#from logging on for weeks

[6flyingosprey6]

Ok can I just say something

I know we’ve been talking about some of the decisions that the admins are making at the moment when it comes to story direction, and the thing that absolutely annoys me the most is how they’re not allowing some players to enter the server right now.

It’s for the story’s sake, I know. Some people like Baghera and Pol (who have both said that they are currently lore-locked) should still be stuck in purgatory, and I’m sure they have their reasons for telling Slime to wait but

It’s been like, three weeks??? Idk, I know the admins are constantly working their asses off, but I feel like making sure that players can log on should be at the top of their list.

[bluestation]

at work

[hairtusk]

[lines-in-limbo]

I think people often see a competent character and assume that must cancel out any lingering effects of neglect, for instance. Like, just because someone is high-functioning- capable, disciplined, good at their job and the things they do, etc. - that doesn’t mean they haven’t internalized deep patterns of selfneglect or detachment from their own physicality. You can keep a classroom spotless and still not look in the mirror. You can be controlled and meticulous in your work, you can scrub your speech, master your walk, and still carry the weight of never being cared for- and the belief that your appearance isn’t worth the effort, because that’s what you learned growing up. Being “high-functioning” doesn’t mean you’re healed. It often just means someone learned how to get by, by excelling outwardly, while quietly abandoning parts of themselves they were never taught to value.

Snape’s hair isn’t nessesarily a sign of “poor hygiene,” in my opinion, but a reflection of how someone raised without care might treat their own appearance. He doesn’t nurture himself in the ways others expect. That doesn’t make him incompetent, but it speaks to what’s been internalized, to how care wasn’t modeled or prioritized in the world he came from.

I mean, yeah, he’s refined and changed certain things, but emotionally, he’s still stuck. Still spending summers in the same house he grew up in. Still lashing out from the same place of resentment. And his appearance, especially his hair, has not changed. It’s the one external detail that’s stayed the same from childhood to adulthood. That’s not something I think is accidental. It reflects something frozen, something unprocessed. That continuity is the point. It’s thematically consistent. And frankly, it makes more sense to me than chalking it up to potions fumes or practicality.

[uni-vee]

I don’t even know what to say about the infinity nikki ‘apology’ but not even giving 10 pulls is actually the funniest thing they’ve ever done

[captainjonnitkessler]

I understand if you want to stay out of it but I’m curious as to you’re thoughts on this discourse

https://www.tumblr.com/dappercat123/737173649266737152/your-arguments-sum-to-in-my-perfect-world-there

Anon, I'm going to be entirely honest with you. I have been waiting for an excuse to put my thoughts about this down. Forewarning that this is going to be long and take a dim view of organized religion.

TL;DR: I think everyone in that thread is maliciously misinterpreting evilsoup's point, which is basically that they think Gene Roddenberry was right about what a post-utopian society would look like re: religion. And you can agree or disagree about whether a post-religious utopia is likely or desirable, but to say that anyone who thinks it is is actively calling for and encouraging genocide is a gross misuse of the term (especially coming from at least one person that I'm pretty sure is currently denying an actively ongoing actual fucking genocide).

@evilsoup can correct me if I'm misinterpreting their points, but as far as I see it there are two main points being made:

A) In a perfect utopia with absolutely no source of oppression, marginalization, or disparity, religion would naturally whither away with no outside pressure being applied.

B) This would be a good or at least a neutral thing.

As far as A) goes - a lot of the responses evilsoup got were basically "well *I* would never choose to be nonreligious, so therefore the only way to create that world would be by force, and therefore you are calling for literal genocide". But aside from the fact that evilsoup was very, very clear that they thought this would be a *natural* event and that trying to force people to be nonreligious would be evil - we're not talking about (general) you. You can be as religious as you want but you don't get to make that choice for your grandkids, or your great-great-great grandkids, or your great-great-great-great-great-etc. grandkids. Just because religion is an integral part of your identity doesn't mean it's something you can pass down, and if you're not comfortable with the idea that your kids might choose to leave your religion, you shouldn't have kids.

I personally don't foresee religion disappearing entirely, but it is pretty consistent that as a country becomes happier, healthier, and wealthier, it also becomes less religious. Religiosity is inversely correlated with progressive values. And the more democratic and secular a nation is, the less powerful religious authorities become - In the 1600s blasphemy and atheism were punishable by death* in Massachusetts and today I can call the Pope a cunt to his face** on Twitter with no repercussions whatsoever. Political secularism is an absolute necessity for true democracy and it necessitates removing power from religious authorities, which has and will likely continue to lead to a decline in religiosity - not just a decline in how many people identify as religious, but also a decline in how religious the remaining people are.

*Blasphemy laws and death penalties for blasphemers/apostates are still VERY much a thing in many places. It's hard to see a path where those places become more democratic but don't become more secular and repeal those laws.

