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Beatport Weekend Picks 26 (July 2022)

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DATA CREATED: 2022-07-04 TOTAL: 78 GENRE: House, Tech House, Afro House, Jackin House, Deep House, Soulful House, Funky House, Organic House / Downtempo, Progressive House, Nu Disco / Disco, Melodic House & Techno, Techno (Raw / Deep / Hypnotic), Techno (Peak Time / Driving), Dance / Electro Pop, Indie Dance

A Moon Away - Eli Nissan

Années Folles Deborah Aime La Bagarre, Herr Krank

Apes On Acid - Original Mix - The Reason Y

Basal 1 Truncate

Beyond Redemption - Original Mix Vågh

Break The Rules - Ezequiel G

Brown Eyes - RSquared

Bumble What - Francesco V

Chakruna Ego Dissolve

Controlled Chaos Sidney Charles

Da Fonk (feat. Joni) - Mochakk, Joni

Darkness Avoider Sam Kitt

Deep Clouds - Max Marinacci

Deep Focus - Original Mix Risa Taniguchi, Yigitoglu

Dirty Mochyn Harrison BDP

Don't Wanna Try It Felipe Gordon, Bob The Egoist

Dry & High Sasha, Qrion

ESP Black Sun Empire, State of Mind

Ecuador - AMPISH

Exposure - Extended Mix Lex Luca

Feel the Bass - Original Mix Ziger

Flying Octopus Reinier Zonneveld, HI-LO, Oliver Heldens

Foreign Language (feat. Jess) [Riva Starr Turbo Disco Remix] Flight Facilities, Jess, Riva Starr

GoalPurpose - bendrik

Got To Do Baccus

Hidden Peak Annett Gapstream, Daniele Di Martino

High Bridge Sina Bathaie

Hollywood Collé, Ariaano

Howling - Original Mix Stiv Hey

I Feel A Storm - Raito Rmx - T78, Frankie Bones, Raito

In The Dark - Aeroplane Remix - Purple Disco Machine, Sophie and the Giants, Aeroplane

Insanity Menog

Intensity Fluctuations - Setaoc Mass remix Ø [Phase], Sam Coates

Je Suis Chris Whittaker

Jungle Deep - Extended Mix Kokoro Disco-San

Levitation - Supacooks

Love Games - Biesmans Remix - Schmutz (BE), Biesmans

Lurandi Metro Dade

M.M.M Black Fancy

Mambo Jambo - Space Motion, Stylo, Joezi, Idd Aziz

Medidate - Original Mix Nuendo

Nara - Extended Mix - Calussa

New Moon - Doctor Dru

No Stoppin' Black Fancy

No Time for Tears - Birds of Mind

Not Even Close - Original Mix Risa Taniguchi, Yigitoglu

November Rain D-Formation, Lonya

One More Tune - Melodymann

Remedy - I.C.U

Return To Sender - TI, Trex

Roses Are Black - Kadhem

Roxy's Sweat - Original Mix - Franky Rizardo

Roy Layers - Jamie 326, Danou P

Sandcastles - Kadosh, Johannes Albert, Abrão

Saturn - Morttagua Remix - Flow & Zeo, Morttagua

Shadow - Godlands Remix - Boombox Cartel, Moody Good, Godlands, Calivania

Simonelli Freestyle Man

Spaceglide - Extended Mix - Stoneface & Terminal, SinSonic

Spoiler Boom Adrian Hour

Subterranean Glowstick Blues - Audioglider

Summer In The City Sidney Charles

Sunshine - JKriv Beach Burn Mix - Kokoro Disco-San, Clara Gispert, JKriv

Surrounded By Neighbours Luke Vibert

Swerve - Original Anthony Naples

Tactic - Pfirter

The Rite Hyenah, Ernesto & The Basement Gospel

The Sample (Hijack Remix) - Kyle Watson, Hijack

Think About Me Azifm, Scout

Travel to the Unknown - Julian Nates Remix Lio Q, Nicolas Leonelli, Julian Nates

Tuko Tuko Lee Foss, Paskman

Ubi - Musumeci Waterfloor Mix Mia Mendi, Thomas Gandey, Musumeci

We Don’t Need - Piero Pirupa, Ben Kim & Samuele Scelfo present After Mars Remix Piero Pirupa, Samuel

Wedance Drumcomplex, Dr. Motte

White Nights Weekend Heroes, Cadillac Express

Wilderness - Tim Cant

With You S.P.Y

You and the Beat Dompe

Your Love - Extended Club Mix Hyenah, Nanghiti Aviankoi

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transrightsjimin · 5 years

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i kinda need to work through my hateful attitude towards complicted r seemingly boring things i hate bc i don’t understand them, but i’m petty and i just get some sort of kick out of thinking ‘shut the fuck up’ when i see smth abt nerd stuff or worse, hear ppl talk abt it irl

#i used to have this w sports as a kid #which i still hate esp since my family is so disappointed tht i dont do a sport and am fat and lazy yadiya #but now i mainly hate nerd stuff like v*deo g*mes and d*ng**ns *nd dr*g*ns #partially bc it reminds me of someone i used to think i liked but i didnt and i have an uncomfortable memory of her #partially bc i just Dont understand this shit like its so far removed from me yet at the same time my interests nd ppl i follow often #deal w these interersts so i see it pass by a lot and it's kinda like w my desinterest in america like the more i unwillingly hear abt it #the more i hate it #also i hate it partially bc i was scared of video games ever since i was a kid like i saw my brother play fucking mario on his gameboy and #i thought it was so intimidating and scary like How does he know how this works how do u just Take That Step #to do something as foreign as video games #and at a bday party as a kid they played spyro and found it weird i didnt know how to hold the controls thingy like it was so complicated #though again they were boys like nerd stuff isnt as popular among girls at all #but as for nerd stuff overall i think i just rly hate it the most bc its so associated w being autistic #and i still see it as a negative thing even though i try to accept my autistic self #but i hate nerd culture nd i hate nerd content nd i hate anything thats just for the type of ppl i dont want to be associated with #but not understanding this stuff and refusing to plays a huge part too #rambles #kpop talks

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unbidden-yidden · 2 years

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Hiya, your pinned post said to introduce if you’re a new follower -

I followed after seeing you had liked my response on that insanely long Catholic post. I appreciated the takes you had earlier in that chain and the nuanced view of religion that wasn't based in proselytizing. Also mad appreciation for other observant queer folk esp observant nonbinary people.

And I feel like I should probably say this out the gate even though it's obvious - but I am Catholic.

I have a deep respect for the Jewish faith and people. (As much as I can from the outside of course, and without belaboring you with too much backstory) Where I live the shared view of Catholics here is that Catholicism and Judaism share a familial connection of faith through shared beliefs and value of tradition, and should be loved and respected as family. I'm aware that can be a loaded viewpoint, and I'm not trying to be weird, but like, I'm super interested in hearing more of your theology points, and I have -1000 interest in debating 'what religion is correct' nonsense or trying to convert or preach. That's a waste of everyone's time and an incredible disrespect to the followers of beautiful religions several millenia old.

