean with step 13, if you want to.

I am considering if I am making a small video of what I have to do in order to make a video later. It won't be a full video I will make, but just so you can see what I am doing behind the scenes to even MAKE a short vid. (I might cut it too from time to time so it won't be boring)

If anyone is interested to see that, don't be afraid to let me know.

[tartabinger]

Psst, hey nerds, I've made a Childe-centric short film music video for my uni final and I have some surveys for my research that I'd like y'all to fill out if any of you are interested. I had to cut the animation down to just before the chorus but I'll share the full version whenever it's done~

Hi, everyone! I'm finishing up my course with an investigation into "crunch culture" in the film and media industry. To do this, I've created two versions of an animation, one of which you can watch by clicking on a 50/50 link, and I have attached a survey to the description each video to gather feedback (unfortunately, this cannot be done on mobile as I do not believe you can copy text from the YT description). Everything is completely anonymous unless you choose to contact me directly about your answers, and all data will be deleted shortly after the completion of my course.

I have a participant information sheet here that goes into a little more detail: https://mega.nz/file/1toESRAQ#0OJNEy_giABzImksZnOKY9BV2d3mUu1er7gh_8thd5o I have a group sorting survey here, so I can gather information about the demographic you belong to: https://forms.gle/MkhX1ZQBqo9xSzKy6 Here is the 50/50 link: https://5050.stannaz.uk/r?x=eW91dHUuYmUvQ1ZPZTF3d25iaTA&y=eW91dHUuYmUvdmYySHhvQUxHNjg Should you wish to no longer participate in my research, fill out this survey and your data will be deleted: https://forms.gle/pjffBEdsGwtPvExR8

And if you happen to be an animator or VFX artist working in industry, I would love to hear your opinions and experiences regarding "crunch culture" here: https://forms.gle/a6z82gtWLHGSkVqe9 If you know someone in those fields who might be interested in speaking about their experiences, please feel free to send the link their way - I can be contacted on most platforms as RafterSomeFood if they have any questions.

Many thanks in advance to everyone who chooses to participate. It really means a lot to me 😊

[raftersomefood]

Hi, everyone! I'm finishing up my course with an investigation into "crunch culture" in the film and media industry. To do this, I've created two versions of an animation, one of which you can watch by clicking on a 50/50 link, and I have attached a survey to the description each video to gather feedback (unfortunately, this cannot be done on mobile as I do not believe you can copy text from the YT description). Everything is completely anonymous unless you choose to contact me directly about your answers, and all data will be deleted shortly after the completion of my course.

I have a participant information sheet here that goes into a little more detail: https://mega.nz/file/1toESRAQ#0OJNEy_giABzImksZnOKY9BV2d3mUu1er7gh_8thd5o I have a group sorting survey here, so I can gather information about the demographic you belong to: https://forms.gle/MkhX1ZQBqo9xSzKy6 Here is the 50/50 link: https://5050.stannaz.uk/r?x=eW91dHUuYmUvQ1ZPZTF3d25iaTA&y=eW91dHUuYmUvdmYySHhvQUxHNjg Should you wish to no longer participate in my research, fill out this survey and your data will be deleted: https://forms.gle/pjffBEdsGwtPvExR8

And if you happen to be an animator or VFX artist working in industry, I would love to hear your opinions and experiences regarding "crunch culture" here: https://forms.gle/a6z82gtWLHGSkVqe9 If you know someone in those fields who might be interested in speaking about their experiences, please feel free to send the link their way - I can be contacted on most platforms as RafterSomeFood if they have any questions.

Many thanks in advance to everyone who chooses to participate. It really means a lot to me 😊

[adpapciakprocessandproduction]

Process and production Damian Papciak BA 23/24 Evaluation

Critical evaluation of my progress during process and production self directed project.

For my brief I have chosen to follow ideas from critical practice classes, in this case It was Post Modernism. I didn’t entirely based my project from that but used it as a heavy inspiration and it is at the core of my practice. 

My studio participation could still improve more, I am attending all the classes though could make more work instead of socialising with fellow artists, however my project was taking place mostly outside studio time and I did a lot of work there, but could still improve and work more there. 

For my future submissions I could make this project bigger and better by working harder and doing my work accordingly to the time line instead of leaving work to the last moment. I keep promising myself I stop doing this but it gets worse and worse with each project next year is the final year so its time to work to the highest of my capabilities so I can achieve what my ambitions are calling for. 

Most valuable thing I learned during this project is the use and possibilities of spray paint and that with a long stick and brush I could paint massive works of art. 

What did I learned about CAP? I learned about constructed reality and how I can transform space. Also I’ve learned a lot about street art and graffiti culture and how they are opposing sides of same area of art. 

