#funny stuff in da queue

[therantsofawriterrr]

WHAT DA HELL IS DA POLAR BEAR DOING IN ARLINGTON TEXAS OMG I'M DYINGGGGGG

Seeing Logan in the TVA makes me laugh so hard for some reason? Like I know he’s lived to see technology evolve and stuff, but there’s something so funny about a guy from the 1800s standing in some kind of retro-futuristic timey wimey agency to me. Man is confused as hell.

like what da hell is a polar bear doin in arlington texas

[taohun]

did a set of cassettes based on playlists my DND party made :} shoutout graphic design and jenny holzer my favorites are obviously leyla and mahi's (top two) but i also had a lot of fun making reine's (campaign bbeg)

[xnovicexofxreasonx]

CEMETERY MAN

Thousand Acres Wrists 2025

(Misha, you can skip this one).

Dear Michael,

I hope you doing well over that side of the black gates. I'm writing this to you in a queue for a merch table for a gig you probably gonna think i'm mad for going to. Yeah, don't worry, i'm well aware i probably am.

You gonna also think that we (together with Max Hugger, my head dealer in that sort of stuff) are a couple of complete fuckwits for listening to that kind of music. Well, i don't blame you really, but i can try to explain.

Firstly i am a big fan of depressive bm (a lifelover, you can say); secondly - witch house is my jam since forever (salem hell yeah!); next - "outsider" or cloud rap (lil b) and whatever whiteboy (?) rap, horrorcore hh and stuff (bones, lil ugly mane); also im a big fan of the tumblr rotcore culture (?), and lastly - i like my cheesy slasher and horror movie stuff (fr13, cemetery man). I can skip all that american gothic stuff (i prefer cyber-variety) and sad boy emo clique (im a skramz/violence guy myself tyvm). Thus, i prolly skipped couple of things, but as you can see, please understand, i always was fuckwitted, im sorry.

Basically music of HAUNTED MOUND boys catered exactly for me, only thing i lack is my youth. But you know what they say, it's what inside matters (and im fuckold inside), so i look piss-young and fresh (when cleanshaven). Sorry.

Yeah, standing in a crowd of basically toddlers is most definitely no place to think about the name for the ultimate old-fart metal-lover. Its me, its my name, Misha. We are old. Smells like farts here anyway tho (and baby powder). And all these little humans have no sense of private space! I dressed btw like it's a KOЯN gig (well that's the korn for the current generation of active shooters i guess).

Nobody in the crowd was born before SALEM came out. Anyway, here it goes:

ANVIL was warming public up, nothing of note, except Lil B mention, kids were pumping tho idk. ANVIL himself was just pushing buttons and drinking Monster Energy (not sponsored) from a wine glass (man of (kindergarten) class). It's that kind of concert again (see JOHN MAUS), live-miming music basically, at least what i understood after seeing BUCKSHOT videos. So i was prepared, you can say.

Sad, that i was hairclipped recently and lost all BUCKSHOT (not present today T_T) likeness - i would've won the contest easily. Half of the crowd won the 4OKALKA (circa 2007) likeness contest with a big margin tho.

ANVIL was still pushing, when their personal photo-dude (Matt?) was looking his best my-20-yo-coworker. Respect.

Feeling tho, Misha, as i was that "rudest forty-something" at that gig. Damn kids, man. (Scratch that, there is always a middle ground: shitty 20-somethings with fucko-mustaches were just fuming cigs in the crowd; another one was positively raving arms flailing, ts ts). The only good thing, that it is impossible to catch any disease from the crowd (i'm vaccinated against measles). Basically "howdy fellow kids" situation at that point.

Half of swedish part of greater CPH is here (below 16 demographics), including dollar-store (soap)crust-teen ager (good luck to him tho, he has a long way ahead).

Matt Ploeger (?) visited the crowd, and im only one fanboy-gushing. Respect, again.

Track said "im 25", you wish buddy, you wish. Quite huge kids today tho, the nordics style, even me cannot see shit (there is nothing to see yet).

Next stop - HACKLE, da AK47-smith. Missed his shit, so no fanboying from me - kids love it ofc. Cannot report nothing funny about t-shirts around - 100% HAUNTED MOUND merch it is borderline culty (especially since it is fratboy-ish polo on a 14-yearsolds). Well, gonna be young, i guess.

HACKLE (big boy), sporting wine glass (with Monster Ultra), doing his best brick squad impression (no idea). H-Hop, fellas, Hip to the H (it's a trap). Idk actually, maybe we put this in, sounds hella familiar.

Anyway, next stop and a main attraction for me - GHOST MOUNTAIN. Somewhat different stuff - there is no rapping, but sad (?) songs over witch house, and somehow more mature (more adult? maybe it is me, adult, making it up lmao). Absolutely beautiful last release, although some early shit slaps too. Now there were predictions, you see, Misha. Some of the tracks are absolutely banging, and feats with the HM boss-boy himself were on a menu too. And mister Wren (holding high a fine tradition of an american with a funky name in the rapgame) did not disappoint. I practically shout-mimed every song akin the mentioned JOHN MAUS gig, jumped and pumped much to youngsters surprise, and had a really banging good time lol. Almost whole album, some old shit, sadly not the main dance hit - eponymous October Country (but i guess it's completely out of gig's format). There were no feats with the boss obvi, as his reveal was a big deal apparently. All in all GHOST MOUNTAIN was a goodamn blast, Misha, glad you didn't ask.

So, the main main attraction - SEMATARY, the man, the legend, the grave. His stuff is wild: the apparent surface level tough-shit attitude, "fuck the cops and bitches and whatever" etc. coupled with sadboy emo-ish early highschool sort of affair - is underlined so thinly with just the love for the craft - a lot of nerdy (like elevated nerdy stuff, for the old guard) and musical references, on point beats, traps and witch huts - and it's all fun and silly and just works (much better i say than late BONES stuff); and you can see the growth - last album was elevated af, it's doubly sad i missed his (and BUCKSHOTs) previous visit and he skipped most of new stuff today anyway.

But what a reveal, geez. GM left, ANVIL the button-guy put something and left - and the thing was madly atmospheric and, you can say, synthy shit - and it was no less than MURMUÜRE! Little and obscure dungeon synth/bm, real hidden gem. WTF, only me and the lonely black metal-kid in the crowd properly acknowledged that! Puffy-shirt bad-hair day-teens were flummoxed to say the least. After that was some another great dark ambient opener and here we go!

I'd say, Misha, feeling was on par of that random MIDNIGHT gig i did last year, the mass of raging youngsters (prolly less ragey, but with the same sort of a bodily factor (including the frontman's fanservice nudity and screeching girls). Set list was all the bangers i think, i recognised probably half of it (butcher house, slaughterhouse, deergod?). All the HM-boys helped scarecrow-hooded main guy; there was some great unreleased track about three losers - aren't we all, Misha? Played also latest drop about a heart (so pure) - that one has some evil synth track in it!

Cherries on top were obvi feat with GHOST MOUNTAIN from the album (peak musicianship i'd say) and absolute number one banger - WENDIGO, that faux-goth-rock hitsong about the lost way (aren't we all, Misha, aren't we all).

Finisher/encore was like a 30 minutes long, banger after banger till the clock stroke midnight. My plan was to get some of them boys sign my copy of Bloodborne lmao, but as there was no Mordor song, and the only dude available was clearly pissed-off merch guy (the professional dealer with kids, i see), so i just left with nothing (aren't we all).

Anyway, that was awesome, truly something, feeling alive, ya know. Kids are alright (mb idk, i'm not the one).

So i hope you are doing well, Michael. We are gonna return to our usual fucko-metal-gig programming, so i see you there (you not gonna read this anyway).