My issues where I jump in are with people misrepresenting and twisting Catholicism and evangelicals/fundamentalists trying to spread hate and division, because that's definitely not what God is about. By the same token I also have a really deep knowledge of the Catholic catechism, and while I stay off like, joke questions and posts, when someone's looking for the actual canon answer I'm super happy to share it or give resources to find it.

All that aside 95% of what I post isn't religious and like I said, super excited to hear your takes, and if you have anything you want to say to me re:above or if you'd rather I DNI, lmk, or if you ever need to @ a Catholic for a take on something I'd be glad to toss in info. :)

Hope you're having a great week :)

Hi!! You are definitely welcome here and honestly this message really warmed my heart. I very much appreciate your approach as well, and am fascinated by comparative religion.

That said, while I am absolutely working on speaking in a way that is more compassionate and am trying to be someone who can do good interfaith dialog, I can definitely have some, er, strident strong takes on some Xtian things, as I was raised Xtian and converted to Judaism as an adult. I would encourage you to check out my "every hour is theology hour around here apparently" tag to make sure it's not going to be too much/upsetting for you since it can be a lot.

Bottom line is that there are two strong impulses in me that both are (and on some level are also not) in conflict with one another: I have very strong opinions and critiques of Xtianity having left it for cause, and seeing all of the damage it has caused throughout history and unfortunately the people (mis)using it in the present, especially (but far from exclusively) with regards to antisemitism. And on the other hand, I've also seen it give people new life and hope and be a light in the darkness, and be a way that some folks profoundly connect to the Divine. And I genuinely believe that no tradition has a monopoly on truth; rather, I think that G-d wants to be in relationship with humanity, and will speak to us in whatever voice we're most likely to hear. For me that's Judaism, for you, that's Catholicism, and honestly? I think that's great. Who am I to judge anyone else's relationship to G-d and who am I to think I've found the one singular and only truth of the universe?

All of that is true for me all at the same time, and so I absolutely welcome you to stay and would love to be in dialogue with you as well. But I can also see how that could be challenging and give someone who is not me whiplash, so I just wanted to give you a heads up.

tl;dr: You are totally welcome to stay, with the understanding that I am frequently a Bitter Jew(tm) on main with strong opinions, but I also do care deeply about positive interfaith dialogue when the chips are down and am fascinated with comparative religion.

Also re: other observant religious queer, trans and/or non-binary folks - agreed! I hope you are having a nice week as well, and right back at you re: if you need to @ someone about Judaism.

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lichfucker · 3 years

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i would love to hear about why all of the ted lasso characters would fail survivor but especially rebecca

hhh ALL of them... okay the vast majority of the players can be explained away with just "physical prowess enough to make them a threat in individual challenges but dumb as bricks and would not be able to strategize themselves out of a bad spot"

this is abt to get long lmao so I'm putting individual ppl under the cut

nate is the most obvious first boot I honestly feel bad about it. bumbling, socially awkward, has NO idea how to assert himself without being an asshole about it (in the rare instances when he does assert himself at all), and even if he's smart enough to be a great strategist (which he absolutely IS), he can't convey it well enough to convince his tribe to overlook his (probable) lack of challenge ability. most of the time, people don't want to draw harsh lines in the sand on the very first vote so they can pretend everyone's getting along and still friends, so nate would be a sort of freebie vote that it'd be easy to agree on.

beard is too much of a follower. what ted says to dr sharon abt him is, "that man has had many lives, many masters." he's very comfortable being led by people with stronger personalities, and even when he disagrees with their calls he will still execute them like a perfect little lackey. the thing about beard is that I think he'd go VERY far in a season of survivor! I think he could EASILY make it all the way to the end! but I just don't think he can WIN. he's genius-level intelligent and SO strategically savvy, but more than that he is fiercely loyal. he'll attach himself to the right person (or the wrong person, as it were), and even if he is whispering in that person's ear all the way through, he would be TOO content to let them take all the credit, he wouldn't push back against them if they disagree with his plans and make a lesser move instead (the whole beginning of 'beard after hours' is him berating himself for not standing up and making the hard calls even when he knew they'd be better), he wouldn't turn around and slit that person's throat at the end to further his own game, and he would make himself socially impenetrable to everyone else. nobody could get close to him, nobody could like or understand him, he'd probably be seen as good collateral if the opposition couldn't strike directly at whomever beard works with, and if he DOES make it to final tribal, I think he'd have a very difficult time convincing the jury that he deserves the credit and the limelight. he wants to win, I just don't think he believes he deserves to.

ted and roy actually would have the exact same problem, which is "physically and strategically competent, but so FUCKING ANNOYING to live with that they get booted for the sake of tribal quality of life." roy would isolate himself socially with his aggression, and ted...

ted is the antithesis of what a "good survivor player" ought to be, which I actually think could work to his advantage in a number of ways? like I think more typical players would find him incredibly unpredictable because he's sharp enough to see what the best moves are, but generous and self-sacrificing enough not to make them. like, there's a reason he's a coach and not a player. there's a reason he says that he doesn't measure success in wins and losses. if he could survive the first few votes, his social game would be AMAZING-- the entire first season of the show is about him wearing rebecca down through the sheer magnitude of his friendship! lesser survivor players would be so endeared to him that they couldn't fathom voting him off, but they're the ones who are getting picked off in his stead. moderately savvy survivor players would not trust a single word out of ted lasso's mouth; there's no fucking way a man can be this kind and this sincere, not on survivor, it's just not possible, he must be plotting something MASSIVE, we have to strike first before he gets his chance. and the truly brilliant survivor players would realize that he IS genuine, he IS sincere, he IS loyal and giving to his core, and that's DANGEROUS. you can't let someone like that make it to the end or they'll take your million dollars. best to shut it down at the jump.

and above all that, I just think that ted... ted would thrive in the pre-merge, in the tribal portion of the game, he's SO team-oriented, but post-merge, in the individual game... perhaps if he had a solid alliance he could also feel that way about, then it might suit his temperament, but ultimately I think he just. wouldn't want it badly enough. I just think the significant majority of people would be vastly more self-interested than ted would be, so they'd take the shot first.

higgins is an interesting midpoint between all three of nate, beard, and ted, in that he's a henchman through and through even when he disagrees with his boss, he's a pushover who'd be seen as a liability in physical challenges in the early game, and he's off-puttingly friendly and polite to the point that nobody would trust that he's being sincere even though he absolutely is. early boot, maybe second or third.