**Well, to the face of whoever runs his Twitter account, but the point remains.

I also believe that many religious communities have been held together for so long via coercion - either internal coercion like blasphemy and apostasy laws, shunning, and threats of hell or other supernatural punishment, or external coercion like oppression from the majority religious group or ethnic cleansings. In a perfect utopia, neither form of coercion would exist and I don't think it's crazy to think that religiosity would drop severely and become a much less important part of people's identities, in the way I think the queer community would not exist in a world where queerphobia didn't exist.

ANYWAY, all this is actually kind of moot. It could happen, it could not, nobody is calling for it to be forced so we'll just have to wait and see. The real point of disagreement is on B).

I'm gonna be honest - I think a lot of the responders are rank hypocrites and are really hung up on the idea of cultural purity, which is something I'm wildly uncomfortable with.

First of all, the idea that a deeply-held religious belief could be diluted until it's just a cultural thing that nobody really remembers the origins of isn't some evil mastermind plot evilsoup is trying to concoct, it's just how cultures work. There's tons of stuff about American culture that are vaguely rooted in what were once deeply-held beliefs and are now entertainment. Halloween is rooted in sacred tradition and now it's a day to dress up and get candy. Christmas is one of the most sacred holidays in Christianity but nobody bats an eye if a non-Christian puts up some lights or decorates a tree just because it's fun. I have no doubt that every culture on Earth has traditions that used to be deeply sacred but are now just fun family traditions. People in Japan use Christian symbology as an "exotic, mythical" aesthetic the exact same way people in the West use Eastern symbology. And if you're okay with it happening to Christianity, why wouldn't you be okay with it happening to any other religion in the absence of oppression?

And there's the idea that if a culture fails to get passed down *exactly* as it is now, it's a terrible loss and the result of malicious outside influence. But . . . cultures change over time. No culture is the same now as it was two or five or eight hundred years ago and I don't believe that change is inherently loss. The things that are sacred to you may or may not be sacred to the people of your culture in the future. That's just the way things work, and I don't think it's inherently good or bad.

And finally, people keep accusing evilsoup of "just wanting everyone to assimilate to your culture", but it absolutely does not follow that a lack of religion means a lack of diversity. Different nonreligious cultures are every bit as capable of being diverse as different religious cultures, so it's weird to insist that evilsoup wants there to only be one culture when they never said anything to indicate that.

[heywriters]

one of the biggest reasons I stopped answering questions on Tumblr is because answering in mobile means spending half an hour writing a four paragraph long response, sneezing on the screen or opening a new tab or losing my network connection.................and the whole thing auto erases

sorry, person who asked me about prologues. I am not writing all that again. Write what feels right, and good luck with your competition.

[nostalgebraist]

Due to recent experiences, I am feeling an urge to make an anti-drug-style PSA except it's warning impressionable machine-learning-curious teens to never, ever try a thing called "Huggingface transformers Trainer"

Not. Even. Once.

[aspennntree]

danny phantom is maybe the funniest route a fandom could take ever

[wedobonesmotherf-cker]

just finished This Is How You Lose the Time War and FUCK

if the stars themselves ripped from the earth and seared through my heart leaving my blood to water the plants underneath my dying body; it would make me feel less things than this soul shattering universe bending story.

[oneknightstand-if]

Hi! Would it be okay to ask for the fluff alphabet for either Lorelei or Arthur? Whichever one you would prefer!

I'll be doing Arthur here since someone else in the inbox was asking for Lorelei. Also, looks like I didn't do an animated banner for Arthur yet even though his NSFW alphabet was already completed.

Also, dammit, your name is too long, Arthur.

A - Activities - Because so much of his own time is consumed by his responsibilities, he's more inclined to do whatever his lover wants when he finally escapes from his duties. Sneaking off incognito somewhere that no one expects the High King is always fun though.

R - Romance - He's the prototypical chivalrous romantic sort. Flowers at random moments. That little doodad you were eying in the shop somehow turns up in your pocket. Romantic unicornhorseback rides in the moonlight. Slipping away to see that pig wrestling match... okay, maybe that last bit wasn't so typical.

T - Thrill - He doesn't need to try out new things to spice up the relationship, but considering the type of life he lives, that's going to happen anyway whether someone wants to or not. Hope your love interest is adventurous, Arthur!

H - Honesty - It's lonely at the top. While he certainly hopes to have a lover that he can be completely honest regarding himself, there's no way he can be fully honest when it comes to certain state secrets.

U - Understanding - He knows his partner very well. Sending knights and a certain scurrilous mage to do a background check please-don't-go-yandere-like-certain-others-he-knows level of "very well".

He was partially raised by an incubus with all the "please your partner" latent tendencies that go along with that, but being who he is and having experienced what he has... there are issues.