Always you friend,

A̵̢̮̫̪̖͇͕̣̘̗͑͌̃̃̈̆ͅň̸̡͙̳͈́͑͊̚͘ ��̡̨̡̡̢̛̟͈̹̤̬͐͐̎̈́̅̀̌̆̉͒͘͘͘͜E̷̪̰̬͔͈͚̻̱͈̭͍̠͈͚̍̊͊̚ͅǵ̸̡̦͓̪͇̣̤̼̯͍̞͙̟̳̍̒̆̾͘͠g̴̛͍̲͙̼̮͉̗͆̃̾̌͋̍̚?̷̩̝̥̺̙̮̖͙̖͖̳̼͆̆̎̒̾͌͗͊̍͋͘̕ͅ

7/6/8 of May 2025

[gotta-bail-my-quails]

Tags masterpost

i tend to shove everything onto one blog so this post's gonna be pinned so anyone new can just block what they don't want clogging their dash or look things up if you wanna do that for whatever reason (mostly in order of how many posts that tag currently has in my blog archive--not necessarily what I'm currently posting most about)

cat/cats/pretty kitty - self explanatory, it's just cat posts

cool art - also self explanatory (but has more overlap with fandom than the next tag)

for reference/reference for later - really cool art + medical, writing, and tech advice posts + writing/drawing ideas

lol/lmao - uh...just stuff i find funny?

free palestine - posts in support of a free Palestine! (zionists fuck off)

important - activist stuff + more medical/writing/tech advice posts/PSAs

us politics - because not everyone lives in/wants to hear the latest shitshow going on (might add a more general politics tag for non-US stuff later)

pretty pic/cool pic - photographs i like (btw if anything I ever reblog is AI, please tell me so I can get that shit off my blog! <3)

my art - art I've made!

quail's wails - random personal ramblings

now for the fandom stuff...I won't add any tags for fandoms I have less than 15 posts in since most of those are ones I am no longer in (for instance, I haven't been into the dsmp since like, forever, so I've just deleted/privated the posts; also, in light of the not so recent news about Neil Gaiman, I probably won't post anything from the Sandman/Good Omens anymore although I respect the latter as also being sir Terry Pratchett's work--I will therefore not be adding it to the masterpost although the posts will still be in the archive)

sheer art attack - (riffing off of the Queen song lmao) art I really, really wanna look at again. and again. and again. and which might also give me an actual sheer heart attack

RSP - (regularly scheduled program post) queue tag

Original content (i.e. posted by me) won't be tagged with the '[media name] shtick' thing I've got going on--it'll use the regular tags you'd expect. Content reblogged from others will be tagged with the shtick scheme ONLY, but I'll likely change that to use my own tags on all fandom content both mine and others'.

fandom shtick - all fandom posts

loki shtick - both marvel loki and general mythological loki (haven't rb'd anything loki in over a year though)

dislyte/dislyte shtick - for the game dislyte

dislyte toland - specifically for the character Toland from dislyte who I'm obsessed with

iruma shtick/mairimashita! iruma kun/m!ik - for the manga/anime "Welcome to demon school! Iruma-kun"

moriarty shtick - for the manga/anime "Moriarty the Patriot"/"Yuukoku no Moriarty"

ddd shtick/dandadan - for the manga/anime "Dan Da Dan"

sxf shtick - for the manga/anime "Spy x Family"

tbhx/to be hero x/tbhx shtick/tbhx art - for the donghua "To Be Hero X" (what i'm currently posting most about)

💯 au - my personal tag for the ship civilian X/top 10 from "To Be Hero X"

homexwreck - my personal tag for the Nice/Wreck ship from "To Be Hero X"

hxh shtick - for the manga/anime "Hunter X Hunter"

apothecary shtick - for the manga/anime "Apothecary Diaries"

i'm 95% certain I have more fandoms somewhere buried in there but tumblr won't show me them so I guess they're lost to the depths of my blog now whoops

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Yes! You can answer whatever you want/like. We are guests in your blog house. 😀 and if we like the chatter we stay awhile, and visit again! The pics circulating today...Louis looks happy with his buds, having a relaxed, fun time doing stuff he loves, and casually and normally talking to fans who approach him. He is so unpretentious. I love the secure and confident Louis. Charting his own path against the odds and winning! Looks a lot like freedom. This era ❤

Louis is so chill and happy, it’s really great to see. He looks so beautiful.

It’s kinda funny that Matt Vines and Chris Frewin are doing … whatever it is they’re doing at Coachella, and no one posted an AOTV reel to either Instagram or TikTok today. “Posted daily” except halfway through, at which time we pretend the movie’s a whim. La di da!

Any 16-year-old influencer can set up a daily social media queue but not a British $multimillion management company.

“We strive for slightly below average” must have been Matt Vines’ school motto, god bless. Good things fans pick up the slack 😘

[sc3m0-st1mz]

WELKUM 2 DA STIM ZONE!!!1!1

> REQUESTS OPEN! CLICK 4 INFO <

hiiiii, i'm RILEY and this iz my stimblr blog!!!! i'm a scemo kid who likez bright colorz and flashing gifz!!

4 more fun stuff that iznt stim related, check out my NEOCITIEZ SITE!

i have v hyperaktive ADHD and autism, n tend 2 be very understimulated, so stimblr rockz 4 me!!!!!!

other kool factz: - my pronounz r pog/pogs, they/them, 👾/👾s, h3/h1m, sh3/h3r, alternating he/she, + anything except it - i'm 8teen (my body'z 19) and my birthday iz Halloween!!!!! - i'm PLURal!!!!! putting the & in peace love unity & respect

[ID in alt text, all blinkiez from blinkies.cafe except happy ween/rawr XD]

there iz no real DNI, i just block ppl - i do not tolerate gatekeeping or pointless discourse here, tho, if that makez u mad u kan go somewhere else (there r plenty of stimblrz 4 ppl who kant mind their own bizness i promise). DNI if im on ur DNI! it’z not rocket science!!!

// tagging system & to-d list iz under da cut!!!

tagz - stim stuffz!! #♾️, #stimz / anything stimmy that i made!!! stimboardz, moodboardz, kool gifs #✨, #stimboard / a themed board with gifs #🦝, #moodboard / a themed board with still images #💿, #gifset / collectionz of gifz i made #👽, #imageset / collectionz of images i made tagz - misc. stuffz! #👾, #rilez rawrz / non-stim posting! #🐾, #PAWsome / reblogz of cool stimmy stuff!!! #🍭, #rqd / completed requests #🛻, #two truckz?? / queue

tagz - CWz! ❤️ format will alwayz be “#cw ___”. u kan request a new cw for the list, but i may or may not add it. i will never cw reclaimed slurz or disability aidz tho 🖤 #gif, #flash warning, #strobe, #eyestrain 🧡 #cw unreality, #unreality 🖤 #cw knife, #cw needle, #cw sharps 💛 when close up / #cw hands, #cw feet, #cw eyes, #cw eye contact 🖤 #cw horror, #cw blood, #cw bloodlike (ie red liquids) 💚 #cw death, #cw bones, #cw gore, #cw cartoon gore, #cw pastel gore, #cw zombies, #cw cartoon zombies 🖤 #cw object harm, #cw plush harm 💙 #cw AI, #cw AI mention 🖤 #cw fire, #cw lightning 💜 all fandoms are tagged with just their namez so block those if u want 🖤 this blog iz mostly sfw but sometimez ill make boardz for more 'adult' stuff i think is funny / #nsft, #cursed, #adult topics, #adult fandom

to-do list!

imac stimboard (request, wip)

ena stimboard (request)

moray stimboard (request)

[chewtoykiddo]

Srry 4 da spam I'm in a funni mood n wanted 2 share some stuffs from mi likes. I kno I shuld have a queue but I like da idwa of only having stuff in here when I'm here n horni. Den ppl can see wat I'm droolin over right then

[imoved-starbitsun]

light, light, light .

call me sun. this is my personal blog. i follow from @thegatewaygalaxy. consider this a journal of sorts, full of small bits of ephemera pasted in for all sorts of reasons. i model it after my innerworld. you may find here:

art, nature photography, interior design, fashion

poetry & quotes

food, recipes, cooking videos

posts about writing & the act of creation

the occasional funny text post, meme, video, though these are usually on @spamgolden

mental health, autism, dissociative systemhood

queerness, genderfluidity

grappling with the concept of faith after being raised evangelical

a lot of gold, yellow, green, and brown 💛💚🤎

i run mostly on queue and almost entirely untagged. tags i do keep are under the cut.

general tags

abt · faith-troubled · fave · for bad days · gender · kitchen sex my beloved · mecore · recipes · saved · sungoldencore

system related

cafe sungolden · littlez · knoll island · shatterclub · stargaze island · sungolden island · system

system members

allie stuff · ambrose in color · aster tag · autumn / sparrow · b tag · bee tag · da kaden tag · damiène things · eefcore · eye boy · ghostgirl tag · jackaboy · jet tag · juniper tag · lethe stuff · m tag · mark stuff · molly things · mufukn starboy · orville tag · ryancore · samcore · silver and gold · solace tag

[pumpkinsy0]

Can you tell us about the dragon and centaur (or satyr I can't remember) purly au please??