maybe it's just because I've got cook islands on the brain, but jamie (esp season 1 jamie but like. season 2 as well lmao) would play A LOT like early ozzy. an arrogant wonder-boy who's good at everything (did you know there's literally a survivor casting archetype called the "amazing ace"?), with a heart-wrenching underdog story (playing for richmond, that is), an absolute beast in challenges, a huge threat but always immune, he'd win his way to the end but ultimately be beaten out in final tribal by someone smart enough to have dragged him along as their meat shield the whole game.

and as for rebecca... g-d. this one I think hurts me the most because she has everything going for her, she doesn't have a single one of the problems I've listed for anyone else, but I do genuinely believe that rebecca still loses. she's strong and she's smart and she's assertive and she's ruthless and she's sociable and she's a great liar and she's ambitious and she's ADAPTIBLE (she immediately bounces back after not getting the sun to run the photo of ted and keeley and comes up with an alternate plan that will still serve her own endgame, and by g-d being able to roll with the punches and change course is the single most important thing a survivor player can do), but rebecca still loses.

even if we set aside the fact that survivor on the whole is not particularly kind to women over 40... season 1 rebecca, especially early season 1 rebecca, is spite-motivated to the point of self-destruction. she will set her sights on one target and she will be relentless in her effort to get that person out and it'll make her so myopic that she won't see her own end coming immediately afterwards. nobody on that tribe wants to be her next victim-- better get rid of her once she's proven what she's capable of.

she's also dreadfully insecure in the wake of her divorce and when her polished veneer cracks enough to let it show (how many days of being rained on do we think it'll take for her to slip? my guess is five), some people will see it as the vulnerability that finally allows them to connect with her on a human level, while others will see it as a threatening endgame storyline and an exploitable weakness.

there are some juries, particularly old-school juries, that wouldn't vote for her in the end purely based on the fact that a million dollars is just a drop in the bucket to a woman like rebecca mannion welton. that would be a real shame, and a disservice to the game she would have had to play just to make it that far.

what's more likely than that, though, in my opinion, is that rebecca... loses the drive to win. I think that somewhere along the way survivor stops being a game that she is playing, stops being a competition, and instead becomes a journey of personal growth through adversity. I think she, like ted, stops measuring her success in wins and losses. I think she proves herself more capable and resilient than she ever thought she could be, and that is worth more to her than the money or the title of sole survivor, and she stops fighting for it. and maybe the jury admires that, and gives it to her anyway, rewards her transformation. or maybe they don't. maybe they view it as a concession, a forfeit. but I'm not certain that that moment of revelation happens at the final tribal council. I think it happens just before. I think it happens after the final immunity challenge, and she tearfully and valiantly allows herself to be voted out just inches from the finish line. I think rebecca is the fallen angel of the season, and she goes off to the jury with her head held high, which is nice, and so very noble of her, and the fans would be DYING to have her play again but she wouldn't, because she'll have gotten everything she could have wanted out of her survivor experience, and she doesn't need the crown on top of it.

I think rebecca COULD win. she just WON'T.

#jockjamsandjellies #thanks jack #bluh bluh #honestly I'm a little tipsy and this hurt me to write #rebecca's arc in the show of her becoming a better person is literally an arc of her becoming a worse survivor player #and that's not to say that it's impossible for someone who's kind and honest and open-hearted to win survivor!!#bc plenty of those people have!#it's just that... I think she'd end up pulling a rafe in guatemala and valiantly falling on the sword right at the end for NO REASON #when victory was otherwise all but guaranteed!#also I didn't mention ted's panic attacks at all because I do not believe they would matter lmao I've seen multiple seasons #where people had panic attacks during challenges that they weren't even participating in #and then those people made it all the way to final tribal and one of them even won #survivor #ted lasso

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icharchivist · 3 years

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this is actually bewildering how despite how little my mom and i manage to talk or connect with one another, when our interests end up crossing it end up crossing in the most bonkers way possible.

anyway under cut mention of ob//ey me and huh. Discussion of religions that probably qualify as heresy and probably would upset very religious people. (??? i’m not really sure but just in case.) consider yourself warned i guess?

Anyway this post have another degree off hilarity if you follow me for long enough to know about my mom and similar situations before.

As i mentioned, don’t get along with her, bad emotional bagage yadayadayada, but she is the reason i ended up caring this much about history and how much we overread and discuss on some topics, especially those concerning the Bi//ble and stuff. (disclaimer: she’s je//wish, my father insisted on giving me a ca//tholic education, but my mom always insisted on some readings and stuff, and idk what i am nowadays but neither my mom and i are religious if it makes sense, but we did study the topic in depth.)

but i am a fiction person first, though when a fiction i like is based on some historical stuff i often end up digging there.

Which led to bonkers situation in the past where, say, when i was obsessed over d//gm was the time my mom kept watching stuff about APOCRYPHS like YEAH SURE. Then dr//agon age, turNS OUT it was when my mom was watching documentaries about templars ALL THE TIME. THEN when i got obsessed with g//bf because of Percival, it was when my mom was OBSESSED about Arthurian documentaries and i would often walk in the living to hear her go through those. And, ofc, religionwise, the fact my mom has a fascination with the Sumerians and the Arcadians, and have been studying and watching about Canaan and its culture for years, which also coincide with the time period i was deep into w///mtsb. Canaan being the place most myth around Lucifer, or as he was called, Helel Ben Shahar, originated from Canaanite religions (esp Ugarit’s), and is also the place that saw the importance of Ba’al ie Beelzebub grow before the hebraic religion took hold of it. Basically the long story short is that a lot of the mythos found in the To//rah is inspired by the myths from those regions that were lost to the time and it’s often why the deity from those regions are now the names of popular demons. (if you’re into g///bf : ofc Lucifer and Bubs should be a telling, Sahar is Lucio as you know, Canaan was the place Lucifer lived in.)

aND LET ME BE CLEAR this is COMPLETELY accidental, i never talk to her about stuff i like (she doesn’t listen anyway), and when she ends up discussing those with me i’m already in an hyperfixation that match accidentally. idk how we have THIS as a timing OUT OF ANYTHING ELSE.

This is like. My normal life okay. Anyway it’s actually not unusual for us to discuss Canaan’s mythos when we see each other, since well we both made researches about it, let’s go. “Canaan is actually the most common discussion topic i have with my mom that isn’t tainted by personal trauma” top ten bewildering sentence but that’s my life let’s go.

Another important piece of setting, we were eating at a restaurent (my country banned the possibility to go on restaurent without a proof you’re vaccinated so we were safe just so it’s clear)

So, we were at dinner discussing Canaan on my birthday LIKE ONE DOES, and look. I at least AM prepared for my mom to go on tangente about Beelzebub. While it came out of nowhere, i am not surprised my mom started to talk about the inspiration behind Satan in the middle of the dinner.

what i didn’t expect was her suddenly going “and of course here we have Asmodé. Do you know who Asmodé is?”

me, stupid: “this is awfully familiar why do i know who Asmodé is. Well if it’s linked to Canaan his name must have become one of a demon so i must know an Asmo---”

and suddenly i froze. and i started laughing. like a fucking moron.

