#giving myself a pep talk

[lovethisfat37]

Do not get excited about this guy just bc he's a DM and likes your mothman patch. He will stop talking to you after a day just like the rest of them. Enjoy the conversation for what it is and let it go.

[greenleaf1316]

Last night while in bed, I had the realisation that I had only posted three one-shots since December 2019, even though I’ve been writing a lot since then. I think there was something in me that had stopped me from posting anything—a mix of pandemic stress, loneliness, and my usual sense of insecurity towards my writing.

But I've decided that nothing's going to happen if I keep putting it off, so I've decided to post my first story of 2022 tonight (my time).

I'm trying not to feel anxious about it, but I do feel uneasy for a myriad of reasons.

It’s not Sterek, which is usually my go-to pairing when writing or posting anything. Even at my worst, it’s the one pairing I’ve always been confident in.

I’ll be posting a Marvel Stony fic, which is a pairing and a fandom I find intimidating. I’ve written for them before, but I had never felt particularly connected to those old stories.

It’s a multi-chapered fic of sorts. It’s got stand-alone chapters, but it still adds to the stress of feeling obligated to write more.

I'm not sure how my writing style stands now compared to before. It’d be awful to think I got worse.

But I’m really, really excited too.

I’ll get to post something new after so long. It would be a lie to say that I don’t mind if people don’t read it, but it’s exciting to think that someone might read it and like it. Maybe even comment on it, if I’m lucky.

I find Stony intimidating, but I like the slice-of-life story I’ve written. I’ve also fashioned it in a way that each chapter is its own story, so it’s not like I’ll leave readers hanging.

I feel like if I put something out there, it’ll encourage me to write more and post more. There are a lot of old projects I want to get back to (including my somewhat infamous courting fic), so maybe this will push me to be more active.

I’m not a particularly good writer, but I probably couldn’t get any worse, right?

So this is me giving myself a pep talk, and if I post this on my tumblr now, then I definitely won’t be able to back out. I can do this.

Good luck to me. ฅʕᵔᴥᵔ ʔฅ

[chimeofthecomet]

A little something for a fic i love, and a scene that hasn’t left my head @pigeonwit p.s. everybody get in here

[cienie-isengardu]

Mortal Kombat 1 Behind the Scenes AU: Show off!

[Cage’s Mansion] [Waiting for Liu Kang] [Special Bonus] [Grandmaster’s commentary] [Climbing scene] [Madam Bo’s Inn] [Cage’s Mansion 2 (fire extinguisher)] [Medic] [Shang Tsung’s sad face] [Smoke’s Fall] [Scenography (1)] [Scenography (2)]

[happyheidi]

Dr Heidi,

A secret, you say?

No one knows me entirely. I hide my political beliefs from this person, religious beliefs from that person, a prominent hobby from that person. These people are all the closest people in my life to me, and I keep something from all of them. Sometimes I tell myself it's to keep the peace. Or keep them from bothering me. But really I think it's because I'm scared. I had to hide myself when I was younger and in some ways I've never stopped. I've been working on it. I've quit lying so much, and I keep fewer secrets. But I do keep them.

How do you face the mortifying ordeal of being known? How do I become brave enough go share my truths with people I claim to love? (That I do love) (But selfishly. They confide their truths to me and I pretend I'm telling them all of mine in return) (how long until one of them discovers a truth? It's been years. My mother has known me my whole life. My best friend, over a decade. Others, several years) (how do I fess up my secrets?)

Damn this is almost like reading an ask from myself. I keep lots to myself. I don’t usually share things either. I keep way too much in, so I’m kinda asking the same thing as you. BUT I see no harm in keeping certain things from others but hmm..

it’s tricky… cus when u share, u bare. and that is scary. you wouldn’t want to be judged by who you actually are, so why allow yourself to be judged at all? I totally understand it. One has to be brave to be seen like that. If that makes sense? So you’re careful as to what u put out there to potentially be “judged” but not the innermost YOU.

You can try with smaller truths. Spread them out with your family and friends and see how they react (don’t go with the politic at first cus that’s the toughest thing and what brings most arguments etc) but small things u share that’s really TRUE to you. Then more and more over time. I think it’s important to keep something to yourself tho! Don’t think this helped so much but it’s good to just get things of ur chest! Hope u start sharing a little bit this year. ❤️

It’s so interesting how so many of these asks are relatable to (I’ve started answering many but ended up saving them to drafts; so sorry if I haven’t answered yours but I relate so damn much to so many of you !!)

[missscifisunshine]

☀️ a little sunlight on this cold morning ☀️

[mobgunkoalter]

for sad reasons (late-stage capitalism and the absurdities of daily life) i have a shitty job (actual hell) that keeps me from joining in outlastober and i can only draw crappy memes this month (yelling into the void)

[exilethegame]

you are making me so AFRAID, Pheo........

g o o d

[toxoplasmewsis]

[peachsukii]

A particular snippet in Hollow Heart that I'm proud of. Chapter 5's gonna be a doozy.

[tenderperversion]

the thing is. i feel like EVERYONE is in deep shit right now no matter what they studied, ive talked to med students and law students and. well. maybe this is an eastern europe thing but they arent getting paid much more than people with different degrees. lol. basically the only people who live in complete luxury right now are like, people who work in marketing and finance and IT but lets be real most of them are not ensouled. capitalism is slowly but surely destroying everyone except for people who are helping keep it alive and all im saying is that it cant go on like this forever, the centre cannot hold, things will have to change eventually. and until then we might all just do whatever we want forever. 🙏

[actual-changeling]

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[pig-wings]

going to a solstice market alone

[sunshinediaz]

december took it out of me because i don't have anything worthwhile to share for any tag games and i'm upset about it but i'm also forcing myself to be okay with it because i wrote so much and it's okay to take a break!!! it's OKAY to calm down for a second!!!

[conanssummerchild]

being alive is soooo embarrasing like oh no i cant handle loud noises like everyone else can oh nooo

[mitochondriencocktail]

plunking away at chap 6 of starbojan and lemme tell y'all, sometimes you're just going to really struggle to put words on the page! nothing feels poetic, all the words appear disjointed, the metaphors are clunky and cliched. your headspace just isn't there. but we keep going. one word at a time.

some days you'll be so inspired and productive on that page and others, it's just laying the groundwork for future you to come back and go, "oh! this isn't that bad actually. it just needs a little tender love and care."

consistency is key though 💪