EVERYONE STFU AND SAY HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THIS ACC 🗣🗣

but yes yes, a classic au indeed🛐🛐

•ok so basically im not gonna sit here n lie to u, i was basing this off monster high

•but that doesnt matter now, its time for purly, SO absolutely no offense to pony, HOWEVER compared to everyone else at school, hes not that scary LMFAOOO

•like im not saying he cant protect himself, but the mfs at his school r like zombies, gargoyles, werewolfs, and hes just half horse

•darrys a gargoyle, sodas a mermaid or siren, whichever tickles ur fancy, and ponys a centaur, so yea, he doesn’t rlly fit in at home either

•so most days hes just in the forest, chillin w the butterflies and bees and shit like that

•one think i will not take away from him is thats hes just rlly pretty when hes in the woods left alone, thats all im saying

•queue in curly da dragon💯💯💯

•now for curly hes pretty hot headed, unbelievably fucking strong, and rlly cool looking😈

•okok whys curly in the woods you ask????well the forest ponys in is heard to b haunted and curly was dared to go in

•ponys rlly desperate to make sure nobody comes back and would scare the ppl who come near it away, and tried to do the same w pony but pony fucked something up ANNDDD now curly knows that the woods isnt haunted, pony just wanted to b left alone

•to keep the whole situation a secret pony said curly could come into the woods whenever as long as he didnt bring anyone else, pony wants to keep a low profile damnit

•so curly takes him up on that and goes into the woods whenever he pleases and sometimes messes w pony

•after months and months of sneaking around to have a t place for themselves, flirting, and trying to impress each other they finally get together good christ

•to keep it as short as i can its like one sided enemies to lovers

at this point im just gonna list off stuff they do together bc the main focus of the au is stuff they do w each other, not rlly the story

•BUT ANYWHO their relationship starts off as flirts x flustered to whatever relationship dynamic donkey and that dragon had from fucking shrek

•putting it out there that pony casually makes smores a lot now bc curly has fire breathe🤞🏽

•also pony can stay out longer in the woods bc now curly can light a fire so he can stay warm and see everything a little bit better

•pony thinks curlys scales look cool and draws this dude any chance he gets, hes just cool like that💯💯💪🏽

•was gonna refrain from saying it but curly can grow to b rlly big and can pull pony closer to him w his wings🤼‍♀️

•ok so uhhhh pony can attract the lil woodland creatures (ole snow white head ass🙄🙄) and sometimes they climb on curly and curly never knows what to do and pony finds in funny

•ponys strong enough to carry curly on his back so WOOHOO🤞🏽

[gwrgeous]

OLÁ, EU SOU A BERRIE.

estou aberta para plots! como esse blog é novo, ele está em construção. aqui vão alguns dos meus links mais importantes: 

guidelines 

meus chars (abertos e fechados) 

wanted plots 

abaixo do read more estão as minhas tags. não vou colocar o link porque se eu trocar url vai me dar um trabalhão. isso aqui é só um guide para mim (e quem mais interessar) para ver minhas tags. 

INSPO 

inspo: chars 

inspo: ships 

inspo: friendship 

inspo: family 

moodboard  •  fashion  •  zodiac  •  edits 

twitter  •  sms  •  quotes  •  poetry  •  music 

AESTHETIC 

aesthetic 

aes: fantasy 

aes: medieval 

aes: fairytale 

aes: period piece 

WANTED 

wanted: plots 

female opp 

female fc 

male opp 

male fc 

EXTRAS

poc 

funny stuff 

writing tips   

gif hunt  •  headers  •  icons 

masterlists  •  prompts  •  ask meme 

PERSONAL

queue 

about me 

it’s me hi i’m the problem it’s me 

TV SHOWS & MOVIES

coloquei em uma page para ficar mais organizado. é só colocar /tvm no final da minha url 

[tamtam-go92]

Check in tag

I was tagged by @aondaneedles. Thank you!

Why did you choose your url?

Tamtam, or rather Tam has been my nickname in real life for a while. It's just short for my actual name. And you know Tomtom navigation? They've had that slogan Tomtom go back when navigation systems where the hottest sh*t. So Tomtom -> Tamtam you get it? I use that name only for at least 15 years. 92 is just the year I was born since tamtam_go was already taken.

How long have you been on tumblr?

I had to check but my first reblog is form April 2016 so I guess it's been my tumblr birthday this month!

Do you have a queue tag?

No, I queue my usual gameplay posts, everything else I post is just random stuff that comes to my mind or I find funny/important/sad/sweet enough to reblog

Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I was pretty active on deviantArt but stopped doing art when my drawing tablet broke and I noticed that some of my mutuals there were going away to tumblr, god knows why. And I just followed them and then I discovered simblr and then I really got back into simming and here we are now...

Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

It's my simself, a really outdated one though. In between I've had my hair short and bleached and now it's grown back above collarbone. Someone once pointed out my simself looks like Loki Beaker...

Why did you choose your header?

So this is a relict from my DeviantArt days and I've used this header ever since I have this account. It's the last piece I uploaded on DA and was probably my best one xD I really want something more fitting to the theme of my blog but I really just can't let go of it...

What’s your post with the most notes?

I really don't know. I usually don't get many notes on my posts but that's okay. It's probably one of my attack on titan posts. This one has 56. My most popular sim post was the one about Sam Cordial and Gabe Green's messed up wedding for a long time and could still be it!

How many mutuals do you have? / How many followers do you have?

I rougly counted around 30? And I have exactly 150 Followers.

How many people do you follow?

193. I'm picky, okay?

Have you ever made a shitpost?

I don't really know. What exactly is the definition of a shitpost?

How often do you use tumblr each day?

I try to check in at least once a day except for weekends, I try to stay offline on weekends as much as possible. But usually I'm online all day anyway.

Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

I did have a small fight about the genetical aspects of the Naruto couple NejiHina. Listen, I don't engage in shipping wars. I turn 30 this year, I'm over this. And I don't have anything against relationships between cousins, you do you, okay? And I agree that in a historical view, Neji and Hinata should probably have married and would probably have married. I only told that one person, that genetically speaking Neji and Hinata are half-siblings since their fathers are identical twins. That was all. They were pretty pissed at me and asked me how that made them half-siblings. I tried explaining but I dropped it after another angry response...

How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

I don't reblog?

Do you like tag games?

Yes! I tend to be an oversharer so it's great to blow some steam xD

Do you like ask games?

Same xD

Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I'm super honored that @deedee-sims is my mutual!

Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No.

I'm tagging: @zabossu, @sushigal007, @penig, @sixamese-simblr, @kimbr3. Feel free to ignore if you already did this!

[kkshowtunes]

Pinned post time!

Hi! Welcome to my blog! I know this pinned post is annoying and headache-inducing but who cares this is just so all my bases are covered.

Currently mainly posting: who knows

I feel really bad about this but I might take forever to respond to DMs. I set time limits on my phone to combat my anxiety but that means that I can’t see DMs sometimes. I also am at school a lot so yeah. Very sorry but I promise it’s not you.

Additionally, I will be online a lot less lately for mental health! I also am in school

check me out on my ao3 by the same name!

Please click read more if you are new here!

Doodlebug (she/they)

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I don’t do chain asks, they stress me out. I also rarely do chain reblogs. You can still tag me but don’t expect me to respond.

Also really sorry but I can’t donate to donation posts.

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#Doodlebug says things - Original posts

#Doodlebug does art - art tag

#Doodlebug writes! - Writing / fics

#Doodle saves - Save tag

#da mutuals - Mutuals tag

#answered - asks

#mr queuester - queue tag (rarely used)

#doodlbugs cats - stuff about my cats!

#banger - 100+ notes original post

#super banger- 500+ notes original post

#super banger hall of famer: 1k+ notes original post

#banger [x]k- replace the x with notes in increments of 5k

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Uquiz masterlist

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DNI: 

 - Porn/kink blogs (I don’t mind if you exist but please just don’t follow me!!)

 - Terfs

 - Homophobes

 - Biphobes

 - Racists

 - Anti BLM or an ALM supporter

 - Sexists

 - Maps, pears, or whatever the pedos are calling themselves now

 - bigots of any sort

 - Cringe culture people

 - Islamaphobes

 - Anti-Semites

 - colorists

 - trump supporters

 - Anti-self dx

- Into cypro/nft

- anti-palestine

- doxx people, think doxxing people is ok or funny, or use doxxing as a threat

 - or supporters of any of the above (except for nsfw blogs you can support nsfw blogs just please do not interact if you post porn!!)