Meanwhile my mom “well you know Asmodé actually was the king of said country who-”

“Who opposed King Solomon yeah? yeah. yeah i know.”

“Exactly, so you know who is Asmodé.”

and then i bursted into laughing and i had to explain to my mom about the fucking dating app. I had to explain it to my mom.

“I didn’t recognize Asmodé right away because i’m used to his english name, Asmodeus. And yeah i know him he called me this morning on my fucking app to wish me a happy birthday.”

at least it made my mom laugh as well.

I mentioned to her who were the seven brothers and i love. That when i said “and ofc Belphegor and Beelzebub”

My mom still unaware: “ oh yeah!! the two who are based on Baal! Baal Phégor and Baal-Zebub who are based on the same divinity and why those two demons were associated with the cult of Baal.”

Me still holding a laughter “yeah they’re twins in game.”

My mom: “AS THEY SHOULD BE.”

My mom NEVER listens to me talk about the fiction i like unless it’s connected to something she likes like that (bc then it means she can go “since it’s like that in your fiction DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THIS-” and tangente back on the legends and stuff)

Anyway so the thing is that we went deeper into this conversation, as one does, so we talked in depth, as usual, about Satan, Beelzebub, Asmodeus, L I K E O N E D O ES.

And halfway through the mean i suddenly realized that the people on the table next to us, who i noticed were speaking english to start with though they understood french just fine, had been looking at us awkwardly for a long time. The woman especially was looking at me very weirdly.

It took me a few minutes to realize that they probably overheard us talk about demons the entire time and that i totally mentioned to my mom “so i have this dating app where i can date Lucifer, Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, Beelzebub and Belphegor”, a totally fucking normal conversation. That i don’t know if they understood everything we were saying bc we talk so fucking fast to start with, and also the fact i worry bc while it’s ofc you can run into religious french people, english speaking people tend to be more religious and in my experience? know much more demon names than the average french religious person. SO THIS WAS AWKARD.

SO. What the fuck do i even do with this. What the fuck do i even DO WITH ALL OF THIS.

And like i said i’m actually used about us talking about Canaan and i legit wouldn’t have connected the dots if she just talked about Beelzebub, i’m used to him, it’s Satan that destabilized me because my mom brought him up when we were talking about Seth, the Egyptian god (and the irony that Mankind is the “descendant of Seth” by the To//rah, and we were talking about how Seth (Egyptian) was associated to “Baal” and then my mom so proudly went “and then, because of that, Set, known also as Sutek => Satan” and i had to keep a sTRAIGHT FACE as if my first thought wasn’t “yes the guy i want to kiss all the time, continue.”) and then it’s Asmodeus that made me lose my damn shit, and i’m also realizing the absolute irony that i was listening to the ob//ey me songs while coming to join my mom for dinner to start with.

I was totally prepared about a conversation about Canaan, that’s my mom’s hyperfixation let’s say. I didn’t expect that it’d come with “sudden realization that just like those others times where our interests crossed, this is happening again over this dating app i play with”

I legit don’t know what to say more i’ve been laughing none stop since i came back home. My normal i guess.

#ichatalks #ichatalks about obm #hi this is another regular icha brand of fuckery because of course it is #sorry i'm losing my mind over this #and sorry for the disclaimer about religion but there is. so many level of weird fuckery going on with my convos with my mom #that i legit don't know how normal religious people would just react to this rabbit hole #aNYWAY.

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derangedhyena-zoids · 2 years

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as much shit as G-file gets as an episode, because it’s a clip-ep, it pretty firmly establishes anime-canon in its review (LET’S JUST IGNORE THE UNRESOLVED CLIFFHANGER ON THE END OF THAT EP. +15 question marks) even more relevant to my shitshow, is that the review’s being done by Dr. D so it’s like. here’s what everyone there knows/knew. And a pretty good baseline for what D knows, too. this is some nerdy bullshit musing so feel free to like. not read. idk. I honestly don’t know what level of care one would have to possess to be as into this HC as I am personally, but I’m just thinking out loud because it’s fun(tm)

Here’s the tl;dr of the section as parsed by me, an idiot: (straight canon) nobody really knows anything about Organoids. (HC) ...and that really seems, to me, to bug Dr. D. this is where I get the thought he more-or-less develops permanent side-eye for Organoids. not only because they’re disturbingly powerful and make no fucking sense to most, but because he also is unknowingly 50% Zoidian and having a Fucking Time understanding how he feels about this (straight canon) Nobody really knows anything about Hiltz. Like. Nothing. (HC) ...because Hiltz didn’t want anyone to know anything about him. Knowledge is power, etc, and he didn’t want anyone holding anything over him. The only person who knew anything of value was Prozen, and, well. HC soup indicates to me that there still is some old Republican data on Hiltz somewhere, but there’d be a lot of hoops to jump through before it could even have a chance of becoming useful. Because of that, it coming into play doesn’t seem terribly likely, esp. w/o Alteil. (+the history nerds are largely fixated on the Empire, which was better at record-keeping in general)

(straight canon) Ryss is also a Mystery, though they do strongly suspect she’s an Ancient Zoidian. (HC) ...which was beyond confirmed post-GF, especially per all of the interactions, discussions and relationships that are part of this HC. Namely she became close friends with Fiona, who unfortunately trusted Dr. D, and they all discussed/researched/looked into ruins together off and on. This setup is also why she and her family were being side-eyed hard by the Guardian Force after Raven died: the potential issues (read: threats) were well-understood. (straight canon) Ryss’s bugs are native wildlife that was thought to be extinct, and everyone felt intensely threatened by whatever the hell Ryss’s ??? capabilities with them were. Bugs’ functionality? Mystery. (HC) ...and they continued to be, because there’s no way in hell she ever shared anything about them with anyone outside of her family. I have HC about the bugs and whatnot but it’s not really important here other than “currently only Ryss and Albion know.” Dr. D was shook, and continues to be shook, by the mere thought of this fucking bullshit. He really kinda hopes Ryss is just NOT ALIVE, but he (correctly) suspects that’s not the case. (straight canon) Ambient’s powers are tl;dr’d as:

(hc) ...

really tho, lmfao. D thinks Ambient’s gone though, so.... yeah. related: *shakes the anime* WHY’S THE FUCKIN GENO BREAKER RED THO this sure is a weird hobby of mine.