R

P - PDA - He is definitely the more touchy-feely sort who would have his arm around you if you were standing within a few feet of each other. (Particularly because most people wouldn't dare go around touching the king back then.)

But he's definitely won't be slobbering over his lover publically or french-kissing and the sort... has to keep up the gravitas expected of a king, after all. A lot of things circle back to "expected of a king".

E - Equal - Well, certainly don't expect him to be the submissive/passive one here. He'd certainly appreciate someone who acts as his equal, but he's fine with outright being the dominant one in the relationship. That's generally what's expected.

N - Nicknames - That's going to depend entirely upon the lover in question, much the same as Merlin's nicknames canonically go in the game.

D - Dreams - Speaking of which, you know what's he'd like in his future? Being awake and not still sleeping on Avalon!

Regarding his lover, his dreams could go in different directions depending upon the person involved. A co-ruler and partner for him in all aspects of the word? Or perhaps someone completely uninvolved with his duties as a king that he can sneak off to every now and then?

R

A

G

O - On Cloud Nine - Its revealed in a thousand little acts, a thousand little looks, a thousand little touches more than any grand proclamation. It also depends on if this lover is someone deemed appropriate or if he's sneaking out the window instead.

N

[lordsmeldingtonthethird]

Podfic of Neon Green and Cold Blue

After 2 months of sitting on this finally getting around to posting the first chapter of Neon Green and Cold Blue!

Huge shoutout to @corkinavoid, Thank you so much for letting me make a podfic of this, I've been reading your stuff for a while, and its all seriously so good.

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.

I don't have external meltdowns.

I could. I don't let it happen.

I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.

So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.

She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.

Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].

It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.

They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.

I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.

I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.

I couldn't understand what made her like this.

But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.

If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.

And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*

And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?

My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.

Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???

And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.

I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*

She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.

I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.

So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.

But I told her hundreds of times.

I probably should have just screamed at her.

[burnblog8835934]

Sorry for not posting here right away. This is the callout on the creator of Tetro Danganronpa, Von Babbitt, for using AI in her art as well as accepting over $1,000 from fans that she has been lying to. Please actually read the entire thing and hear me out. https://docs.google.com/document/d/13g5UP_WMQHL2DhWphF4JSTXEkFB4ariFSitgBHRNEfQ/edit?tab=t.0

And one more thing . This sketch posted as proof is one-to-one of Wada's sprite. Just something you all should know.

[cosmogyros]

THIS IS AN ANTI-AD

Do not buy from Marcus Pork. He is incredibly fucking annoying. To put it mildly.

A few weeks ago, I went to his website and put one t-shirt in my shopping cart, then saw that shipping would be free if I ordered two. So I pressed the back button to see if I wanted to add a second one... and immediately got an email from him. Subject line: "You DAMAGED my feelings"

I was a little taken aback, but thought "Okay, that's kinda cute and funny, haha. I get this company's vibe."

I ended up buying it, and then immediately received this email:

A discount is nice, but I mean, I literally JUST placed my first order, so I'm not about to use the discount right now.

But then... I proceeded to get a new email from him EVERY SINGLE DAY FOR A WEEK, hassling me about not having used the discount yet - let me repeat, the discount that he only offered me AFTER I'd placed my first order with his company.

Look at the dates:

At first the tone was amusing, but the joke-negging and joke-deprecation rapidly got old. I was genuinely starting to feel harassed.

And on top of this, the company somehow got hold of my OTHER email address, too - maybe because it's linked to my credit card somehow? - and sent the same kind of "playfully rude" hassling messages to me there as well:

They all have this kind of content:

Listen. I love rudeness and inappropriateness. I am not an uptight prude. But this shit got so annoying that, when I received the notification yesterday that my delivery had arrived, by that point I frankly wasn't even looking forward to it anymore. I still haven't gone to pick it up because I've lost all enthusiasm for the shirt. I don't know if I'll even want to wear it... I feel like every time I do, I'll remember feeling harassed and disturbed by this flood of marketing emails. I am strongly considering returning my purchase and explaining that the company's supposedly funny but actually predatory marketing techniques have left a bad taste in my mouth and made me not want to support them anymore.

I'm sure some folks love this kind of vibe, and that's great, more power to you. But for me personally, someone who has dealt with a lot of negging and sexual harassment in real life, it is NOT funny and honestly makes me feel kind of gross. I've never experienced any company emailing me every single day for over a week following my purchase from them, let alone with such a weird entitled attitude.

So I'm certainly never going to buy anything else from Marcus Pork Sr., I may return the one thing I did buy, and I'm going to advise everybody I know to avoid this creepy fucking company. They took a gamble on a marketing strategy that would make them stand out, and I see what they were going for, but in my opinion they failed, hard.

[lynaferns]

Expect a lot of Deltarune reblogs coming by the start of next month. 90% of them from the same character.

I have saved a lot of drafts...