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FANDOM BYF:

- Yeah I’m a South Park fan…

- I literally give negative fucks about shipping discourse because who cares

- I 100% understand that my favorite media is often problematic. I make sure to do research before I continue consuming it. However I still find comfort in it so if you are uncomfortable by me posting about it please just block me and don’t yell at me about it.

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I’m bi! I call myself gay on occasion but that’s for sillies

im cis but i use she/they for sillies as well

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OCD and Anxiety, medically diagnosed, but I was self dx for many years so seriously dni if you have a problem with it

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I deeply apologize if you followed me for The Delaware Post.. you’re about to want to unfollow me real bad once you realize all I do is talk about musicians

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Fandoms (prolly unupdated :/)

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Have fun on my blog!

[crazyglitterpirate]

Regrets - Fred Weasley

It's my sixth year at Hogwarts. After what happened last year I really didn't expect things to get better but still Umbridge really? what a pain in the arse. but one thing that came out of it was the DA. what a suggestion from ginny may I add. everyone was a little shocked I joined since my parents openly spoke out again Dumbledore but they weren't here last year, they didn't see what we all saw. It meant I lost a lot of friends as I started hanging around with other DA members, even if no one else knows that what we were. Luna and Ginny were there when I had a screaming match with them when they said I was ditching them. I felt alone and rejected. but Ginny had told the others so I was always welcomed to sit at the Gryffindors table. I became close friends with the twins, they would distract me with all their products and I was really amazed at them. those two are a lot smarter than they let on. DA was good cause I would usually group with them.

One night at a DA meeting.

"ahh" I huff and sit on the floor " there no use I'm never going to get the charm right"

We were all practising a different charm and I for the life of me could get it, plus I was having a bad week, with me already on three detentions this week already.

"come on soph," George said as he sits down next to me while Fred is towing over me.

"yeah you'll get it you just can't give up," Fred said. He gives me a look of concern as we stare at each other without breaking our eye contact.

"what's wrong?"  He asked me, I could hear the concern in his voice. At this point, George had left and given us some space. "has someone said something again."

"no" I look away, well look at anything other than him, I didn't want him to know how nervous he made me. "just having a bad week"

"Well then let's make it better," he says and grabs my hand to pull me up with ease. I swear my heart started beating faster.

So I have a little crush on a certain redhead twin, I mean he's kind and funny, way smarter than you think and is extremely loyal to his family how could I not. but then there's me, sad weak little Sophie who can't even do this stupid charm, why would he ever see me as anything else. god, I'm so sick of people looking at me like I'm going to break.

"Okay, whatever Weasley" and with that, we continued with the meeting.

One week later.

As I was walking to the court lard I was my friends, well old friends. they were all laughing and being happy and it annoyed me, I didn't do anything wrong in the first place.

"Hey soph you okay" a small voice came from behind me but instantly recognised it."

"Yeah, I'm fine Fred, just looking for a spot to sit and read." I smile back but he gives me that look, you know the 'are you sure' look.

"I am fine" I huff "now can we sit"

"it okay if your not, you were friends for a long time"

"Fred I--"

"No, you can't keep pretending it not getting to you, it clearly is"

"and if you want I would be happy you try new products on them" "and George too, of course, we will be like your bodyguards around them" he ended with a smile.

Now I know he wasn't trying to be sweet and i know he didn't mean to make me feel small and weak but he did and without giving him a minute to say anything else I stood up and started shouting at him.

" FRED, WOULD YOU JUST SHUT UP, I TOLD YOU I WAS FINE ARE YOU DEAF OR SOMETHING, THE ONLY PERSON BOTHERING ME RIGHT NOW IS YOU. I AM NOT SOME WEAK LITTLE GIRL WHO NEEDS YOUR PROTECTION, I CAN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF. AND I'M SO SICK OF BEING MADE TO FEEL LIKE ONE. I CAME OUT HERE TO READ IN PEACE NOT FOR YOU TO DIG INTO THINGS WHICH BTW I NEVER WANTED YOU OR GEORGE INVOLVED IN SO PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF MERLIN LEAVE ME ALONE."

I go to storm off but before I'm out of earshot I hear him say 'guess I won't bother you again I didn't mean it it was just a build-up which unfortunately Fred got the full bast of.

Regret i felt regret

Thursday that week, Fred hadn't made eye contact with me at all and would only say hi if I was in a group of our mutual friends. I was walking back from the library since I now had way more free time. I didn't hang out with the twins anymore I wouldn't even group up with them at DA meetings either, so I found myself reading and studying. walking through the halls I hear running and laughter a certain laugh I would be able to recognize a mile away and with that, all my emotions came at once and I found myself siding down the side of the wall crying not too loud but loud enough to get someone attention.

"soph?" George, it was George.

"Hey, hey come here it alright" he grabs me and just holds me "Shhh" he turned to look at me wiping away any tears that have fallen "what happens, are you okay, did you have detention"

I shake my head "no" I take some breaths " I just feel so alone, I feel like I've lost everyone my old friends and Now you and Fred."

"first of all you haven't lost me," he says and nudges me.

"and second aren't you the one who told him to stay away " he raises an eyebrow at me

"I know, I felt really bad after I did it, George, he just wouldn't shut up and be making me feel worse. God, why can't he just understand sometimes I don't want to talk about it."

"it's not that I don't want to talk to you two about it I just do better handling that stuff on my own, it's what I know, every time I try and say sorry he walks away or just flat out ignores me. Do you know how much that hurts it's like I'm not even there? I care about you guys so much and now I feel like I've fucked it up cause I lost it once. "

"like I understand if he doesn't want to be my friend anymore I really do, but ..... I just - I wish he would just acknowledge my apology. "

George just sits there comforting me ensuring me that he would come around. What we didn't know was Fred was around the corner and heard everything.

FREDS POV

We had just finished a prank and were running George being ahead of me while laughing we could hear someone crying, we both stopped and continued walking to where it was coming from. before I turned the corner I hear George say her name and my heart sunk.

"soph?"

I heard the whole conversation and a mass of regret and guilt came over me. I had never thought about it from her point of view well, to be honest, I never let her explain I guess I let my ego get in the way. I mean now I'm hearing it I should have respected her boundaries and her personal space and I shouldn't have ignored her I just felt so hurt that she didn't want me to comfort her, all I wanted to do was make her happy and avoid her crying but instead I've caused it. I am going to make this right, I need to!

I hear them get up and start walking George was offering to walk her to her house but she said it was okay and with that George was next to me in less than a minute. He waited till she was out of earshot before finally saying something.

"You're an idiot, an absolute git Fred"

"I know," I said

"well how are you going to fix it"

"I don't know"

I had planned a lot of things to apologize to sophie, but I chicken out every time. I almost did one day but then I fucked it up again by shouting things at her. hurtful mean things, I made her cry AGAIN this time it was her avoiding me, guess now I know how she felt, karma right? God, I tried talking to her but before I knew it I was flying out of the school with George without making things right.  she saw me and turned away.

Regret was all that I could think.

Sophies POV

I was sitting at lunch with luna, we tend to sit with the Gryffindors. George always engaged in conversation with me which was comforting but Fred still didn't speak to me, But I swear I saw him attempt to say something to me but stop himself every time.

It was the day of the big match Slytherin vs Gryffindors, I of course wore red and gold. and I decide to go with luna to wish everyone good luck. George instantly pulled me in for the biggest bone crusting hug ever.

"Okay I can't breathe" I get out "what trying to kill me or something" I laughed

I didn't even notice Fred had come next to us

"so what do you think? reckon I'd make a good gryffindork"

"I think you suit it, what do you think George?" Fred, he had actually said something to me, well George but at me.

i just looked over and smiled at him.

"Yeah Fred defo a Gryffindor at heart"

"right C'mon," Angelia said

"well that's my queue to go, good luck boys" I waved them off and linked my arms with luna

"let go get some seats this will be good"

I had deiced I would talk to him after an official apology for shouting at him. but then the fight happened not that I'm complaining I hate Malfoy too. The 3 of them were sent to Umbridge so ginny let me in the common room. George came in first and marched right to his dorm then harry who just sat on the couch and then Fred he looked around for a while then i rose to speak to him to see if he was okay.

"Hey Fred," I said while putting my hand on his arm, but he quickly moved

"what are you even doing here? You are not a Gryffindor you're not really in the DA properly just aspie for Umbridge!"