#headcanon

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dangerousanddisquieting · 4 years

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Neil finding religion post-The King’s Men

This is probably the most self-indulgent headcanon I’ve ever posted (and that’s saying something.) tl;dr Neil finds religion after The King’s Men and converts to Judaism. Details under the cut (This is a part 1, part 2 is Andrew converting after exposure through Neil)

Once he gets settled when all the events of TKM are over, Neil realizes how much about the world he doesn’t know as a result of growing up constantly moving and pretty constrained to his mother’s worldview

One of those things is religion

He knows how much religion means to Renee (and Nicky who has reclaimed his religion to a degree) so he starts to do research to better connect with and understand them

He’s also looking into religion a bit for himself. In my head it’s a mix of a constant nagging in the back of his head that’s been around since he was a child that he never had time or security to explore and Stewart coming in moments before Nathan killed Neil. The chances of that are so low, Neil sometimes sits awake with a feeling deep in his heart that he was saved by the love of a higher power giving him a second chance

but when he’s researching our sweet boy has a big misunderstanding

he learns the general beliefs but also the mitzvot and thinks they are followed by all Christians

Nicky eats shrimp one day and Neil gives him a weird look

“What’s up Neil? Thinking up a dick joke?”

Neil explains that he thought Christians couldn’t eat shellfish

Nicky laughs a little and says “no, that’s a Jewish thing actually” and moves on

But Neil just... keeps thinking about that

He goes to a church service with Renee and likes it more than he thought he would but when she asks if he wants to come back again he politely declines, it didn’t really resonate with him

He ends up Googling “what do Jewish people believe” one night before bed and he’s up all night

He tells Andrew he’s looking at Exy but he’s just so enamored with this belief system

The mix of history and philosophy and spirituality,, the emphasis on making this world better for the sake of others and not for some divine reward after you’re dead,, the love of questioning and “wrestling with G-d,,” the oneness of G-d and His connection with each and every one of His people,,,,,

It fits so beautifully in Neil’s heart he can’t stop thinking about it for weeks

He hates that this is bugging him and distracting him during practice so he gets in touch with the campus Rabbi who asks to meet with him

Neil sits down with her and ends up having the most soul-bearing conversation he’s ever had with a non-Fox

He tears up a little but he would never admit it

She invites Neil to a service and he goes but when he puts on a yarmulke he has a panic attack and has to decompress and wait for the later service

The concept of a “man” above him watching him sets him off but he goes back without a kippa because he wants to see this through

Neil doesn’t know a word of Hebrew but finds himself swaying and humming along

He’s so confused (people are bowing? what do I say and what do I not say?) but he’s in the back so he’s not too self conscious

The boy next to him notices and slides him his siddur when he can tell Neil has lost the page

He follows along well enough and when the Rabbi asks him about it after he gets more excited and animated than he’s been in a while

The boy who was next to him joins the schmooze and Neil walks away with a beautiful warmth and feeling of community in his heart and emails the Rabbi the next day and says he wants to keep going

It’s the first time he’s felt like he’s belonged anywhere since he’s joined the Foxes

Similar feeling of community and unity but very different at the same time (he does secretly appreciate the fact that he found this community without violence or mafia ties though)

He doesn’t make a big announcement about it to the Foxes, it just naturally comes up little by little (esp once he has to miss practice for holiday observance)

They’re all super supportive and do research on their own to be sure they respect his beliefs

Nicky is very happy, but Renee is ECSTATIC

At first teaches Neil what she knows about general theology but doesn’t get into any sort of specifics so she doesn’t accidentally push Christian beliefs on him

Aside from that they don’t talk about it for a bit until Neil starts to learn more in-depth about Jewish theology and history

As he learns more, he and Renee start debating, little by little getting more heated as Neil builds his knowledge

It’s the most passionate the Foxes have ever seen Renee

At first the Foxes think that Neil and Renee hate each other now and they all dread having another inter-team rivalry

But nope!! Neil’s religion ends up as a way to connect to Renee and they start spending more time together off the court

Debating helps both of them find out more about their own beliefs and to be honest, it’s just something they both think is fun (neither of them are afraid to set boundaries if stuff goes too far though)

Wymack starts researching Judaism as soon as he finds out and works with Neil privately to make sure he wouldn’t miss anything on holidays when Neil won’t be at practice

“If you show up on my court because you feel like you ‘need to’ even though you would rather practice your literal RELIGION I will kick you off this team. I will sue myself before Rabbi Hannah can do it for me”

(He talks to the Rabbi about Neil at first but they end up being friends (: )

Wymack wrote all the holidays down on the calendar in his office and Neil is so touched by it

One of Neil’s favorite moments in his journey was the first time he felt comfortable wearing a yarmulke to shul

It took him a long time to reach a place where he felt comfortable enough with HaShem to wear one but it was a beautiful feeling

Instead of remembering his father when he puts it on, he thinks of people like Wymack and Andrew who watch him out of unconditional love, welcome, and grace

He doesn’t do everything perfectly of course, but Neil loves having something in his life that lets him find beauty and meaning in the world and the people in it

#if any of yall clown in the notes i will destroy you #dont try me #aftg #all for the game #tfc #the foxhole court #the kings men #nora sakavic #neil josten #headcanon #hc #aftg headcanon #aftg hc #tfc headcanon #tfc hc #jewish neil #jewish neil josten #jewish headcanon

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@jeremy_vinerbi on IG

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transfemgeorgecostanza · 4 years

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The Muppet Show

Favorite character Is it basic to say Kermit? I don’t know. He’s so earnest and good, I love that....

Second favorite character Piggy or Fozzie I guess, esp when paired with Kermit (see below)

Least favorite character Hmmmmmm of the main Muppets, so to speak... the Swedish chef? I appreciate silliness and he’s not, yknow, the worst invention on tv or whatever but I never found him that funny. Also in a way Dr Bunsen Honeydew. Leave Beaker alone!!!!

The character I’m most like Damned if I knew. I guess there’s a bit of all of them in me. Maybe Gonzo but I am not daring nor a great ladies’... thing. What character am I most like would YOU say?

Favorite pairing Gilda Radner and the 7ft tall carrot. .... okay well I’m cheating but obviously anything Henson/Oz... probably Fozzie/Kermit a biiiiit more than Piggy/Kermit,based on “Good grief, the comedian’s a bear” alone bc I can watch that over and over and over and over....

Least favorite pairing Waaaayne and Waaaann.... okay well I guess Muppet Labs basically, or the Swedish Chef with any of the guest stars on the current Muppet show thing lol. awful.

Favorite moment How can I possibly.... aside from the aforementioned “Good grief” and the Gilbert & Sullivan medley, there’s also Pigoletto. Since we’re not counting films, I won’t say “Rainbow Connection” or the “Ozean Breeze Soap” segment (Phil, I’m Bill, this is Gil.... Also whenever I write “hm” or “hmmmm” it is supposed to be read in the Muppet-Frogs-voice)... I think the Koozebanian Mating Ritual is everything that’s good about the Muppet Show (the noises Frank Oz and Jerry Nelson make... never stop being funny), except that it’s missing a song, hmmmmm. “In the Navy” is amazing. “Cottleston Pie” is charming, honest, touching. “Halfway Down the Stairs” heartbreakingly cute. In a way maybe it’s the “Jim’s Favourite Songs” segment of his memorial service.... it is just... ugh..... no words.