I wish to develop process of painting high up with a long stick. I found great pleasure doing that and I would like to try it with even longer stick and a brush instead of roller. 

I definitely didn’t use my time to the fullest I could have done so much more.

I think I did good development all though could develop some ideas further like orange and black pipes, paint more things in that fashion. I think I did ok research could be greater but I feel like best form of research and learning for me is watching documentary videos, I learned a lot about street art from YT. 

Time management could be better but I’ve managed to finish project on time. 

I love going to art exhibitions but I don’t have many friends that would like to do that with me and I feel awkward going alone. 

I think my development is quite original and it still looks like art that I did which is good, could work on variety though use other mediums and print more pictures on larger scale. 

My willingness to try new things and go out of my comfort zone is huge, I didn’t practice graffiti art before it was my first time and I really enjoyed it, now I need to figure out how I can use it to improve my studio practice. 

 Overall I think project ended up well but I felt lost at times. 

[egophillie]

detransition, baby - reflections chapter 1

ok so hi, long time no see, apparently i am trans and back on tumblr. The girl I am seeing gave me the book "Detransition, Baby" by Torrey Peters and hell, this book is intense and really stirs all my feelings. Idk, I thought writing them out would help me and what better way then to do it on tumblr.

Ch. 1: Detransitioners. For ages there is this yt video popping up again and again in my recommendations (what they dont tell you about detransitioners bla) and I've been meaning to watch it yet I did not, like described in the book. Oh, yeah I finished the first chapter so here are some thoughts.

One thought I was having or am having is, that as a nonbinary trans whatever blob I am free and fluid to do whatever I want. Want to detransition? Ok ezpz its just my gender presentation even as a masc coded non binary person I'd still be fucking valid and accepted and part of the queers. At least to the same amount i would have been before as an amab trans/nb person. Which definitely is different and also less. Like as a gay man (even tho i am not gay (in a cis straight men gay sense) but whatevs) - acceptance, as a nb genderqueer whatevs - acceptance, but ofcourse the afab nb/trans queers seem to be accepted differently (also as described in the book but also from my personal experience). So tl;dr : as a genderfluid nb, detransitioning does not exist, because it does not make sense. Which is amazing.

But am I really genderfluid nonbinary? Or am I transfem? Ugh just trying to find a fitting category between fem, girl, women is overwhelming and exhaust. And yes I just took a 10minute break from this post and mindlessly scrolled through my blog. Ok. I like being a girl, instead of "just" a nonbinary genderfluid person. But I also feel that "the" girls are really mean and serious and though on each other. Like I am missing the lightheartedness of trying out gender, instead I am focussing on wether or not I'll ever be cis enough. Like wtf. I also guess it is a safety thing, maybe it is just "girlcode" aka cis womens way of acting and behaving to each other just with the added weight of being trans? idk, what if i am not ready for that commitment? what if i want to continue hormones but live a stealth detransitioned cis guy life?

The chapter named "it" (the transition) being too hard, too difficult, too dangerous, shortly too much for reasons why both the protagonist and a side character on which the book illustrated how the relationship towards detransitioned trans women works for trans women. And I also see that this is super justified and hard, and the bottomless pit of horror that is described in the book is definitely also present in me. Which is why I want to adress it, which is why we are here now.

So basically I for myself want this "feminist", nonbinary genderqueer ideas that I had on transitions (and therefore detransitions) also applied when it comes to binary trans women. Because prioritizing (physical) safety over gender expression is super valid and also really important, mature and aspirational. I wished I would be able to always prioritize my safety. Because as a women & as a nonbinary I am a feminist, and therefore I need to unpack the uncanny fear of detransitioning, for myself and for other trans girls.

One layer that definitely comes to my mind quickly when it comes to detransitioning is the fear of not being valid, of not being trans "enough". And how can I, just a few months into hormones and what, 1-2 years into transition, be valid & trans enough when people who transitioned way longer decide to detransition? Hormones definitely helped me with my dysphoria, now I start to realize that one thing they alleviated was that kind of insecurity and intrusiveness of validity. And while they definitely help with my dysphoria (amongst other things hihi), this certainty I had because "now that I took hormones I MUST be valid" is gone or at least got a good shake. I also think that this is a transmedicalist view and should be condemned and I also think I sound like the most baby trans ever.

Idk, I am still valid when I scrolled through my blog in an escapist moment while writing this thing I retrospectively found all the trans signs. So yeah still not the best thing to draw validity from, but I guess its better (at least for now) than being all shaken up, caught up in transmedicalist beliefs about the safety of hormones.

Ok I think I wrote down everything I had to say, made my little puns and feel different now? look at that growth, girl!

val, 03.04.2024