"Fred I-"

"What noting to shout at me for, why don't you go back to your friends and death eater family huh! I- "

"FRED enough it's not sophies fault."

I felt tears roll down my cheeks as I looked around embarrassed and hurt. and I ran out of that common room as fast as could"

I could pick up ginny shouting at him and someone calling my name but I kept running. I didn't go back to the DA after that and I sat back at my house table alone. ginny, luna and George checked up on me but I just waved them off saying I had too much work to do. i avoided fred. sometimes he'd call my name but I would only walk away faster.  until I was in class I heard a sound bang followed by shouting like everyone else I left to see and I was the twins on the brooms. Fred made eye contact with me almost pleading to follow but I didn't I turned and went to the library.

I didn't know they were leaving. or I would have listened i thought we had more time.

once again I was met with an old friend

regret

[manjuhitorie]

16 Hitorie’s Hitori-Escape Tour, 11/14/2019 at LIQUIDROOM in Tokyo prefecture

SND “If you don’t pay attention, it’ll be over in a instant, y’hear me..."

SND "It's been a long time since we've last been here in Liquidroom..." Crowd "Woo!! Huh? huh?" SND "It's been a while~" Crowd “Wait!" SND "Do y'all gotta problem, do ya??” *They were there in Liquidroom just a few days ago for the bonus concerts. But SND seems to want to pretend those don’t exist ~~~

SND “Wheee~ Uei~" Crowd “Wheee~ Uei~”

~~~ SND pre-(W)HERE “Ahh we’ve already reached the 16th tour date. Today WAS the tour finale, but you guys had to go and order bucket loads of tickets so, we’re out here. 2 left now.

We’re Hitorie, a band who only do good songs but.. This is a good song among the good songs. A god song worthy of god. And I want everybody here to hear it. Whether you’re laughing, crying, however you feel is just fine. I leave it to you. So please listen to this."

~~~~ SND pre-Unknown Mother Goose

"You can do it if you try, huh Tokyo! For all your efforts, from wowaka… here's a package of love..!"

~~~~

SND pre-Talkie Dance

"What the fuck, you’re not dancing a damned bit are ya Liquidroom?! For y’all misbehaving, dance to Talk Dance please!!" Yu “1 2 3 4" ~~~

“Are you having fun?! Or are you feeling angry? Anything’s fine, alright…. Let’s just go wild..!”

~~~~

SND pre-Karanowaremono

We’ve been together for 7 years. I joined the band, we changed the name from Hitori-Atelier to Hitorie, and now we’re here 7 years later. The Beatles disbanded after 7 years. The band BOØWY, and Number Girl too disbanded after 7 years. 7 years ago, I was in Nagoya, wowaka was in Tokyo, and ygarshy called me directly to say 'I'm in this sorta band right now and we're looking for a guitarist, so you come and do it.' I replied ‘Okay, understood.’ and just like that I went up to Tokyo and into the studio. At the time I didn’t know Leader’s face, I only knew him from the Skype group chat, where he told me the type of songs he wanted to play and dumped the demo mp3 files in the chat, and when I listened to it electricity ran through my veins  sparks were flying, I thought about how it was so destined to cause a revolution, and that I was to be a member of that revolution… I was so so so excited. That excitement was already 7 years ago, and I’m, still excited to the bones right now. And my excitement, that electricity which ran through my veins that day, I’m going to share with everybody here right now."

~~~

Mid Polaris chorus belted out “Cause y’all are damn strong!!!!”

~~~

Crowd “One more time! One more time!” Encore MC time!

SND “Thank you everybody for the encore call~~!” Yumao *jumps out* "Yumao da yo~! Hey, it’s Yumao~!!" Crowd “So cute!” “It’s Yumao!“ So cute! SND “How much are you going to---” Crowd “YUMAO! SO CUTE!” SND “You’re wearing a nice sweatshirt aren’t cha." Yu “….Here wearing the nice sweatshirt, it’s Yumao!!✨ ” “WAHOOO!"

"..Turn around, turn around you shit c'mon, pull it up." …. *Yumao following instructions loyally* “Everybody, did you witness that? When the hood is taken off, the letters disappear from sight~” *SND acting like a magic show host*

“Our 16th show of the tour!” SND “The last time we played here Liquidroom was the show with Passpied, and then the one-man 5 years ago...” Yu “Yeah yeah.” Crowd “Awww...” SND “Shut up with the aww..! Listen to what I have to say or else! At least just for now." Yu “We’ve traveled all over.” SND “We have.” Yu “Yeah yeah” SND “Then today was supposed to be the end of it.” Yu “Yeah yeah.” SND “I don’t know how to feel about this!!" Yu “Yeah yeah" SND “After this we’ve gotta go down south again" Yu “Yeah ….Yeah” SND “It’s not as like Osaka’s done anything wrongs but. We’re not an Osaka band y’know. That’s where the problem lies.” Yu “Yeah yeah.”

Yu “Since today was supposed to be the finale, let’s look back on our tour” SND "Kyoto’s Takutaku venue!" Yu “Ah, so we’re doin’ this one show at a time? Okay!" SND “Taku t’was fuckin’ hot. Hell itself.” Yu “From then forward we learned, to prop fans on the stage.” “The reason my T-shirt is fluttering right now is because of Takutaku.” The reason we have cool heads, is because of Takutaku." SND "My first show with the role of singing the whole from start to finish....and it was in THAT. It was like playing inside of a sauna.” Yu “I also hadn’t played real shows much prior.. Though ygarshy is off doing, whatever he's doing but! SND and I were brooding ‘Were they always this painful, this sweat-inducing?!?” So later I asked yg and even he said *Yu imitating yg's monotone voice* ’…….It was painful.’"

Yu “Then we went to Okayama," SND “It was so coool!” Yu “That was what concerts are supposed to feel like! We were relieved.”

SND "Then we went to Morioka, to Sendai, to Kobe, to Hiroshima, to Sapporo…" Yumao “Woooo~sh, wooo~sh!” *Imitating their map path with his finger* "to Shizuoka…"

Yumao “In.. Sendai! Something funny happened…! May I interrupt with a bit of a newsflash?" Crowd “Wooo!" Yu "This guy (SND) was awesome during Talkie Dance today wasn't he? He pumped us up, he was like “Dance now!!!!” “Dance y'all!!!" *battle cries* Right, he was awesome! Throughout the tour we've been finding cool stuff to do and implementing it more and more. But during Sendai he did something unusual in this regard, I don't consciously hear what he says live because I’m always concentrating on my drums, but this irked me. So on the car ride home I listened to that day's concert recording and.. SND had only sorta questioned the crowd “Have you possibly.. not danced enough…? Maybe..?” wwww. The beat was hype but he was just acting dumbwitted like "I wonder..?" www..  I burst out laughing hysterically in the car!! Like HAAAHAAHA!” SND “'The fuck, he’s laughing all of a sudden and I’m the reason?!?' I said back then.."

SND "When we were in Nagoya, the stage was underground but, it vibrated like crazy...." Yu "We'll be back to shake that place up again!!!"

Then Niigata, Kagoshima...

Yu "We were in Kagoshima when the typhoon hit Japan, so we were laying low inside, plus an earthquake hit at the same time, which caused Kagoshima's volcano to go KABOOM on top of everything else. Earth was going crazy!!!! I asked the local people about it because it was crazy and they just said 'This is normal. Today's a little more than usual huh~ But don't worry~’.

Then Fukuoka, Ebisu, Takamatsu, Osaka,

Yumao "Then between Kagoshima and Fukuoka, we stayed at a vacation cottage out in Aso, and I got so drunk that I was farting around. I hung from the beams of the cottage and gave ygarsh a spook when he walked out of the bathroom.. He was roaring with laughter from that whole stunt! He didn’t stop laughing either, he laughed as he chased down SND with fireworks too, onward to when SND and I were watching TV together. yga was finicking around on his bass behind us, it was only natural to assume he wasn’t watching - yet he came out of nowhere to say "That was funny” ...When was he watching?" SND "He's an unreadable man."