Rating out of 10 i think kermit would disapprove of a hyperbolic, scale-breaking number, so I’m gonna keep it simple. 10. Yeah. It deserves it.

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thisnerdsadventures · 4 years

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i graduated.

i graduated yesterday from MIT!! with a BS in computer science and engineering :) a few of my friends and i celebrated over zoom with my mom in the background as they played video after video on the commencement live stream while only taking 10 minutes to scroll through our names lmao. the ceremony was done and done after 12pm PST, and i spent the rest of the days watching suits.

cw: protests, police brutality

I wanted to spend a good amount of this post talking about how it feels to graduate and what I’ve learned over the past 4 years. I’m still going to do that, but I want to start with how I felt this morning, as I watched protest videos on Twitter and tapped through an endless stream of call to action posts on Instagram. In the hours around commencement, I didn’t feel as happy as I should’ve, probably because the world we are graduating into is an actual Hot mess. We should’ve graduated onto Killian Court, with the sun out and hope and optimism with the world smiling upon us, but instead we graduated at home, separated by a global pandemic that our country refuses to take seriously and surrounded by protests and anger and racism, sent out into a world where people refuse to take a virus that has killed over 100,000 people in the US seriously and where a white police officer can literally kill an unarmed black man on the streets in broad daylight and nothing will happen without an actual public uproar.

Frustrated, helpless, sad, angry are a few of the things I’m feeling. I feel frustrated because I know the community I grew up in and currently am in is a part of the problem. (For those of you who don’t know, I grew up in Orange County, California, which is surprisingly conservative for California, and has a lot of middle to upper class Asian and white people who are the types to denounce things like affirmative action, black lives matter, taxing the wealthy. Obviously not everyone here is like this, but actions like this make me remember why i wanted to leave :/ -- https://www.reddit.com/r/orangecounty/comments/gt7ift/oc_sheriff_department_raises_blue_lives_matters/) And I feel helpless because I don’t know how to help - if we were back on campus, we’d take the T out to Park St or even just walk there to Boston Common protesting, marching to City Hall, but we’re dispersed now, and not as many of us can drive out to the nearest big city protest, esp with COVID. So it begs the question of what we can do from our laptops, our homes?

Here’s some links that I’ve seen recently and have found really great:

Where you can donate, and where you can learn, a summary.

The Minnesota Freedom Fund is an organization that helps pay for immigration bonds and bails, but I think they’ve recently posted that they’ve gotten a lot of donations, and are now encouraging people to donate to other local organizations [x] and George Floyd’s family [x].

As an Asian-American, I recognize the privileges in society that we benefit from, and it’s our responsibility to stand up in solidarity now and actively fight anti-Blackness today. Here is an awesome Medium post I read yesterday, listing out some of the ways we can help -- https://medium.com/awaken-blog/20-allyship-actions-for-asians-to-show-up-for-the-black-community-right-now-464e5689cf3e

One thing that I’ve been thinking about lately is how much anti-blackness actually appears in our own families and communities - I know I’ve heard many many racist comments from the people around me, so now more than ever, it’s important to have these conversations and educate one another on how we can do better. Another thing I found really interesting was reading about where the model minority myth came from, why it exists, and the damage it does. NPR article. tl;dr educate one another, educate oneself

I also just stumbled upon this google doc that is so in depth, so if you want to read more about more actions you can take, look here -> [x]

welp. that’s all i can really say on that, or at least I think the links do a better job.

1) So going off of that, the first thing i guess i can say MIT did for me was instill a drive to action. I remember before college, I was mostly in this socal bubble, shit in the world definitely happened (ok maybe not global pandemic level) but we didn’t see its effects as much. When I moved to Boston and started meeting people from different backgrounds, that changed. These people here are so inspiring in the way that they don’t sit around or mope or ignore the problem, they choose to do something about it, whether its a pset, the next MIT admin shitshow, or COVID. They go up and beyond what’s expected for them to make the world the better place, and I think that’s something i learned to do a bit of.

2) Another thing I learned was to forgive myself - we all have to forgive ourselves for being less perfect and for whatever dumb stuff we’ve done in the past. Like you might not even realize it’s happening to you, but taking stuff out on yourself way harder than you should might be a product of you just being angry at yourself for mistakes in the past. Everyone wants to be perfect, that’s just a product of who we are as people, a product of the environment we’re in. But the sooner we forgive ourselves for not being perfect, the faster we can move to growing and being better.

3) We are all pretty valuable people. It angers me to no end when people settle for less than they should, whether it's out of fear that something else might not come along, or they just don’t know their own self-worth. A big example of that is how often people will accept lowball offers and fail to negotiate salaries at all. And it drives me up the wall that it happens to people I know and love because it makes me wonder if they can see how much they really are worth. So much of our time at MIT is spent just wondering if we’re enough. But once you leave the MIT bubble, you realize how open you options are, and that maybe we should spend more of our time advocating for ourselves and believing in our own worth than letting people define that for us.

4 and 5) i learned that moving too quick to label people as completely good or completely bad never ends well. Same goes for companies, organizations, issues, everything. This was a hard lesson to learn, I had to learn it, relearn it, unlearn it, learn it again, and I made mistakes after mistakes after mistakes. When confronted with a bit of bad, I closed my doors, thinking I had all the good in the world I needed. But what I really needed was perspective. That maybe there was some x, y, and z, and those were bad, but there was also a, b, c, d, f, g and those were all so, so good. I can get pretty angry in the moment - I did this again just the other day, when I was projecting my anger towards someone to the whole two year relationship. But this time, I had another friend watching my situation on a balcony three floors up who heard and listened to all the good they had done for me and reminded me about it. This is why its points 4 and 5, that its also so important to have friends around that will listen to you, not just during the bad, but also the good, so they can tell you when you’re being irrational and to really be there for you when you dont even know you need someone to be there.

6) one of the things i learned the hard way was how to know when someone is your friend, and how to know when friends truly have your back. something that my experiences have shown me (and 11.011, ngl) is that when it seems like someone has your back, they might not, and when they have to choose sides, they may very well not choose yours. But here’s the thing I have learned: when faced with that, good close friends do not leave. They show up. Do friends fight? hell yeah. and they apologize and grow from it. They confide in you and answer your call at 1am. They know you better than you know yourself, so when you start losing sight of your true self, they remind you. There is no condition to your friendship, no prereq. When a crisis happens like COVID, they show up, they help you pack, they calm you down when you’re panicking, and if they’re not there in person, they reach out, they ask how you’re doing, and they offer support. When you graduate, they send you surprise gifts or join your zoom party or at the very least, remember the date and text you congratulations. Turns out, good, real friends are hard to find in this world, but it’s important to remember to not give up on finding them. it might take a couple years longer than you had thought it would for finding friends in college, but that’s ok. someone once told me that although the journey was hard, it led me to this point, and that that’s what made it worth the struggle.

So yeah, graduating was a lot to deal with. I’ll be back in the fall for my masters and im starting my internship in 2 weeks, so there will still definitely be updates on this nerd’s adventure!

#MIT #college #reflection #appblr #m

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milquetoastboy · 4 years

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|| hewwo im sorry writing juice has been at 0% for several days buuuuut i’m gonna kick my own ass to push some stuff out tomorrow bc i have ideas and muse im just struggling with. words.

for the next couple weeks, tho, im gonna keep things a little more selective just to take care of my own brain and then we can reopen the floodgates!

more details/dumb personal stuff under the cut

getting all my brain meds changed around and adjusted and added is like,,, exhausting and makes sitting down to write So Hard, esp bc we’re rly effectively covering now everything But the adhd and that’s So Frustrating bc that’s rly the one i Don’t know how to cope with very well and actually need that like Helped but either way, it’s been just fuckin. scrambling my brain to adjust and add brain meds, esp with working full time eating up a lot of my Pretend To Be Totally Chill juice

so mostly i’ve been playing a lot of pokemon and dr bc they’re the only things my brain will let me focus on sO,,

i Miss writing and akira has been Yelling at me for attention so!!! i want to get back on top of my game, esp while i work on moving all my side muses onto a multimuse!! i have fun plans and im EXCITED about writing i just gotta get there, getting words down has been So Hard and getting drawings out has been So Hard so im getting pent up energy that needs creative outlet but can’t get it out and im d y i n g so like,,, pls pls talk to me about hc’s and aus and ideas! low pressure creative jamming i think will Help idk but ;w;

THE POINT HERE BEING im struggle bussing but i’m hoping to get off soon and get back to my regularly scheduled disaster boy hours!!!! pls hit me up on discord or ims in the mean time im still here just. in the bg

#;ooc #trying to shift everything around to take better care of myself hhhh

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Le président et l'ex-chef de l'État s'épargnent mutuellement en public et se parlent régulièrement en privé.

«Sarkozy, c'est comme Johnny! C'est une star», s'amuse Matignon. Voir Sarkozy, c'est comme aller voir «la tour Eiffel», selon l'expression même de l'intéressé. Car l'ancien président fait désormais partie des circuits obligés de tout responsable politique, qu'il soit membre des Républicains ou d'En marche!. Jusqu'au sommet de l'État.

Comme l'avait raconté Le Figaro, Emmanuel Macron avait mis un point d'honneur à recevoir Nicolas Sarkozy et son épouse à l'Élysée dès juillet 2017, trois mois seulement après avoir été élu. Manière de faire le contraire de François Hollande, qui n'avait même pas cru bon de raccompagner son prédécesseur sur le perron du Palais cinq ans plus tôt. Une grossièreté que l'ancien président n'a jamais digérée. Un manque de courtoisie républicaine que le secrétaire général adjoint de l'Élysée - un certain Emmanuel Macron - avait pu observer de près. Pas question, donc, de reproduire cette erreur.

«Dès le début, il a été très habile en montrant de la considération pour Nicolas Sarkozy. Il s'est senti flatté», reconnaît un intime de l'ancien président. Coup de fil après le décès d'Andrée Sarkozy, sa mère qu'il aimait tant ; convoi policier pour le cortège funéraire ; messages passés aux préfets pour recevoir avec les honneurs l'ancien président en cas de déplacement sur le territoire ; mots diffusés aux ambassades à l'étranger pour faciliter ses déplacements… Tout est fait pour soigner Nicolas Sarkozy. Jusqu'à l'envoyer représenter la France en Géorgiepour la cérémonie d'investiture de la nouvelle présidente la semaine dernière.

«Nicolas Sarkozy ne servait plus à rien sous François Hollande. Là, il se sent utile et il a le sentiment d'exister»

«Lui, au moins, il est bien élevé», a glissé plusieurs fois Nicolas Sarkozy en évoquant Emmanuel Macron. Comme pour mieux souligner que François Hollande ne l'était pas. «Nicolas Sarkozy ne servait plus à rien sous François Hollande. Là, il se sent utile et il a le sentiment d'exister», glisse un proche conseiller d'Emmanuel Macron.

Et pour cause, chaque interlocuteur macroniste de Nicolas Sarkozy se plie en quatre pour soigner son accueil. Cela a été le cas de Gérard Collomb, qui, six mois après avoir été nommé ministre de l'Intérieur, a tenu à recevoir son lointain prédécesseur à Beauvau pour un repas en tête à tête. Ou de Richard Ferrand. Le président de l'Assemblée nationale a déroulé le tapis rouge et posté deux gardes républicains à l'entrée de l'hôtel de Lassay pour déjeuner avec l'ancien chef de l'État la semaine dernière. Le ministre de l'Intérieur, Christophe Castaner, et le numéro 2 de La République en marche, Pierre Person, espèrent quant à eux voir l'ancien président en 2019.

Mais Nicolas Sarkozy n'est pas toujours l'hôte des agapes: il lui arrive aussi de recevoir. Le porte-parole du gouvernement, Benjamin Griveaux, ou encore le premier questeur de l'Assemblée nationale, Florian Bachelier, ont été conviés à la table de l'ancien président, rue de Miromesnil à Paris. La plupart du temps, ces rendez-vous s'improvisent au détour d'une discussion, souvent en marge de cérémonies officielles - la finale de la Coupe de France 2017 pour Benjamin Griveaux, le centenaire de l'armistice du 11 Novembre pour Richard Ferrand…

«Qu'est-ce qu'on se marre quand on est avec lui! Nicolas Sarkozy est extrêmement drôle. Surtout quand il dit des vacheries sur la terre entière», lâche l'un des heureux convives, tombé sous le charme du personnage. Quand il laisse la politique de côté, Nicolas Sarkozy parle de foot. Et surtout du Paris Saint-Germain, le club qu'il supporte depuis toujours. «Je vous invite au Parc des Princes si vous voulez», lui arrive-t-il même de proposer, quand il a apprécié la rencontre.

«Nicolas Sarkozy ne parle pas souvent, mais il est assez écouté et entendu quand il le fait»

«Emmanuel Macron et lui ont tous les deux une capacité de séduction inégalable», abonde un proche de l'actuel président. «Ils se ressemblent… Dans les défauts comme dans les qualités. Ils ont la même énergie, la même pugnacité et la même volonté de lutter contre le système. Mais ils ont aussi le même empressement et le même entêtement», détaille un historique de la campagne d'Emmanuel Macron.