Yumao "Then Shinoda became a rock musician also." SND "What? Me?" Yumao "Yeah yeah" SND "Wait, I was something else all this time? I was just talking about how we’ve been doing this for 7 years.. Was I mistaken?!" Yumao “Well, you’ve been polishing yourself up even more all these years… Shinoda is someone who never shows up to an appointment late, but he did just recently. And when he finally showed up, he was reeeeking of alcohol. At 12 in the afternoon nonetheless! So I asked him when he was drinking until, and he said “10 o’ clock AM. What a rock musician, right!!!" SND "Not a hangover or nothing, I was an old man hanging out drunk,  present tense.” Yu “Then in the back of the car, the other old man who doesn’t normally talk was there whispering 'This smell…. It’s whisky… It’s kaku.. Highball… And he was drinking beer too… This is Kinmugi…. Which means….. Torikizoku.' SND “Deducing even down to the fucking place I drank at!" Yu "His eyes weren’t laughing but his mouth was. He was having fun wasn’t he. But.. the bar doesn’t even stay open until 10 AM!!! The facts don’t match!" SND “This guys fun moments in life are something unique alright." Yu “Then an hour later we heard a ‘hehe..’ from him, thinking about it again and giggling!" "Ahhh~~"

SND “Well that’s everything... There’s a lot of stuff I want to say… but… *sniffling* To put a long story short.. Don’t underestimate us!"

SND “This was the supposed finale for our Liquid tour-…. Liquid tour!???" *laughing* "Our Hitori-Escape tour... So ygarshy please give us some closure, to seal the deal! Ready..……!" yga *>>BWOON<<*

~~~~

QUEUE THE PUMP UP TAUNTS *Odoru Mannequin~~~* SND “Oh yeah, I have one question for y’all gathered here in Liquidroom! !!! Is there anybody here among the crowd who feels they haven’t danced enough! Crowd “WOOO!" "Is there!!!! Anybody who here who hasn’t danced enough!?!?!?" Crowd “WOOOOOO!" SND “...On bass ygarshy!" *solo~~~* SND “‘Everybody… one two.. One two three four!'"

~~~~~

Final words

SND “‘On bass ygarshy! On drums Yumao. Guitar, vocals: Shinoda. Music and vocals by wowaka…. Let’s meet again."

〜〜〜〜

SND tweet "Tokyo concert complete, thank you so much. Tokyo daisuki. Until next time." yga tweet "The amazing one is he who brought Yumao and Shinoda and I together, wowaka."

Comments from Hitorie’s comrades

Shibata of Wasurerannee yo.

“Hitorie, Liquidroom

Before they played Polaris I was under the impression “Ahh after a tour Hitorie have really moved on”, but the moment Polaris hit, I realized “No way in hell they have, it’s not something that simple”. I got goosebumps, and tears came down.

Tonight was a showpiece of caliber to be celebrated in the times to come.”

Kobayashi Doom, manga author and idol SND’s “Sup, Hitorie were great eh."

Hiroki, bassist of Lego Big Morl “That was wonderful. Hitorie."

Satifour of ONIGAWARA

”Hitorie were the best! Shinoda’s guitar playing proves itself amazing still! I was shook!! Plus my outfit matched with Kinta (frontman of Lego) so I had Hiroki take a picture of us, heart”’

((Hiroki pitching in: The light slashing stuff is my well-crafted handiwork.)) Satifour's artist career finds its roots Nagoya, right alongside Shinoda, Shiohigari, and cinemastaff’s Mishima. They've reunited for the Shiho anime recently as well (link) - Where ONIGAWARA wrote the ending song, and a bonus version with Shinoda playing guitar released too! The crew is back together! (song link)

Takuto Akizuki, guitarist of Kankaku Pierrot

“Hitorie were too good. They’ve got so much going on yet, They've braced through everything that’s been thrown at them, Honed themselves. And continued on for us, Thank you so much.”

Mika Arata, Hitorie’s manager

“An amazing show. Only two remaining In the tour‼️”

A bouquet sent from Passpied was displayed in the lobby, beside one from the television channel Space Shower, and...

 Katoh of Luck’A Inc, who works to lovingly craft their merchandise "Hitorie, thanks "

Hitorie’s cameraman’s son was spotted the VIP seats, and Yumao’s artist mother again too!

[lovemesomesurveys]

Do you feel comfortable wearing tube tops? Noooo. You’ll never see me in a tube top. I don’t even wear tank tops. Has something someone said today annoyed you? Not so far, ha. I haven’t interacted with anyone, yet. It’s only 4:33AM.  Can you hear the crickets chirping at night? No. Do you like listening to new music, or just sticking to your favorites? I like new music, but I do love listening to my good ol’ favorites. I have a playlist that consists of a variety of music, new and old, from various genres and decades, that I just click shuffle and listen.  So far, where have you been on vacation? I haven’t gone anywhere this year, yet. 

Did you ever feel that there was something you couldn't tell anyone? Yep. Old stuff and ongoing, current stuff. Do you tend to gossip, even if you don't mean it to cause harm? It does happen. I’ll see something on social media about someone I know and tell my mom or brother. Family gossip stuff. Not to talk shit, but it’ll be like, “omg did you see what so and so posted/did/whatever.” Or like if someone is pregnant or broke up or whatever.  My main gossip is celebrity stuff, though. ha. When was the last time you were bitten by a bug? I don’t recall. It’s been a long time, thankfully. Have you ever gotten your hair permed? No. Do you have a pair of sunglasses that are worth over $200? I don’t have any sunglasses. I don’t wear ‘em, but if I did I sure wouldn’t spend that much. Not anywhere close. Would you ever go on a trip to Europe? Absolutely. I’d love to. There’s so many places I’d love to visit. Are you brave when it comes to trying new foods? Nopeee. I have the same few foods I rotate between. It’s a small list. When was the last time you saw your significant other? I’m single. Is there a friend that you can always go to for advice? I can go to my mom. Have you ever been to a town/place where the people were just creepy? No. Ew, I hope I never go somewhere like that. What's the fastest you've ever driven in a car? I’ve never driven a car. If you see a piano, are you tempted to go over and play a little something? I would. Especially because it’s been over 10 years since I last played.  Is there someone you know who bakes amazing sweets? Yeah. Are you ashamed of your singing voice? I can’t sing for shit, but it doesn’t stop me from singing to myself or around my family. I try to sound as decent as I can, ha. I’m not like those people on American Idol they show that can’t sing well at all, but they think they can and they’re just on there wailing. lol. Has anyone teased you with the "K-I-S-S-I-N-G" song? Yeah. Have you ever had a dream where you could understand a foreign language? No. That would be weird. What time is it where you are? 4:45AM. Do you have anything important to do tomorrow? I have my Bible study stuff. Have you ever owned a beanbag chair? Yeah, when I was a kid we had one. If you own a laptop, do you have a case for it? I do. What was the last movie you purchased on DVD? I don’t even remember. I haven’t bought a physical DVD in yearssss.  Are you a fan of retro things? Yeah. Do you do your own laundry? No. I need help with that, which my mom does. Have you ever used pastels? Yes. Is there a song you're listening to at the moment? No. Would you be considered to be knowledgeable about World War 2? Not really. Have you ever been in possession of a hundred dollar bill? Yes. Is there one food you cannot give up, even though you know it's unhealthy? I don’t eat healthy at all, but the worst thing I eat is probably ramen. I love it, though.  Will you bother having a party for your next birthday? Nah, I’m old. I just like doing something lowkey with my parents and brother. Although, last year my aunt and cousin came over for a game night and cheesecake for my birthday and that was fun. I’d be up for that again. If you're with someone right now, do you think it will last? Who was the last person you flipped off? I have no idea. That’s not something I really do. Like, ever. Do you currently have a job? No. What was the last movie that was unable to capture your interest? Hmm. I don’t remember.  Have you heard of the Irish actor Jonathan Rhys Meyers? The name rings a bell. Do you have something to do, that you would rather not do? There’s a few things. Are you, in any way, feeling hopeless right now? I’ve felt that way for a long time. Is there someone you just need to call and talk to? No. I don’t like talking on the phone. Are you one of those people who can eat anything and not gain a pound? Yes. I used to like that about myself, but it’s a problem for me, currently. These past few years I’ve lost weight due to health stuff and as someone who was already thin...yeah, not good. It’s caused problems for me. Are you nails painted at the moment? No. It’s been a few years since I’ve painted my nails. Is there a song you've been listening to lately on repeat? There’s a few songs lately that I always like to listen when listening to music. I just hit shuffle on my playlist, but there’s a few I like to just add to queue to make sure they come up. Lately, it’s been a couple Billie Eilish songs. Do you know who you're planning to ask to your grad prom? I’m 30 years old. I did go to prom; though, but I didn’t have a date. I just went with friends. When was the last time you went shopping? A few weeks ago. Is there anyone who did something absolutely hilarious today? Not so far. Again, it’s really early and I haven’t interacted with anyone, yet.  Are you having one of those days where you feel unattractive? “one of those days” is everyday for me, old sport. I feel unattractive and I am unattractive.  Do you like hot dogs? No. Do you ever get bored of your music collection and get new songs? I like to check out new music and add it to my playlist to add to the rotation, but I love my old stuff, too. Have you ever bought a designer purse? I’ve been gifted one. What's the limit on how much you would pay for a shirt? I’d say like $30. I mean, I’d obviously prefer cheaper if I can find a good sale or have a good coupon, but if not then yeah about $30. Would you ever like to see the Walk of Fame? Sure. Is it currently humid where you are? No. Have you been in any sort of physical pain today? Of course. Have you ever heard of the German movie Das Boot? Nope. Who were the last people you hung out with? My mom and brother. Has someone ever called you "obnoxious"? Not that I’m aware of.  Most commonly, do you obey rules, or break them? I’m more of a rule follower. Do you like making funny faces in pictures? Nah. Is there something you look back on and go "I can't believe I did that"? A lot of things... Are you good at offering advice? I think I used to be. At least, my friends seemed to think so since I was the one they always came to for advice. I wouldn’t say I am now, though. No one should ask me anything. When was the last time you had to resort to a map? I just use Google Maps if I need directions. I’ve never used an actual map. Your significant other: have you told them you love them lately? What was the last thing to confuse you? Life. How many different colors have you dyed your hair? 3. Do you know someone who always spells "bored" like "board"? No. Are you wearing make up right now? No. I haven’t worn makeup in over a year. Is there a phrase that you use a lot? Words and phrases, yeah. Are you old enough to vote? I’ve been old enough to vote for over 10 years now. Do you have a favorite pair of earrings? Yes, the rose gold Minnie Mouse earrings I got for Christmas. Have you ever been to Disneyworld/Disneyland? I’ve been to Disneyland a few times. Have you dated someone more than twice? Not more than twice, but twice. Are you a fan of Keira Knightley? I’m indifferent.  Have you ever resorted to alcohol to make you feel better? It never helped. Maybe briefly, but it was always short lived. Do you own a full-length mirror? Yeah. Do you ever go on PerezHilton.com to get all the celeb gossip? I see his tweets. Have you heard about Mel Gibson's rant/freakout? Yeah. That was ages ago. Do you wish your bedroom was bigger? Yes, that would be nice. My room is quite small and I have too much stuff. Are you aware of the significance of the date April 14th, 1912? I am, actually. Do you ever just lay back and watch the stars? No. Lately have you had much time to relax? You would think so since I spend majority of my time at home in bed. I wouldn’t call it relaxing, though. Not for me. I have health stuff, physically and mentally, and feel like crap, so. Did anything important/changing happen to you in March 2009? That was over 10 years ago, I don’t remember. I guess nothing that important happened. Nothing memorable, at least. Have you ever felt like a "new person"? Yes, but not in a good way. These past few years have changed me and not for the better. Do you own any expensive jewelry? Yes. What size is your TV? 32 inch, I think. Do you occasionally creep on people on Facebook? Nah. I don’t spend a lot of time on Facebook and what little time I do spend I’m just scrolling through my feed “liking” stuff and sharing an occasional post. I won’t say that I’ve never done that, though. ha. Who hasn’t. Has there been someone in your life that just wouldn't leave you alone? Yeah, in the past.  Do you hate to use public bathrooms? Yes. I very rarely do. Do you find most remixes of songs to be good or bad? It really just depends. I’ve heard good ones and I’ve heard shitty ones. There have been some I liked better than the original. Write something to someone who means a lot to you: Nah. I’ll just say goodnight!

[stylesmyth]

FLOURISHED SUN

I take the marble staircase two steps at a time with Brandon on my heels. He begs for me to slow down, but with my father’s office doors in sight, I refuse. Without knocking, I barge in, using such a force that sends the large doors slamming into the walls they hinge on. It startles my father, who jerks his head towards me.

          “A curfew?!” I cry out.

          Brandon, just now catching up, nearly rams into me as he enters the room with momentum. “Miss Burrell,” he says formally. “Your father has asked to not be disturbed.”

          “It’s all right, Brandon,” my father assures, voice impeccably calm.

          I start again. “I mean, shutting down schools, I can understand! Not telling me there were twenty-three other deaths, I can excuse because it’s confidential. But a curfew? Really?!”

           He stands from his desk. “Yes, Delaney, really. Until everyone is medicated properly, I have to make sure there is as little contact as possible between the contagious and healthy.” He walks to me, words growing more heated by the second. “And as for the little stunt you pulled tonight. Leaving the house without permission? What were you thinking?!”

           “For Christ’s sake, I had Brandon there for protection!”

           “And I’m sure he agrees that, regardless, you were too close to that boy that you know damn well is sick.”

           My jaw tightens. “You told him about Ernie?” I ask, turning to Brandon.

           Father answers, “He called me from the diner before the speech, as he should have. And because you tricked him, and disobeyed my wishes, I’m putting you under house arrest.”

           “What?!”

           “The guard at the front gate has been informed of this decision, and Brandon is to stay here, around the clock until further notice, to ensure you pull no funny business like you did tonight.”

           I throw my arms up. “What is so wrong with wanting to see him one la—”

           “Delaney!” he raises his voice. “We will not be discussing this any further in the company of a guest!”

           At those words, I peer over my father’s shoulder. Sure enough, a man that looks vaguely familiar—perhaps I’ve seen him at dinner parties or public events—sits in one of the two chairs placed in front of the desk, watching the whole ordeal.

           The man rises from his chair. “Please, Samuel, do not stop on my account. The work day is technically over, and family matters must be...attended to, nonetheless,” he says in a deliberate tone. “But, if I may introduce myself, I am Zachary Masters—”

           I interrupt him, now knowing how I recognize him. “Parliament member, and the man who will be appointed Interim Leader if anything were to...happen to my father.”

           We’ve been at several occasions, in many of the same rooms, but I’ve never been formally introduced to him—if one could even call this a formal introduction. He was always with other government officials, whilst I grouped with several other daughters and sons of those officials. From far away, he looked kind, his greying hair gave him a grandfatherly vibe. Now as we stand with closer proximity, and I can feel the full force of his dark eyes upon me, I almost want to coward away, even if his gaze isn’t intentional. But this isn’t about him, and I can’t lose what spite I have towards my father so easily.

           The room grows strangely quiet in the vocalisation of my words. Zachary takes to looking at his shoes as I turn to my father, who avoids my gaze. It lasts for a moment, before a ring of a telephone on my father’s desk sounds. He’s sighs, glancing at Zachary before turning to attend to the phone call.

           Father attempts to answer the call in a hushed tone as I focus once more on Zachary.

           “So, what are you doing here?” I cross my arms in front of my chest. “Is there something he’s not telling me?”

           Zachary senses the hesitation in my question. “Oh, no, no! There is nothing wrong with your father, I can assure you. No, I am simply here to assist Samuel in some work.”

          “What kind of work?”

          He pauses, and I can see the debate with himself to answer or avoid me. “Well, we’ve been in contact with America—their labs, the embassy, Congress, even the President—pretty much nonstop for the last day. We’re are trying to find the origins of the virus, and what the best way to distribute the medicine is. Basically, just where to go from here, with what we know.”

          “And what do you know?” I ask.

          He grins. “I’m sure you understand why I cannot disclose that information, Miss Burrell.”

***

           friday night

Delaney: brandon told my dad i saw you tonight

              he put me on house arrest

 Ernie: wtf

            Why would he do that?

 Delaney: i didn’t tell Brandon that you were gonna be at the diner

 Ernie: why not?

 Delaney: I’m not technically supposed to see you whilst you’re still sick

 Ernie: Delaney!

 Delaney: what?! I wanted to see you and just have a nice night

 Ernie: but something could’ve happened

            u could be sick

 Delaney: i could be sick regardless

                I’ll just get the medication like everyone else on Monday and everything will be fine

 Ernie: can I call you, or facetime?

 Delaney: not unless you want brandon to hear everything we say

                He’s “posted” outside my room and my door “must remain open unless I’m changing”

 Ernie: sigh

            I guess i won’t be able to see your pretty face for a while then, huh

 Delaney: you’re a dork

                but sadly no

 Ernie: you like this dork

 Delaney: hmmmmm

                Perhaps

 saturday

 Delaney: i feel like i might go stir crazy if i have to sit in my room for the rest of the weekend

              Avoiding food>getting another lecture

Ernie: [imaged attached]

           you could look at this instead :*

 monday

 Ernie: [imaged attached]

          Look at this queue outside of Boots

            We’ll be here for hours

 Delaney: is there nowhere else a little less crowded?