«Je crois qu'il y a un respect qui se teinte d'une certaine admiration pour l'élection d'Emmanuel Macron, qui a bousculé l'ordre et a fait perdre François Hollande», résume de son côté un sarkozyste pour expliquer le rapprochement entre les deux hommes. «Nicolas Sarkozy ne parle pas souvent, mais il est assez écouté et entendu quand il le fait. Or il ne s'est jamais exprimé pour abîmer la politique du président. C'est une neutralité bienveillante qui nous convient assez bien», admet un proche d'Emmanuel Macron. De quoi d'ailleurs susciter l'interrogation des militants LR, voire l'agacement de certains élus de droite…

Les deux présidents, qui s'épargnent en public, se parlent régulièrement en privé. Ils ont d'ailleurs discrètement déjeuné en tête à tête à l'Élysée au début du mois de décembre, alors que la crise des «gilets jaunes» venait d'atteindre un pic de violence. C'était le 7 décembre.

Ensemble, ils abordent la question du maintien de l'ordre public - une inquiétude de l'ancien chef de l'État - et le retour aux heures défiscalisées -, une des mesures phares de son quinquennat, dont Emmanuel Macron annoncera le rétablissement quelques jours plus tard…

Les deux hommes évoquent aussi la question européenne. Pour Nicolas Sarkozy, le clivage dessiné par Emmanuel Macron en Europe n'est pas le plus pertinent. «Il n'y a pas des populistes d'un côté et des gens raisonnables de l'autre», juge-t-il. «Les gens veulent une autre Europe, il faut l'entendre», indique encore Nicolas Sarkozy. «J'ai proposé au président Macron, et j'espère le convaincre, de mettre sur la table un nouveau traité européen», explique-t-il la semaine dernière, lors d'une conférence à Montpellier.

Malgré cette proximité, Nicolas Sarkozy ne revendique pas pour autant un rôle de conseiller d'Emmanuel Macron

Malgré cette proximité, Nicolas Sarkozy ne revendique pas pour autant un rôle de conseiller d'Emmanuel Macron. Ni même de visiteur du soir… Il serait plutôt un «parrain», selon son épouse. «Le nouveau gouvernement et le nouveau président sont proches de mon mari, ils lui demandent des conseils comme on le fait à des parrains», avait déclaré dès novembre 2017 Carla Bruni-Sarkozy dans une interview au Corriere della Sera. «Pour Macron, c'est assez génial d'avoir un président qui a vécu des choses difficiles et avec qui il peut échanger», confie un ministre. «C'est un peu un retour d'expérience. Et Nicolas Sarkozy est très correct. Bien plus que François Hollande», ajoute-t-il.

Face à la crise des «gilets jaunes», le regard de l'ancien président a d'ailleurs été apprécié par ses interlocuteurs du «nouveau monde». «Il souligne qu'il faut prendre en compte l'avis des Français avant d'appliquer certaines mesures», explique l'un d'entre eux.

Pour étayer son propos, Nicolas Sarkozy n'hésite pas à revenir sur le plan de relance de 25 milliards d'euros, qu'il a défendu «contre vents et marées et contre les esprits orthodoxes» en 2008, ainsi que sur la réforme des retraites, qu'il a refusé de durcir malgré les exigences de «François Fillon qui voulait aller plus loin». Une sorte de «en même temps» avant l'heure. «Il estime qu'il faut de l'audace et que la politique doit imposer ses vues, mais toujours dans la limite de “l'acceptabilité sociale”», selon son expression.

Depuis le départ, Nicolas Sarkozy scrute en «observateur attentif» la «grande inconnue» que son jeune successeur incarne. «Un président devrait dormir», répète souvent Nicolas Sarkozy en s'étonnant du fonctionnement d'Emmanuel Macron et des SMS envoyés à toute heure. Ces derniers mois, son inquiétude a grandi. «Il ne s'adresse qu'à la France qui gagne, pas à celle qui perd», expliquait l'ex-chef de l'État en petit comité, marqué par la «déconnexion» du président.

Derrière les bonnes manières et les échanges d'amabilités, les deux présidents trouvent chacun leur intérêt dans cette relation spéciale

Au début du quinquennat, Nicolas Sarkozy lui laissait pourtant le bénéfice du doute. «Ça ne peut pas marcher… Mais si ça marche, c'est un génie et il faudra s'incliner», affirmait-il. Ces derniers mois, la tonalité s'est faite tout autre: «Tout ça va mal finir.»

À ses yeux, Emmanuel Macron est trop seul. «C'est qui son entourage?», interroge-t-il souvent. À l'exception du secrétaire général de l'Élysée, Alexis Kohler, avec qui il s'entend bien, il n'identifie aucun des autres conseillers. Il est d'ailleurs frappé qu'Emmanuel Macron soit «entouré de gens inexpérimentés».

Derrière les bonnes manières et les échanges d'amabilités, les deux présidents trouvent chacun leur intérêt dans cette relation spéciale qu'ils entretiennent. Pour Emmanuel Macron, la démarche est extrêmement politique.

Depuis la campagne présidentielle, le fondateur d'En marche! n'a qu'une seule obsession: fracturer le paysage politique et affaiblir encore un peu plus la droite. «Nicolas Sarkozy est une condition sine qua non de la non-reconstruction de la droite. Son ombre tutélaire persistante empêche la réorganisation des Républicains. Si Laurent Wauquiez ne parvient pas à s'imposer, c'est parce que Nicolas Sarkozy reste présent et apparaît comme une hypothèse permanente. En cela, il est un allié de circonstance pour nous», se réjouit un membre du premier cercle d'Emmanuel Macron.

Malin plaisir

C'est d'ailleurs cette stratégie qui a conduit l'exécutif à tenter de débaucher - en vain - le très sarkozyste Frédéric Péchenard pour intégrer le ministère de l'Intérieur lors du dernier remaniement.

S'il assure de son côté n'avoir «aucune envie» de revenir, l'ancien chef de l'État voit dans la situation actuelle l'occasion de reprendre une place centrale dans la vie politique française, avec des soutiens aux LR comme à En marche!. «Ça l'amuse que ceux qui n'avaient que mépris pour l'ancien monde aillent à Canossa, décrypte un très proche. Il y prend un malin plaisir. C'est une revanche. En creux, le soutien à Emmanuel Macron, c'est aussi une démonstration que c'est un amateur.» Car Nicolas Sarkozy a toujours considéré que «la politique, (c'était) un métier» et que «l'expérience ne nuit pas». Manière de souligner en creux la sienne. Si jamais…

«Ils me disent tous: “On veut faire comme vous”», s'amuse Nicolas Sarkozy en évoquant les macronistes qui le croisent lors des cérémonies officielles. Manifestement pas mécontent d'être à la croisée des chemins entre l'«ancien monde» et le «nouveau».

#emmanuel macron #nicolas sarkozy #france #lr #les républicains

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