 Ernie: nope all the same

            A lot more people than i thought need this stuff too

 Delaney: well let me know when you get towards the front

 Ernie: hopefully it won’t take too long

           I’m not feeling very well and Ty is noticing

 Delaney: please stay safe <3 keep me updated

 tuesday

 Delaney: hey

                I hate being that girlfriend that keeps tabs on you

   But you didn’t text me back yesterday

                Is everything okay? Are you feeling better?

 Ernie: hey, sorry about that

            It was a long da y

            did u get the meds???

 Delaney: yeah, dad brought home some of the pills instead of the injections

                But are you sure you’re okay?

                We never use text slang with each other

 Ernie: i cant starw at the scrreen to long

           I think a symptom of gettn the shot is migrains

 wednesday

Delaney: how are you feeling today?                              

Delaney: You might still have a migraine so maybe that’s why you aren’t answering

                If you get a chance to read this, though, just let me know you’re okay

 Delaney: please answer my texts, Ernie

               It’s worrying me sick to not hear from you

 thursday

 Ernie: delaney

 Delaney: thank God you finally answered

                I’ve been pacing around all day

                Are you okay

                Is everything alright

 Ernie: the medicine isn’t working

           Ty didn’t make it

          And I don’t feel so good

 ***

          I will for the words on the screen to change. Maybe if I stare at them long enough, the letters will shift, and he’ll be telling me that all is well. The medicine is working. Everyone is healthy. Ty is not dead.

          Ty is not dead.

          He can’t be. He was feeling better last week. If Ty was feeling better, that means everyone else sick would feel better, too. They have to feel better. They can’t die.

          Ernie can’t die.

          When I was old enough ask my dad about my mum, I also asked why he didn’t remarry. He told me that, after her death, he was in a state of shock, and then grief struck, followed by a period of depression. He said it was the worst time of his life. He knew, that even after losing my mum, he couldn’t remarry. His grief was as large as love, and he knew he’d never love someone else that same way.

          I understand the first feeling of shock now.

          The difference between him and me, though, is that I have a warning. My shock comes before any loss, and it’s crippling.

          But there’s one thing on my mind: I am getting out of here.

          No tears have formed, but when I call, “Brandon,” there’s a notable shake in my voice.

          Through what little open space there is in my door, he responds, “Yes, Miss Burrell?”

          “Could you please shut the door, I’m going to change. And then, I’ll go to bed.”

          It’s fairly dark outside, so I know Brandon will believe my lie, thinking that I’m getting ready for bed. I wait just a few seconds to run on tiptoes to my window. My bedroom is on the first floor, overlooking the road to the house’s front door, where Brandon would always drop me off. Where the reporters once stood across the street. As I push up the window, I see no one on the street at all.

          Thankfully, on the ground floor, below my bedroom, there is an alcove that juts out from the house, allowing a small roof just outside my window. I do not bother shutting my window as I step outside. Brandon won’t check my room for the rest of the night, thinking I’m asleep, so I keep it open to sneak back in the morning.

          The distance from the ledge to the ground isn’t far. I sit down with my legs over the edge, and then slowly twist around, so my front is against the blue bricks as I hang on with what very little upper body strength I have. Then I let go.

          With bent knees, my feet hit the green ground quickly. I catch myself from falling over into the damp grass, but waste no time in surveying the area once more. The easiest way to get to Mayfair, where Ernie lives, is the back streets. Last I saw, and heard from Dad, there’s only one guard on the perimeter, and he’s at the gates in the front.

          I start to run in the opposite direction.

***

           Ernie’s mum answers the door after three rounds of persistent knocking. She’s wearing a bathrobe, likely never having changed from it this morning, and her brown hair looks unkempt. In one hand is a box of tissues, and in the other, a balled-up tissue that she raises to her reddening nose before speaking.

           “Delaney, what are you doing here?” she asks, mouth hanging open at the sight of me.

           Tears that were kept back as I ran appear suddenly, clouding my vision.  “I heard about Ty.” My voice trembles. “Ernie told me. And I am so sorry, I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now. But can I please see him? I need to see Ernie, please.”

           She looks hesitant at first. We both know what allowing me inside means; the medicine doesn’t work, and anyone who steps across the threshold is going to be, at the very least, exposed. But after studying my pleading eyes and dejected form, how desperately I need to see Ernie regardless of the consequences, her elbow nudges the door open. I thank her profusely, stepping by her to get inside, ready to dash to Ernie’s room. The low sound of Mrs. Winland calling my name again stops me.

           When I turn towards her, she nods and says, “Make it count.”

           She walks into a different room, leaving me with her vague instructions. It’s not hard to connect the dots, though.

           With Ernie.

           Make it count with Ernie.

           With that, I start down the hallway to his room. Family portraits and school photos, even Ty’s drawings, hang along the walls, but I don’t look at them. I can’t bare the think that the little boy will only remain in the photographs and the art he created, forever immortalised behind a piece of glass and four cornered frames. I can’t even bring myself to think about looking at the older boy in the pictures, so I keep my head down until I reach his door and push through without delay.

           He doesn’t hear me come in. He also doesn’t hear the small click the door makes as it closes behind me. I begin to wonder if he’s asleep, but as I move around his bed, wading between the piles of clothes on the floor which were never there before, I see his eyes are open and looking out the window next on the parallel wall.

           “Ernie?”

           He suddenly snaps to attention. When he sent me a cheeky selfie last Saturday, I thought he looked a little worse for wear than he did the previous night I saw him. But, as I watch him now, I can see the sheen of sweat covering his sinking facial features. His skin is paler, which is saying a lot for someone who lives in a city that receives very little sun to begin with. Even from my distance, I can see a notable change in his irises; a few off-white spots have appeared close to the edge of them, standing out against the brown colour.

           I lose all words. I’m not even sure if I had any coming in.

           He shifts under his pile of blankets, no doubt the source of his sweating, but I can also make out the slight shivering to his body. “De...What are you doing here?” he asks with a hoarse voice.

           I sob.

           “I had to come see you,” I force out. “I’m not going to let you be alone when you said you weren’t feeling well.”

           He frowns. “I-I said that?”

           Ernie poses the question more for himself than me. I walk closer, sitting down on the edge of his bed. “It doesn’t matter anymore. I’m here now, and I’ll be here. With you.”

           “No…” He starts to shake his head. “No, but you shouldn’t be here. Y-you could get sick. No, no, no.”

           As if to prove it, he begins to cough.

           “I don’t care anymore,” I stress. “I could already be sick and just not know! But I do know that I am going to stay beside you, regardless of any virus, or parents, or the fucking rapture!”

           He looks over my shoulder, eyes going out of focus like he’s daydreaming. When he glances at me again, he asks, “Why are you crying?”

           It only makes me cry more. “Because I love you, damn it.”

           These words aren’t a revelation. We said them for the first time a few months ago, but only sparingly since then. For the special occasions or moments when we were caught up in each other. We never take the words lightly, and always cherish them greatly.

           Make it count.

           Ernie’s frown grows in confusion. “You shouldn’t be crying because you love me.”

           “My grief is as great as my love,” I whisper. “And I haven’t even lost you yet.”

           He doesn’t seem to have heard my words, his attention is back to the window. I stare at it with him, willing myself to calm down at least a little. There’s nothing outside of his window except the view of another building, but having something to focus on helps for the moment. Ernie coughs at times, and at one point, I feel him shift until his hand is free from the confiding blankets, reaching for mine. It’s a small comfort to know that, whilst it seems his mind is somewhere else completely, he’s still present in some form.

           Eventually, he speaks again. “Do you want to lay down?”

           Make it count.

           “I want to kiss you.”

           I don’t think it’s what he expected me to say from the look on his face, a look reminds me of the healthy Ernie. He says with a small smirk, “We could do both.”

           I laugh. I am actually able to laugh in such a moment, after a week of feeling like I’d never laugh again.

           So, caution is completely stranded on the side of the road as I lay down on his right side, on top of his mounds of blankets. And I set an alarm for five in the morning, early enough to run back home before anyone else wakes up. And I kiss Ernie, because I want to make everything count.

           And I wait for morning, praying it will never come.